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Just thought I would unload some of my thoughts on here.

First of all it's been almost two months being single. Three years in a relationship trying to make it work and I have nothing but bitterness to show for it. I'm fed up of being unhappy and lonely, dont get me wrong my friends are amazing and I love them all but still its just not the same.

He left me for someone who is good friends with, what seems to be, all of my friends. So yes fed up of being lonely!

I think I'm getting back on the horse and I just keep getting slapped down. How can men say one thing but act the complete opposite. Yeah were just friends right? Then stop messing with my head.

On a higher note, off to Download Festival this year. Well when I get round to booking the tickets.

Not much else really going on in this mess that is my life.

It's just the usual really, drinking too much (lol) and laughing too little.



Sorry to dump it all on people here I think I just need to voice it. Well I'm not even sure if you guys still read my stuff.

I promise I will get drawing again, now I have lots of spare time.



Cheers for listening. Love you all.

Sam xxx

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Am just sat at Fat Wig's getting really annoyed at the fact that the CD's are shite and not burning. Well they are but randomly. God that pub owes me a lot. I am gunna get drawing again, but I just need to find the inspiration back. I'll get it soon. I hope.

Gunna get off anyway cuz I keep burning ma hand trying to type and smoke at the same time. Not good.

Oh also I learnt how to make B52's the other day. And my "friends" have turned into utter bitches. Nice


Wooo. Go booze!

]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/11202192/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/11202192/ Tue, 26 Dec 2006 15:15:42 PST
I had an awesome Xmas. My first one with my baby! It was amazing. I love him! Not told you a lot about him really. Well he's insane, good friends with this guy <-- Scotty! (who btw is an amazing guy) He designed the tat on ma babys forearm (inside righ arm).

But yeah anyway hat an amazing holiday. Passed ma car theory test and just generally got pissed with Fat Wig and Scotty! Caught up with an old friend or 2 and just had a blinder of a week. My mum is 40 2morrow so that's another reason to go out and get drunk. I'll probably end up passing out at his. YAY!

My mum officially knows I smoke now. Woooo, so no more having to hide it. Only she dont no about my tat. Oh yeah I got ma first bit of ink done the other week. It's amazing I love it. I'll get a foto of it up in a sec. It din really hurt, I got it in memory of ma dad cuz this is like ma 8th xmas without him. It's hard but we get thru it. I'll probably go up to the graveyard and see him 2morro as I din get chance yesterday.

So life is good I have an amazing guy who love me to bits and not even my "best friends" can piss on that. Oh yeah she has put bets on with another person saying that me and him aint gunna make it to Feb. In his exact words "let's prove em wrong!"

After almost 2 months it's starting to click that he loves me. I no he tells me enough but those of you who know me know what i'm like.

Well happy holidays everyone, hope yours was as good as mine!

Oh and can any avid bleach fan tell me wot ep number we are up to? I can't remeber what I have seen! ta!

Love you all guys!

xXx

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I hurt him bad doing it but I had to.

And not to sound cheery but the reason I did it was for another guy. He's immense! I love him. Yeah I know, but my love for Mike died a while ago.

So yeah bombing thru college, got a nu bloke, erm oh and having an awesome time in the newly owned pub. The guys are fucking awesome.

Got some Bleach fan art on it's way so I'm off to do that.

Catch ya round guys.

Shizzle ma Nizzle mo fo!

over and out

xxx

]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/10142770/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/10142770/ Thu, 21 Sep 2006 13:09:29 PDT
Yeah I'm kinda in that position where people hate me cuz I'm finding it impossible to be unhappy. Every morning I wake up smiling, even thought it's too early and I don't want to get up. But I still love it.

After a really rocky failure year last year I have pulled maself back onto the straight and narrow, with the idea of "Am I going to get anywhere otherwise?". Well I figure NO! I have to stick this out. And if it carries on like this I will have no problem.

Nothing much has changed it's just sum stuff has made me realise how lucky I am to have everything that I have.

Even thought it should have been the worst day of my life yesterday, Mike was there which was all I needed! Let me explain, it was 8 years since my dad died yesterday and I was really upset, I did cry, but then I thought about how my life is now and howDad would want me to be happy. And yeah I am.

I am finally growing up, I don't care about all the stuff I used to. Last year I really didn't like how my life was, the only thing keeping me goign each and everyday was the fact that I had sum1. I decided that I didn't want to do College it was too hard, I wanted to sit and talk all day with friends. Yeah it was fun and yeah I did love it, but looking back I have changed. I can't talk to them in the same way I used to mainly beacause I'm not interested in getting blind drunk and blowing chunks everywhere. Sorry if I have lost that "fun gene".

I love spending time with ma mum. After the events of last year, I can now see how I did hurt her. All she wanted was the best for me and I went "off the rails" (it wasn't extreem but still, she hated the way I was) and now we can laugh together and she wants to be more involved in what I get up to. But the good point is that she's not stepping on my toes. I'm sure she knows how much I care about her, she's my mum, my dad and a best friend all in one.

The real test will be this weekend If I can survive Marks hassle and orders we know I am truly too happy. Ha! I should be fine, after all mum knows that he is getting to me and is out of order. He just won't listen to us.

It's all fine and dandy! And what has brought this spurt of happiness on you may ask? (well you may not give a toss but I am going to tell you)



Battle Royale!


Yeap the manga more than the films. Reading them I have to think what would I be like in that situation, who means the most to me that I would give my life to keep them safe? And that made me think about the people I love. The people who have cared about me no matter what and only want the best for me. They are the poeple I would give my life to save.

With the way I am and the way I look at life and death I always look upon life as fragile and death as absolute. So, why not take a hold of your fragile life before the absolute happens? Sure, I'm not rich, in fact I am running quite low on funding! (£5.05 to be exact) And I don't have everything material that I want (sure I would love a Mercades McLarren) but I have my life, love and a good family.






One last thing before I close this ramble. I heard about Richard Hamond this morning and I am absloutley gutted. I am a lil bit of a petrol head myself and love things that go fast. If I was given the oppourtunity I would have taken hold of my fragile life and done it. I admire people who have a job in doing what they love and never worry about any conciquences. I think it's just a matter of time before Hamster recovers and is back scrapping like kids in a school yard with Clarkson, after all they are perfect together all 3 of them. Recover well Hamster and hurry up and get back on with filming Top Gear.




Over and out, muchos love.

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Anyway sorry about the non drawing thing. I have just not had the inspiration. I want to go back to drawing anime but I need a lot more time and practice! If anyone has any tips (bobby?).....

Also my new obsession on the homefront is BLEACH!!!!! Woo! It's really good. I am really into it! Have to say that I am madly in love with Arabi Renji and well most of the other Shinigami! I am a little behind with it though as I have not had the time to catch up. I will be there soon tho!

Hopefully there may be some Renji or Bayakuya stuff on it's way. I may start easy with Ichi tho. I have to improve my SD fors too. I really don't like the way they look at all!

never mind!

Well off to go watch some more Bleach and then get everything ready for College! Kinda wanna go back for some reason. Weird!

Oh well....... I wish I was a Shinigami! Altho wot would me Soul Slayer look like? Hmmmmmm......Hopefully my Shikai and Bankai would be as kool as Bayakuya. Ah the possiblities. ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/9639207/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/9639207/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 04:01:49 PDT
Oh and wow I come home to v5 how awsome is that!

This'll take a bit of getting used to. Luff you all!


Byeeee! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/9541513/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/9541513/ Sun, 30 Jul 2006 09:45:37 PDT
I just thought I'd let you all no that I'll not be online at all cuz I'm on a Cruise so I'm on a ship all week.

So in the time I am away I want to get bak and see mucho amazing art! Get drawing!

Miss ya all, some more than others.

It sucks leaving Mike again. Gunna miss ma baby!

