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]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/27986257/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/27986257/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 20:58:01 PDT [link] My TRUE birthday is in only 4 days away. I can't wait!

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/27567714/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/27567714/ Sat, 03 Oct 2009 21:57:32 PDT
Now the day has come
We are forsaken
There's no time any more
Life will pass us by
We are forsaken
Only ruins stay behind
(Forsaken; Within Temptation)

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]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/25361715/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/25361715/ Tue, 16 Jun 2009 21:08:02 PDT [link] Please, my friends, she needs more friends so can you talk to her and stuff, please? Thanks in advance and I wish the best for all. ^_^

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/25066381/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/25066381/ Mon, 01 Jun 2009 09:18:53 PDT
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I am tired of being you slave, Amanda. It's time I showed you how I really feel. I made this not to long after we broke up.

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Guess what my friends. The old, non-depressed me is back!

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]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/24321869/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/24321869/ Sun, 19 Apr 2009 08:40:03 PDT This is her if you guys want to see her.

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]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/23885742/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/23885742/ Wed, 25 Mar 2009 15:47:12 PDT I will start my story again soon. Oh and another thing...Asdeff, a.k.a. Taylor has hereby been banished from my council, my kingdom, my favor, and my race for committing treason by threatening to wage war against me and my people. She is no more than a mutt and I hope she is happy for what she has done, and know, I do this for my friends, family, and my second family, my pack. ^^

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]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21922272/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21922272/ Wed, 10 Dec 2008 20:29:55 PST
"DON'T NEED THIS PATH BEFORE ME
DON'T NEED FORGOTTEN GLORY
DON'T NEED THESE THREATS OF VIOLENCE
DON'T NEED ETERNAL SILENCE

DON'T NEED THESE MIDNIGHT VISIONS
DON'T NEED TO MAKE DECISIONS
DON'T NEED TO BE UNCERTAIN
DON'T NEED THIS FINAL CURTAIN"

"NOW CAUGHT IN A WALTZ
WITH THE ETERNAL DANCER
I'M COURTED BY DEATH
BUT DEATH ISN'T THE ANSWER"

Those lines belong to the Trans-Siberian Orchestra.

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21843988/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21843988/ Sat, 06 Dec 2008 08:01:51 PST Geian...I am going to make a story about this...

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]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21594169/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21594169/ Fri, 21 Nov 2008 08:29:10 PST Name: Beast Fang
Gender: Male
Height:: 6’0
Eye color: brown
Hair Color: dark brown and black
Age: real age is unknown but right now this body is 16 going on 17
Birthday: 31st of October
Lefty/Righty/ambidextrous: a bit ambidextrous but mainly right
Piercing: no
Tattoos: nope but getting one
Zodiac Sign: scorpio/cancer
Ring Size: donno
Grade: Sophomore

More about you
Are you named after anyone?: no
Do you live in the moment?: I live in so many times
Do you consider yourself tolerant to others?: It all depends on what mood I am in
Do you have any secrets?: too many
Do you hate yourself?: most of the time. my life: yes a lot...
Do you have any bad habits?: hell yeah
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: no
Any regrets?: *crying* so many regrets...
Do you think life has been good so far?: no but it might change
Are you confident?: no but I encourage it because I do not want anyone like me
How long does it take you to shower?: 5 to 10 minutes
What color is your room?: mixed
Where do you want to attend college?: no place chosen for sure
Do you...?
Smoke?: never
Do drugs?: Nope
Drink?: no but I will drink wine
Go to church?: haven't in a while.God's home is not my own nor do I belong there
Sleep with stuffed animals?: did when I was young (Two Wolves)
Take walks in the rain?: I would love to walk with Sammi in the rain
Talk to people even if you hate them?: never
Drive?: yep
Want to get married?: yes. ASAP
Want to go to college?: yup
Want to have children?: absolutely.must continue the bloodline and I just want a family to calm mine and whoever i'm with's.
Get along with you parents?: yeah
Get along with your sibling/s?: he=aven't seen mine in years
Color/highlight your hair?: hair is too dark
Like coffee?: if i need it...
Wear makeup every time you go out?: I'm a guy
Love roller coasters?: no...no Teacups...Please no...
Like to cook?: hell yeah but I can't cook much.
Have you ever...?
Hurt yourself?: yes...
Been out of the country?: used to live out of this bloody country long ago...
Done drugs?: nope
Gone skinny dipping?: no but I know someone who has...
Had surgery?: yes
Played strip poker?: nope but heard it was fun
Been on stage?: yes
Pulled an all nighter?: do every night
Gone one day without food?: I go DAYS without food to lose weight (I weigh like 175...I think)
Slept all day?: yeah
Kissed a stranger?: no
Had a dream that came true?: all the time
Broken the law?: nope
Stolen anything?: of course
Been on radio/tv?: no
Been in a mosh-pit?: yep 'w'
Bungee jumped?: no
Had a dream that kept coming back?: all of the time
Gone out of state?: yup
Lived in other states?: yes
Eaten an entire box of oreos?: yes
Had a movie marathon?: Yes!
Spun until you were immensely dizzy?: yea
Ran into a wall?: yep
Been rejected by a crush?: so many times...
Cried in public?: yes...
Cried over a movie?: only one
Gotten a cavity?: once
Shopped at Abercrombie and Fitch?: yes
Broken a bone?: yes
Fallen from a tree?: yup
Passed out?: yes
Been to a theme park?: yes
Eaten sushi?: I kind of like sushi

