http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:black0roze&section=today deviantART RSS for by:black0roze en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 09 Dec 2009 01:52:56 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/22385836/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/22385836/ Sun, 04 Jan 2009 01:35:03 PST there's nothing interesting going on really. i'm trying to be aware of myself and what i'm doing and where i am lately, i've found that it's helpful ^^

i have projects to take care of, although i might not be able to finish them all in the deadline i was given feh
umm i'm trying to be interesting O_O there is really nothing i could think of though. for whoever is interested read this book: how to think like leonardo da vinci by michael gelb, it's interesting.

check out this journal it's the visual poetry of 2008 to remember [link] and eh eh i'm in it = D *shakes ass* >>> AND here also = D : [link]

i haven't been uploading any deviations, well as you can tell. i've been working with my brother but eno the only photographs i'm taking are of buildings and that doesn't interest me much so i'm not uploading them. i am going to try however to find that excitement i had. *digging up to find it*

my luved ones 'a luv u ^.^
au revoir



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]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/20482724/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/20482724/ Sun, 14 Sep 2008 03:58:12 PDT this is honestly starting to get ridiculous

am always looking for a change but lately it seems im going back to some old habits of mine, doing things without thinking about them then regret them later and keep kicking myself in the ass for it.
i need to concentrate that's what i need to do
i need something to shake me up to wake me up
maybe something to hit me over the head
or perhaps doing something extremely major

do u know the kind of people who bring out the worst in you? i hate those people. makes u want to shove a pencil in their ear. i met one of those people lately, and that person brings the absolutely worse in me! i come off snobbish and condescending and silly and even stupid.
for some reason though, i keep letting myself be around that person
strange isnt it
perhaps a phase?


ma luved ones am here ^*
tata *wave

]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/18871013/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/18871013/ Mon, 16 Jun 2008 10:40:09 PDT i am me

i came to realize lately that the more i think, the more i have nothing to say about myself. so i just let it go. say nothing, pretend that i have so much to say. pretend that because i'm 'satisfied with who i am and don't care what everyone thinks' i chose to say nothing.
pity. i pity, u pity, we pity.
i think im more comfortable talking about someone else. maybe put myself in their spot. no confusion there. meshe l hal there.

ive been meeting up with some old friends which is stinking brilliant now i quit my job. it has been a month now. the whore ex-boss of mine sent someone to ask me back but i gave her a bigass no.

i wasnt able to sleep much before, i blamed my job and uni. now im sleeping but not comfortably. i wake up shaking up and nervous and cant go back to sleep or have fights with someone (but cant remember who) and start yelling in my sleep (so they tell me). waking up after all that isnt nice i tell u.

that is one shitload of talking i just did

ma luved ones u know who u are. im here whenever.
tata


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]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/17890058/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/17890058/ Thu, 17 Apr 2008 02:16:08 PDT i am so tired
i want to sleep for three days straight
i need to not do anything for days at a time
i miss my sarah

i have this huge faery collection, from stories to poems to prayers to photos to drawings to paintings and yadi yada and it has been so long since i even thought of them
and today i looked at them each one at a time = D maybe ill have one tattooed? i wanted to do that years ago but always something came up mmm

i want to read, i want to go back to reading alot. i miss that
mmm i also miss going out early in the morning. yes somewhere far. spend the day
i miss alot of things i used to do
gharib

i cut my hair. well that was random now wasn't it

luv ya my loved ones ^^

]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/17467672/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/17467672/ Sun, 23 Mar 2008 02:01:43 PDT pfff amazing really amazing. maybe its hate? maybe this way they'd feel better about themselves by making me come off a whore? or maybe its all about attention *scratches head* i don't think they even know.

why is it so difficult to believe that i am simply neutral? with some people it's either u care positively or negatively. there's no i dont care.

i want to be mad, i honestly do, but i cant afford to be.


i'm trying to focus more on me. in my free time i try and attend some health classes, read some self bla books, go out with a close friend. thats why i'm not submitting any deviations, because i haven't been taking any photos.

