http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:broken-lullaby&section=today deviantART RSS for by:broken-lullaby en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 10 Dec 2009 13:41:17 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/5429231/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/5429231/ Sun, 22 May 2005 12:02:13 PDT ART THEFT, even though i OWN the site they found it on AND the english version of it.

i also told them they can talk to any of my online friends that have met me through the site or through my blog.

they have not responded to my message about it, but i dont think i can even stay on here after someone has accused me of being a thief. even if they completely believed me. so i will be leaving deviant art - on both accounts. it's not like ANY of my art was worth posting anyways.

so today i'll be deleting stuff from both my accounts. so you can start removing me from your friends list. i love you guys! and i'll still be checking up on your art! *insane laughter* i just dont think i can stay here another second after someone accused me of being an art thief. i just really... get my feelings hurt too easily. and this hurt me really bad...

...i dont really care, anyways, though. all my art - anime AND photography, stunk... hahahahaha -- so it doesnt matter. xP

i'll still be checking up on your art -- just without an account. hahahahaha... ^^ lotsa love! ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/5400507/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/5400507/ Thu, 19 May 2005 09:21:55 PDT
um... i was just posting to tell you i FINALLY created my anime account on here. ^^ it's:


(Ibara No Umi = Thorny Sea)

i named it after one of my favorite Chihiro Onitsuka songs... =^^= i havent added anything on there yet, though... im at school now, so i cant. but right now, at home, i scanned a few of my drawings, inked them, and colored them in Adobe... so hopefully i'll have time to add them tonight. ^^ only about 3, though. *shrug*

anyways... yeep! that's all i wanted to tell you. heh. lotsa love!!

(OH! i'll try to post a few net photos this weekend, too... if i can take any good ones. -.-") ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/5366534/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/5366534/ Sun, 15 May 2005 17:07:34 PDT Feeling: evil
Hearing: Vivian Hsu: Ou Dou Mai
Drinking: Caffine-free coke
Watching: Zatch Bell (aww, i wuv Kyo! ^^)
Reading (manga): Trigun Vol.1 (AGAIN)
Working On: Paper Pieces (me and 's art site), Shake It!!

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heeeey everyone!!! it feels like its been FOREVER since i last posted!! O.O ...a week. wow. sorry about that.

how has everyone been?! great, i hope! school's almost out... May 26th for us!!!! SQUEE!!!! hehehehe! that makes -- less than two weeks. yay! ^^ i'm really ready for it to be out, even though it's really really REALLY freaky i'm going to be going to 10th GRADE. *stares* yea. that's just weird. O_O i'm really gonna miss all my seventh grade friends, too... i'm probably not gonna see any of them for two years. i'll probably come down and visit them sometime. ^_~

oiy!! and, at our school, we're having this award thing... and i knew i wasnt going to get any special awards... i've already missed my 8 days (*cough*plus 1*cough*) and im not exactly outgoing... and i made 4 As and 2 Bs... erg, and a D. O.< so i knew i wasnt getting all As and Bs award or anything -- but on Thursday, Mrs.Fikes said that she decided to award me the best writer in the Pre-AP english class! EEK! i seriously couldnt believe that. *eye twitches* she said i was a great writer and really deserved it........ strange, i know. especially for those who know me. hehehe.

PLUUUUUUUUS! i started writing a new MANGA!!! WEEEE!!! i think i may keep this one, too. (haha -- you guys know... i've already started writing and drawing about 3 mangas so far...) but this one is different. i've drawn and colored a lot of them so far and right now i'm making their little character pages to go on me and my best friend ()'s art site. ^^

yes. it's still not up yet. >_> so i'm a procrastinator. blah.

LOTSA LOVE!!!
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to those who watch me!!
: http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/5257052/ Tue, 03 May 2005 14:38:29 PDT Feeling: lonely
Hearing: Rie Fu - Voice (album ver.)
Eating: nothing...
Drinking: nothing
Watching: nothing
Working On: my blog

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*blinks* wow. it's been forever since i've last posted in my journal. O.O sorry. yea. it's been a while.

anyways! how has everyone been?!? ^.^ i've been ok... kind of in a really deep rut on here, though. i seems like i cant ever post ANYTHING actually good . -_- all my photos just seem like pathetic attempts to post something... and they kinda are. hehehehe...

oiy. and you know i posted all those clubs?!? i joined a bunch of them all in one day... and it seems as though it didnt work on ANY of them. *stares* cause it doesnt say i'm watching like... a bunch. yea. *eye twitches* i re-watched them today, and it seems to be working now, though. so... yeep. ^^ that's good.

i drew a piccy of Vash the other day. *cuddles* i actually think it turned out... ok. i just finished coloring it a few days ago. i dont really think it's the best i've done, but i'm happy enough with it. i'm really wanting to create an account on here where i just post my anime stuff, too... but i'm not sure if i have enough right now. x_x oh well...

GURG!!! I'm sooooooooo hungry! i havent eaten barely anything in the last two days, cause yesterday i was really sick and couldnt get anything down... i did eat about 3 things of fat free pudding. x_x not like that helped any. it was all we had. hehe. but now i feel better... and there's nothing. *twitch, twitch* maybe whenever we go home i can get something to eat... *evil laughter* .... hehe... hehe...

*cough* what's that about? i dont know. i'm weird. O_O *blink,blink* *spazzes* *runs away* *hits head on door*

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"So i ache, so i ache
it's more than i can take
it only gets even worse
when i sleep, when i awake
and my belly keeps sinkin...

yea.

i wake up to the spiritual voice in my head
and i say hey, hey wont you listen?
it cant be easily be left unheard, be left unsaid
but i listen, listen maybe too hard..."

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to those who watch me!!
http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/5133308/ Tue, 19 Apr 2005 19:31:00 PDT Feeling: dead?
Hearing: X Japan - Art Of Life
Eating: nothing
Drinking: caffine-free coke
Watching: Who's Line Is It Anyway? (<-)
Working On: anime art of Ellone from FF8.

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my gosh. i'm sorry i've kinda abandonded this place. x_x it's been FOREVER since i've posted anything decent. i just feel like all my photos look the same. -_- i get so tired of it. they're ugly, too. *nod,nod* i think i'm gonna just start taking some REALY photography -- like with the background and stuff... i dont know... all my photos that i take outside just look like some little kid took them. :S they suck. so...yea... that's why i havent posted much on here lately. i dont like anything i take. >.O i've also been more into drawing anime more than anything... though photography is what i love doing most... still... *sighs* erg. i've always been making about a BILLION layouts everyday. heh. i dont even know what they're for. xD i think i'll just make a layout archive site or something. *shrugs* i dunno.

heh. anyways. only 27 (school) days left of school!!!! that's around 6 weeks... and THAT'S ALL!!!! AHHH!!!! *spazzes out* i'm sooo ready for it to be over. -.- that way i can just spend time with Toby and the others outside ALL DAY! i love walking outside... it's great living out in the country. ^.^ going to school that's around 30 minutes away, plus having to stay at my mom's work for a while... we usually end up getting home around dark... so i never have time to go outside... ;_;

oh. hahahahaha! today i fell on my butt, too. ^^ yea. that was funny. it was in the bathroom... me and my friend, Midori were waiting on my friend and i leaned up against the wall and started moving my legs out, and *whoop* i fell. right on my butt... hahahahaha. it was hilarious. ^^

heh.

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"Like a doll carried by the flow of time...
I sacrificed the present moment for the future.
I was in chains of memory half-blinded.
Losing my heart, walking in the sea of dreams...

Close my eyes,
Rose breathes - I can hear...
All love and sadness melt in my heart.
Dry my tears,
Wipe my bloody face...
I wanna feel me living my life...
outside my mind.

Dreams can make me mad.
I can't leave my dream.
I can't stop myself.
Don't know what I am.
What lies are truths?
What truths are lies?

I believe in the madness called "Now".
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart...
...Wanna to live...
Can't let my heart kill myself...
Still I haven't found what I'm looking for.
Art of life.
I try to stop myself...
But my heart goes to destroy the truth...
...Tell me why...
I want the meaning of my life...
Do I try to live?
Do I try to love?

Art of life.
An eternal bleeding heart.
You never wanna breathe your last.
...Wanna live...
Can't let my heart kill myself...
Still I'm feeling for...
A Rose is breathing love...
in my life."

x japan "art of life" ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/5085698/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/5085698/ Thu, 14 Apr 2005 09:33:31 PDT Feeling: happy
Hearing: Ai Otsuka - Ame no Naka no Melody

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ahhh! LOOK AT THIS!!!!!!!! LOOK AT IT!!!!!!! LOOOK NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh... haha. i guess i should put the link.

[link]

it-is-AWESOME! extremely, extremely, extremely sad... especially for someone's who's watched Wolf's Rain. i almost cried. *tear,tear* but it's an amazing fanart... and "Heaven's Not Enough" is my favorite song on the show. ^^

ope! gotta pass out papers.. laters! ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/5036948/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/5036948/ Fri, 08 Apr 2005 18:51:32 PDT Feeling: helpless...
Hearing: Seo Taiji - October 4th

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Hershey died today. She was hit by a truck...

all i can say to her now is... i'm sorry, in hopes that she hears me.

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"wenji yojumeh nan gu sonyuhga daulra...
nega soomul muhnchul de nuhrul duhulrigun heh...

ne noongayen uhryunhan shijuneh...
nuhmoona jalbattdun kiyuk malgonun uptnuhnde...
nuhn myutnyunina humbuhk chujuhuh nal chuuhkge heh...

nye ga... ne kyutteh upttgieh...
nuhn duh... nehgeh sojungheh nuhnun yuhwoo gahttah."

You were so bright and clear to me, I couldnt tell you...
Because you are not here,
You are even more precious to me...
Because you are not here,
...You are even more beautiful." ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/5028335/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/5028335/ Thu, 07 Apr 2005 18:40:15 PDT Feeling: thankful
Hearing: YUI - Feel My Soul
Eating: nothing
Drinking: nothing
Watching: Saw (<- i love that little japanese cop... Detective Steven Sing... he's such a cutie! *insane laughter)
Surfing: [link] (YesAsia)

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hey all! i'm really sorry for not posting on here in so long... no comments, no journals... DEFINITELY no deviations. *sighs* yea. i'm really sorry. school's been SOOOO busy now that we only have two months left. we're doing all this work... *spazzes out* it really sucks.

plus, i keep forgetting my camera at my mom's work. everyday i try to remind myself to bring it back here, but i ALWAYS end up forgetting. i've been going crazy without it, too. -_- everything's blooming, and there's colors all over the place... and all the kitties wanna get out and play outside. ^^ hopefully i'll remember it tomorrow so i'll have it over the weekend!

HEY! yea! it's already Friday tomorrow, n'it?!?! O.O woohoo!! i feel like just sitting outside. taking pictures. or sitting inside. playing playstation2. (*cough*FINALFANTASY*cough*)

...hmm. yea. i guess that's about it. *stares* see? nothing to even talk about. lotsa love!

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"nakitsukareteta n' da...
toikakeru basho mo naku.
mayoinagara... tsumazuitemo...
tachidomarenai.

kimi ga kureta egao...
otoshita namida wa...
boku no mune no... fukai kizu ni...
furete kieta...!

I feel my soul!
Take me your way!
sou tatta hitotsu wo
kitto daremo ga zutto sagashiteru no.

sore wa guuzen dewa nakute
itsuwari no ai nanka ja nakute --
You're right, all right.
You're right, all right...
Scared little boy."


translation:

"I was tired of crying...
there isn't even a place
where I can begin to ask questions...
even if I stumble... while hesitating, I can't stop...

The smile you gave me...
and the fallen tears...
touched the... deep wound of my heart...
and disappeared...!

I feel my soul!
Take me your way!
Yes, I'm sure that everyone is
always searching for only one thing.

It isn't a coincidence,
it isn't a false love --
You're right, all right.
You're right, all right...
Scared little boy."

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to all those who watch me!

~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4982197/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4982197/ Sat, 02 Apr 2005 18:52:26 PST Feeling: better
Hearing: Nami Tamaki - Daitan ni Ikimashou ~Heart & Soul~
Eating: nothing
Drinking: water
Watching: Twister
Playing: Final Fantasy IX (currently in Lindblum)
Reading: nothing ;_;

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i want to thank everyone for their sweet comments on my last journal entry. *cuddles* you're all so nice. ^^ i dont know why i was so depressed that night... i just felt really bad. once i felt like that before and it lasted almost a whole year... which i think is a big reason why me and my best friend Midori arent as close as we used to be.

...but i dont know... when i woke up the next morning, i felt a lot better. =^^= i never even knew why i was so depressed that night. i'm crazy. OH! and ?? your poem was so amazing... i loved it so much. thank you so so so much.

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"te ni ireru mono wa hitotsu
sonna ashita ga chikadzuku
konkyo nante nai kedo
kesshite akiramenaide

(I say!)

daitan ni ikimashou!
mayowanaide Boys & Girls
(You say!)
ganbatte ikimashou!
negai wa todoku yo Hearts & Soul!!

kiai soutou ireta tte
kanawanai toki mo atte
tatoe mawarimichi demo
hitotsu no yume mezashite

(I say!)
shinjite ikimashou!
nakusanaide Boys & Girls
(You say!)
mae muite ikimashou!
nanika ga kawaru yo Heart & Soul!!"

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to all those who watch me!

http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4965887/ Thu, 31 Mar 2005 23:38:54 PST Feeling: depressed...
Hearing: X Japan - Tears

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i'm depressed... again.

but this time it feels like it's going to stay. i went through something like this before... i just want to die.