This or That
Pepsi or Coke: coke
McDonalds or Burger King: Burger King
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Black or White: black
Burgers or Hot dogs: Burger
Boxers or briefs: don't really care
Book or magazine: books
TV or radio: Tv
is the glass half empty or half full: half empty..
sun or moon: the moon (MY goddess)
hot or cold: cold
romantic comedy or thriller: romantic
waffles or pancakes: waffles
Florida or California: Florida
Black and white or color photos: black & white
The city, the beach, OR the country: beach
Tennis shoes or sandals: tennis shoes
Sweet or sour: sweet
Private or public school: Public
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino
English or history: English
Science or math: Science

Do you believe ...?
in miracles?: yes
in magic?: yup.if not then I would not be in current predicament...
in God?: yes..
in Satan?: yup..
in ghosts?: yes
in luck?: no
in love at first sight?: yeah
in Santa?: nope
in the Easter Bunny?: nope
in witches?: yeeeees...
faithful forever?: yes.hell yeah!
in wishing on shooting stars?: yaa
that cussing is a necessity in life?: no
yourself?: no
imagination?: yup

Love and all that
Do you consider love a mistake?: no
If someone you had no interest in had interest in dating you how would you react?: depends
Do you prefer knowing someone before... ]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21581376/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21581376/ Thu, 20 Nov 2008 12:51:01 PST
"At the beginning of my life, I was born into a happy place.One of kindness and of anything that I would ever want, but all good things must come to an end."

V.II

"My mother, such a lovely being, with all of the kindness of an angel, and my father, a strong warrior and a loving father; or so I thought..."

V.III

"As we were sitting, alone during the winter months near the fireplace, he came bursting through the door, raging about something and suddenly, my mother told me to go into the other room while they talked.Sounded more like yelling to me..."

V.IV

"All I heard was a roar and some crashes and when I peeked around the corner, there she was on the floor...Blood pouring out of a gash on her right temple.How's that for an early Christmas present?"

V.V

"When he stopped and noticed what he had done he started to call for her to get up but she didn't move.Then he started to cry out her name but still no answer.Realizing what he had done to his own beloved wife, he picked up a knife on the table and without thinking about it, slit his own throat.I wonder if it was the thought of murder or the thought of her being dead that drove him to do that?"

V.VI

"A few days later, a woman wandered towards our small house and when she got no answer at the door opened it and found me laying with my mothers lifeless body and my fathers next to her.I was only 5 years old at the time so without thinking, she picked me up and took me home."

V.VII

"As soon as she got me to her rather large house, she cleaned off all of the blood from me and gave me a warm meal for which I had not had in a couple of days.She was so kind to me even though she did not even know who or what I was.She had tought me manners and respect for those around me.Even though I was a lycan and she a human, she raised me as her own son."

V.VIII

"Later on in life I started to become more and more reckless especially during my teenage years.I was always looking for an adventure whether or not I got in trouble or not.Even going to the extremes of committing sins such as lust.There was one instance of where I fooled around with a warlock's daughter and after having some fun and him finding out about it he put a curse on me.A curse that for as long as I lived, I would be alone.That should have been my clue to stop what I was doing..."

