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I'll just hang out alone, it's no big deal.

I know that's not fair, but I just feel like as soon as I need someone, everyone disappears. I wish Bryan was here. I wish he wasn't 5 hours away. It's so much easier to handle when he is beside me, but right now I just feel like I am drowning.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/27621466/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/27621466/ Tue, 06 Oct 2009 18:30:33 PDT
I love you and I hate every second that goes by that doesn't have you in it.

In other life domains, school is boring and I am not sure what to do about that. Changing faculties again just seems like a helluva lot of time and effort.

Time is dragging pretty badly. I should be studying, but I can't focus even a little. My brain is all over the place and I can't get it (or myself) to sit still.

I need a...target, or something. I don't know. I am still lost and I still don't know what to do.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/26895026/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/26895026/ Sat, 29 Aug 2009 12:12:41 PDT
So I will busy myself with packing and cleaning and preparing for school, and I will pretend that it's not going to devastate me to watch you go.

You'll be back, though. That much I am sure of.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/26559697/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/26559697/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 23:54:42 PDT
<3

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You are incredible and I wouldn't give this up, even if it has to end. It's not ideal, but I will take what I can get.

<3

If it's all right with you, I'd like to keep you...

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/25526383/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/25526383/ Wed, 24 Jun 2009 20:36:33 PDT
I have been running with Carly. So far we have gone twice this week and are planning on going again tomorrow. Yesterday was a very hard run day. I couldn't seem to find the energy for it anywhere inside of me, no matter how deep I dug. So it was ten minutes shorter than usual and I didn't run the stairs. But today was an amazing run. Much easier. We ran faster than we usually do and we ran the entire flight of stairs rather than the half the we usually do. I felt great rather than exhausted right to the bone. Absolutely wonderful. I love it when I can tell that I am improving in something. The runs make me feel great. Strong and capable and happy.

I think my tonsilitis is finally 100% gone. Today is the first day in about two weeks that I have had no sign of a sore throat. Not even a twinge. SO WONDERFUL, I can't even explain. It's such a relief to actually feel healthy again. I have some color in my cheeks from being out in the sun a little more often, I had lunch with a great guy named Kyle (although I am trying to keep my head when it comes to that one, it would be so easy to go a little - or a lot - crazy over him) and things seem to be getting a little better.

Thank God.

I knew that with Jesse gone, I would be able to put myself back together a little.

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I went for blood tests and have to go back to the doctor on Friday. This puts a kink in my plans.

/not impressed


Everything hurts and it's such a giant effort to even sit up straight. I wish my boy was the kind that I could call who would come over here and pick me up and take me back home with him so I could have someone to hold me while I fell asleep.

Things could be worse, this is true, but that doesn't mean that they don't still fucking SUCK.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/25226744/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/25226744/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 22:40:17 PDT
In other news, I am MISERABLE right now because I have all of a sudden fallen into the deep, deep chasm that is "sickness". I have been hovering for a while now, swollen lymph nodes, a sporadic sore throat, a mind-blowing migraine the other day...and then, as I was watching Game 6 of the Stanley Cup Final tonight, all of a sudden WHAM! I fell asleep on the couch and missed most of the third period. Now I am laying in bed, not sleeping because my entire body is aching so horribly that I cannot even get comfortable in my own skin, let alone in any particular position.

I am thinking that I will have to go to the doctor. Fuck off, my birthay is in four days. If I am sick for my party, I will be EXCEPTIONALLY displeased.

Anyway.

I needed to complain. Because right now SUCKS in all kinds of ways. Blah.

Plus my room smells weird and I can't decide if that's the room or the angel food cake that Kirsten burnt two floors down in the kitchen...

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/25097856/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/25097856/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 21:39:49 PDT - Death Cab for Cutie, "Photobooth"


It really is time to move on. I've been clinging, in the desperate hope that things will just miraculously change and go my way, but they won't.

I have to be done. I can't sleep with him anymore, I can't cuddle with him, I have to distance myself completely. Maybe we can be friends. Maybe. Maybe later? But right now...right now, I just need to be over him.

It's not fair to me or to him or to Dan, for that matter. This is all so ridiculous and I deserve so much better and I can't keep ripping myself to pieces and expecting that to be okay. It's not. At all.

So. This is me officially starting to get over him.

Good luck to me?

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/24915593/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/24915593/ Sat, 23 May 2009 22:23:54 PDT
...That's it.

