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I'm just hoping for some sort of feedback...

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/27406315/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/27406315/ Fri, 25 Sep 2009 09:08:14 PDT 2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write down the name of the song no matter how silly it sounds!
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Tag at least 3 friends.
6. Anyone tagged has to do the same, because pointless fun spreads like a virus.



If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
Eva~ Nightwish
[dunno, really.]

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Hear Me~ Kelly Clarkson
[apparently someone who will listen]

How do you feel today?
An Deiner Seite (Ich bin da)~ Tokio Hotel
[I dunno, I guess that would be supportive? Quoting the English version, "Turn around,I am here. If you want it's me you'll see."]

What is your life's purpose?
Broken~ Seether/Amy Lee
[??]

What is your motto?
Unspoken~ Lacuna Coil
[an unspoken motto is kind of cool]

What do your friends think of you?
No One~ Aly & AJ
[awww, sad]

What do you think of your parents?
All I Need~ Within Temptation
[hmmm. Oddly specific, but I do need more than my parents...]

What do you think about very often?
Bring Me To Life~ Evanescence
[someone to "wake me up inside" lawl]

What's 2+2?
Unendlichkeit~ Tokio Hotel
[ Funny because unendlichkeit means infinity! lol]

What do you think of your best friend?
When I Get Home~ The Beatles
[o.O huh?]

What do you think of the person you like?
Where Is Your Heart~ Kelly Clarkson
[hahaha I don't like anybody right now. But if I did, this would be funny.]

What is your life's story?
Monsoon~ Tokio Hotel
[yup, ever since TH entered my life, it's been one of my favorite songs.]

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Gone Forever~ Three Days Grace
[That's kind of depressing, actually. I don't want that.]

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Good Enough~ Evanescence
[hahaha just from the title it's funny but considering the amazingness of the song, that's a pretty good description. For my love of Bill Kaulitz, haha!]

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Born Like This~ Three Days Grace
[YES. Lots of thrashing dance. I'd love to have 3DG songs at my wedding!]

What will they play at your funeral?
Don't Go Soft~ The Vincent Black Shadow
[ Yes, morbid cabaret-rock FTW. "Don't go soft on breaking my heart, you're like rust I'm falling apart tonight."]


What is your hobby/interest?
Your Daddy's Son~ Ragtime Soundtrack
[o.O really? lol]

What is your biggest fear?
San Francisco~ Vanessa Carlton
[Hehehehehe California. Not a fear, but I think I'm better off without it.]

What is your biggest secret?
Sticks and Stones~ Aly & AJ
[? I don't think that's a secret. Good song, though. "Why don't they understand that someone else's pain is not for gain.... Sticks and stones won't break my soul, get out of the way I'm invincible..."]

What do you think of your friends?
You Like Me Too Much~ The Beatles
[ Haha seriously I'm not as cool as some people think I am. But whatever, I'm not complaining.]

How would you describe yourself?
Prince~ Vanessa Carlton
[OMG Such a good song. Not a good description though.]

What will you post this as?
Imaginary~ Evanescence (The original version, btw)
[The goddess of imaginary light... Love this song.]

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/27376804/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/27376804/ Wed, 23 Sep 2009 14:58:34 PDT
Please, if you're reading this, can you give me some ideas to jumpstart my writing back up? If you want to see it again, I mean. :sigh: I'm busy with school stuff, but I find that's when I'm most inspired, when I'm trying to get away from school work. A distraction, an escape.

So, please? Maybe if there's something you want me to write, whether a fanfic or of my own (decaying) characters I haven't used in forever.




.....

Yeah.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/26321006/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/26321006/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 15:44:13 PDT
[x] - You like cheese.
[ ] - You hate peanuts.
[x] - You agree that this quiz is random.
[x] - You have farted today.
[x] - You have choked on something.
[x] - You are a writer.
[] - You smoke.
[] - You like to swim.
[x] - You have farted more than once today.
[x] - You like ice cream.

TOTAL SO FAR = 7

[x] - You have lied more than 10 times.
[ ] - You are an only child.
[ ] - You have more than 3 pets.
[ ] - You prefer water to other drinks.
[ ] - You are an alcoholic.
[x] - You are under 20 years old.
[ ] - You are over 30 years old.
[] - You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[x] - You like jewelry.
[x] - Your favorite music genre is rock.

TOTAL SO FAR = 11

[ ] - You weigh more than 140 lbs.
[x] - You like pirates.
[x] - You like anime.
[x] - You are a fangirl/fanboy of something.
[ ] - You take a prescription drug every day.
[] - You have a job.
[x] - You live with your parents.
[] - You like to eat eggs.
[x] - You have a religion.
[x] - You dress stranger than other people.

TOTAL SO FAR = 17

[] - You have had diarrhea in the past 2 weeks.
[x] - You have eaten something odd before.
[x] - You are bad at math.
[x] - You love electronics.
[] - Someone/something has pissed you off in the past week.
[] - You cuss a lot.
[x] - You believe in aliens.
[x] - You play video games.
[ ] - You have low self-esteem.
[x] - You carry a purse.

TOTAL SO FAR = 23

[x] - You like flowers.
[] - You are bisexual or homosexual.
[ ] - You are a Capricorn or a Scorpio.
[] - You have used tarot before.
[x] - You believe in ghosts.
[ ] - You think *The-Fun-Group is awesome.
[ ] - You like =Fotus9's horoscopes better than *An-Unsure-Thing's.
[ ] - You thought today's funny saying was really funny.
[ ] - You have gotten one of the daily riddles right.
[] - You have gotten in/came close to being in a fist fight.

TOTAL SO FAR = 25

[] - You like fire.
[] - You have fainted or passed out before.
[x] - You have a high school diploma.
[x] - You live in America.
[ ] - You use hand sanitizer a lot.
[] - You consider yourself a nerd.
[ ] - You have tried chewing tobacco.
[ ] - You are a conspiracy theorist.
[] - You sleep in the nude.

TOTAL SO FAR = 27

[x] - You have imagined yourself being famous.
[x] - You own a stuffed animal.
[x] - You like watermelon.
[ ] - You live in Europe.
[] - You have a fetish for something.
[x] - You fidget a lot.
[x] - You agree that this quiz has nothing to do with anything.
[ ] - You won't re-post this quiz.
[x] - You have your own personal computer and don't share one.
[] - You have a brother.

TOTAL SO FAR = 33

[] - You can cook well.
[] - You like to party.
[x] - You are a bad dancer.
[ ] - You are a professional dancer.
[x] - You have crossed paths with a black cat.
[x] - You have a friend that you think is crazy.
[x] - You have under 10 good, close friends.
[x] - You are anticipating your answer to this quiz.
[] - You have run away from something.
[] - You have watched the movie: "X Men 3".

TOTAL SO FAR = 38

[] - You like to mix soft drinks together.
[] - You have done an odd experiment.
[x] - People have stared at you oddly in public.
[x] - Your grandmother(s) are still alive.
[ ] - You have a step-mom or dad.
[ ] - You hate to be tagged.
[ ] - You have been a member to dA for under 3 months.
[] - You have a dA subscription.
[] - Your hair is brown.
[x] - You love to eat candy.

TOTAL SO FAR = 41

[x] - You have dressed up for Halloween.
[x] - You love cats.
[x] - You have a quirky personality.
[] - You are a coffee addict.
[] - You live near a body of water.
[x] - You have had a toothache.
[x] - You currently have to go to the bathroom.
[] - You like reading others' answers to "What would you do?".
[ ] - You are a vegetarian/vegan.
[x] - You use the term: "Epic Fail".

GRAND TOTAL = 47

0-25 = A spaceship.
26 = Corn.
27 = The Chosen One.
28 = A donkey.
29 = Flashlight.
30 = Weed.
31 = Stalker.
32 = Poodle.
33 = A turd.
34 = Pacifier.
35 = Chili.
36 = A continent.
37 = Bamboo.
38 = A Nissan Skyline.
39 = Pedophile.
40 = A rather large and smelly fish.
41 = Parachute.
42 = Mob of angry sheep.
43 = A clone of yourself.
44 = A mortified chocolate deer antler.
45 = Pincushion.
46 = Toilet seat.
47 = Ninja. ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/25804968/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/25804968/ Tue, 07 Jul 2009 20:16:51 PDT Ouuhh, boy 8'DD


1. Do you sleep in your bra?:
*nods* Guilty.

2. Do you enjoy drama?:
Uhm... I generally dislike drama, unless it's on TV!

3. Are you a girly girl?:
Not really... I just like my makeup.

4. Who was the last person you hugged?:
Gabby

5. Small or large purses?:
Whatever strikes me at the time I buy it.

6. Are you short?:
Hey, short people are cute. <3

7. Do you like somebody:
Nah, I'm taking a summer off. Haha.

8. What would you do if someone smacked your butt?:
Turn around and get right up in their face. EXCUSE ME?!?!?!

9. Do you care if your socks are dirty?:
Nah.

10. Do you dress up on Halloween?:
Always! I love dressing up, especially things that aren't your typical Halloween costume. *coughBILLcough*

11. Are you double jointed?:
No.

12. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?:
In a church?

13. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?:
Nein.

14. Is there of rumor going around about you?:
I'm not cool enough to have rumors spread about me.

15. Do you call anybody by their last name?:
No, though sometimes people call me by my last name...

16. How many guys will read this just because it says "Girl Confessions"?:
Why do I care?

"X" Marks the Spot:
[x] I do wear make up.
[] I have cried at a movie theater.
[x] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth. (It's really not that hard!)
[x] I get jealous.
[x] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[x] I love to laugh.
[] I like death/grind/black metal.
[] I like rap.
[] I like country
[x] I carry a purse.
[x] I’d be lost without my computer.
[x] I own a Spice Girls CD.
[x] I own a Britney Spears CD.(Yikes, I better get rid of them!)
[x] I own a boy band CD.
[x] I get bored watching football.
[] I’ve never been called a spoiled brat.
[x] Guys are confusing.
[] I’ve been called a bad influence.
[] I have/had a piercing other than my ears.

Come on ladies, be truthful!
1. What color is your bra that your wearing?:
Blue/tan

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?:
Dark-haired. Blondes just don't appeal to me.

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?:
Don't think so. No.

4. Do you have a best friend(s)?:
A few.

5. Have you ever had your heart broken?:
No, but I get to experience it through my character in the musical!

6. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?:
No. That'd be weird.

7. Do you like your life?:
Mostly. There are some bits I'd like to change, but overall I'm content.

8. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?:
What boyfriend? Haha

9. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?:
Hey, just last weekend! lol It was fun.

10. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?:
Girls

11. How long have you had Facebook?:
Since May, I think? *scratches head*

12. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?:
Haha, yes! In the musical I get to slap Ethan!

13. What are your biggest fears?:
Being ignored and being alone.

14. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?:
A few times, though I don't remember why..

15. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?:
Ohh, only Bill.

16. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater”?:
Possibly. I've never really had experience with this, so I dunno.

17. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?:
Yeah, but I don't remember.

18. Do you ever wish you were famous?:
Half of the time I'm awake. *sigh*

19. Are you currently missing someone?:
No, because Caitlin is back in the USA!!!


This guy or that guy? Pick one.

Punk/Goth or Gangster?:
Punk/Goth for sure

Preppy or Cowboy?:
Cowboy... And that's stretching it.

Face or Body?:
Hmm, face.

Sweet or Sexy?:
Either.

Well-educated or Dropout?:
Can they be a well-educated dropout or am I asking for too much?

Armani or Abercrombie?:
Armani, I hate Abercrombie. *big stabby smilie*

City-slicker or Rural Guy?:
Rural guy who I can relate to.

Blue, green, grey, or brown eyes?:
Brown. http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/24550788/ Sat, 02 May 2009 15:38:20 PDT
Anyway, back to the pic. It's breathtaking. Check it out.
[link]


In a few minutes I'm gonna get offline and start drawing Bill (the twin on the right ). I'm contemplating whether or not to use charcoal. *shrug* If that doesn't work, I'll just do it in pencil.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/23067723/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/23067723/ Sat, 07 Feb 2009 18:32:06 PST
I've got some other finished stuff that needs to be uploaded, so I'll probably do that tomorrow sometime.

Other news: My parents turned into other people yesterday. It was very strange. My mother was out getting her hair cut when I got home, so it was just me and my sister for several hours...
But around 5:30 or 6:00, my dad comes home without the van... Why? Because he bought A SPORTS CAR. *faint* He's been lusting after it for a few months now, and he bought it used, but just barely. You can't even tell that someone had it before him. It even still has the new car smell. *dies* But it's a two seater and it roars down the road. It makes me nervous, haha. I'm such a spazz when any vehicle is loud, I get paranoid like I'm gonna die. But ohhhhh, you should see his car, it's the cutest thing you'll ever see. And somehow fierce, too, like a panther or some other wild, ferocious cat. It's great.

And then, just when I thought I'd seen everything, my mother comes home with an edgy haircut completely different from before. It was like Mom version 2.0 or something. She looks a lot different, but younger, it seems. It's still kind of strange, but I'm happy for her. It looks good and it's not boring.

And then there's me. I haven't changed much, excpet for falling even more for Bill Kaulitz. I got the Zimmer 483 DVD the other day, the one I won in a contest??? and watched it. *faint* I need to go to a TH concert even more now than before. It's like something I absolutely HAVE TO DO. No ifs, ands, or buts. I simply have to. It's one of my life goals. See Tokio Hotel in concert. There are some other Bill-related ones, too, but I'm sure you don't want to hear about that right now. lol

And yes, I realize I said nothing about my sister. I just don't have anything to say. Same old, same old...

Well, until we meet again... (LOL I literally typed 'wir' instead of we, and then went back and fixed it...)

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/22850535/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/22850535/ Tue, 27 Jan 2009 18:51:53 PST
But in other news: I'll be performing in my school's production of Beauty and the Beast, which sadly I did not get cast as the lead as I and some others hoped. *sigh* But, nevertheless, I will have a good time and make it fun for others. It's going to be good, or at least it had better be or I'll beat up whoever messes it up. This is my year, it had better be a good show.

Hmmm.... other news... I won a Tokio Hotel DVD a few weeks ago on the fanclub forum, and now I'm just waiting until they send it to me!!! I was so excited to win, you have no idea. See, we had this Crossword Puzzle Contest and if you filled it out correctly and sent it in to the admins by a certain date you would be entered to win one of ten prizes. The first winner picked, then, chose their prize out of the list, and then the second winner chose, and so on and so on. Anyway, I was winner number 10, so whatever prize was left was the one I would get. I was positive I would get what the others didn't want-- i.e. the smaller prizes (notebooks, magazines)... But when it came time for my decision (because someone had passed on getting a prize), the two that were left were: a magazine with a TH article in it, and the Zimmer 483 Live DVD that I had been wanting all along, but not expecting to get. I had figured someone else would've snatched it up quickly. But alas, it was destiny that joined me and my DVD together. Well, not yet. But it should get here sometime.

Enough blathering on for tonight. I haven't got any new drawings, but a few sketches, so if I'm bored tomorrow I'll put 'em up. See you then.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/22139418/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/22139418/ Tue, 23 Dec 2008 10:54:08 PST



I got accepted to Knox College!!!!! yes, Knox, in Galesburg Illinois, where Abraham Lincoln debated with Douglas and 'went through college' through the window!!!

Plus, I got $12,000 in scholarships! WOOT!!!!!!!! Per year!!!

I'm gonna go dance now. *spazzes*

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/21712424/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/21712424/ Fri, 28 Nov 2008 09:12:55 PST
I'm not sure what order I had these dreams (there are two, I think), so I'll tell the shorter one first. It's much less complex. I almost forgot about it, but as I was writing out what happened in the other one, I suddenly remembered it.

First off, it was like I was Buffy the Vampire Slayer, or at least very similar: I was strong, agile, and kick-ass. There were two ancient vampires who had just awoken from a long sleep, for some reason, and they were after me. I beat them up but they got away. Then I was chasing two female vamps through my high school. In the bathroom, I kicked them into the stalls, kicked the doors in their faces, and repeated for awhile until they were soundly beat up. Then I guess it bled into the next dream...

One of my dad's old bands was rehearsing outside, across the street from my house. For some reason there were 7-10 people in this band, and all were singing. And as choreography, one person not in the band started running down the sidewalk. Then another person appeared and started off on a path leading somewhere else. Soon there were people running all over the place, but orderly somehow. Anyway, I took off after one person because I didn't want to get caught in all that mess, and this path led into a park. I met Ilene and her mom, but Ilene was mad at me for not going to Church, so I ran to a picnic table where my mom and some guy from Church were giving out hot dogs. I wanted one, but they were out of buns. THe park was like a fair now, and I saw Sarah Wadi working at a food booth, and then Rachael Deyo came up to me and we talked a little bit. For some reason, me and some people then went to the mall, to a GAP store which was so very tiny inside and had boring colored clothes. THey were just closing as we got there, and I realized that one of the people with me was from St. Ed's (a Catholic school in my town) because there were bags labeled "Nice clothes" (I guess to put your nice clothes in while you tried stuff on so no one took your clothes), and this girl took one, and I noticed she was wearing a school uniform. Then GAP closed and we went back into the mall, and I asked aloud what stores weren't closed. Ethan appeared out of nowhere and said "Nothing" and then said something about a weird movie. My mom, my sister and I wandered through the mall to some arcade, sat down and played games. Mine turned out to be an airplane pilot game (where you have the controls and there's a big screen, and foot pedals, etc.). Then I was in the game, and I didn't know how to control the plane at all. Then I flew over the water and then the beach. There were a few little kids there and their mom said "Where should a plane fly lower-- water or the beach?" The kids said the water, so I pulled up over the beach so I didn't hit them. Then it was like a commercial, because one kid had sand all over him and there was like Garnier stuff to wash it off. I honestly don't know how my brain works like it does. Anyway, then I flew back and around the same area for a while til it got boring. Then I pushed some random buttons until the game quit... My sister's friend, Emily, said something about someone getting sued for copying the route of the pilot game's demo... We all got up and my mom was playing a 'T-Rex' game. I said, "Oh, I would have played that instead" if I had known it was there. But she said that that wasn't really what she was playing. I looked at the screen and she's playing some Mafia game, but they're Mafia dinosaurs, with fedoras and everything. The dream ended with me saying something like "Mafia dino dinosaurs" and then realizing that 'dino' is the same as dinosaur.

I woke up and went, WTF?!?!?!

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/21393363/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/21393363/ Sat, 08 Nov 2008 18:31:52 PST
Anyway, these past four days I have been at a retreat with sixty-five others of my senior class in an old Boy Scouts camp, without cell phone, computer, or mp3 player. No form of outside communication, and completely no idea of the time. I thought it was dumb, at first, that we couldn't know what the time was. The retreat leaders didn't want us to think of the retreat in hours or minutes or anything. They wanted it to all blend together, a smudge of understanding in our brains. And I have to admit, it was kind of relaxing to not be constantly looking at the clock. I am one of those people who freak out when there isn't a clock in the room. I must always know what time it is. Maybe I'm afraid I'll be late for something, or that I have to do something before a certain time. It's kind of a paranoia, and also kind of an organization. But it was still good to get away from. It's like time stopped for those four days, and it didn't matter when anything went on. It just did. The retreat has been a big experience for me and I am eternally glad that I took part. The retreat was not just for my own gain, it was for everyone's gain as a whole. If my class can know each other so well, maybe we won't tear each other apart in the halls, and maybe we won't be the typical senior class that everyone resents being part of. I wish I could express this idea better, but I'm pretty tired and waiting for a call about a ride to Buffalo Wild Wings to meet all my new retreat friends. Hah. We spent four days together, and once it was over we planned a time to get back together, not after even six hours apart. I think that is really amazing. For once I have hope in humanity, or at least this group of people. I wish that the rest of my senior class would attend the spring retreat, because I know that everyone can grow from it. I know I'm not very good at writing blurbs like this: I ramble on too much. I get distracted and the point gets lost, resurfaces, and fades. But I just feel like I should share the little I can of my experience with you. It's a part of me that I want to show. And I never want to forget it.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/20951084/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/20951084/ Sun, 12 Oct 2008 10:13:16 PDT
I'm in the process of writing an essay for college applications, bear with me. (And wish me luck!) lol I've got an essay I wrote just to get the juices flowing, I might upload that one here.

In other news? I might be getting a car. TODAY. I'm super excited, we're going to look at it and hopefully I'll get it. It's in good shape, black, only had one owner, and not ugly or dumb-looking. I will put up a picture if I get it.

I don't feel like writing anything else, except that I am MUCHO sad because I can't go to the Tokio Hotel concert in Ohio. Les parents say it's too far away and I would miss too much school. But really, what's two days when I'm not absent otherwise? *groan* I really need some Tokio Hotel merch, *hint hint* so if you're wondering what to get me for Christmas... Or Halloween, if you feel you should give me presents for the second-best holiday in eternity... lol

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/20168313/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/20168313/ Tue, 26 Aug 2008 14:18:10 PDT
Anyway, I like this portion of my story so far:
The wind howled through the forest, ravaging the trees and bursting through window panes. Rain splashed into the old house, and the old, wooden staircase groaned in exhaustion. All around me, things began to melt, as if some heat I couldn’t feel was reducing everything to drippy, gloppy puddles. Suddenly I knew what was going on. The goddess of rock had arrived. In she stepped, through the doorless frame, belting a string of notes that scared me into submission and made me ache for more. I couldn’t believe it. Amy Hartzler, formerly Amy Lee, in my house. I couldn’t contain my surprise and instant joy. But before I could scream, who would sneak in but Angel, the vampiric love of my life, the reason for my existence. That is to say, completely fictional.

