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People Watching

They were in a former fire Nation colony, and though the fire nation had retreated some five years back, its cultural impact was still strong as ever. The clothing, for one, was very much in fire nation style, despite the flourish of the green color palette, as well as architecture and cuisine. It was here that Toph decided to initiate Zuko into one of her favorite pastimes. “Ok Sparky, here’s the name of the game: people watching.” They were seated in a café, sipping on tea and snacking on fire flakes, waiting on their brunch orders. It was a very nice tea shop, possibly the best in town. True, they were on a field trip and camping, but that didn’t mean Zuko or Toph would tighten up the purse strings anytime soon. “I always play this with Uncle, but I suppose you’ll do just as well.”

"People watching?”

“Are you a Reptile Parrot now? Sheesh, let me finish.” She slurped the rest of her tea. “You play by paying attention to funny people around. Usually I’m not much on paying attention, but with this game it’s worth it, great for some laughs. I thought it would be really boring at first, but then Iroh—“

“But Toph…”

She sighed. “There you go again with your interrupting, and my name isn’t Toph. It’s Hawky. Get it right when we’re in public, Lee.”

“How can we… I mean, how can…”

Toph smirked. “Oh, I get it, you think because I’m blind that I can’t play. Well I’ll show you. Pick someone.”

Zuko swallowed and scanned the crowd out in the streets around them. “Uh, the girl at the skewer stand to your right.”

“Hmm, you mean bigfoot? Yeah, she’ll be alright.” Toph didn’t bother to turn her head, but did pull her feet from their perch on the gate to the ground. “Describe her to me.”

“Well, she’s um, about Suki’s height, black hair, wearing Fire Nation robes.”

“You mean robes from the Fire Nation or robes that just look Fire Nation?”

Zuko narrowed his eyes, “Not that there’s much of a difference, but robes from the Fire Nation, I guess.”

“Oh, there’s a big difference. Keep going.”

“She just bought some stupid trinket. Now she’s reading a paper very closely, a map maybe.”

“Ah, a tourist,” she chuckled with an evil air. Toph took in a deep breath of air, and then stomped her feet to the ground, once, twice, three times.

“What did you just do?”

“Uncle wouldn’t like it very much. He hates when I play tricks on tourists, but they make it too easy. I just made her map a bit more obsolete… by changing a few road signs.”

“Toph!”

“It’s Hawky!”

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It would take a few more days, before Zuko became even tolerable at people watching, but by their last day in the former Fire Nation colony, Toph was beginning to notice a trend. “Lee, what’s Miss Drags-her-feet wearing again?”

“She’s wearing an average Fire Nation top, sleeveless, in green.”

“Sleeveless, like Katara’s Fire Nation disguise?”

“… yes.”

“What about Maggie, the loud eater? Is she wearing something like that too?”

“I, um, can’t see her. She’s sitting down.”

“But you saw her before.”

“Yes.”

“So, you remember her outfit.”

Yes. I believe she was wearing something similar.”

“Sparky, I’m noticing a trend.”

“… really.”

“Yes, really.”

Zuko took a sip of tea, trying (unsuccessfully) to steady his breath. As he set down his cup, as calmly as possible he asked, “What kind of trend?”

As Zuko had progressed in his abilities in the game of People Watching, Toph had added in practice of naming their observe-ees, as well as imagining what their days and lives were like. Clothing description was a must. “An increased-heart-rate-to-less-clothes ration,” she said, smirking.

“I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

She crossed her arms over her chest. “You can’t fool me, Lee. I’m a human lie detector, but remember heart rates are good for noticing many other things too.”

Zuko had never been much for people watching, but he’d never done it like this before, where it was a game, trying to find the most interesting or funny or just plain odd person. He snuck a look back over at Maggie the loud eater. The girl was standing again, leaning forward to pay h... ]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/26054304/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/26054304/ Sun, 19 Jul 2009 21:55:19 PDT
I don't know what's going on. Maybe I should get out of the house? Maybe at the library writing would occur, just by the overwhelming proximity to the written word. I don't know, possibly not. For instance, sat down last night with all the proper intentions to write. Guess what I ended up doing. Making a picspam for the zutara livejournal community until the wee hours of the morning (... it did turn out pretty awesome thought: [link]), but still no writing. The answer could be that I'm just antsy (yes, "antsy." Think back, you were probably called that when you were, oh, let's say, five years old). Albiet my good friend is getting married in 13 days, possibly 12 depending on the time, and that has had an impact on my psyche lately. Thank goodness the bridesmaid dresses are cute, or I'd be uber-antsy.

