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thanks cannabismedicine

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most of you, if not all, are gone. time to catch the train. and pick up my daughter.

]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/7422059/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/7422059/ Mon, 26 Dec 2005 11:20:05 PST
I'm single now, after 6 years. One bedroom apartment in the Branch Davidian compound.

She Wants Revenge is amazing.

Nim Vind, Shadow Reichenstein, Frankenstein at Fiend Fest LA in January.

Followed by Danko Jones. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/6457604/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/6457604/ Fri, 09 Sep 2005 09:21:31 PDT
my credit cards are all maxed out but at least i got promoted.

read the book, MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA. then, in december, what the movie. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/4933627/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/4933627/ Mon, 28 Mar 2005 11:49:08 PST Distant conflicts unresolved
We were young once,
and in love
Nothing was more real...
more real to feel.

Fools for lovers,
children are
in petty circumstance
Like razors seen
more clearly now
Watching from the outside
looking down
I feel so helpless

I see angels trapped beneath the ice
And strangers in my bed at night
Cloudy skies to cover up
the feelings buried in the dark
Helen, i think you understand
The night is silent in your hands
I give it everything I have
And when its gone
There's nothing left but me

Sadness whispers her condolences
For the greatest tragedy of all is love lost
But the greatest virtue belongs to those
who will give everything
to love again...
It is a test

I don't think its fair to blame each other
For the happiness we sought but didn't find
Gibran's words I heard in angel's eyes
Too young to understand
But I pause as we grow between the lines
And if the walls of our communion fall to nothingness
How wrong the dreamers would be
But I won't accept it,
I won't give up
World be damned,
for love is hard
And this time...
This time...
I'm not running away

I see angels trapped beneath the ice
And strangers in my bed at night
Cloudy skies to cover up
the feelings buried in the dark
Helen, I think you understand
The night is silent in your hands
I give it everything I have
And when its gone
There's nothing left

I see angels trapped beneath the ice
And strangers in my bed at night
Cloudy skies to cover up
the feelings buried in the dark
Helen, I think you understand
The night is silent in your hands
I give it everything I have
And when its gone
There's nothing left but me

There is always hope,
and the strongest and the bravest
will always keep it close to them
For if you surrender hope,
then love was right to leave you

I see angels trapped beneath the ice
And strangers in my bed at night
Cloudy skies to cover up
the feelings buried in the dark
Helen, I think you understand
The night is silent in your hands
I give it everything I have
And when its gone
There's nothing left ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/4359727/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/4359727/ Wed, 19 Jan 2005 11:45:56 PST
TH 01.27.05 Outland Ballroom
Springfield, MO
FR 01.28.05 Davey's Uptown
Kansas City, MO
SA 01.29.05 Cunningham's
Kearny, NE
TU 02.01.05 Club Congress
Tucson, AZ
TH 02.03.05 Rhythm Room
Phoenix, AZ
FR 02.04.05 Casbah
w/ Deadbolt San Diego, CA
SA 02.05.05 Spaceland
w/ Slim Cessna's Auto Club Los Angeles, CA
SU 02.06.05 Moe's Alley
w/ Slim Cessna's Auto Club Santa Cruz, CA
MO 02.07.05 Bottom of the Hill
w/ Slim Cessna's Auto Club San Francisco, CA
TU 02.08.05 Sierra Vista Lakefront
Tahoe City, CA
TH 02.10.05 Doug Fir Lounge
Portland, OR
FR 02.11.05 Tractor Tavern
Seattle, WA
SA 02.12.05 Nightlight
Bellingham, WA
MO 02.14.05 Mangy Moose
w/ The Ones Who Got Away Teton Village, WY
TU 02.15.05 Urban Lounge
Salt Lake City, UT
TH 02.17.05 Larimer Lounge
Denver, CO
FR 02.18.05 Knickerbocker's
Lincoln, NE
SA 02.19.05 Vaudville Mews
Des Moines, IA
TU 03.01.05 Club Cafe
Pittsburgh, PA
WE 03.02.05 Lime Spider
Akron, OH ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/4023862/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/4023862/ Thu, 09 Dec 2004 01:03:34 PST Mood: doubtful
Listening to: Do You Wanna Touch Me There - Joan Jett
Reading: no books... Fangoria
Watching: House Of Flying Daggers

House of Flying Daggers kicks Hero's ass 5 times over. It is, without hesitation, the best movie I've seen all year.

