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bass heyk. life is good

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/27068085/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/27068085/ Mon, 07 Sep 2009 06:51:00 PDT w bass heyk. life is gooood

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/26800957/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/26800957/ Mon, 24 Aug 2009 16:44:55 PDT
Okay Drop everything and anything school taught you. And trust me, the universe have
conspiracy against us, I am the one who can tell you the truth.

1x1 is not equal to 1
I am sure you are wondering why math freaks are usually always having car accidents.
let’s take into consideration that 1x1=1 and you are still young and havn’t met me yet and studied math,
you’ll think that actually bumping your dady’s jaguar into another BMW is going to give you a Baguar.
and then you drive fast in your “1” car bump into another “1” car and poof you are dead.
Well thinking again, 1x1 is equal to at least 1.
1 dead person, maybe another injured, and probably another 1 who was sitting next to the car driver you bumped in. on another level, if you think of it, the driver who you bumped into, would’ve defiantly been giving or receiving a blow job, I mean what a “1” idiot, couldn’t he just move! But then again, you did injure them but you saved them from STDS since am sure they were having unprotected sex.
Bottom line, Math is bad for you. Or it can be good, in case you were suicidal.
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Okay, the myth behind Teddy Bears, and how cute they are and fluffy, is Fake. Just like straight women orgasms. Get over it. Teddy Bears are alive and Evil. Very Evil. Yes. They are Evil.
Teddy Bears are evil. Most of them will cause you allergy and the other 60% will wake up at
night while you are sleeping, and their eyes, yes, their eyes will turn red, and if you’ve been wondering
lately who have been eating out your “honey” and why do you hear so much “ honey noises during the night. It is the teddy bears.
moreover, my own research showed, that inside every Teddy Bear there is a spying chip, that are connected to a satellite, and there is always live broadcast to Ka3ida where bin laden and his men are hugging pink pillows and watching your life, as a reality show. Sometimes they cry. I think you are pathetic indeed and your life is a miserable fuck. What ka3ida men don’t know, that the pink pillows that were a gift from “bushy” georgy are also implanted with spying chips. What can I say, “bushy” had a thing for Arab men who has beards and like to kill other people. I mean the guns, and the airplane driving part. Can it get any hotter in here?
No matter how many times, everybody around told you, that the boogie man doesn’t exist. He does.
if you woke up in the morning and found your candies, missing, it’s the boogieman. And if you think you walked while sleeping “ I mean come on, did you really buy that, you are too lazy, you can barely walk while you are awake” Stop lying to yourself. It’s just the boogie man.
So since there is boogie man living under your bed. It will attack your brain cells and turn you into a lower being, maybe fungus, or a politician. But if you listen to my advice, you can do miracles. just masturbate, yes. The sound of orgasm intensity makes their brains pop and explodes. After that, you look under your bed and it’s empty, well until like 5 min. and then you’ll have to go again. 5 to 10 times will kill all the boogiemen under your bed, for 24 hours.
Bottom line. Masturbate daily. And if you have a teddy bear, trying linking me to your satellite.
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Adam and Eve. This story that we all were taught and cause us the biggest mistake, which is the eternal fight with Snakes. Snakes are really sweet, nice, pets. I mean be nice to a snake, come close and tap it’s head, it will be nice to you, if it wrapped it’s body around you, it’s just being friendly, and if u felt you are suffocating, it probably, decided she wanted to kill you, since she felt you need to get rid of your life.
being killed by a snake, will make you best friends with god, since snakes and god are best friends. You know math and calculations.
back to what really happened with Adam & Eve. It wasn’t really Adam & Eve, it was Adeve. A intersex, “if you don’t know what that means, google it up” who lived in heaven, and enjoyed their friendship with god, since you all know that god was an intersex as well since he is a he, and he created the world, I mean, come on, who are they kidding. He cannot get babies. He and she can, or maybe she and she or he and he. But scientists are fuck heads.
So and then Adam and Eve, got affected by their society’s discrimination. And decided to be “normal” so t... ]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/26735601/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/26735601/ Fri, 21 Aug 2009 14:10:12 PDT i really need to pee as well but i am too lazy to go as well.
anyways, i don't understand people and there not so random-not so creative shop naming in Lebanon.For example, just a while ago, i was trying to look around, just cherish the moment i was having, and then this big ugly blue sign pops in my face, with the name "Pierre Dakhlallah" and next to it a very small part of something unreadable, that says Hair. well obviously he's a stylist, but like, can't people get more creative, about naming a place, i mean, omg how much effort did he put in branding. i bet he gave his son, if he got any, the same name, so that the shop name wouldnt go to hell. well am just being mean, but everywhere, supermarkets, shops, salons, bla bla bla have funny names, very lame as well. they just piss me off. l mouhem. i was wondering, when am i gonna get over my strawberry fruity candy flavored perfume fetish, i go to shops, and i'd say, okay maya, today we are going to buy a perfume for grown ups, and then a red colorful fruity perfume calls me, and i try to stop myself, and then i give up. it's an addiction really, and the existential moment just happened now, when i realized, oh my gosh that's why am carving fruits all the time lol.

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/26395396/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/26395396/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 05:26:31 PDT other than that, nothing much, i might start taking some oriental dancing classes with a friend to shake it shake it hehe, dancing is the best exercise and a good source of endorphins, i guess i need some.
Looking for a full ride scholarship to usa, or some country where the language is english, i am dieing to do my masters, but i am lost between fine arts, animation, and graphic design....
anybody here had there masters done? i'd love to get your feedback
oh and if you know any info about some scholarships, let me know.
back to arts, i am such in an artistic mood lately. it's like it's all i wanna do.
and the good thing that it's not digital.
i am experimenting with sculpture and paint and light, the good thing is that the trance behind it is perfect and detaches me from everything arround, which is perfect as well.
found a new apartment but its in the 5th floor with no elevater loool. it's like the dream apartment is 5 floors away, so am still looking. what else.
all is good i guess.
have a lovely day everybody

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/25621140/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/25621140/ Mon, 29 Jun 2009 04:05:31 PDT say hi from me to the circles in the maze.
The same silence I hate-the darkness- the mind stage
Where are my pain killer pills? It’s more than I can contain.
Somebody take off those chills. Where are my pain killer pills?
The reasons are so lame.
You missed your flight. Too heavy for a kite.
The train of indifference just left again.
She proved them right-why to fight
all you have been fighting for every single day.
She proved them right- Drop the fight
you believe everything she says.
You bungee jumped-you’re not that light
what did you expect!
No safety net-no little bread-no colored little rocks
to find the way back home-and now you are lost.
You miss home
you miss your crown
you were a princess there
but little princess are not big and you don’t fit the frame.
Red red locks- spine chills and painkillers pills
more killer pills more pain pills more killers pills
to keep me away from jane.

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/25384945/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/25384945/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 00:32:01 PDT Everyone is impressed, obviously i am good at it.
Me and ghada my dying butterfly are planning for a photo shoot with it soon yay
nothing else that interesting beside the fact that am very much attracted to magic lately
maybe i'll end up trapped in some mirror lol

just trying out the new skin. i think the skin idea is awesome

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/24785738/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/24785738/ Sat, 16 May 2009 11:21:45 PDT I thought that was worth a whole journal

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/20454850/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/20454850/ Fri, 12 Sep 2008 13:08:15 PDT
- If I were a day of the week, I would be: Friday at night

- If I were a time of day, I would be: just when the sun comes up

- If I were a planet, I would be: la la land planet does it exist?

- If I were a sea animal, I would be: a fishyyyy <3

- If I were a direction, I would be: homo

- If I were a piece of furniture, I would be: a bed

- If I were a sin, I would be: LUST

- If I were a historical figure I would be: Hatshepsut

- If I were a liquid, I would be: silver

- If I were a stone, I would be: fairuz

- If I were a tree, I would be: cedars

- If I were a bird, I would be: i donno any bird

- If I were a tool, I would be: a knife

- If I were a flower/plant, I would be: a lily

- If I were a kind of weather, I would be: the wet ground on the first time it rains with the wood and earth smell.

