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Just added my latest photoshoot of my best friend's wedding. I think they turned out quite nicely! Really pissed me off that my camera's settings were incorrect, it put the date on the bottom corner of all my shots. I had to manually go in and try to photoshop the date out of the pictures.

I'm still in Windsor, not going to Japan after all, no monies. BUT... I'm in school, doing my personal support worker certificate. Might go into photojournalism next year, or directly into pre-med. In the end, I hope to be a travelling photojournalist doctor without borders! Kinda sounds hoaky, but that's what I want to do with my life. I HAVE to travel!

So feel free to comment on my new photos, whilst I search for new meaning in my life.
~Jared

]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/12813720/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/12813720/ Wed, 02 May 2007 09:18:43 PDT
After a really long haitus, I decided to pick up my deviantART account and start drawing again. Now that I finished school, I have too much time on my hands, and you know what they say about idle hands. Of course, I said the same thing back in June, 2005 and I never posted anything again. Well, hopefully this time I will actually stick around.

All my art on here is so old now. Just about everything is over 2 years old at least, with the exception of the most recent deviation, a rough draft of a drawing I started last night. So sad... with university, all my creative energy had been sucked right out of me. Hadn't even picked up the camera. But I've decided, I'm going to get a job, buy a subscription to dA when I can afford it, and I'm gonna start pumping out art again!

It helps that I'm not going back to school in September. Oh yea! Guys, I'm moving back to Japan in July. So look for more Japanese art/photography in the future! I'll be teaching English this time around, should be interesting. Maybe I can go to another devMEET in Japan and meet Jark again! I wonder if he would even remember me...

Well, feel free to message me if you miss me guys. I might actually reply this time Oh, and I REALLY need to update my stock account. The hair has been blonde for awhile now

Love,
--chonbi

]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/5634441/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/5634441/ Mon, 13 Jun 2005 08:10:43 PDT Mood: Go ME!
Listening to: Satisfaction (homo, I know)
Reading: Big Fish
Watching: Mr. and Mrs. Smith

Clean up, clean up, everybody do your share~!

Hello, everybo-day!! Chonbi is BACK!

I have a LAPTOP! BAAAAAHahahaha...

So my subscription will finally be worthwhile. I have just spent a few days deleting all 2,576 messages!!! WOW! Sugoi or something like that.

Japan. Japan. Japan. It's been nearly a year. As they say, you can take me outta Japan, but you can't take the Japan outta me. I'm planning to return next spring.

I have SOOOO much awesome work to upload. I will try to get some of it to you. I've been displayed in quite a few art shows in my city lately, so I'm really excited. I just won 2nd at an art exhibit at the University of Windsor over the weekend. Cool, huh? I won a year's subscription to [link] and many other goodies.

Don't know what I'm forgetting, but you guys will see plenty of me from now on!

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MY STOCK ACCOUNT:



My e-Business website, Covert Creations:

[link] ]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/3111767/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/3111767/ Thu, 12 Aug 2004 21:47:46 PDT Woa, you guys MUST go to devMEET sometime.

If you need to contact me in the next couple weeks, try my Gmail chonbi@gmail.com

Mood: I wanna go back...
Listening to: Placebo - English Summer Rain
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Farenheit 9/11

Deviant *chonbi has 919 new messages ( 2H | 13M | 40C | 822D | 29J | 10P | 3N )

Teehee. I'm so overwhelmed that it's funny.

Still no internet. Still no job. Moving into a new place. Woohoo!

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]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2921808/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2921808/ Mon, 19 Jul 2004 20:26:03 PDT Woa, you guys MUST go to devMEET sometime.

If you need to contact me in the next couple weeks, try my Gmail chonbi@gmail.com

Mood: I wanna go back...
Listening to: Placebo - English Summer Rain
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Farenheit 9/11

I'm home. Reverse culture shock. Struggling to find a job. No internet access. Sorry to everyone for that.



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]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2745845/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2745845/ Sun, 27 Jun 2004 07:45:28 PDT Woa, you guys MUST go to devMEET sometime.

If you need to contact me in the next couple weeks, try my cellphone at chonbi@ezweb.ne.jp or my Gmail chonbi@gmail.com

Mood: I wanna go home...
Listening to: Placebo - English Summer Rain
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Silent Hill 4 Trailer

Gmail... gmail... someone just sent me an invite!! I am so happy!!!! This is so new to me...

If anyone else has Gmail, let me know!

My new Gmail address is, naturally, chonbi@gmail.com

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]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2739531/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2739531/ Sat, 26 Jun 2004 08:06:25 PDT Woa, you guys MUST go to devMEET sometime.

If you need to contact me in the next couple weeks, try my cellphone at chonbi@ezweb.ne.jp or my hotmail at gintala@hotmail.com

Mood: I wanna go home...
Listening to: Placebo - English Summer Rain
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Silent Hill 4 Trailer

My Dad comes to Japan tomorrow. After that, I doubt I will get much dA access until I get home.

Going back to Canada!! YAAAY! I want to go home, but I want to stay. I will land in Toronto on July 6th.

In the meantime, this gmail thing... I have heard lots of good things about it. And that it's by invite-only. I would love to test this thing out, but nobody will send me an invite Nobody likes me...

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]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2702982/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2702982/ Sun, 20 Jun 2004 09:45:49 PDT Woa, you guys MUST go to devMEET sometime.

Mood: Wha-whaa....
Listening to: Placebo - English Summer Rain
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Silent Hill 4 Trailer

Please read [link]

Do it now. Read it all. Only takes a small part of your day. You will be smarter and more aware of the condition taking over your entertainment.

The Discrace that is Ruling our Media.

Deviants whom I look up to and praise for their endless support and talents:



My ever-growing list of clubs to which I belong:

and OMG u guyz tRent is GOd!!!!11one

My Pencil-medium club, for pencil/charcoal/etc.-based drawing!:



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MY SISTER!!! Visit her and comment, dammit! Her pixel-art goodness!

]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2625682/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2625682/ Thu, 10 Jun 2004 01:00:30 PDT Woa, you guys MUST go to devMEET sometime.

Mood: Wha-whaa....
Listening to: Placebo - English Summer Rain
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Silent Hill 4 Trailer








YAY for my... yes, MY! My precioussss... my emote! Just type : sumo : without the spaces!

My daddy is coming to Japan to see me. Isn't that cool!!! Yay. And when I get back to Canada, I'm taking a trip to Toronto to meet with *superkev and + suzi9mm. Should be fun!

Ok not much more. I'm a starving artist and I need food. NOW.