Everything sucks but, goddamn, I love the holiday season. I'm getting drunk, hate my life, adore my daughter, have to piss, and would wish upon a star if only I thought it would do me good.

The End.

]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/3326218/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/3326218/ Thu, 09 Sep 2004 16:08:04 PDT Mood: doubtful
Listening to: Killer Weed - Eddie Spaghetti
Reading: Fangoria
Watching: Ginger Snaps Back: The Beginning

AVP wasn't great but certainly fun. Hero is great, once past the extreme overuse of wirework. Garden State is worth it's price at a matinee. I'm still waiting to see Napoleon Dynamite but am definitely looking forward to Seed Of Chucky and Shaun Of The Dead.

it's hot as fuck.

took my first polygraph. passed. decided if i don't make it as a cop, at least i can grow my hair back out. although i now realize i wanna motorcycle, but, of course, i'm too in debt as it is. i'm thinking a chopper, not too extended, but that way i don't have to pay Harley prices. or maybe a Triumph, although an Indian would be the coolest.

Siouxie, Billy Idol, Flock of Seagulls, the Killers, Tears For Fears, and more on the 18th. Alice Cooper with the Misfits and the annual Vampire Bazaar in October. my daughter's birthday, Halloween, and Christmas to look forward to. everything's always good at the end of the year, it's the beginning and middle that i can't stand. although the weather is awfully nice up until around April.

eBay still has me by the balls and just won't let go.

glad to be smoking again...

Any local (LA/OC county) photographers (whose work is good) in need of a hearse for some sort of photoshoot, contact me. New coat of metallic black paint, shined chrome, sideloader (suicide doors), license plate reads CFN NAIL, cow print seat covers and floor mats, should have a casket soon as well. My schedule is shitty but rates are cheap as I'd only charge gas money. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/3125363/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/3125363/ Sat, 14 Aug 2004 16:01:30 PDT Mood: doubtful
Listening to: High On Life - Rasputina
Reading: Fangoria
Watching: Ginger Snaps 2 and Bad(der) Santa

AVP came out yesterday... i'll catch a matinee on payday.

saw Element, the Deep Eynde, and Cinema Strange last night and a pretty good show.

started smoking again, thank christ. i quit for around a month but realized it wasn't worth it. i'm smoking Chesterfield lights until the 2-for-1 deals are over.

LAPD doesn't look good, background wise, but LA county Sheriff's are giving me a better shot. LA/Long Beach Longshoremen are hiring like 3000 people, maybe i'll get lucky in the drawing there.

i'm as addicted to eBay as ever. i could really use a better paying job to start paying off all the credit i'm running back up again.

Any local (LA/OC county) photographers (whose work is good) in need of a hearse for some sort of photoshoot, contact me. New coat of metallic black paint, shined chrome, sideloader (suicide doors), license plate reads CFN NAIL, cow print seat covers and floor mats, should have a casket soon as well. My schedule is shitty but rates are cheap as I'd only charge gas money. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/3095797/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/3095797/ Tue, 10 Aug 2004 23:27:19 PDT
I used to have incredbile credit, for a 27 year old or a 47 year old. Shitty jobs, but amazing credit. Now, I'm in the hole another 10+ grand and can't get on with the PDs. If God were real, he'd be a hefty bank account... and Satan would be my platinum card. The apostles would simply be the dead presidents who plaster their ugly fucking faces across the cash I don't have.

AVP comes out Friday the 13th.

