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Lately, I've just been drawing, and still working on the Montoya Naly project. It's going good so far!

Okay, so the last movie I rented was "Bruno" which was the same guy who made Borat.

What did I think?

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>AWFUL!!!!!!!!!<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

That movie scarred my brain cells for life. That probably offended a lot of the GALA community, and that I had to raise my hand and shield some of the scenes because it was just too extremely bad, and that I felt sick watching it.

Well, onto movie 2: Smart People!

VERY GOOD. It was touching, and heartwarming, and very intelligent. It helped me regain back my brain cells.

Today I went to the SJ Toy show, and it was pretty good, and met some contacts. It was pretty cool. I only made five dollars there, but I went there to help my friend Mike, since something happened at his job, and that I wanted to help to lift his spirits. Sometimes, there are things in this life's Galaxy that we do some kindness that it isn't all about take take take money all the time, since we only have one life to give and reach out to others. People really remember us for that.

I had a good time, I had traded my Movie Megatron for the Iron Man Movie Toy and Iron Monger for that, since I needed some research on the design.

Well, next show is Sac Con, so I definitely will be there helping my friend Mike.

Okay, write later, I got a headache.

TBC,

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28655261/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28655261/ Sun, 29 Nov 2009 16:07:16 PST
I've been doing nothing lately except for working, and I have been working on my latest anime - cg - music video masterpiece with Journey's Song, "Don't Stop Believing."

I spent about 13 hours straight working on it [well of course going to the bathroom and eating]. I've enjoyed every minute of it, except for the frustrating thing is that Windows Movie Maker doesn't have enough virtual memory to handle multiple scenes.

Of course I cussed out a lot, but after a while, I stopped since I knew what I didn't want next time to do. I really wanted to use another program, but I am squeezed on time since I have to do laundry, home chores, blah blah blah..

So today, I watched "Ninja Assassin", and well, since it is sponsored by DA, I really can't give out my personal opinions too much. The only thing is that there was too much gore, and after awhile, I just got kind of restless watching it.

I'm sorry, but I watched a lot of Ninja movies since the late 70's and 80's and I thought it was just too much blood and dismemberment, that the swordplay felt like doing the same combo on a video game or something. I just really felt that I would enjoy playing Ninja Gaiden or something.

I didn't even see any smoke bombs.. >_<;

From a music video creator perspective, there were some scenes which were pretty creative, but for the most part, there were some scenes I just didn't understand.

Well, I tried to explain as best as I can to not bash the movie, but from a directorial perspective, I think there should of been some improvement. I highly would not recommend young kids like 16 or so to watch it, too much splattering with blood.

I was surprised an Asian couple with a baby actually brought their baby to watch it, and their 5 year old son... if that was my family, I'm really conservative of letting them watch things like that.

Well, time to get some work done with the home chores and make lunch tomorrow, and make some artwork for Try Japan Culture.

TBC,
Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28595157/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28595157/ Thu, 26 Nov 2009 17:03:20 PST
I've been really busy with borrowing a lot of CDs and watching some DVDs for research. Lately, I watched the new GI JOE cartoon, "Resolute" and it turned out pretty good. It wasn't that great, but pretty decent.

[link]

Otherwise, my wrist got better, and then afterwards it got sore again. >_<;

About work, I've been pretty much swamped there, and usually my nerves are screaming in agony [arms mostly] from strain because I have to put up with a lot with it, and that I usually have no energy to draw. I truly don't want to be there forever, but I still need the money to keep up with living independently, and not living with parents.

I just have enough effort to just try to heal up and relax and stay still, and calm down. I can only do so much, I want to have a better paying job in the future though.

I'm still working with the concept designs for the Montoya Naly project, and also the story, as the outline of it is coming to a close.

Otherwise, I've been listening to a lot of Dolly Parton, Kenny Rogers, and Journey. This is one of my favorite songs by the way:

[link]

In a sense, it does make me yearn for fatherhood... hopefully this world will help me attain that goal. Or God, or something...

Will post more art soon,

Sincerely,

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28440739/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28440739/ Wed, 18 Nov 2009 20:05:08 PST
Since Tuesday I have been going to the dentist, [and paid $370.00 >_< [boo hoo!!] for a cracked filling in the lower quadrant of my teeth. Now I know not to chomp on breath savers anymore or blo pops or bite on hard foods. I feel like an old man needing to only eat pudding or some pureed foods... baby foods.

It was not great that I had 4 shots in one section of my mouth that were deep, and felt like it was gonna pop out on the side of my face, but I took it like a man, and then things felt better for the dental work.

It was good afterwards that it was done, since it was leaking bacteria and stuff, but not in a really severe way. Kids, please use a Sonic care toothbrush or brush and floss your teeth since the cost of doing this work, is about the same as getting a tuneup thats over 30,000 miles or something.

But in laymans terms, BRUSH YOUR TEETH AND FLOSS OR IT WILL COST MONEYYYYYYYYY!!!!!! Don't make the same mistake I did... now I have 2 other cavities to take care of next year that will be $250.00 which I have to save for ... man, that's like 3 weeks of grocieries or something.

So the next day which is today, I had seen the doctor to talk about my wrist. He said I can't really play video games that often .. guess thats the side effects of working at Sony and Atari as a tester....

So I also got some TB shot and blood drawn from me since I just wanted to know what my cholesterol levels were .. every 5 or so years people should get checked out.. you never know...

Well, i have to go cook my pasta with Tofurky sausage {vegan sausage) and I'm getting a headache need something to eat, so will write later.

To Be Continued,

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28403529/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28403529/ Mon, 16 Nov 2009 20:11:10 PST
I am sorry that my journal entries have been shorter and shorter. I've been doing less thinking lately, and more drawing, since I would like to go work in Japan later on. I also have an inflamed nerve that came back in my hand, so I have to take it easy to be healthy. I can't really flick my wrist as often or soreness happens when moving it a certain way -_-;

I have to continue drawing so I can live my dream being manga artist or anime artist. Hopefully I will marry a nice woman who will believe in me and follow my dreams for making a franchise in my characters I have drawn. I am too old to keep holding back, so I must do this.

Anyways, I highly recommend watching Astroboy becuase it was meant on the big screen, and the textures and colors were gorgeous. I am glad I spent 10.50 on it. It did have a message, and I did shed a tear on the movie because it was significant and emotionally touching. At first I was skeptical about it, but it did have the same essence of Tezuka's story, but I still respect Tezuka's stories too. I gave it an A Plus!

Well, have to go, need to get to bed and have my hand heal. Later!

To Be Continued,

Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28316361/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28316361/ Thu, 12 Nov 2009 15:48:03 PST
Lately I have to wear a brace for my Carpal Tunnel Syndrome. I'm going to see a doctor about it. Work has been stressful for me, and that I'm trying to not be so anxious.

Well, talk to you later

TBC
Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28253539/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28253539/ Tue, 10 Nov 2009 16:08:50 PST
Had removed the journal entry because I value Jo's friendship.

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28223278/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28223278/ Sun, 08 Nov 2009 17:16:53 PST
Nothing really has happened except that I had worked on that drawing for lonely miracle. I will be drawing other things as well. I went to the Manga Meetup, so it was interesting seeing other techniques.

I spent all day trying to load Vanguard Princess [link] on my HP Laptop Tablet, but it didn't work. So, I did it on my netbook, and am pretty happy ^^ I can't wait to install the PS2 controller driver to play it seriously.

If you want to know the download, it's FREE! Here it is:

[This one will not need the extra stuff to download ]

[link]

Will chat more later,

TBC,
Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28185204/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28185204/ Fri, 06 Nov 2009 18:50:17 PST
Lately I've been feeling better about getting up earlier to go to work, so things are running a little more smoothly.

I've recently lost a lot of weight after eating semi-vegan, so I think I lost 10 lbs or so, but I hope to lose a lot more.

I tried to call some of my friends, but it's sometimes hard to get a hold of them, but I guess I just go to bed early if I can't talk to someone.

I went to Rasputins in Campbell and got Steve Perry's solo album collection, and had pretty good songs on them. I also went to Whole Foods Market and got some Carob pieces that look like chocolate, but it isn't really chocolate. It tastes okay.

I also met my neighbor Lien in the parking garage, and she's stressed about a lot of things. I'm the opposite though, I think life is going up for me. She mentioned she always had a lot of problems with guys, I guess it's because her Dad died a long time ago, so maybe she just misses him.

I saw her smoke again, and feel sorry for her. Even though I don't want to feel too too too personally involved, there's only so much I can do. It really takes a lot of effort to think about that kind of stuff..

I did want to give her a friendly hug, but I guess she wants things her own way. I guess I can only do so much.

Anyways, onto other things, I've been really thinking all week to rent GIJOE the movie, and since it wasn't in the dollar rental machine at Safeway.

I just went to a local mom and pop's place, just to see how it is. It's 2.75 more, but oh well, I'm not losing anything he he. ^^

Well, will write more later!

TBC,
Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28146944/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28146944/ Wed, 04 Nov 2009 16:44:08 PST
Lately things have been busy, so I haven't really had much to write about, since my job has taken 75 percent of my energy away and that I've begun to go to bed earlier.

Today I tried the Morningstar Farms veggie riblets, and the instructions said to place them in the bag and microwave it, and have a microwave safe plate or container.

I followed the directions, and then after 2 and a half minutes, the plastic that holds the riblets melted into my plastic microwave bowl, and melted off the bowl!

I've used this for over 4 years, and now it's gone to waste. It's been a good friend, but I can't use this holey plate anymore. Luckily I have another one, but it's divided into two sections. At least I can portion my meals he he.

Well, onto drawing!

TBC,
Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28111241/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28111241/ Mon, 02 Nov 2009 17:11:02 PST
Nothing really happened lately except that I was shredding some old documents around the house, and putting them in paper bags to put in the cardboard recycling bin. Just shopping, got a haircut, and been working on the Montoya Naly project.

I guess some people are busy with school because I hadn't seen a lot of page hits on my artwork, but oh well.

I found out on Sunday that the lead singer now of Journey is a Filipino guy. Wow, he really sounds like Steve Perry. He's really good, but I really like Steve Perry still.

Well, onto more drawing!

Thanks
Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28037566/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/28037566/ Thu, 29 Oct 2009 21:41:06 PDT
Nothing exciting happened except that our San Jose Anime Manga Meetup was a blast with over 20 people.

I was wondering if anyone wants to help us with our end celebration party somewhere around December, we will have access to a wii, xbox 360 and PS3 and plenty of room to show anime and artwork on HD screens. I talked to the manager at the reception area at the hotel and willing to reserve for $150.00. Jackie, can you help? He he.

