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deviantART: by:burningrainbows http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:burningrainbows&section=today deviantART RSS for by:burningrainbows en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 11 Dec 2009 19:46:30 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/8548739/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/8548739/ Sat, 22 Apr 2006 08:18:48 PDT
Yes. ]]> ~burningrainbows Updated http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/8137472/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/8137472/ Sun, 12 Mar 2006 08:37:13 PST
In the near future I'm probably going to add my 1st sculpture, as all I have to do now is fire the glaze. ]]> ~burningrainbows Snow Day http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/7880581/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/7880581/ Mon, 13 Feb 2006 06:33:30 PST
I haven't developed my 3 rolls of film just yet because I want to finish the third one, but when I do, I'll post photographs from Toronto and the snowfall and stuff. This is the last time I am developing the bad kind of film.

I'm still working on my sculptures, and I did a vector (of my face, and it's up)

Ice keeps falling from the roof to my window ledge, making a big noise which really frightens me. We got our decent snow, it can be spring now, right?

Happy early St. Valentine's, for those who celebrate that. And thank you Awtics for showing my frog photograph in your journal.

So, yeah. Not too bad of times. ]]> ~burningrainbows End of semester one http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/7640569/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/7640569/ Wed, 18 Jan 2006 15:17:40 PST
I think in the future I want to buy film in bulk and roll it myself for economic purposes and self indulgence. I haven't decided on a good all-around black and white film yet, and I'm going to wait for a while.

I'm also in the process of creating a small series of forearm length abstract sculptures. They have very nice curves and if I have time I might upload a sketch of the first (and more complete one) into scraps. I'm probably going to glaze them a nice chunky blue/brown

I have one exam remaining, which is math. ]]> ~burningrainbows Back to School, 2006. http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/7500373/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/7500373/ Tue, 03 Jan 2006 15:30:24 PST
My website progress has been stalled until I learn css because I have extra margins popping out of nowhere.

My building skills. Sigh.

I hope my recent photos turned out nice, I liked using film.

As I wait for my demise, exams, I have new music. I are liek study good sumtiemes, yes. ]]> ~burningrainbows "Hollyday" http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/7423804/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/7423804/ Mon, 26 Dec 2005 15:36:19 PST edit:which is doesn't)

Christmas was lovely, I got some mind-games and lovely things. New Years is our big holiday though, so I'm looking forward to that. Our Christmas tree is one inch short of pathetic and a little lopsided from being knocked over by my brother who accidentally consumed alcohol on Christmas eve. Those two events are unrelated.

I cut down to the dozen best photographs.

One of them has legs with halloween fishnets, thus being pornographical, which is unsuitable for my site, says mother. Go figure. It was one of the best ones. This would be the slow and alarming progression towards conservative parenting. First the new web filter, then the leg-porn. I suppose its called getting older.

Merry Christmas.

Edit: I 'photocopied' (with my digital camera-copied) some of the photos, sorry about the dust, I hope you like them. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/7374867/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/7374867/ Wed, 21 Dec 2005 16:21:40 PST
My family is. ]]> ~burningrainbows To be a rock, and not to roll. http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6566167/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6566167/ Wed, 21 Sep 2005 17:47:56 PDT
(I might write a bit, so, um, don't read it all)

I think today just changed my life. (it involves four kids named sarah)

Because one of my friends is probably in the hospital right now,
Because I finished my sculpture,
Because somepeople I thought disliked me, are probably too nice-kid to show it.
Because I drew a breast on a shirt, which I was wearing, which wasn't mine.
Because I petted someone's highlights in their hair,
Because someone blushed,
Because I just talked to my neighbors for hours,

(christine, sarah, my neighbor, told me to tell you she's sorry about what she said when she yelled, because she remembers, and feels really bad about it.)

Because I took photos with my 1979 camera, and I focused.
Because I told everyone I would be right back, on the computer, and I wasn't.

I feel like I'm alive today. I've made new friends, I'm trying my best to understand things. When I laughed today, I knew why.

When I look at the people I'm talking with, I can look them in the eye, and I know why I'm talking to most of them. I feel free-er just because today, today a lot of things happened.

I feel selfish, but today was a day of mental indulgence. It was like finding a new personal label, which is like a led zeppelin song. I don't know who I am, but I know why I'm doing things. I know what I'm doing.

It's like a sculpture.

I'm going to light a candle today in my bathroom.

(the same one I lit at the end of summer, when I burnt tips of my rag bracelets)

I love you, Christine (please don't be angry she brought it up)

(grace, if you're reading this, there's this song that just came on, that i remember hearing on the cabin john newshow with you, and you said you liked it a lot.)

I wonder if we have a lighter somewhere, its tough to sneak matches into my bathroom

Whenever I finish my first roll of film, I'll put something up for you guys. I promise.

thank you so much, the people who are devwatching me

I haven't been very active, forgive me. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6486950/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6486950/ Mon, 12 Sep 2005 15:43:44 PDT
School hasn't been bad. It's mostly a routine thing, except I get to talk to the cool kids.

Been shooting around, and theres been some decent stuff. I guess it will go up sometime. I don't know. I want a new camera, mine is becoming more and more unsuitable.

I guess I've been listening to nice music, though I can't remember all the words.

Sometimes I wonder if I miss playing clarinet, but it just wouldn't be the same this year. Even though clarinets sound nice.

