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deviantART: by:bubblegumcandy16 http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:bubblegumcandy16&section=today deviantART RSS for by:bubblegumcandy16 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 18 Dec 2009 06:52:47 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Oh Me, Oh My! http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/21072524/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/21072524/ Sun, 19 Oct 2008 23:55:09 PDT . I miss this site so much! I wish school wasn't so demanding....

Anyway, I uploaded two photos that I took for my photography class this quarter, replied to some comments, and tried to go through the billion deviations in my message center

. Then I thought I would update my ID because that pink wig photo was scaring me. The one I have now is much more "me."

Hopefully I'll be loading photos from my class throughout the year. Who knows when I'll have my next breather. I'm super exhausted.

<333333 Miss you all!

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Another DD and a Merry Christmas to all :D! http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/16101173/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/16101173/ Tue, 25 Dec 2007 21:15:11 PST

First of all, I would like to thank

and

for my second Daily Deviation on [link]

!!! I can't believe it! I'm sooo flattered and happy :3!

Second of all, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!! And for those who don't celebrate Christmas, HAPPY HOLIDAYSSS!!

<3

And thank you all for over 1,000 favorites on my first daily deviation [link] and over 18,500 pageviews

!!

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Back from the Dead! (Zommbbbiiiesss!) http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/13554256/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/13554256/ Sat, 30 Jun 2007 16:51:03 PDT

Hahaha sorry that was a little strange. Thank god for summer! I was about to lose my mind at college (wait... I already lost it... so I wonder what would have happened?

). It's really tough work O_o, yet no one really tells you that. I didn't have time to create a single piece of art. At least I managed a pretty decent gpa. I even got one A+

!

Speaking of art, I am currently working on my first vector piece. I have 100 shapes, yet it's only a small blob. I think i'm doing it wrong? hahaha... If anyone knows of any good vector tutorials for Photoshop CS2 or Illustrator CS2, I would be greatful if you sent a link my way :3.

Hope everyone is doing well

!

Love you all! Sorry for the extended absence. I'll be lurking around dA over the next week. Then I'm visiting my grandparents for a week or so.

<333

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Things & Stuff http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/12571843/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/12571843/ Thu, 12 Apr 2007 19:07:09 PDT
]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 A Few Requests and Features http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/11602078/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/11602078/ Sun, 28 Jan 2007 16:37:27 PST I hope I dont sound too annoying XD!

First order of business:
Please do not send me notes asking if you can use my work. It is copyrighted. I am very flattered that you like my work enough to use it, but I spend a lot of time and effort on my pieces. It may not appear this way, but just trust me on this one. Im especially tired of blanketed messages from forums asking to use my work. No.

Second order of business:
Lately I have received a few requests for vexels. This is also flattering, but please dont send me a message unless you are willing to pay what Im asking. For each image I will charge $100 because each image takes 20+ hours (this means I am charging $5/hour, which is below minimum wage). This is the going price, I have compared among artist. Also, the image can only have one person in it and no alterations. If more than one person is in the image, I will charge an additional $50 per person. Prices for alterations in the images can be worked out.

I am not willing to haggle my prices. I am a very busy college student and the pay has to be worth taking time away from studies.

Now onto play! Here are the artists that won from my last journal entry:

1.

http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/11508865/ Sat, 20 Jan 2007 18:10:47 PST
I have been having a really rough time lately. I decided to do myself a favor and dump all the deviations and comments from my message center. It's not because I don't love you all ;-; it's because life is being mean XD. So now, my new years resolution is to stay on top of the messages so I don't have to do that again. I'm sorrrry!

<3 and

to you all

And these are the deviants I will feature in my next entry

!

1.

10.

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Almost the New Year ^^ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/11217847/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/11217847/ Thu, 28 Dec 2006 01:21:07 PST
I got a Wii from my family

!! And three games (Zelda, Elebits, and Monkey Ball)!