Well, will write soon, just been sleeping and listening to 80's tunes. No artwork really done yet since the anime manga meetup happened but probably on the weekend I will have a more comfortable time.

Okay, writing later

Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27955346/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27955346/ Sun, 25 Oct 2009 08:14:03 PDT
Yesterday all I did was just stay home and watch videos at home, and listen to all my old 70's and 80's music. My stomach got a lot better. I didn't really get out of the house since it had been a rough Friday to stay over for overtime at my day job. I focused so much on that one new 10K sketch I did earlier and forgot to eat breakfast and dinner.

I did some scans of some work I did in my sketchbook, so I sent them over to Kathy who is part of the Manga 1-2-B Atsumare group. Unfortunately, I can't go today since I've gotta go to my friend's wedding.

I tried to ask 3 of my friends to go, but they didn't "feel" like it, so I guess I'll just go by myself. Hopefully I find a nice lady to dance with.

Okay, talk about the wedding later.

TBC,

Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27932527/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27932527/ Fri, 23 Oct 2009 23:13:17 PDT
Um, I did work OT today, and ate a burrito for lunch, but, after work I went to the grocery store to get some Jell-o and I bought the sugar-free kind : [link]

Unfortunately, I had to go to the restroom 7 times since my stomach was really bad.. so please don't make the same mistake I did.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a less excruciating day... -__-;

TBC,
Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27889210/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27889210/ Wed, 21 Oct 2009 13:36:02 PDT
I think it was a really good idea I took this vacation, all I have been doing is just rearranging my ideas and finding old light rock 70's and 80's music while shredding old papers. It really helped me calm down.

I know I may sound like a fossil when it comes to these old 70's and 80's songs, but I really like them compared to songs nowadays ~ the new ones don't sound simpler, and I can't really follow the lyrics. I think it's because I grew up in that era, so I guess my brain is still in the 80's somewhat hehe ^^

Not much to say, but I think I should virtually frame my drawings like the Naly drawing I did today.

Well, off to drop off some shredded paper at the recycling place and get some gas and a Costco Hot Dog!

TBC,
Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27876003/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27876003/ Tue, 20 Oct 2009 17:00:41 PDT
It's the 4th day of my vacation, and I have just been shredding old crap in my room. I did another drawing called "Arctic Tribe" for my manga 1-2-B atsumare meetup, and am excited to show Alexis my rendition of her 3 characters.

I was looking for a comic that I bought called "Mega City 909" in my room, and I was looking for Studio Ice's tutorial on Photoshop... It had something to do with the alpha channels, so I totally lost my notes about it.

I had looked at the views on the recent Naly drawing, and I am happy people are looking at it - I just want to improve a lot better. Since I have my own iconic style, and the tools now, I want to go up the next level!!! I guess I have to take things day by day to get to their level. ^^


I've been looking online for it, and Hyung - Tae Kim's tutorial, but his stuff doesn't really say anything about the full details of how to color anime style.

[link]

In order for me to be a good teacher, and a CG professional, I have to know this stuff pretty quickly. The artists nowadays seem very advanced compared to my coloring skills, but I would like to be up to their level or even better.

Reason is, I want to be a professional Photoshop artist, so I had looked up this tutorial online by Adimas Soekidin:

[link]

[link]

His work seems like he could be doing PSP covers or something, so I would like to be in that same level. The lighting techniques I have to learn though. Hopefully I can get things done much faster if my skills improve [and play less video games and fart around hehe] Then my artwork would probably sell a lot fasther hehe ^^

What do you think guys and gals? Are there shorter and better tutorials than this? ? Pocky what do you think? Audra? Tiona? Alexis? Anyone?

Thanks a lot!

TBC,
Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27860370/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27860370/ Mon, 19 Oct 2009 18:33:58 PDT
I have been consumed since Saturday and Sunday of doing the coloring for the Montoya Naly drawing, and it's been good! I and my friend Mike had been looking for the software drivers all day to find the right programs for it, and we finally found them.

For Mike's hard work in finding the software, we went to eat at IHOP and bought lunch there. I used a coupon fortunately.

I have been still tinkering with my Tablet, and will bring it over to the next Manga meeting. I don't have to feel guilty anymore about missing out on coloring or anything, but I hope to crank out 20 or so before the convention starts. I am sure I will have a lot, since it was an investment on the tablet, which I will be using a long time.

I hadn't had any time to clean up my room, so tomorrow I am sure to clean it up and make it spic and span. I was just too excited to sleep because I now can color all I want, and don't worry about getting expensive paints and stuff I hope I make enough to cover the cost of the computer, but I really really love it!!

Thank you Usagi and White Oni for complementing me on my color works! I really enjoyed doing this, and many more!

Will write later,

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27822337/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27822337/ Sat, 17 Oct 2009 19:00:22 PDT
Today I had bought a new tablet
[link] [well it was used without any hard drive] for $200.00. I really wanted one for over 4 years, because I have a big generic AIPTEK pad [link] which I bought for $100.00. If anyone wants it, I'd sell it for $50.00 so it will compensate for my losses.

My first day of my vacation has been kind of relaxing. I originally intended to get my 15.4 inch VAIO screen to be fixed, since my friend Jenny gave it to me for free, but the repair and labor is going to cost over $200.00, and I don't think I can afford that until next year.

I bought the tablet for practical use for a return investment on my drawings so I can do photoshop, and not waste my time on waiting to go back home and setup everything instead of getting that big ol' pad and trying to put everything together. I just want everything to be faster, and waste less time when I am outside of home.

All I ate today was a combo pizza from Mountain Mike's with my friend Mike. It was pretty good.

I just hope I can get rid of an old LCD monitor and the Tablet so I can just not worry so much about what I spent. Hopefully at the conventions I can make up for lost money.

Well, will write to you soon, I drew a new picture of Montoya Naly today. Looking forward to doing more, since I spent so much money today on the hard drive and the tablet. It used to be about $1600 dollars, but now it's only about $200. From what I heard, the business executives had used them a long time ago, but I really hope it works out well.

TBC,
Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27804774/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27804774/ Fri, 16 Oct 2009 20:03:50 PDT
Today I didn't do anything except go to University Art Center and went to grab a bunch of non photo blue pens. I had bought some Sakura Pigma pens too.

I ate at a mongolian BBQ place and it was good. I had some eggrolls and some ice cream, and met a cute waitress named Grace.

At this wireless cafe, I had found a lost purse that belonged to a vietnamese girl. I think I will drive to the Police department and turn it in, so that it will be safe and sound. I am sure that God will help me for this good deed.

Other than this, I am really full! More drawing must be done!

TBC,
Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27786304/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27786304/ Thu, 15 Oct 2009 18:45:44 PDT
Nothing really exciting happened lately, but I have been drawing again. I have been drawing a new Montoya Naly drawing, and finished a Hatsune Miku sketch. I will present them at Sac-Anime as prints this year, and they are surprise prints. They realy mean a lot to me, and I will sell the prints for 10 dollars at Sac Anime, San Jose Anime Show, and Fanimecon.

My vacation will be starting up tomorrow, so I will be relaxing since I deserve it. It's really hard to simultaneously be a full time worker, and have 3000 dollars in debt, and working to pay off that stupid debt.

Hopefully I will have a return investment for next year that will finalize my bill payoff, and I will not owe anything permanently ever again. My dream still is to live and work in Japan, [or even in Hawaii - since I lived there when I was small - the Hawaiian culture is so nice compared to Californian culture.] but I must still get rid of my debts in case the US doesn't do well in it's economy, and I'm really thinking of supporting the Japanese economy, to start a manga school to help the American economy eventually.

The other thing that I am looking forward to is Internet at home. I am really tired of driving down to the cafes and it's just such a hassle to go down there - I kept forgetting my power cords and wireless antennae sometimes which is kind of frustrating for me.

Only other highlight that happened today is that I had a BBQ at my workplace, and a Jamba Juice. I bought Saint John's Wort to help me with my mood. Hopefully it will help out with my current medication.

I am going to post more drawings soon. Oh, and I did go back to exercise. Other than this, I will keep drawing. I just want to quit my day job someday and be a successful manga artist in Japan, and turn it into an anime. I know one way, but I am betting it will work.

TBC,

Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27671937/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27671937/ Fri, 09 Oct 2009 16:25:02 PDT
This past week I had done nothing but come home and make turkey burgers, and go to Wal-mart to shop. I had to buy a new pair of boots since my feet are aching, and I thought it was because my old pair were getting frayed and old. I had donated the old smelly ones to the GAIA recycling bin to send off to Africa.

I hope that they can recycle the material and sterilize the boot or something. That way everything is used for a purpose. I also noticed that my knees are getting bad, [my left one that is] because probably the joints are getting old or something, but I hope I'm not getting diabetes since I am overweight, but feel okay.

I had exercised twice this week, and felt some clarity in the days, but I still try to eat healthy.

Today, I ate a black jack taco, and I wanted to try it since I wanted to know if it had a burnt taste. It didn't, and it just tasted like a gordita. I donated a dollar to world hunger for Taco Bell. I asked the girl at the counter do people get a certain percentage point for every employee who donates, like breast cancer awareness at the supermarket?

Her answer was "no" but she was sincere in acknowledging and announcing this to many other customers day to day.

Well, I am going to the Mangaka 1-2-B Atsumare! meet today in about 4 hours. Will write more later.

TBC,

Bobby ^^

Nothing else happened that was exciting, but I asked

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27561225/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27561225/ Sat, 03 Oct 2009 15:15:58 PDT
Lately, I had donated a lot of my old TMNT toys to my friend Addy to her sons, because I thought they had no use, and couldn't sell on Ebay, so I thought I would just give them away since they would be happy to play with the action figures.

I've just been resting lately, and am thinking of going to Anime Destiny in Berkeley, but will later on just be in the Artists alley.

I've been listening to a lot of Hawaiian music again, so it has began to calm me down a lot more. I really need this. I tend to draw a LOT better with this music on. Helps me calm down.


[link]

[Olomana has the best Slack key guitar music in the world. I can never get sick of this song.)

[link]

(I like this band too, soothing.)

Okay, will write with you later,

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27475246/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27475246/ Mon, 28 Sep 2009 19:13:40 PDT
Lately, on the weekend I met Julie and also Jackie at SF Japantown. Julie and I had just talked and I gave her birthday present. After Julie, I waited for Jackie to give her present too. I both gave them some expensive authentic fresh Japanese mochi, that was good to eat.

