http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:blurred-reality&section=today deviantART RSS for by:blurred-reality en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 24 Nov 2009 12:56:30 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/21875794/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/21875794/ Mon, 08 Dec 2008 03:17:54 PST
Almost a year away and so many things have changed. Better, worse, I'd like to think that this year I've seen it all and more.

*sigh*

dA, I've been here...2, 3 years perhaps? More like 2 since I hardly came here the whole of 2008 and now bordering on 2009, I don't think I'll come back. Looking back at all this...this, I don't even know what to call it, memories would be too little and art too self-flattering, so many things have really indeed changed.

I would like to think I've changed too, maybe, just maybe for the better.

To everyone here, this is just a short note to say thank you for those 2 years, for every comment and every word, thank you for being the first real online friends I've ever had, thank you for beautiful art, for snippets of the best (and sometimes worst) parts of your lives.

, , , just to name a few, I don't expect anyone to remember me but I do remember you.

Maybe I'll be back someday~

...

oh fuck this emo shit, I'm over at LJ you guys, come spam me or something?

blurmeese@LJ.

]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/16671494/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/16671494/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 09:07:07 PST
]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/15557523/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/15557523/ Sun, 18 Nov 2007 04:26:12 PST
Damn, girl, you go offline for 4 weeks and the one day I decide to post something no one I know in real life is supposed to read, you come online.

Fyi she's only a distraction so yeah.

]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/14144991/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/14144991/ Mon, 13 Aug 2007 07:20:43 PDT
Indeed.

Pulling my shit together, clearing out ridiculous pieces I've somehow gotten online and basically getting my life back into some sort of order. Maybe I shall be asexual for the time being, it sure makes life easier (pfft I'll just get to school tomorrow, take one look at her and lose my brains again but it's worth a shot, ne?)

*shrug* I have a history folio to pass up in two days and it's basically blank right now but I'm putting off doing it by posting mindless journal entries so...yeah. God help me.

]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/13753845/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/13753845/ Mon, 16 Jul 2007 07:28:21 PDT
And all three of us share the same initials so its jl>jl>jl. To top it all off, I can't even force out a school essay since she's on my mind 24/7 and I don't think anyone really knows how seriously I'm taking this.

I feel so...tired. Checking my friendster (oh the shame) profile every few hours just to see if she replied my comments, checking hers because I need to know if there's still anything between them (despite reassurances from random sources that there wasn't anything to begin with). People tell me I'm going through this too much, with my dissecting of everything she says.

Why would she reply me in the first place? Does she know? Why bother with me when she never replies people? Is she just being nice or have I somehow made the right move somewhere along the way? Is the fact that there's always a question on her comments an indication she wants to talk to me? Just being polite?

I'm so addicted it scares me. In a good way of course.

]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/13361507/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/13361507/ Fri, 15 Jun 2007 21:00:04 PDT >



]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/12999681/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/12999681/ Fri, 18 May 2007 10:37:13 PDT >...middle of exams...and I shouldn't be online watching midless Korean chikc flicks but I am. Life rants are meant for LJs (no, Fi, I'm not telling you)...lesson learned.

My deviantart account seems to have crawled under a rock and died. Oh noes. Somehow, I don't really care.

...

]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/12672976/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/12672976/ Fri, 20 Apr 2007 20:54:13 PDT
eh...I feel drained. 3 nights staying up until god knows what time, forcing out a fic for shienri's plot bunny has left me all >_>...at least its the weekend. Hohum...Dam I shouldn't have taken it up but ahh its such a good plot!

Am waiting for Hana Kimi to download in another window and summerxsummer in yet another and I have yet to open one for Gokusen...*shifty eyes*....yeah...caught the Taiwan drama bug from Shimen ^-^. Yay for pretty Asian boys!

Seems like I've been ignoring my devvie account for quite a while now. I can't seem to write anything serious for the moment, everything I touch turns into absolute crack, probably the result of ODing on DBSK lol.

