http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:beccasai&section=today deviantART RSS for by:beccasai en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 26 Nov 2009 00:38:15 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/8614210/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/8614210/ Fri, 28 Apr 2006 17:46:51 PDT ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/8012482/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/8012482/ Sun, 26 Feb 2006 20:00:07 PST Love of the hour : anyone who'll commission me

Rawr...

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/7930008/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/7930008/ Fri, 17 Feb 2006 22:40:36 PST Love of the hour : Krisy. lol.. and anyone who'll commission me

So.. yes.. I'm going to be doing commissions if anyone wants one.. here is a tentative price list.. um.. is it reasonable? I mean, I never know how much to charge.. is this too much?

Character Portraits
Sketch: $10
Ink/lineart: 12
Computer lineart: 15
Colored: 20

Character in pose/full body
Sketch: 15
Ink/lineart: 20
Computer line art: 25
Colored: 30

Smut:
Sketch: 20
Ink/lineart: 25
Computer lineart: 30
Colored: 35

+5 for background
+5 per character (smut for two people not counting, also depending on poses/stuff)
Mini comics range from 15 to 35...

*coughs* Yep, need to make some rent money. lol.. hell.. if I get enough, maybe finally buy a damn tablet.

If you want a commission leave a comment here, then PM me with the character details and what you want drawn. A ref image would be nice, but I can work with just a description.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/7188437/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/7188437/ Wed, 30 Nov 2005 18:27:30 PST Love of the hour : Many people, no people, the usual.

Blah.

How odd, my art seems to have taken a leap in the Disney/Dreamworks direction. Interesting. I don't know if I'll continue on that way or switch it around again.. we'll see I suppose.

When I said I was going to reinvent my style a while back, I guess I really did. Heh.

Exams and Essays all piling up. Thank god for medication.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6838190/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6838190/ Sat, 22 Oct 2005 15:43:12 PDT Love of the hour : NO ONE... well.. okay, actually a bunch of people.

GRAAAAAAAAHHHH *flail flail* GOD DAMN STUPID FRIGGIN FRAAAAAAAAH *froths*

... T_____T

Okay.. so here's a little rant from me to you. I'm sick of these little rp assholes who don't know shit and pressume to call you a snob just because you correct them on grammar, what they do in their post (god modding and playing other's characters or ignoring previous posts) or ask them to please use a spell check/grammar check when posting -- as it is a forum rp and has the edit post option for a reason.

I'm sorry that I have a higher calibur of stupid things like actually being able to read a post. Hell, I'm willing to play with anyone no matter how bad they are as long as they're willing to listen when other people offer advice -- I STILL listen when people offer me tips, and I've been rping for almost almost 6 years now... T__T

I hate it when people can't take criticism. When they get defensive when you're just trying to help -- especially when you're trying to do it in the nicest way possible.

FUCK. I always try to be supportive, whether it's writing or art or whatever... and people just want to hear "oh yes, that's great!" no matter what.

Fucking rude little SOBs... I give up.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6823085/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6823085/ Thu, 20 Oct 2005 21:12:22 PDT Love of the hour :Lisa

Munching popcorn, sitting in a cold room. Tired. I have two essays due next week -- Monday and Wednesday -- and a test on Thursday... yeah.. yeah. Fun eh? *snerk*

[link] <-- observe me yaoi.. well... not much there that isn't here yet... but I hope to change that.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6764779/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6764779/ Fri, 14 Oct 2005 08:56:30 PDT Love of the hour :Lisa

I'm listening to Love Shack.

I'm drinking Vodka.

I skipped class.

I've been dancing all morning in my room like it was my own personal rave.

I wish I had someone to dance with.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6685894/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6685894/ Wed, 05 Oct 2005 10:44:07 PDT Love of the hour :Lisa

*just takes her journal from another place and pastes it here too as she doesn't feel like thinking of new ways to express herself*

Well, I'm back. I was hop-ed up on painkillers yesterday and some of today, but now I'm back. Sorta.

I'm not quite sure what I should say or if I want to say too much. I got a nice little pill that is suppose to cure all of my worries in a certain area. I have a flu. And I've been diagnosed -- or however the fuck you spell it-- with a fun little thing that means I have cronic Anxiety attacks. Yeah, me, Panic attacks. Random and will apparently continue to have them for the rest of my life.

It makes sense, sorta, only in the way I couldn't believe it at first. I'm calm aren't I? I handle things rationally and try not to let life bother me. And everyone's saying the same fucking thing "Oh stress, yeah, I get those too sometimes" Fuck you. Fuck you fuck you fuck you. It's not the same. I can't BREATH sometimes -- my chest is tight and my heart is pounding and my limbs are numb and I'm dizzy and it hurts to breath and my head hurts and... yeah. Try having that happen just RANDOMLY once and a while, no warning and often without a reason. Then tell me you understand.

It runs in the family, my mom actually gets them too. Apparently I've been handling them well according to my doctor. School stress = why I've been having so many problems lately. Combined with my mild eating disorder, body image issues, and general not taking care of myself. If the attacks get worse or more frequent they might have to put me on medication. How fun.

Unfortunatly that's not all folks. I have a bunch of other symptoms that my doctor wants checked out. I have to go get a bunch of bloodwork done friday and some tests. Could be anything from something minor to something serious. Heart, lungs, circulation, thyroid.. whatever. It could be worse though.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6650520/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6650520/ Sat, 01 Oct 2005 11:17:27 PDT Love of the hour :Lisa

Gone home for a few days, no internet or computer there. I need to see a doctor, I've been putting everything off for almost a month now just hoping it would get better. It hasn't... it hurts to breath. I'll see you guys when I get back.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6576996/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6576996/ Thu, 22 Sep 2005 21:07:20 PDT Love of the hour : Zoe.. though Lisa is up there too.. for she made me food.

Welp, for a while Val is going to let me use her scanner until I get the cash to buy a new one. Damn scanner evils.

On a plus, Zoe is coming over tomorrow for a couple days. We shall see the Delegates on Saturday.. do drugs.. and make shake banana bread. I am le excited.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6567812/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6567812/ Wed, 21 Sep 2005 21:03:07 PDT Love of the hour : *eye twitch*

Well then.. it would seem my scanner is broken. Yes, Broken. Dead. Finished. Laughing at me from whatever electronic hell I'm sure it is burning in.

So, as I'm remaining calm at this moment -- because if I weren't I would be screaming curses until the police came, called in for some crazy university student shrieking curses in the middle of the night -- I just wanted to fill people in on that little fact. Yes, Broken, I already told you. Yes, I am serious... it is indeed plugged in, thank you.

I sit here, smoking like a chimney with my left eye twitching ever so slightly, staring at a monitor that seems ready to die any day now and wondering what kind of noise a scanner would make if I chucked it out a window -- I sit here and I think, hmm, well then.

Needless to say, I won't be able to post any art until I get a new scanner. And as I am a poor ass University student who still hasn't located employment... that may be never.

I only have 3 cigarettes left. This could result in death.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6533140/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6533140/ Sat, 17 Sep 2005 23:35:20 PDT Love of the hour : ... so much love.

... advent.. children... so .. good... And people would always ask me why I loved the turks... *giggles madly*

<3 Reno
<3 Rude
<3 Vincent and his child hiding cape of DOOM
<3 Cid
<3 Wheelin' wheel chair man

Guuuh. I'm going to watch it again.. and again and again...

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6453218/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6453218/ Thu, 08 Sep 2005 18:34:20 PDT Love of the hour : Dunno... no one really.

Buh.

Second year of University starting up as of.. well, a couple days ago. Missed one class cause I over slept. All moved in to my new place now.. getting my scanner back this weekend.. won't be online this weekend as, well, my computer is here in the city and my home is in the valley. Blah.

