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deviantART: by:bogyphobia http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:bogyphobia&section=today deviantART RSS for by:bogyphobia en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 13:15:48 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Whirlwind http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/28680402/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/28680402/ Mon, 30 Nov 2009 20:20:21 PST
Why is it so hard to introduce a boy to ones parents? I'm not sure why, but it just feels very awkward. On that topic, I've been exposed to a lot of things in the last few weeks that, previously, I had never had any experience with. I always thought I was the boring, plain girl that never had anything interesting happen.

Well, I'm still the plain girl, but not really that dull, with some fairly exciting things going on. So, two out of three is good, right? I've also been fairly exposed to one of the parts of life where I happen to be very, very Naive, recently. It's a humbling experience, to say the least.

_{If you're reading this (you know who you are, yes?), I have to say I really enjoy the fact that I can now pretty much expect a call or text in the morning from you. However, waking up at 7AM when previously I was getting up at 10AM did do a number on my energy levels at first. Haha.}

In other news, I finally lucked out into getting myself a different job. I'm now a delivery driver for Jimmy Johns... still have to pass the menu test, though... that's a tad daunting. I'm hoping it will lead to more money down the line. Same rate of pay, but nearly double the hours. I'm excited.

And with that I just realized I have to write my meditation final exam (really easy though, it will take me all of about ten minutes.). So I bid you all good night.

]]> =bogyphobia And Now It's Over http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/28303902/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/28303902/ Wed, 11 Nov 2009 21:50:02 PST
I'm sorry that you're gone. I'm sorry you felt you had to leave. Everyone who had a chance to go to school with you feels the loss of your life, you really did have an impact on all of us.

How and why did you manage to carry it out in the way you did? How much pain could you possibly have been in? How did you manage to seem so happy regardless of all of that? Admittedly, you hurt very many people with what you did...but that probably pales in comparison to what drove you to the act.

I'm sorry you will never get the chance to see that life has the chance to get better.

Goodbye, Cookie. I never knew you.

_{A well known student from my high school was recently found to have killed himself.}

]]> =bogyphobia 100 truths http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/28280308/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/28280308/ Tue, 10 Nov 2009 20:52:04 PST
001. Real name?
Kaitlin

002. Nickname(s)?
Kait, Katie Kaboom, Katie (only to one person.)

003. Zodiac sign?
Cancer

004. Male or female?
Female

005. Elementary?
Maple Tree, Stuart, Golda Meir

006. Middle School?
Roosevelt

007. High School?
Milwaukee High School of the Arts

008. Hair color?
Naturally a dishwater blonde, currently brown/red/black

009. Long or short?
growing it out

010. Loud or Quiet?
loud-ish

011. Sweats or Jeans?
Jeans

012. Phone or Camera?
both~!

013. Health freak?
meh

014. Drink or Smoke?
Drink occasionally, but I dont smoke.

015. Do you have a crush on someone?
I like people

016. Eat or Drink?
I've never eaten anything in my entire life, yo.

017. Piercings?
I have three in each earlobe, but I think thats down to two because the 3rd closed. not sure.

018. Tattoos?
still trying to decide

HAVE YOU EVER?

019. Been in an airplane?
Tons

020. Been in a car accident?
two minor ones I believe

021. Been in a fist fight?
I hit people on the shoulder and they hit me back

FIRSTS:

022. First piercing?
6th grade - earlobe

023. First best friend?
Savannah, kindergarten.

025. First award?
Blue ribbon at the 3rd grade spelling bee!

026. First crush?
someone from high school.

028. First big vacation?
Great Wolf Lodge several years ago?

LASTS:

029. Last person you talked to?
~Alternate-Deviant

030. Last person you texted?
~Alternate-Deviant

031. Last person you watched a movie with?
My parents

032. Last food you ate?
a bowl of soup at work.

033. Last movie you watched?
Inspector whats-his-name-it-sounded-french. (pronounced '

wa-row'

034. Last song you listened to?
Unnatural Selection - Muse

035. Last thing you bought?
food~

036. Last person you hugged?
Me Mum

FAVES:

037. Food?
Egg Rolls from Rhino Foods

038. Drinks?
Grapefruit Soda

039. Clothing?
well-fitting jeans and awesome sweaters.

040. Book?
1984, Sword of Truth Series, etc...

041. Music?
Rock that dabbles in operatic vocals and symphonic instrumentals

042. Flower?
red flowers.

043. Colors?
shades of dark red

044. Movies?
Harold and Maude, Memento, Death Proof, etc...

045. Shoes?
Vans, Converse, Rocket Dogs..._{and heelies.}

046. Subjects?
Art, Religion

IN THE PAST YEAR I ... :

047. [ ] kissed in the snow

048. [ ] celebrated Halloween

049. [x] had your heart broken

050. [ ] went over the minutes on your cell phone

051. [ ] someone questioned your sexual orientation

052. [ ] came out of the closet

053. [ ] gotten pregnant

054. [ ] had an abortion

055. [x] done something you've regretted

056. [x] broke a promise

057. [x] hid a secret

058. [x] pretended to be happy

059. [x] met someone who changed your life

060. [x] pretended to be sick

061. [ ] left the country

062. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it

063. [x] cried over the silliest thing

064. [x] ran a mile ...(not all at once lol)

065. [x] went to the beach with your best friend

066. [ ] stayed single the whole year

066.5 [ ] Responded to the rest of this en espaÃ±ol. JK!

CURRENTLY:

067. Eating?
nope

068. Drinking?
nope

069. I'm about to?
Boomer

070. Listening to?
the sound of the floor fan

071. Plans for today/tomorrow?
art class, then helping some friends clean a house

072. Waiting for?
June

YOUR FUTURE:

073. Want kids?
Debating.

074. Want to get married?
Long lasting relationship, not specifically a marriage. seen too many faile... ]]> =bogyphobia When My Heart is Split Like Rio http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/28116578/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/28116578/ Mon, 02 Nov 2009 22:20:40 PST It will be you who wears the crown,
And I'll owe everything to you

How much pain has quaked your soul?
How much love would make you whole?
You're my guiding lightning strike

I can't find the words to say,
They're overdue,
I've traveled half the world to say,
I belong to you

And she attacks me like a Leo,
When my heart is split like Rio,
And I assure you my debts are real

I can't find the words to say,
When I'm confused,
I travelled half the world to say,
You are my muse

Ah! rÃ© ponds, rÃ© ponds Ã ma tendresse,
Verse-moi, verse-moi l'ivresse,
RÃ© ponds Ã ma tendresse,
RÃ© ponds Ã ma tendresse,
Ah, verse-moi l'ivresse,

Verse-moi, verse-moi l'ivresse
RÃ© ponds Ã ma tendresse!
RÃ© ponds Ã ma tendresse!
Ah! verse-moi l'ivresse

I belong,
I belong,
To you alone

I can't find the words to say,
They're overdue,
I've traveled half the world to say,
I belong to you

-Muse; 'I Belong to You'

_{I love this song. so much...[link]}

]]> =bogyphobia Some Things http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/28038174/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/28038174/ Thu, 29 Oct 2009 22:40:48 PDT
-Learned how to write up a contract to protect my writes as camerawoman
-Got to level eight of Notpron.com
-Freaked out, as I have every day this week
-Decided to get Muse's new album (there is definite evidence of vocal improvement on the part of the singer. Not that his voice was bad at all, but he he must have gotten some sort of vocal training before this album was recorded. I mean, just listen to the notes he hits here [link] and compare it to [link] which, although an amazing song, has a much harsher vocal quality)
-Wrote my thoughts all out
-Procrastinated.