I fear...I might be turning (if I'm not one already) into the kind of person that goes:

ZOMG LOLOLOL HE ISH SO HAWT!! *nosebleeds* waaaaa kawaii ne?

The road to hell is paved with fangirl.

I have no idea where I heard that from, it was someone's LJ header...oh and btw...does anyone here have an LJ? *or is it a LJ?* One more thing...I don't suppose anyone of you have all of Miyavi's albums? No? Ahhh I shouldn't be on deviantart.

*hides*

]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/12535621/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/12535621/ Tue, 10 Apr 2007 06:46:00 PDT
Someone rampas-ed (um...I think the word in English is confiscated...I think in Malay too much >_> ) a bloody PRINTOUT. As in a picture...printed from the internet...stupid prefect.

She came in during recess, took it out from my file and left a note saying it's against the school rules. wtf...nobody ever said anything about it being against the rules...and they're supposed to issue only a warning for first time offenses...

*and since I feel like ranting in Manglish(malaysian english) right now*
omfg jus wads her problem? bring pics to skool aso cannot meh? ish...kononnya I think she stole it...stewpid pengawas. sot adi la she...cc she gam on her own fail...aish.
*manglish ends*

My school is run by a gigantic ape-like creature with candy floss for brains.

*wanders off to find comfort in yaoi*

]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/12476621/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/12476621/ Thu, 05 Apr 2007 21:30:07 PDT
Le sigh.

Zeph...is a complete utter asshole. Found out something about him recently and he's not the kind of person I thought he was...kinda the opposite even. Don't wanna go into details but he's apparently not a really good friend so yeah...I value friendship a lot so...mm. I should become asexual or something.

*fangirl mode*
TEH AWESOME THAT IS DONG BANG SHIN KI HAS EATEN MY SOUL MY HEART MY BRAIN AND EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN AHAHAHAHAHA I start smiling like some maniac every time I see anything connected to them i.e. the words Korea/boy band/sex/retardation
*fangirl mode off*

In other news...I've been reading Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell which just pwns Harry Potter. Yup. Ok I need to stop using fangirl speak aaaah I'm crazy. Pretty Korean boys make me all fuzzy inside.

I've had too much sugar.

[link]

I pimp them out to you because everyone needs some pretty/ghei (gay,dammit I gotta stop spelling badly)/Korean boys to brighten their life!! *spazzes* I've spent the past 1 moth or so saving countless pictures and watching videos of them...it makes me obscenely happy.

Oh and I have...

*insert gigantic gasp here*

FANART! Oh. My. God. I actually inspired something other than suicide.

[link]

And that's about it.



]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/12087888/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/12087888/ Tue, 06 Mar 2007 23:12:15 PST
*dances*

Um...so I recently found out...Zeph was aking for JY's phone number on behalf of a friend...not sure how much truth is in that but I feel stupid all the same. Urgh. Will now proceed to bore you with yet another life update:

Was doodling on my desk today during the Science paper and came up with a crapload of stuff so I asked a friend (who just happens to be the one who's bf knows Zeph) for a piece of scrap paper so I could write all my stuff down. She handed me a small square saying "Don't need it, have it," so I started scribbling on it. It was folded in two so when I opened it up, lo and behold, Zephyr's phone number staring me in the face.

I could have DIED that very instant. So...yeah. Handed the paper back to my friend and told JY who's reaction was basically the same as mine. O_o...apparently Zeph had given his number in exchange for JY's or something weird like that.

Guess that cancels out the "ask number on behalf of my friend" theory...nice try though.

ps give and a little love because personally, I think they're damn good artists.



]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/12033102/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/12033102/ Fri, 02 Mar 2007 21:53:04 PST
Screw you, Zeph.

Come to think of it, I know absolutely nothing at all about him. Never even seen him smile before, only heard his voice, what, twice? Don't even know if he's capable of intelligent conversation since I've only ever seen him go "Huh?" at random intervals in class.