things have completely changed. back when i was in school, everything that came after 2pm was my 'let go' time and i would spend it with everybody doing everything.
However now my social life is dying

poooo
ekh

ma loved ones i'm here and yati yata u know the drill
merci et a demain

]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/16313895/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/16313895/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 10:45:52 PST been worked up with uni projects and tests and it turned out they made a mistake with a few of my courses so i have to fix that, new photographs posts coming up soon hopefully, also going to start a new job at an office near my uni which means see how busy i am now? i'm going to be even more busy soon

2008
waw
thats kind of cool ey?
hope this is a good year on all of us

not seeing many people, meeting many new people though some id rather not know
ekh confusion confusion

my loved ones im here for you ^_^

blah

adios

]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/15310429/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/15310429/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 01:41:19 PDT here i am.
i thought i could juggle it all at the same time, but i couldn't i admit it now i can't but need to learn how to on my own. so much went on the past two months, so much went on, some good some bad but i'm here and i have a pulse and still have my twisted sense of humor uninjured

strange strange some people are, some put so much importance on silly things. they want to know everybody and be friends with everybody and they want it done quickly and they want it done now! im considered, it seems, of the old scene! and now the 'new one' is so rapped up in alcohol and concerts and black clothes and spikes and drugs and punk and emo and whatever the hell they name themselves, they attack each other calling one another "fake" and "poser" when if they just calm down for a second and look around they'll find that they all look exactly the same! i cant tell the difference really, i can't tell them apart! i'm added by so many on myspace and facebook and msn and every other account thinking they are the same person! they want to know everyone u see.. and they are so young! too young! too young to act this way.

pshhh look what im thinking of here, i need to be thinking of myself and all the busy crap i have to take care of and just ignore the rest. and so i will ^^

i've been up since 6 am, feeling abit off today, eyes all puffy from lack of sleep but i'm working on changing that.. i miss my sarah, i used to talk to her about everything and now shes all the way in canada, we talk over the phone from time to time but before i used to call or see her when things happen on the spot, and she used to be there for me but now i just keep them loaded till when she calls, by then it becomes old news and i would've gotten through them by myself. now i just blab to people i don't know ha this way i wont feel bad about saying anything or them knowing anything why u ask? because i'm never going to see them and they know nobody i know and by that i mean three people tops.. (how sad that sounded). still its not the same but sometimes you just need to let it out or else you'll go insane.

i miss you all too much, i try to log in as much as i can and comment on your deviations and reply to your messages. i'm thinking of cutting back on deviantart a little, upload less deviations and whatnot.

much luv for all of you, old and new.
xoxox

]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/14362819/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/14362819/ Mon, 27 Aug 2007 10:19:29 PDT

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i've been tagged by
1-post these rules
2-each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3-tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts
4- at the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named
5-go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

there u go:
1-I like the beach, but don't like to go in.
2-I adore long nails but on other people. myself i get annoyed if i have long nails.
3-I hate people who speak french but like the language and love old french songs.
4-The sun makes me cranky, i start attacking people thats why i hate summer but adore winter and everything about it.
5-I don't like people much, but when i do i love them hard.
6-I hate politics and sports don't mean anything to me.
7-I wash my hands a billion times a day and shower as much as i can, and people who dont shower much get on my nerves.
8- I'm very skinny and absolutely hate it.

i tagg (and i'm sorry) :
1-
2-
3-
4-
5-
6-
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... ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/13754433/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/13754433/ Fri, 20 Jul 2007 00:01:50 PDT Gunpowder, treason and plot.
I see no reason why gunpowder, treason
Should ever be forgot...

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people check this out, its the DA loving day [link] spread the word

]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/12873601/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/12873601/ Mon, 07 May 2007 08:38:09 PDT everyone knows my number so txt me.
much luv for all
be safe xxxx

]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/12478919/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/12478919/ Fri, 06 Apr 2007 03:58:07 PDT we tend to confuse ourselves sometimes, but i dont really know how to stop. i think about every little thing and i know im making myself miserable. i find myself complaining from the croud and everything seeming loud so i push everyone away to find myself later on empty. im missing something, i get so close and yet somehow i pass it by without recognizing it.
i came a long way.. a long long way and it was not easy but im going back right back to where i started from, i dont want to but as if im not the one controling myself, im in my body yet im only watching everything pass by as if im in a car that is rolling backwards. "3am berja3 lawara". but i am giving myself time, im giving myself hope. hopefully it will all get better.

