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Need to know updates

~chemmisforest — Sat, 04 Jul 2009 03:38:29 PDT

'Ello there! Hope you're doing well today m' friend!!

I am making a new account dedicated to my more expanding side. I know it makes NO since whatsoever so let me TRY to explain XD

On this account I feel like I am trying to live up to standards. I keep on trying to get faves and stuff like that and that's just pathetic in my opinion. I come back to this place so infrequently that when I look at my Deviations, I'm looking at 200+, and then it's no longer fun. Ditto with the messages. XD Also I feel that my expanding side needs to have some space. I feel like this account is more kid friendly. No I am not going into porn get your mind out of the gutter. -_- But I have some darker and more creative ideas, and I would like to have a good and not messed up place to express myself in/at. Not to mention that I've matured in my art work and I feel like it deserves a better account. XD

So to correct this heinous problem I have decided to make a new account for my ever expanding side!! XD This DOES NOT mean that I will never update this account. It just means that I won't update it as often, and that if you want to see more meaningful stuff then you'll need to go to my other account. XD I will re-friend everyone that I have friended on here (you guys know who you are) so that we can still keep track of each other.

And if you understood ANYTHING of what I just typed you are so totally my hero forever and I owe you a cookie!!

My overdue update XD

~chemmisforest — Sat, 27 Jun 2009 04:02:28 PDT

Ok!! Hi! I GRADUATED!!! I PASSED MY BLOODY MATH CLASS!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, now that we've gotten that out of the way....^^

Ok, so one of my friends pulled off some serious crap, and that finalized the relationship for me. I had been looking long and hard at our relationship, but that seriously was the deal beaker.

And then everyone (aka-adults) keeps on feeding me this bull crap about how I should pick a major that will get me some stupid money. YOU KNOW IF I CARED A THING ABOUT MONEY I WOULD HAVE DECIDED TO MAJOR IN SOMETHING I HATE!!!! (cause everything I'm passionate about pays crap XD)

And then if that wasn't enough there's all this other crap going on and it's just driving me straight up the wall and I'm wondering where the hell my parents are that they don't notice how much damn stress I'm freaking under!!!!

I seriously am going to snap and then my parents will finally give me a break!!!! -_-

On a good note: I know who my room mate is and she seems like she's really sweet. It's funny though because we're almost opposites! She's outgoing and REALLY good at math (taking a trig class!!) and has trouble in english, while I on the other hand am pretty shy/reserved and horrible at math, while I love english. XD Maybe we can help each other and that will be fun. ^^

Human

~chemmisforest — Wed, 01 Apr 2009 19:53:24 PDT

I have many people to thank.
I would like to thank:

Rebecca for being her wonderful self, and for doing what is right, and for standing up for herself, and for taking such good care of me.

Sara for being such a smart, loving and loyal friend.

Caroline for being smart, for having the right reactions when I need them (I have no idea how you time it like that-but you just do now don't you?), and for being willing to share your advice.

Brenna for being so honest and real with me, and allowing me to be real and honest with you.

Holly for being so wonderfully you, and for being so loving, loyal and encouraging. Your prayers have gotten me through so much.

Zoklar for being honest through poetry, comments, and notes, and for letting me learn about you and letting me learn about myself at the same time.
I have become more human thanks to you all.

I have gone through hell for the past two weeks, and I'm still suffering a good bit. The Joker has been known to say that one bad day can make a person go crazy. And he's right in a way. But I have been so incredibly blessed by you all. You have kept me human, and real.

I was reading over my poetry, and I saw that I've gone from a pained, self centered, and terrified girl, into a human, caring and helpful human who can think outside of herself. If I can ever repay you, know that I'm here for you. You have made me human, and have kept me sane when I needed it most.

To be human is not to be a person. To be human is to breathe, love and live. And you all have taught me that. I owe you so much, and I love you all to death. If you ever need me, know that humans like you could never be a burden to me.

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Friends:
(Lolly-chan! R-chan! I AM going to make you two an avvie!!)

Clubs:

Lolwut?

~chemmisforest — Wed, 01 Apr 2009 16:48:01 PDT

Ok, dude, I know it's April Fool's day but some people are now admitting that they want to have gender changes and that they're really guys in reality and that their dating a girl.
I don't have a problem with being honest and saying the truth and such, but DON'T DO IT ON APRIL FOOLS DAY 'K??? It confuses the easily confused masses. XD

I'm going to read their next journal post to see if they're being honest or what.

I totally wanted to pull the ultimate prank on you guys but then after reading those I was like "should I or shouldn't I?"

My English teacher told us that our paper that was due tomorrow would be due on Friday-And then she gave a crazed laugh of glee as she shouted "APRIL FOOLS!". You can bet that we were SO irked off at her and disappointed. But it made me laugh.

It was a good day today, and it's been that way for a while now. I got in my Mary Kay stuff today, and it's all body lotions, washes, and perfumes so the house will smell really good now. ^^

You know, for the past two weeks my life has kindda been hell. And then now looking back on it, seeing what happened, and knowing that I have friends that will help me bounce back, it doesn't seem so bad. I know I can make it.

Confession: I use Firefox. I'm a horrible speller, but because Firefox pwns ALL, I have a spell check-even when I'm surfing the net. XD Totally true. XD One of these days I'll write a journal entry in my own spelling and not correct it. XD

Urrm...I'll be posting some more poetry soon (hopefully) along with a funny short story that I'm writing. Gotta love my crazy characters. XD

Hurrrm...I wish I had more updates for you guys! But I don't have much more to say. So how are you all? I hope that you're all doing well. I also hope that you guys weren't silly gooses and fell for any April Fool's pranks. If you did tell me about them so that we can all have a good laugh. XD Don't worry, I'm completely gullible so you're not alone!

Oh! I'm going to try to enter into my club's contest, so wish me luck! (I hope I end up having the time to enter-blasted school work!)

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Friends:
(Lolly-chan! R-chan! I AM going to make you two an avvie!!)

Clubs:

I am (stolen from Zoklar)

~chemmisforest — Tue, 17 Mar 2009 16:32:18 PDT

I was amazed at how honest some one could be by just pouring out everything. So here's the good the bad and the ugly about me:

I am:
confident, scared, hurt, depressed, hopeful, friendly, fun loving, lonely, happy, insecure, in love, writer, poet, dreamer, secretly an actress, singer, good friend, lonely, misunderstood, easily hurt, abused, self abusive, over it, getting over it, wanting, needy, waiting, frustrated, over worked, overly stressed, confused, poor, living a double life, secretive, brutally honest, open, loving, overly protective of friends and family, too hard on myself, easily amused, easily confused, easily hurt, willing to get hurt, OCD, obsessive about certain topics, curious, helpful, willing, Christian, forgiving of others, stubborn, submissive, un-tame-able, horrid speller, avid book reader, wanting help, easily confused, lovable, brilliant cookie maker, psychic, choreographer, photographer, and quite possibly insane.

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Friends:
(Lolly-chan! R-chan! I AM going to make you two an avvie!!)

Clubs:

OBJECTION!!!

~chemmisforest — Thu, 12 Mar 2009 16:32:30 PDT

If you know what movie~ the journal title is from, you will be my hero and I will give you a cookie*!!

Ok, not only have I just recovered from being sick, I have also just recovered from making some tough choices (which can be a bit emotional for me) and then something slightly traumatic. XD

BUT

I am working on a webcomic now!! Yes, much glee. ^^ R-chan will be doing the drawings for me, and I'll be posting it on smackjeeves. So there will be more info on that when the two of us are ready to reveal all of that. ^^

I also am having ideas for short stories. BUT THEN THEY LEAVE ME BEFORE I CAN WRITE THEM DOWN!!!

I also have some ideas for some poems. I just need to start writing them.

I have ideas for AWESOME pictures, I just have NO time to take them. XD

So that means that I shall be working on some banners for the Howrse game I play and some poetry. I'll upload some stuff assuming that it's closer to fantastic than craptastic. XD Oh!! SHORT STORY IDEA!!!

Must go lovelies so that I can write the story and surprise you all (hopefully)!

*will write you a poem or short story about cookies (of your choice) if you can guess it. ^^

~assuming it's FROM a movie. ^^

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Friends:
(Lolly-chan! R-chan! I AM going to make you two an avvie!!)