All of that said, writing. must happen. soon.

List of serious priorites:
- My toast for the wedding... oh my

List of fandom priorities:
- Feathers, Liquor and Burnt Cigars. Oh dear, sweet SynletAU. How I've missed you. It's time for that rewrite. Let's get rid of the OCs, shall we?
- Pet project #1: Synlet Spring Break mini-fic. I have a chapter or two, I think it's good, but again, writing just hasn't been my strong suit lately.
- Pet project #2: An Avatar friendship fic (seasoned with a teeny bit of Zutara... if you look close). This I really want to work on and have a bunch of ideas. Let's see if this ever happens.

List of unlikely-but-still-in-the-realm-of-possibilities:
- No Capes: I'm just too lazy.
- Deadly Obsessions: right now I'm just not sure if I even like this fic.

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That said, I LOVE ARGENTINA!!!!!

It literally is one of the most amazing places I have ever been. The people are so welcoming, and already, after only a month, I've learned so much!

That is why I have disappeared from the internet. Updates will be few and far between.

P.s. tomorrow at four in the morning I leave for Machu Pichu. Be jealous.

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Red Eye: Beyond Control
[link]

PotC (Beckabeth): Miscalculations
[link]

Miscalculations Teaser: [link]

P.s. leaving the country in two days.

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... Come to find out, I had been attack by an especially nasty strain of computer virus. Parading around as Windows XP anti-virus software, but despite the convincing graphics I wasn't convinced. However, even then it was too late. Now the boys at best buy are trying their best to salvage my files.

Lesson learned - Not renewing you anti-virus software DOES actually do something.

Yeah... this'll set me back a bit.

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*Drumroll please*

I bring with me: MISCALCULATIONS

...

Yeah, I know. Not a new chapter for all my pre-existing fics, but a new one. Yet another project that I will drag on an unbearable path of procrastination... but with fun highlights and cheesy, dark romance

A PotC fic, featuring the lovely Elizabeth Swann/Turner and Lord Cutler Beckett. A slightly AU piece, maybe alternate ending, where Beckett did not die - though personally his death (as with most villains) was ambiguous enough to allow for a reappearance later. I'm still deciding whether or not to kill off dear, dear Will, but in any event Liz isn't prego with his eggo.

Here's the trailer, plus a banner: [link]
[link]

Cutler Beckett, formerly Lord, saved from the seas only to be the disgrace of the East India Trading Company, is now being sent to the far EITC outpost in Georgia. Late one night, the crew finds Miss Swann and bring her the captain. Will two enemies find they have more in common in the New - albiet broken - World?

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/19630967/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/19630967/ Sun, 27 Jul 2008 21:08:39 PDT Kettie don't kill. I swear I'm going to email you quite soon) and reading and just plain catching up. I love Florida and can't wait to be in the sunshine!

Oh, am slightly (hardly) glad that I wasn't present at SDCC. Heard there was plenty of anti-Zutara sentiment to go around... which of course would be bad for me, a proud Zutarian.

P.s. I need to make a new icon. I'm thinking something along the lines of Avatar, quoting Sokka from the Ember Island Players where he says "it was really unclear" in reference to Jet's maybe-death. I'm thinking it'll say "Villain death = really unclear" because as we all know whenever a villain quote unquote dies it's all really ambiguous.
Peace out.

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In other news, want to thank the 'rents for sharing with me that they learned recently from some talk show or another, that Seth Green frequents San Diego Comic Con, in costume and that he looks for hot chics there... He was quoted saying all hot chicks are now into anime.

THANK MOM AND DAD. I don't get to go and now have to know that my one true stalk-ee... I mean, love, goes. ::Sigh:: there's always next year.

Actually the parents have been quite supportive of my Avatard status and haven't mocked me this week while I have shunned my friends and hidden in my room with my tv and internet. Its good to be home. In the dorms, peeps would walk in on me watching anime, burst out laughing and just walk out, lol. They couldn't believe that I was an anime lover.

Oh, p.s. wrote a Zutara drabble. [link]

p.s.s. If anyone can guess what the title of this journal is referencing... i'll give you a cyber cookie... or write you a drabble...?

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All I can say is f*ck yeah doggie. Basically Mai is AWESOME, and I'm just a teeny bit in. But gracious... oh gosh, someones calling me. We're already late, AHH!!