My boyfriend

got me this awesome hat:

He also bought me FFXI, which is awesome, and a Link sticker for my wall. Its hot. *drool*

And drew me this desktop ^^

Oooo!! And Emmy drew me

! It's such an honor hehe.

<3 and

to you all!

P.S. The first 10 people who post in this journal will be featured. I will go though your gallery and choose three of your deviations I like most and post them in my journal for everyone to see! It's pretty much to show you off. Who doesn't want that? So, just be the first 10 to post and voila! Only catch is, you should post this in your own journal. It's only fair!

(Taken from

)

1.

7.
8.
9.
10.

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Happy Holidays! http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/11101330/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/11101330/ Mon, 18 Dec 2006 03:31:46 PST . Yayyyy!

I have tons and tons of deviations to look at, journals to read, and comments to respond to in the message center, so i'll try to do that over my winter break

.

I've been extremely uninspired lately. I can't seem to do anything artistic... it's like school sucked the creativity out of me.

<3 and

to you all!

Hope you are having a great holiday season :3!

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 (Temporarily) Back from the dead http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/10249244/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/10249244/ Sun, 01 Oct 2006 14:21:29 PDT
College has been pretty intense so far. Moving in was quite a process. Then I had two day orientation (part of which was on my birthday Im 18 now!) and welcome week. After that came classes which give me so much work I barely have time to eat. Dont get me wrong, I looooove it here. Im constantly busy. The sad part is, I havent had time to take photos or vexel and art is very important to me. I love looking at artwork too. I glanced through the deviations Ive missed just now and there are many I want to comment on

. Please be patient with me XD.

I cant wait until I have figured out how to manage my time best. Then I can come back. For now I must read 100 pages of text that are random and make no sense.

and

to you all!

Now for entertainment purposes:

I've been told many times I look like Winona Ryder. Odd.

To try yourself, go to [link]

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Maui Ahoy! http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/9891549/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/9891549/ Tue, 29 Aug 2006 01:48:35 PDT I will be back September 6th!

and

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 home again, home again http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/9775431/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/9775431/ Fri, 18 Aug 2006 19:23:57 PDT *hugs floor*

12,123 Pageviews

Hehehe that number makes me think of dancing...

Ummm I'll be off to Hawaii in 11 days

! That will be fun and relaxing. Yay.

Everything seems really nutty lately. It's strange. I feel like I'm watching life from far away.

<3

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 see you all in a bit http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/9636680/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/9636680/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 00:58:39 PDT .

I hope everyone is having a lovely summer. <3

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 ZERO! http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/9317505/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/9317505/ Sun, 09 Jul 2006 02:03:57 PDT Deviant *bubblegumcandy16 has no new messages

HAHAH TAKE THAT MESSAGE CENTER!

*looks at the clock*

2:01am! Oh noes hahaha. You win this time message center, you win this time.

I feel accomplished

! Now I'm going to go sleep!

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 YAY! Summer XD http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/9302685/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/9302685/ Fri, 07 Jul 2006 13:59:57 PDT hahaha. College doesn't start for me until mid-September, so I have a while left to do nothing.

Comic-con is coming up and I'm cosplaying. My costume is going to be awesome, as I will be Lulu from FFX. Of course my mom is helping me make the dress because she is a talented seamstress. You'll see lots of photos when we have completed the project. My mom is going as a cactuar hahahah.... crazy, crazy lady.

At the moment, I decided to start one of the hardest pictures ever to vexel. Or at least it is to me, because the girl has crazy curly pink hair and tattoos and piercings... oh my!

You might also see some photography from me soon. One of my friends (my first & favorite model, Molly) really wants to do a photoshoot. Hopefully we can come up with some awesome pictures.

Also, I'm determined to get my message center down to zero today, so don't be surprised if I comment on really old messages and deviations hahah. Please forgive me for not going through them earlier.

