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UGGGHHHH >_<

I don't want to sound coldhearted but seriously.... people go through shit every day and don't complain half as much. Just shut the fuck up already.

FEH.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/24582268/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/24582268/ Mon, 04 May 2009 11:31:18 PDT
c:

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/24357252/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/24357252/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 09:12:27 PDT
I'm sad...but not...? does that even make sense? Maybe it hasn't totally completely hit me yet.

funeral might be this weekend.

bleh.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/24091814/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/24091814/ Mon, 06 Apr 2009 11:06:39 PDT
or something.

this is three times in the last week I've been told that I've missed something or been wrong about a date/time when I /know/ I wrote it down and was trying to be so careful about being punctual, etc. >_> gARRAWERWERWER


oh and the other day.... FIVE MINUTES after I made popcorn and gave some to one of the kids..... I ask him... 8D what're you eating over there?




yeah...


>.>



<.<


>.>



I am not going insane.




>.>

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/23981583/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/23981583/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 07:48:14 PDT
myself and how I've always been. The one who never can seem to focus or accomplish anything because part of the brain seems to tear information into pieces instead of keeping it whole for retrieval at some point. I hate how I can't remember what I've done from one day to the next, and that I'm so used to being screwed up and wrong about things that it takes almost nothing for me to second-guess myself until I've totally and convinced myself that I did something backwards, wrong, or stupid just BECAUSE I'm that way and I most likely would have even if I actually didn't.

I hate that yet again while making an important decision in my life I caved in and didn't go with my gut because the other option was too fucking scary and made me nervous as hell, even though it would have been the better choice.

I hate that I'm a nervous wreck right now and shaking and crying because yet again I've proven myself to be a worthless, stupid loser.

hate it hate it hate it hate it

I hate that this has been going on all my life. And nobody fucking cared enough to ask if maybe A PERSON ISN'T SUPPOSED TO BE AND FEEL THIS WAY GODDAMMIT

I hate that every time I feel like this all the memories of past crap comes to the surface and I'm reminded of every time I went along...didn't speak up...didn't say no... got confused... lost it.... forgot...

and the looks and the snickers and the stares and the names... that went with it.

I hate that I feel stupid and selfish and like a silly little brat for posting this.

I HATE that I have to post something like this on a damn dA journal just to get it out of my system.

Nobody reads this crap. Well... almost nobody. There are a few of you out there that actually give a rat's ass.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/23879118/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/23879118/ Wed, 25 Mar 2009 08:12:27 PDT
WHY

am I on dA?

I'm not looking to further an art career, make connections for a future gallery showing, and I don't have a webcomic, manga, or something to that effect in the works.

My "art" is whatever I happen to scribble in OC or Paint with whatever spare time I have (okay so some of that time is not really spare time but time I should be spending doing WAY more important things)

I don't have hundreds of watchers, pageviews, comments, faves. So obviously, I'm not here to impress anybody.

I could say that I have this dA account so I could track my progress from one day/week/month/year to the next, but that's a load of crap, because I could just as easily look at what I have in my photobucket or imageShack account.

I could say that I'm here for the people? What? We rarely say more than a few sentences to one another in our comments, and half of the people I know are never on dA anymore.

So WHAT AM I DOING HERE?

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/23539408/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/23539408/ Thu, 05 Mar 2009 12:00:23 PST
I decided to feature a random person.

yup that's right.

I clicked watchers at the end of watchlists starting with my own, and...did that 10 times, and... came up with:

lol I'd never been to uhhh.. her? his? page before, but I saw some pretty neat stuff. exampleplz: [link]

so anyway. I just thought it'd be fun to do that.

I'd like to hear what sorts of artists people find if they do this.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/23428167/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/23428167/ Fri, 27 Feb 2009 06:09:30 PST
I'm sure you've noticed that I haven't been submitting a lot of art lately. It's pretty pointless, if you ask me. I mean... I can submit a few pieces that I scribbled recently but let's face it...they're /scribbles/, kay? I haven't been motivated enough, nor can anything hold my attention long enough for me to actually work on and finish a decent piece of art. Which...is rather frustrating, because in my mind's eye I can see some fantastic things. I just can't get them on paper, or... in my case, the computer screen.

Sooo... I'll keep scribbling and hopefully something will be decent enough to post soon.