I'm so tired.

Sorry I haven't been around. Busy busy. Don't know when I'll start being around again.. don't know when I'll be drawing again. *sigh*

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6374120/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6374120/ Tue, 30 Aug 2005 23:18:45 PDT Love of the hour : ME

Welp, I've been awake for a while now. A headache drove me to huddle in my room, blanket pulled tight around fully dressed body as I wanted nothing more than to pass out in the still not quite dark that surrounded my bed. To sleep, to sleep perchance to dream. Doesn't it go something like that?

I think I think too much. Which is a horrible sentence as far as grammar goes, but it is nonetheless what I think concerning my thinking. My mind is always running -- a million thoughts pushing and shoving past each other like some intoxicated mosh pit full of pseudo punks, sneering and spitting at each other in the basement of some dive bar in the middle of buttfuck nowhere. How's that for an analogy? Anyway, as I was saying, thoughts – my thoughts in particular – the crowded, violent mess that they are. One thing I noticed in particular was that it's hard for me to get past certain details in my life. Mostly insignificant details – an instant of embarrassment frequently revisited, as it is opt to be with such things, and each time these moments come to mind I find myself running hundreds of different scenarios through my head which would have allowed me to save face at the time; the things I could have said or done or not done or not said to change that one moment in some way that would allow me to be free of that tiny wave of embarrassment that hits me there, just there in the pit of my stomach, whenever it flickers to the forefront of my memory.

These moments of embarrassment, or regret, or lost chances – so many things in life that could have been handled differently but just weren't, and rather than release these moments to the abyss of time – to join those red socks you got for Christmas when you were seven, or the name of that friend you had in kindergarten who sprained their ankle falling off a swing – these memories stick close to you, burrowing deep under your skin like those little Artic worms from that one episode of X-files. See, that way they're always there for you to think about, there for you to feel crawling under your flesh. That wave of embarrassment you feel is actually their little gooey bodies wiggling around between your organs. How'd that one sound?

Regardless, those little moments of embarrassment aren't the only things that stick with out. There are also all the what ifs and never will bes. Those moments of regret over a friend you never actually made, or that chance you were never really offered but really should have had since you were much better than that other girl who's mother just happened to be friends with the right people. So you want to be a rock star? Well you never actually learned to play an instrument when you were younger, but wouldn't it be neat if you had? Just think about where you'd be now, singing your heart out on stage while the music plays so loud you can feel it vibrating through your chest and rattling your entrails. Sweat on your face, people hanging on your every word. A crazy ride. But who would you share it with? What kind of friends would this rock star you have? What kind of music would you like? Who is to say you'd be the person you are today if you had had that one thing changed in your life. You wouldn't go here, or wouldn't meet that person there. You wouldn't be shaped that same – you'd be a different sculpture. What music do you feel in your chest, ringing in your ears so loud you can barely hear the crowd in front of you? As I sit here now, with my bright hair and plethora of piercings, I hear Punk: a low growl, a violent angry rumble torn right out of my chest and my heart and my viscera, pushing me forward, rushing my veins. Screaming, raw, jagged like broken beer bottles and bloody noses. And yet, maybe this other me, that funny sculpture that was taught how to play the guitar when she was five and wears her hair high on her head and goes by Rebecca or possibly Becky, maybe she hears the blues. Slow and sweet, thick like molasses; a heady mix of emotion and music curling around her swaying form as she bites her lip with every crying note wrenched from the instrument in her hands – calloused fingers, a softer soul. She's quiet, this sculpture, with a mysterious smile that says 'wouldn't you like to know how I was made different from you? What moments and people crafted me, changing the same piece of clay – a child with potential to be anything – into something so very unlike the woman type type typing on old worn keys'.

Why worry about the past? What is this need we have to look back and regret or daydream? Why can't we just be content with the path that we've chosen for ourselves thus far? Why can't others allow us to do so? I'm not saying that memories and things of the like – thoughts pertaining to moments that have passed or may have never happened – are bad things. They're healthy and usually serve to keep us grounded, or at least prevent the... ]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6359390/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6359390/ Mon, 29 Aug 2005 11:45:46 PDT Love of the hour :

Back.

Alive.

More or less.

Buuuh hu huuu.

*wallows*

Welp, off to huddle in my room now.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6330852/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6330852/ Fri, 26 Aug 2005 04:22:45 PDT Love of the hour :

Oh me oh my, my brother and I are heading out on our merry way to evolve in a few minutes *grins*

What's evolve? Giant 3 day rave in Antigonish. Mmmm music, pretty people, drugs. I'm set. *bounces excitedly* YAY.

EVOLVE.

SQUEE.

Bye. ^^

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6283960/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6283960/ Sat, 20 Aug 2005 23:37:41 PDT Love of the hour :

Heh, time for a little more pimpage. Because I so love whoring out RPs.

Aya's new RP - Lies of Lycoris. A really neat forum rp done in a fun and unique way. It's set in a fantasy world Aya made herself -- with much pain *snerk* -- and has had a lot of work put in to it, by myself included.

Check it out and join if you feel so inclined. Slash friendly.

[link]

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6176448/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6176448/ Tue, 09 Aug 2005 07:56:02 PDT Love of the hour : blah.

Blaaah I blame myself. 10 days of barely sleeping, barely eating, and going on insane adventures with much intoxication has left me le broken.

I have a flu. *flails a bit pathetically* Murr. I can barely talk, barely swallow and spent all last night coughing and sneezing and throwing up. I have a fever and am entirely unpleasant.

On the plus side, drawing is becoming fun again.

Shazam.



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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6071494/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6071494/ Fri, 29 Jul 2005 20:23:57 PDT Love of the hour : for she rps the hell out of me. heh

I cast my support, how ever insignificant it may be.



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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6015835/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/6015835/ Sat, 23 Jul 2005 19:47:20 PDT Love of the hour : for she rps the hell out of me. heh

I posted this in Y!hosting.. then remembered... OH YEAH, I should probably say something in DA too.. heh.. soo.. *copy and pastes*

BAMF...

... *coughs* Um yeah. I was thinking, maybe I'm going to take a little bit of a break from trying to draw any real pictures for a bit... because yeah, having one of those months, y'know? Where you just look at everything you do, roll your eyes, and shove the sketchbook away... Heh. I spent a majority of last night on DA shoving things into my scrap gallery (because Kira wouldn't let me delete them) and being kinda sulky about it all.

Maybe that's the whole reason I'm in an art rut eh? Since I'm not crazy about my style, I can't really think of things to draw, or draw anything that I personally am fond of. Heh. Who knows?

^__^ But I think what I'm going to do is find some good books on Anatomy and perspective. Buy a new sketchbook and some other stuff like that, and take a bit to practice. Rework my style a bit. I think I want to make things a little softer -- more natural. And then, well, we'll see from there. ^____^ I love reworking my style sometimes... it's refreshing.

In closing, I'll still be around to comment.. I just don't know how much I'll submit.. maybe I'll submit lots of things.. who knows?

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5958653/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5958653/ Sun, 17 Jul 2005 12:00:41 PDT Love of the hour : Not sure. I'll go with as she's my wife.. and really, it's the safest decision.

Well, another year older.

I think I shall just go huddle in my room and attempt to draw.

I kinda hate it when plans fall through on days like these.

Meh, not complaining I guess. It all could be much worse. ^__^

So, how about that gravity... pretty attractive eh?... EH!?

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5931500/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5931500/ Thu, 14 Jul 2005 09:40:04 PDT Love of the hour : Not sure. I'll go with as she's my wife.. and really, it's the safest decision.