- If I were a mythical creature, I would be: the thing in the necklace i always wear i donno what her name is but she's so pretty

- If I were a musical instrument, I would be: a violin

- If I were an animal, I would be: A butterfly :$
- If I were a colour, I would be: CRIMSON

- If I were an emotion, I would be: sentimentality

- If I were a vegetable, I would be: avocado

- If I were a sound, I would be: giggles

- If I were an element, I would be: fire

- If I were a car, I would be: a hummer

- If I were a song, I would be: Answer by sarah mclachlan

- If I were a movie, I would be: Iron jawd angels

- If I were a book, I would be written by: The vagina monologue

- If I were a food, I would be: black mushroom and chicken balls-chinese

- If I were a place, I would be: home

- If I were a taste, I would be: sweet and sour

- If I were a scent, I would be: your favorite perfume

- If I were a religion, I would be: fuck relegions

- If I were a word, I would be: Crazy

- If I were a body part, I would be: a Vagina and feel all the orgasms wohoo

- If I were a facial expression, I would be: a kind smile.. oh you can never know how much this can do

- If I were a subject in school, I would be: philosophy

- If I were a cartoon character, I would be: pepper anne or puss in boots

- If I were a shape, I would be: curled

- If I were a number, I would be: 7

- If I were an item of clothing, I would be: a bra :$

- If I were a piece of jewelery, I would be: a necklace

- If I were a clothing accessory, I would be: a scarf

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/20388147/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/20388147/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 09:02:03 PDT i am looking for an apartment again, trying to run out of the new house because of my fucking annoying roomate. nothing new. took some photos experimenting and playing with them like usual. Nothing new or exciting in my life lately, just the whole of freedom adventure.
I love ramadan the food the people gathering arround one table and having dinner all together and stuff and happy ramadan for everyone.

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/20312192/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/20312192/ Wed, 03 Sep 2008 17:20:40 PDT my jaw is hurting from laughing. i had a very good day today.... and now me and serah which is one of the people that make me laugh to tears came up with this universal shocked day where we are wearing a shocked face all day in response to everything that happens. and i am shocked from how much i am laughing about it and everyone else is
looking forward for tomorrow for it's gonna be a wonderfull day
my life has been going great lately little ups and downs but very tolerable i think i am just genuinly happy and alive.
what else. nothing else i'll go back to laughing now

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/20195610/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/20195610/ Thu, 28 Aug 2008 03:58:31 PDT
]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/19874450/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/19874450/ Sun, 10 Aug 2008 07:15:00 PDT well i moved out of my mum's house this month, and i am very happy about it, now i have my own place with two lovely roomates that i didnt know befor but we came friends so fast.
I am very scared of the future, but i have this hunch that everything will be fine, i just need to find a job, that's all i can think of.
barely surviving, well it's hard to survive but what doesnt kill you makes u stronger, cheesy i know but very true.
i've seen the secret lately, and it's such a lame production with a big true message that i already believed in.
my new house is very inspiring am actually taking pictures and Painting again.
i am so clam lately and not nervous or angry all the time though am barely survivng but am happily barely doing it hahahaha.
well that's about it lately, meeting a lot of new intersting people, hoping that doors will open, and feeling that it's about to happen, i just have to be patient.
i feel so alive, i feel i want to live which is something i havnt felt a lot in my life and i love the feeling, and i think when u embrace life it embrace u back. i've been a bitch to life and i never wanted to really live but now that am not anymore i guess the bitch will love me back
It's always weird how i express myself in this journal sometimes i feel naked. but what the fuck i dont care if people judge me, i learned not to care *_*

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/19654881/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/19654881/ Tue, 29 Jul 2008 05:25:06 PDT [link]


plz visit this link
it's on short notice
nice event

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/19353294/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/19353294/ Sat, 12 Jul 2008 11:24:39 PDT
and it makes me wanna go to sleep all over again

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/19004521/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/19004521/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 15:30:19 PDT very hungry
i thought my journal has to be updated
so updating it.
dot.
dot.
not.
zi2 zi2

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/18016884/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/18016884/ Fri, 25 Apr 2008 03:10:00 PDT My singing bird, used to sing for me to sleep, remember the days when i could sleep.
your singing bird. u keep it in a cage then you feel you are in a cage and then you leave it to fly fly away, and then my singing bird comes back and sing for me next to the river and then my singing bird flies back to me and sing for me next to the river and then my singing bird flies back to me, flies back to me, flies back to me and sing sing sing.
My singing bird, i used to feed it pieces of my heart, my singing bird you see used to feed on my heart. and one day you wake up, where is my singing bird. where is my heart.
my singing bird i used to feed it pieces of my heart, until there was no more heart to love you with, to love me with, to love my singing bird.
and one day you wake up from a long long sleep, where is my singing bird,
where is my singing bird.
It's Dead. Its Dead. I killed it.
with my own two hands.
I chocked it. I killed it.
My singing bird used to feed on pieces of my heart.
Your singing bird. you cherich it, you look at it, you see it, you love it, you sing you sing, you sing for it until there was no more songs, you love it until there was no love, you love it you love it you feed it bits of ur heart.
It's Dead. It's Dead. I killed it.
I chocked it with my own hands.
I dipped my hand inside my heart, squeezed it out and removed it from the roots.
It's Dead. It's Dead. I killed it.
I removed my heart. from my chest. between the two bones and held it in my hands, then squeezed it and steped on it and crushed it.
It's Dead. I Crushed it.
It's Dead. I killed it.
It's Dead. It's Dead. I killed it.

Tell the Diamonds. if not for you. My singing bird will never sing again.
Tell the diamond. about the singing bird. i killed it. I Crushed it

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/17985315/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/17985315/ Wed, 23 Apr 2008 00:55:45 PDT This journal is dedicated to my little baby sis Myaw- Christine.
she's not my sister biologically but she is spiritually
she's one of the most talented people i know. and been drawing and scriblling
since she was a baby i watched her grow up and her talent as well.
So have a look on her gallery if you like. it's still new Not a lot of Artwork here same
as when we all started....
but am sure it will be full of Amazing stuff as soon as she gets used to posting here.

Here's the Link

[link]

Be lovely and supportive or i kick your ass
Thank you for your time

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/17842931/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/17842931/ Mon, 14 Apr 2008 04:30:42 PDT


8 bizarre facts about me.

1. My room is always the biggest mess u'll ever see. I can Never find my stuff if they are put in the right place. i always tend to find my stuff more in the mess

2. Whatever is making me down or no matter how much am angry. Always a good delecious Meal can make me happy.

3. I hated every job i've ever taken since i started working. I was never 1% happy in any of them.

4. I can have coocked lunch for breakfest like tabikh

5. I still believe in fairys *_*

6. I Smoke only to watch the smoke coming out of the ciggy

7. I can finish any book in 7 days

8. I am proud of the ability to being extremly mean

I am not sure how bizzar those stuff are but i am at work therefore not much inspiration more like i wanna vomit all the time

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/17518939/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/17518939/ Wed, 26 Mar 2008 00:41:06 PDT walked up to the bus station
saw a dead butterfly on my way.
can anyone please tell me what are the chances to see a dead butterfly
a beautifull dead butterfly?
i mean to someone who love butterflies, as much as i do
what kind of sign is that. or is it just a dead butterfly in my way so id make my day more horrible!
i think am not on the right track, usually life give u signs when you are.
am not.
and guess what, i have no other choice.

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/17190034/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/17190034/ Wed, 05 Mar 2008 05:05:12 PST since my bday
all is fine
am too busy
w life is fine

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16732543/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16732543/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 01:12:01 PST everyone who knows me, know how much i just love that day.
it contradicts itself since i hate the fact that i was born.
BUT and that's a big but indeed BUTT
i love it because everyone is very nice to me on that day, and i
get GIFTS and HUGS and CAKE. and what more can i ask for.
So the usual. my friends told me to come to bardo which is our usual
meeting place and since i am one of the birthday palnners i thought that
they will do me a little surprise which i know, but i didn't imagine they will surprise
me in such a way i had tears in my eyes.
so first i spent the morning with my best friend. in teh library actually since i was printing some stuff and tehn went to dunkin with my bestfriend where ihad 2 donuts and coffee for free since it was my bday hi hi u see why i love that day.
then my family got me cake and all the kids came singing. and when i say all the kids i mean like a big army of cutties.
and then went to meet up with my friends.
and and and they all got me lovely gifts. but the big surprise. and what was a real surprise is when they got me this File. a very thick file. and i wondered what can that hold.
and in it there was about 25 papers. every paper has a print out of one of my photos which they took from facebook and every one wrote me a little note about how much they loved me on it and stuff about me we all shared. and it was amazing
imagine a little book of 25 pages with 25 people writing on it how much they love and respect you it made my day. my year actually and filled the emptiness in my heart i had that day because i thought someone forgot my birthday.
So later after dinner we went to nando's where i won't eat once agian because the food is good but not That good, and then to party where i met like 100 people i know in teh same place and teh place was crowded and some people was there by accident but some of them came to really spend the night with me which i really adored.
we danced, drank, and had a blast, and then went ate at ZWZ with my eating buddy hahaha and went home very happy
eh so Valentine's day is here and everywhere it's red red red and i hate the red they use and it's so red cliche heart everywhere it hurts your eyes.
and omg am so disappointed in Exotica this year. i think they changed there Creativity team or designers or something.
I still wake up everyday wishing i was still asleep hihi but am doing fine and as a mature person holding on in my job it's the age i guess.
Interesting stuff are happening i n my life lately, interseting people but in the very wrong timing......
what else. nothing else.
i'll read this journal *_* next year and remember what i did on my 24th and smile. and be thankfull for all the nice people i met, that they not only support me but provide me with so much love and respect it's so fullfilling and overwhelming in a good way

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16699836/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16699836/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 01:42:50 PST


Name: Maya
Nickname: crimson curls, im l meem, bibs
Living place: Lebanon-jounieh..soon bierut
Day of birth: 2 february AKA YESTERDAY
Height: 185 cm
Eye colour:brown
Shoesize: 43

School/ work: Graphic Designer for a company which am not gonna name
Do you smoke: Yes latley but from time to time
Hobby's: playing ana l mazloum with my friends digital art, photography, going crazy, living myself out
Brothers/ sisters: 1 brother and 3 sisters
Are you in a relationship: No. does just daying counts?
Piercing:YES i have a new one i love
Tattoo: no
Holiday destination: i want to go back to marseille, or maybe amesterdam, just somewhere with no rules...

