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Anyways, the 100 challenge is like, dead. I've been too busy with other stuff to bother coming up with stuff that's creative and good enough for my tastes. So much of my stuff has been just...whatever. And no one on the forums really pays attention to my stuff particularly because my talent (if this is what I even have...it feels so inferior!) is way outdone and outshone by other pixel artists. *sigh* At least I think I'm at a decent level ...

Tomorrow is a night on the town with my crew, which I am looking forward too. My and my bf haven't spent much time together, and I haven't really seen my friends for a bit due to projects and exams. It'll be nice finally. Some Christmas shopping, drinking & dancing, always a good combo heh.

So that's the end of my journal here. Merry Christmas and Happy (early) New year! I'm going to be uploading my bases here too some time soon...stay tuned ;3

]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/15140594/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/15140594/ Sat, 20 Oct 2007 08:48:09 PDT Accounting 2 went crap ARGH!
Tax went semi-well.
Inter Management Acct 1 went great except I rather not admit to it for fear that I did screw up x_x

100 Challenge

So some project to do to ease boredom...probably won't be encountering much of that because I HAVE A NEW BABY COUSIN <3

1. Introduction [link]
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/12400101/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/12400101/ Sat, 31 Mar 2007 09:40:43 PDT Been busy but I've got a few things to be done. I've been lazy and not doing any scanning of my latest drawings, and as for pixel work...well I must say, I've stopped for almost 6 months. I've lost interest and now I'm more into doing something that won't get lost in virtuspace.

If you want commissions for little pixels (check my gallery) - I do them through PM on GaiaOnline. My username is caramielle. For more info, check the journal there.

Not much time to do anything artsy, but I have enough projects lined up for myself that I will surely be busy...hopefully not too tired to end up not seeing anyone (especially my bunny :3)

I should be getting a summer job soon. My fingers are crossed.

]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/8727980/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/8727980/ Wed, 10 May 2006 07:45:46 PDT School is over. I have just one exam.
Been a pretty hectic semester. University right around the corner.
Anyways. Some stuff to keep me (and you?) tied over:

The Piano Room [link]
One of the Top 8 stories of my Creative Writing class. Love and loss.

Double Sided [link]
The troubles of being a second child.

Destiny's Discrepancies
10 years into the future...how the past (now) changed the present (future). Check the description.

Part [1]. [2]. [3]. [4]. [5]. [6]. [7]. [8]. [9]. [10]. [x].

Acquaintance [link]
About my best friend...but I never got around to letting her read it. =\

Everything's just gonna get better from here. ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7943759/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7943759/ Sun, 02 Apr 2006 19:20:05 PDT
I guess it's true. It was a place that brought a lot of people together, and ultimately where a lot of things ended. I just hope that it will bring the same happiness to other people, like it did to me. And all the people who are involved in the similar situation that I am in (and somewhat, out, of). In the end, it's like a music box that we all simultaneously opened, enjoying the twinkling tunes and eventually closing the box when it wound down, keeping it as a souvenir of the good memories and happiness.

Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if things remained the same. But everything happens for a reason.

...and all the colours of the rainbow
never seem to make the world all that colourful...


Current Progress

(bolded [x]'s are completed ^_^)

[x] Midterms (studying - new set)
[x] Integrative Project - research paper on Adolescent Suicide in the 21st Century (looking at the psychological, sociological and historical perspectives)
[x] Short Story: The Piano Room (for my English portfolio)
[x] Short Story II: Routes (for my own) probably needs minor editing
[x] Short Story III: (title in progress) (for my own)
[x] Marketing Project - Melody Charm

(Erm yes, my progress is not going so well...but most of these are long projects anyways) ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7783897/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7783897/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 18:08:55 PST
I miss you

But I knew that eventually we'd have to part ways.
I never anticipated on it being so soon.

As I think about it less and less,
And as I stop rewinding,
Trying to live in a memory.
It can't be helped: I still miss you.

But at least I'm over you.