BTW, in my opinion my photography is improving, I'm getting more and more favs and devwatches with each submission I make, yet... the comments are getting less and less. ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2601656/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2601656/ Mon, 07 Jun 2004 03:07:43 PDT
Mood: Wha-whaa....
Listening to: Placebo - English Summer Rain
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Silent Hill 4 Trailer

I... I... I...

So much for the end of my subscription. I think most of you thought I was crazy when you read my journal. I can't thank *xam enough for buying me a 3-month subscription! It was so generous of him!!! THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU !!!!!!1111oneone

I feel so full of love... and being loved... today!!

I've never been this happy. On top of that, my entry in $spyed :sumo: emote contest actually won. And I got a [insert huge emphasis here] 1-YEAR SUBSCRIPTION!! No more whining from me for another 1 years and 3 months!!!!!! YAY I LOVE YOU GUYS!!

I promise to be on my best behaviour, $ jark. You guys have been way to nice to me (to all of us here), I wish there was some way to repay you guys!!

*dies in disbelief*

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]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2598230/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2598230/ Sun, 06 Jun 2004 16:29:56 PDT
The credit card I've been using is connected with my father's. He emailed to let me know that it's maxed, and he doesn't have enough money right now to pay for it because he's coming to Japan to visit me. I have no way to buy a new subscription. I wasn't quick enough in the free subscription contest, and I guess my :sumo: emote didn't win that contest, either.

The * has finally become a ~. I am once again known as ~chonbi. This is a terrible, terrible day for me ]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2518135/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2518135/ Thu, 27 May 2004 01:14:39 PDT
Mood: Yay for devMEET!
Listening to: Placebo - English Summer Rain
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Silent Hill 4 Trailer

As I already mentioned, $spyed gave me the inspiration to actually start the ball rolling on all my plans for my business with a woman in California. I cannot - and will not - give you any details, for the sake of my ass.

However, I will tell you, it's gonna be big. My vision is huge. And if I end up a millionaire, I will be kissing the asses of :devdirtycar: and $spyed like you won't believe. *pucker pucker*

As for the website design, I know exactly what I want, but not enough knowledge (or time) yet to do it. So here's a question for anyone and everyone: do you have experience in website design and/or php? I need to do a lot more research on php because that's the only thing I think can pull off my design ideas.

And when my vision turns into reality, ALL of you had BETTER subscribe to my website and gimme your MOOLAH!

Deviants whom I look up to and praise for their endless support and talents:



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]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2496121/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2496121/ Mon, 24 May 2004 08:11:10 PDT
Mood: Yay for devMEET!
Listening to: Placebo - English Summer Rain
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Silent Hill 4 Trailer

At devMEET on Friday, I must have talked to $spyed for a few hours just about business. But talking about it got me so pumped and excited, I couldn't sleep and spent the entire night writing up my business plan

I can't really share anything here, as it is really top secret, but lemme tell you... I'm gonna be an entrepreneur, you bet your ass on it.

Deviants whom I look up to and praise for their endless support and talents:



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]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2482281/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2482281/ Sat, 22 May 2004 08:19:49 PDT
Mood: Yay for devMEET!
Listening to: Placebo - English Summer Rain
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Silent Hill 4 Trailer

devMEET was such a blast! Definitely worth the 2-hour train ride! Check my scrapbook for most of the devMEET pics, some are in my devGallery.

I recommend attending the next devMEET near you.

Deviants whom I look up to and praise for their endless support and talents:



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My Pencil-medium club, for pencil/charcoal/etc.-based drawing!:



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]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2466765/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2466765/ Thu, 20 May 2004 00:04:35 PDT (mix 2 parts lemon juice and 1 part crushed glass into the lubricant)

Mood: Yay for typhoons!
Listening to: Placebo - English Summer Rain
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Silent Hill 4 Trailer

I am definitely planning to show up in Kamakura for deviantART's first ever devMEET in Japan!

If anyone else is going, feel free to note me to exchange contact info in advance, just in case.

I will be taking lots of pics, so be on the lookout. Not sure what they have planned for us, but it ought to be exciting! Definitely something to look forward to after this dreadful typhoon passes.

This'll be a nice chance to meet some other deviants from the area. Unfortunately, I'm going home soon - July 6th!! AAH I don't want to leave and at the same time, I do. Goddamn it...

Haven't really been out of the home much lately, so this will be a nice break. I need a break. Then Sunday I'll be headed for Kyoto and Osaka, so it's a very nice break for me, for sure. Lots of pictures to be taken... might need extra batteries for my digicam.

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http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2447037/ Mon, 17 May 2004 09:51:47 PDT (mix 2 parts lemon juice and 1 part crushed glass into the lubricant)

Mood: Self-Rehab
Listening to: Nine Inch Nails - Somewhat Damaged
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Silent Hill 4 Trailer

Not much new, except...

I SUBMITTED MY FIRST POEM!!

Naturally, it's about Ryan. Who else?

Thanks to for the inspiration. Brian look-alike, your pieces are absolutely breathtaking! Thanks for the courage to start writing some of my own!!

Added a couple friends. Be sure to check out my *new* stock account, guys!!!

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http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2424849/ Thu, 13 May 2004 23:37:45 PDT (mix 2 parts lemon juice and 1 part crushed glass into the lubricant)

Mood: Self-Rehab
Listening to: Nine Inch Nails - Somewhat Damaged
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Silent Hill 4 Trailer

As you can see, my gallery is being really updated. I added like 40 new photos. My cellphone self-portraits are cluttering my gallery, so I moved them to my new stock account, here... chonbi-stock

Feel free to use any of my stock photos. My face is available and free to be butchered and ravaged!

I also moved a lot of work to my scrapbook. Didn't want to delete them completely, but I'm trying to clean up my gallery.

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http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2410693/ Tue, 11 May 2004 23:50:25 PDT (mix 2 parts lemon juice and 1 part crushed glass into the lubricant)

Mood: Self-Rehab
Listening to: Nine Inch Nails - Somewhat Damaged
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Silent Hill 4 Trailer

PS2: Gakuen Heaven - Boy's Love Scramble (yay!)

I think it's time for an update to these events.

For those of you who have read and commented on my previous journal entry [link] thanks so much for all the support. I'm sorry I didn't reply to everyone's comments, but I really appreciate everyone's words!

Yoshi is living with my friend Natsumi for the moment. His father and grandmother will be supporting him financially while he looks for a new place of his own. He's staying in school, and I believe he's also holding on to his job as well.

We've become best friends. That was more than I was hoping for. I'm extremely grateful that I can still be there to support him through all this. I know he really needs it.