Ghoultown is dead.

I need to lose more weight, I'm breaking out more and more this summer, and my hair sucks.

Any local (LA/OC county) photographers (whose work is good) in need of a hearse for some sort of photoshoot, contact me. New coat of metallic black paint, shined chrome, sideloader (suicide doors), license plate reads CFN NAIL, cow print seat covers and floor mats, should have a casket soon as well. My schedule is shitty but rates are cheap as I'd only charge gas money. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/2873201/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/2873201/ Tue, 13 Jul 2004 14:49:23 PDT



Any local (LA/OC county) photographers (whose work is good) in need of a hearse for some sort of photoshoot, contact me. New coat of black paint, shined chrome, sideloader (suicide doors), license plate reads CFN NAIL, cow print seat covers and floor mats, should have a casket soon as well. My schedule is shitty but rates are cheap as I'd only charge gas money.

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i gotta register her at the DMV in a couple hours. i can't decide on license plates yet but i'm leaning towards VUDU HEX of CFN NAIL. originally i was gettin 1WAY RYD but it's not available.

]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/2718173/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/2718173/ Tue, 22 Jun 2004 09:26:39 PDT
i'm no longer an enemy of anime. most i still don't like, but i've been a converted fan thanks to the genius work of Vampire Hunter D and Blood: The Last Vampire. does anyone know if Blood is a series or not? it was an amazing piece for a series but not that great of a movie to stand alone, plot-wise.

was having trouble finding french cuff dress shirts but finally managed to look online. still not a lot of options but i know have a few. anyone know if they make fitted french cuff shirts?

the Chrysler 300. my new car if i get into police academy.

]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/2528080/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/2528080/ Fri, 28 May 2004 10:39:10 PDT
vegas in a week. disneyland starts it off, then start drinking on the plane and don't quit until the planeride back.

the album 'danse macabre' by the faint is fucking awesome. the best album i've heard since ghoultown came out with their live album.

got the reissue of megatron for my birthday. it brought back some memories but i'm not entirely sure it's worth 80 bucks... although i'm sure it will be, in the end. i really need to get soundwave and prime though.

slacked off on the drinking some more. now working on the smokes... most of the police departments don't allow smoking on or off duty. if i can get past the interview... of course, once i get enough free time, i can work on drinking more.

]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/2170788/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/2170788/ Wed, 07 Apr 2004 10:12:29 PDT
i've been spending too much money on eBay again for fucking Transformers.

Dropkick Murphys were good but The Ducky Boys were better. Flogging Molly was, and will always be, even better still. Ghoultown's back for 4 shows in southern Calif. the week after Easter.

Mafia has become my latest craze. Good game. Great game.

Nip/Tuck season one should be out on DVD about the time season 2 starts in about another 2 months. Buy it. Possibly the greatest television show... ever.

]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/1956262/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/1956262/ Fri, 05 Mar 2004 10:46:07 PST
moved into a new house (new to us, anyhow) with a yard. so now we've got a swingset, tiki torches, a patio, a bbq, and a kick ass garage.....

there IS hope for the radio. at least in the southern california area: 103.1

quite a few good shows coming up: Dropkick Murphys with the Ducky Boys (i didn't even know they got back together) the day before St. Paddy's, The Graveyard Farmers in April as well as the return of Ghoultown, and the Drop Dead deathrock festival is this Sunday so i doubt i'll be able to make it off work. fuck. i just realized that.... oh yeah, the Psychedelic Furs next Friday... and i'm gonna miss London After Midnight again.

