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[x] - You like cheese.
[ ] - You hate peanuts.
[x] - You agree that this quiz is random.
[x] - You have farted today.
[x] - You have choked on something.
[x] - You are a writer.
[ ] - You smoke
[x] - You like to swim.
[x] - You have farted more than once today.
[x] - You like ice cream.

TOTAL SO FAR = 8

[x] - You have lied more than 10 times.
[x] - You are an only child.
[ ] - You have more than 3 pets.
[ ] - You prefer water to other drinks.
[ ] - You are an alcoholic.
[x] - You are under 20 years old.
[ ] - You are over 30 years old.
[ ] - You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[x] - You like jewelery.
[ ] - Your favorite music genre is rock.

TOTAL SO FAR = 12

[ ] - You weigh more than 140 lbs.
[x] - You like pirates.
[x] - You like anime.
[x] - You are a fangirl/fanboy of something.
[ ] - You take a prescription drug every day.
[ ] - You have a job.
[x] - You live with your parents.
[x] - You like to eat eggs.
[ ] - You have a religion.
[ ] - You dress stranger than other people.

TOTAL SO FAR = 17

[ ] - You have had diarrhea in the past 2 weeks.
[x] - You have eaten something odd before.
[x] - You are bad at math.
[x] - You love electronics.
[x] - Someone/something has pissed you off in the past week.
[x] - You cuss a lot. (sort of)
[x] - You believe in aliens.
[x] - You play video games.
[x] - You have low self-esteem.
[x] - You carry a purse.

TOTAL SO FAR = 26

[x] - You like flowers.
[ ] - You are bisexual or homosexual.
[ ] - You are a Capricorn or a Scorpio.
[x] - You have used tarot before.
[x] - You believe in ghosts.
[ ] - You think *The-Fun-Group is awesome.
[ ] - You like =Fotus9's horoscopes better than *An-Unsure-Thing's...
[ ] - You thought today's funny saying was really funny.
[ ] - You have gotten one of the daily riddle's right.
[ ] - You have gotten in/came close to being in a fist fight.

TOTAL SO FAR = 29

[x] - You like fire.
[x] - You have fainted or passed out before.
[ ] - You have a high school diploma.
[x] - You live in America.
[ ] - You use hand sanitizer a lot.
[x] - You consider yourself a nerd.
[ ] - You have tried chewing tobacco.
[x] - You are a conspiracy theorist.
[ ] - You sleep in the nude.

TOTAL SO FAR = 34

[x] - You have imagined yourself being famous.
[x] - You own a stuffed animal.
[x] - You like watermelon.
[ ] - You live in Europe.
[ ] - You have a fetish for something.
[x] - You fidget a lot.
[x] - You agree that this quiz has nothing to do with anything.
[ ] - You won't re-post this quiz.
[x] - You have your own personal computer and don't share one.
[ ] - You have a brother.


TOTAL SO FAR = 40

[x] - You can cook well. (lol sorta)
[ ] - You like to party.
[x] - You are a bad dancer.
[ ] - You are a professional dancer.
[x] - You have crossed paths with a black cat.
[x] - You have a friend that you think is crazy. LOL.
[x] - You have under 10 good, close friends.
[x] - You are anticipating your answer to this quiz.
[x] - You have ran away from something.
[ ] - You have watched the movie: "X Men 3".

TOTAL SO FAR = 47

[x] - You like to mix soft drinks together.
[x] - You have done an odd experiment.
[x] - People have stared at you oddly in public.
[x] - Your grandmother(s) are still alive.
[ ] - You have a step-mom or dad.
[ ] - You hate to be tagged.
[ ] - You have been a member to dA for under 3 months.
[ ] - You have a dA subscription.
[x] - Your hair is brown.
[x] - You love to eat candy.

TOTAL SO FAR = 53

[x] - You have dressed up for Halloween.
[x] - You love cats.
[x] - You have a quirky personality.
[ ] - You are a coffee addict.
[x] - You live near a body of water.
[x] - You have had a toothache.
[ ] - You currently have to go to the bathroom.
[ ] - You like reading others' answers to "What would you do?".
[ ] - You are a vegetarian/vegan.
[x] - You use the term: "Epic Fail".

GRAND TOTAL = 59


Result: Tail Feather
LOL.




0-25 = A spaceship.
26 = Corn.
27 = The Chosen One.
28 = A donkey.
29 = Flashlight.
30 = Weed.
31 = Stalker.
32 = Poodle.
33 = A turd.
34 = Pacifier.
35 = Chili.
36 = A continent.
37 = Bamboo.
38 = A Nissan Skyline.
39 = Pedophile.
40 = A rather large and smel... ]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/22980874/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/22980874/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 10:15:02 PST
We get tomorrow off with no homework whatsoever and then Thursday, the new classes start up. Except for AP US History, which is the class from hell that runs all year.
I will definitely enjoy this day off as much as possible. ...even though I still have to do some of my summer reading before Thursday and I need to practice Winter Percussion stuff...

In other news, you have or may not have noticed the recent large amount of art I've submitted. It's all Computer Art I stuff, and that class just ended so yeah that's it for that.

I'm looking forward to next semester, and hopefully without math breathing down my neck i'll have a little bit more time. Probably not much, but maybe a tad. I should be thankful though for the time I have already. I know others aren't as fortunate.

so that's really all, I hope everyone is well and if I don't update before then, Happy Valentine's Day!

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/21883435/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/21883435/ Mon, 08 Dec 2008 14:47:18 PST

I'd just like to pop in and spread the word about a contest is holding, known as Wing It!

I encourage anyone to join and take a whack at it! It should be fun!

Check it out here: [link]

*salute* See ya!

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/20379047/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/20379047/ Sun, 07 Sep 2008 16:45:12 PDT

So let me take you through my weekend:

Friday school was out. Yay!

Saturday I had Marching Band all day. A good thing happened and a pretty bad thing happened, but I won't go into those.

Sunday... well, let's see...

I had to go to a brunch at my grandma's house with the rest of my family. And, since every time I get together with them, I realize just how much different and distant our similarities are, it kinda sucked. I can't really relate to anything the kids my age are into anyways.

Although, the worst thing this weekend happened before then.

I sort of got into a car crash.

Nothing major or anything, no one got hurt, but I feel dumb about it since I was the one driving and I sort of hit the gas while I was pulling into a parking space instead of the brake and hit a light pole. The front end is banged up and I broke a tire rod. Ooops.

Less importantly, I went to Wal-Mart later on to go get another WoW subscription since I cannot stop thinking about it lately, and they didn't really have any game cards left. And the GameStop next door was closed.

So yeah. To top it off, there's school tomorrow. And no one really wants to go to school.



