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haha sorry guys

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/23123181/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/23123181/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 15:10:30 PST this weekend will be filled with fun! gonna have a right laugh!

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/22965322/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/22965322/ Mon, 02 Feb 2009 14:08:52 PST All ready i am sick to the back teath of it all!!
Every where i look there are big red hearts, giant teddy bears and the words "I Love You" written over EVERYTHING!! the 3 words i never hear and they are splashed everywhere, ment for everyone but me. sucks.

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/21157785/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/21157785/ Sat, 25 Oct 2008 15:31:31 PDT
well thats what i've just done...

and i managed to pin point the exact moment i fucked up my life and everyone who cared about me...

its also the moment i stopped being a sweet girl that everyoe liked and became a cold heartless bitch...

now i worked out that my life changed and i became a bitch back while i was still at school and my therapist would say yes but this happened and that so it wasn't my fault...

lets face it, it was my fault if i had a problem i should have sorted it not fucked everyone over...

so i've just gone through EVERYTHING on my computer internet, logs, emails and cried for hours...

now i am ready to grow up and stop fuking about...

its my life i control it and i should be strong enough live it my own way

!!!FREE!!!

THANK YOU

p.s. i'd just like to apologise to everyone who put up with me or i hurt

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/20876630/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/20876630/ Tue, 07 Oct 2008 15:47:39 PDT Start with 100%. Bold everything you've done and subtract 1% for everything that you've done. Then repost as you're __% virgin.

1. Smoked.
YES
2. Drank alcohol.
YES
3. Cried when someone died.
YES
4. Been drunk.
YES
5. Had sex.
YES... *IS ASHAMED*
6. Been to a concert.
UMM YES I LOVE LIVE MUSIC!
7. Gotten/given a handjob.
UUUHHH YES... *BURRIES HERSELF*
8. Gotten/given a blowjob.
HELL NO!!! EWWWWWWWWWWWWW
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
DEPENDS... YES
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.
HELL NO!

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 92%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
BY SOMEONE ELSE BLERCK YES
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
XD YEAH ITS HELERIOUS
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfrend before.
I DONT REMEMBER NO
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
YES T_T
15. Been to prom.
YES IS WAS FUNNY!
16. Cried at school.
YEAH I'M A WIMP
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
NOT THAT I KNOW OF NO
18. Went streaking.
ON SIMS 2 LOL YEAH AND WHEN I WAS LIKE 2 ON THE BEACH
19. Given or received a lap dance.
LOOOL NOPE
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room. UHH YEAH ONLY FRIENDS THOUGH

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 84%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
NOPE
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
YES
23. Kissed a stranger.
NO THATS PATHETIC
24. Hugged a stranger.
NO
25. Went scuba diving.
YES
26. Driven a car.
YES (cant wait till i can)
27. Gotten an x-ray.
NOPE
28. Hit by a car.
NOPE
29. Had a party.
YUP
30. Done serious drugs.
NO!!! THATS SICK!!

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 80%

31. Played strip poker/darts/basketball.
NOPE
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
NOPE
33. Run away from home.
YUP
34. Broken a bone.
NOPE
35. Eaten sushi.
NOPE! BEEN TOLD TO THOUGH
36. Bought porn.
YUCK NO
37. Watched porn.
UHH NO!
38. Made porn.
WTF NO
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
YUP
40. Been in love.
I DONT KNOW... I THINK SO YE

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 78%

41. French kissed.
YES
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
YESSSS
43. Cried yourself to sleep.
Y-Y YES
44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
LOL HOW DOES THAT WORK NO!
45. Stabbed yourself.
NO NO
46. Shot a gun.
YEAH AT THE FAIR
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
ACCIDENTALLY BUT I TOLD THEM WHAT I SAID AND WHY I SAID IT AND APPOLOGISED
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
YUP
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
NO IS THAT POSSIBLE?
50. Watched an animal die.
YEAH 's rat

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 71%

51. Watched a person die.
NO WELL NEARLY
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
UMMM YEAH!
53. Pranked somebody.
YEAH I'VE TRIED
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
YEAH MY MUM BY ACCIDENT
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
YEAH A FEW TIMES HAHA
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex.
YUP
57. Dressed punk.
LOL YEAH ALOT OF THE TIME
58. Dressed goth.
YEAH I USED TO ALOT
59. Dressed preppy.
YEAH AS A JOKE
60. Been to a motocross race.
YEAH

