http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:ce-i&section=today deviantART RSS for by:ce-i en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 04 Dec 2009 15:01:20 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/28708530/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/28708530/ Wed, 02 Dec 2009 12:03:56 PST , this very piece [link] has earned me a DD!

Suggested by the one and only i dunno how i could ever thank him

And as usual, i’m really sorry for not replying every messages and faves, but your kind words really made my day! thank you so much fellow deviants! ^^ hugs to all of you!

Talking about karma, i’ve been doing a-tons-of-fun project with [link]
For every fellow Indonesians reading this, see you in Kemang Festival, Dec 19-20th
and be sure to visit Kamar, in front of Adorama!

It’s 3am in the morning now, and i’m still wide awake, working...blah

Okay, i have to get working or i’ll miss the deadline. As my mentor once said, “time flies, even when you’re not having fun.” hahahah. soooo true.

Tell me how are you guys doing? i hope everyone’s doing good
Thank you once again and have a nice day!

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/27518832/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/27518832/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 10:13:58 PDT

I like the layout more than dA actually blogspot has a cleaner and neater layout and more personalized too but i still love dA and will keep posting here
the blog is just for some portfolio showcase

I would appreciate if there's any friend blogger here would visit me at
[link]
and maybe drop some comments or critiques

i'm still very new and rather confused with the blog system, but oh well there's a first time for everything, right?

oh and thank you soooo much for all of you dropping comments and favourites! I'm really sorry i couldn't reply each one of it but your comments have always made my day

have a nice day everyone!

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/27145288/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/27145288/ Fri, 11 Sep 2009 06:20:34 PDT

[link]

a little bit different from the original design
[link]

yang punya anak, adik, ato yang ukuran badannya mini mo dipake sendiri juga boleh...hihihihi beli dong!!!!^^

oh and also, i'm starting a new project! XD i'm very very nervous, wish me luck guys!

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/26827887/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/26827887/ Wed, 26 Aug 2009 00:10:38 PDT
a great film from Yojiro Takita, combined with beautiful music from the one and only Joe Hisaishi

[link]

[link]

After finishing this film i was like : "I want the soundtrack to be played during my funeral" LOL

indeed, a very heartwarming film

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/26213772/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/26213772/ Mon, 27 Jul 2009 14:31:36 PDT
[link]

Don't give up, Indonesia!

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/26017100/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/26017100/ Fri, 17 Jul 2009 23:27:34 PDT
And yesterday morning there were 2 suicide bombings here in Jakarta.

(sigh)

God help Indonesia.

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/25024854/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/25024854/ Fri, 29 May 2009 23:30:15 PDT
(anonymous)

found via ffffound.com

290509

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/24959718/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/24959718/ Tue, 26 May 2009 11:57:04 PDT and i’m too lazy to translate this in english, so, non-indonesian-speaking friends, please accept my apology okay you’ve been warned so don’t complain

Hari Minggu 24 Mei kemarin, muak setelah berminggu-minggu main kejar-kejaran dengan garis-garis mati, saya menerima ajakan seorang teman baik dan adiknya untuk nonton my bloody valentine. Sebenernya dari judulnya aja saya curiga ini hanya salah satu film norak yang penuh wanita bule menjerit-jerit lari-larian. Tapi saking udah sumpek banget di rumah, jadilah Minggu siang itu saya duduk manis dalam bioskop mengenakan kacamuka 3D bersama kakak beradik blood fetish, menyaksikan rentetan gambar yang tentu saja penuh darah (judulnya aja my bloody valentine gitu lho). hahaha.

Sepanjang film, teman saya yang satu datar banget mukanya sambil sesekali mengutuk: “tai! disensor yah!” ketika adegan di layar hanya menampilkan cipratan darah tanpa memperlihatkan frame sebelumnya yang menunjukkan darimana darah itu berasal. Yang satu lagi sesekali bilang “anjing!” lalu tertawa-tawa setiap kali si pembunuh mengayunkan pickax nya dan membelah wajah seseorang. Beberapa kali saya tersentak kaget ketika si pembunuh melemparkan kapaknya ke depan (hail 3D effect!) Yah tapi untungnya saya juga bukan tipe cewek yang jejeritan sambil menutupi seluruh muka dengan tangan sih kalo nonton pilem horor...hehehe jadi lumayan cocok lah...tiga orang absurd menonton pilem-yang-sebenarnya-basi-abis-kalo-gak-ada-efek-3D nya itu di hari Minggu siang yang mendung.

Selesai nonton, Wima, si adik yang ketawa-tawa sepanjang film, langsung pulang. Sementara saya dan Diaz, si Mr. Asshole sekaligus teman baik yang pernah saya ceritakan di jurnal sebelumnya, menuju foodcourt untuk makan sore (laper banget bo soalnya filmnya nanggung jam 12.45 siang). Setelah makan, kami berencana menghabiskan minggu sore dengan ngupi-ngupi sambil mengobrol santai. Kenyataannya, saya pesan teh hangat rasa stroberi dan Diaz minum coklat panas dengan mint, sambil mengobrol tentang masa depan, tentang advertising yang menurut Diaz adalah “new era of slavery” (hahahah), tentang flower generation dan LSD, tentang invasi alien, bahkan tentang surga dan neraka (berat euy!!) hahaha.