So I'm horribly bored. And have been awake since 7am... an ungodly hour says I. *makes a face* Guuh. So now I'm just sitting around listening to Radiohead and placebo... and currently Rob Zombie. How odd that he just popped in my playlist. Oh well... I loves it.

My brain has shut down.

YAAAAAAY. No brain!

... poop socks I say. Poop socks indeed.

I need to kick myself into gear and get pictures drawn. Not that I really HAVE to have anything drawn ever, it would just be nice to actually.. y'know.. draw. Though I told Zoe I'd design some things for patches and junk. Guh, must yank myself out of an art slump that has been gnawing on my kidneys for the last couple weeks.

Preferably before Sunday.. because I know I'll be MIA for a couple days around that time. Mmmm 19th birthday. Much partying to be had, yes yes.

*faceplant* On another note, I have to stop being lazy and commenting on the stuff in my inbox. Because honestly, I LOOK at all the art... I look and I covet and all that junk. But I can't bring myself to comment unless my mind is working enough to write the type of comment I want to give. Maybe I put too much thought into comments sometimes. O__o Same thing goes for replying to comments. I appreciate every one of them, honest.. I just.. buh. Lazy I think.

So. Yeah. Bye.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5924901/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5924901/ Wed, 13 Jul 2005 15:59:56 PDT Love of the hour : Certainly not DA

.....? OriginalYaoi.. a group a help run, was banned. How unpleasant.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5811578/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5811578/ Fri, 01 Jul 2005 12:16:09 PDT Love of the hour : all my fellow Canadian Deviants

HAPPY CANADA DAY!!! *bounce bounce*

Now if you'll excuse me, I'm off to get sloshed.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5731777/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5731777/ Thu, 23 Jun 2005 08:43:48 PDT Love of the hour : Because I adore and love her to itty bitty bits and I wish her all the happiness in the world. Come Visit me Aya? lol

*takes her journal from Y!hosting, because she wants a new one up and doesn't feel like writing something neeeew!!*

BUUUUH I say. Buh. Lol.. but it's a good buh. I'm hyper and happy and sitting around listening to 80s pop music. How happy does this make me? I can't even describe.

Oh Billy Idol, I'd dance with you!

Current playlist contains:

EMF
Simple minds
Cindy Lauper
Billy Idol
David Bowie *swoon*
Iggy Pop
Duran Duran
Flock of Seagulls
B52s
Blondie
Berlin
The Cure
Boney M
Blue Oyster Cult
The Ramones *double swoon*
Pat Benitar
Bangals
The Clash
Men Without Hats
Bon Jovi
Eurythmics
Corey Heart

Anyhow, working on some art, trying not to be lazy. But it is so VERY hard! *grins* I'm home alone dancing with myself, heh, so yes... What was the point of this entry? None really.

Oh! I have "dyke" hair now *grins* Short short short and dyed bright red/pink... Maybe now I'll get a girlfriend. *snerk* it would be nice. ^__^;;

Um, so I'm hyper and I'll continue to ramble. I was just thinking, if anyone was interested in trades I'm totally open.. or collaborations, since I've developed a love for coloring in OpenCanvas *snerk* Yeeah.. that's it.

*sings loudly and out of key* I love myself I want you to love me. When I feel down I want you above me. I search myself I want you to find me. I forget myself I want you to remind me.

I don't want anybody else. When I think about you I touch myself. Ooh I don't want anybody else. Oh no, oh no, oh noooooooo~!!

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5710533/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5710533/ Tue, 21 Jun 2005 03:25:07 PDT Love of the hour : Just cause.

So now I'm off to have my hair dyed an obscenely bright color. I'll see you kiddies later *hugs and kisses*

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5582557/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5582557/ Tue, 07 Jun 2005 18:25:08 PDT Love of the hour : Just cause.

Ok. So here's the thing.

I mostly liked the first three star wars movies.

And when I say the first three, I mean 1, 2 and now 3. And I can hear you all now, you die hard fans, screaming “Nooo nooo! You CAD! YOU SELL OUT”. And yet, your screams are only just a buzz in the ambiance of many screams I hear daily. So yeah, think what you’d like about my dabbling in the dark side, but let me explain a little something.

I hear it all the time: "Lucas let us down." "Lucas fucked up the Star wars movies" blah blah blah whine whine whine. And when it all comes down to it, take a moment to think about what you're saying when these words leave your mouth. I think a lot of fans are making some pretty bold statements, assuming that it is Lucas’ job to make sure you all approve of his story as he tells it. No wonder he doesn’t really want to do the last 3. As if Lucas gives a fuck about whether or not we approve of HIS story. I know I sure tell people to fuck themselves when they try to tell me how MY stories should go, what I did wrong with MY characters or MY plot. I don't think it was Lucas' duty at all as these are HIS films. If you want something that he isn’t giving you with his work, you make a film yourself. He's telling the story he wants to tell. People need to stop assuming he'll jump through hoops for everyone.

Not that he isn’t a consumerist, money driven, cgi humping, blow hard sometimes. But still…

And let's face it. What were people expecting when they saw the first three episodes? Obviously, they were expecting 4,5, and 6.. just, y'know.. different. People assumed it would be the same Star Wars, when.. oh hey, guess what. Different plot, different part of the story, different characters. It isn't going to be the same; it isn't going to have Vader running around in his death star with Luke screaming Nooo with his hand cut off. No Harrison ford. No Millennium Falcon. No golden bikini. This is before all of that came to be.

Sorry, you actually have to sit through a brand new plot line. OH NO THE HORROR.

Heh. Now I won't say the first three movies were as good as the others were, because they really weren't. But you can't REALLY compare them to the others fairly... it’s apples and kumquats. The original movies were cutting edge. They broke into the genre and changed film making. It was something totally NEW and exciting. How can you compare with even the feeling and nostalgia of that? You can't, not really with today’s jaded movie audiences who have seen everything and already know what movies are capable of. Now it's like "Space ships? So what.. cgi."

Compare the light saber fights from Episode 4, 5 or 6 with Episode 1, 2 or 3... yeeeah. You'll find the newer ones has amazing fights... the choreography is like excellent and fluid. O_o but still, people remain unimpressed. Compare the visuals. Naboo in Episode 1 or 2... It’s beautiful. Any other movie and people would really notice it. But spoiled little star wars fans barely bat an eye. And still they chose the old episodes. ((as do I)) because yes.. you just can't beat the FEELING the old ones bring up in you.. nostalgia..

So what am I saying? Well.. I'm just rambling I suppose. I've had a few too many people bitch at me for liking Episodes 1 through 3. When I think their bitching is kinda unfounded in some respects. Heh.. I mean, there is no excuse for Jar Jar (anyone else think there should have been a moment when "This scene was directed by Quentin Tarentino" popped up on screen and Mace Windoo walks into a room and points a gun at Jar Jar and yells "SAY WHAT AGAIN MOTHERFUCKA!" and then shoots him, after which they cut to something else? No… just me? Huh) and yeah... the guy who played Anakin was sub par. But still… not horrible movies. People need to just enjoy them for what they are... appreciate the mythology of star wars... understand that not everyone is going to agree with everyone else (and not everyone is going to jump on the “I turn my geek cultured nose up at these” bandwagon) and… well... stop yelling at me. T__T

Though let’s face it, I’ve been a snobby fan when it comes to X-men, Hellblazer, and most other comic book movies, so really.. who am I to judge? Heh. I'm not going to stop sitting around and bitching about how people "ruined" my favorite comics when they put them on the screen.. or how directors fucked up perfectly good plots. Because yep, everyone does it because we all know best.. yeah? lol.. but I just wanted to rant a bit.. be a hypocrit and take a moment to defend the dark side.

This pointless rant brought to you by, the letter Beast.

