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You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

"You life is an occasion. Rise to it.
-Mr. E. Magorium

I can be anything
That you want me to be
A punching bag
A piece of string
That reminds you not to think

They found the note
down in your car
ItÂs not your fault it gets this hard

Hold your head high
DonÂt look down
IÂm by your side
I won't back down
You wanted a hero tonight
Well IÂm not made of steel
But your secretÂs safe with me

I can be anything
That you want me to be
A holy cross
Some sympathy
That reminds you how to bleed

They found the note down
in your car
You climbed up here to fall apart

They knock you down
IÂll pick you up
They laugh at you
IÂll shut them up

[iloveyousomuchithurtssometimes]

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You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

"You life is an occasion. Rise to it.
-Mr. E. Magorium

I'm writing this vanity card at six o'clock in the morning on October 18, 2007. It's my birthday. I am fifty-five years old. I have long ago become invisible to young women. They actually do not see me. But I am not writing this to complain. I am at peace with my circumstances. The blessing of fifty-five is a libido in decline. The curse of it is that major pharmaceutical companies are successfully exploiting my insecurities. Suddenly that surreal commercial of a silver-haired guy sitting naked in an outdoor bath tub and holding hands with a naked, slightly younger woman in an adjacent bath tub makes perfect sense (if I had produced that spot I would have given him a small plasma screen TV so he could watch ESPN in his hang time). I'm also mesmerized by the commercial featuring middle-aged men gleefully celebrating their ability to drink water and drive long distances (I particularly enjoy that the slightly younger women in that one are turned on knowing that their geezers don't have to urinate frequently). Anyway, it's my birthday today. If you'll excuse me, I'm gonna go suck on my bronchitis inhaler so that later today I can blow out the candles without hacking up a lung.

this is one of many exquisite vanity cards at the ends of The Big Bang Theory episodes. I picked up series (season) one the other day and I adore it. I also adore being able to pause and read said vanity cards.

There is a bruise in the middle of the back of my hand. Huh.

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You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

"You life is an occasion. Rise to it.
-Mr. E. Magorium

This is disgusting, sorry, but I fucking hurt so deal with it.

Somehow, back in October I got an ingrown toenail. It was disgusting as fuck and kinda hurt but nothing big girl me couldn't handle. I tried neosporin and other topical antibiotics to get rid of the resulting infection, but nothing stuck so a couple weeks ago, I went to see my doctor. he took one look at it, said it was beyond his expertise and recommended I see the podiatrist that comes into the office on Tuesdays and gave me a script for a different antibiotic.

I went to see Dr. Husain (the podiatrist) today and he saw my foot, knowing what had to be done and that was cutting it out.

He numbed my toe, which is now bruised for that reason, and waited for it to take effect. It took longer than it should have. Well, then I numb up fine and well, I lay back he gets to work. cuts out what he should, I'm not overly uncomfortable, but I assure you, it didn't feel pleasant. And then I bled like a stuck pig.

bled and bled and bled. It's what I do.

So he cauterizes it. with sticks. tipped in silver nitrate. this, by the way, will stain my toe black and make it appear to have some feral disease to it, so he assured me my toe would not fall off. Showed me what he meant while i still had a stick coming OUT OF MY TOE.
That and lack of eating so far probably led to what happened next.

I stood up once he was done and dressed it and everything (because even cauterization can't stop me WTF) I stand up, thinking "Oh god, I'm going to retch, if I move fast I can be to the waiting room without falling" Well... He stops me so I don't forget my paperwork for checking out and apparently turning was just too much. To quote my brilliance "Okay, feeling light headed now need to sit." as I fell forward grabbing the table bed thing. Smart, isn't it?

He tells me to lay down which I can just hear over the ringing in my ears and he's guiding me which I can barely see as I'm starting to black out. I had to maneuver myself to even get back up there cuz I'm losing motor skills. I just lay there breathing and he asked questions to keep me stable and as I heard myself answer, it was like I had my fingers in my ears. I heard everything in my self instead of through my ears. I was sweating and shaking and apparently white as a sheet. Needless to say, the pride in me was beyond embarrassed. I was supposed to be fine, goddammit. Not passing out from a doctor cutting out some offending skin and nail.

just laid for 10 minutes. I don't just lay breathing for 10 minutes in a doctor's office. I just don't.

Toe still numb but already sore, I call mom who nabs me on her way home. We get to the house and the most exciting bit of my story was almost konking out. we determine that I need to eat and it's st. patrick's day and eating out sounds like a grand idea. I get back into the car so I'm off my feet cuz i'm sore and right as mom gets into the car, my numb goes away.

Dear G-d, it was fucking excruciating. It was beyond excruciating. I might as well have been beaten right then.

I broke my no-painkillers rule. Thrice over now. Even with them, I hurt. I haven't hurt this bad since... fuck, I think since I broke my foot.

I can barely walk. I dropped a bag of pills on it and nearly screamed, putting it up does nothing and I sob whenever the slight ache gets worse.

I feel like a wimp and an asshole and a whiner about all this and I wish it'd just go away but I can't even ignore it. I can't even make it not hurt. My whole foot hurts and nothing's helping.

I just needed to vent.

luvahs

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~blackmoonfaery My uStream has begun http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/23640903/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/23640903/ Wed, 11 Mar 2009 13:14:59 PDT

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-Everclear, Normal Like You

"You life is an occasion. Rise to it.
-Mr. E. Magorium

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Promise the link is safe.

When you get there, let me know it's you. I'll send oodles of hearts your way.

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EDIT: I'm done now.

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You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

"You life is an occasion. Rise to it.
-Mr. E. Magorium

So ummm... tonight was the first night of Chanukah. I apparently did not fulfill my promise to myself as I am only celebrating it in my head. Oh well. I know. That's enough for me.

My family's tree is mostly blue and white. That makes me happy.

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~blackmoonfaery OMGOMGOMGOMG http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/21792531/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/21792531/ Tue, 02 Dec 2008 23:13:57 PST

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You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

"You life is an occasion. Rise to it.
-Mr. E. Magorium

AMANDA PALMER TOUCHED ME.

no. AMANDA PALMER HUGGED ME!!!

I think I just might die.

...

oh yeah. Sierra, you have a fucking sweet tshirt and a pin that reads "I killed Amanda Palmer"

OMGAMANDAPALMERHUGGEDME!!!!!! XD

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~blackmoonfaery Yeah. http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/21761915/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/21761915/ Mon, 01 Dec 2008 07:36:48 PST

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You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

"You life is an occasion. Rise to it.
-Mr. E. Magorium

I am still alive. Surprise, I know.

I have a job now. I've been working quite a bit. Still don't think I'll have even close to enough for class next semester. I'll have to talk to Mom. I'm freaking out a little, especially with the holidays coming up.

Speaking of holidays, it's now official. I've told Mom and Kein, the two I was most worried about. I'm going to convert to Judaism. I made the decision. And, now that I've told them, I know I'm not going to back down. I'm rather proud of myself.

I'm knitting like mad. Just as an FYI.

I've been having problems with a friend. I'm not going to mention her name in case someone knows somebody who knows someone who could be friends with her, but let's just say, I don't think I'm going to forgive for this. It's been building for a bit and I'm just done with it all. It's not worth my time anymore.

Amanda Palmer concert tomorrow night at the Magic Bag. Liz, Sylvia, Lea and KT are going too. ...If they all remember. It slipped my mind when I started work and I've not really talked to any of them but liz since Halloween, so I don't really know if they're... as forgetful as me, I guess.

I need to ask about my hours this week. My check next Friday is going to fucking abysmal. I think I'm gonna do maybe something basic for Dad, get Gram her cookies, and then do what I was planning for Mom and Uncle Dan and be done. That's still probably gonna wrack up another hundred for me.

Fuck. I just remembered Em and Kyle. I know their gifts, I've just not bought them. Ok.... Total just went up. Maybe I won't go full time Winter Semester. Work more.... Noelia will be gone. *sigh*

I hate money.

luvahs

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Stamps ~blackmoonfaery WATCH THIS. NOW. http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/21246076/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/21246076/ Fri, 31 Oct 2008 09:43:21 PDT

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You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
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-Everclear, Normal Like You

"You life is an occasion. Rise to it.
-Mr. E. Magorium

I promise. You have the 5 minutes for this. Even if you don't think you do, I promise that you do. So watch it!

Don't Vote 2
I swear it's worth it. If you need convincing... awesome people are in it. Like Neil Patrick Harris. Watch it for Neil, guys. Just please, watch this.

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You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
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-Everclear, Normal Like You

"You life is an occasion. Rise to it.
-Mr. E. Magorium

She is the Herschl the Hook-Up Hare to my Tinker the True Love Tortoise.

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You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
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-Everclear, Normal Like You

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my
|A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DEAR ME!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

luvahs

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~blackmoonfaery I interrupt this movie soundtrack... http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/20918348/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/20918348/ Fri, 10 Oct 2008 09:43:24 PDT

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-Everclear, Normal Like You

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my
|A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

For this important message:

I HAVE A JOB!!

that is all.

have a good day. don't kill people.

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~blackmoonfaery My Life Movie Soundtrack http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/20890753/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/20890753/ Wed, 08 Oct 2008 14:10:06 PDT

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You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
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-Everclear, Normal Like You

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my
|A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

I stole this from

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE,
WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc.)
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.

Opening Credits:
Light Up My Room - Barenaked Ladies

Waking Up:
The Good Life - Tony Bennett

First Day At School:
All I Ask of You - John Barrowman

Falling In Love:
Let Me In (Rolling Stone) - Hot Hot Heat

During a sex scene, you scream:
Wake Me Up When September Ends - Green Day

Fight Song:
When Doves Cry - Prince & The Revolution

Breaking Up:
Evolution Of The Daleks - Murray Gold

After getting drunk you say:
Say It Again - Natasha Bedingfield feat. Adam Levine

Prom:
Crazy 'Bout Ya - Cowboy Mouth

At your speech after you become prom queen/king you say:
Dyslexic Heart - Paul Westerberg

Life's OK:
I Slept With Someone In Fall Out Boy And All I Got Was This Stupid Song Written About Me - Fall Out Boy

Mental Breakdown:
My Best Friend - Hot Hot Heat

Driving:
Night Drive - The All-American Rejects

Flashback:
Chocolate - Snow Patrol

Getting Back Together:
Drop In The Ocean - Michelle Branch

Wedding:
And On A Rainy Night - Shawn Mullins

Birth of Child:
Samson - Regina Spektor

Paying the Dues:
Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now - The Starting Line

Your deepest secret:
I'm A Survivor - Reba McEntire

Night Before War:
I'm The Man Who Murdered Love - XTC

Final Battle:
Anyone Else But You - Michael Cera and Ellen Page

Moment of Triumph:
Tymps (The Sick In The Head Song) - Fiona Apple

Death Scene:
Father And Son - Johnny Cash and Fiona Apple

Funeral Song:
All My Lovin' - Jim Sturgess

End Credits:
Jesus Of Suburbia/ City Of The Damned/ I Don't Care/ Dearly Beloved/ Tales Of Another Broken Home - Green Day

I don't understand a lot of them, but the others are rather perfect. Either way.... That is one sexy soundtrack.

