Features of some people I know IRL! In no particular order.

Features of some people I don't know IRL! In no particular order.




So, first things first. Do things look a little...shinier? Yeah, that would be due to a one-month subscription courtesy of the famous $Heidi. Famous and awesome. Thanks so much for dropping by, commenting, and making my journal shinier! I think I'll be updating this a little more frequently now because of the shiny, and because....




It's summertime! How do I know this? For the following reasons:

1) I'm racing through entire seasons of tv shows in 2-day marathons.

2) There's an absurd amount of sunlight and I'm back to my age old dilemma: do I intentionally tan so I become a nice burnt golden color? Or do I avoid the sun so I don't get egregious tan lines? I only see the sun when I'm going to and from school, and I can not have tan lines for my friend's wedding on July 18th, so I am avoiding the sun.

3) Speaking of dilemmas, I'm a little over this one, but I was debating whether I should cut my hair to a cute little bob. It's a somewhat annual thing for me. I grow my hair out during the winter and cut it chin length in the summer; rinse and repeat (aha, pun unintended!). I'm growing my hair out, because it's been awhile since it's been this long, but I do wonder if I should get it cut before the wedding (hey, there will be pictures! Must look decent!).

4) Now that I have all the time in the world, I've lost all my inspiration for projects I'd been working on earlier. That sculpture I alluded to in the last journal (wow, three months ago)? Lying face down on the table. The short story I'd been writing? Untouched in months. Reason number 1, it appears, exacerbates the situation.

But that doesn't mean I haven't been doing anything, art-wise, which leads me to....





]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/24013977/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/24013977/ Wed, 01 Apr 2009 20:39:53 PDT
It takes a long time though, and I work on it a little at a time. I just hope it doesn't look ridiculously dumb at the end of the day. Not to mention, like, three of you will even care.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/22972625/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/22972625/ Mon, 02 Feb 2009 20:00:08 PST
Need to stop Being Impatient, stop Being Restless, need to stop Wanting Inspiration But Not Wanting To Sit Still Enough To Let It Flow Through Me.

Need to stop loading the same pages over and over again, hoping that something new has been uploaded to occupy 10 minutes of my life, 5 minutes of my life, 30 seconds of my life.

I need to harness the narration in my head, picking up words and trying them out like pieces in a puzzle with an unknown final product. I need to focus my energies in something--an outlet of words or art or artsy words or wordy art, or poseur poetry-prose. I need to train my stream of consciousness into a waterfall of beautiful language.

I need to stop relying on the same tired cliches over and over and over and over again. I need to find new words, new emotions.

But more than I need that, I need to stop wasting my time writing stories that won't ever amount to anything.


Don't worry--this sounds infinitely more emo than I am right now.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/22056943/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/22056943/ Thu, 18 Dec 2008 20:44:35 PST
I made a list of things I wanted to draw, but now I don't want to draw them anymore.

I'm two years late on this, but I keep listening to the SNL video Dick in a Box, because it's sorta hilarious, and it's totally in the style of early 90s R&B ballads--the ones I absolutely love.

Well. Anyways. As you were. Just wanted to get rid of the angry entry before, because Macbook is back on my good side.


Also: Wolverine trailer is out: [link] I watched it several times when I found out. Daniel Henney isn't some minor character! He actually has a line in the trailer. (~samrhodes, he's the pretty Korean American boy I posted once in my lj long ago.) Gambit's also in the trailer, but he looks not hot. D: But there's a glimpse of Emma Frost, and maybe a young Storm, so whoooo!

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/21807192/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/21807192/ Wed, 03 Dec 2008 20:48:44 PST can crash on you.

Especially when you are doing a portrait that has never ever worked for you in the past, and it's finally coming together, and you haven't saved anything yet because it had started out as a sketch that you weren't sure would become anything.

I guess you were right--it didn't become anything.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/21731174/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/21731174/ Sat, 29 Nov 2008 12:57:26 PST
I'd still thank watches and multiple favorites, but the lone favorite for a piece that I don't care for at all...just...doesn't seem worth it, y'know?

In other news...

Why hasn't Christmas really begun for me, yet? I was so adamant about Christmas beginning on Black Friday and not a day sooner, but now that it's Christmas season, and I am ready for my month of Christmas cheer, no Christmas cheer is to be had for me.

So maybe there will be no Christmas cards, no Christmas presents, no Christmas trees, no Christmas decorations from me this year.

Maybe after loving the story and the animation so much, I've actually turned into the Grinch.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/21306798/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/21306798/ Mon, 03 Nov 2008 19:03:26 PST
Goals in life: learn to sing. Don't fail out of graduate school.

Working on the former. Working a little less on the latter.

Huh.

Does anyone remember the days when I had a list of art people owed me at the end of every journal? Man. That list was ridiculously long. And I never received the art.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/20365227/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/20365227/ Sat, 06 Sep 2008 21:15:01 PDT
Is art inherently elitist (like beauty)? Beauty is almost by definition something rare, and that in combination with its value by most people makes it an elitist concept. Is art similar? It is certainly valued by most, but what is art? It's something I've never answered.

Can one find art in the common? Can one find beauty in the common, like how the really pretentious, pseudo-intellectual Ricky Fitts from American Beauty finds a bag floating in the wind to be incredibly beautiful? Is a 5 year old's portrait of his family art? Is a grid of lines with selective boxes colored in art? Is splattering paint on a blank canvas art?

If art is indeed elitist, then which is valued more: the end or the means? If art is beautiful, does the means by which it was created matter? To what extent?


And now the crux: where does digital art fit into this? Because someone with little artistic talent can create something amazing digitally but can't draw for beans traditionally, is the digital art therefore not as impressive?

Does Ctrl-Z negate art?

Just ponderings while I procrastinate.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/19325539/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/19325539/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 06:03:57 PDT
It's shiny and new and I'll get used to it (curses for camping trips to separate me and my beloved internets for more than 24 hours! ::so addicted:: ), but does anyone else wish that they'd give us a heads up that it's happening? Like, just a day in advance. Like, "Hey, we're going to screw with the way you've gotten used to things. You'll hate it at first, because everyone hates change at first, and you'll read about 39240581 journals about the change, but that's alright, because we gave you a heads up." Oh and maybe a "When you first load the page, it'll load what's in your cache, so it'll look like the moment you click on your message center, we bombarded the site with explosions of shiny. Heads up." Apparently, that's actually intentional. Well dang.

In art related news, I promise I'm working on something. I bet it's something that most of you don't care to see, but it's just taking me forever. So busy with real life. Hint: It's a portrait of a guy I've done within the last few deviations. I know, I know. Maybe I'll do something that doesn't use a grid eventually.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/19117058/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/19117058/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 20:55:49 PDT
These last few portraits I've been doing? I've been using a grid for drawing the lineart, and then coloring over it.

I've always thought using a grid was sort of cheating--isn't the grid system how they teach art to people who aren't remotely artistic?

And now, I'm scared I can't draw without a grid. Or that I can't draw anything good.

Thoughts? Is using a grid to draw cheating? Is it not real art? Should I label which of my pictures I use a grid on and which I don't? Or is it already obvious?