Oh. and... I don't wanna clean the kitchen again. Did that already. -throws grenade- >.>

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/23288399/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/23288399/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 12:36:40 PST
this isn't here.

~~~~~~~~~~~o-o~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/23110325/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/23110325/ Mon, 09 Feb 2009 19:35:09 PST
in a slightly better mood...but... eh... -shrug-

could be better?

I sortof...am beginning to wonder why I post these journal entries.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/23045319/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/23045319/ Fri, 06 Feb 2009 17:22:26 PST .>

I'm not even sure what to rant about right now. Cause...there really isn't anything per se....

I'm just.... suddenly feeling really.... meh.

I feel like screaming. And hurting people. And throwing things. But at the same time I could start crying at the drop of a hat if I let myself.

-sigh-

I have to worry about fucking dinner now.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/22864192/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/22864192/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 12:21:40 PST
so anyway.




HI.

8B

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/22430822/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/22430822/ Tue, 06 Jan 2009 09:53:23 PST [link]

edit: trying a different link this time

c: I got a dragon egg. -pokes it- it needs love. -loves on it-

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/22361760/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/22361760/ Fri, 02 Jan 2009 19:58:27 PST
I'm kindof on an...animal and realism streak right now. XD I even found a horse tutorial that I liked, but D8 gahhhh.... they give me fits. Even my tentative scribbles of attempts of scribbles of horses are crap. It'll be a while before I submit a horsie picture. c:

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/22198255/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/22198255/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 19:29:35 PST
Had a nice Christmas - got some cool stuffs. X3 DS games and itunes cards and other stuff I wanted. Win.

I haven't really been drawing or uploading much - haven't had the energy, inspiration, whatever.

I sortof found out part of my health/mood/whatever related issue - been going to a hematologist (along with my regular doctor and obgyn doc) Found out my blood count/hemoglobin/iron was SEVERELY low - as in - woman, you can't be in a wreck or need surgery cause you'd friggin die or something like that.

White blood count is low, too - so....


I've been running back and forth between docs getting iron infusions (like a blood transfusion, only iron) b12 shots and whatnot. Dx I'm getting sick of getting my blood drawn LOL

anyway - I think this severe anemia is what's causing me to be so tired and not feeling right all the time - I mean o-O that sortof can affect just about everything. So anyway - I'm on my 2nd day of a 7-day b12 injection regimen, and I think I'm through with the iron infusions for now.

What's really weird is - the hematologist is a doctor at the cancer center, so I get my infusions/injections in the chemo room. The nurses are soo cool there - and the patients are, too. It's the opposite of what you'd think a chemo infusion room would be. X3

anyways - I'm actually starting to have normal energy - I guess. XD GOD it's been so long since I felt actually a normal energy level I really don't know what one is. O_o

okay I better end the ramble, and sign off.


I hope everybody had a Merry Christmas... Happy 5th (or 6th???) day of Hannukah, or just a good day today.



]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/21594721/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/21594721/ Fri, 21 Nov 2008 09:19:07 PST
Then I go to my General practitioner's office to see if at least I could speak to one of the nurses for advice, knowing they close early on Friday and blah blah blah...and the receptionist THERE decides to be a bitch -asking me what sort of problem I could POSSIBLY have if such and such test was "perfectly normal" -.- which believe me, doesn't mean CRAP.

Now I'm supposed to go get my car cleaned and washed just for a fucking day trip to my parents' tomorrow. I don't even feel like going.

And who the HELL cares if the car is clean?!?!?! We're gonna be riding in it for 3 1/2 hours both ways throwing freakin' hamburger wrappers and whatthehellever on the floor during the trip anyway. How about not and say we did and just clean it afterwards? Or like... when I freakin feel like it T_T Damn men and their retarded compulsions and whatnot.

So yeah basically I'm in a rotten crappy mood and really feel like breaking something. Which I won't do, because I really don't have time to that or clean up the mess afterward.

I won't have a weekend to unwind to get rid of this crappy mood either, because the whole freaking 2 days will be spent visiting relatives and then doing freakin laundry and cleaning the damn house the next day.

I was going to draw a bit today, too. Doesn't look like that's happening.

I know I'll read this later and call myself a whiny brat. Oh well. >.>

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/21476012/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/21476012/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 19:51:13 PST
I don't even know how much longer I can even keep at it to finally get the krawk I'm saving for. Because...in the end...what the hell is the point?