----C... ]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5545622/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5545622/ Fri, 03 Jun 2005 19:22:07 PDT Love of the hour : because she's designing some characters for me.. for I am lazy

*stole this quiz from Aya creature*

1. What is the geekiest part of your music collection?

Oh My music collection is saturated in Geekdom. From 80s music, to Aqua... video game music and anime soundtracks.. it's allll there.

2. What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night?

Cold chinese food... or hard cheese. O_o

3. What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?

... Hmmm Not sure. Don't really have one.

4. If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?

Lipo suction I think... but probably nothing...

5. Do you have a completely irrational fear?

Afraid of the dark. Like, when it's dark and I'm all alone and everything's quiet. O__o it's most unpleasant.

6. What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moments?

I fidget... and I won't make eye contact..

7. Are you a pyromaniac?

YES.

8. Do you have too many love interests?

I have none. Well.. I have like interests.. but no love.

9. Do you know anyone famous?

.... O__o I think maybe.. I don't really know. I don't remember everyone I know.

10. Describe your bed:

High, squishy, a bit lumpy... a bunch of pillows, next to an extremely messy table, things underneath that I dare not fathom...

11. Are you spontaneous or planned?

I seriously fly by the seat of my pants. It drives people crazy. "Becca, how are we gonna get home?" "I dunno, I'll figure it out later."

12. Who would play you in a movie?

.... uuuuh.... Someone short, not perfect, and with good line delivery. A funny gal. Maybe Drew Barrymore before she lost the weight.

13. Do you know how to play poker?

Indeed.

14. What do you carry with you at all times?

... nothing really.

15. What do you miss most about being a kid?

Still kind of a kid. Lol.. or not. I miss the lack of responsibility... and just goofing off and having fun without being so jadded and cynical.

16. Are you happy with your given name?

Sure, why not. Rebecca Therese Levick. It could be worse.

17. How much money would it take to get you to give up the internet for one year?

Quite a bit I think.

18. What color is your bedroom?

Dark blue.

19. What was the last song you were listening to?

Time after Time - Cyndi Lauper

20. Have you ever been in a play?

Many. I toured in Ireland and everything.

21. Have you ever been in love?

Never.

22. Do you talk a lot?

Far too much.

23. Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?

Nope on both accounts.

24. Do transient, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?

No, I hang out with them. Give them money. They're usually really interesting people. That and people usually mistake me for one of them.

25. Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?

Surprisingly yes. I'm far nicer than I should be sometimes. But when I'm not nice, oh ho ho. It's entertaining.

26. Do you spend more time with your girlfriend/boyfriend or your friends?

Friends.

27. What is your ideal marriage location?

Somewhere crazy.

28. Which musical instrument do you wish you could play?

Guitar, Bass, drums, violin.

29. Favorite fabric?

cotton

30. something you love and hate?

life

31. What kind of bedding do you use?

O_o whatever's mostly clean.

33. what's the one language you want to learn?

Chinese

34. How do you eat an apple?

Cut bits off with a knife and eat the bits off the knife... I'm a pirate.

35. What do you order at a bar?

Nothing. As I am too young to partron one (or I am, at least until the 17th of July)

36. Have you ever pierced your body parts?

Two holes in both ears were done by me and mr safety pin.

37. Do you have tattoos?

Yep, Celtic knot on my back.

38. Do you drive a stick?

Nope

39. Favorite trait of the opposite sex?

Eyes, lips, body...

40. What’s one trait you hate in a person?

Stupidity.

~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5372943/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5372943/ Mon, 16 May 2005 11:34:56 PDT Love of the hour : why? Because he has Lost. lol.

Fweeee! Phantom of the Opera *purrs and joygasms*

Now, to attempt to finish this sketch so I can color it.

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Hey DA, wake the fuck up. I think there's a problem when I submit art and it doesn't show up on my page... don'tcha think?

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5349319/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5349319/ Fri, 13 May 2005 16:24:42 PDT Love of the hour : No one.. I'm pretty... buh

I'm back.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5209586/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5209586/ Thu, 28 Apr 2005 03:43:48 PDT Love of the hour : No one.. I'm pretty... buh

Subscription runs out in about an hour... I don't really care, though who knows, might buy one later. It was nice.

Guys, I think I'm going to take a break from drawing for a while. I don't know. Maybe a break from the internet. I'm sick of the lack of human contact and lack of emotion. It's all so numbing.

But then, maybe it's just the mood I'm in now. Who knows.

Knowing me, this'll probably last a very short time.

See ya around.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5181761/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5181761/ Mon, 25 Apr 2005 00:52:34 PDT Love of the hour : for she is mah wife

dude... 10 000+ page views.. O_O

neat.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5171781/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5171781/ Sat, 23 Apr 2005 22:32:06 PDT Love of the hour : for she is mah wife

Poo... sorry random people. I was just messing around with my watch list *blinks* it randomly re-watches when I shift things around I guess.

On a similar note, I think the little "My friends" thing that comes with the DA subscription is.. well.. poorly labeled to some extent. More than half of those people aren't really my friends, they're just people I watch. Not that I have anything against them, and wouldn't love to be their friends -- point of fact though, at least a couple of them don't even know who I am.

So really, "My friends" is a funny title for people you admire. It's like saying I'm friends with The Clash, or The Ramones. Silly no?

Buh. On another note, I just ate something a few minutes ago and for the life of me can't remember what the hell that something was. It's driving me crazy!

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5164082/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5164082/ Sat, 23 Apr 2005 03:49:23 PDT Love of the hour : Mark... because he LIVES

Well... ... *ahem*

I'M FREEEEEEE!!! AHAHAHHEHEHHAHAHAHHAHREHHHOOHOHOHOHHOHOH WAHAHAHA *cough hack choke die* ..... *zombied*

Yeah, so I'm done my finals. University can trim my bush for all I care. Uh... at least until September.

On another note.. *sweatdrops* I think I might have to cave and buy a subscription.. I loves it so. Damn DA... givin it free the WRETCHING IT AWAY when I grow to like it... T__T

Someone buy me one? *laughs*.... or not.

~The Becca Beast

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5144902/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5144902/ Thu, 21 Apr 2005 03:49:59 PDT Love of the hour : DeviantArt.. I got a random subscription. O_o

Dude.. so I come online and poof... random subscription to DA... O__o go figure.

I think it's only for a week or something though.

REGARDLESS. ^^ Joy. I always wanted a subscription.

~The Becca Beast

~Clubs
]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5073074/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5073074/ Tue, 12 Apr 2005 20:00:25 PDT Current Mood : So evil
Current Listening : Sex Pistols - Holiday in the Sun
Current Viewing : Hard Core Logo
Current Activity : Drawing a picture for the Lisa Beast.
Love of the hour : for she is fantabulous.

Y'know.. there should be a law where you go to HELL when you start slashing real punk musicians... *stares*

I'm going to hell. Oh Johnny... Oh Sid... Whoops?

~Becca

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5053324/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5053324/ Mon, 11 Apr 2005 16:45:55 PDT Current Mood : Delightful
Current Listening : Bush - Inflatable
Current Viewing : Computer Screen
Current Activity : Writing a Fantasy & Science Fiction Lit. Paper
Love of the hour : for she attempts to motivate me.

Taken from ’s journal. Only… cut down some.

ONE: Pick 10 musicians.
TWO: Post them and see who can guess which song of each musician's is your favorite
THREE: Once someone guesses right, bold that row and include your favorite song.