P.s. I'm behind in everything right now. Will try to get back up to speed super soon.

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Oh and now that the pageant is finally over, mom let me have more free time... aka WRITING TIME!!!!

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2. Working on DO next chapter.

3. trying to draw sketches of all my purged manips. Key word "trying"

4. Seeing Jack's Mannequin in the Vans Warped Tour Wed. It's gonna be sweet!

5. MAJOR QUESTION: Does anyone remember that postwar Avatar fanfic. Katara marries Zuko. Aang is heart broken, but Bumi makes him shack up with half of Kyoshi Island to repopulate the airbender nomads. Katara comes back to him, because Zuko is a jerk. He has kids with some other chick, just becuase the zutara kids can't firebend... so ringing any bells??

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Jim Hawkins, Iago, Ron, and Kronk.

I do believe that's a good mix. It'll be interesting to see them interacting with Buddy and Clopin. Let the good times roll.

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- Jim Hawkins (for sure)
- Iago (for sure)
- Ron (90% sure)

And then the not so sures

- Robin Hood
- Little Jon (Obviously those are kind of a package deal).
- Kronk (currently who I'm leaning toward)
- And maybe (highly unlikely) the kid from Anastasia (Yeah I know he's not from Disney... but whatev)

Also, upon reviewing Avatar season 1, OH MY GOSH!!! I forgot how great season one actually was. I mean, I think all avatards did, mostly because of how much the episodes got replayed. Everyone got sick of them, but MAN. The writing JUST AS WITTY AS SEASON 3. Also, think I'll write an avatar drabble or two, just for kicks.

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Not much going on. I'm posting all my lost art on LJ. Will have a link soon. Also working on a new chapter for DO.

That is all. Peace.

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I have come up, finally with a small list of possible disney peeps to add to Buddy Pine's 20s gang. Need you all to vote on a top three. Thanks a bunch.

1. Jim Hawkins (From Treasure Planet. P.s. pretty sure he's in the mix no matter what... like 76% sure)

2. Sid Phillips (Toy Story 1... not so sure about this one)

3. Aladdin (Is he too good to be a villain? He did steal a lot)

4. Peter Pan (Too young?)

5. John Smith (Okay... okay... hang with me... I did have a thought. I have been playing around for a while of one of the gang members getting knocked off... but John smith could be assumed dead? Or just sent back to England...? Just a thought)

6. Robin Hood

7. Kay (Sword in the Stone... he was always kinda bratty)

8. Urchin (From the Little Mermaid television series)

9. Ron (from Kim Possible)

10. Iago

11. ??

Any other suggestions? I wanted to keep most of them younger, but I'm open to other ideas.

Oh, p.s. thank you to *Kijikun for inspiring me to stop being such a sloth-ful bum and actually getting to work. You're great, Kij. Love your recent writings!!

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*Edit*

replaced Sweet and Low with a newer much more interesting version. Check it out [link]

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And I HAVE NO IDEAS!?!

So help

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But I'm home now and as I sort through the tatters of what is two different worlds and ways of living converging, hopefully, into what and who I really am. Because, well she kinda got lost, and I miss her.

So this summer, appears to be a lot of reading, swimming, writing, dieting, praying, and knitting hats.

It looks like its going to be good.

Tornado watches today and driving around with my best college friend who I stole back home with me. Showing her my haunts and the best places to eat. Oh, and grades came in, I decided that I don't have the emotional capacity to look at them at this time, maybe next semester after I have picked up that GPA.

Till... well sometime,
crzysheelf

*EDIT*

Wow, just saw Avatar 314 and 315, and basically it was MAGNIFICENT!! And I must admit, I might secretly, and of course secondarily, ship Maiko... I dunno, I kinda liked it in these episodes. Of course, I'm still a die hard zutarian, but ya know, its ok to be open to other options...

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I'm going on Hiatus until May 1st. I'll still prolly check the site every once and a while, but no posting or writing. ... Well might post some stuff from class, but that's iffy...

I've gotten a bit behind (ALOT) in school and in general need to re-think my priorities, so Hiatus...

I will miss you all,

Until May1st,
crzysheelf

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Now, on with the anthems.

Be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
- Bad Boy, by Cascada

^Shakes head... don't even ask.

I'll be your distraction.
I'll be your distraction.
- Distraction, by Angels & Airwaves

^So disctracted, oh so very distracted, and I have so so so much I should be doing.