All these characters that I have in my head.... I'll never do anything with them. I have a /real life/ dammit.

It's gotten to a point where I just open the site up, do a few dailies, use the lab ray and lurk a few boards and that's it. I don't even really enjoy posting on the BC board anymore.

bleh. I think it's time for some sortof a hiatus. Although, I suppose I've pretty much already started one.

On another note, I've begun to attempt more quad art - hoping to get better at animal and animal-related anatomy. I think I'll start moving toward some more realism.... Oh and dragons. *o* I wanna start drawin' dragons. Fantasy stuff FTW. That means more practice with lizardy anatomy and all that.

Which.... well... I don't have the motivation for right now, but it'll come. Sooner or later.

okay this was sortof... a rant but not really, I guess.

Peace out.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/21313871/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/21313871/ Tue, 04 Nov 2008 08:22:05 PST
I've been having computer issues lately - in fact, my old lappy died, and was dead for about a week. So I got a new one - YAY. but then, we discovered that there were issues with the new one. As in: it kept freezing up on me for no apparent reason. Which sucked. So I took it back to have it looked at. And then yesterday, I was able to resurrect my old one. 8D yay! but... in the middle of the night, it died again, because... it can't handle restarting during those automatic updates. (go figure, right?) So now, it's dead again. But I'm trying to get it back 8| Because I typed up some possible RP ideas and saved them in word on that lappy. Dx so... I'm gonna be doodling in paint on this computer (not mine lol) to see what kindsof things I can get done.

I don't have AIM right now, either T_T so... umm... my only mode of communication until I get my other computer (old or new) will be NM or LM. wooo.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20950903/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20950903/ Sun, 12 Oct 2008 10:02:07 PDT [link]

there's the link. *coughhintcough* xP

I think it's wayyyyy better than my last entry - which was my korbat. The one with the mismatched socks. I ended up getting bronze for that one, which was okay - since I only wanted to place ^_^;

anyway... I plan on drawin and postin more stuffs soon

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20772859/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20772859/ Wed, 01 Oct 2008 08:05:18 PDT
Gonna try to work on more art...more... often.

And I'll try to upload stuff that doesn't suck. 8|


looks as if I can't change the mood for my journal entry. lolz.

|D

okay.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20663598/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20663598/ Thu, 25 Sep 2008 06:13:53 PDT O I have the powwahhhhhhhh!

*coughmutter* mmkay. Yeah, well we did get power back - around noon Tuesday, surprisingly. Went off again yesterday for a bit but I think things are pretty much back to normal now.

So anyway, in case you're wondering, here's a list of things you might learn after not having power for more than a week.

1. Handheld portable game consoles are your friend.

2. Never lose your Ipod charger USB cable Dx

3. Gas-powered Generators are more of a friend than portable games, iPods, laptops, small fans, and cheap microwave ovens -- because they can either power or charge said items.

4. Did I mention laptops?

5. Having a gas stovetop means you can cook real food. HA

6. Trying to do laundry in the bathtub and hanging it to dry over the back yard fence does NOT make sense. 8|

7. Being able to sit down to pee when it's pitch dark in the bathroom is extremely cool. Having to clean the puddles made by those who don't sit is NOT. >.>

8. Downloading AIM onto your cellphone is fun for the whole family. Okay...maybe just me. 8}

9. Having a secret stash of Dove chocolate bars helps you survive anything. 8P

10. Not having power means you can practice your traditional skills -laments gorgeous pencil-sketch of dragon that ended up thrown away- D;

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20630682/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20630682/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 06:00:01 PDT
yeh.

we came home hoping the power would be on by the time we got there. Slept another night with no power. if it's not on by this evening we're heading to my mom's.

I know we have it way better than a lot of other people. so yeah...

anyway.

lfkjflskfjewoifnjofje;fowe woejfewefje and all that stuff.

I miss normal life. 8|

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20548789/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20548789/ Thu, 18 Sep 2008 06:43:41 PDT
In the meantime, I can get a wireless connection every once in a while if I sit in a certain place in my Sis in law's house... lol this is the longest it's lasted since we've been here 8}

eh. not much else to say... *shrug*

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20431548/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20431548/ Wed, 10 Sep 2008 22:44:54 PDT
Anyway - we shouldn't be getting anything terrible from the storm - but... it's good to have stuff on hand just in case. 8| I shall hit up kroger for whatever they've got tomorrow morning.

oh and I've discovered the joy of pixeling. 8}

I'm not super at it, yet - but... it's kindof...addictive...and you kindof get in a "zone" while you do it - cause you're just focusing on the little pixel dots and where they go...and not stinky lineart and blah blah blah.

okay. gotta go to bed now |D