Clubs:

Bet on it

~chemmisforest — Mon, 09 Mar 2009 14:38:51 PDT

Bolded is the stuff that I could say and be completely honest in saying and meaning. Bolded and Italics are what really speaks to me and what I'm really talking about and plan to do.

Everybody's always talkin' at me
Everybody's tryin' to get in my head
I wanna listen to my own heart talkin'
I need to count on myself instead

Did you ever
Lose yourself to get what you want
Did you ever
Get on a ride and wanna get off
Did you ever
Push away the ones you should've held close
Did you ever let go
Did you ever not know

I'm not gonna stop
That's who I am
I'll give it all I got
That is my plan
Will I find what I lost
You know you can
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it (Bet on me)
I wanna make it right
That is the way
To turn my life around
Today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it

How will I know if there's a path worth takin'
Should I question every move I make
With all I've lost, my heart is breakin'
I don't wanna make the same mistakes

Did you ever
Doubt your dream will ever come true
Did you ever
Blame the world but never blame you
I will never
Try to live a lie again
I don't wanna win this game if I can't play it my way

I'm not gonna stop
That's who I am (Who I am)
I'll give it all I got
That is my plan (That's my plan)
Will I find what I lost
You know you can (You know you can)
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it (Bet on me)
I wanna make it right
That is the way
To turn my life around
Today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it

Oh, hold up
Give me room to think
Bring it on down
Gotta work on my swing
Gotta do my own thing
Hold up

It's no good at all
To see yourself and not recognize your face
Out on my own
It's such a scary place
Ooh
The answers are all inside of me
All I gotta do
Is believe

I'm not gonna stop
Not gonna stop till I get my shot
That's who I am
That is my plan
Will I end up on top again
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, you can
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it (Bet on me)
I wanna make it right
That is the way
To turn my life around
Today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say
Bet on it, bet on it, bet on it, bet on it

yeah you can bet on me

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Ok. Yeah, sure. I know that you think your helping and I know that you are trying to help. But you're not helping. You will never read this, but I have GOT to get my priorities straight and this will help me.. Sadly, working for 'justice' is not part of it. Justice is not always right.

I'm fighting for what is right. I have lost sight of that and it has made my life hell! I am stuck between wanting to scream at every one or cry all the time. That's not healthy and I've been like that in the past and I'm not going back there.

I'm moving on.

I have lost sight of what's really important. Nothing that you can say or do-bring it on, come hell or high waters-will make me change my mind, or my position. I know where I stand. I have figured that out, and you sadly are standing on the opposite side. I cannot and will not help you. You have plenty of people to help you do that.

I'm going to rely on myself-if I must and I bet I will, I will fight-but I will protect my friends, my beliefs and those I love.

I am sick of playing some weird game where I don't know who the players are and what they want and so I live in fear. That is not my calling and that is not my life! I refuse to live like that. When I follow my heart, and when I'm walking in the Light, everything works out perfectly.

I have hurt my friends, I have betrayed myself, I have betrayed my friends I'm sure, and that makes me not only sick to my stomach, but infuriated with myself.

So I'm putting my foot down right here. I'm drawing the lines, and yes, you do have a jurisdiction, and I'm not a part of it. I am a free person, and I will live my life that way.

I will NEVER hand him over, and I don't regret that. I know what I'm doing is right. I know that I'm angry right now, but I also know that what I'm saying is more than just anger-it's the truth. I've been thinking and praying long and hard on this, and there's no other answer or option for me.

I'm drawing the line and starting over right here, right now. I'm gonna move on past this, and I'm g...

The Call

~chemmisforest — Fri, 06 Mar 2009 16:22:06 PST

Ok, no one is going to get this, but it WILL help me if I can get some of these feelings out.
This is my favorite song and it has given me hope when I felt like I was at the end of the road. That's actually why I cried the first few times I heard it and I still do cry when I listen to it on occasions. XD
But some how, after listening to it, every time I think the same thing at the same parts and some how hope and peace is reborn inside of me. I hope that this will give you some insight into me or yourself or that you'll listen to the song and it will speak to you and give you peace and hope. ^^ Do enjoy the song which is linked below. (don't worry it's not a virus -_-)

Song Title (lyrics in bold)= The Call ([link])

My Thoughts (in italics)

The ... and the length of them symbolize the length of music that passes in between different parts of the song XD
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

It started out as a feeling
(it' was so small)
Which then grew into a Hope
(gives me wings and bids me fly)
Which then turned into a
Quiet Thought
(shhh...let it bring your heart rest)
Which then turned into a
Quiet Word
(Hope)
And then that word grew
Louder and louder
Till it was a battle cry!
(at every battle I face, I have a resilient battle cry)
I'll come back
When you call me
(it might hurt, but I'll come back)
No need to say goodbye
(it will be just a little while)
..
Just because everything's changing
(restless as the ocean)
Doesn't mean it's never
Been this way before
(there has been pain, and confusion, but it's nothing new)
...
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
(it's ever so hard)
As you head off to the war
(the fight will be over one day)
Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
(have faith dear one, trust in ME)
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
(it's ok little one, I understand)
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
(it's ok, I'm beside you)
....................................
Now we're back to the beginning
(again? oh how twisty life can be!)
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet!
(shhh! it's just us that know)
But just because they can't feel it too
(yes, it does hurt a little bit to be alone)
Doesn't mean
That you have to forget
(take hope! have courage!)
...
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
(remember now! be fearless child! you are well loved from all sides!)
Till their before your eyes!
(there we go...)
You'll come back when they call you
(it's ok child, I'm right here)
No need to say goodbye
(you'll only be away for a little while)
You'll come back when they call you
(I promise, one day dearest)
No need to say goodbye
(journey on child, no need to say goodbye to those you will see again)

Hope Letter

~chemmisforest — Tue, 24 Feb 2009 13:43:34 PST

Please read this. I know that you're at the end of your rope. I know that you're watching your back, fearful of what the past may devour you with, and what the future taunts you with.

But please my friend, don't be afraid.

I wish we could meet in real life so that we could talk over our favorite drinks and we could do something random and interesting together. I have come through hell and high waters, through the forests of despair and the bogs of fear. I understand where you're at.

There is not much I can do, except to pray and hope that you'll get encouragement from reading this letter. I don't know your real name, and I doubt that you know mine, but that doesn't matter. You've helped me so much friend. You really have.

So many times, when I wrote my most heartbreaking feelings on paper, typed them up and re-read them with tears in my eyes, you would tell me how beautiful the poetry was and to not give up. So many times you have lifted my spirits and given me hope.

I so desperately want to return the favor to you. I-I don't know what your going through in details, but I understand your position and fear. Please, take my hand, I'll help you, and do all I can to get you through this.

Your friend, Chemmis

Oh GOODY

~chemmisforest — Mon, 23 Feb 2009 17:09:00 PST

Yeps. You've probably been reading more of these journals than you would like to, but I think that this one isn't as obvious as the rest. So here's what I know about the newest threat on DA (you'd think they would stay on top of this! XD)

"If someone by the name of Alfred Hundana (dragon_heart620) wants to add you to their list, don't accept it. It's a virus. Tell everyone on your list because if somebody on your list adds them you will get it, too. It is a hard drive killer and a very horrible virus. Please pass this on to everyone on your list. We need to find out who is using this account. Sorry for the inconvenience.

and another thing!

a PDF file is spreading around that's an hack! it allows hackers to take complete control of your computer."

In OTHER news:

Haven't sold anything Mary Kay wise, but I have a friend who will buy some stuff as soon as she gets the money. She is my current hero XD

Urrm, school wise, I still have some make up work and I'm behind on that HUGE art project. So I'll be working on that later tonight once I stop procrastinating XD

I do hope to upload some of the stuff I've been doing in that class, but all of it is quite large. This is why I shall take pictures and upload them!

I do hope you are all doing well and just be aware of those nasty viruses.

Oh! My other hero is because she is ReVAMPing (yes that's a pun XD) her AMAZING webcomic Avalon. XD So far she's posted up 2 pages for her fans to read and spazz over (ok well maybe not spazz over but I do love that comic so much!) as a preview. I can't wait until she post up more. ^^

As an FYI if I randomly start talking in a Victorian Era style, pardon me, but I do so love that time period and am reading a book about it (and me and R-chan are doing a rp that's set in that time-it's pure win!)

