http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:black13roses&section=today deviantART RSS for by:black13roses en-us Copyright 2010, deviantART.com Fri, 01 Jan 2010 12:23:15 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/29088773/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/29088773/ Mon, 21 Dec 2009 16:42:38 PST you got no right to complain
no right to fight because your skin is white
you have no sense of pain
let's drop the refrain and kick out the brain
because underneath it all we are not all the same
not all of us are cultured or come from a higher social class
you think all white people are special?
you can kiss my alibaster ass
pigmentation does not make a social station and lack of color does not decree
a special social status amongst the bitter masses
or the suffering in degrees
if anything it's your ignorance
to assume all paleskins have it made
that makes things harder for people like me to bother
to get treatment for things the same
my medical coverage is null
and the phone rings off the hook
I havent heard form the local healthcare in a month
And i have a sneaking suspiscion
it's because of the way i look
big red hair big red beard
lilly white snowy tan
would you Imagine i'm unemployed?
ofcourse not, because i'm the white man.
yeah i've got it good in my trailer park, barely able to make the rent
and everytime i wanna speak my mind
I'm told my time has been spent
I'm not a hateful person
but i'm full of disgust
reverse racism is still racism deep down in the guts
european blood still makes european mud
and it's your ignorant assumption that makes it harder for us all
you stereotype us as rich and wealthy
unworthy of what we have
if we've got talent it's worthless, visions are worhtless
because all white people are bad.
and it makes me mad to see my opinions don't matter
because I came out vanilla from the cookie batter
no food dyes no persvervatives no ethnic cultural "BAM!" in the bowl
i've got no control cus I'm white with no soul
And you probably think this poem is something else I stole
because white men can't think coherent in a long string of lines
cus white people have no problems they've commited no crimes
cus white people have no right to talk about suffering and fights
because white people are obsolete
and white people have no rights.
you probably think i'm a skinhead, a klansmen or racist
well, i'm not, i'm just angry
of this social class stasis.
I never had shit handed to me,
i Never had shit given fro free.
I never had someone take me aside
I never had someone show me culture and pride
When i was growing up I was beat like a dog,
broken homes and broken hearts
left to to myself all alone
i spent my childhood in my room with a purple and black ass
I never graduated magna cum laude
i got kicked out of school g.e.d class.
I've lost jobs to fill quotas so businesses could be politcally correct
doesn't matter if i could do the job or not
as long as equal rights are met
equal rights, ha, that's a joke.
are you serious with that shit?
hire people on because of their pigment
and deny people with a lack thereof for it.
I don't wear oxford sweaters or play raquet ball or rave at clubscenes
my ancestors came from ireland and germany
do you even know what that means?
poor white trash is still poor you dick,
doesnt matter what the skin color is
my bloods still red, my shits still brown and yes, yellows the color of my piss
but it don't mean anything to you, because you've assumed what you will already of me
without knowing me or showing me
the reference to your opinion
the base of your hypothesis
so since you know all there is to know about me,
why don't you drop me a line
give me a sign of what you think i am
paint me a picture and draw me the line
explain to me why i worry eveyrday about wether we'll ever make it out of this place
explain to me why my mother is poor even though she works her fingers to the bone
explain to me why i can't get medical coverage even thoguh i have met every standard and right
explain to me what i'm doing wrong aside from being white
explain to me why i can't get a grant to get a higher education
explain to me my meaning in life and what's my social station?
explain to em these things are explain them to me true
because I've got my own explanation for this current observation
the reason I am where I am is you
you assume to know eveyrthing when you really know nothing
and write me off as a joker card
cus i lack a cool skin color I must be some social retard
cus i lack pigmentation i am immediately marked evil
something for your culture to hate
something for your culture to rape
something for your culture to want to kill
My ancestors did no wrong,
they owned no slaves
we owned no land
so please explain
why I'm judged by my appearance and not by who i... ]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/29073719/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/29073719/ Mon, 21 Dec 2009 00:30:32 PST
and secondly, I think i'm done with the zombie series. i was originally planning out foru paintings then five but it would take up way too much space and frankly I think would kill the effect of it as a series.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/28698417/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/28698417/ Tue, 01 Dec 2009 19:14:02 PST
It's a bit frustrating going tothe hospital being as i am uninsured and out of work but it needed to be done i guess. the cost of the medication afterward was a majorpinch in my funds as well even though i got a good chunk cut out of it by signing up for a pharmacy card which knocked it down form $411.00 to $250.00 but still, it is a situation i aim to highly avoid again in the future if i can possibly do so i can assure you.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/27243779/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/27243779/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 11:28:23 PDT
It's called monkey litter comix and it's basicaly just random shit I think is funny mostly dealing with my own life as well as pop culture stuff.

it's currently hosted on smackjeeves.com at the adress of:
[link]

although i may move it over to keenspot down the road, i havent decided yet.

it's only two pages at the moment, and a new page is going to be put up eveyr sunday. and although it's got somewhat of a plot as life tends to have some kind of a plot, you can pretty much pick it up at any given time and not feel alienated since the most a storyline is gonna go on it is MAYBE two pages. anything larger and I'm gonna collect it into a mini-comic to promote the webcomic.

so anyways, check it out. show me some love.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/25806961/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/25806961/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 22:19:35 PDT
it seems i have finally found what really fuels me to paint and draw and create. my muses so to speak.

Suffering and Pain.

this is not to say that all artists -as i do indeed consider myself an artist just not a professional one- are driven by the same force of influence. some are driven by happiness and puppies and cupcakes, other smoney. but my driving force is pain and suffering and it's not uncommon to find artists throughout history and even now who are also brought to life by these two ladies.

van gogh, poe, bacon.
Just a few names of some of the greats inspired to create in their darkest of days.

This ofcours edoes ntomeani am about to go cutting off my ear or drinking myself into an absinthe stupor anytime soon but it means i know when it's time t put brush to canvas or whatever o may be lying about for me to scrawl across.

being unemployed has been a great inspiraton of pain. i havent had a job since november and that has put a hug damper upon alot of things i had planned as well as life in general around the house. it has also strained my relationships with my friends to boot sinc ei live so far away form hem all that i have to drive to see them and that's har dto do when the car needs new tires and gas has gone up and gone down and gone up again.

yes, ther eis not doubt ther eis plenty of pain and suffering to go abound rihgt now but att he moment i am content. i amneve rhappy but contentment is quite common at times too. wy so content? well, i will be gladly telly ou why. because unlike you, y dear fans and detestors, i don;t have to just rely upon picture staken of my artowrk to enjoy thm but rather i just need to look up at my walls and they are there to be seen in person. yes, tis is indeed the first time in mylife i can contently say i am proud to have created the pieces i have shown you thus far and proudly look at them in preference over other people's pieces, even taking down the few autographed comic books i had hung up to make room formy expression pieces.
if i feel down, i look up and see the bright reds and subtle golds, the cool blues and the pagliacci painted vixens i have painted and i am some what alit with a contentful glow. i aim to eventually have this house turned into a small galleria as i don't see myself having a galleria ever showcasing my works anytime soon.

looking aronud my room reminds me of the coffee houses i once frequented when i was yuonger. a time i felt at peace with the world and was not concrned about day to day problems but rather enjoying the moment quietly.

it reminds me of when i lived in memphis in my little room for rent in midtown and how i would walk around on my days off from washing dishes at a local dive from sunup till sundown just taking in the shade and sunshine and all the buildings with their exposed red brick walls and cobblestone walkways. how lovely my surroundings were back then.

but rest assured, iw ill be down again. mark my word of this. and there will be more to come.

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i'm going back to painting, creating with my actual hands rather than the computer. this isnt to make a statement or anything but rather because i want to have something tangible

also, frankly, if you like what i do, good if not, oh well. I'm not looking to be a commercial artist or graphic designer or anything. im just sharing what i feel and what i see and things i enjoy and that's art to me.

im working on a new piece as we speak and it should be up in a few days if i feel up to putting it upon here. frankly, i feel this site has become a giant billboard pushing commercialism on people rather than an artist hub for sharing and networking but then again what part of the interwebs hasnt become a giant billboard?

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/20644735/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/20644735/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 23:27:04 PDT
not saying im leaving or anything just saying i dont know how long it'll be until im back. ill still check my shit on here fofm time to time but yeah. im done for now. thanx to everyone who enjoys my stuff.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/20015387/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/20015387/ Mon, 18 Aug 2008 02:39:46 PDT first he goes to a private sit down with a major evangelical leader which is a group that as a whole is very conservative,usually votes red down the boards and in some places even support the klan and neonazi groups (like out here) and then eh said the one thing that changed my mind completely about him.
"i am opposed to gay marriages but i do support civil unions."
why did this change my mind? because all he's been harping about is hcange and hope and freedom and yet here he is doing the exact same crap every other democratic candidate has done. the glbt community gets its civil rights thrown up first on the chopping block eveyrtime the dems have a candidate running and yet we loyally are encouraged and are steretyped as being democratic and voting blue down the boards. a civil union is like segregated fountains or segregated busses. it's the same thing but there's a spot for one group and a spot for another group and honestly, they're not equal.

so you could imagine how i felt about this coming from someone harping on so much unity and change and yet he's willingto keep the glbt rights and privileges separate from everyone elses rights and priveleges. yeah. if i do vote, im just gonna vote for the lemon party instead. atleast i know they're for gay rights.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/19907382/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/19907382/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 23:28:03 PDT
i could keep blaming the recession on it but there's a ton more to it than that.
i've been boning up good on naruto and im gonna start reading bleach too cus i found a site that has those posted too and i may or may not be working spirit again this year. it all depends on wether or not theyll take me back. also i ordered my first cosplay costume a few days ago and it should be here anyday now. last checked it was on the same coastline a state away so yay.

who is it?