]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/19500059/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/19500059/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 12:53:20 PDT (x) said LOL out loud
(x) forgotten your own age
(x) tried to lick your elbow

SO FAR: 3

Level 2
( ) said the wrong name in bed
( ) had unprotected sex
( ) hurt yourself sexing
( ) sexed yourself hurting

SO FAR: 3

Level 3
(x) Licked your toe
(x) Licked a frozen pole
(x) Licked a dog bone
( ) Licked a dog

SO FAR: 6

Level 4
( ) drank old milk
( ) drank milk right from a cow
() ever thought chocolate milk came from brown cows
( ) drank Qwik right from the brown cow
( ) pushed a cow over

SO FAR: 6

Level 5
( ) Eaten bugs
( ) Eaten garbage
(x) Eaten food off the floor after 5 seconds
(x) Eaten a booger (I WAS FIVE! )

SO FAR: 8

Level 6
( ) Been in a 5 seater Car with more than 7 people
( ) Been in a 7 seater van with over 12 people
( ) Driven in a 7 seater van by youself
(x) Driven a tricycle past the age of 3
( ) Driven yourself home to the wrong house

SO FAR: 9

Level 7
( ) Put dirty dishes in the fridge
( ) Put bowls of food in the dishwasher
(x) Put a full glass of juice in the cupboard
( ) Put salt in your coffee
(x) Dropped the cap into the glass your drinking from
(x) Put the remote in the fridge

SO FAR: 12

Level 8
( ) Jumped over a car
( ) Jumped out of a moving car
( ) Jumped into a thorny bush on purpose
( ) Jumped off a bridge
(x) Jumped off your house

SO far: 13

Level 10
(x) Forgot where you live
(x) Forgot your own birthday
( ) Forgot to zip up in the morning

SO FAR: 15

Level 11
(x) Walked into a Pole
(x) Walked into a Wall
(x) Walked into someone
(x) Walked into a parked car

SO FAR: 19

Level 12
( ) Won A Burping contest
( ) Burped the alphabet
( ) Burped just to break the silence
( ) Burped too hard and threw up

SO FAR: 19

Level 13
(x) Eaten a whole bag of chips
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Eaten a whole pizza so no one else could have a slice

SO FAR : 20

Level 14
(x) Caught picking your nose
( ) Caught going to the bathroom outside
( ) Caught with your pants down
( ) Caught having sex
( ) Caught sexing yourself

SO FAR: 21

Level 15
(x) Shoved something up your nose
( ) Picked your nose and studied what came out
( ) Picked your nose till it bled
( ) Let your nose bleed to see the awesome blood all over you
(x) Blew your nose so hard your whole body hurt

SO FAR: 23

Level X
(x) Told a lie
(x) Been caught in a lie
(x) Lied to cover a lie
(x) Lied to cover your ass
( ) Lied to an undercover hooker cop

SO FAR: 27

Level 17
(x) Laughed at someone in pain
(x) Laughed too loud and embarrassed yourself
( ) Laughed at a funeral
(x) Laughed so hard you pissed yourself

SO FAR: 30

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Beleived in Santa past the age of 8
(x) Beleived your folks that a bunny laid chocolate eggs outside
(x) Beleived you were never too old for trick or treating

SO FAR: 34

Level 19
(x) Threw a party for yourself
(x) Threw a ball at yourself
(x) Threw up on yourself
(x) Threw a ball at a wall that returned directly to your crotch
(x) Threw a superball in the house and took it right in the face

SO FAR: 39

Level 20
(x) Pretended to know what you are doing
( ) Pretended you were hot shit
(x) Pretended you werent listening
(x) Pretended you were Spiderman

SO FAR: 42

Level 22
(x) Fell on the sidewalk
(x) Fell down the stairs
(x) Fell UP the stairs
(x) went Sledding down the stairs

SO FAR: 46

Level 23
(x) Tried to do a real cool backflip
(x) and busted your ass
(x) Tried to do a real cool cartwheel
(x) and didnt lift your feet

SO FAR: 50

Level 24
(x) Ate food that you just kinda found
( ) Ate the mystery food in the back of the fridge
(x) Ate something nasty to get a laugh
( ) Cried when no one laughed

SO FAR: 52

Level 25
(x) Cried when you hurt yourself
(x) Cried when you didnt get your way
(x) Cried over spilled milk
( ) Cried after sex

SO FAR: 55

Level 26
( ) Gone swimming naked
( ) Gone swimming in a strangers pool
(x) Gone swimming with a hose in the yard
( )... ]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/19461722/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/19461722/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 09:37:36 PDT 2- Repost as " I am __% retarded "
3- Tag 3 people

1. [x] You have choked on water before.

2. [x] You have tripped down the stairs before.

3. [x] You have walked into a door.

4. [x] You have pushed a door the wrong way.

5. [x] You have walked into a wall.

6. [x] You have fallen going UP the stairs.

7. [x] You have jumped off something.

8. [x] You have been electrocuted.

9. [x] You have put metal/aluminum in the microwave.

10. [x] Right after a commercial comes on you forgot the show you were watching.

11. [x] You have forgotten something that someone said.

12. [ ] Your friends / family call you blonde a lot.

13. [x] You barely ever understand stuff / jokes, or it takes a long time to figure them out.

14. [x] You have been bleeding and not even noticed it.

15. [x] You've worn something backwards / inside out the whole day without knowing it.

16. [ ] You have stuck a fork / knife in a toaster before. (maybe if I had a toester)

17. [x] You have played with fire.

18. [ ] You have thought USA was a state.

19. [ ] You've stepped on a flat iron / curling iron / straightener.

20. [ ] You had to write this down or use a calculator or use your fingers to figure out your answer of how retarded you are.

I tag whoever wants to do this.

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/19443579/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/19443579/ Thu, 17 Jul 2008 10:18:03 PDT With an awkward gait that even she never understood, the girl stepped into the bathroom and looked into the mirror. She smiled. For the first time in a long while, she liked what she saw. Instead of the circles under the eyes she never learned to trust, the flaws hidden underneath her pale skin that no mirror could ever show, she saw happiness. She saw a vigor that, over the past few days, had grown and expanded into a feeling with no name.
Everything seemed so much different from her point of view. No pressure, no overhanging responsibilities, and, although her calendar said otherwise, no deadlines. All of her ducks were in a row, just as she liked.
She had much to do in the coming weeks, so much that normally, they would’ve been avoided until the last possible minute. Today, however, she felt ready. She didn’t mind all the things that sat unchecked on her To-Do list. It was a new challenge. And she was ready to take it.
Besides, they kept her busy. Every day, there was something new to do or something old to work on. They kept her mind from wandering too far, wading into water that was much too deep for her to swim in.
Before, she would’ve gone into that pool of distressing thoughts and overwhelming concerns because she felt it was her duty. She felt that it was her responsibility to lift more weight than she could handle, even if it meant destroying herself in the process. And even though a little voice in her head always tried to remind her of her mortality, that she couldn’t possibly do everything for everyone, she pushed onward. She would often push so far that even the during time she spent trying to escape it all, trying to hide from her own thoughts, trying to just take a break from the world, it would still leak into her vision. And she never knew how to stop it.
Now, though, something different had happened. She wasn’t sure what it was, but she certainly didn’t want it to end. Suddenly it seemed that things she would’ve procrastinated on before became things that she actually wanted to do.
Even the things she would’ve done to distance herself from her responsibilities seemed to shrink in her mind; her priorities were changing, and it seemed that they were changing for the better.
Despite this new mindset, she reminded herself that her old thoughts, old concerns, old worries were still there, hiding in her mind to strike when she was most vulnerable. That did not mean that she would get rid of them for good; they were always going to be there, always going to be part of her in a way that moss becomes part of a stone. They were what made her, well, her. But just because they were still there also did not mean that they would control her. She could put them behind her and keep them there to serve as a reminder at the same time.
She now knew that there was a time for worry, a time to be concerned about things, and that there was also a time to do the opposite, to forget about her worries and concerns and to not let them bother her in a way that hurt her, like she had done in times previous.
It was at this time of revelation when she decided: she would not let her own mind, those rabid thoughts that plagued her so often before, control her. She would control them. It was her time now to take the wheel and go where she wanted to go. She was not going to keep herself grounded any longer.
She smiled one last time at her own reflection before walking out into the hallway. It was time to leave this old shell behind and grow a newer, better one.
One that was never really going to be a shell at all.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Just doing some soul-searching, is all.

FEATURES FROM LAST JOURNAL COMMENTS! YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS! You've been tagged! You must now do the same: post a journal saying that the first ten people who comment on it will be featured. It's a way of helping others, getting featured and featuring people in return. Here are my features!

