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]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/25391617/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/25391617/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 10:19:15 PDT Yesterday I posted something about our ongoing project which is linked to: weareiamme

and today, some of us translate it, so you'll be no longer clueless


oh, and we are:





]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/25330154/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/25330154/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 13:40:30 PDT will you take a look at our ongoing project ?

Thank You.

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/23900536/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/23900536/ Thu, 26 Mar 2009 13:53:18 PDT Just got back from a hectic situation.
all was fun. all was beautiful. all was hectic. all was panic. all was shy.

Now you can see one of my photo appear on the cover of a book in your favorite bookstores !
(Indonesia only, though)

and so does ~nininunino's painting, and ~kupi-ae's painting and ~diladiladiladila's door instalation ! (all as cover)

HAPPYYYYYYY !!

and then i'll go invisible again. thought you should know where i've been gone
I'll watch you silently.




]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/23065832/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/23065832/ Sat, 07 Feb 2009 16:52:39 PST and I'm just tired flagging all of them as a spam.


more info: JOFX's Journal or citizenfour's Journal

trust me, those two links above aren't that stupid fake login space.

To be honest, I clicked one of those. But I was logging in to that fake login space from my mobile phone.
But then I saw the journals, I changed the password from the computer right away.
And hopefully they haven't got anything to do with my account.

Anyone received my ID posting that evil link ?

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/22923432/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/22923432/ Sat, 31 Jan 2009 12:58:08 PST and I shouldn't be here right now.
and all I wanted to do is lay down and closing these tired eyes.
but I shouldn't.

I'll tell you the good news after it's confirmed.

be rrrright back !

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/22798890/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/22798890/ Sun, 25 Jan 2009 09:03:43 PST
I think it's fucked up big time, and I'm considering to leave it.

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/22383774/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/22383774/ Sat, 03 Jan 2009 22:16:37 PST why don't we give a warm welcome to this new deviant

amazing works !


and happy new year _{(minus 4 days)} for all of you who celebrate it !!

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/22164649/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/22164649/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 11:34:10 PST Happy Birthday, big J !
you sure old enough to kick it now




oh, have anyone seen Winter Passing ?

reminds me of this quote: "I just can't believe this is the same man who told his six-year-old daughter that Christmas was a Republican capitalistic conspiracy created by the Hallmark Corporation and that, if Jesus were alive today he'd be down in Nicaragua rallying the Sandinistas. Grace Away."

great great movie, by the way.

Happy Holidays, Everyone !!



]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/22049455/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/22049455/ Thu, 18 Dec 2008 13:15:50 PST and realized this: you can't fix stupid.

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/21963442/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/21963442/ Sat, 13 Dec 2008 12:12:53 PST haha.. guess this is my main problem nowadays, eh ?
Everything's changing, and apparently when i think i'm already adapt, i'm not.
The fluctuation in life is more fast than I am. and again, I feel stuck.
And this travels i'm doing, i feel like i don't belong anywhere.
Because whenever I'm settled in one place, I have to go again.
And to adapt and make pictures again really takes time.
Btw, I'm in the same place at the exact time last year.
Though when i remember a year back, i'm like a speeding bullet in creating some new pictures.

Oh, and before I leave, I asked Uci to make something with the title "the girl is leaving the town again" and she really did. and the Unexpected, what she wrote in the description, is what i'm feeling right now.

And I think, it's because of all the pressure that people gave to me too, that makes me stop producing images and I became wanting something new, something that really different, out of mind, and out of budget. again, dead end.

Sorry for rambling in the wrong place and for not being here often. But I'm Facebook-ly active (haha) you can say hello to me, there.
And for all those who gave favs, and comments, don't worry, I'll get back to you.
because without you all, I'm nothing.

and Thank you =citizenfour for the ideas of making pictures because my mind isn't synchronized with the situation. Though I haven't got the time to try it, but I'll try it soon (you'll know it by then)

again, sorry for rambling in the wrong place.

Until I see you again
I promise, it'll be soon.
take care will ya ? and don't hit the door on your way out


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Facebook | Flickr | Last.fm

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/21080038/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/21080038/ Mon, 20 Oct 2008 13:44:37 PDT sorry for flooding your devWATCH !






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Facebook | Flickr | Last.fm

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/20287669/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/20287669/ Tue, 02 Sep 2008 10:35:45 PDT i got tagged by . and i deal with it.