]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/1633120/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/1633120/ Mon, 05 Jan 2004 11:43:58 PST i'm waiting to see what happens and what doesn't.
fuck you. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/1423732/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/1423732/ Wed, 19 Nov 2003 14:43:52 PST
jake, if you're out there, email me. otherwise, i guess i'll be forced to call you soon. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/1275491/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/1275491/ Tue, 14 Oct 2003 09:34:41 PDT ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/1219844/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/1219844/ Tue, 30 Sep 2003 08:26:29 PDT
so i got hired on at Costco the same week i got hired on for temporary help at the Halloween outlet. i've yet to hear about the orientation for the bigger of the two warehouses, but the Halloween Club is one of the best jobs i've had to date. from military, telemarketing, fast food, cashier, record store clerk, ice cream freezer labor, licking envelopes... the product is great, the section i work in is better, and the occasional scaring of old folks and little kids makes it all worth while. the pay sucks but so does life... ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/1164488/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/1164488/ Mon, 15 Sep 2003 10:47:19 PDT
i drove up to sacramento friday, for phase 2 of some bullshit with the TSA to try to get on as an airport security screener at either long beach airport or LAX.

Once Upon A Time In Mexico is (obviously) worth the money to see. i can't say it is the best movie of this year because i saw it at a drive-in, so the sound was shitty and the film was dark and not so clear. i would say Freddy Vs. Jason was better but i'd still need another screening for a confirmation. still to go this year: Underworld, Kill Bill, and the Texas Chainsaw remake.

why is it that whenever i dye my hair, the left side never takes completely? i try to wash all the grease out before i dye it but for some reason, that side fucks me. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/1066341/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/1066341/ Thu, 14 Aug 2003 11:09:39 PDT
ebay ran my bills up for a while and still, i can't keep away from there for very long. i've been called a "shopaholic" too, for ebay and amazon and half.com alone. i rarely buy anything in person, and do 99% of my shopping online.

a year or two ago i got into cooking and was hooked. it's faded a little bit since but i still like it.

now, and for the past 3 weeks, i've gotten hooked on poker. not 5 card draw like everyone and their mother knows how to play, but no limit texas hold 'em. the world poker tour on the travel channel and the world series of poker on espn snagged me and put me under its spell. so i've been playing a shitload of online poker at various sites like partypoker.com truepoker.com ultimatebet.com and pokerstars.com i've yet to play real money because a. i don't have any and b. my credit card wouldn't be accepted anyhow and i don't have the patience to pay by check or money order.

i went to ebay and bought a set of poker chips. we played last weekend, 5 of us, and all the guys (no, not my friends, i don't have any--my girlfriend's family) are getting together over here saturday night to play again. we play tournament style because that's what i like and that's what's on t.v. everybody buys in with 10 or 20 bucks and everyone gets the same amount of chips. last man standing wins 50-75% of the money, second place gets the rest.

freddy vs. jason comes out friday. 10 years or so i've been waiting for this movie. i'm fucking thrilled.

one of the costcos is hiring, if i can get on, i will be even more fucking thrilled. my girlfriend's cousin works there so i hope she gets me in.

the dieting has ended. lack of desire or caring as well as a love for food and a hate for the heat has killed the want to lose any more weight. i'm under 5'8" and weigh about 185, which, granted, is better than the 210 i weighed a year or so ago, but not nearly as nice as the 175 i was outta the military or the 149 outta high school. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/951423/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/951423/ Wed, 16 Jul 2003 09:10:35 PDT
i made tacos last night, they were good, but how can you fuck up tacos, right? the night before was incredible with garlic & rosemary stakes with sauted onions and potato-green onion cakes (that i made too few of). the sauce (made from the marinade and pan juices) was easily one of the best flavors for steak i've yet to taste or make... tonight, we're going with chorizo and shrimp quesadillas and a smoky guacamole topping, courtesy of rachel ray. normally, i'm not a fan of mexican food, but this looks too good to pass up.

tomorrow we head to the orange county fair. the little girl gets to ride a few rides, including the ferris wheel and the little carnival-style haunted house rides that i'm hoping they'll have as i haven't been on one of those in a good 15 years. they were always my favorite. alton brown, from the good eats, will be there and hopefully i can get an autographed copy of his book. then we get to see the bangles play (for free) as well. all in all, it oughta be a good night.

