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death & coping

~crushedstars — Fri, 20 Oct 2006 07:56:55 PDT

My father died 2 weeks ago, it was very unexpected.
I'm not coping very well, I don't really know HOW to cope.
If anyone has some suggestions or ideas or anything, I would be open to listening.

Death is the worst heartbreak ever.
I love you, Dad.
&I miss you, so much.

back again

~crushedstars — Sun, 14 May 2006 19:35:54 PDT

It's been over a year since I last posted on here.. I still lurk regularly, and have my favourite artists, but I couldn't bring myself to submit anything. But I'm going to try again.

I am headed back to the UK in a month's time, and hopefully that too, will inspire me again.

Anyway. Hi. I'm back. Hopefully I won't stay away as long again.

ps: I made a writing preview picture thing, forgive the quality as I'm at work and have no decent graphics programs here at all

whoops

~crushedstars — Sun, 10 Apr 2005 18:03:34 PDT

um, hi. i haven't been around on here in months; i really didn't mean to neglect this for so long, i think i've been uninspired. no, thats not true. i've been inspired - but to write, to do craft things, paper arts & making zines & collage, and things that might not have a place on here, in DA.

i still come back and check in on things. i'm just pretty quiet, until something inspires me to post work on here again.

xxx

irritation x2

~crushedstars — Wed, 19 Jan 2005 01:35:00 PST

Mood: annoyed
Listening to: tori amos setlist
Reading: "the virgin's lover" by phillipa gregory

grr. i'm so annoyed. my computer won't load too many deviations for me, so i can't view any one's images
so if you're wondering why i haven't been commenting lately... that's why.

ARGH !! i miss my deviations ! i have been glimpsing quickly at a few here & there at work (but not too many because i feel guilty! also not all are work safe) and there are some amazing ones that you guys are working on, so it bothers me that i can't look at the properly. i don't know if the problem is with my computer, my modem (i'm on dialup) or what.

*tears out hair*

in other news, i got some of the prints i ordered from some of you this week, and they are lovely. i was going to post the thumbnails of the ones i got, but i can't browse through and find them because i can't see any of the images !

but i'm terribly, TERRIBLY broke at the moment -- so i'm not going to be able to buy any more for awhile now. i know i commented and said there were some prints i was going to order, but i just can't right now. i'm awfully stressed about money at the moment, so i hope you understand :-\

will go back to commenting once my computer starts letting me see everything again. sigh.

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sunday love

~crushedstars — Sat, 08 Jan 2005 14:44:15 PST

Mood: procrastinating ;)
Listening to: video hits (video clips)
Reading: "the virgin's lover" by phillipa gregory

do you like the journal header? it was made by the lovely *dualdesigns who is just too, too sweet. you made my day, you darling !

i adore sundays. sundays are waking up early, a day of writing & finding creative things to do (or rather, procrastinate on doing ) & letter writing & ideas galore. sundays are also mondayitis in anticipation of the week at work ahead, but we don't think about that, right? RIGHT

there are so many creative people on here and beautiful images, i am just falling in love with DeviantArt!! * enstillfear has the most amazing photography -- i am going to buy some of his prints next time i get paid. his photography makes me feel peaceful and happy.

i don't really have much to write about in this journal... i feel rather happy & at peace most of the time, which is unusual for me. art is such a therapeutic medium. i'm working on a couple of zines at the moment and writing and finding words is like a love affair. i feel inspired and full of energy to create things and try and make a difference. i hope this feeling lasts, and i hope i can share it with others and help them to feel the same way.

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blah blah blah at work ;)

~crushedstars — Wed, 05 Jan 2005 22:20:35 PST

Mood: ready to finish work
Listening to: my ipod is flat :(
Reading: "the virgin's lover" by phillipa gregory

hello lovelies 15 minutes to go before work is over for the day, and goodness; am i ever ready. working in insurance isn't the most exciting thing ever. actually, it's pretty far removed from anything creative, and sometimes i really struggle with that. if only i could surround myself with words & colour & images and all amazing creative and inspiring things everyday. if only.

i don't even know what all of YOU do for a living. are you living your dream? or are you working a job just to pay the bills and fund the things you love best (like DeviantArt )? tell me how you spend your days... who is a mother... who is studying... etc

i went and ordered some prints today only a few, and just in small sizes. i wanted to order more because some of you have some gorgeous work, but i wanted to see how much it would be for shipping, plus i'm pretty broke at the moment. i just got paid today and already my money is gone! but i will keep on looking and ordering things as the year progresses. i'm so excited to get the prints in the mail :beams:

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scattered mind

~crushedstars — Sun, 02 Jan 2005 18:24:56 PST

Mood: a bit uninspired :X
Listening to: downloading some sarah slean
Reading: the gap year {lonely planet guide}

i added a photo of me in my scraps, just in case anyone wanted to know what i looked like. sometimes it's nice to know who the person is behind the screen (or behind the lens).

have been trying to assemble some more copies of my zine, winterspark // soulbreaking, but i photocopied them in the wrong order, so that is making it a bit more challenging ! rats. i'll post some more details about the zine later on as well, and upload some pictures to scraps. i've been adding a few things there lately. i actually really like people's scraps sections, it's fun to see the unfinished pieces, or the bits of art that were just for fun or other reasons other than being a finished, polished work. i like scans of people's notebooks and things like that. it's all creativity, it's all artwork, it's all inspiration.

it's been raining and thundering here all morning; the sky can't decide whether to tear apart or not. i love long weekends. i've been writing letters and working on other things since the new year, and it's been fabulous. hopefully the rest of the year will continue on in the same manner

back to work again tomorrow though... ugh. oh well, there has to be the negative to balance out the positive, right? my job's not that bad. just dull

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happy new year !

~crushedstars — Fri, 31 Dec 2004 18:33:39 PST

Mood: a little bit sleepy
Listening to: shut up, Black Eyed Peas
Reading: i have a few to choose from :)

happy new year everyone !!

i hope your new years eves were wonderful - whether you stayed in and had a quiet one, or went out with friends or family. most of all i hope you all stayed safe.

i had dinner with one of my girlfriends, then went over to another girlfriend's place, so i got to see my two best friends for nye, which was a first in a long time it was relatively quiet & low key, which i think is how i like it best.

i don't usually make new years resolutions, as such, more like goals and things to do throughout the year. or is that the same thing? hehe anyway...

have a good one everyone !

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oh, love !

~crushedstars — Sat, 25 Dec 2004 21:19:43 PST

Mood: touched
Listening to: sweet ones, sarah slean
Reading: travel books of sorts
Watching: hiring something soon, i think :)

thankyou so much to *dualdesigns for the thoughtful subscription to DA... honestly hon, you just made my day. i am practically crying, i am so touched by your generosity & sweetness. *hearts to you*

am still browsing all of your prints for some things to order -- i adore so many of all your images, so choosing just a few to order will be hard. but i have a wishlist now to add them too and that means when i have some money throughout the year, i can come back and order them, one at a time. i really do admire all of you lovely people on here, and will do my best to support you all as i can.

much love & happiness to you all xxxxx

prints

~crushedstars — Sat, 25 Dec 2004 17:26:31 PST

merry christmas lovelies !! <3

i have decided that since i have some money in my paypal account, i am going to finally buy some prints of some of my favourite deviations on here.

so if you have a print account, let me know and i'll have a browse through and see what else to order

*excitement*

a heart full of love

~crushedstars — Sat, 06 Nov 2004 21:27:31 PST

i saw my biscuitlove last night for the first time since september; he didn't stop hugging me and it was so fabulous to be with him again. he held me all night and i felt so safe & loved by him. lesigh.

there is perfection in being so close to the one you adore the most.

i need to go away more often if this is what i get to come back to ^_^

home again

~crushedstars — Wed, 03 Nov 2004 08:21:35 PST

i am back from my travels around the UK
and oh, i had such an amazing time, sigh.
i wish i was still there.

slowly sorting through the hundreds of photos that i took (hurrah for digital!)
my camera got stolen partway through the trip and i lost a whole lot of pictures (but never the memories, i learnt; the memories stay in yr heart forever) but there are still plenty more to show.

travelling is so amazing. i have definitely been bitten by the travel bug now.

her england heart

~crushedstars — Thu, 23 Sep 2004 05:38:50 PDT

Saturday i will be off to England, for nearly 6 weeks.
so i probably won't be around until the beginning of november
but i promise photos when i return. lots of photos. and more effort into this. because you guys are so inspiring and amazing, and it makes me want to work harder at the things i do and try to learn.

so farewell for now, lovelies; but i promise, i WILL be back.

*love*

forever, is an awfully long time

~crushedstars — Sat, 14 Aug 2004 04:14:21 PDT

i haven't updated in ever so long; but perhaps it's time to try again.

i'm sorry, my loves.

we are all made of stars

~crushedstars — Sat, 22 May 2004 23:02:04 PDT

i'm still working on developing a photo site (um, no pun intended?) but figured it was about time to join this since i spend enough time over here looking at various artworks.

i am not artistic & talented as many of the people i've seen on here; but i'm growing & learning & experimenting and isn't that what art is all about?

recommend me sites & people to watch & all that fun stuff.
there can never be too much creativity.

xx