My oil got cancelled. Now I'm on something less interesting and cheaper.

But its been okay. ]]> ~burningrainbows Hi!school. http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6390142/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6390142/ Thu, 01 Sep 2005 17:19:01 PDT Its from that book about the girl who got raped with leaves and a face on the cover.

Christine, the CD rocks

Shine on you crazy diamond.

I just found a crumpled paper with a drawing of a chupacabra. And it's Nathan's birthday, on Saturday.

And we'll bask in the shadows of yesterday's triumph, sail on the steel breeze
Come on you boy child, you winner and loser, come on you miner for truth and delusion, and shine ]]> ~burningrainbows School http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6345109/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6345109/ Sat, 27 Aug 2005 18:56:59 PDT
1st HFrench3
2nd HChem
3rd Studio ArtII
4th Alg2w/a
5th lalalaLunch
6th HUshist
7th Gym
8th HEng

And after we can walk home together.

Sway. ]]> ~burningrainbows end of summer, cheers. http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6263118/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6263118/ Thu, 18 Aug 2005 15:28:43 PDT thank you deviantart people for commenting on my stuff, watching me, and stuff. You guys are wonderful. I've been on deviant for about half a year now and I've never felt more respected.

Now, the not-so-lovely news is that my parents don't want me commenting or posting journal entries much anymore. They say its dangerous and some child-rapist might get me. Possible? yes. Probable? No. Whatever, I would rant about them some, but I guess I should get used to it. This doesn't mean you will never ever have me comment on your stuff again, it just means I won't be able to so much anymore. (but this doesn't apply to people the few deviants I know in real life)

Also, since I'm going into freshman year in highschool, my grades are really going to count for stuff. And that means my internet times will be rescricted, seriously. As such:

Weekdays: 5pm-9pm
Weekends: 11am-1am, 7pm-9pm

The internet will cut off after these times, so sneakiness won't get me anywhere. I suppose thats plenty time on the net, and with it cutting off, I won't be temped to live on the computer like I usually do.

This year I'm taking oil painting at the Corcoran: [link]

And I'm trying to transfer into an art class at my highschool right now, but I have to show some artwork and an appeal letter, because I want to skip a few art classes. I selected 12 of my deviantart photographs from this summer, if you want to know which, there is a collection sheet in scraps: [link] (edit: the head of department recommended me into studio art, and I think I'm in, as the only freshman)

School starts in eleven days from today, and I'm going to highschool.

Also, I would like to thank my boyfriend who has made this summer highly unusual and quite lovely.

Do you believe in Rock n' Roll,
Can music save your mortal soul?
And can you teach me how to dance real slow?

CTY 2005, SMCM

So anyway, cheers to my friends and to the new school year. I love you. ]]> ~burningrainbows Stairway to Heaven http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6207592/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6207592/ Fri, 12 Aug 2005 12:59:54 PDT The tune will come to you at last
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll
Woe oh oh oh oh oh
And she's buying a stairway to heaven

Going to the beach with leah. Will be back tuesday, maybe monday. Call if you know my cell, if you want.

Many hugs, but no kisses. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6186700/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6186700/ Wed, 10 Aug 2005 09:54:14 PDT

]]> ~burningrainbows Back, but not here http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6157129/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/6157129/ Sun, 07 Aug 2005 08:33:06 PDT
I'm back from camp. It was lovely. I failed chem and blew up hydrogen and gummies.

I also... don't feel like commenting and looking at stuff. I'm sorry, but I'm going to take a break.

I'm sorry.

love you

(I have photos I might put up, sometime) ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5941602/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5941602/ Fri, 15 Jul 2005 11:00:36 PDT â¥ â¥ â¥
My mouth is full,

Listening to: The Aracde Fire

I decided to more or less give up on cramming for chemistry. It's not as if I'm going to actually learn much.

So, lets see. I'm leaving sunday, but tomorrow I'm going to the National Museum of Art. And it will probably be jammed with people. But I don't care, I miss that place. Thats where I saw the original solaris and french films, with yellow subtitles

I'll take pictures where I can, which would include the fountains. So, you'll see those. My subcription ends tomorrow (morning), and I have to say, I like not seeing the suicidegirls and viagra ads.

I also like being able to put lyrics up as head-and-footers. I â¥ the arcade fire.

The weather is humid, and running in it is hell, but my times are getting better. I really have to pack now, and maybe another ice cold shower.

lovers need lawyers, thats a fun thing to type. And another thing, animal crackers are the love, especially when you sort them by animal.

wish me luck for cty, and if you want to know my cell phone, they have phone jacks at st. mary's but you need to bring you own phone (wtf), note/call/IM me and I'll share it. I don't know how they are about computers, but in anycase, I'll be on again around august, august fifth at the very latest. (remember to remember me, standing still in your past, floating fast like a hummingbird)

Maybe I'll crack down on the italics and â¥'s because I'll be eversomuchmore matoor

My heart is an apple...
â¥ â¥ â¥

]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5923965/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5923965/ Wed, 13 Jul 2005 14:04:01 PDT oh oh
I'll always be there when you wake

Listening to: No Rain, Blind Melon
Reading: The Hitchhikers Guide

dude, try this:[link] ... (its a random deviant)

My subscription is ending again, so I'm doing a lot of commenting and browsing.