I are sleepyzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20421239/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20421239/ Wed, 10 Sep 2008 11:08:17 PDT
okay I uploaded some stuff and of course my stupid self didn't upload it in the right order. Cause you know... you read the first page of a book...FIRST... so that's the order I uploaded. but..um.. XD I forgot that would make things in reverse.

so yeah. have fun with that.

My weirdo of a nearly-teenaged daughter is to blame for the text and drawing. she used a touchpad for that - her art is...actually quite good.

so anyway. enjoy readin all about the adventures of fugly bob. 8B

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20393185/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20393185/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 15:06:11 PDT
yet ANOTHER one of my buds on Neo has gotten wrongfully frozen. No I won't mention names...you guys might hear from the person about it later.

Frick Frack Fruck.

And for those of you who fail to see the reason for my little rant here, people work hard for those "silly pixels".
Especially those of us who draw them in our own style, create character designs and stories, etc....

And they come up with the lamest retarded crap to accuse people of - when there was NO WRONGDOING TO BEGIN WITH. Yet time and time again I'm witness to the stupidest and filthiest crap ever...and people get away with it.

uggghhhhghhghghghhgg

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20389147/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20389147/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 10:37:08 PDT
As you know, I was applying for a krawk. Eh...I wasn't expecting miracles or anything, but...I thought why the hell not- let's go for it.

The owner gave everyone a WEEK to come up with a good app. Basically, if she doesn't find a good owner..."before the 8th" he'll rot on her account forever.

Well, it's the 8th. And he's still on her account.

Which makes me wonder...

Was she just posting that he and her other pets were UFA so she could have dozens of people fawning over her and her OMG cool pets before she had to leave Neo? Because I can tell you, I've seen a couple of apps that she was going to get - and they were pretty nice onces. They were my competition lol - but still.

So...anyway... I'm about 1/4 to my goal of a pink krawk

looks like I'll be playing a lot of flash games. which I suck at.

And then there was the idea for a grey cybunny. Dx *dies*

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20297856/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20297856/ Tue, 02 Sep 2008 19:59:41 PDT [link]

god, I fail at html. I'm gonna move some stuff around and make it cleaner and whatnot.

I'd love some art or something of him if anybody has the time.

It needs to be done pretty quickly, though - by the end of this week. Yeah, I know - kindof a last moment request.

The owner will have no internet access after this week, so deadline is the 8th - which is next Monday.

I'd be willing to do a trade if anyone would rather do that.

I've lurked about and have seen an appy or two - so...yeah, I have really good competition for this guy.

I'm in the process this evening of finding all the flaws in the pic I did.

well. uh. that's it. |D

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20250634/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20250634/ Sun, 31 Aug 2008 10:18:58 PDT
Danny's in the BC. You'll have to look for him because his link creates a stupid smilie XD

eh. and.. uh... okay that's all.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20003074/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/20003074/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 11:22:07 PDT [link]

who stole it from somebody else.


YOUR BOY SIDE
()You love hoodies.
(x) You love jeans.
(?)Dogs are better than cats. (I have both…soo…eh?)
(x) It's hilarious when people get hurt.
(x) You've played with/against boys on a team. (ya in like…3rd- 4th grade??)
() Shopping is torture.
() Sad movies suck.
(x) You own an X-Box.
(x) Played with Hotwheel cars as a kid. (and Tonka Trucks, yo)
() At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
(x) You own a DS, PS2 or Sega. (DS and PS2)
() You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
(x) You watch sports on TV.
() Gory movies are cool.
() You go to your dad for advice.
() You own like a trillion baseball caps.
(x) You like going to football games.
() You used to/do collect baseball cards.
(x) Baggy pants are cool to wear.
(x) It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
(x) Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
(x) you love to go crazy and not care what people think.
() Sports are fun.
(x) Talk with food in your mouth. (lol sometimes XD)
() Wear boxers.

Total: 13

YOUR GIRL SIDE.
(x) You wear lip gloss.
(x) You love to shop.
(x) You wear eyeliner. (sometimes)
() You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
() You wear the color pink.
() Go to your mom for advice.
() You consider cheerleading a sport.
() You hate wearing the color black.
() You like hanging out at the mall.
() You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
(x) You like wearing jewelry.
() Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
() Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
() You don't like the movie Star Wars. (That’s a sin)
(x) You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance. Uh. I was like…7 I think |D
() It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
() You smile a lot more than you should.
() You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
(x) You care about what you look like. Sortof. O-o
() You like wearing dresses when you can.