*no he's not mysterious dammit*

But he does have a cute name...and adorable oversized sneakers...gah too much info. God knows how many of my school friends are reading this right now.

Um...and I turn 14 today so yes, , I AM capable of aging. ^-^.



]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/12022265/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/12022265/ Fri, 02 Mar 2007 04:37:38 PST
1) this is going t sound stupid but gjndfjfmklgmf zomg I finally took a photo with the head prefect wait did I just type that O_O that looks stupid on screen now...spent a good 1hour stalking her around the school (in the rain) which included a)watching her head the clean-up of the school after sports b)snapping random pictures of her back/back of the head/various body parts with my equally head-prefect-crazy friend and c)begging various people to ask her to take a pic with us because we're spineless cowards. Right.

2) it rained really hard during the entire event, resulting in 98% of the student population (myself included) getting soaking wet. Victory dances were done in the rain with my (male) art teacher as an eager spectator. Everyone was dripping water and god help me if my parents find out I've been walking around in the rain for a good 5 hours since I've just recovered from a bad cough/cold.

Now for the reason why the first 6 sucked.

*rant begins here, don't have to read.*

My god...I seriously don't know what to do. This guy...lets just call him Zephyr (which is actually what I named my ipod so yeah. random)...known him since forever but not really because I just know who he is and that's about it. Same church and now same tuition class...I seriously dunno why I started seeking the back of his head out every few seconds during class but I just did because crushes are a bitch and don't need explanations.

One of my best friends, JY, who is probably reading this right now, supported me tremendously throughout this entire thing and basically did whatever besties do: share the joy, keep it a secret, come up with ways to make me talk to him. Good stuff, ya know? Then this morning, another friend whose bf is a friend of Zeph's dropped one simple comment.

*flails helplessly*

Zeph (whom I've actually been pissing off at for the past few days since I obviously don't have the courage to talk to him and he's just so friggin quiet but that's not his fault so it's just misdirected rage) wants JY's mobile number.

*flails harder*

God. Just...argh. It just sucks right now but I've anticipated it *JY, DON'T ARGUE WITH ME DAMMIT* since my people skills/looks are nil. JY cast me all these knowing glances throughout the entire thing and even offered to give Zeph MY mobile num. which I obviously declined because that's just stupid and as much as I'm telling myself it might work out, it's NOT GOING TO HAPPEN.

So...yeah. Life's unfair and in the words of JY, life sucks as well. I expected to feel...pissed enough to throw things and depressed enough to do..bad stuff...but it's just this emptiness that's getting to me. That sounded all emo-ish but yeah.

*tear*

I need time to just clear my head. Argh...I have exams in 3 days and to top it off, I'm getting chills/my cough back, courtesy of today. Hope all of you are doing better than me ^-^.

*rant kinda ends, along with journal*



]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/11865538/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/11865538/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 09:16:30 PST
Well that sucks

Hm...in other news...I have a new dog. He's pwetty and I have christened him Roxas, much to the dismay of my dad who thinks it's a stupid name but has to bear with it anyway because nobody can think of another one for now lol...pictures up soon...once I find my camera.

So earlier today, some of my parents friends came over for all that CNY visiting etc. and this guy just comes up to me and basically tells me someone his son knows likes me *insert silent freaking out inside here*...before proceeding to tell my mum and my friend's mum. *insert more freaking out* How traumatizing.

O_O

Um...and I have a new crush. *runs away because it's a stupid thing to admit to people I've never met before*



]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/11606086/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/11606086/ Sun, 28 Jan 2007 23:55:05 PST
finuhfigkgvqe0ier903tn3tg3lkewp

I think I can die happy now. I stumbled upon this FANTASTIC japanese Death Note fanart site a few months ago and have been looking all over LJ communitites and whatnot for it...unitl 5 seconds ago. It has some of the best fanart I've ever seen and I adore the pastel-ly feel in the art...