3 jam lebih Diaz berusaha mencuci otak saya dengan teori-teori konspirasinya ) Dia bahkan punya ide brilian untuk membentuk aliran baru Diazism dan merekrut saya sebagai pengikut pertamanya. orang gila. hahaha. Tapi di antara obrolan-obrolan absurd kita, saya selalu merasa dapet pencerahan baru setiap kali ngobrol sama Diaz, Kemarin pun dia melontarkan sebuah nasehat yang bakal saya ingat terus:

quoting Diaz : “ Satu hal yang gw pelajari juga dari sini, you gotta know what you want first, kalo udah try to believe in it so much, then energy2 yang ada disekitar lo akan make it happen for you! Lo harus bikin blueprint diri lo sendiri cil, mungkin lo banyak maunya, tapi lo HARUS cari cil, otherwise lo bakal WASTED in this world! Mungkin lo baru nemu 2 tahun lagi or 5 tahun lagi or even 10 tahun lagi, tapi kalo lo ga cari, ya ga nemu2. Gw aja baru nemu jalannya yang jelas di umur 34, tapi sebenernya dah tau waktu gw masih teenager, cuman ga di arahin kesitu aja...so it's not too late for you to find your path!

.....(uh, dalem)


Pembicaraan 3 jam diakhiri oleh tatapan sinis mbak-mbak waiter yang pura-pura bertanya apakah kami mau memesan sesuatu yang lain...hehehehe. Setelah itu kami pulang dengan busway yang berlawanan arah. Saya menenteng cd “The Orb” yang dipinjemin Diaz, dan Diaz menenteng dvd bajakan “Achilles and the tortoise” dari saya.

Dalam perjalanan pulang di busway, saya bertekad untuk bikin blueprint diri saya sendiri. Moga-moga berhasil yah...rasanya jadi ngerti kesulitan para klien bikin brief selama ini....huehehehe. Dan dalam perjalanan pulang itu juga saya baru ingat kalo tadi kami nonton my bloody valentine. Emang dasar film biasa aja. Gak berkesan sama sekali 2 jam nonton! hahaha!

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/24442211/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/24442211/ Sun, 26 Apr 2009 09:17:01 PDT Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
he'll get my support
he will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
he'll hear me out
And wont easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact he'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
he will understand me


I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
Ill get away with it

"Somebody" (Depeche Mode)
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couldn't be better said

I hope each of us will find our somebody
sorry for this unimportant post, i'm just so in love with this song and sorry for replacing all the "she" with "he"

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/24030515/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/24030515/ Thu, 02 Apr 2009 19:52:27 PDT
I saw this tragedy on the news and felt sorry for the victims. But it’s not the same when you actually go and see the site for yourself. Yesterday, a few of our office workers, including me, decided to visit Setu Gintung to give some donations we’ve been collecting the day before. Arriving on the site’s gate, none of us were allowed to continue our journey further. Hundreds of volunteers, policemen and paramedics wearing hygiene masks were busy delivering clothes, food and water to the victims, spraying and cleaning the area, and, yes, looking for undiscovered bodies under the thick mud. One of the volunteers said that they’ve just found another body, and that the area was heavily damaged and dirty, thus it was dangerous for us to go further inside.

The air smelled of rotten bodies and suddenly I felt dizzy and there was a lump in my throat. I imagined what if it happened to me or my family, or my friends, and suddenly I felt really thankful that I was alive, breathing and happy. Suddenly I felt very lucky to be me, and ashamed of my day-to-day whining and complaining. I remember the Aceh’s tsunami, and shuddered to think that it must be a hundred times worse than this. At that time, I felt that it was far from where I lived, and somehow not really connected to my daily life.
After handing the donations, we continued to visit the house of our co-worker, which was located near the damaged area. The current also hit her neighbourhood, but not very badly. She lost her car, but thankfully her family and her house was safe. She told us that one of her neighbours’ house was damaged severely, and that the resident found a baby’s dead body floating in his living room.
Visiting Setu Gintung, I was reminded to be thankful everyday, and live the most of my life, in case tomorrow never comes. Let us hope for no more catastrophe in this world. And let us say a little prayer, just a few words spoken in our heart will do, for the souls passed away in this tragedy. That’s the least we could do.

[link]

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/23910683/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/23910683/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 02:23:27 PDT [link]

turn off a light or two. Little things can do magic you know

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/23634182/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/23634182/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 20:17:48 PDT
About a hundred times I’ve read this opening sentence on the daily deviants’ journal. And this afternoon, I opened my deviantart account and found 900 messages waiting in my inbox, I thought (hopefully) that maybe I got a DD…and then I laughed to myself, hahah, oh come on, it’s just probably every single deviant in my list has decided to write some journals…that’s the reason behind the nine hundred messages.

So I clicked the “message” option, and oh-my-god-i-really-got-a-DD!
So this is how it feels! hahahahaha

I know I would sound cheesy, but never in a 4-year-of-deviantarting, I’ve seen so many messages in my inbox hahahaha.