]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/11321693/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/11321693/ Fri, 05 Jan 2007 07:32:08 PST

Hamlet
(Act II, Scene II)
William Shakespeare

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]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/11229424/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/11229424/ Fri, 29 Dec 2006 01:32:57 PST i wish everybody a merry christmas, happy holidays and a brilliant new year. i hope all your wishes for year 2006 came true and the goals you are setting up for yourselves for the year 07 will be achieved. i wish u all the best with all my heart.
take it easy, nothing is worth anything xxxx
much love and respect
may there be peace


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]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/11150693/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/11150693/ Fri, 22 Dec 2006 13:24:17 PST I don’t know I’m blabbing
Probably when I read this tomorrow morning it wont make any sense to me as it does now

]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/10596081/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/10596081/ Thu, 02 Nov 2006 17:36:32 PST
]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/10345321/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/10345321/ Tue, 10 Oct 2006 08:28:14 PDT then take the rope to express myself
I'll leave this world without shedding a tear
without hope, without fear "

>>> i didnt write this, dont really know who did.


i guess its one of those times where you stop for abit and look around you to see everybody busy doing this and that, and you cant help but wonder: what if you fall dead right that second.. then what? no really then what?

]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/10257699/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/10257699/ Mon, 02 Oct 2006 09:50:59 PDT I am but three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,
I must be stupid
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy
Would still want to hug me.
I can't speak at all
I can't do a wrong
Or else I'm locked up
All the day long.
When I awake I'm all alone
The house is dark
My folks aren't home
When my mommy does come
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll get just
One whipping tonight.
Don't make a sound!
I just heard a car
My daddy is back
From Charlie's Bar.
I hear him curse
My name he calls
I press myself
Against the wall
I try and hide
From his evil eyes
I'm so afraid now
I'm starting to cry
He finds me weeping
He shouts ugly words,
He says its my fault
That he suffers at work.
He slaps me and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free
And I run for the door.
He's already locked it
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall.
I fall to the floor
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues
With more bad words spoken.
"I'm sorry!", I scream
But its now much too late
His face has been twisted
Into unimaginable hate
The hurt and the pain
Again and again
Oh please God, have mercy!
Oh please let it end!
And he finally stops
And heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless
Sprawled on the floor

My name is Sarah
And I am but three,
Tonight my daddy
Murdered me.





>>>> Child abuse is a serious thing, it is important to show that we are against it and try to do something about it.. i got this sent to me so i reposted it here for everyone to see.

]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/10148585/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/10148585/ Fri, 22 Sep 2006 01:33:44 PDT Cry out in holy chorus,
And, to dissuade from sin, parade
Their various charms before us.

But why, O why, has ne'er an eye
Seen her of winsome manner
And youthful grace and pretty face
Flaunting the White Cross banner?

Now where's the need of speech and screed
To better our behaving?
A simpler plan for saving man
(But, first, is he worth saving?)

Is, dears, when he declines to flee
From bad thoughts that beset him,
Ignores the Law as 't were a straw,
And wants to sin -- don't let him.


Father Gassalasca Jape ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/10036384/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/10036384/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 06:54:19 PDT A feeling of proud and joy it gives. Or does it? ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9986303/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9986303/ Wed, 06 Sep 2006 09:40:42 PDT
Mood: confused
Listening to: tonight's music - katatonia
Reading: nothing
Watching: simpsons christmas special

lately ive been having trouble with "friendships" and its making me think maybe its me.. maybe its all in my head, maybe they are doing nothing wrong but i am being over sensitive and making a big deal out of things.. u know a tipical drama queen. i get confused, dont know what to think so i allow myself to ask for some advice so i tell the problem to some other people and their reaction surprises me, they tell me i shouldve given up on these friendships a long time ago, thats what they wouldve done.
a friend of mine asked me why i dont have a best friend and all i could answer was that i have many close friends and a best friend is not necessary to me, its true but i know its just because friendhips confuse me u see. i dont know.

oh well, i always say: people come and people go. ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9946822/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9946822/ Sun, 03 Sep 2006 01:37:14 PDT
Listening to: fee fi fo - cranberries
Reading: article on buddha's life
Watching: v for vendetta

1.Would you rather go a week without bathing, but be able to change your clothes, or a week without a change of clothes, but be able to bathe?
>> bathe and not wear any clothes

2.Your home, containing everything you own, catches fire; after saving your loved ones and pets, you have time to safely make a final dash to save any one item. What would it be?
>> something valuable

3.Describe your ideal of a perfect mate.
>> 3ade whatever

4.If you could invent a holiday, what and when would it be? What special traditions would take place on that day?
>> mmm an art day that would be cool.. everybody would have to make some kind of art form and they would all get together and eat cake!! lots of cake!!

