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i umm at this moment cant say anymore ill update tomorrow or some time soon

ummm im really going to miss you baby im so sorry

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/28232711/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/28232711/ Mon, 09 Nov 2009 08:35:15 PST
you got mad at me for saying i love you to my close friends.... yea so thats a different kind of love! when i started saying i loved you i meant it u fuck face ass holed retard.

dont fucking say you love me and then up and say i fucking love this other girl just because she is different.....

well gah you need to start figuring things out and stop hurting people i have to stop doing things because ik youll be there or someone will be talking about you or some thing you said come to my head everytime i go.

you ruined me ok u fucking ripped everything i had and threw it on the floor

ugh i need to party with some friends..... and school needs to be over!

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/28132866/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/28132866/ Tue, 03 Nov 2009 19:50:30 PST
so yes i am going to say stupid things for a status on facebook...... im lonely ok and i do stupid things when im left alone for too long..... and so what i want someones attention i need people to talk to and have conversations with. im such a needy shy veggie that no one will ever want...
o and dont call me bipolar unless you know me seriously cuz im not! i will say im pretty sure i have depression again tho but what ever ill fix that too like i fix everything else about me for people WTF. its stupid!
im too strong minded sometimes that people freak out. i shouldnt care and i should be used to it but really come the fuck on. you just piss me off.

i really am going to be a cat lady that is an alcoholic whatever idc at this point as long as i dont have to think about things that i shouldnt.

men are seriously all the same tho they say they arent in the begining but then you get to know them more and you know they are still a fuck face.... just what the hell

im effing pissed i cant handle my life and school at the same god damn time.... too much dick and no where to put it. is pretty much RIT

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/27972595/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/27972595/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 05:58:55 PDT
im so sick of being used just because i am a girl doesnt an that you can do anything that you want to me i fucking have feelings.!

dont use me because you want sex! dont use me because you like me and i dont know what i want to do with my fucking life besides just wanting to live

you are so fucking lucky that i havent even thought about starting to cut again....... but then again i have started to drink not that i give a fuck ^^

i just cant handle being toyed with.

~tom: i love you and i still know i do i cant wait for you forever its hard for me to be alone now that i have dated you and fell in love with you... you are my drug that i cant resist. mostly that you make me happy in every way and being so far away kills my heart. ik that you want to get back together some day but when is that going to be?? i need to know so that i have some hope and a reason to live. i miss you and emma so very fucking much

~jared: you say that you dont want to get hurt and i dont want to do that to you i really dont i just wanted to know how i felt about you but you know what ik how i feel now.... you were different or so you say... so i didnt know and the fact that i just got out of a long relationship you should have just backed off. i need a friend right now more then fucking anything!!!!!!!!

~steve: i havent talked to you since really before i started dating tom and now that i am single you think that you can do everything under the damn sun. just gah for the fact that i almost let you im just a fucking weak person

~koda: thanks for making me feel like a damn slut.

JUST BLA FUCK MY LIFE!

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/27658143/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/27658143/ Thu, 08 Oct 2009 20:05:19 PDT
first off why does love hurt so fucking much??? why am i not good enough for anyone? am i going to live the rest of my life alone?

so here is wha happened.....

tom has been acting so weird but i ignored it cuz he does that sometimes when hes stressed. but saturday he said that he might need a break from us cuz our spark is dimming and that he didnt know how to get it back.... but then things get better.... but then tuesday he told me that he thinks hes starting to like another girl but he didnt know wha he wanted and things just kept getting worse...... and today kitty called him to see what was going on since that is just how kitty is.... and he told her that he needs his space and i understand that i just wish he would have told me and i wouldnt have to worry so much.... but then tonight i saw that he was on facebook and i desided to see wha he was doing since i was the one that made his i can get on and he was talking to his friend about that stupid girl....

we all think that he just has a little crush on her cuz he can relate to her cuz of her family situation is like his and all that shit..... but still he told his friend no oone has mad him laugh for 4 years and shit and......

i just dont know what to do and i dont want to lose him i hate feeling like this i hate my life..... and he also said to his friend that he is never going to be happy.... but he always said that i made him happy and that i was always going to cuz he loves me so much.....

FML for never going to be good enough for anyone and feeling this way


well guess what THOMAS SCHWAHN I LOVE YOU TOO FUCKING MUCH TO BE LIKE THIS

I JUST WANNA DIE!!