My post-apocolyptic emotional neuro-transmitters are in the process of regrouping now. OK maybe that's exaggerating a little... but geez, this situation is some heavy shit. I'm feeling so relieved that it's starting to lift.

Trying to get my photography from the year in Japan scanned and uploaded. This has been quite tasky, as they were taken with my Minolta and not my Finepix digicam. It was hard to find someone with a scanner for some reason. Anyway, one of these days, you will suddenly see your message counter increase by like 50 as I have the WHOLE YEAR's worth of photography to upload. Imagine going through the deviantArt submission steps 50 times... I'm going to be SO tired and annoyed by the end. I'm also going to recatagorize many of my works into my scrapbook to filter out the so-so work and make room for only the best. I will also be opening a new stock account (for most of my self-portraits, for all of you to butcher and ravage my image to your hearts desire) so keep a look out for that.

Things are looking up! YAAAY! :dances: Unfortuanately, Bush is still pissing me off. One day, I'm going to head right into his bedroom while he and his bitch wife are sleeping and 'express' the right to bear arms, lol. That's a JOKE, just in case anyone was thinking about giving Bushy a call and making me disappear. That Patriot Act is pretty damn scary, by the way.

Oh and one last thing: in case some people are getting the wrong idea, I'm NOT flirting with you. I never was, and I'm going to make sure that nobody ever gets that idea in there head from now on. Oh yes, yes yes yes, when I'm annoyed by you pesky humans, I will unleash my wrath!!

*wrath*

See, there it is! Wrath!

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http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2390355/ Sun, 09 May 2004 06:58:47 PDT Shouldn't Americans be allowed to love? Support Canada's neighbour, and the oppressed people who deserve marriage:
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Mood: Braind-fry
Listening to: Nine Inch Nails - Hurt
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Silent Hill 4 Trailer

I broke up with my boyfriend. Stop reading now if you don't want to listen to a depressing story.

If you absolutely hate boy-love drama... don't worry. This isn't drama, it's actually the sad state of society. No theatrics here.

When we began dating, Yoshi revealed to me that when he was a child, his father had beaten and abused him everyday, up to the point that his parents divorced, his mother gained custody and moved to the other side of Japan. I felt like I could really connect with him on this, because my mother and sister abused me often when I was young.

A month after we were dating, he found out that I was talking to my ex-boyfriend behind his back. We had both been insecure and unwilling to take a risk with each other, and on top of that, I was returning to Canada after awhile and I was scared that I wouldn't be able to keep the relationship going after I got back. So I made plans to get back together with my ex-boyfriend in Canada after I got back. Yoshi found out about this and naturally, was incredibly hurt. I felt absolutely terrible... I should have taken a risk to be with him, and I know I could have been happy. We remained together, he was still hurt for a very long time, understandably. For two months, he treated me absolutely terribly. Every time, I forgave him, and was patient and understanding.

I was really trying. Before that, I wasn't trying, but this time I was really trying. He could see it too, but he still treated me terribly. Finally, I told him I can't take it anymore and I can't be patient and forgiving forever. I told him that I wouldn't give him any more chances. A few days later, he did it again. He blew up in my face and ripped me up as usual, being terribly childish and selfish, and verbally abusive. I told him that I wanted to leave him. I wasn't happy with him, at least as not as happy as I could be... I even told him that I had been happier with my ex-boyfriend. He finally understood how terrible I was feeling because of the way he was treating me, and promised to finally stop. He asked me to give him time.

So I gave him time. A week later (today), he makes several obvious lies to me, a story that just doesn't work. He can't even look at me when he explains himself, either. I don't say anything for the moment, waiting until we get to his house so I can gather up my things from his room and leave... I've had enough. Things didn't exactly work out the way I thought, though.

We get to his house, and Yoshi unlocks the door, but can't get in because of the door chain. His mother comes to the door, obviously very upset. His mother asks him where he was yesturday, confirming to me that he had also lied to me where he was yesturday. They argue for almost an hour at the door before his mother finally removes the door chain and opens the door - but she doesn't let me in. The door closes in my face after a 'gomen ne' from his mother.

I wait for another hour on the steps in front of the door, hearing screaming from the inside. Finally, Yoshi comes out of his house with a bag of my things, as well as a suitcase. His face is terribly bruised and bleeding. I stare at him, very shocked for awhile, before turning and jogging quickly down the stairs. I walked quickly almost to the train station before stopping... I realized that I can't just leave like this. I walk back to his house and he is waiting for me.

Yoshi says he wants to talk with me first, he doesn't want it to end like this. He begins to tell me that while we were together, he had been keeping a huge lie from me the whole time.

The scary thing is, I almost knew what it was a week before he actually told me about it, although I had the story a little backwards. It wasn't his father who had been abusing him; it was his mother. I thought that it was possible that he wasn't his father's son, but he actually wasn't his mother's son. His mother never onced loved him, and beat him bloody daily when he was little. Yoshi cried on my shoulder for a long time while my brain remained frozen, completely unable to function. How terrible a person I am, to break up with him on this day. The irony is incredible... my boyfriend lost his family, his... ]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2370119/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2370119/ Thu, 06 May 2004 08:26:47 PDT Shouldn't Americans be allowed to love? Support Canada's neighbour, and the oppressed people who deserve marriage:
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Mood: Braind-fry
Listening to: Nine Inch Nails - Wish
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Silent Hill 4 Trailer

I have nothing to say.

NO WAIT, actually I change my mind!

just made my TOP LIST! That's even higher status than devBitch! Which, by the way, I'd better make that devBitch list soon...

Anyway, I am so amazed by this guys art... like, totally blew me away. I've seen some amazing art on site, but man... this is like, WOA. And not to mention, it's YAOI. I'm in heaven... my top list contains all photographers, so I figure I need an amazing artist on there as well, ne?

Yes, I'm STILL trapped in my relationship. Will I ever be strong enough to pull myself out?

Oh, and one more thing... working on a PENCIL DRAWING! Can you believe it? Something really nice... happens to be a picture of... well, you'll see soon enough.

What happened to my ranting journals that were actually fun to read? Well... when I get my brain back, I'll let you know. Oh, and guess what! I hate Bush even more this week!
v(^.^)v

I also killed my computer. Apparently, it doesn't like to be suddenly, unexpectedly re-partitioned. If you actually know what I'm talking about, you know it's really BAD to suddenly chop your harddrive into two pieces and still expect it to work. *sigh* I was just trying for both Japanese and English OS's on the same computer. And I did a boo-boo.

