deviantART: by:blackheartsgirl http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:blackheartsgirl&section=today deviantART RSS for by:blackheartsgirl en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 18 Dec 2009 23:08:34 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png I've got bad news. http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28960653/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28960653/ Tue, 15 Dec 2009 12:33:25 PST
~Vanessa

]]> ~blackheartsgirl Obsession http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28941152/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28941152/ Mon, 14 Dec 2009 12:35:46 PST

I can't stop listening to "Dear Agony" by: Breaking Benjamin. It's stuck in my head, OBSESSION!!!!

]]> ~blackheartsgirl "Softly it beats... http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28882305/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28882305/ Fri, 11 Dec 2009 12:36:34 PST
Hi, everyone. How are you?? Yes, I am making small chat with you through a journal entry. Anyways, the title and the continuing text are just something I thought you would be interested in seeing. The reason for this is because I will be submitting some writing, Yes, I am talking about my secret, red notebook that never leaves a 5 foot radius from my body. The most treasured object in which I write!

I find myself lacking in submitting photography lately. I have a good reason: He took the camera memory card to put it into his PSP. I can't complain it is his stuff but i can only take 10 or 15 pictures with the old one he had. It's depressing, I had video for youtube and everything planned, and no camera...:(

Psychology is boring! :ohnoes: I finished 3 exams. I have to read a 400 page text book! 400 pages. It doesn't get any better than a printed 1980's textbook on how we should think and solve problems (identify the problem, plan what you will do to fix it, etc.)

For a good conversation starter I have a question. We all know how popular Twilight has become, but, have any of you seen New Moon and what is your take on the movie, how it was created, and the quality?

I wish you happy holidays, be safe, be happy, scream spontaneously.

~Vanessa

]]> ~blackheartsgirl Oh, the joy and wonder http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28835118/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28835118/ Tue, 08 Dec 2009 21:11:57 PST
I don't mean to offend anyone or make it seem like I am ignoring them or something, it's just that I have to get all of my schooling stuff done.


What are you looking forward to this holiday season? Which holidays are you celebrating and what do you hope to receive as a gift?

]]> ~blackheartsgirl As things find a place... http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28468723/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28468723/ Fri, 20 Nov 2009 13:22:49 PST
Well, I am now suffering from the loss of my great grandmother, Naomi Walker.
She had been suffering from Alzheimer's. She was also 92 years old, and my last connection to my grandpa who died before I was born.And for my mom, the last connection to her dad.

Soon enough, but not too soon from now, I will begin homeschooling with American School. I will graduate earlier than everyone in my class now and I will receive a regular diploma. But, I will have to teach myself, seeing as the curriculum won't allow anything otherwise.

I wish you all the best, and hope that you are well and that you have lovely holidays.

~Vanessa

Journal Design by =DruidWu

PS Brushes: ~wyckedBrush ~Darkresources ~Shad0w-GFX
]]> ~blackheartsgirl Days Pass http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28241224/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28241224/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 13:25:51 PST
I really do hope my friend comes home tonight. I miss her. Sometimes, I blame myself for not doing ANYTHING and EVERYTHING to make her okay again. But, I know that I can't do it for her. I can be there, but, I can't "cure" her so to speak.

So there is about a week and half before NEW MOON comes out in the theaters! I'm very excited. But dreading the crowd. :ohnoes: I guess it will be okay. I have permission to skip school to see it so, no worries!


I would love to hear from someone, everyone has been so busy lately it makes it harder to socialize! So anyone that wants to talk I'm here!

Journal Design by =DruidWu

PS Brushes: ~wyckedBrush ~Darkresources ~Shad0w-GFX
]]> ~blackheartsgirl My Newest Deviation http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28158407/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28158407/ Thu, 05 Nov 2009 10:23:40 PST [link]

Speaks for itself!