Much love to you all!

doble lolz

~chemmisforest — Sat, 21 Feb 2009 19:29:11 PST

I'm bored and I dun't feel good, thus lack of grammar and also lack of anything interesting to update with. Instead I present to you a survey thingy that I stole from friend of XD Both have great art. ^^

My story - Finish the sentence:

Hi, my name is:
Anna

Never in my life have I been to:
Urrm...lots of places! XD I want to go to the grand canyon the most though XD

I hate it when:
People ask for help but they refuse to help themselves. There's no point in asking for help if you aren't going to make an effort to help yourself.

Right now, I am listening to:
The TV in the other room

If you're gonna talk smack about me:
Feel free to. I know the truth and so say what you want. My friends and I don't care. (ok, so my friends would kill you but I don't care XD)

The one person who can drive me nuts:
ASLDKFJGALGKHASDLKFJASLKDGJASDLKFJADSFASDF *foams at mouth* too many to list.....

When I'm nervous:
I get really moody or easily embarrassed XD

The last song I listened to was:
Run the Earth and Watch the sky (I think that's the name of it XD)

If I were to get married today my best man would be:
Dude. I'm a girl XD

My hair is:
A little bit longer than shoulder length.

When I was 4:
I had the best birthday party EVAR!

Last Christmas:
was quiet but very nice. ^^

I should be:
doing...urrrmmm...I should be resting.

When I look down:
I see my shoes? WHAT SORT OF QUESTION IS THAT?!!?

The happiest recent event was:
Being able to confess everything to my best friend and find out that she wasn't upset with me at all *glomps R-chan*

My current annoyance is:
A lot of things -_-

There's this girl I know:
who needs to start helping herself!!!

The thing I want to buy is:
More karaoke CDs and a new laptop XD

If you visit the place I'm from:
Enjoy the woods and the hospitality ^^ Oh! Don't forget the IMAX theater down town. ^^ They do tons of stuff in 3-D down there (pity it cost an arm and a leg to get in -_-)

Most recent thing I've bought myself:
A Karaoke CD ^^

Most recent thing someone else bought me was:
Ummm....

My middle Name is :
none of your consourn.

Last night I was:
Throwing up

If I was an animal I'd be:
A yellow lab or a ferret. XD

Tomorrow I am doing:
more resting XD

Tonight I am:
writing this then resting and reading my favorite web comics.

Ok! ^^ Have fun doing this if you want to. If you decide to do it post it It will be intresting to read XD

lolwut

~chemmisforest — Fri, 20 Feb 2009 12:10:39 PST

This is all rantings from me-feel free to ignore XD

Ok, so I have a HUUUGE phobia of deep sea fish. Yes I know I don't live any where near the ocean and that even if I did live near the ocean I would be miles away from where deep sea fish lived. NO EXCUSE THOUGH! XD I was watching a batman show because it was better than whatever else was on (Romancing the rock? wtc?), and Batman was fighting sharks. AND THEN THEY SHOWED AN ABBYS LIKE PLACE and then I just freaked. I've been having nightmares with deep sea fish in them

Lizards

~chemmisforest — Sun, 08 Feb 2009 11:43:57 PST

Beware the brown lizards! I saw one today, and I swear he was trying to sell us car insurance. He claimed he represented Geico. I decided not to buy anything, even though I will look to Geico for my car insurance...when I get a car XD

He's brown, with yellow brown eyes, and a cream underbelly. He's quite friendly and likes crawling on chairs.

But please, don't buy from him. He may or may not be telling the truth...

Ok, ok! Being serious now, I really did see a little lizard (about 5 inches long)and he was cute and brown, with a creamy underbelly. ^^

But my mom said that he might be selling insurance, so I decided to make a joke. XD Hope you had fun reading XD

Friend Thing

~chemmisforest — Wed, 04 Feb 2009 16:45:03 PST

I think this is a great time for me to do this. I found this idea on some other journals and so I'm going to pass it along.

What you do, you think of 16 people you know, and then WITHOUT naming them, write something you want to say to them, but never will/ feel like you could say it properly in person

Because some of my friendships are weakening, and some are coming back again, and I'm making new friends I decided it was a good time to do this...

1. It's not working out. You're just a hypocrite. You say that you hate it when people do certain things to you and then you turn right around and then do it to others and to me. Its not fair. I've tried to help, I've always been honest with you, but you...oh my heart breaks for you dear. It really does. You consider me my best friend, and I sadly don't consider you mine. I need to walk away from this relationship. I live in fear of you being angry at me. That's not a good friendship. I say this in the kindest way, but you need to grow up. You need help. You are living in fear and you are pushing it onto others. I'm not like that. So I'll say good bye.

2. Ok. Dude. I get that some people are slower learners than others, but honestly, you have potintual! You can do what you want to, but you are so lazy and are so desperate to make friends, that it stops you from really reaching that potintual. You are smart. Your in honor classes, yet you are so content to be 'stupid'. DUDE! YOU ARE NOT STUPID! Now get off your lazy butt and do something that you can really be proud of! I know you can do it! ^^

3. On a much lighter note-you my dear, I am so proud of. I remember the time we were sitting on the bathroom floor, I was sobbing and you told me that I was the strongest person you knew. And then there were so many times you disappointed me. But dear...you got up every single time. You fought back, you were brilliant, and you still are. And now look at you! A wonderful mother, a beautiful and loving wife, and a great business woman to boot! I am so proud of you. I cannot say that enough. I hope that one day I'll be able to say these words to you face to face.

4. Thank you. You are some one who has always pushed me to be my best, without the annoying parent like traits. You've helped me realize a lot about myself. You also have helped me to be more conciseness of the world around me. I can't wait to get to know you better, and I hope that we can keep on pushing each other to be our very best. You rock!!

5. Where do I start? You're loyal, beautiful, kind, caring, willing, helpful. God has created you in such a beautiful way. You truly are amazing. I have always wondered what my life would be like if I hadn't met you and I know that God made us meet so that you could save it. And you did. More than just on that summer day, but on quite a few other occasions to. And love, you have taught me how to hope. And that is one of God's greatest gifts to us. You truly have changed me for the better. I love you girl.

6. It's over. We've come a long way haven't we? First through hell, and now we're friends. And we have a healthy relationship this time round. We did it buddy. We can keep on going. Leave the shadows behind.

7. I do have a few problems with you dear. Such as you are never around. I remember the time I was throwing up and you were the first one there. Best memory ever. ^^ Hmm, what else. You're incredibly good looking. XD But you already know that. I wish that we saw more of each other. I feel like some times we force things, and that we don't know each other the way we should. But, God will work that all out. ^^ We're breaking free together.

8. You are a hero to me. You have always been honest with me. Kind, and caring, and loyal to a fault. Ok, maybe not to a fault fault but! XD You saved my life. You really did. And don't you forget it!! You rock! Now go out and expand your boundries m'dear, the world awaits!

Possibilities

~chemmisforest — Mon, 26 Jan 2009 13:42:29 PST

Well, as a person who will need to be making money for college (did you know that I got a scholarship for my extracurricular activities?! 2,500 bucks!!! Sadly, it's not for the place I want to go. XD But at least I know I can do it!), I'm thinking of starting up a business over the summer.

Not any kind mind you. The Mary Kay kind.

OK!! OK!! Before you start going "HOLLY SNAP WHAT HAVE YOU DONE WITH THE REAL CHEMMIS!??!" let me just say that my sister is a Mary Kay beauty consultant and loves it. I heard some testimonies (from her director and also I've read the history of the start of the company) and I was amazed. Sure I'm not a fashion addict, but I like looking pretty just like any girl. And OH MY WORD THOSE MICRODERMABRASION THINGGIES ARE AWESOME!! My face felt better right after I used it. I even got myself some stuff.

To start up and get the kit, it only cost 100 bucks and they even have a retirement plan that's just amazing! I wish I could tell and remember all of the details, but my sister is really excited for me and would love to have me on her team. So I'm going to a Mary Kay meeting this Thursday. What really drew my sister in was the since of community. And community is the reason I chose my college. I believe that it's one of the most important things, especially in a college or business environment. And surprisingly, the company isn't cutthroat at all. And it's very flexible.