Nicest person you met this year: it's actually someone's mum. she was the nicest person ever.
Person you had rather not met this year: none really. i donno
Who would you like to meet: Lena Heady!
Who do you admire enormously: some of my friends and my brother
Most sexy persons: euf ktar. where do i start?

Favorite sleeping cloths: nothing. in summer time
Favorite car: Hummer. big black aggressive
Favorite movie: Still city of angels
Favorite music: sarah tori ani and little this and that
Favorite city: Beirut
Favorite teddybear: i hate teddybears and if u get me on i'll hate you too, thank you.
Favorite scent: coffee next to a coffee place where they produce coffee
Favorite magazine: am not into magazines

Favorite sound: erotic voices
Favorite TV-series: a lot. scrubs, 70s show, friends, l word and much much more
Favorite writer: Inga Muscio, this woman is really good and funny, comes next eve ensler for the genuis of the vagina monologue, then comes dan brown who's style really can catch me especially that am not a novel fan, and off course khalil jibran who was my first true love hehe
Favorite nickname: meem.

What's on your mousepad: i don't have a mouse pad
What's beneath your bed: the boogie man
Favorite colour: crimson
All time favorite song: changes with people, event and mood
Favorite song of the moment: eva casdy's song bird and damien rice blower's daughter, latfia's ma3loumat akidi
Favorite food: CHINESE and MEXICAN
Favorite subject in school: philosophy
Favorite drink: tequilla and pillow

Favorite digit: 7
What do you find most beautiful about yourself: my butterfly necklaces?
your deodorant: i don't use deodorant. body splash: victoria's secret
Which shoes do your prefer: black Ranger and converse
What time do you go to bed on weekdays: 11 or 1 depends
Which word or sentence do you use a lot: hayda l shi
The most romantic thing that ever happened to you: stuff

The most embarrassing moment of your life: hahah where do i start with that am just too clumsy to go out
Are you an inside or outside person? am inside out
How do you spend your weekend: Friday nights with aline, saturdays afternoon and night with the girls, then sunday i sleep all day which i love to do or go out for lunch with mum then at night go out with the pals again

Which subject did you dislike in school: Math. boring. but i liked how it provided me with enough sleeping hours
Your breakfast: croissant or elcair and coffee .
what do you absolutely dislike to eat: loubiye bi ziet and mjadara e... ]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16477369/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16477369/ Sat, 19 Jan 2008 16:01:58 PST to every sip of my cigarette
the one i smoke to forget you
then smoke puff out, you pop
in, and it echos down in me
"no don't puff like that you'll
burn your eyes"
I burned my hands playing with fire
I burned myself from echos of memories
that keep flashing back with every sip
and every puff.
To poison, that i keep drinking again
and again it became part of my system.
To the delecious poison, you.
you are the delicious poison that tastes
like syrup and i always drink though i know
it'll hurt, hurt so bad, kills so bad.
I'd take a bullit not to make you sad again.
fade. fade. fade. to smoke. fade to smoke.
smoke disappears. i'll wrap your memory and smoke
it away. i wraped your memory smoked it away.
i said i'll take a bullet for you.
I said i'll take a life time without you.
simply so i'd never agian be able to hurt you.
To poison. To you. my sweet delicious poison.

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16468502/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16468502/ Sat, 19 Jan 2008 01:37:22 PST yay

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16454370/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16454370/ Fri, 18 Jan 2008 03:32:22 PST a guy today a very old man came to where i work he didn't talk
he was very tired. they were nice to him and gave him money but it's just too much
too much misery. and i try to forget and i try to cheer up, but it been putting me down since i saw him, the thought that after he spends this money he have, who will take care of him, what if it's very cold, what if this guy doesn't ahve a house. what if he is sleeping in teh streets in the cold, what if he's sick and in pain, what if he needed medicine or just soup to warm his lungs, it's just too much misery that bring more misery and i can't get over it...
anyway....
I got a buttefly necklace yesterday as a gift. it's so perfect, from hawaii, it's the first time i get a butterfly gift from someone else.
i woke up warm today, and for my surprise stayed warm, it's a warm day in general i guess. and it's very symbolic since yesterday i got my necklace with wings.
memories echo in my mind with every puff of my cigarette, since now i stopped burning my eyes with smoke
i still didn't watch eternal sunshine of a spotless mind but i feel like seeing it so much lately.
my autofix button is cleaning my system, i think this time am really going clear.
because this time is from these times when my head interfers and take over my feelings and am 100% convinced. and am good. i feel healthy. i wake up every morning good, sleepy but good, and nothing is ruining my days lately because there is noone i care much about so they'd affect my day, and i guess am not ruining anyone's day, i hope at least.
talking about movies. i saw this woman today walking on the street. SHE LOOKS LIKE LENA HEADY is that possible. is it is it is it.
Yesterday while i was out with friends i discovered that someone new was hitting on me very strongly and it's like wohow slow down buddy was fun
The chocolate cake yesterday was really orgasmic and everyone eating did voices because it was really good. i mean really good. very fluffy and spongy covered with a thick layer of chocolate that melts in your mouth easily it makes you go ummm.
I remembered liz and how she prohibited me from eating chocolate in class because of the voices that come along with it lol, i never noticed it before.
nothing much to say more, famous blue raincoat the tori version wins my top ten songs played in the backgroud of my head especailly the part wehre she says "that night u decided to go clear, did u ever go clear" and with it i always remember that scene, me getting out of the car, looking back, abc dbaye, the car infront of me and lily is standing still nothing is moving, i wish i can say that i wished that day never happened but i don't, i still think everything was worth every second. every second.
it was a lap in time when the universe decide to give a glimpse of ur future. forward is ur future behind u is the past. and you can't stop looking behind. what wasn't helping is that silver lily was standing still attracting me like magnet to the past. it was a nice day when we called the car lilly. i've missed lilly.....
and now i see that moment clearly.
my friends, my lifestyle, my choatic crazy life was waiting infront, and the silver car behind, i'll always look back to lilly with a smile.
it's not about anyone it's about chracters and situations its' about the difference and the difference and the differences that never found a common line. and now i see it clearly. i think because am clear.

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16414978/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16414978/ Tue, 15 Jan 2008 09:21:26 PST

01. What did you do in 2007 that you'd never done before?
a mini exhibition. ice went to france, smoked a chocolate cigarette next to eiffel tower, found a real job in graphic design, cried my eyes out, Loved deeply, dyed my hair Flashy Red/ then Black. Changed for a person "something i'd never normally do" became very active in my active community, bla bla bla

2. Did anyone close to you give birth?
yes my sister, Noel. adorable. her cheeks are always red


3.Did anyone close to you die?
Yes. ....

4.What countries did you visit?
France only was planning jordan as well but i
got a job so i couldnt.

5.What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
i didn't really lack anything but i would love to have more happines, more money more peace, and more love

6.What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
there's a lot let me start by:
The moment i knew i was goign to france and started jumping .
The day i was told my X had a terrible car accident. thanks god that wasnt true.
moments of love i had.
the moment i was leaving the car and was the first time i felt that "stay don't go"
eiffel tower
7/7/2007 was hell of a night
the day i got my butterfly/heart necklace.
The moment i got the tori box and i looked at it and i thought omg it's real omg this is real. Finally.
New year. the balcony from the 10th floor. the morning. the fireworks, the love of my life next to me

7.What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Stayed in a job for more than 2 month lol. my exhbition, my amazing summer, my free lance works, mu broken heart hehe

8.What was your biggest failure:
To make the only person i loved, Happy

9. What was the best thing you bought?
The tori box ehehe but it wasn't for me which doubled the plessure lol

10.Where did most of your money go?
Traveling, FOOOD, Gifts....especially this xmas. my god.