5.What is the correct order in which to wash your body when you’re taking a shower?
>> head, ears, arms, body, feet. i guess

6.What is your single worst fear?
>> drowning probably or waking up in the middle of an ocean alone

7.If you had no fear of anything, what 10 things would you do?
>> what the hell! who knows

8.Would you rather be intelligent and extremely ugly or beautiful and stupid?
>> intelligent and extremely ugly, and if it bothered me alot id wait till i get a job (which ofcorse would pay alot of money because im intelligent and id get a plastic sergery)

9.If the one person you hate the most in the world needs a kidney transplant, and you are the only person with a healthy kidney who is a perfect match for that person, would you give up your organ?
>> depends what he did to make me hate him

10.Would you rather be a butterfly or a cockroach?
>> butterfly

11.You are going out for the evening. If your partner objects to what you are wearing, would you change your clothing?
>> that never happened but probably not

12.If you were in a horror movie, would you be one of the unwitting victims, or one of the people who survives?
>> one of the people who survives

13.Would you prefer to die a painful death as a world famous hero, or die peacefully in your sleep?
>> i still dont believe that if someone dies in their sleep they wont feel anything

14.If you were the eighth dwarf, what would your name be?
>> ping pong (couldnt think of something else)

15.You and a person you love deeply are place in separate locked rooms, tied to a chair, with a button within reach. You will both be killed in 60 minutes unless one of you pushes their button. The first to push the button will be immediately killed, but will save the other person. What do you think you would do?
>> id push it probably

16.How many times during the day do you look at yourself in a mirror?
>> twice ( both times im washing my face )

17.You can cast any actor now alive to play you in a film about your life. Whom would you cast in the role?
>> natalie portman

18.If you had to be trapped in a TV show for a month, which show would you choose?
>> mmm friends

19.You are given the power to kill people simply by thinking of their deaths and twice repeating the word “good-bye.” They would die a natural death and no one would suspect you. Are there any situations in which you would use this power?
>> hell yea

20.Where do you think the “cool people” are – in heaven or in hell?
>> what "cool people" ?

HAVE FUN PEOPLE ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9891484/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9891484/ Tue, 29 Aug 2006 02:05:10 PDT seraf elohcin

What did you do last night?
home.. had plans to go out but they got canceled

The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
ermm i dont really remember

Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?
i think when i was little.. maybe.. what kind of question is that?

Last time you swam in a pool?
last year.. beginning of summer

What are you wearing?
my pjs

How many cars have you owned?
none

Type of music you dislike most?
rap and hip hop and crap like that, they annoy the shit out of me

Do you have cable?
Yes

Ever made a prank phone call?
Yea when i was 12 i think

You like anyone right now?
not really

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
both!!!

Furthest place you ever traveled?
australia but i was too small to remember haha

Do you know all the words to the national anthem?
umm yes but sometimes i make some mistakes

Shower, morning or night?
morning mostly

Best movie you've seen in the past month?
v for vendetta.. defenetly!

Favorite pizza toppings?
Pepperonni

Chips or popcorn?
chips

What cell phone provider do you have?
MTC

Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
not that i remember

Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
HELL NO!!

Orange Juice or apple?
orange (although i love apple but as juice i prefer orange)

Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?
riad, jorj and milia

Your favorite chocolate bar?
galaxy

Who is your longest friendship been with and for how long?
longest friendship ermm milia.. we've been friends since i could remember

Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
a what?

Have you ever won a trophy?
never did

Favorite arcade game?
i dont play games

Ever ordered from an infomercial?
no

Sprite or 7-UP?
7-Up

Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?
yessssssss

Last thing you bought at Walgreens?
huh?