<3 and

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Graduation! http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/9110986/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/9110986/ Mon, 19 Jun 2006 00:29:56 PDT
I FINALLY GRADUATED! (on Friday)

I have very mixed emotions about this as I am extremely happy to be done with high school, but know a lot of people I will never see again. Thats the really tough part, saying good-bye. Im awful at keeping in touch too

. Thank goodness for facebook, most of my friends are signed up on it.

Gradnite was truly awesome. It included: a movie theater, arcade games (driving games, ddr, air hockey, foosball, etc.), a rock climbing wall, mechanical bull (I lasted 104 secs, go me!), game show stage, dance floor/DJ/band, gambling room, massage room, bouncy thing, spinning ride (kind of like teacups, only faster), an indoor shooting area (those soft balls and you shot them out of cannons at people), coffee cart, and tons of food. It was insanely fun! The decorations were good too. Unfortunately, since we werent allowed to leave until 5am, my sleeping schedule is really messed up lol, but was definitely worth it. I went to eat at Dennys with my mom after (and practically fell asleep on my waffle).

I havent really been working on anything lately

I need to get a job.

<3 and

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Prom 06 ^^ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8898527/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8898527/ Sun, 28 May 2006 03:34:15 PDT . I had a lot of fun. I went with Chris, who treated me like a princess haha. We matched and everyone thought it was really cute. Poor guy, me forcing him to wear pink hahaha XD. We ate italian food for dinner, which was yummy. After a ton of dancing, we went and got boba. Actually, the boba tea is probably why I can't sleep. Silly me... I feel like sharing photos:

Traditional pose (he looks like a chipmunk in this picture hehe)

hahah

Awkward "how the *&^$ does this thing work" moment

hahah

My dates cooler than you XP.

<3 and

to you allllll!

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 ...and now for some random facts http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8839546/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8839546/ Sun, 21 May 2006 21:54:04 PDT .

For now, I was tagged by

Rules:The first player of this 'game' starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names.Don't forget to leave a comment on their devpage commments and tell them to read yours.....

1.) I can roll my stomach
2.) I can rotate both of my arms 360 degrees
3.) I get my best cleaning done at 3am
4.) I'm double jointed in my hips, which makes me good at the limbo
5.) I prefer to be awake during the night and sleep late into the day
6.) I have an incredibly long tongue

I TAG EVERYONE THAT WATCHES ME MWAHAHAHAH! I'm too lazy to leave that many people messages on front pages though

and <3 to you all!

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 WEEEE! ^^ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8735825/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8735825/ Wed, 10 May 2006 23:42:22 PDT
is a Deviant of Many Talents
is Female
is a deviant since Jun 15, 2004, 11:41 AM
is subscribed until Apr 18, 2007, 10:14 AM
has 10,005 pageviews

O_O

WOW! I can't believe I have that many pageviews! I would never have dreamt it! And now 181 watches

!!!!1!!11! LOL

I really want to thank everyone for the support

. It's so amazing. ^^

And I placed third in the vexel contest! I get $10 for amazon.com

Weeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!

Oh!! And the new nintendo wii system rocks my socks.... <3

<3 and

to you all

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 yay for good weekends! http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8701723/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8701723/ Sun, 07 May 2006 14:37:50 PDT
First thing when I got home Friday, my mom hands me an envelope. Inside it says I am being awarded a scholarship which I earlier had to write an essay and be interviewed for. I was so surprised that they were impressed by me ^^.

Yesterday, I completed my vexel for a contest over at [link] I would really appreciate anyone who is a member of the site voting for my piece if they think it deserves to win

. It would mean a lot to me!

Then, I went to the school play with two of my best friends. It was really good. We talked for a while afterward.

Today I have been catching up on my message center and finishing yet another vexel for a collab.

<3 and

to you all!

HOORAY! I can feature again ^^

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 A Special Thank You <3 http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8663713/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8663713/ Wed, 03 May 2006 15:33:25 PDT
A few days later I was looking in my e-mail and saw one that DA had sent me. To my surprise

had bought me an entire year subscription O_O!