My hands shake clasped with fear as you come near
To say goodnight, just like a dove.
A peaceful sign.
To help us by as you come in.
Let this begin.
- Breath by Angels & Airwaves

Lyrics say so much, and speak to people on such a deep level. They can make us laugh, cry and everything in between. They solidify and capture our hopes, our dreams, putting them into words we could never have verbalized ourselves. When those dreams end, the songs are still there. We can reminisce, we can begin a new. We keep singing all the way.

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]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/17365583/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/17365583/ Sun, 16 Mar 2008 15:23:14 PDT And disappeared with everything that you held dear
But you shed not a single tear for the things that you didn't need
Cause you knew you were finally free
- Your Heart is an Empty Room by Death Cab for Cutie

Some days (some weeks, or even further back months, seasons or years at time) life is just harder. It's my turn right now. Life is hard. I wish it wasn't, but I'll get through and personal growth will abound.

It's just when life gets hard, school gets harder respectively. I don't want to do homework. I want to lay in bed, wishing away the bad things. That's what I want, and too many times that's what I do. I dream and that's nice, but I have to get up. I have to live in the here and now. I can't mope. I have to write papers and read Paradiso and write creative non-fiction pieces and revise my poetry, and study minimally for Religion. I have to keep working on friendships. I have to stop crying. I have to start working out, and stop eating and smoking. I have to; that;'s all there is to it.

I remember why I love summer: reading fiction non-stop and my job. I teach swim lessons, and it keeps me going. I remember the hope and potential of the world in the faces of the beautiful little children, and everythings okay.

It's a funny place to be in, but I think we all can agree. When one minute you are so happy about something in life, a funny joke or a really good dinner, but then the dark sad stuff comes back and you're sad again. It's hard, but looking at the glass half full is the goal.

In more substantial news, I want a tattoo. I dreamcatcher, in white, on my left ankle. I have brown skin, so I think it won't be too noticeable. I think I'll get it over summer. My parents might just kill me, but frankly I don't care. I also think I'll take motorcycle driving lessons, because frankly it's what I want to do. It might point to something my dad has said for a while now: I am a flight-er. Fight or flight... I flight. I run and I leave and I go. But eh, motorcylcles are bad ass, and frankly I'm also a bad ass, if I do say so myself (even an undercover one).

So, if you read this, snaps for you, and if not, I get that too. Emo posts are always hard to read, and more for the writer than the reader. I get that. So until tuesday when life gets better (my grandmother goes home and the play starts) I think I'll be MIA.

Love and fandom,
crzysheelf

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1. I feel like a loser sitting in my dorm, giggling about the Zutara podcast: [link]odcast&tid=7306&id=27743

2. I really really REALLY need to buy tickets to San Diego Comic Con, also would be helpful if I actullay knew some peeps who were into Anime... yeah, that would help ALOT!

3. I love the west coast. It's THE MOST gorgeous place ever.

4. I highly recommen the Angels and Airwaves concert. It was surpisingly grand.

5. I have updates coming, not in the works, done and coming... soon.

6. STORY TIME!

... [continued from top of page] so there's this very hot guy, who I randomly run into ALL THE EFFING TIME. However, I can't get rid of the urge to run away out of anxiety - so I do. I literally run away. Which, I'm kind-of-sort-of out going, so this makes any of my friends whom I'm with laugh their arses off. Which, only draws more attention to me bolting. So, good story? Eh? Yeah I know it was unorthadox without build up, climax and falling action, but eh, ya know.

It's a good day and I hope everyone has a good day also!!

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Ok... So maybe I went a little overboard with that journal entry...

*breathes deeply and goes into a yoga pose*

Better now.

The story: today I checked DA (as I do multiples time a day, cause I'm addicted), and I had two notes from DA saying that much of my gallery had been deleted due to copyright infringement. All my manips, which numbered, what? 28? Gone.

'Tis sad. I think the problem was that (again) they revamped their labeling system and thus mine appeared to be not under fanart (though at the time of postage, it was) and thus copyrighted?? Possibly? I don't know. But Maybe I'll try again, to repost some things in a more copy-friendly manner.

Now to write a paper... then on to spring break where pen meets ski slopes and fanfic and origional writing can coexist happily... what a wonderful world!

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Happy Day and glasses of Orange Juice to all! (
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Watched the second half of Dark Angel season 1. I ship Logan and Max (played by Jessica Alba) because they make me smile. *Goes to check ffnet for Dark Angel fics*

P.s. I need someone to beta AU chapter 4. As enticement, here's a preview:

The little girl stomped her feet. “I can walk by myself!”