*dies*

The link if anyone is interested:[link]

Um...right. Randomness over...life update: School has been pretty normal, no scandals, no particularly interesting news except a bunch of people I know have recently started to slit their arms (yes, arms, not wrists cuz they don't wanna die) open with sharp objects. Eh. Somehow I'm not very surprised...O_o

Have a stinking art project due in a week or so, its one of those things where you get arandom pic, trace it out and basically DOT the entire thing in.

Dot.

With ink pens.

*screams*


Clubs:

]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/11513611/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/11513611/ Sun, 21 Jan 2007 04:45:27 PST
tagged by

because my life is boring:

Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6
weird habits/things/hates about yourself" and people who
get tagged MUST write a journal about their 6 weird
habits/things/hates as well as state this rule clearly. In the
end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged
and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that
says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell
them to read yours...


1. I HATE HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL omg I absolutely loathe it. *shudders* Sorry HSM fans...

2. Um...I randomly pick a word I hear my friends using and obsessively use it for a few weeks in almost every sentance?

3. I've had 3 best friends move away in 1 year.

4. I actually think the stuff on the radio is good.

5. I ahve an unhealthy obession of random manga/anime...until the point of saving up to over 200 pictures...O_o...ok that's actually very little.

6. I scream my own commentry during shows and movies (when I'm alone of course).

Yup...and that's about it...sorry for any grammatical errors here cuz I'm not really thinking straight...damn contact lenses are messing up my brain and making my eyes tired. >_<.

Taggity!

1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.

Clubs...


]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/11417860/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/11417860/ Sat, 13 Jan 2007 03:34:09 PST
O_o

oh em gee.

THANK YOU EVERYONE!!

yay for randomness!

My journal entries keep getting suckier with each post eh? ^-^ Ah well...

]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/11242178/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/11242178/ Sat, 30 Dec 2006 07:28:35 PST
HURRAH FOR WEIRDNESS!!

Ahem.

Have a Happy New Year everyone, and here's to hoping 2007 won't suck. Much.

new year resolutions:

1. Get over him.
2. Practise my exam pieces for piano!!! O_o
3. Lose 5kg because I'm a phat pig.


CLUBS-


]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/11012394/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/11012394/ Sun, 10 Dec 2006 01:40:02 PST

Frick. I can't believe this happened AGAIN...gah...

So I dreamt of my best friend last night. Ex-best. Whatever...we've known each other since forever...crawled around in diapers together, went to kindergarden together, basically I grew up with him. 13 years and it's all falling apart now and we're just standing here watching 13 years dissapear. God, it scares me cuz I thought it'd be the two of us right until the end. Last year, we basically saw each other almost everyday...then this year was twice a week, 3 if we had the time...then next year...nothing. He has school in the afternoon now and I'm in the morning so we don't even have extra classes together anymore now.

"yeah, I don't think me and jo are good friends anymore"

I don't know why something like that makes me feel so...hollow. I mean, it's not like he's saying we're not friends anymore but it still hurts to hear that because...just because. So...last night...we're both in church and I'm just standing around, basically doing nothing cuz that's what I normally do in church when he just walks up to me and goes "Email me later" in hushed tones. "For what?" I remember thinking that he only ever asks me to msg him or etc. if he wants something but he just says " I just wanna talk to you." and walks off.

Then I wake up feeling just so happy...before reality crashes and I start dissecting the entire damn thing. I think it just points to the fact that he's not comfortable talking to me in public...the last time we actually had a REAL conversation was around a month or more ago. And that was just the two of us. When we're in a group, it just gets awkward and we're so much...colder?

*sigh*

Sometimes I wish we weren't close in the first place. I don't want to admit it because before I really came to value this, we were always "the couple" and everyone was teasing us for being close etc. and I HATED it...tried to distance myself from him even at some point...but I miss him. God I miss him so much.



Um..to less depressing stuff...ok, I've changed the "pick devs from 10 people who reply to this journal" to just 3 becuase obviously nobody's gonna reply...lol.

1.

[link] colourful pic of trees...The poem accompanying isn't too shabby either!
[link] Becuase I'm a dog person haha...wonderfully cute shot!