]]> ~blackheartsgirl Oh, boy...I'm freakin' out. http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28145522/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28145522/ Wed, 04 Nov 2009 15:33:11 PST
]]> ~blackheartsgirl HEY THIS IS A REMINDER! http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28072165/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28072165/ Sat, 31 Oct 2009 18:34:53 PDT
So you GAIN an hour of sleep

]]> ~blackheartsgirl FOLIO OF THE PORT PERSUASION! http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28011909/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/28011909/ Wed, 28 Oct 2009 13:12:04 PDT
Anyways here's the link:
[link]

It's so boring today, I don't know why.

I don't know what to be for Halloween. I was wondering, would you please, pretty please give me a suggestion?

]]> ~blackheartsgirl .October. http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/27391823/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/27391823/ Thu, 24 Sep 2009 12:54:45 PDT There are SO MANY THINGS going on next month. Let's see...

:bulletblue:Oct. 3-Ember Fest
:bulletblack:Oct.10+11-Railroad Festival
:bulletblue:Oct. 31-Halloween!
:dance:

Do you know what that means??!!!

MORE PHOTOS!
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On another note: Next week is Spirit Week. I am not participating. I MIGHT do Character day or crazy day.

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So, how is everyone doing lately? I'm dying to hear from someone!

]]> ~blackheartsgirl Quick read it or you won't lose the game! http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/27305236/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/27305236/ Sat, 19 Sep 2009 17:50:52 PDT

:llama: :llama: :llama: :llama: :llama: :llama: :llama: :llama: :llama:

]]> ~blackheartsgirl *sigh* I got tagged. http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/27213873/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/27213873/ Mon, 14 Sep 2009 17:15:17 PDT :iconphotographicfarmer:
the rules:
♥ 1 ╏ You have to post 10 things about
yourself in your Journal
♥ 2 ╏ Afterwards, you gotta tag 8 different people,
and post those people's icons in your Journal.
♥ 3 ╏ Afterwards, just go to those 5 people's pages,
and tell them they've been tagged!
♥4 ╏ IMPORTANT: NO TAG BACKS! AND THAT MEANS:
You can't tag the person who had tagged you.

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10 things about me:
1. I am a huge animal fan, it makes me sad to see them hurt.
2. I sometimes cry when I'm really pissed off.
3. I just got my learner's permit the other day and I already lost it once.
4. I'm extremely clumsy, to the point that if I say I MIGHT drop something inevitably I will.
5. I love vampires.
6. My favortie store is Hot Topic.
7. I'm terrified of spiders.
8. I'm an empath yet I also have a psychic ability.
9. I was one of the first few groups of people to read Twilight when it first came out. (ORIGINAL FAN)
10. I have to pee but I don't want to get up.


I Tag:
:iconzerosloser:
:iconzoron1993:
:icontsukiko1313:
:iconblackmind1992:
:iconazurelupe7:

]]> ~blackheartsgirl YAY!! OMG I'M SO HAPPY! http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/27031016/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/27031016/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 08:38:27 PDT
]]> ~blackheartsgirl .....?!%(#$ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26996657/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26996657/ Thu, 03 Sep 2009 13:23:25 PDT
I'm very slowly uploading the pictures so please have patience with me!

These are the photographs that I am particularly proud of.

If anyone has ideas for a theme that I could do for the next one please let me know!

I wish all of you a great day and a happy life!

~ Vanessa

]]> ~blackheartsgirl busy, busy, busy! http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26879458/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26879458/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 16:08:21 PDT
Anyways, on the weekends I plan on being online. I can't make any guarantees though.

To top it all off I have an outer ear infection and I have to get my entire wrist, hand, and knuckles x-rayed. Thank you so much Rebecca Shaner for injuring me.