I wrote him a note thanking him and asking why he had done such a thing. Zucky responded by saying he thinks of himself as a patron of the arts. He likes to sponsor an artist about every month to support the community. He understood the days of being a starving artist. I thought that was such a wonderful thing for him to do!

Thank you so much Zucky

. You really made my day, week, year. Random acts of kindness are so nice.

and

to you all

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Tagged O_O http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8663605/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8663605/ Wed, 03 May 2006 15:21:19 PDT

...tagged me

!

Nine firsts
-first best friend: Betsy
-first imaginary friend: Betsy (I moved away and pretended she moved with me O_o)
-first pet's name: Tilly
-first piercing: ears
-first crush: Brian (kindergarten crush haha)
-first CD: Spice Girls
-first car: Haha I dont drive
-first school: Sunset Elementary
-first kiss: I dont kiss and tell hehe

Nine lasts
-last time you smoked: Im smoking hot everyday hahaha

(joooooking)
-last food you ate: soft serve
-last car ride: coming home from school
-last movie you watched: FFVII Advent Children
-last phone call: my mom haha
-last bubble bath you took: about a year ago
-last song you listened to: Breathe Me- Sia
-last fight: hmmm I cant remember, must be a few years ago

Eight have you ever...
Dated your best friend: no
Been arrested: no
Skinny Dipped: no
Been on TV: yes
Kissed someone and regretted it: no
Cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend: no
Been on a blind date: no
Been out of the country: nope

Seven things you are wearing...
-contacts
-hair tie
-pajama pants
-tank top
-underwear
-socks
-makeup

Six things you've done today...
1. Woke up
2. Took a shower
3. Ate breakfast
4. Rode in a car to the fairgrounds for AP test
5. Took AP Calculus AB test (4 hrs. >< so tired haha)
6. Ate lunch

Five favourite things
1. Sleeping
2. Eating
3. Breathing
4. People
5. Camera/Computer

Four people you trust the most
1. Sally
2. Alex
3. Mom
4. Brother

Three choices
1. I dont do drugs kiddies, they are bad for you
2. I chose to take an online class so I dont have class until 10am everyday
3. I like ice cream and eat it everyday

Two things you want to do before you die...
1. Graduate college and find a job that I love
2. Find true love

One person you want to see...
1. Everyone ahahahaha

And I tag:

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 What a long day... http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8504532/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8504532/ Mon, 17 Apr 2006 20:43:05 PDT . Go check them out to get a sneak peak on what I've been doing today

. <3

That's what I was doing to distract myself. Lots of family stuff. I'm very stressed out right now.

I miss my subscription lol. It made it so easy to look at people's deviations and comments. Now I'm getting lazy and my message center went from 0 to 104 in less than 2 days :\ hehe.

<3 and

to you all! ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Busy Busy Busy http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8376606/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8376606/ Wed, 05 Apr 2006 17:47:11 PDT . Inside I'm very excited March is over. It seemed as though it would never end.

Awwww! My subscription runs out tomorrow lol. I guess I had better reply to all my comments before it's no longer easy to.

Anyway, I have been so busy lately! Life just keeps getting more chaotic. I feel as though I am maturing mentally very fast from all of the stress. I still have a way to go though

.

I have numerous vexels started again. I get vexeling ADD and have to switch images a lot. I love vexeling skin and hair now that I am improving at it, so those are what I always start. I'm very detail oriented, so I tend to also vexel jewelry first.

The offer still stands for suggesting images for me to vexel

. I would love it! I'm always looking for fun images

.

<3 and

to you all ^^

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Thank you all so much ^^ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8151361/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8151361/ Mon, 13 Mar 2006 16:20:11 PST 8,500 pageviews and 160 watches! Holy jdhalusgruier!! Thank you all so much

! I can't believe the amount of support I've received lately. I would bake you all cakes if I had enough energy and money hahaha. Speaking of money, I'm so sadly broke -_-;

and

to you all!