In other news, I no longer feel attraction. But I can't change the mood for some reason, right now.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/18715593/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/18715593/ Sat, 07 Jun 2008 14:20:48 PDT
Guess who's got a tablet? And it pulsates light! Sorta creepy, sorta cool.

We'll see about the art thing, though. Maybe I'll post some of the cards I've made during this really long hiatus.

Also, don't ask about the mood.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/17629387/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/17629387/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 11:03:44 PDT
Oh yeah, something art related--should I buy a new tablet with my tax return so that maybe I'll draw something considering I haven't really drawn anything in three months?




Also: what happened to my non-existent one-month sub for doing the holiday card project?

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/16637113/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/16637113/ Tue, 29 Jan 2008 23:42:47 PST
Life is very, very stressful right now, though the stress is ultimately for the better. I'm trying to not think about it (which is a bad plan).

My tablet is more dead than usual (not to mention I sorta broke one of my two USB ports, and this is after my battery died. Like actually died-wouldn't-ever-recharge-again, so I had to buy a new one). That Act 2 Scene 3 piece I did? Was done over a few hours of making sure my tablet was at the right angle. I kid you not, I had to hold my tablet at a certain angle with my left hand and draw with my right. This was after having to sustain holding the cable (forcefully!) into the USB hub to make sure the connection was working. Man, I so can't afford a new tablet right now.

Alright, it is way way too late. Just a quick update.

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
~BrokenMasque
=reba
~FalseHope04
~NariSon
~shanteru
~envy-neko
~Izaart
*Lumasan
=MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
~TsundereKit
`vest
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
~HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited...but am quickly losing faith that some of those earlier requests will ever be fulfilled.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/16093246/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/16093246/ Tue, 25 Dec 2007 12:35:30 PST
And yet I'm posting one. Ohhh the irony.

I hope you are all safe and well and feeling loved this Christmas (my absolute favorite time of the year...except I had too early of a start on Christmas songs this year, so I'm a little Christmas song'd out. ). I told my mother that the reason Santa didn't come to our house this year (aside from the fact that we have no tree for him to put anything under, anyways), is because we have a gas fireplace. He probably tried to come in and didn't want to break the glass. That, and because she wouldn't let me make cookies last night for him.

Of course, I think Santa Claus is a pedophile....that's another story.

I'd been feeling like I shouldn't say Merry Christmas, because it probably sucks for all the people who don't celebrate Christmas to have to hear it all the time...but y'know, what? I celebrate Christmas, and just by expressing the fact that I do by no means indicates that you ought to celebrate it too. There's being polite, and then there's not actually standing up for what you believe in, and I would hate to ever fall into the latter.

On a lighter note...
Who had a white Christmas this year? It snowed Saturday night, but the snow is mostly melted now. Anyone have awesome plans for today? I am going to make oatmeal chocolate chip cookies this afternoon, and then I'm going to bake a cornish game hen for dinner! Man...I am too excited for that. <_____<

And now, another quote from A Charlie Brown Christmas:
Lucy Van Pelt: I know how you feel about all this Christmas business, getting depressed and all that. It happens to me every year. I never get what I really want. I always get a lot of stupid toys or a bicycle or clothes or something like that.
Charlie Brown: What is it you want?
Lucy Van Pelt: Real estate.

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
*BrokenMasque
=reba
~FalseHope04
~NariSon
~shanteru
~envy-neko
~Izaart
~Lumasan
=MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
~TsundereKit
`vest
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
~HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited...but am quickly losing faith that some of those earlier requests will ever be fulfilled.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/15785798/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/15785798/ Mon, 03 Dec 2007 20:45:18 PST
Blah, sorry for the lack of art. My life is going to be crazy for the next two weeks: I am applying to graduate schools, working on my thesis, taking finals, and trying to graduate (I'm gonna carry my department's banner! I hope it's not heavy...).

No one got my kiriban, but I guess that's alright because I don't have time right now to do it. Maybe I'll take some requests when I've got my B.S. (ha, as if that has anything to do with it).

Anyway, I'm just procrastinating. I don't have anything to actually say here.

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
*BrokenMasque
=reba
~FalseHope04
~NariSon
~shanteru
~envy-neko
~Izaart
~Lumasan
=MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
~TsundereKit
`vest
~Raenstrife
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
~HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited...but am quickly losing faith that some of those earlier requests will ever be fulfilled.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/15423924/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/15423924/ Thu, 08 Nov 2007 17:21:05 PST
Getting closer to kiriban, I guess. I'm still like 400 pageviews away, and I haven't posted much recently. I have vague ideas, but I always think "I'm too busy to actually sit down and draw this" or "Hoping my tablet will work is such a pain". Seriously, my tablet issues are making me avoid doing digital art, and I don't really like (or have time for) traditional art anymore.

So what have I been doing instead? Well, indulging in my current obsessions, of course! DBSK, still (because they release some new video or song crazy-often so it's hard to ease up on them, not that I really want to right now anyway), and a new show! Pushing Daisies! So cute, so clever! I want to quote the entire script all the time, because I just love the wittiness. It's very stylized and I've read comparisons to fairytales Tim Burton-style (but the colors are highly saturated, so like, if Tim Burton was a happier man). It's pretty awesome.

Man, I have no clue what the point of this post is.

Who's gonna do the Holiday Card Project? [link]

And anyone have any ideas for what my Christmas card should be for this year?
2005's card: [link] with [link] on the back.
2006's card: [link]
2007's card: ........?


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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
*BrokenMasque
~MsMiyavi
=reba
~FalseHope04
~NariSon
~shanteru
~envy-neko
~Izaart
~Lumasan
=MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
~TsundereKit
`vest
~Raenstrife
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
~HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited...but am quickly losing faith that some of those earlier requests will ever be fulfilled.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/14661483/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/14661483/ Sun, 16 Sep 2007 14:52:01 PDT
Anyway, party! It's my birthday! Happy birthday to me! Or something.

I have a lot of work to do these couple of days, actually (a test that I need to go study for now). I just wanted to update and say: Kiriban at 10,000 pageviews! Whee, I thought this day would never come! And well, I'm over a 1000 away, so it might still never come...but if it does, and you are the one to get it, note me with a screenshot! I do have some limitations on what I'll draw, but just lemme know what you want, first.


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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
~BrokenMasque
=phoenixelement
=MsMiyavi
*reba
~FalseHope04
~NariSon
~shanteru
~envy-neko
~Izaart
~Lumasan
=MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
~TsundereKit
`vest
~Raenstrife
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
~HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/14447256/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/14447256/ Sat, 01 Sep 2007 20:55:19 PDT
And I was going to offer a kiriban for 10,000 pageviews.

As a silly and unnecessary update to the last journal: I have read the last Harry Potter (expected a little more from the Snape plotline in terms of what his motivation was), seen Stardust (which I had a blast at), and Pirates of the Caribbean 3 (I dressed up as a "pirate" and ohemgee Mark Hildreth had the opening lines).

It is ridiculously hard for me to get back into the school thing, and yet oh so important this year, more than most.

It probably doesn't help that I have a new obsession (see my "listening to")...(this entry's full of irony) I sorta told myself I would never get into DBSK. Never say never, I guess. >___<

Should I post my sad Facebook graffiti, just to post something? Or is not worth it?

