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that's all i wanted to say

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/26753932/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/26753932/ Sat, 22 Aug 2009 12:16:29 PDT [link] so far i like everything i see about it... there gonna do complete overhaul of the original world... by making it look like it went threw a blender of death and destruction... on top of that the horde is finally gonna be able to play as a goblins ... and the alliance finally get a truly mean character... werewolves (they call them worgen on the game) i already heard a few complaining that the horde should have gotten the worgen... but that's stupid... the horde is already full of voracious creatures ... the alliance needs there own... it sucks that it is probably gonna a be a year to a year and a half just to here the approximate release date... thou at the same time i want them to take there sweet time on it...

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/26734235/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/26734235/ Fri, 21 Aug 2009 13:01:14 PDT [link] took me and my brother to see district 9... it was awesome... exactly what i wanted to see... i am not gonna say anything about it... but i enjoyed it... after ward me and Kit watched Dead and breakfast... a quirky zombie movie... witch was also great... if square dancing zombies is wrong i don't want to be right... walked Kit home and talked about random stuff/anima... it was a good night...

i am so happy... me and my brother are gonna get into are place allot sooner then we expected... so very soon i will have my own place... thou i will be living with Chris... witch kinda sucks... i mean i love my brother but he is annoying... and he has a tendency want to be in control of everything... kinda like the queen bee complex...
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]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/26196715/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/26196715/ Sun, 26 Jul 2009 18:36:59 PDT
a few days ago my friend Joelle [link] introduced me too the Nostalgia critic and the nostalgia chick(the chick is hot)... on there website [link] the guy with the glasses... now for the past couple days i have been watching all there stuff...

this week was pretty spectacular... Monday was a basic work day... not great not bad... on Tuesday my friend Laurie visited... witch was awesome we got a small group together and screwed around for a little while... me, Thomas and Evan decided it was necessary to be as obnoxious as possible while we where in the Fred meyers... it was hilarious... then we bid fair well too Laurie and Thomas... the rest of the night me, Evan and Joelle watched some movies...on Wednesday i got a unsuspected call from my friend Courtney... we walked around for a little while, had lunch and then agreed that it was necessary to bug Joelle... so we surprised and gave her tidings of free food so she wouldn't kill us for showing up with out calling... thou where still not sure if she poisoned us or not... after watching some internet funny internet videos i bid fair well to Courtney and Joelle and went to my brothers BBQ and saw a few people i haven't seen in a few years... it was good... on thursday me and my brothers went to saks for breakfast and bullshitted for a while... then hung out up stairs for a little while... my friend Kit [link] i don't see to often was there i showed my brother the nostalgia critic show... all had a good laugh then went home and slept for work...

this weekend was jazz in the valley... it sucked... noisy city yuppies coming by and lookin down on all us country folk because there more sophisticated... i don't know why but it seems when ever there is a town event i always end up meeting that snobby piece of shit city yuppie who thinks them selves so much better... the first day of jazz in the valley i had this laddie come in with her kid and she looked at me with such disgust she couldn't hold a smile... it was so freaken weird... but i do the same i always do when i run into those people... smile and be polite.. witch i have come to the belief that it enrages them... it's so odd to run into those people... there so... unreal... i mean wow... you don't even know me and you are looking at me as if i am some kind of spawn of Satan... god damn people amaze me... sure i can handle and get over the stupid college floozy who is like that.. but if your in your 40's and you act like that... wow you must have gotten threw life on your back...

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/25968999/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/25968999/ Wed, 15 Jul 2009 17:11:11 PDT
i am really happy with this picture i did the other day [link] ... the reason i am so happy with it is that i didn't use references or anything to make it... it didn't take me very long to make and i think i will redo the hands... but i am happy... also finally uploaded doodles form my sketch book... last night i decided to do a quick doodle of Officer Kain [link] i couldn't sleep so i just decided to do something random... and i know that there is stuff misspelled.. i was ... out of it to say the least.. actually this whole day has been very fuzzy... i only got a few hours of good sleep...

past couple days have been good... went to a play with my friend Courtney on sunday... we saw the King and I... it was good... two of are friends where in it... my friend even and Joelle [link] ... after the play we walked and bullshitted about random things and went to pizza hut for a quick bite... then then went to Joelle's place and screwed around there for a little while... watched a anima that i am strangely addicted too... Oran host club... it's cute and goofy... witch is usually the opposite of what i like... i don't remember his name but my favorite character is the tall guy with glasses... i am still baffled why i like the show as much as i do... it was good to hang out with my friends... i need to do it more often... if there is one thing i miss about high school it is being able to see my friends... next week are friend Laurie [link] is gonna be in town.. thou not for very long... hell we might not even see her for all we know...

Monday night i hung out with my older brother Chris and my younger brother Robert Burris... we ended up going to are friend Brian's house... we bullshitted and heard some funny stories about stuff... Chris and Bob(Robert) got a little sloshed from drinking as i sucked a down a strawberry pineapple slushy... it seems as i get older i have been drinking less... i would call that a good thing...

well i got to get back too it... have a good day or night depending on where you are or what time you read this...

sincerely Thomas I.Cox (Bokkodo the Voodoo man)

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/25717606/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/25717606/ Fri, 03 Jul 2009 14:21:59 PDT
Tomorrow is the 4TH of July... i will be working all day... i will probably launch some fire works with my brother bob... hopefully get down to the Indian reservation and pick up some half sticks of dynamite... gotta go boom on the 4th after all...

i can't wait till i am 21... my brothers agreed to help my bye my revolver [link] ... i won't be able to have it till a few weeks after i pay for it... i am getting my concealed weapons permit on my 21st... don't actually plan to carry it but i am mega on gun control i think if you have a gun(doesn't matter what kind of gun) you should not only register it but also give your finger prints as well as DNA... to have ANY firearms... also a neat thing i read about the gun i am getting... it has a very special lock inside the handle that uses a special key... when locked the hammer and the trigger freeze... witch is sweet... really that is the only thing i am happy about being 21... i mean sure i can now go get alcohol.. bu that has never really been a big thing for me... and woo hoo i can go to a bar(that was sarcasm) i will enjoy going to the TAV with my brothers thou..

kinda sucks... i wasn't able to get a job i was trying for... apparently i am not socially messed up enough to work with kids...it goes like this i was trying to get a job with the state watching the youths at the local youth services.. basically i would be making sure they stay inline as well as simple hang out with them and go on hikes or what ever event is planned for that day... basically a pretty sweet summer job... but apparently i am not socially screwed up enough for the program... basically i am too productive to work with kids... thou if i was a recovering crack addict i would have gotten the job.. or if i was a lazy drop out... basically not the people you want to work with your kids.. are the only people allowed to work with kids... it sucks.. because it would have a great second job.. pay wasn't that bad ether

i have been drawing more lately.. i have been slightly less depressed lately and thus started doing more things... mainly just drawing stuff from my art books... or looking at my hands or feet doing quick doodles... but what ever...

i have to go know... nothing really much to report on myself just been working... my friends Courtney moved back to town and i have been hanging out with her more often... we went to a few movies and what not... i guess that is good... saw transformers 2 rise of the fallen... i loved it...

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/25150519/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/25150519/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 19:58:27 PDT 1. Pick which OC you are going to answer this with
2. Answer all the questions Truthfully. Make it interesting!
3. Tag at least 5 others when finished!

++++quick note:
this character lives in the WoW universe and is based around some things in that universe
the main reason i did this is too expand on this character due to the fact that i plan to draw this guy allot more... i want to make a comic or something based on him...
++++end of note

Name: Beorn of frost wolf clan [link]
Birthdate: ??? i am currently in my early 20's...
Birth Place: Elwynn Forest...
Current Location: Grizzly Hills
Eye Color: black...
Hair Color: dark black... thou i shave my head..
Height: 5'10... short for a orc.. but average for a human
Weight: 190... heavy for a human
Tattoos: clan tattoo ...
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Leidriel
Overused Phrase: not much of a talker... sept while drunk... witch you really can't tell what he is saying then... kinda like " surpa gurp bendif brr.... (slumps to the floor)"

FAVORITES
Food: bear stew... thou is really found of just about all breads
Candy: really like sugar snaps... and sweet breads... like cakes and muffins...
Number: ... i am not good with numbers...
Color: light green (lighter then most orcs skin due to his heritage)
Animal: wolfs ... i am a hunter/treasure hunter
Drink: pineapple juice... hard to fine but delicious
Alcohol Drink: beer...
Bagel: ... what the hell's a bagel
Letter: never thought about it
Body Part on Opposite sex: Eyes... no... breasts, wait... ass... err... really the whole thing...

THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke: ahhh... what's coke... or pepsi for that matter
McDonalds or Burger King: king burger... that's a strange name... so is McDonalds for that matter...
Strawberry or Watermelon: watermelons are tasty
Hot tea or Iced tea: cold...
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate... a rare treat but it is nice
Hot Chocolate or Coffee: Hot chocolate... coffee is harder to come by
Kiss or Hug:kiss and hug
Dog or Cat: dog
Rap or Punk: what?...
Summer or Winter: Winter... it's nice
Love or Money: love.. don't need money

YOUR...
Bedtime: whenever i can... allot happening... so it's hard to find time...
Most Missed Memory: my mother...
Best physical feature: scars... a painful brand showing that i have been tested...
First Thought Waking Up: Leidriel's pretty
Goal for this year: not having anything too bad happen... thou unlikely... northern rather busy lately...
Best Friends: i have a few... some i work with some i know at the local village
Weakness: the simple fact that i am mortal is a big one
Fears: anything undead... don't like anything that i can cut in half and won't die... seems to be to many of them around latly
Heritage: half orc and half human... orcs love me but humans hate me...
Longest relationship: only had one...

HAVE YOU...
Ever Drank: yes... i am drinking right now
Ever Smoked: not enough to call it a habit
Pot: pipe weed?? generally stay away form that... i leave that stuff to those flamboyant blood elves... the up tight bastards could really use it
Ever been Drunk: me... no.. i maas sober as ah burd
Ever been beaten up: it happens... thou thankfully never been beatin when my life's on the line
Ever beaten someone up: been in a few sparring matches.. and the occasional bar fight...
Ever Shoplifted: do what you need to survive... never took more then what i needed to eat...
Ever Skinny Dipped: yes... how else do you get clean
Ever Kissed Opposite sex: yes...
Ever Kissed Same Sex: yes... long story... but i really wanted to win that bet
Been Dumped Lately: no..