I also put in some figurines too, and gave my yellow UFO Kage Ninja to Jackie, [from Virtua Fighter] since there would be a ninja watching over her. The only thing was that I had really held out on eating lunch because I didn't want to ruin their conversations, so I just eventually ate two of my Fiber One bars.

Saturday I had got my vacation pay, so I was really happy. I was waiting and waiting on it, but am happy it came by this week. I spent it on the BART ticket to get to Julie and Jackie at SF Japantown, and had spent it on getting my PO Box reinstated. I needed to get some turkey burgers so that I can eat healthy again.

I had to get a new hard drive for my old laptop today. I could have gotten a new computer, but I decided I have to use what I have. I really don't make that that much to get a new computer. I spent 60 dollars on it, but hopefully the prints I will crank out will have a return investment.

Will write more soon, looking forward to creating new artwork and videos for the winter.

TBC,

Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27436489/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27436489/ Sat, 26 Sep 2009 20:27:46 PDT
I had been away for awhile because I have a lot going on in my brain about doing stuff for Try Japan Culture. It's been on halt since something didn't go right, so I hope it gets resolved next week.

On Thursday, I watched a Korean movie called "OldBoy" and it was really a mind blower. It was really a messed up story. Since it was different, it was really good, and it cannot be made into an American Movie.

On Friday, I tried calling my friends to see if they would like to go out, but none of them picked up their phone. I was really exhausted throughout this week, since one of my friends had said something really significant that I just didn't know what to say afterwards. I was thinking that I should just drop my journal entries, since I am sometimes pretty astute.

I was thinking that it does get harder when you get older, since there are less friends to hang out, but I guess we sometimes have to be our own best friend.


Today I went to the Spirit of Japantown festival, and it seemed like there were less things going on, than last year. I did apologize to someone that I had dropped as a friend before, but I think she was still mad at me. But, that's her, so I'm not going to worry about it - there are friends that are there because they will always be there for you.

Last year, at SOJ, it was raining in October, and this year it is soo hot! Is this the true effects of Global Warming? It was funny a long time ago, when I watched Robocop 2, where this woman put sunblock all over her body and she was blue as a smurf since the ozone layer had depleted.

I couldn't go out with my friend Iru on Friday. We were going to go out to eat Indian food, but we ended up not going since I was so tired, and I thought so many thoughts I had to rest and take another medication. I guess it was the heat, and not much oxygen in my room, so I felt faint. I did have a good sleep though.

Well, I did see someone today, but for a short time. Still, it was a good day anyways.

Ok, will write to you later

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27436480/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27436480/ Sat, 26 Sep 2009 20:27:12 PDT
I had been away for awhile because I have a lot going on in my brain about doing stuff for Try Japan Culture. It's been on halt since something didn't go right, so I hope it gets resolved next week.

On Thursday, I watched a Korean movie called "OldBoy" and it was really a mind blower. It was really a messed up story. Since it was different, it was really good, and it cannot be made into an American Movie.

On Friday, I tried calling my friends to see if they would like to go out, but none of them picked up their phone. I was really exhausted throughout this week, since one of my friends had said something really significant that I just didn't know what to say afterwards. I was thinking that I should just drop my journal entries, since I am sometimes pretty astute.

I was thinking that it does get harder when you get older, since there are less friends to hang out, but I guess we sometimes have to be our own best friend.


Today I went to the Spirit of Japantown festival, and it seemed like there were less things going on, than last year. I did apologize to someone that I had dropped as a friend before, but I think she was still mad at me. But, that's her, so I'm not going to worry about it - there are friends that are there because they will always be there for you.

Last year, at SOJ, it was raining in October, and this year it is soo hot! Is this the true effects of Global Warming? It was funny a long time ago, when I watched Robocop 2, where this woman put sunblock all over her body and she was blue as a smurf since the ozone layer had depleted.

I couldn't go out with my friend Iru on Friday. We were going to go out to eat Indian food, but we ended up not going since I was so tired, and I thought so many thoughts I had to rest and take another medication. I guess it was the heat, and not much oxygen in my room, so I felt faint. I did have a good sleep though.

Well, I did see someone today, but for a short time. Still, it was a good day anyways.

Ok, will write to you later

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27360506/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27360506/ Tue, 22 Sep 2009 16:17:06 PDT
I apologize that the earlier journal entry I had written was a downer, but I am sure around April it should be better.

Just to let you all know, my journals may not be essentially perky all the time, but it's realistic to the point where you know, this is my life, and this is what really happened. It's just what happens in real life~.

So far I have other plans of that vacation to see my friend Jenny in SF, so I really don't want to think about work or anything negative during that week off since I worked so hard this past year. I never showed up late, never took a day off, and still went to work when I was sick.

I just wanted to mention that Japan is very expensive, and other readers, like Tiona really knows Japan is really too expensive, as for a Japanese in Japan.

Optimistic:

The only thing that I can think about is that I still have to do some artwork so that I can keep productive and all. I still have to do my laundry and clean up my floors, and etc... daily male bachelor life.

I'm really hungry for Indian food today YUM! I eat that more often than eating Sweet Tomatoes or Fresh Choice!

Last night, I watched "Taken" with Liam Neeson, and it seemed pretty good. I thought him running and chasing a car seemed unrealistic, but I kind of thought "no way" and started laughing. It's an escapist movie, but his acting skill is pretty good. I thought he didn't have a whole lot of parts when he was Qui Gon Jinn in Star Wars: Episode 1, but he still passed.

Well, I am going to go now, will write soon.

TBC,

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27342425/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27342425/ Mon, 21 Sep 2009 16:23:46 PDT
I found out from my friend that she has issues with her current state of residence, so I will not be able to stay with her, and I don't have enough for a hotel. I'm really upset at her because she didn't tell me something before I bought the ticket to go, as she was aware I was coming by.

I am selling my Ticket from SFO to Japan, so if anyone wants it, let me know. I need to write a verification letter to the Airline that I can allow the person to go.

It's really unfortunate since I didn't have enough money for a hotel, so I am going to just try to do something else on my vacation. I am sure next time I will make better preparations.

Casey mentioned about the couch surfing option, but I cannot do that since my home is pretty private, and that I don't even have a couch at home!

So, maybe it just wasn't meant to be.

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27266625/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27266625/ Thu, 17 Sep 2009 16:37:57 PDT
Well, this morning I had purchased my ticket to go to Japan this year, so I will be FINALLY FINALLY visiting Shinjuku. So it is solid and permanent I will be going. Yaaayy!!

I decided that I could just hold off the dental appointment until November, because I also calculated I had to pay off for the valves that are cracking in my car, $120.00 and that was really important, and other old credit bills that have been haunting me since 2004.

Plus, I can't spend more than $350.00 there, since I would be pretty flat broke in November, [without $200.00 US money] and I have to pay November's rent since my vacation pay will be paying for my trip down there. I'm not interested in the electronics, nor gadgets, I care only about the food, seeing my friend, and just ENJOY BEING THERE !! I really really really hope I can get a loan to go down to see Akihabara, because I want to see their arcades. Does anyone know how much Yen it costs to play a game???

I will still bring some one of a kind trinkets for my friends, so please, let me know if anyone wants one (inexpensive of course).

Unfortunately, I cannot go to Otsu to see Tiona, because I will be flat broke, and it will be $311.00 for a one week rail pass which will be useless

Most of all, I always wanted to go there when I was a child, so it will be a great experience. I will finally feel relief in my heart. Again, I hope Hanako will help me along the way. It will be for a few days, but I pretty much will enjoy my experience there. I mean, I can get some good sushi at 7-11 [I will bring an American slurpee cup there] and a large empty McDonalds cup to supersize and ask the employees there.

I heard from my Military friend, Robert that the beef bowls were at least 5 dollars at Yoshinoya. The Yoshinoyas here around Northern California taste pretty lousy, so I need some real Japanese food with real Japanese people behind the counter.

Of course I will post some videos up to show where I had been. I will take a lot of videos and photos about my experience. Not only that, I will bring the Pups along to take photos with.

Today, after work, I saw this Asian couple behind me when I was driving to the library, and they had these masks on. I thought this was scary. They had these blue masks on their noses and mouth, so I don't know if they were Chinese, Korean, or Japanese, but they were driving in a Mercedes. Maybe they didn't want to get sick because it would ruin their work performance, and probably they probably owe a lot of money on their car, so they put on these masks so they won't get sick or something.

Well, I'm going to Todai [Or Tatami now] to eat, and visit a friend. Will write more later. I have to draw more characters that are cute for the TJC website. It's going to take another 5 hours to have the sketch and linework done, but I am sure that it will be pretty good.

BTW, I am seriously going to put up a manga drawing class simultaneously when No Name Anime have their meetings. It will be some sample classes to promote our new studio. I can't really say what the studio is yet, but only one person knows.

Okay, write to you later.

TBC,
Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27234516/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27234516/ Tue, 15 Sep 2009 19:05:45 PDT
Well, things got pretty much better, and I recalculated how much I could spend for Japan, and it was at least a 300 dollar loss. Unfortunately, I cannot buy things that are outrageously expensive, but I hope my friend Hanako will help me out there.

I had finished 3 of the Momo characters I was supposed to do, with clean line work for Joanne. I can't really show what it is yet because it is pretty much TJC property, so we will thrill you when it comes out on the website.

Today I was really struggling with staying awake, and felt pretty lethargic. My eyeballs felt like they were strained because I had to think about coordinating all these thoughts in my head, and at the same time I have a full time job.

I finally got something accomplished, and Addy did text me so we're pretty good.

I just wanted to thank Jackie that she believes I can do well in my artwork, and I know she can do well too.

The only thing that scared me was this Asian lady in the cafe who has all this peeling dead flaky skin on her face and hands. I saw her before I went to the restroom.

I felt very sorry for her, because I know some dude probably doesn't wanna go out with her because of her condition, but I pray her condition will be better in the long run.

Anyhoo, have to do other things now, and I gotta go. Thanks again everyone who believes in me.

TBC,

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27217172/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27217172/ Mon, 14 Sep 2009 19:52:16 PDT
I made a dental appointment today, and that I found out that I have 3 cavities in one of my teeth, and it has a cracked filling.

[SIGH]

I hadn't had a deep cleaning since last year, and it cost 400 dollars for 4 areas. I like my old dentist, and it seemed that the dentist I used this year I didn't like, it seemed like these people weren't too friendly and kind of weird.

This year, under a DMO plan, I have to pay $860 for 4 deep cleaning area.. so I'm not sure of going to Japan this year, but if I can recalculate, perhaps November I have to go broke or something. Kids, remember stick with PPO PLAN if you have Aetna!!!