Altho I'm taking the teddy he brought bak from the states away with me!

Luff u all.......byeeeeeee! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/9400524/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/9400524/ Mon, 17 Jul 2006 00:19:02 PDT
Other than that if it had been a normal week it would have been SHITE. Stepdad been an evil person, I broke ma iPod, Mike din get bak till a day later than he shud have! But I don't care, he's bak. I am having a ball, my friends are ace, my boyfriend is the best thing to happen to me ever. And even tho I was so sad wen he left I am THE happiest person in the world!

I have everything I could ever ask for! I love my life!

=]

Wooooooooo! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/9283571/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/9283571/ Wed, 05 Jul 2006 16:15:45 PDT
I find myself spending a lot of time in the pub cuz I dun wanna be alone. It's kinda rough. My biggest worry is will he still love me wen he comes bak. I hope he ant had any epiphanies or owt.

If ur reading this babe, which I doubt but I no you sumtimes check this. I miss you like crazy. I can't wait for Tuesday, but more likley see you on Wednesday. Miss you loads babe!

Now to go listen to some Fall Out Boy and be emo, ha yeah like that's gunna work...

Ooooooh and for every Lostprophets fan out there I am going to see them on the 11th so afta I will post wot happened and hopefully sum amazing fotos. Love you Ian Watkins!

Prophets rule!

Bye guys!
x ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/9167759/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/9167759/ Sat, 24 Jun 2006 09:56:17 PDT ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/8651868/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/8651868/ Tue, 02 May 2006 12:37:56 PDT
I analyze everything, I know what you mean
I answer by questioning all that I need
And I want to, to surrender
I want you to see all the sides
All the faces inside of me

I see I’m not perfect, but that’s all I see
Lost in a portrait, in a picture of me
This can’t be everything I see
That my canvas is incomplete
Your color’s everything to me
And my canvas will set me free

My outline is solid and made up of crime
And the things that you say just burn in my eyes
I want to, to surrender
I want you to find some comfort
In the spaces between the lines

I see I’m not perfect, but that’s all I see
Lost in a portrait, in a picture of me
This can’t be everything I see
That my canvas is incomplete
Your color’s everything to me
And my canvas will set me free
This can’t be everything I see
That my canvas is incomplete
Your color’s everything to me

This can’t be everything I see
That my canvas is incomplete
You color’s everything to me
And my canvas will set me free
This can’t be everything I see
That my canvas is incomplete
Your color’s everything to me
You’re everything to me


I dunno wot it is but this song has just made me start thinking. It's really the way I am. It tells my feelings of my friends, family and Mike. It's a nice song and that last line, well it means a lot.

I dunno where I would be without my friends throughtout the years, and Mike, well, he made life hard and good all at the same time.

I love you all, thanks to all the people who were good to me wen my dad died, thanks to everyone through Priory that made me realise who I am and that, regardless of what I like and who I am, that I am still a person. I owe you everything.

And thanks to people who have helped me through some of the saddest and most depressing times I have ever had. Thanks to everyone at College, you guys are amazing, Kate knows where I am coming from without me even having to say anything.

And then there is everyone I talk to wen I get home. People who I have never met, yet they are always waiting to help me and give me a kik up the ass. People like Mike (web), JC and Bobby! You being there means a lot. It's nice to talk to people who dun judge me on the way I look. How could I forget Tardis? Good old Dane is my window into Mikes soul. lol.

Thanks to everyone who has ever hated, loved or liked me. You all made me the nut job I am today. I may not be the most stable person ever, but it's me. If you don't like it I don't really give a flying fuck. Just have the bollocks to say it to my face.

I have to deal with the rest of my life, the bad patches, the highs, the real lows and the steady patches, it's all part of who I am. It may not be easy, in fact I dare say it'll be really hard. But I know with the help of friends I will make it to a point where I like my life. And to all those people who hate me, thanks, you give me something to screw over in my life.

I'm sorry bout my ramblings, I just felt it needed to be said, maybe it was the tuna I had for dinner, or maybe it's just the way I'm feeling. I dunno, but either way, I just wanted to say thanks, some people don't realise how much you have influenced me.

So Thank you!!!

XxX @-'-,-'-




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Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 (or as many as you know) people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours.


1. Where to start.....erm.....I use the fact that sum1 may be Welsh as an argument against them. For example "Ian Watkins from Lostprophets is fit!" "Yeah but he's Welsh" LoL. No offence to any Welsh people out there!

2. I am realy struggling with this. Erm......I may be a slight alco! LoL. Anyone that knows me knows how much time I spend in the pub! LoL

3. My favorite kids programme was alway Rainbow and of course Dylan was always my fave character. But wait I really dun like people wen they are stoned! Get that!

4. At one point I missed Morph so bad I looked for torrents of old eps. With no sucess! Dammit bring bak Morph, kids don't no telly like it used to be.

5. I sumtimes do the Scrubs thing where I narrate my day or sum it up in my hed. Sad? hell yeh! Crazy? I'll let you decide!

6. As a kid I used to really annoy maself cuz I used to sound out words in ma head. This made my spelling as shite as it is today. But yeah I used to drive maself CRAZY!


Now you all know how fully insane I am I have to tag 6 of you, I'd just like to say I so wud tag but he's not been online for ages, and I dunno wen he's cumming bak so I dun see much point!

So:

1. She one of my best friends so she has to be tagged. Sorry! LoL.

2. Again an old mate of mine. He rox! Got ya Ry!

3. Scott, one of ma drinking buddys! He's wuvwy! Neh got ya Scott!

4. One of my oldest friends on here. She's always nice to me, not spoke to her in a while. Hope you not bin tagged.

5. Another old friend I not spoke to in a while. I miss talking to you dude. Gorra catch up sumtime!

6. An old mate from school. Got you first. Neh!


Right that's that outta the way! Woooooo! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/8275656/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/8275656/ Sun, 26 Mar 2006 14:32:52 PST
And now for the heavy stuff. It could just be the music I am listening to but I'm feeling kinda down. Wot i wouldn't give for a hug right now. Yes the insecure me is back. I knew it wouldn't be long before it came bak. It all started yesterday, I'd had an amazing day, Mike got his first tattoo and it looks stunning. So I thought the day was perfect, a bit crazy with all the last minute shopping, but it was good. But recently my dreams have started to affect my life, but the strange thin is. I'm not dreaming about anything to petrify me, like my clown dreams. Just really weird ones. And they are really starting to get me down.

The other week I dreamt that I had (fuck the saddest song I own has just come on) Anyway where was I yeah the dream, I dreamt that i had been given 2 days to live. The first thought I had was about Mike. I didn't wan't to leave him. I no it sounds stupid, but it really upset me. Sometimes I feel like i am too clingy, hell I no I am, but I'm so scared of losing him without him knowing how much I really care. He's growing up and changing, and I'm scared he's gunna change the way he feels about me. God 2 years is a long time when your only young. I'm praying we make it waaaaaaaaay past 2. But I no that if I stay the way I am it's gunna push him away. How do I tell him how much I care without sounding too mushy or needy.

But the dream I had last nite, well it was strange. It was just a normal day, we were walking somewhere, I duno where we were really, and he had something in his hands. So he asked me to pull his fone out of his pocket and fone "His bird". This made me sick to the point of waking up. Now for those of you who have never met mike or spoke to him properly, let me just clarify this point, he never reffers to ANYONE as "bird" or anything like that. That's normally the way I talk when I'm joking round. But it still hurt so bad.

Mike is more than just my boyfriend, he's my first love. I know I am really inscure and right now afraid to sleep. I don't want to dream again, ever. Not if it means having to worry about the state of our relationship. I dunno why I am like this, it's not like he's been anything other than honest with me. And yeah it's not alwaysbeen wot i wanted to hear, but I'm glad he's told me the truth thru everthing.