...maybe i actually miss school.
...maybe it's cause there are murders going on here.
...maybe it's because i'm listening to a sad song.
...maybe it's because i'm tired of the internet.
...maybe i'm just a freak.

...*sigh*... nothing more to say...

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dry your tears... with love.
dry your tears... with love.

loneliness... your silent whisper...
fills a river of tears through the night.
memory... you never let me cry...
and you, you never said goodbye.

sometimes our tears blinded the love.
we lost our dreams along the way.
but i never thought you'd trade your soul to the fates...
never thought... you'd leave me alone...

time throught the rain has set me free.
sands of time will keep your memory.
love everlasting fades away...
alive within your beatless heart.

dry your tears... with love.
dry your tears... with love." ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4932050/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4932050/ Mon, 28 Mar 2005 08:19:58 PST Feeling: ecstatic!!!
Hearing: Maaya Sakamoto - Another Grey Day In the Big Blue World
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Sprite (<- wha?! not water?! ...mmhmm...)
Watching: Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
Working On: Coloring my art... >.O

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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! i have found my heaven. ...i found a website that has tons and tons of Japanese mp3 downloads that i have been looking for for E T E R N I T Y... you wouldnt believe how happy i was. seriously. you wouldnt believe it. O_O and the best thing of all... they had one of Maaya Sakamoto's rarest songs on there... that i've been listening to the :30 second sample of for even LONGER than E T E R N I T Y...

Another Grey Day In the Big Blue World.

i honestly think this is one of the most beautiful songs i've ever heard... *spazzes out* it's awesome. plus, all i had to have to have the entire album of Maaya's mini-album was just that song and another -- and they were both there!! MWUHAHAHAHAHA! so now i finally have one of her albums... *cough*... illegally. but still. that's not really the point. as any of my friends, though... i ALWAYS buy the albums later. i promise. =^^= but... yep!! it's awesome! i'm just going insane over this... mwuhahahahahahahaha!!

oiy! PLUUUUS! I pulled an all-nighter again. it's currently almost 10 in the morning and i havent slept at all. *insane laughter* for some odd reason i'm really hyper, too. *eye twitches* dunno why. BUT! during the night i FINALLY finished drawing my first anime art... that i MIGHT actually POST on here! xD hahaha... it's a picture of Squall Leonhart from Final Fantasy VIII, and me in anime form latched onto him. xD hahaha... what can i say... i'm addicted to squall. *strokes and purrs* XD

(oiy! btw -- new avatar! Squally goodness...)

i'm also thinking about creating a separate account on DevArt -- this one for all my wildlife photography -- and the other for my anime art... mostly being Final Fantasy. =^^= Cause, i also have drawn a huge number of FF8 comics. *insane laughter* yesh... they're weird. like Zell, the Library Girl W/A Pigtail, and the rest of the gang having a hotdog eating contest... me stalking Squall and really freaking him out... just crazy stuff like that. i have quite a collection. hahahaahahaHA! so... yea... i'm still not sure, though. ^^


ANYWAYS! i'm gonna get back to downloading like crazy... heek heek heek... byebye and lotsa love!!!

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"...And now she wakes to another grey day
In the Big Blue World.
And her room's a tiny cage for a golden bird.
Oh, where did love go?

And now the baby, that looks like him,
Starts to cry again...
And again, again, eternally over again...
Do rivers ever end?

Count a thousand drops of rain...
Washed down the drain...
Is life the same, in a way?

Catch the bus that never comes...
Clouds block the sun...
Is life the same, in a way?

What will tomorrow bring...?
Will birds sing...?

And now the flowers in the window box
Seem to bow their heads...
As she sits and stares with eyes, sad circles of red...
where did love go?

Never a letter or a call...
A knock upon the door...
So much like life, in a way.

Watch the hands move round the clock...
Tie time in knots...
Life does the same, in a way.

What will tomorrow bring...?
Will birds sing...?

...Let the birds sing...

And now she sleeps in an empty bed
Through a starless night...
But she dreams of snow-white doves
Bringing branches of love...
...maybe that's enough...

Count a thousand drops of rain...
Washed down the drain...
Is life the same, in a way?

Catch the bus that never comes...
Clouds block the sun... ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4930010/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4930010/ Mon, 28 Mar 2005 00:40:59 PST Feeling: scared
Hearing: Faye Wong - Please Dont Go Away...
Eating: Skittles

Drinking: Water

Watching: Poker... why?!? WHY!?!?!?
Working On: Nothing

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gosh... do you ever get that feeling like there's someone watching you? like a ghost or something? sorry to people who dont believe in ghosts... but i always get those feelings. out of nowhere, too. i think i'm just crazy in the head. *eye twitches* it MUST be my freaky brain. i mean - it's gotta be. because i only seem to get those feelings when i'm all alone. or if it's dark. (even though i like dark more than day.) or if everyone else is asleep except me. ...haha! and two of those three things were like tonight. everyone's asleep except me and my dad... so... yea. anyways, i went to go let Kilala in - but right when i stepped in my mom's bedroom, i got this freaky chill and an even freakier feeling that someone was right there in front of me - staring at me. it just freaked me out. sometimes i just cant explain those....>.> i hate them. now i'm all paranoid. *blink,blink*

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"I've been waiting for the time,
Waiting for you to say your mine.
Can't hide these feelings inside...
Let me hold you tonight.

I really want you to know
All these feelings I have to show.
How much I've been loving you...
Tell me you'd be mine.

Gonna love you,
Keep on loving you, dear,
I will love you til the end of time.
I'll be with you,
No matter what happens,
I'll be there by your side.

I will hold you,
Hold you here in my arms,
I will promise
I won't let you go.
Stay with me...
Make all our dreams come true.

I will give you all I have,
Cause you mean the whole world to me.
I will love with my heart...
And we'll never part."
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to all those who watch me!

~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4904094/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4904094/ Thu, 24 Mar 2005 20:28:24 PST Feeling: content
Hearing: X Japan - Longing
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oooo! isn't this fun?? O.O *nod,nod* i admit that i love this like this... they keep me from being bored. >_> anyhoos! here it is! WEE!!! (got from 's journal! )

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[ 1 ] First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Tucker
[ 2 ] Last word you said: word? umm... "cutie". (talking to my kitty, squall. )
[ 3 ] Last song you sang: "Longing" By X Japan
[ 4 ] Last person you hugged: Christina (my best friend)
[ 5 ] Last thing you laughed at: my mom and dad fighting over a poker game... *insane laughter*
[ 6 ] Last time you said I dont f***ing remember: i've RARELY ever said that.
[ 7 ] Last time you cried: hmm... i think about 3 days ago when i watched the last episode of Wolf's Rain for the trillionth time.
[ 8 ] What's in your CD player: Garnet Crow - "I'm Waiting For You..."
[ 9 ] What color socks are you wearing: none
[ 10 ] What's under your bed: my keyboard.. and... well... that's it. O_o
[ 11 ] What time did you wake up today: 7:00 am
[ 13 ] Current hair: my natural color - amber - and my natural length... (i've never cut it.) straight, and down.
[ 14 ] Current clothes: blue jeans with black skirt over them, white t-shirt
[ 15 ] Current annoyance: my throat
[ 16 ] Current longing: Hajime
[ 17 ] Current desktop picture: Ayumi Hamasaki
[ 18 ] Current worry: nothing... xD
[ 19 ] Current hate: my throat.
[ 20 ] Current favorite article of clothing: eh? O.o"
[ 21 ] Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: aww, i love guys with blue eyes... but i never judge anyone by appearance.
[ 22 ] Last CD that you listened to: Garnet Crow - "I'm Waiting For You..."
[ 23 ] Favorite place to be: outside in the woods, with Toby
[ 24 ] Least favorite place: the kitchen. >.<
[ 25 ] Time you wake up in the morning: Weekdays- 7:00am, Weekends- 10:00am to Noon
[ 26 ] If you could play an instrument: i can play flute, acoustic guitar, and piano. but any others i want to play... probably violin.
[ 27 ] Favorite color(s): black and silver
[ 28 ] Do you believe in an afterlife: yep
[ 29 ] How tall are you: 5'3 1/2"
[ 30 ] Current favorite word/saying: "oiy!"
[ 31 ] Favorite book: "Lord of the Rings: All" - J.R.R. Tolkein, "Island of the Blue Dolphins" - Scott O'Deal, "The Hobbit" - J.R.R. Tolkein
[ 32 ] Favorite season: Fall.
[ 33 ] One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: can animals count...? if so, my dog Patch, who passed away two years ago.
[ 34 ] Favorite day: Saturday

[[[ FUTURE ]]]

[ 35 ] Where do you want to go: Japan
[ 36 ] What is your career going to be like: wildlife photographer
[ 37 ] How many kids do you want: None... i HAAATE kids.
[ 38 ] What kind of car will you have: Black dodge viper!! (*insane laughter* yea, i wish.)

[[[ HAVE YOU EVER... ]]]

[Gotten in a fight w/your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc]: Yes... all the time. *glares at spook*
[Been to New York?]: No
[Been to Florida?]: No
[Been to San Diego, Cali?]: No
[Been to Hawaii?]: No
[Been to Mexico?]: No
[Been to China?]: No
[Been to Canada?]: No
[Danced naked?]: Nope.
[Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day]: Yeaaaa! THAT was weird. *eye twitches*
[Had an imaginary friend?]: yep... they were little nails in the wall. http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4901375/ Thu, 24 Mar 2005 15:10:53 PST Feeling: overjoyed!
Hearing: Jewel - I Wont Walk Away
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Watching: Roseanne
Working On: Nothing

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WOOOOOHOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4876819/ Mon, 21 Mar 2005 21:21:17 PST Feeling: content
Hearing: Garnet Crow - Timeless Sleep
Eating: nothing
Drinking: nothing
Watching: Jurrassic Park 3
Reading (Manga): Fruits Basket (Vol.1)
Working On: my blog layout // msn icon archive

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ahh. it's all so close now... *evil laughter* only 3 more days and Spring Break is finally here!! no one even KNOWS how ready i am for it, too. -_-" it feels like it's been forever since we've had a break from school. i made a promise to myself that i wouldnt spend any time on the computer at DAY. O_o yea, that may sound weird - but when there's no school tomorrow - i usually end up spending the entire night online. sometimes i just go on and pull all-nighters. so over spring break -- unless adding in a few deviations -- i'm only going to be getting on really late.

oooh poopoo. >_> tomorrow in Economics we have to give a presentation. *sighs* i dont know why i'm not as nervous as i usually am. it's a huge class - and i'm only close friends with a few people in there - but i'm not even worried now. i'm just now in the mood to work on stupid presentations. *growls* i'm tired of working on them, and i'll be really happy to get it over with. i'm pretty sure after this we wont be speaking in front of class in any of my classes... hopefully. all year they've been getting us ready for Speech class for next year... and i hate it. *growls* all we DO is speak in front of the class... so i'm glad it's almost over. *nod,nod*

sorry no new deviations lately. i'm thinking about adding some of my older photos (the ones that are much smaller), but i'm still not sure... it's hard to find any good ones. *eye twitches* BUT! anyways... i'm gonna go start back at my blog again... laters and lotsa love!!!!

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"kimi ga inakunatte kara
nando asahi mukaeta ka shirenai
kyuu ni chiheisen wo mitaku natte furari
shihatsu ni tobinoru

youhodo no asamoya no naka susuku hikaru
sora ga amari ni hakanage de fade away
muri ni mirai motomete yuku koto waraeta

timeless sleep...
nido to kimi nukumori wo ah- omoi dasanai
muryokusa ni karada azukete ite mo
hito ha ikite yukeru

karoujite nikushimi ni kaezu ni ireta
watashi ganbareta yo ne

tagai wo tsunagu mono ha aru to suru naraba
amai kibou no you na mono de
fade out minukui kizu ha
itoshisa ni karame die away

timeless sleep...
yasashii nemuri ni tsutsumarete nani mo nozomanai
itsu no hi ha kimi ga kanashii toki ha
kitto tsuyoku idaku yo

timeless sleep...
watashi no hajimeru kono basho de iyashite ageru yo
wasureenu yorokobi no kioku ha"

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to all those who watch me!

http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4855923/ Sat, 19 Mar 2005 16:27:29 PST Feeling: musical
Hearing: Tommy February6 - Candy Pop In Love
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Water
Watching: Trigun ("Paradise" <- )
Reading (manga): Fruits Basket (Vol.1)
Reading (novel): The Call Of the Wild // Jack London
Working On: MSN Icon Archive

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hi! sugar! sugar! babe! everytime you look at me, my heart is into the sky!

ahh... i love tommy. she's such a great singer... i just got my new CD by her in the mail yesterday.. i've been listening to it NONSTOP. O.O my mom actually likes her, too! i mean... my mom's always been really cool, and likes all the anime, movies, music, video games, etc... that i like... but i wasnt sure if she'd like Tommy or not... since she's so full of... cuteness. O_O but she said she really liked her and thought her stuff was cute. go mommy! xD hahahaha...

anyhoos... only 4 MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL until Spring Break!! AIYEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cant wait!!! ^^ i'm completely ready for Spring Break... and then it'll only be two more months until school is fiiiiiinally over! woohoo... ^_^ i hope i dont end up spending every second on the computer, though... >_> that's what i usually end up doing. even on the weekend. >.< ... actually... hahaha! that's all i've done TODAY. just sit on my butt playing on the computer.

i think i'll get off and play Final Fantasy 8. Or watch some more Trigun. Or Lord of the Rings. Or just go outside with the animals and take some pictures and watch the sun set. *nod,nod* yea... that sounds good... lotsa love. *huggles*

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"Hi!
Sugar! sugar! babe!
Everytime you look at me
My heart is into the sky
Kaze wa ORENJi tooku sora e to tsuredasu

Love!
Aozora to mitsubachi no uta, wakaba no kaori
Kagayaite iru Baby I'm so into you
Oh! "Candy pop" in love

Oboeta namae wo NOOTO ni kaite
RIBON wo kaketa no
Nandaka ROMANTIKKU!