I just want to thank you everyone, every fellow deviant who has commented and favourited and collected or even just looked at my work “mirror” I’m so sorry I couldn’t reply all the messages, but I read and re-read every one of them and really appreciated all the comments and critiques.

My deepest gratitude for Samuel Phillip Raffa, who’s been spoiling me since the first day I joined deviantart

Thank you for suggesting the DD
Thank you for always supporting me
Thank you for all the subscriptions
Thank you for being my friend
And most of all, thank you for believing in me, more than I do myself

hugs to all of you!

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/23115606/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/23115606/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 18:50:17 PST
Sesosok pria tinggi hitam dengan tampang campuran teroris arab-keturunan honduras keluar dari WC, masih benerin risleting celana jinsnya, trus ngelap tangan di kaos sendiri.
“Cil, kenalin ini Diaz, senior art director disini…”
“Ergh..halo….” (dengan ragu-ragu menjabat tangan bekas pipis yang belom dicuci, walopun udah dilap di kaos…hehehe)
“Diaz” (menjabat erat dengan muka lempeng, trus langsung pergi)
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SCENE 2
“Cil! Sini deh!”
“Apaan?”
“Sini bentaaarrr…gue punya hadiah buat lo”
“Apa sih?”
“Tangan lo mana coba?”
(dengan patuh mengulurkan tangan. Sedetik kemudian, 2 garis hitam jatuh mendarat di telapak tangan gue)
“……………….apaan ini????”
“bulu idung gue…buat lo” (sambil nyengir dengan tatapan mata yang seolah mengatakan “baik ya gue?”
“……….”
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SCENE 3
Jam 3 subuh di kantor, mata sepet setengah mampus, udah seminggu begadang, ngerjain layout yang direpisi tanpa henti. Tiba-tiba dari belakang gue terdengar suara:
“ Eh….”
“hmmmm?” (ngantuk dan bête)
“ Layout lo busuk abis ya…”
“………….”
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SCENE 4
Another jam 3 subuh di kantor, baru kelar bikin layout buat prisen pagi-pagi, mo minta approval dari bapaknya.
“Yaz…” (sambil menatap komputer)
(hening)
“Yaz, sini liat layoutnya bentar dong…” (masih menatap komputer)
(hening)
“Yaz? Tidur ya lo? (sambil nengok ke belakang)
Orangnya gak ada, komputernya udah mati.
……………..Kampret.
Langsung ambil hp kirim SMS:
“Yaz! Lo pulang ya? Buset, pamitan kek sama anaknya! Kapan melipirnya?”
“ Iya, gw udah di jalan nih, ngantuk”
“ Huh! Bapak macam apa kamu?!?”
“ Bapak macam-macam…”
…………..speechless………….
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SCENE 5
Lagi sibuk bikin sketch storyboard buat ngebrief illustrator. Tiba-tiba di samping gue ada yang ngeliatin gak pergi-pergi.
“Kenapa?” (risih juga lama-lama diliatin terus… hehehehe)
“Gambar lo tuh garis-garisnya berkarakter banget ya”
“Oya? Karakternya gimana?” (sambil nyengir geer)
“Karakter sakit jiwa…”

……..sialan.
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SCENE 6
Tengah malam. Udah pada pulang. Lagi bikin photography brief setelah 2 minggu penuh dateng pagi pulang pagi lagi. Mata udah kayak panda. Yang tersisa tinggal saya dan siapa lagi kalo bukan bapak teroris arab-honduras itu.
“Eh Cil…”
“Apa?”
“……….lo gak mo resign yah?”
“hah?” (nengok ke belakang) Kenapa tiba-tiba ngomong gitu?”
“Mati muda lo bentar lagi kalo kerja kayak gini terus!”
………………..(mikir-mikir) iya juga yah………….
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SCENE 7
Ada SMS masuk malem-malem, sehari setelah bapak saya itu mengabarkan bahwa dia mau resign karena mau ke amerika.
“Gue udah launching! Lo tinggal sustainingnya yah, harusnya lebih gampang, kan udah gue kasih guidelines”
“Gue besok baru mo ngasih surat nih Yaz…”
“Buruan kasih!”
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Akhirnya saya duluan yang resign, karena Diaz gak jadi berangkat ke Amerika. Minggu lalu, anyway, dia resign juga, karena mau melanjutkan karirnya jadi musisi (“tapi bukan bikin sekolah musik yang ngelesin piano gitu cil….gue mo ambil course di apple centre di singapur”. Hehehe. That weird, asshole, suka-nyela mode on person, yet the most supportive, the most reliable, the most trustworthy friend for me akhirnya pergi juga ☺.