1. Bush
2. Nirvana
3. Moist
4. Placebo - Every me, Every you.
5. The Sex Pistols - God Save the Queen
6. The Ramones - Sedated. Yeah I know, but I don't care. I still love it.
7. Silverchair
8. Bad Religion
9. Flogging Molly
10. Pennywise

Poo.. yup… just thought it’d be a larf.. and I doubt anyone will know my favorite songs. ;;

Anyhow *blinks* it’s funny how I have 200+ people watching me… and only maybe 10-ish which comment regularly. SO I give special love to the following people:


And more often than not (lately, or in the past): http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/5010245/ Tue, 05 Apr 2005 18:49:37 PDT
I'm afraid I might have to take my stuff and go. I'm too bothered by alot of their new terms.

I don't know. ]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/4771087/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/4771087/ Wed, 09 Mar 2005 16:58:08 PST Current Mood : Delightful
Current Listening : Moist - Tangerine
Current Viewing : cute little dude running around on the screen
Current Activity : playing ROSE O__o
Love of the hour : for she is mah loaf…. Though I’m rather fond of as always too.

Ok.. so everyone go here [link] and download the game.. And come play with me… ;__; please?

~Becca

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/4741572/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/4741572/ Sun, 06 Mar 2005 09:28:09 PST Current Mood : Guh
Current Listening : Garbage – various tracks
Current Viewing : Not a thing
Current Activity : Writing a paper for Fantasy & Science fiction Lit.
Love of the hour :

spent another weekend doing crazy things with many drugs involved. I have Joey's shirt.. he fails and shall never get it back. EVAH! Bwhehehe. AND I saw Ed a bit on Saturday which was most delightful and reminded me what a funtastical fellow he is. Ed.. we must hang out more. I demand it.

Best convo ever by the way.

Person 1: Becca and Joey are sleeping together...
My Brother: No they aren't! Becca likes girls!
Person 2: Who is Joey sleeping with?
Person 1: No one. Joey doesn't like girls.
Person 3: Joey likes girls!
My brother: And so does my Sister!!

heh, sorry.. I just thought it was an entertaining moment. ;

Anyway, I love alllll the people I spent my weekend/friday with (Even Chris although he's a bad bad man...) and if shmiday dies.. I shall cry. So. What's up next weekend? *grins*

Hmm.. haven't slept in 48 plus hours now.. O____O

~Becca

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/4685943/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/4685943/ Sun, 27 Feb 2005 16:04:11 PST Current Mood : Guh
Current Listening : Garbage – various tracks
Current Viewing : Not a thing
Current Activity : Writing a paper for Fantasy & Science fiction Lit.
Love of the hour : I WILL have your picture done sooner or later though hopefully sooner than later, though at my rate most likely later than sooner. O__o

Guuuhhuhuhuhuhu.. e_e

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/4626216/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/4626216/ Sun, 20 Feb 2005 00:31:04 PST Current Mood : Delightful
Current Listening : Moist - Tangerine
Current Viewing : Nothing in particular
Current Activity : Rping with a new friend, doodling
Love of the hour : damn woman has me hooked on oC

Well Karma is my friend. Fuck you Joey, that'll teach you to ditch me and give up my place in the car *grins like a fool*

Matt, Kyle, Joey and some other guy were arrested tonight at the gig *cackles* delightful. Consequently, my brother enjoyed it thoroughly and had copious amounts of fun at the police station. He told me allll about it when he got home. *purrs*

HI-LARIOUS.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/4453621/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/4453621/ Sun, 30 Jan 2005 13:21:17 PST Current Mood : JOYGASMIC
Current Listening : to the TV!!!
Current Viewing : THE GREAT MOUSE DETECTIVE!!!
Current Activity : Joygasming?
Love of the hour : Because it's LISA

The great Mouse Detective!!! THE GREAT MOUSE DETECTIVE!!!!!!!!

THE GREAT MOUSE DETECTIVE IS ON!!!!

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/4363149/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/4363149/ Wed, 19 Jan 2005 18:51:37 PST Current Mood : So.. so.. so sad.
Current Listening : Billy Idol - Dancing with Myself
Current Viewing : HORRIBLE MOVIE PREVIEW OF DOOM
Current Activity : Twitching in horror
Love of the hour : she lives

Keanu Reeves is NOT John Constantine..

The Hellblazer title has not been done justice.

The fans weep.

;_; poor Alan Moore, you have my support.

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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/4027646/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/4027646/ Thu, 09 Dec 2004 14:14:33 PST Current Mood : Sad.
Current Listening : Pantera - Cemetary Gates
Current Viewing : Fairly Odd Parents O_o
Current Activity : Studying for Exams
Love of the hour : No one.. I hate people.

COLUMBUS, Ohio (CNN) -- A 25-year-old man stormed the stage at a heavy-metal rock concert Wednesday night, shooting and killing Damageplan guitarist "Dimebag" Darrell Abbott and three others before a police officer shot and killed him, Columbus police said.

On Thursday, police identified the suspect as Nathan Gale of nearby Marysville. A spokesman said police had no information about a motive or possible link to the band.

Let's have a moment of silence for one of the best guitarists around, Dimebag Darrell, formerly of Pantera, gunned down before his time by a fucking psycho.

Shit I hate people.

~<3- Teh Becca
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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3986261/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3986261/ Sat, 04 Dec 2004 10:03:48 PST Current Mood : O________O
Current Listening : Flogging Molly - Salty Dogs
Current Viewing : dots.. lots of dots
Current Activity : wwhhhooooahoho...
Love of the hour : - because she's mine. Honest? I adopted her at dramafest last year!

Ok. SO last night was the best ever. After getting 30minutes of sleep that morning (due to finishing an essay that was due that day) and going to school for a day of fun with my friends (You all may kill me, but Teldaris might be going on a back burner for a while.. Lisa and I have decided we NEED to do a webcomic together.. and I'm ridiculously excited.) I got home around 4-ish. I was planning on going to sleep but.. poof.. there was my dear brother, home to bug me for a while.

So Matt and I were sitting around watching some random thing on TV as I was explaining the transvestite pear I stole from the mall last friday (part of a present) when Matt decided "Let's go to Wolfville and see Zoe"

So what did we do? Go to wolfville and see Alex, then go to ... New Minas to see Zoe at work. Zoe works at a toy store.. O_O yay. So while Matt and I ran about playing with toys with Zoe I picked up a few things for christmas presents (I SAVED A GIMPY GIRAFFE TOY FROM THE ISLE OF MISFIT TOYS!).. at which point it occured to me that I still needed to get a bunch more presents. At 9-ish Matt and I told Zoe we'd get her later and I informed Matt that we were now having a scavanger hunt.

Ie, we went out around the Valley and stole a bunch of really crazy and random shit.

We went to Save Easy (supermarket) and there I snagged a crazy starfish.. and matt grabbed a bunch of wax jalopenos. We jumped in the car and went back to his apartment to go pick up Zoe and the real game began.

So the three of us drove around the Valley in my brother's old car, randomly telling him to STOP whenever we saw something we wanted. In total I won the game with 6 points (stole 5 things on my own, group effort on 2) Zoe had 5 and Matt 4. Here is the list of our findings.

A pink Wet Floor sign I grabbed from the gas station and RAN out the door with.
A serving tray I grabbed from Dairy Queen on my way out.
Two No trespassing signs snagged by Matt with help from Zoe and I.
A little christmas tree in a bucket I just NEEDED to take.
A christmas wreath off a Baptist church, curtosy of Zoe.
Two Pylons Zoe and I decided were essentials.
And the BEST thing. (my idea damnit! But Matt stole my point!) A neighborhood watch sign. Yes damnit! Ironic ain't it?