V.IX

"About a year and a half later me and my unit were sitting around when our captain and my best friend, Count Cervantes Salene (Who was a vampire) told everyone but me to leave the room and he told me
that my step-mother was very sick and he said, 'Beast, I want you to go visit her.She may not pull through this and I think she would want you to be there.' As soon as he said that I started to leave but then he grabbed me by my shoulder and asked me, 'Can you go find my daughter.I...I am going somewhere and I want you to give her something from me.' And with that he handed me a sword. 'That was ment to be her's.She is living with her mother in the city.She lives in a huge mansion and it should not be that hard to find her.Good bye my old friend.' And with that he was gone."

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21535458/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21535458/ Mon, 17 Nov 2008 14:08:16 PST Here are the first ones and the only ones we have:
1.Xaixura "The Hollow Leader"
2.Noxre
3.Naxkura
4.Xihei
5.Rexzeira
6.Xalena "The Electrified Assassin"
7.Xera "The Calm Inferno"
8.Ixegs
9.Dalyx "The White Wolf"

BTW, all of the organization pictures are done by my friend but the weapons I made.

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]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21470251/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21470251/ Thu, 13 Nov 2008 14:01:17 PST As this song implies, I feel so forsaken.
[link]
...I am not asking for help or pity but...Answers...Am I Nobody?Do I have a heart?Am I just an empty shell?I feel so empty-hearted...

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21425929/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21425929/ Mon, 10 Nov 2008 17:37:02 PST
"At the beginning of my life, I was born into a happy place.One of kindness and of anything that I would ever want, but all good things must come to an end."

V.II

"My mother, such a lovely being, with all of the kindness of an angel, and my father, a strong warrior and a loving father; or so I thought..."

V.III

"As we were sitting, alone during the winter months near the fireplace, he came bursting through the door, raging about something and suddenly, my mother told me to go into the other room while they talked.Sounded more like yelling to me..."

V.IV

"All I heard was a roar and some crashes and when I peeked around the corner, there she was on the floor...Blood pouring out of a gash on her right temple.How's that for an early Christmas present?"

V.V

"When he stopped and noticed what he had done he started to call for her to get up but she didn't move.Then he started to cry out her name but still no answer.Realizing what he had done to his own beloved wife, he picked up a knife on the table and without thinking about it, slit his own throat.I wonder if it was the thought of murder or the thought of her being dead that drove him to do that?"

V.VI

"A few days later, a woman wandered towards our small house and when she got no answer at the door opened it and found me laying with my mothers lifeless body and my fathers next to her.I was only 5 years old at the time so without thinking, she picked me up and took me home."

V.VII

"As soon as she got me to her rather large house, she cleaned off all of the blood from me and gave me a warm meal for which I had not had in a couple of days.She was so kind to me even though she did not even know who or what I was.She had tought me manners and respect for those around me.Even though I was a lycan and she a human, she raised me as her own son."

V.VIII

"Later on in life I started to become more and more reckless especially during my teenage years.I was always looking for an adventure whether or not I got in trouble or not.Even going to the extremes of committing sins such as lust.There was one instance of where I fooled around with a warlock's daughter and after having some fun and him finding out about it he put a curse on me.A curse that for as long as I lived, I would be alone.That should have been my clue to stop what I was doing..."

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21378796/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21378796/ Fri, 07 Nov 2008 19:59:23 PST
V.I

"At the beginning of my life, I was born into a happy place.One of kindness and of anything that I would ever want, but all good things must come to an end."

V.II

"My mother, such a lovely being, with all of the kindness of an angel, and my father, a strong warrior and a loving father; or so I thought..."

V.III

"As we were sitting, alone during the winter months near the fireplace, he came bursting through the door, raging about something and suddenly, my mother told me to go into the other room while they talked.Sounded more like yelling to me..."

V.IV

"All I heard was a roar and some crashes and when I peeked around the corner, there she was on the floor...Blood pouring out of a gash on her right temple.How's that for an early Christmas present?"

V.V

"When he stopped and noticed what he had done he started to call for her to get up but she didn't move.Then he started to cry out her name but still no answer.Realizing what he had done to his own beloved wife, he picked up a knife on the table and without thinking about it, slit his own throat.I wonder if it was the thought of murder or the thought of her being dead that drove him to do that?"

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21288700/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21288700/ Sun, 02 Nov 2008 17:58:35 PST
"At the beginning of my life, I was born into a happy place.One of kindness and of anything that I would ever want, but all good things must come to an end."