I hope tomorrow goes okay :\

]]> =bogyphobia hmmmm http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/28003774/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/28003774/ Tue, 27 Oct 2009 21:44:54 PDT Alternate-Deviant, thank you too... I didnt realize we were on the phone for an hour and a half, but talking to you really helped. Lots of love to the Fips.

It was like the past 48 hours, my emotions were building and building until just a little while ago, and it got to the point where I couldnt handle it anymore. i was so hurt and upset and confused that I just needed to talk it out. I wasnt really hurt by anything in specific, either, other than my own feelings hurting me. Doubts about myself, doubts about my life and whats going on....just, everything.

I wish I knew more about what was going on about my life right now :\

Kait

]]> =bogyphobia I feel off http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27986594/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27986594/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 21:24:35 PDT
For those that know me IRL, I apologize if I'm ever too much to deal with

]]> =bogyphobia impromptu bowling http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27881382/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27881382/ Tue, 20 Oct 2009 23:01:15 PDT
Went out to bowling with some friends tonight - first time in a while that i went out this late on a school night, but it definitely wasn't bad. There were many funny moments this evening.

Everyone should go to [link] and watch Nostalgia Critic/Nostalgia Chick.

Why do I smell like cigarette smoke when I was not around any smokers today? (there wasnt any smoking in the bowling alley either. I'm confused.)

I guess I'm once again just holding out until friday, as per usual... My Fridays/Saturdays are always much more fun and exciting than the rest of the week XD (though this sunday will be quite epic. yay Plague!)

I need to get access to a scanner, so i can add some more of my work. hrm.

Sleep, now!

Kait

]]> =bogyphobia I gots j00 http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27806871/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27806871/ Fri, 16 Oct 2009 22:26:42 PDT
and dagnabbit, A-D, you are helping me raise those 400 babies. THEN YOU TOO CAN USE THEM FOR YOUR PERSONAL ARMY.

I hope tomorrows events happen in a similar vein to today. which was awesome.

peacin' out

Kait

]]> =bogyphobia I'M TIRED... http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27624739/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27624739/ Tue, 06 Oct 2009 21:59:36 PDT
so thanks to ~veoguy2 i've been listening to a lot of Foxy Shazam lately... they're quite entertaining to listen to. helluva different voice that singer has. I enjoy their lyric writing as well, especially the chorus of 'Dangerous Man':

_{" I thought you said I never could, well I did. I did it right in front of your face...So next time just remember; Never say never...Never say never again."}

they are very rhythmic so its easy to sing along to, as well... XD (I'm in danger of blowing out my car speakers from blasting music and singing along...)

excited for this weekend~ why cant the week go faster. (I would prefer to just...you know...SKIP... my midterm on thursday. that would be nice. just go straight from wednesday into friday, ya know...)

I'M OUT!

Kait

]]> =bogyphobia but officer Im swerving because my hands are numb! http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27569571/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27569571/ Sun, 04 Oct 2009 00:57:21 PDT )

pushed the envelope a little bit today... almost fell asleep in a big truck right before I had to spend 30 minutes driving home. but it was more fun than getting back in my car, dammit.

I knew this fall felt different. it has that feeling of change, of 'new.' ironically, I felt this before (so its not 'new'...) back my junior year of high school, right before some big changes in my life at the time. so perhaps those changes will be happening again (I sincerely hope so anyway) because I've waited long enough.

in other news, several game players requested me to draw... "ninja monkeys riding on the back of a t-rex that has laser eyes and sound beams and (I couldnt fulfill this one, and thus made Spooky extremely sad) laser feet, fighting robot pirates" and have been requested by Bob to color it. I probably will, and then will try uploading it somehow xD

I didnt know guys still did the whole yawn, stretch, and lay their arms over the back of your chair thing. XD. Awesomely enough, it turns out they do.

okay well I am sleepy and have work in twelve hours.

]]> =bogyphobia Devious Journal Entry http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27549840/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27549840/ Sat, 03 Oct 2009 00:02:59 PDT

]]> =bogyphobia i'm tired http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27531371/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27531371/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 23:00:59 PDT

going to the movies with a friend tomorrow (ZOMBIELAAAAAAND), havent done that since I went to see district nine back in august with a different friend. but that was a more turbulent time, heck a more turbulent friend, than now (though I did have fun going to see it with him, of course)

I have a Mika song stuck in my head. bah.

;lkas;ldkfjsldsj I love having no class on fridays. three day weekends alllllllll the time. tis sweet, yo.

so its raining. gotta love it. I wish my bed was next to the window, like I used to have it when I was a little kid. but then I'd get no sleep because I'd be sitting up and watching the rain... and unlike when i was a kid, I have a job I have to go to in the morning...

is it weird to both trust and not trust yourself at the same time?

]]> =bogyphobia Devious Journal Entry http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27288642/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27288642/ Fri, 18 Sep 2009 20:35:40 PDT Edit: sorry about this. I was, and still am, pretty pissed off about stuff

posting here because I cant anywhere else because it could actually make things worse.

fuck you, just because I share your blood doesnt meant I have to cater to your every thought. "why are you still on the phone" "because you didnt say 'i love you.' that makes me sad. makes me want to cry." well, frankly you didnt say it either. passive aggressive whore.

that's all.

]]> =bogyphobia I am moving. http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27142232/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27142232/ Thu, 10 Sep 2009 22:32:17 PDT
_{nevermind the fact that I cant take one look at kurt russel without cracking up. I cant take that guy seriously}

my cat is making biscuits on my stomach and ribs. slight ow, mostly aw.

so, for once i'd really like to do the readings in my classes, except my textbook is still shipping to me. oh the irony that is shipping dates. my cat has freaking insane whiskers. they make ringlets!

There is also a monster canoe in my garage that wont go away because my uncle hasn't come to adopt it yet. I sincerely hope he picks it up before the snow begins to fall, so my car doesnt end up parking in 3-inch deep layers of ice!

. when that happens I'll just make sure to be out of the house all the time so I dont have to cut away at it... xD. carpal tunnel ftw.

also, a formal apology to Veo, for not letting you show me Eternal Sunshine sooner than the other day. that movie is amazing.

so. its 9/11 now. 1 year ago my life took a different course. huh. that was one year ago. I got off of work, took the bus to my high school, and spent the evening ending things. last year, I worked at a daycare, was a freshman in college, was engaged, all that jazz. To quote regina spektor:

_{"Thought the mountain would crumble
and the rivers would bend
but I thought all wrong and the world did not end
guess the maps will just have to stay the same for a while"}

now my life is in a much different, and in some ways better place (there is, admittedly, much more drama. but the parts that arent drama infested are actually very good.).