RANDOMS
Number of Regrets in the Past:many.. thou i have learned to bury them...
What country/world do you want to Visit: i am surprising well traveled for a orc... after all i am a treasure hunter
Been to the Mall Lately: what's this MALL thing... or did you mean maul... and how would you visit one...
Do you like Thunderstorms: yes... it's a good sigh... means the spirits are frolicking
Get along with your Parents: mother yes.. but she has passed to the other side... never knew my father...
Health Freak: i guess... i do take care of myself
Do you think your Attractive: as far as a half breed goes... yes... as far as a orc or human go...no...
Believe in yourself: i have done much... thou i still am iffy about many things
Want to go to College: what??? ohh a arcane magic school... yes.. thou i am not very talented... i can barely conjure a biscuit
Shower Daily: when it is necessary i bathe... thou being all over... ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/25098813/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/25098813/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 23:17:22 PDT
i finally gave into my moms wish for me to just live in the store... well not the store part but the back space... for the past couple months i have been couch surfing(for those who don't know that means staying on my friends couches) so today i started getting my make shift room together... to be honest i am happy that i did it... i mean i have been in this situation before, that is living in the back of the store... but it nice to have a real bed and not a assortment of lumpy odd couches...... to be honest i set it all up pretty well ... all my cherished items are out... most of my books... and i can watch my old movies again... (no one but me has a VHS)

i have been shopping online for my first hand gun my choices are between these [link] and [link] , each one is neat in it's own right... and i really like revolvers... on top of that i feel a void in my gun collection since i had to sell my tricked out SKS... i already talked to my brothers and the idea is that on my birthday where all gonna chip in for one of them... thou no one reading this cares of fire arms... i am just talking of current events... me personally i am leaning towards this one [link] ... mainly due to the fact that it is much more durable... and i like the look... before anyone asks... i don't plan to hurt or even carry this weapon.. i am gonna get a concealed license permit and i am always gonna keep it locked... and never loaded... i like guns.. so i am not gonna give someone a reason to take it... beside like i say... you solve problems with your hands...

i am also getting a car... only have to pay 450 for it too... and no it is not a junker... it is actually pretty nice...it's a taures(not a great car but good) ...low miles, good engine and the inside is spotless... the reason i am getting it for so cheep is because i have to put a transmission in it... witch i already have a new transmission for it... so i don't even have to pay for that... just a 8 hour endeavor to drop the broken one out and put the new one in... i have allot of experience with taures's too... put in engines and transmissions... so it'll be easy as cake...

my grand parents are coming to visit tomorrow... can't wait for that... i love my grand parents... there kinda nutty but there awesome... \

sincerely Thomas I Cox (bokkodo the voodoo man)

fix the sentence
"if you over specialize, ___ _____ __ ________, it's slow death" here's your hint: ghost

P.s. hey kachima... i need your address again, i lost it...

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/24962572/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/24962572/ Tue, 26 May 2009 14:35:26 PDT
wow... it's been close to a month since my last journal... kinda sucks i sold my last motorcycle i have the other day... makes me sad.. i really liked that bike... thou probably for the best... i am a little small to be riding that big of a bike... probably would have killed myself on the thing anyways... thou kinda cool the guy i sold it too has allot of experience with motorcycle and from what i understand he gonna make it into a beast of a bike.

i spent memorial day weekend up in the mountains... witch was sweet... went up on Friday, partied the first night then kinda relaxed the remainder of the weekend by reading and hiking... it was great.. thou kinda cold... being up in the hills it's noticeably cooler during the day and night... kinda sucks a kid named Cory that i used to go to school with died up there during the weekend...apparently he and about eight other people where going back to there camp when there truck got rolled... thankfully no one else died but it still sucks that cory did...

i am making my famous lamb stew for tomorrow night... can't wait... it's barley simmering right now and already smells great... got kinda annoyed... last time i made lamb stew i ended up getting yelled at... my brothers girlfriend didn't know that it was lamb apparently(how i have no idea... because if it's my stew then it's gonna have lamb in it) and started spouting about how it's wrong to eat lamb... kinda pissed me off... especially since before she found out she was grubbing on it like candy... ended up saying "well sorry for feeding you and your kid... maybe next time i guess i will have to call you about what I am gonna make for dinner.."... really annoying

i am excited about one thing...kachima [link] is almost finished with my commission... i can't wait too see it... i really like his stuff... and the preview of what he done with my thing is awesome... i asked hime to do his version of my character Beorn [link] i like his take better then mine... witch reminds me to get off my ass and start practicing again... those are videos i ordered are neat and opened me up to a couple different ways to approach my art...

well i just started this journal just because i was bored... and i didn't have to work today... so i am gonna go do something... probably watch Firefly.. i bought the full series yesterday... can't wait to watch it all...well see you all later

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/24541182/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/24541182/ Sat, 02 May 2009 01:38:20 PDT
been playing allot of FFT (Final Fantasy Tactics) probably my favorite over FF3(or 6 if your like that) i mean FF7 is Good... FF8 is allot of fun... FF9 i am a little iffy on... hated FFX pretty much all of the newest ones... FF3-5 are pretty good too... thou not apart of FF series chrono trigger and wild arms are also some of my more favored RPG's... there are a couple more older RPG's i really liked as a kid but can't remember the name... i wanna say mana something.. but it escapes me... i have a special place for pretty much all of the super Nintendo and Saga games i played as a kid... even today i get way more entertainment off the older games then i do any newer one...

I've been having weird dreams again... most recent was this morning... i was pinned too a tree by a long object..could have been a spear or a pipe... i was sitting pinned at the base of the tree... in what looked to be a swamp...morning time from what i could tell... it was raining, thou i was under the cover of the tree, still very wet and cold... i could hear water droplets on metal ... to my side was a wide bladed short sword... blood coagulating on the blade... lizards or some kind of small animal Ive never seen before, was licking at the blade... and quit enjoying himself... when i did try to move... pain shot threw my stomach... spear/pipe jiggled at my efforts to leave... trying to force the object itself was also faulty.. the handle was coated in my blood and made it impossible to gain any kind of grip... i laid there for some time not moving... taking in the sights of my surroundings... thou it was a swamp, it was magnificent... rich green and amazing trees... sounds of animals everywhere but none to be seen... sept soundless lizards... surprisingly delightful smell of clean earth and rain...looking to what must have been the west... the sun was clearing the mountain tops... and then i died... over all a good way to die... seeing all the pretty things...

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/24386606/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/24386606/ Mon, 27 Apr 2009 21:22:18 PDT


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it has been a good week...

even thou in reality this sucked it was also very funny... on last Sunday i crashed on my bike, what made it funny is that i was going really fast and ran straight in to a fence. for four years i have been riding down Craig's hill... and every year i went on the same path... apparently about 6 months ago they put in a new fence at the high school... me not knowing that ran straight into it... it was really funny thou... thankfully the only thing hurt was my Ego

got a landscaping job... me and my brother are making a zen garden for a friend of ares... this will be a first time for me... i have done plenty of landscaping jobs but i never created a zen garden before... i have put in trees,shrubberys!!, and made multi layer brick flower beds/fountains... it's gonna be fun... on top of that i get to work out doors witch i love...

i got my GED certificate and just sent in my application too CWU... the councilor said it is a sure thing i will get in... witch means i will start school in the fall... i can't wait... a little nervous with the idea of starting school...

i mean i haven't been in a class room going on three years... fuck i am gonna be 21 this year... 21!!!! i don't care about the drinking thing.. if i wanna drink i can get alcohol, hell i can go to the bars...it's just crazy too think i am gonna be 21... i am two decades old...

i also got a summer job... doesn't pay the best... but the hours make it possible for me to keep my current job... witch rocks... two sources of income are much better then one... i will actually be working with my friend stan basset... he runs the youth services in town... basically i have to watch teenager and set up activities(hiking, camping or what ever) so basically i get to screw around and get paid for it...

also me and my brother chris and mike are gonna start hiking the ridge and sparing together... i decided a few day ago that my knuckles are a little soft so it's time to toughen them up... i am gonna start punching the bag at my brother house every day... kinda sucks when your knuckles are soft because they tend to bleed the first couple times you punch the bag... doesn't really hurt ... it is just very inconvenient...

been playing allot of Final Fantasy Tactics... god damn i love that game... i only wish it was a little harder... i love getting all the secret characters and boosting them too level 99 and going toe to toe with dragons... i want to get a PSP version(and the PSP itself) so that way i can battle other peoples groups... but that is a ways off for me...

i have been reading allot of mythology stuff lately... especially voodoo... mainly due to the voodoo man i keep drawing... and what i thought of voodoo was not far off... voodoo is some cool stuff... thou god/loa are awesome... and kooky... so far my favorite god is Baron Samedi(or baron Saturday)i won't go into detail but here is a [link] i would look into more of it too... it is just so cool.. like reading Norse mythology...

right know i am rockin out with some metallica... and reading a new book i got, "Orcs" i like it so far.. thou i am not far into it... it is different then most books i have read... it is a fantasy style book.. but it has more combat and less magic(so far)

the art videos i got are sweet... been watching those things allot... would watch them tonight but i need a break form the damn things... unfortunately i have something sad to say... i have pretty much lost all my glass art work i made... the second to last piece i had... broke the other day... witch sucks... it was a larger of a dragon slithering up a tree... it's not like a premium piece of art i did .. but i still liked it allot... the only thing i have left is a credit card sized glass work of a ghost... if that breaks i am gonna be really bummed... kinda got some attachment to that little thing

WELL sorry for the long journal and hope you a... ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/24244398/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/24244398/ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 18:11:49 PDT
kinda gloomy outside, but i like rain... and that's what it looks like

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/24023691/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/24023691/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 13:29:54 PDT
i finished the last two test for the GED today... i aced the Reading,Science and Social Studies all in the top 90%... did like 60% on the math mainly due to the fact i really suck at math... i did the writing essay today and did really good... so i am happy... so now i have my GED... makes me feel really goods since i didn't graduate... kinda sucks to be so burnt out on school, your not willing too go back for a measly few credits... i felt like shit for the fact that i didn't walk with my friends on graduation day... thou i feel much better now... now i am gonna get ready too start up school at CWU in the Fall... so happy...

tonight i am gonna watch Monsters VS Aliens with my brothers...then tomorrow night where gonna watch watchmen... my brothers have not seen it yet...

i also received my art video thing [link] i haven't had a chance yet to really sit down and watch it... but i did watch the first lesson and it was pretty cool... i am also gonna reread Drawing on the right side of the Brain as i go threw it...

so far this week has gone over very well... hopeful y it stays that way... thou it probably won't... i think i am getting sick...