Maybe I'll upload some more nakie pics for fun and fan-service. Does wonders for the pageviews, I'll tell ya. I should try some more honest work sometime Oh and still working on that... oh wait, scratch that. I BROKE MY COMPUTER! Ha..haha... dammit.

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http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2340533/ Sat, 01 May 2004 21:45:40 PDT Shouldn't Americans be allowed to love? Support Canada's neighbour, and the oppressed people who deserve marriage:
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Mood: YAAAHOOOO!!
Listening to: Sugarplant - Happy Trance
Reading: Ranma (manga)
Watching: Animatrix

Deviant *chonbi | Notes | Journal | Settings | Logout




WOOOOHOOOO!!! See that? See THAT?!?! YES, my life has been cleansed and I feel FREEE!!!

Yes, oh yes, I've done it! I cheated actually. That little 'clear all' button came in real handy. I tried to reply to as many comments as I could, sorry to all those people who I missed! >_< I probably missed a lot of great deviations and journals too. The hot topics can kiss my ass.

As you can see, I'm getting back in gear. Kicking off go-gatsu (May) with a fresh start! Excuse my modestly naked photographs, I couldn't help myself. Expect more.



Much, much more. *evil cackle*

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~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2327244/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2327244/ Thu, 29 Apr 2004 21:26:37 PDT Shouldn't Americans be allowed to love? Support Canada's neighbour, and the oppressed people who deserve marriage:
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Mood: Just... yea.
Listening to: Placebo - Bitter End
Reading: Siddhartha - Herman Hesse
Watching: Dogville

Deviant *chonbi has 1,200 new messages ( 3H | 40M | 75C | 801D | 279J | 2N )

I think I've just hit my limit... don't you think?

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Deviants whom I look up to and praise for their endless suppo... ]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2272025/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2272025/ Wed, 21 Apr 2004 22:40:10 PDT Shouldn't Americans be allowed to love? Support Canada's neighbour, and the oppressed people who deserve marriage:
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Mood: Just... yea.
Listening to: Placebo - Bitter End
Reading: Siddhartha - Herman Hesse
Watching: Dogville

Deviant *chonbi has 978 new messages ( 2H | 26M | 55C | 675D | 218J | 2N )

I'm not even going to say anything... I'm such a loser. I really need a more reliable internet access... *exasperated sigh*

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Deviants whom I look up to and praise for their endless support and talents, the Big4:

... ]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2174125/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2174125/ Wed, 07 Apr 2004 18:53:16 PDT Shouldn't Americans be allowed to love? Support Canada's neighbour, and the oppressed people who deserve marriage:
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Mood: Just... yea.
Listening to: Placebo - Bitter End
Reading: Siddhartha - Herman Hesse
Watching: Dogville

Ok. Ho-hum.

Deviant *chonbi has 671 new messages ( 1H | 18M | 44C | 453D | 153J | 2N )

Yea, I haven't had internet access for 2 weeks. And it looks like I'm going to be VERY busy around here for a little bit. Honestly people, give me a break! lol. Ok here we go...

Oh, and hopefully I can get some deviations up soon. Don't get your hopes up.

EDIT-- I forget to mention the MOST IMPORTANT THING! I just got my tongue, nipple, and cock pierced. NO, I was kidding about the cock. But my tongue and nipple are pierced, maybe I'll do something to show you guys. Maybe. My level of fellatio/cunnilingus talent just went up a notch. I did not just say that.

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http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2038107/ Thu, 18 Mar 2004 16:21:21 PST Shouldn't Americans be allowed to love? Support Canada's neighbour, and the oppressed people who deserve marriage:
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Mood: Mourning
Listening to: Placebo - Bitter End
Reading: Siddhartha - Herman Hesse
Watching: Dogville

Some several days ago, a deviant told me that bisexuals always give the most honest answers.

That was sort of appauling. Flattering, but appauling. Somewhat ironic, as well, because bisexuals are also never taken seriously.

Apparently, there's people who are straight, people who are gay, and people in the grey, sitting on the fence undecided (the bisexuals). Either they're uncomfortable with being either one or the other, or they simply can't decide which they prefer.

It is also said that the majority of bisexual girls actually prefer men over women, and probably aren't really bisexual anyway. On the same note, bisexual men also prefer men over women, and probably aren't really bisexual anyway.

My answer to that: they're not really bisexual.

Before I get flamed by bisexuals, let me mention that I'm labelled one as well. My point is, nobody can be completely straight or gay; otherwise, straight people would be deathly afraid of members of the same sex. But anyway, if you 'prefer' one over the other, 'leaning' you might say, then you're probably either gay or straight. I don't find it unreasonable to consider yourself gay and still consider possibly dating members of the opposite sex.

I guess if anyone who considered both sexes equally would be bisexual. This applies to a very few people though, almost everybody leans. I don't really lean, or prefer, or even give any thought whatsoever about gender. But I don't really like to consider myself bisexual either, because I don't go after genders, I go after personalities, intellect and individualism. If people ever took me seriously in the first place, I would tell them I was neither heterosexual, nor homosexual, nor bisexual. Nor asexual. I would simply say I was 'sexual'. We're all sexual, aren't we? If I love someone, I love them. I could care less what sort of private bits they have, since it's honestly not important. Attraction is about hormones, and if my hormones don't seem to care, than neither do I. What is so hard for people to accept about bisexuals? I mean, bisexuals are even more frowned upon than gay people. They're even frowned upon by gay people.

I don't think people need to suppose things of me either. Just because I'm bisexual doesn't mean I'm rebellious, independent, more masculine than gay but more feminine than straight. Being in Japan, I've discovered straight people have the ability to be stunningly feminine. Just as much, gay people can be so assholishly masculine. Yes, I'm unconditionally and dangerously honest, but it's not because I'm bisexual. I'm not bisexual because I can't decide, or because I want that extra bit of attention. I'm not bisexual to have more dating opportunities either.

One reason why I'm personally not taken seriously is because I haven't dated a girl for 2 years. Ok, so I had a couple of consecutive, long-running relationships with guys. I only 'discovered' my homosexual tendencies two years ago. Heh, that's kind of funny, I met a gay guy for the first time two years ago, when I transferred from a jockey county school to an artsy city school. Figures, huh?

I don't even have a point to this journal entry anymore. What was I trying to get at? I think I already disproved my own arguments. Fuck.