Give me your heart!
Just right now!
I'm sitting here in the "candy pot"
Please pick me up baby!

Give me your love!
Come on please!
Look at me!
Nee ki ga tsuite koi no shisen ni

Ah!
Wasurenai shisen wo tometa gairoju namiki
Deai no shunkan koi ni ochita shougeki

Love!
Taiyou wa marude kokoro no jounetsu no you
Mitsumete itai Everyday and Everynight
It's "candy pop" in love

Hoshii mono wa itsumo
Massugu te ni hairanai hou ga
Zettai DORAMATIKKU

Give me your heart!
Just right now!
I'm not the same as other "candy girls"
Yes you've better choose me

Give me your love!
Come on please!
Look at me!
Saa ki ga tsuite koi no yokan ni"
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to all those who watch me!

http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4810143/ Mon, 14 Mar 2005 11:40:16 PST Feeling: ...better
Hearing: The Brilliant Green - I Never Dreamed
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Water
Working On: MSN Icon Archive/ me and omidorionyokooo:'s art website

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phew... i'm feeling slightly better today. ^^ no puking. WEE!!!! i still got to stay home, though... actually, i refused to get up. i felt much worse when i first woke up, and said i wasnt going to school... and of course my sweet mommy just lemme stay. i really should have gone, cause i'm feeling better now -- the only thing that's really wrong now is just my nose and throat. nothing else really hurts. oh well... it's 1:30 now... so too late...

aww... no new deviations today. -_- it's too cold outside to take pictures. i wish we could have another warm day, but it's been cold lately. i can wait until summer vaca! then i can go outside and take piccys all day... and drive the 4-wheeler down to the creek or walk down there with Toby... ^-^ it'll be fun.. but for now school's still in... only... 2 and a half more months. ^___^ hopefully it'll go by really fast... i dunno how much longer i can stand it. >.<

hmm. anyways. i'm on another Brilliant Green obsession. -_- i lurve 'em! i wish more people here knew about them... cause they have some great music -- and even though they're japanese, lots of their lyrics are all in english. i dunno what i'd do without them. *insane laughter*

ahh... anyways... i'm gonna go get something to eat, i guess. i'm not really in the mood to eat, but i've been up since 6 and havent eaten anything. *sigh* byebye! *hug* LOTSA LOVE!!!

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"No one can tell what will happen in the future.
His sudden death surprised us all.
He was successful, his suicide, he died last night...
And we were so sad to hear it... we cried.

Nobody knows why he chose to die.
The things we said helped nothing.
Now he lies underground...
A lonely death within shadows...

... ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4804116/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4804116/ Sun, 13 Mar 2005 17:03:17 PST Feeling: sick
Hearing: The Brilliant Green - Moldy Hole!!
Eating: nothing.......
Drinking: Orange Juice
Watching: Silence Of the Lambs
Working On: The White Rose (my shrine to Laguna and Raine from FF8)

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gah... i feel so sick. -_-" everything seems to be wrong with me this weekend - think of something - i promise you i have it. >_> *sigh* and i HAVE to go to school tomorrow... cause i just have two more days to miss until i'll have missed my 8 days this semester. >.< i cant miss ANOTHER day... hopefully i'll be feeling better by tomorrow. on friday, when i took my Iowa test thing, i must have had a really high fever, cause i felt like i was sweating like crazy... i thought i was nervous, but i'm sure now it was fever - i'm freezing cold now, though. mom says it's hot, though. i dunno if that's a fever, too... or if we're just weird.

OH! buuut! i downloaded the new version of MSN Messenger -- and it is soooooo cool!!! we can DRAW! *insane laughter* i've been drawing little anime pictures on it all day, though i have no one to talk to. xD *insane laughter* it's really fun... i think it's a great idea. the new look is a little hard to get used to, though...

anyhoos... what was i going to say... oh! i got my two Brilliant Green CDs in yesterday...

The Brilliant Green - The Brilliant Green
The Brilliant Green - Rainy Days Never Stays (single)

they're so awesome. ^-^ Now i own 5 of their Cds... next i'm gonna buy the Forever To Me single... i'm pretty sure it's gonna rock... you know, though, they're so expensive... and they only have around 4 songs on them... Ayumi Hamasaki's singles each have like.. 8 or 10 songs on them - literally. they're awesome. ^^ ahh well, i really think this single was worth it! I probably like "Moldy Hole!!" the best -- even more than 'Rainy Days Never Stays' itself! xD it's really cute and has a VERY addictive melody!



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"So baby I'm gonna be a star!
You are the "rolling stone"
into the "moldy hole" -
Because you won't hear me, yea...

..."moldy hole"!!...

I'm in the sun, but why's it so icy?
I'm in the sky, but why's it so pale blue?
I'm in the clouds, but why is it about to cry?
Love faded away... it's you who broke my heart.

So baby I'm gonna be a star!
You were once good to me...
You are in the "moldy hole" now...
and you can't see me - wow!"

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to all those who watch me!

http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4760914/ Tue, 08 Mar 2005 14:11:24 PST Feeling: quite content. (*insane laughter*)
Hearing: La's - There She Goes
Eating: Sprees (wee! i got a red one! )
Drinking: Nothing. (AHH!)
Reading (manga): Love Hina (Vol.2)
Watching: Nothing
Surfing: [link] [link] [link]

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WOOHOO!!!!!!!! Today was a really great day. ^-^ It was... like the complete opposite of my last whiney entry. yea... it was awesome.

so, mom DID let me stay home yesterday. actually, i just woke up at around 11:00 and everyone was already gone. O.O so i got to stay home allll alone and party! (haha... yea, that's me - stay home and party with the cats! MWUHAHAHAHA! *grabs Squall and cuddles* ^^) It was really fun, too... although at about 1:00 i decided i needed to stop neglecting my shrine to Raine and Laguna (from Final Fantasy 8) and worked on it until mom got home... which was about 8:00. -_- i didnt even budge the entire day. it was fun, though... the really sucky thing is, though, that i didnt even get finished with the entire media section. >_> i'm slow.

so i came back to school today... and it was an actually GOOD day. i know, freaky to hear ME say that, eh??! ^_^ I mean, i got tons of compliments on my cute skirt and new shirt and on my hair being pulled back into a different way... i guess people REALLY REALLY REALLY notice stuff like that with me, since i look just about the exact same every day. xP then, although i have a lot of homework, it was all extremely easy. the day didnt even last long. it kinda sucked that i made a 60% on my English quiz, though.

HA! I know - i must sound really annoying now, eh? i guess i just cant help it. it was a nice day... usually i have really crappy days where i'm just depressed all the time - then get online to keep me from going insane from not talking all day. but... yea. ^^ it was fun.

anyways, i think i'm gonna try to do some of my homework -- i really wanna go home and be free to work on my Raiguna shrine. (though i highly doubt that's gonna happen. )
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"There she goes...
There she goes again...
Racin' through my brain,
and i just cant contain
this feeling that remains.

There she goes...
There she goes again...
pulsin' through my veins
and i just cant contain
this feeling that remains.

There she goes...
There she goes again...
she calls my name,
pulls my train,
No one else could heal my pain...
but i just can't contain
This feelin that remains."

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~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4745250/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4745250/ Sun, 06 Mar 2005 17:42:22 PST Feeling: happy
Hearing: Nickel Creek - Sabra Girl
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Coffee
Watching: Frailty
Working On: Coloring My dA ID...
Surfing: [link] , [link]
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yay!!! Midori finally gave me the sketch for my deviant art ID! i finished inking it today, and just started coloring it... with... YES... OPEN CANVAS!!! i've been wanting to try it out for forever! ^_^ it reminds me A LOT of Adobe Photoshop, though... it's EXTREMELY similar, and MUCH easier to color than Corel PP8. anyways, be expecting it SOMETIME this week... ^^

blah. i added a few more deviations today. they arent that great, though... i only actually LIKE about one or two of them. i felt i needed to add SOMETHING, though. hmm... what else? *thinks* i took a walk with Toby today out in the woods, because that makes him happy... but it hurt me soooo bad! -_- there's this REALLY steep hill out there, and i went up and down it probably 6 times in a row... ahhh! my legs hurt sooo bad. -_- Toby wasnt ready to leave, so i just decided to get my excercise for the day doing that... and i'm pretty sure i did. my legs still burn from going up that stupid hill... *growls*

oiy! mom may let me actually stay home tomorrow... without being sick or anything. *evil laughter* i mean, she doesnt really want me to, but i think she may let me... cause since i havent missed that much school this year, she's letting me go on and choose one day to miss for these last three months. ^^ she's so ky00l... though lately she hasnt been letting me pick the day i want for this month. >_> hopefully she'll lemme stay home tomorrow. -.-" cause i realllly dont wanna go. i really want to just spend tomorrow with Toby, relaxing. they've never given us tests on Tuesday and i didnt have ANY homework on Friday... so tomorrow would be a great day to miss, i think. ahh, well... i guess we'll see... >_>

AIYEEE!!! Nickel Creek is coming out with a new album! i hate that people who hate country dont even listen to them, thinking they're traditional country crap... GARG! THEY KICK ASS! Damn... Sean Watkins has the smoothest, sexiest voice EVER!!! and Sara's voice is so beautiful and fragile... *bounces around room*

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"Lonely the life that once i led...
strange the paths on which we tred...
led me to you, unlikely but true...
sabra girl... clouding my view..."
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to all those who watch me!

http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4729271/ Fri, 04 Mar 2005 17:06:22 PST Feeling: / emotionally unstable...
Hearing: Youjeen - Fake
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Water
Watching: Nothing
Working On: ...Nothing, i guess...

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warning... this entry is VERY whiney. -_-

...today was probably the worst day i've had in a really long time. it's like everything that could have went wrong did... from forgetting class assignments all day to getting into a big fight with my friend - it all sucked. *sigh* i mean, i even tested out this boat we were supposed to have for science - it was supposed to be able to float and hold 50 pennies. last night we tested it and it all worked out EASILY. then of course i bring it to school today and it sinks. -_-" i dont know how, but it did. i think it was probably because he set the pennies in as one big bag, while when i tested it i put them in one penny at a time and kind of balanced it out.

plus, in science me and terra KIND OF got into a fight. actually, she just did - as always, i tried to just avoid it and ingnored her and turned away the rest of the hour. it was SO STUPID, too. we were all in a group together and her and Tiarra were writing down their answers together, and then i asked her for what the first one was. she said she made it up and i go "well, you're writing it with Tiarra... what is it?" and she completely blew up in my face. ;_; she was yelling so loud i bet everyone in class could hear her. "you're always whining! you never be quiet" then Tiarra and Steve just looked at her and she looked over at them and goes "she is! she's ALWAYS whining! 'Terra, i cant do this!' 'terra, i need this!'" ... i'm so tired of being so emotionally beaten up by her. everyday she says how retarded and weird i am. she always gives me a hard time about listening to Japanese music and watching Japanese anime shows, too. she says they're just as dumb... *sigh* and i honestly dont know why i'm so attached to her. she's always yelling at me over nothing and calling me all kinds of things. plus -- me and my best friend Erin () have been friends since we were like... 4 or something like that, and she gets SOOO jealous of her. she always gets mad at me if i want to go up and talk to her, so i usually never do. it's like me and her never talk anymore... but right when science was over - i knew i could go straight to her. she DID make me feel a lot better... i really love hanging out with her. she's so incredibly nice.

then i came home and found out one of my favorite anime shows, YuYu Hakusho (YES! I watch it... it kicks ass. ) is going off the air. they're replacing it this Saturday with some other new anime. Yea, i wanted to see it too... but i LOVED YuYu Hakusho! I just started watching it a few weeks ago, i think i saw about 10 episodes. it's been on the air for FOREVER... but right when i watch it, it goes off... i guess i'll just have to buy the complete DVD set when i get my allowance next week. So far i have the complete DVD sets of only Wolf's Rain and Witch Hunter Robin... so i guess i could use another anime set, anyways.

plus billions of other bad things happened. -_- it was just the STUPIDEST day ever. >.< only one good thing happened...

when i got home from school, i read my email and saw Terra sent me an email. She said she was sorry about how stupid she acted and said she didnt mean to hurt my feelings... that did make me feel slightly better about what happened.

ok, so it made me feel almost completely better. that's how weird i am... if someone's mad at me, i'll be so depressed and upset about it - and right when they appologiz... ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4697010/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4697010/ Mon, 28 Feb 2005 20:36:08 PST Feeling: happy
Hearing: Rie Fu - 2cm
Eating: nothing
Drinking: water
Reading (manga): Love Hina (Vol.1)
Playing (PS): Final Fantasy VI
Watching: Rie Fu "2cm" Music Video

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phew. i made it through monday... YAY!! thank god! ^_^ i hate mondays. everything about them suck. i never know what's due in school - what homework i DID do and what homework i FORGOT to do. plus, i sleep in until noon over the weekend... so it really stinks to have to wake up at 6:30 every morning again. *sigh* i got really lucky today, too... i completely forgot about my Science Chapter Review, but he decided to give us an extension.. because almost everyone in the class failed the last quiz - so he's making us take it again tomorrow. i made a 56% on it. yep. oooh man! PLUS we started making a new PowerPoint presentation in Word Processing II today... and she's making us use these old pictures we took of ourselves earlier in the year. -_-" i looked like completely crap, too. i dont wanna give my presentation to the entire class with that crappy picture on the main slide! i'm probably the least photogenic (<- sp?) person on earth. -_-"" none of my pictures turn out good.

anyhoos! i've just gotten into a new Japanese singer. ^^ i'm obsessed with her.. though i've only heard two songs from her.. still - her music and voice reminds me a bit of Michelle Branch. ^^ anyone who knows me knows i lurve Meech, so yea. her music is really cool... oooh man! and her English is AWESOME!!!! Sometimes i completely forget she's Japanese. O-O she's got a great voice - you guys should try to download her song "2cm"!! GO NOW!!! ( [link] ) it's a great song. ^_^

anyways. i'll shut up and stop bugging you all now... i'm just REALLY bored. *yawn* tired too. *looks up at clock* only 10:30?? O.o" i still have an hour until Inuyasha is on... (*cough* yea, i record every episode... i'm too poor to buy it on DVD at the moment! )

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"We're only 2cm away now...
I'll be home again.
I'll be home again to a place that might have been.
Where people in the past times
thought they were waterfalls around the edge of the sea...
Catch a drop of tear for me, and tell me who you'd be.