Basically, the Creative Writing assignment is to write about any three people that come to dinner, and their interactions and such. I have chosen Amy Lee (obvious), Angel, and I'm still not sure of the third. I have considered one of my favorite authors, but I still haven't decided.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/20062029/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/20062029/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 14:56:11 PDT
This morning in the wee hours, I had a VERY interesting dream. The second Twilight dream I've had since Breaking Dawn. Except this contains spoilers, for those of you who HAVEN'T FINISHED IT YET. SPOILER ALERT!!! Turn back now or forever hold your peas.

I awoke and immediately told myself to remember everything that happened. It was like I was reading the book or imagining it or something, but it was vivid and the characters had speaking roles this time! The most I can remember is that Bella is going through the transformation, but it's more like a period (you know what I mean) and a gradual thing, unlike in BD. Bella and Edward are basically living outside, because she causes a lot of destruction or something. I remember they were in his car, just sitting and all of a sudden she shudders and moans, orgasm-like, and the car shakes. Apparently the transformation is... different in my dream. And Edward frowns and says, "No. No more orgasms." NOT EVEN KIDDING, he said that in my dream.
And then later it is apparent that Angela (not Jessica for some reason) is keeping in touch with Bella, coming over to the Cullen house and talking to her. That's all I remember, but it was wonderful. I woke up at 2:51 and thought about it so much that it took a half hour to go back to sleep.

Today I wrote a story about a vampire in Creative Writing. A one-pager but hopefully a good grade. We had to use similes and metaphors (puh-lease!). I'm pretty sure I'm more creative than most of the class. (How hard is it to surpass Chris Razo, Rob Wolter, and Colin Ratcliff? Not hard at all.) For some reason I expected more out of this course. *shrug* Oh well.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/20000779/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/20000779/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 08:38:49 PDT Jinx Stratus (my mom's car actually)

YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fave ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)
Vanilla Chocolate Chip

YOUR “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name)
K. Jon

YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Black Cat

YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Nicole Peoria

YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first)
Jon Ke

SUPERHERO NAME (”The” + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink)
The Red Root Beer

NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)
Glenn Ronald Marshall (I have three grandfathers)

STRIPPER NAME: (the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy)
Lavender Chuckles

WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle names)
Ann Glenn

TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 5th grade teacher’s last name, a major city that starts with the same letter)
Merdian Milwaukee

SPY NAME/BOND GIRL: (your favorite season/holiday, flowers)
Winter Iris

CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now + “ie” or “y”
Strawberry Camisoley

HIPPY NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree)
Poptart Pine

YOUR ROCKSTAR ENTOURAGE NAME: (”The” + Your fave hobby/craft, fave weather element + “Tour”
The Drawing Snow Tour

YOUR PORN NAME: (First Pet + Name of street you grew up on)
Jinx Wonderview

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19948972/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19948972/ Thu, 14 Aug 2008 08:52:16 PDT )

Homeroom: Gribble (as always)

First Semester:
2A: Foods
3A: Creative Writing (I don't know the teacher, Ms. Harris)
4A: PE II (guess they couldn't get me into Individual Sports either semester)
5A: French IV Honors

2B: Photography (Curry)
3B: Writing for College
4B: TA for Mrs. Dorough!!!
5B: IVC Chorale YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYY!!!

Second Semester:
2A: Mythology (Heth!!!)
3A: Consumer Ed (bleh)
4A: IVC Chorale (yay)
5A: French IV Honors

2B: PE II
3B: 2-d Computer Design & Graphics (my only class with Mr. Gray )
4B: Human Behavior (excited for this, too!)
5B: TA for Mrs. Campagna!!!

Okay, onto the news of last week: I am officially assistant director to the Junior High musical Once On This Island, which is about a poor island orphan girl who wants a rich man to marry her, and once she saves his life, the island gods are shocked and demand her life for saving his. It really is fun and yet one scene is so heartwrenching it gives me goosebumps. So if you're one of my towny friends (lol) you'd better come see it. Or I will FIND YOU.

Yesterday my dad got this Verizon modem thing, and supposedly we have some sort of broadband now, except it needs a reception signal, which it's struggling to get out here in the middle of nowhere. And I can't watch any Youtube videos, we're only allowed so many GBs a month.

This morning I had the weirdest dream ever. It started out with me, my mom, and Mrs. Dorough trying to find a crown for my outfit at the Madrigal Dinner. And then in my room I found this wig thing that had a crown on it, except it was this HUGE wig that was way redder than my hair and a lot shorter. It reminded me of Geri Halliwell, Ginger Spice. There was also this small gold crown in my room, but nothing happened with that. Anyway I complained about the wig and Mrs. Dorough said she wanted me to cut my hair! Man, even in dreams I freak out. NO ONE tells me to cut my hair. And this isn't even the weird part.
Then suddenly I'm at my grandma's house or something, with some friends I don't know, and I was walking to the bathroom and someone was coming with me, and suddenly this bathroom is HUGE with two toilets out in the open, and a few stalls in back. So, of course, we go to the two out on the floor, but one is in front of the other so we can't see each other. And then all these PEOPLE start coming in, and I'm supposed to be getting home or something, so once I'm done I escape through a door in the bathroom to the outside, and that's all I remember.

Then I wake up and have to pee.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19948690/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19948690/ Thu, 14 Aug 2008 08:31:57 PDT

[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking.

[] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.

[] You have ran into a glass/screen door.

[ ] You have jumped out/off of a moving vehicle.

[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed out loud, then people gave you weird looks (ALL THE TIME)

[] You have ran into a tree.

[ ] It is possible to lick your elbow.

[] You just tried to lick your elbow.

[ ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm.

[ ] You just tried to sing them.

[] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.

[x ] You have choked on your own spit.

[] You have seen the the Matrix and still don't get it.

[x] You didn't notice that in the last question "the" was spelled twice.

[x] You just looked at it. lol.

[] Your hair is blonde/dirty blonde.

[x] People have called you slow.

[] You have accidentally caught something on fire.

[] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.

[x] You have caught yourself drooling. (Actually sometimes if I'm singing around the house and I bend down to get something on the floor... it's really bad.)

[ ] You've fallen asleep in class.

[ ] If someone says "fart" you laugh.

[ ] Sometimes you just stop thinking.

[x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about. (I forget what I'm saying all the time... it's bad)

[x] People shake their heads and walk away from you.

[ ] You are often told to use your "inside voice".

[x] You use your fingers to do simple math. (only if it includes eights. I don't know why, eights just confound me.)

[ ] You have eaten a bug.

[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something important. (Meh. Probably. Need to shower, rehearse, etc.)

[ ] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.

[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand, hair or pocket. (Haha. Just last week, I was looking for my phone, searching through my purse and under the seat, and then I remembered it was in my jacket pocket, which was on me!)

[ ] You sometimes post bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don't even when you know it won't happen to you.

[ ] You break a lot of things.

[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you.

[x] You sometimes tilt your head when you're confused.(Only to look cute. )

[x] You have fallen out of your chair before. (I seem to remember some of that in eighth grade, with those desks.)

[ ] When you're laying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling.

[x] The word "umm" is used many times a day.

Okay, so only sixteen. I'm not that dumb. I think there was supposed to be a scale for this, but it wasn't on the journal I copied, so... I'll post up another journal about my dream and some other stuff.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19814363/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19814363/ Wed, 06 Aug 2008 18:34:25 PDT

1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
'"mean, waited so long? I just got en-en..."-- I'd been'--- Breaking Dawn

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
lol, I touched a tapestry thing.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
I think it was iCarly.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
8:04 pm

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
8:06 pm!

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
Amy Winehouse, metal noises from the kitchen, the fan

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
I was outside last night about 8:59, when I got home from Kroger.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Kingdom of Loathing.

9. What are you wearing?
A shirt from a youth mission trip and black shorts.

10. Did you dream last night?
No, I don't think so.

11. When did you last laugh?
Yesterday, I think. I didn't do much today to laugh at.

12. What are on the walls where you are?
A tapestry thing, a painting reproduction, and an air vent.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
My sister's friend Michael... lol

14. What do you think of this quiz?
It's not horrible.

15. What is the last film you saw?
Are we speaking whole films, or just in general? Because I watched part of Pride and Prejudice today, but only five minutes.

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
A mansion. Or maybe a cave. LOL

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
I am on page 573 in Breaking Dawn.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
I would rid the world of hiccups.

19. Do you like to dance?
Meh. I can't really control my body movement, or I don't move at all. So no.

20. George Bush:
I'm just waiting for him to go away. So we can all forget about him.

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Definitely not Renesmee. Maybe Alice or something French.

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
I haven't given much thought to this, but maybe something akin to Edward. And not just because of Twilight, I think it is a really good name.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Yes, I am actually hoping to study abroad in France for a semester or so in college.

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
You rocked it the best you could. Snaps for Kelly, LOL

25.Tag six people who must also do this in THEIR journal:
Merh. Do I even KNOW six people? lol

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19755939/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19755939/ Sun, 03 Aug 2008 16:35:25 PDT :icon~crossofthedead:

1.Post these rules.
2.People tagged must post 8 things each about themselves in their journals.
3. Tag six people and post their icons on the same journal.
4.Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5.No tag-backs.

1. I'm scared about going to college.

2. I get all dressed up for no reason, like, all the time.

3. I will convince everyone within a 5-mile radius to go to the Madrigal Dinner, if only to see me as Queen.

4. I am running out of things to say. *nods* It's the truth.

5. I am addicted to Buffy the Vampire Slayer and the Twilight series.

6. I'm no good at adding/multiplying with the number eight.

7. Today I ran up the stairs like I imagine SpongeBob would: mouth open in surprise, almost jumping on each stair. LOL

8. I am a worthless lump of uselessness in the summer time. No inspiration or anythings. But with new shoes!

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19517658/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19517658/ Mon, 21 Jul 2008 12:06:20 PDT
I had a tussle with airport security leaving home (they lost my shoe that I had BEEN WEARING and swore they didn't have it). They have nothing better to do than nitpick.

Our initial flight was delayed an hour, which meant we couldn't make our connection to Orlando, so we hastily switched to American, instead of United. When we got to Chicago, we raced through O'Hare. That place is so huge, and when you have to switch from one airline to another, you have to go to the other end of the building. We were running for twenty minutes down this unending hallway, where then we had to turn into another hallway and just made it. They were about to give our tickets away, but we got there just in time. They were boarding. Once in Orlando everything went well, so I'll just skip to the cruise.