For the most critical tooth, I have to pay $370.00 for the cracked filling. The doctor told me, this is the major one, so I want to get rid of this one first, and get the others later.

I've been sketching again, and hopefully some of the concept artwork will be on a website. It still has some work to do.

I am also going to try to ask my local library to have some manga making classes [like ten minutes worth]. I hope Jackie can help me out with these classes as assistant.

I tried to go to Round Table earlier to use their internet, but after paying 8.00 for a soda and a bland pizza sandwich, they didn't tell me that their router was having problems, so I completely wasted my time there.

Well, I have to go, Quickly is about to close in about 13 minutes, but I will write something more later on, and hopefully put up more artwork.

Again, sorry about the last journal entry.

Oh, and by the way, Saturday I watched the Dragonball movie with the white guy in it, and it was okay, it wasn't the greatest. I give it a C+. Some parts were just either predictable, since the fight sequences seemed like it was from Power Rangers or something.

TBC,
Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27194674/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27194674/ Sun, 13 Sep 2009 16:11:19 PDT
A sincere apology about the last entry if it was too generalized about women. Feelings change, so I admit it was a little out of control.

Will write more soon.

TBC,

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27174376/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27174376/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 16:42:33 PDT

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Today's journal entry is intended for people mature to read it. It will have many F words in it. So, kids, SKIP THIS ENTRY IF YOU"RE UNDER 18. Thank You.

AGAIN, IF YOU'RE UNDER 18 DO NOT READ THIS.



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Today, I had tried to go out with my friend Casey, since it was a free weekend, but she was busy with her significant other to make costumes. All my friends last night were just busy doing their own things, and I really had nobody to talk to except for Casey, which I have a lot of gratitude to talk to.

Today I still thought about Pearl, and she didn't really call back. So I figured she didn't really give a shit, so I won't answer her calls since she wanted to only call when she wanted to, and disregard what my calls when I need her?

Last week I had added another friend, Addy back because I gave her the benefit of the doubt of our "friendship'. So we just text back and forth, but when it comes to seeing each other in person or whatever, she avoids the question. I'm thinking, what kind of bullshit is that? I mean, are we gonna be text buddies until we die? That's not a life. I tried to text her to meet up with her on her break, but she didn't respond, and just wanted to take a visit to see her at work but she wasn't there, and worked at another place.

So, despondent and having lack of faith in people, I ate mechanically, and I was really feeling mad. I thought in my mind I just wanted to ram my car into a wall or something, without my seatbelts, crashing into the window.

I find it really pathetic for myself, that every day I have to be on a computer, behind a screen in order to communicate with people because people are so fucking lazy, they don't want to go out and spend the mileage or gas on their cars. I mean, life is short, why not?

I feel sad for people on their iphones and blackberries in order to communicate to people nowadays because you never really know what a person is thinking or can't really see them in front of you. It's also saddening to me to see people when they are in front of each other, they text someone or on the phone with someone when they are eating. I find that really disrespectful.

I live alone, and I usually like seeing people in person more than emailing or texting. All this time that I try to invest in reaching out to people, it's the same pattern over and over again. I told my friend Casey, well, maybe I should just stop making friends, since it's such a waste of time that I could have been drawing to make product and money.

If people wonder why I'm not married or have a girlfriend, it's because here in California, women want guys who make over $80,000 in order to take care of them.

This will be the last time I write this, but I only make $30,000 which isn't really much to take care of someone else. I find it really annoying why people ask me "why don't you have a girlfriend" or "are you married", and I get irritated because really, I'm jealous of other people that have that which I am struggling so hard to live. To tell you the truth, most of them have just been bitchy to me, and that's why I just gave up now.

Why the hell do I have to do so? I mean, if it's so expensive in California, and I cannot meet that price point in demands, then what 30 to 35 year old woman really gives a fucking shit about me? I don't have any money, and women lie when they tell me "oh you don't need money to be in love." I think stoned people think that way.

I have to take care of my own fucking self in order to live, and I think I should start being mean to them than nice since they just "sugar coat" and lie to me.

I'm tired of this fucking shit. People were right, I should just concentrate on my art, and have people not waste my time, and just try to make money. I'm just wasting my little time on other people's problems, which they need to use their own judgment and solve them their own selves. It's the same shit over and over and over again. God, I need to take another antidepressant.

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27157801/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27157801/ Fri, 11 Sep 2009 19:39:42 PDT
Frustrated as hell, can't reach her on the phone. I wanted to go out with her for dinner, since wanted to go out socially, but no answer.

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27140565/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27140565/ Thu, 10 Sep 2009 20:09:06 PDT
For the last few days, my brain has been on overtime. On Tuesday, my friend Pearl had to go over my house to sleep over since she was having a problem with her relationship, so I had to comfort her and talk to her.

I was asleep around 8:30 PM then I had to wake up at 11:45 PM where I felt lethargic, and helped Pearl to my apartment. We talked until 1:45, then went to sleep. I had some extra futons, and I had an extra pillow and clean bedsheets for her. She just talked and talked about her bf that didn't love her. I didn't know what to say, since I am a single person, and a terrible person to give advice since everyone pretty much knows I'm judgmental.

So I kind of got some sleep. For the guys reading this, NO I didn't get laid,[ I mean, they wouldn't really get in the mood anyways if they just broke up with someone, so that's just stupid.] She was drunk, and that she got a headache and all, and much older than I~ but her relationship with that other dude wasn't really any of my business.

So, I comforted Pearl, and told her nice things, and she felt a little better. The next morining, I had felt really cranky, and thought about Pearl's safety after she left, as she felt so guilty that I had been woken up and all. She profusely apologized over 3 times, which I had to say "PLEASE SHUT UP!"

I really can't stand people feeling guilty if they know didn't do anything wrong. I mean, I was really a good samaritan and happy to help Pearl, but if she keeps saying the thing over and over again, it drives me fucking nuts!

I tried to call and text her twice since I was worried, and didn't call until today. I had really been worried sick about her. I was worried if she was injured or something, since it sounded like a terrible situation, since she had been in others where she had no help.

I finally got a call from her today she said that she had to move out her stuff, but I said I'd call back later on but I didn't since it wasn't really fair that when she didn't call back, I felt upset that she didn't call in the same day. I just want her to feel how would she feel if I did that to her?

So, I will just hold off in calling her because I didn't really think that was fair.

With constructive things, and putting my feelings to good use, I had to make a sample prototype video with Joanne. I was her cameraman, and that I didn't feel like it. When I got home, I just rested in bed, and tried to catch my breath, but I had to tell myself "get up you lazy fuck! get up!" and just did that, since I had kept my word.

We were taping a mock "how to make mochi" as a guideline so we know what to do every step of the way before making final video. It was nice that the apartment complex had lent me the key for the space to have the kitchen open longer.

I've been doodling for the Try Japan Culture Website, and sometime this month, my artwork will be up there. I will have a position too, but hopefully later on it will be a full time job for me. I drew a maid with toast for my friend Klara, at my meetup group.

Well, will write to you later ~ the week I have pushed hard not to really rest, but I have some duties to do.

TBC,
Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27079649/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27079649/ Mon, 07 Sep 2009 16:55:17 PDT
This morning I was panicking finding my little notebook that I always put in the back of my pocket. I thought it was lost forever. The reason why it was really important is because it had my QQ ID number for my Chinese friends online.

If anyone wants to know my QQ ID its 1213401487.

Other than this, today was really dragging since there weren't any people to talk to. I had tried to call some of my friends, but they were either out or something. So I kind of panicked because I was alone.

After work, I had finally eaten at Burger King, and wanted to try their Whopper for a long time. I have been thinking about eating it for over 3 weeks.

At Burger King, there were three kids, probably middle school kids, and one of them asked for a dime. It seemed that two of the others didn't have a skateboard, so I had one in the back of my trunk.

I said "I don't have a dime, but I can give you a free skateboard." The kids were surprised that they got something free. I figured, they would use it more than I do, and I'm really afraid of riding skateboards to be honest.

One of the kids did some trick, and I was pretty amazed. I can't even do that since I'm too heavy, and the skateboard wasn't really conforming to my size and height.

I felt better that I could help a kid with something that I have, and put that to good use. In these times and economy, it's hard, but at least we can become spirited in some way.

Well, after eating this Whopper, it doesn't taste the same like when my Mom used to bring them over after work. The texture seems dry or something, and I remember the Whopper was only a buck. I paid almost 6 bucks for the combo meal O_o; Burger King has changed since the last 17 years. I think I'd better go back to Wendy's or Carl's Junior.

So, things seem better with food in my stomach, although the grease and stuff from the Onion Rings seem like I'm getting indigestion or something, but I will get over it. This will probably be the last time I eat Burger King.

So, here I am again at Quickly writing to everyone. One of the cute Chinese ladies with a round face has lazy cross-eyes but I like that flaw ~ so cute!!

TBC,

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27061711/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27061711/ Sun, 06 Sep 2009 19:57:02 PDT
All I did today was not really eat, and dropped off some plastic non-recycleable bulk trash into an unrecycle bin close to Big Lots. I feel that sometimes those Taco Bell containers, the shampoo containers need to be in a specific bin since they are bulky and can't be recycled. Especially the Soymilk boxes, and the foil wrapped candy bars. They all go into the Earth you know! I wish that Mr. Fusion [the machine from Back to The Future with the Delorean car] can be made soon to make into useful energy someday.


I went to Big Lots to get some supplies, and I know this one Filipina chick was attracted to me, since she kept glancing at me in line, and her perfume smelled strong. I just smiled though, but I didn't ask for her phone number or anything because she seemed really older than I. I didn't think she looked really attractive, but it was interesting to see her body language. But it was really funny though.

I went to get some gas, and the line was long for $2.99 a gallon. Long line to wait, but at least I don't have to think about it anymore.

I tried to look for a dustbuster at Fry's, but they didn't have a cheapy one. I went to Wal-Mart instead and got a Dirt Devil for $17.96. Reason why I had to spend that to use was because I can't stand my car being with sediment, and it costs $.0.75 to get one clean at the Car Wash, so I thought, why not invest in a new dust buster?

So, I'm over at Quickly again, going over cost analysis prediction and planning for the budget of small business. I had to look on the Internet of what kind of materials we need, and spent over 7 hours looking for pictures to convince everyone what we need.

Other than that, I'm pretty much almost done, but I never got the chance to clean my tub or anything, so I suppose that would wait. I also didn't exercise, but I need to so I can go back on DDR again at my cousin's big ass machine in his garage so I won't get butt-lock!