11.What did you get really, really, really excited about?
France Duh, and seeing my baby.

12.What song will always remind you of 2007:
Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend- foolish Games- you belong to me- tori stuff and fairuziyatttt

13.Compared to this time last year, are you:
Happier or sadder? sadder i guess
Older or wiser? wiser
Thinner or fatter? eating a lot at work
Richer or poorer? Richer.

14.What do you wish you'd done more of?
S.e.x joking. mmmm maybe less foolish stuff

15.Did you fall in love in 2007?
Yes

16.What was the best book you read?
The Vagina monlogue and the book Cunt.

17.What was your greatest musical discovery?
Tori amos. i knew her before but this year i really got to know her....

18.What did you want and got?
donno.. nevermin

19.What was your favorite film of this year?
Imagine me and you, amazing

20.What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
well first i celebrated it with my baby, i got a cam as a gift it was amazing and then i came home and my friends did me a suprise party they came with a violin and a guitar and sang happy brithday all the way up to my house then went to gemmayze had a drink. lovely times.

21.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
more peace at l... ]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16397311/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16397311/ Mon, 14 Jan 2008 03:25:45 PST it's cold very cold it hurts to breathe
my hair is helping very much to warm my brains
am in a very good mood lately
had a lovely weekend full of fun
saturday went partyin and dinner with a friend and we were laughing
so hard everyone arround looked like they weren't having fun at all
sunday spent the day as well with friends then played billiardo and darts
and i won at darts by mistake hahahaahahahaha since everyone just
got bored of the game that never ended lol
am eating chips. can't wait till february it's my brithday yuppiii
and besides i am joining a gym, it's not that far from where i live
12 min by car.
i stood in the sun for like 20 min today like a crazy person
but it was sooooo goood and all the cold got out of me and
i am still warm now.
what else!
i feel very light lately light and calm and its' weird becoz i thought ill be a little
depressed or pissed, but on the contrary,
am very refreshed and chilled and even close to happy

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16234442/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/16234442/ Thu, 03 Jan 2008 03:54:15 PST
now enough about you let's talk about me
yes i know. egoist

i've been reading the alchemist. and its' raining outside. i love it when it rains and the sky is all gloomy and depressed. another year has passed, and another will and i still don't get existence but at least now i want to exist.
The fire works at 12 the chill the heart and the flutter. welcoming my new year.
am wishing the phone will ring, right now.
it's cold here, it's cold everywhere lately, even in my own bed.
Have u ever been in a situation where you want to say a lot of stuff and you just run out of words?
I got a beautifull tinkerbell, she's very big and gold. and now like all my gifts am very attached to it lol i carry it everywhere with me
i want my hot water bag. it stays hot up till 10 hours it shocks me.
its' very cold here very very very.
this is my lunch break i had a cheese burger for lunch.
can i get any lamer today.
the alchemist is a good book uptill now. i am not sure if he's gonna find a treasure i am in the middle of the book and i guess he did find a lot of treasures already. maybe it's the way i can relate to it, he found knowledge and it's what i yearn for most.
My insanity stage is evolving and now am talking to my pc at work
am eating chocolate right now and its so so so good.
this year i want to turn every storm into a spring
and i will. because the universe always give me what i really want
because i really want it and they say when u wish for something for the
bottom of ur heart, that's when u reach to the bottom's of the universes'

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15926887/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15926887/ Fri, 14 Dec 2007 05:52:04 PST so you are flying and its' sharper when you are flying and you hit the ground.
i am out of words, out of hopes, out of expectations, and teh safety net which
i never had is watching me and laughing in my face.
but i still don't like safety nets. i don't believe they should exist. at least
not me and a safety net in one relation or with one person. it makes us
three. shadows from the past, fears of the future, our present lost inbetween.
i don't want to stop asking questions i will always wonder about, at the same time
i really don't want to hear the answers you have to such questions, it's a fact inwhich u can't lie, am gratefull u never lie.
ridiing a roalercoaster is fun, but eventually you get dissy, you'd need to get of the roalercoaster sit on a bench and relax. am tired, really, from the only source that
should be relaxing. it's like you came home on a winter day and find no roof above your head, and then the roof grows back and then disappear again and then grow and disappear and disappear and eventually logically you should start losing faith that this shelter of yours would get stable one day.
who am i kidding, whenver i think that things are gonna change. some things never change. hills can't compete with mountains, and to you am just a hill. u've reached the mountain long ago and you] slipped upthere, fell down and hurt urself. and am sorry for that, but don't u think its little boring tiring and lonely for me to get to the top of the mountain alone, i want someone to accompany me on teh way up and it won't be you.
i want wider extremes, i want more extreme extremes, and i can't have them.
it's not by choice you say.
you can put tell teh singing bird who lives next to the river to drink from the little lake. the singing bird always dreamed of the river. u can't tell the singing bird i've been to the river and now am not taking you anymore, its' not like the singing bird is leaving you to go, teh singin bird don't know the way.
you can't tell teh hungry kid i can't eat with you because few years ago i ate and felt fullfilment and then i slipped and it hurt my stomach.
you can't tell the thirsty i can't drink with you, because few year ago i drank and i slipped and it hurt my stomach.
the singing bird don't know the way to the river, the singing bird can't go alone to the river. the hungry kid don't want to eat from anywhere else. the thirsty person is thirsty and you only you know the way to water.
inspite of everything that happened. inspite of all that happened. inspite for all i stayed, and i was willing to stay. i bumped back and forth so many times but i stayed because i believed that everything before had a solution, everything can be compramized, but this, its not in your control nor mine, and just as it's not in your control to change this, it's not within my control to accept it. i can't. i can't. i just can't.
i thought one day i'll hear from you everything i ever wanted to hear. but on teh contrary, i heard everything that i never wanted to hear.
i thought one day we'll go to the top of the mountains together to the edge of extremes but it's not with in my control.
that thing inside you that make you fly, the same thing inside you that split you
into pieces and then split you heart into pieces and then split the heart of your heart
into pieces and then split teh pieces of the pieces of urself ur heart and all you are
into pieces. and all the in 2 days, in few words
it hasn't been a week yet for your mood swing, getting more intese yah.
well i really don't know what to say... i think i'll shut up like i should do for
all the questions which i don't like their answers, i'll have to shut up darling
so we'd be happy. and tell me who's gonna shut that heart of me inside my head
who's gonna shut that woman in me inside of me?
the singing bird don't want a river but u can't put it next to the river and ask them
not to sing not to drink not t showe with river water.
you.know.
i am not going anywhere, not right now maybe later.
i don't want to spend my xmas mourning over the abortion of my heart.
i don't want to spend my xmas and new year without you.
i don't my xmas will be one without you, i don't i want a newyear to come without you.
i don't think i want to stay with you. i don't think i want to stay without you.

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15805511/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15805511/ Wed, 05 Dec 2007 10:29:24 PST and make me feel lucky am still alive everyday am going home back from work lol
so today at work i did a typo i've been doing a lot of typos lately
but thanks god am rechecking everytime and people are cheking after me lol. and i was thinking, if one day i will open my own little design company it willl be named: malik l typos metel malik l tawouk w malik l batata w akhiran malik l falefil.
23 years and am still waiting for my mum to understand that i hate to fix my room. 23 years and mum is still waiting for me to fix it. i wonder when this open war will end.
everyday i learn something new at work. i discover shortcuts, learn more armenian and finally discover that the more u read the more it's usefull. why. let me elaborate. for example it's been two day am deadly sleepy at work, drink nescafe all day and never wake up. and i kept wondering why, i was so worried nescafe doesn't work for m anymore, i even got pepsi with me to work so i'd be ok with my caffine level, and ps: am someone who's always sleepy no matter what. so today while i was making my coffee cup calmly i saw it, the red sign on the coffe box, it was even written in red "DE CAF" AS FOR NO CAFFINE IN THIS ONE DEAR EMPLOYEE WHO WANNA WAKE UP. and then it hit me and that was the reason.i laughed my ass out, and it's 8:30 and am not even sleepy lols again.
eh so am a balck head now btw and i really like it. i was so scared to dye my hair, but when i saw it was like omg i should've done that long time ago. blue black though.
i have nothing else to share anymore. wait i have but my hands are cold to type so am gonna stop typing now *cici*

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15716035/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15716035/ Thu, 29 Nov 2007 02:49:41 PST i am at work now. boring day.
i am up and i am down
hehe
i am bored i donno what to say
so i'll say nothing lol
kah kha kha