“Lilo!” the older woman looked to Buddy. “Get out of my way. I have to take her to school, because apparently someone has been getting lost on their way.”

She looked to the little girl, apparently that was her cue. The child sighed. “Invisible demons from the netherworld lure me away from what is ri-righteous and of good report into skipping school and drawing in the playground instead.”

“Lilo!”

The Piner chuckled. “Actually, she could get pretty far with that excuse. That’s what I tell the cops every time, and do you see me in prison.”

Nani put her hands to her face. “Yet, do we see you in prison yet.”

~

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On the boy front, there are two boys this semester who I have just met (though one I haven't really "met" per say... long... LONG story) But neither of them know I exist, so whatever. It also doesn't help that I wake up five minutes before the classes I share with them... I of course am not one of those people who can wake up gorgeous. Gah, those people piss me off. There's also a boy in another class that I find myself staring at... but he thinks of me as an intellectual buddy.... aka NERD. And when all we talk about is class work, then yeah, I can totally see why I appear that way to him. Again, I don't really try to look great for class. Frankly, I can look pretty decent when I try, but srsly, I am NOT going to get up early just for that. Sorry, I just won't. Oh and I think my best guy friend is hitting on me... crap, which means I'll have to back off for about a month or so. Which he's such a good friend, that that's not gonna be awesome! BAH!

I think I got way too rant-y there. But on a happy note, I am writing again. My own fiction of course. For class, I have a pretty decent story started. I'm rather excited about it actually. It's about a girl who is trying to find individuality apart from her parents who try to push her into her brother's mold. She also works in a fed-ex shop and is diabetic.

Also AU is coming nicely (slowly, but nicely). Also had a sequel idea for Flyaway. Another three parter. It'll be called Genius and will show Buddy growing up and the various ways he exhibits his unique talents. Also a lot about Margaret.

Oh, my parents sent me Paradise Lost for VDay, which is more than I could have asked for.

Have a great day, all, single or otherwise. I'll leave you witha final quote:

Violet: Charlie Brown, we've been feeling awfully guilty about not giving you a Valentine this year. Here, I erased my Valentine from this one. I'd like you to have it.

Schroeder: Hold on there! What do you think you're doing? Who do you think you are? Where were you yesterday when everyone else was giving out Valentines? Is kindness and thoughtfulness something you can make retroactive? Don't you think he has any feelings? You and your friends are the most thoughtless bunch I've ever known. You don't care anything about Charlie Brown. You just hate to feel guilty. And now you have the nerve to come around one day later and offer him a used Valentine just to ease your conscience. Well let me tell you something - Charlie Brown doesn't need your -

Charlie Brown: Don't listen to him! I'll take it!

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However afterwards, here's my itenerary:

1. Sleep more

2. Catch up on homework

3. Work on AU

4. Go to sorority valentines/singles awarness party.



On a final note, why are boys so stupid.

...

*moment of genius* Violet should SO ask that in the AU!!!

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16836858/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16836858/ Mon, 11 Feb 2008 17:15:01 PST
Ever since I was little (being the only child with less than porcelain skin in my small private school) I was a bit of commodity, due to my ethnicity. Nothing wrong with that, of course truthful little children will be curious as to why that little girl's skin is so much darker than their own, but as I grew older, I would get the more than occasional Native American joke, and usually I would laugh along because they were good natured and for the most part very funny. Always something silly like for instance, outside my school we always had geese stopping in a field, don't know why, but they liked this particular field. Every once in a while someone would ask me where my bow and arrows were so I could go and catch one, that sort of thing. No harm no foul.

Here at college though I have heard some comments and off handed remarks that can't be taken quite so flippantly. No one has ever said anything that I would consider racist, I believe however it just points to a flaw in our society as a whole.

The Native American issue, often brushed over in history class or misconstrued, adds fuel to the flame of the Native American situation. No one learns much about the plight, and thus has little capacity for empathy. The group as a whole has not been given adequate chance for success (
This is why I feel strongly about being successful; I want to prove that it can be done. Though I have done little with the short 18 years I have been alive, I hope that one day I can grow to be an inspiration to others. I want to show other Native Americans that you can dream big, and yes, you won't always succeed, rarely even, but there is so much more merit in trying than not trying at all.