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Yay... I have no attention span http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8087236/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/8087236/ Mon, 06 Mar 2006 18:50:30 PST !! I'm very surprised. Thank you so much

GO VISIT HER!

YAYY! Now I'm subscribed for another month ^^.

At the moment... I have about 3 vexels half done. Two more are about 80% done. I am having serious issues sticking to the same image hahaha.

The one I'm working on at the moment is another Ayumi Hamasaki image. Before you tell me I've already vexeled her and she is over vexeled blah blah blah... I'm doing it to compair with the one of her I did 5 months ago. It's not the same image, but it's close. I have a feeling it will turn out much better. I'm also trying a new technique for hair... we will see if it turns out well.

Ok so I personally LOVE watching peoples progressions on their pieces. It's quite entertaining. I was wondering if anyone watching me would be interested in me posting mine. I would put them in scraps as not to flood your image messages hahaha. That also means you all would have to watch my scraps O_o.

Errmmmm... yes.

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Four Day Weekend http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7943091/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7943091/ Sun, 19 Feb 2006 12:26:30 PST
At the moment Im making a scarf and Im super proud of it lol. *hugs yarn*

I got through all my comments, but I still have 687 favorites and watches to thank people for hahaha. O_o.

Thank you so much Emmy for the new icon ^^

and

to you all!

.

No features today because I'm really tired

. ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Card Tree http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7874920/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7874920/ Sun, 12 Feb 2006 15:04:19 PST . I'm super proud of

!

Go here: [link]

She made the card tree, in other words, she made a card to send in and get everyone that watched her a month subscription. It was so sweet!

I LOVE YOU MOM! <3 Hehe yes I'm a momma's girl

so deal with it!

<3 and

to you all!

Go check out these awesome pieces of artwork!

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 O_O MESSAGES ARE COMING OUT MY EARS... http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7822918/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7822918/ Mon, 06 Feb 2006 20:08:53 PST ... and it is rather painful

Just kidding ^^

Hahahah... 1250 new messages... what shall I ever do?! Thank you all so much

!!! I shall respond to them all as soon as I can. I might go crazy before I finish though ^^.

Did I do well on my calculus test today? Will I ever get through this massively huge amount of messages? Does the hair dye I used yesterday really make my hair glow under a blacklight?

Find the answers to these and many more questions... when I finally get my life back from makeup work -_-' hahaha.

O_O WOOWWW!! 122 people watch me now =O! That's a lot of pressure to make good pieces

. Hehe...

<3 and

to you all ^^

Go check out these awesome pieces of artwork!

Thank you Emmy for the thumbnail code ^^! ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Daily Deviation!!! http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7809124/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7809124/ Sun, 05 Feb 2006 12:45:40 PST ! hgdfhgfduiht

I can't type I'm all shaky.... hehehe

THANK YOU

!!!

I will try as hard as I can to answer the 119C and 492M ahahaha.... I have a huge calculus test tomorrow though, so it may take a while lol.

Eeeeeeeeeee! ^^

<3 AND

to you alll!!

*rides the natural high* XD ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 comments http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7773912/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7773912/ Wed, 01 Feb 2006 17:52:31 PST
<3

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Decisions http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7753497/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7753497/ Mon, 30 Jan 2006 16:30:29 PST
My friend said something to me the other day that meant more than he could ever know. It touched me so much I started crying. I couldnt stop, it was like he found my one weak point and jarred a stick in it. He told me that sometimes he thought I was the only reason he was still alive that sometimes he didnt want to live anymore, but then he thought of how his decision would affect me. Then the feelings would subside.

The decision to live is definitely a tough one, Im not going to lie. Life is harsh and unforgiving, but at the same time can be so beautiful. The next time you are trying to decide though, make sure you do what my friend did. Think it out, and dont deceive yourself. Final is final.