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15569138/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15569138/ Sun, 18 Nov 2007 21:09:10 PST no not the usual answer
dear diaries, i feel like crying and am trying hard to but i can't
but some stuff have to happen i guess some stuff need to fade.
it's just another bad day and another memory linked memory to a bad day which i hope will turn good eventually.
it's my first day at work and i am so scared. in 10 minutes i will be heading to the new office where i should work and am really scared and i would've loved it to sms someone telling them how scared i am so they would make me feel better about it but we are not talking and all my friends are asleep right now. am really scared i hope i will like this job so i would keep it. i think i need jobs therapy.
anyway. it's cold outside i don't know what to wear. and i want to cry more now. what a wuss i am eh.
so dear diaries. thing changed. some things need to change. i know you miss the answer but things need to be changed.
so yah since noone is wishing me that right now. i'll say good luck for me in my new job. oh i really hope they have interenet there hehe and hope we can use the internet.
so dear diaries, am scared
scared of letting go. scared of starting new stuff. scared of the new job. and most of all thank scared of the big changes that are about to happen.
and u had to pick this day and this weekend.
but then again why would u need people that turn most of ur occassions into one to cry about and make it worst when u need them most.
dear diaries. today. am gonna be brave

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15467109/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15467109/ Sun, 11 Nov 2007 16:35:11 PST my fanatsia is on everyone' phone lately
last time my freind told me that everyone that see it wants it. i liked the idea since seriously it's my baby and the best work i admit i ever did.
So now one of my friends want to do me an exhibition. am praying it works. an indepandant exhibition for me when am still this age is a huge thing to do.
am not sure people are big fan of my work amd not sure some even count me as an artist, but i just love it when there is much kindness arround and so much appreciation from people that are already big in ur head and they've seen a lot and their opinion counts. i wuoldn't be able to wait if it really happened my heart will jump outside my chest. the first time i exhibitied it was so positively overwehlming i couldnt contain the ammount of happines, until off course i read the critique of the woman in annahar newpaper which called my work of art as something not that nice, i mean she could've gave her opinion objectively it's not that hard. maybe she was angry but i don't care now but i admit after all the happiness i felt in my exhibition that woman made me cry and she's not even an art critique i donno why they send such people to such places. i know i might suck big time but it's hard to hear it.
the best part was that the day of the exhibition people wouldn't know who i am and then they'll come to my paintings and they will be like "wow" or give a very positive comment and i will standing next to them listening very happily. it seriously made my day. So anyway
i seriously hope my exhbition work and and and though imight exhibit in a very humble place i don't mind. i just wanna share my work with people <3 it's like opening your heart to the world

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15377103/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15377103/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 13:30:41 PST ever smelled ur pillow again and again
and i already love sleep.
random random
I heard the best confession ever today.
repeat repeat wanna here it agian
i can't believe my ears
eating bezer 3am ta2ish bezer
still looking for job
wish i lived in beirut
things to so list hehe
random

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15287989/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15287989/ Tue, 30 Oct 2007 14:14:10 PDT rain rain rain on me, clean clean clean the rooftops of the buildings surrounding mine, come again? confession: u do hate how random i am.
i just ate a crab salad, 2 donuts and drank like 2 liters of water. Pigging out big time lately, i think or i know i always do it to hide the emptyness, i munch everything in my way. the good thing is that the emptyness i am feeling lately is surprisingly descreasing by seconds. i think am kinda relaxed and chilled lately which is something i like. i have the best friends in the whole world and they just fill up my life in every single way.
Having a lot of job interviews lately i hope i get one of them hehe.
people. i donno what's with me and people. i find it very extremly repulsing when someone is hitting on me or even giving me look. extremly like run away hide and throw up. that's weird. i even avoid talking to people on my chat list for example who i know they like me. or maybe it's just because of the period.
ey am even joking again and making my own jokes in my own head which is cool.
tomorrow is halloween, me and the gangy bangy is doing something but i donno what is it and i donno yet what to wear. but to think again with the hair of mine i can just leave it as it is and here we go a built in mask
it feels good to write again in this journal some drama free stuff.
what else. there's nothing baiscally i enjoyed today a breakfest out with my cunt book, this writer is reallly interesting and just when i thought i am a feminist to the bones well she gave me a great kick and put me in her own little feminist pocket.
period pain sucks, and i hate hot beverages :angry:
it rained today it rained and i could smell the earth from my balcony akh i love that smell it's a mixture of playing when ur a child and standing on ur window in the third floor. i remember once a conversation i had with my friend anthony and we talked about our autofix button. i guess mine is on and working realy great which make me really happy and chilled. am in peace and i love this feeling. i just wish my pc is in the room right now and i am in my bed but it's ok at least am in peace now. we love peace don't we
i should so go to miss universe *waves and fans face* i want world peace and a bunch of chocolate ritter sport praline and an elcere with cream fresh and pineaple pieces i am sure i am not pregnant but i am craving like a pregnant woman. hih
now the perfect ending of a regular journal of mine.
pfft.

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15251515/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15251515/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 00:52:56 PDT i saw this at dina's and since am a self centered
person who likes to talk about herself OR i am awake early
on a sunday morning i said i'll answer
but noone tagged me
Here it is:

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey

Name: Maya- meem

Birthday: feb. 2. 1984 --- am 23 to ease the calculations

Birthplace: achrafiyeh-bierut- Lebanon

Current location: lebanon

Eye:Brown

Hair Color: flashy red

Height: 185 cm

Weight: 10 kg

Right handed or left handed: both mihihi

Your heritage: Lebanese

The shoes you wore today: am barefoot right now but i know it'll be a converse

Your weakness: my friends. people i love in general

Your fears: death of the ones i love.

Your perfect Pizza: chicken alfredo

Goals you would like to achieve this year: Get a job. travel anywhere again and my have my own exhibition. all is being cooked and it's on the way

Your most overused phrase on an instant messenger: cici the smiley face *_*

Your bedtime: depends. but usually 3 4 5

Your most missed memory: talking to daddy

Pepsi or Coke: diet coke

MacDonalds or Burger King: burgers from macdo. fries from bk

Single or group dates: define group dates? big orgy but right now i wanna be single

Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea

Chocolate or Vanilla: CHOCOLATE

Cappuccino or Coffee: cappuccino

Do you smoke: yes. unfortunatly but rarely

Do you swear: between every line *bows head*

Do you sing: lately only under the shower khehe

Do you shower daily: no once a month

Have you been in love: yes and i discovered love is not enough. pfft.

Do you want to go to College: again yes yes yes. i would love to. another major or a masters. ouhou

Do you want to get Married: hahaha are u kidding me. off course not. yu3

Do you believe in yourself: i believe i can fly

Do you get motion sickness: nop. depennds. but not always

Are you a health freak: i am the exact opposite

Do you like Thunderstorms: they scare me but i love looking at thunder its so magical and they say thunderstorms have faries in them *_*

Do you play an Instrument: my vocal cords and my curls pihi

In the past month have you drank Alcohol: yesterday in particular.i had some.

In the past month have you Smoked: yes yes

In the past month have you been on Drugs: no. i don't do that.

In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yes but no for shopping. phlease

In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: i dislike oreos

In the past month have you eaten Sushi: nop. i just remembered. i wanna try sushi.

In the past month have you been on Stage: no.but at least i've been asked to be

In the past month have you been Dumped: hahaha like 1000 times

Do you work: sometimes. is freelancer an answer

In a Boy: ps: i don't like boys

Favourite eye colour: Black

Favourite hair colour: purple

Short or long hair: no hair

Weight: almost disappearing

Best Clothing Style: feminine http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/15001187/ Wed, 10 Oct 2007 14:04:08 PDT i love the movie it brings back lovely memories
and a nice feeling.
there is nothingness
i am so glad i could finally do a decent work of art
thanks for all those who inspired me...
i got 8 fav in less then a mintue on my tree of diamonds
and they all people i donno which made my day
nothing else because there is nothing..
nothingness