For all the laughs,
For all the advices,
For all the becandaan-bau-darah,
For all the photoshop, freehand and illustrator tips and tricks,
For all the sakit-jiwa-dvds ),
For all the “cela-mencela” moments,
For the bulu idung (s) ,
For being a good listener,
For always supporting me,
For the f... ]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/21351057/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/21351057/ Thu, 06 Nov 2008 01:17:09 PST
Depeche Mode

I would tell you about the things
They put me through
The pain I've been subjected to
But the lord himself would blush
The countless feasts laid at my feet
Forbidden fruits for me to eat
But I think your pulse would start to rush

Now I'm not looking for absolution
Forgiveness for the things I do
But before you come to any conclusions
Try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes

You'll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kept
If you try walking in my shoes
If you try walking in my shoes

Morality would frown upon
Decency look down upon
The scapegoat fates made of me
But I promise you, my judge and jurors
My intentions couldnt have been purer
My case is easy to see

Im not looking for a clearer conscience
Peace of mind after what I've been through
And before we talk of any repentance
Try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes

You'll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kept
If you try walking in my shoes
If you try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes

Now I'm not looking for absolution
Forgiveness for the things I do
But before you come to any conclusions
Try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes

Youll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kept
If you try walking in my shoes

Now I'm not looking for absolution
Forgiveness for the things I do
But before you come to any conclusions
Try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes

Youll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kept
If you try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes
If you try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/20069474/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/20069474/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 23:08:56 PDT [link]



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]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/18238727/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/18238727/ Fri, 09 May 2008 08:15:48 PDT So many people telling me to stay
Never had time to have my mind made up
Caught in a motion that I don't wanna stop

So many people telling me one way
So many people telling me to stay
Never had time to have my mind made up
Caught in a motion that I don't wanna stop

So many people telling me one way
So many people telling me to stay
Never had time to have my mind made up
Caught in a motion that I don't wanna stop

So many people telling me one way
So many people telling me to stay
Never had time to have my mind made up
Caught in a motion that I don't wanna stop
That I don't wanna stop
That I don't wanna stop

(Burning- The Whitest Boy Alive)

Wish me luck friends!

Thank you for your comments and faves, and sorry for not replying them ...been working myself to death for the last few months will try to catch up with your works soon

PS : Should you need a freelance art director, please contact me at cecillia.hidayat@yahoo.com

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/16775726/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/16775726/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 19:20:01 PST


]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/16212006/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/16212006/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 18:14:42 PST
1. Kita semua dilindungi Tuhan, dikasih keselamatan dan kesehatan (amin)
2. Indonesia gak banyak bencana apa-apa lagi
3. Gue jadi orang yang lebih baik lagi (kalo kata Glenn > ini mah bukan resolusi tapi kewajiban! Hehehehe)
4. Gue jadi lebih pede dan enggak ragu-ragu melulu
5. Gue lebih semangat dan gak banyak komplen ina inu
6. PT pos kelar dengan sukses (doakan yaaaaa)
7. Pandora box kelar dengan sukses (ini juga doakan yaaa)
8. Gue bisa idup lebih sehat (kurangin pulang pagi dan minum kopi instan...huehehe)...dan enggak migren2 melulu (huhuhu)
9. Becchi bisa ngelarin buku-bukunya
10. Gue tambah rajin olahraga biar lemak2 di perut ilang dan jadi seseksi perutnya Madonna (punya mimpi boleh dong...yah setengahnya Madonna aja deeeeh...hahahaha)
11. Gue bisa menggambar lebih banyak dari taun 2007...mwahaha
12. Adik gue bisa ngelarin skripsinya dengan sakses!
13. Sweeney Todd keluar di bioskop (haduuuuu lama bangeeettt gak sabar! X( )
14. Resolusi kita semua masing-masing tercapai!!! gambatte!!!!

HAPPY NU YEAR EVERYONE!

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/15894799/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/15894799/ Tue, 11 Dec 2007 18:57:48 PST but i dunno how to bold the words as the instruction says (becchi.....*nangis*)

Pick your birth month.
? Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
? Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.
? Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months
? Tag 3 people one person from your friends list.

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret (yep). Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic (i think i am). Consoling, friendly (well, i think i am..hahaha) and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring (not to every people...hehehehe ). Suave and generous (am i?). Emotional(yep). Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory (sometimes ). Moving (apa nih? pindahan?). Motivates oneself and others (don't think so). Sickness usually of the head (yes, my migraine is killing me) and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see (well, my lover should answer this, not me, right? ).

MONTHS

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever.Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy.Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention.Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled.Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing.Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make fri... ]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/15769944/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/15769944/ Sun, 02 Dec 2007 18:52:16 PST Impian jangka panjang: gue pengen masuk surga.
Kalo impian jangka pendek : gue pengen jadi orang iklan hebat kayak Roy Wisnu!
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Itu jawaban yang saya tulis di bulletin board, kira-kira 4 tahun yang lalu pas frenster lagi booming-boomingnya, ketika saya masih muda (ceileh masih mudaaaa…hehehe), masih jadi mahasiswa yang punya idealisme pribadi setinggi langit

Pengen jadi kayak Roy Wisnu. Kenapa Roy Wisnu? Soalnya cuma itu satu-satunya tokoh periklanan yang saya tau. Hahaha! Saat itu saya belum kenal Glenn Marsalim, Budiman Hakim, Ariyanto Zainal, apalagi John Merrifield atau Suthisak Sucharrinonta (idih, emangnya sekarang udah kenalan? Hehehe)

Waktu itu ngisi bulletin board nya tepat setelah nonton acara Citra Pariwara, dimana bebek imut-imut dengan topeng kantong kertas bikinan Roy Wisnu dan kawan-kawannya (kawan-kawannya yang pake kostum seragam anak SD gak disebutin namanya makanya saya cuma tau Roy Wisnu…hehehe) berhasil menyabet Best of the best.