<3 I love you guys so much ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 I'm sorry guys... http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7680139/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7680139/ Sun, 22 Jan 2006 20:32:48 PST ~bubblegumcandy16 Any requests? http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7669215/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7669215/ Sat, 21 Jan 2006 17:44:16 PST
The only thing is, I can't promise I will vexel anything anyone puts a link for. The lighting has to be good enough, I won't vexel anything inappropriate, and the size has to be decent. I can't vexel small or pixelated images.... Ummm yeah.

Now that I sound like a picky, mean person lol.... anyone up for the challenge of finding me an image (or possibly just a specific person I can find an image of)?

And if I agree... remember that I am slow at making them, but I can show progressions. Mmmm that's all.

I hope everyone is doing well in this lovely New Year ^^.

<3

Someday I shall retake up photography... possibly when it is warm enough for my brain to work again. After all, I got an amazing waterproof case for my camera for Christmas ^^. That will be awesome for ocean pictures. ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 When I looked in the mirror today http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7597232/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7597232/ Fri, 13 Jan 2006 22:28:27 PST When I saw my reflection, that ghastly reflection
It was the first time in so long
And I was almost lost in my own face
No it couldnt be me, I was never so ashen

Was I?

(I've been very sick lately... to the point where I couldn't get out of bed) ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Isn't everything love and hate? http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7020499/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/7020499/ Fri, 11 Nov 2005 17:11:35 PST
I hate that I have a test on 50 pages of boring government. Not to mention the lovely study guide that goes with it.

I love crisp air that stings my lungs. It's a nice change from the heat that so prevalently exists where I live.

I hate seeing this one girls name everytime I grade papers in chemistry lab. It makes me worry about someone I know that has the same name. The name isn't even common.

I love listening to the same song over and over again when it fits my mood. It allows me to send my thoughts somewhere else and just space out to the lyrics.

I hate how unloyal people are to one another. It makes my stomach twist into knots when I have to listen to backstabbing, even when I don't know the people.

I feel random today... sorry. ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 20 things http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/6878077/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/6878077/ Wed, 26 Oct 2005 23:10:51 PDT
1.) My favorite genre of movies is romantic comedy. Anything that can make me feel all fuzzy inside and have me laughing at the same time is a good thing. Yay!

2.) I skipped pre-school as a child. Therefore I should be a junior in high school this year, but I am a senior. Thank god.

3.) I find it very, very hard to let people know things about me. Most people Ive known for years know very little about me. I have many secrets. This list of twenty things will probably take me a billion years to finish because of this.

4.) I laugh so much sometimes that people tease me and call me Sakura in my Japanese class. In Japan, a sakura is someone hired to laugh at comedy plays. They get the audience to start laughing. I also often laugh until I cry.

5.) I skipped third year Japanese and went to fourth. Man was that a crazy decision. Fourth year Japanese is crazy hard.

6.) I can roll my stomach. It both creeps people out and intrigues them.

7.) I get bored really easy, especially with my hair. I am continually coloring and cutting it. Right now it is a little too short, but I like the strange purple/pink/red color it is.

8.) I squeal very strangely when people pick me up and hug me, or squeeze my sides. It like tickles me kind of.

9.) When Im really stressed out or depressed I clean until I over exhaust myself. I organize every little corner of my room.

10.) Ive been writing poetry a lot lately. My brain is always really creative when Im upset. My best work has come from despair. I feel really emo for saying that.

11.) I am not emo, though I am often accused of it. Death Cab for Cutie is NOT emo. Shut up lol. Alright, they are but I looooove them anyways. They make me really happy.

12.) Ive sprained both my wrists twice, my back twice, my right knee once, and my left ankle twice. Yay for being clumsy!

13.) Most people say that dreams are short. However, when I explain mine it usually takes me 30 mins. So either my brain works really fast while Im sleeping or Im crappy at explaining them. They are so strange too!

14.) I love acting but I absolutely despise giving speeches. When Im acting, I completely forget about the audience and connect with my scene partner (or myself for a monologue lol). When giving a speech, you have to look into the audience and share your opinion-- two things that scare me.