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/14843061/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/14843061/ Sat, 29 Sep 2007 15:04:22 PDT For a long long time before and still until now i say stuff people cannot understand and it's not there fault it's neither mine. it's habbit. i got used to not talking or saying stuff only I "me" inside my head will understand or just moving the eyelashes, and she would understand. Once we were stuck in a group of bunch of assholes and it was boring she was on the side facing me and we started moving the eyes, and we seriously started a very funny conversation, i can't forget the look at that guy's face i guess he found out he's not as smart as he thought he was. Up till now people find me sometimes silly or very weird saying stuff or laughing at them inside my head and i never get offended by that or pissed it just makes me smile because if my bestfriend was here we would've laughed at what i laughed inside my head really hard, and without even talking about the thing we just look and laugh.
Too much memories tonight dear diaries, feels like a part of my life have been on hold till today. today she arrives at the airport. i know some people would find my journal freaky, if so then i'll advice finding urself a bestfriend. because if u can't understand and havn't been through all this then u havn't had a bestfriend or a twin sister
The reason memories are flowing is the fact that i don't have to burry them anymore so they won't float and hurt. she's coming today. and i am gonna meet her on the airport where i stood 2 years ago and smiled, some moments u just can't forget it's no wonder i had tears in my eyes or felt a squeeze in my heart whenever i saw someone saying goodbye in an ad on tv or whatever place. The best part of friendship is when u travel with ur bestfriend and we went to our favorite place together once, Italy. we still joke about the pasta, there are little things about pasta for 2 years i barely had anyone to joke with about accept online. I can't believe my bestfriend is coming back, i am not sure for a long term for a short term, seeing our beloved country's situation i say short but who knows..... who cares. few days are enough for me recharge of energy my old self. i'd give anythign for that. i will feel whole again. i guess.
or not. i am scared dear diaries i am very scared... 2 years people change. not a lot as far as i know. and if i know us well which i am sure i am it will take us 5 minutes to go again to how we were and maybe now even more. The thing is sometimes when some people become a big part of your life and a usual part like our parents or sisters we take them for granted, i never took my bestfreind for granted she never did as well we always felt so lucky to have each other, and literally got over Anything together anything just name it anything means anything. but it was a plus to know how is it to feel there's always something missing....tomorrow i wont' feel that anymore i guess. it's Scary seriously scary. it scares me we both have changed like mum says. my mum which my friend calls mum too. my home which my friend calls home too. i am afraid all this will be just a history of two people who changed. but what scares me more is and is really more scary,is to get back that pleasure of talking without the need to explian every word and then go back to the old disease where u talk and noone understand and then u will start to have to explian and then u just don't talk anymore and u just laugh with urself and always wonder where is my bestfriend now so she'd laugh with me, stuff that people would never understand. and i wonder how much time will i have to spend with a person to have what i ha... ]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/14799401/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/14799401/ Wed, 26 Sep 2007 12:00:21 PDT and the wind dropped it in a box
and they key is as well locked under thousands of hells

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/14410371/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/14410371/ Thu, 30 Aug 2007 12:54:07 PDT you know sometimes when you yourself feel it that you are wierd. well it's one of my wierd days when i am really really wierd like insane needs therapy wierd. but u didn't need to know that.....
i woke up in the afternoon took my tools. my shoe painting box and went to the kitchen. i like to draw with plasticine my finger hurts after the process and through out the process but i always like the results. but not today. so i fucked it up
and i remembered why i don't draw anymore. it's because people usuallly stop when they think the painting is nice. i never reach the point where i say oooo this is nice and stop. i stop only when there is no white spaces for it to breathe and when it cannot be more fucked up and chaotic with one thousand color inculded and lots of black that's spilled all over everything.
why the kitchen, dont ask maybe the view is nice and it felt kinda cool to do something in the kitchen other then eating or cooking.
i watched the movie "the number 23" cool movie. i liked the psycholigical aspect of it and the fact that all the women looks like his mother in the movie and the fact that the number 23 complex came from his father's note. it's just a reflection of how our parents almost trace our future since we are kids. some people survives it. others stay stuck in it forever.
and oh have i talked about the movie CARAMEL dear journal. i didn't.
well it's one of the best lebanese movies i ever saw. i'll give it 9/10 and the minus one of when the lesbian says the zalghouta it's like so out of place and so lame. in the whole movie i didn't like anything but the zalghouta.
i guess the movie was more perfect to me because i would'nt have asked for a better company and i wouldn't wanna watch it with someone else or anywhere else
it was amazing how caramel portraid the real lebanese women and how it was a kind of rebel on all the taboos like premarital sex and being a lesbian, which are both not only taboos but kind of a red line to the lebanese society and we all know youth deal with such issues differently then the older generation. and someone need to show the lebanese people that we are not in the 12 century anymore. we are in the 21st and life is changing and becoming more opened. face it.
personally my favorite character in the movie was the kheyata. i think her name was marry she really knew how to play her roll well and the guy is lovely and lesbian is so lesbian lol and nadine labaki is deadly pretty and the girl with the chewing gum is a story that happens with a lot of women that noone talks about.
anyway.. the guy in the mood. the smiley keeps flying in my face while am writing this and it's been a long time since i have cheerfull as my mood so i always wonder when would it get tired. or would the mood status get bored of it it'll send some birds to kill the balloons :evillaughter: or like just over dose them with hillieum and they can fly away with no coming back. have u ever tried talking after exhaling hellium haha i tried it and it sounded very funny, the voice and the feeling was hilarious.
i feel suddenly like eating cotton candy. and like actually calling this journal zabazaba
don't ask why zabazaba it's just ryhming music in my head
i will stop writing now.
stopp writing now
stop
spot
pots
otps
post
tops
stop
stop
stop
pfft i said stop
okay
stops

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/14388996/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/14388996/ Wed, 29 Aug 2007 00:32:02 PDT
I'm very bored of my gallery and i think there is nothing realy artistic in it
Artist crisis alert.
my brush has been dry for month now. i just do art for work it's more like design for
work and not art i am not sure what to do about that.
i got some charcol pastel since last year, and i still didn't touch them can u believe that
few days ago i went to an exhibition of a old woman. not that old. i forgot her name like i always do with names. But she was good and the techiniques was very strong. she copied some of the big works for our beloved psycho artists like monet and others and seriously she was good even in her own creative paintings which reminded me how much i love to paint and that it's been ages since i did a real painting.
I think my gallery sucks big time am very bored of the work in it but still no inspiration for me to do anything new it's like i'm squeezing my brains out and no no.
my bad habbits always win. i get bored of stuff and look always for something new.
but it never happened before with art. like in the style yes but not art itself. and now am not even bored of art i just can't do art work that i t hink are good.
anyway am updating my gallery soon am sure i'll be inspired soon or i'll kill the muse hehehe

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13959720/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13959720/ Tue, 31 Jul 2007 17:00:50 PDT [link]
tagged me yo2sof 3omrik

Rules: You must post three replies to each question. Once you are done, you may tag THREE other people (you don't have to, it's just for fun) who then must do the same thing. Ready?? Here we go!!

1. Name three nationalities / cultures you wish you were:
-Lebanese (which is am )
-italian
-greek civilization (to hang out with the philosophy dudes)

2. Name three people (famous or not) you wish you were:
-Me
-brad pit (since he's sleeping with angelina)
-the person who illustrated puss in boots

3. Name three famous people you wish you were dating / married to:
hard one
- Lena heady (i am in love with her)
- nadine labaki
- angelina jolie



4. Name three personality traits you wish you had:
- less laziness
- I wish i could work like normal people do and be stuck in an office
- more sane

5. Name three physical traits you wish you had:
-maybe less weight but not a big deal.
-real red flashy hair
-magical fingers where i can snap and get what i want

6. Name three types of people you wish you were (i.e.> cowboy, samurai, etc.)
- psychic
-fortune teller
-a stripper

7. Name three skills you wish you had:
- i wish i can illustrate more accuratley
-cleaning the house haha
-taking away pain


8. Name three cartoon characters you wish you were:
-Puss in boots ahhh i love that guy
-Dori from finding nemo coz i wish i can forget stuff every 5 seconds
- and the road runner ktir manyak i love him it would be amazing to run next to people and make them spin