]]> ~blackheartsgirl Ah, the time... http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26673544/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26673544/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 14:34:43 PDT
Thanks
~Vanessa

]]> ~blackheartsgirl :0 http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26657896/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26657896/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 19:31:22 PDT
]]> ~blackheartsgirl THIS IS REALLY IMPORTANT. http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26610170/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26610170/ Sat, 15 Aug 2009 13:46:50 PDT
[link]

]]> ~blackheartsgirl OMFG I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT HAPPENED! http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26608058/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26608058/ Sat, 15 Aug 2009 11:39:40 PDT
]]> ~blackheartsgirl Trying. http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26440691/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26440691/ Fri, 07 Aug 2009 09:05:02 PDT

]]> ~blackheartsgirl Defeat http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26404695/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26404695/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 14:47:18 PDT
]]> ~blackheartsgirl Broken http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26323314/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26323314/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 18:04:33 PDT

From all of the things people have done to me over the years my natural reaction to someone saying something negative to or about me is to snap. well we got into this thing about how when my brothers say something to me i say something bad and so on, well she will correct me in a situation but when it comes them, nothing. My friends see how much they get away with cursing all kinds of things. And I can't get away with saying hell, or defending myself anymore.

They have no idea how hard i am trying to divide time between friends, family and my relationship. I can't do all of it. I've cried so many times today. I just feel like going to my room and staring at the wall until i pass out from exhaustion. It seems like it would be the easiest thing to do.
It's safe to say that I'm extremely depressed. When I finally told my mom that i need medicine for my anxiety and anger problems she questioned me like i was crazy because i have told her i mentioned it before. And worst of all she threatened to not let me see my boyfriend if i don't change.


I've had it. I can't take it anymore. I will NOT kill myself or hurt myself but it does feel like it would help and i know it won't. I know you are going to reply that you're here to help if i want to talk. But i will take that into consideration and then i will deal with it on my own. I had to just get all of this out because I couldn't take keeping it in and I just didn't want to take it out on someone. I see my faults, I know what I need to fix. But even telling them I know this doesn't stop them from pushing. I'm falling apart.

]]> ~blackheartsgirl Breaking Benjamin-Diary Of Jane lyrics http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26158901/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26158901/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 20:20:27 PDT
If I had to
I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask
Would you like that?
Would you like that?

And I don't mind
If you say this love is the last time
So now I'll ask
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

No!

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.

Try to find out what makes you tick.
As I lie down
Sore and sick.
Do you like that?
Do you like that?

There's a fine line between love and hate.
And I don't mind.
Just let me say that
I like that
I like that

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.

Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love.
Die for anyone
What have I become?

Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
As I burn another page,
As I look the other way.
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane.

]]> ~blackheartsgirl My Chemical Romance- Helena http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26091094/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26091094/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 16:07:22 PDT

Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

]]> ~blackheartsgirl Make Damn Sure http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26090666/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26090666/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 15:44:26 PDT


1.) If someone says “Is this OK?”, you say:
Evil Angel-Breaking Benjamin :evillaugh:


2.) What would best describe your personality?
A Decade Under The Influence-Taking Back Sunday :XD: WTF?


3.)What do you like in a guy/girl?
Your Guardian Angel-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Makes sense. :XD: It's our song!


4.) How do you feel today?
Shake It-Metro Station
Why is that even on here!?


5.) What is your life’s purpose?
Pressure-Paramore


6.) What is your motto?
Famous Last Words-My Chemical Romance
:rofl: haha this happens to me alot.


7.) What do your friends think of you?
Bodies-Drowning Pool
I don't wanna know what that means.


8.) What do you think about very often?
C'est Chelou-Zaho
?


9.) What is 2+2?
Scream, Aim, Fire-Bullet For My Valentine
KILL 'EM!


10.) What do you think of your best friend?
Lifeline-Papa Roach
how often does this ironic situation happen, right alot!


11.)What do you think of the person you like?
Welcome To The Black Parade-My Chemical Romance
Emo.Emo. Emo. WHY?! IT KEEPS DOING THIS!

12.) What is your life story?
Cemetery Drive-My Chemical Romance
I live to die!


13.) What do you want to be when you grow up?
Divine Intervention-Taking Back Sunday
???!???