Tahun-tahun berikutnya, saya berusaha menekuni dunia iklan lebih dalam. Memohon-mohon pada paman saya yang kebetulan orang iklan juga untuk ikut photosession dan syuting iklan. Nyari-nyari segala rupa buku-buku periklanan. Begadang bikin portfolio dan ngirim lamaran magang ke agency-agency adpertensi. Bela-belain masuk kuliah hari Sabtu demi ikut kelas dengan pengajar para praktisi periklanan. Dan kalo ada tugas yang dapet nilai bagus atau dapat pujian dari mereka, bangganya bukan maen. Semuanya demi satu tujuan: jadi orang iklan.

Tuhan emang sayang sama saya. Setelah hampir putus asa karena gak dapet-dapet tempat magang, tiba-tiba ditelpon sama HRD nya MACS909. Horeeee! Senengnya bukan main. Lebih bangga lagi, karena setelah selesai magang langsung ditawarin kerja disana. Langsung hydrocephalus deh (baca :gede kepala) Sementara teman-teman lain sesama fresh graduate masih pusing tujuh keliling menyusun CV dan portfolio, saya sudah mulai bekerja di salah satu agency lokal yang cukup “happening” di Jakarta. Impian untuk jadi orang iklan semakin dekat.

Gak terasa sekarang udah 2 tahun saya nyemplung di agency. Emang kenyataannya “agak” berbeda dari bayangan saya pas kuliah dulu. Gak seasyik dan gak semudah yang saya bayangkan. Tapi apa sih yang gampang kalo mau sukses? Pelan-pelan saya mulai terbiasa dengan kehidupan agency. Buka archive dan ads of the world hampir tiap hari. Ikut seminar-seminar award winning ads. Bikin initiative ads dengan tren eksekusi terbaru di kalangan orang iklan. Komplen sana-sini kalo idenya ditolak klien ato gak menang award.

First idea. Ide eksekusi. Visual driven. Insights, crafting, dan lain-lain. Tanpa sadar saya mulai gape menggunakan istilah-istilah dunia periklanan dalam percakapan sehari-hari. Gak peduli orang lain ngerti apa enggak, pokoknya berasa keren kalo bisa masukin istilah-istilah itu kalo lagi ngomong sama orang lain.

(Secara orang iklan gitu looooh)

Sampai kemarin saya melihat entry-entry untuk BG awards Citra Pariwara tahun ini.

PLAK! Rasanya kayak ditampar.

Ide-idenya lucu-lucu. Liar. Seger. Padahal menurut saya briefnya membosankan. Tapi ngeliat karya-karya mereka, saya jadi mikir, kok bisa ya dibuat lucu-lucu kayak gini? Sementara 2 tahun berturut-turut saya gagal jadi finalis daun muda. Padaha pas brainstorming, saya dan partner saling ngebantai berhari-hari, kurang “anjing” lah, kurang “dalem” lah, kurang “award winning” lah, “first idea” banget lah, kurang ina inu ina inu… ribet! Tapi setelah liat karya-karya BG awards, rasanya entry daun muda kita.jadi gak ada apa-apanya

Maluuuu banget… sumpah.

Saya punya satu orang yang paling saya sayangi dan kagumi. Beberapa minggu yang lalu pas saya ngasih liat entry daun muda saya dan partner saya ke dia, dia cuma bilang ok. “Ok sih, tapi kurang fresh ya…kurang daun muda. Kayaknya kamu udah jadi orang iklan beneran deh…”

Deg. Tertohok banget.

Di mulut saya cuma bilang “ Iya ya? Masa sih?”
Padahal dalam hati saya gak pengen mengakui kalo itu benar.

Tiba-tiba rasanya pengen balik ke jaman masih jadi mahasiswa yang gak tau apa-apa.

Pertama kalinya dalam hidup saya, saya sedih jadi orang iklan.
(Udah gitu boro-boro orang iklan yang sukses kayak Roy Wisnu…hehehehehehe)

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/15712853/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/15712853/ Wed, 28 Nov 2007 19:28:11 PST you guys should see this too:

[link]

Enjoy Tan Hong Ming by Yasmin Ahmad

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/15254405/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/15254405/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 08:13:24 PDT
After losing my password twice, I decided to change my email address. I’m no longer using my old account c1_oink@yahoo.com. So please delete it from your address list and change it to cecillia.hidayat@yahoo.com (with double “l” > because so many people misspell my name …hehehe). Thank you!

cecil

PS: sorry for not answering all the messages and favs...i'll try my best to catch up thank you thank you love u guys!

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/13206502/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/13206502/ Sun, 03 Jun 2007 19:06:11 PDT

PERCAKAPAN GAK PENTING PART 1

“Kenapa sih picupicupicu?”