Wow, what a day. Gotta get off my butt and get a nice bowl of Ramen that I totally deserve and worked hard for.

Will write soon!

TBC,
Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27040740/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27040740/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 18:20:02 PDT
Today for at least 5 hours I was a greasy faced, chicken burrito eating, flabby stomached, bananna smoothie drinking unshowered and unshaved bum. I watched two movies that I borrowed from Jenny:

Dead or Alive:

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Cube:
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Dead or Alive was pretty fun to watch, it didn't have a story really, but what more can you do with a fighting game? I mean, it was way better than Street Fighter: The Legend of Chun Li

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which was lousy and laughable at certain parts.

DOA had a lot of eye candy in it, and the fight sequences weren't too bad, but some were pretty inventive. I wouldn't take it in a 'Charlies Angel's"[link] direction, but at least they had kept some of the character clothes so fans can identify who some of the characters are.

I would really say DOA is a B+ in my modest opinion.


As for Cube, I would say an A-. It was very unpredictable, for a low budget film. It seemed that the characters were very convincing and what scared me was that we don't really know who designed the trap. The psychological power that the characters had shared with each other, was the most scariest part.

I think the films that have less effects or a modest amount of effects [like Iron Man] and more acting are much better and creative films that really help my brain grow. I'm so used to many conventional films that seem cliche, however, with Cube I was very convinced and that mathematics [which most people, artists don't like] is important in dire situations.

Other than that, I took a 2 hour nap, saying to myself "okay, you can take a 2 hour nap, but you have to do the business proposal, and get up."

When I woke up, I forgot to open the window so I guess the stuffiness in my room made me kind of hazy. I said to myself, "I gotta get up, I gotta get up, get up and get a life!'

I felt a whole lot better after cleaning up myself. I still felt like I am overweight, but tomorrow I will go back on my exercise routine to at least lose some belly weight. When I had went to the store I looked at some overweight people in their late 70's and I thought "I'm not going to be that way, I'm not going to be that way."
It's much harder and more expensive to get rid of fat for myself when I get older. I don't think medication will ever get any cheaper either.

I was just afraid about going to start the business ... I want to change ~ my current job is great, and people get along with me, however, I am still modest that I need to still be forever modest in my thinking. I had fought off some thoughts that naysayers or skeptics would think, but Hideko thinks that kind of thinking cannot get people anywhere.

It's just like in the Matrix: Reloaded when Neo met the Architect : "Choice. The problem is choice."

[link]

So, eventually I have to make a wise choice in my life. However, when I choose to make a choice that is in my best interest, I will have to lose or drop some things that are awaiting for my future in life.

My Dad was really right, he told me "..you can't have everything Bobby." Sylvester Stallone said the same thing in a wave magazine article,

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" I see as I get older – and Rocky says it in this film – the older I get, the more things I’ve got to leave behind. That’s life. And no one prepares you for that, and you think it gets easy when you get older. It doesn’t. As a child you don’t deal with loss that often; as an adult you do, and it’s brutal. A lot of people collapse. They kind of lose their zest for life. How do you try to counterpoint that? I don’t think it’s about having money, because I’ve met many billionaires that are not happy. I don’t think it’s about acquisition, having land, having this and that. I think peace of mind as a mature person is No. 1, where you feel as though, “God, I’m really at peace with myself, the beast is out, I’ve done most of the things I want to, I raised my children. Yes, maybe I’ve had to sell out a few times in my life, because we all have to sell out on the road of life, but in the very end I made up for that and did it my way, and I feel good about being myself.”

So, I may have to gi... ]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27023874/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/27023874/ Fri, 04 Sep 2009 21:00:11 PDT
3 of my friends have egged me on of going on Facebook, so I did it to make them happy. If you want to add me, it's bentoboxbobby.

I'm still working on business proposals, and kc has been wonderful Iming me today.

I will write soon

TBC,

bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26981383/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26981383/ Wed, 02 Sep 2009 16:32:09 PDT
Lately, I had been drawing again, because that gets my mind off the real world. I came across a clipping from the Metro that talked about how guys had a hard time meeting women:

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[After hearing stories of my dating misadventures, a married woman advised me, "If a girl tells you she wants to be friends, immediately tell her you have enough friends and walk away. You will more often than not be remarkably surprised by her actions after that." I nodded, but really have no idea what that means.

– Befriended Again

Believe a girl when she tells you she wants to be friends – if you're both 5. At 25, it's usually code for "I find you sexually repellant." For some girls, however, it's code for "I find you sexually repellant but potentially useful." It sounds like your married friend wants you to understand that "friends" isn't going to morph into "with benefits" – unless you're willing to count the warm glow you'll feel when you unclog the girl's toilet just in time for her date. Her advice is good in concept; just don't take it literally. Squeak "I have enough friends!" and storm off, and you should indeed be "remarkably surprised" – by how quickly one man can go from the "friend zone" to the "no chance in hell with any of her friends zone."]


~ So anyways, after I read this article, it made me think about the "Five year old mentality" code of "let's be friends" was finally deciphered in a coherent fashion.

Yesterday, I, Joanne and Hideko had sat together and continued talking about Try Japan Culture for the future design plans.

Other than this, I'm still drawing, forget this relationship stuff. It usually depresses me.

Okay, will write later.

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26942845/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26942845/ Mon, 31 Aug 2009 18:05:05 PDT
After reading Jintama #14, I laughed my ass off last night. Jackie was really right about the series, and that I look forward to reading more of this manga. I just find that the crude potty humor, and them taking a dump with no toilet paper was the most randomest thing I have ever seen. Not since Naruto, he had a take one so bad, but this was really tasteless.

It was really by coincidence that someone brought a free copy to our meetup group. Maybe God does hear what we want, as the Earth senses us in some frequency or something.

I haven't really read a manga this hilarious since Ranma 1/2.

I just hope the library has some copies so I don't have to buy them.

TBC,
Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26901483/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26901483/ Sat, 29 Aug 2009 18:23:49 PDT
Today I am feeling more livelier since I could help out Pocky [Jackie] with getting her life going with art. We had talked about seeing a business friend of ours, Hideko, and that I helped her out with giving her a ride. Pocky I admit is talented, and eager to ask questions, like I was her age.

I wanted to go to "People Print" in Fremont, and tried to find the place, but I think maybe it went out of business? They print Japanese styled anime tee shirts, and I wanted to know their price points. The last time that they advertised themselves was at Fanimecon.

Other than that, Pocky had immersed herself over at Daiso, and got all this cool Japanese candy. I only got a Calpico lychee flavored drink because it was 92 degrees outside, so I was really thirsty.

We took like over half an hour or something in order to look for my car. I guess it was hot, so I had a hard time concentrating where to go. We then went back around my area, and I needed to get my DVDs to return at my place, and proceeded to Jamba Juice.

We did want to eat Japanese food, but we couldn't since we had planned on meeting Hideko. I think maybe the Jamba was enough.

All of us were on the same page, talking about Japanese culture, since that is something in the near future. Hideko was really impressed at Pocky's work, and I felt proud that I made a wise decision.

I just hope that Pocky can come back, and talk with Hideko, and future plans. It was really interesting that Pocky is really detail-oriented and organized almost as I am, however, both on the same page of expressing creativity. Most of all, I am glad Pocky has a lot of product to show, and it impressed Hideko.

I kind of wanted Pocky at the end of the meetup to accept Hideko's gift of Origami, because it is part of Japanese custom. Besides, it is handicraft that when someone makes something handmade, it is very special besides something manufactured.

It was really funny that Pocky had mentioned about "How to survive in a hotel room with others" when you're a struggling mangaka, because you do need spray disinfectant when people are, you know doing their "daily constitutional" when shared. Also, bringing your own toilet paper. I never knew that a girl could write about something like that which I was really blunt, which I really appreciate honesty.

We did say see you later afterwards, and I just basically shook her hand because most of the time, some women do give me a hug, but I know for sure she's not a "huggy" person, so I just took that avenue.

Anyhow, I had scanned in some tee shirt designs for Spirit of Japantown for San Jose. I hope some tee shirts will sell with my designs on it to put to our new Studio which will be released probably next month or so.

Good things are happening along the way, sorry so dismal the last journal, but you know, the epitome of living is not to be perky all the time, a good life takes giving, work, and commitment.

I really need to pump out some artwork, since I am inspired by Pocky, since she has more work than I do. >_<;;

Write more soon!

TBC,

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26841563/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26841563/ Wed, 26 Aug 2009 17:14:16 PDT
Yesterday and Monday I had my days off because I was working 7 days a week, so that was a lot. 7 days a week with 45.5 hours, since the guy came late to his shift half an hour on Friday.


Other than this, I lost a friend on one of my Meetup groups, Risa, but I think she was more of an acquaintance, since she was so insecure about her English, and seemed afraid of the fact that when I had said to her, "if you have a boyfriend, I can't be your friend."

I got this way of thinking from Cherie, one of the acquaintances that I had met at Fanimecon, since she didn't want me to go out with her for ramen since she said her ".. boyfriend wouldn't like that.." Of that thinking pattern that I learned, I had lost Risa since she was really concerned about that.

I didn't seem to like Risa also because of the fact she likes to go out boozing with other friends, and pretty much people who are alcohol influenced. I really didn't feel comfortable with that. What drunks usually say is irrelevant. She didn't want to return so I figure she's just a lost cause, and that's her loss ~ I can find another Japanese friend that likes anime and manga.

Due to this loss, Cherie made me upset, so I consider her as an accquaintance since I adopted this mentality towards others previously. I don't really think of her as a friend anymore. I mean, what is the problem of going out with friends who are women who have boyfriends? I hardly do anything at all! Some women really don't need to become paranoid.

So anyways, the good part of the day was that when I left work, there were two butterflies that landed on my left hand. I don't know if this was a sign of change from Nature for me, but I am sure it would be something really significant. Maybe they were mating or something..

I try to do my best to keep some friends, but you know, if they are gonna act childish, I say forget them, from what my true friends think of me.

The good news is Joanne and I had been still writing about Chrome for the last few days, and she's an excellent writer.

I guess there is a saying, one door closes to forget some acquaintances, and another one opens to find real true friends.

Okay, will write soon.

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26795879/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26795879/ Mon, 24 Aug 2009 12:46:10 PDT
I went shopping at Safeway yesterday, and I was at the self-service checkout counter where you have tobag your own groceries. I had two jugs of water, and two glass jars of Classico pasta sauce. Usually the Grocery store doesn't have paper bags, and I detest plastic bags, because they are not eco-friendly, and can't use them for shredded paper. I had to ask the lady if I could get some paper bags, and had still left my items up on the counter temporarily. The objects were heavy,so i had to place them above the bagging area.