At this particular moment as I write, I am not bothered by the fact that the anniversary of the breakup of my first relationship is today. I thought I would be. but who knows, maybe it'll kick in later (not that I want it to) or something.

my eyes want to close now. goodnight!

Kait.

]]> =bogyphobia Spinning, Spinning, the World's Spinning http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27023818/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/27023818/ Fri, 04 Sep 2009 20:56:34 PDT
[link]

just thought I'd start with that, as it has some emotional significance. First time I heard it (last...december?) it had an emotional impact on me. to this day it still does, and I never get tired of listening to it. View it if you'd like, it is by no means a bad song (in fact, please? I want to know if im the only one getting affected by it. hrm.)

all last week I was hoping to be able to sit and see the full moon when it was possible, and last night I was able to. it was very nice.

bah, here's another really good live recording of another song (Girls, Be Ambitious) [link]

_{anyone who knows me at least a little knows miyavi is one of my loves in life. It kind of...REALLY, helps that he's amazing at guitar, singing, and is major eye candy.}

Man, I want the 7 samurai sessions dvd so bad. one day, one day...

I bought a ton of instant soup earlier for my lunches next week, because if i didnt, I think I would risk going bankrupt, what with school. I only have about 300 bucks to my name, WOO!

. and I also learned that I do not want to ever pull an all-day-er ever again XD. I'm fine with 17 hour days maximum, thankyouverymuch. although there is something to be said about the sweet spot where you stop feeling tired at hour twenty...

I've got a somewhat busy day planned out for me tomorrow. kinda excited about a certain thing I'm doing and wondering how it will turn out. say goodbye to kait the fake ginger. thats all I'll say

.

why do i have such strange quirks? people tell me to stop them because they are illogical...but at the same time, they're my quirks because I was brought up to act them out, and therefore are located in my personal spectrum of things right and wrong. I do them because I feel them to be the polite/right/correct thing to do. I have a very strict set of personal rules, that though are subject to constant updating/editing, are rules I always follow. gah. I am rule-dependent. is that such a bad thing?

I forgot I had chips that I filched from work on my dresser. I should eat those... when I remember to do so.

well, I'm rambling and having trouble keeping my thoughts straight, though I still have to put away some laundry. so, I am going to take my departure from you all, and try not to run into the wall on my way out (which happens much more than you would think. I've got quite the nasty bruise on my arm just from walking into the wall leaving work. my arm just hit the edge and what did I do? I kept walking! I was that tired! wheeeee

I shall leave you all with Neo Visualism. [link]

Kait

]]> =bogyphobia sooooo... http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26921668/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26921668/ Sun, 30 Aug 2009 17:56:21 PDT
School starts for me on wednesday. its gonna be the end of the longest summer I've ever had (literally and figuratively). i looked forward to it for months...and now...I'm scared for it to start. Well, a big part of the reason I'm afraid for it to start is from some recent drama (and in my head I know to be afraid of it is silly, but Im still afraid regardless).

i got home today, took a nap, woke up, went to work, and immediately started feeling like shit. I'm much better now...but I literally could not stand up straight. I was huddled on a seat in the corner of work for a good 30 minutes, I think (and it didnt help that a coworker of mine slapped me on the ass REALLY hard, cause they forgot I was in pain. they felt really bad, and apologized, but it didnt change the fact that my eyes teared up XD). Towards the end of my shift, it finally backed off..but I was having trouble getting stuff done for a good long while.

Saturday morning, I'm getting some stuff done! I am going to look a tad different

. (no, not plastic surgery.).

what to do, what to do, what to do... I dont want to go to sleep, as I want to have a fairly regular sleep schedule, what with the approaching school year. yet I really have nothing else to do today. I could draw, I suppose...

Which reminds me, A-D, I actually need to remember to use your scanner, next time D:. I forget every time I ask.

Kait

]]> =bogyphobia whoops. http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26867088/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26867088/ Thu, 27 Aug 2009 23:04:59 PDT
update: I went through seventy-seven pages of job titles on milwaukeejobs, and I applied at twenty-two of them. most of them 3rd shift, so i can still go to school. oi vey.

]]> =bogyphobia tired. http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26827915/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26827915/ Wed, 26 Aug 2009 00:14:12 PDT
_{-I don't know what I'm going to do about my living situation. to quote the clash, 'should I stay, or should I go?' (...if I stay there will be trouble, if I go, there will be double. okay, I'll stop now)

-of being too nice. I've let certain people walk all over me for a long time. Now, i wont any more (let them walk all over me), but that doesnt change the damage already done.

-of not being assertive. I wonder if certain things I wanted in my life didnt happen because I didnt seem assertive enough. I'm okay even without them happening, but if I had pursued more, would more have happened? and is there still chances...? gah.

-of feeling guilty. damnit, last fall, I felt suicidal every goddamn day. I woke up, walked to my bathroom, and every day resisted downing an entire bottle of whatever I had in my medicine cabinet. every day. Now I'm finally not that way. I wake up and look forward to things. Yet some people want me back the old way. say I was better that way because I was less of an "attention whore." and that they "understood me" better. fuck, they just wanted to feel superior.

-of having stupid emotions. I swear, if I communicated all the feelings and thoughts that went on in my head, I would seem like I was batshit insane. Feeling clingy for someone I just met? Sure, I like them. but i dont know them. they dont know me, and dont like me like that, i'm sure. I dont want to get feelings for another person, so I wont. but I hate that doubtful clump of shit that is my brain.

-of hurting people. no matter what I seem to do, I hurt people. I take advantage of them. I drain them. I certainly dont try to do these things, but they happen anyway. Do I attract psychotic people??

-of feeling like a hypocrite when I say I dont like drama. Dammit, my life is always jam-packed with it. this summer has literally been soap episode to soap episode, from May to August. I know it looks like its all I attract, but that doesnt mean I like it. I fucking want some peace. To just be able to hang out with my best friend, go to school, and meet new people.

-of feeling bad because of the main reason I want school to start back up again. what is my reason? I want to meet someone. Every time I have been single, that is my motivation for school to start. is that stupid? i dont think so. but its certainly not a good reason. I should want to go back for my education, not dating.}

So, there you have some things I'm tired of. Only a few of the things listed are marginally serious, and only certain people know why. After tonight I feel much less bad about the situation, but I am still livid. There are so many things i want to say. so many things I want to communicate, and yell. I fear I will never get that opportunity, but oh do I wish I could.

I'm not a drama queen, I swear. It just seems to follow me around like a hawk. I would be perfectly happy becoming a hermit, and having once-a-decade meetings with the other members of my secret club, Hermits united, where we discuss the nature of caves over wine coolers and cheese.

i want to sit, cuddle, laugh, and talk about anything and everything with... well, only a few people. one of which I dont know yet (that person being "someone"). But thats all I want. If I could have a day where nothing bad happened, and everything went right, I would spend the next week doing just about everything anyone asked me to do, in thanks.

If sitting and discussing sweet nothings with a special someone could be a career, I would sign up for it in a heartbeat.