Good food, looping television (I watched National Treasure more than four times), and the people were boring. We got to get off at the Bahamas for one day, and it was really, really cool. There are some really rich people there (mostly government officials or U.S. embassadors) and then there are the really poor people. And almost every woman there pestered me and my sister about hair braiding. Apparently they don't have much to do there. We were told that if you don't work there, you just don't eat. There aren't any welfare programs for unemployed people. I got this really awesome necklace. Then the next day we went to the beach on a different Bahamian island called Coco Cay. It was really cool, and we got tons of shells. But then it started raining and really windy so we eventually left. The last night of the cruise they had this really cool singing and dancing show in their theater, redoing classic songs from the 50's until the 80's. I was upset that they didn't do the '90s, it insulted me. I'll tell you about Universal Orlando another time.

On the 3rd of July, my family went to see Cheap Trick in Peoria-- my home. They were really great, my parents say better than the recent Cheap Trick concerts they'd been to. So now I've seen TWO legendary rock bands in concert: The Romantics (What I Like About You) and Cheap Trick (I Want You To Want Me; Surrender).

I went to the Heart of Illinois Fair last week and had a good time. It's a lot smaller than it used to be, and they don't usually get any good music acts. I got a white tiger plushie, a funnel cake and a NASTY, hard corndog. That night I didn't sleep at all, due to my stomach.

LAST ENTRY: Last night I went to see Beauty and the Beast at Corn Stock Theatre, mainly to see my buddy Sylvia. There were a lot of other people I knew in it, too. Stacia Thetard, my former youth pastor, was really great, and it was good to see her again. The show was really great, I wish I had tried out for it. Alright, that's it.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19464458/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19464458/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 12:24:45 PDT



Dear Mark

I don't know how to say this, but our horoscopes don't match. I think I realised it when we were skinny dipping in your van, and I saw you sit on my my pie.
I'm sure you're scarred enough to understand that your Honda sucks. I'm sending back your military service-memory-box, but I'm keeping the your left ear as a memory.
You should know that I get sick when I think about your new life as a clone.
Good luck,
-Kelly-

----

Dear- your partners name- (if you're single, write Mark)

I don't know how to say this, but __1__.
I think I realised it __2__ __3__, and I saw you __4__ __5__.
I'm sure you're __6__ enough to understand __7__.
Im sending back __8__, but I'm keeping __9__ as a memory.
You should know that I __10__ __11__.
__12__ /-your name-


1.THE COLOR OF YOUR SHIRT:

blue- our romance is over
red- our affair is at an end
white- I'm joining a monastery
black- I hate you
green- our horoscopes doesn't match
grey- You're a perv
yellow- I'm on the streets
pink- Your nostrils are an insult
brown- the mafia is after you
no shirt- You're a loser
other- I'm in love with your sister


2. WHAT MONTH WERE YOU BORN IN?

January- that night
february- last year
mars- when we were skinny dipping
april- when I was high on sesame seed ( lol? .__.)
may- when I was shaving your legs
june- when you put handcuffs on me
july- when I threw up
august- When I saw the tiny head
september- when your dwarf bit me
october- When I was taking a walk
november- When I tied my shoes
December- When your dog went crazy

3. FAV FOOD?
tacos- in your house
pizza- in your van
pasta - in London
Hamburger- Under the bus
salad- while you were eating enchiladas
chicken- with Chuck Norris
kebab- in your closet
fish- in woman-clothes
sandwich- at the mental hospital
hotdogs- in trans
other- with mr and mrs Bush

4. WHATS THE COLOR OF YOUR SOCKS?
yellow- hitting on
red- insulting
black- ignoring
blue- punching
purple- pour syrup on
white- carve your name in
grey- tear the clothes of
brown- put leeches on
pink- steal the toupee from
no socks- sit on
other- chasing out


5. WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR UNDERWEAR?
black – my best friend
White- my father
grey- john travolta
Brown- my whoopee cushion
purple- my pie
red- th cookiemonster
blue- my alovera plant
Yellow- my pen-pal from Ghana
Orange – my Carl Larsson-collection
pink – my cat
no underwear – my Cartman-statue
Other- The crazy monk

6. WHAT DO YOU WATCH ON TV?
Scrubs - man
O.C. - sensitive
One Tree Hill - open
Heroes - ashamed
Lost - turned on
House - cowardly
Simpsons - scarred
the news - Mongolian
American Idol – masochistic
Family Guy - senile
other - frost-bited

7.WHAT MOOD ARE YOU IN RIGHT NOW?
happy- how bad I've been feeling
sad- How boring you are
bored- that your Honda sucks
angry- that all your pimples are in the last stadium
Depressed- That I have changed sex
exited- that there's no solution to
nervous- the Middle east
Worried- that we're cousins
apathetic- that Santa doensn't exist
Ashamed- that I'm allergic to your hamster
Hugable- that the garbage-man turns me on
exceedingly happy- that I'm a clone
other- "Deal or no deal" sucks

8. THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDROOM-WALLPAPER?
white- your ring
yellow- your love letters
red- your Darth Vader-poster
black- your pet rock
blue- the pillows
green- the pictures of Portugal
Orange- your artificial teeth
brown- your cellphone
grey- our matching snoopy-bibs
pink- the old toe-nails
other- your military service-memory-box

9. THE FIRST LETTER IN YOUR NAME?
A/B - Your picture
C/D - the oil-stock shares
E/F - My virginity
G/H - your neighbor Carl
I/J - The blood-test results
K/L- your left ear
M/N - Your suicide-note
O/P - my sense
Q/R - your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V/W - your crime records
X/Y/Z- your highschool grades


10. LAST LETTER OF YOUR LASTNAME?
A/B – shall always remember
C/D – never will forget
E/F – Always will try to forget
G/H – will inform The Swedish Tax Agency(uh yeah..XD)
I/J – have always felt dirty because of
K/L – have never laughed in public about
M/N – am makin a movie about
O/P – throw rocks at
Q/R – informed the psychiatrist about
S/T – get sick when I... ]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19112250/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19112250/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 15:35:21 PDT
01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said “I love you” and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables Do strawberries count?
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby’s diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment All of my moments are the worst possible.
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can I scream a lot.
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36.Danced like a fool and didn’t care who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Played touch football
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites Does Dixon Mounds count? lol
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an “expert”
83. Gotten flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Kissed on the first date
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship Just in the last month
94. Spoken more than one language fluently
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children (in the process)
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
98. Passed out cold
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking Psssh, I do that ALL the time.
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Touched a stingray
110. Broken someone’s heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a facial part pierced other than your ears
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 h... ]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19111727/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19111727/ Sun, 29 Jun 2008 15:01:50 PDT
If someone says "is this okay?" you say,
Hallelujah- Paramore

How would you describe yourself?
In A Second-- Aly & AJ

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Everybody's Fool-- Evanescence

How do you feel today?
Without You-- Christina Aguilera

What's your life's purpose?
Alien Spaceship-- Mannheim Steamroller
... I dunno.

What is your motto?
Stick to the Status Quo-- High School Musical
Wow... SO opposite of me

What do your friends think of you?
This Road is Going Nowhere-- The Vincent Black Shadow

What do you think of your parents?
Money-- Vitamin C
Wow, that is hilarious. XD

What do you think about very often?
Stand My Ground-- Within Temptation

what is 2 + 2?
Independent Women-- Destiny's Child

What do you think of your best friend?
Missing-- Evanescence

What do you think of the person you like?
Everything I Own-- *NSYNC
(not sure what that's supposed to mean)

What is your life story?
Green Finch and Linnet Bird-- Sweeney Todd soundtrack

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Without Fear-- Lacuna Coil
In a way, it answered the question.

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Where Will You Go-- Evanescence
How am I suddenly getting all these issues?

What will you dance to at your wedding?
The Right Man-- Christina Aguilera
Wow. Fitting, actually. The song is about marrying the right man.

What will they play at your funeral?
Meadows of Heaven--Nightwish
Awww.

What is your hobby/interest?
I'm So Sick-- Flyleaf

What is your biggest fear?
Maybe-- Kelly Clarkson

What is your biggest secret?
Your Star-- Evanescence

What do you think of your friends?
When It Rains-- Paramore

If you haven't noticed, not many of these make any sense. OH well.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19073592/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/19073592/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 10:44:40 PDT
INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal (including the instructions, so that other people can understand what it is about).
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
< b > Bold < / b >
3. Whatever you don't bold are false.





001. I like laser pointers
002. I don't drink water
003. I believe in world peace
004. I sleep with a plushie
005. I'm ambidextrous
006. People accept me how I am
007. I'm addicted to anime/manga
008. I speak 1337 better than english
009. I'm daltonic
010. I don't like mirrors
011. I play card games
012. Puppy eyes melt my heart
013. I have a job
014. I love chocolate
015. I can type faster than I speak (Much faster since I trip over my words sometimes, lol)
016. My heart is easier to break than my bones
017. I (used to) collect things (sugar!!!)
018. I don't trust people Especially women in the Bahamas that want to braid your hair.
019. I have a lucky number
020. I'm afraid of knives sometimes.
021. I start too many projects and never finish them
022. I have more than one pet
023. I can't see anything without my glasses on
024. I play chess
025. I have lied to protect other people
026. I am vegetarian
027. I know the future
028. I prefer books than movies
029. I love to draw DUH.
030. I don't have brothers
031. My handwriting is unreadable
032. I believe in extraterrestrial life
033. I don't use Google
034. I can't live without my cellphone
035. I always wear a cap
036. I have more diskettes than books
037. I've never seen a snow day
038. I'm not religious
039. I can understand graffiti tags
040. I'm not afraid of death
041. I go to the bathroom more than 7 times a day
042. I believe the government is into a conspiracy
043. I love videogames Computer games count, right?
044. I'm an activist for the defense of nature
045. I'm a moody person
046. I always carry a weapon with myself
047. I prefer cold than hot
048. I look for known shapes in the clouds
049. My Internet connection sucks MAJORLY
050. I rarely go to the cinema Cause I'm lazy and a loser
051. I'm old
052. I have insomnia
053. I have tattoos
054. I don't know what people expect from me
055. I'm unbeatable in domino
056. I don't like IMs
057. Horror movies scare me
058. I used to eat non-toxic glue
059. I feel rather than think
060. I use Firefox and always tell everyone else to use it
061. I have hope
062. I have a car
063. I remember what I dream
064. I don't need to use Liquid Paper / Corrector Pen
065. I'm patriotic
066. I worship the devil
067. I hate Windows
068. I like solving crossword puzzles
069. I have a social life
070. I always read the newspaper
071. I checked the box to avoid seeing mature content in dA
072. My I.Q. is above 160
073. I like mexican food
074. I don't give a good impression
075. I get bored easily SO easily.
076. I'm passing through a period of changes
077. I hate taking a bath
078. I can't go out without makeup
079. I don't know what RAM is
080. I like to talk about politics
081. I have a third eye
082. I'm uninteresting
083. I have a Blog
084. I have to take pills
085. I have lots of CDs
086. I always have a dictionary at hand
087. I'm tired of this quiz Bored already
088. I care about copyright protection
089. My computer is older than me
090. I have a boyfriend/girlfriend
091. I see dead people
092. I drink tea
093. I have a good memory
094. I've never been to a concert
095. I enter to my house through the window
096. When I was a child, I wanted to be an astronaut
097. I don't watch TV
098. I'm irresistible YUS.
099. I have invisible friends (I talk to my characters, man.)
100. I love deviantART

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/18734344/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/18734344/ Sun, 08 Jun 2008 16:37:06 PDT
First off, HSM 2 was a bust. I didn't get in, even though I did my absolute best at auditions, and the freshman from my school got in. Do you mind if I vent? Too bad.
So she stole the school musical from me, when it was supposedly my year to shine. The chorus teacher had been trying to get the school to do Beauty and the Beast, and expected me to get the lead, Belle. When they did Wizard of Oz instead, I went with it and auditioned, doing what I thought was a really good job. No voice cracking or anything. However, a freshman stole it out from underneath me, which surprised everyone. Freshman generally don't get leads in musicals because the upperclassmen (myself) are more experienced and have privileges. The chorus teacher had no say in the casting, but if she had, I might have gotten it.