::flails in despair::

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
=MsMiyavi
*reba
~FalseHope04
~NariSon
~shanteru
~envy-neko
~Izaart
~Lumasan
=MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
~TsundereKit
`vest
~Raenstrife
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
~HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/13851923/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/13851923/ Mon, 23 Jul 2007 21:23:45 PDT samrhodes). I had to look up whether Harry Potter dies or not on Wikipedia, but beyond that, I'm trying to remain spoiler free just because if I had read the whole synopsis, I'd have less incentive to actually read that book.

Meh, enough Harry Potter for this post.

I'm back from my vacation, and I had a blast. But I also didn't draw anything aside from Facebook graffiti (and I even stuffed my huge, really old scanner into my bag!). D:

In other news, I saw Hairspray and it had the best previews. Okay, well I can only remember it showing trailers for Stardust and The Golden Compass, but I remember it having almost all really exciting trailers. I'm excited for a lot of movies this fall: Penelope, Enchanted, Becoming Jane, _{High School Musical 2}, and the aforementioned two. There are a few movies I haven't seen yet (Pirates, Spiderman, Transformers, namely), but I'm sure the Student Union will have those for free this fall. Or they better! Anyone else excited for these movies (or have movies of their own they're excited for that they think I should also be excited for)?

I'm trying to get into the art mood. I'll try to post something...eventually. I'm just sorta sad that the summer's winding down and am scrambling to do all the things I was supposed to earlier . I'm not really all that gloomy, but that's a pretty cool emoticon.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/13696161/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/13696161/ Wed, 11 Jul 2007 13:40:04 PDT

Apparently you multiply the number of x's by 4.

[ ] You don't like public speaking.
[ x ] You find it hard to talk to strangers.
[ x ] You don't like to look people in the eye.
[ ] You hate using public restrooms.
[ ] You hate to go shopping alone.
[ x ] Being introduced to new people makes you nervous
[ x ] When you're in a group of people, it's difficult to think of what to say
[ x ] You have some trouble talking to the sex you prefer
[ x ] You hate answering the phone
[ ] You can't stand people watching you.
[ x ] One on one conversation makes you nervous.
[ x ] You don't like to ask people for help.
[ ] You hate to read out loud
[ x ] You don't like answering questions.
[ x ] You are uncomfortable at parties, unless you know everyone well.
[ x ] You don't like to talk, because you're afraid of being embarrassed by what you say.
[ x ] You wish you were more outgoing.
[ ] You hate being in the center of any room.
[ x ] You don't know how to react to compliments.
[ x ] You prefer reading, writing, or listening to music than being around TOO many people.
[ x ] You blush easily.
[ x ] You spend a lot of time in your room
[ ] You don't like talking about personal things

My shyness score is 16 x 4 = 64%. Oy.

I'm SO excited for my vacation on Saturday! SCORE.

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
*reba
~FalseHope04
~NariSon
~shanteru
~envy-neko
~Izaart
~Lumasan
=MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
~TsundereKit
`vest
~Raenstrife
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
~HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/13233324/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/13233324/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 20:58:53 PDT ), so new webcam picture! It is the same furniture, in case you stalk me and were like "That's the same pull-out desk function from her old webcam picture!"

So today, I went to the dollar theater (it was 50 cent Tuesday!) and saw 300 (by myself because everyone else saw it without me). I am so late on this, but AWESOME MOVIE (aside from the implications in the simplistic East/West dichotomy). I am trying to make a comic on it...but have reached an obstacle in my drawing ability. Oh well. I'll try again tomorrow.

Out of things to say!

Oh, but no, I'm not Daoist.

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
*reba
~FalseHope04
~NariSon
~shanteru
~envy-neko
~Izaart
~Lumasan
*MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
~TsundereKit
`vest
~Raenstrife
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
~HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/12976157/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/12976157/ Wed, 16 May 2007 10:33:41 PDT
It's summertime! Yayyy. What're you all up to? Summer job? Summer school? Summer lovin'? I don't have poll options anymore, so I can't have a snazzy poll. Oh well, so it goes. I'm crazy-poor this summer and can afford a subscription even less than before because I, for the first time, have to pay for my own rent and food. Le gasp! I've been so pampered, and I am sad about this fact.

As such, I will be working...nothing too fancy, and nothing that pertains to my planned career, but it will hopefully pay the bills and I won't starve this summer.

Should I set up a kiriban for 10,000? It's still way far away, but no one ever seems to want my art. Except for really random people who collect free art from random artists.

Rambly rambly. Oh and by the by, I'm not an alcoholic or anything...I just really like the 60s feel of this song.

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
*reba
~FalseHope04
~NariSon
~shanteru
~envy-neko
~Izaart
~Lumasan
*MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
~TsundereKit
`vest
~Raenstrife
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
*HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/12689197/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/12689197/ Sun, 22 Apr 2007 09:08:48 PDT edit: If I keep editing this post, will the journal enhancements not disappear? I thought they went away when one's subscription ended...
Nevermind. The thumbnails disappeared. But why is there still a background image and whatnot? Well, I guess that box disappeared.

Okay, I don't know what I'm talking about. Time for a new entry altogether!

BAH. I tried to post this last night and then deviantart went all read-only mode on me. BOO.

So ~reba and ~Amarevia were ridiculously sweet and decided to feature me in their journals, without my shameless request to be plugged. In an attempt to return the favor, I am featuring the two of them in my journal. They are both amazing artists with a bajillion times more skill than I have, so go to their sites, because these thumbnails are just not enough.

(~Amarevia)



(~reba)



Just a small sampling of their jaw-droppingly awesome work. Go go! Leave wonderful comments!

...now I'm going to try out this footer business. And make a new devID.

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
~FalseHope04
~NariSon
~shanteru
~envy-neko
~Izaart
*Lumasan
*MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
~TsundereKit
`vest
~Raenstrife
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
=HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be.
... ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/12476885/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/12476885/ Thu, 05 Apr 2007 22:09:08 PDT paladinknight for giving me an excuse to replace that lame journal entry.

The rules are as follows: "leave a comment and I'll give you a letter;
then you have to list 10 things you like starting with that letter. Post them in your journal and give out new letters to your commenters in turn."

*paladinknight's letter was T, so I thought her journal was about me, but it wasn't. My letter is F. So in no particular order...

1. Fangirling. I do it too often.
2. Fall, as in autumn. Because that's when my birthday is.
3. Facetiousness. I engage in it less than I used to, though.
4. Frederic Chopin's Revolutionary Etude in C Minor. Listen to it here: [link]
5. Fairytales--I used to be a pro at telling bedtime fairytales. Enough that I gave a speech on how to tell bedtime stories.
6. Fei Lun Hai or Fahrenheit. Uh...I guess. They have very little singing talent, and a couple of them act so-so, but they're so pretty! And I miss boybands.
7. Felicity the American Girl. My favorite when I was a kid was Addy, but later I loved Felicity.
8. Fountains. I...don't know what else to say about them.
9. Frankenstein by Mary Shelley. I really liked that book.
10. France because I was part of the French Model UN team in high school, and I love French jokes.

I wish I knew more words that started with F. And weren't curse words, you silly!

Your turn! Add a comment to get a letter!