i need more work (at least for the next 3 months). get me some web design jobs @ ftwDesigns.com ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/776471/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/776471/ Fri, 30 May 2003 08:13:43 PDT
my daughter will start school when she turns 3, in october. that's when i HAVE to find a real job. hopefully costco will take me on. if not, i'll cross my fingers for the home depot. otherwise, i'm fucked.

i need more work (at least for the next 5 months). get me some web design jobs - [link] ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/609930/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/609930/ Thu, 10 Apr 2003 09:53:44 PDT
the nick cave tickets are in the mail. he's playing the hollyweird palladium in june.

i need more work. get me some web design jobs - [link] ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/606681/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/606681/ Wed, 09 Apr 2003 07:42:06 PDT ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/581770/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/581770/ Mon, 31 Mar 2003 12:11:34 PST
my ISP might've switched my IP address to a generic netzero one, one that was under banning long ago, and that got me banned from submitting and commenting and posting in the forums. the admins said they fixed it and it looks as if my IP is back to what it was though i'm not sure, nor do i care.

no thanks, no sorry, nothing. just take it or leave it. i'm fat. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/557444/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/557444/ Fri, 21 Mar 2003 08:24:11 PST
at first, i thought it was some lame bullshit glitch in the system because i've seen the error message in the past, but this has been ongoing for close to a week now and i'm sick of it.

i noted euphie as well as jark but have heard nothing.

so fuck you, once again...


]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/518655/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/518655/ Fri, 28 Feb 2003 14:00:59 PST February 27, 2003

today i listened to a shitload of Faith No More and some AFI (only the good stuff, not their early crap)

tonight, solitude at the horsetrack. think i'll splurge for the clubhouse so i don't have to be around so many people. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/518392/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/518392/ Fri, 28 Feb 2003 10:41:03 PST February 27, 2003 ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/464988/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/464988/ Tue, 28 Jan 2003 09:05:04 PST ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/427941/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/427941/ Mon, 06 Jan 2003 11:41:21 PST

one classy bitch worth the listen: Devil Doll ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/427915/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/427915/ Mon, 06 Jan 2003 11:20:28 PST ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/405116/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/405116/ Mon, 23 Dec 2002 11:18:09 PST [link]
so that's it, i'm out. enough of the bullshit. closing threads for no reason other than feeling bitchy. shutting down opinions with an iron fist raised high. censorship moving from a seemingly deemed need for quality control on down the pipeline to forming a dictatorship controlling the minds and opinions of its people. disagree with me all you want, spout your shit-stained little mouths off about the need for such rules and enforcement, and bitch right back at me with a mouth full of jizz all the while spitting about how if i don't like it i can leave.
well fuck you. i
'm leaving the forums because i've had enough of the politics and bullshit. no, not because some dumbass posts a workshop to the worst poem i've read all day. no, not because someone has a problem with someone else and flame wars start. no, not because most the threads are stupid and boring as hell. no, not because you love to hate me. and no, not because you hate that you love me, motherfuckers.
because there is a lack of freedom. there is a punishment for free thought. there is a restriction of free speech. threads about people we don't like, shaving genitalia, whatever. anything that isn't directly related to poetry and that doesn't follow these newfound bullshit guidelines that outline your every fucking move. i'm not waging war because i don't really wanna be banned. but i am stating it's bullshit. you know it, i know, we all know it. even the fuckers in charge know it. you know who you are and there sure as fuck ain't just one of you.
i'm the loudmouthed asshole with a bunch of posts and a bunch of pageviews, yeah, and i'm also the motherfucker that made your days just a little less stressful, a little less serious. this was all about fun and games and interaction but now it's becoming some sorta sick and twisted world of politics and rules and anti-user interfacing. with that, i bow out of the poetry forum. i don't know if i'll bother with the rest of the forums, but i suppose that only depends on how bored i get.... since boredom is the main reason anyone participates in these silly threads anyhow.