And learning a lot of chemistry (trying to learn a bit of it with schaum) CTYers, pack a hamper they don't tell you to in the packet. I went to ssl again today, and christine looked like she was sleeping.

Is it the middle of the week? tell me it is.

You know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today ]]> ~burningrainbows Also. http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5906955/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5906955/ Mon, 11 Jul 2005 17:55:33 PDT spaceboy I've missed you, spinning round my head.

Listening to: Spaceboy, Smashing Pumpkins
Reading: Snow Falling on Ceders
Watching: War of the Worlds

It's been a day, and I feel lonely. At community service, there was a guy in a yellow shirt. He was slightly amusing, but he did outdo himself, so christine thinks he's weird. And so were the notebooks. "what was the name of that guy in our arts class, that left in january?"

I also spilled alot of glue, and we certainly did not do much. I put up two photos, and I don't feel like thumbing out for them, so, whatever. Its almost camp time (die-die-die, live-live-live..)

I'm also a very irresponsible child. I forgot to turn on my phone yesterday, and I didn't answer it today. And I'm not grounded or inter-banned, which is a surprise to me. It's summer, and I'm a carefree little teenager splashing about in the pool and getting ugly tan lines.

I got an Urbanoutfitters cataloge in the mail today, and it was full of beautiful people and pretty shirts and quilts. I wish I was urban, and I'd love to see a suburban outfitters. (full of polos, ribbons, khaki, and pineapples, and preps)

I miss alot of people.

(I said I alot, but i guess thatsbecauseitsmyjournal, and I have alot to say

Also

...Any way you choose me you'll break instead. ]]> ~burningrainbows My New Subscription http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5884402/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5884402/ Sat, 09 Jul 2005 09:13:03 PDT
Listening to: Angel, Aerosmith
Reading: Snow Falling on Ceders

Hey look, I have a subscription, again?

Haha, whatever deviant. And look I have an asterix before my username, so, yay.

It's another week one, and I'm leaving in a week. So, it all works out. I'm doing SSL with Christine next week, so I won't live on deviant like I did this week, but I'm gonna take photos.

And wait, now that I have a subscription I can thumb, lets try it. Ok.

Isn't that cool? let's hope it worked. Ok. So, today I gotta get ready for camp with my mom, and get a chemistry summery book. So excited, no. And, I gotta call jessie, remember that vera.

Summer is fun. And I have pictures from the Pool I wanna sort though.

byebye, footer. ]]> ~burningrainbows updates, photos, STOP! http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5874316/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5874316/ Fri, 08 Jul 2005 06:12:10 PDT
Seeing long lists of deviations that popped out in one night can be annoying, I know. So, I'm sorry and I can almost promise that the after the five,(or so, probably a bit more) I submit today will be the last in mass-batch form. Just ignore them if you must.

And another thing, I learned a new trick for seeing your and other peoples deviations when the server lags. Go to their gallery, and guess which category the new art is in (photography

) select that category in the drop down menu, make sure its sorting by 'Newest first' and click the button. New deviations should appear, because I'm magical.

So yeah, sorry.

And thanks for all the comments, support, and everything

(I'm feeling so inspired right now, thanks deviant

)

(erm, forget whatever I said about 5 photos for today, then. I just keep finding good ones) ]]> ~burningrainbows Remember to remember me? http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5849667/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5849667/ Tue, 05 Jul 2005 17:41:19 PDT
I don't feel like writing, and when I did, it was on the plane. I wrote some junk on a bright orange napkin. And, I'm rather busy reading up on chemistry, because apprently theres a placement test on the first day iof camp, and I'm far from chemtastic. Actually, I don't know a thing about it, and all the nerds worth spending three weeks of class do.

So, catch me online, sometime (and Christine, check your notes, please?) ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5683359/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5683359/ Sat, 18 Jun 2005 07:02:38 PDT for now

Yes, I'm leaving for Russia, for vacation. Like I said, I'll be back in two weeks (2 french vacation weeks, because I'm really going to lose a day) on June 2nd, and I'll be living around Moscow, on the river, 2 hours north. And yes, I'll be living in our 'dacha' with my grandparents, cousins, and family.

And then, in one day less than a month from now I'm off to St. Mary's nerd camp avec Nathan. I'll be learning all about beloved chemistry (no, not like that, and yes, i cannot contain my sarcasm)

I put some stuff up yesterday, (I'm so cool because I can't thumb) and I'm bringing the camera to Russia (in hopes of shooting both in the city and the country) I'm going to miss my Deviant interaction, as well as my non-Deviant friendlies. Have fun, and I'll communicate with you later on.

(600

thank you all)

But you've got too much to wear on your sleeves
It has too much to do with me
And secretly I want to bury in the yard
The grey remains of a friendship scarred ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5650031/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5650031/ Tue, 14 Jun 2005 19:53:57 PDT ornotreally-because its only split schools. So I guess, whatever.

I suppose I'll never walk down the hallways as a student of my middle school, and I'll try and remember those and all the little things that probably don't belong in my "journal" to begin with.

And yesterday I opened my 6th grade time capsule, and had an emotional attack which was crying and laughing at the same time, I think. [link]

the better part of it, anyway. Pardon the stupidness, it was a long time ago. I'm not making a list of people who I'll miss, it's too hard. I'm scared i'm gonna forget someone, I'm not sure who to not put in, and there are a few names I don't want to put down because I feel like a big peice of my existance is tearing off and being dragged to RM, Wootton, and Blair. (great, there is a big lump in my throat, you are welcome)

And for the biggest reason of all: I am so in denial

But, I suppose its just the way life works and all my sentimental observations and dramatics are getting us nowhere. So lets talk about this summer.