Naruto-embarassingly looks around-

series 2 naruto though i mean i aint the biggest fan of doing a boy character but i sure as hell aint gonna do a twelve year old boy character.
anyway, i picked him cus oddly enough, i kinda look like him and act like him which is one of the reasons i got into the series so much. i got the cotume from a cosplay site cus it was cheaper than at the shop sadly but i am picking up the finishing pieces at work already have the tsunade necklace which we sell and may see about picking up a rasengen ball we sell too.
(it's a plastic frosted ball that glows different colors so you could do naruto or sasuke or ryu or goku or anyone who uses energy as a weapon really.)

also the boss gave me a surprise early birthday gift before he went out of town. a tsuba box for my sword wall which ive been neglecting since i cannot afford swords right now. i felt kinda bad about it cus we coulda sold it at the store but again, that would be rude of me to take it and then go around and sell it.

if i get the gig at spirit im gonna do my best to increase business at the store even if it means buying tons of stuff with all my paychecks cus i really like my job. i've been there over a year which is a big accomplishment for me due to my normal short tempered attitude and gratingly hyper personality.

also thinking of taking some kendo classes in the near future if things pick up and i can budget it. both me and mom are having a harder time these days keeping food on the table and paying the bills at the same time. i could bitch and moan about who everyone says is responsible for it and honestly, i don't like the guy either but it takes more than eight years for us to have gotten where we got. it's been a little over two going on three decades of leaders just lasily going with the flow of the last guy in office not trying to make waves thats caused this.

let's face it, we've gotten lazy.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/19510378/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/19510378/ Mon, 21 Jul 2008 01:18:31 PDT
think the last time i wrote a poem was in 2005 and the las tone i worte was some campy love sonnet for my ex fiancee-i know. im campy.

anyway, yes. been feeling kinda displaced from my body recently, could be because of me not having cigarettes anymore to pass the boringness of a day and my days are sooooooo boring.

but giving up smoking was important for me not only for my health but also as a stepping stone towards having srs and going on hrt in the near future so it had to be done.

alot of my poems tend to reflect my own interpretation of myself trying to explain how i feel and what i see and how i think so if they dont make sense to you-i understand.
anyways enjoy. love,doll

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/19473900/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/19473900/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 22:30:57 PDT i tryed putting a poem up last night as it is a rare treat when i sit down and actually finish a poem now a days but had a problem loading it up on here so i may just post it on my myspace page or something.

and then there's zombies and robots. i like them both alot. ive been thinking of making some follow ups to the zap robot in invasion, maybe even doing one based on my artist name of dollyautomatic and then the zombie nation needs new zombies as well but the only one ive approached so far doesnt have any pis i can use and im kinda debating asking someoen else in concerns of that piece getting spammed with antilinks of said person who are not relevent to the artwork as so has been done before in the past. and id reallllly love to take some shots of my office/room but it needs some major cleaning and upgrading before that happens like i wanna finish or thicken my swordwall out a bit more first.-maybe find a home for my masks and zombie toys and monster plushies.

i've also got a cool g.i joe scene developing on my sword wall between snake eyes and stormshadow of the 25th anniversary line
(more articulated,better sculpting and painted details)
but still need more red ninjas for the background.

nyways yeah just thought id do an update. also ive been smoke free now for almost a whole week aside from a cigarette i had last night to calm my ass down when i stabbed the fuck out of myself with one of my sgian dubh-you'd have a smoke too if you were pouring blood out of your hand so dont go there.

ttfn. love,doll

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/19344935/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/19344935/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 22:10:01 PDT well, with myspace and da changing things up a bit. i think ill be changing things up a bit too. kind of got the idea from jark when i was reading one os his blogs recently. so ill be streamlining my blogs on the sites i am on. on here i'll be talking about stuff related to art, on myspace stuff of random and the transgender forum i go to ill be talking about my transitioning.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/19301194/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/19301194/ Wed, 09 Jul 2008 22:15:27 PDT
first victim-er-citizen if sillygoddisco. i apologize tht i forgot how to link his page but go check him out.

if you would like to be a member, send me a note.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/19280237/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/19280237/ Tue, 08 Jul 2008 19:26:39 PDT
what's spam? look it up.
basically, the only reason i have comment open on my artowrk is because
1. i like to hear what people have to say about my art.
2. im too lazy to turn it off
3. when i first signed up with deviantart i never imagind it would turn into some otaku hangout where everyone wants to either conspire and shun other artists for one reason or another.

now, tenagers..........sweet,sweet, overstimulated,emotional,mentally deficient,computer savvy japanese consumer whore slave teenagers.....let's take our naruto headbands and out down our super expensive dollies and lollies for a second and listen up to momma dolly.

I...........
DON'T........
GIVE........
A.......
RAT'S........
ASS

what your problem is with who and why your'e crying over whos expensive dolly

(which your over medicated parents probbaly bought to shut you up)

got stolen by whom or whats in whos pants. and im sure the people who look at my artwork don't either.

you wanna get your message across? send notes. that's what that was created for.

ofcourse why im even posting this as a journal makes no sense to me now that i think about it. youre all a bunch of chavs anyway.

fuck it. guess ill just have to turn my comments off. it's fucking sad really. dont spam my shit if you have problems with people i have on my friends list. just send me notes. okay? solid. lovely. out.

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]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/19119397/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/19119397/ Mon, 30 Jun 2008 00:14:52 PDT which means i had plenty o' time to do some sketchings and thats what i did.
in one of the stories the goodguys have to face off against potpeople and it's just as it sounds. zombies mad eof pot,weed,maryjane,leafy greens etc. etc.
they look great. they're basically based on all the annoying assholes who come into the store turned into pot zombies which is kind of a nice way to blow off some steam as mesa is full of assholes.
had a bit of a relapse though on storyltelling, i think everyone has that from time to time. see, the problem with writing something instead of drawing it is you have a basic idea of where you wanna go but you dont have it set just yet. im writing a script, not a novel so its looser in context and more open for interpretation. and sometime soyu wanna retool dialogue to make it all fancy and sophisticated ans shit and that just ruins it.
there's two ways you can go:
madmax which is a guy in the future wastelands real cut and dry action film or you can go postman which is basically the same but written to try to impress a crowd that could careless about it.

we don't need another hero and im not looking for a fucking eisner. hell im really nto even looking for a national publishing to be honest. i just wanna get my story out there because its funny and fucked up and even if its just one mroe person who enjoys it then thats all that matters.
thats why starving artists starve and sellouts sell out.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18999815/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18999815/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 11:03:59 PDT
also have added some fun character sin it as well to keep the story going like coffeegirl, murder kitties girlfriend who she doesnt acutlly remember the name of so she calls her that cus shes always either making or drinking coffee
"reference to those scenes in horror movies where the hero is in a rush out the door and their girlfriend comes in the room informing them of the pot being freshly hot"

and freddy the redy who always ends up getting killed in some greusome way or another in every story he's in
"no. not a kenny reference. think startrek-think red shirts."

ive separated the storylines into short segmented pieces which helps in moving the story along and getting to the good stuff without having to stretch out dialogue or plot development for 24 or more pages. and filling the rest with random one shot stories ala tales from crypt or tankgirl style.

so far, ive finished putting topgether two main stories that have crossed over respectively into three issues each.
ghouls a gogo and enter the boogirl. and am having a load of fun doing it.
this comic is gonna be ripe with my kind of morbid and obscure sense of humor and im hoping itll be taken well with (unfortunately) the local comcibook crowd who reads locals or indys. (it should though.)
its gonna be an ashcan for now but the artwork i have planned is gonna look phenomenol. a mixture of watercolors with pen illustrations crossed with digital artowrk as well so yeah.
im trying to whip out as many issues scripts as i can at a time cus im not only writing and doing the artwork to this comic im also gonna be doing:
INKING.
LETTERING.
COLORING (OR DECOLORING IN PLACES)
FORMATTING
AND
PRINTING each issue by myself.
i dunno how much im gonna ask for each issue yet or what im gonna plan on the page minimum/maximmum to be although id love it to be a 32 issue piece each at around maybe $2.50 an issue?
oh wow. tyra just said ass like five fuckin times in three minutes. lol boy oh boy i need some sleep.
love you all. keep an eye out for finalized artwork of the comic coming soon. gonna start with just cover pieces
(was not satisfied with the feel of the one i put up already. doesnt reflect the feel of the comic)

love you all, dolly.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18922847/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18922847/ Thu, 19 Jun 2008 01:56:40 PDT
keepin in mind this is no catcher in the rye or epic story but i still dont wanna put together something i think is just total crap cus i just wanted to rush to get it out there.

this plot is also gonna leave holes open as well for possible other mini series but i havent penned any of those down yet. im gonna focus on these one at a time in order too.

but im gonna leave em open for a sequel just because i love a good horor story where it leaves you wanting more or dreading more either way. lol
and now that she been scripted out. im gonna get to working on the pencils and inks partstill gathering up reference materials too though so keep your eyes posted for stuff from the comic soon. love,dolly.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18903557/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18903557/ Wed, 18 Jun 2008 00:49:35 PDT
i love chixploitation, its like sexy feminism. woot! and i love horro movies so its no surprise my stories would go that route.

anyways the story is called murder kitty after its main character who was one of the top monster hunters in the southwest before she ended up killing off all her potential business and is now subject to be a ouncer at a rundown middle of nowhere titybar which secretly houses a failed military super soldier experiment known as project boogirl in its basement.