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I wanna be a fucking prize winning drag queen
With the platform boots and the tombstone looks
I want the whole world to hate me
With the bolts on my neck and the gun in my dress


~the Murderdolls ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/404925/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/404925/ Mon, 23 Dec 2002 08:30:41 PST
I wanna be a fucking prize winning drag queen
With the platform boots and the tombstone looks
I want the whole world to hate me
With the bolts on my neck and the gun in my dress



~the Murderdolls ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/404149/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/404149/ Sun, 22 Dec 2002 19:56:07 PST Frankenstein Drag Queens From Planet 13 , the Murderdolls still rock


I wanna be a fucking prize winning drag queen
With the platform boots and the tombstone looks
I want the whole world to hate me
With the bolts on my neck and the gun in my dress

[pre-chorus]
Tonight I’m the prettiest zombie alive
I’m alive, I’m alive, I’m alive
And I don’t care what it takes I’m gonna win the prize

[chorus]
I’m gonna kill Miss America
Kill Miss America
Kill Miss America
Kill Miss America, yeah, yeah, yeah

I want you to spit when you see me
And if you don’t I’m gonna spit on you
I love it when they hate me
And when I win I’m gonna rub it in

(pre-chorus, chorus)

I got murder on my mind
Ten seconds til death tonight
Mama’s little baby’s gonna die, die, die
I’ll cut her throat and take what’s mind

[chorus] ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/394273/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/394273/ Mon, 16 Dec 2002 08:53:05 PST
homemade eggnog? you bet your ass. the best shit i've ever tasted and damn near everyone else felt the same, hopped up on brandy, light rum, and butterscotch schnapps.

chicken parmesan came out better than any fucking wop restaurant i've ever set foot in. the pasta didn't taste all that great to me but everything else made up for it.

i am in serious need of a blowjob.

]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/377329/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/377329/ Thu, 05 Dec 2002 14:08:41 PST ..of the year

i don't care what anyone says, i still love christmas. not for religious reasons but for everything else.
this is the only time of the year that i'll bother turning the radio on in my car. normally, there's always something in the cd player, but for one month, i leave it on a station that only plays christmas songs.
the last weekend in november, out come the lights and decorations. there's never enough and money is usually to blame for that but whether tacky or magnificent, all christmas lights look good to me.
the food. well, the food usually sucks. mostly turkey and stuffing, the same fucker that ruined thanksgiving dinner usually does the same to christmas. at least i can cook. my latest passion. still to come are the coconut snowballs, almond apricot biscotti, more horseradish and shallots mashed potatos, and gingerbread snowflakes. tonight, the menu bores me with salmon. there's gonna be a shitload of sangria though.
the television. holy christ, other than october, look out. this is the month of glorious television sitcoms, holiday cartoons, and reruns of the classic christmas movies.
finally, family. i don't hate my family like most people. i don't like them when i'm around them, but i still look forward to the basics. for the past few years, though, i'm spending it with my girlfriend's family. they're ok. half the women i'd fuck, and the other half can watch. i'm always drunk before dinner even rolls around as it is, so they're no problem.
the sickness. we're all sick. me, the kid, the girlfriend. the woman has a cold, i'm not sure about the kid, and here i go with bronchitis again. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/377325/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/377325/ Thu, 05 Dec 2002 14:05:48 PST ..of the year

i don't care what anyone says, i still love christmas. not for religious reasons but for everything else.

this is the only time of the year that i'll bother turning the radio on in my car. normally, there's always something in the cd player, but for one month, i leave it on a station that only plays christmas songs.

the last weekend in november, out come the lights and decorations. there's never enough and money is usually to blame for that but whether tacky or magnificent, all christmas lights look good to me.

the food. well, the food usually sucks. mostly turkey and stuffing, the same fucker that ruined thanksgiving dinner usually does the same to christmas. at least i can cook. my latest passion. still to come are the coconut snowballs, almond apricot biscotti, more horseradish and shallots mashed potatos, and gingerbread snowflakes. tonight, the menu bores me with salmon. there's gonna be a shitload of sangria though.