“Sebenernya sih dari kata picu…karena gue orangnya gak jalan kalo gak dipicu…tapi kalo satu kata aja kan aneh…makanya jadi picupicupicu”

“Kedengerannya jadi sok imut, Fan…hehehe”

“Iya sih…banyak yang bilang gitu…sial…”
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PERCAKAPAN GAK PENTING PART 2

“…………kok kayaknya ide-ide kita jadi lemah gini ya…”

“Iya, padahal tadi sore kayaknya udah beres…”

“Kok kebantai lagi ya sekarang? Hahaha…gimana nih…udah jam 10…”

“Ah nyantai aja, masih 10 jam lagi kok…tidur dulu yuk!”
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PERCAKAPAN GAK PENTING PART 3

“Gue semakin lama semakin ragu kalo loe bener-bener cina deh cil…”

“Gue aja ragu kok…”

“Gak punya bakat dagang sama sekali sih…”

“Emang nih…hahaha…kebayang gak sih gue dagang di glodok bersama ncek-ncek cina itu…males banget!”

“…………………………. Hei! Ngaca donk, loe kan cina?!?”
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PERCAKAPAN GAK PENTING PART 4

“Kok internetnya lama banget ya…internet lo lama gak?”

“Yah, itu tergantung orangnya sih…kalo orangnya lama ya internetnya lama.”

“Oh gitu ya…”

“Iya.”

…………………………………….

“Maksud lo gue lama?!?”

“Tuh kan lama…”
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PERCAKAPAN GAK PENTING PART 5

“Gue baru bilang ke lo aja nih…gue mo resign bulan depan.”

“Hah? Kenapa emang?”

“Gue pikir udah waktunya gue menata kembali idup gue.”

“Trus lo mo pindah kemana?”

“Mo sekolah lagi di Inggris…”

“Hah? Inggris?

“Iya.”

“S2?”

“Yoi…”

“Ooo…wah hebat…goodluck ya! Loe pasti jadi orang sukses disana.”

“Hehehe tengkyu.”

……………........

“Tapi Fan, disana kan gak ada anak otis yg bisa lo cela-cela kayak disini…”

“……….Heeeeei! Kok tampangnya gitu? Lo sebenernya ngedukung gue gak sih?”

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Satu lagi sahabat mau pergi…setelah Ayoecoemi dan Ingskimarinsky, sekarang si picupicupicu aka Ipran Assaat … peginya jauh pula…lintas benua, bukan lintas agency…huh sebal!

(Gue ngedukung loe kok, Fan….sumpah.)

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/12998066/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/12998066/ Fri, 18 May 2007 07:25:06 PDT sleep.books.comics.doodling. All play and no work. hooray! I’ve been working myself to death for the past few weeks…sorry for not replying all of your messages…just want you to know that I’m deeply thankful and appreciate all the visits, comments and favs thank you friends!

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/12461795/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/12461795/ Wed, 04 Apr 2007 19:34:19 PDT They say I’m stupid

Maybe I’m heading to the wrong direction
Maybe tomorrow I will regret my own decision

I dunno where this road may go
But I just don’t want to be
What people expect me to be.

I just want to be me.

God bless me. Amen
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Don’t try to live so wise
Don’t cry cause you’re so right
Don’t dry with fakes or fears
Cause you’ll hate yourself in the end
(wind-akeboshi)

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/12422007/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/12422007/ Sun, 01 Apr 2007 19:47:40 PDT
Not black
Not white.

I’m a lighter shade of black,
I’m the darker side of white.

I am now standing in the middle of the black hole and the light.

I always wonder what is it like to be in the light.
But am afraid I would be blinded by it.
I’ve always wanted to reveal what’s inside the black hole.
but never found the courage to go in there.

I don’t know what’s inside the light.
I don’t know what’s inside the black hole.

I don’t know what will happen if I step forward.
Or if I step backward.

I fear the unknown.

If I face the unknown,
will I be in control or will I be controlled?

….

That’s why I stay grey

But suddenly I realize I’m on the other side of the existence.
I’m stagnant.
I start to rot slowly.

Maybe I should go right.
Maybe I should go left.
Maybe I just should move onwards
It’s either I fly,
Or I die.
But at least I’ll be no more grey.
(Well… maybe….)

dammit! I hate myself! X(

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/12152386/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/12152386/ Mon, 12 Mar 2007 05:19:08 PDT