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
~NariSon
~shanteru
~envy-neko
~Izaart
~Lumasan
*MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
~TsundereKit
`vest
~Raenstrife
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
*HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/12328697/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/12328697/ Sun, 25 Mar 2007 20:40:07 PDT Yeah, I realized that the titles for my journal must not really motivate people to read my journals, because they're usually song lyrics from whatever obscure song is in my Listening To.

So I gave up on that pimpage journal, because as per usual, no one wanted to get pimp'd. That's fine, your loss. It's time for an update anyway; it's been a month.

Of course I have nothing I really want to share that might be of minimal interest to anyone. Except, I'm surprisingly sad that my subscription is ending in a month. It's an entire month away, but I've gotten so used to the thumbnails and all that. But I really shouldn't be spending the money (and the subsequent time) on getting myself a subscription, so I guess this is a moot point anyway. I was considering changing my journal layout, but instead, I watched another Asian drama, so I didn't and therefore probably won't again. Ah well, this is good enough for the next month.

Gosh, I really have nothing to say. I guess I'm done then.

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
~NariSon
~shanteru
~envy-neko
~Izaart
~Lumasan
*MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
~notlabeled
~TsundereKit
*vest
~Raenstrife
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
*HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/11962024/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/11962024/ Sun, 25 Feb 2007 13:51:28 PST (I must admit I like the old school Christina Aguilera thing...risque though the song may be, Candyman is just fun. I love the music video--the 40s are my favorite decade, how could I not??)

Aight, new journal entry for the purpose of pimpage. I have been featured in ~Kiki02's journal, so I'm paying it forward and doing another feature thing.

First ten people get 2 features. Please only art--I don't particularly want to read your fanfiction about your OC. Also, if you were in the other feature that occurred earlier, you are not eligible for this one. If you dont' remember if you were featured or not, visit journal link: [link]

edit: Just as a disclaimer, the two pictures I choose are ones that I think are technically well done, just aesthetically pleasing, or amusing. So...yeah. I also tried to pick pictures that would look good as thumbnails (i.e. something that makes people wanna click on it). So I may not have necessarily chosen what you think is your best work. I also tried to stay away from collaborations cuz...wait a second, why do I even have to defend myself?

Slots are here:
1. (~Mairelyn)

2. (*TerraForever)

3. (~samrhodes)

4. (~xairylle)

5. (~Kiki02)
http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/11805740/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/11805740/ Mon, 19 Feb 2007 21:01:12 PST
edit: WHOA. DUDE, it's always said May 4th, 2007 for subscription expiration date?? I've never noticed that. I thought it said March 4th. I was so confused because I got the subscription for the Holiday Card Project and I was pretty sure everyone gets one month for sending in a card. So I did some minimal research and OH EM GEE! [link] I got randomly selected to get a three month subscription! Wow, I can't believe it took me this long to figure that out. I lose...and yet, I still win! Ah I'm so excited. You know what this means: more CSSing!

New layout, so I figured it's time for a completely new journal entry. (By the by, template found here [link] by =ghostlove but [link] by *tekitsune is also good).

Anyway, I got tagged by *TerraForever for that six weird habits/hates/things/whatever about you meme. Sadly, I have too many idiosyncracies, but I'll try to come up with ones that I won't be too embarrassed to share online. Alright, I guess I'll just start.

1. I can't wink or raise one eyebrow. It's like I don't have enough muscles in my face or something, but I just can't do it. Believe me, I've tried.

2. When I sleep, I like to have a huge pillow on my head. This is really weird, I know. I like the weight, and the darkness.

3. I prefer to be on the right side of people, like when I'm walking in a group of friends. Well, more specifically, I like when people are to my left (because I like to be in the middle too). This is something I've always preferred, but I never realized how much it affects me (as in I sometimes have a feeling of incompleteness when I don't have something to my left).

4. I'm claustrophillic, in some situations. As in I like to create small spaces for myself (e.g. in this chair we have in the living room, I would put pillows to both sides of me so that there's just room for me).

5. I have a small mouth. I mean, I have big fish lips Angelina-Jolie style, but I can't open my mouth very wide. It makes biting into hamburgers and such things sorta tricksy.

6. When I was young, I used to collect rocks. Not entirely weird, I guess, when I say it like that. Except I used to collect boring rocks--the ones that were by our sidewalk. Just grey ones. Regular rocks. I have no clue why I collected them, but I had a drawer full of them and it was really hard to open that drawer cuz it was so heavy.

Should I tag people? Hmm...

Alright. I'll tag the usual: ~samrhodes, ~mirabilia387, ~kyodainahera... No one else (who hasn't already done this) reads my journal!

And oh gosh, I really wanna utilize this thumbnail thing that I can now put into journals. What to pimp, what to pimp.

Alright, gift art for me.

by *TheSpyWhoLuvedMe <--so sweet! And I didn't request it!

Actually, that's all I'm pimping for now, because it's the only gift art that I haven't requested that I've received. And it makes me so happy that I got it.

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
~NariSon
~shanteru
~envy-neko
~Izaart
~Lumasan
*MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
*notlabeled
~http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/11703005/ Sat, 10 Feb 2007 17:32:51 PST
Getting a free subscription for a month makes me ecstatic because no money went into it, yet I still reap the benefits (this is how I Feel about ipods, too. As long as no one I know paid for it, I would be totally amenable to getting a free ipod). Of course, the benefits of a subscription are really limited to thumbnail previews. And I guess, I coud awesome-ify my journal for a month, but would it be worth it?

So I am now a part of the Church of Lemon (whoaa, how did I get affiliated with that???) 1xR group thing on Yahoo. So I can guarantee you art on February 20th. As for before then...

Well, I have a new Asian drama (Hana Kimi, it's on YouTube if you wanna watch it), so I've been trying to draw something for that (not that that's art that you guys would care to see anyway, I can hear you all clamoring for fanart of some recognizable media). The problem is that the guy is too pretty. Seriously.

What is it about boybands? Despite their little-to-no talent, I fall prey to them and their ridiculous marketing to females with their good looks and mass-produced pop music. I mean, don't get me wrong, I still like good music. It's just that I like my fair share of bad pop music too (see my "Listening to" for evidence).

Alright. On to read for class (BOO) and then watch the latest episode of Hana Kimi (YAY).

edith gosh, I have no clue what I'm doing with this CSS thing...okay, maybe I should work on the website I'm supposed to be doing...

edit: Alright, here goes. This is my new (and improved?) journal layout. Really, I just wanted something green, because there hasn't been enough green-loving in my gallery lately. I think I accomplished the greenifying of my page. The design sorta sucks...but I was also sorta dying from the terrible design of this website I'm making (it looks pretty amateur, I must say...I don't know how to improve it, either). Anyway, I tried to look up tutorials, but it wasn't until I found this template [link] by =ghostlove that I finally got it to look somewhat like I wanted it to. Also, [link] by *tekitsune would have been good too, I think. Maybe I'll modify this journal though. Make it look less...weird. Yayyy pretty green!

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
~NariSon
~shanteru
~envy-neko
~Izaart
~Lumasan
*MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
*notlabeled
~TsundereKit
*vest
~Raenstrife
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
*HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/11558631/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/11558631/ Wed, 24 Jan 2007 21:08:53 PST
Ugh, of course I can't think of anything to write. I'm sick. I'm not particularly excited for any classes this semester. And I haven't been drawing.