Walked me halfway down the road.
Said goodbye and left
Down the other path.
I walk the rest alone.
Knowing that maybe you'll look back.

I never loved you. I never have, I never will. Love is not the right word. I only liked you more than anyone else in the world. There's a fine line between "love" and "like a lot". But know that whatever happens, I'll always like you. Maybe not in the same way, but I'm following your words. I always listened to you. And you always listened to me.

Maybe.
That's why.
I miss you. But I don't.
At the same time. ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7698158/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7698158/ Tue, 24 Jan 2006 18:52:14 PST So I'll repent my sins
Hopefully never to
Deserve this
Again.

I fell in love with your sin
Your littlest sin
-Anberlin

I turn around for a minute and then you're gone.
Why do I still care?
Why do I still miss you?
Every now and then I wonder if I'll see you again,
Or do I have to wait for the next day.
It's all wrong.

I miss you. I do.
It's all wrong.
But I just do.

Even now,
Every time you go,
I pretend that everything is fine.
I lived my life
On a fabricated lie.

Your dreams. My dreams.
They simply aren't the same ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7638790/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7638790/ Wed, 18 Jan 2006 11:58:01 PST Won't you come and dance with me?

The little things in life mean so much more than we are
Willing to admit.
Every unspoken apology,
Unwanted goodbye.
Every wishful second chance:
Love and loss, hope and resentment.

Everyone has somebody else.
But does everybody know
What it means to hurt?

Things seem so different
From the otuside in.
I wonder if you're just the same
Or did one (and the other) change.

Chocolate brownies, early mornings, long bus rides.
Memories.
Is it alright to say,
I liked you once,
I don't know now?
(Maybe, maybe not) ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7586286/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7586286/ Thu, 12 Jan 2006 18:32:15 PST No one ever asked me to stay.
So of course I'll walk away.
To contemplate the change,
And ease the pain,
And feel the same lethargy
I felt before we met.

Everything is different,
Yet it all feels familiar
To before; and after
All is said and done
Everything just seems to fade to black.

For once I will question
Who is the center of this problem?
Is it you
Or is it me?

I thought about you.
And that is my final confession.
You never told me. ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7519755/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7519755/ Tue, 10 Jan 2006 14:49:54 PST Sometimes I'll cry just to know that someone will wipe the tears away

School starts: January 12
First day off: February 16

What a long wait...until March break and Easter holidays and ultimately summer.
Meh* Summer = work.

Steph tries out poetry. @_@

Take down all the stars
That brightly shine under this sky.
And all the days that used to be
Are just like fading memories.
Fragments
That dissipate
With her own beautiful disaster she created,
Realizing that
Today is only tomorrow's memory.
She looks up at the endless sky
And although no stars shine,
She knew.
In the stars it was written
That she would walk home alone ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7361291/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7361291/ Tue, 20 Dec 2005 07:15:41 PST
School's been out for a few days (Friday)...And me, I'm just doing whatever comes to mind. Ah.

Mais je te manque encore...je ne t'ai pas vu un peu et il se sent si longtemps. Quand tu reviens, j'espère te voir bientôt. Ça sera presque un mois et je manquerai toutes les choses qu'on parle de toujours sur le téléphone X3 Tu es tellement mignon...XD Merci d' être la personne merveilleuse que tu es. ^_^

L'hivers, c'est tellement froid.

時常在發著惡夢 有人搶去你
其實我 很怕當你 感情的後備

(Yes I speak in three languages oh em gee! XD) ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7159639/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/7159639/ Sun, 27 Nov 2005 15:33:24 PST Finals - One week
<3 - One month in a few days

So there I was, yesterday, talking about how fast time goes by...I look at the picture on my board and I realize that it's been a month (in three days) that it had been taken. And in a month, I got to know someone so much more than I ever though I would...something that I haven't really experienced before; to know someone so well, and for them to understand you equally as well.

Finals have been adding to stress levels. It's almost a win it, or break it situation. To compete with two semester's worth of grades. To compete with a whole year...it's not easy anymore when you have a reputation. To have your name on the Dean's list once, makes the pressure hike up to get it on again, and again and again. In a way, maybe it would've been better not to be on the list. But now that I'm on it, I put the pressure on myself to get on it. Again.