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 62%

61. Avoided somebody.
YES
62. Been stalked.
NO
63. Stalked someone.
NO
64. Met a celebrity.
YEAH
65. Played an instrument.
VIOLIN, DRUMS, PIANO AND GUITAR YES
66. Ridden a horse.
YES
67. Cut yourself.
YES
68. Bungee jumped.
NO
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
NO
70. Been to a wild party.
YES

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 56%%

71. Got caught stealing something.
NO
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
BY ACCIDENT YEA
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
........ yS
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
NO
75. Got arrested.
NO
77. Babysat.
YES
78. Been to another country.
YES
79. Started your house on fire.
NO
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.
I DONT KNOW NO

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 52%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
NO
82... ]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/20651444/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/20651444/ Wed, 24 Sep 2008 12:53:41 PDT

1) Write Rules
2) Write 8 things about yourself
3) In the end, tag 8 people and add them to the journal
4) Message each of them that they were tagged
5) You can't tag the person who tagged you

1. i am at highlands college doing an Art and Design degree
2. I'm seeing my mummy, step daddy and baby brother george in 16 days!
3. i haven't seen my mummy, step daddy and baby brother George in 77DAYS!!
4. i love to bite people! i always do ... so look out...
5. i have a strange obsession with old anime! anyone says they haven't seen Rainbow Brite or Sailor Moon i'll bite them!
6. i might have blue hair in a few weeks... i mean complettly BLUE!!
7. i'm entering a Jewlery design compotition to win my design being sold all over the world and go to japan to colect my prize money!! (fingers crossed i win guys... its the home of ALL anime!!!)
8. I'VE ALREADY DONE THIS SO SOMEONE ELSE DO IT THIS TIME!!!

i tag EVERYONE who LOVES anime!!!

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/20064098/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/20064098/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 16:56:38 PDT
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RULES!!!
1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal/blog of these facts
4. At the end of the post, 8 more persons are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment, telling them they're tagged


My 8 facts:


1. i have an unhealthy obsession with The OC
2. i'm not as brave and confident as i may seem
3. i love horror and slasher movies even though i have to hide behind a pillow or current boyfriend
4. i'm more of a cat person but i live with 2 dogs
5. i have a secret crush i'mhad for a year and a half
6. i used to be the biggest bitch in the world and push away everyone that cared about me but i've growen up now
7. i have LOADS of friends in different groups but most of them dont get on
8. my family life and life on a whole is pretty screwed atm but i love them all my family is great its just stuff happening


I tagged these 4 peeps(don't know 8 )

1. [link] manshadow
2. [link] Zafiara
3. [link] BlueMidna
4. [link] 7darkness
5. [link]
6. [link]
7. [link]
8. [link]

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/18947344/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/18947344/ Sat, 28 Jun 2008 10:26:29 PDT
If you wish to participate, please make sure to copy the rules and list into your journal. The point of this challenge is to test and improve your skill as an artist.

The Rules

1. Make 120 pics, each based on a theme listed below.

2. There is no time limit, so take your time and have fun!

3. Place the list somewhere in your journal for others to see. Update this list and check off what you have done, and make links to your deviations.


THE LIST
1. In Between Worlds*done* [link]
2. Love*done* [link]
3. Sunset*done* [link]
4. Deep*done* [link]
5. Seeking Solace*done*[link]
6. Break Away
7. Eden
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Abuse
14. Smile
15. Emotionless
16. Caged
17. Blood
18. Candy
19. Snow
20. Fortitude
21. Anomaly
22. Forest
23. Cat
24. Me Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Never Cry
27. Poison
28. Anguish
29. Curious
30. Rain
31. Defile
32. Never Look Back
33. Provoke
34. Mechanical
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes*done* [link]
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Black and Blue
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family*done* [link]
47. Homunculi
48. Orphan
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Games
52. Claustrophobia
53. Keeping a Secret
54. City
55. Waiting
56. Hell-Bent
57. Sacrifice
58. Bittersweet
59. Suffocate
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Djinn
63. Come-hither
64. Amputation
65. Contort
66. Suicide*done* [link]
67. Security Blanket
68. Bully
69. Annoyance
70. Wanton
71. Obsession
72. Pawn
73. I Can't
74. Demented
75. Mirror*done* [link]
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. The Fool
79. Disease
80. Words
81. Edge
82. Forever
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Appetite
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Sephia
91. Drowning
92. Die for you
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Streets
96. In the Storm
97. Regret
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation
101. Emo
102. Act your age
103. Covet
104. Detached
105. Belittle
106. Confusion
107. Dog
108. Moonlight
109. Secret Place
110. Annex
111. Coward
112. Emulate
113. Kami
114. Place of God
115. Delicate
116. All my fault
117. Chains
118. Ferocious
119. Autumn
120. Loser *done* [link]


wooo all join in and send this on in your journal!!