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Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
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No seriously. Most amazing thing that could have ever happened in my lifetime. Imploding the universe!

Actually, not really. I just love the thought. With everything this species has done over the centuries. Destroyed other species, we're killing the planet, and now! Now, we've created a machine that was once thought to have the capability to create a black hole that would quickly consume the universe. It's absolutely gorgeous! Sadly, if it were to create a black hole... it wouldn't put out enough energy to power a light bulb. That kind of blows, but still.

These scientists did something I don't approve of though... They were too busy rapping about the damn thing that they made a measurement mistake and may not be capable of measuring any dark matter they produce if they produce any. twats.

Large Hadron Collider best and worst case scenarios.

It's fucking gorgeous. I love it..

In other news...
I just downloaded iTunes v.8.0. Beautiful. I'm in love. Especially the Genius Playlist option. It's glorious.

I can't wait til mid October. That's when it is gonna do the atom smashing. I'm so excited!

luvahs

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<... ]]> ~blackmoonfaery best weekend in awhile. http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/20282358/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/20282358/ Tue, 02 Sep 2008 00:44:03 PDT

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Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my
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Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

friday, went to see hancock with mom, liz and kel. superb.

ok... so. saturday night, went to a going away party for ~Living-dead-in-mi Absolutely fabulous. I caught a KT and Kevin told me I smell good. Also, hours of YouTube and a penis cake. good times? oh yeah.

Sunday morning, I helped mom get ready for RenFest. she was beautiful. I can't even describe how pretty my mom is.

That afternoon, I went to dinner with Nudal. He needed to talk to someone and I was it. I got chinese outta the deal. it was alright. I was capable of a text battle with liz in the middle of it. That made it worthwhile. Then I walked to her place, watched the end of Nightmare before Christmas, and then came back to my house and chilled. Talked to Billy for a few hours when he stopped by for Josh. Made a list of sexy music cuz my mom's is sorely lacking (but apparently her love life isn't).

5 am bedtime. ouch. that makes for waking up in the afternoon.

had a bagel, chatted a bit with mom about religion and Jesus (conclusion: he's a cool dude and we could totally hang out... if he wasn't ya know... dead for the last 2000 years. gro-dee.

got dressed, got a hat, got a purse, battled with icecubes, got water, went to Pontiac Arts, Beats, and Eats. It was hot, yet spectacular. We saw art, I got a headband with strawberries on it and liz bought me a tshirt (it was only 5 bucks more for 2 compared to 1) and I had tasty fries. My fish was a little lacking in the good department, but it made me not hungry. and then. ee! >.
Uh Mazing. For serious. They were just fun and goofy and all around awesome. Got a really cute white wifebeater tank with the band name in old english black lettering. adorable. then... THEN, at the end of their set, they announced that be in the back at the merch table for signing. I needed to do that. I did. flat out did.

Mom and Lizzard got band posters and had those signed. My very cute but very ordinary new tank.... Is now signed. By all four members of Puddle of Mudd. I want to wear it but I don't want to even.... touch.. it. I am so geeked over this. superb, absolutely superb. the bassist (who totally rocked my socks) signed all three of our things a different way. Mom got a signature, Liz got "douglas" and I got "doug" though it kinda looks like dag. I think it's hilarious. Also hilarious, Wes (PoM's front man) was muttering to himself about idiot people while we were at the table cuz of people before us. Christian would not sign my mother. Good for me, sad for her, most likely frightening for him. Met this cool kid in the line and she introduced to Apocalyptica. absolutely gorgeous.

alright... I'm done blogging off my weekend. I'm gonna go to bed. I've got a killer headache from the concert that only got worse with how quiet and ornery my house it. Yes, my house (not the people in it) is ornery. Deal with it. I'm gonna move my lazy ass off this chair and climb into bed and make myself sleep. hopefully I'll be painfree come daytime.

luvahs

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~blackmoonfaery Wanna know what I love? http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/20175395/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/20175395/ Tue, 26 Aug 2008 21:28:35 PDT

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-Everclear, Normal Like You

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Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

I love when my friend are happy, that's what.

Also, knowing that the next time my best friend sees me, I'll have just gotten a haircut.

And being able to smile with about anyone cuz everything is just brighter.

And new tops. I love those too. Ooo! and new underwear! I LOVE that.

I also love being able to say I'm king. If I'm gonna be royalty, you better believe I'm gonna be the highest you can get. King Trista the First. Damn straight.

And snuggling. I definitely love snuggling.

ps. Why is my best friend so fucking beautiful? It's unfair. He's a jerk. And a dream-creeper. I'm not okay with it at all. I think I'm gonna beat him up. personally.

pps. If the person you can't stop thinking of says he could love you forever and would want to be with you always in your dreams if you shed a few pounds, would you be offended or start working out like mad? or both? I may poll that...

luvahs

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Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

i dunno, I liked the symmetry.

Mountain Dew

I want to revolt. Start a revolution. Caffeine and a cool color to my soda is apparently all it takes. Instead, I think I'll conform more than usual. I'm applying heavily for jobs. Heavier, at least. This is not my ideal. That's people being willing to pay me to make art. No one's doing that, though. I'll persevere. But... It's a struggle. My life is a struggle. I fucking hate Mountain Dew, by the way. This stuff is too good to pass up.

England

Those who know me are aware I'm an anglophile. This isn't a joke anymore, or a dream. I'm moving to England, preferably in the next 5 years. I'll attend university there, live in a flat with my mom or on campus with her, depending on cost and work in a shop. I've already started my paperwork for my passport, as has she. There is NOTHING here other than people that is keeping us. Why the hell not?

Room

I was just reminded of the last year of my life this week. I would like to let everyone know, I don't care what you believe and don't believe. This has been THE scariest year of my life. Not being raped by my father. Not the disasters he brought to my childhood. Not the divorce. Not cutting, not my suicide attempts, none of it. This last year. I don't care what front I've put up. I am saying, flat out, the places I visited in my head from the months of October to December are by far the most frightening I've ever perceived. I had a nervous breakdown while I was Eastern and I am still recovering. I ruined my life. I don't know who else realized this but this is the ever-present thought on my mind. I have ruined my life. And there's no coming back. So, I'm purging everything that came before. My room is losing a little girl. I may just find that a woman lives there at the end of this. Right now, nothing lives there. Just memories and heartbreak and I don't know what. In the last 5 months, I've slept in there no more than ten times. I want to reclaim this part of me. I don't care what you believe. I know what I lived. And it wasn't good or healthy. I just thought you all should know. Believe what you want. That's my story. That's my truth.

Nail Stubs

I'm biting my nails again. It hurts. I'll live. I have so far. I'm not moving to Eastern this year and I never will again. Who else thinks this is tragic? I failed. I got a big pit to crawl out of this time around. I never should have let myself get that deep of a bottom. I just wish I could have realized before I did.

I wonder if people are remembering I'm not as stable as I appear. It's hard being a cracked pillar holding up so much. Bubblegum and binder twine are helping though.

I love your problems, guys, hearing about them and helping. Do I need to sob for you to hear mine? Or am I still not loud enough?

this is my cry for help.

luvahs

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Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

IS UP AND GO!

depending on the sale, I may put up individual cards from the packs as well.

I also commission.
hit me up if you've got a request. I'll price it when I get details for it.

laterz!

luvahs

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Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my
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Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

Blogging My Life Away

I'm at my aunt's right now. Tomorrow, we're trekking it up to her cabin in Sugar Springs. Mom and maybe josh and Gypsy should be there by Saturday. Got a craft show on the 5th, but my crafts shan't be in it. I didn't bring up my supplies to make anything. Instead, I've been making ornament hangers for my aunt. My finger tips are all torn up. Hurts like fuck. ya know, when fuck goes wrong.

Necessary Life Giving
I need some resuscitation.

I really wish I had my tablet.
I really wish I had my tablet installed on my laptop. I feel like drawing and coloring and being digital but i'm basically SOL until next week. I mean, I have most of my stuff to do all that traditionally, but I don't feel like it.

My Stomach is Most Likely Eating Itself

Don't really need to elaborate too much on that one, I don't think.
On the topic of Owie. I may have broken my last two toes on my left foot. Not much I can do about it though. Especially since I may have done this on Saturday. Fat lot a good x-rays would do me now. I'll just keep stretching them and making myself want to cry until I don't have that response anymore.

I'm really fucking bored, I think I'ma call Lizzbutt. She is therapeutic to my nauseating boredom.

luvahs

That means friends...

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and do... ]]> ~blackmoonfaery Happily Ever After http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/19098557/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/19098557/ Sat, 28 Jun 2008 19:42:33 PDT

Links

Donny account GO!!!
etsy
(nothing for sale now)
Poll for New Etsy shop.

Quotes and Lyrics

You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my
|A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

Ya know, even with the cracked out mood-thing dealy, my mood icon is still correct. Craving a bacon sandwich is the only other possible mood I could put and dA doesn't actually have that as a mood. Go figure. I hear bacon sandwiches are a little out of style lately. oh well, so am I. whatevs.

Fought with mom yesterday. Maybe she's PMSing or I am, whoever, we won't know, cuz... apparently Mom and I don't do that bleeding thing anymore. I don't remember my last one and before that one it was 2007. I ain't complainin. Still PMS my brain out though. I'll complain on that to myself later. You don't need to hear the grody details. I'll spare your ears.

Still no job. *le sigh* I'm trying but no one's biting for my bait. I'm enthusiastic and nice and fucking persistent, but that's not what people want I guess. Complacency is not a hat I tend to wear, thanks a million. But if it'll get me a job, I suppose fuck-up could be my newest costume.

Craft show at my aunt's cottage place in a couple weeks. I was thinking of selling some wares but I have no good designs. I'll think of something. Bright side, if I do get some shit produced, and no one buys, I'll stick it on my Etsy. That's been feeling lost and lonely as of late.