TomorrowI'm going to highschool for orientation. Saturday (june 18th)I'm leaving for summer vacation in the outskirts of moscow (for the 6th time, I believe.)(june 17th is ironically our 10 year anniversary in the USA). So I get back on July 2nd.On July17th I leave for nerd (highschool chem @ cty-st.mary's) camp and from that I get back on August 5th. Highschool starts on the 29th (or the 28th?)

All the free time I have.... I'll do something. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5602112/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5602112/ Thu, 09 Jun 2005 17:56:31 PDT just pictures of
themselves
Poor quality, cliched pictures, mind you.

Just their little angsty faces and bodies, over and over. And their silly eyeliners and whatnot. whats not to like?

School is ending. School is ending very fast

And though the fun has past
those mythic dreams would never last
have no fear anymore
and if it makes you cry
to look ahead, well dry your eyes,
it can be done
yes it can be done.

I cried at the end of band class today, I confess. 3 years of stress and chair competition paid off, I suppose. It must have been the music.

And then I slept with my french book, and now have a lovely imprint of its corner on my beautiful visage

One more exam. ]]> ~burningrainbows Chin up. http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5589412/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5589412/ Wed, 08 Jun 2005 13:15:26 PDT cause there's nothing good to remember
I stopped loving you years ago, but lately, that's how it goes
"they gave up" get over yourselves, "they gave up"
"they gave up" get over yourselves, get over yourselves
they try to pick you up, but you keep getting stuck
but chin up it's getting better at least you're not starving
chin up, it's getting better so quit complaining

......
It's almost summer. I smelt it in the hallways today. Its the smell of light sweat, AC, sunlight, and the smell of old paper and paint.

There this one particular hallway I love. Its upstiars, the walls are blue, and there are windows on the side. Sometimes if smells like food there, and the sun shines through on the way to lunch.

I took my math and english exams. And I forgot a lunch. ]]> ~burningrainbows Name me. http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5580557/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5580557/ Tue, 07 Jun 2005 14:33:37 PDT
Allow me to hassle you a bit. Buy this! Learn this! Call me! Lets go on a date! Lets make out in front of a billion people so we can be cool kids!

And so on.

No. flip you.

Nothing much happened today. So, allow me to change the song. [link]

ignore the next few lines

Argh. make school end. So i'll cry a bit over my yearbook, but all the drama

Just let your cliques get broken up by time, and get over your teenage angsty loverly selves.

so it goes. :dieplz:

And i am so sorry for not clicking the minor edit button. forgive me! i was trying out html codes, but they don't work here, eh? ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5570916/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5570916/ Mon, 06 Jun 2005 14:48:34 PDT Kid2: YOUR MOM AHAHAHAAHAHAH

Kid1: Stop being so loud
Kid2: your mom was loud last night!!! OHHH!! AHAHAH!!!!

reviewing. (your mom. oohhh.)

I got attacked by a dead chicken in a container today. Now i have a purple toe. Shes so... heavyyyyyyyyyyyyy-yyyyyyyyyyyyy

[I FOUND THE LINK TO THE REVIEW PACKET, ANSWERS.]

OWNED 1 n3v3r u53 h4ck3rsp33k, th3r3f0r3 1 n3v3r u53 pwn

forget how you feel.

Ti-am dat beep, si sunt voinic,
Dar sa stii nu-ti cer nimic. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5512839/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5512839/ Tue, 31 May 2005 15:03:47 PDT
I feel older. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5467788/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5467788/ Thu, 26 May 2005 13:07:47 PDT
do you see a yellow banner on my page? It's like, yellow and it says 'be generous'?

I just noticed it today, what is it? and how do I get it off? I'm not sure I want it there, I know I know, I just don't want it.

Whatever.

Oh make it go away.

Anyway, I think I want to make another photo set with yellow things, because, I don't use yellow that often and I wanna try it out. So, when you see yellow, you'll know

Thats actually quite funny. Yellow. I might not go to school tomorrow, I mean there isn't anything for me to do. Just watch movies with my class and the math C kids. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5440079/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5440079/ Mon, 23 May 2005 15:30:41 PDT From the slippery subway grate.
Oh how you laughed
At my complete lack of grace.
But I could not recall
A more perfect fall
Cause when I looked up into your eyes
It didn't hurt at all.

Going outside to shoot some picutres. Finally.

It rained today. I was out there when it started, looking at the sky.

It was nice.

HSA on Wednesday, Geometry. Atleast I won't have to take it in 9th grade.

8th grader, shut up you. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5424360/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5424360/ Sat, 21 May 2005 20:48:45 PDT
Okay. So, four deviations. I was really bored and avoiding studing for my exams. And stuff. Oh god. Exams.

And, not to complain, but Dev is really spazzing. Things I put up four hours ago just showed up in my gallery.

But hey at least they /did/ show up. If deviantart comes down for a few days I am going to die

save the servers. Well I won't die. I might study for my HSA, for once. Maybe I need to shut of the internet?

I wish Sarah would join Deviantart...