Sincerely Thomas Ian Cox Jr. (bokkodo)
(the voodoo man smiles upon you)

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/23539788/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/23539788/ Sat, 21 Mar 2009 18:35:15 PDT [link] witch was sweet.. thou it did suck that we where unable to stay... but what ever... we ended up watching the first batman movie... the TV show Movie with Adam West... it was horrible... like really bad... exploding sharks and submarines made too look like a penguin... thou that sounds awesome... it was bad...

also on Tuesday i finally sold my van... witch was awesome... really needed that extra money... gave most of the money i made from it to my mom... but i was able to order this [link] witch i am very excited about... gonna crack out on that after i get it... 46 hours of drawing tutorials... also borders finally decided to send this book i ordered from them at the beginning of the year... kinda sent them a nasty email... telling them that i payed and i wanted my god damn book...not those words... a little harsher then that...

the store did horrible this week.. yesterday we made 9$ all day... 9$ total for a day..that is horrible... we need to make a minimum of 350$ a day just too stay afloat...

my brothers birthday was on Wednesday...he turned 24... we kinda had a all family get together for it... tonight is his birthday bash... i won't be able to be there for all of it because i have been ordered to assist my step dad... that part is gonna suck...

well i gotta go...


sincerely Thomas I. Cox (Bokkodo)

this is the dokkodo... i try to live my life to this

1. Accept everything just the way it is.
2. Do not seek pleasure for its own sake.
3. Do not, under any circumstances, depend on a partial feeling.
4. Think lightly of yourself and deeply of the world.
5. Be detached from desire your whole life long.
6. Do not regret what you have done.
7. Never be jealous.
8. Never let yourself be saddened by a separation.
9. Resentment and complaint are appropriate neither for oneself or others.
10. Do not let yourself be guided by the feeling of lust or love.
11. In all things have no preferences.
12. Be indifferent to where you live.
13. Do not pursue the taste of good food.
14. Do not hold on to possessions you no longer need.
15. Do not act following customary beliefs.
16. Do not collect weapons or practice with weapons beyond what is useful.
17. Do not fear death.
18. Do not seek to possess either goods or fiefs for your old age.
19. Respect Buddha and the gods without counting on their help.[1]
20. You may abandon your own body but you must preserve your honour.
21. Never stray from the Way.

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/23480577/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/23480577/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 22:54:53 PST buildings burning overhead...
we can make the best of this...
post apocalypse''

WARNING: everything written below is bad... I DECIDED TO ASK THE PEOPLE IN THE ROOM FOR A TOPIC AND THEN JUST TYPE... WITH OUT THINKING I TYPED... AFTER ACTUALLY READING WHAT I WROTE I HAVE CONCLUDED... THAT I SHOULD GO TOO SLEEP... for those who have lives... don't read past this mark... for those who don't have lives... well i don't give a shit what you do you scum sucking bastards

a talk on cannibalism...to be clear i in no shape or form wish to eat another human being...unless i was a zombie... then i would be all over it...^^

bokkodo feels the need too club babe seals... with another baby seal... bokkodo also desires meat...preferable red... thou any type would do... i wonder what chimpanzees taste like... probably really tough... being twice are strength and all... would that be a form cannibalism... there DNA structure is like 98% similar to are own witch also mean that there meat is very close to are own... and for that matter... if it is not cannibalism then is cannibalism only defined when you eat thous of same species... because in that case eating someone of Asian descendant would not be cannibalistic... because of the separation of evolution... don't actually know... never felt the need to look up the details...and will not look up the details for that matter... just too damn lazy... allot of people don't know but cannibalism is practiced by most chimpanzees... they like the brains of there own kind... no lie... witch makes me think that chimpanzees are related to Hollywood zombies... for that matter... why is it that animals never become zombies... i think it would be scary to see a rhino or a hippo crave brains... zombies... i hate zombies... i would rather cover my balls in hot sauce while a wasp nest was around(for those who don't know,hot sauce burns and wasps love it)... then become a zombie... thou if i did become one... i would be the most pimp zombie ever... bling bling zombie style... don't actually know what bling would be for a zombie... but don't care

thou i am not in a bad mood right now... i feel odd... kinda drugged even... witch is odd since i don't do drugs... or drink or anything for that matter... i want a baby penguin... but he can't be black and white... electric purple... and actually that is good... i want a electric purple penguin... if i don't get one i will eat someones foot...or a arm... more meat

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/23181493/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/23181493/ Fri, 13 Feb 2009 19:22:05 PST
bad news... i swallowed a bunch of glass today... and honestly not feeling too good ... ... kinda sucks really...

this right below is something i did on my face book... i won't tag anyone but if you wanna do... then do it... i posted it because it was kinda fun.. you know as fun as doing one of these is...-_-

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag people who you thought of while you were filling this out.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY
Worm Drink

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
19-2000

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
here i am again

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
2X4

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Deltron 3030

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
5/4

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
all alone...(damn)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Am i Evil

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
come to look for America

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
American sleep

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Animal Farm

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
another one bites the dust

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Spider

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Spleen Merchant

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
all the world passing bye...(ouch)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
basket of eggs

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
the battle of evermore...(nice)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
battle song

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
be quick or be died

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
i look at all the lonely people

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Rocky Raccoon...(damn)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Better Than You

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/23107508/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/23107508/ Mon, 09 Feb 2009 17:17:25 PST
time keeps on slipping lyrics -------------------------------------------------

Yeah, that's the funky funky shit, ay bust it, yo, yo

Deltron tremendous force to end your courssssse. every whim is
enforced
I send men with torches to raid your fortress
And in the process radiate your optics
Subconsciously haunt emcees
Super human technician atomic inner dimension
Too mental with intuition
Typographical aptitude let my lasers clap at you
Mapped the route, psychologically crappin out, what you laughing
bout?
Imitations getting penetrated and reassimulated
In my emcee training class remain in mass
Never get liquidated convert energy
Into matter instantly, with a pen and pad
Calculate the cenograd, heat the center of gravity
Abolish apathy graphically packing 380's
With body heat sensitive bullets you need safety
Vest on your face and neck
Mental armory levitate legs for my monarchy
No malarkey my flows embarking

psionically sparking brain cells til they're sparkling
(chorus) x2

No one knows the timepassing by.

I remake my universe every time I use a verse
To fulfill my destiny, emcees rest in peace
Side barriers provide care within
From impurities every word sees your attention like third degree
I subjugate you other fake performers while the bass of your face

No sense you be in attempt fleeting
Emcees siphon my likeness
Biting my insights like five enchiladas
This plain of existence is amazingly different
From my orbital oratory always going for the glory
You pop wide open from my slice slogans
I stay in effect with alien tech
Make you wanna say he's the best
With synchronization with commendation its armor plated hard to
fake it
Never carbonated, scar your matrix
Virtually uncertainty, murk your mediocre sheets and sofa
With my style of energy, del assembling
A realm where anything, is possible
NASA scientists can't define this
Mechanical mind set diamond alignment
(chorus)

Mathematical astro grapple a flow, pterodactyl
Very factual crash course, last resort, cast me off
At last we warp to my own world, my own neurological cubbyhole
Open the airshaft I'll be there fast!
With spare raps to tear back their mass
Deltron experimental critical literal
Professor test the pitiful
Micronautalyst interchangeable
All of this gamma grammar far from 'Bama
Got mind control bandannas
To control your clan with scanners
Brand the planet like a band of bandits
Who man the cannons and guns with random
Sub atomic, love of logic, bug with phonics
Tub of chronic low in bridle with controlling ciphers
Unraveling rhyme, in traveling time
Alien life form mail in a pipe bomb
Deltoid life long I write songs
Monarch absolute, serve a glass of proof
When I vanish leave my spirit in a planet
On top of the surface my words and wit emerging
(chorus)


thing you can do lyrics ---------------------------------------------------------

[Chorus]
"Things you can do, some can't be done" - (*repeat 7X*)
"Things you can do..."
[Del]
3030 way past the millennium, check it out
Yo, Deltron thunderforce, ain't no other source of sunlight
Two ton mic, leave you toungue-tied
Runnin amuck with technology with no apology
Shoutin out to my colony with third eye physiology
Millennium past apocalypse is all I spit
Make you swallow it - your weak style, I'll abolish it
with nuclear rockets they glued to your optics with sci-fi
Unsettlin, man and metal blends
Underground chillin with the Mole Man, and his whole fam
Inhibit bacterial growth, material wrote
Impenetrable, incontestable, indigestible intelligence
Never let a computer tell me SHIT
It's rapid innovation, penetratin
Artificial life forms, who bite songs
I'm a buy a vest, lie is next, then I'll flip the bio-techs
Right into the wireless; your third eye is hit with psoriasis
The mightiest, Deltron Zero
Traverse and purge the travesties that tempt your earholds
The area of distribution, lifts the clueless
My flow is like, liquid oxygen
Rip it often with specific impulse, increasin thrust
Grease the cuts - unleash a cluster of thoughts I muster
I talk to... ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/22834325/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/22834325/ Mon, 26 Jan 2009 22:00:25 PST
it has been a good week... me and my dad are replacing a clutch in my bro's car... kinda annoying...we spent a hour wresting the damn transmission of the final pin... but i like working on cars... i found a movie i have not seen in 10 years a couple days ago... "The Dark Crystal" a old Jim Henson movie... it is mesmerizing... really well done movie... i didn't appropriate the movie as much when i was a kid... but now i really see how great it is... i mean sure it is a little corny... but it's target audience is kids... also i like how their are no people in the movie...i went ahead a drew one of the skekis form the show...[link]

it has been nice... i been able to draw more lately... been doing good too.. the last couple ones have been better then my normal output... also the store is doing much better, so i am making a tad more money witch is nice...

i also sent in my application to the Central Washington University... major is art, minor will be philosophy... i probably won't get accepted at first... manly due to the fact that my GPA is not the most...impressive... paid attention enough in school... just never did my homework... and my math sucks... like really bad... but what ever,i will get in... i talked to a councilor and he told me what was up and to go ahead and apply...

well i am done...

Thomas I. Cox

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/22624956/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/22624956/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 23:54:51 PST
i am working on some of my older pictures right now and decided to take a quick break... touching up and redoing pieces... unfortunately my scanner is dead... and to small to scan the bigger stuff... got some more art books... there focus is on movement... got a great idea for a something i might actually post... right now i am staring at a really old piece that i want to finish... and really don't want too... just kinda passing time

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/22455538/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/22455538/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 17:39:30 PST
in lighter news i am very happy about finally getting my double barrel shot gun... she's not in the best shape right now but i plan on making her look brand new... i love working on fire arms... just like when i got my German Mauser i spent hours cleaning and refinishing it... i am gonna make that shot gun look brand new... it is a antique over a hundred years old... can't shoot large shells and shouldn't really shoot anything other then bird shot out of it... but i don't plan on shooting it often... i might go for birds with it... but i don't

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/22321445/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/22321445/ Thu, 01 Jan 2009 00:48:47 PST
"deep in human unconscious is a pervasive need for a logical universe that makes sense. but the real universe is always one step beyond logic"
-from " the sayings of Maud'dib"

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/22054436/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/22054436/ Thu, 18 Dec 2008 17:59:44 PST [link] a sweet coat(witch looks fantastic on her)... and my friend Evan is getting a sword... thou it will be weeks til it actually gets here witch none the less sucks... then i got to do all the family shopping... then after that.. i am gonna attempt to scratch some remaining cash to get at least small gifts for others... and then try to relax by Christmas so i can enjoy it...

i am so stressed lately... i can't find another job...i serouisly put out like 15+ applications and Resumes and nothing... no calls or anything... i called back on just about every place and all said the same damn thing... not hiring... i have been keeping busy by doing odd jobs for close family... remolding the store and helping my dad work on cars... i still work at my moms store but i don't get paid for working there... i only get room and board...

i need two more people to answer these Questions if you where already asked then don't answer...