I still want that bacon sandwich. It's inspiring Acrylicana-esque art in my brain. Totally frying bacon in the morning. it's crucial to my life now. urgh.

Not much beyond that. You may get some arts soon. You may not. I have arts. Just nothing I want to share quite yet. There's a lot of unfinished stuff. I have ideas, but execution escapes me. I'll figure it out. In the meantime, brainstorming for crafty cards is a go. And laundry. Clean clothes, they don't exist... and bikini bottoms are not underwear. And I miss my whale shirt.

yeah. that's my motivation. Whales. oh dang, lightbulb! laters!

luvahs

That means friends...

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http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/18836614/ Sat, 14 Jun 2008 11:06:46 PDT

Links

Donny account GO!!!
etsy
(nothing for sale now)
Poll for New Etsy shop.

Quotes and Lyrics

You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my
|A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

It's been forever since words exchanged
I liken it to growing apart
How silly.

I'm certain I could one day find you
But I'm certain that would be
Well... odd.
I swore one day to do it
But now, I feel no urge.

I just thought you should know.
I've grown up.

Four years of comments on journal entries
Every one read.
Mine and theirs and yours.
All read.
And I realize
...
I've grown up.

I liken it to life experiences have changed me, sir.
How silly.

But I still feel you in my core.
The deepest recesses of my soul,
I'm certain I could find you there.
More than certain.
Know.
Without you, I'd miss something
But you were there for a time and that's important here and now.

I've grown up.
How silly I once was.
I just read the last four years of your life
And my responses to them.
No wonder we drifted.
How silly I once was.
I've grown up.

I just thought you'd like to know.
From me to you like always.

Old standards are standards for a reason.

luvahs

That means friends...

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http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/18659240/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 09:37:52 PDT

Links

Donny account GO!!!
etsy
(nothing for sale now)
Poll for New Etsy shop.

Quotes and Lyrics

You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my
|A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

Ya know, I was so content in not putting up a new journal that I hadn't for almost a month, but now I feel the compulsion to do this. so here it is

news

I've decided on my major, hopefully. I mean, I keep coming back to this time after time, and I know I'll be happy, but will it keep me happy, ya know? btw, Graphic Art Design. That's where I think I'm headed. But I don't know if I have the skill and the resolution to do so. I hope. I don't think I could stress like that again, when I realized my dream of teaching would never come to fruition and I would hate it. Teaching English, and I know I would. It's just... reckless.

in other news, I'm fighting for what I want again. That's healthy. And maybe, one day soon, that'll be a clean room. It's looking absolutely preposterous. I haven't seen my bed in weeks. But now I know how to knit. That's possibly an even trade.

my family hasn't fallen apart yet. That's a bonus....

end

that's about it. All that I feel like sharing right now at least.

go here. I put art up there, too. An amazing piece should be up there soon... As soon as I have the time to do it.

luvahs

That means friends...

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http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/18218564/ Wed, 07 May 2008 20:29:25 PDT

Links

Donny account GO!!!
etsy
(nothing for sale now)
Poll for New Etsy shop.

Quotes and Lyrics

You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my
|A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

Important Thing #1: Grades

English: C
Sociology: A
Art Appreciation: A-
Bible: D

Important Thing #2: The Song That's Changed My Life

Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen) ['07 Remix] from Romeo + Juliet

Ladies and gentlemen of the class of 2007,
Wear
Sunscreen

If I could offer you only one tip for the future,
Sunscreen would be
It.

The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists
Whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.
I will dispense this advice
now

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth
Well, never mind
You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded
but trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself
and recall in a way you can't grasp now
how much possibility lay before you
and how fabulous you really looked

you are not as fat as you imagine.

don't worry about the future
or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum
The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind
the kind that blindside you at 4 pm on some idle tuesday

do one thing everyday that scares you
sing

don't be reckless with other people's hearts
don't put up with people who are reckless with yours

floss

don't waste your time on jealousy
sometimes you're ahead
sometimes you're behind
the race is long
and in the end
it's only with yourself

remember compliments you receive
forget the insults
and if you succeed in doing this
tell me how
keep your old love letters
throw away your old bank statements

stretch

don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life
the most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives
some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't

get plenty of calcium
be kind to your knees
you will miss them when they're gone

maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't
maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't
maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary
whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much
or berate yourself either
your choices are half chance
so are everybody else's

enjoy your body
use it every way you can
don't be afraid of it or what other people think of it
it's the greatest instrument you'll ever own
dance
even if you have no where to do it but in your own living room

read the directions even if you don't follow them
do not read beauty magazines
they will only make you feel
ugly

chorus

get to know your parents
you never know when they'll be gone for good
be nice to your siblings
they're your best link to your past
and the people most likely to stick with you in the future

understand that friends come and go
but will a precious few should hold on
work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle
for as the older you get
the more you need the people you knew when you were young

live in new york city once
but leave before it makes you hard
live in northern california once
but leave before it makes you
soft

travel

accept certain inalienable truths
prices will rise
politicians with philander
you too will get old
and when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young
prices were reasonable
politicians were noble
and children
respected their elders

respect your elders

don't expect anyone else to support you
maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you'll have a wealthy sp... ]]> ~blackmoonfaery it's been more than a week, i feel bad http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/18034218/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/18034218/ Sat, 26 Apr 2008 07:05:58 PDT

Links

Donny account GO!!!
etsy
(nothing for sale now)
Poll for New Etsy shop.

Quotes and Lyrics

You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my
|A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

School

So, school is over. I finished Finals yesterday at noon. I think I did alright... I know my final English grade is a C, but everything else is unknown except this little gem that i'm about to be obnoxious about:

I GOT 105% ON MY SOCIOLOGY FINAL!!1!

yup... pretty awesome

life

I felt this was a necessary header. I've been so consumed by school, that everything else just kind of melds together as one big... LIFE. Life and school. Bout it. My new project with Kelly is becoming exceedingly important and I love it, and I made a new friend from the whole venture (hearts to Lydia if she reads this!) Yeah, that girl needs pimping. She's absolutely amazing cuz she drew this for us:

Yeah. love. seriously.

Art

I've been doing a lot for Title Pending (the current, maybe changed soon, name of our project) and I will most likely continue to do so as it progresses. I need to work on that Kiriban since it's almost been a month. Sorry, Dan. Oh and to top it all off... I'm thinking about becoming a Graphic Art Design Major. *sigh* We'll see. Oh yes! and I need to start doodling up some designs for mine and lea's summer thing. Break a leg on your finals babe, that's why I haven't called. heart.

I don't really have much else to say. later days. Come see me at creastovel I guess. Link's at the top.

luvahs

That means friends...

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http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/17891150/ Thu, 17 Apr 2008 09:54:58 PDT

Links

Donny account GO!!!
etsy
(nothing for sale now)
Poll for New Etsy shop.

Quotes and Lyrics

You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my
|A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

New Journal Set Up

Obviously, I have a new look going on my journal. I'm not so good with CSS so I used a template, but I'm trying to figure it out. Seriously, HTML confuses me and makes sense all at the same time. I'm trying to figure it out so I can apply it to my other account. I have an image and everything. It'll be hot. Fo Sho

Life ...yeah.

To be totally honest... I don't know. Still just figuring out this CSS stuff and trying to get back my journal while still being spiffy. *le sigh*

hmm

I'm really really tired. And I need to figure out a way to make this longer since my right side is too long for what I want. I'll get it...
EDIT: Fixed that cuz I rule.

luvahs

That means friends...

go here for her -->

donny added soon

Stamps

http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/17770162/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 11:11:20 PDT You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my |A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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so i just posted a new poll and here's why.

This summer, Lea (~stillworkingonit) and I are opening up an Etsy account, going into business together and selling cards and magnets. We're not expecting a lot, but hey, it's a little extra pocket cash, ya know?

We were just going to set up the account tonight to have it ready, since summer for us starts officially April 30th because of school, but we couldn't decide on a name. Here are our options so far (with our reasoning behind them) --->

-jezebelmason: You know how most etsy shops are under the owners name and not a screenname?This is our alias. X]

-2girlsandagluestick: is it 2 girls and a gluestick or 2 girl sand a gluestick? you decide! either way, completely us

-2girlsplusagluestick: is just adorable, but would be better if 2 was spelled out

-papercuts: it has less letters than everything... oh yeah. it's lea, too.
***Ok. Seriously people. Why do you all like this one so much? Of all of these great names, why this one? Please give me an answer. I'd really love to know.***

-hotgluestickmagic: we've already both voted for this one. we may just decide to overrule you all and do this one anyway. It would most likely be best to just vote for it yourself.

-twogirlswithscissors: allowed us to have same sort of feeling with less letters and two spelled out. Lea found that to be more aesthetically pleasing than 2.

---
KIRIBAN:
hit: March 24, 2008
status: in planning/sketching.
for: ~TimeB

***My new (shared) account: ~Creastovel***
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http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/17735059/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 16:27:09 PDT You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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I went to see the HS show closing night (yesterday). Seriously, guys. I have never felt more love. Really. I'm totally adoring it and reveling in the after effect. It's not every day people race each other to give you a hug. That made my whole fucking weekend. The show was good. I'm proud of you all. Sierra still won the race, though.

Saturday was Josh's birthday. Had fun with that. My back still hurts from all the skeeball though. fuckin skeeball.

Friday I chillaxed with Liz. That was pretty hott. Did that for a bit today too. I hearts my Lizzard.

I sprained my ankle this past Tuesday and it musta been bad cuz my ankle is still fucking stiff. I hate that.

I have a paper-esque thing to write for English. Should do that. Really want to talk a walk though. Take a shower, braid my hair. Mellow. Not have school at all. I'm so done with the semester. April 25 is the official last day of the semester. 18 days. Seriously. Why am I not fucking done yet...?

Still need a job.

Oh yeah. My computer crashed (the hard drive seized) so I lost everything on here. Just so everyone knows. All my art... gone. It's a tad upsetting. so... yeah. I've been busy putting music back on my computer and installing programs and re-adding bookmarks to my bookmarks bar. It's a little bothersome. So that's been life the last couple weeks.

Kiriban is a tad on hold cuz I'm working on a different project that involves anatomy that I can't get from books. I love aliens. Specifically my alien. She's so precious.

Click the link near the bottom to see that stuff as soon as I re-download the drivers for my printer.