So, be expecting to hear about that in the future as I decide if I'm going to do that or not. I'll really be praying about it too.

On other matters, still working on the guide, and it's going to take me a lot longer than I thought. XD Oh well, quality over quantity!

Urrm, my final final exam is tomorrow so I should be studying for that...

And I do believe that is all!!

*throws cookies in the air and lets everyone catch them*

Hope

~chemmisforest — Thu, 22 Jan 2009 16:14:27 PST

Please look at journal! It's beautiful and it made my day.

Everyone is ranting about it, so let me get it out of the way. The new look is slightly confusing, but I like it.

And as a random FYI/Question: I keep on trying to favorite things in my favorites. XD Does any one else do that?

Last night I was so bogged down with the fact that I'm trying to correct and prevent my friends' mistakes, I'm trying to protect everyone, I'm trying to keep calm about one of my grandmothers, I'm trying to not spazz out about another series of personal things, and you know what? I came to a beautiful realization.

I was reading my Bible verses like I always do before I go to bed. Well, I was thinking 'God, none of this, even my favorite verses don't make since. They aren't giving me hope.' The next verse I read completely calmed me.

I'll be honest, I started crying. I was so relieved that I didn't have to worry about those things. A very dear person to me said 'Every one gives themselves their own burdens. And that's ok.' And even though that's still quite true, so many of our burdens aren't needed.

For the first time in ages, I breathed in hope. I re-found the love of my life. My inner oxygen. And I just wanted to share my story with you all. I don't care if you are or aren't a Christian, that's not the point of this.

What I want you to know, is that you are a beautiful and wonderful person. I know some of the people who will be reading this and so I can say that without a doubt. For those that I don't know, all you have to do is ask. Hope is always there. Its like a flower breaking out from the snow. Hard to find, but a beautiful thing to behold. Remember when hard times come, to choose what you burden yourself with and to embrace hope and friendships filled with love.

My heartfelt thanks to those of you that read this. I hope that it brings you all encouragement in the days to come.

On another note....

Unless you missed my last journal entry, you don't need to read this part as it's mostly a reminder for myself.

Still working on a little 'guide' of my own, inspired by the wonderful works of so that will be coming soon-ish. XD

I've really been in the mood to not study for exams, and to instead work on stuff for DA and scholarships. XD

As for the mood-they have no 'erfect' mood option, and I love llamas, so, that's why my mood is LLAMA!!! SPREAD THE LLAMA LLOVE!!

44th President and other things

~chemmisforest — Wed, 21 Jan 2009 11:05:49 PST

I was incredibly impressed yesterday when I heard and saw President Obama's speech.

Not only does he write them himself, he's able to build hope where there was none/very little (me for example), he is able to stand firm in his beliefs (noted many times about the war and the US nation), and he is also very willing to admit that none of the changes he intends are going to happen over night (lets hope America remembers this XD).

Over all, through that speech I grew to respect him-not just the position he held.

Now on to other things!

Can any one raise their hand and tell me if you are working your BUTT off to get your hands on scholarships? I would love to know I'm not the only one!!! T__T

Also working on a little 'guide' of my own, inspired by the wonderful works of so that will be coming soon-ish.

I've really been in the mood to not study for exams, and to instead work on stuff for DA and scholarships. XD

Very Random:
Urrmmm....Saffie! You reply to stuff really fast! XD

OMZ TIME!

~chemmisforest — Tue, 20 Jan 2009 13:32:42 PST

XD

I finished NaNoWriMo with flying colors (meaning I reached 50k), and I am about to get the bloody final exams over with. So ready to be done with this semester!!

I'm pleased to say that we FINALLY got some snow over here! It's high time XD

I will also say that my dad's computer broke, then he got it fixed and we were able to get my computer in working order (but I still need a new computer), so I'll be able to update more often. ^^

But the thing is, most of my pictures if not all of them, are on my dad's computer. So it will be a pain to fix that. Umm...family situations are ok. Everyone is getting sick and such, and there's just a bucket load of other crazy stuff happening. So I'm under stress. Not really stress stress, but more like moody stress. Like I really shouldn't be stressing so much about this stuff because it's going to be ok. But it's still stressful stuff.

Ah well. I'll be fine. ^^

I do hope every one had a wonderful NewYear's and is doing well. ^^

Sorry

~chemmisforest — Fri, 21 Nov 2008 21:53:18 PST

Guys (and galls) I have NO time what so ever. Between a higly stressful teacher, Nanowrimo (I'm almost at the 50k!! ^^), and lack of sleep, and way too much time studying I have no time for DeviantArt. Will I make the time? Yes, when I get my camera working (aka change the batteries) and get some sleep and also take some more pictures...that's my biggest problem right now, lack of taking pictures. -_-

Either way, I'm very sorry that I didn't get to all of the art work and journals, I just have NO TIME. But I do hope you all are faring better than me, and I look forward to a time where I can get on here more offten. ^^

Rawr!

~chemmisforest — Fri, 03 Oct 2008 16:10:29 PDT

Umm I seriously have nothing to post other than the fact that I have my blasted SAT this weekend.
-_-
And I really want to write a story. But they just aren't coming. And I'm too posesive to put up my songs. I'll upload some pictures when I feel like it. -_- I know, I'm a butt. XP

FAIL!!!

~chemmisforest — Wed, 03 Sep 2008 15:09:52 PDT

Ok, so I'm a senior right? I can vote and apply to places and so on and so forth right?
RIGHT!

BUT IT IS SO HAAAARD!!! I have quite a bit of stress on me because I want to do really REALLY good in school this year. And so I'm a bit upset with my self for not making more A's in my Physical Science class.

On the other hand, I've been teaching my self how to play the piano, writing tons of songs, and *le gasp* RPING!!

I'll post up a song (maybe, I'm really posesive of them XD), and if not, I have plenty of pictures I still haven't uploaded to here.

I just wanted to let you all know that I AM alive!!

Warning!

~chemmisforest — Fri, 08 Aug 2008 07:28:40 PDT

I have been taking pictures of my friends recently and I have gotten my dad to upload them! So you know what that means!

Warning: the next time you go to your devinations, you'll see a ton of photographs from me. XD

That's the warning. Everything else is still the same pretty much, wedding, lack of computer, watching Sailor Moon cause it's the pwn...yeps, the usual. ^^

=Comissions=
_{Here are some killer artist that are taking comissions for very low prices. If you or any one you know would like to buy very inexspensive art take a look at these fellas:}

~Clubs~

Yay!

~chemmisforest — Mon, 28 Jul 2008 13:37:42 PDT

Now watch every one come read this journal. XD

Ok good news first! Oh wait...I don't have any bad news, never mind! XD
Ok, on with the news!

I AM WELL! WOO!! I still have a cold and I'm recovering from pink eye, but at least I'm not running a fever any more. I can do stuff now! So that means more updates soon. ^^

I'm going to try to do a wallpaper with some of my pictures, but I might fail with flair because my computer is dead and I have to use my dad's. My dad doesn't have PSP on his computer. So Bleh. If all else fails, I can make cookies, arange them to look mouth watering, and then take pictures of those and call them wallpapers. XD

=Other News=
_{(I think I'll be adding this to my future journals. ^^ I like the idea, and besides it spreads the word about the artist. ^^)}
Here are some killer artist that are taking comissions for very low prices. If you or any one you know would like to buy very inexspensive art take a look at these fellas:

prices 4-??
prices $10-60
prices $10-??
_{prices aren't in US dollars XD}
prices $2-??
prices _{will look into}

~Clubs~

Sick as a...

~chemmisforest — Sat, 26 Jul 2008 11:35:43 PDT

I've never gotten the 'sick as a dog' phrase. A dog pukes, lies around and then pukes again and then lies around some more and a day or 3 later, presto! Puppy ish all better.

Well, with humans, it doesn't work that way. XP

Point is-I'm sick with a fever, and cold as a ice-cube.

Yes that's right ladies and gentlemen! The amazing SADCAT [link] (go check her out-she rocks) is doing year TWO of SADCAT's Haunted Palace! Do spread the word. Even if you don't participate, it is sooo funny and pwnful. So spread the word and such. ^^ Last year's was awesome, and I'm sure that this one will be just as good. ^^
Go check out the link for a bit more information. Auditions open on Aug. 1st.
[link]

(if ^ seems like a repetative rant its because I have a fever and am brain dead XP)

Oh and btw, I'm going to try that 100 challenge thing, mainly with photography. Because I can and I've always wanted to. ^^

~Clubs~

MORE updates and such

~chemmisforest — Sun, 20 Jul 2008 17:46:20 PDT

Sister's wedding draws closer!