() You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
(x) You wear girl underwear.
(x) Used to play with dolls as little kid.
() Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
() Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera

Total: 8


lawlz.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/19556534/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/19556534/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 13:59:39 PDT
yeh well.

anyway.

not gonna rant.

bye.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/19336565/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/19336565/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 14:09:10 PDT
uh. I'll draw something and upload...sometimes...


I think XD


in the meantime, enjoy this haiku:

*clears throat*

|c

My little black dog
Eats out of the litter box.
He has dookie breath.

8O eets mai masturpeess

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/19025336/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/19025336/ Tue, 24 Jun 2008 17:45:55 PDT [link]


*pokes link*


I'm pretty much finished with the app - now I need some art to put in it. 8)

If anybody has time I'd love some art of him.

now I feel /really/ compelled to draw my other peeps and develop them more. |D

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18968582/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18968582/ Sat, 21 Jun 2008 14:46:11 PDT
I'm applying for a pet. So voot is in omg drawing and coding and writing mode. lolz. Yes I do have a real life so there. XP

I got nothin else to say.

'cept hai and bai peeps.

< 3

iluz

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18816399/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18816399/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 08:22:38 PDT [link]

and here's where you vote *coughhint*

[link]

I hope those links work. o.O

He won't be in the contest until later this evening, but I thought I'd start my vote-begging now.

I'm pathetic, neh? |D

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18781474/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18781474/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 09:55:38 PDT
well...maybe there is...but... eh... anyway. I'm starting to be in one of those moods. Brought on, I think, by little things going wrong and being dissatisfied with myself.

I hate being somewhat proud of a piece of art, only to go back and look at it a day or so later, and realize I've created crap.

Or to realize that I've wasted most of a day creating said crap when I should have been doing other things. But had to create crap because I was inspired to create art. *headkeyboardX1000*

yeah. bleh.

I need chocklit.

or sommin.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18720957/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18720957/ Sat, 07 Jun 2008 20:47:13 PDT
c8


I maed moar artz. Been workin' on my mouse capabilities. |D so yeah..um... I don't suck at mouse art as much as I used to....but I still want my pen back }C

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18676878/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18676878/ Thu, 05 Jun 2008 09:59:15 PDT
T-T sooooo.... I dunno. I'll concentrate on writing more and maybe do some traditional work in the meantime.

8{

nyeh. Irritated.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18476151/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18476151/ Sat, 24 May 2008 08:55:56 PDT
anyway. School's almost out. Not sure what next year will bring. Not going back to the same place, so I gotta look for something else if I want a job. Guh. Job hunting is yech.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18401142/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18401142/ Mon, 19 May 2008 15:11:47 PDT
pfft. me neither. eh. just updating because I don't want people to think I still have a pet in the BC.

Jae got fourth. woo.

eh. nothing else to see here. move along.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18252985/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18252985/ Sat, 10 May 2008 06:56:50 PDT [link]

I'm hoping to place...buuuuut... XD I've already found some very good competition. Maybe I can get bronze or mayyyyybe silver?

My anatomy and poses still need work, neh?

edit: fixed link - for some reason in my siggy, the e in pet is not there - works on neo, but not here.. |D go figure.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18196711/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18196711/ Tue, 06 May 2008 13:27:11 PDT 1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into dA search box
3) Take a deviation from the first page of results (may use ' popular' or 'newest' ) and post thumb (for subscribers) or link (non-subscribers)
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you


1. The age you will be on your next birthday: ohgod D| *cough40cough*

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2. A place you'd like to travel: uhh....*picks one* Japan

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3. Your favorite place: San Diego

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4. Your favorite object: ? O_o uhhh...



5. Favorite food: asian ... I guess.. (okay my brain can't handle specifics right now. I'm old. 8C )

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6. Your favorite animal: fox

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7. Your favorite color: green...or... blue..or... eh... I chose green

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8. The town/state/etc in which you live: Texas