things are going good and well for her first day on the job until a couple of tweekers manage to sneak into the basement in search of copper pipes and mistakingly awaken the military projectwho has grown very very pissed off and very very hungry during her thirty five year snooze fest.
what ensues next is a bloody rampage of strippers and clients alike being turned into bloodthirsty ghould running amok in a powerless two story stripclub.

and if that doesnt sound bad enough, it turns out the heroin oft eh tale is in fact a werebeast, hence the name and its a full moon out. will she be able to stop the ever growing threat to humanity from breaching the clubs walls or will she fail and succumb to her "wild side"?

not a bad synopsis,eh?

anyway, im doing things a little differnetly this time around, actually relying on reference aterials to get things looking extra good including using nude or "porn" models for character references to the main peoples appearacnes and body types. murder kitty is going to be loosely based after my favorite model of all time, the thailand sweetheart joon mali while her adversary is gonna be based on the vampy vixen liz vicious.

rest assure dill be posting page previews up here when i get aorund to that as well as character art to boot but dont expect it to be at your local comic shop anytime soon let alone any arizona shops yet as i do not know for sure if this kind of comic is gonna take well with a mainstream crowd but ill keep updates on that too as we go along.

it feels good to go back to my roots and pursuing my passions rather than sitting around wracking ym brains on projects that were just being shotdown and shelved.

love you all, dolly.
p.s: if this does well in the local market, i may see about getting it published nationally. wish me luck.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18903541/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18903541/ Wed, 18 Jun 2008 00:46:45 PDT
i love chixploitation, its like sexy feminism. woot! and i love horro movies so its no surprise my stories would go that route.

anyways the story is called murder kitty after its main character who was one of the top monster hunters in the southwest before she ended up killing off all her potential business and is now subject to be a ouncer at a rundown middle of nowhere titybar which secretly houses a failed military super soldier experiment known as project boogirl in its basement.

things are going good and well for her first day on the job until a couple of tweekers manage to sneak into the basement in search of copper pipes and mistakingly awaken the military projectwho has grown very very pissed off and very very hungry during her thirty five year snooze fest.
what ensues next is a bloody rampage of strippers and clients alike being turned into bloodthirsty ghould running amok in a powerless two story stripclub.

and if that doesnt sound bad enough, it turns out the heroin oft eh tale is in fact a werebeast, hence the name and its a full moon out. will she be able to stop the ever growing threat to humanity from breaching the clubs walls or will she fail and succumb to her "wild side"?

not a bad synopsis,eh?

anyway, im doing things a little differnetly this time around, actually relying on reference aterials to get things looking extra good including using nude or "porn" models for character references to the main peoples appearacnes and body types. murder kitty is going to be loosely based after my favorite model of all time, the thailand sweetheart joon mali while her adversary is gonna be based on the vampy vixen liz vicious.

rest assure dill be posting page previews up here when i get aorund to that as well as character art to boot but dont expect it to be at your local comic shop anytime soon let alone any arizona shops yet as i do not know for sure if this kind of comic is gonna take well with a mainstream crowd but ill keep updates on that too as we go along.

it feels good to go back to my roots and pursuing my passions rather than sitting around wracking ym brains on projects that were just being shotdown and shelved.

love you all, dolly.
p.s: if this does well in the local market, i may see about getting it published nationally. wish me luck.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18903530/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18903530/ Wed, 18 Jun 2008 00:45:28 PDT
i love chixploitation, its like sexy feminism. woot! and i love horro movies so its no surprise my stories would go that route.

anyways the story is called murder kitty after its main character who was one of the top monster hunters in the southwest before she ended up killing off all her potential business and is now subject to be a ouncer at a rundown middle of nowhere titybar which secretly houses a failed military super soldier experiment known as project boogirl in its basement.

things are going good and well for her first day on the job until a couple of tweekers manage to sneak into the basement in search of copper pipes and mistakingly awaken the military projectwho has grown very very pissed off and very very hungry during her thirty five year snooze fest.
what ensues next is a bloody rampage of strippers and clients alike being turned into bloodthirsty ghould running amok in a powerless two story stripclub.

and if that doesnt sound bad enough, it turns out the heroin oft eh tale is in fact a werebeast, hence the name and its a full moon out. will she be able to stop the ever growing threat to humanity from breaching the clubs walls or will she fail and succumb to her "wild side"?

not a bad synopsis,eh?

anyway, im doing things a little differnetly this time around, actually relying on reference aterials to get things looking extra good including using nude or "porn" models for character references to the main peoples appearacnes and body types. murder kitty is going to be loosely based after my favorite model of all time, the thailand sweetheart joon mali while her adversary is gonna be based on the vampy vixen liz vicious.

rest assure dill be posting page previews up here when i get aorund to that as well as character art to boot but dont expect it to be at your local comic shop anytime soon let alone any arizona shops yet as i do not know for sure if this kind of comic is gonna take well with a mainstream crowd but ill keep updates on that too as we go along.

it feels good to go back to my roots and pursuing my passions rather than sitting around wracking ym brains on projects that were just being shotdown and shelved.

love you all, dolly.
p.s: if this does well in the local market, i may see about getting it published nationally. wish me luck.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18878122/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18878122/ Mon, 16 Jun 2008 17:04:11 PDT M.....A....R...R...I...A...G...E!!!!!!!!!!!!

wow, i should have been a cheerleader lol. anyways, yes. california is the second state in the union to legally recognize and perform same sex marriages now and the first to recognize couples who are not just statewide residents which has opened a flood gate of possibilities for other states to either follow suit and legalise same sex marriage sin their own states or passively (puss-ively if you ask me)recognize same sex marriages done in other states. new york has already pledged they will recognize what cali is doing. the first ones to get married today in cali was a lesbian civil rights couple who have been together for over fifty years and i dunno if i did or didnt mention this or not but ellen degeneres is also planning on getting hitched in the near future as well.

it swells my big black heart to see this country who has taken more setbacks than i care to count in the past eight years turn around and start progressing in the right direction.

and this is a big thing. something gay couples have been fighting for for decades,since the begginging of the gay rights movement boom in the late 60s.

hats off to you all, and to the naysayers, bite your tounge in quiet, youve had this right to marry for centuries now and so far all youve done is abused and rewritten it to fit your standards of living. where in your bible doe sit outright say without question of context that its okay to have more than one wife and not omre than one husband at the same time?
(last i checked thats adultry,one of the seven deadly sins)

where does it outright say you can divorce your spouse? remarry?

have tax exemption?

lemmee know when you find it, ill be waiting.

such a lovely day today. i finally feel i can be proud of my country for something we should have done years ago.

and to all of you who are plannign on getting married soon in cali i have one question? anyone need a bridesmaid?

love you all. dolly.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18859210/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18859210/ Sun, 15 Jun 2008 17:17:49 PDT
i aint a musician so i aint gonna be playing second fucking fiddle to noone. so no, there will be no more deviations done in my page under the title of teeshirt designs and as far as when what i have doen so far will see the light fo day on a shirt-who the fuck knows. i sure as hell dont and i dont like not knowing.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18699867/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18699867/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 15:22:35 PDT 13 one hour horror movies written and driected by the leading name sin horror movies today.

IT SUCKED ASS!

as a gore whore, i tend to find spooky stuff fun and enjoyable, even more than sex to be honest but this was a big hot mess. there were scarier sequences in reaper than in last nights movie doen by the ugy behind saw 2,3 and 4 and really, theres no excuse.

i think what it was is they were trying to feed off of the series masters of horror but putting it on a network station that you dont needa pay cable for.

the flaws:
one hour is not enough time for someone who is used to making a two hour horrofilm to develop enough plotline to get you interested.

nbc is scared of doing gore (obviously) they can show youa guys butt on a cop show but they cant show you anything gross.

its not even an hour really. forty five minutes tops.

theyre trying to compete with supernatural who reqlly kinda changed the way we see horro shows on regular tv and still havent figured out how to do so.

im still gonna watch the other twelve episodes mind you but i dont see it lasting that long or even getting picked up for another season.

its not that original and not anywhere near good enough to compare to other shows that it can be compared to like masters of horror or the outer limits or the twilight zone

(which twilight zone and outer limits were very well done and kept you interested except for the last incarnation of tz)

lets face it. we've grown into a society now where the hitchcockian theory of depriving an individual of the scary portions while leaving it to their imagination to interperet has been replaced with the shoving the gore and glory in your face romero/fulci/savini style.

warner brothers got that with supernatural, why cant nbc get it?

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18649174/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18649174/ Tue, 03 Jun 2008 16:59:06 PDT
mail by darkhorse comics.
its one of those mangas i like where it shows comics arent just for kids. its a horror genre title involving detective akiba as he exorcises spirits with a blessed gun.

i know it doesnt sound like much but trust me, its good. it only lasted three issues so its not gonna be a big wallet muncher like bleach or deathnote or naruto
(which i dont read but know is like over twenty fucking volumes deep)
and has only one side story in another comic-vol. 4 of the kurosagi corpse delivery service (another fave of mine)
and apparently a not as good j-horror film of the same name.