1) with [link]
2)
3)
... ]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/19312068/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/19312068/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 14:02:54 PDT .

First ten people to comment here will be featured! If you have a specific piece you'd like me to put here, just let me know.

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/19221415/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/19221415/ Sat, 05 Jul 2008 15:37:12 PDT
Pick ten people and put them in the slots below. Then answer the questions that follow. They can be real-life people you know, dA friends, or OC's.

LOLZ real-life peoples (some on dA, some not) I know and perhaps a few SC ppls? I iz gunna mix them up so they're in random orders on teh list! (order means nothing!)

1.
2.
3. Mr. Phil Hanno! (cause I need someone random who's a guy)
4. Dranari
5. Master Schvekla (Oh NOES!)
6. Mr. Dana Altobelli! (HAHAHAHAHAH!)
7.
8. Numarr
9.
10. Lord Voldemort (I can't think of no one elsessses)


What would you do if...

Number 1 woke you up in the middle of the night?
Me: “…huh? Brooke, what the hell are you doing in here? What? LAUREL FELL IN A WELL? SHIT! *gets up* I’m coming!”

Number 3 walked into the bathroom while you're showering?
Me: *SCREAMSSS* GET OUT! *throws shampoo bottle at him*

Number 4 announced s/he's going to marry 9 tomorrow?
Me: LOLZ guys, that’s funny! *pause* Alright so what‘s really gonna happen in the story? *no answer* Guys… NOELLE?! WHAT THE F***?! NO! (but that would never happen anyways so that’s hypothetical )

Number 5 cooked you dinner?
Me: I‘ll bet you poisoned it.
#5: *smirks* Yup! But only because you remind me of someone I hate…
Me: *whacks over the head with frying pan* OH GO TO HELL!

Number 6 was lying next to you on the beach, sleeping?
Me: AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! WTH???
#6: *no answer*
Me: …ummm… Mr. Altobelli? Hello?

Number 7 suddenly confessed to be part of your family?
Me: ZOMG THAT‘S LIKE, THE SHIT MAN! Let’s go plot evil world domination plans in my- OUR room! *YAY*

Number 8 got into the hospital somehow?
Me: WHAT? NOOO! WHYAHH???? *runs to go visit him* I'M COMING!

Number 9 made fun of your friends?
Me: haha… she would never do that anyways XD what a silly question…

Number 10 ignored you all the time?
Me: B-b-but I thought we were friends?
#10: *pause* *spins around fast* AVADA KADAVRA!
Me: Sorry man, that doesn‘t work on me.
#10: *pouts*

Two serial killers are hunting you down. What will 1 do?
#1: Let's go get all the kitchen knives and set up camp inside the chimney until they arrive, upon which we will slaughter them all! MUAHAHAHA!

You're on a vacation with 2 and manage to broke your leg. What does 2 do?
#2: *points and laughs* Haha, that's funny, Kirsti!
Me: *winces* No, Bryanne, I really did break my leg…
#2: *long pause* Oh. *pause* SHIT!

It's your birthday. What will 3 give you?
Hopefully a copy of the Earth Science text book! Either that or he'd do the Friday Dance. *shrugs*

You're stuck in a house that's on fire. What does 4 do?
Well, first of all, she probably started it… but then she'd try to put it out with her rain powers while trying to run inside to save me! HAH!

You're about to do something that'll make you feel extremely embarrassed. What will 5 do?
Me: I'm about to do something extremely embarrassing…
#5: Hah. Break a leg. *breaks my leg*
Me: Agh!
#5: After this you're cleaning my entire classroom, you know.
Me: You don't even know me!
#5: *laugh* Hah, I know! That's the funny part!
#2: *points and laughs* Haha, that's funny, Kirsti!
Me: *winces* No, Bryanne, I really did break my leg…
#2: *long pause* Oh. *pause* SHIT!


You're about to marry number 10. What's 1's reaction:
#1: Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh…….. Why?!
#10: AVADA KADAVRA!
Me and #1: Dude. No.
#10: *pouts*

You g... ]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/19168395/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/19168395/ Wed, 02 Jul 2008 15:28:32 PDT and we went up to New Hampshire to go mini-golfing and ride go-carts. That was fun.
What wasn't all that fun was the in-between stuff. Lol because during the last hole mini-golfing, I really didn't feel that great and ended up passing out for a few seconds. I didn't hit the ground though since Laurel's mom ended up catching me, so that's good.

I drank some fluids and had some food and I was all set, but still it wasn't very fun. I still sort of have a headache, but the motrin should help that.

But yeah the go-carts were super fun. Everyone ended up passing me cause I figured out that I'm more of a passive, cautious driver when it comes to aggression, but nonetheless it was definitely an experience.

Anyways, I took the same personality quiz as and . It's pretty accurate, but I'd have to disagree on some things.

Harmony-seeking Idealist (HI)


Harmony-seeking Idealists are characterised by a complex personality and an abundance of thoughts and feelings. They are warm-hearted persons by nature. They are sympathetic and understanding. Harmony-seeking Idealists expect a lot of themselves and of others. They have a strong understanding of human nature and are often very good judges of character. But they are mostly reserved and confide their thoughts and feelings to very few people they trust. They are deeply hurt by rejection or criticism. Harmony-seeking Idealists find conflict situations unpleasant and prefer harmonious relationships. However, if reaching a certain target is very important to them they can assert themselves with a doggedness bordering on obstinacy.

Harmony-seeking Idealists have a lively fantasy, often an almost clairvoyant intuition and are often very creative. Once they have tackled a project, they do everything in their power to achieve their goals. In everyday life, they often prove to be excellent problem solvers. They like to get to the root of things and have a natural curiosity and a thirst for knowledge. At the same time, they are practically oriented, well organised and in a position to tackle complex situations in a structured and carefully considered manner. When they concentrate on something, they do so one hundred percent - they often become so immersed in a task that they forget everything else around them. That is the secret of their often very large professional success.

As partners, harmony-seeking idealists are loyal and reliable; a permanent relationship is very important to them. They seldom fall in love head over heels nor do they like quick affairs. They sometimes find it very difficult to clearly show their affection although their feelings are deep and sincere. In as far as their circle of friends is concerned, their motto is: less is more! As far as new contacts are concerned, they are approachable to only a limited extent; they prefer to put their energy into just a few, close friendships. Their demands on friends and partners are very high. As they do not like conflicts, they hesitate for some time before raising unsatisfactory issues and, when they do, they make every effort not to hurt anyone as a result.



Adjectives which describe your type
introverted, theoretical, emotional, planning, idealistic, harmony-seeking, understanding, peace-loving, sensitive, quiet, sympathetic, conscientious, dogged, complicated, inconspicuous, warm-hearted, complex, imaginative, inspiring, helpful, demanding, communicative, reserved, vulnerable


These subjects could interest you
literature, philosophy, psychology, music, meditation, writing, yoga, art, astrology, drawing/painting, spiritual things, handicrafts

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/19079664/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/19079664/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 16:57:13 PDT


Good news and bad news:

Good news:
I had my first Rookie Day for Marching Band today, and I had a super fun time. We learned different commands and how to march forwards and backwards, and how to hold our instruments. There was this marching competition at the end and in the rookie competition, I somehow managed to win and not screw up anything, which I'm still sort of surprised about. I'm not really sure how I did it. It was definitely a good first real marching band experience.

Extrememly Upsetting (bad) News:
Okay, so a few days ago I ordered a new video editing software called Sony Vegas Movie Studio Platinum Edition 8.0. It's a really sophisticated program that's definitely an upgrade from the ol' Windows Movie Maker that I used to use for making videos, since that's sort of my other hobby besides writing and stuff.