I realized that I have posted everything I've drawn since, I dunno, June? And that's pretty ridiculous, because that means I don't sketch anymore, or come up with just random stuff that isn't really meant for others. I draw with the intention of posting, instead of drawing because I really feel like it. The last two pictures were ones that I really wanted to draw and couldn't wait to put down on paper. But I'm sorta disheartened by the fact that my Heroes picture is getting so much attention, because I really wasn't into finishing it, or spending a lot of time on it.

Oh well, so it goes.

Now to study for my quiz tomorrow.

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
~shanteru
~envy-neko
~Izaart
~Lumasan
*MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
~rukia-shinigami
~notlabeled
~TsundereKit
*vest
~Raenstrife
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
*HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/11153382/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/11153382/ Fri, 22 Dec 2006 17:44:02 PST
First, off: Merry Christmas! Or Happy Holidays if you prefer, but I celebrate Christmas, and this is my journal...

I'm about 16 hours from people I want to be with, barely surviving dial-up, and I'm supposed to be studying for the GRE and reading Evolution textbooks this break, but otherwise, things are surprisingly okay. Maybe because I checked my grades today...

Anyway, time for a new journal. I haven't done this meme, and the songs from Avenue Q are just too funny to not do this, so...

It's one of those take-a-CD-and-answer-the-questions-using-song-titles-only memes. Some of these aren't true, just funny/sorta answer the question.

1. Are you a boy or a girl?
If You Were Gay

2. Describe yourself
I'm Not Wearing Underwear Today

3. What do people think about you?
Everyone's a Little Bit Racist

4. How would you describe your last love relationship?
You Can Be As Loud As The Hell You Want (When You're Making Love)

5. Describe your actual love situation
It Sucks to be Me

6. Where do you want to be now?
I Wish I Could Go Back to College

7. What do you think about love?
The Internet is For Porn

8. How is your life like?
There is Life Outside Your Apartment

9. What would you ask for if you could make a wish?
Purpose

10. Write a wise phrase
What Do You Do With a BA in English?

I tag everyone I know in real life. Which means no one will do it. Because my real-life-friends don't really read my journal (with the exception of ~samrhodes who may not read this one for awhile).

Anyone want an art trade?

Anyway, everyone have a great whatever-it-is-you-celebrate!

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
~envy-neko
~Izaart
~Lumasan
*MeGoSa
~Admon-Keida
~rukia-shinigami
~notlabeled
~TsundereKit
*vest
~Raenstrife
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
*HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/10814845/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/10814845/ Tue, 12 Dec 2006 10:01:26 PST [edit] Done! Go see all these pieces of art!

Alright, I don't think I'll ever get 10 people to sign up for the feature. So I'm changing it to 5. Sorry.

Hey everyone, I recommend checking out [link] (it's about the current state of DA). I think it says a lot of what non-DA-popular artists feel and I think it has a lot of interesting points. Not that I agree with everything it says, though. Just food for thought. Lemme know what you think about it! (It's a little long, but you could get the point if you skimmed.)

First off, Happy Thanksgiving! I am thankful for a) having relatively good physical health (though I could always lose a few pounds), b) my middle-class socio-economic status (i.e. having parents to give me money for food), and c) oh-em-gee the (high-speed) Internets. I can't imagine my life without it.

Okay, so I've been featured on the journals of =kaitouace and *AmayaKouryuu, so I am now going to feature others.

This is gonna be sorta lame because I'm not a subscriber (how cool would it be to be one of those really popular artists who have random watchers buy subscriptions for them?? HINT HINT. j/k) so I can't have thumbnails in my journal. So you'll have to make do with a quick description and a link.

So, this is how we're gonna do it: first ten people will get one of their pieces featured here. Please please don't make me read stories or something though, I'd like to feature art and don't have time to read all of your Inuyasha fanfiction to pick one to feature.

Here are the slots:

1. The composition of [link] is great. The lighting from below is done really well, which to me is commendable because that's a really hard thing for me to do.
2. [link] has some really gorgeous and vibrant colors. The details in the hair and the eyes are pretty impressive.
3. Okay, so I must admit, I've followed Jensen Ackles' career since his Days of Our Lives days (...of his life?). And I will gleefully say "Jensen Ackles!" whenever I see him on tv. [link] is a great portrait of him. Especially the jacket. Go ooh and ahh over that.
4. I LOVE Kyouya, and while I'm not a Kyouya/Tamaki fan, I still love [link] because Kyouya looks so elegant. It's sketchy, and there are other amazing pieces in ~ShaoranKun's gallery, so check out the other art too.
5. [link] has really great lineart and composition. I love Ed wearing these clothes, and ~Fariska did an amazing job with this. The lighting and the almost monochromatic look is really awesome. Check out the rest of her gallery if you get a chance.


Yay! Hope everyone has a great break! Go eat a turkey! Or a tofurkey, if you are a vegetarian!

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
=el-kenshin
... ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/10480970/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/10480970/ Mon, 06 Nov 2006 19:20:48 PST [edit] YAY! I'm finally done with these requests. Now on to things I wanted to work on. Of course, I'd wanted to do things like a Virgo piece (but it's no longer Virgo season) and a Halloween piece (but it's no longer Halloween season). I guess I could, what, do a turkey? No thanks.

Okay, so I missed my one year anniversary here on deviantart. Alas. Oh well. I can't believe it's been a year. Thanks to everyone for being...awesome!

Also, there is ONE slot left for free art. Anyone want it? Anyone? Anyone? (Someone better fill in the rest of that movie quote or...nothing will happen).

Yayy, all slots are taken. No more free art! My art is in demand! Wheeeeee. Okay. As you were.

Free Art Slots:
1. -- 3 fluffy pandae in a pile DONE! [link]
2. -- her OC Shima and Sesshoumaru DONE! [link]
3. -- who knows; that ho, she won't tell me! a picture of the two of us, because we are, in a word, awesome. DONE! [link]
4. -- OC DONE! [link]
5. -- Artist's choice?! a girl with awesome costume/accessories DONE! [link]
6. -- OC Sayuri DONE! [link]
7. -- Chibi Sailor Mars and Jupiter DONE! [link]
8. -- Riku in a blindfold DONE! [link]
9. -- OC Revenge DONE! [link]
10. -- OC Kali Melantha DONE! [link]

Gahh, okay. There it is. Have at the commenting box.

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
~rukia-shinigami
~notlabeled
~TsundereKit
~vest
~An-Asian-girl [link]
=FellyChan [link]
~Maulsypaulsy
*Nefis[link]
=http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/10157517/ Sun, 24 Sep 2006 13:36:14 PDT Mood: Tired, but wanting to do a lot of things. Namely draw. But I won't.
Listening to: Clay Aiken - A Thousand Days
Reading: The High School Musical novelization
Watching: Antitrust and Shakespeare in Love

EDIT: Okay okay. So it turns out that I am partaking in altogether too many free art pay-it-forward schemes to NOT also pay-it-forward. I had avoided doing this, because it depresses me when I don't get requests, but here goes. First ten people to comment me get a request (oh geez, ten?! Aagh that's so many!). I can't guarantee when I'll finish them, and I do have limitations (e.g. nothing naughty!), but I feel obligated to the art community to do this (that, and apparently, ~Nefis won't start my piece until this is posted in my journal. o.O).