(kurosagi is getting a big american budget release and is currently under production)
the only problem with these types of books is this: theyre too far between in finding another good title and they always leave you wanting more.


i mean honestly,you can toss a dart at the manga section of any given comic book shop and manage to pull out either a comci about superpowered busty girls or giant robots or mystical ninjas that eveyrone knows and loves but its a little harder to find a good horror genre in there and even those tend to be swamped with either romantic vampire stories
(only ones i like are hellsing and vhd and even vhd gets kinda mushy here and there)
or creepy long haired girl ghosts or little boy ghosts hunting the living.
not that mail and kurosagi dont have that. they do. but instead of the everyday people runing around frantic and the ghosts being the main focus. its the other way around.

the protagonists in these books are just like everyone else.....maybe even a bit on the socially undesirable or strange side of things born with a sixth sense of sorts
theyre normal other than that.
they have the same weknesses as everyone else and can die just like everyone else. theres no nine tailed fox up their butt or mystical sword or book to aid them
(akibas gun only affects ghosts. its completely useless in a gangwar as he himself admits)

and i think thats one thing that i find appealing about these titles.
and its not like the ghosts are all evil. in kurosagi most of them are in actuality afraid and want to pass on to the other side but cant.
(because theyre unsolved murder victims)

anyways yeah good stuff.

does anyone know of any other good titles like these to check out?

ive been looking at gyo as a possible next interest worth looking into as well as the ju-on mangas (i already own all five ring mangas lol)

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18598533/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18598533/ Sat, 31 May 2008 18:51:58 PDT A.) i dont have a sewing machine and dont like most of the spidey costumes readily available
b.) spidey zombie would require alot of body contorting to fake a borken leg and we all know you cant cosplay unless youre in character
(cus then your just a grown woman in a costume)
3.)zombies are getting overplayed and boring
and DD.) zombie spidey would require a ghreat deal of icky sticky fake blood and gunk which could damage autographed comics and stuff

but i still wanna do a badass cosplay costume for comicon 09 and i want it to to just blow everyone the fuck away so here's waht ive decided on:


!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!KARAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


the second version of otohas costume to be exact mainly cus the gold accents added to it make it alot flashier and the red eyes are far more menacing than the blue eyes pitch black version from part one.

this is gonna be a badass version too. ive already sketched out what needs to be where and what i can alter here and there and there will be very few changes to it for comfort purposes only .

im planning on it being very lightweight, using painted and heavily laquered cardboard for rigid portions of the armor and painted plastic parts for the helmet and more elaborate areas.

im planning on three seperate l.e.d lights on the costume for the chest piece
(which has a blue eye right below his throat) and his eyes which will be set directly above my own eyes so i can see through the helmet.

im gonna be purchasing a ninja outfit for the under garb as well as tabi boots which will then be covered with the raven clawed backings and buckled straps on his new boots. and am also working on a notion of rigging a one time only gag to the outfit by rolling up a tattered black cape underneath the armoring around his neckline that when i pull a cord will unravel the cape (which was done in the original outfit but i can get away with it cus most people out here have never heard of karas.

and ofcourse karas wouldnt be complete without his badass mikura slicing sword so im gonna be making a cosplay sword of his secondary gold sword complete with moving parts. thats right, i am gonna make it to where it expands like in the final showdown between otoha and eko (its alot easier than it looks lol)

honestly, the sword is probably gonna be the hardest part of this piece but all in all this will be a long process but im hoping well worth it in the end.

once this is done, im gonna definately be posting pics in it for your enjoyment. thats all for now. wish me luck.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18542567/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18542567/ Wed, 28 May 2008 11:44:34 PDT
also waiting on volume 13 cus i wanna know how the big fight turns out as the series and the book differ vastly as much as they stick together equally lol
besides, (spoiler alert!) they brought tashigi back from his coma in the end of issue 12 which was kind of a "oh damn!" moment lol

but heres whats got my pretty little head confused a little, in the promotional art for the third season, they show someone who shouldnt be there and i checked the current cast voice listing and this person does not have a listing. im talking about the vivacious ryoffou housen.


i mean, shes dead.
in the anime series, she sacrificed herself and killed totaku at the same time in the watermelon patch-big boom style

(she focused all her chi into her abdomen and kinda blewup)

so i dunno if theyre gonna come up with a way to bring her back in the new series or if shes just flashbacks for ryomou (shimei)
or if it was jsut kind of a snafu in the marketing.

anyways, i cant wait to find out how the series went. im so excited!

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18518402/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18518402/ Mon, 26 May 2008 21:06:59 PDT (could be cus i dont have the right parts and all)
but i love the look, the feel, the taste and yes, the smell of it.

sex is a big part of life. slap some boobs or a suggestive pose on something and bam! people will line up to knock down your door.
it can be controversial, tasteful, painful, romantic and funny so why cant it be kawaii?

being a tgirl, ive notcied there isnt alot out there i can get away with fashion wise, especially sinc eim still on the first steps of it and havent started spyro and estro yet. but i still love to dress up even though im a big girl and i loves the supercutes and flashy colors. (as indicated in my art) so ive decided im gonna try to make some sexy kawaii stuff mainly for myself but i wanna post photos of it for you guys to enjoy too.
i have a ton of ideas and this is gonna take some time so dont expect anything yet. as far as the shirts.........theyre coming. i promise.

also gonna be taking some snaps of my office (my bedroom) too so you guys and ghouls can see what kind of madhouse i work in once its been cleaned and "sanitized"

i havent done a lot of dolly shots in a while, not a one since i got my new camera and im gonna work on fixing that. just hopes i dont break the lense. lol gotta get some new makeup and wigs, good thing i just accepted jaded dreads on my myspace page to my friends list. theyre a local cyber goth dread wig group who does custom orders. hoping they got something in a candy cane. anyways yeah random post, love you all, dolly

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18409041/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18409041/ Tue, 20 May 2008 02:32:26 PDT and although they do not seem tohave an exact theme going on aside form supercuteness, there will be noticable themes as we continue including the cutesy poison series started with happy paintcan of death
(the joke by the way is Pb is the elemental symbol for lead and 82 is it's atomic number-lead+paint=leadpaint! get it?)

thinking of something with arsenic and maybe even plutonium lol oh! and lithium. gotta have lithium.

also gonna be more ganguro as well as working on a cybergoth design and something im playing with which im sur ehas already been coined......CANDYGOTH!

and if that hasnt been coined yet it should be.

also working on some flash art stuff. may do soem in kawaii just cus i love this format of artwork. its very easy to do once youve gotten a hang of it but the pain in it is making it assymetrical and properly proportioned. (thats why you really need to fullview these pieces. i know theyre big but its proper scaled that way.

as far as anymroe anime/manga characters i like chibified....maybe. i dont watch alot of anime and i try to stay away from the mainstream cattle shit but there are a few girls i like 9and wanna cosplay as ofcourse) including super tough girl shimei ryomou and the feline guardian yurine from karas. also would like to play around with a chibified version of the white violin cus i really loved umbrella academy and she was a really good badguy. (plus shes easy to do)

howevwer, because they are copyrighted characters and i do not own the copyrights to them they will be considered fanart as they should be and will not be posted up as teeshirt graphics.

and as far as tshirt news........dont hold your beathe just yet for the death by kawaii shirts-we're still a bit away form making em look good on the shirts. this is mainly due to the amount of color and shades involved per image. these shirts are gonna be elaborate and may even have an infusion of glitter and metallic paints involved as well as blinged portions because when the dolly does something, she does it all the fucking way and i want these to look super awesome for you, my friends.

so be patient. well probably start outin a local market first then move into the websites as well. azxtc is officially up but its not the best looking site right now. its got a long way to go before its ready to roll. anyways thats it for now. later. love, dolly

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18373680/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18373680/ Sat, 17 May 2008 21:17:27 PDT second design of the series if monkey king fights an oni. monkey king is one of my favorite asian characters most known for his portrayal in the legendary book "journey to the west" although his legend goes back before even budhism in china.

im also gonna be doing some other mythological beasties from both china and japan such as onis (like the tubby red one in the monkey king design) and kappas (turtle looking water demons) and maybe even a kyonshee (zombie/vampire)

may even play with doping one of some famous daimyos too like takeda shingen and oda nobunaga but dunno yet.

hope you like what ive done so far. the monkey king ones are more for my own personal enjoyment than anything else but i think theyre cute and others may enjoy them too and ic ant guarantee if all if any of these will make it to the final process.but fingers crossed. if you wanna see these on shirts,show some love.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18345676/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18345676/ Fri, 16 May 2008 02:00:24 PDT
also gonna be working on some other various cutey things too. like id love to do a ganguro girl shirt design like this as i can seriously see that being big over here soon. as well as some retro tokyo tin robot designs. cus i just love those!
(seriously?if i wasnt so damn old (or broke) id buy every single one strapya-world's put out so far.)

okay well i hope you like gothilo im not looking for critiques. enjoy. look forward for more as well as stuff like my normal stuff and some tatflash themed shirt designs too.

xoxo,dolly

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18341108/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18341108/ Thu, 15 May 2008 18:04:27 PDT
yes, there will be gothilo shirts. no there will not be a chibi gothlol on it. instead i am attempting to infuse the super cuteness of mainstream commercial japanese pop
(not anime)

and my own morbid sense of humor to create some ultrashibby sacharine sweet teeshirt designs of death! mwahahaha! stay tuned to see what i come up with.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18326939/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18326939/ Wed, 14 May 2008 19:32:55 PDT
not like anyones gonna notice.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18296507/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18296507/ Mon, 12 May 2008 20:23:54 PDT
anywas whats with the title? well, i was kinda relieved today when i stopped in target to discover that the day of the dead remake that was supposed to be hitting theatres someitme soon went straight to video instead! lol

yes thats right,folks! day of thed ead starring mina suvari (the skinny little bitch from american pie one and two and american beauty) as a military commando (ha!) and ving rhames reprising his cop roll form the remake of dawn of the dead (although he died in the ending during the "home movie" sequences in the credits) went straight to dvd.
wonder why...........

could it be because of a poorly thrown together script or a lifted script formt he original with just new people playing it?

could it be bad casting? (seriously? mina suvari as a military survuvor?)

could it be because the took the humanity away from bub the "smart" zombie and replaced it with a cheap gross out gag impostor?

