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deviantART: by:ceah http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:ceah&section=today deviantART RSS for by:ceah en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 20 Dec 2009 08:29:36 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png broken down path http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/7232124/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/7232124/ Mon, 05 Dec 2005 18:32:32 PST [link] <-- my stock

broken down path

Beneath the broken down path of memories
There I want you to bury me deep
Lay our love affair in its filth
And engrave it with my greed
I was only another face you painted
In your collection of most hated moments

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]]> ~ceah - http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/6509617/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/6509617/ Thu, 15 Sep 2005 07:18:16 PDT
A soulful smile
With beautiful eyes
Tears reliquinshed
Still my face, as bright as sunshine
Reminisce
I was, I used to be..

I hope you bring her the joys of love
As you would have brought me

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enough said ]]> ~ceah this summer... http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/6279267/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/6279267/ Sat, 20 Aug 2005 12:08:08 PDT [link] <-- my stock

camping + yacht parties + club hoppin + bar hoppin + walk of shames + adventures on the "el" + drunk food + boating + beach bummin + lazying in rivers + rooftop parties + dancing on top of every dance box available + kicking with the chicago bears + secluded beaches + hang overs + luau's + losing purse + losing cell phone + road trips + purdue + rooming in the city every weekend + weekend bruises + jumping off cliffs + sun burns + sun tans + golf carting in thunderstorms + being single through it all + some other events that i can't remember due to too little sleep and too much drinking = the best summer ever

ps. i know it's been a while since i've submitted anything worth while to view. my pc is currently down, i'm chuggin this in somewhere else right now.. i'm also working on getting a new camera soon. this summer has been a blast, i'm sad to see it end. however, as long as it's still nice and bright out, there's still enough time to party. this coming fall, i'm definitely hitting up vegas & probably hitting up cali again yo!

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]]> ~ceah new series http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/4625993/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/4625993/ Sat, 19 Feb 2005 23:40:42 PST [link] <-- my stock

I'm gonna make this short cause I need to get my ass into bed....

Well, it's up.. just like I said it'd be. I took a total of 4 sessions with approximately 50 shots within the past 2 months and it's finally finished. Well okay I didn't finish it, it was more like quit. It was quite an interesting series, a lot of slips here and there, bruises, muscle aches, etc.. but it was fun.

I'm not sure if I'll ever do this again, I'll have to see.. I seriously need to get myself an assistant if I do.

Anyway, thanks everyone for all the comments, etc... much much much appreciated

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]]> ~ceah . http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/4439541/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/4439541/ Fri, 28 Jan 2005 18:12:47 PST [link] <-- my stock

i hate him, i truly do
i hope he rots in hell for the shit he's put me through
i regret it, oh hell yeah i do
that motherfucker....

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]]> ~ceah back to california! http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/4337810/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/4337810/ Sun, 16 Jan 2005 20:01:12 PST
i'ma be leaving thursday, coming back the following wednesday.

i'll be picking up a good friend of mine. that means i'll be traveling the california coastline for a good 2.5 hours so i'll be able to stop by the beaches here and there for a few good shots.

i sure miss them beaches, beaches with no ecoli, etc.... but don't miss me illinois, i'll be back.

be on the look out for them beach shots when i get back. and yes, i'm still workin on my other series i had journaled about earlier.

ciao! ]]> ~ceah upcoming series http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/4040673/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/4040673/ Sat, 11 Dec 2004 07:48:39 PST [link] <-- my stock

I can't believe my last deviation was in August... Agh!

I've started on my latest series but I don't know when I'll post them up. I've shown it to several people and they all think it's great but I need more shots. A good friend of mine is supposed to help assist me but with our schedules... I don't know, we'll see.

The series will be completely different from what I've been doing and I think you all will like them... I hope.