And then, when I try to reconnect with my HSM friends from last year, and audition at Eastlight, she comes with (hoping to carpool with me if we both got in, which at that point I was beginning to tolerate her). I really didn't expect her to get in, but anyway they chose her and didn't choose me, even though she had no previous theatre experience outside of high school.

Anyway, on to the other bad news. My foot (you know, the one I had surgery on last year after stepping on a sewing needle?), it's acting up. It hurt so much the other day that I couldn't walk on it. It's a little better now, but I'm still really worried about it. I don't want to go on vacation and find out it's messed up, and not be able to walk around on it. -sigh- I just really hope it gets better.

THE GOOD NEWS: (I bet you're waiting for this, skipping the bad news cause it's mean, so here) It's SUMMER. And I'm on four different rp sites, no five if Kiwisnow gets back up. The skins are looking spiffeh, and I fixed the rules, but I still haven't gotten any members yet. I've advertised on three different sites and the guests keep pouring in, but they don't sign up. Humph.

I found a SWEENEY TODD rp site. Amazing, right? And I've reserved City of Ashes at the library, excited for when I can check it out. And I bought a Buffy/Angel crossover book the other day for a dollar. SPLEE If I get some money, I am definitely buying the first season of Angel.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/18430900/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/18430900/ Wed, 21 May 2008 13:01:34 PDT
Ha, I wish.

Anyway, no more school for the rest of the summer. I've already gotten two drawings done, and one almost done. I started using a little blending stick thing and I just can't stop! You know how crazy I am about shading, well this just increased my awesome shadingness. Expect greatness.

One month from now marks the official start of summer, but I am free from today on. Saturday is my HSM 2 audition and I really really hope I get in. I will be sad and lonely if I don't.

I bought the Three Days Grace album the other day, and I can't stop listening. Even if they do steal riffs, I love their music.

Okay, that's about it for now. DDD

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/18119681/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/18119681/ Thu, 01 May 2008 15:26:59 PDT
And something about "Her Majesty." I think the one guy was calling Solace that, lol. And that's all I can remember. I woke up and was like, whattheheck? but kind of wanted to finish the dream, you know? haha

It was a hot dream, yo. It feels really weird and embarassing to be typing it up and all, but whatever. I thought it would be interesting.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/17795772/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/17795772/ Fri, 11 Apr 2008 13:14:10 PDT
Flash back to two weeks ago when I bought my Hot Topic dress and some black jelly bracelets, thinking nothing of the supposed significance. They looked cool, so I bought them..

Now back to yesterday, when in 2nd hour Physics some girls asked me about them (I was wearing twenty or so of these bracelets). They laughed about something they were told in their Catholic elementary school, that black bracelets meant you weren't a virgin.

Then 3rd hour someone asked me on the stairwell why I wore them. I merely replied, "Because they're black?" and she nodded her head.

After researching the significance of black jelly bracelets, I am here to say that I have NOT had sex and/or DO NOT give oral. I am sick of these stupid teen things where wearing a certain thing makes you a whore or a freak.

So when I wear these bracelets, and I WILL wear them again (not gonna waste six bucks!) it is because I like black bracelets (ACCESSORIES) and not because I'm not a virgin or give oral or any of the other insane meanings of these bracelets.

It's so typical high school drama, it's not worth me worrying about. If anyone asks, I will tell them that the bracelets are reflective of my style and not of my sex life. Thank you.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/17734030/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/17734030/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 15:29:15 PDT
They have cookies, though! lol I didn't try the punch.
It's really not that great of a place for a gallery. It's just two blank walls that the art is hung on. It's not very big, either. You really can't have a gallery in an old shop.

Anyway. It makes me feel special. ANNNNNNNNNNDDD, someone in town really really likes my work. Well, the two pieces side by side. The Amy Lee one is on here (the recent one) but I did a chalk picture of a servel (serval?). Anyway, it's like my best of the semester. *smug* But there was some annoying lady at the gallery that had to take a picture of my family and me. GRR.

At least I'm not rambling that much today. One subject only. I won't even start about watching Buffy, because it'd be WAY too long for any mortal to read, LOL. So I'll stop now.

Bye!!!!!!!

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/17554691/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/17554691/ Fri, 28 Mar 2008 09:44:25 PDT

Leave a comment, saying if you're in. If so, I'll go through your gallery and put my favourite 3 deviations of yours in this journal.

If you're playing the game, you've got to put this taggy thing in your journal, and start it off with 3 deviations from MY gallery. Okie? ^^

1 -
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2 -

3 -

4 -

5 -

6 -

7 -

8 -

9 -

10 -

RULES:
1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into dA search box
3) Take a deviation from the first page of results (may use "popular" or "newest") and post thumb (for subscribers) or link
(non-subscribers)
4) You can't copy the person's answers who posted this before you

#1: the age I will be on my next birthday

[link]

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#2: a place I'd like to travel

[link]
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#3: my favorite place

[link]


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#4: my favorite food

[link]
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#5: my favorite animal

[link]

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#6: my favorite colors

[link]

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#7: the town/state in which I live


[link]

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#8: name of a past pet


[link]

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#9: a dream come true

[link]


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#10: my nickname

[link]
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#11: my middle name


[link]

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#12: my favorite smell

[link]


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#13: my first job

[link]


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#14: my favorite movies


[link]


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#15: what the weather is like

[link]

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#16: favorite sport

[link]
(don't laugh)

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#17: my favorite music style/band


[link]

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/17352125/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/17352125/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 18:40:10 PDT
And. I'm being emo about it. It's wounded me. And I fear I shall have to write some fanfic to make things right.

I won't spoil it, though. For anyone who reads Libba Bray and hasn't read this yet.

I decided upon my three most desired fictional (book) characters:

1) Edward-- of course. *sigh* He's so lovely and sweet and protective and everything else...
2) Kartik (from the A Great And Terrible Beauty trilogy)-- He's just so wonderful. And he hangs with gypsies!
3) Alexander from the Vampire Kisses series-- formerly my number two, but since reading TSFT I have changed my mind. But he's still very yummy.

In other news, guess whose birthday is in THREE DAYS?!?!?!?! Yes, that's right, you'll have to go out and by me a present now, HAHA!!! I'll be seventeen. SPLEE!!!!! And if I get enough money for my birthday, I'm going to buy these amazing shoes from Journeys. But NO I will not tell you what they look like. You can't steal them from me. They are MINE, ALL MINE!!!!!!!!

Hehe, started reading that one book, Wolfcry or Wolfsong or whatever it is... *looks it up* LOL, the Hawksong series is on WIKIPEDIA!!!!
Okay, here it is. Wolfcry. That's what I thought. Anyway, I started reading it last night, I'm excited. I wanted the previous book to be about Oliza, but that one was good, too. As long as I get to read about Oliza and the royal family again, I should be okay.

Am I rambling today, or what?! Sorry, and my fingers are being spastic, I keep having to backspace.

Well, I'm gonna go read some more fanfic now, ta ta!!!

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/17090299/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/17090299/ Wed, 27 Feb 2008 14:34:57 PST
I am having a major crush on someone at school, and being all desperate about it again. If it starts getting annoying, just yell at me or something, please. But please, I like my teeth in place.

And... Solace's roleplay is going somewhere now, very exciting for me, not so much for you unless you've been reading it. Very steamy, I'm not sure how to respond now. It's thrown me for a loop, if you'll pardon my cliche or idiom or whatever it is.

People really noticed me today (probably because of my black lipstick), not sure how I feel about that.

I've gotta turn in some journals for English tomorrow and I haven't done much of anything at all on them. Trying to figure out a way to get them done before presenting them next week, just sneak the new ones in. Haha.

I could really go for some chocolate right now.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/16585585/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/16585585/ Sat, 26 Jan 2008 18:09:25 PST *Choose a singer/band/group.
*Answer using ONLY titles of songs.
*Tag 6 more people (don't forget to let them know they've been tagged )

Artist of Choice: Evanescence (come on, did you really expect anyone else?)

1. Are you male or female? --> Snow White Queen

2. Describe Yourself. --> Like You

3. What do people feel when they're around you? --> Haunted

4. How would you describe your previous relationship? --> Call Me When You're Sober

5. Describe your current relationship. --> Sweet Sacrifice

6. Where would you want to be now? --> Anywhere

7. How do you feel about love? --> All That I'm Living For

8. What's your life like? --> Imaginary

9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish? --> Lithium

10. Say something wise. --> Anything For You

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/16446178/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/16446178/ Thu, 17 Jan 2008 13:52:12 PST 2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool... and alot of the songs fit with the setting

Opening Credits:
Self Deception- Lacuna Coil
how ominous...

Waking Up:
Humuhumunukunukuapua'a~ High School Musical 2

First Day At School:
Complicated~ Avril Lavigne
ain't that the truth

Falling In Love:
You Found Me~ Kelly Clarkson
aww how sweet.

Fight Song:
Anything For You~ Evanescence
umm... okay?

Breaking Up:
Collapsed~ Aly & AJ
?

Prom night:
Two in a Million~ S Club 7
"If the world should stop/ we'd still have each other and no matter what, we'll be together as one"

Life:
You Are the Music IN Me~ High School Musical 2
*shrug*

Mental Breakdown:
She Floats~ Vanessa Carlton


Driving:
Fragile~ Lacuna Coil
I am pretty fragile when driving. I hate it. HATE. IT.

Flashback:
Lacrymosa~ Evanescence

Getting back together:
Flattery~ Aly & AJ
(don't know if I've listened to this one very much yet, it's a new CD)

Wedding:
Cloud Nine~ Evanescence
? I'm confused.