KIRIBAN:
hit: March 24, 2008
status: in planning/sketching.
for: ~TimeB

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~blackmoonfaery Kiriban *NEW* http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/17495280/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/17495280/ Mon, 24 Mar 2008 15:41:22 PDT You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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Hey pepulls! I'm home (finally)

Had a fabulous easter. got foodstuffs (and stuffed with food. Need to get out and exercise. my too-big pants fit. ugh) I also got new cardstock and papers and a new pair of tiny scissors that are made with love.

Also got loads of new dvds (enchanted, lords of dogtown *heath ledger* and veggietales *my little kid is showing*) My two faves though: The Big Tease *written/directed by and starring CRAIG FERGUSON* and Tin Man. I also got the second Celtic Women cd. I'm basically in love with my two easter baskets. If you're wondering about two, one was from my mom's whole family for our easter celebration and the other i got on easter morning from the easter bunny/mom. the second one is the one i really loved. had health food and dvds in it. what could go wrong there?

Over the weekend, my kiriban was hit by my pal, Dan. Proof is right here.

Hope your weekends were great. I wish it were thursday so I could figure out when I could see liz. Gives me more time to work on her gift though since I'm a bum and have barely started it.

later days.

KIRIBAN:
hit: March 24, 2008
status: in planning.
for: ~TimeB

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Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my |A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|
]]> ~blackmoonfaery Kiriban *EDIT* http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/17431648/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/17431648/ Fri, 21 Mar 2008 17:14:44 PDT You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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Hey. I was thinking of doing a kiriban for my 5000th page view. It was at 4955 last I checked so if you get my 5000th take a screenshot and send it to me. I'm open for ideas of what to do for it. so... yeah. I'm feeling kinda proud that I'm even there. I know I don't get the numbers that some people get (my close friends included) but they are definitely better numbers than I used to get. Not that everything revolves around numbers. I just feel more encouraged to do stuff not that people are actually paying attention. In feeling more encouraged to do stuff, I'm actually improving. So... while numbers aren't everything, they help. I just proved it. So yeah. Go forth and be fruitful, young ones! Fetch me that kiriban! It's late. shut up.

I'm waiting for Kelly's class to get out and I don't know when it does but I'm hungry and I have to pee. But I'm chatting with liz so I don't want to leave my computer.... sad. That's about it.

I got 26 outta 20 on my essay questions for my socl. test today. Pretty sweet. and an A on the paper I turned in late. Mr. Weintrob thinks the sun shines out of Josh's and my asses. It's pretty nice somedays.

later days.

EDIT: It is getting stupidly close. I'm now at 4971. 29 away and I'm getting an average of about 15 a day. Just want to remind everyone. I've tried to do stuff like this before and no one reacted. So please. I want to actually do a kiriban.
**
Reading Lamb, which is amazing. I've become really interested in religion lately. And everyone's views on it. Just. Interested. I like talking religion. It's so... different.
**
About to head up to grams, can't check my dev as easily. Gonna do homework and maybe work on character designs for Kelly (Donia) and profiles for Liz (bri, carrigan offspring, etc.) And read Lamb. For serious.
**
Later days. Love and happy easter if you do that. If not.... Happy... Weekend. Yup. Happy Weekend. Technically, Purim is this weekend for Jews. Don't ask why I know that. I just... do. >.>
**
One last thing. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOO! I'll call you tomorrow since that's your birthday. LOVE. Everyone, go to this page and wish Liz a happy birthday. She's gonna be old tomorrow!

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... ]]> ~blackmoonfaery I won't lie... http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/17392741/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/17392741/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 10:06:48 PDT You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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I'm so tired of these cd covers, it makes me sick.

I have one more on the cards that I want to make, but after that... I'm wanting photography.

Something darker, at least. Even my black papers are peppy. Not that I haven't been peppy lately. They're all just so... bright.

I really love them. I'm proud. But I'm bored with them and the art that people seem to like from me. I'm still getting faves on one that I feel is good, amazing even, but I feel I've done better on others. It's so... whatever.

Really, I love what I've done. But it's become excessive. There's too many. I want something.... More.

I've been feeling like that with life lately. It's... I dunno. I'm feeling unfulfilled, unsatisfied.

Stagnant

I've used that word to describe myself so much as of late.

I'm really tired of how life is turning out. I'm really waiting for that rock bottom so I know FINALLY, things will look up. But I thought I hit that last semester. I feel better emotionally, but really, life has kind of sucked.

I yelled at my mom yesterday because one of her favorite songs made her cry and all I could say was "Will you please inform me when you start enjoying things again? I'm getting a little tired of not knowing how to make you happy. I miss my mom." I know it probably hurt, but I just... I can't deal with it. She's never happy anymore. it's wearing at us all.

This is gonna turn into a bitchfest real fast (it most likely already is one) so I'm just gonna stop.

btw, I know the links behind the banners don't really work, but check them out (myspace or facebook them. They're all on both)

ok. done now. laterz.

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Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my |A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|
]]> ~blackmoonfaery blah http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/17201132/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/17201132/ Wed, 05 Mar 2008 20:07:25 PST You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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I'm feeling impending doom. But hey. At least I made it through midterms this semester.

I have this giant project due tomorrow morning. I don't know why I'm on here in the first place, but I am. I haven't even started yet. It shouldn't take too much; I have a subject. But it's still not started. I do heart Rodin's Eve, though. Positively gorgeous.

I'm in love with Sara Barielles. Seriously. She's been on CONSTANTLY since I bought the cd on Monday.

I'm missing the finale of Project Runway to work on this. It makes me sad, but Mom is so at least I'll know who won. *sigh*

gonna skeedaddle to actually do this.

EDIT: CHRISTIAN WON!!!!!

--

Bottle It Up - Sara Barielles
There'll be girls across the nation
That will eat this up babe
I know that it's your soul but could you bottle it up and
Get down to the heart of it,
No it's my heart you're shit out of your luck
Don't make me tell you again my love love love love.
Love love love love.

I am aiming to be somebody this somebody trusts
With her delicate soul
I don't claim to know much except soon as you start
To make room for the parts
That aren't you it gets harder to bloom in a garden of
Love love love love
Love Love love love

Only thing I ever could need, only one good thing
Worth trying to be and it's

Love
Love
Love
Love
I do it for Love
Love
Love
Love

We can understand the sentiment you're saying to us
Oh,
But sensible sells so could you kindly shut up
And get started
At keeping your part of the bargain aw please
Little darlin'
You're killing me sweetly with love love love love
[Bottle It Up lyrics on [link]

Love love love love

Only thing I ever could need only one good thing
Worth trying to be

Love
Love
Love
Love
I do it for Love
Love
Love
Love

Started as a flicker meant to be a flame
Skin has gotten thicker but it burns the same
Still a baby in a cradle got to take my first fall
Baby's getting next to nowhere with her back
Against the wall.
You meant to make me happy make me sad.
Want to make it better better so bad.
But save your resolutions for your never new year
There is only one solution I can see here.

Love you're all I ever could need only one good thing
Worth trying to be and it's
Love
Love
Love
Love
I do it for love, love, love, love
Oh, only gonna get get what you give away,
So give love, love
Only gonna get get what you give away
Love.

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~blackmoonfaery Totally Fucking Sweet Weekend http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/17152673/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/17152673/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 16:36:52 PST You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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Holy WhoA! Check this mother out! [link] I know it's not by an admin, but hey! A feature is a feature. And Lauren, after our art discussion today, how crazy is that??

Today was totally the best thing ever. Yesterday was Lauren's b-day party so I was over there at like 5 ish cuz of errands and whatnot (still didn't get my sunglasses conflabbit) but was still over there 2nd out of 5, so I'm cool. I was also there THE LONGEST cuz I definitely didn't leave til like 7 today. like a half hour ago. yeah. I'm boss like that.

Lauren loved her giftS, but mine was totally rockin, won't say best, but still fuckin sweet. We all just hung out and had fun. I talked to Lauren about stuff that I've been wanting to talk to her about for awhile now, which was refreshing and then Alchemy, TJ and I watched Fright Night. Went to bed like 4 am or so.

got up at like 11 (after waking up about 4 times) and started watching movies again. watched shrek 3, I know who killed me (frickin' sweet Lindsay Lohan movie. Recommend to all) with Lauren and Shane. Shane left and Lauren and I watched.... 3 more movies. Part of underworld, the covenant, donnie darko and something else. Fuck should I know.

I was COVERED in Kittens. Well, there were only two but I'm in love with them. Lauren, I want to steal Maggie. For serious. She is the sweetest thing in the world. I heart her.

Lauren is by far the coolest person in the world. Totally in love with her in that not-weird-best-friend kind of way. I adore being around her. And therefore I find it a pertinent need to hang out with her more. Especially after the shows over.

I has an idear, but I'm gonna run that by her at a later date. But whatevs. But after a totally rocking day at her place, I come home, get on pjs and get on here to discover a comment about that feature! Trista = totally excited flailing x WHOA. I was literally squeaking. I'm starting to be stupidly proud of my artwork, peoples.

Some people are getting to wiggle their way onto my shitlist, but hey. My weekend was fucking sweet. It's not gonna bother me right now. I'm too happy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAUREN!!!!!!! YOU'RE 18!!! WooT.

EDIT: I have the sudden urge to dust off my old Polaroid camera and start using it again. Polaroids make for the best spontaneous captured moments of love.

I'm feeling extra indie lately.

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This Something - The Honest Life
You see these walls
They're breaking down
I gotta stop this shit
or at least slow myself down
Well, I gave you fair warning
What do you expect
When I let you down
I couldn't say what I meant
We walked our ways
Remember the smiles
Remember the smiles
Well I lost this something
But you know where it is
Well I lost this once
And now I know where it is
It's like an energy
It's coming over me
I think I'll take the dog for a walk
I feel I can touch the sky
It's like a firefly
It's like an energy
It's coming over me
I think I'll take the dog for a walk
I feel I can touch the sky
It's like a firefly
dancing on my fingertips
It's like an energy
It's coming over me
I think I'll take the car for a drive
I feel I can touch the sky
It's like a firefly

Songwriters and Storytellers - The Honest Life
Go on songwriter, tell them of your love, life and glory.
Share with them all you've dealt in every single story.
You look for inspiration like a lost little boy,
Under every tree and stone you find a lost piece of joy.
Piecing back together a puzzle of forever.
It's taking pride, before you die, at whereever you come home to.

the quickest way home is paved in gold
the air around you is warm,
or so i am told...or so i am told

your still well in my book
all those words you write and every song that's broken
all those songs sung strong and those songs without words
are now spoken
you are still well, put your worries aside

where are you going?
what city, country or state??
california? carolina? or wherever i am taken by fate?
you'll find that what you need is right at home with the love.
not in the sand, the sun, at the beach or the sea.
but on the Detroit River right at home with the love

the quickest way home is paved in gold
the air around you is warm,
or so i am told...or so i am told

your... ]]> ~blackmoonfaery Search Meme http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/17008603/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/17008603/ Fri, 22 Feb 2008 12:24:16 PST You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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RULES:
1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into dA search box
3) Take a deviation from the first page of results (may use ' popular' or 'newest' ) and post thumb (for subscribers) or link (non-subscribers)
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you

1. The age you will be on your next birthday: 19

2. A place you'd like to travel: the world: Israel

3. Your favorite place: New York

4. Your favorite object: my sketchbook

5. Favorite food: pasta

6. Your favorite animal: manatee

7. Your favorite color: Green

8. The town/state/etc in which you live: Michigan

9. Name of past pet: Hunter

10. A dream come true: being on broadway

11. Your nickname/screenname: Trister

12. Middle name: Erin

13. Favorite Smell: citrus

14. Bad habit of yours: nail biting

15. Your first job: nothing
http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16969111/ Tue, 19 Feb 2008 20:41:27 PST You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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I lost my sketchbook. Hopefully I'll find it soon, but I'm kinda freaking out.