Rules:
• 1. Post these rules.
• 2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
• 3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
• 4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
• 5. No tag-backs.


1. Currently I haven't taken pictures since July, all i've captured were snapshots of my friends.
2. I'm addicted to facebook ?
3. I can't live in a room that isn't messy.
4. I'm having a toothache.
5. I'm in a really shitty mood.
6. these past two weeks i've been drinking like mad.
7. I currently missing someone.
8. I'm missing my old life.

and i'm not going to tag anyone


so, i'm not being productive here, on dA. I don't know, maybe i need a rest too.
but the time i realized i need a rest, is the time i think about "stop the joy ride and create something"
I hope i could bring you something to put up in here ... soon.

yeah.. soon.



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_{Flickr | Facebook | Last.fm}

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/19004006/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/19004006/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 14:59:38 PDT the assignment is finished. all ends well. all the troubles are solved. no more stressing around (i hate the post-production, btw)

anyway, do you know that i had a very different gallery ? it's ~onthestreet

i feel like to separate my works, although now i could do that by put them in different folder.. i still need to learn a lot to catch all the unexpected moments, btw.


well,
now i'm signing off for a couple of days (again)
will go destroy another town with ~nininunino and ~RealitaDidalam

i hope i'll bring back some photos
and catch all your beautiful photos ^^


see you sooooooooooooon !
<sub>(again)



and i cant change the mood's icon</sub>




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_{Flickr | Facebook | Last.fm}

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18817265/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18817265/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 09:27:21 PDT i'll catch up.

i've been pretty busy..
i _finally got a job

but it's almost done now.



see you soon !




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_{Flickr | Facebook | Last.fm}

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18666768/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18666768/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 17:27:17 PDT just to get rid of the previous journal ..

do da da ...




anything exciting happened today ?



let's go to sleep..

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18631414/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18631414/ Mon, 02 Jun 2008 16:55:53 PDT thanks to all of you, who have helped to report to the help desk !!!
the art stealer is now have been banned !

thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank youuuuuuu !!!!

and thank you to dA staff members as well !!!



]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18616618/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18616618/ Mon, 02 Jun 2008 11:57:54 PDT how to report a deviant user ? because his whole gallery photos arent his and some of it are mine from my early works and my friend's

this is the culprit = ~bettogaluh23

would you be kind to help me and my friends ?

<sub>just so you know which one is which:
[link]
original: [link]

[link]
original: [link]

[link]
original: [link]

[link]
original: [link]

[link]
original: [link]

[link]
original: [link]

so far, that's all i know.</sub>

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18533682/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18533682/ Tue, 27 May 2008 19:35:01 PDT
a terrible thing happened last night, my first kodak bw 400 CN failed to process.
my negatives got stuck in the lab's machine. and he offered me to refund it with Fuji superia ISO 400 36 exposures.
i said to the guy, "i dont accept fuji superia. i want the same roll"
he said "oh, that kodak ? eheh.. it's slightly hard to find it here. but i can get you a fuji and processed it in black and white"
and i said, "mister, that roll, isn't worth the same even if you can process it into a 36 exposures of black and white photos. i want my money back."

and this morning, i mean just now, i accidentally knocked the instant coffee sachet too hard and the ash from my burned cigarette fell in the cup.
and now i'm enjoying a coffee, ash, and a cigarette.

i cant wait what's in front of me.

Have a better morning !

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18315805/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18315805/ Wed, 14 May 2008 05:32:29 PDT Finally gave up on Facebook.
now i have one

[link]

Feel free to do something to me ..

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18208989/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18208989/ Wed, 07 May 2008 09:16:17 PDT i'm twenty friggin' one

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18109546/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/18109546/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 21:44:31 PDT _{as we all know today's an International Workers Day. In Jakarta, since last year, it's official that a bunch of people whom i know are an anarchists, actually organized this day to have street march and made brilliant writing on walls along the street, one that i saw, a haiku poem from fight club like "worker bees can leave. even drones can fly away. the Queen is their slave". I've been preparing this day since months ago, to take part on this day, i've been contacting my so-called friend so i won't be alone there, but here i am, in a faraway place from my original downtown}

and on the other topic, everything looks good in wide lens
i'll submit something soon !