Free Art Slots:
1. -- 3 fluffy pandae in a pile DONE! [link]
2. -- her OC Shima and Sesshoumaru DONE! [link]
3. -- who knows; that ho, she won't tell me! a picture of the two of us, because we are, in a word, awesome. DONE! [link]
4. -- OC
5. -- Artist's choice?! a girl with awesome costume/accessories
6. -- OC Sayuri
7. -- Chibi Sailor Mars and Jupiter
8.
9.
10.

Gahh, okay. There it is. Have at the commenting box.
END EDIT

Tagged by
Name - Tea....
Piercings - One per ear, but I usually wear the same earrings.
Tattoos - Only henna tattoos, but none at the moment.
Height - 5'2" if I'm wearing half-inch flip flops
Shoe Size - 7 <--I know, I might as well be a hobbit.
Hair Color - Black and white and grey and silver. Which makes it sound a lot cooler than it is. Not that it's not totally awesome.
Siblings - Two.

Do:
You have a crush on someone - Maybe. (No.)
you wish you could live somewhere else - Yeah, sometimes.
you think about suicide - Mmnot in relevance to me.
you believe in online dating - No, not really.
others find you attractive - I wish they did.
you want more piercings - No, I rarely wear earrings so I don't have a need for more piercings.
you like cleaning - No. I like being organized, but there's a difference.
you like roller coasters - I dunno, it's been like 8 years since I've been on one. But I used to have a love/hate relationship with them.
you write in cursive or print - Print.

For or against:
long distance relationships - Against.
suicide - Against.
killing people - Against.
teenage smoking - Against.
driving drunk - Against.
gay/lesbian relationships - Um.
soap operas - For. Except I'm less a fan of American soap operas, though I did have a Days of Our Lives era.

Have you:
ever cried over a boy - I doubt it.
ever lied to someone - Yes. :-/
ever been in a fist fight - In high school, I convinced a lot of people I had, but no.
ever been arrested - Hardly.

W... ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/10090192/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/10090192/ Sat, 16 Sep 2006 11:02:04 PDT Mood: Old.
Listening to: Peter Pan - I Won't Grow Up
Reading: Research on the movie Crash
Watching: College football! and Dead Man's Chest again (for free!)

It's my birthday! I am old.

I haven't worked on any art. That watercolor painting is just...there.

I briefly considered leaving the art community because I am completely stupid and embarrass myself often.

I don't wanna grow up!

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
=kaitouace
~Raenstrife
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
*HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be. ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/9841016/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/9841016/ Mon, 04 Sep 2006 21:41:43 PDT Mood: Tired like whoa
Listening to: Jack's Mannequin - Bruised
Reading: Lots and lots of textbooks
Watching: Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon (yes, the live action version)

School started this week which has nearly killed me, but I thankfully don't have class on Fridays so I am already weekending! Sorta. I have homework due tomorrow that I need to start.

But! I have passed 2,000 pageviews! Huzzah, such a momentous occasion (not really, I guess). I didn't offer a kiriban for that because, well, no one ever cares. Anyone think I should start that up again?

I haven't had any time to draw in the past two weeks or so (except for a window painting of a couch which won't get posted here). I had worked on a watercolor piece awhile ago, but...somehow a spider got smashed on it and...I'm not sure I wanna just make the guts-that-didn't-scrape-off into an island or something. Bah, dunno.

I've been watching Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon. That is some hilarious stuff. It reminds me of my childhood because it's Sailor Moon and because it's like watching old school Power Rangers.

Um...okay. That's all. As you were.

edit: Yay, more gift art! Whee. This time, from =kaitouace. I am excited. I am also way inspired to draw stuff now, and I really shouldn't because I have been slacking off, but...we'll see.

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
=kaitouace
~Raenstrife
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
*HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be. ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/9653119/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/9653119/ Wed, 09 Aug 2006 20:37:58 PDT Mood: Trying really hard to familiarize myself with the new deviantart (I...guess that's not really a mood, is it?)
Listening to: Jesse McCartney - Right Where You Want Me
Reading: psychology articles
Watching: Brother Bear

Alright, enough of that whiney post (but thank you for being so sweet =Ludi-Price!). It's time for my two cents on the new deviantart.

So when I first saw it, I was like this:
Which soon became this:
And settled down into this:
But has elevated to this:
And I'm now on the verge of this:

I hope to one day become like this:

Nah, it's not that bad. I like it, mostly, which is strange because I usually hate change. I'm wondering how long it will take to get used to where everything is. I'm sorta annoyed that this changing of deviantart seems to attempt to be an annual thing because I think improvements should be made as they are needed and not all of a sudden every so often. Especially when not everything gets improved. But I do like it overall.

I'm hoping that once I get to high-speed internet, I'll appreciate some of it even more. I'm hoping that minor things will get fixed.

But there's one thing in particular that really pisses me off: description at the bottom of the page after all the comments?! Is that supposed to happen?? WHY??? SOMEONE FIX THAT, PLZKTHNX.

Alright, that was my two cents. Overpriced, I know. Now on to change the background of everything that was supposed to be transparent. Bah.


HAH. Your chance at requests is over! Well...I'll still take suggestions though.

[edit] WHAT?? I am sooo confused. I can't figure out this description/comments placement business. I've seen some where the description is in its rightful place and some where it's not...can anyone shed some light on this?? I don't understand. Am I going crazy??

[edit] Um...I...think I'm alone on this one. Maybe my dial-up is not appreciating the really long loading time. What is up with that, anyway? (Also, can anyone tell me how I do a strikethrough on this thing? I tried but...I guess that isn't it.)

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
*HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be. ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/9513126/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/9513126/ Thu, 27 Jul 2006 15:20:01 PDT Mood: Um...I dunno?
Listening to: Mat Kearney - Nothing Left to Lose
Reading: Castle in the Air by Diana Wynne Jones
Watching: The Magicians of Love

I'm cleaning out my gallery.

I got depressed because I'd over a hundred deviations and only 1600 pageviews and that seems disproportionate to me, somehow. I think this is because I watch really popular deviants, and they'll have like 2 million pageviews and 30 deviations. Blah. I shouldn't care, this is only a hobby.

I am not trying to accomplish anything with my art. It doesn't really make a difference if I choose to challenge myself with harder pieces or if I do the same thing over and over again. My art means very little.





...but it still sucks when I show my mom something I've drawn and she tells me I have too much free time.

As per usual, I am completely free for requests...well, until school starts again.

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
*HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be. ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/9348683/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/9348683/ Fri, 14 Jul 2006 13:43:20 PDT Mood: Vicariously Heartbroken
Listening to: Mary J. Blige - Be Without You
Reading: Depressing Fanfiction
Watching: Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest

I am sorely in need of this: . I am, regrettably, a reader of fanfiction. I like to read about the might-have-been's of canon pairings. I get really really wrapped up in the story because my nature is to be obsessive. I live vicariously through these creations. I think I'm a rather cynical person, so I find hope of happy endings only in fiction. And when this does not happen, I feel terrible afterwards. I can deal with angst during the story as long as it resolves happily. I don't consider this naive because I realize the story's not real. I consider this self-preservation. Concordantly, I avoid dark stories and ones that end in character-death or anything like that.