Birth of Child:
All Around Me~ Flyleaf
I don't think this is working anymore...

Final Battle:
Angel's Punishment~ Lacuna Coil
Destruction... War, destruction... Good one

Funeral Song:
A Thousand Miles~ Vanessa Carlton

Final Credits:
Anything But Ordinary~ Avril Lavigne.
Haha. Sums me up perfectly.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/16305234/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/16305234/ Mon, 07 Jan 2008 17:42:34 PST
Oh.

My.

Gosh.

It was AMAZING. The makeup was so perfect, so dark and dreary and diseaseful. And the costumes were so wonderful, blacks and reds and IT WAS SO GOOD!!!!

I loved the setting, and the story, and the characters, and everything about it. It's possibly the best movie someone with goth interests could ever wish for. And the demented-ness of it all!

And the singing! The blood and gore and macabre, combined with my love for music and singing! It was so wonderful, I can't believe it exists, I can't explain it.

I bought the soundtrack. I'm obsessed.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/16225424/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/16225424/ Wed, 02 Jan 2008 14:12:34 PST
Based on my philosophy that if something stops or goes away, you can forget about it, I sat in a chair downstairs and innocently watched television. Occasionally glancing at the orange ball of fuzz named Cheeto as he crawled around on the upset reclining sofa (my father was fixing it before he left), I was unsuspecting of anything abnormal. And yet, the strange noise returned, beeping frantically.

Disregarding the unsettling noise, I ventured upstairs to fetch myself a drink. Sadly, there was no root beer so I had to drink a Pepsi. I had already turned off the TV and decided to return to the computer once more. (This is my third time on today, but it matters not, since there is no one here to tell me when and not I can be online.) The noise was beginning to disturb me. I could not figure out where it was coming from. I could not even imagine where it could be coming from. So, I left my post at the computer device and hunted down the noise. As I neared the hallway, the noise came at me from the left, taunting me. I chased it down the stairs, around the room, and finally into the laundry room.

There, a mere foot from the light switch, laid a purple, yellow, and blue electric bubble blower. Three buttons, when pushed, chirp a distorted array of children's nursery songs and other three-note melodies. These buttons were pressed up against the wall, for who knows how long. Yet the noises only started today. Curious. And even curiouser, this same bubble blower, with the same batteries, has lived for nearly ten years, and never seems to die.

Maybe I shall go bury it in the snow.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15961993/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15961993/ Sun, 16 Dec 2007 16:05:14 PST
The Madrigal Dinner was last week, sorry for not being on in a long while. Umm. Yeah, that was fun. Haha, grueling (I was at school until midnight, setting up for the next day). But it is all over now. SOrt of. One more performance in costume, and then I'm done. Kind of sad, but not really.

Yeah I'm kinda too tired and lazy to write out the other stuff, so I'll just tell you that I'm wearing a hat. Have been for the past two hours, since I got home. It's nice and fuzzy.

Oh, and I'm wearing flannel pants and a hoodie--typing my essay for English. Which, so far, I've gotten two sentences done.

Time for a break. Haha. Bathroom break, and then I'm gonna work for a little bit.

That's all, folks!

~Kelly Jelly

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15581245/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15581245/ Mon, 19 Nov 2007 18:36:41 PST Kisa Stratus (not mine, can't drive, it's my mom's)

2.YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fave ice cream flavor, favorite cookie)
Caramel Caribou Chocolate Chip (four C's)

3. YOUR "FLY Guy/Girl" NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your middle name)
K Nic

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Black Wolf

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Nicole Peoria (same as Caitlin's, lol)

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)
Jonke (haha mine's worse than Caitlin's)

7. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The" + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink)
The Red Root Beer

8. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers)
Glenn Ronald Marshall (I have three grandfathers, one being a step-grandfather)

9. STRIPPER NAME: (the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, flavor)
Lilac Mist Mint

10.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother's & father's middle names)
Ann Glenn

11. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (your 5th grade teacher's name and a major city starting with the same letter)
Merdian Minneapolis

12. SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower)
Winter Violet

13. CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you're wearing right now)
Cherry Corduroy (pants) It actually sounds good.

14. HIPPY NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree)
Toaster Strudel Cherry

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15545595/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15545595/ Sat, 17 Nov 2007 09:15:20 PST
It might not mean anything to any of you, but Ember is back, and that means my Solace rp is back on! *squee* It makes me so very happy, I thought maybe he'd died.

FYI: This rp I'm in is very good for my poor little Solace. It's very yummy. Uhm.

Anyway.

I tried updating my journal yesterday, but dA was being RETARDED and didn't post it. I was mad, but I was too lazy to type it all up again. So.

This is what you get. None of my rantings about school, nothing.

But I will let you know what I want for Christmas! Haha, not from you, just from mes parents et mes amis (peut-etre).

Barnes n Noble giftcard
Blood and Chocolate (the movie)
Avatar: The Last Airbender PC game
a million books that I cannot remember the titles of
Sims 2 Bon Voyage
Hot Topic giftcard
and assorted other things

NOTE: This is basically a reminder for me, I can never remember what I want for Christmas when I sit down to write out a list.

Oh, and I submitted a cheezburger on icanhascheezburger.com , but it probably won't get put up. If it does, I'll tell you.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15469506/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15469506/ Sun, 11 Nov 2007 19:26:54 PST 1.) sing in an opera
2.) sell some art
3.) find love

Three Names You Go By:
1.) Kelly(rarely)
2.) Kelleh Jones!
3.) Jelly Kones

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1.) cease_this_fear
2.) ladylovelace
3.) sandycheeks209 (haha this is for Neopets!!!)

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1.) My hair (OMG I'm obsessed with it)
2.) My eyes.
3.) My voice. Except sometimes I get all sad and feel inferior to the world

Three Parts Of Your Heritage:
1.) Irish
2.) English
3.) Umm? My daddy says Welsh. Fun.

Three Things That Scare You:
1.) death
2.) the absence of clocks
3.) loneliness. This kind of ties in with the death thing. I'm so horribly afraid of dying alone.

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1.) singing
2.) reading
3.) food, haha

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1.) green thermal shirt from JC Penneys
2.) dark jeans
3.) chipped nail polish

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1.) Evanescence. Duh.
2.) The Vincent Black Shadow
3.) Flyleaf?

Three Of Your Favorite Songs:
1.) Right now the only thing I sing is: The Last Song I'm Wasting On You by Amy Lee
2.) Hello~ Evanescence
3.) The Barbara Manatee song~ Veggie Tales (can't help it, it cheers me up every time)

Three Things You Want In A Relationship:
1.) loyalty
2.) understanding
3.) compatability

Two Truths And A Lie (in no particular order):
1.) I have three cats
2.) I am strongly opposed to wearing fur
3.)I hang out with the coolest people (hint hint that's the lie. Sorry Caitlin)

Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You:
1.) hair
2.) yum the eyes. Gotta have melty eyes.
3.) voice

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1.) singing
2.) drawing
3.) writing

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1.) watch TV- I haven't all day!
2.) sleep
3.) make a character but I haven't the time or the inspiration

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
1.) Singer. (haha never gonna happen)
2.) Translator/ whatever you can do with language
3.) Artist (hah.)

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1.) England
2.) India
3.) Atlantis. Haha.

Three Kids Names You Like:
1.) Alice
2.) Victoria
3.) Allan

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl:
1.) I have a million shoes.
2.) I swoon over fictional heroes/male chars
3.) I wear makeup.

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy:
1.) Umm? I can't think of anything.
2.) I stay in my pajamas as long as possible? Dunno.
3.) AHA! I belch!

There. I have completed this mission.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15393959/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15393959/ Tue, 06 Nov 2007 15:31:52 PST
[x] you love hoodies.
[x] you love jeans.
[] dogs are better than cats
[x] it's hilarious when people get hurt.
[] you've played with/against boys on a team.
[] shopping is torture.
[x] sad movies suck.
[] you own an x-box.
[] played with hotwheels cars as a kid.
[] at some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[] you own a DS, PS2 or sega.
[] you used to be obsessed with power rangers.
[] you watch sports on TV.
[x] gory movies are cool.
[x] you go to your dad for advice.
[] you own like a trillion baseball caps.
[] you like going to football games.
[] you used to/do collect baseball cards.
[] baggy pants are cool to wear.
[] it's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] you love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[] sports are fun.
[x] talk with food in your mouth.
[] wear boxers.

Total = 9.

--

Your girl side

[x] you wear lip gloss.
[x] you love to shop.
[x] you wear eyeliner.
[] you have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[] you wear the color pink.
[] go to your mom for advice.
[] you consider cheerleading a sport
[] you hate wearing the color black.
[] you like hanging out at the mall.
[x] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] you like wearing jewelry.
[] skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[x] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[x] you don't like the movie star wars.
[] you are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[x] it takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[x] you smile a lot more than you should.
[x] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] you care about what you look like.
[x] you like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] you like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] you wear girl underwear.
[x] used to play with dolls as little kid.
[x] like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[x] like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

TOTAL:17

GUESS I"M A GIRL!!! WHOO. *ahem*

I definitely hate reading for English class. Definitely.

And I'm dying. Inside, cause I need some rp's. Ilene, you better get off your butt and reply to that thread. Or I'm gonna die. And I'm not taking you with me.



]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15297664/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15297664/ Wed, 31 Oct 2007 06:53:56 PDT
Don't know why I've been writing in such little sentences. Just lazy, I guess. And I'm wearing gloves so it's hard to type. It's weird looking up under the bangs of this wig. I think it scares people. I think it looks like I'm glaring at them. So far only one comma in the entire entry. Wow. I'll keep it that way.

Some people might find this artistic. This way that I've been writing. I think it's just lazy. And boring. There. I'm done. No more commas today.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15140389/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15140389/ Sat, 20 Oct 2007 08:28:55 PDT
It has to be instructions, like a how-to thing. But something that I know enough about to write about. Poo.


Haha, I thought about doing 'How to love Edward Cullen' but I'm pretty sure Ms. Girot would think I'm crazy, and she'd go off on how she hates reading about lovey stuff.

And then, I thought, maybe something about how to roleplay. Except that it's too wide, too much to cover.

And then I was thinking about how to be cute and squeaky and still be demented, insanely strange and manage to have a bunch of friends.

About that. Sometimes I feel like I have to be a different person around some people. Otherwise they would think I'm crazy. And not be my friend anymore. Like, pretty much everyone except Caitlin, Ilene, and Sarah Williams, I can't be crazy and dark around. It makes me feel weird, like I can't be me and have friends.


ANYWAY, back to my previous dilemma: I need something to write about. Maybe, how to persuade parents to let me NOT drive. Hehe. Driving scares me. HOW TO WRITE FANFICTION!!! Except I don't do it that much. I don't have much experience. So I'm not so sure on that one. Possibility, maybe.