Good night people. Still waiting for my salle de bain to show up... ]]> ~burningrainbows GIMP http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5414254/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5414254/ Fri, 20 May 2005 17:41:46 PDT
First go here:

[link] and read:

so in short, first you have to dowload the enviorment, then you download GIMP.

then click download. I live in the US, so I used the ARIZONA provider. brilliant.

GTK env: [link]

Gimp-2.2.7: [link]

then try running gimp. its all pretty automatic, so it won't be hard.

This is a free program. open source and first created for LINUX. you an read the FAQ if this fails: [link]

and the home website, if you want: [link] ]]> ~burningrainbows 199 http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5395070/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5395070/ Wed, 18 May 2005 18:47:37 PDT
I raise my [nonalcoholic] glass to whoever gets my 200th one.

lmao. I think I left happy comments today, more or less.

I think I was happy today, more or less. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5373190/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5373190/ Mon, 16 May 2005 12:09:00 PDT
one for every day of the year. thanks a bunch. you guys are awesome.

yayness people. happy vera. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5314751/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5314751/ Mon, 09 May 2005 19:35:05 PDT We both go down together

Tomorrow looks like crap. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5291727/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5291727/ Sat, 07 May 2005 08:33:35 PDT
my parents are in a squabble. my dad doesn't want to go at all, and my mom wants to go but its frightened by all the things we have to set in order to get there. My brother will be like, 1 year and a month old by the end of June. We need a nanny. My dad doesn't trust Russia anymore.

No one listens to my arguments. In Russia I am some sort of preteenager, who isnt Russian and isnt compleatly American either. They all want me to grow up to be a Russian. They keep pestering me about where do I like it better. Ok. I like it better here. I like it better here becuase no one treats me like an alien. execpt those weird cold war men. Dammit I don't want to go there. I want to spend my summer in some more interesting place, other than like, our dacha. We practically never ever go to moscow, and I feel weird in Moscow too.

Oh i sound like a spoild child. But I just don't.. don't want to see them.. don't want to talk with them.. they never did anything horrible to me.. but they.. they think I'm somthing different.

I wish I could say... Dasvidanya Moskva..

And go to Paris instead. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5275042/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5275042/ Thu, 05 May 2005 13:34:41 PDT [link]

listen to it, lover.

God that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said "yes I think we've met before"
In that instant it started to pour

Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of that time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5258821/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5258821/ Tue, 03 May 2005 17:58:15 PDT
~special mentions~
'Fig': for being such a good drawer, and being quiet and listening and having the cutest smile. Fig for letting elise borrow her sweatshirt. Fig looks like such an artist.

'Urchin-a': for letting me call her urchin-a, for liking the beatles and writing on her hand. Urchin for playing along for the stupid jokes and looking utterly creeped by mr. blue. Urchin is a good waltzer.. with a broom..

Elise: Just for being utterly insane and annoying mr. papa into submission and makings his girlfriend and her funkey friend hate us. That was funny. Elsie for all her crazy shirts.. and green hair and eric pompay. hitting elise in the face is fun

Carrrrroooolinaaa: Carolina was my art friend for the whole year. I am gonna miss you insanely. It was fun looking through galleries with carolina. And being semi-normal in her presence. lol. Is this french 1A??

Aberham: Another person i knew for a whole year. Hm, it was fun being in art with you. Even though you kept looking at everyone freakily and running away from class at all possible moments

Jillian: jillian is my quaker girl! lol and a quaker is not amish, and it not a shaker, and bears no relation to the quaker oats freak. I know. It was fun listening to you talk about homeschooling and amishness. And you love the beatles too. So yay for you. I'll miss you and your legwarmers and golfclubbing gesture drawings.

Mr papa, his girlfriend, and his girlfriends friend with a booming laugh: um. Ok i bet teaching us was funny. Ok so we weren't really focused and we basically got the whole mr. papa is a great teacher and you guys are just fooling around like little monkies trend. but we did learn something. so dont evil eye me... And it was really funny writing those teacher recommendation papers. heheheh. you should have read them. Heh.

you're late richie....
Words are flying out like
endless rain into a paper cup
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting thorough my open mind.......

Big day tomorrow: state festival.wish us luck. we must kick butt. As well as my french test (sigh) at least i get to miss school ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5248010/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5248010/ Mon, 02 May 2005 14:56:46 PDT
I honestly wish christine would magically become my neighbor. go look at eyesofhell's gallery and tell me whats in it. ok jk. jk jk. don't kill me, dear.

*sigh* I wish school would just get itself over. even though i will miss my friends so so insanly much. and i can see it coming.

aw man highschool sounds dreadful. I wish I had gotten into RM, and i wish i wasn't so stupid. argh. It is so annoying.

But I'm gonna take photography next year so i can get more 'phissional

that is, if i have time with all my 'classes'. oh please. I need a decent GPA too.

This is why I really don't like myself so much. How can I accuse justin of being a worryworth when I am one as well. I worry about everything becuase I feel like I have to. Its the way I was raised i guess. oh there I go blaming other people.

I might be a total hypocrite. I might be a total poser. I might never get into my dream collage and will wind up going to the university of nebraska or something. or montgomery collage. I might totally screw up and become a secretary. If I keep living in lala land i might as well give up going to collage at all. I can just throw my credits out the window.