????

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I oscillate so much on this, I can't even decide what I should do.

I don't know what I want to do.

I don't want to fight it anymore.

I don't want to force it either.

I just...I know your patterns, dear, and even though I knew this was coming because I know the way you operate, it still kind of stung.

And it's classless to talk about other girls in front of me.

Also? "I have a favorite body type" is the most shallow thing I have ever heard anyone say.

And I still want you and you are still the only thing I see and how am I supposed to just get over it when I don't even see the rest of the fucking world???

And WHY do I feel so SICK? Why am I so nauseated? This is the third time I have wanted to throw up today. STOP, body, WHY do you hate me?

I am so all over the place, I can't even think.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/24792921/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/24792921/ Sat, 16 May 2009 19:21:19 PDT
I am in the mountains right now, and it is so wonderful and relaxing.

I hurt my knee playing baseball with my little sister but I guess that's okay.

I have two new/old boy prospects and that is exciting. This should prove to be an interesting summer.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/24627415/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/24627415/ Wed, 06 May 2009 22:26:04 PDT
I thought angst was supposed to help me with my writing process? It used to.

Now I am just a fail at everything, apparently.

The poetry that I am writing is just horrible and emo and unreadable.

I just LOVE getting nowhere.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/24413286/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/24413286/ Fri, 24 Apr 2009 15:43:58 PDT
But you're killing me.

So please, make your decision soon.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/23369450/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/23369450/ Mon, 23 Feb 2009 18:14:10 PST These things rarely turn out well for me.
Fingers crossed?

PS. Two new poems! And another one in the works, just gotta tidy up the ending. Yay me?

PPS. I should be studying for Biopsych...

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/22877312/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/22877312/ Thu, 29 Jan 2009 00:08:13 PST
Starting over, not expecting perfection from myself, just hard work and honest effort, the best I've got, all I have to give, and it will be enough.

I will write, regularly, about whatever, even when I think it's crap. I will write because I can and because if I don't use it, then what's the use of talent? I will study because I am smart and because I deserve and want to be at university. I will tell people when they upset me and rationally explain to them why I feel the way I do. Open communication and all that jazz.

I updated today. First time in almost three months, I think. I'm feeling pretty proud.

My life is not perfect and never will be perfect and the wallowing has to stop now or I'll never snap out of it.

Things that Made Me Happy Today:
1. Lunch with Mallory. Because I love her.
2. The epic amounts of Guitar Hero I played.
3. Finding out that the cute guy in my Psych class is named James.
4. Ice cream at Dairy Queen with Kirsten, Shandi, Cheryl and Skyler.
5. All of the support I got from people when they heard about my decision.
6. Talking to my mom for more than an hour, even though we got into a fight.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/22241598/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/22241598/ Sun, 28 Dec 2008 11:31:57 PST
It's snowing. The thing about winter is that once Christmas is over, I'm done with it. I have no tolerance for cold or snow or any of that nonsense once Christmas has come and gone. Unfortunately, however, Mother Nature doesn't care and winter tends to stick around for months and months and months on end.

I'll never forget the time it snowed in August. *shudder*

Things are bad. Things themselves aren't bad, per se, but I can't pull myself out of this funk and it is all too familiar. Tara told me she's a great believer in counselling, which would make sense. I should go. I'm just so scared to. How do you open up to a perfect stranger about things that you won't talk about with the people you truly love? I don't know.

I don't want to go home. I have been avoiding my house like the plague. I really hate living there. But I have to go home today because I work for the rest of the week. Grand. I can't even explain how bitter I am about that.

I need to shower. I have to drive home today in the snow and that severely blows. I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate winter driving. It freaks me right the fuck out. I have only been driving for two years and I have already had two winter driving incidents. Like, fuck off.

Anyway. I'm going to get clean. Be lazy for a bit longer before heading home to make sense out of the chaos that is my room.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/21689869/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/21689869/ Wed, 26 Nov 2008 22:30:10 PST
Finals are stressing me out. Hardcore. Boo.

PS. I loved Twilight. Le sigh.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20697028/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20697028/ Sat, 27 Sep 2008 00:13:10 PDT
A long weekend of studying ahead of me. If I ever even bring myself to do it. I have been ridiculous about schoolwork lately.