I touch your back, so wide and shaking.
Tell me why it's aching.
All the efforts that you're making
are like the leaves awaking from the rain.
Come closer to me now, I wanna touch your face.
All the love can't be erased.
Come on and leave a trace.
And when I'm feeling powerless,
I listen to the music they left by...

cause our love is deeper and believer of the sea.
cause you're the waves of my ocean.
you a... ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4681769/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4681769/ Sat, 26 Feb 2005 22:37:36 PST Feeling: emotional
Hearing: X Japan - Crucify My Love...
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Water
Watching: Roseanne "Like A Virgin"
Reading (Manga): Lagoon Engine (Vol.1)
Playing: Final Fantasy VIII
Surfing: [link]

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...mmhmm. i know what you're thinking. i'm still pooped about Hide killing himself... IT JUST BUGS ME TO DEATH!!! ARGH!!! I just cant believe he could do that... i've been listening to X Japan ballads for forever now. *tear,tear* i guess i should just move on... but he KILLED himself!!. MY Hide killed himself. ...i hate everything about suicide. it just gets me depressed. especially when its someone like..... HIDE!!! *sighs* The nice thing is, though, i just found out that his best friend, the drummer, was finally able to go on and make a tribute to him. They just released a cd of all their greatest songs. i'm definitely gonna buy it. ^^

oh. and last night i had a dream that Toby died... for those of you who know me, you know Toby's more important to me than anyone on earth... even more than my family and friends. he's my best friend... so it really bothered me. I mean, in my dream... i found him dead... and i just cried over him for forever. then he came back to life, and nudged me like he always does when i cry. right when i woke up, i went straight outside and went for a walk with just the two of us. he loved that sooo much! i guess that dream was just my guilt of never spending any time with him anymore... it definitely woke me up. i spent almost all day outside with him. ^_^ it was fun, too... i found this HUGE bone and waved it in front of his face. so of course he took off with it... and it was huge! *insane laughter* he looked really cute trying to carry around such a big bone. then Hershey ran up and started playing tug-o-war with him. xD And when night came, i just took him inside and brushed his fur, while giving him tons of dog treats. xD hahaha... yea. it was a good day. i havent spent that much time with him in so long... i honestly dont know why. i've been so caught up in my computers and video games, i dont even go walking with him that much anymore - unless if it's just to get some new photos to post. ;_; i'm planning on spending a lot of time outside tomorrow, too. so be expecting more pictures. ^_^ lotsa love!

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"Crucify my love...
If my love is blind.
Crucify my love...
If it sets me free.
Never know, never trust
"That love should see a color."
Crucify my love...
If it should be that way.

Swing the heartache...
feel it inside out.
When the wind cries...
I'll say goodbye.
Tried to learn, tried to find,
To reach out for eternity...
Where's the answer...?
Is this forever?

Like a river flowing to the sea,
You'll be miles away and I will know...
I know I can deal with the pain...
No reason to cry.

Crucify my love...
If my love is blind.
Crucify my love...
If it sets me free.
Never know, never trust
"That love should see a color."
Crucify my love...
If it should be that way.

Til the loneliness shadows the sky,
I'll be sailing down and I will know...
I know I can clear clouds away...
Oh, is it a crime to love?

Swing the heartache...
feel it inside out.
When the wind cries...
I'll say goodbye.
Tried to learn, tried to find,
To reach out for eternity...
Where's the answer...?
Is this forever?

If my love is blind,
Crucify my love...
If it sets me free.
Never know, never trust
"That love should see a color."
Crucify my love...
If it should be that way."

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to all those who watch me!

... ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4673414/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4673414/ Fri, 25 Feb 2005 20:23:07 PST Feeling: upset
Hearing: X Japan - Longing
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Orange Juice!
Watching: Frailty (<- AHH!! LOVE!!!!!!)
Reading (manga): Lagoon Engine (Vol.1)
Working On: ENRAI (Ch.4 "A Different Perspective")

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i just finished talking to my bestest friend's grandma online. i'm not going to say much, in respect for her, but i'm seriously really worried about her... now that she's got a stepmom... it's like everything's completely turned upside down for her. she's evil, i say, evil! we both think that way... i feel so horrible. and when i last spent the night with her - we talked for hours about it outside. i know how much it hurts her. and i just look upon everything and wonder why she deserves this. first she looses her mom, now this? even if my dad DOES get violent -- it's only when he drinks... not like her stepmom. She may not be violent, but she's definitely unfair and power mad or... something. i dont know. i guess all we can do for her now is to just be there for her. i hate that i just have to stand by and watch... but i definitely dont want to make anything worse. just like Granny said... none of us wanna make it worse... so that's about all we can do.

another bad thing i found out today -- the lead singer of one of my all-time favorite Japanese bands, X Japan, died. Ok, so it was in 1997, but i just got into them a few months ago. to be completely honest - i thought they were still singing and making music. i couldnt wait to buy their next album... they say that he hung himself. but tons of fans and others really cant believe it... really, i cant either. he appeared so passionate about his career as a singer and seemed so happy and content. Their music was really awesome... and their ballads are even more amazing. He's one of the ONLY male japanese artists that i think has a good voice. ...pathetically, being almost 9 years since, i'm kind of having a Hide day. All i listen to is his music. *nod,nod* That's all i've listened to all day, and plan to tomorrow too. *tear,tear* it makes me wanna cry... cause he's so awesome!!!!! His best friend, the drummer of the group, decided to do one last concert deticated to him... but it was quickly canceled, because he wasnt able to do it. Him and Hide were childhood friends...

but... yes. there's my random complaining for the day... *tear,tear* ...i'm gonna go listen to some more X Japan now... *sniff,sniff*
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"Kizutsuke atta kotoba mo
kasaneta namida mo
itsuka wa omoide ni naru yo
dakara...togireta Melody
mune ni dakishimete ashita mo ikiru darou
anata ni aenakute mo....

Sing without you...
I'll sing without you.
Can't you feel my heart...
Falling through the rain?

I sing without you...
I'll sing without you.
Can't you hold my tears...?
Cause, still I love you.

I can't face that thought of being alone...
I sing, for the song still carries on...
mune ni dakishimete omoi o utawasete...
koe ni naranakute mo...

Sing without you...
I'll sing without you.
Can't you feel my pain..?
There's nothing I can do."

("Hurting more than words could ever try to say
Once again my tears come raining down
Someday, though, I know that all I feel will be...
So I sing... this 'Unending* Melody'...
Hold you close within my heart and tomorrow will live
again and
Maybe you and I will live there, too...

Sing without you...
I'll sing without you.
Can't you feel my heart...
Falling through the rain?

I sing without you...
I'll sing without you.
Can't you hold my tears...?
Cause, still I love you. ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4664871/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4664871/ Thu, 24 Feb 2005 18:21:52 PST Feeling: happy
Hearing: Tommy February6 - Hey Bad Boy!
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Water
Reading (manga): Lagoon Engine (Vol.1)
Playing: Final Fantasy VI
Working On: "ENRAI" (my manga), finishing touches on first chapter ("These Old Forgotten Feelings")

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WOAH! Flashback.

I added about four new deviations... three of them are taken with my first camera. the really crappy one. *eye twitches* but i actually like the "Three Little Kittens" one... even though it was taken inside the house. it's still really cute. They're almost always like that -- especially Selphie and Rinoa... they're attached to the hip or something. O.O But right when i break out the camera... BANG. Rinoa hides. >_>" This time i caught her sleeping though.. muwhahahahahaha!

OH! And you know what?! I've lately been in a mood to play Final Fantasy all over again... but this time i decided to play my newest one -- FF6 -- and it's sooo HARD! *cries* I've passed FF5, 7, 8, 9, 10, 10-2, and Tactics... but i cant even get passed the... first... boss on six. *hides eyes* i know, i suck, dont look at me!!! ...*sniff,sniff* it's also a bit harder to get into six as much as the other 5 cause the graphics.. well... suck. FF5's graphics sucked, too... but it was a great game, and i'm sure 6 is too.. if only i could get passed that STUPID boss.

...hmm... what else? *looks from side to side* oooh! i got a 100% in Pre-AP English this semester!! AHH!!!!! i couldnt believe it, either... ^.^ i've had an A in that class all year so far... which is a first for me, i must admit, since 6th grade. i usually get a mix of As and Bs all year, but English has been pretty fun. awwww! and Miss Fikes said that she really wanted me to participate in the writing/poetry contest coming up. she actually said she liked my writing... *tear,tear* she's such a sweetie. i know i'm gonna enter in the poetry contest... but i'm not so sure about the writing story contest thingy... I'm still a little confuzzled about it.

*sigh* anyways. how is everyone else?! ^.^.^.^ It feels like i havent talked to anyone on here for eternity... *blink,blink*

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"Even if your girl is crying...
You don't even care
Is that ok with you?

The beautiful night sky is watching you
Always your way is dirty.

Even if your babe is my friend
Can you love me?
Hey, she's looking for you!

The beautiful night sky is watching you
But I can't stop loving you.

Chikatetsu orite, hoshi wo
Sora ni kuchibeni wo hiite.

Juwaki no mukou anata no koe ga
Sasotte iru wa
Hey bad boy!
Hey bad boy!
'I'll get down...'"

("Even if your girl is crying...
You don't even care
Is that ok with you?

The beautiful night sky is watching you
Always your way is dirty

Even if your babe is my friend
Can you love me?
Hey, she's looking for you

The beautiful nigh... ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4660908/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4660908/ Thu, 24 Feb 2005 09:21:55 PST Feeling: crappy
Hearing: The Brilliant Green - Running So High (*cough* in my head...)

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ahhh! oh no. O_O i'm in word processing right now...

we're about to give presentations... and i didnt even know we were DOING a presentation...

...*raises eyebrow* and here i am on deviant art. -_- *cough*

byeeee!!
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"Must be heaven, now floating into space.
Stars go flyin' by, softly kiss my face.
taking me so high, shake me to my soul...
Music's all around, yeah.

Not comin' down the beat is running so high!
I'm feelin' fine, the music's got me goin'!
Let's get up, everybody came to dance yeah -

baby, come closer now and shine on me!" ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4654812/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4654812/ Wed, 23 Feb 2005 14:57:12 PST Feeling: better
Hearing: Evanescence - Solitude
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Water
Watching: Nothing
Working On: Chapter 3 in "ENRAI" ("Midori's Decision")
Surfing: [link]

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phew... i feel much better today. yesterday, i just had to get everything off my chest. -__- and it feels 50 trillion times better now.

"Ooh... solitude... i cant stay away from you..."music:

my god, i love Evanescence. x__x i havent listened to them in FOREVER. i actually havent listened to any of my English artists in a long time... ever since i became obsessed with anything JPOP! xD I seriously think they should have released this song, at least on their album... but nope. -_- they put... well... i really like all the songs on that album.......... except HAUNTED!!! *growls* i really dont like that one! they could have replaced it with SOLITUDE... xD

but, anways - i was actually just posting here to tell you all that more pictures will DEFINITELY be added this weekend, if not sooner. i'm really wanting to go outside and take some today, but it's been raining all day long... so even if it stopped, i wouldnt really feel like going out. not that i dont like the rain... it's just that my hair would completely frizz out. *snarles nose*
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"How many times have you told me you love her...?
As many times as I've wanted to tell you the truth.
How long have I stood here beside you?
I live through you...
You looked through me.

Ooh... solitude,
Still with me is only you.
Ooh... solitude,
I can't stay away from you.

How many times have I done this to myself...?
How long will it take before I see?
When will this hole in my heart be mended...?
Who now is left alone but me?

Ooh... solitude,
Forever me and forever you.
Ooh... solitude,
Only you, only true.

Everyone leaves me stranded,
forgotten, abandoned...
left behind.
I can't stay here another night.

Your secret admirer, who could it be?

Can't you you see all along it was me?
How can you be so blind as to see right through me?

Ooh... solitude,
Still with me is only you.
Ooh... solitude,
I can't stay away from you.