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/18777337/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/18777337/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 02:49:29 PDT
So, please, if you are repulsed as-well, pro-emo, etc.; pass this on. (hell, make a chain-letter if you so please).

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/18690810/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/18690810/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 03:39:32 PDT

8 Things you didn't know about me (I think)

1. i have an obsetion with reading... i read to much really

2. i want to travel up America with anyone willing to go with me

3. i want to be a world famous fashion designer and start up my own clothing line AND be in a rock band

4. i want to learn how to play the electric guitar so i can acctually play the one i have!!

5. (apart from ) my have best friends consisting of Leanne(my wife) Elsie(my mother in law) Aoife, Chantelle, Nina, Georgia, Francis(the Francomachine), Dave, Megan, Reece and Sophie oh and not forgetting Matt(my boyfriend)

6. i love Mathew Davis big time... somuch so that it scares me!!!

7. i love Jersey and my life in jeneral its amazing iwouldn't change anything so far and i dont want anything to change how it is right now...

8. i have a phobia of china dolls, dolls in jeneral, clowns and being confind under water (i couldn't go i a suberine)

that was okay... not to scary lol

i tag EVERYONE THAT READS THIS!!!

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/18005468/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/18005468/ Thu, 24 Apr 2008 10:51:43 PDT




One honest answer.







That's all you get.





You get to ask me one question.




To my inbox.





Any question, anything, no matter how crazy it is.






No catch.




I'll even answer it honestly.






Just between me and you.







No one else will ever know.








But I dare you to repost this,





and see what people ask you.

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/17796833/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/17796833/ Fri, 11 Apr 2008 14:22:11 PDT -Step Dad has cancer
-My Mum just had a baby(yay)
-Exams going on
-Have to do REALLY well in my exams incase anything happens, which is so much pressure...
so might not be good company or be on much...
sorry

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/13924238/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/13924238/ Sun, 29 Jul 2007 07:56:52 PDT TS we are Starting again with a new friendship i think you'll agree its better.
Rijolt and i Are good.
Darkness and i are still great friends.
i'm hoping Hawkie is still a good friend of mine and i even want Articuno and i to have a fresh start...
What you say Arti why dont we start again like we are only just meeting?
i think this will solve alot...just forget the past and carry on with this new friendship.. please?


Non-subscribers: Join #Loev on dAmn!
is a cool chatroom!!

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/13751684/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/13751684/ Mon, 16 Jul 2007 01:50:30 PDT .< i m so angry!!! they have no right!! if they had asked i would have said yes!!! i hate people that steal from me!!

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/12909036/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/12909036/ Thu, 10 May 2007 08:57:27 PDT
]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/12850396/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/12850396/ Sat, 05 May 2007 09:45:13 PDT ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/12777796/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/12777796/ Sun, 29 Apr 2007 11:39:47 PDT Shining is really getting to me.
i think she is the first person i have ever hated. now as for people at school... its gotten so far that i'm staring to to get hit and pushed. just today i was pushed into the lockers and i hit my head really hard. i'm getting really scared coz my teachers arent doing anything about it. i'm sick of it. if i'm not being calleed fat i'm being called Bi and being pushed and hit around. i've been bullied my whole life but never like this. i've never been phisically hurt by people. i know i'm different but it never bothers people much normally. i'm easy to got on with but i'm hated so much by these people. i swear if Shining does one more thing i'll get her band as well. i cant believe what she said to me...

so i think i have every right to be angry and upset atm... this is why i got so angry chris i'm sorry

sorry about my bitching i just needed to get that off my chest

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/12689584/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/12689584/ Sun, 22 Apr 2007 09:44:14 PDT
thanks to: Arti, Bluey, Darkness, HL, GermanLugia Chris and of course my love bird GL!!!

i give special thanks to GL for being absolutly amazing and knowing my as well as he does!!!

course work, school and some people are getting to much atm but i'm trying my best to beet it.

i'm so happy its nearly summer!!! break out the towles!!!

i was ment to be goind to england. more sepsificly shrusburry but now i cant.

oh well say lar vie life goes on. i'll get there someday... i hope!!
i cant find a uni in the right place its driving me mad!! well i got to go so see ya!! xxx