I had came back, and then had to quickly take my items, and then this Irish guy (I'll call him Unlucky Charms)and his wife was there at the same bagging area. He said "WE'RE STILL BAGGING. I'D LIKE TO HAVE YOU MOVE YOUR ITEMS." The element in his voice seemed like he was pissed like a 5 year old, and I explained to him " I had to get some paper bags since they are not in this area, and they are so heavy I have to place them on top. He replied "I didn't ask for an explanation, I want them out if you please!"

So, in my usual sarcastic self, I said "well, you don't have to be an asshole about it." as Mr. Unlucky charms said nothing, and was left stupified as his wife was simultaneously.

So my message to you Mr. Unlucky Charms, I don't have little leprechauns to move my items, since I am the only one to help myself move them. I figure why don't you just stick those lucky charms up your ass.

Hopefully a rainbow that emerges out of your mouth will transport you magically back to Ireland. I'm sure you'll be happier going back to Ireland tubthumping and listening to house of pain's "Jump Around." Have fun finding your little pot of gold dancing your alcohol-induced drunk ass off with Michael Flatey.

Anyways, today I got my oil change, and found out that my valves in my car are cracking slowly, so I will get them replaced somewhere around November when the next oil change is around.

I went back to Hollywood video to return "I Love You, Man". It wasn't as funny as I thought, but I hope this movie, "Big Man Japan" is much funnier to research for my project:

[link]

I have to wash my car again, since there is bird doody on it, and have to still complete the chrome outline. I don't know when I will do the design work, but I am really more than eager to do the character design first, but i am thinking too fast. >_<;;

Otherwise, house chores and cleaning drag me down --- ugh.. Mindless, but it's the price to pay for living alone and keeping a healthy happy home.

Will write more later.

TBC,
Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26757987/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26757987/ Sat, 22 Aug 2009 16:08:44 PDT
From the last journal entry from what Jaycee said, it was actually right. I mean, why do I need to have other people tell me what to do to be happy? What the hell is that? Just because someone else's happiness of what they think is better doesn't mean that I would be happy the same way they would.

Yesterday I had to stay overtime for awhile, and then afterwards I finally ate some Indian food.

For the longest time of the week I have been dieting, and making new story ideas for a new book that I'd like to release called "Chrome." I can't really tell what the details are, but I can tell you that it will be like Harry Potter, but more bizarre, like Jojo's Bizarre Adventure.

[link]

I've been working with my good friend, Joanne about it, and that I'm seriously going to put my efforts to do this. I need to make product for next year's Fanimecon, so if anyone wants to buy it before Fanimecon, let me know. I am sure I will get it done by February for Book 1.

I and Joanne went to my house to look at certain cheesy Japanese and Chinese movies for reference. I could really relate to Joanne since she is closest to my age, and that we pretty much have an unusual sense of humor.

Other than this, I have just been eating my Tofu, and Anchovies, and it has been bland.

The bananna-tofu-choco-graham-cracker-peanut butter smoothies I have still been making, and makes me feel a lot better.

My mind has been on a roll with making the world of "Chrome" and I am really looking forward to complete it with Joanne. We are thinking other things for our Try Japan Culture group, so there are many things to come!

Well, gotta watch my DVDS that sit out in the dust that I have rented.

See you soon
Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26698616/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26698616/ Wed, 19 Aug 2009 18:21:06 PDT
Lately I've been busy. It's really hot in my home. I've been doing story ideas and drawings with a friend of mine. Other than that, the moldy stuff has been moved, so I'm going to throw away the old stuff.

Will write more later. Sorry so short.

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26554756/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26554756/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 19:08:46 PDT
I don't really need to write about how I feel when I am living alone again and there is nobody to turn to. I did something that I really shouldn't have supposed to but my chest was feeling like it was crushing again. I'll never really tell what it is.

I tried very hard to call some people when I am by myself, however, nobody really picks up when I need someone to talk to. It's hard not having to hug someone or be affectionate when they are not there.

A lot of people ask me, "how come you're not married" or "how come you don't have a girlfriend?"

To tell you the truth, I go to church, to get this feeling out, but still I can't hug anyone or whatever.

Other women that I have hinted pretty much in person, don't get my messages. I don't understand why people now are dependent on computers and cel phones instead of actually meeting face to face.

I mean, how do we benefit from a person of the opposite sex, being their "friend" then afterwards, and speak their minds they didn't care about their boyfriends, don't find any PURPOSE or VALUE in the relationship, I mean that is TOTALLY childish!

I'm 35 years old and I think like a 40 year old from what my friend Jenny told me. I'm just really not happy hanging around these "friends" of what they tell me. How hard is it to just at least get a hug from some woman? It's just that feminism, consumerism, superficialism, and computers had destroyed the family unit, truly!


How can I really benefit if people play these mind games? I'm serious! Sometimes I don't even know why I am giving these "friends" the benefit of the doubt.I being deprived of any affection for a long time is really detrimental to the male soul because it makes me more cynical and distant.

I'm old fashioned I tell you. Comments anyone, to see if anyone really cares.

Thanks
bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26473386/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26473386/ Sat, 08 Aug 2009 21:55:11 PDT
Today I had a really good day. I had went to Kinyoobi Con in Hayward as just common con-goer. I thought it was really fun, since I didn't have any expectations that it was like FanimeCon.

I sensed that the convention was pretty well-behaved. FanimeCon definitely was pretty wild with random hugging, and things like that, but I do like FanimeCon too.

There wasn't a lot of activities, however, it still was a good convention. I was really happy that they had brought a lot of free pizza there since that let me know that they really cared about their convention goers, and also brought sodas and bottled water for people.

I had bumped into my friend Eve and met her Joanne who also lives in Sunnyvale. Our meetup group was looking for people making tote bags, so Joanne was interested in doing that too.

It was really interesting that sometimes God does work some ways to help us. For some people, it is coincidence, but then again, I do think that this Earth still listen to our spirits.

Later on Joanne and I had driven down to the train station to pick up my friend Casey. It was really funny since I had parked in the fire lane, and also I had entered the bus lane while picking Casey up. The BART police at South Hayward had pulled me over, so I was pretty scared.

I gave my license and registration, and still kept my cool, as both Joanne and Casey were too. The guy who pulled us over had let us go, since I wasn't really a Hayward resident, and that I think one of my friends, who is a dispatcher, probably told him to let me go since I've known my friend Coleen for over 19 years. I think with all the religious stuff in my car, he probably thought I was a family man or something. I was also wearing my silly An-Pan head wear when I gave my license and registration.

I thank God that I didn't get a ticket since that would put me in a hole to fly to Shinjuku. I really have to go since I don't have any other choices since my other friend Hanako will only be in Tokyo until December, and comes back to the USA.

So, we had walked around. I had walked around and saw good ol' Jackie (Pineapple Pocky) and another friend at the BAAU table. I didn't really want to be in the artist table since I just wanted to be myself there.

I sensed that Casey wanted to do other things, so I just suggested that we went to the Hayward Japanese garden. That was fun. There was a wedding going on there, but Casey didn't mind. I am happy Casey has an open mind about different things. Especially about nature.

Afterwards, I waited for my brother close to the con, and then we just ate nectarines. We watched the news, and gave our like-minded views of how media was so sensationalistic on ABC, or other networks. Usually British news is a lot more intelligent to watch than American news.

I burnt the rest of the photos for Casey, and had dropped her off the right way at the BART Station. I felt right with Casey that we are friends, and she's pretty lucky to have a boyfriend.

Well, that's all for today. Will write more news later on.

TBC,
Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26427335/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26427335/ Thu, 06 Aug 2009 16:12:21 PDT
I apologize for not being on the Journal entries lately, since I am taking a more natural course upon my blogging [when I have enough energy to]. I've been eating a lot of fish from the Asian markets like Ranch 99 or Lion Supermarket.

So far my moods have changed, and that eating really simple foods instead of junk foods have made me think clearer. This is what I eat almost daily to keep a stable, constant flow of energy:

1) Tofu
2) Thai Peanut Sauce
3) Furakake
4) Anchovies
5) Kim Chi
6) Fried fish (with the skin off)

So, that's been working really well with keeping my mood's momentum.

Breakfast and Dessert Smoothie:

1) Plantain Banannas
2) Chocolate Graham Crackers
3) Peanut Butter
4) Unsweetened Soy Milk
5) Silken Tofu
6) Strawberries
7) Peanuts


On Saturday I had met my friend Matthew, and we went to eat at the Tandoori Oven restaurant in Campbell. I had a buy one get one free non expiry coupon, so I ended up paying close to only 10 dollars for the both of us. I also went to Barnes and Noble, and found that they had a book called the "Manga Bible", so I was interested in picking it up, however, I had to hold off since I could buy it on Amazon for cheap. Luckily, I stopped myself, since now I can just save some of that cash for eating or laundry.

[link]


I had met Risa last week, on Sunday, and that most of the stuff we talked about at Japantown we had a lot in common. I had paid for Risa's lunch and she had paid for my Crepe at Sophie's Crepes.

We had so much in common, and helped me discover about different animes that were good. Risa recommended these mangas:

1) Red River
2) Zettaikaren Children
3) Brave Story
4) Sari-Chan
5) La Maisonen Petits Cubes [Pieces of Love Volume 1]

So, if anyone knows about these mangas online, let me know. I still have to save for my trip to Shinjuku, and also my 10,000K maintenance for my car.

Even though Risa had felt inadequate with her English, I didn't seem to mind to understand, because in my mind, I decypher it as best as possible, and pretty quickly. I have a great gift in helping others ^^.

Someday, I will help her with her adjectives and English pronunciation, so I am looking forward to that. I really look forward to seeing Risa again. ^^

I'm going to be on my way to pick up that new Oh My Goddess Kosuke Fujishima book that came out:

[link]

I may have to sell some old figures or some DVDs to reimburse myself for this, but I am sure it is very worth it. The cost is about $60.00, however, I can probably make it up when Memorial Day comes up in compensation for that loss.

Well, for those who know me closely, I am going to Kinyoobi-con just to look around. Jackie will definitely be there, so I will help out. I am hoping that Casey will be there, so we all can have fun there.

Well, I have to go off and do my laundry and cleaning which I held off for more than a week. Will write soon.