JUST DONT LEAD ME ON IF YOU DONT WANT TO BE WITH ME ANY MORE

FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML FML

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/27380008/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/27380008/ Wed, 23 Sep 2009 17:41:49 PDT
RIT sucks on the fact that i get no inspiration and the fact that no one will crit and help me out like it was at athena FML. theres no helping out saying that looks like shit and you need to fix this or that or try this and see.....

NO none of that only the fuck ass teachers that completely take over and say okay now keep messing with that and shit. WTF

this is shit and i hate every min that i have to deal with these fuck asses that act like they know everything and think that there the shit


well you know what JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP! I know im complaining and shit but im just sick of it..... i just want to get out of here and go home.

whatever im just going to sit here for the hour or so that is left of this retarded kiddy photoshop class and do nothing

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/27274571/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/27274571/ Fri, 18 Sep 2009 04:18:27 PDT
im not really liking my drawing class right now, my teacher is like only helping me cuz i "am doing it wrong" when i was freaken the only one who was doing the stupid exercise right.... what ever

i think this is going to be it for now i dont really feel good >.<

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/26707984/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/26707984/ Thu, 20 Aug 2009 07:26:20 PDT
and i am totally not ready for college idk what i need but oh well and i just want to get this show on the road and get out of here. i am ready for all the stuck up rich kid brats the are RIT bring it on!!!!

in other news all ive been doing is carting my fat ass brother to his work and home again, cleaning my never going to get painted before school room, and FlyFF. but for once i am downloading new music YAY ^^ thats pretty much it

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/26134738/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/26134738/ Thu, 23 Jul 2009 17:02:37 PDT
so im pretty much ready to give up looking for a job and get ready to embrace the carboard box that has my name on it... since that is where i seem to be going. colleges suck specially RIT and other high tuition colleges that are just ready to put their students into debt and dont care. lol

but besides al this there is not all that much that i am doing different then chillin with tom and sleeping and starting to get sick that i think is messing my whole system up... shit at least i hope thats it

type ya later...

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/23156837/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/23156837/ Wed, 29 Apr 2009 10:05:54 PDT so i do get to go to states on friday thats in like a day or two and i only have like two things packed lol o well ill get there ^^
so while im there hopefully ill get to take some pictures there idk we will see i prob will chill in the hotel most of the time or be at the mall dunno yet its up to what ever kathy wants to do... lol



lol yay i get to go to states next month to watch tom bowl. ^^ im so excited to get to go out of town with him and his mom for a couple days ^^

and its the weekend before APs and my next driving test so i get to relax without my mom bugging me about it... lol


1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18.-Rainbow-
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22.-Mother Nature-
23. Stars
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34.-dying-
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Dreams
38. Abandoned
39.-cat-
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Two Roads
44.-creation-
45. Illusion
46. Family
47.-Deep in Thought-
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Playing the Melody
52.-eyes-
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67.-ramen-
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 75%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81.-Pen and Paper-
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96.-chain-
97. Safety First
98. In the Storm
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/22859313/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/22859313/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 07:53:27 PST
but i am almost done with my animation and all i need to really do is but in the music and i am done. ^^ i finished my long credits ^^

but flash is being so much better then effin movie make was. movie make def doesnt like big files.

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/22626903/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/22626903/ Sat, 17 Jan 2009 04:37:33 PST

i opened it and I got in WOOT WOOT

YAY that is one less thing that I have to worry about a lol and it was the only college that I applied to so that is good lol

but I love my grammy I called them in arizona and my grandpy picked up on speaker and I told him and all the sudden my grammy starts to scream WOOOOOOPPPPIIEEEE lmao cuz she heard and was just waking up from her nap lol

so that made my day ^^

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/22043741/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/22043741/ Thu, 18 Dec 2008 04:58:00 PST
so now i am going to add some stuff and up date

i have been really busy the a three minute animation that is due a little after christmas brake so i have been doing that and on the 6th i took my second round of SATs so that has taken up time too along with the research paper for english ugh so much too do lol

but o well

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/21034874/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/21034874/ Fri, 17 Oct 2008 16:36:54 PDT I really hate bashing people and I think that it is really immature of people

but when i dont like you I dont like you lol

i mean I am a really nice person and my bf and sterling tell me that I really need to start standing up for my self. and I understand that, I shouldnt have people walking all over me my whole life.....