“Boys have a penis. Girls have a vagina”, suara anak kecil aneh yang kedengeran tiap beberapa menit dari henpon putih bermaskot anjing segitiga, labu dan peti mati. Pemiliknya, tukang bikin kopi yang sebenernya lebih pengen jadi pengarah gaya di bidang fesyen, gak kalah anehnya. Dengan mata ble’e (dia ngakunya sih gak ngobat), poni segitiga, sepatu zara kids obralan dan tas selempang merah boleh dapet gratisan dari salah satu merek coklat yang tagline nya “ada break, ada k****t”, cewe absurd ini selalu setia menemani saya badai otak dari pagi sampai pagi lagi. Motto idupnya : “kalo tampang gak nolong, kantong gak boleh kosong!”. Hehehe. Gak tau kenapa saya betah temenan sama dia. Mungkin secara saya autis dan dia absurd. Cuma anak autis yang suka hal-hal absurd dan cuma anak absurd yang tahan ngadepin kelakuan anak autis. Tapi sekarang dia pergi merantau bersama sepasukan semut api. Sebetulnya saya gak pengen dia pergi, tapi orang-orang bilang, teman yang baik harus selalu ngasih dukungan, jadinya saya rela-relain walopun sebenernya gak rela-rela amat. Saya pasti bakal kangen kronis sama dia. Sama celaan2 sarkastisnya. Sama suara juteknya yang teriak “Udah pulang!” begitu sang petugas lalu lintas mencari-cari kami dengan tumpukan job bag di tangan. Sama dodolism nya. Sama semuanya. Tapi saya tulus ngarepin dia tambah sukses dan tambah bahagia kedepannya. Moga-moga dia terus inget sama partner autis nya ini dan suatu hari nanti kita bisa nonton konser Laruku bareng-bareng (amin!).

Belum lagi membiasakan diri dengan bangku kosong yang satu itu, satu lagi teman saya mau pergi. Sebetulnya kepergian Ingski Marinsky (ini nama ciptaan si dodols…huehehe) ini udah terprediksi sebelumnya. Cici Hongkong ini emang lagi naik daun sejak dia menang daun muda award beberapa bulan yang lalu. Kalo kata Fergie, big girls don’t cry. Tapi pas dia pamitan kemarin, tetep aja air mata sialan ini gak bisa ditahan. Pasti aneh rasanya kantor tanpa suara menggelegar nya. Tanpa suara tak tok tak tok sepatu hak runcingnya. Tanpa rentetan kata-katanya yang dengan kecepatan super menceritakan bagaimana kos-kosan nya kelelep gara-gara banjir lima taunan kemaren. Ukh. Yah, sebenernya sih mereka berdua gak pergi jauh-jauh amat. Yang satu ke agensi-impian-tiap-orang di gedung biru Sudirman, yang satu ke koloni semut yang berdomisili di belakang Senayan City. Gak jauh laaahhhh….tapi yah, mereka gak disini lagi. Funny that we never realized how much someone meant to us until they’re gone.
Sampe ketemu lagi Ayoe dan Ingski Go take a glorious bite of this whole wide world (minjem kata-katanya Snow Patrol )

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/11606674/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/11606674/ Mon, 29 Jan 2007 02:13:08 PST



hehehehehehe my talented friend made this for me....can't wait for the coloured version (i'm praying his exams will be over soon... )
very cute, isn't it? (well, Eki, i think you'll be shocked to meet me in person...i'm rather boyish you know ) but still i love this piece very much
thanks a ton, Eki!!

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/11142373/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/11142373/ Thu, 21 Dec 2006 18:46:01 PST

dearest friends,

have a very merry Christmas and a happy new year.
Wishing for all the best of life in the upcoming year, and may God bless us everyone.

have tons of fun!

(actually i planned to make something for Christmas...drawing or something, but couldn't find the time...damn! but finally i'll take a leave from Dec 26th-29th...yaayyyy! holy holiday!welcome to the world outside work! )

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/10860281/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/10860281/ Sun, 26 Nov 2006 18:31:25 PST
I got tagged by my sweet friend here in dA…a talented graphic designer and fractal artist!! Visit her at [link] and say hi (and don’t forget to bring some coffee too )

She tagged me and now I have to pick 10 deviant friends to be featured here in my journal. It’s sooooo hard to me to decide which of my friends I should feature here (man, I just realized that I watch over 100 deviants!)

After spending a long time choosing which of you, my friends, I should feature here, finally I decided to pick 10 artists whom artworks I love so much. It means that I’m being very very subjective here All selections are based on my personal liking And I would like to thank the ten people below for being my biggest inspiration (no to mention for being a great friend too)

Ok, so I made a mistake. This is not the proper rules of the tag…I supposed to feature 10 first people replying this journal (I just done writing this journal, re-read the rules and realized that I made the big mistake X( ) But since I’m a lazy ass, I think I’ll just go with this journal (please forgive me friends )

So here we go, my 10 favourite artists in alphabetical order are :

aka Betty Tio.
Ok. First, I swear I picked her not because she’s my bestest friend Go check her beautiful gallery (very recommended for manga/anime lovers!^^) I spend hours to decide which of her artworks I love the most (why only 4???? I even like her doodles and scraps! ) haha but here they are:





aka Brian Vallesteros
Have you read Griffin and Sabine by Nick Bantock? I love that book very much…and the works of reminds me of the fabulous postcards… I could feel his works reflect his wild imagination. Take a look of his stunning gallery :

~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/10781423/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/10781423/ Sun, 19 Nov 2006 18:32:55 PST

Sepi
Aku suka sepi

Kosong
Aku suka kosong

Sendirian
Aku suka sendirian

Karena aku pikir dalam sepi aku bisa lari
Karena aku pikir dalam sepi aku bisa temukan jati diri
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Sepi
Aku takut sepi

Kosong
Aku takut kosong

Sendirian
Aku takut sendirian

Karena aku jadi bukan aku lagi
Karena aku jadi bukan manusia lagi
Aku ini siapa?
Aku ini apa?
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(Karena ternyata, kalo gak ada kamu, aku gak bisa liat diriku.)