There was a birthday party yesterday and I was close to drunk...cheers to the wonderful friends that I have. And to that amazing person in my life, that just makes everything seem to light up. Aaah.

Off on a tangent, I need to make a new dA ID. Argh* ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/6662750/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/6662750/ Sun, 02 Oct 2005 19:01:19 PDT Submissions have taken a bit of a slow-down due to midterms (arggh*)
But I'm happy. <3

Thanks for the 2800 pageviews!!

"簡簡單單的愛"
^.^ ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/6414906/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/6414906/ Sun, 04 Sep 2005 14:53:14 PDT Friday night was awesome...I saw a fire fountain. Now that's awesome.

There is no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
And no song that I could sing, but I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia tone loving

Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Why are we here and where do we go
And how come it's so hard
It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing
It's always better when we're together

<3 ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/5550827/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/5550827/ Mon, 20 Jun 2005 21:17:47 PDT
Yesterday I just sat here, in front of my computer screen, playing a card game. And I was crying. Maybe it was something my mum told me when we were on the phone. Sometimes, I feel that whatever I say is never heard.

Thank you for listening. Or not.

(No, I'm not cynical. I'm happy. There's a lot of stuff I have to do when I get back to HK. I regret not talking to someone yesterday; I might not be able to talk to him until we see each other again in August. Wow...that seems miles away) <33 Will miss (him) loads.

The days pass and soon, there will be a fabricated lie to shut people up. I'm not so little anymore. I'm not so "uncool" anymore either. I'm just me.

Teh Loved Ones XD Being watched

Photo art:
Just art:
Pixel art:

(cokeandcandy is my fsky friend. We are reuniting this summer. Even though the lucky girl gets to go to Vancouver for art school. Merph*) ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/5337967/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/5337967/ Thu, 12 May 2005 11:08:56 PDT

Mood: Cheerful ^^*

Well...exams are over. Holidays are in. What else can I say?
June 22nd - my flight back to Hong Kong for a little less than 2 months.

Been a bit slack in updating this gallery. XD
Apart from that...don't know what else to scribble. Thanks for all the comments and faves.

I still need to buy a piano. Or a keyboard. I miss my piano. Sheesh* Still. ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/4583711/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/4583711/ Mon, 14 Feb 2005 19:10:56 PST
... // convo on the metro // ...

So do you have a valentine's?
No (I wish I did)
Why not?
I dunno (Just because)
Why didn't you ask someone?
I dunno (Because, I don't want to look desperate. Heck, I don't need someone to be my valentine. I'll let them do it with their own free will)
Oh well, have a happy valentine's day then
You too (even though I know I won't; too bad you couldn't be my valentine, i made something but there was no point in the end, i know i won't give it because, i'm not supposed to)

So that's my Valentine's Day summed up in one conversation. I should work. ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/3635284/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/3635284/ Wed, 20 Oct 2004 14:37:20 PDT is inevitable

(Extracted from a comment to Jen with some bits changed)

Things change, people change just like the seasons change...it's like something we're meant to do in some way. it's like adapting because you can't stay the same forever (there's so many reasons why you can't).

i mean...i had to change...i had to leave everyone behind in hk just to come back to the beginning (that's what i always considered montreal + canada), this change isn't the first most major change i've had, rather the second one. first was leaving canada to hk, now it's leaving hk to canada.

in a way, change can do some good...like learning to experience new things...like me, experiencing a new type of lifestyle, school life, city life...love life (crushing on someone who is not asian in any way) but it doesn't always end up bringing up good things, sometimes it could break things apart, like how i feel so disconnected from everyone back in Hong Kong. Change is always hard, sometimes it can hurt, sometimes it can put things to a test.

But you can't run away from change. No matter where you go it follows you, to pounce on you when you least expect it. Yet, you submit to it, knowing that in the end, it'll do some good.