]]> =bogyphobia ended (update with photo!) http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26704151/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26704151/ Thu, 20 Aug 2009 00:20:09 PDT
I sat at the coffee shop for a good six hours, before getting up and then returning for another hour. possibly sold a piece of art (we've already agreed on a date and price.). I'm not sure I'll get to upload it before I sell it. its just a pencil sketch, but it turned out quite nice. the style was vaguely inspired by the art of pu-sama/maladies, but I think I'm the only one who can really tell, since it was on my mind as i drew the picture.

Its really interesting sitting in an upstairs window above a busy street and watching the crowd go from the heading-home people to the party people. an interesting transition, one I've begun to join

.

Accidentally spilled beer on a guys crotch, for which i apologized profusely (not only because I was sad I made a spill, but that was some good beer that got wasted!), but he merely complimented my aim and jokingly said 'would you like some beer' while gesturing at the spill XD. and we were walking arm and arm as he sang a rousing scottish song down brady street a short while later, so its all good.

I also got piggy back rides. that was really cool. I didnt know people could pick me up without dying from my sheer size (I'm not that big...but I'm not that small either

), much less a girl (yes it was a girl that gave me piggy back rides. I aint complaining, it was fun!)

many plans were made by the above mentioned people to corrupt me. oh, the humanity. "she's so cute just look at how innocent she looks!" was said by several different people, piggy-back girl and beer-crotch guy included.

more efforts must be made to complete my cuddling resume, because my skills are being discovered. even just walking down brady, beer-crotch guy said "man, you're cuddly. I cant believe you said more people dont hug you!" to which about three people bum rushed me and demanded cuddles. It was hilarious.

cant wait till you get back, A-D! I have stories to tell you

-Kait

update: I added a photo of the evening for your viewing pleasure:

]]> =bogyphobia am I? http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26681920/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26681920/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 22:11:13 PDT
went to a local coffee shop with a friend today. Was sung a Scotsman song in payment for one of my friends' cigarettes. many moments of complete immaturity ensued, including things like "kait, you only need ONE finger" (meant completely normally. I just happened to crack up and ruin it for the both of us.) or "I cant find the hole!" (she kept missing her mouth because she was so excited to eat her jimmy john sandwich. I mean, its jimmy johns. wouldnt you be that excited too?)

I dont have work tomorrow, hurray. Well, I need the money, but still. I think I'll be hitting that coffee shop again tomorrow night, except this time i wont leave at 8:30PM D:<

_{I've really been spoiled by my first year/summer in college... 3AM is an early bed time for me now.}

ahhhh I wish i could do laundry. but our washer is on the fritz. ahhhhhhhh.

I am uncharacteristically tired right now. given that I do actually have to be up before noon for the washer repair guy, I should probably go to sleep. well, I guess i will.

shut up YOUR face.

-Kait.

]]> =bogyphobia when life gives you lemons http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26633696/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26633696/ Sun, 16 Aug 2009 17:12:11 PDT
I feel strange having a trunk of fake weapons in my basement... *cough*FIPS,YOUOWEMEONE!!!*cough*

I felt even weirder when my parents asked me if it was even legal to be in posession of bb guns. what? ("I dont even know if its legal to SELL used bb guns" is one thing they said. I believe my friend mr. cool responded with "hell, I sell REAL guns and its completely legal") and then refused to believe me when I said it was perfectly legal. aaaahhhhh

anyway. district 9 was quite awesome. bloody, gory, action-y, yet also thought-provoking and fairly creative with their filming style. the CGI was also fairly good. I dont want to say it was anything near the horror genre, but certain aspects of it were definitely horrifying, if you think about them in anything more than a passing thought.

what else did I enjoy about the movie? that I was able to hold hands the entire way through. and my hand didnt fall asleep this time

.

now I'm off to hang out with people.

-homepad

Edit: I hate being a female. with hormones. now I'm bummed. hanging out with people was okay enough, but now I am sad. for no reason. lame.

]]> =bogyphobia woah nelly http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26558702/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26558702/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 22:28:13 PDT
on top of that, I'm surprised that something of this nature would happen in my life anyway. I dont do stuff like this. Im not as spontaneous as some people may believe me to be. but I've realized the fun in it. and I want more.

sorry to those that could derive nothing of actual sense from this journal post

.

hooray for spending time at ~Alternate-Deviants! will be fun as always.

]]> =bogyphobia not sure how to feel http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26320446/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26320446/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 15:08:10 PDT
Those of you who know me in person know I was never, ever close to my grandmother. She did, said, and believed a lot of things that were morally wrong, and emotionally screwy (beyond the 'everyone is entitled to their own opinion' arena. she went past that.)

About thirteen years ago she had a battle with breast cancer that she won... until now. Thing is, she's so far gone from her mental disorder (a lovely cocktail of alzheimers AND dementia...) that she doesnt even realize it. the doctor told her and her response was something along the lines of 'okay, that sounds great!' because it didnt register in her brain.

given the mental disorders, my family has decided to let her pass on instead of fighting the cancer, because otherwise the kind of life she faces is wandering in a mental fog.

I kind of want to say some sentimental things about my grandmother, how underneath all the difficult stuff, she was my grandma, and that I loved her, that she was there for me. but... I cant. The truth is, she was never fit to be a mother or a grandmother. She didnt have enough self-awareness to realize when she was actually doing something wrong, and thus, she did many wrong things. Because of the way she behaved throughout her life, my family has suffered. Because of her, my family was practically doomed before it began (not completely, but to a large degree.)

I always knew I never actually loved my grandmother. But I didn't hate her either. I'm just dealing with the fact that I'm not actually going to be sad to see her go. Because, to be honest... things will be easier. Less care will have to be taken on stupid things (my grandmother has a habit of angering people because of their heritage/skin color/accent/religion without realizing it, and says many offensive things).

I guess it will be weird to lose the only grandmother I've ever known. It'll be the first person directly in my life to die, as well. It's...I guess its just plain weird. I know I shouldnt force myself to be sad if I'm not, because that's pointless. and I dont wish that I was upset either. I just feel out of place because of it.

even though my entire immediate family feels the same way as I do.

]]> =bogyphobia aagghhhh http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26223089/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26223089/ Mon, 27 Jul 2009 23:33:34 PDT
everytime I feel I should halt and stop and hide away, theres that little inquiry. that text, that email, that comment. It comes at exactly the right time. I both hate it and love it, both for that I dont know how to interpret it. I know it means little to anyone but me. But I live for it. its one of the things that keeps me going... to see if it'll be there the next time I feel like hiding away. if it will keep its appointment, if you will. thanks, by the way.

]]> =bogyphobia dunno http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26137944/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26137944/ Thu, 23 Jul 2009 20:04:19 PDT
i need music right now... and gas money. fuuuuck. perhaps the payment from this tattoo will buy me my next tank of gas. hm.

might be getting a second job soon. I hope so. because i am flat broke, and have bills. SO, if anyone wants to purchase commissions or prints from me, send me a note. I've put up prices before and never got a response...so....really I guess its up to whoever wants to buy something. name your price as well, and there may be possible haggling. but eh, whatever.

at the moment I'm trying to pull myself out of a mood swing that I fell into earlier today...involving quite a bit of feeling lonely. not like... I dont have friends. because I do, obviously. i just am missing certain things I used to experience. namely stuff like this:

also, the person who took that photo is ~Inuibuki and she is awesome. check her out.

but anyway, yeah. I miss close contact. I miss being able to take that final step in bridging the gap in a friendship.