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9. Name of past pet: Lobo ^^' my little mutt - had her from age 5 to about... *thinks* 15?

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10. A dream come true: I...can't think of anything, srsly. DX


11. Your nickname/screenname: voot

[link] XD OMG zim rules


12. Middle name: Leigh

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damn. I'm hot. or..at least... my middle name is XDDD


13. Favorite Smell: lavender

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14. Bad habit of yours: procrastinating

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15. Your first job: daycare worker (why do I get the feeling things have pretty much come full-circle for me) D|

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16. Favourite Movie: Breakfast at Tiffany's (first movie that always pops into my head LOL)

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17. What are you doing right now? pushing my glasses up again. o-o

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18. Whats The Weather Like? gray and cloudy

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19. Favourite Sport: uhhh...? O_o soccer...?

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20. Favourite Music/Style/Band: whatever sounds good (again..you wanted specifics? ain't gonna get any 8C )

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]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18160665/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18160665/ Sun, 04 May 2008 07:55:02 PDT
God... I need to call the pediatrician and see if she'll up the dosage on my son's Risperidone. I'm getting the crud beat out of me and he's already thrown my laptop on the floor once...and pushed me to the floor twice.

I just gave him a dose - hoping it'll take effect soon and he'll calm down...but as I'm typing he's yelling and pacing and hitting walls, windows, furniture, etc. with his bare hands...

No telling what the hell he'll break next. Basically...it's same shit, different day around here - this isn't the first time or the last time this will happen. I just grin and bear it and wait for it to pass. *shrug*

I'll be keeping a close eye out for broken whatever to clean up in the meantime. O_x

And on a better note - I started a pic in paint last night.... I was gonna work on it...but....LOL I'm sortof afraid to get started right now. Maybe later. I dunno. I think it's going to be of Jae, my starry bori. She may be my next BC victim...I mean entry. XP

and on an even better note.... Arc (I think that's him...the little red-haired one that's Luneth's friend in FF) looks so.... cute as a scholar I wanna eat him with chocolate sauce and sprinkles. <33 I love how he smacks enemies around with books XDD yay.

okay.... that's it for me... o_O peace out.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18050181/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/18050181/ Sun, 27 Apr 2008 07:30:32 PDT
I downloaded some rom software and a ds emulator....which...I have been fighting with allllllllllll weekend - I think maybe this 4th time I've started the game (pokemon diamond) over it might just work. *coughplzwork*

I named my trainer Lithium |D her "friend's" name is Nutcase. XD I win, yo.

All my pokes are gonna have names that I get from the periodic table. Cause that's how I'm gonna roll, mah homies.

*shot*

okay..... back to the emyoolator.


oh oh oh oh...before I forget: OMG yay on the pound!!! *wiggle*


annnnnddd....I made a cybunny today. |D Her name is Khamelhin. 8D
She lives on a side right now - but she might be moved to my main? I dunno - when the pound opens, I'm gonna figure out where everyone should go.... c8

okay now back to your regularly scheduled program already in progress.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17966805/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17966805/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 20:13:19 PDT

I'm sleepy sleepy sleepy right now - so not much else to say except gnite all. Oh yeah...and...I got in the mood to do anudder tree. :3 I'm adding in the leaves one at a time. and....that's kindof boring, so I only work on it like...15 minutes at a time now. |D go me.

okay gnite for realz now.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17859348/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17859348/ Tue, 15 Apr 2008 04:35:01 PDT [link]

there. vote or something.


|D Imma totally fail this time - cause...I dunno..I just feel it. Anyway.... I think I'll enter another bori soon. dunno which one. I need to leave for work in five minutes. Dx ew

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17753796/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17753796/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 19:05:55 PDT

you have to look up...


Russian Red Army Choir...


singing.


So Happy Together.

it is so much freakin WIN XXDD


ohgod...


<3

thank you to for getting me hooked on these guys.

anyway...I'm posting more artsez. Hopefully some more tree and landscape stuff soon. with clouds and storms lskfjslfkjslfkj yay

why am I so hyper? D8

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17721197/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17721197/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 18:53:41 PDT who stoled it from


RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.


1.If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
"Angel" - Sarah McLachlan
[? huh]

2.How would you describe yourself?
"All I Want Is You" - U2
[again - huh?]

3.What do you like in a girl?
BYOB - System of a Down
[I either like them drunk, or blowing things up??? O_o]

4.How do you feel today?
"I Did It" - Dave Matthews Band