(seriously? rule one in horror movies is if your gonna make a monster likeable they have to have some semblence to being human or a redeeming factor about them-i mean look at how well they cleaned up jason for freddy versus jason.)

coult it be because people in general are sick and tired of the same reoccuring theme of zombie movies and its time to march em backt o the graves for a while until theyre fresh again?

or could it be because people are sick to death of p0oorly constructed remakes of old movies that didnt need remaking to begin with?

honestly i choose all of the above. why go around in circles repeating the same stuff over again? i mean, id like to see whats next to be honest. theyre always talking aboiut heading up north in zombie films, to cnada or alaska. why not show them getting there only to discover its even worse? or that santas a zombie.

(come on, as if walking corpses isnt realistic enough plus tid be cool to see a seven foot tall five hundred pound zombie groaning ho ho ho-prove me wrong!))

anywas it looks horrible but i sadly still wanna see it or own it simply out of the fact that i already own the other two official remakes and i just feel my collection wouldnt be complete plus i love a trainwreck.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18282078/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18282078/ Sun, 11 May 2008 23:19:34 PDT it was badass! the entire movie was so well put together it was like woah and the ending after the credits?holy shit!

(attention! if you have not seen ironman yet or were too lame to stick around to watch the secret ending then dont read any further-go see the movie or go see it again as that way youll see what im about to talk about below this spoiler alert portion)

SAMUEL L. JACKSON AS NICK FURY! holy shit! they kept talkiing about s.h.i.e.l.d so much in the movie i was actually expecting him at some point in the movie but i never expected to see him the way they showe dhim in the movie! he was perfect! and whats funny is a year ago wizard actually asked him how he felt about doing a nick fury movie cus they based the likeness of ultimate nick fury after him and he was like hell yeah! and guess what? theyre making a nick fury movie to stand alone it should be out in 2009/2010 ish and im pretty certain hell be in the just announced ironman 2

but ohmygod it was so worth seeing him standing there at the very end of the movie being all eyepatched badass and shit.

really made my kitty pur! lol

oh and i saw a preview for the dark knight. it looks so ghey! i think people will like it though cus its the joker ans shit but heath ledger was a horrible horrible cast for that roll and the way they made him look was so stupid. and what the fucks up with him licking his lips every five minutes? is that supposed to be a psychotic tick or is the cheap makeup hes wearing cus they spent too much on making batman a stupid padded suit (again) flavored?

gimmee a break.

anyways yeah ironman was fucking awesome! cant wait for ironman2!

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18274944/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18274944/ Sun, 11 May 2008 14:18:21 PDT
now, im not gonna say JESOPHKINSON's name on here but they know who they are and honestly, what right do they have to openly badmouth another person?
also checked the person they badmouthed's site and nope, not a single negative statement on it so thjats an obvious redflag to me. ive gone ahead and notified devart about their comments and the person they were badmouthing too including letting the person know who is making these stateents. what they choose to do from here is their business.

but just to let you know, we are not frauds, jesoph. transgenderism is a medically documented disorder. it is very much a real thing. its not some little fad people do to get attention or feel special and get sympathy.
and i seriously doubt someone would literally go out of their way to pretend to be transgendered just to scam people. you should be ashamed.

now just to clarify-although i dont think i really have to............

I AM A TRANSEXUAL FEMALE.

and to top it off: IM INTO GIRLS.

according to your logic that would make me a fraud too,right?

im not taking hormones yet bacuse i work in a conservative christian neighborhood and am concerned ill lose my job over it and cannot afford hormones right now either. oh! and i havent put on my dread wig and makeup in months. better notfiy the bbb!

i pee standing up-lets call the fbi!

and i dont always "talk like a girl" either.
wow, i must be a scam!

ive checked out your page, kinson deary and i must say, you should be more concerned with your own personal matters and not others.

i know you state your only fifteen
(which you most certainly dont look like you are-nor do you look anything like a girl either)

but its time to grow up. lets leave the namecalling and public outings in the locker rooms, hunny and put on our big girl britches when we come onto the internet.

also in future reference, if your gonna badmouth a fellow deviant,say it to their face instead of bringing it to their friends attentions.

i mean, you obviosly went through alot of time and effort to dig up all these very negative links to this person in some cruel hopes of getting attention to yourself or your pitiful attempts at art so heres your five minutes of fame,darling. soak it in.

being a transgendered person, its hard to exist as it is. i cant tell you alone how many times ive been insulted personally over stupid things like my long nails or my hello kitty wristwatch or that my favorite color is magenta. how many failed relationships ive been through cus i cannot open up to women or men in a way that i would feel comfortabel because people only take things at face value.

if you got a problem with someone cus they promised you something and didnt payup then thats one thing, but you shouldnt go around ripping on them because of their gender identity cus you got ripped off.

ive snet stuff to this person too and nevere got anything out fo it but im not bitching about it because when i send someone something i dont expect something in return. i give my friends gifts out of the kindness of my big black heart not cu i am an attention whore and want something back.

id hate to imagine the crap you give your friends on their birthdays if thats what you expect.

and no, im gonna say this cus it needs to be sad. i dont honestly car eif people find this offensive or childish. this shit needs to be out in the air for people to see. this shit should not be tolerated in this day and age.

its like you get a republican in office and bam! everyone de-evolves about twenty years socially.

the transgendered community is the least respected of the glbt community, we barely have any suport and we're one of the leading statistics of teenage suicides.
we've been mocked in televisino in books, in music and movies ever since the creation of it.

we're referenced to monsters like ed gein and the fictitious buffalo bill (who is based on ed gein)

we're called monsters, perverts and social deviants. thigns to be ridiculed openly and beaten regularly then raped and killed and left to die in a ditch cus we have no souls.

a not for anyone in the future about coming to my page making such transphobic statements on any of my artwork. DON'T.

i know theres not much i can do about it other than that but don't. i do not like ignorance or posers who claim they are "real people' until they are co... ]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18206367/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18206367/ Wed, 07 May 2008 03:57:39 PDT yes. theyre monster chicas and psycho chicas but just because someone doesnt have a pulse doesnt mean they cant be pretty!

just look at me for example! lol

i figured since i was doing some pinup style designs for tees id try some spooky grrrls out and whata yaknow? i think they look pretty swell!

this doesnt mean that im gonna be doing pinups forever and ever and ever and -well you get the point. but that style does work fuckin peaches for the screen process we use for the shrits and even an old bitchwhore like me can testify that vintage is always the shit and can be modified in so many fuckin ways!

yaknow you can change the entire atmosphere of a shirt by placing the image off centered? have it scroll straight down the side, cut the sleeves off or do that sick fecking diy cut neckline look and let it drape over your shoulder like a female 80's construction worker! lol

tear it, rip it, tie it into tiny little knots in the back, pin it, frankenstitch it-rape it.....oh. yeah dont do that.

point is vintage is the fuckin shit and you know it and i know it so theres no use fighting lovelies.
gonna try some of those tardo 'varsity designs too! yaknow the kind the ones they made us wear in p.e back in the day where it'd have the schools logo on it and the mascot and sometimes like an establishment date on it?

yeah those kind.

i know, youve seen it a hundred times, only college guys and stoners and jocks wear that shit and why should i wear yours etc. etc. etc.

honestly, cupcakes, i could give a rats ass if you do or dont wear it cus someone else will and as long as atleast one person wears it for a minute im happy.
secondly, the only reason jocks and stoners and college boys wear it is because they arent tryin to be picky about whatll cover their potato-esque body like most naysayers are.

im a teeshirt whore and im none of the above.

a design shouldnt just be a cool picture it should emulate a bit about yourself. and subliminally it does wether you realize or not. for example; i tend to wear alot of horror movie and femme fatale shirts. coincidence?

anyways yeah as i have strayed off of track and now need to put down bread crumbs to find my way back to the subject. check out my gallery, yall.
(oh gods! did i just say yall?)
alot of stuff is now watermarked but not to where you cant see the whole fucking image so youre gonna get a taste of whats gonna be available in a few months worldwide.
that should give you time to decide wether or not you wanna slip something ive put together on or not. and its not just shirts. were working on making prints as well. and thongs, messenger bags,wife beaters, spaghetti string tops. whole mess of stuff.

well till next time my dears, im off to bed.
naughty dreams!

love,dolly

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18111599/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18111599/ Thu, 01 May 2008 03:08:07 PDT
"primarily one of those fifty cent horse ridey thingys you see outside of grocery stores and shit."

also downloading a copy trial of poser too. so that should be fun. ive decided today after almost losing my entire system to stave away from the pirates bay. someone injected a nasty little virus into one fo my torrents i was downloading and luky me was smart enough to save it to an external device instead of to my actual computer.

hadda sugar crash earlier today and passed out around six. felt like such an ass too. i need to ingst more sugar lol

hopefully that case of rockstar juiced im gonna be getting for my work on the websites im doing will help with that lol

and yes, you may notice that the stuff i have now uploaded to my devart page is all covered with the phrase :this is a demo! all over it. thats because i decided if people wanna be skeevy and just download my art without dropping me a line or faving it-theyre gonna get a demo version of it.

i know its cus they like it and all but theres always one or two unsavory people out there who will ripoff your hard work and say they did it or double copyright it

(as its already copyrighted to me and to the company i work for)

and use it on their personal websties or repost it as, again, theyre own artwork on another site.