Thanks for reading, if you did. Means a lot to me. I guess I had little point in writing this except to better understand what I was feeling myself. I was just so overwhelmed today with these emotions, just had to get them out, lol. I suppose if there was one thing I wanted you to take away from reading this it is to try and see situations from another’s point of view, not just Native Americans but all different backgrounds. Try to understand their situation, you’ll be the wiser for it. Like Uncle Iroh, lol!!

*Edit*

This site just about sums it up, at least where education is concerned. [link]

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16790326/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16790326/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 19:06:31 PST
You are writing a SYNLET story... SYNLET...

Not CLOPANI!

However, said pairing keeps popping up around every corner!! Not to mention other very strange and odd pairings... like SynMirage for instance, Viony, Lilo/Dash (
I dunno, I'm too much of a shipper. Basically, all I really want is to get the next chapter posted this weekend. Think some very funny dialogue occurs. Not to mention we find out what Violet is most scared of... and it's not needles (
Smiles and giggles, thank GOD it's Friday!!

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16714358/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16714358/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 20:23:35 PST
]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16679917/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16679917/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 18:59:55 PST
But I will admit that at times (ALL THE D*MN TIME) I am socially awkward and inept!!!!!! I am at a total loss to explain the extent to which I am so darn awkward. Seriously??!?! Just got off the phone with the most awkward convo EVER with my sorority big sis.... I dunno... going out with her tonight. Sometimes I legitimately think she thinks that I'm mature and not a loser freshman, but then sometimes...? We'll see... tonight might be the most random time ever. Me and bunch of the greek sisters are going to hooka and ice cream, then onto a party with big sis, and then who knows, let's just see if I can manage being social label of "cool kept-together chick."

Still have to write that paper, oh and need to finish my poems for my portfolio. Have this great idea for a poem where it explains all the forms of poetry and each stanza is written in a different form (sestina, haiku, sonnet, ballad...?) but also makes a joke of cliches. I personally think it will be funny.

I miss home. I miss it a lot. I never believed that I would get homesick. But I do, a lot. However, a small piece of home is coming to visit: my grandmother. To which I can only say that she isn't coming to visit me, but to watch her favorite tennis player... thanks grandma, thanks.
AHHHH!!!!

Oh, working on a fun AU manip. About mirage Vi and Buddy. Heard a song and it just struck me how well it fit. Question: what should Mirage and Buddy's history be?? I mean, at one point they dated, but some how she pissed him off and now they have an awkward relationship... this next chapter will shed some light to their dynamic at hand, but what got them to that point...? I am at a loss... Any suggestions?

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16668095/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16668095/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 02:22:09 PST
I have an eye twitch, which has three causes, lack of sleep, being over-caffeinated, and stress...

Three strikes, I'm out.

My dark circles are the size and depth of New Jersey. Holla east coasters...

Religion 101 test tomorrow... I think that I'll be fine. Thank God for 13 years of Christian education. The bright spot in the hole that is homesickness and lack of motivation... oh my someone throw me a rope, or a pillow and blanket, think I'm in for the long haul.


OH

and in less emo news. I have an update for No Capes somewhere in the margins of my PoliSci notes...

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16605990/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16605990/ Mon, 28 Jan 2008 00:48:49 PST xXEmi-chanXx for allowing me to watch Disney's Atlantis: the Lost Empire... however, watching it got me thinking...

Which inspired an idea that I wish I could draw.

Family Reunion:
[link]
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[link]
[link]
[link]
[link]

ALL HAVE DARK SKIN AND WHITE HAIR!!!!!!
Kida from Atlantis, Mirage from The Incredibles, Storm from X-men, Kaora Suu (I think) from Cowboy Bebop, Scar from Fullmetal Alchemist (though not naturally), and Kaolla from Love Hina...

Funny? Eh? Eh?

OH! Time to go get laundry!!

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16601595/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16601595/ Sun, 27 Jan 2008 17:47:19 PST
Google has not been helpful, and yes I will buy the movie, but everything around here is already closed, because its a strange place I now live in. No 24-hour a day service like back home!! AHH!!

So any suggestions of sites or URLs that would solve this conundrum would be oh so very helpful!

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16575210/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16575210/ Sat, 26 Jan 2008 01:31:11 PST
Because I went to bed at 8... however I woke up at eleven and thus can't go to sleep!! AHHH!!! Well from here I have two options I could work on class work, Dante's the Inferno.. OR fandom...? Tough choice... truly I'm simply torn...

^Gracious I'm just ridiculous sometimes/ALLTHETIME!!!!