Why can something that's not even real scare me so much, please just somone make them stop. I don't want to sleep, not alone.

Listen to me I sound like a crazy person, a psyciatrist would have a ball with me. It's so nice to have somewhere to put all this where no one will read it, but it get's everything off my chest. It's getting to the point where I hate being alone with myself. That's why I'm always at the pub or out with someone. I just don't want to be left alone with myself. I hate every minute of it.

If I'm with someone I can pretend that my life is fine and that i'm happy with the way I am, and sometimes it works. Sometimes for a few minutes I can believe that I am truly happy, when nothing could be further from the truth, I'm tearing away at myself from the inside out. Only wen I look into Mike's eyes do I feel like someone cares about me. Even tho he may not be the filmstar mushy, classic romantic, I feel like he loves me.

Who knows I may just be kidding myself, after all who could love me if I can't stand to be alone with myself.

I couldn't understand how anyone can have a bad year but i think now I am starting to know what it feels like. Maybe bottling up all of these feelings over the years has finally taken it toll on me. Maybe I'm suffering for not talking about the way I felt when my dad died. I dunno. Buth that's another thing, I never have to explain to mike how I am feeling about it. He knows, he's been throught something almost the same.

I just wish he knew how much I am dying inside. ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/8103045/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/8103045/ Wed, 08 Mar 2006 12:53:16 PST
Right so, Love, wot is it?

Some people say that it only happens in fary tales, other people say it's too much work and they'll just take the sex. And some people believe that it is real.

I say if it is real, what is it about it that makes it so powerful? Why do people loose all sense of morals and self respect to show love for a person who may not even feel the same. Also Why the hell does lust feel like love. As if this feeling wasn't confusing enough they throw in another one which feels like it, but it's not. And only after you have made the inevitable mistake does it then reveal it's self as the fake?

Is love eternal, or can one stupid mistake break a feeling which was once so strong? Many times I have been told i wear my heart on my sleave for all to see, but i see no other way of living. Am I doomed to be hurt by every little thing that doesn't go to plan? If i am then I see why people close themselves up. Love is confusing, but after everything I have been through I still feel that love is worth looking for. Life will never be like the movies, life is never perfect, people don't always have a happy ending.

But for once I pray I do.

I know it sounds selfish and self centered but for once I want to feel safe. Mike gives that to me. I think we are amazing together, but sometimes I feel that I am no good for him and that he could do better without me.

I don't care what people think about him, if you loked into his eyes and felt what I did, you'd know why I am still here. This is probably me feeling with the whole of my heart, but that is the only way I now how. Plus I can't imagine onl feeling half of my emotions.

I do miss my dad and i think that is what has caused me to feel things so strongly. Loosing him stopped my world, I didn't know where to turn. Mike hs been through it, he knows how I feel, he knows that sometimes getting out of bed is hard, even after all of these years. God I hope september never comes. It's been so long since he died, I just wish I could have told him I loved him.

So Mike if you are reading this, and at some time I hope you do. You now know the feelings behind my reasons, like why i always tell you I love you. I don't want to loose you the way I lost dad without telling you.

Something Web once said to me rings true, "Enjoy life - have fun and find time to laugh each day!" After all, you never know when life will end. And I don't want to go out being a worthless shriveld old stone of a human being.

We all need feelings to live, we all believe in something. So why don't people just share how they feel? the real reasons are varied, fear of rejection, inability to express the way we feel. But like I said, life isn't like the movies, people don't always kiss and make up, men don't always come equip with flowers to say sorry. Hell sometimes men don't even know they have done anything wrong. But if you realy want something, go for it. So what if you end up being rejected, who cares what your frieds think, cuz if this is love it's well worth it.

A feeling of finally fitting somewhere with someone, a feeling of being wanted afeeling of beng safe. If you ask me it's well worth the risk.


And if it all falls appart?

GOD HELP ME!

LoL ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/8071867/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/8071867/ Sun, 05 Mar 2006 07:15:37 PST
Frst of all, wow, the film kiked some serious ass. I think i counted 5 or 6 killings in the first 10-15 mins of the film. Jesus it started out good. And unlike most films which kik ass like that in the first few mins it kept it up. Also it keeps you involved! The plot is amazing and its another one of those films that has so many twists you just get bloody confused. But don't worry it all comes together. I remember a while back I went to watch the recruit. I really only went for Collin Farrel, but it was an amazing film. Well the way Slevin is written is really similar to that, it keeps you on your toes.

The second OMG, since when did Josh Harnett become THAT fit? I mean Jesus Christ, even with a mangled broken nose he looks bloody amazing! I am so gunna have to watch Black Hawk Down again, and possibly Pearl Harbour, cuz he's in that too.

But yes I do recomend going to see it. Bruce Willis plays an amazing part, but he's only a supporting actor. I know for once a film with Bruce Willis in it, which isn't all about him. Oh an Morgan Freeman, wow. That man is a genious actor, it's nice to see him playing a bad guy for once.

The film also stars Lucy Liu, and I've never really liked her but she does play a good role in this film. Which reminds me. Girls you have to go see this film, for the first 25 minutes Josh Harnett wears nothing but a towel.

The film has some amazingly funny bits in too, it is good sarcasm and quick wit to say it came from the Yanks.

But yes that film will be bought as soon as it comes out and it will be played to death. I love it.

I think this film will bring back geeky knitted tank tops for men, proper suit jackets and tweed. YAY!

Now to look at pics of Josh Harnett......hmmmmmmmmmmmm







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http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/8008859/ Sun, 26 Feb 2006 13:11:11 PST
I think the person I love more than life, cares for sumone else!

So yeah rip out my heart stand on it do anything cuz it can't be more painful than this!

I just want the pain to stop and there is only one way it will. ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/7684660/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/7684660/ Mon, 23 Jan 2006 11:48:17 PST
But anyway I thought since i got paid my EMA I will go see what CD's I can afford. Big mistake! I ended up buying a CD I swore I would never buy.

Today why did I have to do it today? Today the Arctic MOnkeys album was released and I know I really shouldn't like them. I kinda do. The Arctic Monkeys are a good local band and they have just made it big. I swore I wouldn't pay money for it, but it was like I was possesed I walked in, picked it up and just bought it!

When I got back to college I was so shocked. I couldn't believe I had just bought it.

So now I am sat here looking at it wondering if I shud go listen to it. After all I didn't pay good money for shelf decoration.





On other news, HAPPY WINTER-EEN-MAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes the season is officially here, but I can't welcome it in style considering our tv is to be taken away over the weekend to be fixed. Yes I am serious so expect a lot of lil doodles or maybe just one big drawing whatever I feel like. Or I may just sit and read.

But Happy Winter-een-mas, and wish me luck at the doctors on Wednesday!

Have a gud un.

Oh last thing if your wanting to listen to the Arctic Monkeys try their official site
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I dunno if they have free samples on there.

Support your Local talent you never know when they might hit it big time!




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~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/7424182/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/7424182/ Mon, 26 Dec 2005 16:28:11 PST
Now don't get me wrong I had one of the best Christmas' I've had in a long time. But I am still slightly miffed about wot happened on Wednesday.

But anyway, Steve. I no with Sam that name will ring a bell and maybe with a few other people if you have been unfortunate enough to hear me moan about him. If not all you need to no is that he is a twat. We once went out to pics togeva on kinda a tripple date and he snogged his mated Girlfriend as well as me. Oh and I came 2nd best wen i finnaly plucked up the courage to ask him out.

But anyway, I was sat in the pub doing my usual being rowdy and having a laf with my good friend Kate whilst eyeing up the bar staff. Nothing unusual there then. But at the afternoon slowly plodded onto evening about 4pm ish an old friend walked into the bar. I know him as JJ. He was the guy whose girlfriend Steve couldn't pull himself away from. He always ask's me if i have seen Steve and I always tell him the same thing "No thank God!"