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/17973850/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/17973850/ Tue, 22 Apr 2008 10:26:33 PDT can you suggest me one thing/theme _{(one thing/theme per person, or two or blah, i dont care)} for me to took pictures of ?

but, here's my condition:
i'm not in my own land. so, maybe it's best to go soft on me, don't be too hard
and i dont have models (nor friends) to take pictures of.
i even don't have a tripod but that isn't an important thing for me, though. i can use anything as a tripod. if i have to.


i ran out of ideas, thats why i need help

please, be kind !

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/17892101/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/17892101/ Thu, 17 Apr 2008 07:20:42 PDT "ladies and gentlemen, you're now arriving at changi airport, singapore. the local time is ....."

several days ago, in the neighbour-land. none other than where my big (literally. she's 9 months pregnant) sister live.
you know why im here ? there i've said it, she's huge, and will be delivering soon.
and here i am, waiting for that special moment, nervously
and yes, you guessed it. i didnt wander around with a camera. i stayed all day long at home. i didnt mind about it. because i didnt want her to move too much too. it looks painful



<sub>and today, a suprising call from homeland. greeted by a tearful voice.
i know who it is.
there, the voice uncontrollable. i was waiting for the story.
there it is. flowing. im glad that person could tell me everything.
i became panic, i became tearful too, and blaming myself for not being there.
and one thing that answers everything,
that voice said "why only crazy people, understoods crazy people ?"
and we laughed at it.
i didnt forget to curse that voice :b

well, my dear. at least it answers everything.
take a good care, comrade.
at least until i got home..</sub>

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/17741543/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/17741543/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 01:47:01 PDT


my country's blocking youtube





]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/17617865/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/17617865/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 01:35:32 PDT deviantArt ?

our avatars becomes all the same

_{prank on april fool's day ? i almost forgot there's such things as april fool's day.
who are you fooling today ?}

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/17462169/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/17462169/ Sat, 22 Mar 2008 17:10:49 PDT and then i clicked this [link]

i went there once again just now, like i did when i just dropped out of school.
a friend gave it to me.
on the next note, he said, "you rock."
(me in my punk _poser days with a bunch of punk rock friends, no wonder he said i rock. those days, i even know how to make bombs out of PP3 batteries. hahaha..)

i still hate school up until now.
i cant stand it. everytime i remember about school, i feel nauseated.
i remember, when the first time i entered different school from my junior high.
it's different, the people are different, the teachers are different, but its still feel the same.
the same fear, the same nausea.

i dont like school. everytime i think about it, it haunted me.
is it fear ? or i loathe school that much ?
i dont know, whatever happens, i will not go back to school.

i even dropped out of college (yes, college too) because:
1. the program is completely out of mind (imagine 4 years of learning packed up in 16 months. yes, i can get job right away after i finished there, but it's too hectic)
2. i still hate school.

the last time i came home from my campus, i cried on the bus on the way home.
i met Uci and we both agree i should come to the psychiatrist (i prefer psychiatrist then a psychologist, uci's right, psychologists are smart ass and not handing out any prescription.)
and even the psychiatrist says im depressed, but still dont understand why i hate school that much, and guess what ? she told me to pray. ask guidance from god. she told me to come back to her the next week. i didnt came back.

even in my kindergarten days, i hate school.
i used to be dragged by my mom out of the house, then sitting on the back of her bicycle and try to think positive while im on my way to school. like the morning breeze, greet my mom's friend who lives in the other block. but when i enter the classrom, i cried.
i ask my mom to bring me home rightaway. but she always left.
and i always hide in the place like a small hall with dead end at the back of the class, and pound my head to the wall. and saying 'i dont want to be here'

i hate school since im in kindergarten.
im a natural born school hater.

my only school is the mother earth, and life that happens.
thats all i need to learn.

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/17417951/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/17417951/ Wed, 19 Mar 2008 21:29:24 PDT
For some reason, I took a wrong turn somewhere
between black and white.
And now i'm stuck in this location,
counting the days till I get back home.

_{yeah, i took a wrong turn into commercial photography thingy.}

i feel lost.
i havent took photos in about a month.
not the one i desired.
help ?


]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/16986623/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/16986623/ Thu, 21 Feb 2008 00:45:13 PST my mood says it all.
and i feel like to post pictures of nothing.
hope you'll like them.