Anyways, that came in today and it was waiting for me when I got home from Rookie Day. That's not the bad news.

The bad news is that it doesn't really work out the way I want it to. It's sort of hard to explain.

I create videos/AMV's/music videos with Disney movies such as the Lion King. The version I have of the Lion King isn't exactly good quality, so I had downloaded another, better quality version of it. Except for some reason, it didn't want to work on WMM and I thought (and still think) it's because the video is not the right file format. So, I ordered this new video making software in the hopes that it would play the file types I had (which are mostly .avi's) and, not to mention for the new, awesome effects that come with it.

Come to find out, I install this new software, get wicked excited about it, go to import these video files, annnndddd they don't work. Well, they work, but it only plays the audio of the file, not the video (which, btw, is the most important part for my purposes).

So here I am, stuck in the middle of this really confusing and sophisticated program that I have little idea how to run, trying to find a way to somehow change the file type. So far, I have not been successful and it's really been pissing me off since I paid good money for a program that I thought could help some of my problems, only to find that it actually does less than a program that was free and on my computer to begin with. (and i say less because it doesn't even play files that worked in WMM. so much for a better program).

I mean, this software is great, don't get me wrong. It has wicked nice effects and transitions and tons of options, but that really doesn't matter when you can't even get the video you want to use to work they way you want it to.

So, to conclude, for the last few hours I've been relentlessly searching the internet and through instruction manuals and the Help section for some sort of solution to my problem.

Oh, and by all means, if anyone out there knows something I could do or has the name of some free program that lets me convert movie files, (or if you have this movie software and know what my problem is) PLEASEEEE tell me. I would forever be in your debt.

I hope everyone else is having better luck with stuff. And have a good weekend, everyone! SORRY FOR THE RANT.

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18893269/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18893269/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 13:15:53 PDT Love all you guys! It feels good to finally be 16!

but, on a more disappointing note, I went for my permit today and... unfortunately, it didn't turn out as well as I had wanted it to...

Yeah I sort of failed it. I was really upset, but i'm going back soon to try again. hopefully I'll do better next time. besides, i'm sure i'm not the only one who's failed it on the first try. my dad didn't pass on his first try, either, so that's sort of reassuring. still, i feel stupid.

but yeah the questions I got were really disgustingly specific, like "if a police officer pulls you over and you refuse to give him your name and address, what could happen?" the questions I got were worded funny and the choices were really similar. other than the really specific questions about consequences of DUI and specific numbers of things, I got the rest right.

Finals went alright today. I think I did well on my Psychology final, and I'm not sure about Chemistry, but I hope I did alright.

Only two more days of having to wake up early! YAY!

Happy June 17th! And Happy Birthday Grammy!

Oh, and , don't let me forget to give you The Divine Comedy like I did today!

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18803183/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18803183/ Thu, 12 Jun 2008 13:36:03 PDT

Snagged this little thing from .

You can try it if you wanna. Let's see how accurate this is... (i've got some pretty weird stuff on my Ipod, so this should be interesting)

Rules:

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player ect. on shuffle.
2. For each question press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song name down, no matter how silly it sounds!


If someone asks you "is this okay?" you say?
Hakuna Matata (in Norweigian), The Lion King *i've got this song in like, 9 languages on here*


What would best describe your personality?
Remembrances, Schindler's List


How do you feel today?
Sculptures, Mark Mancina (from Twister)


What do you like in a guy/girl?
London Beckoned Songs About Money Written By Machines, Panic! At the Disco


What is your life's purpose?
The Stone Table, Harry Gregson-Williams (from The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe)


What is your motto?
A Call to Arms, Immediate Music


What do your friends think of you?
The Book of Peace, Harry Gregson-Williams (from Sinbad: Legend of the Seven Seas)


What do you think about very often?
Remember Flow, Naruto


What do you think about your parents?
Everytime We Touch, Cascada (UHHHH, OKAYYY THEN... )


What is 2+2?
William Tell- Oklahoma Medly, Mark Mancina (from Twister)

What do you think of the person you like?
With Great Power (Choir), Immediate Music


What is your life story?
The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly, Hugo Montenegro


What do you think when you see the person you like?
They're All Gone, James Newton Howard (from Dinosaur)

What do your parents think of you?
Discovery of the Great Valley, by James Horner (from the Land Before Time I)


What will you dance to at your wedding?
Fix You, Coldplay (hmmm... not bad)


What will they play at your funeral?
Finding Nemo Main Theme (Nemo Egg), from Finding Nemo


What is your hobby/interest?
God Help the Outcasts, The Hunchback of Notre Dame


What is your biggest fear?
Thick as a Brick, Jethro Tull


What is your biggest secret?
Chasing Cars, Snow Patrol


What do you think of your friends?
Never Had A Friend Like Me, Aladdin (no joke, this is what came up!)


What will you post this as?
The Way You Move, Outkast

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LOL that was fun! hope you were amused!

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18702789/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18702789/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 18:44:01 PDT

Anyways, I guess I'll let the lyrics explain it all... (and of course, it's a song from Wicked, so it must be good)

"For Good"
from Wicked

ELPHABA
I'm limited, just look at me I'm limited and look at you, you can do all I couldn't do, Glinda... now it's up to you
(spoken):for both of us (sung): now it's up to you

GLINDA
I've heard it said, that people come into our lives for a reason,
bringing something we must learn and we are led to those
who help us most to grow if we let them, and we help them in return and we are led to those who help us most to grow if we let
them and we help them in return
now I don't know if I believe that that is true, but I know I'm who I am today because I knew you...
like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes the sun, like a stream that meets a boulder halfway through the wood...
who can say if I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you I have been changed,
for good...

ELPHABA

It well may be, that we will never meet again in this lifetime, so let me say before we part: so much of me is made of what I have
learned from you,
you'll be with me, like a handprint on my heart, and now whatever way our stories may end I know you have
rewritten mine by being my friend...
Like a ship blown from it's mooring by a wind off the sea, like a seed dropped by a
skybird in a distant wood,
who can say if I've been changed for the better? But because I knew you...

GLINDA

Because I knew you...

BOTH

I have been changed for good

ELPHABA

And just to clear the air I ask forgiveness for what you blame me for...

GLINDA

Well I guess there is blame to share...

BOTH

And none of it seems to matter anymore

GLINDA (same time as Elphaba)

Like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes the sun, like a stream that meets a boulder halfway through the wood

ELPHABA (same time as Glinda)

Like a ship blown off it's mooring by a wind off the sea, like a seed dropped by a skybird in the wood

BOTH

Who's to say if I've been changed for the better?

GLINDA

because I knew you,

ELPHABA

because I knew you

BOTH

I have been changed for good

LOVE THIS SONG!

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18691817/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18691817/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 06:00:56 PDT It is a nightmare we all must face...

My heart and my tears go out to all of my sisters, my ilan, in this time of sorrow and this time of testing... It is in these times that our bonds will grow unbreakable... our hearts, stronger... and our friendship immeasureably closer... and it is now I realize that although the vines and thorns can grow many over the already rocky and steep pathway, it is through each other and our unmistakable bonds that we will prevail.

My deepest condolences to my sister, my comrade, Starcloud, in this horrible tradgedy that Fate has befallen you. My arms, my mind, and my heart will always be open for you, and for all of my sisters. For anyone who needs a hand to hold, or a shoulder to lean on, I'll always be there, for my very life, my sisters.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

In other news (as most of you have already figured out by the time you read this), I was not in school today. Yesterday I got a very bad migraine, beginning at the end of A Block. I started getting an aura, which is basically a warning sign that you're about to get a migraine. People who get an aura, which usually begins within 30 minutes before the headache starts, may see spots, wavy lines, or flashing lights in their vision. For me there was all this fuzziness in my left eye and I could barely see out of it.
Then that went away and I went to Chemistry and the headache part started. I went to the nurse and she dismissed me, and from about 10:30am to 6:15pm, I threw up every 15-20 minutes. And along with excrutiating sinus pressure above my right eye the entire time, it really sucked.