This is really what's getting on me. That and another personal issue. Which I shan't go into right now.

I really really want to see Lauren soon. I can't stand that I'm not able to really talk to her. I mean, we both have stuff to talk about, though hers is crazy more important. I'm just hoping her birthday party is still going on even with all this shit going on.

now, me being a mushy fool and constantly thinking about what's wrong with me. grah.

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You Made Me Love You (I Didn't Want To Do It)

You made me love you
I didn't want to do it, I didn't want to do it
You made me love you
and all the time you knew it
I guess you always knew it.
You made me happy sometimes, you made me glad
But there were times, Dear, you made me feel so bad

You made me sigh for, I didn't want to tell you
I didn't want to tell you
I want some love that's true, yes I do, deed I do, you know I do

Give me, give me, give me what I cry for
you know you got the brand of kisses that I'd die for
You know you made me love you

Come Down To Me - Saving Jane

Words fall out of my mouth
And I canÂt seem to trace what IÂm saying
Everybody wants your time
IÂm just dreaming out loud,
I canÂt have you for mine and I know it
I just wanna watch you shine.

Tripping up on my tongue,
ItÂs all over my face and IÂm racing
Gotta get away from you
Burning all the way home,
Try to put it to bed but it chases
Every little thing I do

When the light falls on your face,
DonÂt let it change you
When the stars get in your eyes,
DonÂt let them blind you.

YouÂre beautiful
Just the way you are
And I love it all
Every line, and every scar
And I wish that I could make you see
This is where you ought to be,
Come down to me.

Spell it out in a song,
Bet you never catch on to my weakness
IÂm singing every word for you.
Here IÂm thinking IÂm sly
Then youÂre catching my eye, and just maybe
YouÂre thinking what IÂm thinking too

When you see it on my face,
DonÂt let it shake you
I know better than to try and
Take you with me.

YouÂre beautiful
Just the way you are
And I love it all
Every line, and every scar
And I wish that I could make you see
This is where you ought to be,
Come down to me.

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~blackmoonfaery Tagged by Kmye-chan! http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16915113/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16915113/ Sat, 16 Feb 2008 13:54:28 PST You wear that party dress and black mascara like you're
Queen for the day.
-Everclear, Normal Like You

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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I was tagged by *kmye-chan for this thingy so here it is

The Rules
- You must quote the person who tagged you
- You must copy-paste the rules on your blog
- You must mention 6 facts or habits of no real importance to you
- You must tag 6 persons at the end

1. I'm in love but nothing could ever make me admit that to the person I'm in love with. I may have once, but I barely remember, so why would he? and anyway, no matter what anyone says, I know it isn't mutual, and I doubt it ever will be.

2. When I'm bored, I dream about the places I wish I could be at that very moment. Paris, Brazil, San Fransisco, New York, Disney. Ya know. Places like that.

3. My wrist clicks. and my bones are constantly popping. It amuses me, but kinda worries everyone else.

4. I swear, my life is dictated by song lyrics. I'm constantly connecting everything to music.

5. I never fall out of love with something. I'm still just as in love with my 101 Dalmations quilt as I was when I got it 12 years ago. I'm like that with EVERYTHING.

6. I like making things for people. I always know they'll love it, cuz I made it with them in mind. It makes my heart swell. I very rarely make anything for myself.

Tagged:

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~blackmoonfaery I love my Mommy http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16852767/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16852767/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 17:33:42 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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for this:

Me: why would he have the word "Kroger" all over every gift he's giving to his girlfriend?
Mom: (IMMEDIATELY after) Because he stole them?

I got an EIGHTY-SEVEN on my Sociology test. I totally thought I was gonna bomb it. for a second I thought I had when I saw the 28 I had got for the essays. but, no seriously, I got an 87. I'm super happy write now.

with my A on my paper. I'm doing better in that class than I had imagined.

I'm doing fucking awesome in school. Damn straight. Now I just need to get my iPod from Liz. Makes sense in my head, even if it doesn't to you.

Mom and I have been ripping videos off of YouTube with my laptop. It's pretty frickin' cool.

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tiffany: I don't now how to use a phonebook.... It's upside down..

What the hell happened?
An explosion of flavor. I'm working with some very unstable herbs.

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my |A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|
]]> ~blackmoonfaery Erin's birthday party http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16808081/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16808081/ Sat, 09 Feb 2008 21:56:52 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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I went to erin's birthday party today. Had a pretty good time. Saw a few people that I haven't seen in awhile. Keith and Craig, Alex Reynolds, Greg Smith, Erinn, Hilary, and a few other people that are pretty much rockin'. I made her this amazing picture (i'm pretty proud of it) and here it is:

go visit her page:

I also convinced Kein to come, even though he almost wasn't going to. Specifically because I was still going to be there when he'd be able to show up. Both Nita and Billy (erin's mom and brother) asked if we were dating. Nita went on to ask if we ever had and when we said no again, she asked why not. awkward pause and then I said "cuz....... That's gross." It may have been a plausible question for her, seeing as I was laying on him and we were holding hands... That wouldn't explain Billy asking though. whatever

Classic moment:

background: Liz is Erin's sister. She's been really tired lately and it's been showing.

Kein: What's wrong with Liz?
Me: She's really tired.
Kein: Why doesn't she go home?
Me: ... ... ... ... She is home.

Kein brought me home at about 10.40. I had a MAJOR headache so it wasn't worth staying to midnight when my best friend who I never see was leaving and willing to take me home.

I still need to get a job and exercise more... but whatev

I really AM going to see Craig Ferguson in June. Mom and I picked up tickets Friday. Seats A10-12, Section B-left at Royal Oak Music Theatre. I am SOO excited.

I want Buzz Cuts. That sounds like a good cd.

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tiffany: I don't now how to use a phonebook.... It's upside down..

What the hell happened?
An explosion of flavor. I'm working with some very unstable herbs.

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my |A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|
]]> ~blackmoonfaery Name Meme http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16783691/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16783691/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 11:37:31 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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1 . YOUR REAL NAME:
Trista

2 . YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
Triizzle. trizzle?

3 . YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)
Green Manatee

4. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Partr

5. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink}
Purple Water

6. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last three letters of your last name)
Rrertaker YEAH!

7.YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (both parents middle name)
Leo Marie

8. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Gypsy

I tag.... EVERYONE. Or at least Lauren and Sierra

PS. I'm going to see Craig Ferguson in June!!!!!
He is the Scottish love of my life.

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tiffany: I don't now how to use a phonebook.... It's upside down..

What the hell happened?
An explosion of flavor. I'm working with some very unstable herbs.

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my |A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|
]]> ~blackmoonfaery Stop right there, thankyouverymuch http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16719758/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16719758/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 08:21:02 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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Oh those spice girls. Nostalgia comes at such a high-pitched price.

My bestest friend Emily's birthday was 8 days ago, last sunday the 27th, and I've yet to send her gift out to her. But I'm making her card and it's not quite done yet. I fairly love it, so i believe I will put it up here. Same with a card that I'm making for Luna (for I miss her deeply)

So I'm really wanting to get a few tattoos done, Lauren's journal brought it out in me even more, but I'm so broke it hurts. this week will be devoted to studying exercising and finding a job.

Did I mention I'm also seriously tired of being overweight? And don't say anything about me not being that big. I know but there are parts of me that are. I have the upper body of a pretty ok in-shape person. from my waist to my knees, seriously not at all. So I'm going to do something about it. I didn't make any new year's resolution about weight loss like i normally do, but this year, I actually think I'm gonna do it.

I have a sociology test on Thursday. SOOOOO not looking forward to that. christ.

I'm gonna make KT a cd of fucking awesome songs and she will love it. She's not allowed not to. lol. I may send a copy to Emily too.

Seriously, that girl gives me no downtime. December22 is our anniversary, then christmas, then her birthday is January 27th. I'm just like holy jesus.

Oh yeah. I was thinking about becoming a jew. I haven't quite decided yet. But I'm thinking about it.

peace.

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tiffany: I don't now how to use a phonebook.... It's upside down..

What the hell happened?
An explosion of flavor. I'm working with some very unstable herbs.

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my |A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|
]]> ~blackmoonfaery Deviousness doesn't even come close http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16501304/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16501304/ Mon, 21 Jan 2008 07:54:38 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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So... In the last week, I've had my first callback for a job, my first interview, and, sadly... My first rejection. But hey... I got an interview, that's more than what I normally get. That being, putting in my application, and not getting anything from it.

I've been baking like crazy whoa. Yesterday, I made three loaves of banana bread. One of them was seriously a mutant loaf. I basically love it cuz it's ridiculous looking. I may make muffins or cinnamon rolls or something later today. After the devil's sausages are removed from my kitchen. Those are gag worthy.

For the record, Ne-Yo. Is fucking hilarious. I'm watching cribs and he's just making me laugh. A lot. He is stupidly funny.

I think I'm sick. I'm undecided... Cuz mom is sick, so I can't be sick, cuz I need to get her feeling better. But I feel pretty crappy. I also can't be sick, cuz I have to go to school, so if I let myself be sick, then I won't go to school, and I can't do that.

I've had some crazy awesome ideas for art and I'm kind of looking forward to sitting down and doing them when I have the time to do so.

I really need a job. If any of you know of a place that's hiring, drop me a line. Preferably someplace in the downtown RO area, but I just really need a job. I'm so broke, you'd cry if you saw my bank statement.