[No I didn't T-T]

5.What is your life's purpose?
"Fool To Think" - Dave Matthews Band
[uhhhh....]

6.What is your motto?
"Fiery Crash" - Andrew Bird
[O_O]

7.What do your friends think of you?
"Roundabout" - Yes
[I make them dizzy?? @_@]

8.What do you think of your parents?
"Radio/Video" - System of a Down
[umm..okay?]

9.What do you think about very often?
"Stuck in a Moment" - U2
[hmm. I guess.]

10.What is 2 + 2?
"Killing in the Name of" - Rage Against the Machine
[so 2+2 = DEATH. OMG]
11.What do you think of your best friend?
"Imitosis" - Andrew Bird
[Oo]
12.What do you think of the person you like?
"Suggestions" - System of a Down
[hmm. interesting.]

13.What is your life story?
"Spoon" - Dave Matthews Band
[I...like to eat?]

14.What do you want to be when you grow up?
"Pig" - Dave Matthews Band
[oink XXD]

15.What do you think of when you see the person you like?
"Dead Man's Party" - Oingo Boingo
[uhhh.....]

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
"Don't Drink the Water" - Dave Matthews Band
[eh. actually, it was another song]

17.What will they play at your funeral?
"Guerrilla Radio" - Rage Against the Machine"
[LOL yesplz]

18.What is your hobby/interest?
"Maka Afora" - Monika Sex
[XDD]

19.What is your biggest fear?
"Close to Me" - The Cure
[ew. people getting too close to me is just...*shudder* yeah.]

20.What is your biggest secret?
"All My Love" - Led Zeppelin
[uhh... *cough*]

21.What do you think of your friends?
"By My Side" - INXS
[dawwww]

22.What will you post this as?
"The One I Love" - REM
[lawlz]

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17680731/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17680731/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 09:53:38 PDT [link] who I think stole it from [link]

1. Your Real Name:

Jennifer

2. Your Gangsta Name- (first 4 letters of your real name plus izzle)

Jenizzle

3. Your Detective Name- (fav color and fav animal)

Blue Fox

4. Your Soap Opera Name- (middle name, and current street)

Leigh Wildviolet. D8 (sounds like a hooker or a stripper LOL)

5. Your Star Wars Name- (the first 3 letters of your lastname,first 2 letters of your firstname,first 3 letters of your mom's maiden name)

Wadjemar O_o Abba jaba waba daba wookieee!

6. Your Superhero Name- (2nd fav color,fav drink)

Green Dr. Pepper. *snort* XD


7. Your Goth Name- (black,and the name of one of your pets)

Black Ginger.



okay tag you're it. 8B

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17580898/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17580898/ Sat, 29 Mar 2008 21:43:36 PDT [link]

Choose Ten of your OCs. If you don't have ten OCs then use the little voices in your head. (that always seems to work for me)

1. Danny
2. Morryghann
3. Mwyn
4. Freya
5. Ares
6. Denkou
7. Bazlivy
8. Akki
9. Gabi
10. Diablo

1.) so....4, 9, and 3 are all eating a radioactive pie. Do they say anything about it's radioactivity?
Freya: D8 stop eating!! I’ll run to the kitchen and make us a better one anyway…
Gabi: *eats all of pie* awesome! 8D RAVE TIME!
Mwyn: umm…. *puts her fork down*

2.) 7 decides to take up line dancing. Does this end well?
yeah. We all get a good laugh. X3
Bazy: D8

3.) If 6 and 1 are on Mars playing checkers, then where are 5 and 9?
*shrug*At a club or a karaoke bar, most likely.

4.) 10 becomes gay/lesbian!!!! what does 6 say?
Denkou: Uhhhhh….o.O hey.

5.) If 4, 3, and 6 were to jump off of a waterfall, would any of them survive?
uh…..not likely.

6.) After Jumping off of the waterfall, would 6 be stupid enough to do it again?
I guess his ghost ... might try it.. O_o *scratches head*

7.) If x = 7+3 then what must X equal? Furthermore, what is the point of this question?
pedophilia? Ew. O_O

8.) You are falling from 8,952 feet in the air. You can either land on, and kill, 3 or 5. Who do you choose?
5 – Ares is made of some pretty strong stuff and I’m not THAT heavy, thank you.



9.) If 4 was to open up a lemonade stand and then get sued for selling toxic lemonade, what would they do?
Freya: D8 I swear I didn’t know! *runs around offering free MUCH BETTER lemonade and homemade to everyone to try to make everything better*

10.) 7 and 1 are getting married! The catch? 7 is already married to 3 and 1 is already married to 8!!! What does 5 do?
Ares: *pops some popcorn and sits back to watch the homopedomenage a whatever action* :3

11.) Is nny hot?
umyeah


12.) If 10 was to get mauled by a rabid hippopatumus on steroids, what would 3 do?
Giggle while the rabid hippo kept running through #10

13.) If 3 was to get mauled by a rabid hippopotamus on steroids, what would 10 do?
Giggle. He has a jolly nature


14.) Now lets say that they were both mauled by said hippopotamus. What would they do?
Mwyn: *flail* do something! *running around in circles, bleeding from various wounds*
Diablo: Hey…did you hear the one about the….

15.) Now lets say that the hippopotamus remarked that 10 tasted like mustard. What would 3 say?
Mwyn: T-T I wouldn’t know.

16.) If 7 was sat on by a rabid hippopotamus, would 1 laugh?
Yeah. Cause I just did.

17.) Everyone throws 5 a surprise birthday party. The surprise? It's not 5's birthday. What happens?
Mwyn: looks embarrassed and goes to hide in her room
Freya: *shrug* oh well…let’s eat cake anyway…
Gabi, Danny, Denkou, Diablo: *turn on music and start dancing*
Ares: O_o *headscratch*
Akki: }c *throws flames at everyone* I’m trying to sleep here.
Bazy: 8D I want a piece with lots of icing!


18.) 4 becomes a rabid hippopotamus and begins to chew up 3. Does 3 survive?
8c no. Poor Mwyn


19.) 7 challenges 2 to a wood-eating contest. Why?
He’s jealous of her special abilities? D8 I dunno….