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My devFamily:

http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/2025388/ Tue, 16 Mar 2004 17:31:11 PST Shouldn't Americans be allowed to love? Support Canada's neighbour, and the oppressed people who deserve marriage:
[link]
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Mood: Mourning
Reading: Siddhartha - Herman Hesse

I regret to inform you that although I may still be lurking around, checking my messages and replying, I may not necessarily appear so often for the next week. I will probably post nothing

I received word this morning that a good friend of mine in Canada, who's 17-years-old, just lost her battle with a very rare form of cancer.

I cannot be there for her funeral. I can only visit her grave upon my return. I don't think I'll be up for producing any artwork besides depressing, emotional pieces that I probably don't wish to share with anyone.

I'm sorry.

EDIT - Just thought I'd mention that I'm thinking of creating a stock account. People have been asking to use pictures of me, and frankly I'd rather them use pictures of me that aren't in my main gallery. Plus it would discourage them from stealing without permission So look for a stock account in the future.

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My devFamily:

~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1995053/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1995053/ Thu, 11 Mar 2004 18:28:45 PST Shouldn't Americans be allowed to love? Support Canada's neighbour, and the oppressed people who deserve marriage:
[link]
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Mood: Gaijin-ishness
Reading: Siddhartha - Herman Hesse

Pageviews. I never imagined I would see so many. In just three months, I went from just over 100 to rapidly nearing 3000... that's NOTHING compared to arachnid15's astronomical count, nor do I place any amount of value in pageviews, but it still is surprising. I feel loved.

I've also noticed that I'm making quite a few friends on here. Quite apparent by the length of my devFriends list. All of them deserve to be on there, but I've had to shorten it down to my most closest friends, and have added this list onto my journal entries henceforth.

Great. Something else to make Jared's journals that much longer, just what we need, right??

I hate to push my valued journals off my front page, but if you're still interested, you can find them here:

[link] Letter-to-the-Editor - My friend's insightful response to the ban of gay marriage in America.

[link] On America - My (insightful?) response to the ban of gay marriage, the Patriot act, and so on...

--SUDDEN, UNJUSTIFIED EDIT: Once finished writing this, I realized this entry was too short for my style!! I thought I would follow 's lead and to a little FAQ about me.

1. I am a bisexual. Yes, I DO, in fact, like girls!
2. I think somewhere in my mind, I know I'm intelligent (contrary to popular belief, I'm sure)
3. I think somewhere in my mind, I know I'm good-looking (contrary to popular belief, I would like to believe)
4. I hate writing FAQs about myself because I prefer to be modest. However, by writing this and the comments above I'm just proving myself wrong!! >_<
5a. I have a talent for reading people. I like open-book people because I don't have to try hard ;
5b. Therefore, people don't get away with playing mind-games with me, and I crucify them in the end. Sometimes disembowelment works too.
6. I'm finding that this FAQ is turning very unpleasant. Let's brighten things up, shall we? I like strawberries!
7. I play soccer. I am a soccer referee. I am an Urawa Reds supporter. That's about the only team sport I get into though.
8. Yes, I really do live in Japan. Yes, people ask me that.
9. I have an interest in martial arts. I have studied Tae Kwon Do, Aikido, Judo and Wing Chun Kung Fu.
10. My hobbies are art, photography, and film, obviously.
11. I hate Bush.
12. I am Canadian.
13. I speak English, Japanese and French.
14. I am in love with online Play-By-Post roleplaying. It keeps me sane.
15. I am fluent in Engrish.
16. I am opinionated. Beware, my opinions!!
17. Generally, I don't like gay people. And you can't say I'm descriminating I just don't like the "scene".
18. Although I'm proud of my own fashion, I can't tell the difference between a bag and a purse. Don't bother me with questions about Louis Vitton.
19. I will become a filmmaker.
20. I am ambitious!
21. I hate emoticons. They have no legs, I feel sad for them.
22. I hate Bush.
23. The Patriot Act is scary. So is soylent gre... ]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1953304/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1953304/ Wed, 10 Mar 2004 16:30:35 PST Mood: High on Om
Reading: Siddhartha - Herman Hesse

Those of you whom have already read this, or are reading it for the first time, and agree with me, PLEASE take a quick second to sign this petition: [link]

I'm in one of my 'The World Is So Pitiful' moods again. Being in Japan does that to me; in Canada, it's not nearly as apparent as in Japan, what sort of affect America has on the rest of the world. Rather then the helpful Big Brother America attempts to convince Canada it is, I can see clearly now that America is more of a bully, or tyrant if you want a better term.

Before I start ranting, I want everyone to know I do not hate Americans. I do, however, hate the stereotypical (from a non-American point of view, that is) American attitude. This usually is a biased stereotype of Americans, I would hope, and usually only applies to republicans.

That's not to say that democrats are any more helpful. Neither reps nor 'crats seem to be helping the world any, nor their own citizens. Unfortunately, it is impossible for the struggling minor political parties to say, "Hey you guys, there are other parties too!"

Even if Green did become seen, it wouldn't matter. Americans have the right to vote, yet it gives them absolutely no power over anything. The American voting system is a joke. I can't believe, as self-proud as they are, that Americans still haven't overthrown and reconstructed their voting system to give citizens real input in government decisions. When Canada was formed, there was a justified reason why Sir Johnny created a unique government system (though based somewhat off the British government) that was, in nearly every aspect, completely opposite from the American system. We shake our head at the American leaders' tyranny over the American people, and wonder why Americans still haven't realised the problem, or done anything about it.

Many of you reading this now have probably read and commented on my previous journal entry, Letter-to-the-Editor. My friend's letter was of great importance to me, because, as an American, he voiced very strong opinions questioning his country's leadership. The most prominent problem with American's leadership is that they fail to realise, or simply respect, the prospect of seperation of Church from State. Although my personal religion and spirituality does not extend beyond simply learning the key lessons from the teachings of many of the world's most enlightened leaders, including the Buddha, Jesus, Ghandi, Mother Theresa, Churchill and the Pope in my quest of self-discovery, I have no doubt in my mind that the Bush company has monopolised on Christian views in the way he conducts business. There is hardly a seperation of Church from State in anything Bush has done. He is entirely close-minded and self-righteous, ambition is his only strong point yet it is also a crutch.

Bush has degraded not only the world, but his own people. In essence, he has taken the position of shepard of a flock, training them to blindly follow his lead with his sheepdog henchmen at his side. The best example of this is the Japanese Prime Minister; the leader of Japan does nothing for his people unless Bush instructs or gives him the go-ahead. Many Japanese are enraged by this. That's not to mention that 70% of the island of Okinawa is occupied by American Air Force bases and testing fields, right in their backyards.