I'm not looking for answers by saying all this...I'm just...saying it. I know no amount of me saying it will really change anything, though.

oh well..

]]> =bogyphobia its midnight. do you know where YOUR children are? http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26097984/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/26097984/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 22:45:38 PDT
okay, i got that out of my system *cough*

So far, this has been a veeery bad summer for my computer. I've had to change the hard drive twice

once for no reason other than it decided it wanted to meet the great hard drive in the sky, and the second time...my cat caused it to reach an untimely end.

normally this would put a damper on art...except for one of my friends not only fixed my computer, but got me ALL the latest adobe cs4 products... including illustrator and photoshop. I'm itching to use illustrator, as I never have before. any advices, plzkthx?

aaaanyway. I was feeling extremely down this evening, until I went to my friend ~Enigma493's house. which involved a covert trip to the 24 hour walmart in town. geh. Now I actually feel back to normal somewhat. The past 48 hours I've been second guessing myself and who I am to my friends :\ even though my logic tells me that I'm being stupid. but hey...I'm [regretfully] a teenage girl, at the moment. and as a friend said to me once, gotta enjoy it while it lasts, right?

this entire month has been full of firsts. first really awesome birthday, first time I kiss someone without really knowing them at all (I regret who it was, not that I did the act...cause after all, it was gonna happen in my life sometime, might as well get it over with, eh?), first time I really loved my job (or I should say, the things that happen at my job). There are less-than-ideal firsts too, but hows about I dont go into detail about those, mmkay?

where the hellz is my life going? am I actually living it? am I out of control?

eye dee kay.

kait

]]> =bogyphobia I feel ill. http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25887764/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25887764/ Sat, 11 Jul 2009 20:48:21 PDT this is me venting, saying what I would wish to say to someone in particular. It is no one who has a dA account, and this is purely so I dont become sick with what has happened.

why? how could you do something so disgusting? I knew you were an asshole, but I still loved you like an uncle. I always thought 'oh, thats just the way he is. he kind of has to be that way to get by in the world' because thats what was the truth.

I've known you since I was a fucking baby. I trusted you. I knew, that if anything happened to my dad, you would be one of the people that would be there. YOU WERE PART OF WHAT I CONSIDERED MY FAMILY, YOU FUCKER.

How could you think what you did would be okay? what about Her? what about the girls? what's going to happen to them, because you decided you liked the cradle better than what you had?! NONE OF THEM DESERVED THIS. YOU HAVE RUINED WHAT YOU HAVE BUILT. FOR WHAT!?

Do you even KNOW what you have done to my father? He loves you like a brother. Because he is such a good friend, he cannot, and WILL NOT, hate you. He will be there. And you know he will. You take advantage of it. And you know what? I will try my damndest to make sure you will not do more than what he lets you. You want help moving out of the house? I'm gonna oppose. You want sympathy? I'm gonna oppose. YOU DO NOT DESERVE IT.

I know I have absolutely nothing to do with this situation, and I dont even spring to your mind. That doesnt matter. Any affect I can have on protecting my father, I will do it. You will not lay claim to his emotions. Let your mess stay in your life, thanks?

The past few months, I have been on the fence about whether or not getting married is worth it, with all the shit I've seen people go through. but this takes the cake. I am probably never getting married. Not after I've seen this shit. Nothing at all is wrong with love, but after seeing someone go this far, ruin such a wonderful life because he wasn't THINKING... The pieces left over from that are so vast, its just not worth it.

To invest so many years for nothing. How can someone do such a thing to someone? How can it even be thought of to be okay?! If this situation happened to them, whats to say it wont happen to me? Whats to say it wont happen to those I love...shit, it HAS happened to those I love. I will not go through that. I almost did.

You are disgusting.

]]> =bogyphobia Devious Journal Entry http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25764351/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25764351/ Sun, 05 Jul 2009 23:27:56 PDT
go me.

]]> =bogyphobia fantastic http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25745126/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25745126/ Sun, 05 Jul 2009 00:13:17 PDT
plus, I discovered the musical artist Dan Rodriguez. HE'S SO GOOD. LISTEN TO HIM! [link]

he's sooooooo good live. seriously.

but yeah. I love my friends. so much.

and I'm off!

Kait.

]]> =bogyphobia sound of birds http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25620240/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25620240/ Mon, 29 Jun 2009 02:15:22 PDT

I've been working on a tattoo design for a coworker that I think is going to be pretty effing sweet, and I have permission to upload finished photos of the tattoo here (expect them in late july/early august!)

I recently lost my hard drive and managed to get all the information back without having to pay any money to recover it, because my father is an absolute freaking genius. <3 him.

Also, within the last 48 hours I have made a friend. this friend seems to like me but I dont know what to make of it. he'll be a good friend, to be sure, however. and I like friendlies.

I hope A-D's ankle gets better soon >:

]]> =bogyphobia Devious Journal Entry http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25216051/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25216051/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 12:11:38 PDT
help me.

]]> =bogyphobia feeling better http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25080497/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25080497/ Mon, 01 Jun 2009 23:32:18 PDT veoguy2 (one of my besties- check out his work, naow!) earlier today was helpful, and hanging out with ~Alternate-Deviant (another one, check out his gallery too when he puts more up, I command you!) tomorrow.

sometimes I miss being out of high school...but honestly... i would not have started up with the friends I have now if I'd still been back there. gotta love 'em.

I've decided to post up some of my favorite photos from the airsoft games I photograph for, just interesting ones... hope someone finds them interesting (i've been getting into a lot of photography lately)

so yeah I'm off to do that, and then get sleep. cheers.

Kait.

]]> =bogyphobia fucked. http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25054225/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25054225/ Sun, 31 May 2009 15:38:27 PDT

LINK TITLE HERE | LINK TITLE HERE | LINK TITLE HERE

kind of mentally/emotionally fucked right now. Stopped paying attention to my own emotional boundaries in my actions and got myself hurt. Still, I dont regret it, because I was able to provide some help to a couple people, whom I love dearly...

I just cant shake the feeling that I've done so much more harm than good. It was mentioned to me that whatever I'm saying creates drama. hell, maybe this journal is creating drama, though I doubt it, because I doubt I have readers. Anyway, the point is that I think the only way for me to stop hurting others, or bringing up new/old wounds is to just...I dont know...to just stop.

I'm not exactly sure what this means for me yet. Stop being? Stop behaving? Stop loving? What do I do? If I keep on going as I do now...someone else is just going to get hurt because thats all I seem to do.

And, now that I'm on a roll... I just seem to have some shitty luck with my feelings. well...thats a little harsh. but I always seem to veer off into dead-end territory. Both times this has happened to me I gained important friends in my life, so I suppose its not really so bad. its just...right after the fact, as such is now, its hard to see the positives.

maybe one day I'll hit the mark. or maybe I'll just keep finding similar scenarios and both hurt/help those involved. I'm not sure. any suggestions?