15.) I can touch my tongue to my nose. Umm Im sure that will come in handy someday

hahaha.

16.) Im double jointed in my arms and hips. My arms allow me to turn them 360 degrees. Being double jointed in my hips makes me the limbo master

. Its like my hidden talent that really confuses people because Im not very athletic.

17.) I am in love with pilates and jogging. <3

18.) I used to be a vegetarian and I really dont like meat. I wouldnt eat meat still if being a vegetarian hadnt made me so sick all the time. Boo.

19.) I randomly have panic attacks when things go wrong and I cant breathe. Its not fun. My best friend thinks its hilarious. She just sits there and laughs while Im freaking out. How I love her

.

20.) I dont think I will ever have children. Im just not good with them. One time I signed up for study buddies and my little 2nd grader was EVIL!! She tried to stab my eyes with her pencil. When I asked her what two times two was she started screaming at the top of her lungs and wouldnt stop. Evil I tell you! Eviiillll!!! ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Thank you http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/6627872/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/6627872/ Wed, 28 Sep 2005 18:01:35 PDT I have 1000 pageviews. I know it's not that big, but to me that's quite a lot

hahaha. I'm making something for the occasion. It is making me remember why I'm such a bad artist-- I have no patience whatsoever hahaha. I'm like "BE DONE I DON'T WANT TO WORK ON YOU ANYMORE RAWR!" Yep. Hehe.

<3 to all my supporters

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 College http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/6082574/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/6082574/ Sat, 30 Jul 2005 22:04:14 PDT
<3 ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Promise http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5573153/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5573153/ Mon, 06 Jun 2005 18:33:20 PDT
I still love you all

!! Hahahah sorry for the neglect... ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Yay! http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5497917/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5497917/ Sun, 29 May 2005 23:31:13 PDT ! Hehe. That is so many O_o!! I really appreciate it!

So a couple days ago, I randomly was given a free 5 day trial subscription to DA. I didn't know that could happen. ^^ It's so nice!! I'm almost convinced to subscribe.

Hahaha now it's time to laugh at me. I think I broke my toe (no joke) on my tripod. I'm just so awesome like that. It was lying there in the floor and BAM! Full force.... It looks awful lol. I tried to convince myself I could walk it off because I had so much I wanted to do yesterday. That made it worse. But you can see all the photos I had fun taking at the beach hahaha. It was worth the pain? Hmmm...

School is almost over! Just another 3 weeks. I'm so excited. My summer is going to be awesome

.

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Eee! http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5480540/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5480540/ Fri, 27 May 2005 20:53:02 PDT almost have 500 pageviews! LOL. When I reach that many, I shall bake all of my da friends a cake... at which point I will proceed to eat them. I mean, you can't receive them anyways... ahahhaa. Except Aydin. You can come over and eat cake.

]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Summer is almost here http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5413629/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5413629/ Fri, 20 May 2005 16:19:48 PDT ~bubblegumcandy16 This place is strange http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5352516/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5352516/ Sat, 14 May 2005 00:12:36 PDT
And through the wonder, the biggest mystery is: who comes up with the alarming childrens games people play? Hang man for instance.

Today for the first time, in a very long time, I saw two girls playing it. Disturbing to say the least. Freakishly accepted and not even given a second thought. The premise, after all, is to stump your opponent so you can hang a man. The world gives me chills. Next we shall have shoot man, though Im not sure how that would work.

Please spin me until I forget or pass out.

It could be the sleep deprivation talking, but at the moment I rather fear people and what they slowly mold themselves into. Something terribly mutated from the beautiful innocence they were once given. I feel sick. Even of myself. ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Randomness http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5216250/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5216250/ Thu, 28 Apr 2005 19:50:08 PDT
My message center is finally empty. Yay. Now I must go work again. Boo.