TBC,
Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26093071/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26093071/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 17:57:30 PDT
Today, work was still chill, and the weather was a lot better than the past few weeks. I actually feel a whole lot better away from the computer for a couple days because sometimes my brain feels so overbooked I have to stop.

I had been drawing a new drawing that was Chinese styled, so I will post it sometime later. It took me at least three tries to get it right... The first 2 designs I shredded because they looked terrible. My proportions are really rusty and need updating. I felt a little light headed though that day because I didn't eat anything after work.

I ate some broccoli, snap peas and carrots mix with Gim Chi [mild] and it was pretty good. For American tastes, people hate Gim Chi, and sardines but I love it. I felt a lot better the next day because it was natural food. I wanted to experiment if I eat this natural food, will my moods be different? Will I really feel better about myself?

Well, Jackie called when I was at work, but it was at the end of the day, since I had to hold over. She mentioned she had some problems with understanding religion. I mentioned there are different types of Christianity, but the only one I go to is my Catholic Church. It's just that my grandmother went to it, and my Mom, so it's the only one I like to believe in.

I forgot to mention to Jackie that Judiasm also involves the Amish as well. Sometimes life does seem a little simpler that way than living in the city. I gotta ask Jackie if she wants to go to the SJ - AM Picnic because a new friend that I made online, had wanted to go but she had to work. I have to get there earlier because I'm helping out Hideko. Hopefully Jaycee can tag along too and help out.

I went to Safeway because I wanted to make some smoothies for myself. I always got the Peanut Butter Mood [which are expensive - $5.00 each time] but I was puzzled of how it would taste like with silk-type tofu. When I got home to experiment, I put in some banannas, light soymilk, tofu, and ovaltine. It didn't taste too bad.

I'm still thinking about making that signage for the meetup on Sunday, so I am kind of busy with things. I'm just hoping I can get it done by Sunday, I am booked with cleaning up with my room still, [scrubbing toilet, tub, etc... and destroying old stuff.] and doing the drawing, and too much to think about... even cooking spaghetti for tomorrow.

I need a WIFE.

It's about time, because it will be too hard to run around with a kid when I'm 55 or something. It would be a lot better if I had one since that would give me more purpose and value in living for someone else really I feel sometimes I am slowing down.. it's like my arms are going to fall off >_<;

Need to work out and continue the drawing, and fold my clothes and whatever at home.

Okay, will write soon,

TBC,
Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26070195/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/26070195/ Mon, 20 Jul 2009 16:18:34 PDT
I know I've been away for a while. Something happened to me on Friday, which I think will be a new life for me, but I can't really say what it is yet. It is a privledge that seems most promising. I talked it over with my friend Pearl ^^


This weekend was so busy for me. Saturday, I wanted to get rid of my old VHS tapes, so I started to record them on DVD. I got to watch some Spider Man and his Amazing Friends videos from the late 80's, and I was like, wow.

I had to wash my car, and had to find this part that I wanted to connect my old flatscreen PC monitor and try to watch DVDs on it, but it didn't work. I went to Central Computer and been there for 3 hours looking for that part. I was helped by a cute person Shon, who at first I thought was Asian.

Other than that, I had been shredding my old stuffs because I need to get rid of the ages old clutter. My old Target shredder is long gone because I think it overheated, and only the CD shredder works.

Sunday I went to church, and after mass, I had to go to Central Computer to return to VGA to RCA cable back, but it was open until 10:30, so I just went to Carrows, to eat breakfast by myself and read the paper, and to see if there were any Michael's coupons. If anyone can give me Michael's coupons, I'd really appreciate it. ^^

I read through the ads, and there wasn't really anything appealing except a new shredder at staples for $30.00. I headed down to Target. I also wanted buy a new old school Transformers T Shirt, because I like the guys - they are cool. It was only 5 bucks per shirt, so I had to get it.

I was really tempted to get the Optimus Prime bobblehead, and the Optimus Prime die-cast transformer, exclusive only at Target. So, I had held the boxes for over 4 minutes asking myself, "do I need this, do I need this?" I ended up not buying it, and got the things that I needed instead. Like a new shower curtain.

I also met my friend and Co-worker, Theresa, and she was very helpful about making signage with me. I was overly thinking about how signage can be made by making it portable and how to break one down? Eventually I went to Home Depot to get some PVC since Theresa had recommended that I do so. I got foam core and some paper lanterns for our SJ - AM meetup for next Sunday for the picnic at Mountain View.

I had also stopped by Mitsua [Japanese Grocery store] and got some fish. I thought that I would try frying fish. I got some bok choy as well, since I had cooked some brown rice previously on Saturday. After that, I returned that VGA to RCA part, and asked Shon her nationality. She didn't really like the question, but I apologized, and mentioned that she was Russian. She didn't even LOOK Russian, I thought she was Korean! She was really nice though, and really cute.

I spent 3 hours figuring out at Home Depot for some signage material. I was worried about my fish from Mitsua getting bad and tepid. Eventually I got some PVC that snapped together, so it turned out to be $40.00, but it was better than paying $100.00 for new silk screened signage.

This was my first time making fried fish. I ended up burning the bok-choy, and I asked my friend Jenny about it, and she laughed. Now I know it only takes 20 minutes. I just ended up spending the rest of my day getting rid of old papers, long gone, and recycling some plastics.

Just doing laundry, and getting rid of things, and tried to get rid of that awful burnt smell in my apartment. It didn't really go away, I tried to Febreeze my place, but it didn't work. I guess I will use the disinfectant spray.

Will write more sometime soon,

TBC,
Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25987716/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25987716/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 14:39:04 PDT
I'm at the library, and the back of my neck is in pain. I'm worried that Julie had mentioned something about our talk to someone else. I didn't see her text yesterday about meeting her next week to talk about the comic project, so I guess that person doesn't want me to see her or something.

I feel really bad today. I must be paranoid.

Thanks
Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25950610/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25950610/ Tue, 14 Jul 2009 19:45:44 PDT
I apologize I have been off my journal entries because I had another nervous breakdown on the weekend. I had talked to Julie at Japantown. The morning was cloudy.. I thought it was going to rain. We ate at a restaraunt, and I didn't feel like eating with her like in an interview, it was mostly at a round table, so that both of us had equal halves to share of each other.

When we talked, I began to see more about her, and we explained about each other's families. I could really say that she is close to her Mom, and don't really find anything wrong with that. I didn't know she really cared about her Mother so much which I respect her even more. I didn't know she gave money to her Mom for helping her out.

I did say things before in an email that I didn't mean, but that was just emotion. Face to Face, it's completely different, so of course, I got mad, but I got over it. I didn't want to yell at her 3 days before because I wanted to protect our friendship. I did apologize to her, and was responsible, so I mentioned that to her. The Sun came out when we were finished with our chat. We did clear up what was between us ~ when we left the restaraunt, the Sun came out again, maybe it was a G~d thing. Perhaps He sees our optimism.

We did break the ice together at the restaraunt really. We had fun going to Kinokuniya, and talking to each other about life.

With my confession to her, in the afternoon, I had mentioned about it, she chuckled. She mentioned "I'm not really going to freak out about it, but if something happens, I will let you know."

So, we went outside, as she was picked up by her parents.

I learned certain things that I didn't know about Julie, even though it was shocking to me. I can't really give much in detail, but I realize her full value of my need to be around her. I feel that she is still precious to me, and that she has a lot of talent ~ she has a gift to give to the world. I mean, yes she is really attractive, and has a really nice smile, and endearing, ~~ it's just that I really need to know her better. At least she knows of what I mentioned earlier.

Now, others I have spoken to about Julie about, but I just needed some advice. I feel that some of the talk has been somewhat not all that positive, but I refuse to listen. It has to be something really bad that she does in order for me to do something. Overall, I think she's just busy, and that I just overthunk about her.

So, in the midst of this negative cloud over my head, I had to go to Church to pray about something that I can't really say about for Julie that I hope that she will change within herself, and think the right thing, and sacrifice. All I can say is that, I prayed for her health, her safety, my safety, and most of all, peace and healing. I just hope that she would get the message someday, or nature or the Earth or some Mystic~cosmic~force of something.

I didn't go to the BayAnime.com meetup since that I liked a few people there but I just didn't feel like going since I had totally froze up after telling Julie, and I had sat for an hour with guilt since I felt so bad because I felt shame ~ I suppose it was because all the years before in grade school, high school, I never really got acceptance, attention, appreciation or affection from girls since I was either not their type, ugly or they were not interested. Partially because of this, my Mom was really a distant person to me, and that I never really got a lot of affection [I guess this is the Asian cold shoulder or something] So, this explains the anxiety disorder.

Today I had finished reading the book "Home Alone America" which was about too many kids living at home without their parents. I really hope that I can make enough to have children, and to see their Dad (me) and their Mom. I'm not sure who the Mom will be yet, but there is one candidate that is when she passes.

I guess I will start going to Church very often because I feel that some people are just into their computers, cel phones and video games, and nobody really cares about seeing each other truly face to face. I go to Church to fill myself spiritually in order to feel loved and respected and not really judged by others when I pray. I don't really have anyone to come home to, so I would think my Church is my second home, even though I have no woman to talk to. I can pray all I want, nobody can really stop me or tell me no.

Well, will write soon, I just hope that my lucky day was really lucky. I was suprised to hear Julie was raised Catholic, so I was really happy ^^

TBC,

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25865899/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25865899/ Fri, 10 Jul 2009 17:58:02 PDT
I haven't been doing journal entries or Youtube lately since I had to have time with myself.

At the moment, I feel like I may have caught an ear infection again due to cold weather...

I am working on a Catgirl drawing for my friend Evelyn, who wants it to be a Zombie slayer.

Tomorrow, I will confess to Julie that I'm attracted to her, but I do want to get to know her.. She's very talented. I guess we will see what nature or God has planned for me.

Reason is, is because I'm at mid-life crisis, and that seems that her interests are closest to mine. I just cannot be young anymore. Regardless that she lives in SF, I will just let her know... at least she knows ~ I am afraid and stressed... At least if someone you're attracted to they know, because life is short, and this is what I would like to say if my life flashed before me.

I just ate some sushi at YoYo Sushi, after I found out the guy who made the sushi didn't cover his mouth to deflect the germs on his shoulder, I decided not to eat there anymore.

Well, see you soon,

Bobby ^

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The past few days I have gotten things accomplished around the house, so I am still summer cleaning. On Sunday, I went to Church, and then had went to Costco to get a Hot Dog for 1.50. It was pretty good since I hadn't had that kind for a long time.

I just finished watching "Red Cherry" and it was really shocking. I had to close my eyes for certain parts, because, it had an strong "adult" nature. The acting was really convincing, and it was really sad.

