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but, I love Kenneth Tiger Khamseng.
My asian love bird.

]]> ~brandyywinee http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/18117499/ http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/18117499/ Thu, 01 May 2008 13:06:56 PDT
anyway, i am rather exhausted, and so one more thing i think i've decided that if it comes down to being a photographer as my career i would want to be one of the ones thats i guess a documentary photographer, seems interesting and i love history so i feel it would be a good way to tie them together.

i am leaving now, that boy of my dreams has just arrived to take me out to dinner.

]]> ~brandyywinee http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/17228044/ http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/17228044/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 16:51:59 PST

sorry, i know this was random, this was kinda just as i thought of something i typed it out, more of a rant.

]]> ~brandyywinee http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/16813096/ http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/16813096/ Sun, 10 Feb 2008 08:24:28 PST im so happy.

its funny how you think that your life is a horrible wreck until you decide to open your eyes and see how good you really have it. sure i may not have the best home life, and i have serious trust issues, and i don't get along with a lot of people.

however,
i have the most amazing people in my life.
aka, friends.
they make up for everything.

i've really felt like i've been on cloud nine here lately.

i'm still waiting on the crash, but until then im going to ride the wave of happiness and just go with it. i know when i crash, i really crash but i hope this lasts atleast a lilttle while longer.

]]> ~brandyywinee http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/16583218/ http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/16583218/ Sat, 26 Jan 2008 15:05:03 PST about how much i love that boy.

so this is only on here until i can think of something else to post,

but oh, i need an opinion so im thinking of doing photography as a part time job sort of thing, doing portraits, band promos, ect, i know some people said i should try black and white photography, but my work was good other wise.

do you guys think im good enough to do something like that?

]]> ~brandyywinee http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/15985640/ http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/15985640/ Tue, 18 Dec 2007 11:35:07 PST
love is the feeling like you are flying on cloud nine, like you're invincible, like nothing in the world can stop you.
love is knowing that you would give up the world to see a smile on that persons face..
and love is when you are so afraid to let them go that you cant see whats in front of your own face..

i cried myself to sleep that night.. and cried myself awake. i know you say we will still be friends.. but all that means to me in learning from my past relationships is that you will never talk to me again.
i wish that term friends came with a better description..

ill still love you just like i promised i would. forever and always until the day i die. but i wont be here forever.. you were supposed to prove me wrong.. that all guys weren't the same.. and you still have that chance if you really mean it when you say you will still be friends with me. but its your choice and your decision..

i just feel like you let me down. maybe i built it up to much. maybe i made something out of nothing. but maybe we really will be together again one day. but i dont know the future. and i wish i could forget the past. but its all up to you now..
--"so come and let me know should i stay or should i go?"

i also don't get how you can say you miss me so much and its killing you and thats why you have to do it. that makes no sense to me if you really mean that then, what is breaking up with me going to solve anything.. its not. all its going to do is give you and i a pass to do whatever we want with someone else.. and if you really mean the feelings you say you have for me.. then hurt us because we cant be together.

maybe i am more hopeful about this than i need to be because i believe in you. and i trust you. and i know you will do what makes you happy. and hopefully somewhere down the road you will think of me.. you'll think of the laughs and smiles we had together.. all the giggles and inside jokes.. and how completely happy we may have been even if only for awhile.. sometimes i wish things could be different or could have been different but there is nothing i can do to change your mind..

maybe i can prove how much you mean to me one day.. and maybe ill get to see you're beautiful face again.. i think that is what i am most afraid of the fact that i wont ever see you again.. ever.. and that you wont ever call again.. like you will never want to see me again.. but like i said.. maybe you meant it when you said you wanted to be with me again one day.. but maybe you didnt..

im too indecisive right now.. i feel like this could go either way i just need to know how you really feel.. i cannot read your mind and i dont know if ill be fine.. but with you i was happy.. and with you is where i want to be again one day.. but maybe we werent really ever meant to cross paths again.. maybe this is a life lesson.. maybe you were just here to show me what true love was like. if only briefly and ever-fading away..

i just want you to know. i love you.. im in love with you.. and that is what is true for me right now..

we will always have disney world love. and i hope we get to have more than that one day...


but for now..
its all up to..
you..



------edit--------

you said you'd love me forever.. and now i think you really meant it.
you proved it to me.. and i hope this all works out.. ill be here for you through thick and thin... cause you're voice was the soundtrack to my fall. lol. love is a nasty cold hearted whore.. but damn it all if im not on that boat.. i love you jonathan.

]]> ~brandyywinee http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/15887827/ http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/15887827/ Tue, 11 Dec 2007 07:41:04 PST
we fight to love,
but we don't love to fight.

you show me it's real.
we can make it.

we work through our problems.
like never before.

i adore you.
and what you're here for.


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so jonathan might be getting to come stay at my house.
:]] i really really hope i can beg daddy and that jon and I can pull the money together before then.
-wish me luck-

we made up.
obviously.
we just really need to see each other.

being in love and being 500 miles away is really really hard.
i long for him. we'll get through this together.

we'll be together in the end.
holding hands and making the world jealous.

]]> ~brandyywinee http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/15831235/ http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/15831235/ Fri, 07 Dec 2007 07:40:58 PST i just cant help it.
you dont let me down.
im just going to learn to listen.
you said dont get your hopes up.
but i did.

as always.
and for once.
im taking the blame.
its my fault.
and im sorry.


dont feel bad please.
i love you more than life.






i understand its not your fault.
i just have to learn to not ask for more than i can recieve.

]]> ~brandyywinee http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/15790381/ http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/15790381/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 08:34:56 PST the changes it would have made, if i gave him a chance.
if i broke up with that boy, and gave the nice guy a chance.

she would still be my best friend.
she prolly wouldnt be.
i would prolly still be with him.
and i would have never been with him.

how he would still be chasing after me.
its strange to think something so simple is so dramatic. As much as i hate to say this i don't really hate all that happened because if it hadnt..
i wouldnt be in love.
i wouldnt have a real best friend.
he would still be in my life.









im not done with this.
more later.

]]> ~brandyywinee http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/15677888/ http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/15677888/ Mon, 26 Nov 2007 11:17:55 PST
how the people who say that they cant move on from the past are the ones who don't even try.

the people who don't believe in love are the ones who have never been in love.


try something before you turn it down.
its not difficult.

stop trying to be original.
trying makes you un-original.
just be yourself for once.
this isn't too any one person.

this is just something i have noticed about society in general.

]]> ~brandyywinee http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/15112206/ http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/15112206/ Thu, 18 Oct 2007 07:58:26 PDT and wonder how many other people are seeing the same thing.
how many other people are looking up and counting stars and making wishes.
i look into the sky and think about the many wonders it holds.

--

and you know ill stay up all night thinking of you babe.
and crying because i've almost forgotten your touch.
almost forgot how it feels for you to hold me.
almost forgot your smile, and your laugh.
the way you smell and the way you kiss me like theres no tomorrow.
i miss you.

]]> ~brandyywinee http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/14585800/ http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/14585800/ Tue, 11 Sep 2007 06:44:55 PDT i am going through school basically like a ghost to the world.

]]> ~brandyywinee http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/14483386/ http://brandyywinee.deviantart.com/journal/14483386/ Tue, 04 Sep 2007 07:23:47 PDT new boyfriend. jonathan duane hawk kuder. =]
grandpa is doing wayy better.
and i have the best friends now.

everything is finally going my way.
=]

]]> ~brandyywinee