Kait.

]]> =bogyphobia Treated myself, I guess. http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25006990/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/25006990/ Thu, 28 May 2009 22:58:51 PDT
I've been fairly dormant on dA as of late, but hopefully that will change now that it is summer. I've got plenty of inspirations, to say the least (feeling-wise, anyway. damn you, the human heart -_-. lame insult is lame)

I've been participating in a lot more photography these days...although strictly amateur...I dont even have a tripod (haha). given that i've been photographing a lot of airsoft (oh yeah, I'm in that crowd now, by the way.) maybe if I take an alright one every now and then I'll post it here.

I cant think of anything else to say here...I'm really not sure what to do with this css thing XD

]]> =bogyphobia emergency please read (update) http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/22542725/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/22542725/ Mon, 12 Jan 2009 12:37:04 PST UPDATE!

okay, an awesome friend, Lita =sd-stock, has created a grunge texture pack to help me, and I am eternally grateful for not only that is helping but also that she wants to help, it means a lot.

I was on the phone with my bank today and found good news, OD charges reversed, however I am still in need of money because I'm getting hours cut this semester, and I still need to make rent/bills. in a way, this issue today is somewhat of a good thing cause it made the final push to getting me on the ball as far as commissions go. still gotta finish my paypay setup, doing that quite soon.

/end update

hey, I've found myself in need of money all of the sudden. seriously in trouble here.

I'm, as of this moment, open for commissions, as well as selling artwork. Pretty much anything in my gallery is up for offer, if you're interested (except for the horoscope series. they're in a bound book and unless you wanted to buy the whole book, which I dont think is likely, those are not for sale, as well as older pieces because I dont possess them anymore.

commission prices would be as follows:

all payments would be via paypal-

traditional:
head-sketch - $5.00
full-body sketch - $8.00
multiple person sketch - $10.00

head-ink - $8.00
full-body ink - $10.00
multiple person ink - $13.00

head-ink and color -$13.00
full-body ink and color - $15.00
multiple person ink and color - $18.00

Digital (all images would be emailed in a high-quality photoshop cs3 format)
head-sketch - $10.00
full-body sketch - $13.00
multiple person sketch - $15.00

head-clean lineart - $13.00
full-body clean lineart - $15.00
multiple person clean lineart - $18.00

head- lineart and color - $18.00
full-body lineart and color - $21.00
multiple person lineart and color - $24.00

all pieces in my gallery are for sale, please comment/note me if you're interested in purchasing, I would be shipping them out via my university's packaging store. payment is needed on anything via paypal, half before, half after, for both my own and your comfort and security with the purchase.

again, this is seriously urgent. I'm in trouble here. thank you.

]]> =bogyphobia I can has patrick nagel? http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/22397036/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/22397036/ Sun, 04 Jan 2009 15:10:02 PST
one of my absolute favorite artists is Patrick Nagel (if you're not familiar, here's one of his pieces --> [link] its done with acrylics, no joke. Nagel was a painter from the 80's - now deceased - who only painted women. he was a playboy artist as well. but anyway, hi skill is that of almost looking like computer work, without the computer. I love him.)

but anyway, as I was saying

I found his work today, AT GOODWILL. normally, I find unsigned prints of his on the internet to be costing about 250-700 dollars EACH (I once found a bulk pack worth 15,999...holy cats.). signed prints, forget it, you're looking at at least a grand per print.

and how much do you think I paid for each print?

FIVE DOLLARS. FIVE FREAKING DOLLARS. I scared the staff because I started screaming with joy XD.

of course I promptly bought them and reframed them at home (one of the frames was broken and I had to replace it, wouldnt you know, goodwill was selling a frame in the exact size as the poster at the same time! for 3 bucks. it was just my day, ladies and gentlemen.)

so now I'm sitting in my room, with one piece above my head and another on the other side of the room that I keep staring at. huzzah...

I'm out

Bogy

]]> =bogyphobia uhhhhmmmmmmm..... http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/21823100/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/21823100/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 20:54:45 PST
okay I'm done.

]]> =bogyphobia bitching and moaning http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/21470235/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/21470235/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 13:59:45 PST
I wanted to write something, but it wont matter anyway (which was what the writings would be about) so never mind.

]]> =bogyphobia all hail the hypnobama. http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/21327579/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/21327579/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 20:36:28 PST I'm happy with the results...I wasnt really too involved (I voted, but it was weeks ago, as absentee) but it was fun watching all the people around me get excited and celebrate.

]]> =bogyphobia I DID IT! http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/21255742/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/21255742/ Fri, 31 Oct 2008 20:55:37 PDT I asked him to hang out with me. and he said yes. and we did, and exchanged numbers.

and he gave me a hug *squee*

]]> =bogyphobia alright, so...(would you buy?) http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/21193335/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/21193335/ Mon, 27 Oct 2008 19:53:24 PDT
All of these i think would be fairly good ones to sell as prints. Once I finish setting up my paypal account I will advertise selling them. So, even though i dont have these images up and running, I have a question to ask.

i would do a poll but I'm too poor for a subscription (no, I'm not hinting. I honestly cant buy one right now. in a few months I can but I'm not sure I want to buy a sub for this site at the moment)

anyway, please answer if you read this and are at all familiar with my work. also, what would be the price range you'd be willing to pay (please be honest if you answer this. I'm not sure what to charge, my mother tells me 5 dollars, a colleague says 50 dollars...) for an 11x14 acid free matte/gloss paper.

XD...

kablam.

]]> =bogyphobia ... http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/20896937/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/20896937/ Wed, 08 Oct 2008 20:10:51 PDT

go have one, betches

]]> =bogyphobia was taaaagged http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/20476893/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/20476893/ Sat, 13 Sep 2008 18:22:45 PDT

Rules:
1)You can use as many characters as you like, as long as you use 2 mains and 3 minor characters.
2)You must tag the minimum of one person after this quiz. The max is as many people as you want.
3)Make sure to notify the person you tagged they got tagged afterwards!

I use:

Main-
Kaito
Katze

Minor-
Juniper
Mayo
Toya

1)Ah, welcome to my quiz! Time for the first question: How old are you?
Kaito: 23!
Katze: 20
Juniper: 17..
Mayo: ME TOO!
Toya: I died...

2)Interesting! Now, what series are you from(sonic, an anime series, mario, megaman, etc.)?
Kaito: I aint from no damn tv series
Katze: I dont watch tv.
Juniper: I was named after a plant, how can I be from tv? unless you mean the DIY network! 8D
Mayo: named after a condiment?
Toya: my namesake was a gay man from a comic book. GAY I TELL YOU.

3)What species are you?
Kaito: HUMANHUMANHUMAN
Katze: I almost got turned into a vampire but I DIDNT HAHA
Juniper: I'm a gay red fox.
Mayo: gay condiment.
Toya: a crazy cat, dammit.

4)Do you like candy?
Kaito: chocolate is better than the orgasm, I dont care if I'm a guy, its still true.
Katze: processed foods are a nono! unless you're talking about tacos...
Juniper: any candy can be made into adult candy...
Mayo: Location! location! location! see I can finish his sentences AND make a funny.
Toya: no.