Finally at 6:30 I was able to keep food down and I ate some toast. It was the best toast I've ever had in my entire life. Anyways, after an interesting encounter with my light in my room and an amusing conversation with on the phone, the nausea and the headache eventually went away and I got a good 7 or 8 hours of sleep.

The only reason why I'm not in school today is because:

A) The only food i've eaten since yesterday morning was a little breakfast bar for breakfast and that toast, which came about 12 hours later. Did I mention it was the best toast i've ever eaten? Anyways, yeah, i'm still very weak. I can barely go up and down stairs.

B) From all the throwing up (well, more like dry heaving) that I've done over the past 24 hours, my abdominal muscles are very much sore, which makes it sort of hard to do anything strenuous (sp?).

C) And since I was really only functional from 6pm after I got done upchucking to 8pm when I went back to bed, I didn't get any homework done! Yeah so this weekend that's what I'll be working on. Btw, anyone get any history homework for me? I would appreciate it. Phone calls would be nice too.

So yeah, if anyone wants any more details about my migraine experience (which I'm not sure why you'd want that, but...), I'll be glad to explain.

Did I mention that that toast was the best toast i've ever eaten? And that while I was in this state of vomit-ness, I became delusional? T'was a funny experience. Fun songs popping into my head, "people" in my stomach, the numbers 1231221 and the letters GRTABPXE.

Anyways, I should probably go eat breakfast or something now. I'll talk to y'all later.

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18628413/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18628413/ Mon, 02 Jun 2008 14:02:49 PDT

and OMG, I'm totally obsessed with Wicked as of late. Can't wait to get the tower for my desktop computer back so I can get the songs on my Ipod. Until then, .

In other news, my birthday is in 15 days and last day of school is in 17! yay! Junior year, here I come!

All the seeds from the dandelions are floating around in mid-air outside right now. it's pretty. especially in the sun.

Happy 2nd of June-day-thing. :/

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18529650/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18529650/ Tue, 27 May 2008 15:29:11 PDT
In case you want to know exactly what I'm doing over the span of these 5-6 days, here's my itinerary:

Thursday: Parents leave for Dover soon after dropping me off at school. I get picked up by my Grandpa and go to Driver's Ed (last class! YAY!) then sleep over Grandparents house.

Friday: Grandparents bring me to school. Grandparents pick me up from school. Shortly thereafter, Grandparents meet with Laurel's parents. I go to Laurel's house.

Saturday: At Laurel's house. Have a wicked jammin' time.

Sunday: Still at Laurel's. Sunday night I arrange to be picked up by my Grandpa. Go back to Grandparents house. Sleep there.

Monday: Go to school. Depending on if the race gets rained out on sunday or not, possibly getting picked up by grandparents after school, possibly going home. Possibly sleeping over grandparents house again if parents aren't home yet.

Tuesday: Grandparents bring me to school if i'm still there. By tuesday night, I should be home.

VIOLA! So that's where I'll be all weekend. I'll have my laptop with me most of the time (except tomorrow since, like i said, my dad's bringing it to grandparent's house early). if you want to talk to me in person, call my cell. i'm not going to post my cell number here since that wouldn't be very smart, but if you forgot what it was/never got it, feel free to note me.

Otherwise, call my house number and you'll have a nice chat with my uncle. JOY!

This has been a not-so-public service announcement by the BLK_FNX.

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18512331/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18512331/ Mon, 26 May 2008 14:21:56 PDT
Yes, i've spent more than 75% of my day (at least) writing, 4 hours of that writing something new (4.2, which I wouldn't really call a work of art) and another 2 hours or so finishing up some other projects (Sinbad fan-fic and what was previously known as the staff story, now called Consider It a Gift). well, they aren't really finished, per se, since more can (and probably will) be added to them at a later date. we'll just have to see about that.

I know you guys have been waiting for some more submissions from me for a while, so all I can say now is:

GO!

FROLIC LIKE GAZELLES ON THE SAVANNAH THROUGH ALL THE WONDERFUL WRITING AND ENGLISH-NESS OF IT ALL!

and don't forget to tell me what you think!

so even though I procrastinated some more on my chemistry paper, didn't check any of my deviations, and didn't have any paint brushes to work on my painting, I did manage to accomplish some long sought-after goals that were on my long list of goals. Yes, there are many, but at this moment, I feel accomplished. I am proud.

oh and on the whole confusion and pandemonium of 4.2... do you think I should write down some of my future dreams? Or was that total blasphemy to read? (it's alright if it was blasphemous, i could barely keep track of what i was trying to write as I was proof-reading) Do you think it was worth it to turn it into a story-like thing? you know, instead of being all in 1st person?

sorry if that didn't make sense. i have trouble writing the surreal workings of my subconscious down into... word-things... o.O

I'm going to stop now. CIAO!

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18499122/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18499122/ Sun, 25 May 2008 18:06:54 PDT
not much happened except playing some ping-pong and having a deep conversation with my cousin who... isn't doing so well to say the least (which happens everytime i see her).

another interesting thing that happened: got to see that very same cousin and her mother, my aunt (Auntie Donna, actually) completely and utterly wasted. they were laughing hysterically at nothing for like, five mintues straight. something about cooler-diving, I think. anyways, it was really funny, but i still felt bad since my younger cousin was taking advantage of their shit-face-ed-ness.

also had a little conversation with my GD uncle about someone named "britney" at the house... o.O don't know where he got that idea, but i think at the time he was having a diabetic reaction anyway... for those of you who know me, i'll tell you more about it later.

maybe posting some more of the sinbad fan-fic tomorrow and another little story? idk. might work on them some more before that happens. we'll see.


happy Memorial Day tomorrow!

PEACE OUT.

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18431345/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18431345/ Wed, 21 May 2008 13:28:23 PDT 1. my real name
2. Dranari
3. BP

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1. Sarcasm GetSome
2. BlkFnx135
3. Twist3rChas3rF5

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
1. ate cookies
2. looked over D.E. notes for quiz tonight
3. listened to music (and still doing so)

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. me sense of humor
2. i actually have some skillz in writing (i think?)
3. that i actually managed to end up with completed whacked friends (but they're TOTALLY AWESOME. LIKE PIE. luv u guys! )

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. never being able to say the right thing/making things worse when trying to help
2. my procrastination habits/lack of committment
3. worrying about things i can't change (and making them worse by trying to change them)

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
1. Finnish - 1/2
2. French - 1/4
3. other stuff i'm not sure of

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
1. messing up my friendships/being a bad friend/losing my friends' trust
2. never finding my true love (hopeless romantic, right here)
3. disappointing people/being annoying/people being mad at me

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. awesome cool Dranari t-shirt
2. the 4 rings i wear everywhere
3. glasses

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Ipod
2. My imagination/SC
3. my friends

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS/PEOPLE:
1. all my friends
2. my music
3. myself (i guess that's sort of important, isn't it? lol)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Mark Mancina (composer. TWISTER!!!)
2. Harry Gregson-Williams (composer again. SINBAD!!!)
3. Hans Zimmer (composer! ALL SORTS OF STUFF!) (okay, can we just say that I love all composers?)