But I am exhausted and Saturday is a big day, so I am going to go to sleep.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20655902/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20655902/ Wed, 24 Sep 2008 17:07:31 PDT
I am making an appointment with a therapist. I think that I need some serious help. I have been depressed for a very long time and never done a thing about it and I think it's time. I can't exist like this much longer.

Kate Voegele's version of Hallelujah is totally one of my favorite songs right now. I adore the Jeff Buckley version too but this one is just speaking to me.

I need to write some more. Even if it is crap. Something has to come of all of this lovely ( ) angst.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20514663/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20514663/ Mon, 15 Sep 2008 23:14:40 PDT
<3

Ugh and I am STILL reading The Gargoyle. It is taking me a millennium and a half to get through this book and it's really starting to get on my nerves! I never read this slowly. Ever.

And I still need to get caught up on my Psych and EAS readings.

Good God what am I doing on the computer, I should be locked in the library somewhere, studying until my brains fall out.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20384502/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20384502/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 00:08:47 PDT
It's motivational.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20328518/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20328518/ Thu, 04 Sep 2008 17:16:47 PDT
I started my job today. 7.5 hours in a day care. It was brilliant. The kids seemed to really like me, so that was good. I'm really looking forward to working there. There are a few things I have to do (apply for day care certification, get a police check, etc) but that shouldn't take much. Although the police check is going to cost me, for Christ's sake. As if I don't have enough things to pay for.

I am also thinking of getting a job at the bank just for Saturdays. There's no way that I can make enough money working just at the day care. Not even remotely possible.

Anyway. I'm exhausted and hungry but there are contractors here and so I have locked myself in my room (literally) and should probably get around to actually unpacking everything. I still have shit EVERYWHERE and there is a box of books in my car that I picked up from my dad's last night. I'll have to find somewhere to put all that too...

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Haven't been working on much lately, I've had a very lazy week. Mostly sleeping and partying. Actually, mostly sleeping. Hopefully I'll get some of my oomph back once school starts, and my brain starts working again. Currently it feels like my brain is liquifying and dribbling out my ears.



]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20175441/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20175441/ Tue, 26 Aug 2008 21:32:09 PDT
I wish it was Monday, so I could get moved in, and then we could skip to Wednesday, so I could just get started with school already. I bought all of my textbooks today, and I am a huge nerd so I will probably start reading them soon. My textbooks are so interesting. Too bad my psych one's not in yet. Psych textbooks are my favorite.

I can't wait to see everyone. I can't wait to have an actual social life, and interact with ACTUAL people. What a bizarre concept.

I need to get a new notebook. My current one is almost full, and I can't have that! Need room for new stuff.

PS. I am pretty much DONE with having all my shit in my car. It just flies around whenever I turn corners or brake too fast. And then people look at me funny and I swear at them. Haha. UGH.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20093420/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20093420/ Fri, 22 Aug 2008 10:07:02 PDT
So it seems really pointless to post stuff when I never get any comments! That was the whole point of starting my dA account up again...to get feedback.

I guess I'll have to start looking around more often at other people's stuff, commenting and critiquing. Maybe that will get others coming to my stuff?

Hopefully I'll have something new soon. I've been really busy with work, packing and cleaning so I haven't had time for any creative bouts lately but I should have some free time starting this weekend.

School starts soon. I am beyond excited. I am a natural-born geek.

PS. Michael Phelps is a beast. Most decorated Olympian of all time? You can't tell me you wouldn't tap that.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20071065/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20071065/ Thu, 21 Aug 2008 02:46:26 PDT
You have no idea what this feels like. RLS. Restless leg syndrome. Though it affects my legs primarily, it eats through the rest of my body sometimes too: arms, neck, fingers, back. I cannot lie still and I cannot fall asleep.

This is the worst it's been in a long time. Perhaps it IS triggered (at least partially) by anxiety...

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20054885/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20054885/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 07:10:10 PDT
On a brighter note, I have a new piece up! Autumn Hearts. Everyone should check it out, advanced critique is always much appreciated.

And now I have to go off to my job, where I will spend a LOVELY day stuffing envelopes for a mail-out.

YAY.

T minus 3 days.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20012846/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/20012846/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 21:47:44 PDT
T - 6 days. THANK GOD for that.

I am too tired to do much of anything tonight. I got no editing done this weekend, but I am planning to do that tomorrow, so hopefully I'll have my new piece up tomorrow or Tuesday. I also have so much packing and cleaning to do. Moving sucks. But it's also AWESOME.