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]]> ~ceah ... http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3709728/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3709728/ Sat, 30 Oct 2004 15:47:52 PDT [link] <-- my stock

you were always there
to listen, to see me shed a tear
you never gave up
you gave me faith when i didn't have much
you were my strength
and never made me feel ashamed
i love you my dear friend
thank you kyle, you're my angel from heaven

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]]> ~ceah jerry! jerry! jerry! http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3576812/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3576812/ Tue, 12 Oct 2004 20:38:34 PDT [link] <-- my stock

It's official! I'm going to a Jerry Springer Show this month. I'll be attending next Wednesday's taping (the 20th). I can't wait! I hope to see naked people, fights, whores, and much more... Haha. I don't know what the topic will be but I hope it'll be interesting.

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]]> ~ceah looking back http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3417893/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3417893/ Tue, 21 Sep 2004 22:12:02 PDT [link] <-- my stock

It's amazing how 5 years can go by so quickly. Tearing up 5 years of memories is no easy task. You forget how the both of you fell in love, how it felt when you two first kiss. You forget how it is to just love unconditionally. It's funny now, looking back at those past 5 years-- it was so care free, it was just plain, simple love. Those memories, I will forever hold them dearly to my heart. I will never forget... I will never forget.

It's funny how, when you first love, you do all these amazing, weird things to show your affection for that other person. Here I am, looking at a rainbow car I drew-- wow, I didn't realized how much I drew using rainbow's. I thought about tearing these drawings I made, but I realized that I couldn't do it.. I just simply couldn't. They were once part of who I was and of who I'm still am. I just didn't realize it until now-- how much I've changed, how much I've lost myself, how much happiness I once had.

Love is blind, love is true, love is pain, love is deceiving, love is fullfilling, love is rage, love is bless.

I was truly blessed with 5 once wonderful years. I will not regret, I will not forget. Life for me will go on without him... it will always be bittersweet.

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]]> ~ceah happy birthday http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3381545/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3381545/ Fri, 17 Sep 2004 00:52:20 PDT [link] <-- my stock

It's my dog's birthday today

. He's officially 21 years old in dog years. I'll be celebrating his birthday with him with Heineken, MGD, Hypnotiq, and Hennessy. We'll take some Effen and Incredible Hulk shots too, if he's up to it. Cheers!

And like everyone who's made a resoluton(s) for their own crazy reasons, I've broken two of mine- I still got the hobby one left. No worries people, everything's gonna be alright! I will find a hobby!

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In other boring news, I've got a new inspiration for my soon-to-be released deviations. It's something that I've never done before and after releasing them, will probably never again. I've just thought of them recently and so far, I'm still up to my own challenge. Be on a look out for them... they'll be up when.... my computer gets fixed, when I can get rid of the 581 shots in my digi card, and when I can find my tripod.

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]]> ~ceah insanity http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3346682/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3346682/ Sun, 12 Sep 2004 11:21:53 PDT [link] <-- my stock

Full-time job + crazy co-workers + out of control pug + drama queen sister + psychotic mother + miserable ex + annoying bird + gas mileage + no gas + flirting + celibacy + traffic + stupid, retarded drivers + hunger + apartment hunting + bad hair + parking tickets + hit on's + hook up's + headaches + no money + no friends + Chicago + obnoxious siblings + dead-beat father + dog adoption + rumors + lies + anger + frustrations + madness + dead computer + stupid laptop + laundry + burnt pizza + sleeping on couch + newspapers + apartment magazine's + budgeting + college + rude people + birthday fights + motel raiding's + long lost lover + scrambled thoughts + location, location, location + California + furniture hunting + rude phone calls + anonymous text messages and text emails + vivid dreams + crossword puzzles + stuck up's = insanity

My future outlook? Not too bad I guess... besides the insanity, I'm in tip top shape. I could've sworn I was a fish in my past life..

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]]> ~ceah the show must go on... http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3326185/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3326185/ Thu, 09 Sep 2004 16:08:50 PDT [link] <-- my stock

So August was the suckiest month ever. Wait, not sucky, horrible. It was just bad bad bad bad. This month, it's going better than I thought... I'm "unofficially" single again, which I'm so happy, so damn happy

. It's actually bittersweet in a way but I'm free. Free to go... anywhere. My mama says to move back to Cali. Erh, yeah right...