Ever thrown up in public?
never in public places thank god

Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?
so if i have one i cant have the other? ehy cant i have both? i dont like this question

Do you believe in love at first sight?
no

SpongeBob OR Jimmy Neutron?
SpongeBob

Did you have long hair as a young kid?
not too short but short

What message is on your voicemail machine?
Dont have one

Where would you like to go right now?
canada.. be with sarah

Whats the name of your pet?
ludgar, but i think he died i dont rememeber the last time i saw him

What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?
eastpak.. a book, money, glasses, mp3 player

What do you think about most?
i dont bother


now its everyone's turn!!
bear with me... ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9858887/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9858887/ Sat, 26 Aug 2006 06:57:58 PDT the knowledge and use of the symbolic “fairy” that has arisen through societal/religio superstition and literature. My advice to those wishing to research the faery faith and/or become a practitioner of it is to begin with researching in detail the Tuatha De Danann, the Irish Invasions, as well as the adaptation and evolution of the faery in literature and religion. I also suggest that those seeking do so without succumbing to the lighter nature “Faery Wicca” places upon the faery tradition. While books on Faery Wicca can offer much insight as to the Irish Invasions and the evolution of the faery, oftentimes the raw and primal aspect of the faery is lost in its magick and ritual. It is important to remember that the Celts and their predecessors were war-riddled peoples and their deities reflected such. Another aspect to avoid that many modern pagan faiths tend to attach is that of “light” gods and “dark” gods. An example of this is the triple deity Morrigan. Often attributed as being a dark goddess, she is instead more correctly the essence of a war goddess: raw, primal, strong, and relentless in war for her people. Too often death and war are attributed as making a deity “dark”, when in reality attaching “light” and “dark” concepts to entities is a rather modern concept that often carries with it damaging misconceptions. The faery tradition is an intricate and magick-filled faith that offers many different facets for those seeking knowledge and enlightenment using it.


>>> theres way more information but i didnt post the entire article so the one interested just contact me and ill be more then glad to give the rest of it ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9757948/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9757948/ Thu, 17 Aug 2006 09:05:24 PDT

This offering can be used as a daily prayer or ritual invocation.
To begin, find a quiet place where you will not be disturbed.
You may want to light a candle to help you draw in the energies of the Sidhe. Sit comfortably, relaxing your body with rhythmic breathing. Allow your mind to settle, releasing any errant thoughts. When you feel completely calm and at peace, ring a small bell three times, and begin your prayer. As you speak, visualize images of the faeries. See the light of their spirits gathering all around you. Say the prayer one or three times, and then ring the bell seven times. Wait in silence for any communion or communication the Faery might offer. Mist-clad in the light of the moon Starspun seekers - I search for thee! Faery light - I ask thy boon Of branch and thorn and Elder tree! Wood woven creatures, shadow weavers River keepers - come to me! Just beyond reaching Never in keeping Spirits of Faery - I call unto thee! Wind-hewn wildness Dark and brightness Spiral enchantments - born of the sky! Cradle me with elven hands, Abide with me, thy human child!
When you are ready to return to your ordinary consciousness, ring the bell three times and with deep full breaths, inhale vital energy and vitality. Record any special experiences in a journal so that you will retain them in full detail.

>> i never tried it so i dont really know if it works.. but feh one of the faery stuff that i found and promised to post so enjoy ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9605628/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9605628/ Sat, 05 Aug 2006 07:51:24 PDT Many of these names and definitions arose through literature.

Abatwa - Aine - Angiaks - Ankou - Anthropophagi - Arkan Sonney - Asparas - The Asrai - Aughisky (pronounced "Agh-iski") - Awd Goggie
Banshee - Barguest - Bauchan - The Bean-Night(pronounced "ben-neeyah") - Bean-Tighe - Bendith y Mamau (pronounced "ben-dith uh momay") - Black Annis - Blue Men of the Minch - Bodach - Boggart - Bogie - Bogles - Bokwus - The Brown Man of the Muirs - The Brownie - Bugul-Noz - The Bwca
Cannered-Noz - Churn Peg and Melch Dick - Cluricaun - Coblynau - Corrigan - Cururipur
Daoine Sidhe - Devas - Disir - Duergar - Dwarfs
Each-Uisge - Ellyllon - Elves - Elves of Light
The Fachan - Feeorin - The Fenoderee - Fir Darrig - Formorians
Ghillie Dhu - The Glaistig - Goblins - The Green Lady of Caerphilly - Gwrgedd Annwn (Gwrageh anoon)
The Kelpie
Leanan-Sidhe - Leprechauns
Mab - Mermaids - Merrows
Seelie Court - Sidhe
Tuatha de Danann