So finished reading some fic by a grand Synlet author of crazy-awesome-ness ([link]

In other news, I think I have finally reached or am getting closer to a point where I can truly embrace me singularity. Really being single is the best, if I wasn't single I probably would be out right now not catching up on sleep and fandom (
Ok, in breaking news, I decided to just go back to bed... lolz....

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16544369/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16544369/ Wed, 23 Jan 2008 22:20:18 PST
2. To do Intro to Creative Writing Homework... oh and kinda write four more poems. (When are those due again? See: Syllabus... unless you lost it... d*mn)

3. Read the second half of Augustine's confessions... oh by TOMORROW... *pats on back for immaculate timing*

4. TO LEARN HOW TO SPELL! BLAST YOU EDUCATION SYSTEM!!!

5. fit into my formal dress, shoot...

6. Sleep more.

7. (My fav, and frankly, the most likely to get done) Write AU chapter 4.

8. Ditto for DO chapter 3

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16490742/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16490742/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 13:21:26 PST
New news, I have no idea what I'm doing. Manual to life where are you? Because frankly, sometimes I do something (out of impules, which personally I think more of life should be about impulses) and then wonder what now? or why did I do that? Take for instance, there's someone I, for lack of a better word, admire. I send them a comment on facebook and suddenly were having this long conversation... but what now? I believe I have two options, let said convo taper out and only speak to him in class when I want to shoot down whatever point he is trying to make (it's a discussion class, my fav). Or, continue our convo.... trying not to stutter nervously when we talk in person. Hmm... (this next point IS relevant, trust me) a recent DA comment had a quote that went something like "glory is fleeting but obscurity is forever." Obscurity is so much safer, so much easier... and yet, everything in me says forget that! Go for glory!! But then again, hitting the life snooze button (to be metaphorical) is quite nice.

Sometimes I wonder if my mom reads this. When I was still in high school and we were in an argument, she mention I go on that art site, there are some not nice things on there. Which I countered that I don't look at those things. But the point is.... actually I don't really have a point, but it would just be strange if she was on here reading my ficcage, lol.

Ok, well I think homework is calling... maybe I'll get it done and have time to work on fics!!! AHHH!!! Or maybe rent a movie? Did anyone know that iTunes lets you rent movies now!!!!?!

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16411322/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16411322/ Tue, 15 Jan 2008 00:14:22 PST
Denial, don't we just love it. Among other unmentionable denied facts, I deny that I have gained a lil extra freshman/winter weight, and frankly the jaded part of myself doesn't care. I mean I'm single and love it, and frankly am still pretty hot. So f*ck what the magazines say. I've got curves and get plenty of looks from the males on campus. That's good enough for me.

Passed on some life knowledge the other day. *Ahem*

- (My guy friend, a la When Harry Met Sally friendship, minus the whole ending up together, which would enver happen) You are just going to a club so some guy will be drunk and all over and pay you alot of attention.

- (Me) actually, I'm more of a chick-circle-dancer-type. Plus, for girls, all we want is to get a couples guys to give us a head-turn or look, and we call it a good night.

- (Guy behind us) *Chuckle*


~


So my lifeguarding class... I'm in love with one of the guys in it. Now if only I could make conversation instead of freezing up. However my greatest fear is that the convo would go something like this...

- (Me) We swam a lot today...

- (Him) Yeah, we did.

- (Me) The waters cold

- (Him) Yeah it was.

- (Me) ... So you want to be my CPR partner...

- (Him) Wait! WHAT!

- (Me) Because when you carried me up the hill during the lift-carry drill your butt felt pretty firm-

- (Him) EXCUSE ME!

- (Me) *Jumps into pool and drowns*

~

Final note, I'm writing origional fiction again, which I haven't actually started anything new in a while. I'm currently working on a poem due in class on Thursday. It's about an old decaying barn which is supposed to represent unresolved/ignored familial problems...? Which yes, it's entirely personal, in a vague-you'd-only-know-it-if-I-told-you-so-way, but who cares.

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16337892/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16337892/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 00:23:39 PST
Chapter 3 at the end took place on a...

1. A Friday, thus making chap4 start on a Saturday, in which Violet will run erands and happen to run into two different people, Clopin and later Lilo, or...

2. A Wednesday, making the next day a Thursday, where Violet runs into the Piner and Nani?

What do you guys think??



Also, updated/revised chap3. I added kind of a lol toward the end (Well, not alot but sort of...) I think it's worth a reread... or at least a skim!