20.) 6 decides to become a homicidal, bisexual, taxi cab driver in Michigan. How many people does he manage to kill before 10 stops him?
Diablo: *laughing hysterically*
Umm…apparently a whole lot, then.

21.) If 5 suddenly gained a third eye that allowed them to see into the future, what would 8 do?
Poke it? *shrug*

22.) 2 kills 1 for no apparent reason. 3 goes into spiraling depression because of this. How does 6 comfort 3?
Denkou: *puts on Barry White CD* >3

23.) Everybody transforms into rabid hippopotamuses except for 7. Does 7 feel lucky or left out?.
Bazlivy: D8 *turns on flashlight and hides*
Does that answer the question?

24.) 8 confesses their love to 3. What does 3 do?
Mwyn: *giggleblush*


25.) 1,2,3 and 4 all decide to start a band. 3 wants to name it "The Rabid Hippopotamuses". 2 wants to name it "The Artichokes". 3 wants to name it "The Rolling Stones" and 4 couldn't care less about the name. What do they do to resolve this?
Uhhh…. They combine the names in random combinations until they come up with…..The Rabid Rollichokes.

26.) 8 and 9 switch bodies. Describe what happens:
Akki: O_o why do I suddenly find men attractive…ohh…*stares at Danny*
Gabi: *shoots fire from his fingertips* 8D awesome!!! *runs around* Hey! Lo... ]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17552994/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17552994/ Fri, 28 Mar 2008 07:07:20 PDT
Anyway....I'm entering Yasha as a kiko in the next contest. Should be interesting. Last chance to get npts along with a trophy. LOL the prize amounts for species are less than what I can earn in a day anyway. I'm excited about the week after - side entries tiem! 8D

DA needs to stop being a bitch and let me upload my shizz when I want.

I'm hungreh. D8 Imma go find food. And then go clean stuff. and other stuff.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17342966/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17342966/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 07:30:19 PDT
[link]anny26759


I'm hoping just to place, that's all. But obviously, votes will help me do that. *pokes you*


Trying...really hard...to be in a better mood....really... o.x

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17304590/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17304590/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 16:36:05 PDT

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]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17094091/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17094091/ Wed, 27 Feb 2008 18:32:36 PST
anyway... I killed the art block monster for now. woo. go me. I've uploaded a few pics this week - I'm sorta proud of them, cause I think...maybe... my art is improving. It's not where I'd like it to be, but eh...I've only been doing this whole art thing a couple of years now...I think...

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17094013/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17094013/ Wed, 27 Feb 2008 18:27:16 PST
I'm so ready for this to be over... what's cool about teaching..is that you get to start over every year. yes. with new students. maybe even a new school. hmmm... the possibilities....

anyway... I've added a few more pictures... woo. go me. I've been in artmode for the past week...hoping it lasts for a while.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17029145/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/17029145/ Sat, 23 Feb 2008 17:02:05 PST
I can't seem to shake this mood I've been in forever... I know it's stress...brought on by real life.

Chatting with friends puts me in a good mood for a little while, true...as does doodling and drawing... of course, if said friends are not online or signed in to their respective messaging systems and whatnot said friends cannot be chatted with. bleh. And art block and failing art skillz do not happy doodling person make.

I really am sick of work. really. I have a few months left of the school year, thank GOD. and then I can think about what I'm gonna do next year. I may ask to go back to doing small groups. I dunno. That'd take so much stress from me. srsly.

on a happier note, I just started a sketchy thing of Danny... which I might enter in a future BC sometimes.

I'm in the mood to write...or RP....which is both good and suckfilled in a way. Because I have neither the time, brain capacity or patience to to either right now. That makes no sense.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/16803309/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/16803309/ Sat, 09 Feb 2008 15:54:28 PST
I feel bleh. mentally and physically.

not real terrible bad...just...like... I don't care. or something... and I'm just...tired...and...have a really bad attitude. and don't wanna do stuff. I just wanna sit around and do stupid non-useful things. And color in a coloring book.

and eat popcorn.


and draw something really cool in Paint just to say I did.

okay. that's all.

yay.

oh and work sucks. can't wait til the school year is over.

]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/16477395/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/16477395/ Sat, 19 Jan 2008 16:03:59 PST
Right now I'm working on designing and redesigning some of my pets on Neo. Mwyn's getting designed now... I think Akki might be next... who knows LOL.

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]]> ~caffeinated-freya http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/15660996/ http://caffeinated-freya.deviantart.com/journal/15660996/ Sun, 25 Nov 2007 08:02:04 PST [link] 8D

who is almost to /her/ 1000th view. woot!

Now I gotta do sommin' thousandish. O_o

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