i donno who else to tagg, count it as an open invitation everyone lol

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13941863/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13941863/ Mon, 30 Jul 2007 13:15:13 PDT I am not a party person but i partied every night, danced got high got drunk laughed my ass out pigged out with elie in the morning and ate cream out of a bottle and rolled on floor. the stairs where we sat most and the hallway and ate and talked and danced and talked and ran and sneezed and and and it makes me smile to remember all this. the party everynight was so much fun the shopping in marseille streets the walk from the dorm to the gathering place and the people. the kindness. the people where so kind. some walked even half naked others slept on the grass there were no bounderies no limits i donno how to describe it. the europeans especailly teh french some of them are nice really nice and there was this very deep difference and gap between backgrounds and way of life but still it was very cultural.
and after the very hard goodbye i went back to lyon with my friend spooky where i saw all lyon in 3 days we went out alllll day long and my favorite part was the rhon it could make me stop breathing how beautifull that river lake i donno what name to give it but i am sure it was a peice of heaven i will post pictures soon. and the park the park was amazing. i loved lyon. more then paris as a place to live in, less smells in the metro more fresh air and less crowded maybe because it was summer time and in summer everyone goes on vacation. lyon was beautifull. my flight from lyon to paris alone the first time on my own on a plane i was little stressed but then i came to paris. paris. how do i describe paris. when i first saw the notre dam i couldnt stop looking. i stoped and wowed really how huge and glorious. i told my friend when i got to paris and in lyon that i felt like i am stuck in a box of postcards. wherever u look there's a scene from a postcard. u don't need to frame your picture. the weather in paris was foggy to me is lovely because i hate summer like hell. it was very romantic. i am confused what would i love more paris or lyon i guess i love the calmness of lyon and the good smells hehe and the sparkles of the chanzelise and the lights of the eiffel tower at night and the arc of triumph and the pyramid of the louver and and and most of all the forest. the forest made me cry where the duck qwak qwaked in the lake. the green was so amazing. i couldnt imagine coming back to beirut and the traffic and all the buildings and commercial sights after such views in that forest. and when we were walking back from the lake and the river it rained and me and my friend where listening to fairuz and it couldn't be more lovely it was a pretty on that lake, but i was with my friend so hehe i wish it was someone i cared for as a lover it would've been the perfect romantic moment i would've propsed
talking about feelings. i finally crushed on someone. been 3 month since my breakup i wasnt' very upset from the break up after teh first few weeks but i couldn't like anyone since i am in nature very picky and then this person came from nowhere, but then went back to nowhere. i am not sure if this person liked me back. it was very misterious, and complicated how much i couldn't read that person, and i am someone who can read people. i guess u'll never know that i really liked you like really really it took me few days to like u the smile the hair the cuteness, everyone thought your cute and lovely and you will never know. i tried telling you but i don't think i could because you were very misterious. ummm but the good thing is that i know i can at least like people hehe miracle happens its true. i am thankfull it did happen. came out of nowhere went back to nowhere. we don't live in the same country. http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13860081/ Tue, 24 Jul 2007 12:49:53 PDT
i don't really have time to write a journal right now since am watching a lesbian movie butbutbut i realy felt like blogging and it feels good like home. i will write a lot of jounrals when i come home. am going to paris in 2 days yay i am so happy here yay as well
i have to go now la la la

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13739113/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13739113/ Sun, 15 Jul 2007 00:06:45 PDT the time is passing so slowely and i hope my flight will be ok i hate it when they search me and the lugde i hope they won't pfft. i am going to see one of my closest freinds so soon i can't wait for monday. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i just want it to be 4 and for my plane to go up and then 10:30 and my i will be on the way to my hotel. i am so excited i can die right now hehe. wish meluck wish me luck. i am not gonna misss anyone coz i will be too busy tooo hahaha that was very evil and mean. but it's just few days
okay i have to go now *dances* *jumps* i am going to fraaaaaaaaaaance the dream came true lalalalalaaaaaaaaaalalalaaaaaaaaaa

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13739112/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13739112/ Sun, 15 Jul 2007 00:06:43 PDT the time is passing so slowely and i hope my flight will be ok i hate it when they search me and the lugde i hope they won't pfft. i am going to see one of my closest freinds so soon i can't wait for monday. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i just want it to be 4 and for my plane to go up and then 10:30 and my i will be on the way to my hotel. i am so excited i can die right now hehe. wish meluck wish me luck. i am not gonna misss anyone coz i will be too busy tooo hahaha that was very evil and mean. but it's just few days
okay i have to go now *dances* *jumps* i am going to fraaaaaaaaaaance the dream came true lalalalalaaaaaaaaaalalalaaaaaaaaaa

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13739111/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13739111/ Sun, 15 Jul 2007 00:06:42 PDT the time is passing so slowely and i hope my flight will be ok i hate it when they search me and the lugde i hope they won't pfft. i am going to see one of my closest freinds so soon i can't wait for monday. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i just want it to be 4 and for my plane to go up and then 10:30 and my i will be on the way to my hotel. i am so excited i can die right now hehe. wish meluck wish me luck. i am not gonna misss anyone coz i will be too busy tooo hahaha that was very evil and mean. but it's just few days
okay i have to go now *dances* *jumps* i am going to fraaaaaaaaaaance the dream came true lalalalalaaaaaaaaaalalalaaaaaaaaaa

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13677755/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13677755/ Mon, 09 Jul 2007 22:39:08 PDT this month was really a blast. and june as well was kinda very good too. but no this month is really one of the best, i don't even have time to stay at home, i do nothing but go out and have fun and jump arround, i wish my x partner would be a less of a parasite and less of a bad energy that misunderstand everything and see stuff very different and very untrue, but it's really nothing just like a little bad thought that crosses the mind rarely. Everything else is perfect. we even had a tori amos night. you should've met the people the tori people it's so cute how u can always listen to them saying omg this is my favorite song on every single song. and the matrini-s were great.
few days ago i was hanging out with friends which is basically all i am doing lately hehe and they were asking me about france and whenever i recall the idea i have this cheerfull look up my face as if i just woke up from a happy dream. hehehe i am going to france i am going to france i want to dance i want to dance. i did dance actually last week or the one before it was funny and been long since i went partying but i guess that time i needed it. It was very much fun, but i mean what could be the ammount of people that can hit on u in one party , anyway i am so glad charbel saved me from that guy who almost jumped over me while dancing and the other guy i donno who saved from the girl in the wc. she was cute though hehe.now i remember it, it's so funny a fun night that i'd never do again
my room is a mess which is nothing new. i can't wait to arrive on that plane to france sleep wake up and then go meet my spoooooooooooooky on the train and then the fun starts i really can't wait, and i think i said that like more then a 1 thousand time. am still scared though for not getting the visa but there is no reason not to get it. i would die if i don't. but i am going to france and i am going and i am going w huh.
Finally my graduation day. the 17th wouhouuuooooooo am not gonna be here. double the pleasure, why? because do i want to wear a dress NO i don't. moreover do i wanna go shopping for a dress HELL NO. i am little sad for my mum though it's kinda part of her big dream to see my graduating, i kinda want to go to the graduation too but off course i prefer france to that off course off course off course.
i am gonna sleep now and after it wake up and put a list of all the things that i need, and my mum got me a swimming suit, i love when she does that, less shopping for me means less pain and spinning arround in circles arround shop getting dressed undressed then dressed then undressed and all of this and it's almost a hundered degrees and the sun kills. i am going to france which to me is the art symbole. my heart can really jump out of my chest from happiness and i thank god for that. what god i donno whatever god that exist hehe. i am going to france i am going to france i wanna dance i wanna dance.
okay time for me to sleep now. and then the list of things to do. and the room i have to keep reminding myself of that lol goodnight though am sleeping during the day.

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13606025/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13606025/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 11:05:46 PDT
The End. ]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13500670/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13500670/ Tue, 26 Jun 2007 15:58:01 PDT
~petitemistress and ~corpsebride00 came up with the idea, so here are the details, as taken from their journal.


WHERE? in Jbeil, (Byblos) at the corniche by the sea in the old port. (very easy to find, near the Pepe restaurant ask any1 w bidelloukon.)
WHEN? saturday 30th JUNE at 5 o'clock pm dur.
WHO? lebdev? welcome!

None of this is to be discussed. Sorry. its short notice so dt expect me to change this from now till then! You are welcome to come with your sketchbooks, cameras, instruments... all you freaky DA ppl know your thang

why Byblos? simple: no explosions. and seriously? its not that far. consider it a massive road trip!

So it basically boils down to: COME HAVE FUN! myself and the aforementioned DA users will b there whether
any1 shows up or not!


Now, this date will NOT change, will NOT be postponed, will NOT be canceled. We all know about the bombs, we all know about the war that is happening in the north and south, but lets face it, we have all been there before and we know how to act.

We have to stop living in fear and hoping for things to "calm down" to start living, we just have to adapt.

As stated, this is the date, everyone is invited to come, even if it's just for an hour. It's been almost a year since our last meeting.


On a side note, anyone who doesn't have a ride, post it in this comment so that we can organize ourselves to go.