Umm, I still don't have a ps3 but that's fine, we still have the X-box 360 ^^ and I am now old enough to vote in Connecticut. ^^ (I have ALWAYS wanted to say that! XD) The party was a blast, even though it was the most simple one I have had ever. XD

I went on my Birthay Outing with my "Crazy" Auntie, and we went to Target and to the movie Kit Kitrige. The movie was REALLY good. I was pleasently surprized. ^^
But when we went to Target (before the movie) apparently the guy at the register liked me cause he kept on looking at me. I was oblivious and once we left my Aunt filled me in. XD I was like "OMZ! I had no idea. XD"

Other than that, nothing much more to report. ^^ I will continue to update with photos and I have some ideas for poems, but I have yet to write any of them. XD

~Clubs~

Updates and such

~chemmisforest — Sat, 12 Jul 2008 15:05:01 PDT

Ok...new look...intresting. I do like it, but it's...odd. 0o I'm quite used to the old version of DA but I don't mind the new one. ^^ I personally think it's simpler to get around and you know what you do and don't want to get rid of. XD

Life is still CRAZY for me, wedding, MY BIRTHDAY YO!! and other stuff. I'm quite stressed out.
But I re-found a Bible study that I never finished and I've started doing that again. It's been a huge help actually. ^^

I'm reading some (24) photography books that my Daddy gave to me. I've really been getting into photography and I DARE any one to say that it's easy. If you're a photographer (not just randomly click the button to take a picture of a dog), you know that it is a beautiful sience and an advanced art. Yeah, I'm really getting into those books. XD Only on chapter 2 of the 1st one but it is a start, and it's taught me a LOT. I love it, but I get really sleepy reading them because I read fiction, not non-fiction. XD But I'm getting through it and I'm determined to finish them soon and to save up for a good profesional camera of my own (Canon preferibly).

Good news AND Bad news

~chemmisforest — Thu, 03 Jul 2008 20:32:05 PDT

Good news: I'm going to have a brother in law soon.
Bad news: Family is in panic getting ready for the wedding.
Good News: My dad is letting me use his computer...
Bad News: because mine is broke. XP
Good News: My dad found out what was wrong with my computer!
Bad News: The computer is broke in the dead way. As in RIP computer. -_-
Good News: My dad got an AWESOME tv for our workout room!
Bad News: No DVD player for it.
Good News: He decided that the DVD player would be the one and only PLAYSTATION THREE!!! WOO!!!! YEAH!!! MY DAD IS DA AWESOME!!

I just thought every one would like to know where I had dissapeared to and such. Very sorry but my Dad's comptuer is a butt and the good news bad news thing sums it up very well for the most part. ^^ I do miss you all and I'll try to be getting back on here soon!!!! <3

OMZ Who would do this?

~chemmisforest — Wed, 04 Jun 2008 11:10:51 PDT

Yeps, read this and pass it on to all of your friends who are interested in it. This is horrible. [link]

On another note, I'm a little bit stressed with exams, family life and personal issues. But because of exams I have about 5 half days in a row, so that means...that's right! WALLPAPERS!!

Ummmm and yeah. I do think that's it.

Expanding and Updates

~chemmisforest — Mon, 19 May 2008 05:49:04 PDT

Yes I do draw. Abstract art, and it is FUN. So, as soon as I can figure out where my daddy put the scanner and see if it works, I'll put up some of that stuff. ^^

My family life, and personal life is a little crazy right now, and alot of stuff is happening. Some of it dealing with the health of my grandparents and others dealing with unwanted but not unliked friends. So, I appoligize in advanced for any depressing poems and wallpapers. XD

Speeking of wallpapers, I'm going to try and experiment more with wallpapers cause I'm worried that they're starting to look the same. I have made a (in my oppion) cool lion wallpaper, so I might be posting that up soon. So expect to see more wallpapers!

I'm also going to pick back up coloring in Paint. It's a fun challenge and I've seen some amazing things that have been done on regular paint. So, I'm going to see if I can't improve my paint skills/insanity.

I do beleive that is all for now, because that's really all I have to say! ^^

Club and updates

~chemmisforest — Mon, 05 May 2008 16:48:57 PDT

OK....last time I posted a journal I swore I would put up a something right?
So here's my question...did I ever get around to posting anything? XD

I still owe you all some updates. XD (aka-before saffie kills me I MUST UPDATE!! XD)

I'm in a great mood and such, so yeah.

and I want to join a club. I want to be able to do my wallpapers and my writing...but I can't find a cluuuuuuubbbbbb. *cries* You guys got any sujestions? Please? please? PLEASEEEE?!?!?!? XD

Ok. yeah that's it for now, much lurv to ye all!!

Stuff and something you need to know

~chemmisforest — Fri, 25 Apr 2008 10:39:06 PDT

Ok first off, I'm sick, in an artistic mood, and so that means, I have time and also that I will post up something this weekend because I am WAAAAAAAAAAY over due! Very sorry!! XD

If any of you guys know some artist that want a wallpaper made of one of their images please tell me and I'll ask if I can make one, or if you want me to make a wallpaper out of your poem/picture or what not, comment/message me. I want to maaaake somethiiiiiing!

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Ok. You guys have GOT to read this. It's SICK. [link]
A man claims that starving a dog that he could have saved is art. And as we all know, that's compleate bullcrap. SO! Go to the journal entry that I've linked and sign against this animal abuser and hypocrite! Some people were so 'impressed' that they've decided that he should keep on killing animals that could be saved.

for the fun of it

~chemmisforest — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 16:57:31 PDT

You guys can totally ignore the bottom part.

Ok, so spring break is coming up and me and R are going to the beach for a week!! Woots!! ^^ Pokemon, Yugioh, and rp delight!! ^^ And sun burns. XD Oh well. I'll update with something or another before I go I promise, and I was bored so feel free to do the below if you want to. I've tagged ten inviable people so you guys have no fears!! ^^

FYI...I'm very stressed and worn out and annoyed and in an odd sort of daze to sum it up. So yeah...I'm a bit...snappy right about now. I'm sorry in advanced if I say or do anything that hurts any of your feelings, it's just right about now, I'm in a loner state...or I WOULD be if it wasn't for H, R and C!!!

I love them all, and I tease...but it's true. Dude...they don't let me get depressed!! DARN YOU GUYS!!! XD

Oh btw! I had to kill a character in my story...and I've been depressed all day about it. XD I'll post the prologue up before I go.

RULES!

1. tag 10 ppl (not the one who sent it to you!)
2. answer all truthfully
3. take it in public!
4. tell all taggees on their profile that they have been tagged,
and link to your journal

[X] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[X] I have many scars.
[X] I tan easily.
[] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[] I wear glasses.
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than 2 piercing.
[] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.
[] I hate my dad.
[] I hate my mom.
[] I have a brother.
[X] I have a sister.
[] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[] I want to have kids someday.
[] I've had children.
[] I've lost a child.
[X] I'm in school.
[] I have a job.
[] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[X] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[X] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[] I've stolen something from my job.
[] I've been fired.
[X] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[X] Disney movies still make me cry.
[] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[X] I've glued my hand to something.
[] I've had my pants rip in public.
[X] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[] I've broken a bone.
[] I've had my tonsils removed.
[] I've sat in a doctorÂs office/emergency room with a friend.
[X] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[] I was born in a different country.
[] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[] I've been on a plane.
[] I've been to Canada.
[] I've been to Mexico.
[] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[] I've been to Japan.
[] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[] I've been to Europe.
[] I've been to Africa.
[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator. (I want to!! )
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[] I've been to a casino.
[] I've been skydiving.
[] I've gone skinny dipping.
[] I've played spin the bottle.
[] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[] I've crashed a car.
[] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[] I've seen the Northern lights.
[] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[] I've ridden in a taxi.
[] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi.
[] I've been snowboarding.
[u] I'm single.
[m] I'm in a relationship.
[a] I'm engaged.
[l] I'm married.
[o] I've gone on a blind date.
[n] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[X] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[g] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have th...