People ae yelling at me all the time. chiefly my mom. Its going to my head. oh there i go again. I am so totally stuck inside my head. Do i bother everyone else like i bother myself? tell me honestly, am I like this all the time? I am so fucking sorry. I'm sorry for being annoying. the chris muckp. I am sorry for the becca fuckup and not supporting my friends. I am sorry about putting me ahead of of people. for being a total stuck up bitch. For being shallow.

Maybe its just today. Maybe its just me. tell me its ok. I can't stand it and i don't even know why.

Its not like anything is really wrong... ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5239771/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5239771/ Sun, 01 May 2005 16:00:17 PDT
ok not true, on saturday I got jeans which i plan to cut and destroy, and did homework, and stuff...

today I went to johnny's birthday party at shadowland and played lastertag with jessica and johnnys little friend people. lasertag is fun. I mean its stupid and junk but still. lol. shooting people in the foggy darkness. wheeeee

argh i just wrote a long paragraph about how bitchy and neurotic my mom is, but it deleated itself. its ok, you don't want to hear it anyway.

Then after the party me and jessica and lily hung out for a while, then grace called home, and my dad got all pissed off like omg vera you are so lazy and need to do more work and stuff. and she really just called for no apperent reason so its not like.. anyway... so I'm in big trouble now.. for some reason.. its kindof funny. Or not.

I think people need to just chill. Life is too stressful now. All this business about school and GPAs and jobs and money. bloody capitalists. *sigh* It really does things to the population. We need to slow down and think.

sensit ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5204035/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5204035/ Wed, 27 Apr 2005 13:23:37 PDT
I have no social life. This is why I take photos of still lives. I am sad.

But still lives aren't bad. I just wish I could photogaph some more real /people/. School was a bore. Art was kindof fun. I guess. *twitch* art people. shake head

*sigh* school is so boring. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5185454/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5185454/ Mon, 25 Apr 2005 12:25:39 PDT
haha poor jewish people. no bread for you. lol.

okey day at school. boring as hell. boring as usual. ]]> ~burningrainbows monkey. http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5177856/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5177856/ Sun, 24 Apr 2005 16:25:43 PDT
Its name is ashlee and its fucking gay. a gay monkey. Leah made a gay monkey. leah needs to come out of the closet. poor monkey.

Not that i have anything against gay people, and gay monkeys.

I trimmed bushes today. It was very satisfying. I bet one day Bush will ban bush trimming. Or the CIA will get me.

DEAR CIA... I LIVE IN POTOFMAC, I GO TO CABIN JACK, IM A MEMBER OF THE RUSSIAN MAFIA, AND I LIKE PREZELS. COME GET ME.

oye. I'm so fucking bored. I hate sundays

Why am i so disturbed by nick and may smoking pot? Could it be because I was friendly at some point or another with both of them? Then had messy breakoffs with them? Two people who caused me emotional pain, tensions, stress, anger, and rants like this one?

seeing them together? One part of my head says they deserve each other, but the other hates seeing the two of them flirting and talking. Remebers when I was in her place, and what I was replaced by. Remembering nick and then remembering may, and not as a figure of blame, but as a person who changed and fell and is now wasted. How foolish I am. What a genuine waste of emotion. Why?

Why did I even dip into those people? They aren't interesting, they aren't talented. They don't care about me. They live on the surface, and see life as a movie where are they the tragic protagonist while everone conspires against them. The act is childish, that the artists wear too much makeup and the set is tense.

I am reliving the utter stupidity of my shining moments. I imagine them talking about me. What a miserable fake loserific bitch I must be to them. They must plan to make my life hell. They want to gang up on me.

All I want is to forget them. Have them forget me. Lets just be strangers. Why can't they?

I remember that last time when nick was yelling at me over aim. Telling me I dont know who he is. Telling me I dont understand. And me. pitiful me. pleading for him to leave me alone. Not being able to say anything coherent in my defenses. Leave me be. Stop talking to me.

And may. What she did to us without doing anything direct. Noxious layers of hate and guilt. a nightmare of last year. How it was a war between friends. And how I never said my last words. How I can't cover it up. And how she looks at me in class. Who am I in her eyes? I don't care. I bearly remeber what happened and what I was dreading. I remember may in her big black baggy pants. May is fat now. And the way she walks. On the balls of her toes. Lurching foward, determined, and yet comical and pathetic. Her eyes and the sound of her voice. May is all rolled thick in hate and dread. Her confronting me. Her daring me with nick. And them smoking pot.

Pot, the oblivion. Pot the way out. Pot and its profound high. Things that are no touchie. No touchie by law and no touchie by ME.

Oh the sickness of it all. I just want to forget it. I don't want to hate. Hate and hate and hate. I want a peacetalk. Or I'd rather walk on the thin ice, and pray May will be transferred. Nick is going to another highschool. I won't have to look at them ever again. And I will not let them ruin my year. I won't.

I will not let them crush my life. And I will not let their shadows affect my reasoning. I will be strong. And i am not a pawn of fear.

I just hope it will end so we can all live in peace. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5165023/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5165023/ Sat, 23 Apr 2005 07:26:07 PDT running over the same old ground. What have we found?
The same old fears,
wish you were here.

-Pink Floyd

I have some stuff thats almost ready for me to put up but ill probably do that on Monday or something.