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/12107237/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/12107237/ Thu, 08 Mar 2007 15:07:31 PST
]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11937440/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11937440/ Fri, 23 Feb 2007 16:45:34 PST [link] every one go on there its my chat and i want to build it up please please please you know you want to lol woop tim burton rocks!!! hehe

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11916292/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11916292/ Thu, 22 Feb 2007 02:44:59 PST
]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11697601/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11697601/ Mon, 05 Feb 2007 13:29:34 PST i cant miss school coz i have to much course work and its the only way i can see some people... i'm really worried about chris he doesn't sleep either and he has a few problems i wish i could help him... my friend kiwi is really ill she's gone anerexic she cat move or anything... i went to see her and she looked like a zombi she's on a drip and can barly talk... i know this is harsh but it made me feel sick seeing her... i was watching tv ater on and atm there's this whole big thing about aneraxia and i just started to cry... she's a really good friend and she has been for 5years now... also my friend stacy she's got a really bad heart problem that could kill her... so all in all my life is falling apart before my eye's and i cant do anything to stop it... (fyi my curent self... 15, 5'0 and 8stone 2 ounses(for people asking)) i'll be ok(i promise)...

in need of love

when your all alone
with no where to run
look inside yourself
and times to come
you'll find yourself happy
if for only a few
moments that count
those moments of you
you need to remember
that lifes not all bad
just keep on smileing
through the pain and the sad
they may not notice
if you try hard enough
keep your sheeld of smiles
up high enough
when you think its all over
let the smile go and sigh
take in a deep breath
it's ok to cry
make sure noone is there
your all alone
get out the knife
and hold it like stone
take a slice through your flesh
watch the blood flow
breath really heavy
till the pain starts to go
your coverd in blood
with no where to go
bleeding all over
your bathroom floor
you hear the door
spring to your feet
do a botch jog of hiding the slit
you cleen up the blood
and run to your room
locking your door
again all alone
with no where to run
just a pain in your heart
wish you were gone
hiding alone
in the pain and the dark
hiding from life
and the ones showing love

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11623835/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11623835/ Tue, 30 Jan 2007 13:57:48 PST
]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11584192/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11584192/ Sat, 27 Jan 2007 05:55:35 PST
one question... why do perverts always come after me?!?!

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11574177/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11574177/ Fri, 26 Jan 2007 09:09:19 PST AREN'T YOU BlueMidna?!?!?!

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11572631/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11572631/ Fri, 26 Jan 2007 05:41:42 PST
last night i finaly managed to sleep!!!! i finished my stupid essay so i could sleep i kept staying up late to finish it... and now i'm so run down... i'm not going to school so i cant even give it in.

i dunno what else to say...

ooh randomness...

i open my eyes
the suns in the sky
i smile to myself
i feel i can fly

as the brush of your skin
when its close to mine
the smile on your lips
and i know your mine

chorus:
as we walk
hand in hand
as we fall to the ground
every touch of your lips
i dont want to miss miss

vurse:
your holding me close
as close as can be
i know what your thinking
i know its with me

your stoking my face
i know i'm a li-ve
your kissing me long
as you stoke my sides

chorus:
as we walk
hand in hand
as we fall to the ground
every touch of your lips
i dont want to miss

vurse:
its getting to late
you open the door
i pull on you are and pleed
babe dont go-

you pull me up close
you smile down at me
you say,
pretty baby you know i myst leave

chorus:
as we walk
hand in hand
as we fall to the ground
every touch of your lips
i dont want to miss

last vuse:
alone on the floor
i cry to myself
he's gone
i didn't tell him some thing

the phone starts to ring
i answer it quick
its him and he only tells me one thing
i love you
(love you)
i love you...


omg what the fuck was that...? O_o' ah well i like it

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]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11417713/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11417713/ Sat, 13 Jan 2007 03:00:45 PST am i just being paranoid???

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11417648/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11417648/ Sat, 13 Jan 2007 02:49:02 PST
bloody tomartos

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11297068/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11297068/ Wed, 03 Jan 2007 05:13:36 PST _< sorry about that its just... well... GRRRRRRRR!!!

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11292590/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11292590/ Tue, 02 Jan 2007 18:33:20 PST .> and my copm time is going to expire any minute evil parents <.< I JUST CANT WIN!!!!

]]> ~cazlepav http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11271992/ http://cazlepav.deviantart.com/journal/11271992/ Mon, 01 Jan 2007 09:27:16 PST
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