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]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21006567/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/21006567/ Wed, 15 Oct 2008 18:16:23 PDT
I, the Lycan King, hereby claim that the three day leading up to Halloween are going to be known as "luna celebritas", or "Moon Festival" where we, as a pack and race shall celebrate our people, our heritage, our loved ones, and on the 31st, my birthday.

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/20686873/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/20686873/ Fri, 26 Sep 2008 13:23:49 PDT
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]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/20538157/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/20538157/ Wed, 17 Sep 2008 13:57:12 PDT [link]

Hello me, meet the real me
And my misfit's way of life
A dark, black past is my
Most valued possession
Hindsight is always 20-20
But looking back, it's still a bit fuzzy
Speak of mutually assured destruction?
Nice story, Tell it to Reader's Digest?!

Feeling paranoid
True enemy or false friend?
Anxiety's attacking me
And my air is getting thin
I'm in trouble for the things
I haven't got to yet
I'm chomping at the bit
And my palms are getting wet
Sweating bullets

Hello me, it's me again
You can subdue, but never tame me
It gives me a migraine headache
Sinking down to your level
Yea, just keep on thinking it's my fault
And stay an inch or two outta kicking distance
Mankind has got to know
His limitations

Feeling claustrophobic
Like the walls are closing in
Blood stains on my hands
And I don't know where I've been
I'm in trouble for the things
I haven't got to yet
I'm sharpening the axe
And my palms are getting wet
Sweating bullets

I hear it in hear...
Blood stains on my...hands
The big axe...
Sweating...

Well, me, it's nice talking to myself
A credit to dementia
Some day you too will know my pain
And smile its "black-tooth grin"
If the war inside my head
Won't take a day off I'll be dead
My icy fingers claw your back
Here I come again

Feeling paranoid
True enemy or false friend?
Anxiety's attacking me
And my air is getting thin

Feeling claustrophobic
Like the walls are closing in
Blood stains on my hands
And I don't know where I've been

Once you committed me
Now you've acquitted me
Claiming validity
For your stupidity
I'm chomping at the bit
I'm sharpening the axe
Here I come again
Sweating bullets

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/20141560/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/20141560/ Mon, 25 Aug 2008 03:20:16 PDT
]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/20102831/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/20102831/ Fri, 22 Aug 2008 20:07:13 PDT "Die for anyone, what have I become?!"
I feel as though I am becoming less...Sane and becoming more of a monster...Sammi...This is for you...
[link]
All I want is for you to say you love me...That's all I need to know...To survive...

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/19939547/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/19939547/ Wed, 13 Aug 2008 17:56:53 PDT
]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/19758662/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/19758662/ Sun, 03 Aug 2008 19:31:10 PDT -Choose a singer/band/group
- Answer using ONLY titles of songs by that singer/band/group
- Tag 6 more people (let them know they've been tagged)

The band I chose was:

----------Dragonforce------------

1. Are you male or female?
Black Fire

2. Describe yourself.
Heart Of The Dragon

3. What do people feel when they're around you?
Fury Of The Storm

4. How would you describe your previous relationship?
Trail Of Broken Hearts

5. Describe your current relationship.
Dawn Over A New World

6. Where would you want to be now?
Black Winter Night

7. How do you feel about love?
Once In A Lifetime

8. What's your life like?
Soldiers Of The Wasteland(Favorite song!)

9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
Evening Star(Meaning Sammi, here with me.<3)

10. Say something wise.
Lost Souls In Endless Time

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That was interesting...I have tagged these people:

Dramaartist-[link]

Kandigirl7391-[link]

CopperandHiru-[link]

snowkatt101-[link]

JulieJubz-[link]

Jopale-Opal-[link]

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]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/19508495/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/19508495/ Sun, 20 Jul 2008 22:08:51 PDT I know how you feel...

"I could not lift, from your cursed lips,
That flame of Hell, that God left you with,
And I realized that we would twist and twist
In each other's arms, A thousand-fucking times."

I feel so dead...And now I am not sure if she wants to talk to me again.Perhaps...I have scared
away another one...