Passover weekend means no homework for vera. so bored. Don't know what I am gonna do. Call me if you know the numbers. etctc. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5158108/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5158108/ Fri, 22 Apr 2005 12:41:17 PDT
Me: ok. we live in potofmac, and we go to cabinjack.

Oh nick I am so fucking glad I HATE YOU.

You go hang out with may, and you guys can smoke weed and do drugs as much as you want. Run from your problems as much as you wish, lemme tell you boy, you have so many. And you know what? I /Don't/ Care.

13 year old who smoke weed? no way. It's so, demented.

Oh may. you too. have fun. Ugh. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5149311/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5149311/ Thu, 21 Apr 2005 14:12:22 PDT ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5140957/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5140957/ Wed, 20 Apr 2005 16:52:51 PDT
so what is love?
and who am I,
to dare to pull stars from your favorite sky....

It's spring, isn't it? Somehow I was expecting more.

Not to say I'm ungrateful. Ok maybe just a little. But I'm trying to be hapy and not talk of nonexistant miseries, which must be a sign of.. betterness. no?

*sigh* I wish I wasn't grounded. I'm always grounded. Its almost a vague.. groundedness when I know If i try to go outside I will be scorned by my neighbors and parents. Or maybe I'm just making it up. I have no life. Children, please find something to do.

I felt more in place at art class, I feel more in place at school.

I have a terribe headache too. And this one is actually physical pain. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5132688/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5132688/ Tue, 19 Apr 2005 18:22:00 PDT ~burningrainbows monday monday http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5120833/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5120833/ Mon, 18 Apr 2005 13:13:31 PDT
so today was monday. we changed seats in math and we actually got to choose them. wow. oh the freedoms.

Is amazed. I locked myself out of my locker this weekend. so I had to borrow someone elses.

But its all good now. WHEEEEEEEEEE *spaz*

Dear Kibbie,
bring me the CD or i will stab your eyes out with a french-fry. And don't even THINK of getting it on.. with my.. sister... who doesnt exist. you hobosexual. bwabwa. ok.

your lord and master,
foa-VERA

1010101010

so. I had a dream that my french sub was my swimming coach. and she kept my head underwater.. and i couldnt breathe. and the showers had blood instead of water. and it really scared me. blood. I really hate blood. all that blood. *shudder*

And so we acted out 12 stupid men. and it was angry. yes.

ok. and what else? we are drawing bob in frenchhhhhhhh oh bob! booooooob! *says bob with a french accent* bob bob. ]]> ~burningrainbows bored http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5110660/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5110660/ Sun, 17 Apr 2005 10:18:57 PDT It was my doom.
This ryming must stop
or some knives will go chop.
This is quite lame
a waste and some shame.
how sad.
this is so not rad.

okeyyy so anyway. I am so bored. ]]> ~burningrainbows back http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5105969/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5105969/ Sat, 16 Apr 2005 18:21:46 PDT
We were snannering at chipotle,
there were chips, alotly.
And guacamole green,
was a sight to be seen.
Georegetown was great,
But we got home quite late.
My skirt is fun.
Our trip is done.
Uniquer people could not be found,
The Bumpersticker is on my binder bound.
I regret alot,
That my camera was forgot.
The flowers where quite nice.
We jaywalked thrice.

lmao ]]> ~burningrainbows georgie porgie http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5102225/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5102225/ Sat, 16 Apr 2005 09:17:32 PDT
I hope I find something worth taking a picutre of, there is nothing in this suberbia other than trees and flowers.

oh the city. Can't wait till two. ]]> ~burningrainbows photo http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5098060/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5098060/ Fri, 15 Apr 2005 18:49:24 PDT
I'm coming down with a fever
I'm really out to sea
This kettle is boiling over
I think I'm a banana tree
Oh dear, I'm going slightly mad
I'm going slightly mad
It finally happened, happened
It finally happened
It finally happened I'm slightly maaaaaaad

oh queen you. lol. Bored Friday night. Going to georgie-porgie-townie tomorrow with my hellisheyes and ill shove her our the window ** heehee chris..tine..

I'll start acting nicer when you start acting smarter, dears. oh. fine. just kidding. I'll ignore you and glare until you start acting smarter. ]]> ~burningrainbows heh http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5087458/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5087458/ Thu, 14 Apr 2005 13:47:36 PDT
Hello all. this is the third journal entry I have written but they keep timing out and now showing up. so. I'm pissed off.

Actually I'm not because computer messups are a very small thing in my expanse of wasted life. They don't really matter.

I wish things were differnt. Its amazing. Oh how I wish the people I knew were smarter and less ignorant. I wish I could just float. And honestly. I wish people were more secure. If they were more secure then they wouldn't harass others. They wouldn't compete for things like money and power. They wouldn't yell and slam doors. If life wasn't so fragile. If my own securtiy was stable.

I know. I'm being an ungrateful bitch. But yet. Still. Its spring. I'll go outside and pretend I'm imaginary. Music should be free. Life should be free.