Haha, how to find things in a messy room. Hehe.

Someone give me some suggestions?

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15113571/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/15113571/ Thu, 18 Oct 2007 10:16:15 PDT [link]

It's hilarious, I just wanted you to know. Hi. larious.

My parents went to the Cirque du Soleil last night, that's why I didn't go to Church. Sorry everybody. hehe

I personally love this keyboard. I need one like this. I'm at school, btw. Got a few minutes before lunch. My fingers are freezing. My skin's all splotchy for some reason. *shrugs* The only problem with this keyboard is the tiny little backspace button. It needs to be bigger. I should sue.

Really hungry. Does anyone know if a barbeque chicken sandwich on a bun is shredded chicken or not?

Lave-moi!!!

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14972870/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14972870/ Mon, 08 Oct 2007 15:13:14 PDT
100 Questions for a DeviantARTIST

01.] What is your pen name?
definitely Virginia Tallon

02.] What made you choose this name?
Okay, I liked the name Virginia a lot, and the week before Freshman year, I saw that one of my teacher's last names was Tallon (don't laugh, I didn't know who it was!) and I thought it was cool.

03.] Do you use PC or Mac?
PC.

04.] What programs do you use most often?
haha Solitaire and Internet

05.] Do you use mouse, or tablet?
Umm. Mouse.

06.] What color or color combinations do you find yourself using most often?
red and black. mostly

07.] What part of a picture do you put most effort into?
haha if you look at any of my pictures, it's the eyes.

08.] How long does it take you do draw a picture?
About forty minutes. If I"m coloring it, about an hour and a half

09.] Do you keep your rough drafts?
I don't really do rough drafts. I just draw something, and then that's how it is. But if I don't like something, I usually throw it out.

10.] What font do you use most often?
Papyrus. And sometimes Edwardian Script.

11.] When you scan your image, what DPI do you use?
Umm?

12.] Do you do anything else when you're drawing?
I usually listen to Evanescence. It helps.

13.] Approximately how many pictures do you draw in a month?
Around five. Depends on the month. In the summer, about twenty.

14.] What kind of paper do you draw your pictures on?
Sketchbook paper.

15.] What kind of paper do you use for rough sketches and drafts?
Once again, no drafts or sketches. I draw it and it stays that way.

16.] How long does it take you to ink something?
If I would ink something, probably a half hour, I don't want to screw it up with ink.

17.] Do you do comics, or fan comics?
HAHAHA remember my bean comics? lol

18.] Do you like comics? Are they fun to make?
Yeah, sometimes I'll read whatever's in the paper. I do like making them, but I'm never as funny as I want to be.

19.] Have you ever submitted anything to a magazine?
Uhm, no.

20.] Did it get published?
no.

21.] Who are your favorite artists?
Dunno.

22.] Do you like anime/manga? If so, what are your favorite series?
Anime... I don't watch much. But manga, I read quite a bit of. But it's nothing anyone's heard of outside of my friends that read everything I read. So, it's like Vampire Game, Lament of the Lamb, Shaman King, etc.

23.] Do you like cartoons/comics? If so, what are your favorite series?
Haha, Zits is fun to read. Cartoons. Don't even get me started. You'd die before I finished.

24.] Any artists that you wish you could draw like?
Zyllae. Most definitely.

25.] Do you read a lot of books?
Yes, usually I'll have a book in tow.

26.] Did you ever buy a book to inspire or teach you to draw?
No, people give 'em to me. It can be viewed as an insult, but I don't see it that way.

27.] Any video games you enjoy?
Alice, Sims 1 and 2, Vampire the Masquerade, Icewind Dale

28.] Any favorite characters from video games?
Alice...

29.] Do you have a favorite writer?
Libba Bray.

30.] Any books you really enjoy?
Again, don't get me started. The Twilight series is my life right now. And I have a million other books that I love.

31.] Do you draw fanart?
For a long time this summer, I drew a lot of Foster's fanart.

32.] Do you listen to music while you draw?
Very much.

33.] Any recommended songs?
Anything Evanescence. Or The Vincent Black Shadow.

34.] Any other art websites that you really enjoy?
No.

35.] Are there any websites that you go to everyday?
Andromorphia, Kiwisnow (which is sadly abandoned!) and dA

36.] What is your dream website like?
Andromorphia.

37.] Do you like your own art?
Yes, until I see how much better it could be.

38.] What do you enjoy watching on television?
Hahaa, this again? Are you getting tired yet? Avatar: The Last Airbender, Fairly OddParents, Danny Phantom, Jimmy Neutron, Spongebob, Drake & Josh, Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends, America's Next Top Model, BONES, House (some... ]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14971759/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14971759/ Mon, 08 Oct 2007 14:02:37 PDT
Saturday, after working at my dad's store for the day, I skipped merrily along to Barnes n Noble, where abruptly I flung myself at the books. *hint hint* If you ever want to get me a gift, give me book money. Or, better yet, don't. I go INSANE. You should've seen me, in my dad's van, I was practically hyperventilating over the book I got. Which I shall promptly tell you about. *inhales deeply*


I GOT ECLIPSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG I'm gonna die. I'm already half way through it, I started yesterday. Let me just say one thing. OOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHH EEEEDDDWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRDD DDDDDDD!!!!!!!!! lol I love it alot. No joke. And I'm like, rrrr stupid Victoria. And Volturi or whoever's behind this stuff. And stupid JAKE. RRRRR. He makes me want to strangle him. Except I'd probably brake my hands. (lol I just misspelled break, fixed it, and then changed it back so I could put this down. I don't even know why I typed it wrong. It just happened. BRAIN FART) So, anyway, I love Edward to death. Though it's not possible.



Okay, moving on. I have to stop talking about Edward. Hehehehehehe but me and FeralDaemon were at Church yesterday, just sitting there drooling over him. It was hilarious.

Okay, secondly, there was an article in the paper the other day (grr my dad threw it away, thought). About Spider Hill. (That's a Halloween kind of carnival/festival we have here.) It was cool and all, and then the BEST THING HAPPENED. There was a quote from a kid that went on Friday. And GUESS WHO IT WAS?!?!?!?!?!?! It was CALEB FINLEY, the kid that played Ryan in my High School Musical production. The one I had a MAJOR crush on. *sigh* I almost forgot about Edward when I saw his name. Almost.

LOL but I was like, 'This is a sign!' And it was the same day I got Eclipse. It was a very good day.


And then today my grandparents, my mother and sister and I went to Happy Thoughts cafe place in Chillicothe. And our server kept saying that they were out of so many things. And my mom and grandparents got a little frustrated. I was embarrassed. Why is it that everytime I go somewhere with my grandma, she doesn't have enough patience with the servers? hehe embarrassing. ANYWAY, that wasn't what I wanted to say. There was this guy that came in, in a suit and shaggy, curly hair. And this other guy comes in and tries to sell stuff to some customers, I guess. And the suit guy is all, "Get out of here or I'll call the police!" He must have said it at least six times. Hehe. I didn't know what was going on. I was scared. hehe I was like "AHHHH A MURDERER!!!!!" lol. But not out loud.

So that's about it for now. I've gotta respond to a rp now, so au revoir, mes amis! *blows kiss*

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14899861/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14899861/ Wed, 03 Oct 2007 14:07:05 PDT

not.


Okay, here we go. New Moon and Twilight by Stephenie Meyer are, while not the best books in the world, are simply AMAZING. I think it's just my infatuation with Edward that keeps me reading. lol

I wish with my entire BEING that he was real.

Mmm... This book makes me ache for more...

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14885891/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14885891/ Tue, 02 Oct 2007 13:58:46 PDT Choose any number of your OCs...

Name, Story/series
Iuliana la Hale
Solace
Arisked

What's their animal?
Ummm? I usually don't associate my chars with animals, but what the heck...
Iuliana is most like... some venemous snake
bunny (hehe)
fish(don't ask)

What's their colour?
black
whitish pink
orange

What's their element?
darkness
darkness?
fire

A present they'd hope to get
blood/sex
a companion
another shot at roleplaying... haha it's been so long

What present would they give you?
Death.. she's not very giving...
flowers
a tattoo

Theme song
Farther Away~Evanescence
Like You~ Evanescence
Gasoline~ Seether

Their favourite band (from this universe)
Lacuna Coil
I dunno... some old composer maybe
Bowling for Soup

What Hogwarts House would they be in?
Sad (or glad) to say, I am not too familiar with the whole Harry Potter thing, so I would have no clue.

If they were made into a cartoon, who would do their voice?
Grey Delisle (just cause I love her)
I can't see him as a cartoon, maybe more of an anime, they allow more things to happen... Dunno.
Again, I don't really know...

What is their pet peeve?
complaining
people who crack their knuckles and bones
catty girls

What do they value most?
torture (unto others)
relationships.. And they always break his heart... *hugs*
It's been awhile, but I'd say Virginia

What is their worst nightmare?
being scorned by love
dying alone
losing control of his temper

An item they are never without
a spiteful glare
loneliness(is that an item?)
his fish

Defining trait to the world
cruel heartedness
lonesomeness/beauty
orange hair.

Defining trait to those close to them
callous (she's not really close to anyone)
loving and devilishly good (you know what I mean)
protective and caring. and orange hair.

For each character you wrote about, tag someone:
Zyllae feraldaemon netherworld-princess (I think that's how it's spelled?)

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14742887/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14742887/ Sat, 22 Sep 2007 11:53:43 PDT

The other night, I went to Avanti's avec mon pere et ma soeur. Haha, I just kind of lapse into French and keep going. Anyway, the waiter guy wrote down cheese ravioli instead of beef ravioli and so I had to give it back when it came. And he was sorry and I got FREE CHEESECAKE!!!

And then we went to the mall to Waldenbooks and guess what book I got?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?


NEW MOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yay, I'm so very very happy. But I can't read it yet because I have yet to finish this book called Wicked Lovely.

Annnnddd..... Ce soir, mes parents font sortir a un soiree avec ses amis. At Pizza Works, with a bunch of my dad's old band buddies. So I'm gonna stay home avec ma soeur and regarder les films de Disney. La Belle et La Bete, et parfois "The Little Mermaid."

Lately, it's weird, everyone's been saying that I'd be good for the part of Belle in the Beauty and the Beast (the musical we might do at school in the spring). Like, people who aren't just saying so because they're my friends. They think I have a good strong voice (and who am I to disagree?) but it's just weird, all of a sudden drawing all this attention.

Okay, so maybe I do draw attention to myself, but I didn't tell them any of this, they really think I would be good!!! It makes me very happy but feeling awkward at the same time...

The season premiere of Avatar was last night, OMG. It made me happy, especially when Mae kissed Zuko. He needed some love.
And there was a short after the show, it was so CUTE!!! Everyone needs to see it, they were all chibis!!! Aww...