A seperation of Church from State. Bush's quest of Infinite Justice can be justified in many ways, I'm sure. It will save millions of lives in the future? Possibly. It will bring freedom and liberty to a starving nation? Doubtful. What, liberty is living bitterly under an American flag, among American soldiers with American rifles?

One might say that the end justifies the means. Bush himself constantly repeats the word 'Evil' to justify his actions. That he is not fighting against human beings, but 'Evil' itself. It has been said that you can kill evildoers, but evil never dies. In effect, Bush is waging a holy war. He is run by his Ego and his Pride, fully biased by his own personal beliefs. That's seperation of Church from State for ya.

Bush is an effective leader. He knows what he's doing; he had a clever father for a teacher. There's no doubt that he knows politics, and he does them well. Then again, you can say exactly the same thing about Hitler. I'm not saying Bush is a Nazi; in fact, he's much closer to a communist, as much as... ]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1902540/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1902540/ Wed, 10 Mar 2004 16:30:53 PST Mood: High on Om
Reading: Siddhartha - Herman Hesse

Those of you whom have already read this, or are reading it for the first time, and agree with me, PLEASE take a quick second to sign this petition: [link]

The following letter was originally written by Alan Ilagan:

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It is with great reluctance that I write this letter. I am not really an activist, I pay little heed to the political climate, and I generally go about my life in as quiet and unassuming way as I can. Even as a gay man, the subject of marriage rights for gays and lesbians did little to register my interest, especially since I never even wanted to get married. But since seeing our President make motions to change the constitution to ban gay marriage, I can not remain silent. People like me are exactly what is keeping gay marriage from happening Epeople who believe in it but are not willing to stand up and fight for it. In our apathy there is acquiescence; by allowing such injustice, we are condoning it. In that silence there is far greater danger than in any public disagreement or political grand-standing. When people are contemplating amending the constitution to deny the rights of one segment of the population, something is definitely wrong, and it is at this time that I must speak out.

My partner Andy and I have been together since the summer of 2000. He is a retired police officer, having served his country for over nine years before getting injured on duty. Andy sends me off to work everyday with a homemade lunch, does our laundry, cooks dinner and organizes our finances. Together we own a home, we share a life, we have everything but a marriage certificate. We pay our taxes and our mortgage, we mow our lawn and we are bound by the same laws and regulations that govern any other citizen, yet we are forbidden to marry because we are of the same gender.

Our nation’s constitution has stated that we are all created equal, that one person is as valid as another Eso how can we deny one person the right to marry another, man or woman? I am not asking to marry more than one person, I am not asking to marry a child, I am not asking to marry an animal, and it’s disgusting that I even have to defend such charges.

Marriage used to be a celebration of love ~ a bond honoring the life-long commitment of two people. Why should I be hated for my love? Why should Andy and I be banned from celebrating our love and our life together? In a country that honors freedom, how can we be denied the freedom to love and cherish another person, simply because we’re of the same gender? I do not speak up now as a gay man wanting to get married. I speak up as an American outraged at the segregation and inequality that has been created by refusing a certain group of people the right to marry.

How would my marrying a man denigrate or even affect anyone else’s marriage, or the institution itself? Would people be less faithful if I got married? Would other marriages be tainted or corroded by mine in any way? It seems that divorce and separation are more damaging to the institution of marriage than two gay people making a lifetime commitment to one another. Quickie Las Vegas weddings and reality television shows bargaining off brides and grooms for money are doing more to destroy the institution of marriage than anything I could ever accomplish. If people truly care about preserving the sanctity of marriage, let us ensure that those who get married truly love one another, and care enough to fight for that right.

The opponents of marriage for gays and lesbians seem to be missing the point. This is not about preserving the sanctity of marriage. It is simple hatred ~ homophobic prejudice aimed at an innocent group who only wants to love and celebrate that love like every other person can. What they are really trying to stop is two women from loving each other or two men sharing a life together. But that has already happened, and it’s going to continue to happen. Love cannot be contained or bound by a piece of paper or a legal proclamation.

Some of you will likely disagree with my opinion. You may think I am asking for special rights or promoting a “homosexual agenda.EYou might claim religious points and wield a strict adherence to a rigid reading of the Bible. If there are enough of you then you will probably continue to deny me and other gay men and women the basic American rights to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. But you will never be able to take a... ]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1799487/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1799487/ Thu, 05 Feb 2004 16:16:01 PST
*dance dance*

I love Ryan. Why can't he be here?! (T-T);; *sob sob*



Ok, that's all I had to say. Down with Capitalism!! WOoHoO!!!!11one

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I am a member of:



My Pencil-medium club, for pencil-based drawing!:

]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1794601/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1794601/ Wed, 04 Feb 2004 17:32:33 PST
What a perfect tragedy it is. I laugh, because it could have been worse but it ought to have been better. If you have a weak stomach or dislike to hear about the pain of others, stop reading now. But I promise you one thing, I will not whine and bitch like everyone else does. No, my suffering is poetic meat for you blood-want pirhanas to devour and digest, regurgitating the bones.

I realize, finally, how horribly naive I am. I can look down from the edge of the frying pan into the flames, and think 'Well that doesn't look so bad.' I am balancing on fishing wire. I can get sent home in an instant and yet it doesn't stop me from embarrassing myself. How long until I really realise I still have to fucking grow up?

I've known Yoshi for awhile, but not until Monday did I really start talking to him. I had been bitter before, and perhaps I turned away his small-talk conversations in the past like the asshole that I must be. But the chance, given Monday and Tuesday off school, I was able to get to know this prized fellow; he is strikingly similar to me in personality and past experiences, however Japanese he is. I talked to him the whole day, even on the phone for two hours as well, musing about our similarities and growing more and more interested, because for once I met a Japanese boy the same age, whom lives nearby, and does not obsess about sex! I do not want to be used any longer! The conversation began to lean towards flirting, not in a sexual manner, but in a playful one. The following day would be spent entirely together, shopping, karaoke, purikura, the works; finishing at his house where we sit quietly on his bed like stone statues too nervous to speak or move.

Until, of course, I force myself to relax and test the waters with a lean on, then an arm around, a cheek peck, and eventually a sensual kiss. Shame on me. No, of course we didn't do anything but kiss, but the day seemed so perfect. I went home a tad late, but my host parents had seemed forgiving.

Wednesday, however, had not been so forgiving. I left school at noon because I was eager to see Yoshi again. However happy I was with him, though, the thought of Ryan (yes, you people, << snip>>'s real name is Ryan) kept creeping into my brain. I had told him about Yoshi, of course, and Ryan gave me his usual 'good job'. But I know it hurts him, and in reality it hurts me too. Why do I hurt myself in this way? More importantly, why must I force pain onto the one I love?