I've made up several post-relationship resolutions, let me know what you think:

No more flirting-
You'd think I'd learn my lesson by now.. but nope, I'm still getting in trouble. The other day, as I went to go open a new bank account. I got hit on, not by another customer, but by a worker, the guy who was opening up my account for me. Go figure... I ended up walking out with his number and all.. Haha. I really need to kick myself in the ass but I believe I've just made a club buddy.

Get a new hobby-
How does... collecting dead insects sound? Iono. I've got.. photography and........so yeah, I've gotten pretty bland in the past 4 years. Bar hopping perhaps? Get a life outside the net, collect shot glasses, start a jewelry collection...

Become celibate-
No more

Can I really do it? Can I? I certainly hope so. 10 years sounds good righ about now. And yes, I'm serious! And yes, no relationships either. Iack! That is banned in my book for now. I'm going to spend the next 10 years or so fixing myself.

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In other news, I'll no longer be sleeping on the couch. That's really good news. I just found out yesterday and it shocked the shit out of me- I have a month to move out. And here I thought I had about 3 month's or so... I need to start looking for a new place... fast. That and furniture... I've come to a sad dilemma unfortunately.. my poor doggy. I don't want to leave him but if I do, we'll have to give him up for adoption and that's my last option. Since I'm dragging my sister along with me and I won't be having a sex life for the next 10 years or so, and the only income I'm relying on is my own, I'm going cheap on myself so that I can save money for college. Sounds like a plan. Oh boy... I need to start checking the newspapers.

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So yeah, I'll be back... when I can afford a computer.. Ciao!

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]]> ~ceah and it only gets suckier! http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3242271/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3242271/ Sun, 29 Aug 2004 19:46:49 PDT [link] <-- my stock

I'll be hibernating, wake me up when the aliens take over.. please! Or at least wake me up when the Democrats take over the house again...

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Ladies and gents, it has come to my attention that I might have to go on another Hiatus. Hopefully, it won't be a year like last time but this time, it's for a legitimate reason.

Life at home has become so chaotic, I've been listening to the Christian station for "positive and encouraging" blah blah and I don't think I've found it yet. The asylum won't help me, darn it... My brain is so scrambled...

FYI, I've been sleeping on the couch and I tell you, now I think I know why some people have a hump on their backs (no offense to anyone). My neck and my back hurts so bad.. I need a massage really badly. I need a drink too. Anyone care to treat me to a bar?

Besides all this shit that's going on, I'm feeling emotional drained. I feel numb, I feel depressed, I feel sad, I feel frustrated, I feel like my

is breaking. For those who know my situation, I know I'm doing the right thing. Very few people know my situation right now and soon, I say about, oohh.. in a week, everyone whom I know personally will know too.

I'll be in and out for now. My PC just caught a virus so I can't access any of my files so I probably won't submit any new deviations any time soon.

. I still have to go through the 400+ shots.

Thank you everyone for all your support. Sorry WATCHES if I haven't comment much on your deviation's but I've seen the thumbnails and I like 'em all.

I'll keep in touch!

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]]> ~ceah exhausted! http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3184182/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3184182/ Sun, 22 Aug 2004 00:28:55 PDT [link] <-- my stock

Well, I'm not feeling psychotic anymore,

I guess that's a good thing !?!

I am exhausted though- went clubbing last night, took a whole bunch of shots and all these other stuff, didn't sleep until 4AM, woke up at 7 AM (WTF?) I'm so friggin tired.

I spent the whole day at the beach for the airshow, which I wasn't even paying attention at all. I ran around most of the time, took some 200 shots of whatever that caught my eye.

I've submitted a few for deviations but damn, I got another 200 to go through from the week before... jeez, some 400+ shots to scruff through..

EEsh!

Not to mention I'm still in my bathing suit... I still haven't changed... Which also reminds me, I need to change my webcam.. Gah, too tired, will do it tomorrow...

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In other news, I think I'm really going to burn in hell.