im not being paranoid about this either. its happened to me before both on the internet and in the real world. and at first i didnt mind it too much cus i figured hey, atleast people are seeing it but now that im doing this for more than just fun, especially since i dont have a college degree in graphic design or no classical training which makes it harder for me to find business, its important for me to have credit given where credit is due.

so if you do download my stuff, please by all means show it off to your friends just let em know where it came from where they can see it at or get a copy for themselves.
and for fucks sake, fave it i you download it. you obviously like it enough to click one button why not click two? it doesnt reload the page or anything and seriously, how much physical effort does it take to move you wrist a notch to click a button?

the faves also help me in determining what people like of my design works so i can improve on or add more to that genre.

i cannot guarantee im gonna ever not do works on here again without that demo filtering on it from here on out but keep in mind its more to cover my ass and my artwork from being stolen than it is to encourage people to buy the shirts.

and yes, again. there are people who are so unimaginative anduntalented and desperate that they will steal your art and claim its theirs just to get a quick buck or attention.
and if i catch anyone doing it with my stuff, especially my business stuff you can very well expect me to bust yiou on it and if youre tryin to sell stuff with my art on it without my permission-you will be receiving a cease and desist. simple as that.

well thats all for now. look for more pinup style art soon.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18098209/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18098209/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 08:08:10 PDT motherukers can fave a stik figure of naruto but when it comes to something like my shit you just wanna rip it to your computer or cellphone?

fuck that an fuck you.

from now on all my shits beng sent with the downlad function shut off. this i bullshit. sexbomb three gets downloaded twice after four views an not a damn fave or
"thats pretty cool" for the six fucking hours it took for me to make the damn thing?

no. from now on you wanna download my sit fine, youre gonna ask and oh yeah-you'd better beieve theres gnna be watermarks on all my shit from now on too

that is all i gtta say. andto those who do fave and comment on my work and especially to my watchers-hank you so much for the support. sux i gotta do these kinds of things but it just pisses me off a bit when someone takes your work and doesnt credit you for it.
dolly

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18009634/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/18009634/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 15:39:35 PDT
anywas, we were dscussng ideas for photoshoots came with a ton of good ones also decided what we might do is actually sketch out the poses we want lke a storyline so itll make it easier to comunicate with the models better and so we can figure out how to remix the images too.
and there will e remixing! sami wants to see if i can icorporate drawings into the photos alongside the models giving it kindofa roger rabbit/cool world kinda feel.

there may even be plns ofpainted scenry done by yours truelly along with other artists collaboratin on this project.

and speaking of projects...........the reason you my loyal fickle fans havent seen a ton of art coming in in the past few days is cus ive been working my sweet ghoulgrl ass off on possible designs for one of the xmokecity websites.

possible as in sami wants to see what everyon thinks as im not the only one working on this and choose what he likes first before they get up on the site.

but dont worry, new art will becoming in soon

love you all.dolly

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17935738/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17935738/ Sat, 19 Apr 2008 22:48:44 PDT
alsochecked out the azxtc website. it takes a minute to load but is pretty damned cool. also has a section there thats under construction called the artist and guess who the artist is?

malcome!

i know, they mispelled my birth name but thts cool i may start spellig it tha way for my malcolm hex shit anyway

stay tuned for more xmokecity news

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17857459/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17857459/ Mon, 14 Apr 2008 22:38:25 PDT D and butted heads with the other designer on shirt ideas.
also got into testing out some shrits on silk screen. some came out okay some didnt. its not as easy as it seems but its pretty damned fun.also came to realise a little more about me than i knew before although i had a notion. are you ready? IM A LESBIAN!!!!!!!!
woot!

(WARNING: IF YOU DONT WANNA READ ME RANT ABOUT MY PROBLEMS SKIP TO BACK TO SHIT NEWS!)

that doesnt make shit easier though-it makes things harder in some ways.
like, for example, i just found out that a girl i like told me over the weekend via the www. that im the kinda of guy she could go out with.

yay right? nope. BIG NOPE. problem is i'm the kind of GUY she could go out with-
GUY AS IN NOT GIRL and thats not me.

if i had been born with the right parts and she was into girls id rock her world full tilt axis in a heartbeat but alas, i dont see that happenin and what about the old sayin "theres plenty of fish (yum!) in the sea? nope, i have problems with that too.

first of all,im gonna be in my mid thirties by the time i have the money saved up for my operation-well, the main one atleast and thats if i scrimp every penny i own starting now (it costs alot of money to get a pussy-lucky biogirls) and even afterward i may feel i need some other operations like oh say a nose job/boob job/etc.
and then theres the fact that surgery cant fix bone structures. im still gonna be a big girl in a lot of ways which might turn some girls away.
and even though id imagine women are a little more understadning in the gender dept. theres still gonna end up being the old addage,

"well-you werent born a girl (which is not true) so you wouldnt understand what i mean. "

but anyways-yeah felt that needed a little explaining on how unconfident im feeling right now in that dept.

AND NOW.....................

BACK TO SHIRT NEWS!:
okay so we had a shitload of hanes white beefy tees over the weekend and we did two different screens

the first one was an old one of one i did just by myself the second was one i did with added background (and signature) from eddy samis graphic designer in bakersfield. he did a good job touching her up a little and throwing down a stock photo supplied tag butterfly behind her.
we did them both through a one panel process just to test the waters and even mixed inks together to make a rainbowed feel to it

(hint: we may do that for the gaypride themed shirts)

while im waisting aronud at home working on idea and putting together images for sami, he and the crew at hyome are trying new things out on it and then well meet up again someitme soon to see how its come out.

right now were waiting on a special printer for the clear sheets and the macs to come in too. yeah imgonna be working on a mac. woot!
also may be learning photoshop too wish i could have it on this computer but i have vista so that aint gonna happen.


well, thats aboot it for now. like anyone ever reads my shit anyway-youre all too busy drawing and faving and putting up naruto pictures for daily devs.

now, im open for ideas if anyone wants to brainstorm with me thatll be awesome. also your gonna be seeing a ton of black and white images from now on cus its easier to use for screen processing.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17770230/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17770230/ Wed, 09 Apr 2008 19:35:36 PDT
Spoke with the man toay/this morning and guess what?
THE PRINTING PRESS HAS COME IN!!!!!!!

whats that mean? tht means that pretty dmn soon you guys will be able to buy and wear these funky designs instead of just looking at em! how cool is that?

dont get too excited just yet. we stillhve a long way to go. alot of trial and errrs and what not plus we need to finish putting up the website as well. but just thought id share that with you all.

also: we're looking for members of the glbt community from every facet of it to be volunteer models for our pride shirt line which im hoping well have ready for the rainbows festival either this year or pride next year.
and even thogh ive done wo rave designs so far, im still looking for clubkids/candy ravers an cyber goths who are either interested in having their "candy" shown off or are interestdn being on a teeshirt design representing their community. these will be volunteer based as in i cannot pay you but i may b able to throw a finished teeshirt your way or if anything else its free publicity for you because people im sure are gonna ask who is that on the shirt?

anyways thatsall for now till later, love you all.
dolly auto matic db61616161327beta

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17676520/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17676520/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 00:19:11 PDT pretty soon were gonna have a studio setup which will include a photog station for models/diital media and hand drawing station for drawing and photomanipulation/and print station so we can go straight from camera to comp to shirt in just a few hours.

very cool.
also might be getting some models soon from what i heard which is always bonus!

oh! and we're gona be experimenting with the idea of jekkyl/hyde shirts which is where itll show one image under normal light and then a totally different image under blacklight.

also working on some non tobacco related shirt ideas such as teeshirts desiged for ravers and candy kids. and since noone bothered sending m a hollerback on candy photos im probabbly gonna end up drawing something up an pimping it out instead o just hitting up the dollar stroe and gettin/making my own candy and doing soe shots as dolly soon.

thats enough for you for now READ THIS SHIT!!!!!!!!!

love you all. dolly auto matic db61616161327beta

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17599702/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17599702/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 02:21:32 PDT anyways. its two a.2da.m righ now i tired but not tired and chattin it up wth one of my friends fom the transsupport forum im on. (shes awesome-as is the forum for those in the trans community who are lookin for somewhere to hang/belong)

work sucked ass today. anooying cows of peole followed by two retardo skatr kids
(and i mean kids) oh and did i mention te really fecking annoying stripper bodied narutard who now seems to pop in ad out every five fukin minutes in our store?god wha a nutjob!

i ean, hes goregeou! i'd kill to have a body like hers and here she comes in with some erious menta issues all hippitty hoppitty around. shes like a technicolor peep made of artifcial sweetner that you just wanna dip in a boilng hot cup of coffee to watch them scream till they dissolve. (goth much? i know) and if that didn just dip the sheep in corn oil, i still managed to growl and snarl my way to an almot astonishing thousad dollar sunday.

i hate sundays. its eight hours/no breaks/no custoers/anying assholes hoppd up on righteous indignation from church/and no time to catch any of the good cartoons on tv before i leave. theweekend i also the onyl tie i really get to hang with my mom and o stuff.

im really keeping my fingers crossed tat this business thingi ot going on with xmoke city flys off hrdcore cus im gttin rea sick and tired of customer service related shit.

ad hws that going?



well...............i just finished my first comic strp for their newsletter heyre gonna b providing at the store. i know, its no major leap or bound but its a start and it helps me with working on deadlines/story developement and did i mention its a comic strip?