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. laugh. a lot. even if it's about nothing. (besides, that's really fun)
2. do what you like and like what you do
3. this quote: "Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~Dr. Seuss

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. "This is Home" by Switchfoot
2. "Untitled" by Simple Plan
3. "Never Alone" by Barlow Girl

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. expand my musical talents (marching band, here I come!)
2. get my license/get a job
3. worrying less about things i can't change

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'RE GIVING TO THE WORLD: (I hope)
1. humor/jokes/laughter/amusement (all sort of in the same category)
2. inspiration
3. love

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. stop being a hopeless romantic
2. stop daydreaming
3. stop listening to music

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE.
1. Vegas Movie Studio 8 Platinum Edition (movie making software)
2. peace of mind
3. a hug from a certain tall, black-haired, mage who i havne't met yet...

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
1. my friends! DUHHHH.
2. my past experiences in life.
3. my imagination (and it's a wild one!)

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
1. makin movies on WMM
2. listening to music/writing (they go together)
3. talking with my friends/laughing (they go together too)

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. play my clarinet that i don't have yet!!! MEHHH!!
2. be able to talk comfortably about anything and everything with my friends (which won't happen since I'm sort of... not comfortable with deep things/can't put them into words. it's a hard want to describe).
3. get rid of this feeling.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Meteorology (big surprise there)
2. Freelance writer (creative writing)
3. something with music? (yeah, not going to happen. i suck.)

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY: (besides S.C....)
1. London, England (UK, whatevs)
2. Disney World Florida
3. Syracuse, Sicily (my friends could guess why...)

THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
1. Proteus from Sinbad: Legend of the Seven Seas
2. Howl from Howl's Moving Castle
3. Bowler Hat Guy from Meet the Robinsons


THREE BOY’S NAMES:
1. Steve (lol?)
2. Apollo
3. DANA! LOL good times in history class... Mr. Tall Noodle Man! Dun dun duhhh

THREE GIRL'S NAMES:
1. Lisa
2. Annabelle
3. Dranari

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. learn to play the clarinet (better), piano, violin, cel... ]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18430420/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18430420/ Wed, 21 May 2008 12:34:27 PDT - Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you. (you do that by typing < strike > and then without the spaces)(works in journals, but not in comments)
- Bold the best that apply to you.
- Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months
- Tag 5 people from your friends list. (I'll let ya'll decide if you want to repost this for yourself)


JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teachand be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy.Quiet unless excited or tensed.Rather reserved.Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy.Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:
Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic . Loves to dream Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood (I think sometimes). Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation.Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings.Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt . Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.Guides others physically and mentally.Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally.Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked.Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and h... ]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18399237/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18399237/ Mon, 19 May 2008 13:23:38 PDT

omg i'm so excited! i can't wait for it to start!
The first meeting I have to go to is on June 12th which seems like forever from now... but it'll come soon enough.

and i had to give my, well sean's, clarinet back to him today, so i can't practice in my happiness. i must say, i've become quite attached to that little instrument. clarinet=

i can't wait for practice and band camp and performances and competitions and trips and the band bus and OMG ALL OF IT!

we're gonna have so much fun, and . SO MUCH FUN.

WITH PRIDE!

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18293978/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/18293978/ Mon, 12 May 2008 17:41:56 PDT
One minute I'll be happy and hyper, having a grand 'ole time with everything, then a few mintues later I feel all icky-ewww inside. Not only physically, but emotionally and mentally as well. Like something is wrong but I just can't seem to put my finger on it. And that really bugs me when I can't place my emotions. Like i'm not in control of myself. It's quite frustrating.

Anyway, just got back from Driver's Ed a little while ago, checked some things on here, and i'll soon be heading off to bed. After, of course, I go grab some pain killers for my headache, which I'm pretty sure is being caused by my glasses. They're tight behind my ears and ache when I wear them for extended periods of time. But hey, that's what you get when you've can't function properly without them on. Especially at school. Its the distance that kills me.

But anyway, enough about my optical condition. I've been making more videos than art/writing lately. In fact, I entered a couple vids I made in a contest on YouTube and the results haven't come out yet, which really pisses me off. It's posted that the results will be released on the 10th of May. HELLOOOOO? It's the bloody 12th! I understand it takes a while to watch all the vids, decide which ones deserve places, and make a vid with the results, but c'mon. Be decent and actually post a date when you know you'll be done by. I'm not so sure putting the deadline for entries the day before the results are supposed to be out was such a good idea...

I don't know. If you've bothered to read this far you've probably figured out that I have no clue what's going on with the world. I've been running through traffic with a blindfold on of late (metaphorically speaking, of course) and I hope soon i'll be able to take it off and actually be able to have some sort of grip on what's going on instead of just flying blind, day by day. I like to know what i'm going to be doing a day or two ahead of time and for some reason, that hasn't been happening lately. Sort of angers me.

So if you know me personally, and I seem to be in a haze or not totally in on things, here's your hint as to why.

Wow that was a long entry. I guess I'll stop now and happily say, summer is coming!

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/17964273/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/17964273/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 17:47:09 PDT
Anyway, the middle of april vacation is fast approaching, and I find myself disappointed. Let me try to explain why:

A) I set all these goals for myself to accomplish by the end of vacation and I have yet to complete any of them.

B) At the moment, I feel like I'm about to cry. I don't know why. And let me tell you, I really really want to know why because I can usually do something to fix it.

And for all these reasons, (though they are few) besides being disappointed, I'm angry. Angry at myself. Angry for not doing things that I know I want to do and I know will make me happy.

I feel like I need to talk to someone. About what, I'm not certain, but there isn't anyone to talk to. I know you guys will always be there in the long run, but right now at 8:35pm on Monday night, there isn't really anyone to chat with.

I don't know. This mood i'm in is very hard to describe. I don't think i've ever felt quite like this before. It's sort of a mixture between anger, loneliness, hopelessness, disappointment, frustration, discourgement (is that even an emotion?), confusion, and a lack of enthusiasm. I just don't know.

But, in light of this, I really want to try my hand at poetry. And hopefully, the week will get better.

Sorry if this journal seems confusing, cloudy, and vague. It sort of represents my mood.

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/17394184/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/17394184/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 12:05:47 PDT
However, this bit of happiness does not come without a price.


My doctor called back with the results of my blood test earlier this afternoon and it was confirmed that I do in fact have mononucleosis, or simply, mono. Yet again I will provide a link to more information on the disease for those who would like to learn more about it: [link]

Just in case you didn't know, there is no set cure for mononucleosis, and antibiotics don't help much. Basically all you can do is get a lot of bed rest and drink plenty of fluids.

And after all that (and on top of feeling pretty good today) it has been ruled by my doctor and my parents that I will not be able to attend school for the rest of the week. This will be by far the longest I've ever been out of school in my entire life. I have not a clue what I am going to do for that amount of time, but I do know something i'll be doing: monitoring my spleen.

Sounds like a funny thing to be doing, doesn't it? What does my spleen have to do with any of this?

Well, to answer your question, a complication that can occur when you get mononucleosis is the enlargement of the spleen. And since enlargement can lead to rupturing, I have to be careful. Soooo if I suddenly disappear for no apparent reason and nobody hears from me for a while, feel free to assume that my spleen exploded and I'm undergoing some emergency surgery. I'll be waiting for your Get Well Soon cards.

Of course, this monitoring is only a precaution, and unless I intend on playing some aggressive contact sports, I really don't think my spleen will go so far as to explode any time soon. But, it can happen, and I just felt like you guys should know.

I hope everyone is having a great day!


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~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/17376419/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/17376419/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 09:40:01 PDT
Went back to the Doctor's today. She declared that I've been "sick" (not normal) for over a month. She ordered a CBC blood test, which is going to test a bunch of stuff including my thyroid 'cause my heart rate was 120 at rest with basically no fever. So I guess that's a problem, since she also ordered a chest x-ray.