Ooh... solitude,
Forever me and forever you.
Ooh... solitude,
Only you, only true." ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4647104/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4647104/ Tue, 22 Feb 2005 17:20:00 PST Feeling: depressed...
Hearing: Bana: Half-Pain
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Watching: D.N. Angel "Rekindled Feelings"
Health: 0/100 MP :: 40/100 HP
Surfing: [link]

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i sit here and wait... i wait for him. but why? why am i waiting for someone who's really not even real...?

Hajime.

we only know each other from online, but we like to send pictures and stuff - and he even sent me something for Valentine's day all the way from Japan... i was just kidding around with him -- COMPLETELY kidding around -- and told him "My friend Yume got this CUUUTE teddy bear and i got nothing. *tear,tear* xD"

and he sent me one. he sent me this cute bear from Japan... (they look MUCH cooler there, i must say. xD) but... it's not like we'll ever be able to meet.. you know? i've never even left the state - and i first want to go to college and photography school - so i know i'll never have enough to go to Japan, let alone try to meet up with him.

so why am i still waiting for him here? it's like i dont even think twice about giving anyone here a chance, because i feel like i'd be cheating on Hajime or something. It's not like we're even going out... we're just great friends... but i cant help but think it. So now if any guy even glances at me i cant even bring myself to talk to him. i used to at least go up to guys i didnt know and talk to them -- but now i just stay around the guys that are already taken. *wink* i just feel completely STUPID. online dating has always been stupid... DATING PERIOD has always been stupid... to me.

...and the worst thing of all is Caleb. He promised me he'd come back. but he still hasnt. i dont want to give him up right when some other guy online comes along.

but he still hasnt. and i dont really think he ever will. it was 3 years ago.... does a promise have an expiration date? x_x

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"Tsumetai kokoro no soba ni iruyo, kogoete.
Tsuzuki wa kobamenaikurai hora asahaka.

Kitsukazu ni kaketa kanjou hiroi atsumete...
Yurushi wo motometara...

fall into a light sleep, hitori no yoru ni...
I'm beginning to learn kanashimi no shikumi.
Anata no nukumori kakushi.
Afuredeta sonoyami ni obieru.

fall into a light sleep, watashi ni michiru...
I don't carry out yakusoku wa yagate.
Itsukano, kagayaki suteta...
Kaerenai asa no hikari noyou."

("It lies beside this cold heart, frozen.
So completely mindless that it persists forever.

Numbly, I gather the remnants of my emotions,
And searching for redemption, I...

Fall into a light sleep, on a lonely night
I'm beginning to learn the designs of sorrow
The hiding away of your warm presence
Makes me fear the overflowing darkness.

Fall into a light sleep, it encompasses my very being
I never carry out my promises
So long ago, I threw away my brightness
And like the light from the morning sun, it can never return.") ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4629009/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4629009/ Sun, 20 Feb 2005 11:11:45 PST Feeling: slightly annoyed...
Hearing: Emiko Shiratori - Roots ~ Family Tree ~
Health: 50/100 MP :: 100/100 HP
Eating: nothing
Drinking: water
Playing: Final Fantasy IX
Working On: Digital Art - Final Fantasy
Surfing: [link] (FF Shrine Finder)

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*sigh* my friend, Midori, seriously seems to go out of her way to ignore me online. *growls* i've been patient about it up until now... i cant barely stand it anymore. >_>" she ALWAYS gets online, but never responds to any of my messages - and it's been a while now. i guess it's no big deal anyways... we dont even have anything in common anymore. might as well not talk, eh? hahaha. xP

erg... anyways. still no new deviations. me and my brother were going to go walking together and take some photographs, but he's helping my dad out in the shop. plus - i dunno if i'm really in the mood to go now anyways -- it's really cold outside. :\ well - it's not really cold, but it's wet and windy... which make it pretty uncomfortable. *nod,nod* i MAY add a few photos that i took a long time ago, like i often do, but i dunno... i'm kind of tired of doing that... i'm also working on a bit of Final Fantasy art... listening to "Melodies Of Life" really got me in the mood to do stuff with 9 again. oh! that reminds me!! i got my three new Asian cds yesterday!

Emiko Shiratori: Cross My Heart
Lee Soo Young: Made In Winter
KOTOKO: Hane

they're all really good, too! i love them. ^.^ but the stinky thing is -- the next CD i'm probably going to have to buy is BoA's "My Name". Why, you ask? -_- because i'm stupid. On my mp3 rotation, i posted all my songs on an mp3 list for people to request -- and i've been getting a lot of requests, too... but then someone requested three songs off that CD -- and... yes, again, stupid me. i had deleted them off my computer by accident. *sigh* so now i guess i really need to go and buy that CD so i can get my rotation off hiatus... the good news is, though, that it's Korean -- so it's only $10 on yesasia!

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"When i was young,
yearning to be free...
i never cared
how hard the road might be.
i left my home
for dreams i dont recall...
for i was young
and knew it all.

the tree grows green
and blossoms in the spring...
when its roots are deep and strong,
a man may dream...
but when his heart needs peace,
then his roots will lead him home.

i'm older now
and at last i see.
held by my roots,
my spirit can be free."
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to all those who watch me!

http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4609475/ Thu, 17 Feb 2005 19:06:32 PST Feeling: not inspired
Hearing: Tommy February6 - Kiss One More Time
Health: 0/100 mp :: 80/100 hp
Eating: nothing
Drinking: water
Watching: "Kiss One More Time" Music Video
Working On: "Enrai", my manga + Paper Pieces layout

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just in my lonliness... wont you please come around? dont stop the music!

...*closes eyes and nods to self* i love this song. ^-^ it makes me happy. heh. if i didnt have Tommy, i would be depressed. yesh, yesh, i would. *dances to music* xD

anyways! how was everyone's day today?? good, i hope. mine was ok... really slow and uneventful... but ok. it turns out i have only TWO As, though. *sigh* i used to be a straight A student... not i'm just... well... erm... not.

Agriculture: 96% <- YAY! Finally got an A!
Geometry: 80% <- ...actually a 79.7. *growls*
Economics: 79% <- *cough*
Word Processing: 82% <- AHH!! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?!?
Science: 91% <- it's my lowest in that class so far. *kicks self*
AP English: ??? <- she hasnt given us our grade yet. -_-
Spanish: 80% <- that's pathetic, too...

i was really upset with my grades this time. -_- and the worst thing is -- when i looked at my progress report thing, in Geometry, Economics, and Spanish -- i had like... 10 things missing. why do i never turn in my work? *stares* i'm just stupid, i guess. i'm going to try harder this 9 weeks and hopefully get all As again. ^^ *insane laughter* yeah, as if that's going to happen...

as for my manga... it's coming along pretty good, too. i would post the characters and plot... but im sure none of you care, and it's too long anyways. xD hahahahaha. i'm really really excited about getting it finished and showing it to all my friends, because i based on the characters' personalities on them. ^.^ Most of them are pretty excited about it, too. It's really long, though... so it's gonna take me a while to get it finished. *sigh* So far i've written two books (chapters): "These Old Forgotten Feelings" and "The Training Begins". oh well. i'll shut up about it. sorry.

anyways.... *sits and stares at person reading this* how was your day?

Favorite instrument to play/favorite song to play:
phew - ok. my ultimate favorite instrument is the piano. ^^ i love everything about it... and i've currently been learning some Final Fantasy pieces. My favorite song to play on piano is probably "You're Not Alone!" or "Melodies Of Life" - both from Final Fantasy 9. However, i really really love the acoustic guitar, too... my favorite song to play on it is "Goodbye To You" by Michelle Branch. ^-^
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"Just in my loneliness...
won't you please come around?
dont stop the music!

where are you tonight? Kikasete.
wish you were here... angel... odorasete.
baby, hold me tight... Utatte.
wishing you were here my babe...
kiss one more time, yea.

Ochite yuku amai koukai ni nokoshita... ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4599448/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4599448/ Wed, 16 Feb 2005 15:31:49 PST Feeling: ...creative.
Hearing: Tommy Heavenly6 - Wait Til I Can Dream
Health: 100/100 mp 70/100 hp
Watching: Roseanne "Into that good night"
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Water
Working On: Me and s art site

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WOOHOO!!!

welp. i finally made my decision -- i'm not going to post my anime art up on dA... but i'm making me and my best friend's art site layout right now!! ^^ Yesh, yesh... we're FINALLY creating it... after almost 3 years. i'm so happy!

however... Midori's going to have billions of pics, while i'm mostly just going to have my story characters. I'm writing a manga right now called "Enrai" (which means "Distant Thunder") and have been working like crazy to get it finished. -.- but instead of writing it lately, i've just been drawing and coloring the characters in Corel. xP i need to stop that. *nod,nod* I actually think the story is something i like, too. after trying to write 50 trillion mangas -- this one i like.

BUT! Unfortunetly... no new photo piccys today. *tear,tear* i'm lazy. it was cold again today, anyways... so i didnt feel like venturing out into it. i'll definitely be going on a walk again this weekend - no matter how cold or hot it is. (though i hear it's supposed to heat up soon. ) *cough* yea. i'm sure i'm boring the heck out of you all, eh? -___- mmhmm. well, i was mostly just posting to say i'm making an art site... so expect to see it up sometime soon... lotsa love!!!

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"Tell me somebody
How do I escape now from here to go there?
I'm lookin' for heaven
"Darlin' say somethin'!"

Even if the stars
turn away from me and you
I don't care in my heart...
Todokanai.

Wait till I can dream!!
Dokuiri no bin ni mitasareteku.
My stars shootin' me!!
Nee mata namida wo otoshisou na no..."

("Tell me somebody
How do I escape now from here to go there?
I'm lookin' for heaven
"Darlin' say somethin'!"

Even if the stars
turn away from me and you
I don't care in my heart...
it won't reach us.

Wait till I can dream!!
I'm being filled up with the bottle of poison.
My stars shootin' me!!
Hey, it looks like my tears will fall again...")

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to all those who watch me!

~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4588042/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4588042/ Tue, 15 Feb 2005 09:40:59 PST Feeling: ecstatic
Hearing: Garnet Crow - U...
Health: 80/100 mp 95/100 hp
Working On: Nothing

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aiyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! my best friend, Midori (oomidorionyokooo) just finished the anime artwork of me for my dA id... i'm soo happy! IT'S SO PRETTY!

this Saturday she's going to scan it, and then i'm going to start coloring it in Adobe or Corel... ^^ it actually looks a lot like me, too... except i think she made it a lot prettier. xD *insane laughter*

i seriously think i want to start our art site with her sometime soon... we've been talking about it since 7th grade - but now i really think we've both gotten good enough to start. Although, it takes me about 5 days to actually make a nice, decent drawing - while it takes her a couple minutes. she's been drawing a lot longer than me... so hopefully i wont feel too stupid posting my artwork right beside her's. xD

oh! and wolvie? nothing really special happened on vday... i got a bunch of carnations from Hajime, but that's about it. I never get to see him. *tear,tear* hopefully we can talk online sometime soon... *sigh* how about you? did anything speeecial happen with you?!

...*blink,blink* ehh. anyways. there's nothing really to talk about anymore. the bell rings for 5th hour in about... 15 minutes. i guess i'll go check out yes asia to see if my order's been sent yet.

Features:
Long, straight, amber hair that goes down about to my butt. Brown eyes, 5'4", 115 lbs... wanting to get to about 110. ^_^ hmm... what else is there...? O_o

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"hiroi kawa wo watashita hashi wo hatte yuku hikari
sono saki ni mieru building U.U.U...
okoriuru subete mou kimerarete ita no nara
kokro nado iranai U.U.U...
kienai yoru..."

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to all those who watch me!

http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4565565/ Sat, 12 Feb 2005 21:09:56 PST Feeling: in love
Hearing: Goo Goo Dolls - Iris
Drinking: Green Apple Kool-Aid
Watching: Nothing
Health: 90/100 mp 90/100 mp
Working On: New digital art
Surfing: [link]

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ahh... love is in the air.

blah. usually i never give in to it. >_> usually every year i chew out everyone about how stupid valentine's day is and refuse anyone that asks me out and ALWAYS tell people to NEVER send me anything.

so why the hell am i actually acting so ditzy and stupid this time? maybe it's because the guy who sent me something is actually someone i have feelings for... someone i actually care about. ha. i know what people who know me in person are thinking -- "wait... she cares for someone besides her animals?? an actual PERSON!?!?"

yea. i do. i really do. i still dont think i'm going to do anything about it, though. i'm completely 100% against dating. mmhmm. i think it's all stupid. i just never let me get too close to anyone... cause there's always less heartache that way. it's a fact of life... with life comes death, with laughter comes tears, and with love comes hate. and i dont want to be a part of that.

there's my speech. sorry... i'm listening to a pretty emotional song and just feel like... talking. *eye twitches* ANYWAYS. i'm working on some new digital art FINALLY. i went back to an old site i've been checking out for years now and... she just got me inspired to do some more art again. ^^ it's been a really long time since i've done any, though... so i'm kind of rusty. *stares at old art* well... not that i was good before. *insane laughter* i also added one new photo today, featuring my Selphie!!

Favorite Final Fantasy and why:
FINAL FANTASY VIII. Eight was just the best of them all. I've played FF5-FF11... and eight just blew them all away. All the characters were so amazing and full of personality. Their love for one another and deep, deep friendship just amazed me so many times... and this time, the characters in this game werent just trying to save the world or take revenge on someone -- these friends were all caught up in the fight to save the past, present, and future. it was a great game that literally made me laugh my ass off one second and cry like i've never cried before. (...besides maybe on "Wolf's Rain"...)