2.

[link] --> SO VERY true...haha...short-ish but funny all the same.
[link] yet another funny one ^-^

3.
[link] --> mm...so sad yet somehow true sometimes...
[link] --> short, sweet, perfect.

and thats it...!

]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/10910291/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/10910291/ Fri, 01 Dec 2006 07:23:31 PST
...ah, didn't see TVXQ in HK!! They were there the day before we were going to leave (29th). Couldn't go cuz all the tickets to the promo. tour were GIVEN out.

GIVEN.

damn.

The hotel room had Fashion TV. Spent around 5 hours with my friend watching runway shows until late and laughing our fool heads off at the redunkulous stuff that was borderline porn.

...

I bought and ipod video. It's black. I like black.

...

My jornals suck, eh? So...I'm gonna do that 10 people thingy...from

THE FIRST 10 PEOPLE TO REPLY TO THIS JOURNAL WILL BE FEATURED HERE. However, You MUST do the same thing in your journal!
(I think this is a great idea for everyone to get a chance to see new artists and artwork~!)
After (actually if) I get my 10 filled, I will then take a dive in your gallery and pick my favorite deviation(s) from you! If you actually reply in the first place. Heh.

1)
2)
3)





Clubs:


]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/10828904/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/10828904/ Thu, 23 Nov 2006 22:43:51 PST
Gah, these Korean boybands, they keep poping up like mushrooms. Will be back around the 30th and believe it or not, I've got a piano lesson the very next day omg she's faffing crazy.

*tries not to think too much about it*

In other news, I've finally finished reading Death Note.

*whimper*

Eh....I'm bored.

]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/10773789/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/10773789/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 04:59:40 PST
*silence from unfortunate reader*

<--- BWAHAHAHAHA...

Ok so here it is...all the clubs I've joined...



Will now try to stop updating journal so much...

]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/10773555/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/10773555/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 04:11:51 PST
Meep.

So yeah...music lesson today. Grade 8 aural class...ew. Totally screwed up as usual in the modulation thingy (yes, what?) and cadences and whatever else...got shouted at. Again. *sigh*...

"HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU THAT *insert something or other about aural*"
"..."

Well I don't think it helps that I'm actually only a grade 6 student...O_o. I just don't get a damn thing she's saying...*bangs head on wall*

Ona brighter note, things have cleared up a bit now...the phone's not ringing anymore w00t!!

I really should go study my aural now...

]]> ~blurred-reality http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/10763142/ http://blurred-reality.deviantart.com/journal/10763142/ Sat, 18 Nov 2006 05:22:30 PST
I've just typed out a friggin long rant on how sucky my past two days were and now I've just realised that can come back and bite me in the ass later. Dammit. So its all gone now and I'm going to attempt to rant again. I know, I know, I should go get a blog and rant there but I'm too lazy to so here it goes. It's best you actually ignored this and pretend you never saw it.

a) I'm co-ordinating something I'm not actually going to be at for someone that's sick but can actually do it herself with the help of a handphone. urgh. I know I sound like a bad friend but dammit over the course of one year, she has driven me to wits end countless times by disturbing me when I'm studying, purposely destroying my stuff and messing up my homework. I sound like a whiny small kid now eh? Its just that I DON'T feel like helping out right now and I DON'T understand why it has to be me.

b) Someone I've spoken to only once before this has suddenly brought up something about someone and in my opinion, made it sound freakin' big when it actually isn't.argh...why?! now I'm supposed to help out with something that is actually beyond our control and I don't make sense do I? Stupid, complicated, screwed up topic this is.

c) music class (aural) tomorrow morning at 9am. 'nuff said.

d) a certain thing called god brothers and god sisters omfg WTF?! its not what you think cuz over here people just *adopt* one every few days and drop them a month later. Like being bffs, actually. Bugger it all I hate it.

Feel free to throw rotten eggs at me now for wasting a few minutes of your life by acting like a small immature kid.

]]> ~blurred-reality