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/19436005/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/19436005/ Wed, 16 Jul 2008 21:24:37 PDT
]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/19413679/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/19413679/ Tue, 15 Jul 2008 16:47:57 PDT
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Angel of death:
Auschwitz, the meaning of pain
The way that I want you to die
Slow death, immense decay
Showers that cleanse you of your life
Forced in
Like cattle
You run
Stripped of
Your lifes worth
Human mice, for the angel of death
Four hundred thousand more to die
Angel of death
Monarch to the kingdom of the dead
Sadistic, surgeon of demise
Sadist of the noblest blood

Destroying, without mercy
To benefit the aryan race

Surgery, with no anesthesia
Fell the knife pierce you intensely
Inferior, no use to mankind
Strapped down screaming out to die
Angel of death
Monarch to the kingdom of the dead
Infamous butcher,
Angel of death

Pumped with fluid, inside your brain
Pressure in your skull begins pushing through your eyes
Burning flesh, drips away
Test of heat burns your skin, your mind starts to boil
Frigid cold, cracks your limbs
How long can you last
In this frozen water burial?
Sewn together, joining heads
Just a matter of time
til you rip yourselves apart
Millions laid out in their
Crowded tombs
Sickening ways to achieve
The holocaust
Seas of blood, bury life
Smell your death as it burns
Deep inside of you
Abacinate, eyes that bleed
Praying for the end of
Your wide awake nightmare
Wings of pain, reach out for you
His face of death staring down,
Your blood running cold
Injecting cells, dying eyes
Feeding on the screams of
The mutants hes creating
Pathetic harmless victims
Left to die
Rancid angel of death
Flying free

(leads: hanneman, king, hanneman, king, hanneman)

[ angel of death
Monarch to the kingdom of the dead
Infamous butcher,
Angel of death

Angel of death]



And this song is for you, Sammi.
[link]

Desert Rose:
I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in vain
I dream of love as time runs through my hand

I dream of fire
Those dreams that tie two hearts that will never die
And near the flames
The shadows play in the shape of the man's desire

This desert rose
Whose shadow bears the secret promise
This desert flower
No sweet perfume that would torture you more than this

And now she turns
This way she moves in the logic of all my dreams
This fire burns
I realize that nothing's as it seems

I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in vain
I dream of love as time runs through my hand

I dream of rain
I lift my gaze to empty skies above
I close my eyes
The rare perfume is the sweet intoxication of love

I dream of rain
I dream of gardens in the desert sand
I wake in vain
I dream of love as time runs through my hand

Sweet desert rose
Whose shadow bears the secret promise
This desert flower
No sweet perfume that would torture you more than this

Sweet desert rose
This memory of hidden hearts and souls
This desert flower
This rare perfurme is the sweet intoxication of love

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/19055548/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/19055548/ Thu, 26 Jun 2008 11:07:56 PDT
[link]
Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today.
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia's all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
Or how the pressure was fed
But I know just what it feels like
Have a voice in the back of my head
Like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(And watches everything)

So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is hearing me
Right beneath my skin

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

I know I've got a face in me
Points out all my mistakes to me
You've got a face on the inside too
Your paranoia's probably worse
I don't know what set me off first
But I know what I can't stand
Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is
I can't add up to what you can but

Everybody has a face that they hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face watches every time they lie
A face that laughs every time they fall
(And watches everything)

So you know that when it's time to sink or swim
That the face inside is watching you too
Right inside your skin

[x2]
It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

The face inside is right beneath the skin [x3]

The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me
The sun goes down
I feel the light betray me

The sun
I feel the light betray me
The sun
I feel the light betray me

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/18979364/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/18979364/ Sun, 22 Jun 2008 08:13:08 PDT
I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemies eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt, and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you know there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world
(Ohhh)

It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in.
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People could not believe what I'd become
Revolutionaries Wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can not explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world
(Ohhhhh Ohhh Ohhh)

Hear Jerusalem bells are ringings
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can not explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world
Oooooh Oooooh Oooooh

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]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/18757762/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/18757762/ Mon, 09 Jun 2008 22:33:39 PDT This is the message Amanda sent to me from myspace:

quet messing with me ur little poems and sammi things dont bother me im not jealus i dont really care ur jus pissen me off. plus i have someone else as well so jus stoppit with ur little guilt trips ok and hes not as annoying as u r

That is what she sent me!The little whore!Who does she think she is messing with?!Someone better stop me before I kill off her and her whole family!I WILL make her beg for mercy...

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1.If we were dating, what would you get me for valentine Day?

2.If we were dating, and I was upset, how would you try to make me happy?

3.Would you still love me if I had seriously hurt someone?

4.Would you judge me because of what I believe in?

5.Could you love me even though of what I am?

6.Would you use me as your weapon, your shield, or not use me at all?

7.Would you ever hide anything form me?