Ok.. I think that's everything, but I don't remember. We TOTALLY went for the Lovett rd. Sign ((my brother's nickname)) and Zoe sure was working her little heart out on that one.. as me and her tugged and pulled at the big fucking post it was bolted too. We have the thing reeeally loose, but then realized we hadn't really put much thought into planning this one and had no clue how we were going to get an 8ft post into my brother's car.. or how we'd be able to detatch the sign without getting noticed. O__o And if the cops would have pulled us over, with our car load of booty, we SO would be in prison right now.

Regardless, we went back to Matt's and dropped off his and Zoe's stuff and I was about to go home when I suggested we stop by at Luke's. AND stop by we did.. holy shit. I mean.. O___o of course there was a party (Rene, Joey, Luke, Kyle, Lisa, Ben, ALex, Bob, Pat, Mickey, Me, Zoe, Matt all there in the end.) And everyone is like,.. wreacked. It was like 12am and yeah.. I walked into the kitchen, snuggled Kyle and Luke, grabbed a shot of vodka and then wandered into Bob's room.. where I helped compile a list of music for Alex to listen to... and also where Pat was like ((we just got in)) hey Becca.. have one.

So Pat gave me a little smiling Blue Monkey.

DAMN YOU BLUE MONKEY!! DAMN YOU!!

So I took my blue monkey and wandered out to the living room where Zoe was like "Beccccaaaa, come smoke with me" so I went with Zoe downstairs and smoke a couple joints.. ... Thusly.. Becca was REALLY REALLY happy.. lol.. like yeah, so much fucking fun (Joey and I having our awesome dance party with the strobe light in Kyle's room.. lol.. and all the snuggles!) and then when I was finally, around 5am, gaining my brain back ((not much mind you)) Pat gives me a half of a brown one this time ((not sure what type it was)) and I was like.. fuuuuuu.. O_O

Needless to say I had an amazingly fun night and came home around 9-ish with my brother ((no sleep O_o)) and... ]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3975999/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3975999/ Thu, 02 Dec 2004 21:23:31 PST Current Mood : REALLY FUCKING STRESSED OUT.
Current Listening : David Bowie - As the world falls down
Current Viewing : Noooothing. O_o
Current Activity : Writing an essay that's due tomorrow
Love of the hour : - because she's helping me with an essay? And she's my wife. lol

On Tuesday Nov 30th and Wednesday Dec 1st I went to protests against the Bush administration and his visit to Nova Scotia. Myself and thousands of others assembled in downtown Halifax and marched to Pier 41 in a peaceful protest against the president of the USA. We carried signs, we rallied in the streets and not once did a police officer (or the sharpshooters on the roof) have to take action. The media was there of course, the nation payed attention.

We were against his occupation of Iraq
Against his position in Palestine
Against his position on the Enviroment
Against his visit and 3 year late Thank you to Nova Scotia as well as several other issues.

I believe that by protesting we were making a statement. If not to Bush, then at least to our own Prime Minister concerning Canadian US relations. If groups as large as the ones assembled on Tuesday and Wednesday come together with similar feelings, it is obvious that these opinions are shared.

However, not everyone believes in protesting. Some people believe it is pointless and that nobody cares or listens to what the people have to say. Some people think that others should keep their opinions to themselves and what's done is done. They don't think protesting changes anything.

While I am for protesting, I do have some beefs with some others who do protest. The ones which incite violence for one. I believe that starting a fight or a riot is only souring the media and the population against the statement you and those around you are trying to make. Also, I am a professional cynic. I empathize with a lot of lefty causes, since that is my own political stand point; however, I'm cynical about a lot of the limo-lib types who share my beliefs. The problem with a lot of those people is they say things like "no blood for oil" and then get in their SUVs to go buy a loaf of bread at the corner store. If Dubya is in Iraq for oil, then he is there at least partly because he has to keep the folks back home happy (low gas prices, etc), including the limo-libs.

I think that if these people really want to get their message across they should stop being hypocrits and give up the SUV and start riding a bike to the store. If they did, I'm sure some people would take them more seriously.

But then, a lot of people are simply protesting so that they will be people that they, themselves, can admire. They do it to feel good about themselves, like they've done their part. Admittedly, everything everyone does is a little selfish. There are no selfless causes or actions in the world. But then, like I said, I'm a cynic. I think I was born in the wrong era. All these years of listening to the Sex Pistols and The Ramones has left me this cynical. lol.. oh well. THAT was all my 2 cents.

On a more personal level, I had a fucking amazing time. I was loud and happy and couldn't talk on Thursday. I met really cool people ((some guy wants me to sing in his punk band, lol)) and was interviewed for Global News ((I was on TV!! my aunt was like. O__O)) I made an interesting impression with my spikes and my dreadhawk! lol.. actually, a bunch of random people were complimenting my collar and my hair all day.. I felt warm and fuzzy! ^__^;;

Seeing all the old professional hippies, the punks, some thrashers, a bunch of new age hippies and just a bunch of people in general made me feel.. I dunno.. great. It was just a cool experience all around. *sighs happily*

my hair --> [link]

~<3- Teh Becca
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http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3870481/ Fri, 19 Nov 2004 11:34:55 PST Current Mood : happy happy yay
Current Listening : people typing
Current Viewing : Students in the MSVU library
Current Activity : being a bit bored.
Love of the hour : - because yeah, amazing artist and leaves such fun comments ^_^ She makes me puuurr.

Got bored in class and stretched my ears to an 8 gauge the other day. I love Lisa for she gave me the earrings to do so with (though she had wanted me to wait another week or so...)

AND! TODAY I bought my hair wax STUFF so I can get DREADLOCKS ON MONDAY *does a dance of joy*

On the plus side, fun night last night... movies, people, booze,... We watched Velvet Goldmine... 'nuff said.

~<3- Teh Becca
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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3845792/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3845792/ Mon, 15 Nov 2004 22:37:42 PST
I got power back a couple hours ago..

God I need porn. ]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3755199/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3755199/ Mon, 08 Nov 2004 21:31:04 PST Current Mood : .... I don't know
Current Listening : The soundtrack to Rent
Current Viewing : Simpsons
Current Activity : Heading to bed.
Love of the hour : Matt
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I think some random guy out there just called me a fag.

The words took me by surprise as Matt blinked next to me, his expression an interesting mix of confusion and shock. Kyle looked over at us with his eyebrows raised high, ignoring the suddenly interested looks we received from the employees behind the counter; those who stopped sorting the used CDs long enough to send the support of an outraged glance in our direction.

We stood, Matt, Kyle, and I, a moment by the front of the store -Random play, one of the two used CD places on Barrington Street- taking a moment to laugh before we moved through the isles, each looking for our own particular taste in the alphabetized rows. Small talk, jokes –

Have you seen any Flogging Molly?

Maybe I should buy Damien Rice’s new album…

Oh god… Sex pistols… I need to change my pants.

-- A moment forgotten and over looked. We emerged from the store laughing hard at some off hand comment or another, all but ignoring the large man yelling into his cell phone in front of the doors. I shift the weight on my shoulder slightly, shivering but far too lazy to actually dig my jacket out of hiding from within the backpack I’ve been lugging around since we left campus on this impromptu venture downtown. Kyle leans closer to Matt --

Wasn’t that guy out here when we went in?

Yeah, I think he’s the guy that called me a fag…

-- But we don’t stop, don’t look, and don’t show interest as we continue in the direction we came. The boys move ahead, as their legs are longer and I can’t always keep up, and I walk at a leisurely pace while silently bitching about my feet hurting. I can still here that man yelling into his cell phone. Frowning, I pick up the pace. Matt and Kyle laugh, something inconsequential but clever, and I’m wont to chuckle with them. I couldn’t hear the joke over that loud mouth (God, will he ever shut up?) with his phone but they laugh so I laugh with them, if only for the sake of smiling again.

Fucker. Stupid faggot. You ragging on me? You hear me?? Do you hear me?

