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I am hoping that, that will change though. I have a couple of jobs in the next couple of weeks that I am hoping to get some good shots of. However I do need someone to still for a few makeup ideas. (Big HINT for the chica around the corner from me) Maybe she will even let me get some shots of her as well.

Anyways..

The year is winding down & I wish you all the very best. Good health warm wishes and safe festivities.

Cheers

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I have been working with a couple of people on ideas for new ink & I am getting so very frustrated. There are two items that I have been looking for. One being a Gryphon that I want to wrap slightly around my other arm piece that already exisits & the other being a lotus (finally chose the flower) that I want to incorporate into more later.

So now on to my frustration. Everything that I have received back from these guys have been beautiful - don't get me wrong but I want them on my body so they have to be perfect...I don't want cartoony & way overdone.

It is harder still because I have been waiting for so long & I really am getting ansty to get more ink. I just don't want to settle & get something I will only be "okay" about.

J wants to go get new ink - so maybe I will go with her and watch - maybe just being there & hearing the zzzzz of the gun will placate me for a little while longer. Or maybe I am just deluding myself...I need to practice a little more patience I guess.

*snicker* very trivial stuff, I know...

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The first of which is a house warming party on the long weekend, which should be much fun. Now I just have to figure out what the house warming gift should be!

Pomtini's anyone???

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I try to fill the space – with light, with sound & with various tasks set before me but my mind always drifts to the closed door. Perhaps because I know there is life beyond it. I feel like a three year old fighting sleep because they might miss a new wonder. That if they close their eyes the mysteries of universe will be told to the kid in the next house…

Silly? Perhaps.

It is more likely that my door is ajar tonight because I want to feel connected to what lays beyond it. No matter what it may be.

]]> ~chaoticfreakgirl http://chaoticfreakgirl.deviantart.com/journal/13300987/ http://chaoticfreakgirl.deviantart.com/journal/13300987/ Mon, 11 Jun 2007 09:11:19 PDT *grin* They will centre me & I will carry on once more after dusting myself off. Perhaps more bruised but always more aware. They say that you need to do one thing that pushes your comfort level each day. Well I have posted that on my “to do list” & being a bit OCD…we shall see...

My one big question right now is how can you find something when you are not sure what you are looking for? I know I want to share – maybe for now that is enough. So this is what the new pictures are about – small pieces if me in a chaotically rambling kind of way. Sharing & breaking my comfort zone

Cheers

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There is just something about the memory of the lights, colours and sounds that entice me. Like the pied piper playing his pipe & leading all the children. Me along with them.

Maybe it is a chance to reclaim my youth? Who knows, but I am going to find out!

]]> ~chaoticfreakgirl http://chaoticfreakgirl.deviantart.com/journal/12648437/ http://chaoticfreakgirl.deviantart.com/journal/12648437/ Wed, 18 Apr 2007 21:41:12 PDT
It is moments like these that I wish I was a speak n’ spell – just waiting for someone to type in what I need to say & I mechanically spit it out.

Ack! That is what I need, a speechwriter! Anyone want the job?

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Not sure where I heard it or saw it written but that sums up exactly what I was trying to say the other day when I told him that he should spoil me with the sound of his voice not a rock on my finger.

May everyone find someone to crush on!!

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I guess that is why I am trying to stop some of these things. Anything from over brushing my teeth (which I had no idea that I did until someone recently made a comment), my five smokes a week (Yes I ration them out) & even my timing of leaving the house for work. Do you know how much of my personal time I waste every week? At least five hours. For some reason if I am not at work at the same time each day I feel like I am late.

So for the past couple of weeks I have been forcing myself to leave slightly later. At first it was only 15 mins – now I am up to 30 mins. I am trying to take back my life & not waste so much. I know this makes me sound slightly OCD & maybe I am – but I am trying my hardest to take the control back and shake things up a bit.

In other ways my life is totally random – I know this is a slight contradiction to an OCD personality but I love spontaneity. I love not know exactly is going to happen every min. (as long as my daily ticks seem to be satisfied that is)

Oh well – one small change at a time I guess…

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(*snickering at myself cause i first typed analist*)

]]> ~chaoticfreakgirl http://chaoticfreakgirl.deviantart.com/journal/11360758/ http://chaoticfreakgirl.deviantart.com/journal/11360758/ Mon, 08 Jan 2007 10:21:03 PST
And really that is what you all are, friendly & sometimes not so friendly strangers (Whom I adore btw). I do not advertise my on-line journal to all of my friends for that specific purpose. If I describe a specific event - a stranger nine times out of ten will tell me honestly what they think and if I am on the straight and narrow to the booby hatch. A friend on the other hand may nod and smile and notch it up to my sordid past and never speak of it again.

My journal is MY sounding board. Where I can express whatever the hell I want to express – share what I want to share & bloody well have to stand behind what I write without apology. I mean it is not like my life is EVIL or anything, nor do I list names, dates or other revealing details about the people I write about. It is just my chaotic ramblings that you are free to read, or skip on by. Either way, my life goes on.

Happy New Year DA.

]]> ~chaoticfreakgirl http://chaoticfreakgirl.deviantart.com/journal/11171482/ http://chaoticfreakgirl.deviantart.com/journal/11171482/ Sun, 24 Dec 2006 07:04:27 PST
But I am home now - in the midst of holiday hell & all I want to do it crawl into the shadows & not reappear until after it is all over. Not possible on any level mind you. But one can wish. I mean if I tightly close my eyes & click my heels three times – I am still going to be right where I am – at home. I need a spell for taking me away I guess.

Anyone got one of those??

Have a safe and happy holiday season everyone…

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