SOMEONE needs a brain XD

~chemmisforest — Mon, 03 Mar 2008 17:50:30 PST

that someone would be me

So I haven't been on in AGES (thanks for the faves and friends! ^^) and so I come back to over 800 divinations and over 300 messages...so I delete all of the divinations (very sorry but I just don't have time for that!! XD I'll go back) So then I set to work on deleting the journals right? No biggie...there's only 300 of them.

click
click
click
cliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiick!

And then I see a lovely little option after the repition of the above clicking for ages. XD Guess what it says?

I CAN SELECT THEM ALL AND GET RID OF ALL THE JOURNALS!!

Oy...XD

Oh, and my mood...yeah..warning...I WILL bite if slightly provoked.

Oh! Another Update!

~chemmisforest — Tue, 29 Jan 2008 16:36:29 PST

Ok. Sooo I'm working on an elegy...grrr...SO BLASTED HARD!!!!! Ah well! I'm writing this mainly to say that my writers/artist block is quite done and over with and I'm very happy about all of that, and thus I can go back to updating more frequently. And this time round...I am going to hold a contest!!

Drat. Scratch that...I don't have any good prizes. XD Ah well!

Maybe some time later, when I can get my scanner to work!!

Point is...poems are coming up soon. ^^

Oh! By the way! , thank you soo soo much.

I passed a math test with ease!! It was fun *gasp* Go me!!

Oh and btw, , Thanks for the optimism dust. XD It works! (or maybe it's just all the chocolate kicking in? XD)
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Mah Zoo!!
My lemur:
My heartless:
My fox:
My raven:

My Good Friends (I you all!):

I UPDATEDZ LAINESTER!!!

~chemmisforest — Tue, 22 Jan 2008 16:32:12 PST

XD

Dedicated to Lainester who told me I should get on here more often. XD

YAY!! GO YOU! GO ME!!

~chemmisforest — Fri, 30 Nov 2007 14:58:16 PST

Hmm I want to do something as far as art goes. Art can be defined as writing OR illustrations of sorts.

SO with that being the case....YOU ask me to do something and I will do it! I do it no matter what you ask (unless it goes against my beliefs or against DA rules) and in what ever style you want.

FOR EXAMPLE: Lets say you want a fan art of sonic the hedgehog done on paint and colored in paint as well....I would have to do it. XD If you wanted me to use pastels then I would do that. You give me what you want to see: the medium, topic, style and what ever else you think I might need to know (references would be nice. XD).

When it comes down to writing tell me if you want a poem, a song, or a short story (NOT doing a novel. XD NO WAY I SOO failed NANOWRIO although it was fun. ^^) If I have left anything out tell me and if asked for it I shall do it. ^^ Tell me the topic, plot (if any), characters (if it's a ff or what not), and if it's a poem: rhyme scheme, stanzas and lines.

THIS WILL GO ON UNTIL I DECIDE TO STOP-THESE ARE NOT COMMISSIONS!! THESE ARE JUST FOR THE FUN AND ENJOYMENT OF ALL!!

Nvmd

~chemmisforest — Thu, 22 Nov 2007 15:41:48 PST

Not going to the con. I'll go some other year when I have money. I haven't missed it yet, cause I've never gone. If I want to buy a manga, I'll cosplay and go to B&N. XD No big deal. ^^ I would rather be able to go when I had a lot of money saved up and was sure I wouldn't be spending it all. So I'm just gonna wait. ^^

On the other hand, I've been having some better writing breaks and I'll also be starting on that paper art that I was talking about in the other journal. ^^ THAT I am looking forward to. ^^ Expect to see Itchigo (<--sp?) first.

HELP ME!! please...What sort of art do you like?

~chemmisforest — Tue, 13 Nov 2007 15:04:49 PST

Ok. So I'm going to go to Animazement right? Well...yeah, but I need money. An official job isn't going to work because of school and stuff but I'm pretty sure that art MIGHT sell. MAYBE.

So what I want and NEED to know from you guys is What sort of art do you like? I'm going to give you guys a list of what I'm good at and then I'll post it up and *hopefully* people will like it enough to buy prints. XD It's worth a try I think so I'm gonna give it a go.

Please comment by saying what you want to see. ^^

Paper mosaics
pastels/paper (using a combo of both)
Rainbow colors (color paper pretty colors, cover it with black crayon, then scribble in pictures)
Abstract art (more like swirly designs and stuff. XD)
+Note that all of this will be in color. And umm yeah. I'll be posting all of the images up and you guys can see what you like and maybe (if you are feeling merciful) grant me a buy so that I can go to the con. XDD

Feeling rather silly and doubtful about it all ~Stroie

Yarg!! [2/10] And UpDates

~chemmisforest — Mon, 15 Oct 2007 17:19:36 PDT

Ummm updating because I owe you all one. XD Sorry about the long wait. I will be doing the NaNoWriMo (thanks [link] and [link] !!) I am completely looking forward to it and I am dreadful nervous at the same time...I've never done something like this before.

Pretty much NaNoWriMo is when authors write a novel in one month. The site is great and really encourages you to just have fun and try your best. I'm really glad I'm going to be doing it and I'll probaly do it again next year too. Wish me luck!!

Like Livifiction said: "[link] So hop on and sign up for the event of you lives."

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I know that not nearly enough people ever come to this place so instead of 25 people, I'm making it 10. ^^

This was theived from because I wanted to do something like this and she thieved it from some one else. XD

The first 25 10 people who comment on this journal will get a feature slot, with 3 pieces of their art ~~thumbnailed~~ linked. After you've commented and I've featured you, please make a journal entry like this of your own and do the same thing, and feature me there! (<--totally optional)

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Mah Zoo!!
My lemur:
My heartless:
My fox:
My raven:

My Good Friends (I you all!):

School

~chemmisforest — Thu, 30 Aug 2007 13:28:00 PDT

For most of us Americans it's that wonderful time of year again...school. ^^ Actually, I really like it. I have to walk like crazy from place to place but it's fun. I enjoy all my classes and I finally get math.
But that's all. Expect more writing, I usually get more inspired when school is in for some odd reason. 0o

And I'm so sorry that happened. That really was a hellish time for you guys. At least you aren't going to miss much at school and when you come back I'll be ready to glomp you (and I'll have the rp ready). Enjoy the cookies. ^^

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Mah Zoo!!
My lemur:
My heartless (who so dislikes being called a rat that I have dubed her a heartless...BE THANKFUL!!):
My fox:
My raven:

My Good Friends (I you all!):

Rarw!! I ish a llama!!

~chemmisforest — Fri, 17 Aug 2007 19:53:36 PDT

Ok...so I'm NOT a llama. XD I just want to be.

Point is! Howdy!! I'm recovering from...oral surgery. It ain't fun kiddies. But at least its only wisdom teeth and I won't have to do it again. Hurts like you know what but ice and painkillers and lots of hugs and rest (no DDR for me!! XD I almost died when I did that today...when recovering from a surgery you must take your time and things one day at a time!!)

The REAL point is...(yes...there IS a point! I promise!) I have a scanner!! And me and my aunt were talking about how scientist have discovered that 'talent' is achieved at 10,000 hours of practice. And that got me thinking. I've always wanted to draw well. I've always loved to see good art and to draw art although I have never drawn much because I thought I was bad. And now I've realized, the only reason I'm 'bad' is because I haven't given the time or effort. If I could put in even 1 hour a day, eventually I'll get to 10,000 hours (I don't intend to be goin' any time soon! ) and eventually I'll be a 'talented' artist. And the same goes to my writing skills.

I'm hopping to improve my writing skills over the up coming school year (I'm rather ' poke-and-see-what-happens' about it all) and if I put the effort into my art (which you guys and gals will need to hold me accountable for because I have a scanner and I will use it!! XD)I will be improving in both areas.

Ok woot!! That was the rant!! A cookie to the first one who post on it with a reasonable reply!!

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Mah Zoo!!
My lemur:
My heartless (who so dislikes being called a rat that I have dubed her a heartless...BE THANKFUL!!):
My fox:
My raven:

My Good Friends (I you all!):

WAAAAHHHH!!!