(plz rsvp in this journal)

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13336755/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13336755/ Thu, 14 Jun 2007 00:10:31 PDT one of those mornings when u wake up wishing yesterday was just another bad dream, and the sound of little screaming baby mama mama was just another part of that nightmare. but it's not. not in this country. and u wonder what on earth would make this little baby forget that face of her mum with blood all over it. and who's gonna replace everyperson that died, maybe a father or a mother or a brother or just another noone that was important to a lot of people. It's seriously Ironic how on tv you could see the spinning wheel which is supposed to be filled with happy people enjoying their time, but instead u see dead ones. and fire everywhere. and the thing is it never becomes a deja vu, ur always surprised with the new next bomb and wonder, what if the next one will come close to someone i care for. Fuck it fuck who's the asshole that would wanna kill babies i can't understand it. ok bombs in places where u kill people's business is not ok but acceptable but Fuck a place during day time while people are all leaving back home or eating corn enjoying their time and kids are playing. who would wanna kill little kids who the fuck wanna do this. i can't understand, fuck i can't. 6 bombs one month what's next 6 bombs per day, i say the only thing is gonna be left of leb is ashes. but we can't stop loving lebanon! can we.
like the little kid that u love most and adore and they keep beating him up and bleeding doesnt count...
fuck it fuck all this fuck fuck fuck

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13292065/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13292065/ Sun, 10 Jun 2007 15:30:03 PDT i wish someone gives her the shoes back
Or maybe a shirt, i guess after she lost her shoes
the prince married the girl with the silicon boobs and
she was too poor so she had to work as a prostitute
and then the Rotana company found her and found In her
all the charactersitcs of their very artistic proffessionl ear distorting
Sin-gerls. So now on let's all sing for cinderella shakira's song objection since the prince ran away with the girl with bigger boobies.
way to go prince-charming. take care they don't explode on high pressure. silicon tend to. I am just jealous coz mine are too mini.....
and i go one being a total bitch and think, mmm why there are no magic in this world anymore. you really wanna know why. coz if u wanna turn a frog into a prince you cannot fucken kiss him with fake lips. capisco! And the beast died long ago because someone picked his immortal flower and played she loves me loves me not with it then cars passed on it's peddles and the only thing beauty got from this whole story was a salon. a beauty salon. 50% off discount, take advantage of the offer before it's too late. call: 112. or the pizzahut. but that's just for me i feel like a pizza. with Bk fries and a pepsi max along with a crab salad with a lot of mayo-lemon sauce and avodca and lettuce chicken pizza rules

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13268233/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13268233/ Fri, 08 Jun 2007 17:06:24 PDT NO dont worry people she's still alive

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So according to her i am teh duck in the middle who is
Obviously dead because i ate all the candies. Yes see
she is evil but tomorrow am gonna eat all the candies
as well alone though i promised her to share
lol see u tomorrow in candy land and am so stealing
you macflurry Oreo

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13130321/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13130321/ Mon, 28 May 2007 19:57:44 PDT
feeling little sick little confused little disgusted but more like what the hell is really going on and what happened. trying to figure out if life in lebanon is ever gonna be safe or at least secure and garunteed.
Flashing infront of me is some abroad art academy which i don't think i can ever get into, dreaming of someone almost everyday and i can almost smell this person's skin, wondering what i prefer diet pepsi or pepsi max. wondering if people read my very weird journals with a lot of questions and drama drama drama. Tired from building from scratch where what i really want have been built so many years ago but it can never be neither i want it to be and looking for something similar but that need a lot of effort. it's very weird how we trust people to put effort into them life is like a lottery indeed u either pic a winning card or not, and maybe the money u bet with was ur final penny and then u lose everything u have just from a stupid guess. listening to fairuz in my head but wondering if i really wanna listen to her do i put on a song or just leave tarik l nahel playing in my head. i have a bunch of potato chips scattered all arround my pc table empty hehe i am so addicted lately to lays original it's really good and simple, i don't really like complicated tastes anymore since i have no one sharing me my food orgasmic pleasure since my bestfriend is not here anymore and everything feels tasteless. and the rest of the world is on a stupid diet. it's summer and few month from now it's gonna be winter again and then spring and then summer again and autumn and then winter and then i wonder then what i know good things happen i really believe in that but they simply happen to happen to other people. good thing happen good things happen, to other people. not me not today not tomorrow and life is not really surprising me it's like i know what gonna happen tomorrow and it's no surprise and it's not really interesting but i'll live it just because i have to because other people expect me to live since i was born, isn't that stupid? i mean really what's with human emotional attachments wouldn't be easier if we didn't get attached so u can get to throw urself of ur balcony anytime u feel like it without feeling the world heavy weight on ur shoulders! and then u would see people corpse all around the streets and there are no human emotions therefore no pitty therfore noone burry them and the whole world would smell
sometimes i sleep all day and all night and i wonder am i just an addition to this world's balance u know like water when u cook it doesn't really taste it's just there to make the cooking look better or preventing it from sucking, am i that to the world. i don't really do anything to the world i am just being and it's really a waste of time and space. i don't believe anyone's being in the world is worth it maybe my nieces and the other cute little kids and maybe the pets too just coz it's very mean to think they shouldn't exist but like the whole humanity to me is very very Useless, i don't buy the bullshit where they tell you our human mind is too small to absorb the real reason of being, isn't that logical bullshit, why do we have this much of a brain and we use that little of. do i wanna be sitting in the chilly corner where i have a villa. pfft. and they say the world is built on logic well logic my ass. Logic doesnt' really exist, its only what u believe in put into thoughts u think make sense but in the end it's really personal and non-sense to others, and everyone defines everything in their own way and when u get to meet someone who understands u it's either they are really opened to new ideas or they just have the same definitions of things like u do and people change so here u go ups and downs schitzophrenia and mood swings and switching from concept to other oh if u really think about the silliest detial in ur life my god how complicated it can be and u have to link it to everything arround and then try to figure out why and what and all this with just using 3 to 4% of ur brain.
I think i am someone simple who want simple stuff i just complicate things in my head and that's because i tend to think and i think it's a curse to think. look at the dumb people they live a happy life they are not worried about the world they are not feeling the world's injustice and they are not asking for there right in the other 95% of thier brain powers hehe they are just existing and they donno anything about existence. i wished i was one of those since i was 8 or less i... ]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13062808/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/13062808/ Wed, 23 May 2007 12:28:26 PDT and you give me back my heart.

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/12653308/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/12653308/ Thu, 19 Apr 2007 10:24:59 PDT i am so glad am so inspired lately
it's been really long since i worked on something
and feel deeply in love with it
i hope ma rah eflo2 my friends
the weather is so full of sleepiness latley
pfft nothing more to say am booooring
la la la *sings*

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/12326573/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/12326573/ Sun, 25 Mar 2007 17:40:02 PDT why do we always have to keep hurting
each other so we can proove that we feel.
and yes. 99% say yes. leave go away. and
that 1% percent left; it's like the 1 hearts in cards
it can always out number everything else. a
powerfull 1 can u imagine how few?
and you. you are like that scar that mends
but reopens a hundred time a day. ur my chill
that chill that bends me that chill that chills me.
that chill that can make my heart stop from a hug!
and you. i dont rememeber crying over anyone as much
as i creid for u.
and u you you you. you can i ever define you
i think about u when i wake up because i will be
wanting to wake up next to u and kiss ur nose
and i think about u when i sleep because i'll
want to be sleeping next to u in ur bed hugging
u all night even if that can't make u fall asleep
and i think of u when i smell coffee in the morning
and when i listen to my mp3 player or when i
light on the oven and it's blue and when the sky
is blue and when teh pen is blue and and and when
i am, i am always blue. i was willing to color my heart
blue for u.
we are fading away we are dieing. u agree don't u
but how come we are when i still love u?
how come and everywhere i want to be is anywhere next
to you no matter what ur mood was or how mean u was
you. my dream land u. the mend u. the scar. you
for those last four seasons it was all about you
and u know what i'll tell those. the ones that will come
in to mylife after you! i'll tell them not to try i gave it all to u
where am i where are you deep inside i can't find u
but how come u are here still inside m and i can't find you
maybe u reached for places i never been to before maybe
we digged that deep into each other somewhere along the way
we lost each other inside and there's no map to the way out
and u can't follow the heart this time because u are lost inside it.
it's so complicated between us let me go. release me.
it's so complicated between us never leave me. own me
i i i. i honestly seriously truely belong to you.
take me all of me. who said i wanna move without u.
u said move on. u know how many tears a second that word can do
i am sorry it's over i love u so much
i am sorry that love couldn't save us this time
u think that all we wanna say was said, i don't agree with u
in fact i never do u know
we never said what really matters we always got lost in the details
saying stuff we don't mean just to hurt each other of how much hurt we are. but let me guess babe u don't give a crap.....
and you you you. how can anyone put u in words. or put words
into u.

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/12298903/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/12298903/ Fri, 23 Mar 2007 15:38:04 PDT a pentium 2 150 Mg ram. So whenever u give it a command it's
either you wait forever and ur too old or it freezes and dies Or
and that's when life wanna be the bitchiest it will be like u give a
command and wait half a day praying it would happen and then
just the second before u save. the electricity is off and guess what
your life is UPS-less.
and So. Solve this if ur smart enough

anyone tell me where do i get some life rams from
or a new hardisk
maybe a life VGA just for the artistic part

]]> ~beyonme http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/12252183/ http://beyonme.deviantart.com/journal/12252183/ Mon, 19 Mar 2007 22:32:30 PDT noone is new here so say hi

our new dev. art tori amos girl hehe

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