I mean before, I just thought that I'd just..go to hell. Now, I'm gonna burn. Jeez, how fun is that!

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]]> ~ceah psycho! http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3143749/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3143749/ Tue, 17 Aug 2004 00:12:57 PDT [link] <-- my stock

I guess I'm off to the psyche ward. I've legally declared myself insane.

If I don't, I will literally hurt myself.

I promised myself that I wouldn't let it affect my only sanctuary. Apparently, it's creeping it's way in and I don't know how to stop it. I can't escape it, I can't break it.. it must be my fate.

it tears at my throat
it tears at my skin
everywhere i go
it continues to suck my life thin

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]]> ~ceah This weekend- update http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3136318/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3136318/ Mon, 16 Aug 2004 15:10:19 PDT [link] <-- my stock

Downtown was fun.. went down to Millennium park and Grant Part. I took loads of pictures but I probably won't submit anything until my pc is fixed.. Freaken damn motherboard is not here yet..

. Oh yeah, I finally saw that "Bean" everyone is talking about. Awesome bean I tell you, you should go see it yourself. I was down there for 9 hours I think, did a lot of walking. I will be officially sore for the next couple of days for walking... and for other stuff too. LOL. But damn I tell you, it's worth all the pain.

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I also saw "Hero", the movie with Jet Li. I know, that movie isn't out in theaters yet but... I tell you, sorry to be a movie-buster but, that movie was eh-eh. The setting, the scenery, the colored scenes.. from black, red, blue, white, yellow, green.. blah blah, it was awesome. The ending, it leaves you with a "WTF?" look on your face. The choregraphs and fight scenes were awesome, beautifully done I tell you. And the movie had this water-dropped thinging about it. The way it showed water and it's effects were.. whoa! I probably wouldn't watch the movie again. It's one of those one-time movie thingamajigs. So yeah people, go out and watch that movie for it's good effects, but not for the storyline. I get the storyline but still, I was disappointed.

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]]> ~ceah This weekend... http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3108782/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3108782/ Thu, 12 Aug 2004 14:50:44 PDT [link] <-- my stock

I'm planning to head back down to Chicago again this Saturday. I'm not going to stay another 11 hours and get burn again but, only for a few hours. I don't even know where I wanna start this time but... I might end up walking from Navy Pier to the Art Institute or whatever... The weather might be bad but oh well, I really need some new inspiration and some time to sort some things over.

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I'm sorry if I haven't posted any new deviations, yes, it's a rare thing for me this time around but my pc is broken so, until it's fixed, I can't do anything about it. All my photographs and programs are in that freaken computer... Jeez, you would think that with 3 computers, they'd all work.. yeah right.

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In other boring news, I've written a new poem.. YES, another one but I like this one the most. I guess it's because it means so much to me at this moment. I've edited it a couple of million times and I *think I'm finally happy with it. I was going to post this one as a deviation but decided not to due to personal issues. Just a side note- I've used "Art" as a metaphor so free to intrepet it any way you want. I hope you guys will like it to...

-my art-

my art is my heart
it is what keeps me sane
it is what sets me apart
from being vain
it is the only part of me
i have left that is true
it is all that i see
it is all that i do
my heart belongs to it
and it belongs to my heart
you will not tear it to pieces
you will not break it apart
damage me if you must
torture me in chains
and leave me to die in dust
i'd rather feel pain
just don't take it away
it is all that i have
it is all that i'm trying to save
it is my link, it is who i am
my art is my heart
my art is my mate
if ever you and i shall part
in my heart, there it will still remain

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]]> ~ceah "i know no more" http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3095693/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3095693/ Tue, 10 Aug 2004 23:33:51 PDT [link] <-- my stock

Listen up people, I've written a new poem.. Tell me what you think..

i knew when i loved you
but now i know not
they say with times comes virtue
the truth, i've forgot

Days I have wondered
where the time has gone
i know no more
than from where i've begun

what lies within me
i understand no more
what has become of me
i know no more

trapped, against my will
my heart breaks
but i can't stay still
no, i have to escape

it's no longer a dream
a dream of what i thought
i know only to be free
it was you all along, i love not

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]]> ~ceah partners in crime http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3082831/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3082831/ Mon, 09 Aug 2004 17:54:22 PDT [link] <-- my stock

so yeah, i've been chatting a lot w/ the new version and i've met a couple of criminals like myself. i'd like to say HI to them:

- next time, don't fall asleep

- the orgy's have been fun!