Why do we keep blaming ourselves for not being as good as the ideal? Why wont our tree bloom already. Lets not talk about clothing lines and prada bags. Lets not talk about or miseries

Since I wrote this am I the culprit
These useless wisdoms I dispense
At your expense
Picture postcards
A three minute essay
Some scribbled words to four line verse

Meanwhile, we mean well
We cannot escalate or escape this
So let's pretend our little songs are more than songs
More like sermons

Attention, attention
That's all we're asking for
Our little songs are our little whores
Jukebox cupids -- and the medium's a trend
The music lends itself to it -- to itself
The lyrics bend to make the song

Attention, attention
Don't tell me that's all we're writing for
Picture postcards
Three minute essays
We can never fit in what we want to say

Oh how I love that song. I'm so upset for no reason. It just its all wrong. Our school locks the doors to the courtyard and pulls the blinds down. We can't have class outside and no one ever holds protests. Why. Oh how I despise you Becca. Do you take pleasure in harrasing my only true friend? fuck you. fuck you.

*sigh* emoemoemoemo. opressed for years and just realized there seems to be air outside my fishtank. tictoctictoc. one less second to live. All the ugly answers.

My poor scrambled head. All that goes though is woe is me. No. I will not listent to myself.

Maybe this is why all the beatles took drugs... So my day. I had a dream I was in a video game where I had to collect rings and jump on hurricanes. It was an old arcade game. Then there was a trial. He was guilty. I wore a toga. nothing much happened today. I just cover myself up with talk-to friends I WISH were real. but aren't.

*please dont time out on me*

heres to everyone I love. ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5040678/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5040678/ Sat, 09 Apr 2005 07:28:02 PDT
"Does it mean this, does it mean that, that's all anybody wants to know. Fuck them, darling. I say what any decent poet would say if you dared ask him to analyse his work: If you see it, dear, then it's there."

- Freddie Mercury ]]> ~burningrainbows need http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5037043/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5037043/ Fri, 08 Apr 2005 19:04:00 PDT
Do I think they are going to disappear? No, I don't think that. But if they did i would be upset because I don't have any very new photographs to remember them by. Or anything at all other than stuff in my head. Ok maybe some writing. But what else?

It's like, all the good moments are going to get washed away with time. Since we are all going are seperate ways next year. not really. but distant enough to concern me.

I've known Victoria and Jessica for four years and we go months without talking. And its weird. What if i got in a fight with them or something? I'm so glad we communicate again. really.

So friends. if you catch me with a camera please to not run or smile in a grosetque way. I will be upset. ]]> ~burningrainbows life http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5034376/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5034376/ Fri, 08 Apr 2005 13:12:26 PDT

If you haven't seen it, I would reccomend it. ]]> ~burningrainbows A Line Allows Progress, A Circle Does Not Lyrics http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5032914/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5032914/ Fri, 08 Apr 2005 09:33:45 PDT try pacing to keep awake
laying around, no school today
just drink until the clock has circled all the way
it is late afternoon
as you walk through the rooms
of a house that is quiet
except for unanswered telephones
you stand near the sink
while you're mixing a drink
you think you don't want to pass out
where your roommates will find you again
stumble around the neighborhood with nothing to do
you're always looking for something
to sniff, smoke, or swallow
calling over next door to see what they got
but you would settle for anything
that would make your brain slow down or stop
break this circle of thoughts you chase
before the catch back up with you
and your parents noticied your thinning face,
all the weight you lost
all the weight you are losing
you said, i'm done feeling like a skeleton
no more sleep walking dead
you're going to wake from this coma
you're going to crawl from this bed you have made
and stop counting on that camera
that hangs round your neck
because it won't ever remember
what you choose to forget
as you try to find some source of light
try to name one thing you like
you used to have such a longer list
and light you never had to look for it
but now it's so easy to second guess everything you do
until all you want is to finish this half empty glass
before the ice melts away
this feeling used to pass
but seems like it's every day and every night now ]]> ~burningrainbows thursday http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5025165/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/5025165/ Thu, 07 Apr 2005 12:35:43 PDT

Ill be around. No school tomorrow. No school. No school.

I hate studying the Civil war. whats so civil about war anyway? All you war people. go to hell. Its all about power and money. And its dumb. You hear me? All we should ask for is love and a beautiful day. I'm feeling slightly off today. Go to hell.

All you people who have never heard anything by the Faint (go to hell? no.) you should listen to it. I'm going for a walk. No camera.

I really have slacked off in terms of.. artness. I did a really nice sketch of a tree trunk but the dumb teacher kept it.

I am so sick of seeing the same things. So sick of the same people and fears. Ah. damn you suberbia. I wish there was something to live for in this evil evil hell hole of preps and the pinacle of perfection.

I run in gym now. run run run and forget. Think about little things. The rushes of the breeze. The color of the floors at school. faces. Then just lose your train of thought becuase you are so caught up on finishing that last lap.

I keep writing about me. Its sickning. Its like I dont want to talk abuot anything else so lets just fill it up with CRAP about ME. me. me. me.

I am feeling so selfish. bad vera.

I hope you like the 'mix' Christine. Its something new. ttyl people. I'll miss you when Im taking my walk.

We are so stupid. 40ish more school days and nothing great has happened. What am I wiating for? I wish it was differnt. I wish people were different.

Whats the use in wishing? ]]> ~burningrainbows Devious Journal Entry http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/4997524/ http://burningrainbows.deviantart.com/journal/4997524/ Mon, 04 Apr 2005 12:38:35 PDT

damn you school board.

all my emoticons. with love.

so anyway. I have to go do my homework because I would HATE to see what would happen to me if I fawked up my grades.

I have a papercut in the middle of my palm. pain. ]]> ~burningrainbows