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/10715266/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/10715266/ Mon, 13 Nov 2006 18:01:56 PST [link]

thanks so much guys...i couldn't be more happier


]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/10407510/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/10407510/ Mon, 16 Oct 2006 00:29:31 PDT [link]

if you have time, go check his page...he's a great artist (and i swear i'm not saying this because he's my brother ). I was like "geez...wish i could paint like he does" when i see his paintings

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/10090445/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/10090445/ Sat, 16 Sep 2006 12:02:18 PDT Trying with all my might
Searching day and night

But there's no hint of the light

All my life i've been looking for the light
I looked everywhere until i lost my guide
But there's no hint of the light

All my life i've been looking for the light
But somehow i realized
that i slowly am losing this fight
for which is wrong, which is right
i could not decide

And there's still no hint of the light

All my life i've been looking for the light
i'm so blind i didn't realize
that the light is here....inside.


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A man travels the world over in search of what he needs and returns home to find it (George Moore)
Thank you Glenn for sharing this quote ]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/9938872/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/9938872/ Sat, 02 Sep 2006 09:29:11 PDT
]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/9182023/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/9182023/ Sun, 25 Jun 2006 19:12:01 PDT
Perasaan itu datang
Aku tidak undang
Hinggap di hati
Membelit
Mengakar
Menebar bayang-bayang
Menutupi pikiran
Mengalahkan logika

“Pergi!!!” kataku
Dia tak beranjak dari tempatnya
“Pergi!”
Dia tak bergeming
“Pergi!” Pergiii!!”
Dia membatu

Tapi entah kenapa
Hati tidak berontak
Hati merasa bahagia
Terbenam di antara akar-akarnya
Dalam pelukan ranting-rantingnya

Walaupun hati tahu
Ranting-ranting itu
Tidak akan menumbuhkan bunga
Melainkan duri

Hati memang bodoh
Pasrah menunggu
Sampai saatnya dia mati perlahan
Saat duri-duri itu menghunjam
Pelan
Pelan
Semakin dalam

Logika lebih pintar
Tapi tidak punya kehendak yang kuat
Untuk melawan perasaan itu
Makanya dia tak berani bersuara
Diam seribu bahasa

Perasaan itu menang
Aku kalah lagi.

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/8705343/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/8705343/ Sun, 07 May 2006 22:00:06 PDT I got tagged by him a few weeks ago.

So, here it is…6 weird (well, I prefer to say “unknown”…in my humble opinion, I’m not weird…hahahaha) facts about me :

1. If Hogwarts really exists, I surely would register there.
2. My right eye doesn’t work unless I close my left eye.
3. I scored “5.6” for Indonesian language final exam in junior high school. The teachers said I was damn lucky to pass junior high school…hahaha…
4. I think I have direction-disorientation. I get lost very easily. My worst experience was to get lost in a tea plantation at about 3 am in the morning. Alone. Hahaha…unforgettable…
5. my childhood dream is to become a detective
6. I get asleep easily in moving vehicles. Buses, cars, whatever. Hehehe

ok. Done. Now I tag first 6 people reading this. Seems like this tag game has become very popular here, I dunno who had tagged who…so if you feel like admitting your 6 weird habits, go on

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/8062211/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/8062211/ Sat, 04 Mar 2006 05:11:09 PST how do you know we will be forgiven?
for we've wasted this life we were given

tell me
how do you know we will be forgiven?
for we've sinned too much and lost our compassion

tell me
how do you know we will be forgiven?
for we've lost our meaning as a human

tell me
how do you know we will be forgiven?
for here we are...too faraway from the heaven...

march, 4th, 2006.

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/7955965/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/7955965/ Mon, 20 Feb 2006 18:33:06 PST love you all!

check this :
[link] ]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/7722230/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/7722230/ Fri, 27 Jan 2006 11:08:28 PST



]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/6269300/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/6269300/ Fri, 19 Aug 2005 09:04:21 PDT
i just want to thank all of you for all your support, comments, faves, critiques, etc.

i love to draw (and doodle). Drawing is magical because i can pour my soul into a single piece of paper....i know some of my works are morbid and strange...but well...that's me. it's all about my feelings and i can't find the proper words to explain this...

to expurge...it's i who feel honoured that you're my 1000th visitor!

special thanks to =sphilr, not only for the subscription but for all the :glomps:, shouts, etc that always brighten up my day

THANK YOU ALL!

]]> ~ce-i http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/4494060/ http://ce-i.deviantart.com/journal/4494060/ Fri, 04 Feb 2005 06:45:09 PST
this month i'm starting to work on my final project (oh damn damn damn!...) n i'm hoping to be graduated in the next 6 month (i'm a procrastinator, hope i can get through this final project...) i'm kinda get bored with school hahaha
thanks to all deviants who have visited my page...especially i want to thank a sweet Italiano, Samuel...who is too nice that he is paying for my subscription for 3 months!!! i was so surprised when i received the email...thanks Sammy...

]]> ~ce-i