5)If you have an element(Only do main), what is it?
Kaito: I am not gay in that way, thank you.
Katze: none...BUT I'D BE WATER!

6)Do you like/love someone?
Kaito: not at the moment. not ready yet.
Katze: ahem..
Juniper: oh come on you havent noticed?
Mayo: What he said.
Toya: I'm a neutered cat, what do you think.

7)If so, who is it?
Kaito: AGAIN, no one. stop asking.
Katze: ...
Juniper & Mayo: *snogging*
Toya: oh come on, dude...

8)Are you nice or mean?
Kaito: I'd like to reference an amazing comedian to answer you..."spare change is the same as wedgies, for me...I dont give it unless someones really asking."
Katze: nice
Juniper: buzz off.
Mayo: please?
Toya: crazy 8D

9)Do you have any friends?
Kaito: none in particular
Katze: eh.
Juniper: NO NEED
Mayo: same.
Toya: are you not getting the "dead cat" idea?

10)Any hobbies?
Kaito: not really..
Katze: SCI-FI NOVELS
Juniper: heehee
Mayo: *grin*
Toya:..god you're stupid.

11)Do you hate a certain person?
Kaito: no.
Katze: why would I?
Juniper: dont know enough people to hate
Mayo: Colonel Mustard... he gives a bad name to condiment-names like me.
Toya: no.

12) What do you like to eat most of all?
Kaito: Burritos!
Katze: TAAACOOOOSSSS
Juniper & mayo: you're really not getting this, are you?
Toya: I'M DEAD.

13)Have any secrets?
Kaito: I'm standing behind you right...NOW.
Katze: uh, no...
Juniper: 8D
Mayo: 8D
Toya: DEAD..

14)What's your height?
Kaito: 5'11"
Katze: 5'6"
Juniper: I never checked...
Mayo: taller than juniper.
Toya: I WAS about 2 feet tall but then I DIED.

15)Eye color?
Kaito: brown with yellow highlights.
Katze: blue.
Juniper: blue.
Mayo: green.
Toya: yellow.

16)Hair color?(if not, say skin/scale color)
Kaito: black
Katze: blonde
Juniper: fire truck red
Mayo: blonde
Toya: black.

17)Anything unique about you?
Kaito: I change image every 2 years!
Katze: MY CREATOR FORGOT ABOUT ME
Juniper&Mayo&Toya: US TOO.

18)What's your full name?
they dont have full names. hah.

19)Have any nicknames?
NONE HERE EITHER THEIR NAMES ARE SHORT.

20)What do you think of your creator?
Kaito: I hate her. not.
Katze: who?
Juniper: wha?
Mayo:...
Toya: she didnt create me, she commemorated me.

21)Have a best friend?
all: NO.

22)Do you want kids in the future? Or do you already have any?
Kaito: not really.
Katze: I'd make a better uncle
Juniper&Mayo: we arent allowed to have children, as far as we know!
Toya: I'M DEAD ALREADY.

23)Do you like flowers?
Kaito: GAYYYYY
Katze: they're interesting to look at.
Juniper: love them!
Mayo: love giving them!
Toya: unless its catnip, NO.

I TAG NO ONE UNLESS YOU WANNA DO IT 8D

]]> =bogyphobia I got tagged by zie-chan http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/20392072/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/20392072/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 14:02:47 PDT
1- POST THESE RULES IN YOUR JOURNAL.
2- EACH TAGGED PERSON MUST POST 8 FACTS ABOUT THEM SELVES IN THEIR JOURNAL.
3- AT THE END, YOU MUST TAG 8 PEOPLE AND POST THEIR ICONS IN YOUR SAME JOURNAL.
4- GO TO THEIR PAGE AND SEND THEM A MESSAGE THAT THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED.
4 and a half- NO TAG-BACKS.

---

1. i have two adorable pet rats, sigfried and roy (and I named them too well...I saw roy humping sigfried 2 weeks ago)

2. I'm a freshman in college and it scares the crap out of me

3. I TAKE CARE OF LITTLE KIDS. I always used to hate little kids...BUT I LOVE THIS JOB...what has happened to me?

4. I prefer wasting my work break on computer surfing rather than homework

5. I date a girl. okay not really. but he looks like a girl.

6. I named my laptop Koby...

7. I have an obsession with knitting that comes and goes...I refer to it as the "knitter bug"

8. I have a huge phobia of needles (but I made myself get a TB test earlier today! all by myself! I've never gotten a shot by myself before...yay me)

]]> =bogyphobia those sitcoms werent lying....AND http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/20295059/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/20295059/ Tue, 02 Sep 2008 17:38:18 PDT
its not extremely bad, but its day one and I:

-already dropped japanese because I could tell it was waaaayyy too hard for me to tackle in my first semester

-have to read a 50 page chapter and take notes; for psychology (and unlike high school I actually HAVE to read the texts)

-and have to read a 20 page chapter 1 of my animals in america textbook

oh by the way

[link]

]]> =bogyphobia really funny tag, take a look http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/20055206/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/20055206/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 07:40:52 PDT

:shakefist <3

now, THIS IS A JOKE

Dear

,
I don't really know how to tell you this, but I dislike you. I think I realized it when I threw up at the Hare Krishna graduation and I saw you ignore my avacado plant. I'm sure you're man enough to understand that Extreme Home Makeover sucks. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your left ear as a memory. You should also know that I get sick of Eggplant Fetishism.

Go Burn,
-Bogyphobia-

((THE TAG MADE ME DO EET))

I taaag....

Rules: Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

-> How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your Journal).
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.
___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflÃ©
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The... ]]> =bogyphobia ...rats? http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/19919648/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/19919648/ Tue, 12 Aug 2008 16:26:14 PDT
It wasnt planned, i swear! I just went to the pet store to do research D:.

but then I decided to handle a rat (to see if the experience would be any better than at another pet store...aka being bitten like no tomorrow...they were feeder rats)

not only did he not bite me, he snuggled on me, climbed into my hair, fell asleep on my boobs, and rubbed its face on my cheek!!!

usually its very rare for me to have such a good positive introduction with an animal...they usually hate me, or fear me. So I took a dive and got him...

now, my mom made the initial purchase, but seeing as I just got my preferred job today (as opposed to the uwm bookstore, now i have a more stable job at the kunkle center!) and I start next week, I'm going to pay her back from my first paycheck.

I will post pictures soon. OH MAH GAWD....I HAVE A RAT....WHAT THE HELL?!

*insert nervous but excited laughter*

]]> =bogyphobia DID IT FOR THE LULZ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/19886922/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/19886922/ Sun, 10 Aug 2008 21:32:07 PDT

thank

for that XD.

]]> =bogyphobia HELL YEAH http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/19808983/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/19808983/ Wed, 06 Aug 2008 12:57:15 PDT
]]> =bogyphobia have been comfy http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/19800481/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/19800481/ Wed, 06 Aug 2008 00:12:37 PDT
I still havent gotten a job, which bothers me greatly. I apply at many places yet get very few callbacks. I dont just want a job for the money, I want a job for something to DO...because I feel I just waste away my time otherwise (unless I'm drawing or talking with people I genuinely enjoy being around/speaking to)

submitted a WIP...look at it, I'm hoping for critique on what to do next for the picture (as far as a background, and if I should crop it so its not a plain old square. to add a feeling of an edge to the piece and such.)

blah.