>> alright so as i said in my last journal this is one of the faery related journals im going to be posting, i have no idea where i got this from i had it a long time and i came across it when i was searching in my files.. i have the definition for every name but i didnt write it here because its too damn long! so if anyone wants the definitions just contact me and ill be more then happy to give u the entire file

>>>> war in lebanon gives me nothing but pure heartache ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9528837/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9528837/ Sat, 29 Jul 2006 02:33:41 PDT WILL THE GODS GREET ME ?
OH SWEET DISMAYED FALLEN CHILD
FORGOTTEN .DARK .GLISTENING FAERY
SWEET AND FORGOTTEN . . . I

im going to be posting alot of journals on faeries.. i have so many stuff so i thought why not post them for everyone to see? anyway i have the quote above for some time now and i forgot where i got it from.. it was written without an authors name or anything but i like it anyway enjoy
ive been very sick (food poisoning) thats why i havent been able to log in very much but now im all better and have alot of catching up to do.. im checking out everything i have in my computer and i am deleting alot of stuff i found so many writings and pictures that i didnt even know i had! oh well im going to stop talking now hope everybody is well ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9447748/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9447748/ Fri, 21 Jul 2006 11:47:57 PDT
alright im going to name the kinds of people i KNOW:
1- people who smell
2- people who fart alot
3- people who are too fat
4- people who are too skinny
5- people who use other people
6- people who cheat on their gf or bf
7- people who are gay
8- people who are straight but act gay
9- people who are bisexuals
10- people who say they are by to turn some guys on but they are straight
11-people who are so stupid that they dont get a 'hint'
12-copicats
13- people who are obsessed with being cool and popular and loved by everybody
14- people who think they are cool and popular and loved by everybody but arent really
15- people with drug issues
16- people with alcohol issues
17- people who are really hot but dont know it
18- people who think they are hot but really arent
19- people with bad and twisted sense of humor
20- people with amazing sense of humor
21- people who talk alot
22- vegetarians
23- people who pretend to be vegetarians to attract attention but eat meat when nobody is around
24- rich people
25- people with a very big head (size i mean)

alright its late and im bored so sorry if i bored u along with me ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9412185/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9412185/ Tue, 18 Jul 2006 02:26:03 PDT That waits at the edge of the distant horizon
And we are all strangers in global illusion
Wanting and needing impossible heaven

Chasing the dream as they swim out to sea
The mirage ahead says that they can be free
Become lost in delusion drowning their reason
Swept on by the current of selfish ambition

Frightened ashamed and afraid of the blame
The questions are screaming the answers are hiding
The sickness is growing distracted condition
You can feel the disgust and smell the confusion

Lying insane getting soaked in the rain
Draining the sky of the guilt and the shame
The nightmare is coming the clouds are descending
Pulled under two thousand metres a second

Clawing at walls that just slip through my fingers
Darkness consuming collapsing and breaking
Distilled paranoia seeped into the walls
And filled in the cracks with the whispering calls

Shadows are forming take heed of the warnings
Creeping around at four in the morning
Lie to myself start a brand new beginning
But i'm losing myself in this fear of living

Freedom is only a hallucination
That waits at the edge of the places you go when you dream
Deep in the reason betrayal of feeling
The mistakes that I made tore my conscience apart at the seems



Anathema
a natural disaster ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9385386/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9385386/ Sat, 15 Jul 2006 12:54:34 PDT Should we wait and see? or should we escape?
Should we hate? or understand where this is coming from?
Should we think how? when? where? or should we simply shut up, stay still and not think at all?