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/16773014/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/16773014/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 16:26:46 PST it started with my lens kit. that happens a while ago. and now everything around me seems falling apart. first, my phone's charger. and then my dvd player, at first it chose which dvd that it wants to play, and now its dead, no disc had any privilege to be played on it. my ipod started making lots of noise when it plays songs. well, my ipod's been working too long though. i got it since 2004. and the last one, my phone. its completely dead as dead. i mean, those are the things that i need so badly, daily. so ... ? again, the closing word: _shit

and now i cant sleep, struggling to get the phone's to turned on. negative.

oh yeah, on saturday, im gonna have my first photoshoot. don't ask. act like nothing happened. be nice to me.

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/16425299/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/16425299/ Tue, 15 Jan 2008 23:19:21 PST last night, i went to some mini shop to buy one pack of cig. it's just downstairs, and when i asked for marlboro menthol, the cashier lady said "can i see your IC ?" ... talk to the hand auntie (yes, they replace 'lady' or 'ma'am' with auntie) i'm old and didnt need a reminder that i'll be 21 this year ! but i didnt say that to her and went upstairs for my IC, i need the fuckin cigarette, and when she looked at my birth year, she said "oh, which one do you want ?" _shit

somehow i like ignorant salespeople in my country
im going home soon, anyway.

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/16253420/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/16253420/ Fri, 04 Jan 2008 10:39:15 PST
i hate resolutions, i had come up with nothing, until this minute, looking at gorgeous old soviet cameras, and a thing glanced up, how about:

being a whore (not literally) and whoring my camera, and my pictures !

by giving in to some commercial photo taking. all to get myself cameras or films or money to travel.

and i do refer to my favorite photographer before giving in.
it's Richard Kalvar.
i know, he's too high but i do really inspired by him

but first of all, i've got idealism to kill
and it's a hard thing to do


anyway, happy new year to you all !

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/16073366/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/16073366/ Mon, 24 Dec 2007 09:02:51 PST i'm sorry, i couldnt catch up your deviations. i did not delete it, i let it pile up, a now it's 223 already, and right now, my sister's staring at me like she wanted to eat me with my bones. aaand, i downloaded a photoshop CS2 trial version, and it didnt have every "OK" and "Cancel" button !!

and i cant even find the rotate image option

seriously

merry christmas everyone. hope you're having better than mine !

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/16025769/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/16025769/ Fri, 21 Dec 2007 08:20:00 PST things in here are incredibly out of my mind.
i have no photoshop, no images, not allowed to smoke whenever i want.
i'd rather be at home and nearly died because of starving instead to be here.
im deadly serious. i had to leave home when i started gathering the pieces.
and i already missed my friends. damn, holiday family pack sucks ass.

i even planned to walk in the middle of the city, and walk in between cars that stuck because it's new years eve with my camera and of course my friends.
and now that plan has turned into ashes and the wind blew it away.

get me away from here, im dying

blah, at least this song reminds me of home.
(can i write the title here, owner of the song ?)

i'm out.


]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15977503/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15977503/ Mon, 17 Dec 2007 18:22:07 PST i've done it again. i dont sleep, just because i planned to go out on 11AM.
but in fact, i did sleep at 5:30AM or so, and an hour or maybe a little more my cellphone rang

a devil shouts in my ear
"WAKE UP ! I WANT TO JOIN YOU AND NOVIA !"
i said, "okay, and now let me get back to sleep"
she said, "NO ! YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP NOW ! I DONT WANT TO HEAR REASONS, WAAAKEE UPPP !!"
i said, "Fuck you, im up now."

and that's why im here, while she went to the bank to take care of her lost ATM card. isnt she an evil ? i thought she said she would accompanied me on the phone until its time to get ready and fight with those people on the bus who likes to push.

3 more hours to go, and i FEEL SLEEPY !!
fuck you, nininunino
she just left me with coffee and cigarettes to hold on to. aargh..