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"and i'd give up forever to touch you...
cause i know that you feel somehow.
you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be,
and i dont wanna go home right now.
and all i can taste is this moment
and all i can breathe is your life.
and sooner or later, it's over...
i just dont wanna miss you tonight.

and i dont want the world to see me,
cause i dont think that they'd understand...
when everything's made to be broken,
i just want you to know who i am."

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to all those who watch me!

http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4557317/ Fri, 11 Feb 2005 19:55:35 PST Feeling: worn out
Hearing: Utada Hikaru - First Love (english ver.)
Drinking: Water
Health: 0/100 mp 90/100 hp
Working On: trying to get all my fanlistings up. x_x

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phew. i am sooooo tired right now. *yawn* i think it's cause i've been sitting on this laptop - in the dark - since 6:00 pm... and now it'sss... almost 10? not sure. oh well... just sitting here while everything else is turned off and it being really dark... i dunno, it just always gets me sleepy.

i got a few letters from THE FANLISTINGS today. *tear,tear* they told me that my "Forever To Me" fanlisting was in danger of being removed cause it hasnt been updated in 2 months now... but i had seriously made a layout and everything for it a few days before i got the letter, but then my server went down. so not i cant upload ANYTHING until it comes back up... and since it's been down for a while, i just sent them an email back saying that it would most likely be back in about 5 days... so they gave me an extension... but if it actually DOESNT come back, they're gonna remove it from the fanlistings. *stomps floor and cries* IT'S POOPY, I SAY! GAH!!!!!!!! It just BETTER come back up really soon... cause i love my fanlisting. *cuddles* Plus, i own the fanlisting for Vanessa Carlton's song "White Houses", and have billions of members to add now... *growls*

anyways... IT'S FRIDAY!!!!!!!!! i'm sho happy. *insane laughter* tomorrow, i just want to spend ALL day outside with Toby. hopefully it's not going to be cold... the weather's been kind crazy this week, going from hot to cold too quickly. i hate it. *hiss* yea. lotsa love.

Favorite Female Solo Singers:
Utada Hikaru, Tommy February6, Ayumi Hamasaki, Michelle Branch, Vanessa Carlton, Bana, Chihiro Onitsuka, Chara, Maaya Sakamoto, Youjeen, BoA, Aya Matsuura, Kotoko, Arai Akino, Bonnie Pink, Avril Lavigne, Emiko Shiratori, Ai Otsuka, Faye Wong, Nana Katase, Dido, Lee Soo Young, Koda Kumi, Mai Kuraki, Tommy Heavenly6, Yaida Hitomi, Rikki

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"If only you knew every moment in time,
love anchers on in my heart...
just like your memories.
how i want 'here' to be with you...
once more.

you are always gonna be the one
and you should know
how i wish i would have never let you go...
come into my life,
oh dont say no.
you are always gonna be the one
in my life.
so true, i believe i can never find
somebody like you...
my first love."

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to all those who watch me!

http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4549061/ Thu, 10 Feb 2005 18:53:08 PST Feeling: content
Hearing: Ayumi Hamasaki - Real Me
Health: 50/100 MP :: 70/100 HP
Drinking: Water
Watching: Nothing
Working On: Nothing

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a woman never runs away! a woman never hides away! in order to survive...

eee! i LOVE this song!!! it's definitely one of my fav Ayu songs. ^-^ i'm slowly starting to like her more and more... it took me almost a year of listening to tons of her songs to finally realize how great she really is. for any of you who dont know, Ayumi Hamasaki is an extremely popular japanese artist... i just bought her albums "Rainbow", "Memorial Address", and "I Am..."... and they're all really awesome... try to sample some of her songs. she's really great.

ANYWAYS! this weekend i'm planning on taking my four-wheeler up somewhere i havent been before... try to find some new place to take photos of. it's so awesome out here in the country... but it's only february... so everything's still dead. *growl* also, be expecting more photos of Selphie and Milo this week. I know i have a lot of Sefie, but i really want to add a bit more. And i've only posted one of Milo... so... yea. ^_^

i know i kind suck at taking photos right now, but i'm really trying to learn more as i go along... and get some inspiration from some of my friends on dA.. like and . my goooosh they're awesome photographers. 0.0 hopefully someday i'll be as good as that... as for now, i'll just continue sending in my little scraps of animal-piccy-wannabe-photos. hehehe...

oh, and from now on, i'll be posting a tiny bit about me in every journal... cause (believe it or not) more than one person has asked me to do so. weird, eh? well. yea. anyways... here. *looks from side to side and runs away*

Favorite Animes:
3x3 Eyes, Ah! My Goddess, Agent Aika, Ai Yori Aoshi, Angel Sanctuary, Arc the Lad, Argento Sama, Azumanga Daioh, Chobits, Comic Party, D.N. Angel, Di Gi Charat, Escaflowne, FLCL, Full Metal Alchemist, Ghost In the Shell: Stand Alone Complex, .Hack/Sign, .Hack/Legend of the Twilight Bracelet, Inuyasha, Kiddy Grade, Kino's Journey, Last Exile, Love Hina, Mahoromatic, Read Or Die, RahXephon, Rave Master, Saikano, Sakura Wars, Sister Princess, Trigun, Vampire Princess Miyu, Witch Hunter Robin, Wolf's Rain, Yuu Yuu Hakusho, Yu-Gi-Oh!

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"a woman never runs away!!
a woman never hides away!!
...in order to survive...
Tatakai mo sezu ni,
Iyashi motomeru mon ja nai!

a woman never shows her fears!!
a woman never shows her tears!!
...in order to survive...
Namida wa tayasuku
Dareka ni miseru mon ja nai..."

("a woman never runs away!!
a woman never hides away!!
...in order to survive...
You oughtn't desire healing,
Without fighting!

a woman never shows her fears!!
a woman never shows her tears!!
...in order to survive...
You oughtn't easily show
Tears to anyone...")

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to all those who watch me!

http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4524169/ Mon, 07 Feb 2005 19:34:34 PST Feeling: satisfied
Hearing: Lee Soo Young - Farewell Blues...
Health: 10/100 MP :: 90/100 HP
Watching: Yugioh! (<- )
Working On: Homework

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yay! i finished all my homework in time to get online! these 25 questions were due today, but since i'm a lazy ass, the teacher actually gave me a chance to bring them in to her tomorrow. !_! i know, i couldnt believe how sweet she was. she could have given me a zero - but since they were worth sooo many points, she's giving me one more chance. i really need to stop being so lazy all the time. one day i'm not gonna get such a great break. >_>"

you know -- i'm really thinking about sending in my anime artwork as well.. but im not sure. -.- a ton of anime pics mixed with photography wouldnt do too well. everyone here has the ONE THING they really want to be good at... so i guess i choose photography over my anime art. *sigh* i really wanna post some, though... maybe i could just make another accound... *looks from side to side* ...

AHH!!! this watch is blinding my eyes!!!! *pouts* it keeps hitting the light and reflecting it back on me!!! *rips watch off wrist and throws across room* blah. -_-

*cough* anyways... maybe i could just send in a pic of me in anime form for my dev ID?? that would be soo fun... although i've never drawn myself in anime form. *shrugs* i guess i could try. ^^ Anytime i watch anime i get in the mood to draw more and post... and right now i'm watching Yugioh! SOO many people dont give that show a chance... because they think it's just some kiddy, lame anime... garg!!! but it really isnt! i love it so much. and the art in it is so amazing... maybe not Tristan or Yugi that much... but look at Serenity, the Dark Magician, and the Dark Magician Girl. *nod,nod* they're awesome...

welp! anyways! i'm gonna go. heh. i know this entry had no point... but i was bored again. LOTSA LOVE!!!!!!

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to all those who watch me!

http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4519087/ Mon, 07 Feb 2005 09:17:08 PST Feeling: bored
Hearing: Cherry Filter - Dive
Working On: Nothing

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phew. hmm. i'm at school right now... nothing to do. i would work on all my homework, but i left it at home. -_- mmhmm. i left ALL of it at home. hopefully i wont get a zero on it all... maybe just half credit... oh well. i'm in a really good mood today, though! why!??! because TERRA IS HERE!!!

yep -- she wasnt here on Friday, so it feels like i havent got to talk to her since forever... we're like... attached to the hip or something. xP so i really missed her. she was gone because she was helping her mom move to a new house, so nooow - she still rides my bus - annnd gets to ride it with me longer! it's sho happy. hehehehehehe.

................

hmm. now nothing to say. -_- i wanna go home. i wanna watch Yugioh! hahaha! really, though... i dont care if i'm 15... i LOVE that show... aww, and Yugi is so cute! ^^ heehee.

*5 minutes pass*

well. i guess i'll stop boring you now. i'm boring myself, actually. ... weee!

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"I wanna dive into my life!"

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to all those who watch me!

~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4511187/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4511187/ Sun, 06 Feb 2005 11:02:47 PST Feeling: angry
Hearing: The Brilliant Green - Round and Round
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Watching: Wolf's Rain "Dont Make Me Blue.."
Working On: Nothing
Surfing:

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garg! i'm sooo mad. *growl* you know i was planning on hanging out with Toby and taking more photos today? well... it's raining here... a lot. it's too wet outside for me to do anything. *tear,tear* i may just go on outside and take pictures under the porch, like in "Garden Of Everything" and others that i've taken... although, i'm really tired of that setting. -.-" *sigh* this is just POOPY. hopefully it will stop raining soon, so i can go on outside and try to take some photos. cause my animals never care if it's raining or not - even my kitties - they love the rain... but my camera doesnt too much.

oh, plus my dad got a lot of stuff stolen from the shop last night. we're pretty sure we know who it is, too - one of his stupid "friends". well, i cant really call them that - cause they hate each other... but just call each other friends when they're drunk. *insane laughter* oh well. we called the cops, so hopefully they'll get all the stuff back. we know it was him, though, because his kid came up to our house last night and said that he came here with him, then couldnt find him. and that was the only time the dogs barked, when they came here - so it must have been him.

heh. anyways. i think i'm going to go work on some new layouts or... something. sorry in advance if i dont end up posting any new pictures today...

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"it's a crime
living your life
without ever looking down
at the ground, at the flowers
yea, that you keep stepping on.
and maybe you should notice
that they've done nothing to you.
oh, you might find out someday...
when things turn upside down...
the those flowers step on you.

round and round
and up and down,
again through and through.
round and round
and one is two,
enough is enough.

round and round
and up and down
again through and through
round and round
and one is two
and coming back to you.
enough is enough...
why wont you understand
that i've had enough...
and i've taken all i can?
and why do you do
all of the things you do?
yes, i want you...
i want you to understand...
that enough is enough
you know bad karma will just come back to you.

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to all those who watch me!

http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4505675/ Sat, 05 Feb 2005 17:45:11 PST Feeling: refreshed
Hearing: Dido - This Land Is Mine
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Watching: SAG Awards
Working On: My blog

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well, i added at least a FEW pictures today... none of them were that great, but it started to turn dark on me. *tear,tear* i'm sorry i didnt really get too many good ones taken, but i really liked the ones of Toby. ^^ he's such a sweetie... i love him so much...

Toby is the one thing that i can say i actually LOVE without hesitation. i know that sounds bad... but it's true. ^^ he's always been there for me, and today i was finally there for him. i mean, i used to walk a loooooot EVERYDAY when i was younger. but when i turned 12 - i discovered Final Fantasy 8. O_O now i'm some kind of technology addict. *sigh* so i spent almost all day with Toby today and just hung out with him and took long walks with him... it was really fun. ^^ you never know how much you take something for granted until it's gone... and i didnt want Toby to teach me that lesson.

i just feel really, really refreshed and... actually... happy. O_O strange, i know. i'm usually "happy" online, but not that much offline. but today i just... heh... i dont know. ^^ i just feel optimistic and more prepared. it was a very good day. tomorrow's another day, and i hope it's going to be just as good. i'll definitely spend a lot of time outside then too, and hopefully get more BETTER pictures taken.

*sigh* anyways... i guess i'm going to go and try to finish this blog that i've been working on since FOREEEEVER. -.- Meanwhile... LOOKIE!!!!!! IT'S A QUIZ!!!!!!!

YOU'RE SINOBU!!
You're responsible, sweet, gentle and lovable! You have a loving
heart, a great respect for all creatures (human, great and small),
and the ability to see the thing that makes each individual special.
However, you tend to overlook the things that make you special, and
thus, putting you in a position to be pushed around by others. Take
some time everyday to reflect on your qualities, and see that you don't
have to please everyone and still be loved for who you are.

[link]

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"From behind these walls i hear your song...
oh, sweet words.
the music that you play lights up my world...
the sweetest that i've heard...
could it be that i've been touched and turned?
oh lord, please, finally things are changing.

this land is mine, but i'll let you rule.
i'll let you navigate and demand.
just as lone as you know -
this land is mine.
so find your home and settle in,
oh i'm ready to let you in...
just as long as you know -
this land is mine."

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to all those who watch me!

~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4496836/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4496836/ Fri, 04 Feb 2005 14:13:46 PST Feeling: overjoyed!!!!!!
Hearing: Simple Plan - Crazy
Eating: Watermelon sucker
Drinking: Nothing
Watching: Nothing
Working On: Nothing
Surfing: [link] (the quizzes)

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WOOHOO!!!! It's FRIDAY!!!! I'm so happyyyy!!! xD why, you ask? because all my homework is done... there's nothing due... no tests... oh, and i got new batteries for my camera. ^^ so everything is SET for the PERFECT weekend! MWUHAHAHAHAHAHA!