So how is that I have TWICE now, in separate fandoms, read a story in which the author pulls a "Ha ha! Just kidding! The male lead has forgotten everything that transpired in this story and the female is left behind to pick up the pieces!"?? Of course, there's always the author's promise of a sequel. But until then, because I have been living vicariously, I feel as if I too have been left behind to pick up the pieces.

And who knows how long it will take for me to be distracted by something else and eventually ignore the simultaneous feelings of something weighing down in my stomach and my chest constricting?

I guess what's worse is that I am soon to watch a movie that I am 90% sure ends in the death of the female lead, just because it seems like one of those stories where the writers fool you into thinking that is the only logical conclusion.





Right, no one cares.

I watched Dead Man's Chest; my first theater-movie of the summer. I liked it, but it wasn't flawless. And I tend to like most movies I watch, anyway.

My ranting has run out of gas. I don't know what to say. Maybe an edit later.


As per usual, I accept requests, but no guarantees on quality.


Okay so that movie I watched where I thought the girl was gonna die? She didn't die. But it still didn't end all fairy-tale-happily-ever-after. ::sighs:: (But oh my gosh, Takeshi Kaneshiro is wayyy hot. Google him or something, seriously).

I'm also not all worked up anymore about depressing endings to stories, but I am trying to surround myself in ridiculous fluffy stories.

Also, I have added a Yahoo messenger screenname. I just made it because I am incredibly bored. So...... yeah. That's it.

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I am waiting for various pieces of art from:
~KrystenBeal
~Kyon-chan
*HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be. ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/9081513/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/9081513/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 21:10:10 PDT Mood: Frustrated
Listening to: 183 Club and 7 Flowers - Hao Ai Ta Hao Xiang Ta
Reading: Asianfanatics.net Forums (Fora?) sadly enough
Watching: Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa (The Prince Who Turns into a Frog)

Okay, okay, so this requests thing? Yeah I dunno. Sorry ~samrhodes, I keep not doing your request! It's just that I have yet to see X-Men and I'm STILL riding out this obsession (which is no long an obsession, just an interest and affinity). Speaking of...

So if you guys get a chance and can read Chinese subtitles (or understand it), you should check out the Taiwanese drama called Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa (or The Prince Who Turns into a Frog). It is roll-your-eyes cheesy, melodramatic, amusing, ridiculous, and most of all a romantic little fairytale. This has been sorta eating my life this summer, because really, my summer has sucked like you wouldn't believe. Oh well. I guess life's just like that. Hence my escape into a soap opera in a language I don't speak. Awesome.

Seriously, it's spread to even reading up about the actors and whatnot. Apparently the boyband sensation has not died over there, so it's like seventh grade all over for me (I was a fan of the Backstreet Boys, embarrassingly enough). ::swoons::

In short, I have all this free time, so I should be exploring artistically, or at least expressing myself, but I find that I have little desire to do traditional art anymore, because I'm more used to digital coloring now. Or at least it seems easier to just Ctrl-Z everything. I dunno how to get myself inspired again.

In other news:
--Are you guys watching the World Cup?! You totally should. Soccer = love. I especially like at the end, after the game, when the players take off their shirts to exchange them. Mmmm. Agh, I wanna see England play. Didn't watch the US game, but apparently we suck or something. Hmm.
--Also, Matthew Goode = VERY hot. ::swoons:: And that voice, my goodness. He reminds me of Rupert Everett, but younger and straight (which is, in a word, ideal).

Meh. NEED ART IDEAS. Help?

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I am still waiting for various kiriban from:
~Kyon-chan
*HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be. ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8849584/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8849584/ Mon, 22 May 2006 21:46:46 PDT Mood: Rollercoaster
Listening to: Michael Buble - I Want to go Home
Reading: A bajillion articles for who knows what reason
Watching: Alias Series Finale!

Alright, I think I'm gonna hold off on announcing a kiriban until people show an interest in actually getting it. I keep disappointing myself when I announce it.

But! I am taking requests now. Mostly because I've not been feeling too inspired lately. Of course, actually fulfilling the request is up to me, but unless you request something rather grotesque, I probably will do it.

Things are good, things are sucky, life goes on. Money is spent, money is earned (but not by me). Dreams are crushed, dreams return. So it goes.

Ice cream mochi = incredibly yummy. If you ever get a chance, don't turn it down.
The Count of Monte Cristo with James Caviezel and Guy Pearce (whee! Guy Pearce!!) = GREAT. And I didn't realize V for Vendetta was so much like it, I only saw Phantom connections.

This is getting ridiculously random. I'm done.

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I am still waiting for various kiriban from:
~Kyon-chan
*HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited. No pressure on them, I understand how busy one can be. ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8772995/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8772995/ Mon, 15 May 2006 14:28:41 PDT Mood: Relieved and anxious at the same time.
Listening to: Eisley - Brightly Wound (wheee, I love Eisley now! This song may be my favorite of theirs.)
Reading: V for Vendetta by Alan Moore and David Lloyd (Huzzah for really sweet friends!)
Watching: She's All That (Oh that Freddie Prinze Jr...what a stud.)

So even with the pre-kiriban journal, no one caught it. I had my friends telling me they were close, but they didn't get it. Anyone want it? Anyone? Anyone? Bueller? Bueller? Should I pull another free kiriban deal?

::sighs:: Alright. First person to note me gets a free kiriban. To make it fair, those who've received a kiriban from me before are not eligible (this means you *LordDragonClaw and ~issues09). Everyone else, have at it.

And y'know, you should all keep in mind that I do take suggestions (i.e. requests unless I don't particularly feel like I can accomplish your request).

Anyway, I am currently waiting for various kiriban from:
~Kyon-chan
*HeartsExtraSkip
and I am way excited.

And whee that finals are done. Boo that I am at home and on dial-up that kicks me off every five minutes. Boo that I don't have a job, nor do I know how to go about getting one, nor have I the guts to talk to people I don't know to ask for applications. But at least I don't have to pay for groceries anymore.

[edit] My friend ~kyodainahera has requested the kiriban, so that is now closed. FYI. ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8705009/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8705009/ Sun, 07 May 2006 21:13:05 PDT Mood: Booo, finals!
Listening to: Teddy Geiger - For You I Will (Confidence) ...::looks around::...what?? He's got pretty eyes! ::defensive::
Reading: A lot of textbooks.
Watching: Walk the Line (I love Reese Witherspoon!)

Mostly, this is a pre-kiriban journal (i.e. please someone get my kiriban?).

And thanks to ~Rub-a-Duckie for my kiriban!
And ~Kyon-chan is coming out with one for me, too I think!

Alright, I've a question. Anyone think I should continue working on this piece [link] ? It wouldn't take much for me to decide to continue, but I just need a little motivation because I think it will take a lot of effort...or not, I dunno.

Finals aren't really killing me...yet. That's probably a sign I should be studying. So I'm off to do that (or putz around online. Whichever).