ON THE OTHER NEWS !
i lost my mood to take photos, last weekend, i went to meet up with my friends, novia, the evil uci, ryan and ivan but you know what ? i didnt make any single photo, and now i regret it ....... those are the people i love and when they're all together

(we hardly could meet up each other, uci is studying in out of town, novia is studying in malaysia, ryan is working, and ivan is in college, here in Jakarta.)

i didnt take any photos of them !! and worse, i have to go to singapore on thursday, whilst they're having their holiday



okay, im done. and let me morose deeply in vain later.
i'll go get my smena symbol and canonet ready.


poka.

p.s: hope you're all have a better day than me


]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15848403/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15848403/ Sat, 08 Dec 2007 12:35:54 PST so, Jiffest (Jakarta International Film Festival) is around the corner
and i dont need another next year to gooooo.. yay ! (cucu pasti ngakak dah )

and, today, when i wanted to capture something with Zeus (my canon eos 30D), the lens decided to die on me ! i was switching AF to MF hundred times and the beep didnt *beep!* fuck, fuck, fuck !

and then i saw my FTb, and i took of it lens, and changed it with (not working) T-50, 35-70mm lens.

and then i realized something, what if i took off zeus's lens.
and i did. i took of zeus's lens, cursed it, shake it, and put it back on. and IT WORKS ! IT WORKS !! dammit, i nearly got a heart attack and go for a lens cap pinhole, ryan told me about. i dont care if it isnt an appropriate lens whatsoever, what matter is, i can capture something with it ! but now, problems resolved


and on the other hand, i decided to double exposure and cross process the fujichrome sensia. thanks for all who've helped me !

and i did get bokeh on f/4 : [link]



]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15823640/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15823640/ Thu, 06 Dec 2007 16:07:48 PST im having a huge dilemma.
so, when i was planning to sleep, one of my box attracts me to search for something. and look what i've got in my hand now !

3 rolls needs to be developed. 2 b&w films and one was fujichrome sensia.

and im having a big dilemma with the sensia, its either, i just normal processed it, cross processed it, or i ask the lab to pull the film out so i could double exposured the whole roll ?

HELP !

_{now about the pics, chances are my trip to jogjakarta, or back in the days when im in school and its a school project or.. another stupidiot capture with my FTb}

but first thing first ! HELP !

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15791130/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15791130/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 09:49:05 PST i didnt sleep again last night, and im still here.
been through a very marvelous day.
meet up with some great old old cameras (yeah, i just see them, i dont buy them )

and of course, meet up with ~matamoto and ~RealitaDidalam to invade the place that full (i mean it) of old cameras. but too bad, most of them didnt work. (i found an Olympus OM10, minus the light meter (it didnt work) and i almost bought it

and of course, when we started to confused of where will be the next destination is, the sky answer it all and we settled in the very right place.

here's some gorgeous shot from today unexpected event :
[link]

[link]

[link]

[link]

yeah, all shot were from ~RealitaDidalam because i dont have my zeus with me, but im sure developed a film that im satisfied with (by it's index print) and please pardon me if i'll uploading too much stuff

signing out, i think im gonna faint

P.S: check here too ! ^^

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15749863/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15749863/ Sat, 01 Dec 2007 13:05:08 PST do f/4 could make bokeh ?

call me stupid but i dont want to think nor do research right now.

i have an appoinment with friends, to meet up at some point at 8.
and now, it's 4 am in the morning.

hoorah !

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15631250/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15631250/ Fri, 23 Nov 2007 06:56:53 PST here (hopefully) regularly ... and i kinda want to post every photo i took in malaysia. yeah. hah. and btw, ignore the early blog that using bahasa indonesia you wouldnt want to know

kinda back in everywhere, too

_{but i dont have anything to this gallery}

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15588682/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15588682/ Tue, 20 Nov 2007 10:59:38 PST
be right back

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15532231/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15532231/ Fri, 16 Nov 2007 10:39:15 PST mybloodydreams and a great last meet up with ~deadnic, all replaced by a bad thing.
i hate it.
i still hate it.

going back to jakarta soon.
and hope everything was in their place.
i need a friendly situation.
a friendly atmosphere.

i'll update with the icon thing. right now, i havent got the mood.

cheers

_{p.s: the title doesnt represent anything. i was just being random.}

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15400372/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15400372/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 01:47:25 PST next tuesday, i'm gonna visit ~mybloodydreams in malaysia. that means, im gonna need more films

_{gonna figured that out later}


========================================

<sub>my generous watchers that soo generous they decided to watch me
and some of them become my friends too ... i you guys, you know who you are

fankoooo
go check them guys !</sub>



~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15215263/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15215263/ Thu, 25 Oct 2007 12:22:19 PDT i am calm about everything




========================================

<sub>my generous watchers that soo generous they decided to watch me
and some of them become my friends too ... i you guys, you know who you are

fankoooo
go check them guys !</sub>



http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15121869/ Fri, 19 Oct 2007 11:52:34 PDT bored already.
dot.
dot.
dot.