*sigh*

[edit]
Next kiriban @ 1500, person who is the 1500th viewer can send me a note (w/ some proof...a screenshot will do) and I'll make a doll for them ^^ ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/3340883/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/3340883/ Sat, 11 Sep 2004 15:59:57 PDT
memories can disappear
like a vanishing act
it's all just an illusion;
it seems like you made it disappear to everyone
you tell them you did yet you know that it's all just a trick

and then they come back again and you remember

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

is there really a chance that i can actually push it away and forget? is it possible? ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/2814820/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/2814820/ Tue, 06 Jul 2004 05:31:24 PDT And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Fact: Learning processes are hard when your heart resents it but your mind knows it's the best thing to do. One minute I think I've accomplished this forsaken process of giving up and forgetting...but the next I just think it'll never happen and I want to give up. It's confusing. And I'm confused. ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/2745134/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/2745134/ Mon, 28 Jun 2004 00:02:52 PDT cokeandcandy)

She's walking home alone tonight,
Emptyhanded her arms dangle loosely at her sides.
Does she know she's missing anything or
Nothing really matters anymore.
Stars shine above the lonely park,
while leaves rustled with humid breeze...
And she questioned her fate as if it were written;
In the stars it was written,
that she would walk home alone.

I guess it's time to let go of it all.
(Jen - check my diary-x...you know the passcode...) ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/2599931/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/2599931/ Sun, 06 Jun 2004 20:32:48 PDT [link] for project. No more updates there. Too tedious)

Dear friend,
I'm sorry to have to write this, but I am so utterly confused right now...not because of you only, but also because of what is happening right now.

I sometimes wonder why you do such things to get what you want. I am not willing to forgive your for lying to me, using other people as an excuse to force me to change something for the benefit of you. First off, it's something I have decided upon, something I am supposed to decide upon. It is not your event, it is mine. I didn't want to put it like this to you, you will never read this and if you do, please understand my feelings.

In my eyes, you right now, in this moment of time, seem to want attention. I don't know why. You try and try to persuade me to change dates to suit you. Every single day you used to pester me. I'm sorry I never changed it for you. But you used so many methods to try and make me feel bad for not changing it, in a way, you make me feel sorry when I know I shouldn't.

Due to this, I wonder...why can't you accept the fact you can't go? It's not like I will never see you again. But you make it seem that way which is why you are not pleased with the outcome? I don't know. I hate to say it but you always want pity to be thrown upon you...the sympathy of one. Yet, you don't seem to understand when other people need it. A hypocrite? I don't think so, but you can judge for yourself.

I am not doing this in spite, or because I am jealous or because I wish not to be your friend or to make people see the wrong side of you. I'm saying this because I am tired of everything. This month has drained everything out of me...to be quite frank my dad, in my eyes, is writhering at the fact we are leaving, my mum is on the verge of going crazy with the burden she has to hold, which is more than that she held seven years ago, due to my father's imperfections. My brother has his gf to take care of, who lately has been getting drunk with friends. And here I am, alone.

To watch something I wish was upon myself...to realise that I'm not as good as I thought I was...these are the things that are draining the life out of me. So understand my words and don't take them harshly. You will always be my friend, but whether as close as we used to be...is something that I am still unclear about.

Yours truly,
Stephanie ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/2416633/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/2416633/ Wed, 12 May 2004 20:03:52 PDT Love doesn't die
It just fades into the background.
Whether it comes back into the picture or not...
Is a completely different story... ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/2113129/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/2113129/ Wed, 31 Mar 2004 01:58:05 PST
Had a small argument (not quite) with Renee today because of:
*Glasses
*Me always being "Chuen" (meaning being really mean and stuff)

I will openly express my unhappinness here though I do not expect any sympathy. I'm so sick of being called something that, Renee truly knows, is not f*ing true. For goodness sakes if I really am that mean why the hell do you still wanna be friends with me? Honestly! Second, how come whenever something bad happens to you, and something to me, all the attention has to be diverted to you while I struggle along with all my problems? Honestly! Why do you always make me look so inferior and you look more superior? As if everything to you is so much more important? I'm being a total bitch right now. But this is what really goes on in my head.