1. weapon of choice
2. place you want to be or visit
3. animal of choice
4. yes or no
5. color of choice

well i am gonna get back to it... i hope everyone has a merry Christmas or what ever you happen to celebrate
Thomas I. Cox

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/21912585/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/21912585/ Wed, 10 Dec 2008 10:32:26 PST
so what are you all doing this year?

sincerely Thomas I. Cox
Merry Christmas

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/21822984/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/21822984/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 20:45:21 PST
]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/21719361/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/21719361/ Fri, 28 Nov 2008 18:20:11 PST [link] then you would think that i would be off the wall happy... and i was... in till i saw the trailer... it looks absolutely horrible... like those really bad power ranger movies or something.. just with better graphics... if that... i died a little inside... kinda like how i died when George Lucas started fucking with his movies... or made the new star wars... i mean what the fuck... it doesn't even look like it takes place in the future... i mean nothing against the actors in the mega man movie, it isn't your fault... i mean it just looked horrible and corny... like that DBZ movie that came out... it looked nothing like it should...... just thinking about it makes me angry... WWWWHHHHYYYYYYYYY THE FUCK DID YOU DO IT... i mean the main guy didn't even look like a cyborg/reploid... he was just wearing a helmet and spandex with some plates on it... hopefully no one else fucks up anymore movies that i would like to see one day...

on the lighter side of my life...thanks giving was great... and something really funny happened... when i was feeding my bearded dragon spunky, he bit my finger... it really hurt but it was cool because she was holding on so well i actually lifted him out of the cage by my finger... it was pretty funny... i tried wiggling my finger so he would let go but he didn't... so he was on there a good 30 seconds...

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/21623008/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/21623008/ Sat, 22 Nov 2008 23:32:31 PST
]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/21505190/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/21505190/ Sat, 15 Nov 2008 17:15:49 PST

my geekyness knows no bounds... i actually woke up extra early to buy wrath of the lich king......i have horrifically and officially hit rock bottom... i have no soul and will die alone now T_T ... well maybe not the soulless part.. i mean i am pretty sure i didn't have soul to begin with... so if anything it might have enlarged the void that take the place of my soul... hmmm.. i just realized i am ranting about nothing... must change topic... i like butter... damn now i want pop corn... hmmm going to a movie sounds good... there are no good movies... i wanna watch wall-e... kung-fu panda was ok... mmmm popcorn... with butter and powder cheese.... tasty... i have vowed to redo and finish my maxx pic... to day was ok... i had a really cute Japaneses girl flirting with me earlier, me and her where talking for a good hour before she had to go... that was sweet... then i pierced her... i like working in a piercing parlor... thou a few things that annoy me is when people pierce every inch of there face... i have seen to many girl with gorges faces ruin them by sticking to much metal in them ...i will say that for piercing to look good on someone... two thing have to be in line.. a proper skeletal structure and moderation... thou there is no reason why people can't get what they want.. if they want to be a pin cushion then let them be one... also when people do stupid thing when it come to piercing, like yeah stretching you ears way to much in one sitting... i just re remembered the cute girl...^_^... thou i did a regular stupid thing i forget to do when i do talk to girls... names... i suck... the past couple days i took m sis's shift at work... thou i don't mind working in her place... i feel good since i am helpin out ma a great deal by working for free... i also been watching the show that's 70 show allot.. i really like it... it reminds me so much of my family and friends... .... now what was i talking about.. ohh yeah butter... no not really.. i can't remember what i was typing about... hmm.... i was at the ocean a couple days ago... it was cold but still nice... thou you could only swim in a small portion of the beach because of under tow... it was really windy too... thou the sand was really nice... i wonder if people will read this far down... hmmm.... if so they have less to do then i do right now... teehee i am gonna stop typing now.. i hope everyone is having a good day and i wish the best too you...

sincerely Thomas I. Cox (Bokkodo)

p.s. your fly is down ^^

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/21332617/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/21332617/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 02:38:13 PST
hello everyone.. just on a little break form my thing... man i am happy about the presidential election... yay obama won... woo hoo.... i will be able to get health insurance yay... and the election went just as smooth as i thought it would... land slide victory... last i checked it was to 163 mccain to 338 obama... meccain fell short by 107... and obama in the lead by 68... so i am happy... ooo just in case there are mccain people out there just so you know i have no problem with him and i have no doubt that he is a great guy and he probably would have done fine as a president... i just think this is the wrong time for such a guy... thou i am not a political person... i did stay fairly glued to the tv for this election...

i watched a movie called a WIZARD recently...a personal favorite from my child hood ...i love it... it is a old cartoon that takes place 10,000,000 years in the future... after we blow are selves to hell and back... with about...couple thousand atomic bombs... in this time a par of twin wizards is born ... polarized at birth... one is entirely evil and vile and the other good and kind... eventually the two brother fight and the evil brother is basically banished to a land called scortch... at this time he musters armies and attacks the cities of fairies and elves...to no succes... eventually he he sets his army on a task of retrieval... he sends his army's to escivate the old cities in surch for techoligies of are age... what he ends up recovering is the nazi war machine... and begins to use his new army to reign terror once again on the the cities of good... at this time a assassin machine is sent to kill the world leaders... in with the good brother captures...misfortunes arise as the assassin is successful... but Avatar(the good brother) puts together a small band of people to sneak threw and destroy the secret weapon of black wolf(his evil brother) i will say no more but the basics are set... the basic premise of the movie is the future holocaust... as well as technology is as much of a down fall as a blessing... and to be honest it is great... thou when you watch it will not seem like a kid show.. there is blood and a mostly naked women running around threw most of it...actually now that i think about it... most of the girls in it are barely dressed or not dressed...thou they pay no attention to detail... it is great... thou many people will not like it for it's art work. it is older and is easily noticeable that it is old... about 1970's if i remember right... but i see it as important... besides it is fun... if abit corny ... right after watching i drew my version of one of my favorite characters... he looks pretty cool...

well see yeah later... in about a week

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/21134568/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/21134568/ Sun, 26 Oct 2008 17:09:58 PDT
ok i am not leaving the site... i am taking care of something that requires a great deal of time... matter-o-fact i am even surprised i was able to even use a computer today... i might be done after about 3 weeks to a month... don't ask

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/20816300/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/20816300/ Fri, 03 Oct 2008 21:17:31 PDT
it has been good overall the past little while... on monday i went to Seattle to pick up a car... that is way more literal then i would like... it was a 1969 challenger... a mega sweet car... thou it was almost completely taken apart... we had to move it back to cle'elm... with allot of other stuff... all very heavy... we had to pick up 11 250 pound steel beams and put them on the trailer... i by myself can pick one up... but no fucking way could i ever move one... god damn those things where heavy... after moving that we had to pick up the car chasie and put it on the trailer... then drive back to cle'elm and unload it all in place at the storage space... it was a good day... moved allot of stuff... felt good after getting the last beam off the trailer... i slept pretty good... that night i got my character on wow to 70... thou i have pretty much stopped playing... on Tuesday... i went to the gym and kicked my own ass for a few hours... didn't have to work that day so i pretty much screwed around all, the rest of the week is pretty much stander ed... work and sleep... i need to fill up my week more... i have too much free time... also it would be a good idea to put new people in my life

these are a few of my favorite things... walking around in the rain, snow or during a lightening storm... the smell of ozone and fresh baked pastry's... the sound of gun fire and kabuki drums(that might not be the right name)... absorbing myself in music, reading or drawing... Asian girls or simply girls with black hair or dark hair... the feeling of a hard days work, when your shaking and tired but you can still feel the Adrenalin running threw you, equivalent to working out for a extended period of time... the shower after the hard days work or exercise... making stuff... working on machines or cars... the unbeatable harmony of being around someone who makes you feel like you and the memories of those moments of brief happiness... the family that you live or die for

it has been a good week...

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/20629030/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/20629030/ Mon, 22 Sep 2008 23:58:56 PDT [link] a picture of a nameless soldier of WW2... i have a great amount of respect for defenders and soldiers... thou most of the time my passion for wars is considered a blood lust... the truth is it is beautiful to me that one is willing to give life for that witch he cares for... thou some have different reasons... i do not respect those who go for blood lust or believe they are judges and sentence people...
the second is of [link]
Clap-san a random person i am currently watching...
and third is [link]
tryfanmolee just because it would treat her

that is all.. i will do this again in the future depending on how well it turns out

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/20613753/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/20613753/ Mon, 22 Sep 2008 04:41:13 PDT
the shot of Magitek fire from afar still singing in the ears of it's bleeding victim... the severed arm still twitching on the ground...twitching of the mana burn... the enchanter screams of wicked knives and forked tongue as he thrust his remaining arm to the sky... at the silence of the scream rose from the ground of bolts of white laughing lightening seeping into the severed limb... as bits of white hot iron from the ground twist around the wound... it's twisting and burning to become one with flesh of the master... and with a coy smile and a grasping the fleshy hot severed nob...his hand twitched forward to reveal a sudden bright white burning arm...the smooth crackle and smack of cooling iron... grabbing at his severed arm to squeeze the remaining blood onto the hot iron of his arm "let my iron form with your iron great father... "as the blood sizzled the earth crackled and screamed under his feet... "i call for you my son... i except your iron... let us make steel" bolts of void energy jump and slice in all directions..cutting into his master... the painless slice and the feeling of blood flow over ones skin..as earth crackles once more..."what is your name child of mine" ... "i am Ian of the void and enchanter of his master will" as a bright magnificent light engulfs the valley..warm and comforting to the touch...as it passes there is only one... the master standing strong with new limb of earthen steel... a blank face... the still warm steel of his new arm hissing as black veins become visible on the flesh... only one thought remained "the dog spits blood"..a smile of unfathomable happiness washes over his face...some time passed before a little buzz in the distance.. a familiar sound of a fast machine... lazily looking in the direction of the sound... to see the slow approach of a hornet flying low...eyes of fire now set on the machine... "it is time for the dog to know his master..."

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/20562944/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/20562944/ Fri, 19 Sep 2008 12:26:12 PDT
thou today was a interesting day already... i was locked out of my place and had to sleep in the store... then in the morning my brother stole my shoes and locked me out of the space... and went to work... i dislike not having shoes... i like penguins thou... purple ones... so now i am gonna ............................................................................................................................................................................................
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it was mega nice last Thursday night i went up camping with some friends... me, Turtle(bro), miky mike, rob, Hedi and Dave... hung out, talked, hiked and played games... in about the middle of the night. and not quit realizing how tired i really was(or how much a drank)i almost cut my foot in half with a rather sharp Axe ^^... thank god for STEEL TOE BOOTS... thou i fucked my boots up something horrible i did not lose my foot... the night was allot of fun... beside that little problem... in the morning we ate a old fashioned mountain breakfast and just relaxed all day in the woods... it was so nice... i need a new sleeping bag... i never use a tent when i go hiking or camping and father time has not been kind to my camping bag... so it was a little chilly but very comfy sleeping by the fire...

on friday was grand ma's birthday so i made a appearance and stuff...she is not my blood grandma we just call her that... she turned 65... unfortunately she probably won't live to much longer witch is really sad... she smokes to much.. pot and cigs... i do my best to get her to stop but i can't do anything really and she is a grown up and i will not force her... and really can't... hopefully she will snap out of it... her birthday was allot of fun...