They mentioned something about Mononucleosis. If you really want to, you can more about it here: [link]

And I'm not going to write much more since I'm really tired atm and I think I'm going to go take a nap or something... Sorry.


Happy St. Patrick's Day, everyone!

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/17297013/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/17297013/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 06:28:24 PDT And we rejoin the unfortunate Black Phoenix who has now succumb to four, count 'em 4, of the Black Plague's dastardly weapons of disease. Will she overcome her opponent with her arsenal of super-powered medicines? Or will she fall in defeat in yet another round? Can she hold on?! We'll find out next time on-

GTFO of my head, you dim-witted illusion of my own design! OUT I SAY!

*ahem*

Why, hello there! How is everyone on this FANTASTIC Wednesday? What's that you say? How could I possibly be sick with four different things at the same time?

1) Flu
2) Chronic Sinus Infectionn
3) Conjunctivitis - Left Eye
4) Conjunctivitis - Right Eye

Ok, so technically it's only three, but I like to count each eye as separate from the whole because, well, THEY HAVE FEELINGS TOO YOU KNOW! THEY'RE FIGHTING THEIR OWN WARS! And, you know, exaggerating never hurt the dramatic effect. heh.

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/17282612/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/17282612/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 07:18:29 PDT
I don't think i've ever had so many sicknesses going on with myself before.

lol on Friday I got dismissed from school, went to the doctor with a fever of 102.7 and found out that I had the flu and that I still had the sinus infection that stayed with me from 2 weeks ago.

the Doc prescribed me some meds but I think they messed it up because, I swear one of those pills is meant for a horse and I most certainly do NOT look like a horse to me. Anyway, so basically I hate taking my medicine twice a day since I choke on it all and, if you know me, you'll know how problematic that can be.

meanwhile, while I've been coughing my lungs out since Friday (and after trying to enjoy my absentness from school yesterday) of course, I wake up this morning and *gasp*:


I CAN'T OPEN MY BLOODY LEFT EYE. The eyelids are like, seriously, joined together in freaking gross matrimony or something.

'Course then my mom comes in and shines a damn flashlight right into my face for like 5 minutes. IT'S 5:30 AM MOM. DON'T PULL ALL YOUR MOTHERLY-FLASHLIGHT NINJA SKILLS ON ME NOW, IT WILL ONLY END UP KILLING YOU IN THE END.

so now I'm home for the second day in a row this week with FECKING CONJUNCTIVITIS or however the hell it's spelled. and of course, I'd like to thank for that one, so Yes, doctors again today, probably for eye drops. Another type of medicine that somehow wants to avoid its target. Yay me!

WONDERFUL GAME OF UNO, BTW. IT WAS GREAT FUN.

point is, it's going to fun having to go back to school with an eye that looks like it was gouged out with a dull spoon and then replaced. It'll also be fun making up all those tests and quizzes and projects and homework and notes and every other thing they could possibly throw at me.

(Wow, sarcasm is really evident today, huh?) Hope everyone else is having a better day!

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/16925941/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/16925941/ Sun, 17 Feb 2008 08:27:55 PST
anyway, so i'll be experimenting over the next week since it's feb. break. be on the watch.

The deviation Fire Dragon is out of that new book. Maybe doing more stuff out of there? what do you think? y/n?

yay shopping!

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/16885549/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/16885549/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 16:45:09 PST
I cannot believe my flipping computer.

i'm so flipping pissed off right now because my laptop came with this trial of Microsoft Word and apparently the trial ran out so I can't access, like anything at all. I need a flipping product key to get the full version which I don't have since the manufactuer people put it on in the first place.

I can open files and shit but I can't do anything to them (like edit them or even flipping copy and paste them). Word won't even let me open a new document to type something new.

WTF.

so basically i'm stuck with a laptop that won't let me do anything with all my old stories that are stored on here. so this probably means i won't be getting around to finishing all those unfinished stories i had planned to do over this vacation. just my flipping luck.

i mean, i can still write new stuff since there's another program similar to word, works processor, that's on here that i can still use.

i'm just pissed cause i can't do anything with all my old stuff.


on top of this, my ipod ran out of battery this morning on the way to school and i forgot the USB at my house so i can't charge it... no music until probably saturday sometime. which means most of my inspiration has flown out the window. I miss my house too. the smell here is starting to annoy me. you know, old grandma who uses too much perfume and keeps her house too clean smells. i hope my uncle didn't kill my dog while i was gone.

my mind is sort of a mess right now so i apologize for any snapiness that might occur.






i think i'm gonna go cry now.




...i need a hug.
HAPPY FUCKING VALENTINE'S DAY.

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/16851815/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/16851815/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 16:37:00 PST

anyway, continuing from the last journal, I did get my super awesome laptop (2 days sooner than I had perceived too) which just completes my life at the moment.

Right now i'm at my grandma's house, which is where I'll be until friday since my parents went on a mini vacation up to the white mountains.

hopefully i wont have school tomorrow since we're supposed to get a lot of snow.

also, i've had a lot of idea floating around in my head about topics to write about and i know i haven't posted any new deviations for a really long time so this could be an oppurtunity for me to start writing some mroe stuff.

not gonna write anymore since i just got done my homework which i've been working on for about 4 hours since i wasn't in school yesterday and i had a lot of make up work.

*yawn* so, fare thee well, fellow deviants!

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/16596986/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/16596986/ Sun, 27 Jan 2008 12:43:20 PST
sooo case in point, my parents and I, after much debating and talking with eccentric salespeoples, decided on the laptop that i want. It's coming in on thrusday or friday of this week, along with a shiny new tablet that I cannot wait to get my hands on and start using.


the laptop is an HP and it's got a wicked lot of RAM and a nice graphics card for all my gaming (yes i'm a gamer) which makes me super happy.

but a question first: Does anyone have any pointers for using a graphics tablet in the first place? i've never used one, nor have i ever actually seen one in person ('cept at the stores). i have a feeling it's going to take a lot of experimenting in order to get the jist of it.


anyway, going back to read what i've written, it doesn't seem like any of it makes any coherant sense. probably because i just poured a lot of my writing juices into a 5 paragraph essay for history which was super boring... but yeah. sorry if none of it makes sense.

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/16386307/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/16386307/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 11:03:06 PST
on top of that, i have a 1,000 word paper for an english final due tuesday. regular finals are on thursday and friday which i'm already stressing about.

tomorrow we might have a snow day, which normally i'd be excited about but i'm not since tomorrow was free day to do w/e we wanted in english (like studying for finals), my english teacher was going to talk to me about chapt 2 of TEW which i'm letting him read for critique, and mrs. barry signed out the lab for us so we could get going on our art portfolio list which is due wednesday.

technically i could get the art list done now, but i really don't feel up to it. i've started to write my paper, but it's turning out to be total crap and it doesn't help that i can't write formal essays anyway. i'm a creative writer, not a essay formal person.

so hopefully i won't die like i almost did yesterday from choking on this gigantic horse pill my mom gave me for my cold. wasn't fun.

wish me luck.


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http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/16317778/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 15:35:54 PST
Not necessarily in this order...

-croutons
-corn
-chicken parmesian calzones
-macaroni and cheese
-chicken nuggets (and chicken in general)
-whipped cream (not really a food but...)
-crab rangoons
-french fries (yeah, real healthy)
-pancakes
-bacon
-did i mention croutons?


yeah i probably forgot a lot.

sorry if i upset anyone with my conspicuous list... O.o i was just bored. you can post your fav foods in comments if you want.

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/16070782/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/16070782/ Mon, 24 Dec 2007 06:07:43 PST
YAY for breaks until Jan. 2nd! YAY!