I felt really betrayed by Steve and was really hurt at the fact that he want behind my back and the led me on for a further few weeks before telling me i wasn't good enough and throwing me to the side like a used tissue.

But anyway we got drinks and started talking. He commented on my drawing before pulling his mate over to show him. He asked his mate if he had seen owt of Steve wen this guy just stood up and went "Oh you mean him!" Sure enough as i looked up Steve had been sat across from me foe at least 3/4 of an hour and not even bothered to say hey.

JJ went to talk to him for a while and at this point I felt really betrayed. Like, Steve had pissed on JJ as well as me yet they were talking like 2 best mates. This was me not impressed. So not impressed that i stormed off into toilets. My mate came to ask wot wos up and I told her the story.

As i sat down again Steve came over with JJ and I figured I can't hold a grudge for nearly 2 years that is just stoopid and childish. I started to mentally slap myself and make my mouth say nice polite things to him. So wen I asked him how he'd been and I'd not seen him in ages, and he just returned with a blank stare I almost flipped out.

It must be everyday u completly mess sum1 up and just forget about it. Course cuz you not lived till you do that!!!! But I kinda stayed calm. My mates were not impressed at all and one of them suggested that we show him what he missed out on. Which i was up for. But it was a female who suggested this. Sinead rox she is sooo kool so I went along. And wen she had to leave for band practice and we snogged you shud have seen his face.

A little vengance there. He was not impressed.

But the real problem is that I was so wrapped up in Steve that I apparently didn't notice that the barman was doing everything in his power to hang round us. Cheers Kate for spotting that!




But I had an amazing Xmas and am going to go paly on my nu gear.





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http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/7346144/ Sun, 18 Dec 2005 14:06:27 PST
Errr College is dominating my life but i have bought all nu stuff to start sketching again. I have no idea what tho.
Oh i went to watch King Kong yesterday and well, I was a total pussy and cried. I couldn't help it, it made me sick how the Yanks shot him in the back. I would make a wise crack but I shall resist!

But yeah I am a girl and I did cry. I looked a bloody mess walking out of the cinema with red poofy eyes, eyeliner round my cheekbones and greasy hair.

In other news I have a new piercing and new hari. I will try and get a foto of the oh so shit looking me up.

Oh made like a nu good mate at college and she is satill trying to convince me that i am attractive and have stuff going for me. I give it bout 2 weeks b4 she realises that i just wont take it.

Oh and all my mates at college aint happy. We went to pub friday and Me and my mate goty served without a 2nd glace (with college bags I may add) and we were the youngest out of them, they all got ID-ed and kiked out. LoL. I love Gibb! LoL


Still with Mike, we are still perfect, can't wait for my Xmas prezzes! Woooooooooo. Only just started feeling a bit Xmassy. I was a bit late this year.

I finnish College on the Wednesday. Yay! But i am working Xmas and New years eve! Boooooo! Oh well it'll bring in the cash.

Bout it really. I swear I will get sketching again I am dying tho cuz i need inspiration.

Well





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~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/7072795/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/7072795/ Thu, 17 Nov 2005 15:11:51 PST
Other news I am getting worse not better. I am so snotty and when I cough it sounds like I am barking. It is evil. I have to do that thing where I breath thru ma mouth cuz my nose is totally a no go area.

*sigh* I have killer flu see! It's bak again for another year.

Coments would be nice on all my old work. Btw I really suck!

All the Y10 stuff is about 2 almost 3 years old and all the Y11 stuff is bout 6/7 months old.






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http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/7054538/ Tue, 15 Nov 2005 12:54:41 PST
I have a bat throat infection and it is really painful but aside from that I'm good! College is going swimmingly. Meeting some nice people, and managing to avoid people I don't ever want to see again!

Mainly now just doing college work and talking to mates, but i feel like getting pack into the penciling scene. No more cartoons or anime. Pass me a Jordison pic!

Not much else to say other than Mike no's and we are still together. I love my life atm (wonder how long that'll last)

Oh one last thing. Check me out @ My Space
[link]

well toodle pip!


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http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/6844711/ Mon, 24 Oct 2005 03:33:39 PDT
And we got the holiday fotos done. Got them all printed off and I uploaded one which makes me think.

Here check it out here -----> [link]

I am back to my deep thoughts and morbid self. Duncha just love it!

Thants bout it only one more thing. Tom Clancy. How the hell can anyone follow this guys writing? It's too intense. I'm going to go back to the Pig and Cow books. LoL

Edit: Check out my radio station. Listen to the music I do here. [link] [note: If you cant find it search for Dingoez_ate_me's radio station]
Also here a quiz:
---{100 Little Things You Didn't Know About Me}---

1. Full Name: Samantha. (call me it and I'll have ur balls!)
2. Nicknames: Sam, Newman, Oi you, C1 Also can be found going under Dingoez online.
3. Birthday: 13th May 89
4. Place of Birth: Uk.
5. Zodiac Sign: Taurus
6. Male or Female: Girlie!
7. Grade: In college kiddo!
8. School: College dumbass!
9. Occupation: Full time student aka a sponge.
10. Residence: Uk
11. Screen Name: Chosen1, Chosen1-n-abit, Dingoez, and others I have forgotten!


__Your Appearance___

12. Hair Color: Black and red (again)
13. Hair Length:Shoulder length.
14. Eye color:Blue or green depends really.
15. Best Feature: I have no Idea. Ask Mike!
16. Height: 5' 11"
17. Braces?: Had them, and got rid of them.
18. Glasses?: Yep but I wear contact lenses
19. Piercing: Navel and ears. Want more.......
20. Tattoos: Gunna get one soon.
21. Righty or Lefty: I aint no cack-handed lefy! Righty's rule the world!

___Your 'Firsts'___

22. First best friend: Errrrrrrr Gemma. We were best mates in nursery and primary skool. Lost touch thru high skool tho. But she is @ college now too.
23. First Award: No Idea. Prolly one for being a swat! LoL
24. First Sport You Joined: ARRRRRG! NO sports!
25. First pet: We had a dog but MY 1st pet was Candy my hamster. She was albino!
26. First Real Vacation: Florida.
27. First Concert: No idea........
28. First Love: I have had a few crushes but I think my first LOVE£ was (and still is) Mike.

___ Favorites___

29. Movie: Crappy old slash ones! Oh and good British humour!
30. TV Show: CSI
31. Colors: Black
32. Rapper: OMG. Rap is shit. But I do like Mike Shinoda (LP)
33. Bands: Ah ha! Don't get me started. My faves are (atm) Stand, 'Knot (as always) and KoRn. I like loadsa ovas too tho.
34. Song Right Now: Errrrrrr either Hoobastank - escape or Nickelback - Animals!
35. Friend: Sam, Ry, Sarah, Kate and Mazzi!
36. Candy: Do Oreoes count?
37. Sport to Play: Again I say ARG! sport! Get it away.
38. Restaurant: TGI fridays!
39. Favorite brand to wear: Criminal Damage and of course Paul Smith!
40. Store: HMV, well everything dedicated to music and games the cheaper the better!
41. School Subject: Atr
42. Animal: Cow's!
43. Book: Crummy Mummy and me. We read it in Primary skool but it so rox!
44. Magazine: I can be found buying Rock sound, Kerrang! and Metal Hammer religiously!
45. Shoes: Ma purple New rocks and with winter upon us out the come. YAY!