the charaters name is smoking sam, a thing e andthe store owner came up with in a meeting and hes basically a devil (why fix it if it aint broken?) cowboy. supporting charaters will be cactus cathy his girlfriend and his invisible horse blank.
keeping in mind thentureof the tore, therewill be quite a few smoking tmed strips involved ad maybe evn afw just odd humored pieces.
hopefully i can get a copy of it scanned into cmputer and ill share it with you.

other then that im tired/dity and wanna go to bed. later.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17468067/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17468067/ Sun, 23 Mar 2008 03:05:46 PDT
jk
ive been workin my sweet ghoulgrrrrrrrl ass off makin magic baby!

just hooked up my artwork with a kickass cigar store out here and they want me to do some exclusive drawings as well as computer renderings for their store as well as teeshirts and other possible venues sch as fetish/strippers/funk
(my candy colored master)and glbt related shirts.

im very excited about this cus ive always wanted to beak through with my art and my visionad ths may be a damn good platform for it. the plans i have as well for srs and other rater painful prcedures that ill probly be passed out for gives me incentive too.

also it means that my dead end job no longer has a dead end if this takes off as good as im hopin t will.

so ive been devoting leisure time to working o stuff for them as well as perfecting my paintshop skills.

and yall know i got skillz

im gonna share wat i do here as well s yall can get a taste of whats goin on inluding
(and thisll be a big thing for the fans of my me photos)
new photos of me in my more comfortable female form portraying (i know yacan feel this)
a cigar smoking fedora pimping sedctive shedevil!
its gonna be torso up for now until i can get soem f my fluff under control but look for it. also have sm in depth studies im gonna do more for a remider to myself in the future that im not gonna like are a look into the ugly side of me-the cancer i call MALCOLM.

its plagued me since birth and as much as ive tried to kill it off, it stays here. well, hopingthis goes through i may havefinally found a way to afford to have ths horribe thing called a "boy" taken off of me .

wish me love and luck and lots of who gives a fuck!

kisses. love you all. DOLLY AUTO MATIC.db61613

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17369771/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17369771/ Sun, 16 Mar 2008 20:05:06 PDT
this entire mont hs sucked ass severl. im barelygonna b ekin fourty fuckin hurs this month which means a small fuckin paycheck and its all because noone is fuckin spending money andhas because they dont have it.

gas is almost at 3.50 a fuckin gallon-foods gon up do to the frmers havin to minize their corn harvsts specifically to suppl it fro this fuel i keep hearing about but not seeing readily available. which means that farm animal products such as pork and dary/bovine and eve fuckin pultry hve gone up cus they eat corn soda is up cus they use corn srup and ofcourse hours and jbs altogether are gettin cut because someasshole decided to raise minimum wage yet agin. yeah thanks or the extra dllarper hour.not that it mattes since im gonna beloosing the hurs i already was makinto even out the payroll us we sure dont wann raise the prices to th products we sell coverr wrkforce. oh, crosstrain to relieve the need of extra employees without a pay increas? sure!

get fuckin real.

and no, im not gonna say bsh is the devil and its all his fault. its EVERYONES FUCKIN FAuLT!

and not just congress.
its our fuckin fault too. for fuckin signing petitions we dont read all the way through, for voting or candidates cus of teir race or gender rather than diggin deep in and finding out who they were in bed with what they did in the past jobwise an what the plan to do .

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17308502/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17308502/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 20:58:42 PDT should i get it slimmed down or should i keep it?
i mea it looks oky,rih? i dunno nyways yah. wat do you think?

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17279152/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17279152/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 21:47:45 PDT they arent nothing big but ive been making some hemprope necklaces for friends and myself and now im making four (just for now) that are gonna retail at ten buks a pop.
why ten bucks? well thas cus its on a fifty fifty consignment deal. i get five the store gets five plus it seems pretty reasonable for what they are.
what they are is a nclce with adjustabl fastening
(done old school with a loop and three spaced beads)
the beads on them are exquisite too! each will contain:
2 hematite beads
2 black glass beads with pink sakuras
2 white asian beads with red andblack yin yang insigniason them
1 either red or green balled focal bead coveredi pink sakuras
3 wood beads to fasten with

the styles used on each will be a three stranded rat tail worked into a full hitch knot then tapered back into a three strand rat tail.

and agai, the suggested retail will be $10.00 on these beauties.

hopefully they sell cus i love making these tings. im no oingany custom orders at this time but if they sell well, ill see about making more elaborate ones as well and maybe even start sellin them online. lemmee know if anyone wants one f i do start makin them for sale online

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17213370/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17213370/ Thu, 06 Mar 2008 17:01:51 PST sittin here and sayin im a girl is one thing-i could do that til the end of times but it would be like kenswick's lemons callin themselves an orange so im maki the steps to be a girl (or an orange)and isgonna be a long long long trip. ill b takin pics along the way though. ive gotte a knack fo this funky photomanip style ive been doing lately and cant wait to try it out on good photos of me-not grainy cheap webca ones. anyway lok f em soo. love you all

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17095867/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17095867/ Wed, 27 Feb 2008 20:48:08 PST
okay, so here are the rules!

youre gonna see a comment n my page that reads THE EMOTICON GAME
and there's (gasp) a little emoticon in it.
what you need to do then is respon to tht comment ith an emoticon of your own that fis wth it. there are a ton of emoticns available on devart so it should get interesting
and comments that are like thanx for the fav and etc will be hdden during the process of this game.

the duration of this game? lets do two weeks.

okay everyone ready?
lets play!

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17095519/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17095519/ Wed, 27 Feb 2008 20:16:52 PST
no admirers, no tranny chasers, queen collectors, or fag bashers allowed.

the sites moderated pretty heavy but thats because of problems in the past with people coming on and starting shit-especially a certain yahoo group who remains unnamed.

and there are tons of resources and personal stories on there that really help with transitioning trans.

its only been the first day on but i really like it there. i any of my trans friends would like a link t it for themselves to check out lemmee kno in notes. love you all

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17082598/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17082598/ Wed, 27 Feb 2008 00:54:43 PST
they have a ton of stuff on their too about news we dont get over here. news like how communist cuba has started to train surgeons in vaginoplasty fr their residents and how iran has been doin sex changes since 1979 and even pays for half the cost for low income families and how they do mor surgeries per year than even thailand does. now i dont agree wih the principles as i know why they do this
(its basically a "cure" for homosexuality in iran wether youre a transgender or not) but it still makes me wonder why it is that these two countres weve grown to consider "evil" are more willing to allow their countrymen an women thes rights as well as gay marriage and adoption rights while we're more than too eager to sweep all this under the carpet over here.

land of the free my ass.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17069810/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17069810/ Tue, 26 Feb 2008 07:49:03 PST
i did mange to find one site of help and it was basically the steps of trans including the variations of it and the clarification that ones sexual identity does not neccessarily represent ones sexual orientation.

for example: I AM A TRANSEXUAL FEMALE WHO IS >>>>>BI-SEXUAL<<<<<
fairly easy no?
so what is a transsexual? a transexual by definition (or what i read) is one who acts and thinks and believes heself to be of the oppsite sex they were born. now, if ou see me at work or at soemwhre i dont feel comfortable (im a bit of an agoraphobe so its no surprise)
i may put on a more masculine front. especially at work. its kind of a necessary cus people become complete "re-re's" when they see knives and swords an they tend to run away when they realze there's a (as tey call me quite often) fag or queer behind the counter. which is actually pretty far from the truth in the bigger picture.

wow. this almost becamemy meoirs-you should be lucky i deleted all that cus it would have been a longass blog if i had typed it all up. lol

ayway, wha i looking for is some help. does anyone know any good reliable sites where i can find some of the info i posted i was looking for in the beggning of this post?
cus honestly it sux ass knowing youre one thing and looking like something else all together. (im sure a few friends of mine can relate)
any help would b great but im not expecting anyone to respond to this-noone ever reads my shit anyway. if your not comfy blurbing it out here jut send me a note dahlinks. only serious notes though

no bashers-

your ignorance is saddening how you lump all who are not heterosexal into one giant category that fits all. trust me it doesnt.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17035376/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17035376/ Sun, 24 Feb 2008 03:03:08 PST wat? you didnt think i had hentai pictures cus im a hentai did yu? well, tats beside the poit. truth is i get inspired through things like hentai and stippers an porn. not in a horny way but in an artistic way-i know im weird. some people meditate, others stay up at all hours of the night (its four am out here)me/ when i get a little artist block-i whip outt he porn lol.

anyway-heres the plan. come payday im gonna assess what i et coming i and see if i can swing getting a backup pwerbox for the comon a just in casebasis until the bug problem here is under cotrol.
its not all our fal. this place is the perfect breeding grounds for bugs-its dry,hot, the love it out here which just pisses moff to no mean.

anyay yeh thats the scheme jellybean. im gonna stick around until im done with this thng then im gonna crash but i hope i sill have the computer worng in the morning cus that uld reallsuckif it went ot of stupid bugs gain.
put a red light near the monitor cus i heard somewhere they dont lik redlights

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17029723/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17029723/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 17:46:00 PST
(the power box to anyone who dont know is the box in the back of your stack that plugs int everythin. its also what you plug in when you plug in the computer-without it working, your computer doesnt work.)

anyway when we tripped the power back o he buggy in my box setoff a chain reation

(as bugs are attracted to and full of electricy)

and BINGO! fire fuckin works galore!

i tell you with the flash and the noises youd have sworn that there was se kind of micro 'dogfight" goin on inside my computer.