*does a dance*

PS. Driving back here SUCKED today. Intense storms the whole way, I kept cringing over my steering wheel, I thought I was going to be struck by lightning!!

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19949507/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19949507/ Thu, 14 Aug 2008 09:27:50 PDT

Have patience with me, lovelies.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19934829/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19934829/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 13:12:45 PDT
I feel like this was her advice just for me:
"...when you finally start to write something, do not let yourself stop…even when you are convinced it’s the worst garbage ever. This is the biggest caveat for beginning writers. Instead, force yourself to finish what you began, and THEN go back and edit it. If you keep scrapping your beginnings, however, you’ll never know if you can reach an end." - from her website, [link]

Thank you, Jodi, you're the best.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19913601/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19913601/ Tue, 12 Aug 2008 10:17:26 PDT
I am applying for late admission to a creative writing course at my uni. Hopefully I'll get in. It's a slim chance, though, this late in the game. Might as well give it a go, though, right? If I don't get in this year, I still have three more years of school after, so I'll just keep trying until I do.

Work is so boring.

PS. I am working more on the novel I am writing. Yay, me. Mostly I'm amazed that I've stuck with it this long, I've been writing since February!

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19887934/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19887934/ Sun, 10 Aug 2008 22:52:28 PDT
I wish I knew how to make myself happy.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19881929/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19881929/ Sun, 10 Aug 2008 16:07:15 PDT
Ironic.

New poem today. I wrote a poem last night for the first time in years and it made me remember how much I love that particular medium. I don't think I'm quite as adept at it as I am with prose, but I still love to experiment with it.

I've also come to a conclusion about my writing. I think that one of the reasons that I was having so much trouble writing was because I wasn't allowing myself to grow. I was expecting myself to write the same way and about the same things as I did when I was in the 9th and 10th grade. Clearly, I have grown since then, I've changed, and so has my writing style. So allowing myself to write in ways that reflect the way I've changed has allowed me to recapture the ease that I once had.

I'm quite thrilled, actually.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19866525/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19866525/ Sat, 09 Aug 2008 17:45:34 PDT
I went to see The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 today. By myself. It was quite wonderful, actually, to not have to worry about whether or not the other person was enjoying the movie. I really want to reread the books now!

Too bad none of my collection is here with me.

I am starting to pack today! Two more weeks. Thank God.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19848542/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19848542/ Fri, 08 Aug 2008 16:03:42 PDT
i am so happy that it is friday. i am just utterly exhausted, it's ridiculous, because i never even leave my house. the inactivity is starting to wear on me, apparently.

i think i am going to go see the sisterhood of the traveling pants tonight. alone, yes. i don't mind doing things alone. you don't talk during movies anyway. at least most non-annoying people don't. we'll see. i am so tired right now i might fall asleep before i even make it out of the house!

PS. If you haven't seen Becoming Jane, you should. I cried. And James McAvoy is just brilliant, i love him.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19831960/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19831960/ Thu, 07 Aug 2008 17:27:14 PDT
Also I am looking for an editor for my stuff. I often find that I am far too close to my work to see the glaringly obvious mistakes and sometimes I am too in love with a phrase or a character or event to see that it doesn't make sense in the piece. An unbiased helper would be appreciated!

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19800642/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19800642/ Wed, 06 Aug 2008 00:29:29 PDT
Has anyone else noticed how fast things get worse after dark? During the day, things are fine, but as soon as night falls...Boom. Every thing just looks harder.

...Weird.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19799141/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19799141/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 21:59:58 PDT
I am annoyed. I went to bed early because I was tired and then I woke up an hour and a half later, wide awake and unable to go back to sleep. Will ANYTHING ever work out right for me?

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19778919/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19778919/ Mon, 04 Aug 2008 20:24:00 PDT
Don't take that as bigotry, I know artists put hours and hours and hours into their work, it just seems to me that writers get hung up on creative blocks more often than artists. Artists seem to have a more open flow of ideas and mediums and outlets. Maybe that's why it seems easier. Despite different forms of writing, there's still only one outlet for the story you're trying to tell: words.

I don't know. Perhaps I'm just looking for something else to blame my creative problems on.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19757930/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19757930/ Sun, 03 Aug 2008 18:42:54 PDT
That terrifies me more than almost anything.