so ok we have been friends for ever and Ive gotten really close with the family(I absolutly love them they are better to me than my own family) but I have tolerated the constant lying, complaining that everything is wrong about unnamed and everything about unnamed just the little things, and using my name to get to do things that unnamed wants and I never get anything out of it in return not even a thank you god damn it!!!!!! last year I was getting annoyed but this year our senior year I dont mant any more drama then I am already getting from gavin and megan ok I need to breath and have at least a little cooper room jeeze. unnamed has been sick with pnemonia (how ever you spell it IDC) making unnamed be out of school for 2 weeks I hate to say it but I enjoyed every god damn second of it. i really did and that sounds really mean. but when I think about it late at night when I cant sleep I relize that i would have never even talked to unname through out my whole high school years because we are that different when I am not hyper. unnamed is unnaturally hyper, complains about shit that doesnt matter, constantly lies about everything and what bothers me the most is that unnamed always has to have a significante other in their life and cant do anything with out them its pathetic i mean growing up together they were never this way and that is why I became friends with them in the first place!!!!

then there is me I am calm most of the times I am a loner by heart but I love the close people that care for me and I am really content with only like one friend and I can deal with that. I go with the flow dont complain and fix things on my own. I dont like people doing or having to reliy on people I hate telling people whats wrong because I feel like I am being annoying or just blothering people with my stupidity so I keep it to my self. I hate fighting with people and I cry when people close to me argue in front of me and there is nothing that I can do or say to stop it(this is because growing up my parents fought a lot)

then it comes to the last straw when you kick my bf ok I mean I was nice to every fucking one of unnameds significantes ok. ok i really disliked most of them but i didnt do anything phyical. i brought them places and was the third wheel for unname almost all my life and unnamed cant give me the fucking light of day for a god damn minute?????

ugh unnamed bothers me and its not like unnamed is going away anytime soon either I have told unnamed to leave me alone I have ignored unnamed. but unnamed still bothers to fix something that is not going to heal. for the past two days I have been taking stressed indused naps and the first day unnamed txted me waking me up and so the next day I turned my phine off so I could sleep because I just really am needing it but no she calls my house and calls my house and calls my house until I answer the phone just to tell me that OMG I GET TO WORK WITH THE KIDS TODAY OMG YAY.... i was like you have got to be kidding me I was trying to kittynap but what ever. unnamed didnt even appologize and got off the phone wow thanks for caring


ugh so I am done done with unnamed ok yea and bashing for a long long time!!!!!
wow sorry its so long even though poeple will not read it anyways....

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/20065243/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/20065243/ Wed, 20 Aug 2008 18:04:17 PDT
I cannot wait.... yes this is going to sound weird for me but I have to say it and its senior year what can go wronge..???... (dont answer that lol)....ik its me right lol

but i am so ready to see everyone and get back to the hardcore working scene again ^^

cu soon ppl lol
<3 cooper

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/19357875/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/19357875/ Sat, 12 Jul 2008 16:15:45 PDT
so am really excited about my estate sale find the other day ^^
We found a (well i just found out that is a 1956) kodak signet 35 camera and it is in great condition and everything lol can we say that it is time for double exposurses the old fashion way lol

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/18244986/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/18244986/ Fri, 09 May 2008 16:26:33 PDT
but she got all weirded out and didnt say a thing and went to the other side of the kitchen!

I mean I kno this kid dumped me b4 but come he has changed and I dont care if she hates him she doesnt even know him all that well and she should trust me enough to make the right desicions in life I mean after next year I am going to be in college and she is not going to be there to fucking hold my hand (thank god!)

but seriously she is keeping me so sheltered that I am prob going to break down when I find out what things are like with out her. and the fact that my best friend on the whole planet has a car right now and could drive me there cuz she is going to she is not allowing because she is afriad that jenn is going to crash the car or something stupid like that

but wow is all I have to say I am so pissed right now that I dont think that I can live in this house anymore so yea I am going to stopcomplaining since I am annoying myself lol so yea

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/18072846/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/18072846/ Mon, 28 Apr 2008 15:19:43 PDT
but any way ladys guy vet dude took some blood and a unine sample (which btw is not like it is for ppl. they actually have to shove a needle in the doggies bladder and get it that way. ever since we got home little woofie has been walking around the house and when she does go to sit she gets right back up poor thing so I have to put a little pillow so that he bottom is cushioned lol (she is spolied lol but I love her ^^)) and now she has to take antibiotices just in case poor thing and the vet has to do some tests and will get back to us tomarrow. but this one is worried!!!!