the television. holy christ, other than october, look out. this is the month of glorious television sitcoms, holiday cartoons, and reruns of the classic christmas movies.

finally, family. i don't hate my family like most people. i don't like them when i'm around them, but i still look forward to the basics. for the past few years, though, i'm spending it with my girlfriend's family. they're ok. half the women i'd fuck, and the other half can watch. i'm always drunk before dinner even rolls around as it is, so they're no problem. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/364450/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/364450/ Wed, 27 Nov 2002 12:10:27 PST [link]

what you call baggage, i call a fucking u-haul:
a daughter
a girlfriend
i drink a lot
i'm still overweight
i don't have a job
i'm divorced
i cuss too much
my left eye twitches ever so slightly once in awhile
i'm lazy
i'm great in bed but get bored with sex
i'm beyond kinky
i'm anti-social
i'm not circumsized
i have commitment issues, but only after i've made a commitment
i've been getting greys for almost 2 years now
i have a double chin, sorta
i have a high forehead
and small hands
and feet
though my cock is average size, phew!
i rarely wash my pants or shorts
i "adjust" myself often
i have several fetishes, pantyhose/nylons being the biggest
i watch way too much television
i have one or two skeletons in the closet
i'm somewhat sexist
i'm sarcastic
a bit of a geek when it comes to technology
i have a female farting phobia
i have a thing for dommes
i love porn
i'm into anal sex
i pluck my eyebrows, at least in the center
i have a stereotypical irish temper
i smoke
i masturbate at least once a day
music and movies are too important to me
i'm extremely eclectic in taste, esp. in music
i play guitar but i'm not that good
i have sensitive skin so i shave every other day or every 3 days, sometimes longer
i have nearly every allergy known to man
i hate cats
i have a bad back
i despise doing dishes
i've cheated on at least 3 girlfriends
i've been cheated on by at least one of them
i've gotten two girls pregnant
i started fucking at age 12
my high school girlfriend committed suicide (years after we were together though)
i've had three step-fathers
my family is short and prone to having white hair
i'm a bad pen pal
i don't call my grandparents enough even though i know i should
my father died of cancer and there's a rough history of heart attacks in my family
maybe i'll think of some more shit later
which reminds me, i have an awful memory as well ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/362905/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/362905/ Tue, 26 Nov 2002 13:48:16 PST
tomorrow, i have to make Buttermilk Corn Bread to use for the Southwest Stuffing w/Corn & Green Chilies... to bring to the Thanksgiving dinner at my girlfriend's family's place...

while visiting my parents this weekend, i'm making the following dinner, for 8:
Corriander & Chile Rubbed Lamb Chops
Horseradish Mashed Potatoes w/Shallots
& a Zucchini, Tomato, & Corn Salad that's pretty good.

cooking is more fun than writing.

and Robert Goulet is one bad motherfucker. right now, he's crooning to "Let It Snow" ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/362569/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/362569/ Tue, 26 Nov 2002 08:23:44 PST which art in heaven
hallowed be thy name
thy kingdom come
thy will be done
on earth
as it is in heaven
give us this day
our daily bread
and forgive us... ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/360985/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/360985/ Mon, 25 Nov 2002 08:41:42 PST ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/353505/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/353505/ Wed, 20 Nov 2002 09:54:30 PST
i know i'm a better writer than 90% of the fuckers out there (on or off devianart, published or not) but i really don't think it matters when it comes to someone else's opinion.

normally, i'm shy and rather insecure about things. but with writing, it was the opposite. i'm over-confident and careless yet i would quit writing for the simplest of reasons.