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I would strongly recommend that adults watch this, this is not for weak stomachs. In my humble opinion, it was more shocking than watching a Horror movie. There definitely were parts I really had to hide my eyes from.

On a lighter note, I watched "Taste of Tea" when I was cooking some dinner which was just brown rice and kidney beans. I thought it was surrealistic, and comedic simultaneously. I think this is more tolerable than watching Red Cherry though.

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If "Taste of Tea" is at the library for you, I recommend checking it out.

Other than that, I ate a great Teriyaki sandwich in my neighborhood.

Will write to you soon,

TBC,
Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25737600/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25737600/ Sat, 04 Jul 2009 15:09:23 PDT
Today I had gotten a lot of rest since my body felt like it had a big toll on me. I haven't even had the chance to catch up with myself.

I had made some popcorn for the Parish festival at my Church today, for the 4th of July celebration. It was wonderful to see many people there enjoy the sunlight, each other, and have each other's families have enriching company. I had eaten Chicken, chips, a lot of fruit and very little sweets.

I had went back to Church to pray to get some strength. I had thanked one Sister for the lunch, and I felt better that she had reciprocated the sentiment. I had returned my movies that I got from the library and returned the "Confessions" DVD.

I also was interested in donating some art materials for my Church as well, and probably the extra DVD player I have for them, even though they really need it.

Other than this, I still have 2 other movies to finish up, and have to exercise after this. I may draw something special soon, but who knows.

I'll write more soon.

TBC,
Bobby

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Well, today I tried to go to work, but I found out that I wasn't scheduled for work. So, I got gasoline early, and that I did my laundry.

I finished watching "Confessions of A Shopaholic" not because I like "chick-flicks", but it was because I wanted to see how the main character overcomes her addictions.

It was an interesting fare, but I thought that the movie should have been condensed.

So, I went to text my friend Linda, because she wanted to do something in the day. I tried to call my friend Casey, after to do something, but didn't call, so I figured I just go to my friend Jenny's.

I and Linda today, discovered that Fuddruckers was closed for good. I know the Union City location is no more either, so I feel a farewell to the fondness to this once great hamburger place. It was where I and my friend Jenny and Linda had eaten before watching a movie.

Linda seemed to be recovering from her last relationship, and we had talked honestly about ourselves. I think it had been the most honest face-to-face ever that I had talked. I would what you would call "old-fashioned". I really don't like talking on the cel-phone that long, IMing, e-mailing, etc. Whatever happened to writing letters as hand written sentiments?

I really miss how things were simpler in the older days. I just see that more people are seeing each other lesser face-to-face. I think I am probably last of a dying breed of personal contact.

We both were talking about we had no one ~ all I can say is, I will have to take things at face value, no matter how much I feel. If I die with no woman, I will take that to my grave.

So, right now I am at my friend Jenny's place. We watched "Confessions..." and found it interesting. I am also watching "The Rundown" so, it seemed pretty interesting.

Well, that's all I have to write... I dropped my IM with my friend Mary, and Julie since that they seem to just like IMing behind a computer... I don't really feel comfortable with it. I been having this pain in the lower half of my neck... I guess it must be my real feelings towards the truth.

Another friend of mine mentioned Julie may be a vindictive person, since the way she treated her before. I would take this as a objective view, but I still might see potential in her, although she is still too young to understand my point of view. I just don't understand why people just don't understand me. Sometimes, things just block the path of my righteousness.

Well, write to you later.

TBC,
Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25633505/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25633505/ Mon, 29 Jun 2009 16:18:41 PDT
The woman that I had texted before I asked today, if she is married - I told her, this would not be fair if she is.

Unfortunately, yes she is. Also, she mentioned she is married and has 2 children?

[Growling]

WHAT ???!!!

I don't believe this. This woman had texted me privately, and I thought she was single. She had tried to email me in May, then had this long pause, of 2 weeks of dead silence of emailing. She then tried to IM me on my Yahoo messenger, and then I removed her because she wasn't giving me a direct answer.

Then last week, I mentioned on an IM "for the love of god, please call me."

So, she texted me and then her excuse was "don't call me because I like text better." So I followed her rules, and then afterwards, kept leading me on to being her "friend".

She asked what I did for a living, and what was I going to do on the weekend. I didn't text anything about it. She was waiting for an answer. Sunday, my head hurt so badly, that I had to confess where I worked. She mentioned she didn't care where I worked, so we are friends.

So I did, and then afterwards, I asked "are you doing anything on Sunday, I am free after Church."

She didn't say anything, so I had the sinking suspicion she was married.

So, today, I texted her and since she had mentioned she had a problem with her english, I suggested that I help her with her English skills this week. She didn't reply.

So, it came to the conclusion where I asked "are you married, because it wouldn't be fair to the husband."

So, you know the rest that I said above. I said "NO. I cannot be your friend, because you are dishonest with the marriage. I quit texting you. Goodbye."

So she texted "I thought you were friend, but good luck."

I then texted "I don't date anyone who I wouldn't want to marry."

She texted back "I didn't mean to date! Anyways, good luck and goodbye."

Yeah right.

I removed her phone number, and tore up the spare number, and deleted her messages since I knew it wasn't honest.

For the love of God, I had to say "No" because I have too much self-respect for myself. I did the right thing in my judgment because I would suffer and pay the price of more Hell if I did continue with this, and that's not worth anything.

Right now, I am full of resentment for 2 months that I had to communicate with this "girl" and I don't understand why people are not happy with their relationships, and succumb to not making their own relationship work.

[Sigh]

I screamed in my car "WTF?"

WTF am I going to do for the next ten years waste it on crap dilemmas like this ? Please, why can't people be more blunt, honest and upfront instead of acting like children?

I really feel like punching a wall right now.

[Sigh...]

Comments please.

Bobby

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25593363/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25593363/ Sat, 27 Jun 2009 19:18:19 PDT
For the past few days I have been away from the compy since it made me think too much. I remember that my Dad told me not to stay too long on the compy because I would lose my social awareness. He was right.

So, I have been making my own food and just adjusting to the gentle life. I need a lot more people like this in my life.

Remember that last time where that cute woman that had seen me on my birthday? Well, she had texted me, but I had thought we had a connection. She is pretty shy, but I texted simple English.

I asked her if she wanted to go out on Sunday because I had to do chores, exercise, and laundry and finish up watching some of the DVD's from the library.

Well, I asked her out if she wanted to go out after my Church at 10 or something. She didn't answer the question on the text. It seemed she ignored it, and that the next question was "Where do you work?"

I asked my friend Jenny for advice, and she had mentioned I should ask "Why do you need to know?"

So, there was pretty much silence on Addy's part. Knowing from experience, I just didn't want to get hurt emotionally. I've experienced so much in my life that most Asian women I had dated asked "how much do you make?" and that really disappoints me. Only a few people know where I work, but that's not the point.

The point is, regardless where any person works, at least they have a great attitude of gratitude of where anyone works. I believe in my great and good judgment, I just find that a person should like the other person regardless of an occupational level.

I believe deep within, regardless of occupational title, people need to respect living, and creation ~ nobody is perfect ... and that I believe in God, and see that decency in others.

My current occupation doesn't really define who I am, I am defined by my giving actions of pure goodwill.

Other than this, I look forward to relaxing, and going to the SJ-AM meetup.

Will write more soon!

TBC,
Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25571094/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25571094/ Fri, 26 Jun 2009 16:11:33 PDT
This week I have been away from the compy since I just didn't have the energy to do a lot of things. I have been taking it easy, so I can keep in tune what things really need to be done.

I had went to the meetup for the Sunnyvale library, and it was pretty neat, but it was geared mostly for Teens, so I felt a little out of place.

I also had went to get the information to be a Child Mentor, or advocate for a foster child. It won't happen until September, so I have a lot of time to do this.

Yesterday, I watched "Transformers 2" with my friend Heather, and we saw it on IMAX. There were some blessings in disguise that happened which were:

1) I found a parking space.
2) I had a coupon for AMC to pay $7.50 for IMAX.
3) The coupon gave me enough to pay for half of my dinner.
4) I found a decent seat

I felt I was a little too close to the screen. Most of the time when the robots were fighting, sometimes it got too blurry and kind of hurt my eyes a little since it's hard to focus.

I thought that some of the language was too much for a 13 year old, with the S word, and B word, and A word. I also didn't see that the Twins, Skids and Mudflap weren't that funny, but overall, I liked how Bumblebee had threw them out in Egypt.

The movie seemed more faster pace, but I really couldn't keep up with it in my mind. The first one felt like it had equal pacing, so I felt comfortable watching it.

The fights are spectacular, however, again, it was so fast I couldn't keep up. I would probably watch it again. Other than that, I would watch Food, Inc. soon.

Well, write to you soon!

TBC,
Bobby ^^

]]> ~bentoboxbobby http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25452272/ http://bentoboxbobby.deviantart.com/journal/25452272/ Sun, 21 Jun 2009 11:52:36 PDT
Here is my personal video for all who watch my page:

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Well, today was a pretty good morning. Last night I watched "Gran Torino" and it was excellent. I had not seen a great Clint Eastwood movie for a long long time.

This is the trailer for the movie:

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I really love this movie. I thought that I would buy this movie for my Dad for Father's day. He really likes Clint Eastwood's sarcasm, so I suppose he would really enjoy it. I really thought the acting was believable. I can tell you, it gave me more alarming clarity (and others who watch this film) to be consistent in being a decent person.

There is one part that really made me feel really sick and shocked me though. I can't tell you it, but if people are under 18, please don't watch the movie.

I only got at least 4 hours sleep, but since I did the exercise yesterday, I didn't feel I needed it that much. I went to Church early, in prayers for a lot of things in living.

Other than this, I plan to watch "Terminator: Salvation" again, since it is about Fathers, which John Connor is a soon to be Father, and Kyle Reese who is John Connor's Father.

One religious theme that I saw was that Marcus Wright, before he is given the death sentence, was like a crucifixion of man. It seems sometimes, we are more self-serving than giving and I know there are good people out there, however... living in California has its perks,however, I plan to move out of California after 2 years since there are too many that are self-governed ~ so many things I can't catch up with... Eventually. I'd rather live in a small town with a housewife instead.

I'm looking forward to volunteering, and giving my best. I may be slow in my drawings and Youtube, however, I would like to give my consistency to making a healthy lifestyle for myself, and giving health back to others in need.

Will write more soon, I'm praying I have a more compassionate and healthier consistency looking outward of my living.

TBC,
Bobby ^^

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