So I will have something to post tomorrow. It might be horrible, it might be cheesy, it might be wish-washy, it might be awesome, it might be a masterpiece. But whatever it is, it will be a start.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19580640/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19580640/ Thu, 24 Jul 2008 21:17:07 PDT
Just looked through my journals at old things, hoping they would inspire me.

I used to be so prolific, writing all the time, almost every day, sometimes three times a day. What happened to that? How does that just disappear?

How very frustrating.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19400098/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/19400098/ Mon, 14 Jul 2008 22:28:05 PDT
I'm thinking of maybe coming back.

Maybe it would motivate me to write again.

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bloody kisses from poison lips
leave lovers dead in ditches ]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6877836/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6877836/ Wed, 26 Oct 2005 22:19:48 PDT

I'm excited. Writing after months of NOT writing is the sweetest relief. ]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6822760/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6822760/ Thu, 20 Oct 2005 20:27:19 PDT
So I am going to try and rip some words out of my pencil tonight. Perhaps something half-decent will result, so my dA won't look so neglected. ]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6734030/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6734030/ Mon, 10 Oct 2005 19:57:34 PDT
Even this journal entry is awkward and ungainly.

How tragic.

]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6417247/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6417247/ Sun, 04 Sep 2005 20:20:13 PDT
so maybe i will just force myself to write something tonight. i dunno.

mmmm. black forest cake and Radio Free Roscoe. score. ]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6350791/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6350791/ Sun, 28 Aug 2005 12:36:30 PDT
haha. oh god.

<3 ]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6179022/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6179022/ Tue, 09 Aug 2005 13:36:22 PDT
I went for a run today. Wow am I ever out of shape! holy.

Sent Alex a sickly long email. I miss him. ]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6148351/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6148351/ Sat, 06 Aug 2005 08:21:14 PDT ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6016414/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/6016414/ Sat, 23 Jul 2005 21:06:08 PDT
i'm sick with anticipation. ]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/5926985/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/5926985/ Wed, 13 Jul 2005 20:23:21 PDT
apparently, a very good story came out of my writer's block.

cooooolness.

my holiday is halfway done.

11 days...and then i go home. which isn't half bad because i start my new job, getting paid 1.50 more than my old job, and i get to see Andy again ... ... and all the other people i miss.

but i will be sad to go. ]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/5915173/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/5915173/ Tue, 12 Jul 2005 15:09:35 PDT
completely irritated that i am such a goddamn tease. grr.

spent the afternoon making baby food. no lie. ORGANIC baby food. haha. partay. it was actually fun, but my feet are swollen (not from making baby food) and my left hand is sort of cramped and i have built a little bit of muscle. haha. YAY.

drank more than i should have, which is to say that i drank at all.

my belly does not need any swell-inducing yeast.

and on THAT happy note! i am reading "The Favourite Game" by Leonard Cohen and it is amazing, i love it. ]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/5907393/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/5907393/ Mon, 11 Jul 2005 18:48:08 PDT
any opinions would be MASSIVELY appreciated.

thanks guys.

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eww but i feel really gross today. i fell asleep between 4 and 4:30 this morning and was awake at quarter to nine to pump myself full of coffee and go have breakfast with my aunt and uncle's friends. it was a good time, but honestly, my body is so fucked up from changing time zones. i haven't slept properly in the last week and i think i'm getting sick.

ick.

barbecue today. and it's raining. of course. how typical. but whatever i like rain! rain makes me happy. or at least i would be happy if my head was not spinning. definitely too early in the morning for champagne. haha. even if it was paired with orange juice. and perhaps i did not need two big pastries AND a croissant AND half of the almond-butter thing AND two cups of coffee AND half a mamosa. lord love a duck.

anyway.

the one good thing about not being able to sleep is that i get a lot of reading done. that's helpful as i have four Wheel of Time books to finish by the beginning of the school year so I can return them to Sam in time to read the 11th. partay. good thing I have two more plane trips coming up.

GOD i need sleep. ]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/5880990/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/5880990/ Fri, 08 Jul 2005 21:14:17 PDT
haha i've just been waiting and waiting and WAITING all day for SOMETHING from him. and i got nothing. and now i'm sad.




like i said. loser. but my day isn't complete without some form of Andy. ]]> ~beautyinreview http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/5856233/ http://beautyinreview.deviantart.com/journal/5856233/ Wed, 06 Jul 2005 11:25:40 PDT
Stupid feelings.

I love Moulin Rouge.

Eff.

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malevolent-heartache



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thanks all. ]]> ~beautyinreview