Kiriban is set at 1,000 pageviews! Whee! Send me a screenshot! Well, that is, if ANYone catches it. >.o ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8472616/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8472616/ Fri, 14 Apr 2006 19:31:40 PDT Mood:
Listening to: Julie London - Cry Me A River
Watching: Down With Love

[I'm taking a silly computing science class right now, and we're learning a little html, so whee for learning how to make things bold! ]

Alright, nothing really new, just didn't want that old April Fool's entry up. Seeing as how it didn't fool anyone. -.- Whatev.

Anyway, I survived three tests on the same day (really, now. Who DOES that??). Throughout studying, I had this intense motivation to draw (or postpone studying in any possible way), but I couldn't. And now that I don't have anything to study for until finals, I am not motivated at all. Funny how that is.

Hopefully, I'll start drawing something. I've been taking pictures, but they're of me, and probably won't be posted. Anyway.

Oh! The point of my subject...so I'm trying to do this fantasy type photography whatever. And I want to paint on faces, but I don't have face paint. So I read online that I can mix acrylic paint and lotion and that works. So I did that to myself today, and it was fine, and came off really easily...but does anyone know if there are like crazy health hazards to doing this? I mean, obviously, I wouldn't leave it on for like days or anything...but otherwise, is something gonna happen to my face? Holes burning through? Warts popping up? Anything like that? Any info would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks to *LougaraSwifthart for the kiriban picture (which can be found in my favorites). Yayyy! I feel so loved (even if it is by chance).

Um...::looks around:: Okay...well. I guess that's all.


Kiriban is still set at 1,000 pageviews. ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8333912/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8333912/ Sat, 01 Apr 2006 12:38:05 PST
As such, here is my first digital piece with my left hand: [link] . It's a self portrait. What I'd like to know is why my writing with my left hand is better than my right. Seriously, that is messed up. Maybe learning to use my left hand won't be too hard.



















April Fool's! I didn't break my arm. But I did do that piece with my left hand.

Yeah yeah, sorry, definitely not as good as *loish's, but I don't think I could get anyone here to pretend to want to marry me. >.o Ah well, have a great April Fool's Day! ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8241182/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8241182/ Wed, 22 Mar 2006 21:53:46 PST

Which means...artwork? Well, yes. But I am right now taking a break from studying, so maybe in a couple of days or so. After my test. Ergo...

*LordDragonClaw: your Naruto picture is scanned in and in the process of being colored. It's...yeah. Expect mediocrity.

Royai picture <--sorry! Sorry! I'll get on that...eventually...does anyone even care??

I know I'm being silly, but I think I'm gonna set the next kiriban at 1,000. Because I just passed 600 and it makes me happy. ) ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8153585/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8153585/ Mon, 13 Mar 2006 20:15:20 PST
Works-in-progress are still progressing. Except for the long piece I posted a teaser picture for. I'm not sure that's really working out for me. I sorta forgot about it, and this lack of USB ports is really killing me.You'd think that would be motivation to get them fixed, but I'm scared of the Dell service guy. It's okay, I'll get up the nerve to email them someday.

So, right, status report.

Geisha for ~issues09 -- Drawn, inked, will Photoshop presently.

[edit] Geisha is photoshopped and posted! Whooo.

Naruto for *LordDragonClaw -- Um...okay, so I'm nowhere on this one, but that's because I've never seen Naruto, so I'm finding it hard to figure out how to go about this one.
Royai 5 parter -- Um...::coughs:: Right. Well, they're all drawn, inked, colored, but are backgroundless. I'll work on that...sometime....

That's all! ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8068979/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8068979/ Sat, 04 Mar 2006 21:57:31 PST
Okay, so the fact that NO ONE got my kiriban really depressed me. Seriously, from like 495 pageviews to 505 pageviews, I kept refreshing my page to see who visited and who got it. I really wanted someone to get it (of course I'm terrified that someone will request something I can't draw).

SO. To make up for that, and because I actually have free time for the next two weeks (with the exception of one test), the first person to read this and note me gets a kiriban. YES, THAT'S RIGHT. The very first person. That means you. That means note me now.

And on the offchance that someone actually does, then I'll edit this journal and let everyone else know.

In other news, my USB ports are still dead. Ergo lack of art.

Anyway, that's all. Time to go do something wild and crazy this Saturday night. Like drinking coffee and reading a book. ::sighs::

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8003981/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/8003981/ Sat, 25 Feb 2006 22:45:17 PST
So I'm sorta glad that the Olympics are coming to an end, because I am Olympic'd out. I've sat in front of the tv for about 20 hours or so, watching the Olympics. My goodness, no wonder I have no life.

As for the piece that I was working on, my USB ports have died (hence the journal subject); concordantly, my tablet is MIA and so that piece is on hiatus. In the meantime, I've still been drawing (as is evidenced by pieces posted), but it's back to the old pencil and paper bit.

Kiriban is at 500...I'm cheating a little bit, though, because it's coming up. So this is a warning. Mostly, I'm just scared no one will care. Except for you, *LordDragonClaw. I know you care.

Also! A collaboration is on the way...something to look forward to, right?

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/7916089/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/7916089/ Thu, 16 Feb 2006 12:51:49 PST
I'm trying to revel in the wonders of the paid subscription, but I'm beginning to feel like there aren't all that many perks. I guess I do like to see my recent visitors (this would be cooler if there were any visitors) and it's nice to have the thumbnail viewing on new deviations. Meh, whatever.

Are you guys watching the Winter Olympics or what?? I absolutely love them! I love watching figure skating. Ah, men's figure skating...my favorite is Brian Joubert, because he is cute, and French, and chooses really fun pieces. Though I guess I should support my country and be all whoo Johnny Weir...but...yeah not so much.

As for art, I'm working on something. It's five pieces, and I don't know if I want to make it a low-quality animation or what. We'll see. Maybe I'll post one of the parts later.

Alright, that is all!

Kiriban is STILL set for 500...and I'm getting closer! Whoo! I'm excited.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/7821877/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/7821877/ Wed, 08 Feb 2006 14:39:08 PST
Whatever it is, I am not protesting. I am pleasantly surprised and thank you to my unknown benefactor! Unless it is my own bank account, in which case, curses to spending money unwittingly!

If anyone has any clue as to why or how this happened, please let me know. If I have a secret admirer somewhere, also let me know that. I may have to do a gift art or something.

Anyway, kiriban still stands at 500 page views. *LordDragonClaw has already laid a preliminary claim to it. Any challengers?

YAYY!

[edit] Alright. No worries. I am dumb. The one month subscription came about because of the Holiday Card Project. Which confuses me, now, about the one week subscription I had a month ago. Regardless, I think this free subscription business is enough incentive for me to want to continue the Holiday Card Project.

]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/7785405/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/7785405/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 21:00:45 PST
Anyway! Kiriban, set for 500. (Wow, I aim low. But I'm not really close anyway). I'd ask for a screenshot, but I doubt it'll be an issue.

Yayy! ]]> *bechedor79 http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/7680659/ http://bechedor79.deviantart.com/journal/7680659/ Sun, 22 Jan 2006 21:43:17 PST LordDragonClaw is switching to SheezyArt, but does anyone else think that this policy is something we should be wary of? I...think I'm going to hold off posting things.

Please lemme know what you think!! I'm newish to DA; have they pulled something like this before? Do you guys think this is just whatever and doesn't matter?

Mmmkay. Back to not studying.

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