Friday night was when the rape thing happened ... and thankfully it is widely believed that the guy that was arrested was the guy who has been doing it for the past couple of months... witch mean he will be tried and put away.. hurray the system kinda works

Saturday and Sunday where great i was able to hangout with my friend bob allot... for those who don't know ,bob has been my best friend for the better portion of my life... and he was finally able to come up from cle'elum to visit everyone...it was very awesome...

Sunday night i visited my in-laws... uncle mike... it as fun... thou they have about 14 kids... all pretty young... so that was kinda intense... and a little creepy since most of them are adopted and there oldest girl has a crush on me... very odd and creepy for many reasons... then i got to visit my most hated place on the face of this unholy planet...WAL MART.... being in anyone of those stores make me feel like i need a bath

i read the hobbit again... it has been about three + years and i forgot how much i loved that book... i like it more then the lord of the rings... i also named my half orc pic after a character in it... beorn [link] ... a little odd since beorn in the book hates orcs and goblins with a serious passion... FROM THE HOBBIT...." so what did you do with the goblin and worg" beorn replies "come and see" as the walk pass the gates they behold a fresh worg pelt and a goblin head on a poll... thou i did not wright it as well but the point is still made... i like the character even thou he does not play a big part...

it is my birthday on Friday... how early depressing is that

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/20465489/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/20465489/ Sat, 13 Sep 2008 03:57:48 PDT
ok..people say i am a little harsh on judgment.. but i got my fuckin reasons....for instance guess what almost happened on my stoop... for those who don't know i currently live in a alley... not like a bum but a apartment(if you could call it that)... and tonight in my alley a girl was almost raped on my stoop... the guy is lucky i was not the one who found them... i would have killed him on the spot... i would have sooner slight his throat then anything else the second i found ot what was going on... got a rifle and knife at the door... thou the cops quickly and thankfully intervened before anything too serious happened... because of where i live i am visited by the filth and decaying rejects of society on a nightly basis... there is a drug dealer that commonly walks down my alley as well as a putrid prostitute.. also the pill popper and crack head that is stealing to feed there addictions... people passing out smashed drunk in the middle of the alley... and then stopping a guy from pick pocketing him or her( a girl passes out in the ally we quickly wake them)...stupid drunk wenches fucking and pissing on everything in the alley... then work .. sure working i n a piercing saloon it is to aspect ed to run into some creeps.. but the creeps are never the ones that look it... a fourteen year old girl came into today... and was talking about her pass drug life.. witch means she has been doing drugs for at least 2 to 4 years... also her sexual life... witch is even creepier...who would fuck someone that old... for fuck sack ... they have nothing anyone could possible want...then hearing that her mom is the one suppling her weed and other stuff...what the fuck is that about... there fucking mother what the fuck...from what i heard it was the dad who was trying desperately to stop it...but he was powerless to stop it because of parental control and separtition... the girls just laughed hideously at the fact that the one person in there life who wanted them not to do something stupid..was powerless to truly help them... ohh now let me talk of the tattoo lady MELODIE...what shunted filth, the low of the lowest and massive drug addict who not even save her own father... witch is dead now... too bad too for besides Crag's rough edges he was a very good person...given his own pass he has come along way only to e basically killed by his own daughter... he waited for MELODIE to help him... she never bothered to say hi let alone help him in any fashion... she actually charged him 1000$ to see his own grand kids... she would sooner sell those kids to a sex slave operation then do anything for them....some one really needs to kill these people... these people should not be aloud to live... i am not the cleanness person... but compared to these people i am a fuckin saint... the world should loosen it's belt of these people......sure i could be shaken off too.. but ohh well it is for the better... shake them from the planet like decaying flies i hate these people... the drugs are for expanding my mind.. well after taking drugs for that long you need it for that... because of how much it fucked your mind... ohh it's miss tramp mc slut slut... i am pretty, so in order to feel special or wanted i let anyone in me... thou you better get me boozed up first... or plastered with ecstasy... ohh i don't care if i am 16 i will just throw my baby to the dumpster... that is so much more worth it then spending a quarter for a fuckin condom... hmmm...lol...HAHAHHAHHHHAHAHHHAHAHA FUCK THESE PEOPLE I FUCKIN HATE THEM THOSE SLIMING REPULSIVE FUCKIN PEOPLE NEED TO DIE...I SWEAR ANOTHER THING LIKE THAT HAPPENS IN MY ALLEY I WILL FUCKIN KILL THEM... RAPE TO ME IS ONE OF MY MOST HATED THINGS... AS FAR AS I AM FUCKIN CONSERENED YOU RAPE SOME ONE THEN YOUR DEAD... ESPECIALLY IF THERE PROUD ABOUT IT... LOL... AND YOU KNOW WHAT IS WORSE... IS THERE IS NO WHERE YOU CAN GO TO ESCAPE IT.. THESE THINGS ARE EVERYWHERE... IT DOES NOT MATTER.... THERE LIKE A PLAGUE OF DECADENT SIN WASHING OVER EVERYTHING SLOWLY POISONING IT TOO THE CORE.. AND IT'S GETTING WORSE... .... TO THOSE PEOPLE WHO DO LIVE THERE LIFE WELL, YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I RESPECT YOU... AND HOW MUCH I WISH FOR YOU TO NEVER DO SUCH THINGS ... I HAVE SEEN CRACK DENS, JUNKIES, WHORES AND THE LIFE THAT COMES WITH IT... I STOOD SILENTLY WATCHING THESE PEOPLE MOVE LIKE WYRMS INFESTING A FRESH CARCASS WATCHING BOTH SIDES.... and i can only say one thing... "i hate this place" i work so hard and go no where, i barely bye myself food let alone pay for my fuckin place...the vary few thing i actually like doing on this dismal little planet i can't do without thinking all this shit... and deal with the scum on a daily basis... and all i can do is smile and node...


wow... i feel allot better... i can breath again... sorry to everyone... i really needed to vent... this thing that happened with the girl in the alley just...... ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/20285847/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/20285847/ Tue, 02 Sep 2008 18:29:01 PDT
for the next couple weeks my second job will be bucking hay...hopefully... it is gonna be allot of fun...

i have been watching clerks allot lately... the truth be told it is a really good movie... the comedy is pretty solid and it actually has allot of good points too it..that is if you care too see them... like i like to say there's watching a movie and then there's WATCHING A MOVIE...

also i have been watching allot of That 70's Show... i really like it... it reminds me in many way of my own life and family...

then there is the sad realization that i will be 20 in 17 days... wow 20... 4 years ago i thought i would be dead by now... i still don't know how to think about it... i feel old... i hate that i can say "when i was a kid" and i still wish i was a kid... but that is fairly natural...i will probably go to Seattle this year for fun... go on the docks and visit a restraint...or go to Yakima and eat at monglian grill... i might depending on how things go..cook my own dinner for everyone... i make a really good stir fry...

well i am a little tired but i am gonna go kill my self for the next hour with some weight lifting... have fun everyone...

sincerely Thomas I. Cox (Bokkodo)

SOME STUPID THING I THOUGHT OF

the heavy inhales of cold rigged air...cold penetrating deep into my bones...the perspiration from my hands freezing my grip to solid cold steel... the cold steel of a bulgetzer... my whiskers frozen and mated to my face... frost clinging to my armor... listening to the heavy steps of the Kral...there distasteful magic permeates the air... like a heavy putrid gas...there magic will not save them... for i am the champion of this wild... ye guilty... for the ice fangs of the dread wolf guide me, and the ice fire eyes are upon you... these kral have betrayed the ice god... and i am his soldier... thus i must kill thous who rape his land... and defile his subjects... purification is the word for slaughter... my frozen tundra will make a fitting prison

bulgetzer= a 45.C Medium battle rifle. a large and rectangular in shape rifle

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/20177440/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/20177440/ Wed, 27 Aug 2008 01:46:02 PDT

acloa mura dero kabyao

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]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/19989417/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/19989417/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 07:28:43 PDT
i am done with my half orc pic[link] i am fairly pleased with how well it came out... also if anyone has a idea of what i should name this guy.. please tell me... i don't know what to name him

also my concept for the dark ISZ is done [link] kinda did the color job a little half ass like... but it came out good... now i just need to draw julie and copy each pic on to the main one... witch is coming along..well... did that copy and colored it... i don't think i will color the main version... to messy

now how is everyone doing?

......................................................just updated secton

i love this pic.... allot.. if you have ever met me for real you would now why or at least have a damn good idea why [link] ... i love it...

leprechauns leprechauns leprechauns leprechauns leprechauns
bloody little bastards... always messing with you... bloody little bastards

ooohh i have been listening to guns and roses and i have to post these lyrics there awesome.. ...this reminds me of allot... it almost makes tears come to my eyes from the flood of memories and events that this song remind me of...so here they are

Sweet Child O' Mine [link] (so you can actually listen to it)

She's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything
Was as fresh as the bright blue sky
Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that
special place
And if I stared too long
I'd probably break down and cry

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

She's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain
Her hair reminds me
of a warm safe place
Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder
And the rain
To quietly pass me by

Sweet child o' mine
Sweet love of mine

Where do we go
Where do we go now
Where do we go
Sweet child o' mine

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/19920984/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/19920984/ Tue, 12 Aug 2008 17:54:51 PDT 1. THE MAXX [link]
i have successfully made the image as a whole sharper and cleaner... got ride of all my fuck ups on the title section... but have not started yet on the title... incresed the detail where it was needed.. and drew up my first rough draft for a ISZ to put in the back ground...... what i need to do is finish the title... draw in the ISZ and julie in the back ground.. then ether make copys and do a color version of the copy's or leave black and white...

2. Half Orc [link]
i have drawn the ancient sword [link] on his back as well as the looping leather strap... but i am about to start the tedious task of putting in the details... already did the final out line of him and on the sword... i need to do the detail work... give it a back ground and then figure out a good name for him... i am open for suggestions on that...

3. The Girl [link]
i believe i am gonna scrap this project... based on the fact that the face is too damaged to do any true good for it... on top of that i am very bad at shading with ink and my scanner can't pick up pencil... so if i do go back to it it won't be for a while...

4. THE ISZ and JULIE... not posted yet...
the ISZ drawing i made to day turned out pretty good i will post it later after a splash of color...
Julie is proving to be a bit of a challenge... the last one i made turned out horrible... the face was pretty good but i botched everything else... so i scraped my first attempt and worked on the ISZ... of course i am drawing these people only a filler for the maxx pic.. but i like everthing to look good

now that my art is out of the way i will talk about my self..
nothing really happening.... i turned in a couple applications today... got my ears pierced... witch makes me look like some kind of fighters ... apparently... being bald and having big ear rings makes you look tough...