upd:
_{yay !!
i was featured on the news !} [link]



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<sub>my generous watchers that soo generous they decided to watch me
and some of them become my friends too ... i you guys, you know who you are

fankoooo
go check them guys !</sub>



http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/15052735/ Sun, 14 Oct 2007 03:15:34 PDT i got featured on =extraordinary-boy's journal


im not good at titling anything so, hm, it is...
it's the fifth day ~nininunino's been in the hospital because of lack of haemmoglobin or whatever other thing that complicated and i cant name them in english .. typhus and ... (demam berdarah bahasa inggerisnya apa ? ) yea, which is so bad and she's very weak and cant do nothing except sleep. when i visitted her, well, she's still acts like an ass, then again, she got hospitalization ! which is her dream came true (and mine too ) so that's why we cannot missed this moment, and take pictures ! you cannot believe what im telling you above, that she's weak whatsoever
and now, she's getting better...

and...... yeah, thats it ..




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<sub>my generous watchers that soo generous they decided to watch me
and some of them become my friends too ... i you guys, you know who you are

fankoooo
go check them guys !</sub>


http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/14841468/ Sat, 29 Sep 2007 13:00:22 PDT this thing is IN, so im IN. haha.. such a lame
here's my generous watchers that soo generous they decided to watch me
and some of them become my friends too ... i you guys, you know who you are

fankoooo
go check them guys !




http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/14786670/ Tue, 25 Sep 2007 13:27:00 PDT NOTHING !!



<sub>Okay, since 2 people fooled by my empty journal.
here's an information.

the exhibition's schedule is here !

Date : October 06 2007
Day : Saturday
Time : 15.30 wib
Place : Galeri Oktagon Lt 2
Jl.Gunung Sahari Raya no.50a
Closing act () : Buka puasa bersama. <-- What's the english for it ?

HAHAHA...

be there, dont be there, be there !</sub>




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_{this thing is IN, so im IN. haha.. such a lame
here's my generous watchers that soo generous that they decide to watch me
thank you, guys
go check them guys !}


http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/14766522/ Mon, 24 Sep 2007 01:20:53 PDT that friggin photolab

i couldnt get my prints done at 1 PM today as promised, and i should come back tonight. tonight.. TONIGHT !! bloody ........ #@$#^$!@#
it annoyed me because, there's quite difference between noon to night.




but oktagon (the gallery's name) said its okay.

i will make those bastards pay, if i was kicked out from the exhibition

but thank whomever, im not ...

but still..

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/14718280/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/14718280/ Thu, 20 Sep 2007 17:10:54 PDT "

i dont know why i wrote this but suddenly i think about a forgotten thank you to my dear friend, uci.

_{did you even remember it,} uci ? i do

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/14685538/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/14685538/ Tue, 18 Sep 2007 10:03:30 PDT lately, seems my photos going to street ...

and i havent sleep last night and strolled down the street all day long, today ...

i think i will faint..


it is unimportant, but im bored with previous journal.

on the other news, i am IN for the exhibition thanks to all of you who said "good luck"

grood nright ...

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/14543549/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/14543549/ Sat, 08 Sep 2007 10:05:57 PDT I’ve been tagged. twice with the same topic. yeah

1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves - and write a separate journal about 'em.
4. At the end of the post 8 more peeps are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged]

1) I love movies. but i dont watch anything in the past months.

2) I enjoy smoking Gudang Garam Filter more than Sampoerna. although it's heavy (it has 30MG tar and 1,8MG nicotine. ) but im not into Red Marlboros.

3) I walking ! pedestrian rules !

4) I currently still owe a family member amount of money because of Zeus (my Canon EOS 30D)

5) I have trouble splitting my concentration !! BIG TIME !!

6) I love airports and train stations.

7) I cant sleep with a movie played on my TV, although i watched hundred times, I'll still glued to it eventhough im sleepy.

8) I always write in my journal before i go to sleep. and there's already 2 journals full of my thoughts ..

And for everyone's sake, i only tag 8 people, although i have to tag 16 people

I´m tagging:





]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/14398785/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/14398785/ Wed, 29 Aug 2007 16:41:43 PDT NOTHING !!