___Currently___

46. Feeling: Vacant (as alway)
47. Single or Taken?: Taken!
48. Have a crush: Maybe...... ( I luv you Gibb. lol. j/k)
49. Eating: nutting. Too early!
50. Drinking: Water
51. Typing: this Bastard thing!
52. Online?: Yep but not on MSN it keeps crashing out on me. Son of a ........
53. Listening To: My radio station on Yahoo! [link]
54. Thinking About: When will this ever end!
55. Wanting To: Change the song brb!
56. Watching: nothing atm but just watched Will & Grace.
57. Wearing: DKNY jeans with a shirt

__________Future__________

58. Want Kids?: I think so
59. Want to be Married?: Eventually yes
61. Where do you want to live: USA, poss Miami
62. Car: Subaru Impretza, Porche 911 or realisticly a minni!

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___

63. Hair color: Dark cuz blonde always looks fake on a guy over 12
64. Hair length... ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/6817076/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/6817076/ Thu, 20 Oct 2005 08:48:29 PDT
As you can tell I am feeling a lil let down and hurt, okay okay so i am feeling sorry for myself! So sue me! All I can think is I must really suck if he would rather spend time with his mates than with me.

Where did I go wrong? I put my soul into this relationship and I can see it falling away infront of me! Did I do something wrong? I don't wanna loose him!!!!

He must really hate me. ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/6694274/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/6694274/ Thu, 06 Oct 2005 10:41:26 PDT

I'm back from my holiday! Florida was just as good as I remember! Bought a TON of gear whilst I was out there. Hoodies and jeans coming out of ma ears, oh and of course Stitch gear. I have a good foto of me to get up here, it'll make you all laf.

Mum is now Mrs Oxley but I don't really care nothings changed.

It's been over a year for Mike and I. Woooooo we made it and I love him as much now as I did the day I met him!

I started College last week and OMG I have so much to catch up on. I'll do it tho, so I might noit have chance to draw as much. I have a few Stitch sketches to put up and I am going to try my hand at some more anime.

It's nice to be back to normal.

Oh bought a copy of Nickelbacks nu album "All the right reasons" and OMG there is a song on there called "Animals" It's so dirty! For example

"You're beside me on the seat
Got your hand between my knees
And you control how fast we go by just how hard you wanna squeeze
It's hard to steer when you're breathing in my ear
But I got both hands on the wheel while you got both hands on my gears
By now, no doubt that we were heading south
I guess nobody ever taught her not to speak with a full mouth
'Cause this was it, like flicking on a switch
It felt so good I almost drove into the ditch
I'm screamin'"

Nice!

Oh and yes I bought myself an iPod Nano, so sue me! I'm just putting music on him!

Wot else is there left to say appart from Here have some micky mose ears *hands out hats*

Luv ya! I'll try to get some of the fotos up (after some SERIOUS airbrushing)

Bye. xxxxxx

Oh PS. dA is getting a lil sucky, no?





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~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/6330821/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/6330821/ Fri, 26 Aug 2005 04:16:47 PDT
My grades are as follows:

English: A
English Lit: A
Mathematics: B
Science (double award): BB
Applied Business studies: BB
Religious Ed: B
Media Studdies: C (Yeah I no but we were the first year to take the course)

And yes I know I have missed off my Art and Design. Gawd I was so happy:

Art & Design: A*

Honest to God I never thought that I'd do it. I was amazed when I saw it. My mum was happy with my results and the A* got me £50. Stupid Mark, letting his mouth write bets his wallet can't keep.

So thats the end of another chapter in my life. It's hard having to say goodbye to some things but I won't miss others. And as the book closes I realise that I have changed a hell of a lot in those 5 years, but none of what I did, do I regret.

Thanks to all you guys for helping me and commenting on my work. I love you all, and as soon as I get my work back to me I'll start putting it up.

Bye guys! XxX





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http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/6267922/ Fri, 19 Aug 2005 04:45:01 PDT

My life is like a rollercoaster ride. Just let me off. Woooooooo *sarcasm*


ah well *runs off to do some more drawing and scanning*


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Love you all! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/6103635/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/6103635/ Mon, 01 Aug 2005 16:53:08 PDT


Pick any of the above, or even better ALL!

Fuck it! My stuff keeps getting ripped down and all i get is a fucked up generic message explaining every possible problem!

I have heard it might be something to do with the big headed twats that run this fast turning shit hole!

People need to stop brining their playground disputes onto a public site! It's screwing it up for everyone. Stop ripping down artists hard work because you fuck-tards think it might be considered offensive to someone out there. Guess wot, every single bit of artwok on this "community" may be considered offensive to someone. Wot you gunna do about it rip em all down?

Art is about freedom of speech! But it's getting censored with you fuck heads riping it all down! We have done the best we can to trace the original owners of the photos or if it's offensive then the mature contents logo is plastered on it. Y the hell do you still feel the need to censor our work?

It's not up to you "admins" to filter out wot you don't like. A manager of an art museum may not like to Mona Lisa but he doesn't pull it off the wall and burn it so no one can see it does he?

The point I am trying to make is that you guys don't know when to leave well enough alone do you? You are trying to protect people but all you are doing is causing outrage and confusion.

Personally I wouldn't like to leave you guys in charge of a pile of dog turd, let alone art!

I know no one "important" is going to read this I just thought I would vent my anger!

My final word on the matter is "Leave well enough alone!" It's not your art it's your opinion, it's not ur expression! Don't fuck with it!!!!!!!!!!!!




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http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/6027086/ Mon, 25 Jul 2005 04:30:36 PDT
On a different note, I can't stop looking at Gibb!!!!!! I can't help it. Mike is so forgiving and he says he dun mind, but I still think that I shudn't be doing it! I know I shudn't be doing it, I love Mike and I'm sorry! Problem is tho he works in the best pub in town.

Gunna college soon. I'm bricking it cuz I recon I won't make ne friends. I'll be the lil wierd kid always on her own. Oh well it's only 2 years!

Also I'm proper guted cuz my mum will be taking Marks name wen they get maried. She always told me that she wouldn't,but just recently she is complaining about how she will have to change all her bank accounts n stuff cuz she is taking it. It sux.

Well on a closing note

Music

Fighstar - Paint Your Target

Seether ft. Amy Lee - Broken

Static-X - The Only

Disturbed - Intoxication

Slipknot - Scream

Alkaline Trio - Time to Waste

Nickelback Ft. Kid Rock - Saturday Night's Alright for Fighting

Watching

Past ep's of Scrubs

House

CSI (as always)

Reading

Bugger all!



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]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/5952215/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/5952215/ Sat, 16 Jul 2005 15:34:45 PDT
Went to my mates 16th Birthday party today! Yay. Happy 16th, Robyn!

But anyway on this love thing:

"Statement of Love:
The Kiss
1. Kiss on the hand I adore you
2. Kiss on the cheek I just want to be friends
3. Kiss on the neck I want you
4. Kiss on the lips I love you
5. Kiss on the ears I am just playing
6. Kiss anywhere else lets not get carried away
7. Look in your eyes kiss me
8.Playing with your hair I can't live without you
9. Hand on your waist I love you to much to let you go
Article 2:
The Three Steps
1. Girls: If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him.
2. Guys: If any girl slaps you, kiss her
3. Guys & Girls: Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare.
Article 3:
The Commandments
1. Thou shall not squeeze too hard.
2. Thou shall not ask for a kiss, but take one.
3. Thou shall kiss at every opportunity.
* Remember *
A peach is a peach
A plum is a plum,
A kiss isn't a kiss
Without some tongue.
So open up your mouth
close your eyes,
and give your tongue
some exercise!!!
Here are a few reasons
why guys like girls:
1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo
2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder
3. How cute they look when they sleep
4. The ease in which they fit into our arms
5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the
world
6. How cute they are when they eat
7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all
worth while
8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside
9. The way they look good no matter what they wear
10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you
think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth
11. How cute they are when they argue
12. The way her hand always finds yours
13. The way they smile
14. The way you feel when you see their name on the caller ID after you just
had a big fight
15. The way she says "lets not fight anymore" even though you know that an
hour later....
16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them
17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you"
18. Actually ... just the way they kiss you...
19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry
20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly
21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt
22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt. (even though we don't
admit it)!
23. The way they say "I miss you"
24. The way you miss them
25.The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't
hurt her anymore..... Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they
would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not.
Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become
everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths
of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound, you
know that your own life is inevitable consumed within the rhythmic beatings
of her very heart.We love them for a million reasons, No paper would do it
justice. It is a thing not of the mind but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt."