OH!! i almost forgot. I've actually been getting a LOT of notes from people asking me about all my pets. *eye twitches* so just to get it all out of the way -- here's some basic info about my kittiesss and puppiessss! (haha! i wonder if anyone will really read this..? x_x)

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Name: Toby
Type: Dog (Half Spitz/Half German Sheppard)
Age: 6 years
Birthday: March 1
How we got: Found him in an old shed - when he was VERY small...

Name: Little Girl (toby's little sister)
Type: Dog (Half Spitz/Half German Sheppard)
Age: 5 years
Birthday: December 15
How we got: found her in our backyard - when she was VERY small...

Name: Hershey
Type: Dog (Half Doberman/Half Chocolate Lab)
Age: 1 year
Birthday: April 7
How we got: bought her from a friend - when she was just old enough to leave her mommy

Name: JC
Type: Cat (Tabby)
Age: 6 years
Birthday: ???
How we got: rescued him from my G-ma's dog - when he was just a kitten

Name: Milo
Type: Cat (Tabby)
Age: 4 years
Birthday: ???
How we got: found him on the side of the road, in front of our house - when he was just a kitten

Name: Spook
Type: Cat (Tabby)
Age: 2 years
Birthday: ???
How we got: found him on the side of the road while driving - when he was just a kitten

Name: Topaz
Type: Cat (Tabby)
Age: ???
Birthday: ???
How we got: found her hiding in our garage - being barked at by dogs. she was already full-grown.

Name: Squall
Type: Cat (Tabby)
Age: 3 years
Birthday: July 10
How we got: Topaz's kitten

Name: Selphie
Type: Cat (Tabby)
Age: 3 years
Birthday: July 10
How we got: Topaz's kitten

Name: Rinoa
Type: Cat (Tabby)
Age: 3 years
Birthday: July 10
How we got: Topaz's kitten

Name: Kilala
Type: Cat (Tabby)
Age: under 1 year
... ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4491636/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4491636/ Thu, 03 Feb 2005 19:28:48 PST Feeling: relieved
Hearing: Maaya Sakamoto - Chibbiko Folk
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Ice Tea
Watching: Witch Hunter Robin Sakaki...
Working On: My blog, layouts
Surfing: The Magic Box, Deviantart, AnimeLyrics

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...ahh... Sakaki is suuuch a hotty. ^^ i LOVE HIM. for those of you who are clueless -- Sakaki is this guy on the anime series "Witch Hunter Robin". I dont care if he's a cartoon. he's still freaking hooooooooooooot. ...hehe... yea... am i pathetic or what?? all i do is sit at home and drool at anime characters that arent even real... *sigh* makes me depressed. -_-

oh well! i dont mind having no life. *nod,nod* x_x

besides obsessing over Johnny Young Boshe's beautiful, sexy voice... (the voice of Sakaki, Vash, and Kiba) - i've fiiinally gotten finished and caught up in school!! all my tests are finished, my book report is out of the way, and i've turned in all my homework. ^^ i feel 50 trillion times better, too. all that just completely lifts soooo much pressure and stress off me. now this weekend i can finally go outside and just enjoy the forests and my pets. *strokes Selphie* it's been such a long time since i've taken photos. ^_^ the last few i've been added are all from a VERY long time ago. this time i promise you i will add some (hopefully) nice photos of nature or the kitties or doggies or something...xP

*sigh* *looks from side to side* nothing to really say or do, eh? yeah... i'm just boring the heck out of anyone who reads this, i'm sure. to those who are reading! i congradulate you for getting this far!! lotsa love!!!

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"Yomikake no hon wo toji, kajirikake no pan wo nokoshi
akehanatsu mado ni wa hane ga hitotsu... ochite ita.
daremo kodomo no yume
kieta yukue wo shiranai.

oo wohoo wohoo wohoo....
boku wa sore wo sagashi ni yuku.
oo hoo hoo hoo....
boku wa kitto sukui ni yuku."

("Closing the book I was reading and putting down the
bread I was nibbling, I open the window and notice...
that a single feather has fallen on the windowboard.
Nobody knows where the dreams of children disappeared.

oo wohoo wohoo wohoo....
I'll go to look for them.
oo hoo hoo hoo....
I'll go and save them.")

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to all those who watch me!

http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4484154/ Wed, 02 Feb 2005 21:28:16 PST Feeling: content
Hearing: Lee Soo Young - I Believe
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Watching: Inuyasha "Soto's Confession of Love"
Working On: New "Emotionally Driven" layout

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welp... my book report is due tomorrow. ^^ i'm extremely depressed over it - and so nervous i feel like blowing chunks... but i'm also extremely HAPPY! xD i'm happy to be getting it out of the way, and that i have written out a nice, solid report without even finishing the book. *insane laughter* i'm still going to finish reading it, though. it's a great book... i was just sick and asleep most of the week i was supposed to read it and was never able to finish in time. i got to page 120, though... out of 200 something. good enough.

i got on yesasia.com again today and bought two more CDs! *insane laughter* they're Lee Soo Young's "Made In Winter" and Emiko Shiratori's "Cross My Heart" ... both are ballad singers, so i know i'll love them no matter what. Emiko Shiratori sings "Melodies Of Life" for the game Final Fantasy IX... so i've always been a huge fan of her. ^^

oh, and i put "Emotionally Driven", my Asian mp3 rotation, on a short hiatus... i know. none of you have even visited - why would you care? i just wanted to tell you all. everyone is sooo sweet, too. ^^ they're all posting on my tagboard telling me how they hope i come back soon...... i know it's only cause they want more mp3s (hahahaha), but it's still really sweet. ^^ i'm already getting ready for the next rotation, though - since it's going to be on hiatus for at least three weeks... i'm going to go on and post all the requests in those three weeks -- so it's going to be probably 18 songs right there. O_O too much.

*sighs* ok. i'll stop boring you all. this weekend i think i really AM going to go outside and try some new things... i've been in a photography rut... as you all can probably tell. all my photos look the same, have the same settings... blah. it just gets boring. -_- i definitely want to go outside this weekend -- it's supposed to feel really good on Saturday.

lotsa love!!

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"kudeguu yaksu guh kiyoka go itsukago...

i believe. i believe. i believe.

mapeguu natsu nam motsubu ai nambor ka youg...

and i believe. i believe. i believe."

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http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4448064/ Sat, 29 Jan 2005 19:25:09 PST Feeling: sick
Hearing: Simple Plan - Perfect World
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Coke
Watching: Nothing
Working On: New layout for 'The White Rose'

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my mom had to go to the hospital today. she's always been so strong and has NEVER even gone to the doctor since... forever. it's so freaky. i almost dont even know how to deal with it... i guess that's pretty pathetic, that i'm so closed in and protected. but i really dont know what i'd do without her. her..... and my animals..... are my EVERYTHING. literally. but i guess the good news is the fact that she's going to be ok. they said they could send her home tomorrow... so that's good.

so i just got home from the hospital, it's already past 9 and i havent read a single page in either one of my books. ... hmm. and here i am - online... making layouts. something wrong with this picture?

i told you i'm a procrastinator. i'm a procrastinator in EVERYTHING i do. *shrugs* fortuntely, i dont have too much more homework to do though (besides read). it's supposed to snow tomorrow night.....................



maybe we'll miss school monday. but even if i dont - i'll probably still end up finishing my books... i'm COMPLETELY 100% a night person. i do EVERYTHING at night... and i usually end up staying up until about 5:00 in the morning. so i still have a while to do all my homework. ^^ i'll probably get off and start working on all of it at 10 or 11. hehe.

... but... my best friend () cant get online, either. THAT really makes me depressed more than anything right now. i cant talk to her about stuff now - just because of her STUPID step-mom. (i dont want to include the details... all i know is: her step-mom is completely power mad!!!!!) both of us have some SCREWED UP families. x_x we can both completely relate... she understands everything... i miss her so much!!! *tear,tear* and she didnt even DOOOOO anything! now she's grounded from the comp for... 2 weeks.

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"I never could've seen this far.
I never could've seen this coming.
Seems like my world's falling apart...

Why is everything so hard?
I dont think that i could deal with the things you said...
it just wont go away.

in a perfect world... this could never happen.
in a perfect world... you'd still be here.
and it makes no sense...
if i could just pick up the pieces...
but to you - this means nothing at all."

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to all those who watch me!

http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4437591/ Fri, 28 Jan 2005 13:54:37 PST Feeling: still sick
Hearing: The Brilliant Green - I'm Jus' Lovin' You
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Water
Watching: Nothing
Reading: Baree, the Wolf-Dog + Alas, Babylon
Working On: Homework... lots of it.

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phew. well... i must say - i've never been happier to get out of school. -_- i felt soooo SICK today. aww, and my Spanish teacher was so sweet about it! she actually didnt make me do two of the assignments she has assigned, because she said they werent too important and she said i looked like i was feeling terrible. she's just soooo extremely sweet.

BUT. it still sucks. i knew i'd have a lot of homework for missing four days of school - but i never thought i'd have THIS much. *sigh* Not only do i have TOOOONS of Science and Math homework, but my English teacher assigned us another book on Monday...

everyone's else is past Ch.5 and i have to get there by MONDAY.

i also have to memorize this STUPID poem by MONDAY!!!

AND!!!!!! She also gave us a book report due...... well, not Monday.. but Tuesday!!!!! GARHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

WHY!?!?!?!??!?!!?!?

why did she have to assign that stupid book when we already just started on our book reports last Friday? *sniffle,sniffle*

oh, and i have to take 5 tests Monday-Tuesday.

so. yea. that's what i wanted to tell you all -- i'm probably not going to be able to get on AT ALL until Tuesday night.

.......*looks from side to side* well, knowing me i'll get on anyways and go ahead and make the F.

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"It's only you, it's only you...
fill me with joy.
and like the air, you're there for me...
so baby come and kiss me...
I'm jus' lovin' you."

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to all those who watch me!

~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4420943/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4420943/ Wed, 26 Jan 2005 14:41:22 PST Feeling: sick
Hearing: Utada Hikaru - Uso Mitai "I Love You"
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Light'n Fit Smoothie
Watching: Inuyasha "Fateful Night in Togenkyo, Part II"
Reading: Baree, the Wolf-Dog
Working On: Nothing

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*cough* ...hehe... well, how about this? i didnt go to school again today. GAH! This SUCKS. I'm so tired of being home alone. I always thought i hated people and loved to be alone... but sitting in this quiet house for 5 days isn't exactly fun. none of the animals even want to hang out with me... pathetic, eh??

actually, it's really cold out - and all they want to do is run and play outside... so of course i cant go out there. ;_; well... the good news is that i WILL be going back tomorrow... even if i'm hacking up crap all day. i NEED my friends! T_T *huggles Midori* i miss them all so much...

...mmhmm. nothing really to talk about. O_o oh! remember a looong time ago when i told you all about that "friendly stalker"?? i havent responded to his emails for two days -- and i already have 16 messages from him asking me where i am!!! *spazzes out* he really freaks me out.. *nod,nod*

anyways... i'm gonna go now... get me another smoothie.

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ENDORESU ni utagau yori saigo made ...
Ano uso mitai na "I love you" ...
Kiite itai yo zutto, zutto.

(Instead of endlessly doubting ...
I want to hear that dubious "I love you" ...
Until the end, always, always.)
]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4410863/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4410863/ Tue, 25 Jan 2005 11:51:17 PST Feeling: Sick
Hearing: The Brilliant Green - Hello Another Way
Drinking: Hot Chocolate
Eating: Nothing
Watching: Stephen King's Rose Red
Working On: ...Inspiration?

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"Let's sing a song! Hello! Another Way!"

...gah, i love this song so much. ^^ I just got two new Japanese CDs in the mail yesterday:

The Brilliant Green - Los Angeles
Garnet Crow - I'm Waiting 4 You...

they both kick ass. ^^ *nod,nod* i'm extremely happy with them... they made me feel a bit better.

yea. i'm still sick. -_- i missed yesterday AND today... so now i have two days to make up in school tomorrow. i dont care HOW bad i'm feeling tomorrow -- i'm not missing another day. i hate missing school...... well, you know what i mean. ^^ i like missing school, but i hate making up all that work. *sigh* i probably would have gone today anyways, but my mom never woke me up.

Yea, i dont even have an alarm - i rely completely on her. but i guess she thought i was feeling too sick and never even tried to wake me up. i really hope we dont have any tests tomorrow... i already missed Tuesday the week before last and was making up tests for three days - since our Science teacher gives us one almost EVERY DAY. *glares*

ahh, anyways. i was just going to tell you all that RIGHT when i get to feeling better i'm going outside to take some photos! i think i'll just put Squall and Selphie outside and just let them follow me down to the creek... they ALWAYS follow me when i go for a walk. ^^ soooo -- i'm really sorry for not posting any photography lately when i said i would... but i'm trying my best.

*sighs*... i'm working on some digital art, though. well, inspiration anyways. i may do a Brilliant Green or Garnet Crow art... *huggles* ^^ Byebye! LOTSA LOVE!!! ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4395307/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4395307/ Sun, 23 Jan 2005 15:41:03 PST Feeling: lonely...
Hearing: Tommy February6 - Dancin' Baby
Drinking: Hot Chocolate
Eating: Nothing
Working On: Digital art

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welp. here i am. it's Sunday and i never even left the house. *sigh* i promise i have a good excuse, though!!!

i was puking.

hahaha. really though -- i got sick right when i woke up Saturday. EVERYTHING'S wrong with me. *stares* Mmhmm... but fortunetly, i'm feeling a bit better today, so maybe i'll feel like venturing out into the cold Monday.