well, after the sparks stpped the computer died and that was i. i was pissed-utterly pisse. i called hp AGAIN and this time he indian fella on the other sid was beng aroyal bitch pushign bttons ad ll kinds of shit on the phone-dick. anyway he said hewas gonna sendm a box after i rnewd my coverag fo two yrs f aout 150. bucks and attey were gona fix the probem on their side and it would take four to five business days. that aint hapenin dont trus people with my comutr epecially afte he ask me fo my acess password.

ive got a ton fotff onhre i ind to be prsonal to me and fear people will fi it questonble soi dntwant people eeing it cus theylmsunderstad it completely. so i inspected the power bx and sure enough that was the problem. so we went to staples today and got a new one and viola!

anways sory if anyone missed me-i mssed yu ll tooso very much. you ahve no idea how borngit i out here without my cmputer.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17029721/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17029721/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 17:45:59 PST
(the power box to anyone who dont know is the box in the back of your stack that plugs int everythin. its also what you plug in when you plug in the computer-without it working, your computer doesnt work.)

anyway when we tripped the power back o he buggy in my box setoff a chain reation

(as bugs are attracted to and full of electricy)

and BINGO! fire fuckin works galore!

i tell you with the flash and the noises youd have sworn that there was se kind of micro 'dogfight" goin on inside my computer.

well, after the sparks stpped the computer died and that was i. i was pissed-utterly pisse. i called hp AGAIN and this time he indian fella on the other sid was beng aroyal bitch pushign bttons ad ll kinds of shit on the phone-dick. anyway he said hewas gonna sendm a box after i rnewd my coverag fo two yrs f aout 150. bucks and attey were gona fix the probem on their side and it would take four to five business days. that aint hapenin dont trus people with my comutr epecially afte he ask me fo my acess password.

ive got a ton fotff onhre i ind to be prsonal to me and fear people will fi it questonble soi dntwant people eeing it cus theylmsunderstad it completely. so i inspected the power bx and sure enough that was the problem. so we went to staples today and got a new one and viola!

anways sory if anyone missed me-i mssed yu ll tooso very much. you ahve no idea how borngit i out here without my cmputer.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17029720/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/17029720/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 17:45:58 PST
(the power box to anyone who dont know is the box in the back of your stack that plugs int everythin. its also what you plug in when you plug in the computer-without it working, your computer doesnt work.)

anyway when we tripped the power back o he buggy in my box setoff a chain reation

(as bugs are attracted to and full of electricy)

and BINGO! fire fuckin works galore!

i tell you with the flash and the noises youd have sworn that there was se kind of micro 'dogfight" goin on inside my computer.

well, after the sparks stpped the computer died and that was i. i was pissed-utterly pisse. i called hp AGAIN and this time he indian fella on the other sid was beng aroyal bitch pushign bttons ad ll kinds of shit on the phone-dick. anyway he said hewas gonna sendm a box after i rnewd my coverag fo two yrs f aout 150. bucks and attey were gona fix the probem on their side and it would take four to five business days. that aint hapenin dont trus people with my comutr epecially afte he ask me fo my acess password.

ive got a ton fotff onhre i ind to be prsonal to me and fear people will fi it questonble soi dntwant people eeing it cus theylmsunderstad it completely. so i inspected the power bx and sure enough that was the problem. so we went to staples today and got a new one and viola!

anways sory if anyone missed me-i mssed yu ll tooso very much. you ahve no idea how borngit i out here without my cmputer.

]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/16987473/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/16987473/ Thu, 21 Feb 2008 03:30:18 PST ( i know im a fuckin fossil-blegh!) and throghout my shtty cildhood there was always on thing that fascinated me-besids women.....horror movies.
i grew up watching the god one too, not those cheesy black nd whites people older tha me call real horror movies but true fright flicks. the eighties was the era of the splatter films-the frightflicks-the up all night marathons, it was the stomping grounds for legnds like freddy krueger an jason vorhese,micheal myers
(not mike myers-hes horrible on his own)
not tomention chuck,the aliens,predator and zombies. yes! the living dead have been on the slver screen since ateast the 1950s and backthen the were actually based on the voodoo concept of a zombie. it wasnt until george a romero,inspired by the novel i am lgend, created his opus night of the living dead tat these walking corpses began to take on a more viscious role in the movies. soon, the horror genre was blessed with classics suc asdawn of th dead and da of the dead no to mention the infamous zombi series from italy, even horror movies not dealng with the walking dead managed o squeeze them in likein an american werewolf in london (and the sad sequel paris)

when i was a kid there was o god cgi graphics-there were aniated sequences yes but not like today, special effects artists had to rely on theirhands and their brains to mae things come to life and the kingof th splatter was tom savini-most of youmay not evenknow who thati which is sad.

ayway, where am i going ith this? well, if you know how i type r talk you know my dialgue never goesin a straight line to anything and ends up usually hitting tons of thgns all at once. (i have a cluttered mind)

im going this way with it-
despte how muh you thin ou knw or have read or wanna belive it to be true..........

ZOMBIES ARE NOT FUKINC REAL!
why do i bring this up?
cus im so tied of halfpint twinks coming into my sword sho recting the zombie survival guide and how they wanna be prepared for an upcomng zombie apocolypse, hell.im reading te book and to be onest-if tey were real, most of us wuld be royally screwed.
(just hope they dont eat my face and give me a chance to put on something hot before tey get me cu if im gonna be a reanimated corpse im gonna be fabulous at it.)

and just today some ankerdoodle bugs me in the middle fo my book and hes all like "s, what do you thinkit is?" in reference to solanum-the supposed virus tht creates zombies according to max brooks. my response?
"i think mel rooks' son watched too many zombie flicks growing up."
to which i had to listen tot he guy rant about how zombies are real and how he can never have enough zombie movies and how he watchs resident evil religusly. omfg! dude, theyre movies, designed as a means of entertainment.
now, it is true that you could quite literaly take the entire concept of a zombie infestation oout of a zombe flic and drop anything into it hat could actually happen-natural disasters,civil-war,global warming(?)and it woul almost literally play out exactly the same-try it somtime.-but theyre not real. theres no way inhell that it would ever happen in my lifetime or yours or eve in the near future and even if there ws a virs created, do ou seriously think someone would bestupid enough to test it out on things in a uncontrolled environment without factoing in all the potential setbacks of it?

no i wont say zombie zombies are not real. they are. there havebeen actual documentedcases in haiti and africa andacrss the carriean in general of voodoo zombification throughout the ages including video proof of its existence but even they are not truely dead-theyre just partiall braindead due to hepoisons theyve injested and the lack of oxyge from being submerged below groun for hurs on end before being revived.

i swear-this whole fascination wth horro movie zombies-better defined as GHOULS has gone way too far. you ant step foot inside a comic shop ithout tripping over something zombie related, you cant go aroun the cornerwithout some referece to some zombie flick and now every ones a goddamned expert ont he subject too. ugh! give me a break. its actually gotten worse than the big vampire craze of the nieties-im seriously waiting in anticipation fo "Z-bars" to start popping up with "z-kid" goin in and out in horrible makeup proclaiming they are the walking dead or muttering the over used and tired out line "braiiiiiinnnnsssss!!!!!" as they walk.
(by the way-zedheads,that line was only used in the lame ass return of the living dead series-every other zombie film illustrates that they eat more than brains)

its not thati dont mind people enjoying the shit-i love a good gorey movie too especialy when it deals with ghouls but tone it the fuck down!youre gettig to be even worse than the narutard... ]]> ~black13roses http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/16967358/ http://black13roses.deviantart.com/journal/16967358/ Tue, 19 Feb 2008 18:39:24 PST
nothing broken im sure-i have bones o steel
(metal monkey-get it?)
BUT FOR SOME REAON MY RIGHT HIP IS REALLY ACTINGUP ON MDAY AND IT WASNT EVEN THAT COLDITS MORE LIKE A PULLED MUSLE PAIN THEN ANYTHIGN ELSE. NOT THAT I DONT MID THE PAIN. ITS KIND F A HRTING/GOOD FEELIN PAIN..........wow! when the fuck did the caps come on? lol
yea i just gotta figur ou which ca im gonna bring to work tomorow.i have several different canes all skulled topped. im leaning toward the horned one cus i can shift my weight on it better. ofcourse i my not bring one cus its supposed to rain tomorow and that makes juggling my purse/hot cocoa/a cigar and a umbrella a bit tedious.
not to mention my knives .

yeah it was weird last night, i finally managed to cool of from my rant on myspace around 230 in the morning and layed down for a few hous of sleep only to get woken up by a loud boom outside nd th power going out.out here it coud have been anythign that did that. thuhnder/ ansformer lowing, methlab goin boom.......lolrus findin his bukit.........anyfin.

so needless o sa i was tired this morning. bought myself a litle pick me up though.
i gots a new g.i joe!!!!!

i know, im anerd .bought toys are fun and i love to buy em ad pose em and stuff. well i was on a bit o a ninja kick for a minute but i haventbeen able to find any more red ninjas anywhere soi picked onefrom my secondfavorite cobra faction-the dreadnoks! i picked up buzzer. hes pretty badass. the thing i like about the 25th aniiversary is that theyarent just stpid resll the originaoneut a whole new resculpt with mro articulation and details not to mention the weapons they have now actally look like weapons instead of monochromatic toy thingys. buzzer to rfresh peoples memories is the blonde dreadnok wit the chainsaw. nw im tempted to pt together a diorama of like a trased pub or oemthign wth them in it and having the drednoks insignia spray painted on the wall somwhere in it. (dork!)
im trying not tospend to much money this mnth cus im buying suff frot computer and i need to seriously start savin up for a sex change cus i dont wanna be fifty when i finally get it done.

anyways yeah useless jargn i know. ttyl love you all

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