I brought my camera to school today, but I wasn't too found of the pictures. There wasn't much to take photos of. Hmmm... ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 It seems I am lost http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5208022/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5208022/ Wed, 27 Apr 2005 21:20:14 PDT

It has been six months since you passed. In your absence, I have learned more about myself than I ever wanted to know. How I respond, what I cant handle, and how badly I deal with reality. Everything and anything seems to be coming out of the dark. Yet Im still very unattached to myself and others.

My warped path now bubbles with a singeing heat that distorts my vision. I still dont know how to respond to everything that has happened. The high temperature is constantly making me dizzy and sick. At times I get angry, but Im mostly lonely and depressed. They tell me to still be your friend, but I just cant comprehend what they mean. Why dont they speak with their heart? I want to make them understand and leave me alone. Dont waste your precious time on the confused and lost.

I dont believe that a minute has gone by without a thought passed your way. It eats a whole in my core, making me curl over with weakness. All of us. We just keep dragging on dazedly.

Six months of this mind numbing pain, and plenty more to come.
I really wish it would stop now.

Yet I still love you. RIP 11/12/88-10/27/04. ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Ahhh. http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5125296/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/5125296/ Mon, 18 Apr 2005 21:35:40 PDT ~bubblegumcandy16 Life is so chaotic! http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/4864074/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/4864074/ Sun, 20 Mar 2005 14:54:00 PST
In other news, I may be able to get a job as photographer for a magazine my friends mom is starting. Nothing is set in stone, but I have connections

so I'm hoping that will go well. I'm so excited to go to the launch party!

I have a ton of people who want to be my models, which is very exciting as well. My friends are seriously all gorgeous, so it will make an awesome portfolio.

Off I go to inhale the 9059058905 cookies my mom has been baking all day. I have no idea why she loves making desserts so much, but hey I'm not complaining hehe.

to you all! <3 ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Yellow Ribbon Week http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/4602298/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/4602298/ Wed, 16 Feb 2005 21:08:55 PST
Creeping from heart to heart
Transferring through gestures of love
Pleasantly warm and comforting
For even the most worn out soul

It starts as a small motion
But grows as it travels
It is not discriminatory
Nor is it biased

It is hope that I wish to pass on
To the weariest, struck by despair

Know that someone out there loves you <3 ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Another piece of random poetry http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/4557038/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/4557038/ Fri, 11 Feb 2005 19:14:05 PST
What could have happened here
Tears are forming paths to your feelings
That once hid so slyly beneath your skin

My heart burns with a cold fear--
For your future, your innocence
What will become of you

I want to hold you so close, so tight
So you can hear my every breath
Know you are still here, still loved

There is now a dark harshness to me
It shadows my soul, my existence
Call it a loss of innocence that took place

I wont let this transpire in your life
Ill shield you from the abusive world
Ill be the one to endure your beatings ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 Just for giggles http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/4491956/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/4491956/ Thu, 03 Feb 2005 20:03:38 PST
The only sum I want to hear is you plus me
I tremble when your heart beats parallel to mine
The sensation makes me dizzy, my thoughts forming circles
Being in your general area makes my cheeks glow

To what measure would I go for you?
I would fill even the smallest divide between us
The equation I ask you to ponder is this:
Will you multiply my bliss and be mine, Valentine? ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 la la la http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/4483415/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/4483415/ Wed, 02 Feb 2005 19:44:36 PST
Hastily open my distant mind
Peer in via those shiny coal eyes
I fathom I appear translucent to them
Omnipotent, spellbinding gaze

They gently graze my skin and heart
Oh, intangible and delightful bliss
They magnetically reel in my soul
Oh chaotic, malicious poisons

Strip me of my deficiencies and dignity
Everything uniform beneath your scope
One glance will bring me to the edge
Just one more connection

I notice your lips gently parting
Can you pass the salt? ]]> ~bubblegumcandy16 An incomplete thought I had one day... http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/4405111/ http://bubblegumcandy16.deviantart.com/journal/4405111/ Mon, 24 Jan 2005 17:40:49 PST ~bubblegumcandy16