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14715040/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14715040/ Thu, 20 Sep 2007 13:21:37 PDT

Plus, today I had a quiz in US History over the homework, which I hadn't done. It stunk.

But then I went to lunch and had good pizza and a mound of good fries.

Jingle jingle, yo.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14331437/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14331437/ Sat, 25 Aug 2007 09:10:02 PDT
And then I replied to someone's new rp, and things actually sounded good! I can rp again!!!!!

Maybe I'll post it here so you can see, but then maybe I won't. I'm very lazy...



I need to go to another Evanescence concert. NEED. Except I think their tour is over. Finally.

So that was my announcement. Ta ta!

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14323771/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14323771/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 18:31:33 PDT
I tear up every time I think about it. I just can't face it.

Danny Phantom is gone. Over. Finito.



I will mourn you, my love.


I shall wear a black shroud as I saunter through my days without you.

I shall also dedicate my art to you, my sweet. Your absence shall not be ignored, though my life will be less without you.

Be still and know that I will love you forever and a day.


Your loyal friend,

Kelly Nicole Jones

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14257096/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14257096/ Mon, 20 Aug 2007 13:49:29 PDT
Rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves.
3. Tags should write a journal/blog of these facts.
4. At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named.
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they've been tagged.

1. Random, random, random.... hmmm... I watch cartoons like there's no tomorrow.
2. When I really start talking, I mix my words around. It would be funny, except that people point it out and it bugs me. lol
3. About the only thing I ever doodle is eyes. I don't know why, I just like drawing them...
4. I secretly long for *NSYNC to get back together.
5. I drink root beer at nearly every restaurant I go to.
6. In comparison to ~crossofthedead 's talking to cats, I imitate cat noises. Like I'll be walking down the hall, and one of the (3) cats will make a noise, and I'll echo it. SOmetimes it goes on for a few minutes.
7. Having a math class at the end of the day feels better than any other class. It has a calming effect on me, I suppose.
8. Alright, last one. I'll make it the best. On Sunday, I take all the ads out of the newspaper and go through each one. Except the boring ones, like Home Depot and Menards and stuff. Haha, like when I was really little, one time I ate the colored ads or comics or something, and my mouth was turning weird colors, and my parents freaked out and took me to the hospital (They didn't know that I ate the paper, they thought there was something wrong with me. How rude! lol).

That's eight, so here are the people I shall tag my vengeance upon.

Except I don't know 8 people, so here goes:

~setsunashadow ~netherworldprincess ~Zyllae
Yeah, all the other people I watch, I don't really know them. So I can't inflict my wrath upon them just yet. So that's it.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14152421/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/14152421/ Mon, 13 Aug 2007 16:21:05 PDT
And on Friday, when it premiers, I'll be watching it with my HSM peeps at the Pere Marquette hotel. (For those who don't know, it's a pretty schnazzy hotel!)
From 6 til 10pm, we'll all be reminiscing and partying and such. I'm so excited!!!!!!!

On Thursday, school starts up again. Which I'm pretty excited for, actually. I can't wait to see my friends again! And I'm psyched for French class, just cause I love the class so much! And my French teacher is pretty much the best teacher ever. For cereal. And I just can't wait to get back into the regime of things. Weird, right? I'm craving school lunch. Something must be seriously wrong with me. Oh well. And I got some pretttttty school supplies. Not. But maybe I'll get some Foster's folders tomorrow at Hot Topic. Maybe.


That's all for now.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/13707291/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/13707291/ Thu, 12 Jul 2007 11:25:32 PDT Then we went to Springfield, swam in the pool in the hotel, and went to the taste of Springfield to see the Romantics. Funfun, except there was this guy standing in front of me the entire time and he was loud and annoying and he moved around a lot and I couldn't move or see for the longest time. Anyway, that lasted until about ten, and then we went back to the hotel and left the next morning.

Once in St. Louis, my sister went to the pool and I hung around and read a book. I would've swum, but it seems every time we go on vacation, I get my period and can't go swimming. Anyway, then we ate at the Hard Rock Cafe, which, for as much as it costs, doesn't have very much food that I like.

The next day, we went to the St Louis Zoo, which is supposed to be very good. We were there for about an hour and forty-five minutes before it started raining.

But first, let me tell you about the penguins:

We went into the little penguin cove, and there were little tiny ones and really big ones, all mixed up, and they were so cute! They hopped around, and made noises like trumpets and jumped in the water, and the guy was feeding them then so they were making a lot of noise. It was so cool. And refreshing, since it was ninety degrees outside, and like fifty inside.

Then we went and saw some birds, and some bears and the prairie dogs, and were on our way to the big cats when it started raining. Hard. The animals didn't seem to mind, but all the people ran for cover. We ended up under the roof of a concession stand with a group of daycare kids for over half an hour. Three little kids played in the water the entire time, and one kid spit down the back of another kid's shirt and their chaperone saw him and the kid denied it, but I just chuckled to myself.

Then, when the rain calmed down, we HAD to go to the Build-A-Bear workshop for Haley(aka my sister) and she got a tiger, blah blah blah. Anyway, by the time she was done it was raining again, so we left then. The rest of the day consisted of going to Landry's seafood restaurant and feeding the fish in the pond.
The next day we went to the City Museum, which was a little kiddy, if you know what I mean, but it was cool. They had man-made caves and a mystery museum (sort of) and a bunch of other stuff, but there were hundreds of people there, most on trips with a daycare group or a mission trip or something, and so it was nonstop noise, but it was okay. They had things you could climb through on every floor, and even outside, there was a huge arrangement of chutes and slides and even a castle tower, airplane, and a fire truck. All of this was located in and outside of an old storage building, and all on the first four floors, where the building had easily eight or nine stories. We went to the gift shop and I got an uglydoll! YAY!
And that evening, we went to the Old Spaghetti Factory in the old part of St. Louis. I love it there, and the spaghetti was great.

Yesterday, on our last day, we went to the Arch, because we always do, and this time we (Haley and I) didn't run down the hill like we usually do, because we were tired. Then we went down the street to go to the McDonald's that floated on the river, and some guy said it was gone, had been gone for five or more years, that it floated off and crashed during a flood. That was sad. And then we left, and ate lunch at a McDonald's in Collinsville, IL.

I forgot to add something about Union Station, the place inside of which our St Louis hotel was located. In order to get out of our hotel room and to the first floor(we were on the second floor), we had to go down the hallway, turn into another, turn onto another, get on the elevator, and then walk halfway across the mall inside Union Station to get where we wanted to go. But my mom figured out that the emergency door at the end of our hall led straight to the end of the mall. And it wasn't even hooked up to any alarm, as it led us to believe. So we used that for the last three days we were there. Hah. We beat the system.

Oh, and the fudge. There's this place called the Fudgery inside Union Station, and the employees sing to get people to come buy some fudge, they're really good. Anyway, we always go get some fudge, and this year we didn't and I"m really sad about it. I like fudge.

]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/13619880/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/13619880/ Thu, 05 Jul 2007 10:53:40 PDT
I'm leaving until Wednesday, so you all can start partying (not). I'm going to Springfield for a day, (for those of you that don't know, I live in Illinois) for an outdoor concert festival, to see the Romantics. You know, the band that originally came up with "What I Like About You"? Yeah, and one of the guys in the band is my dad's friend from one of his old bands. So that's gonna be awesome.

Then we're going to St Louis, Missouri for a while, just like old times. We used to go because my dad had these class thingies for Babylock(one of the biggest sewing machine companies, don't ask) and it was so fun. We'd run down the hill at the Arch, and go on little carriage rides around the old parts of the city, and the hotel we always stayed at is in Union Station, so there's like the tram things and there's a mall, and some restaurants, and a pond with ducks and fish and turtle, all inside (sort of). We're staying there again, so I'm so excited.

We leave tomorrow, so I guess this is the last time I'll talk to you, whoever's reading this. If anyone is.

Au revoir! ]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/13026107/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/13026107/ Sun, 20 May 2007 13:15:31 PDT

Finish The Sentence Survey Take This Survey at Quizopolis.com My ex... doesn\'t exist Maybe I should... eat some macaroni I love... High School Musical eople would say that i'm... weird and hilarious and somewhat violent. And I say \"Why, I\'m flattered.\" I don't understand... why people dissect cats. They don\'t deserve to die for your experimentation When i wake up in the morning... I hope that I\'m dreaming I lost... this really cool black tank top. And I\'m really sad/mad. Life is full of... disappointments, frankly My past is... full of bright, happy times. *shudder* How scary I get annoyed when... eople don\'t listen to me arties are... alright as long as we do something besides dancing ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/12851449/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/12851449/ Sat, 05 May 2007 11:30:35 PDT Anyway, they got rained on when they went, so everything was fine with me. Hahahahaha. And then I went to In Play with my HSM buddies and it was a blast! Me and Markie (hehehe...) found out what our child would look like. HEHEHE Isn't that funny? I'd never been there before, so it was all exciting and everything. I need to go again. Maybe that should be our thing. Going to In Play on Friday nights. During the summer. That'd be sweet. Melissa was there, and Dana-shoes, and Markie, and Alicia, and Jess, and Seth, and Rahmell, and Kyle. And I can't remember if there was anyone else. But it was a BLAST!!!! So that made up for me not going to Brown Bag It. Big time. ]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/12789622/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/12789622/ Mon, 30 Apr 2007 11:43:46 PDT And I'm so very sad. I can't handle it. I need to see my friends again. Need to perform. I ought to re-write the songs with cool lyrics and present them at one of the reunions. And I ought to make cheap little class rings with HSM or EHS on them. Hehe, that'd be fun. Yesterday was miserable, tearing down everything and packing up and leaving. But at least people signed my shirt. Including Caleb. *blush* I know Dana likes him and told him and all, but that doesn't mean I can't like him. It doesn't matter anyway, now that the show's over. Now everyone can know, I don't care. But... It still makes me depressed that I didn't ever really talk to him. I mean, we sang Hannah Montana together one time, and mouthed the words to Cellular Fusion together, but other than that... OHHHH and he heard my Sanjaya lyrics once. Hah. ]]> ~cease-this-fear http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/12706051/ http://cease-this-fear.deviantart.com/journal/12706051/ Mon, 23 Apr 2007 14:54:31 PDT I'm doing my geometry homework right about now, trying to concentrate. But the glow of the computer screen is too distracting. Uhm. I've done twelve shows in the past two weeks. Crazy, eh? But it's sad now, because we only have six left, and that means less time before I leave my friends. Anyway, I'm getting a Webkinz this weekend, and hopefully I'll go buy a new mp3 player, because mine has the capacity of a ... Well, it doesn't hold as many songs as I need it to. *sigh* Reading a film script for English won't be fun. Or easily comprehendable, in my case. I suppose that'll do it for now, I can't think of anything else to say. Bye. ]]> ~cease-this-fear