*may or may not add more to this entry later*



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~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/15558941/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/15558941/ Sun, 18 Nov 2007 07:36:06 PST and I guess you have to post 5 random conversations that you've had with your friends that could be of some amusement to others. and then of course you have to tag 3 more people. ONWARD!

1) -"Hey, , we have a half day tomorrow!"
-"Whoa. What? Yeah! COOL! SA-WEETT!"
-"......"

2) –“Wal-Mart Help Desk, how may I help you?”
-“OMG I got this wreath at your store the other day and IT ISN’T EVEN CHRISTMAS! WHAT DO YOU EXPECT ME TO DO WITH IT, USE IT AS A TOILET SEAT COVER?!

3) –“*cough* *choke* *gag* *flail* *pass out*
-“OMG SHE’S CHOKING! CALL NUMARR!”

4) –“Erg! I hate that man, Frollo! He should go die somewhere.”
-“He did die. He fell into a pit of lava.”
-“Yeah I know, but still. We should make a piñata out of him and whack him to death. Then he’ll fall over and his guts will spill out. Then, “Crud, he’s still alive!” and WHACK! That’s the end of Frollo.
-“...Let’s do it!”

5) “Yeah we’ll write our wills. Then when we die, our families will present them to the police man. He’ll take one look at it and see that it is written on white lined paper, signed in pencil, and torn in more than one place. Then, with doughnut in hand, twirling his baton, he’ll look at our grief-stricken parents and say, “Is this valid?”

I tag:


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~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/15311010/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/15311010/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 03:34:27 PDT
it'll probably take me a wicked long time to check them all, and no i won't tell you how many i have to check because then you'll just shoot me for not getting on top of things. but still, if you've posted something in the past few weeks and haven't recieved anything about it from me, it's probably because i just haven't checked it yet.

so don't worry, i'll try to check them all soon.
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http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/14516162/ Thu, 06 Sep 2007 12:34:37 PDT
secondly, I was tagged by my friend, . I'll get you... grr... lol jk. anyway, 8 random facts:

1) I was three months premature and had open heart surgery when I was three on something called PDA, patent ductus arteriosus (sp?).

2) I have a huge birthmark on my left calf that numerous people somehow think is something other than a birthmark... (a burn people?! lol!)

3) I actually played basketball for 5 years when I was a kid, until I found some other interesting hobbies. I played baseball, that's right, BASEBALL. WITH THE GUYS for three years as first base and pitcher. I was an okay pitcher at first, but then I would let my nerves get ahold of me and icky things happened. This was Little League by the way *cough*.

4) Since I was 12, I've been randomly going through things I can only explain as "episodes". I could go on and on about it, but I won't bore you. I have, however, been doing research online about my symptoms and the closest thing I can find is something called Temporal Lobe Epilepsy. Google it.

5) Believe it or not, when I was a kid, I HATED to read. Go figure. HP=<3

6) I've been going to school in the same district since Kindergarten, although i've lived in 3 different towns. It's called School Choice, people. Get some. Jk.

7) I am an avid computer person, and I'm really into the Sims 2. I do have an account on World of Warcraft, although I haven't renewed my subscription since like, Christmas. So I couldn't tell you what server i'm on. sorry.

8) I'm sure most of you already know this, but I'm a complete science geek. And i'm in love with weather. I want to be a meteorologist when I grow up (i sound like a little kid lol). Although, i'm torn between science and art, since they're sort of on the opposite ends of the spectrum if you know what I mean. So i'm not sure what i want to do with my life after high school...


oh and, uh, i'm not one to tag the whole world about stuff like this so i think i'll pass on the tag-ness.
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~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/14383350/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/14383350/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 16:15:54 PDT
i'll probably be posting most of the work i do in his class unless it's totally essay-ish. ick.

anyways, happy first day of school!


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~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/14014288/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/14014288/ Sat, 25 Aug 2007 10:47:29 PDT
The new name for my story is:
The Essence Wreather

if you don't know what wreather means, it's like one who
envelops, surrounds, or circles. I know it doesn't make any sense right now, but as the story goes on, hopefully it will.

TA-DA!

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~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/13805595/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/13805595/ Fri, 20 Jul 2007 08:09:51 PDT
this has been a public service announcement by

Friends(that I know in person):


Clubs:


]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/13644254/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/13644254/ Sat, 07 Jul 2007 08:47:45 PDT
ok i admit it, i could sit down and draw really anytime i feel the urge. but i'm just lazy, AND i have been writing more than usual lately. maybe i'll post those later.

and FYI, my internet is being really annoying and won't let me go onto secure sites (e.g., email, place where you log in, etc.) but it will sometimes, if i'm lucky, go on devART, neopets, fallensword, and all the other sweet spots i hang out at. so yeah, i'm not dead, my internet is just really picky. i'll try to be on a often as i can.



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]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/13428733/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/13428733/ Thu, 21 Jun 2007 06:00:28 PDT

on a happier/sadder note, yesterday i went shopping with some birthday money, totally splurged and got some wicked cool stuffs, so I might not be on here for a bit because i'll be too busy killing people in Medieval II: Total War. lol.

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/13377389/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/13377389/ Sun, 17 Jun 2007 05:58:51 PDT
so yeah, this is me June 17, 2007, MY BIRTHDAY. post nasal drip, sore throat, cough, fever, the whole shabang.

and to top it all off, i only got 4 hours of sleep last night! yay!

but its no big deal, all my wicked awesome friends are coming over later to celebrate and hopefully i'll be well enough to laugh my lungs out. if i even have lungs left. hmm.

and yes, i did put a new deviation up today. go check it out. i wonder how many more times i have to cough before my lungs fly out and hit the screen...

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/13217003/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/13217003/ Mon, 04 Jun 2007 15:31:15 PDT

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]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/13163826/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/13163826/ Thu, 31 May 2007 12:39:51 PDT
1) finals are approaching
2) i have 3 projects, one of which is due tomorrow, the rest on monday
3) MCAS next week

yeah. just a lot of school stuff going on... not much time to do stuff, etc.

but tomorrow is a half-day and the last day is on the 15th so after that i should be able to get more time in for drawing... or taking pictures... or making movies... same diff.

oh and did i mention that the 17th is my birthday?! yay! happy birthday to me!

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/13010018/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/13010018/ Sat, 19 May 2007 07:09:12 PDT
~i have a 5-8 page research paper due on Monday that I kinda-sorta haven't started yet...

~its raw outside.

~its wicked cold inside.

~i have this headache that won't go away.

~did I mention my research paper?

going to waste the rest of the day on dA i guess.

Clubs:


Best Friend:


]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/12744273/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/12744273/ Thu, 26 Apr 2007 15:27:36 PDT

come and check us out if you want. Hehe!

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/12582969/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/12582969/ Fri, 13 Apr 2007 16:19:44 PDT anyway, i'd just like to let everyone know that the stuff I put on here isn't really to my fullest potential, and i really only do my best work in the art room at school. I try i really do, but I just can never seem to make it come out right...



so to answer your question yes, i am a psycophathic nerd with no life and yes, I ENJOY EVERY MINUTE OF IT. SO HAH.

No offense to anyone out there who could ever possibly be offended by my words, this is just how i get when i feel sad, angry, random, hyper and just plain bored at the same time.

This has been a public service announcement, please continue on with whatever you were doing before.

]]> ~bpdranari http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/12092922/ http://bpdranari.deviantart.com/journal/12092922/ Wed, 07 Mar 2007 12:51:07 PST my next big investment is *hopefully* going to be Photoshop but that's like 600 bucks so it'll take a while. either that or a laptop but i'm sure photoshop will come first. so YAY for me! WOOOOOOOOOO REALLY HYPER!!! *starts to dance* anyway... yeah...

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