oh and the antibiotics my mom knows that woofie doesnt take meds from her cuz when woofie was a puppies she didnt take them from my mom cuz the tasted bad so my mom would shove them down her throat and I would freak out cuz woofie would be like chocking!! i was kinda funny even if I was upstairs I would run down in whatever little pink thing of a dress my mom had me in at that age and I would go and protect her (attatched much...yes lol)
so three times a day I have to give these plastic coated things to her. since she is going to be fussy about eating them plain she gets to have what ever I am eating at the moment lol (shhhh lol)

well since you all wanted to know there you go jk
but that is what happened and I needed to vent a little lol
^^

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/18019164/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/18019164/ Fri, 25 Apr 2008 08:12:22 PDT
]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/17954750/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/17954750/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 07:00:44 PDT
i keep being lazy lol

so I will some time put some of my work up on dev

just be patient lol and i hate that word too

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/17776328/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/17776328/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 08:24:40 PDT
but yeah my head is hurting and I should prob get to work

Ill be back later lol ^^

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/17681336/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/17681336/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 10:44:59 PDT
outside it is pooring but if it wasnt I would be going home right now and getting something to eat since I am starving and for got to get something to eat for lunch. ooopppss

lallalalalalalalalalalala

yep really bored but i think that you can tell lol


22 days til my 17th birthday I am so excited and the drop dead gorgeous and from first to last concert that is coming to rochester I am so excited for that concert cuz that means that I am not going to have another boring birthday with my family and I am going to have so much fun lol

so the rain has gotten lighter so I am going to go home now so I will talk to later ^^

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/17336620/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/17336620/ Fri, 14 Mar 2008 18:56:00 PDT
1. what is my middle name???


2. what do I love to do the most????


3. what is my puppys name??? (you can put her real name or her nickname lol)


4. what is my petpeev???


5. what is the one thing that I am most allergic to???


6. how many brothers do I have and what are there names (you can put the nicknames lol)


7. how bored do you think I am for doing this???lol


8. whould you say I am a person that cares for other people???


9. Do I eat meat???


10. and lastly what is my favorite energy drink???


lol well there goes sometime lol

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/17220192/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/17220192/ Fri, 07 Mar 2008 06:06:44 PST 1. I have a boyfriend lol his name is steve and he goes to arcadia and he is a senior and he asked me to senior ball lol and Jenn my friend from bowling is so excited lol that I am going lol I get to see him tomarrow I am so happy i love him lol
2. I had to get a shot yesterday and it hurt so bad and I also found out that I have to get my wisdom teeth out during the summer I am going to freak out I dont want to get them out and I hate haveing surgury I am freaking out
3. yep I was whining lol
4. that is really all that I have to say right now but if I think of anything in photo I will update for you time to get to HW booo

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/17068962/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/17068962/ Tue, 26 Feb 2008 06:13:46 PST
the begining of the week was broing because I was just doing homework and didnt get the chance to talk to any one but then from thursday I was hanging out with sam. going dress shopping for prom and just hanging out in general it was fun. we were going to go bowling on friday but we ended up not going because the time got messed up and it was really bad but I still got to hang out with her it was fun!

I am so happy there is this really amazing guy that I met on saturday and he is so cool. I am going to be out of texts by the end of the week I garenntee it and then my mom is going to be pissed but I will not care he is just so cool and I love talking to him!

so that is basically what happened durning my week but it was fun. time to what is going on this week lol

then on thrursday I have to go ice skating for gym and I am going to completely fall on my ass lol. but it is going to be intersesting and fun at the same time so we shall see what happens lol

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/16859679/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/16859679/ Wed, 13 Feb 2008 06:54:27 PST
but we will have to see what happens

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please choose! plz

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/16332692/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/16332692/ Wed, 09 Jan 2008 16:23:19 PST
okay so after I wrote this all again the orginal pops up out of like now where so here it is most of it repeats srry bout that>-<

boys are so complicated that I have no clue what to do anymore! and rejection sucks even more then I thought this one would but it hit me hard since it was one of my good friend and he was so cool and he has a great personality I really never thought I would like someone so much that it hurt but idk anymore. his name is andrew michelson and he goes to hilton high. (just a little filler right there) IDK but I will try and not let this affect me...

]]> ~cooper23 http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/16311607/ http://cooper23.deviantart.com/journal/16311607/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 06:24:39 PST
but it is cool that I dont really have to wear a jacket but it did suck yeasterday when we were suppose to go to polar wave but I guess someother day!

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