~chemmisforest — Sun, 12 Aug 2007 08:54:38 PDT

I want to go to a con too!! XD

I keep on reading about every one going to all these amazing cons and stuff and I've never been to one and I REALLY WANT TO GOOOOOOO.

XD

Ah well. XD

Still advertizing art
STILL have my website (woots! new record! XD) [link]
STILL want to buy a commish from some awesome artist because I have the money.

Advertizing art!

~chemmisforest — Tue, 07 Aug 2007 06:20:21 PDT

I have a website [link] !!

*ish lovels her website*

SOO because there is such awesome art here and so many people want a commish these days, I've been placing links of people who are taking commish right now up on the site. Hopefully this will help them get the money they need and help get the word out about them.

THE POINT IS...if you know any wonderful talented people who are open for commish, comment and tell me their name and I'll place a link up on my site. ^^

IYO (in your oppinion)

~chemmisforest — Thu, 19 Jul 2007 17:53:16 PDT

Woots! Now you get to tell me the truth! This is just a little poll quiz thinggie to help me know what people like and what you would all like to see more of.

So all you have to do is just copy and paste this into a comment and then put an X in which ever you would answer.

choose the MAX of 2 for each!!

1. which do you like seeing more of?
[]wallpapers
[]poems
[]colored pictures (gack! XD)
[]songs
[]Chew On This Series

2. Which do you NOT like/like the least?
[]wallpapers
[]poems
[]colored pictures (gack! XD)
[]songs
[]Chew On This Series

3. What would you like to see that I haven't done before?
[] Fan fiction/fan art
[] comics
[]essays
[]photo manipulation/photos (self taken btw)
[] short stories
[] chapter stories
[]other (comment)

Thanks guys! STREEEEEETCH!

~chemmisforest — Fri, 13 Jul 2007 07:49:19 PDT

Ok well a lot of things have been happening since I posted last. So I shall give you all a brief overview. For those of you that already know me in real life, maybe this will help you understand my position a bit better and the MAJOR changes you have most likely been seeing in me.

---WARNING!!! LONG ENTRY AHEAD!!!!! XD---

Ok here we go. On Sunday in (early) June I was bitten by fire ants and had an allergic reaction. I spent 7 hours in the hospital due to the severity of it. But during that time I KNEW I was going to die. I felt that it was my time. And I was ok with it. I was content with my life. I literally saw the tunnel of light and right when I was about to go I was rather slammed back into my body and it was like God said "Your not dying! I'm not done with you yet! It's not your time. Now go back and live!" And so I'm alive. And my life has completely changed. I can see SUCH a big difference in me. I have started an AMAZING Bible study which is also really bringing out not only a change but the best in me.
Now I actually feel safe. I have a self confidence. I don't have to lie to myself any more. I actually KNOW I'm worth the time of day. It's not just a false promise any more.

And All of you, all of my friends outside of DA and also the wonderful and beautifully talented people that I have met on DA, you have shone me that I'm worth it and that I'm not alone. And I want you all to know that I value the friendships that we all have and I can't wait to see what life has in store for us. You guys are worth it!

I know that so far this seems like a religious rant, but it's not. I'm just catching up every one on what's been happening which will eventually help explain my goals.

Lately things have been going great. I've also been having my share of troubles but the good outweighs the bad.

The 5th Harry Potter movie was great. They left a lot out but they kept very close to the book what they did keep. WE GOT DISH NETWORK (or whatever you call it)!!! WOOTS!!! I CAN NOW WATCH THE DISNEY CHANNEL AND THE HISTORY CHANNEL!!! WOOTS!!

As for the goals thing I mentioned earlier...here they are! I have such a purpose in life. We all do. And I'm not going to be here forever. So for the short time I am here I want to live life to the fullest. I want to stretch myself! And so I shall! The wonderful is doing the 100 themes challenge. I enjoy drawing but writing has always been my main thing. So to stretch myself I am going to do it!! So wish us luck! Here's the list!

[Theme List]
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Rot
6. Break
7. Heaven
8. Away
9. Cut
10. Breathe
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Spit
17. Blood
18. Under
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. War
22. Mother
23. Distastefull
24. Want
25. Lurking
26. Europe
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Urban
30. Rain
31. Flower
32. Night
33. Wrath
34. Moon
35. Walk
36. Precious
37. See
38. Abandoned
39. Dream
40. 4:29 PM
41. Citric Acid
42. Still
43. Die
44. Two Roads
45. Two Guns
46. Drop
47. Dirt
48. Young
49. Preservatives
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Old
53. Desecrate
54. Tower
55. Need
56. Biohazard
57. Sacrificial
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Desert
61. Fairy Tale
62. Voodoo
63. Do Not Disturb
64. City
65. Horrorific
66. Snow
67. Drum
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mislead
73. I. Can't.
74. Confrontation
75. Mirror
76. Broken
77. Testament
78. Drink
79. Balk (replacing the f-word)
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. +
83. Heal
84. Cold
85. Sick
86. Seeing Red
87. Hunger
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drown
92. Beat (replacing rape)
93. Iron
94. Soft
95. Advertisement
96. Storm
97. Safety
98. Puzzle
99. Alone
100. Gone

I also...

Look here or I shall...sing?

~chemmisforest — Fri, 08 Jun 2007 17:05:26 PDT

XD Yeps the joke's on you my dear. ^^ You looked because you didn't want me to sing did you not? ^^ ok...onto real matters.

Me and are going to the Mountains for about 5 days and so I won't be posting up anything during that time (duh). And I relize that I haven't posted anything for a while. BUT I HAVE A REASON!!!
I'M STUCK!! XD I have ideas to write about (and I would upload some of my art work if I actually could figure out how to use the darn scanner!!!) so, that combo would =
very few updates! XD Dreadful sorry every one.
If any one can get me out of my little brain stuckieness I would be most greatful. So post up any weird ideas that you might have or what not. XD

BTW don't forget avvie contest for me is over on the 10th! That is coming up rather quickly. If your going to make an icon or what not and you need more time, tell me and I'll exstend th date. But seriously!! Enter! ^^ It would be fun to see what every one comes up with. ^^

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Mah Zoo: Mah Lemur , Mah fox , Mah Ultraviolet Rat

My Good Friends:

New Icon any one?

~chemmisforest — Fri, 25 May 2007 12:27:16 PDT

I'm sorrta tired of my current icon. SOO then...if you can make me an icon that I absolutly love, not only will I favorite it, but I shall draw a picture of it!! XD (silly Llama drawing a picture of a picture) but that is what I shall do with the power of my side walk chalk!!
Due date will be....6/10/07
So get to it!!
AND I LUV YEW GUYS!! (and girls XD)
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FOTM:
Mah Zoo: Mah Lemur , Mah fox , Mah Ultraviolet Rat
My Good Friends:

Ze Slacker Llama is still alive!!

~chemmisforest — Fri, 18 May 2007 12:29:13 PDT

Yeps. Ze slaker llama is still alive!!
SOOO SOOO SOOO SORRY for my slackerness. XD
Oh well...
I'm still around.
Fear not.
As for the whole entire Featured of the Month...I HAVE IT!!
This time round it's deticated to Vol-89. Her art is so different and she is SOO sweet!!
Go take a look at her awesome (morbid) stuff. ^^ I love it. And hopefully you will too!

Take a listen (I say listen because...oh you'll figure it out on your onesies! ) to this. This is BEAUTIFUL! [link]
Still can't tell if the guy is actualy playing all of this or if he has a tape recorder and did the motions over them. Either way, it's BEAUTIFUL!

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FOTM:
Mah Lemur:
My Good Friends

Stuff...and more stuff

~chemmisforest — Wed, 04 Apr 2007 15:00:49 PDT

Hello there, I can never seem to get the FOTM out by the 1st of the month but this will have to do. XD
This month, there are two people that I have for FOTM. First one is Saffi!! Her stuff is silly, well done, and she has alot of tallent with the computer thinggies that I don't even know the name of XD She also has a nack of cheering me up when I need it the most. ^^
The next one is raerae. Her art is awesome as well as her story telling tallent. She even has her own AWESOME web comic Avalon (highly recomended but rather mature content). I'm a compleate Avalon addict.
So! here's to two awesome tallented ladies!