<sub>actually no, with my impulsiveness (is there such a word ? but you know what i mean, aye ?) i burned my photos into a cd and ran to a cab and send it to an exhibition competition for a school of photography i've been attended in the last 2 months. just hope i will get the place there to show my low qualities of photos... just wish me luck

(i dont know why, but i dont really care about that, too. so, may the luck with me !! just so i can have extra happiness )

on the other news, everythings back in its place HURRAH</sub>


zing, asshole !

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/14356314/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/14356314/ Sun, 26 Aug 2007 21:15:21 PDT protect me from what i want.
i want to die.

my friend's gone. not dead, but left.


protect me from what i want.
i want to be dead.

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/14125158/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/14125158/ Mon, 20 Aug 2007 15:12:42 PDT nininunino kindly (!!) tagged me so I guess i've got to write a little something-something about myself. This should be interesting (or not.)

<sub>Here's how it works...

The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/facts/dislikes about yourself" and people who get tagged must write in their journals about their 6 weird habits/facts/dislikes as well as state this rule clearly.

In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names..
Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you're tagged" in their deviant page comments and tell them to read your journal.

Here goes:


1. habit - i dont use xanax so i could sleep again, i tend to dance with it and writing and kinda annoying to everyone instead just sleep.

2. dislike - i am an impulsive, to the very core..

3. habit - i like to sing out loud before sleep.

4. fact - i like to talk to my imaginary friend.

5. habit - i like to wash my hands, mostly for no reason..

6. dislike - i am dependant aaannd, i dont like being watched while eating (i think i include the 7th. haha.. what the heck )

Ok so that's it, you now know a little more about me.

I've tagged the following people because I think they're nice

- ChicLuba
- emptyroom
- johannesmvp
- damnmagenta
- ali-musette
- kopiforphotography</sub>


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Update

and come visit
he's new, he's a good friend of mine, and he's the man that so full of life

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/13984424/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/13984424/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 10:12:46 PDT
dot.

dot.

dot....

things arent in the right place lately.
and
i started to know the pattern

oh..
imagination world, where have you gone.
the thing that keep me sane in insane way.

one thing that stay and always put a smile (even a giggle) on me : [link]

there is no doubt about it


just hope tomorrow comes and one hope will come true..
if i still can rely on hope, of course ...




EXHALE !


and by the way, i really love this song.
thank you

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/13867830/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/13867830/ Wed, 25 Jul 2007 00:02:52 PDT you must see !


- Stranger Than Fiction
- Caffeine
- The Life of David Gale
- Transamerica
- What To Do In Case of Fire
- The Laramie Project
- Angels in America
- The Edukators
- R.E.N.T
- Me and You and Everyone We know

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haha... thats it for now... i forget what other great movies, to be exact


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]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/13559568/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/13559568/ Sun, 01 Jul 2007 04:18:33 PDT
a friend of mine, from Jogjakarta telling me, she's in Jakarta and wants to hang out with me, and maybe want a sleepover a day or two.
a friend of mine from Bandung, who originally supposed to go to Makassar, having transits a day or two (too!) in Jakarta, and she called me and wants a sleepover.
and uci, my CWAZY friend, who's also in bandung wants to go to the dentist here in jakarta, and she doesnt want to go to her place because it was exploded (not literally, just have a really big messed up) and she decides to sleepover at mine's !

haha.
you are always welcome at my house

and another friend of mine called me last night, just so i can hear the ocean's wave.

am i happy ?

certainly appear so


(ergh, my english is fucked up. [who wants to read it, anyway ?])

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]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/13524249/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/13524249/ Thu, 28 Jun 2007 10:56:02 PDT
"My Lover's Gone"

My lover's gone
his boots no longer by my door
he left at dawn
and as I slept I felt him go
Returns no more
I will not watch the ocean
My lover's gone
no earthly ships will ever bring him home again
bring him home again

My lover's gone
I know that kiss will be my last
no more his song
the tune upon his lips has passed

I sing alone
while I watch the ocean
My lover's gone
no earthly ships will ever bring him home again
bring him home again


why it has to be the ships that will bring Dido's "him" home ?
haha.. guess there's a whole lot more people that lost in seas.

you know what ? you are not that "neat" after all.

]]> ~cef http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/13398763/ http://cef.deviantart.com/journal/13398763/ Mon, 18 Jun 2007 19:52:18 PDT now i cannot submit my works and its stressing the hell out of me !!

just because my photoshop has expired.

*sigh*

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