This is one of those crappy chain letters that you have to foreward or you will get bad luck for the rest of your life. Blah, blah w/e. I like filling them out and reading them tho. LoL.

But this one makes sense! It is true. I love Mike so much and this is how it goes! Simple things like saying "I love you" Means more that anything a ritch man could bring you. I didn't mean that in a way which I was having a go @ Mike because truth be told I love him more than this world. I would die for him if he asked me to. I know that somethings I say or do may not seem like I love him somethimes but I have realised that you can't change a person, so why not just accept who they are? I know I'm not perfect, God no, and I can't expect him to be! I have found a guy who would protect me from the world, and he knows that I love him for that.

Gawd I sound so soppy, maybe it's the drink talking, Altho not had THAT much! LoL.

I just hope that he knows how I feel!

Now for all of those who are feeling ill............ I think there is a bucket here somewhere! LoL.








On a better note.....

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So wen I get this nu moem thru it is our old one but slightly upgraded, no expense spared. So Ok ok yeah I no wot was I expectng. How about being able to instal the drivers for it wihout flatening ma pc? NOPE can't do that either.

So then I thought my laptop works with everything! It has to work. It oes, but a I load mylaptop up and am waiting for everything to install I search thru My docs. Hmmmmmmmmm NOTHING THERE!

My mums boyf has this obsession with formatting comps. I think that is becoz it's the only way he gets to feel in charge lol. So bak o toy. I have lost all ma scans of ma art, all ma music, sum stuff that I had been sent and everything.

So as if I am not mad enuf all ready, there's more. All I can think is.It's ok as long as I can find ma fotoshop and get sum stuf dun. Oh yes this i where my night turns into real crap. I look round EVERYWHERE for the CD. The fone rings. It's ma mums boyf, who - by the way is working in Portmouth for 3 weeks! The conv went sorta like this

Me: Heya, yeah i got the drivers to work but they are on ma laptop.
Him: gud we'll get em working on desktop asap.
Me: Oh btw did you take fotoshop wiv you?
Him: Yeah.
Me: So where did we put the bakup? (which, btw was made for an event like this)
Him: It's in the silver case.
Me: right so it's with the 1st copy, which you hapen to have down there with you?
Him: Yeah.
Me: right i'll dload it.

Which perfect iming ma mum piks up.

So as you can well tell. NOT HAPPY! Ontop of that got a busines exam 2morro and proly guna fail!

Life is oh so kind to me! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/5552110/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/5552110/ Sat, 04 Jun 2005 13:48:22 PDT Mood: Thinking too hard!
Listening to: Papa Roach- Scars, Knot- B4 I forget
Reading: Crime scene anaylisys
Watching: The Punisher

Hey all. Topics of discusion:
1) Which 'Knot wp I am gunna do next
2) How fit duz Jacoby look on the nu vid (Chip?)
3) How to get my hands on a cheap Straitjacket?





1) Thinking about Jordson OBVIOUSLY, but I need Ideas people! Help!




2) Mr. Shaddix is luking increasingly fit in older age! He really is looking good. But more and more tattoo's keep popping up. Newist one is on his chest i recon!
Ooh, on the subject of tattoos where shud i have mine? I want sumwhere that it can be put on show, or hidden away, depending on ma mood.



3) I need to invest in a straight jacket but not sure where to get 1. HELP!!!!!!

Thats all folks. Any hepl, comments or anything would be welcome. I am stuck in a rut at the mument and have no I dea where to take my art next!

Keep it real guys.
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Erm not much else. Oh I am embarking on an ambitious attempt to paint a blue alin one suit to match the 'Knot marking. Oh and ne1 that says "God girl ur obsessed!" Yeah I am, so sue me. Where u bin for the past 6 month? Ah midnight!

Wot eles? Making knot wp!

Luv yaz!


[EDIT] 11:01? U guys need to change ur clocks! lol ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/5327578/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/5327578/ Wed, 11 May 2005 07:54:56 PDT




I'm sorry.




(If you bother reading this u'll no that I'm talking to you) ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/5172809/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/5172809/ Sun, 24 Apr 2005 02:15:46 PDT
Chanks to everyone who added to my 1000!

Love you all! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/5014497/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/5014497/ Wed, 06 Apr 2005 08:29:33 PDT
Just a note for any that care I am taking my face and puttin on Joey Jordisons subliminal verses mask markings on me. Then taking all little bits and putting them in too. Including the skelital srtucture of hands and a pair of drumsticks. But I hope it'll go as well tomorrow.

Good luck goes to ~MizzMash too. She is doing well. Keep at it girl!




Last note. Still working towards 1000. Hopefully it'll come after my exam but if not, the work might take a little longer! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4807621/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4807621/ Mon, 14 Mar 2005 04:13:12 PST
If no one sends me a screencap I'll just do a celebration piece.

Cheers for all your comments and other stuff. Luv ya all!

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Then some other bright spark thought. "I no, to really piss someone off we will run these thing on batteries." And of course we never buy the good quality ones, we always get the slightly charper ones that have a lifespan of two weeks. So just as you walk into a big battle, all hyped up and kitted out to the hills with guns n shit..........Your batteries start to go.

So it's not a "Nope I refuse to work" From your mouse, but more of a "I'm going to jerk about to REALLY piss someone off!" So I got my ass SLAUGHTERED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And another thing, How on earth, do optical mice STICK?! I thought that was the whole point of them, a mouse that doesn't stic and that can be used on almost any surface. I have never known a mouse be so fucking tempremental!



Anyway

Other News........

One of my two Guinea Pigs died the other day. I miss him already. I think Kay does too. Yeah, for those of you that don't know, and who care, I had 2 Guinea Pigs. J and Kay. (I know, I know MIB) The reason for the names was because, J had black fur and seemed the gobby, ladies man of the two. Whaereas, Kay (the one still alive) Was the more subdued of the two, but equally as smart.

I miss you J!


Also.......

I feel as sick as a dog. I have missed school for almost 2 days with a virus. I did manage to pik up my art exam tho and I know what I am doing. So wish me lick. I have quite a bit of textiles to do for it.


I think that is all..........

Yep, I'm going to go bash more crap out of my mouse.

Bye! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4559157/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4559157/ Sat, 12 Feb 2005 02:07:41 PST
First of all I have not been online for weeks, so my messages were full of submissions. I had too many to surf thru. So if anyone wants me to check out sum of their work, then lemme no!

Secondly, I have work coming up but the reason for the me not being here is cuz of work experience! I have not been able to get online for ages. Also I have not been able to do any artwork for ages.

Third, I am really pissed off cuz u rememba I was talkin about squeedude. Well He offered to draw me but I have not been able to get myu hands on a camera that works!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am really pissed off about that!

I got ma GCSE art exam wen I go bak, so I am probably going to be doing a lot of stuff for that. I really hope I do well! BTW Lath if your reading this. Wot did Emma get in her art? She told me she got an A*.

If anyone has some good news for me lemme no.

OH! 1 last thing I am looking for some dreadlock haircare gear. Can NE1 point me in the right direction?

Ta! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4335452/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4335452/ Sun, 16 Jan 2005 14:44:34 PST
Bin spending crimbo money on films and drinks, catching up with old mates (DAZ! WHEEEEEE, still as funny as ever. And Barry too!)