Alright... My foodage is done, so I'm going to enjoy Cribs and eggs.
Laters.

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tiffany: I don't now how to use a phonebook.... It's upside down..

What the hell happened?
An explosion of flavor. I'm working with some very unstable herbs.

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my |A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|
]]> ~blackmoonfaery I'm feeling deviously deviant http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16406324/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16406324/ Mon, 14 Jan 2008 16:56:18 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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I felt like writing about... something, so I don't feel so alone anymore.

I'm almost done with Glass Menagerie.

I got my new phone today. It's totally boss. It's shiny and metallic and RED. and I heart it. For serious.

I'm kind of missing a lot of people.

I made cookies yesterday! They're amazing (though kein somehow found a bit of plastic in one) if I say so myself. Blackberry oatmeal cookies. They're purple too. How totally bitchin' is that? I made purple cookies. Kein thought they were red. I laughed at him

I spent the afternoon with the onickels yesterday. We watched Zoolander. That movie is fucking retarded. Especially after all the amazing movies i've been watching.

Speaking of amazing movies, Kein and I are gonna go see Juno sometime this week. Thoroughly looking forward to that. And he's almost not sick so it rocks even more hardcore.

I find it interesting that when I was at EMU, I barely talked to him at all. But now that I'm home, I'm seeing and calling him more than I did before I moved the last time. Crazy.

So... As much as I love my Jew, I miss... Like... EVERYONE. So... We need to hang out. I don't care who "we" entails, but it's gotta happen. I know I'm gonna see WAY more of the kelly-monster because he's in my Bible class. So... Yeah. And apparently my Kein quotient is being filled more than usual, so that's not an issue. It's everyone ELSE that needs to make some plans with me. For serious, guys. I need to hang out with someone without a penis (real or otherwise) Dicks are not needed currently. Someone with a vag (that acknowledges it's existence) is sorely required. Dial my digits and make a date. Seriously.

Speaking of digits, note me if you want the new ones. They need to be utilized. Please and thank you.

Love. and... Later. The joshman is bringing me pizza soon.

PS I've decided that there should be a mood icon of "Totally Bitchin'" cuz that's totally where I am right now. Just "Bitchin'" would work as well. or "Totally Boss". The totally is required there. Yup... or "Awesome" Why are these all missing? wtf...

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tiffany: I don't now how to use a phonebook.... It's upside down..

What the hell happened?
An explosion of flavor. I'm working with some very unstable herbs.

Trans-Siberian Orch... ]]> ~blackmoonfaery We sure are cute for two ugly people http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16327450/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16327450/ Wed, 09 Jan 2008 09:38:05 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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It's been a bit, yeah? I won't lie, I haven't been busy, I just haven't felt like chronicling my life. I even thought about putting up a journal a few times. I just... didn't. *shrug*

It hit me the other day. I like indie music. Like crazy whoa. And not even like "I'm an indie fan. The more obscure, the better. Fuck music" as some indie kids are. I just genuinely like indie music. And I'm thoroughly in love with Ellen Page.

I saw Juno the other night with Mom and Liz. Mom cried. I almost did, same with liz, but it made so much sense. And I kind of liked that she had a Leah. The h is crucial, it's a coolness projection. While the movie Leah was cool, my Lea (note the lack of h) is beyond cool. For serious.

I read this crazy fucked up script the other day, called Sunday Night. It was insane. I loved it. I'm making copies for people (Artisha, Suzanne, and Kein, and anyone else if they ask.)

I'm stupidly conflicted about my feelings for someone. I adore him too much to like him as any more than a friend, on top of the fact that he IS my friend and that's just gross. I've seen him naked. While appealing then, not so much now. blech. But I do adore him. And I love him. And I couldn't imagine life without him. And I trust him with my life, which is as stupid as it sounds, but I know he's worth it. And I know how goofy I sound, and it's not any "I'm in love with him" bs, but weird love songs like All I Want Is You by Barry Louis Polisar makes me think of him. To quote Juno, he is the cheese to my macaroni. haha.

I don't have much else to talk about....which isn't true. I just don't feel like getting into the knitty-gritty over anything that's happened. It's not that important. so... I'm out.

Peace.

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Loose Lips - Kimya Dawson ()

Loose lips might sink ships but loose gooses take trips
To San Francisco, double dutch disco
Tech TV hottie, do it for Scotty
Do it for the living and do it for the dead
Do it for the monsters under your bed
Do it for the teenagers and do it for your mom
Broken hearts hurt but they make us strong, and

We won't stop until somebody calls the cops
And even then we'll start again and just pretend
That nothing ever happened
We won't stop until somebody calls the cops
And even then we'll start again and just pretend
That nothing ever happened

We're just dancing, we're just hugging
Singing, screaming, kissing, tugging
On the sleeve of how it used to be
How's it gonna be?

I'll drop kick Russell Stover
Move into the starting over house
And know Matt Rouse and Jest
Are watching me achieve my dreams

And we'll pray all damn day, every day
That all this shit our president has got us in will go away
While we strive to figure out a way we can survive
These trying times without losing our minds

So if you wanna burn yourself
Remember that I LOVE YOU
And if you wanna cut yourself
Remember that I LOVE YOU
And if you wanna kill yourself
Remember that I LOVE YOU
Call me up before you're dead
We can make some plans instead
Send me an IM, I'll be your friend

Shysters live from scheme to scheme
And my 3/4 pipe dreams
Are seeming more and more worth fighting for
So I'll curate some situations, make my job a big vacation
And I'll say FUCK BUSH AND FUCK THIS WAR
My war paint is sharpie ink
And I'll show you how much my shit stinks
And ask you what you think
Because your thoughts and words are powerful
They think we're disposable
Well both my thumbs opposable
Are spelled out on a double word
And triple letter score

We won't stop until somebody calls the cops
And even then we'll start again and just pretend
That nothing ever happened
We won't stop until somebody calls the cops
And even then we'll start again and just pretend
That nothing ever happened

We're just dancing, we're just hugging
Singing, screaming, kissing, tugging
On the sleeve of how it used to be

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~blackmoonfaery semi-good news http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16135734/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16135734/ Fri, 28 Dec 2007 09:07:36 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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two incompletes and two e's. those are my grades. Now let's see whose paying attention. How many classes did I register for this last semester?

do I hear 5? 5, you say? why yes, if you said 5, you would be correct.

I only put up 4 grades (all meaning fail in their own right), and i took 5 classes. Know what that means?

I passed a class.
I was expecting failure from everything.
This gets sort of better....

I passed French.
Now, I got a C- which isn't all fabulous, but... hell. I passed. and french was my 5-credit class. now, that's 5 of 18 credits i received, which sucks, but it's 5 more than I thought I'd have... which I guess is nice.

I'm not pleased, or even necessarily proud, and I'm definitely not satisfied. but... it's something, and that's better than nothing at all, right?

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tiffany: I don't now how to use a phonebook.... It's upside down..

What the hell happened?
An explosion of flavor. I'm working with some very unstable herbs.

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my |A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|
]]> ~blackmoonfaery Christmas http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16103925/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/16103925/ Wed, 26 Dec 2007 03:50:21 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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these books:
The Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
4 Blondes - Candace Bushnell
The Emerald City of Oz - L Frank Baum
Into the Land of the Unicorns - Brian Coville
The Magic Finger - Roald Dahl
We Share EVERYTHING! - Robert Munsch
Artemis Fowl and the Arctic Incident - Eoin Colfer
A Book of Poetry
Which Witch? - Eva Ibbotson
Holes - Louis Sachar
The DaVinci Code - Dan Brown
The Princess Diaries - Meg Cabot
Princess in Waiting - Meg Cabot
The Complete Illustrated Works of Lewis Carrol
The His Dark Materials Trilogy - Phillup Pullman
The Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy & Other Stories - Tim Burton
The Grimmerie (The Behind-the-Scenes of the Hit Broadway Musical Wicked)
Wicked Lovely - Melissa Marr
Nobody's Princess - Esther Friesner
Just Ella - Margaret Peterson Haddix
Princess Academy - Shannon Hale
City of Bones - Cassandra Clare
Dragon's Keep - Janet Lee Carey
Ingo - Helen Dunmore
The Looking Glass Wars - Frank Beddor
Seeing Redd - Frank Beddor
The Lost Queen - Frewin Jones
The Faerie Path - Frewin Jones
Inkheart - Cornelia Funke and Anthea Bell
Inkspell - Cornelia Funke and Anthea Bell
Fire Star - Chris D'Lacey
Icefire - Chris D'Lacey
The Fire Within - Chris D'Lacey

and then these movies:
Airplane!
Hot Fuzz
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
The Neverending Story
Pixar Shorts Collection
Encino Man
Waitress

and this jewelry:
Amber Earrings
Earrings shaped like stars
yellow dangly flower earrings
silver locket
necklace with blown glass pendant
4 charms for my charm bracelet
silver necklace with flower charm
dragon earrings

and this other stuff, too:
chocolates and nuts
2007 Swarovski crystal miniature star ornament
The White Album
yellow submarine ornament
Little mermaid tank
Harry Potter tank
aeropastale tee
skelenimals bunny tank
smelly things and a cocoa mug from gram
75 dollars
50 dollar visa gift card
pens and pencils
knickknacks that bring joy
stereo system for my iPod
Romeo and Juliet Soundtrack
fuzzy Eeyore robe (very warm, too. And snuggly)
POCKET WATCH
quilt
white tee with doves
socks
aviater sunglasses
brown corduroy fedora (from lea)
white/black striped fedora (from mom)
Retro circle suitcase
chinese luck pendant

That's just the stuff...

I feel as though I have also gotten a reason, tangibly, to keep fighting. And goddammit I will.

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http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15911830/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 01:30:50 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

The land where large fuzzy dice still hang proudly like testicles from rearview mirrors.
-Race Car Ya-Yas, Cake

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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I have this theory that sleep observation should be mandatory for all blossoming relationships. And I don't mean just physical, either. Totally platonic needs this as well.

This is totally founded by the fact that my friend Austin snores. But it's totally ADORABLE on him. like that sort of snore that doesn't really bother you and isn't totally MANSNORE but isn't this obnoxiously cute snore that makes pillow-smothering seem like a viable sport. It's just. There. and it's totally adorable on him. Makes me want to snuggle him for ages.

He's stupidly adorable. I'd totally want him if my femme-bits didn't make his dick recoil into his body. I don't know. Gay guys together are kinda hot. Your blatantly "OMG BOIS!" gay friend, no matter how attractive, is a total turn off. Like, definitely nice to look at, totally not nice to fantasize about cuz you know nothing would ever happen anyway. It's like disappointment before disappointment could even really register. whatever.