]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/19705517/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/19705517/ Thu, 31 Jul 2008 18:31:15 PDT
so how have you all been i am doing ok... last weekend i went fishing and caught my self a big 20LB salmon... i got a great picture of my fat ass right after catching it.. holding it up all proud like with blood dripping down the fishes belly on too my arms and leg... then up in till Sunday i was just screwing around swimming in lake chelyan... god that was a good week end... i love it when i can go into a any grocery store and see a good 3 to 9 half naked cute girls...... and i don't know why but since i shaved my head i have been getting way more glances and smiles from girls... well after the fishing trip on wells dam i rolled back into Ellensburg and got ready for my work week... witch was not bad... the store has been picking up and such so where making money again... i am very happy because i was able to see my little sister yesterday for the first time in like 3 years... she's grown a foot since i have seen her last... i was very happy to see her... i barley recognized her... and she barley recognized me... hell Jin her mom barley did also... it was good... i didn't get too see her very long... she's eight now and going in the third grade... now what are my plans now since this week is done...hmmm the bad thing is now i have to spend allot of money on a bunch of things within the near future... kinda sucks but what ever thats life... well see you all later...

P.S. i am thinking about joining the military... i would like some opinions on that... if it ain't military then its school and work(hopefully CWU and work at Jerrole's book store)... for me ether one is fine.. with equal bad points and pluses to me

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]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/19477002/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/19477002/ Sat, 19 Jul 2008 04:59:46 PDT
"break the spine, cut the throat and bleed for me" this is me

"when the frog god smiles... prepare for battle"

"ohh my god... it's god"

"i've gotta go now... maybe i'll be back... i do get lonely... it would be very nice... if you died here,too"

"DON'T EAT ME GRAND PA"

"ohh wait... you should probably wake up now... you've stopped breathing"

"my om calls me Pepito"

"YOUR LUNCH... IT'S AFTER YOUR LUNCH..GET RID OF THE BAG" replies "NEVER...IT PEANUT BUTTER AND JELLEEE....."

"but we'll have plenty of time for that, after all... we're neighbors now"

"a cheerleader!...pure evil!! what do you want!!?"

"you can here his mind snapping"

"um better get going ... it's Tuesday and you know what that means...U.F.O's!!... ruun!!"

"I'm gonna go kill a party clown"

"TOO BAD I DIDN'T BRING A STRAP-ON CUZ THEN MAYBE I COULD SCREW YOUR EMPTY EYE SOCKET!!" THE REPLY "awww...yeeeah..." look this i realized after typing is not as funny since you can't see the comic that this is apart of... trust me... it is funny...

"YEEARGH!!! my tartar build up has gone to my brain! MY BRAIN!!"

"you need to get out more"

"deep in human unconscious is a pervasive need for a logical universe that makes sense. but the real universe is always one step beyond logic"

now time for some real stuff.... well to day i am gonna go run Manastash ridge... that is gonna be fun... and very hard... i am going with a friend and a kid from the youth center... me and him are trying to get this kid to start exercising... he really needs to.. the kid has anger problems is rather over weight and smokes... yeah where trying to do something for the little bastard...

i watched the yu-gi-oh abridge series on you tube... i love it so much... if you hate YU-GI-OH then you will love it... it just makes fun of every aspect to the show...

hmmm this sounds like fun... why is this important too me... any guesses
just a good pic

i saw Samantha a couple more times but she is back home for a month or two... depending on how long she wants to stay home for... and before it gets confused i am not going out with her... because i am a chicken shit how can't ask stuff like that

this is one of the dirtiest song ever... i don't listen heavily to Nine Inch Nails music but some songs are fun... this one is just straight up raunchy and well... yeah... thou the beat and the singer really give it some great body
"Closer"

You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
Help me I broke apart my insides, help me I’ve got no soul to sell
Help me the only thing that works for me, help me get away from myself
I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god
You can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings
You can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything
Help me tear down my reason, help me its' your sex I can smell
Help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else
I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god

Through every forest, above the trees
Within my stomach, scraped off my knees
I drink the honey inside your hive
You are the reason I stay alive
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and what the hell i will add another song lyric from...hmmm... how about Mice and Gods bye CLUTCH

Silver women on the OMNI magazine
They got the future precisely laid out as I need.
That Lux Aeterna sound is so frightening.
Holding hands with Lucifer is never that enlightening.
So fire it up, fire it up,fire it up and the flesh be damned.
Fire it up, fire it up, fire it up yeah that's the ticket now kick out the jams.

Engineer the future now. Damn tommorow, future now!
Throw the switches, prime the charg... ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/19304733/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/19304733/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 05:45:40 PDT
well lately the heat has been getting to me so i have switched too staying up at night and sleeping during the day...as much i can that is... i do work and all that junk but sleep deprivation builds character that you eventually take pills for... work has been fine...

i finally got a bunch bar and a squat bar so i can finally exercise properly at my space... thou some are needed things are missing but what ever... i hope that between doing yoga and weightlifting i will get to my acceptable fitness level... i am getting better at running and am getting some good spring in my step... thou i got a long way to go...

i just finished Dosadia experiment and it is by far one of my favorite books... i am going to re-read the magic of recluse before reading it's sequel... i also started re-reading soul sword... not a great book but it is very fun...

it was kinda nice... went around town with a girl and hit it off pretty well... she's very cute too... Samantha... seem to talk endlessly... witch is vary nice, specially since that is vary important... just moved here from... hmmm... i can't recall... well that was a fun part... Spokan... i think

it seemed after i shaved my head that i got allot more looks from girls... also according to some people i am more intimidating and look stronger... i really like being bald/shaved head... it is mega nice since it is so damn hot... thou if i keep weightlifting my sister says i will look like the Mr.clean guy... creepy

i have been having very odd dreams of late... the one i posted was not nearly the weirdest i have had... in most of them i am..well not acting like me... very violent and relentless... like when people go blind with rage... like... you know that feeling you get when something big happens... time seems too slow to a crawl then when the event is done it springs back to it's proper place... well anyway, it is odd...

did kinda a cruel thing...we where asked to kill all the ground hogs and varmints at my grandpas field... reason being is the burrows are are close to the surface and if my grandpas horse where to breach the borrow it could break it's leg... well ether way we where out there on top of there pile after shooting about 20 of them and i noticed out of the corner of my eye one darted out... with out even thinking i twitched and bated the thing over the head with my 22. stock... i felt really bad... the thing died instantly... but i just felt sorry for it... stupid little animal being in the wrong place at the wrong time... i felt even worse when we had to take care of the little bodies because all the ones we didn't shoot where watching us take the corpses away... they cried... it was horrid -_- i hate myself

well this is not looking up for me.. violent dreams... mixed with remorseless slaughter of small animals... and a new intimidating look...

i think it is funny when people listen to music and don't actully listen... they don't now what is really being said... they only here the top layer of words... the most noticeable words...that's why i read my lyrics... also it seems that songs are better after i do read them...

i am understanding of why people hate me.... i am a little self righteous... also i am irritated bye snobby or even slight winning people or highly literal people.. they really piss me off... about a week ago this person had a problem with me visiting my friend because i came over a couple days in a row... admittingly i told her i hate her boyfriend for being a snob and a your basic run of the mill self righteous with out a cause... at least i went threw allot of shit to be able to be self righteous... and i work my ass off... no this guy complains about his rather easy job and that he works 20 hours a week.. bottom line i don't like him... it is a odd thing... in my regular group of friends i am a established and honored for being a exceptionally caring and trust worthy person... in my group of friends from school i am barley trusted and resented in some ways... no one even thou i am mega polite and straight forward with people there is but a small fraction of the people actully know what kind of friend i am... it is a rather unbearable thing... to be lowered in such a way... specially since i am fairly sure of two reason i am disliked... and there are rather poor reasons too dislike anyone for this..

fuck i just ranted big time...hmm i am gonna stop now i could rant or ever... i should get a shrink so i can vent...

sincerely Thomas I. Cox / bokkodo the one to be followed alone
i found a bunch of stamps i like
<... ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/19156670/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/19156670/ Tue, 01 Jul 2008 23:26:58 PDT
ok the last dream i had and remembered the best... i was preparing to go to my friends play(like theater thing) i was racing around trying to figure out what i was gonna wear for it... looking threw my clothes in the dream i found that nothing i had was appropriate... army clothes mixed with bright pink and tie-dye shirts... so it clicked it clicked in my head that there was only one thing to do... go in my briefs... so i jump in my car and go... clenching my ticket i ran up to the top section too find my seat...witch raises another question ... why the hell did the ticket people let me go threw... after the show everyone was giving me sour looks and other kinds of looks ^_^... too my surprise non of my friends are even surprised that i am barley dressed...no instead they appear to be oblivious to the fact...
..............this dream got cut off right here because my phone rang.... i really wish it didn't happen because i really wanted to see where this was going...

this was one of my five seconds dreams...
.... i got up out of my bed... like the bed i slept in last night...everything is perfectly identical ... but everything was in bright pastel colors ... with floating pink elephants... this dream ended as soon as i said..."man... i am getting tired of those pink elephants" and rolled over back too sleep...

i had also one of my repeat dreams but it was... well even less readable as it normally is... i think i was doing something fast or going fast...

sincerely Thomas I. Cox / bokkodo the one to be followed alone ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/18639118/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/18639118/ Tue, 03 Jun 2008 04:47:44 PDT
little warning ... theres nothing i am really talking about.. kinda just babbling... like some kinda monkey with mental problems or something... hmm monkeys..i like coconuts... i wonder... do monkeys like coconuts... matter of fact what the hell other then people even eat coconuts... who knows you might have fun reading it

hello people... i seemed to forget your names... well most of your names.. i am pretty sure theres a fred... err something...>_>... <_<... i think there watching me... evil fred... always trying to take my pudding... hmm.. i don't like pudding,,,(look at the commas)

well i got my hair cute today and strangely enough it put me in a weird mood... further proving my notion that mood is directly connected to your hair... hmm i don't think that... that or i am reading to many books right now... that happens... i think the reds are after me... i look weird with short hair... i got a good skull for short or buzzed hair... but i don't recognize myself when i look in mirror...

well since i am in such good mood... hmm... am i in a good mood... i can't tell... hmm... more neutral err something...but if that is true why can't i stop smiling or laughing... hmm ... damn you fear and loathing in las vagas... i new i shouldn't have watched that today...