I don't understand sometimes...how come I care about Renee so much that I still stick up for her whether she is right or wrong, stupid looking or intelligent etc. I comforted her even though I wished I received some comfort as well, and I didn't get any (well I got a microgram of it) from her. Of course, I suppose I live on the line give but do not expect to receive but now...I'm starting to, in a way lose it. I've had quite frankly enough of being the guardian angel in some respects, now I wanna being comforted and cared for but of course I won't be because I earned my independence because I'm looking after everyone else. I know I'm being selfish...I'm repeating myself.

And because of all this crap in my life...I ended up crying for a whole breaktime because I feel so hurt inside with everything that's happened. Even though it happened 3 months ago it still hurts, and it doesn't help having pressure from the family as well. Sometimes I just want to scream until I've run out of breath. I'm not mad. I'm just upset at how I'm being so foolish and also so selfish at the same time.

31/03
End of term today. I'm getting back with Renee but I'm still not connecting with her. Because quite frankly, I'm not sorry for anything I've done because, well what have I done? See, I'm being self-centered again because I don't see the wider picture but I'm tired of everything that's going on. I'm tired of this whole life! Sometimes I just wanna disappear for a day so that I can try and "find" myself again because...I feel like I'm never the same person...I'm like 'x' number of people stuck in one body and I don't have one mind practically. Sometimes I'm like this, sometimes like that. And I'm not making any sense.

The fact is...is that...I just want to be happy. That's it. I don't care any more, whether I get a boyfriend, whether my grades are the best etc. All this is so superficial, it doesn't matter anymore. But then again maybe it does and I don't realise it. In a way, I feel confused too. I dunno what I want to do now...I just wanna get away from all this shit and start over again. But it's impossible to erase the past like pencil marks on a paper. Some things just stick with you. ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/1906677/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/1906677/ Sat, 06 Mar 2004 04:32:02 PST yeah so my xanga is "funeral-ish" woopdeedoo

so so so...life is like c r a p and i've got a teacher hovering slightly over me damnnnnn i hate this i wanna listen to my mp3

stacie orrico - stuck
i can relate totally to it

*sigh*

I don't care

hmm...maybe somethings aren't meant to be -_-" Haiz* I dunno everything is just either bewildering or confusing

screw the optometrist (sp?) i had to see...insulting my intelligence...i waited for like 2 hours for a complete retard as my "new" optometrist. *argh*

well yeah. bored bored bored...gotta get a life -_-"

-March 6th 2004-
Nothing much today being very random. Got contacts...Wednesday! And yeah. I like origami but not in the obsessive-compulsive way like Kua. (Jen you know what I mean!)
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Friends


Inspirations


Clubs
]]> ~cherry-blossom1228 http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/1704839/ http://cherry-blossom1228.deviantart.com/journal/1704839/ Mon, 19 Jan 2004 05:03:27 PST Directly copied from my Xanga

Stuff happened and screwed up my day. Stupid teachers, stupid certificates, stupid stupid....OH Whatever I'am the one who completely messed up my own life and made it so hard to reconstruct.

Okay had the worst day of my life today. It started off in the morning...waking up at one hour intervals. Then hitting my head with the stupid medicine cabinet, getting toothpaste all over my shirt. Then I spilled the cereal all over myself, I got my hair all wet from the rain...I was freezing in school and then I got all this stuff from the teacher which totally peeved me off and I just totally...broke down in Chemistry (even though I got a really good mark in the mock). I feel so stupid...I mean how come it all comes down to me?

It doesn't matter anymore...that's what my mum said but to me it means the world. I thought I'd be able to do well and now look...I look so dumb and in someways I don't even think I deserve to be where I am today. Plus...now what does everyone (actually, I'm pointing at one person in particular) think of me? They're probably laughing at the fact.

If only I could go back and change everything...maybe life wouldn't be like this ]]> ~cherry-blossom1228