The day seemed just as perfect as the day before. We spent several hours simply holding each other, talking about nothing too special. I told him I planned to arrive back home before 10 o' clock, which I was planning to firmly follow through with. But remember, I'm thoughtless, and it did not work out that way. Yoshi had presented me a 40 of really expensive scotch, imported from Holland, telling me that nobody in his family really drinks whisky, so I was free to have some. I was honoured and grateful, although I only had a remaining margin of three hours.

It just got messy from then, and I can't tell you I remembered it all so clearly. He gave me a small amount in a mug, I smiled, then he continued to pour, filling the entire mug. Then I was a little nervous, not quite sure what sort of state this much alcohol would put me in. Normally, I think I would be ok, had I not hastily consumed half the bottle of scotch within an hour. Yoshi drank a couple sips and was further into outer space than I was. I am strong with alcohol, but I think my stomach wasn't so happy that I drank so fast. It quickly reminded me of that.

My host mother called me, demanding where I was. Apparently, by now I should have been home, but I was completely unaware of that. My 'mother' was literally screaming at me, saying Yoshi is not high school student and I'm not really at his house, that I have to return home promptly. I agreed, and then she scolded me for speaking English to her! She threatened to send me back to Canada, my absolute worst fear -- a terrible reality though, as it can happen at any given mistake. By this time, I was confused and stressed, and just wanted to lay down with Yoshi and forget everything.

Sitting up suddenly, my eyes unfocused, I began to float... thinking, my stomach feels kinda... kinda... kinda weird. Just a little weird. But staring into the open bottle of whisky, feeling the burning taste on my tongue and in my breath, smelling it as if it's aroma had suddenly devoured my senses. My stomach was very uncooperative.

Stumbling down my new boyfriend's hallway, trying to remember which door he said was the toilet, my hand p... ]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1752477/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1752477/ Tue, 27 Jan 2004 18:23:34 PST
Look what the world dragged in. Another load of fucking bullshit for me. Well, no, actually nothing spectacular happened.

But that's the problem. Nothing's happening. It's the same methodical routine day after day. I'm in Japan, for chrissake, and I'm fucking bored of this life! Not to mention I'm broke, I owe Rotary 40000 yen, I need to buy a playstation, an MD player... ok, I don't NEED to, but I was supposed to buy them a long time ago. I sacrificed them for my Wacom tablet instead.

OH, yes, then I drop my laptop. It falls from the table and lands on the floor, and the external floppy port gets all funked up. The drive has power, but now it's not recognizing the floppies. Meaning, I'm going to have a really shitty time trying to transfer art from my floppy onto this website. This SUCKS.

I need money to go drinking. I'm not relying on alcohol, it's just that I have nothing better to do, and well... it's fun to go out with friends. But it requires money... a lot of it, actually, because this is Japan, meaning really weak alcohol, so I need to buy a lot of drinks if I plan on feeling anything. The Japanese get drunk off two beers that are almost transparent coloured. I'm used to Canadian beer. I want Canadian beer. I've discovered the wonderful invention of cocktails - really tasty, but I wouldn't want to drink too many. I prefer just whisky. Nothing else. But my friends always want to go to a nice restaurant to drink, where the whisky comes in a small portion with a gigantic ice cube. What's the point of that?!

Anyway, I@will hopefully be able to start with my 'Think of the Kittens' series soon, so be on the lookout for that. I'm also painting someone's yaoi drawing, and I'm also thinking of starting some drawings based on the characters from my espionage-themed roleplaying game. Other than that, *sigh* it's the same old routine, over and over. Every day, I just miss <> more and more, and I just want to go home sometimes! But at the same time I don't want to ever leave... I'm so torn. I'm so pathetic. Feel sorry for me, you worthless impy troglodytic minions!! Feed my bemoaning!!!

My Clubs:

]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1732676/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1732676/ Sat, 24 Jan 2004 08:06:39 PST Mood: Mood my ass
Listening to: Nine Inch Nails "My Ass"
Reading: My Ass for Dummies
Watching: Bel Ami (teehee)

Ok, I figure I should write one of these things because I have nothing better to do.

I still miss <>. Are you surprised? I never seem to stop talking about him He dyed his hair blue-black and now he looks uber-hot!!! And he got new ear piercings, the lucky bastard. But I still own more leather than he does I will ALWAYS beat him (pun intended) in that department!!

Ehem, anyway, I just discovered (he discovered me first, actually )and I fell in love with him! ...well, his work at least. Awesome yaoi, you better go check him out. He needs pageviews, PAGEVIEWS!! I think he deserves more comments!!


Japan is as cool as ever, naturally. My host family sucks, as usual. I still am unable to get a girlfriend, although the Finnish girl is breaking up with her boyfriend, so I might have a chance. She's the one I've been trying to date since I got here... she's sooooo beautiful >_<

Um, I'd also like to add that you all have a month to buy and send me something for my birthday!! My birthday is Valentine's Day, don't forget!!

Ok that's all for now, I'm spent. Time to conniseur some pr0n. God I can't spell.

I am a member of and and and ]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1699181/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1699181/ Sun, 18 Jan 2004 05:49:44 PST
Mood: Deep longing
Listening to: Nine Inch Nails "The Wretched"
Reading: The Chrysanthemum and the Sword
Watching: Battle Royale II

This was not my idea, just a waste of my time. SO waste your own time too, and try it for yourself... it's fun!

!!! INSTRUCTIONS: !!!
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Anything you don't bold is false.