But he's totally even more adorable cuz he's spending the night here (he's more my roomie's friend than mine, but we met without her involvement entirely AND were friends before he started practically living here. It was just convenient that way.) and they're spooning. Nothing is more adorable than a gay man and a woman spooning and the only thing separating them is a blanket. And their clothes.

I totally stayed awake specifically to write those two sentences. Won't even lie.

I totally feel like crap still and I've most definitely failed english (my prof just emailed me and confirmed it. Stupid english dept. requirements) I'm gonna go see her real fast and friendly tomorrow and then study my balls off for french. I really really want to pass that class. prove I've done something right, ya know? If not the rest of the semester, than at least this week. And I kind of liked learning to say "saturday, my friends and me, we celebrated Chanukah" in french. It kind of made my day. I have oodles of bookwork to do but i swear if I don't sleep, I'm going to be so mindnumb, i may eat my own toes. or my toes may become cannibals and eat each other. Either way, this doesn't bode well for my toes and I like my toes, and would prefer to keep them in the state they are in right now. Mildly abused... but whole and happy.

I have to pee and pass out. Still not totally done with this breakdown but webcomics interspersed in my french and luna having boy problems and gay men always seems to make the world seem like it's calmed down in this pink cloudy haze that makes you loose the feeling of your left eyebrow and the bottoms of your feet and fingertips. I've never really liked not feeling my fingertips... But it's become rather commonplace. Odd as that is.

igonowbuhbai.

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~blackmoonfaery I royally fucked up this time. http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15903414/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15903414/ Wed, 12 Dec 2007 13:38:00 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

The land where large fuzzy dice still hang proudly like testicles from rearview mirrors.
-Race Car Ya-Yas, Cake

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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So... There's this awesome chance that I'm not gonna get into Wayne. Because I'm a fucking loser.

I can't even believe what I did to myself.
I failed Physics. That was a fuckin' gimme.
I have three french tests. Tomorrow.
It's more than likely I've failed English as well. I'm going to e-mail my professor tonight and plead for an incomplete. Because I'm a goddamn fuck up.
Sociology... I don't even know what to expect. I'm probably going to e-mail that professor too. See what I can do...

I need a 2.0 for Wayne to let me in. so... If somehow I'm amazing and flash myself some A's I'll be cool. But since that seriously isn't going to happen... I'm just fucking screwed. OCC anyone? I can't even take classes at that place... Unless I take frickin art classes like I was planning for WSU next semester.

God dammit. I hate myself. More than I've ever hated myself before.

EDIT: and now mom knows and i'm shaking and I feel another major breakdown coming on. This will not end well for me, I just know it. I'm going to hide my exacto so that I can't find it when my ears are ringing and I can't feel myself anymore.

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tiffany: I don't now how to use a phonebook.... It's upside down..

What the hell happened?
An explosion of flavor. I'm working with some very unstable herbs.

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my |A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|
]]> ~blackmoonfaery self destruction is a painful activity http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15878590/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15878590/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 14:49:42 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

The land where large fuzzy dice still hang proudly like testicles from rearview mirrors.
-Race Car Ya-Yas, Cake

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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I have 5+ papers to write for my English class, 4 of which I don't really understand.
I need to learn semi-competent French by 5.30 tomorrow.
I've failed Physics. I totally bombed the lab and there's no hope for the class no matter, how well I do. It's awful
Sociology is requiring oodles of reading. I'll have international cultures pouring from my ears by Friday.
I have to talk to Pirooz. Austin and I are pretty certain I'm going to die... but I need to figure this out.

I don't have much hope. But I'm trying. I've already spent three hours on just the presentation orale pour franÃ§ais mardi. (oral presentation for french tuesday)
I'm working sociology tonight. a couple chapters tonight.
Maybe having Luna help me on the presidential candidate paper.

I'm pretty certain my heart and brain are going to explode by the end of the week. No lie.

Back to learning to parler et comprendre franÃ§ais.

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tiffany: I don't now how to use a phonebook.... It's upside down..

What the hell happened?
An explosion of flavor. I'm working with some very unstable herbs.

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my |A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|
]]> ~blackmoonfaery Friday Nights Are Depressing. http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15839056/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15839056/ Fri, 07 Dec 2007 18:55:02 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

The land where large fuzzy dice still hang proudly like testicles from rearview mirrors.
-Race Car Ya-Yas, Cake

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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I'm not so certain how I feel right now. I'm by myself in my dorm room. I'm sort of packed to go, but not really. And I still don't know when Mom's getting here. I just know I'm going home soon because it's Chanukah. And therefore, I need to go home. I'm so tired of being here.

EDIT: I wish I had the support group some of my acquaintances had. Dozens of people who sincerely want to help. Don't get me wrong. My support group is amazing, no matter how small. It would just be nice sometime to have dozens of people tell me they're willing to listen when I'm feeling petty. At least once...

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tiffany: I don't now how to use a phonebook.... It's upside down..

What the hell happened?
An explosion of flavor. I'm working with some very unstable herbs.

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my |A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|
]]> ~blackmoonfaery Excerpt http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15813110/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15813110/ Wed, 05 Dec 2007 19:35:24 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

The land where large fuzzy dice still hang proudly like testicles from rearview mirrors.
-Race Car Ya-Yas, Cake

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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He clears his throat, not taking his eyes off me as he lowers the guitar to the floor. "Come here." He pats the top of the washing machine. "Hop up."
"Okay..." I slide my backpack to the floor, standing and crossing to him. Apprehensive, I spring onto the cool white metal with a hollow thud. He twists toward me and I move my knees apart so he can stand between them. Again that anguished look, but only for a moment before he reaches past and I turn my head to try to see, but only hear the clicking and feel the washer turn on, sending a vibration through my hips.
He pulls back, pressing his mouth onto mine and we kiss, deeply, our tongues sliding against each other, consuming. He pulls away, running his lips over my neckÂsternumÂ breastsÂhands sliding up my thighs. The room drops into shadowÂthe sun moving out of their yardÂhis chin on my stomachÂstaring up at meÂsliding my underwear downÂI fall back on my elbowsÂhis chestnut hair disappearing beneath my skirtÂhis tongueÂand neverÂneverÂnever have IÂmy head drops backÂhe tilts my pelvisÂ pressing me into the churning metalÂfingers slipping in me as his mouth his mouth his mouth and I . . . and I . . . and I want . . . I want . . . I want . . . I want life always . . . to . . . always . . . to always . . . be . . . this.

--Dedication, p.244

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tiffany: I don't now how to use a phonebook.... It's upside down..

What the hell happened?
An explosion of flavor. I'm working with some very unstable herbs.

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my |A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|
]]> ~blackmoonfaery him http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15787635/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15787635/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 01:17:26 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

The land where large fuzzy dice still hang proudly like testicles from rearview mirrors.
-Race Car Ya-Yas, Cake

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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I dreamt of you again. You won't read this, you don't know this exists, let alone how much you fucking mean to me. I know you know I exist, since you're the one to sneak up on me every time. And god,

if only my dreams could come true.
Life would seem so much more than this. I want to call you and say I'll be there soon enough, and do you want to hang out?, and could you except my heart?, and you make me feel so much beyond me, but I don't think I can. That's the thing about unrequited love, isn't it? The catch, the 'unrequited' bit. If only if only if only, right? I woke with a smile quirking my lips. I didn't even put it there. I woke up and there it was! that smile that only you cause. The hidden one that everyone sees but no one acknowledges. Except you. And I miss us and how we were and if only I was there sooner than this. If I had known felt immediately what I know feel now, your urgency would have been answered with a resounding YES. YES, I'LL BE THERE. YES, WE'LL SEE EACH OTHER. YES, YOU WILL SEE SO MUCH MORE OF ME. YES, WE WILL BE SO MUCH MORE THAN US. but I didn't know, didn't feel, didn'tdidn'tdidn't. And now I'm writing to you because I dreamt of you again and because I just can't get you outofmyHEAD. I don't even look at your picture much, though it's still hanging on my desk. You are so my everything without being anything at all. I don't know how to cure this crsache you cause, but it's got me thinking of you all the time. You've flitted around my heartheadheartheadheart for over 6 years and I can't push you out or pull you in or find where you fit seamlessly but you shovepushwiggle your way and wedgesnugglethrust a spot so I can't pull you loose when I want to or get you to fit so my heart stops hurting when you wiggle to fit better. And there's so much I couldshouldwould say to you but i can't find the words and you wrestle with my tongue to keep them hidden and i can't find the way to tell you that i'd like you to wrestle my tongue but that would be so crudeawfulforwardwhore and I don't know how you'd take that but I know that I wouldn't be able to take it from myself. And I know so little about what you do when you aren't sneaking up on me in bookstores,coffeeshops,theatres,school that I don't even know what we could do if we were to hang out and talk and get to know each other better. And then I ask if I want to know you better because the you in my head smiles and feather kisses and hugs and makes iloveyouhands and sends me in a tizzy and are you the you in my head? or are you someone that i can't deal with? don't want to deal with? question? can't love? because I haven't not loved you since I was 12, even when I was so convinced that I didn't. And there are no more programmed conversations for everyday and no iloveyouhands and no smiles with caught eyes and no connection because of schedules and friends and lifejustgetsintheway that i don't call even though you've been programmed in my phone since july and your birthday and my missed party and work and schedules that conflict too much to make sense. I don't know what to do with your signals that aren't signals and your gestures that mean nothing more than gestures and the look in your eye that I've always seen since you realized I was more than that girl that fell on her ass cuz her chair was pulled from under her.
I still replay moments of you from when my heart would flutter at your presence, not just your

laugheyessmilevoicebodyhugs iloveyouhandsmindlaughyou.

little moments that meant nothing and everything and nothing and my entire being when it happened. that you probably don't even remember. and I don't want to say iloveyou but i'm certain iloveyou but i can't say iloveyou without thinking of every iloveyou that i've ever uttered to anybody who would say iloveyou back and mean it then. and i'm certain that if i told you iloveyou that would be the end of iloveyouhands and smiles produced by caught eyes and everything i've ever cherished of you that you gave me without knowing you gave it to me. And I think of the note in 7th grade that made you awkward with me for a year and the flourishing friendship made of theatre and iloveyouhands and sweatshirts and hugsofcomfort and peggypapers and philosophy and music and song and everything.
But this isn't middle school that leads to a less awkward high school that should have led to maybe college that could have worked us into something that makes me wake up with a smile quirking my lips. This is college.... ]]> ~blackmoonfaery beginnings of SHOUT IT OUT. http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15747460/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15747460/ Sat, 01 Dec 2007 10:07:33 PST I'll come and find you. It'll be like a treasure hunt.
--Luna

You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

I fell into fantasy.
-AFI, The Days of the Phoenix

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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SORRY! have to re-add this. totally unnecessary to reread. LOVE.