The words are more clear now, an endless stream of frustration and terminology that makes me cringe. It occurs to me at this point that the foot steps behind me are indeed worth noting and that the man in front of the store was no longer talking on his cell phone. His pace picked up, heavy footfalls on cold pavement as his tone grew harsher; Matt and Kyle still walk ahead.

You pussy, you stupid faggot fuck. You ragging on me you little shit? Huh?

I turn briefly, curiosity peaked by the audacity of the words being thrown at my oblivious best friend. The man looks at me and he’s larger that Kyle – and Kyle’s a big guy- and he looks mad. Eyes narrow and his lip curls upward in the makings of a sneer, I arch an eyebrow in habit before he speaks.

What are you lookin’ at you fuckin’ Jew?!

I’ve never been called a Jew before; which is odd because I happen to be an Irish/Polish/Ukrainian/French mix. I am ‘Jewish’ on my father’s side and to be ethnically blunt, I look the part. But I’ve never been called a Jew before. I can feel my eyes widen at this man even before I register what has been said, my brain frozen a moment when I feel a hand pulling me forward. Matt heard him now; he pulled me between Kyle and himself and kept walking. The man followed.

Turn around Fag, turn around, you ragging on me?? Huh fag? You dirty faggot…

And he does turn, now that this man has caught up – eyes flaring, spit flying, body swaying- and is in Matt’s face. We stop now that we’re in front of a pizza place (The wall is a window, they can see us. The door isn’t far, if he came at us we could…) and the man continues yelling –

You picked the wrong day to be ragging on me you little cunt, the wrong fucking day…

Sir, I’m sorry but I don’t know what you’re talking about.

-- And I’m impressed. Matt appears so calm as he holds on to my arm, perhaps holding me in place as I stare in wide eyed amazement at this man, now able to absorb the fullness of his words. A laugh escapes me, incredulous and filled with the disbelief that is latent in my voice when I speak. I’m angry; I laugh when I’m angry. It’s not happy or friendly or even polite, but it accompanies my words.

EXCUSE ME?
... ]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3576759/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3576759/ Tue, 12 Oct 2004 20:32:39 PDT Current Mood : Very,.. Bogosian.
Current Listening : "Big Indian" - Dandy Warhols
Current Viewing : Talk Radio
Current Activity : Chaaaaatting with my Miru.
Love of the hour : - Still.. because she REALLY deserves more attention. Like.. so much.

So.. ready for randomness? I am.

One day God said
This is what I will do
I'll send down my son
I'll send him to you
To clear up this humpity
Bumpity hulabaloo

His name will be Christ
And he'll never wear shoes
And his pals will all call
Him the King of the Jews


He didn't come in a plane
He didn't come in a jeep
He didn't come in the pouch
Of a high jumping vo veep


He rode on the back of a black sasatoo
Which is the blackiest creature
You ever could view


He rode to Jerusalem
Home of the grumpity Jews
Where false prophets are worshipped
Some even in two's


There was Murrary Von Mer
And Genghis Vo Vooze
The one you could worship
By taking a snooze


Christ spoke from a mound
Which is a pile of ground
And people gathered around
Without making a sound
And thus he spake


Sin in socks
Socks full of sin
How do we quiet this
Jehoviadin din


Do unto others as
They do unto you
That includes you
Young Timothy Foo


One pharisee said to another he knew
"What do we do with this upitty jew?"
We can wash him in wine
And make him all clean
And into Sam Zittle's
Crucifiction Machine


Twirl the gawhril
And relase the gavlease
And in go the nails
As fast as you please


And it is said that he
Said as he bled:


Forgive them Father
For they know not what they do


For they walk through this life
In toe crampity shoes.


Do you?


Amen.

Thank you kids in the hall. *purrs* I'm done.


~<3- Teh Becca
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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3530255/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3530255/ Wed, 06 Oct 2004 20:38:22 PDT Current Mood : Sad.
Current Listening : T.V. randomness
Current Viewing : Medieval History text O__O
Current Activity : CRAMING FOR A MIDTERM!!!
Love of the hour : - I adore this girl O_o her art is so beautiful

RIP
Rodney Dangerfield.
1921-2004
"I mean that's the story of my life — no respect, no respect."
Here’s hoping for some respect in the next life.


~<3- Teh Becca
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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3370317/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3370317/ Wed, 15 Sep 2004 14:17:34 PDT Current Mood : ;_; cold. Is cold a mood?
Current Listening : Crazy weird random radio music
Current Viewing : A tiny tiny room... O_o
Current Activity : Being cold, hungry and sorta bored. lol
Love of the hour : - Well.. for a while longer... because I still think she deserves more attention. ^_^

Well then hello.. long time no see *grins* ^_^ So here I am, offically a full time university student ((who has a bunch of junk to read for tomorrow, and yet does not have any of the aforementioned 'junk' with her. oh my.)) and liking it. Very much actually. ^_^ My professors are all quirky and fun in their own ways (even though I missed my first Intro to Lit class because my Prof had a heart attack O_o but he was there yesterday so *shrugs*) and the classes are nothing I can't handle. Actually, fun shall ensue in many especially since one focuses on learning to write better. I need to write better. O_o And will then take over the world. How one shall lead to another I am unsure, we'll just have to wait around and see how that all pans out.

But yeah.. friends.. they just keep, like, popping up. O_o I've been adopted by a group of people ((and apparently and quite well loved, go figure)) and therefore did not have to waste precious perving time on finding the other weirdos. I draw them too me.. I'm like Jesus or something. *grins* but yeah.. I shall send random love to Selina, Lisa, Erica, Crystal, Jamie and Val ((I adore you Val)) because I wish it so. ^__^ I have had much fun with these people being vulgar and perverted and shocking/embarressing others. All is well and good ((poor Dal boy, didn't even see it coming...)) and it must be said that I have stumbled across the anime society/club thinger... and am going to join.. and molest Val and Crystal repeatedly... possibly at the same times. O_o They like Yaoi... the like fanfiction... the OWN OODLES AND OODLES OF MANGA AND ANIME. Thusly, much love... so very very much love. ;_;

Heh, actually speaking of manga, I just finished reading a couple issues of GTO... ^_______^ I recommend it so much that it hurts me physically. *laughs* What a sick, strange, and ultimately hilarious series. Pervy guys make me smile. ^___^ And give me ideas! *now contemplates sitting next to escalators so she can see up girls skirts* eeeehehhehe.

Ok, that's it! I LOVE YOU ALL! *will submit a picture or two sometime. honest!*

~<3- Teh Becca
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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3305341/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3305341/ Tue, 07 Sep 2004 03:02:32 PDT Current Mood : Ehhh.....
Current Listening : The weather channel music
Current Viewing : The weather channel
Current Activity : Getting ready for... school..
Love of the hour : - Because I haven't seen enough of her.. and she's underappreciated!!

.. ;_;

Here I go... to my first day of University.....

I'm a little bit nervous.....

~<3- Teh Becca
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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3286948/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3286948/ Sat, 04 Sep 2004 17:08:14 PDT Current Mood : Faboo
Current Listening : “Fame”- David Bowie
Current Viewing : Galaxy Express 999
Current Activity : Draaaaaawin ^_____^
Love of the hour : - Because he takes AMAZING pictures. Oh Keith.lol.

My brother moved out today. ;_; I am le sad. .... Oh well, lol.. he's living with some friends. O_o Alex and Ethan... who are intellgent, but they're idiots. YUp.

On a plus note, I went underwear shopping today.. yaaay.