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01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions.
02. don't watch much TV these days.
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I have loads of books.
06. I once slept in a toilet.
07. I love playing video games.
08. I adore marijuana.
09. I watch porn movies.
10. I watch them with my father.
11. I like sharks.
12. I love spiders. I think they're adorable, especially the ones with bright colours on their backs.
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair.
14. I like George Bush.
15. People are cool.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche.
18. I have a lot to learn.
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself.
20. I'm really really smart.
21. I've never broken someone's bones.
22. I have a secret.
23. I hate snow.
24. I drink only milk.
25. Punk rock rules.
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food.
28. I would hate to be famous.
29. I am not a morning person.
30. I wear glasses.
31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses.
32. I have potential.
33. I'm pure Japanese.
34. My legs are two different sizes.
35. I have a twin.
36. I wear a padded bra.
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing.
38. I'm left-handed.
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them.
40. I don't like horror movies.
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway.
42. People hate me usually.
43. I love pop music.
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight.
45. I hate parking fines.
46. I know the National Anthem of my country by heart. (But don't take it wrong, I'm not patriotic or anything, it's just short and easy to remember)
47. I know more than two languages.
48. I spend too much time on my computer.
49. I often want to throw out the computer in a window.
50. I live on a ground floor.
51. I don't like chocolate.
52. I'd like to be more original.
53. I've lied.
54. Cocks are my favorite birds.
55. I want to conquer the world.
56. I wonder what happens when you die.
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter.
58. Eat your dog!
59. I love to exercise.
60. I hate chemistry with a passion.
61. I love to write.
62. I like changes.
63. I hate going to class.
64. I am afraid to die.
65. I hate dish washing.
66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly.
67. My nails are nine inch long.
68. My favorite color is black.
69. I like to sleep on the floor.
70. I am hopeless at cooking.
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little.
72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this.
73. I am online a lot, but not on MSN.
74. I hate government.
75. I don't have a boyfriend. (Nor a girlfriend)
76. I'm too nice for my own good.
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can.
78. I don't trust newspapers.
79. I like debating.
80. I live in a lagoon.
81. I clean my room once a month.
82. I'm scared of american fast food.
83. I am prying open my third eye.
84. I love Mozambique.
85. I don't trust any religion.
86. I used to play with barbies because all the other girls were doing it.
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little.
88. I like listening to wind chimes.
89. I'm very disorganized.
90. My hair is long and straight.
91. I earn a lot.
92. I don't like spicy food.
93. I keep a diary.
94. I can't do cartwheels.
95. I am very lazy.
96. I'm sarcastic.
97. I think my hair is annoying.
98. I'm very sensitive.
99. I love being "ab-normal".
100. My left eye is violet and my right eye is a light blue.

I am a member of ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1675200/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1675200/ Tue, 13 Jan 2004 16:49:51 PST Mood: Deep longing
Listening to: Nine Inch Nails "Hurt"
Reading: The Chrysanthemum and the Sword
Watching: Last Samurai

One day, I was missing the person around whom my entire life revolves; the one whom I am in deep love with. This person is on the other side of the world, and I had wrote this person the following letter one day. I have removed this person's name for their privacy's sake, and replaced it with << snip>>:

I have a friend from New York whom I've known for over a year. He's a writer, and lately I've been reading his online works. They're very interesting, mostly (if not entirely) about his own life. What a life he has, too; it makes me feel better about my own, lol.

He mentioned that he has a tendancy to fall in love with everybody. I can honestly say that, putting my doomed Japanese relationships aside, I am also guilty of the same tendancy. Believe it or not, everyone in Canada I've ever
dated (however seldom a new face came along), I've fallen in "love" with.

However, what I feel when I'm with (or without) you goes beyond love. What doth lie beyond love cannot be concretely explained, though that's half the beauty of it. I am not just in love with you; I can feel your warmth around me, flowing through me like the air I breathe and it causes my heart to leap from it's resting place. The longing I feel for you pull's my blood through my veins, keeping me alive, knowing that one day I will be returned to you.

A phantom touch whilst fantasizing about your presence alarms me to the possibility, jarring me awake, but these are mere memories which vanish like fair sand sinking through my fingers. My dreams are my dreams, fueling not
chance but instead my hunger for you. Only in my subconscious can there remain those precious moments, of your soft and smooth warmth, of our playful nips and
caresses, of our synchronized rhythmic intimacies, when we penatrate each other, moving together in joined ecstacy with pale blue moonlight shining in your beautiful brown eyes.

It is in that moment of losing one's self and gaining another that I wish to meld our spirits and become limb-entwined forever. These fashions play out beneath wobbling lids of eyes crying out to once again fall upon the craved
image of the One, which will one day be granted. My mind wishes only for patience; it might be a whole lifetime longer than a broken fraction of one's time alone to look forward to in the seemingly distant future, but for a lifetime of bliss, it is worth it.

I truly love you, <>, and love is just the beginning of it all!! You are my soulmate, I would die for you. I never want my dreams of you to end, only manifest into reality! Visit me in my dreams, I never want to seperate our bodies from their passionate love-making!

I love you, <>, forever and always.
Love, Jared

I am a member of and and ]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1513134/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1513134/ Tue, 16 Dec 2003 18:32:06 PST
Every day, I bear the staring, the giggling, the shocked looks, and I know what they see. I do not belong, of course. But that is not the worst of my troubles.

I am trapped inside this Jar, my wings are torn, I cannot fly. I touch the delicate, transluscent skin protruding from my back, the mother-of-pearl shimmer is gone, and I am stained with dust. The dust is heavy, it weighs me down, and I am losing strength.

The world looks apon me as a different, but I am even moreso than they will know. It haunts my dreams, the fact that I am exposed yet hiding something. I can be picked out from the crowd; my bobbing head among a sea of blackness, in the midst of the rush of ants physically plowing there way to the escalator to just stand there; for there won't be another train for another 4 and a half minutes. Naked, white, blonde, tall, I am vulnerable. They have no idea.

This is a land of contrast. So open, yet so unbelieveably closed. I don't dare reveal myself for fear of being socially exiled. I will be left alone in peace, yet the peace would be too much. So much that it would be lonely. No violence would be thrown onto me, merely a horrible impression, that associating with me is undesireable, and I would be avoided.

I do not wish to expose the truth. I could not bare to be shunned, to have to abstain from social relations. I will live as a broken angel inside this Jar, from which I cannot breath and I cannot see the light of the sun. My skin grows paler by the hour and I am dying.

I am a member of and ]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1456320/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1456320/ Wed, 26 Nov 2003 22:17:38 PST
[link]

We live happily in a dark realm of... darkness. Pretty nice. ]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1415316/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1415316/ Mon, 17 Nov 2003 17:17:12 PST
It's a comic based on the pbp-roleplaying game that I run, at [link]. It's of a spy/espionage anti-government underground organization, the style is probably comparable to comics such as Dangergirl, Hangwire, possibly even The ClanDestine.

Not that you have anything to worry about *now*, mind you... who knows when such work will decide to show it's face up here. ]]> ~chonbi http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1330112/ http://chonbi.deviantart.com/journal/1330112/ Mon, 27 Oct 2003 16:42:12 PST
Trying to become Japanese is a lot of work. I've realized I don't have enough money for the plastic surgery and the language is exhausting me.

I don't have so much time for drawing, but I'm trying. I have no access to a scanner, so I've been taking pictures of my work with a digital camera... pretty el-cheapo if you ask me. ]]> ~chonbi