I have also been talking to an amazing artist, check out his site @ [link]

He is a genious!!!!!!

That is about it really. I have a meet and mingle 2morro, cuz sum of my work is going up in a local gallery.

But I also have an exam tomorro. So must knock out some revision. *yawn*

I'm gutted, I'm not quite sure what I have done wioth my Green Day album, so must look for that too. Need some ideas for art, any suggestions anyone?

Also check out [link] and see if your fave artist is helping in the relief. There are some big assed stars (such as KORN, LP, Static-X and loads of others.

Luv you all.

]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4194731/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4194731/ Thu, 30 Dec 2004 16:00:35 PST
But it don't end there I have more on the way but I am going to leave them for anuva day.

Also I a thinking about creating a Dev ID, but I need to nkow the size, can anyone help me. Whilst we are on the subject of help. Plz check out the slipknot chibi thing i have dun and give me any comments you can.

Now to chase the dog around for my rubber back!


Bye! *Come here u little.....................* ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4166617/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4166617/ Mon, 27 Dec 2004 03:05:33 PST
I also got DVD's, a sundae set (it's sooooo kool), a new LP hoodie (thanks Ry), a load of Alchemy Poker gear (mainly LP but I got sum slipknot and korn gear) a Jack (n b4 xmas) hoodie, and it glows in the dark, a fiberoptic demon skull and a light up dragon on a rock, and a load of other cool gear.

OK maybe now I'm not so happy cuz I just found out that I won't see ma boyf for almost a week! (trying desperatly to stop him going)

But! How was Christmas for you guys? Lemme no!

Luv you all! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4089463/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4089463/ Fri, 17 Dec 2004 16:03:25 PST
Just stopping by to give you all a and a

I am off to try my hand at doing some lil slipknot doodles @ 23:57. Yay! Wish me luck. I was gunna put some long over due pencil work in, but my scanner dun wanna work so I will have to get my laptop up and runing again. Stupid desktop!

Also if anyone knows of any good slipknot/stone sour/murderdolls art. Lemme no. I would love to see some!

Laterz guys. Now where did I put my pencils..............


<---- CUTE! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4074561/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4074561/ Wed, 15 Dec 2004 15:38:49 PST Mood.....

Listening to....
Stone Sour - Bother
Green Day - B.O.B.D

Main Babble....
I dont know if any of you have heard about the tragic happenings of the 8th. Dimebag Darrell (guitarist for Damageplan) was killed durin a live gig at Columbus. He was shot by some trigger happy insane motherfucker. No one knows quite why, but I find it desgusting how he managed to get through security WITH A GUN!!!!!
Unfortunatly the legend was not the only one killed. However before the gig could turn into a slaughter house, a local police officer shot the gunman. The gunman was Nathan Gale, 25. Members of the crew and security as well as fans were also killed.

For full details I recomend checking out [link]

R.I.P Dimebag!
Not alot gone on. I hurt my lower back and shoulder so I've been off school. Going back tomorrow tho *sigh*

luv yaz!


Other babble...... ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4074536/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4074536/ Wed, 15 Dec 2004 15:33:57 PST Mood.....

Listening to....
Stone Sour - Bother
Green Day - B.O.B.D

Main Babble....
I dont know if any of you have heard about the tragic happenings of the 8th. Dimebag Darrell (guitarist for Damageplan) was killed durin a live gig at Columbus. He was shot by some trigger happy insane motherfucker. No one knows quite why, but I find it desgusting how he managed to get through security WITH A GUN!!!!!
Unfortunatly the legend was not the only one killed. However before the gig could turn into a slaughter house, a local police officer ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4035487/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4035487/ Fri, 10 Dec 2004 14:10:18 PST HELLO!
Wot am I listening to? Slipknot - Vol 3
Stone Sour - Stone Sour
Greenday - B.O.B.D
No Doubt - Spiderwebs
I'm reading...... Some vampire book.......*shrug*
Main babble.........

I was sat talking to Mike today and we woz onnabout Slipknot. (the leggend that is). So however talented they might be of the 3 members that have "unmasked" none of them are cute. Not in any way, shape or form.

I have just got home and decided to look at pics of them. So I pulled up Google and slammed in "Joey Jordison" in the image search. For a split second I got all exeited as I saw an image of a bloke who had the same posture as Joey. As that loaded I realised it was a pic from the Murderdolls time in Joeys career and, OMG, he has no eyebrows!!!!!!!!!!

I open up some other, still, the eyebrows are no where to be seen. (yeah right Mike. "Cute" is he?)

I did the same for Corey only to realise that he is old and not really cute.

So if anyone has, or knows of a pic where Joey has eyebrows plz lemme no. I think Joey looks amazing with his mask on and is a stunning guitarist AS WELL AS A kik ass drummer! I just dun find it possible to like some1 without eyebrows.

thanks!

Other babble.......
Go see Blade 3
You must go see Blade 3
Joey has no eyebrows!!!!!!!
Go see Blade 3!

Luv yaz! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4017451/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/4017451/ Wed, 08 Dec 2004 08:32:34 PST
I'm confuzed!

But anyway. I'mm off to see Balde 3 tonite with Ry and Mike. YAY! It looks mint. I actually did my trial english exam on it on monday! Hope I did well.

Thats about it. Oh and another moan, I still aint got ma signed Papa Roach poster from e-bay. But he got the fucking money din't he.

*sigh* oh well

Luv yaz! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3970857/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3970857/ Thu, 02 Dec 2004 09:03:23 PST
Yeah sure he is going away for 4 months, but he'll be back and he'll be worse. Really I only have 2 things worth living for. So ry plz dun leave me.

I'm getting sick of it all. I really can't see wot I am typing for the tears streaming down my face. I hate him and I hate myself.

I love you Ry thanks for standing by me. ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3932290/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3932290/ Sat, 27 Nov 2004 14:20:01 PST
His performences are much more livley and fun than the others, plus his songs kik ass. He did 2 numbers today and the 2nd of the 2 was Bon Jovi's Livin on a Prayer.

But I am not one for blowing the reality tv's horn as I have just sat down in front of the tv to a stupid blonde freak, One of the sisters from All Saints. You remember that stupid lil band! But I found myself watching a pile of crap which has been thrown together using failed celebs who need to get their careers back on track. It goes by the name of "I'm a celebrity get me out of here". That is the biggest pile of crap you will ever see in your life!

But I will probably watch the final of The X Factor, just to see if Tabby wins. I have yet to decide if I am going to be sad enough to vote.

I would love to hear your thoughts on all of the "reality" tv. (notice reality is inside ")

Have they really taken it too far. A part of me thinks that watching a bunch of faild famous people eating bugs, is just not entertaining, yet listening to people with talent is.

Strange huh? ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3928977/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3928977/ Sat, 27 Nov 2004 02:14:22 PST
These guys and gals have more talent that I could ever wish for, so all I ask is that you chek them out.



I highly recomend checking out Websketcher, Hardcore-chipmunk and Crichton. However they are all talented artists!

Sorry if I left you out this is a rushed job.

]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3915358/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3915358/ Thu, 25 Nov 2004 08:47:59 PST
K so I had a few nights away from ma boyf mike, so I had some time to myself. It felt strange! But I got chance to do some art. I have started summet new and I did an LP inspired Mecha. I need to finnish the text on that then I will submit it. I have some sketches to put up too. I willl do them as soon as I have time.

I have almost finnished my skool work so I might take a pic of it and put it up. U'll have to tell me wot you think.

So wot else have I been up to? *thinks* not a lot. I have been on DAchat. There are sum strange ppl on there. But they are fun!

Errrrrrr. So I am listening to:
Linkin Park!
Slipknot Vol 3
Lp collabs with Jay-z!
Infest

Right guys I am off. I will get the stuff submitted soon. Promise

Thanks.