perhaps i should just be a forum whore since that's what everyone knows i'm good at. but the whole reason that came about was for the attention and the pageviews... which led to prose and poetry views... which led to comments... which was the only reason i stayed here. but considering the effort of pimping and whoring myself to every last asshole i ran into, i've failed considerably. and though failure is nothing new and is easily overcome, it's something you can never really get quite used to. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/352289/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/352289/ Tue, 19 Nov 2002 13:55:48 PST ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/352150/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/352150/ Tue, 19 Nov 2002 12:20:11 PST ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/350889/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/350889/ Mon, 18 Nov 2002 15:12:34 PST 27 deviations.
2440 comments.
2141 posts in the forums.
186 lbs.
25 years old.
68 inches tall.
1 is the loneliest number according to
3 dog night.

i get hung up on the numerical value of things but i hate math. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/345424/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/345424/ Thu, 14 Nov 2002 13:36:04 PST make me deep throat your heels
call me a slut and burn me



just don't make me go back to my life ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/344128/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/344128/ Wed, 13 Nov 2002 15:16:56 PST
tonight i have to be in the marina del ray office at six. the beginnings of a trial basis as a contract freelancer. eventual in-house designer position.

i haven't shaved in over a week. i didn't exercise today. pizza's for dinner. and i spent way too much tim in the forums today. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/326573/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/326573/ Fri, 01 Nov 2002 07:10:04 PST

last week i weighed in at 186.2 lbs. technically, i've lost 20 (maybe 24) in the past six months. i hate not eating since that's a big thing in the life of a recluse, esp. one who enjoys cooking.

last night was ok. it was 10x better than the previous year, as there were at least houses to trick or treat at. then we had to take the kid to some stupid church that was putting on games and a band and petting zoo, etc. i woulda rather trick or treated another 30 minutes or so and called it a night instead but what say do i have? next year, no fucking churches. unless, of course, it's to burn one. ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/325486/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/325486/ Thu, 31 Oct 2002 10:02:36 PST

Fall fires burning neath black twisted boughs
Sacrifice to above
Smoke swirling quickly towards misting clouds
Offering of this blood
Into the flames and without shame
Consumed with howls and screams
Pumpkins grin in their despair on all

Hallow's eve
Hallow's eve

~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/325484/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/325484/ Thu, 31 Oct 2002 10:00:42 PST

Fall fires burning neath black twisted boughs
Sacrifice to above
Smoke swirling quickly towards misting clouds
Offering of this blood
Into the flames and without shame
Consumed with howls and screams
Pumpkins grin in their despair on all

Hallow's eve
Hallow's eve

http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/318007/ Fri, 25 Oct 2002 15:23:20 PDT
still smoking, drinking, cussing, and complaining all the while hopelessly unemployed.

fuck the world that raped me and mugged me of my innocence ... man, those are, like, some really good lyrics, like, oh my god ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/305316/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/305316/ Tue, 15 Oct 2002 10:49:58 PDT and it's so easy when you're evil
this is the life you see
the devil tips his hat to me
i do it all because i'm evil
and i do it all for free
your tears are all the pay i'll ever need

- Voltaire ]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/303988/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/303988/ Mon, 14 Oct 2002 10:09:05 PDT just look around
a thousand years to build
now it's comin' down

If this were a movie plot
I wouldn't believe it
If this were a movie
I could get up and leave it

If this were a movie
I'd say, "The acting's pretty bad.
Everyone's stiff,
dialogue so sad."

If this were a movie plot
I wouldn't believe it
If this were a movie
I could get up and leave it

IF by Coyote Shivers
]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/292867/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/292867/ Fri, 04 Oct 2002 14:45:33 PDT
thanks to sceptical, who's just some prick in love with hating me.
you can continue getting your glib praise from you equally poor friends, i'll just smile when ever i'll see your new name, and laughwhen i see you gloat.

so what's the point? good job, lacky, thanks for helping me realize that a different name doesn't change anything. i'm still me.

now fuck off.
]]> ~chesterfield http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/251698/ http://chesterfield.deviantart.com/journal/251698/ Thu, 29 Aug 2002 14:20:14 PDT ~chesterfield