- thanks for participating

- you want the pole next time?

- no camera for you next time

- don't ever steal my camera again!

- i hope Death rejects you again

- give it up

- still having writer's block?

- buy me a ticket to nz please!

- my fello chicago deviant!

- have a

- thanks for joining me on my rampage

- haw haw! we meet again!

- where's fido?

- *throws spanky's carcass at you*

- i'm gonna bring my machete this time!

~ceah a poem... http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3065059/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3065059/ Sat, 07 Aug 2004 10:18:56 PDT [link] <-- my stock

twas very depressed at work yesterday... so, i spent the last few hours drowning my sorrows in a poem and it goes something like this... remember, i haven't written a poem in some 7 years and this is my first one so, sorry if it sounds like shit...

so many times a day
so many grief turns my way
better me than they, i'd say
hope seems to fail anyway
to walk in shadows
day in, day out, full of sorrows
they can't hear me, rescue me
only me, myself, left to bleed
every which way i head
it's there, drowned in darkness ahead
waiting for me, searching for me
hidden so deep, i can't see
the need to escape, to breathe
it hurts, it haunts when i dream
crowded in fear, i'm alone
i'm alone, i'm always alone
so many times a day
i close my eyes to pray
never let me go, hold me tight
be there always, be my light

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]]> ~ceah old stuff... http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3010842/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/3010842/ Sat, 31 Jul 2004 12:02:48 PDT [link] <-- my stock

Guess you can say I've been putting up old stuff, not too bad I guess. I'm happy with their outcome, just wished I could've put them up a long time ago instead of now

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Can't think of anything to say right now. I'm just bored out of my head- need some new inspiration.. any ideas?

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]]> ~ceah ... http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/2929048/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/2929048/ Tue, 20 Jul 2004 20:34:38 PDT [link] <-- my stock

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]]> ~ceah looking for http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/2899164/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/2899164/ Sat, 17 Jul 2004 04:58:05 PDT
* .45x 52mm wide angle lens
* .42x fish eye wide angle lens
* 52mm polarizer filter lens

* Adapter rings & tubes would be nice too

Anyone know any good sites I can compare prices with? The only place I've found so far is Ebay.

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Oh YAH! Visit [link] for my stocks, I'm slowly uploading them

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]]> ~ceah many thanks http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/2856955/ http://ceah.deviantart.com/journal/2856955/ Sun, 11 Jul 2004 15:03:14 PDT to everyone who commented on my last entry. And yes, I won't give it in to them! I will march into work tomorrow and tell them that I felt sad, sympathetic, and emotional but I will not fake it!

Wow, I've finally reached the 5000 mark. Woohoo

, not bad for being off mostly for nearly a year and then actually coming back 1 1/2 month's later. Not bad at all my friends. Thanks to you all

Since then, I've added twice my previous watches and comments and all. I'm being watched by some 60 more deviants (whoa!) I wished I had more to show you guys but with a fulltime job and lack of money to buy the lenses I need, the only place I've been is my garden

for them macro shots.

I know you're probably all getting bored of them already so I'm thinking of going into something new. Photo manips- sound 's now that I think of it. I love playing around in PS. Vectors- nah, as lazy as I am, I never did finish that one vector a year ago. It's somewhere in a folder that I've probably deleted. Freehand drawing- oh dear lord, haven't done that in 5 years or so, though I have been drawing 4th grade drawings for my dept at work, cats, dogs, clowns, the whole 9 yards. 3D art- nah, like vectors, I'm just too lazy to get off my ass... I need new inspirations.

Many thanks to