]]> =bogyphobia I have moved into my new place! http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/19275889/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/19275889/ Tue, 08 Jul 2008 14:45:22 PDT
I've unpacked most of my stuff and am going job hunting tomorrow, possibly with babygizmo89 to keep me company (she's spending the night

!!! )

this place is amazing and I will soon take pictures and upload them so you may all see my place. my roommate actually has a deviantart (and some wicked awesome photography!), she's ~Pazzy!

my room has a view of the street and thankfully the sky. its facing east, so in the morning I'll be able to see the sun. and on those hot days, I have ivy covering most of my window so I have some protection from the heat.

I cant believe I'm starting out on my own O____O;;;;

]]> =bogyphobia from the new computer!! http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/19172762/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/19172762/ Wed, 02 Jul 2008 20:04:58 PDT . (after my dad so elequently put it, "antivirus and spyware protector filled up the whazoo!)

its HUUUUGE. I didnt really expect it to be so. it'll be good for photoshop usage!

Slowly transporting all my things to my new apartment. today was random stuff and tomorrow its kitchen supplies!
perhaps in a few weeks I'll submit more artwork, but at the moment I'm pretty blocked. My guess is spillover from overwork on the school yearbook. I'll recover soon!

currently pretty happy; boyfriend also bought me the soundtrack to Across the Universe, which I've been wanting for some time now.

I turn 18 in two weeks! (july 13th!! whoooo!)

]]> =bogyphobia 1720 http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/18820338/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/18820338/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 12:35:55 PDT
for some reason my parents agreed to buy me my own laptop. I'm not sure why, considering that the laptop is worth over twelve hundred dollars (there was a deal for 400 bucks off, hence them only paying 800 something.)

its the dell inspiron 1720. 17" with webcam and microphone. 4gb

for anyone who's curious, here are the specs

intel core 2 duo t5550
o.p. - windows vista (if I dont like vista I'm gonna switch it to xp)
color - ruby red

memory - 4gb shared dual channel DDR2 at 667MHz
video card - intel graphics media accelerator (I'm gonna save up to get an Nvidia card)
hard drive - 320gb SATA hard drive (5400RPM)
network card - integrated 10/100 network card and modem
optical drive - CD/DVD writer
sound card - integrated sound blaster Audigy HD
battery - 56Whr Lithium ion (6 cell)

came with 6 months free earthlink dialup...gives me some time to save up for cheap broadband

so my laptop is basically gonna be twice as large (in gb space) than my desktop. with the wifi capability, I'll be able to play plenty of mmorpgs

(currently waiting to be able to play the rohan rpg with yokko!)

GYAH...EXCITEMENT (I've wanted a laptop for years, and have toyed with the idea of getting an inspiron since they came out)

]]> =bogyphobia New digs! http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/18566060/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/18566060/ Thu, 29 May 2008 19:05:50 PDT
HURRAH!

]]> =bogyphobia Safety Dance http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/18092215/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/18092215/ Tue, 29 Apr 2008 19:18:17 PDT ____>;;;;

yeah I've just spent the evening getting songs for my ipod...the above was one of them. it took four hours D:... ah well, they were the ones I wanted

Safety Dance - Men without hats
Handlebars - Flobots
Bathwater - No Doubt (<3<3<3 this one)
Believe - The Bravery

I need more to put on, but I'm picky and it takes a few weeks at a time for me to find songs I can listen to over and over again... I recommend these songs, they're very good..'Bathwater' is sexy too XD.

anyway, yeah... thats it

takin my placement tests for college on the 8th! wish me luck in the math section XD.

school's going alright...I went from getting a U to an A in a matter of 2 days in world geo... I just didnt do homework

but I did a mass hand-in and fixed my grade. senioritis, yes.

...

in a mere four weeks I'm a highschool graduate! scary D:

]]> =bogyphobia meh? http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/17785602/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/17785602/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 19:06:34 PDT
I've updated, but I dont have much more to put up until a while from now.

next weekend I'm going to be out of town in florida, so maybe I'll bring back some pictures of me and a friend of mine I'm going to meet down there (4 amazing hours with Rina!!! <3<3<3!!) at cocoa beach on saturday. otherwise its wetnwild waterpark and disneyworld (senior trip). wonder what I'll see there.

strangely, the thing I'm looking forward to the most (besides hanging out with rina) is the flight down there...I love flying, I've never been able to have an experience like it. I mean, any kind of leaving (boat, train, coach bus, etc) on a trip gets me excited, but planes are something else. looking out that window at the ground and, yes, the turbulence (its fun xD, like a rollercoaster) are all amazing to me. I dunno, I guess I'm wierd.

everytime I've been on a plane, something interesting happens (whether its seeing the rocky mountains for the first time or meeting the drunk soldier Tony coming back from Korea...I miss him, if only I could run into him on a flight again XD. he got himself drunk cause he had a fear of airplanes)

its so exhilarating 8D!!

well thats it...I'm real hungry, I'ma go find food.

]]> =bogyphobia STUPID RESEARCH PAPER... http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/17269308/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/17269308/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 10:53:02 PDT
and I dont even care if I messed up a bunch, because I have an 80 extra credit point cushion on my paper!!!! (yes bugni students...I found the bumper sticker. I WONT TELL YOU WHERE, ITS MY CREDIT POINTS >.
plus I'm giving her books for more ex.c....to add it to 80 total.

I hate papers.

also, anyone who's interested, there's this real nice bibliography tool I used; its called Easybib. google it, all you have to do is put in the information and it arranges the list for you (even alphabetically, so when you put in all your sources all you have to do is cut and paste and you'll be done!) it arranges it all in the right format too, so you dont have to freak out about putting it in wrong

(<3 tobin...she told me the site)

MY PAPERS DONE MY PAPERS DONE MY PAPERS DONE HURRAH HURRAH

]]> =bogyphobia got into college! http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/16680586/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/16680586/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 19:43:22 PST
yay. <3

]]> =bogyphobia hello all! http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/15357091/ http://bogyphobia.deviantart.com/journal/15357091/ Sun, 04 Nov 2007 06:36:11 PST
~Yokko came to visit me the other day, she gave me a fishy!! its awesome. I've actually decided that after my babysitting gig next friday, if I have enough money left over after buying full supplies for the betta (the fish), I'm gonna buy it a buddy so its not alone all day while I'm at school.

because of one of our cats, I have to keep the fish in my sisters closet until I get a more substantial tank (square 1-gallon should be good enough, I think). I hate doing that, but at least its got a flourescent bulb so the light is closer to sunlight...I hate keeping it in there but for now its necessary.

I'm going to see if I can set up a paypal account within the next several months...maybe then I can sell artwork to people on here? would you guys want to buy my stuff at all? its relatively cheap. stuff's all within 15 bucks so far, and most are much cheaper than that.

I want chips and salsa right now...x_x....

-bogy

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