[link]
boosnap... thanks too this person i got some new practice tips for my art attempts... he also gaveme some inks too good art books

this guy is just a cool dude [link] kachima

i am in love with this one [link] rhyraptor and this one [link] Kamrin-Jury

some more cool people [link] tryfanmolee [link] AlmaOCarroll [link] Nekochann [link] keltzy [link] Petite-Emi(i am gonna get a tattoo of one of her pieces... it's called INK)... this guy has a great gallery... but it is a little... hot... but really well done pieces [link] hentai-kitty

sincerely Thomas I. Cox / bokkodo the one to be followed alone ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/18314518/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/18314518/ Wed, 14 May 2008 01:52:29 PDT
well it's been a entertaining pass couple weeks...

i re-read whipping star... i have read that book about 4 times now... every time you read the sensation of it is always just as powerful as the first... the dosadi experiment is a really good sequel too it all... just as intense and overwhelming as the first...

looky what i did... one of the better things i have ever produced... i have 14 more to go... this was a copy from my dynamic artist book... i am getting better slowly... but what the hell ever bit counts...

i have been listening to the gorillaz lately... it's a odd little band but am strangely called too it... thou my music has always been pretty random and hodge podge... haha... i was watching a gorillaz video and i realized something funny... the character noodle reminds me of my friend Laurie... i have no idea why but it is just funny...

i can't wait.. shin chan off of Adult swim is releasing it's first box set... i am so gonna buy it... i love that show.. it's every bit of horrible i love... also i am gonna get another season of samurai jack...

i happy about one thing i have been exercising and getting fairly tone... of course i am not near where i want to be... but give it a couple more weeks and i will be very happy... for the passed couple weeks i have been running for a hour at the pool on a treadmill pr elliptical machine and then a hour of light lifting and body resistance exercises... i plan on starting a thing called P-90 X with my brother.. last year me and him got pretty tone on the program so me and him are gonna do it again this year...

hmmm my life is boring and other then working this is all that i have been looking forward too or have done recently

i need a girlfriend...

a couple days ago someone sent me a note on DA saying i was a pervert because of my favorites...

sincerely Thomas I. Cox / bokkodo the one to be followed alone ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/18062934/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/18062934/ Sun, 27 Apr 2008 21:52:54 PDT
in these movie reviews i will not speak of the action or plot... i am just giving a spin... watch and make your own judgment

first Clover Field... thi was a fucking awesome movie... very strong and potent... there are several moments in this movie that are so gut wrenching and so strong it left me on the edge of my fucking seat... i will not say specific scenes becuase that would really ruin it.. but my god... i give this motion Pitcure a ***** it's not too gory... it's terrifying and induces strong emotions of overwhelming sadness and devotion...

Alien VS Predator requiem... ihave been saying for a long time that they need to put aliens on earth... and every response was just how i would precede the movements and actions of the aliens as well as the role of the predator... they finally brought back what a real predator is capable of... and they should the true nature of the parasite known as alien... this show had the perfect blend of the gore i like...not too much but just right where it's needed... the aliens showed there ability too control there prey as well as showed off there ferocious need to make there queen happy... witch in this case is what some call a pred-alien but i like the term...Battle Queen... then the predator... now the pedator that they used was not a hunter like on the last three films.. no no no... he is the go to guy when something happens that shouldn't happen... he's the black ops of the predator world a one man clean up team... who uses people as bait and is utterly vicious to everyone in his way.. not bound by honor but bound by the need to destroy the menace... i give it a **** a four star rating... i like this movie but it was hardly ground breaking... i like it manly because it should the responses i would expect from the three sides involved in the movie... aliens gather... predator hunts... humans run

I Am Legend... know i liked this movie before this version hit the silver screen... the black and white movie that it was made after called was pretty sweet... but this new spin on it was excellent by any standard... will smith was very good and put allot of emotion on the screen too... it was gut wrenching... and powerful... truly spectacular... it really shows how hard one man is willing too go to survive... even if there's no one left that he can call family or love... all in the hopes to keep the memory of those people alive... i give it a ****and 1/2 star excellent and just a good movie too sit down too...

Thank You For Smoking... this is one fucking funny ass movie.... it is really great... i can't even begin to explain it.... i just must say watch it... a ***** star rating just a damn good comedy

The giant Claw... released in 1955 it is one of the best black and whites i have ever scene... of course everything they say in it i ludicrous... for me it is a great movie too sit down and laugh my fucking ass off.. it is supposed to be a horror film but to anyone it gonna be a comedy... i give it a *** it funny but ludicrous and really out there... but watch it

Battle royal... this is a Japaneses horror/slasher movie... it is pretty intense and rather blunt at points... but it is very fun... ia damn good portion of gory image(just so you know i don't like gore in movies it is really lame) but it is pretty good i would give it a *** stars is a fair ratting you can only get it on the internet... like net flicks or something... or if you do live in a city you mght get lucky at some movies store... i would try for any Japaneses style store for good measure...

my disclaimer... i like movies that are intense and too the point... i know most of these movies knda end as a downer but there very good... too those who do have a problem with them... well it's too bad that you don't except that some things just don't end well... of course i love it when a movie ends in a overall good vibe... but i like movies where ether the person is utterly f-ed up at the end of it or it does not end well... like in shoot em up... the guy at the end is really fucked up.. it makes up for the fact that he wins over the odds... ooo speaking of witch i give shoot em up a **** rating just for being fun and the fact it has the greatest church i have ever seen in a movie in it... just a glorious church... i would go ever day instead of just on Sundays...@_@ glorious

sincerely Thomas I. Cox / bokkodo ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17942393/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17942393/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 10:53:58 PDT
well shit Wow finally has a cold grip on me... my brother is forced me to play World of War craft with him and now i am playing on a average basis... it's official i have no life... somebody just kill me already

sincerely Thomas I. Cox / bokkodo ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17864080/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17864080/ Tue, 15 Apr 2008 12:38:47 PDT i
something i am making up for my character neko [link] concept scetch by Nekochan ....
"on and on it goes... it will never let me go... i must die if it will release me... the needed gasp for air binds me to it...i am the will binded into this machine... it uses my body against me... it's steel pierces my soft flesh, twisting me to force it own will into me... it's will to move and burn it's eyes into me... forcing me too give it my eyes and my tongue... pretty soon i will no longer think i will just move and act... it will win in the long run... at most i can only hope it will not gain control in the near future..."
from the thought extract of Mliss neko... soon after direct infection of the REG/REJ virus... infected will piloting a K-Bot Assault Mech or a K-BAM

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what a interesting week... thou it won't get any better... for the next three days i wil be working non-stop... i don't mind working allot but when it's a night shift it makes even a simple job rough... thou i am getting things done... on theres day i have my GED testing, i hope to be able to get in too CWU by summer or fall depending... thou to be honest i won't too make fll my summer... take my classes during winter spring and summer and make my falls my summer... i like fall better then summer anyways... perfect temp, smell and colors... ether way i hope i will do good... i am worried about my math test... i was never very good at it... writing is gonna be easy... sci. may be a little challenging but not bad... i am not too worried about the other tests... on top of that my environment for the last year of being out of school will not have helped my ability to do the test well... to say the least i am a little rusty... and people seem to make me out to be smarter then i really am.. a little odd

being homeless is really stating to piss me off... i hate that i can't shower when ever i pleas... on top of that i have been under eating too... given my activity level and the fact that i am hypoglycemic won't make it much easier on me ether... the place i sleep has no running water... so if i want to get a drink of water in the middle of the day i have too get up get dressed and walk a block to get too my parents store so i can use the sink... the only true plus is there a computer and i have a place too sleep

thou i am gonna quit my current job because i have honestly never had a job that i had that much distaste for... i can't quit yet i have to work three more weeks... some mite ask well your working get your own place... well honestly how much do you think i get payed to be a night stalker... not much... specially since a place in ellensburg is kind pricey... the only way i am gonna do a roommate thing or share a place is if my roommate is a girl and she cleans up after herself... and not for that reason... i have got it on good authority that girls make better roommate then guys... well the other thing could be nice but out of my character unless i was going out with them...

i am gonna start with my AA classes at Central... then decide after that what i wanna do with my life... why the sudden drive to get back into school... i visited my friends Joelle and Evan a couple days ago and it made my stomach cringe when i realized i was not in school or doing anything related...

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well have fun and if i am dead by the time you read this i hope you have a good life

sincerely Thomas I. Cox / bokkodo ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17611105/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17611105/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 17:45:31 PDT
1) Full Name:Thomas Ian Cox

2) Were you named after anyone?: my father

3) Does your name mean anything?:not sure... i was told it meant something but it eludes me right now

4) Nick Names?: tank... tom tom(friend Courtney calls me that... i secretly love it)


5) Who do you think you look like?: my brothers

7) DOB: 9/19/1988 at 11:11 am

8) Place of Birth and Current Location: Brewster Washington but my home is Ellensburg

9) Nationality: Irish american


10) Astrology Sign: virgo

11) Chinese Astrology Sign: fire dragon

12) Religion: a little of everything that i modified into a passive religious state of mind... heavily influenced by Asian philosophy

13) What's your favorite smell?:rain and slow decay of fall leaves... it very calming

14) Political Position?: it best to be in the middle but am not active in politics

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: Irish coffee or Earl Grey tea *no sugar

16) Hair + Eye color:darker brown and Hazel eyes(leans more to green then brown)

17) Do you look like anyone famous?:not sure... never really came up

18) What do you look like?: short, semi long hair and muscular

19) Any unusual talents?: i have some talent with machines but don't really use it

20) Righty, lefty, or ambidextrous?: righty... i can do very little with my left hand..

21) Gay, Straight, Bi or other?: Straight

22) What do you do for a living?: labor...

23) What do you do for fun?: lots of stuff... read, hike, fish, repair and refurnish old fire arms... exercise, spending time with my friends familly

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?en and note pad... fist and steel

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?: nothing else

26) Have you met your grandparents?: yes... both side of the familly are crazy

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend?: no... i am a sad person

28) Crush?: yes... rhyraptor and kamrin-jury...

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?: none

30) Current Worries?: i am losing my mind... I'm not being playful i am serious

31) Favorite Online Guys/Girls?: tryfanmolee... almaocorrall... a few more

32) Favorite place to be?: deep woods or in the middle of a lake

33) Least favorite place to be?: city's ... i get very agitated and lash out if there are to many people around

34) Do you burn or tan?: i tan fairly well

35) Ever break a bone?: no but i have dislocated both knees multiple times

36) What is your favorite cereal?: malt o meal berry crunch or regular (no sugar) corn flakes

37) Person you cry with?: nobody

Do you have...

38) Any sisters?:yes 2 erica and j my half sister

39) Any brothers: 2 mike and chris

40) Any pets?: 4 spunky and Mitch(bearded dragons)mr.pink and vicious

41) An illness?: Asthma and i will die within five minutes if i am stung by a bee

42) A pager?: no...

43) A personal phone line?: no

44) A mobile phone?: yes...

45) A visible birthmark?: Um...it's not publically visible!

46) A pool or hot tub?: Shower... i dislike bathes.. unless it is a hot tub

47) A car?: yes... big ass van with plush purple enterer

Describe your...

48) Personality:i am very friendly on the surface but i am hardly nice on the inside

49) Driving: yes...not legally but yes

50) Clothing Style: nothing like a pair of worn in carharts and a t-shirt... i just got a kick ass new coat

51) Room: i am currently homeless

52) What's missing?: stable relationship, i good job and school

53) School:i want too but can't yet

54) Bed: modified bunk bed... very comfy...

55) Relationship with your parent(s): very good... me and mom and ryan(step father) get along great... my real dad tried to kill me and my mom and actively blames me and the rest of my familly for all his problems... i still love him thou

56) Do you believe in yourself?: no...

57) Do you believe in love at first sight?: yes... but i also believe that threw time you my gain love for someone

58) Do you consider yourself a good listener?: when i care yes... but other then that.. no

59) Do you have a future dream you would like to share?:i would love to be a good artist...