8.If we were dating and you could either go see your most favorite band in the world, at concert or spend that day with me, which would you choose?

9.Someday, if I asked you to marry me, what would you say?

10.Last question, right now, on a scale of 1-10, how much do you care about/love me?

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]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/18372874/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/18372874/ Sat, 17 May 2008 20:13:21 PDT Maybe I should just go with "Her"...I think that "She" would treat me much better than this...Tell me what you guys think.

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/18364793/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/18364793/ Sat, 17 May 2008 09:50:14 PDT [link]

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]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/18090879/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/18090879/ Tue, 29 Apr 2008 17:58:18 PDT Alpha Omega Male: Me

Alpha Omega Female: (Perhaps Amanda)

Alpha Knight #1: Jopal-Opal [link]

Alpha Knight #2: Maru-The-Psychotic [link]

Royal Purest: Dramaartist
[link]

Royal Guard #1: Asdef
[link]

Royal Guard #2: SilverEyes-Chan
[link]

Black Knight: 26LordPain
[link]

That is it so far and I may have alot more members soon...

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For Celeste...

Silver Bullet
By:Hawthorn Heights

Tonight, we fly away so high.
Our first full moon sky.

I'll breathe you in,
I won't let you down,
I won't hold you back,
I won't make a sound.

I know what scares you the most.

Being Alone,
Just like them,
Being Alive,
Feeling so... DEAD.

At least you'll have my... HEART.
You know you shine so bright.

Got a single Silver Bullet
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can't survive,
Without you.
Got a single Silver Bullet,
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can't survive,
Without you.

Can you sleep at night,
If I hold you tight.
I won't let you go,
This feels so right.

Please don't leave this... TIME.

At least you'll have my... HEART.
You know you shine so bright.

Got a single Silver Bullet
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can't survive,
Without you.
Got a single Silver Bullet,
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can't survive,
Without you.

Tonight, we fly away so high,
Tonight, We fly away.
You know the moon is full and,
I can't live without you.

Tonight we'll fly away
(Got a single silver bullet, shot right through my heart)
Tonight we'll fly, tonight...

Got a single Silver Bullet
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can't survive,
Without you.
Got a single Silver Bullet,
Shot right through my heart.
To prove I can't survive.

Got a single Silver Bullet
(Tonight we'll fly away so high)
Shot right through my heart.
(Our first full moon sky)
To prove I can't survive,
Without you.

Got a single Silver Bullet,
(Tonight we'll fly away so high)
Shot right through my heart.
(Our first full moon sky.)
To prove I can't survive,
Without you.

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]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/17576645/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/17576645/ Sat, 29 Mar 2008 16:26:50 PDT Why me, oh God?

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/17236989/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/17236989/ Sat, 08 Mar 2008 08:53:32 PST
[link]

1. Through The Fire And The Flames

On a cold winter morning, in the time before the light
In flames of death's eternal reign we ride towards the fight
When the darkness has fallen down, and the times are tough all right
The sound of evil laughter falls around the world tonight

Fighting hard, fighting on for the steel, through the wastelands evermore
The scattered souls will feel the hell bodies wasted on the shores
On the blackest plains in hell's domain, we watch them as we go
In fire and pain, and once again we know

So now we fly ever free
We're free before the thunderstorm
On towards the wilderness our quest carries on
Far beyond the sundown, far beyond the moonlight
Deep inside our hearts and all our souls

[Chorus:]
So far away we wait for the day
For the light source so wasted and gone
We feel the pain of a lifetime lost in a thousand days
Through the fire and the flames we carry on

As the red day is dawning
And the lightning cracks the sky
They'll raise their hands to the heavens above
With resentment in their eyes
Running back from the mid-morning light
There's a burning in my heart
We're banished from a time in a fallen land
To a life beyond the stars

In your darkest dreams see to believe
Our destiny is time
And endlessly we'll all be free tonight

And on the wings of a dream, so far beyond reality
All alone in desperation, now the time has gone
Lost inside you'll never find, lost within my own mind
Day after day this misery must go on

[Chorus]

Now here we stand with their blood on our hands
We fought so hard now can we understand
I'll break the seal of this curse if I possibly can
For freedom of every man

[Chorus]

]]> ~chaosnitemare http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/17228708/ http://chaosnitemare.deviantart.com/journal/17228708/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 17:40:21 PST I don't know if my pack knows but their leader is a human.If any of you guys want to talk to her, I'll see if I can arrange that.

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