~<3- Teh Becca
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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3232368/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3232368/ Sat, 28 Aug 2004 14:03:21 PDT Current Mood : Faboo
Current Listening : “Fame”- David Bowie
Current Viewing : Galaxy Express 999
Current Activity : Draaaaaawin ^_____^
Love of the hour : - Because she's an amazing artist, and likes long comments ^^

Heeeeelloooo! *sparkle*

Guh heee. I’m in a good mood for some reason and I just thought I should share that little tidbit… *shine*

OK, so yes… had a good week… there was much drinking with Laura and Donovan ((oh Donna)) at Laura’s place along with much PS2 playing and junk… it was a good 3 days. Didn’t even cost me all that much ^^ and it was funny trying to mix beer with various things in order to make it taste not so bad… hah… vodka and orange juice with it worked nicely. ^_^

Also… I’ve never seen one person’s fridge so full of Eggs in my life… O_o… ever… I mean… holy crap Laura. ; when Donna told me there were a lot of Eggs in her Fridge I was like “pfft” because I thought maybe 5-6 cartons tops…. But NO, I open the fridge and was like “HOLY SHIT YOUR FRIDGE IS FULL OF EGGS!!!” at which point Jessica curled up in a ball while giggling (mainly because I demanded to see the chickens and took off to excitedly hunt them out) … but yeah.. like 16 cartons.. I’m serious.

Oh… and on another note… O_O

I got the ball back in my nose ring. Yay! ^__^ *is proud of herself* First try when I got back from Laura’s on a total whim…. I was like.. do do dooo… POP! HURRAH! *does the monkey, which I really did*

Kaaaaay~! That’s it! BUH-BYE!

~<3- Teh Becca
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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3202475/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3202475/ Tue, 24 Aug 2004 11:06:46 PDT Current Mood: Frustrated *eye twitch*
Current Listening: The dog barking at cars
Current Viewing: A blank T.V. screen
Current Activity: -_-; nose ring evils
Love of the hour: - Because she's sad she has to do school work ;_;

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GARRAGAGAAGRRAAAAAGGGGH! *clears throat*... ahem..

Well here's the thing. I went to change my nose ring so I popped the little ball out and got my other rings out... but then I discovered that the opening of my current ring is just too small for me to take it out.. ... but that's not really the problem.. the PROBLEM is the fact that the god damned little BALL thing at fits into the aforementioned small space WON'T GET ITS LITTLE BALL ASS BACK IN. O___< *eyetwitch* for the last hour or so I've been trying to shove that little son of a bitch back into its place but nooooooooo it doesn't WANT to fit and I'm going to rip the bastard right out in a minute (no I'm not because I'm a sissy and that would hurt)

....................... ................ *sighs*... poo.

Oh well, on another note the RP and I created is all ready for actual recruiting ((as in, all the information and is up and working and we're accepting players..)) so here's the new site.

[link] <-- click me...

And on a HAPPY note, cool shows are on again on the Family Channel. I.E.: The little Mermaid, Aladdin, Herculesand some other fun stuff I use to love when I was younger *big dorky Aladdin fan* ^___^

Well, that's all for now ;_; *goes off to continue wrestling with her nose ring*

~<3- Teh Becca
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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3180664/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3180664/ Sat, 21 Aug 2004 20:19:13 PDT Current Mood: Amused... and hyper. O-o
Current Listening: The Mamas and the Papas- Dream a little dream
Current Viewing: Superman
Current Activity: Working on a site.. -_-;
Love of the hour: - because I mote it be. :3

^^ Hello again faithful campers.

So here I am, sitting around on Saturday drawing and coding when Superman comes on the Space network. Of course I watch it because I spend most of my day time hours emersed in the fine programing the Space network provides. However, as I watch this movie with partial attention and mild interest one thing occurs to me.

My GOD Superman is such a douche.

No.. I'm serious, like.. he's the world's biggest douche (second only to Tom Cruise and George W.)...

He's all goody goody and boyscout-ish. He's nice to everyone and is all "I never drink and fly" Fuck you. If every piolet this way of the pacific does it, SO do you and you know it. *wrings imaginary neck* I mean, he's just... so... so... ANNOYING. He's not even cool like Batman (all dark with is super angst powers and crippling emotional issues. He's dark and scary and CLASSIC... Gotham city? Creepiest place ever. Superman doesn't have to deal with an insane asylum in HIS douche-y city) or the Flash (I'm obsessed with the Flash and Impuse. Something about happy, hyperactive, goofy men always wins my heart).. he's suppose to be the BEST hero ever and yet am I the only one who notices the CONSTANT kicking of his ass? lol.. he's like Goku from DBZ. He's suppose to be all powerful and amazing but the writers keep digging these poorly thrown together characters out of their collective asses that just, surprise suprise, happen to be even MORE powerful! And *gasp* He has to find some way to prevail!

Good has to win.. obviously. (another reason why I love me some Bat/bat family. They're not all that 'good')

But this rant is pretty much pointless so if it amused you in anyway I'm glad. *laughs* Sometimes I just have to ramble out my thoughts and this was one of these times. *grins* and to tell you the truth, this is only the beginning of a rant.. I mean, this could have gone on forever... but I digress. ^^

ANYHOO, other point for me making a new journal entry! [link] <--- WHORE-AGE! *laughs insanely* yeah.. whoreing the new RP Miru and I have created. That link is the TEMP site and it's isn't totally done but the rules, setting, application, characters and soon other sections all have actual information on them at the moment. Don't get me wrong, the other sections WORK, they just don't have stuff on them in a manner of speaking. But YEAH! *chibi eyes* If you like RPing, join? *lip quiver* lol... and if you have any questions, just note me!

I think that's it for now. *smiles like the dink she is* Duuh hur hur hurr. BYE!

EDIT: Didn't want to change the entry because my superman ramble entertains me. But yeah. I just got back from seeing Alien V.s Predator.

GO SEE IT.

Go. I'm serious.

lol.. well -I- liked it. Though there's something horribly wrong with me *stares* I'm in love with the Predator (the main one in the movie). In LOAF with him I say ;_; *glomps Predator and molests him* loaf. *sighs contently* ^___^ I can't help it... I have problems.... ;;;

Ok that's it *remains latched on to her Predator while he looks increasinly uncomfortable, confused.. and ready to kill*

<3 - Teh Becca
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]]> ~beccasai http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3127316/ http://beccasai.deviantart.com/journal/3127316/ Sat, 14 Aug 2004 20:54:44 PDT Current Mood: Haaaaappy and I know it *claps her hands*
Current Listening: David Bowie - Golden Years
Current Viewing: The Exorcist on Showcase ^^
Current Activity: Chatting and contemplating drawing....
Love of the hour:

Well... I just really wanted the angry rant off my page. lol. ^_^ So don't feel the need to comment on this entry or anything.. tis just a ramble.

I'm feeling productive lately.. in the last couple days I've submitted three FULL deviations.. colored and with backgrounds and everything! Heh, yay me. *feels this is not the end of the productivity, but it might be.. so .. y'know.. knocks on wood*

On another note.. I've decided I have FAR too many active characters so I am offically retiring many of them.. though alot of the retire-ees you guys haven't even seen so it doesn't matter ^__^ but yeah.. some of them are just.. retired now and can go to the bishie bishoujo harem in the sky. ^___^

Heh... I'm considering entering the two contests is having this month.. but like.. yeah.. one is easy but the other.. I'm finding hard. *stares* did you know I have like maybe.. TWO yaoi pairings (like.. offical) of my own? And one doesn't exist any more and the other involves retired characters... *stares more* it's WEIRD.. but yeah.. I need to get some pairings ((I don't even have any RP pairings with other people anymore!! What's the world coming to!? *sobs*)) Oh well! *giggles*

I'm going back to eating my pop tart.... toodles!

Love y'all!
~Teh Super!Becca

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