60) Do you get along with your parent(s)?: yes... and very well

61) Do you save your e-mail conversations?:Yup. ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17519089/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17519089/ Wed, 26 Mar 2008 01:13:13 PDT
oo i am happy i now own the evangelion box set...

i decided to work on the characters for a story i gonna wright... it went over kinda well... the first person i drew up was"howitzer" the 35th test subject and one of the main characters... i did and am very happy with the picture of him after he was imbued with REG/REJ DNA extract... but the pic before that i kinda screwed up on... i was trying to do a real casual and just kinda everyday look... everything was going pretty good in till i decided to do his face then i totally botched it... after that i did NEKO the 23ed test subject... it was a little challenging to do a more feminine version of the creature form but it turned out ok(not every one looks a freaky as Howitzer after being imbued, he looks like he does because his regular DNA was more excepting of the new DNA)... i decided to hold off on the before picture since i have not decided what ethnicity she will be or for that matter i am not done painting her picture... as in i don't know yet what kinda person she is yet... she is a secondary character... Marduke is the most human looking and has the highest concentration of REG/REJ DNA in his system and also looks by a wide margin the most human... thou he always where a a mask that hides his face... it is allot like the mask off of street fighter character but the difference is it cover his entire head and has no eye slits... his pic has been done for a while but have not posted it because it sucks... i will remake it soon... there is no before and after since he pretty much looks the same... in this story my two bad guys REG and REJ make a showing but not in a humanoid form but there infections blob form witch i have already posted as infection is optimal...there are a couple better ones i have of them in that form but i do not have a scanner anymore or for that matter one that is big enough to scan the howl thing... NO. 23 or test subject 23 i am gonna kill off within the first chapter because as i started developing the character i realized that i hated him... also i decided that he would be the cause for the howl mess that there in...(he releases REG and REJ from captivity because he was a week minded fool and could be controlled by there hypnosis)...

shit i gotta go my brother kicking me out (even thou i basically live here) so he can bone a girl

well have fun and if i am dead by the time you read this i hope you have a good life

sincerely Thomas I. Cox / bokkodo ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17436801/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17436801/ Fri, 21 Mar 2008 04:15:38 PDT
well a quick over view of importance between each paragraph
first paragraph is about a 4 on a scale of 1 to ten
the second is about a 3
the third is about a 9 (to me... to others it is about a 4 maybe 5)
the last paragraph is about a 6.... and if you like doodling you should look into the link as well as the project

well this week i officially start working for fred meyer... oooo hurray... fuck... my last job required that i work 11 f-ing hours and now i start working at midnight... this sucks... i already have no social life now i gonna hafta to start sleeping during the day... ooo vampireish isn't it...

i have a couple projects lined up for myself...
one is completing the repairs on my bike... de-rust fuel tank, machine the new leather seat, paint tank black, and get some new 2 to 1 mufflers(rather expensive but what ever)
after i do the last repairs and tune ups i gonna sell old betty... kinda nice i will get a easy 1,500 to 2,500... sweet but too bad because it is such a sweet bike... very classic street bike.. go's fast rides smooth and when it is done it will look very nice...

(fore warning i started to kinda ramble in this next paragraph)

after that i am going to black lacquer the stock and re-blue the barrel too my Mauser... witch i am very happy and excited to do... it is such a pretty fire arm just as it stands now but after i get the black lacquer stock and get it engraved with something fun it is gonna look like sin and pure evil had a kid.... a black gun with red engraved symbols with a fresh blued barrel... my god it gonna be grand. thou i am not sure what i will engrave into it... probably something fun... not quite sure what i am gonna put on it but i am very excited about that project... i mean i can't really fire the weapon at all... rounds are mega expensive for it since it's such a screwy round and only one company makes it... norma over seas... i mean i could order rounds but it would be about 45$ just for the box of ammo... then like 15$ for shipping and handling... so there's is only one thing to do... make it look spectacular... my dream for this weapon is for it to become the symbol of the cox family, the hand-me-down rifle given to my first born when he come of age... i would love to see it passed threw the family as i watch from the under world... i think i will put the family creed on it... to try to preserve the morals and ethics of the family... with the gun will also go the three books that shaped are morals and ethics... "The Book of Five Rings" by miyamoto musashie "The Unfettered Mind" By takuan SoHo and "Hagakuri" sorry author's name eludes me right now... this Mauser will become the sword of my family... our tool of enlightenment.

i kinda rambled there... i guess i am in a good mood right now... well the other project is this doodle thing on the this site where your supposed to do a doodle every day and post it every day.. i am doing the doodles but i am not posting them because i don't have a scanner... if your interested in it here's a link to it one of the people who does it[link] Jazzcatnya she is pretty good artist too...
i like this one

well have fun and if i am dead by the time you read this i hope you have a good life

sincerely Thomas I. Cox / bokkodo ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17399323/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17399323/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 17:27:05 PDT
well this week kinda sucked... i am having one of those weeks where every little stupid thin g i ever did seems to come back and haunt me...where all my failures seem to fuck with my head and make me realize how god damn stupid i really am... and no matter how small or insignificant... fuck i hate myself... i am such a fuck head... sure lots of people have tons of things they regret or realized was just stupid... but god damn i am a fucking moron... i missed my chances with two great girls... i fucked myself in school... and i have no social life to speak of... sept for the few times i fucked around with my brothers... but all they do is play video games, drink and smoke pot... oooo I'm gonna have allot of fun doing that... .... ok i"m done


well patty day was ok i went over to my buddy evan's house had a few drinks and ate some roast... and bullshitted with him and izak my other body from highschool

well have fun and if i am dead by the time you read this i hope you have a good life

sincerly Thomas I. Cox / bokkodo ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17228321/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17228321/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 17:09:49 PST
well... this is the one i will probably get

i have already asked permission and petite-emi rather likes the idea and has agreed to send me a copy of the pic in better detail... this weekend i am going to go see how much this is gonna cost me...

thou if you guys do have a couple pics you think i should look at... then send them my way... i got plenty of space on my skin

i think i will make it cover most of my back... i plan on it to be rather large

ohh it's gonna hurt

with Love from Thomas I.Cox ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17141449/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17141449/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 00:04:25 PST
girls and such (can't leave behind a pretty face)


machines and war (i am a soldier)
http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17121485/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 17:40:30 PST
FLCL one of my favorite show... aww but how know what Fooly Cooly means...


this girl is really pretty... im not just saying that because she half naked but she is really pretty...


i just felt like posting some pics i recently found

with Love from Thomas I.Cox ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17097933/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/17097933/ Thu, 28 Feb 2008 04:36:57 PST
i am in a very bad mood... i will likely kill the next person who annoys me or savagely beat them to a unrecognizable bleeding mass of flesh and skin and pulsing blood

fuck fuck fuck... i am going to kill some one.... god fuckin damn it...


there's only two thing i could do right now to get me over this...get to a gym and work the aggression out or find a girl fuck the shit out of her


the only thing i did today that was slightly enjoyable was redo my top favs list on DA... and woopty fuckin doo maybe if i was a good artist i could make my own favorite pieces wouldn't that be a fuckin treat


well doing this kinda helped

with Love from Thomas I.Cox ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/16753042/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/16753042/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 11:30:28 PST
rather nice pass couple days.... i finial y taking care of the rest of my medical bill(got mega lucky they probably gonna take off $2,500...does a jig) so if all goes well that should be a massive load off my back... especially since my job i only really get paid in room and board

i took a little break from my attempt to draw and last night i picked up my sketch book last night and drew...it was nice because i did much better this time and it actually looked like what i wanted it too look like....

it's been a rather entertaining week.... i started playing Diablo 2 with my brother after work and i found a bunch of movies i have not seen in a rather long time...labyrinth(inspired by tryfanmole's profile on face book) akira a personal favorite...ghost in the shell(first movie) a classic.... i also saw the movie stardust witch i actually rather enjoyed ... you know kinda fun... and a few more...

i don't have gym membership any more so i am having a hard time filling in the time......what i normally do is go to work,gym, then go home shower then read, draw or play video games... i don't have the money for a membership either... fuck i really wish hans gym didn't go out... that place was so freakin cheap... i need it too i am getting a little belly

hmm v-day is coming.... i need a date.... well that sucks given my pass luck with girls(laughs at self and sys in depression)i suck

ran into my friend Evan a couple days ago...haven't seen him in a while... apparently he's going to CWU and doing pretty good...

well crap look at the time gotta go

"deep in human unconscious is a pervasive need for a logical universe that makes sense. but the real universe is always one step beyond logic"
-from " the sayings of Maud'dib"


with Love from Thomas I.Cox



(yes my last name is cox, go ahead and laugh,but it is a appropriate name for me) ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/16543405/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/16543405/ Wed, 23 Jan 2008 20:40:53 PST
well today was ok... filed my taxes and am getting a nice little tax return... so that's nice, i have to go on a job search tomorrow(won't be hard i have lot's of work experience)... i finally got the carburetor's to my motorcycle so pretty soon i will have that up and running, can't fricken wait to ride it... it's gonna be fun on a bun.

i am beginning to think my morals are getting in the way of my life... but i am afraid of becoming hedonistic and basically in short not doing what i should be doing as my age dictates... people respect me in all manors because of my life style but i would like to be at least a little naive...the big problem is it's hard to find someone who shares my morals, because of that i have no one to relate too... talking to people on the internet is just not the same kind of interaction as talking or walking around with someone... i love my family but i just don't see level with them on anything, sept for a few little things but it is not enough too make me feel better... i need to meet new people...the problem with that i generally have a hard time talking to strangers or even engaging into good vibe...
i going to stop talking about this now...

well i am completely settled into my new place... it is basically a studio/office... but it is fine. quit comfy to be honest... a little small but very comfy...

god damn it is fuckin cold... it has been really cold in eburg and my god has it sucked... i like the cold and i am complaining.

well i got to take care of something

"deep in human unconscious is a pervasive need for a logical universe that makes sense. but the real universe is always one step beyond logic"
-from " the sayings of Maud'dib"


with Love from Thomas I.Cox



(yes my last name is cox, go ahead and laugh,but it is a appropriate name for me) ]]> ~bokkodo http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/16354630/ http://bokkodo.deviantart.com/journal/16354630/ Fri, 11 Jan 2008 08:25:52 PST
but no not this time. i caught this bug from my sis.... not quite sure of what i have but for the past couple days i have been coughing up bit's of lung(not really but i been coughing up foreign materials) and last night i was hallucinating....i didn't sleep at all last night because of it... it was really weird i can't even begin to explain what i saw... but wow...

well the important thing is is that i am feeling much better to day witch is why i decided to wright about it. symptoms include body ache, light headed, the inability to walk straight or make coherent sentences, sore throat mixed with vomiting, migraine... and hallucinations

side note Lauren your stuff has been mailed ... lisa the guy who we get posters from sent the wrong one so we are waiting on him right know you should hopefully get in the next couple days. melodie your stuff should get here very soon then i will deliver it

"deep in human unconscious is a pervasive need for a logical universe that makes sense. but the real universe is always one step beyond logic"
-from " the sayings of Maud'dib"

see you all later ]]> ~bokkodo