Luv you all ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3818686/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3818686/ Fri, 12 Nov 2004 15:04:47 PST
But I have an urge to either
A) chibi-fy a band (pos Papa Roach) OR!
B) do a full pencil shaded drawing of Jacoby.
I think I am aiming for B (he is really cute, shame bout the wife n kid huh?)

But moving on:
Fave songs.....
Papa Roach - Getting away with Murder & Scars!
Linkin Park - Numb
Slipknot - Duality & Vermillion
Feeder - Just a day
Foo Fighters - Learn to fly
Mazza - The Fight Song

Thats it kiddies, Oh and ma new fad is writing lyrics all over my skool books. LoL. Not got pulled up for it yet.

Luv ya all! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3757353/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3757353/ Fri, 05 Nov 2004 02:14:29 PST
On Tuesday I was messing arround in ma room with ma boyf, Mike and all I felt was the thumb on my left hand crack then pop. As I pulled it up it popped again. Ah the wonders of dislocating a joint. So now I have to do everything with out my left thumb, which is not too bad cuz I am right handed, but still it is painful.
In wen to skool yesterday, and it was like oh yea this is getting better, only for my friend to go knock it. We are now back to square 1. I am having to do everything whilst keeping my thumb out of the way. Have you ever tried typing without it wen you hit the space bar with it. It's difficult not to. LoL

Well Halloween was a blast, din go trick or treating. @ 15 I am too old. LoL But I watched films with a few friends. Bonfire night tonight, not sure if there are any good displays in my area tho. *shigh*

Oh well. Bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3688167/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3688167/ Wed, 27 Oct 2004 16:50:57 PDT
You see all of the kids running down drives and knocking @ doors before placing a plstic mask upon their face and screaming "Trick or Treat!"

Ah the fun! Unfortunatly, adults frown upon kids almost 6ft tall and older than a lot of kids that go trick or treating nowadays. But it is still fun! I should be having a film fest, not sure tho. So snackage ahoy!


Happy Haloween!

Luv yaz! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3634535/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3634535/ Wed, 20 Oct 2004 12:55:12 PDT
Got a few pics to upload but I need to find the drivers for the scanner, so they could be a while. I'm gunna go look for them in a sec. Also gone back to update on of my Fan Fics. It's been going over a year now and the story alone covers 22 A4 pages. And still no where near done!

Rite wot am I listening to? Hmmmmm.....

GC-TCOLAD
Papa Roach - Infest.
Resident Evil Apocalypse sountrack.
Stone Sour-Stone Sour (thanks to ma bloke)
And
'tallica! (again thanks to ma bloke)

luv you all ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3557923/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3557923/ Sun, 10 Oct 2004 14:28:19 PDT
Where to start, On Friday, CriChTon, Myself, Ma mate and Ma boyf went to see Resident Evil Apoc. Rite, The film started off really gud. The intro was nice, and then film lapsed slightly to refresh you about wot happened ion the end of the last film. Then Valentitne was introduced (ROK ON!) Everything was going really well untill Alice took ova the limelight again!!!!!!!!!! (SIGH)

I watched it tho, I din giv up on it just yet.

So after that they introduced the licker thingies and the houngs. Which, both rocked. So I thought that the film started to look a little better. So wen it got to Nemisis and they showed a full body shot of him, my jaw hit the floor. He looked amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just like he shud do. Big, hard and comes equipt with a fking MASSIVE rocket launcher and machine gun! HELL YEAH!

But then it came to the final battle between Alice and Nemisis I was on the edge of my fucking seat!!!!!!! I wanted Nemisis to slap her stupid. (As you may have gathered I am a Jill fan NOT an Alice. lol) I knew Nemisis was going, but I din no about Alice. I thought, that yeah she cudv'e died, ya no they dragged her out a bit. It shud've been Jills film.

Alice ends up putting Nemisi onto a metal spike and looks deep into his EYE! and sees who he really is. So understandably, she won't finnish him off. But we he pulls himself off the spike I was expecting an almighty, dramatic death scenc. Alice DEAD. GONE!!!!!!!!!! yay!

NO WAY. He goes fucking soft. YEAH rite!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NEmisis would not've gon soft. EVER he was a killing machine!!!!!!!!!! And he was more concirned with Alice than Jill? HELLOOOOOOOOOO.... the whole point of the game was Nemisis wanted to finnish off all S.T.A.R.S members. And of course ex-member Jill. NOT sum stupid lil female who was carried on throughout the film. GET LOST!!!!!!!! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3547309/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3547309/ Sat, 09 Oct 2004 03:38:24 PDT
I have been trying to draw new styles and different mediums, but again with no prevail. I suppose you just gorra keep trying.

Right appart from that I am really ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3333152/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3333152/ Fri, 10 Sep 2004 15:33:40 PDT
So I am just thinking how the hell am I gunna pull all of this off? I have to pass ma exams but ma self esteem is so low @ the moment it is tunneling. I don't think I will ever get where I wanna be in the world.

But on a hapier note, Websketcher, finally got to 2,500 posts and offered art to the guy/gal that got it. Well things changed and stuff went wrong, so I ended up getting 1 from him. YAY!

On the final thing, I HIGHLY recomend investing in a copy of "Papa Roach - Getting Away With Murder" album. It kiks serious ass!
Watch "Shaun Of the Dead" that is so good.
And read, well I aint read a good book for ages. Any suggestion? (and plz dun say Harry Potter or LoTR)

Well this is me signing off. ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3124524/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/3124524/ Sat, 14 Aug 2004 13:47:41 PDT Do you:
A) Luv his best mate for telling you
B) Want to punch his lights out
C) Still feel bitterley dissapointed that he was not as perfect as he seemed,
or
D) all of the above?

D!

well the guy that i soooo liked, is sooooooo fake! He is a wanker (apologise for bad language but i can't help it this time). HE is apparantly on the run from the cops and has got his best mate into shit for helping him out with summet. However his best mate din even know that he was bent.

And you remember me saying that we went to the pics, yeah. well he was all ova me like flys on shite. AND he was all over his best mates girlfriend! HE snogged her after he had been all ova me and hame bak to kiss me. HA!

I feel so sorry for his best mate, and to think, i was going suicidal ova him. I asked him out on wednesday and all io got was basicly i'll get bak to you. So he did, bout 15 mins later. "Sorry, going with Zoe now. Bin afta her ages."

That was it! Nice to you ur second best.

Well at least i have made a good friend in his best mate.

On a happier not, i am going to pik ma cuz up on Monday. He is staying @ mine for a week so that shud be fun!

Last but not least,

Upcoming: a pencil sketch of a golden eagle and python going at it.

Later y'all!

C1 ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/2897256/ http://chosen1-n-abit.deviantart.com/journal/2897256/ Fri, 16 Jul 2004 13:40:55 PDT
Tuesday wasn't so bad but I had to get up in front of bout 200 people! Wasn't nice!

Wednesday, went to see Steve about going to see Spiderman 2, he was so depressed that I ended up being depressed with him. Something about him mum.

Yesterday, Still depressed and nearly lost 9 hours worth of Media work as the laptop nearly crashed whilst I was saving it. (that would only have been the second time! I told them that they were not fast enough th handle Photoshop and they only put elements on!)

Today, I was sat painting my new submission when I put it on the windowledge to dry and the doorbell rang. That stupid mut of mine decided to jump on it narrowly missin the wet paint, but leaving nice marks down the paper. Then I went to find my Microns to use on the webbing on Spideys suit, but lo and behold, they have gone missing! £25 worth of pens, gone!!!!!!!!!

I am going to give up soon. Surley Saturday can't be that bad can it? I soo hope not. Well that is my moan over!

Later! ]]> ~chosen1-n-abit