Tell us how long this will take
Tell us how serious things will get
Tell us how it will all turn out
Tell us something.. anything.. except threats

please? ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9372426/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9372426/ Fri, 14 Jul 2006 06:33:09 PDT pray for the moon
pray for your gods
nameless or known"


It doesn’t really matter what u believe in as long as u believe in something.. faith is important, it makes the person hold on to something when there is nothing else left, and it makes the person stronger in a way..
that’s what it means.. u can pray for the sun or for the moon or u can pray for any god(s), famous or unknown just pray for something
have faith ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9354352/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9354352/ Wed, 12 Jul 2006 12:47:27 PDT sleep well
weep well
go to the deep well
as often as possible
bring back the water
justling and gleaming
god did not plan on consciousness
developping so well
well tell him our pale is full and he can go to hell


Some people say everything happens for a reason.. if a baby dies or a country gets destroyed and the people in it die.. its for a reason.. God did that for a reason as if he is saying to mankind: "human this is a sign" or "human we need to talk!"
i don’t know.. im still confused about a lot of stuff i mean im 17 years old i don’t have to be sure about anything especially religion and the topic above
i dont know ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9344825/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9344825/ Tue, 11 Jul 2006 15:03:22 PDT Alright here it is.. u can call it whatever u want this thing that i’m going through at this moment but i am about to explode I am very tired and sick of people copying me I am not saying that to come off as a big headed person i am actually not worth copying at all! But for fucks sake girls get your own personality and stop stealing mine! (im the one dressed in black)
there is nothing wrong with liking something someone else is wearing and buying one like it or similar to it or liking something funny or u think is cool that he or she said and saying it once in a while or agreeing on an idea they said and starting to support it as well HOWEVER dressing just like the same person most or all of the time and talking like him or her and thinking the same way is just fucking sick!!
grow up i just want all of them to grow up
stop copying even in the little stuff because little stuff will lead to big stuff.. Wear what u like have your own opinion and if people don’t like it fuck it and fuck them but pleaaaase leave me alone or simply go be somebody else ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9256526/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9256526/ Mon, 03 Jul 2006 01:32:18 PDT So many people i would just love to disappear is that too much to ask for ? ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9195131/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9195131/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 01:46:20 PDT i just woke up early today and i am really really bored and hungry
i have nothing to do nor to eat
mmm what to do ? what to do ? what to do ?
you know in times like these major "accidents" happen i mean for example a little boy bored thinks to himself what to do what to do ? and BAM somehow he manages to set the house on fire! WITH EVERYONE IN IT!

im sorry im babbling ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9175557/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9175557/ Sun, 25 Jun 2006 05:23:24 PDT i just hope the flight went well and that shes having a great time seeing her mom and all..
she said she might come over for four days or so in about a month, i hope she does pshh
i know its kind of stupid since shes only travelling for the summer but ive grown very close to her this year and i really really miss her.. only a week passed byand look at me!
this is pathetic ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9122289/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9122289/ Tue, 20 Jun 2006 03:12:06 PDT temper issues
nerve problems
fucking angry
angry
angry
crazy
suicidal
a fucking nutjob


murder doesnt sound so bad now ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9056885/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9056885/ Tue, 13 Jun 2006 12:41:07 PDT ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9005846/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/9005846/ Thu, 08 Jun 2006 05:52:25 PDT Happiness is an easy face to put on, but you'll get to a point where you can't take it off anymore not even when u want to.. it gets stuck! So you'll be screaming in yourself for someone to hear you but they are all fooled by your happy face. Who knows, maybe later on you are the one who gets fooled by that mask and you'll think that you are TRUELY HAPPY and start to ignore your suffering soul; and soon enough you won't hear it at all, as if you don't have one!
you are ok you are happy everything is just fine, say it!!!
i'm ok i'm happy everything is just fine. i'm ok i'm happy everything is just fine. i'm ok i'm happy everything is just great. i'm ok i'm happy everything is just fine. i'm ok i'm happy...
THAT'S A GOOD GIRL!!! ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/8974246/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/8974246/ Mon, 05 Jun 2006 01:49:37 PDT What is that you say? you are not truely happy? who cares? who has time to care? everybody is busy with more important issues : that guy is hot ! do u think he likes me??
So just put a smile on and pretend, nobody wants to know the truth anyway. ]]> ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/8949093/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/8949093/ Fri, 02 Jun 2006 10:08:16 PDT ~black0roze http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/8908534/ http://black0roze.deviantart.com/journal/8908534/ Mon, 29 May 2006 05:59:18 PDT pshhh you can't expect everybody to live forever ey ? ]]> ~black0roze