14.) What do you think when you see the person you like?
Never Too Late-Three Days Grace
it's like someone is manipulating the damn thing.


15.) What do your parents think of you?
Straitjacket Feeling-The All-American Rejects
:rofl: I'm crazy and i know it.


16.)What will you dance to at your wedding?
Rescue Me-Tokio Hotel
It won't be a bad thing, I'm positive.evil mp3 player

17.) What will they play at your funeral?
Something I Said-Safetysuit
I hope this doesn't mean i'm gonna kill myself.


18.) What is your hobby/interest?
Live Every Second-Tokio Hotel
weird o_0


19.) What is your biggest secret?
What's It Feel Like To Be A Ghost?-Taking Back Sunday


20.) What do you think of your friends?
Liar (It Takes One To Know One)-Taking Back Sunday
They no lie :cries:


21.) What’s the worst thing that could happen?
Hearts Burst Into Fire-Bullet For My Valentine
Spontaneous Combustion


22.) How will you die?
Drowning Lessons-My Chemical Romance
:ohnoes:


23.) What is the one thing you regret?
Break Stuff-Limp Bizkit
lol


24.) What makes you laugh?
In The End-Linkin Park


25.) What makes you cry?
Boulevard Of Broken Dreams-Green Day
So that's what I broke!

26.) Will you ever get married?
Love Story-Taylor Swift
Me go hide in corner, it's doing it again


27.) Does anyone like you?
Feel Good Drag-Anberlin


28.) If you could go back in time, what would you change?
By Your Side-Tokio Hotel
I know what i would change that has to do with that


29.) What hurts right now?
Tears Don't Fall-Bullet For My Valentine
:rofl: I have a tear duct issue and i can't cry out of my left eye sometimes and it gets painful


30.) What will you post this as?
Make Damn Sure-Taking Back Sunday


I tag: :iconzerosloser: :iconzoron1993: http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/26011256/ Fri, 17 Jul 2009 17:18:39 PDT I'm defeating the purpose of a journal.

I can't sleep... I can't get to sleep until 7 a.m. most days. I wish life was easier. I really do.

I'm still with Jamie. I love him alot. Ever since I was 6 years old, when I first threw a rock at him and then my brother, Derek threw a stick at him and stabbed him in the head. I made it my goal in life to annoy him. Sad thing is he liked me too. Both of us were just too shy to say anything.

I'm planning on seeing Harry Potter next Wednesday with Taylor.

]]> ~blackheartsgirl What A Kiss Means http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/25843729/ http://blackheartsgirl.deviantart.com/journal/25843729/ Thu, 09 Jul 2009 16:49:42 PDT


+Kiss on the stomach = "I'm ready"
+Kiss on the Forehead = "I hope we're together forever"
+Kiss on the Ear = "You're my everything"
+Kiss on the Cheek = "We're friends"
+Kiss on the Hand = "I adore you"
+Kiss on the Neck = "we belong together"
+Kiss on the Shoulder = "I want you"
+Kiss on the Lips = "I love you"

What the gesture means...
+Holding Hands = "we definitely love each other"
+Slap on the Butt = "That's mine"
+Holding on tight = "I don't want to let go"
+Looking into each other's Eyes = "I just plain love you"
+Playing with Hair = "Tell me you love me"
+Arms around the Waist = "I love you too much to let go"
+Laughing while Kissing = "I am completely comfortable with you"
+picking someone up off their feet = "that they love them fully and would do anything for them"

--Advice--
+ Don't ask for a kiss, take one
+If you were thinking about someone while reading this,
you're definitely in Love.


--Requirements--
+Post this again after reading!!
Or you will have a bad year of Relationships.


If you LIKE, LOVE, OR MISS someone right now
and can't get them out of your head
then Re-post this within One Minute and Whoever you are missing will surprise you.
Repost this as "what a kiss means"

]]> ~blackheartsgirl