FEATURE:

I'm currently writing on an index card to start my own. Or maybe... I'll just write out my things. I have nothing to hide.

So far...

When I'm alone, I turn on all the lights and music and the television, just so I don't feel so alone.
I believe in my God. I understand other people have their own gods. I want them to understand that their gods and my God CAN be different. And that it will stay that way.
I like old names that no one uses anymore because they sound stuffy. Like Bernadette. Or Henrietta. Or Beatrice.
I'm sick of organized religion. I don't need a building or books or old men to know God exists. This world is enough.
I like music that makes me sad and pine for a body to hold.
I know I'm fat. But I still have a good enough figure, so I'll keep eating.
I used to be anorexic. I didn't need rehab to get better. Just people that loved me.
Homosexuals make me happy, so I act like one. But secretly, I like boys. A LOT.
It is my firm opinion that if a person can write a good sex scene that's eloquent and isn't flat out smutty grossness, he can write anything.
I thrive on performance, but I can't bring myself to actually doing it.
When I don't sleep, I know it's because I'm subconsciously running from my dreams.
I like knowing what words mean, but I can't remember definitions.
Jazz is my savior.
I want to go to a gospel church in Alabama at some point in my life.
I want to grow up to be a large black woman with a voice that brings people to tears in a good way.
I find myself oddly drawn to Jews. My best friend and one of my many soul mates is Jewish.
I like cats, but I'm allergic to them. But I still snuggle them whenever I can.
My allergies and asthma are the only things keeping me from smoking.
I LOVE the smell of unburnt tobacco.
Flowers make me happy, but I hate when people give me flowers.
A single red rose is the pinacle of loving gestures.
Daisies melt my heart.
I think I should have grown up in the 50's. But I'm too much of a liberal to have been morally accepted.
Memorizing Shakespeare is a hobby of mine.
I don't know how to act my age. I can't comprehend the meaning of it.
I hate my childhood, but I treasure every second of it.
I'm really fucked up.
I hate pills. And all pill shaped objects.
Every so often, I need whole days to just cry.
Nervous breakdowns are a normal occurance.
Equal rights. though non-existant, are beautiful all the same.
I like playing dress-up more now than when I was little.
I role play. It makes me forget.
I like to help people and talk to them so I don't have to deal with my own problems.
New York City is the only place I really feel comfortable in my own skin.
The idea of soul mates bothers me. I am perfectly whole without anyone else. Soul mates should make you MORE THAN complete, not just complete.
I've been in love with the same person for the last 6 years. and I still haven't told him. I don't think I can.
When I'm left to my own thoughts, I'm a weird cross of cooking maniac, sex fiend and five year old little boy.
I like Star Wars band-aids.
Trigonometry makes me excited and bouncy.
I LIKE PHYSICS. even though it makes me freak out.
My biggest fear is going down. not in a sexual sense, but rather, directional.
I fell in love with a girl once. My heart hasn't properly healed yet.
I made out with her brother 2 months after she broke my heart.
Japanese culture is my connection to my brother.
I chew on my lower lip constantly.
I want to be a little kid because my parents never gave me the chance to be one.

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http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15736159/ Fri, 30 Nov 2007 14:41:51 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

The land where large fuzzy dice still hang proudly like testicles from rearview mirrors.
-Race Car Ya-Yas, Cake

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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I couldn't scream for 6 years, and now I don't think I can really stop.
I don't know how long my allergies are going to keep me from smoking. Every day heightens my want for a cigarette.
I want to swear off sex altogether, but I don't think I'm that strong-willed.
I worry about my friendships.
I like finding out what would ruin my relationships, so that I know what I need to do to either preserve or destroy what I have.
Self-destruction is part of my nature.
Suicide is the coward's way out. I used to want to be a coward. More than anything.
I like how my chest feels when my heart is beating too hard.
Music is my escape, but it's all I have to shove reality into my veins as well.
I like finding out how long I can keep myself from doing things I have to. My current limit for not eating is 2 days. A day for peeing. 5 minutes for breathing.
I bite my nails. Not as a bad habit but just because I get bored and it's something to complain about.
I hate being surrounded by mess, but I'm too lazy to clean.
I put off necessary tasks for hours, even days, cuz I'm frightened to do them.
Life terrifies me, and I hate myself for it.
It scares me to think of where my life is heading and the fact that it's nothing like my well thought out plans.
My "type" is not the type of man I want to be with. And most likely, not the type of woman, either.
I'm tired of being me, but I know how much I'll lose if I become the person I want to be, and that scares the shit out of me.
I'm jealous. I am my own green-eyed monster.
Childhood seems too far away to grasp until I feel it in my fingers. I'm afraid it will startle me into dropping it, though.
I want to be kissed like they mean it in the front seat of a car at a stop light.
I want to be romantic, but my practical nature doesn't allow me to be totally engulfed.
My romance with life hinders my ability to accept reality.
Somedays, I wonder if what I think is right really is right. The second guessing causes a lot of grief. And heartache.
I want to fall in love with someone that I know will fall in love back. But I'm too young for real love. Or... at least, that's what I keep telling myself.
I'm amazing. But sometimes, I have to be reminded, especially by me.

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~blackmoonfaery I'm stupidly bored http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15721744/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15721744/ Thu, 29 Nov 2007 13:47:52 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

I fell into fantasy.
-AFI, The Days of the Phoenix

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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1. Do you still talk to the first person you fell the hardest for?
Yeah. I do.

2. Have you ever seen your best friend naked?
Which one? My answers vary accordingly.

3. Are you obsessed with someone?
no.

4. Do you like more than one person right now?
no. I don't really "like" anyone right now.

5. Name something that you would love to eat right now?
pizza. but not what I can get here.

6. Did you get any compliments today?
sort of...

7. Who was the last two people to call you?
Mario and Lea.

8. If you could pick the temperature of the outdoors for the rest of your life what would it be?
60- 65 degrees fahrenheit.

9. If you could have one super power what would it be?
I don't really know. there's sooo many options.

10. Are you happy?
I'm not... not happy. I'm just sort of. Don't really know sort of what, just sort of.

11. What's your favorite smell?
roses. or clean. I like the smell of clean.

12. What is your least favorite sound?
noises that make me cringe.

13. Are you moody?
sometimes.

14. Last person you hung out with?
lea, i think. i don't really hang out with anyone currently. should change soon enough.

15. Have you ever tried to get back with an ex?
no.

16. Have you ever toilet papered someone's house?
no

17. Have you ever liked someone but never told them?
of course.

18. Have you ever gone camping?
once or twice or more times than I can count.

19. Are you friends with all your exes?
not really.

20. Have you ever gone to a nude beach?
No. and I'm not totally certain I want to...

21. Have you ever had a stalker?
actually. YES.

22. Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
hehehe

23. Listening to music? What are you listening to?
What a Wonderful World - Joey Ramone

24. Have you ever been betrayed by your best friend?
not that I can truly recall.

25. Have you ever lied to your parents?
maybe a couple times.

26. Have you ever worn your best friend's clothes?
more than you'd expect.

27. Have you ever thrown up from working out?
no. but it's felt like i would.

28. Ever had a bad haircut?
dear lord yes. oh the memories...

29. Where are your siblings right now?
Josh = either work home or school, hannah = I'd suspect at her home, Cody = same as hannah, corey = no clue.

31. Name three things you did today.
sleep, take my thyroid drugs, get dressed.

32. Last person you text messaged?
Mom. I had to inform her that Mr. Whipple died.

33. Future kids names?
I was planning on deciding my stance on having children before I name the ones that don't exist yet.

34. What are you doing tomorrow?
something...

35. Do you remember singing any songs as a kid?
of course I do.

36. What is your favorite color(s)?
green, pink and purple. mostly green though

37. Are you allergic to anything?
cats, animal dander in general, smoke, perfume, pineapple.

38. What is your mood?
pretty jazzy.

39. Is anyone jealous of you?
i doubt it.

40. When is the last time you got flowers?
oddly, a couple weeks ago from an anonymous stranger. they're my fave flowers too... how weird is that?

41. Where were you 2 hours ago?
where I am right now. moved some but came back to my desk anyway.

42. Where were you 4 hours ago?
in my bed, contemplating more sleep

43. What does your hair look like right now?
hell.

44. Has anyone ever used you?
maybe?

45. Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than as a friend?
no. ...no.

46. What have you eaten today?
my thyroid hormone pill.

47. Is your hair naturally curly, straight, or nappy?
i don't know. i think straight, but it's a fucking whore and acts like it's curly hair. So I'm just confused.

48. Who was the last friend you were in the car with?
lea and.... i think KT... I'm generally not home long enough to go on driving adventures with friends. unfortunately.

49. What are you looking forward to?
be... ]]> ~blackmoonfaery sad songs and waltzes arent selling this year http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15701501/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15701501/ Tue, 27 Nov 2007 23:48:49 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

I fell into fantasy.
-AFI, The Days of the Phoenix

Don't be a slave and behave the way they do,
Just utilize the gifts that God gave you

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My arm is really fucking sore. And I think I'm hungry. But I can't tell. It's quarter to 3 anyway. Sucks to be me.

Holy jesus, the days take forever when I know I'm getting out of here soon. I still need to do all that shit... and I need to take to Wayne for something I think.

Luna and Mike are fighting. It's upsetting me. My music can only drown out so much without hurting my ears.

I can't entirely remember. Oh yeah. I need to have my AP score sent to Wayne so I can get out of english classes.

And register for classes.
It may be best to wait to actually become a student there again... probably.

I need to pee so... I'm gonna do that. woo 5 minute journal. laterz

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tiffany: I don't now how to use a phonebook.... It's upside down..

What the hell happened?
An explosion of flavor. I'm working with some very unstable herbs.

Trans-Siberian Orchestra is my |A|N|T|I|D|R|U|G|
]]> ~blackmoonfaery NEWS http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15678001/ http://blackmoonfaery.deviantart.com/journal/15678001/ Mon, 26 Nov 2007 11:29:26 PST You can be Henry Miller and I'll be Anais Nin.
-Jewel, Morning Song

I fell into fantasy.
-AFI, The Days of the Phoenix