Recently I fell off my swing and hurt myself pretty baddly. So I am house rendered for the time while I am recovering. Luckily I didn't break anything though I have alot of nasty brusies.
Sooo....thats actualy good news for you guys because this means MORE UPDATES!! *does a happy little dance*
So I hope you enjoy the updates (please do comment and tell me what you think ^^) and for now that ish all!!
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FOTM:

Mah Lemur:
My good friends:

FOTM!!

~chemmisforest — Sat, 17 Mar 2007 07:53:39 PDT

WOOZ!! So sorry that I haven't updated in a while, but while there's still time I'll just give you guys the featured of the month. ^^
And that is........... *insert drumroll please*

A-Fire-Inside321!! ^^
Her writing rocks, because she puts alot of effort and spirit into her work and it shows. She really has earned this not only of that but also because she's a good friend too. ^^ Keep it up girl!!

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FOTM:

Mah Lemur:

My Good Friends:

Shake that thang!!

~chemmisforest — Tue, 27 Feb 2007 14:27:31 PST

You know..dancing isn't what it used to be. It used to be a flying art of love and passion and not this whole little "oh I'm going to go shakie shakie shakie and call it dancing! Woo!!"
Now some people can do the whole "shakie shakie" thing and make it an art, but alot of people...can't. Wich is...sad?
?__?
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FOTM: Same as last time
My lemur and good friends: still same as last time. ^^

Bleh

~chemmisforest — Fri, 16 Feb 2007 15:27:05 PST

I really haven't been feeling good for the last week. I've felt horrible.
But any way. I've thought up of the contest. ^^ WOO!!! ^^ BUT I need you guys to vote in the poll so that I can decide what to make the contest on.
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FOTM:

Mah Lemur!!:

My friends:

Contest Any One?

~chemmisforest — Fri, 02 Feb 2007 15:46:38 PST

I see so many art contest and stuff like that but I have never seen a writing one. So I thought that I might as well make one.
BUT I don't want to do one if no one is going to enter...there is no point.
SOOOOOOOOOO.....
Post and tell me if you guys would all be interested ^^ And then the contest will (or will not ) begin!!!

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Friends (in abc order):

Featured Of The Month

~chemmisforest — Thu, 01 Feb 2007 07:41:43 PST

I feel like I ought to do this. ^^ Don't ask why. I just want to.
Sooo...at the start of each month I will post up one person who will be featured for that month. I will list the reasons why this person deserves it, what they do (drawing or writing and what kinds such as poetry or anthro or what not) and then I will keep them up on the journal for the rest of the month. ^^
For this month, I say its Zoklar. He really deserves it. He's a great friend, with a passion for poetry and he does a great job at it. He never ceases to encorage others and has a huge tallent. So go check him out...
And Zoklar, hope you're happy and proud of yourself. ^^ You've earned it!!
NOW GO CHECK HIM OUT!!!!

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If you want to nominate some one for the next month, feel free to note me on it, and I'll check them out, give me the reasons on why too please. ^^ And feel free to nominate yourself!! ^^

RAwrg? (6weirdthinggies)

~chemmisforest — Mon, 22 Jan 2007 15:45:34 PST

I ISH LAZAY!!! (misspellings are intentional for that) And because of said fact(s) the A in "RAwrg?" is staing a cap. SOOOOOOoo then!! XD
I sorrta got taged. The person (ze very tallented morowhitewolf) tagged any one who had A in their screen name or in their real name. I have 2 a's in my real name so I ISH HAVETH BEENTH TAGGED!! WOO!!! XD *ishallurma* So...here it is XD

The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 Weird Habits/Things About Yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 Weird Habits/Things as well as state this rule clearly.
In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "You are tagged" in their devPage comments and tell them to read yours.

1. I have a weird obession with...LLAMAS!! XD
2. I like running down the hallways in my house when no one is at home but me (duh XD) and yelling really weird things at the top of my lungs.
3. I love being sarcastic in the way that every one knows that I'm being sarcastic and evilish. Cause I'm sarcastic and evilishly cool like that!!! XD
4. I like smilies. XD ^^ LLAMAA!!! XD Yeah...Like that XD
5. I'm bloody random. XD (I like saying British words XD They rock!! Woo!!!)
6/7. (figure it out on yee onesies ^^) I can get high off of air and freezing cold water. Any sort of water for that matter. WOO!!!! ^^

I NOW TAGGITH!!!! ..... *insert thunder, happy fun evil laughter, and other stuffie stuff in here!!! XD*
saffiremoon21, Zoklar, A-Fire-Inside321 and the three hot sexy invisable people standing in the corner over there. XD You know who you are!! *insert MORE thunder, happy fun evil laughter, and other stuffie stuff in here!!!*

100 page veiws!!

~chemmisforest — Sun, 14 Jan 2007 18:06:47 PST

OMG!!! 100 page veiws!!
Ok so maybe thats not a big deal at all but I'm still happy any way. ^^U I'm not used to this kind of stuff, and as Saffie said, I'm a bit addicted to this place.
Reasons why:
1-I FINALLY FOUND SOME ONE I CAN RELATE TO!!
2-I'm getting alot of comments on my works so I can see where I need to improve and stuff.
3-THIS PLACE IS SO BLOODY AWESOME!!! ^^
4-I've been wanting to get on this place forever.
So yes...ANY WAY!!
Here's to 100 MORE page veiws! Woo!
XD
*cheers*

HYPERCRAZYACTIVETIME!!!

~chemmisforest — Sat, 13 Jan 2007 06:23:32 PST

No, you aren't supposed to be able to read that. If you can...WOOTS!!! Good for you for you are a llama!!

Point is, I am going to be spending the day with my "Crazy" Auntie. Me luffles my Auntie. ^^ She rocks. She is insane and hyper like me AND WE SHALL PWN YOU ALL!!!! BWHAHAH!!! 0o Ignore that

So any way, just saying that I woln't be on for a while and also that exams are coming up and so...0o
Yah. I woln't be on for a while. I shall see you all next weekish after ZE DREADED SATAN SENT EXAAAAAAAAAAAAMZZZZ x_X

A Good Friend

~chemmisforest — Fri, 12 Jan 2007 14:40:36 PST

The person I'm writing about knows who they are. I don't need to say their name and I'd rather not.

But you know, its so nice, I finaly found some one that I can relate to. I was rotting inside for my own reasons, trying to escape my pain in so many ways, and I was alone. And now I'm not.
But I'm wondering if I'm about to become so. I wish that they would know that I want to be their friend. That they aren't walking down the road of life all alone. I wish that they knew that I was there for them if they ever needed me.
I know this is sounding a bit romantic, and while its not like that, I really do treasure this person as a friend.

And you know something? Whats bothering me the most is that I have found some one so like me, some one I can relate to, and now I feel like they're going away. Just like all the other ones. The people that I felt the closest to at times, they all just dissapeared. And I don't want that any more. I just want to be with a good friend. I just want a hug. I just want some one to come and tell me that I'm doing a good job. Hell, its not even that. I just want some one who will stick around and let me be me! -_- And so when I finally find that person...are they leaving me?

I'm sorry if I'm worring you, and please don't feel guilty for any of this. I'm an emotional person. But thank you for your kindness and encoragement to me. And please don't go away.
Please?
And Also, I wrote a poem for you, so that you wouldn't feel so alone. Hope you like it.

Llama?

~chemmisforest — Sat, 06 Jan 2007 06:01:16 PST

This is just random. Its really me saying hi and talking about the random things in my life. I shall try NOT to rant about the llamas that I love so much. But if you look through my favorates, you'll see that I have a thing for llamas. I love llamas. I think that its the way the name is spelled and how FUZZY they are! Fuzzy fuzzy fuzzy!!
0o Just ignore me-I'm insane.
LLAMA!!!
Any way, I found a michanical pencil on the floor at school yesterday and it was a really nice one too. Plenty of eraser on the top and plenty of lead in it. I couldn't see the person who might have dropped it and so I now have a new pencil. I hope that the person has extras. 0o If I ever find them I owe them a michanical pencil as thanks. ^^U
Any way!! ....
Yep. So then, I shall now talk about what I hope to put in here. I write alot of poetry and would love to hear comments on it. So please give constructive critisim on them. ^^U I might be putting up a short story or two, maybe even a chapter thinggie? *shrugs* Well thank you for stoping by and please do tell me what you think of every thing! Thank you and have a wonderful day!!