GARG! I LOVE this song! Tommy always puts me in a good mood no matter what's happened. i bet it anyone at school ever knew i listened to her they'd freak out, though. O_o i'm so depressed at school, but around my friends and at home i just turn Tommy's music up reallly loud and just dance to it...

*cough* yea. i bet you all can tell i'm bored out of my mind right now. -_- OH! I know something to talk about!!! My best friend, Midori (oomidorionyokooo) drew an anime art of me and her together! *huggles* it's so BEAUTIFUL!!! I love it... she did such a great job making us look like we do. ^^ i'm just obsessed with it... you all must go look! i still dont really know how to post a link on here... so go to her page and check out "Polaroid"! it's so awesome. ^^

*sighs* anyways. i guess i'm gonna go finish some digital art. i'm not completely sure if i'm going to post it on here or just on my blog... cause my digital art doesnt seem to get as many hits as the photos -- digital art and photography doesnt seem to match well, anyways.

so... byebye! hope you all have a nice week! ^^ ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4375750/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4375750/ Fri, 21 Jan 2005 09:36:37 PST i'm so... happy.

i'm in school right now, though. *growls* still almost 4 hours left, too...... *sigh* hopefully it will go by quick.

since it's the weekend AND because things seem to be warming up here, i'm planning on going for a walk and taking TONS of photos... especially of the kitties. ^^ as long as it doesnt get TOO cold out, be expecting some new additions.

...hmm. anyways. *looks from side to side* i want something to write about!!!!!! it's so boring in this class - we never really do anything.

blah. i guess i'll stop boring you all. at least the bell's about the ring... then 5th hour... then lunch... then 6th and 7th... then home!

...O_o ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4354088/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4354088/ Tue, 18 Jan 2005 17:27:42 PST Feeling: disappointed...
Hearing: Lee Soo Young - Suteki Da Ne
Working On: "Octave Of Dawn"

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i hate how stupid and immature some people can be. *sighs* ... i've always completely respected people's opinions. i mean, on my mp3 rotation, i said this one Aya Matsuura song was VERY VERY bad, when someone commented and said

"I beg to differ... i think it's very cute and show's Aya's creativity! ^^"

i really like it when someone states their opinion. but then someone posted on the tag board that Utada Hikaru

"sucks ass and is a whore!"

...i swear if i knew who that person was i'd... i'd... get my best friend's boyfriend to send them a virus!!! *cough* ...ok, so that wouldnt be the best way to handle it -- but that person seriously just needed to shut the hell up... it makes me sooo mad and disappointed when someone does that. they could have maturely said they didnt like her or... SOMETHING!!!

i know you're all wondering why this bothers me so much. *shrugs* i dont know why... it just does. i guess it bugs me more than normal because it's MY UTADA!!!!!! She's such an amazing singer... always puts emotion into her songs, has a great vocal range, isnt a slut, and she was going to release this song called "Distance" as a single when a gunning was held in a Japanese school that killed 9 students. She changed the song into a slow, meaningful ballad in detication to what happened. *tear,tear*

...i dont know... i'm probably just blowing it all out of proportion... but... it's... Utada, you know? *sniffle*

lotsa love. ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4344785/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4344785/ Mon, 17 Jan 2005 16:39:13 PST Feeling: creative
Listening To: Chihiro Onitsuka - Sodatsu Zasso
Working On: New Layout for Final Fantasy Rotation

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weeee! i'm so happy! ^___^ i just finished making two new layouts -- one for "Emotionally Driven" and the other for "Octave of Dawn". i love it when i make a layout that i actually... like. O_o Too many times i go on and put up a layout that's not worth putting up. *nod,nod* I guess i admit they kind of look alike... but i still like them... *insane laughter*

oooooh! but i'm extremely pissed, too. *growls* i'm a vegetarian and we dont have A SINGLE THING to eat here... all i've eaten today is the last of the green peas. -_- then everyone went to town and i got left home alone... *tear,tear* when they came back they had all went to get food - but it was all meat. *sigh* so i still cant find anything to eat... i've tried to make something, but... we dont have anything!!!! x_X nothing to even cook with...

we're poor. *nod,nod*

hahaha. anyways, i guess i'm going to get back to making this layout! i'm trying to finish before 7:00 so i can get off the net and actually DO something on my last day before school starts back...

lotsa love ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4331245/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4331245/ Sun, 16 Jan 2005 00:04:01 PST emotional
Listening To: Lee Soo Young - Silent Eyes
Watching: Roseanne

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aww... i think i just got a new favorite singer. ^.^ I havent even bought any of her cds yet... but her official website has every single album and song -- full versions -- just not downloadable...

Lee Soo Young. I think i probably like her so much because she sings all ballads. anyone that knows me KNOOOWS i'm the biggest sucker for ballads... mmhmm. *nods* her voice is soooooo pretty and pure. ^^ i love it.

anyways - i just watched one of her music videos and it actually made me cry. O_O yea. it was more of a story than a music video, it had breaks in between where the instrumental solos were supposed to be... it was just sooooooooo SAD!!!!!!! ;_; everything about it was sad... and when it ended - it actually said: "To be continued..." over in the corner! T_T i wanna see what happens sooooo bad!!! xD

but! *nods head* i think the next Asian cds i'm going to buy is "Made In Winter" (Lee Soo Young), "Wait Til I Can Dream" (Tommy Heavenly6), and "Seperation" (Emiko Shiratori)........

i'm sure this entry is boring the hell out of all of you, eh? hahaha. sorry -- i'll shut up about it. ^___^ i just had to talk about her... she's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ky00l... hehehehehehehe...

lotsa love!
yotsuba ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4271394/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4271394/ Sat, 08 Jan 2005 17:13:09 PST lifeless
Listening To: Cherry Filter - A Drifting Sailor
Working On: nothing

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you know.. i suck. >_>" the last time i made a deviation was... how long ago? now it's already night time here so i cant even go outside and take a few photos. plus, i havent made digital art in over a week -- not even for my other websites. *sighs* i'm really wanting to add another deviation sometime soon -- so right away tomorrow i'm going to go walking with my doggies and kitties and try to take some decent photos. *wink* xD

oh! and another Japanese cd came today!! this one was The Brilliant Green's album "The Winter Album"! ^___^ i think it's probably my favorite of the 5 so far... and i checked out yesasia.com today and ONE of my cds is still pending... but they should get it soon then ship it!

ope! i'm gonna go look at my new fishies... xD lotsa love! ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4262571/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4262571/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 14:17:42 PST overjoyed
Listening To: Garnet Crow - Spiral
Working On: Saving tracks to real one player.

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AIYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! my Japanese cds came today!!! well, four of them anyways...;

The Brilliant Green - Terra 2001
Garnet Crow - Crystallize
Cherry Filter - Made In Korea?
Cherry Filter - Third Eye

*dances again* I'm so happy! ^_^ they couldnt have come at a more perfect time, either... now i have ALLLLL weekend to listen to them! MWUHAHAHAHAHA!

oh!!! and dreamwolvie and animalover?! *hug,hug,hug* thanks! you two ALWAYS make me feel better and comment on my stuff... and make me feel like im at least HALF decent at my work. love you guys!

anyhoos! i'm gonna go now... i'm going to try to upload a few more of my photos on here for you all! (not that you'd really want to-hahaha) byebye! lotsa love, ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4252722/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4252722/ Thu, 06 Jan 2005 08:54:57 PST ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4220395/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4220395/ Sun, 02 Jan 2005 12:11:35 PST lonely
Listening To: Baby Vox - Sad Expectation (Seul Peun Gi Dae)
Working On: Layouts

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...hey again everyone. how are you?! *sigh* i'm so freaking bored. -_- there isnt anything to do here. everyone's gone to town to do stuff and i cant even upload any pictures, because the laptop's internet connection is freaking out on me... i've just been sitting here doing nothing for the past hour. mmhmm. nothing to even say.

guess i'll go shop on ebay and yesasia a bit more. -.- i'm going to blow ALL my money, i just know it... i've already spent $100 of it on Japanese cds...........

which should be here tomorrow!!!

i really hope they come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *insane laughter* LOTSA LOVE! ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4212799/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4212799/ Sat, 01 Jan 2005 14:12:42 PST very happy
Listening To: Emiko Shiratori - Book of Life
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Caffine-Free Coke
Working On: More Digital Art

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welp! i added about 5 new deviations today. they all suck, i think. *insane laughter* i DID like the "Bent and Broken" one though... i'm sure that's going to be the one everyone hates, probably. hahahaha! oh well... *wink*

*sigh* my four new Japanese CDs should be here by Monday. they would have been here TODAY... if it only wasnt New Year's day... *growl* oh. by the way.

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hope everyone has a great day... be looking forward to more crap from me! MWUHAHAHAHAHAHA... lotsa love! ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4178910/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4178910/ Tue, 28 Dec 2004 16:35:27 PST creative
Listening To: Do As Infinity - Under the Sun
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Working On: Digital Art/Mp3 Rotation

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wow. O_O i just finished watching 'Witch Hunter Robin' a little while ago... i got the complete DVD set for Christmas and was going crazy watching as many episodes as i could everyday...

i wish i wouldnt have finished it. the end was so awful. *hides eyes* i mean -- i dont want to tell any of you about it, cause some of you may not have seen the end yet. *wink* But i just had to say - i KNOW they MUST make a movie!!! if they dont... i'll just go nuts, i swear. *nod,nod*

but besides that... i've been feeling really creative lately! i've been making layouts like crazy, just got finished making ANOTHER new one for my MP3 rotation! ^_^ i love it when i feel inspired and creative. makes it 50 trillion times easier for me to make some graphics! *hops up and down*

speaking of that - i'm TRYING to make a new digital art to post. Not too sure of what i want it to be, though... maybe Do As Infinity! I'm having one of my JPOP spells again -- this time it's DAI...

"I walk under the sun... I dont look back again..."

love you guys. ^^ *hugs* ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4148356/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4148356/ Fri, 24 Dec 2004 18:37:21 PST emotional
Listening To: Simple Plan - Untitled
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Nothing
Working On: Nothing

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i just bought the new Simple Plan CD... and my gosh, it's probably 50 billion times better than their last - even though that one was awesome.

their music has grown so much better, they've matured in their lyrics and Pierre's voice sounds sooo much more complete.

if you dont like Simple Plan... i'm sorry... but this CD really IS amazing. "Untitled" is my favorite on the entire thing - so you all know it's gotta be a ballad! *wink*

it starts off with piano and tons of strings, and Pierre sings much lower than he usually does. the lyrics make me wanna cry, though. *tear, tear*

...i KNOW this journal entry has barely no point to it... but i just wanna say -

Simple Plan rocks my socks. ^_^ ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4144934/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4144934/ Fri, 24 Dec 2004 11:07:35 PST fine
Listening To: .Hack//Sign - Obsession
Eating: Nothing
Drinking: Coke
Working On: Digital Artwork

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"how come I must know
where obsession needs to go?
how come I must know
where the passion hides its feelings?"

heh -- i LOVE this song! ^-^ i really love the anime, too... but it went off the air. *sigh* hopefully i can get the DVD set from Ebay someday... *insane laughter*

But anyways. Speaking of obsession.. i think i made a friendly stalker. *eye twitches* i mean, he had been emailing me about a song on my mp3 rotation that didnt work properly, and once i got it fixed, he asked me if we could be friends. i said sure, of course! xP but now it's like... he wont freaking leave me alone... he keeps asking me all these tons of questions about me and emailed me three times in a row the other day. then he sent me an email yesterday... i read it, but never replied -- cause i was busy!!! then at around 8:00 i got an email of him saying:

"are you mad at me???? cause you havent replied to my email! if i did something to make you mad, i'm sorry!!!!!"

...ehh, i dont know... it's probably not a big deal, but it's getting a little freaky. i guess it cant hurt too bad, though - cause i'm lying about myself, anyways. i dont like giving out my info to people i dont know... O_o

...*sigh*... anyways. i'm working on some new digital artwork to put up. i havent made a deviation in F.O.R.E.V.E.R... so i gotta post something. ^_^

Christmas tomorrow!! WEEE!!! Lotsa love! ]]> ~broken-lullaby http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4140853/ http://broken-lullaby.deviantart.com/journal/4140853/ Thu, 23 Dec 2004 22:36:07 PST great
Listening To: Maaya Sakamoto - Yubiwa (acoustic ver.)
Eating: nothing:
Drinking: Coke
Working On: nothing

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bah. i'm so bored. i'm hyper... BUT BORED!!!! GARG!!! I really need to get some sleep... but i really dont feel like it. i swear sometimes i'm an insomniac. O_o i never get sleepy until almost 6 in the morning. at least whenever i'm off school. ^_~ *sighs* oh well. i guess i'll just bring my CD player in there and try to get to sleep with that. *hugs Maaya Sakamoto* her music is so awesome! she's gotta be one of the best Japanese singers of them all..... i wish i owned a lot more of her CDs. *sniffle*

...ahh, anyways. i guess i'll go. i know i'm boring the heck out of whoever is actually reading this!!! xD sorry it was so short... just bored... dont have anything to say!! xP

see you guys tomorrow -- CHRISTMAS EVE!! WEEE!!!! Lotsa love! ]]> ~broken-lullaby