Btw, I think my cell phone got stolen. Yeah for ditzy-ness and parental forgiveness!!

Oh and any suggestions for an AU playlist?

*Edit*

Two requests for which I will be eternally grateful...

1. Incredibles screencaps!!!!!

2. The Meet Joe Black trailer!!!!!

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16322567/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16322567/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 21:25:24 PST Yeah me.

Sometime between 10 o'clock Religion 101, lunch, attempting to buy books and Comparative European Politics at 2... it disappeared. Frack.

I searched after class then gave up and swam laps, 20 of them. :ats on Back:: Plus it wasn't nearly as difficult as it had been yesterday. Three cheers for progress.

Love my classes thus far.

Oh and at the game we won, which is basically equivalent to a Christmas Miracle. Had one awkward encounter... won't go into the laughingly gory details on that one, but did get to see my crush... oh wait, I'm in college, and that means I'm too old for crushes Allow me to rephrase that. Ahem, I saw someone I greatly admire both in personality and appearance.

Now for homework and updating... maybe... hopefully. Up side of not having my phone, no one can call and distract me.

Blast *Kijikun for beating me at updating!!

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16304912/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16304912/ Mon, 07 Jan 2008 17:23:11 PST
Also cheated and had a cig... but for decent enough reasons, here is the run down of my day:

Woke up at 7 for my 8 o'clock Lifeguarding class. Frigid air temperatures, plus water (though surprisingly warm) equals poor swimming quality. After the 500, in which I thought I was going to drowned or my lungs were going to explode, I realized I was pretty out of shape. Then followed the pushups on the side of the pool... I did five-ish, and we are supposed to work up to fifty?!?! Oh shite! I did however dominate on retreiving the heavy brick from the bottom of the pool, but only because during the summer between the swiming lessons I teach, that's my favorite thing to do, throw heavy stuff in the water and play 1 person fetch. Also, treading is going to be a biotch, five minutes without using your arms, but it's not like I haven't done it before.

This followed by my 10 fundamentals of music class for my Fine Arts GE requirement, to which I find out does cover the requirement... ? DROPPED!!!!!!

The bright spot of my day was intro the Creative Writing, but I need to work on not being intimidated by surprisingly talented fellow classmates... Oh gracious... I feel myself hiding in the corner already...

Then my Great Books class which was glorious. Got into a bit of an argument about God and Logic. This chick said God and Logic don't really go together, He is above Logic. I countered with God created logic and thus has to be somehow connected to logic... and personally I believe he is a logical God. He always has a plan and follows steps that lead to its accomplishment... hm... sounds logical to me. But the funny part, when the chick gets miffed, she turns bright red. Tehee... thank goodness for my dark complexion.

I bought books, for those classes and then had my smoke. Happy day. Now I am going to cheer practice. I have forgotten all the dances, but hey I have forty minutes, I'll practice now. Afterwards I might hit the pool for some laps if it is still open. Note to self - check pool times NOW, so as to take as little junk to cheer practice as possible.

Oh and 2cd note to self - turn in a copy of my SIGNED passport tomorrow.

No homework... or well none I can't put off until Wednesday. So for tonight to finish Chapter 3. Oh and *Kijikun the lack of updatage makes us both liars, lol.

That's all folks.

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16293630/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16293630/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 21:21:36 PST
On other nostalgia-istic fronts, I passed the ~Syndrome-Violet torch off to *DestinyJade because I had a feeling all the members were going to kill me for never updating... between fic-age and trying to pass college, I just don't have time (Oh yeah and social life... is it Friday yet?)

I updated No Capes, because it came to me as I was flying through the turbulence filled air. Btw, turbulence gives me the giggle and strange looks from nearby fellow travelers. Go. Read. Now. Ensue Laughter. [link]

Now, to write the rest of AU Chap 3, during Desperate Housewives, which I don't watch, ending just in time to watch Brothers and Sisters, which I do watch... then post and go to bed. Step 2 get good nights rest. Awake bright and early for 8 o'clock lifeguard class...

Oh my second semester here we go.

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16263411/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16263411/ Fri, 04 Jan 2008 23:25:22 PST [link]

^Updated. Make sure to click all over the pages, because some room links kind of suck. Oh and just randomly clicking on the walls will actually take you places, betcha didn't know that.

Now for a teaser of Chapter 3, which I am currently working on.

~

She didn’t see him. Of course she saw him, but she didn’t see him. He was simply another pedestrian that her sore eyes took in one by one. Then, he suddenly bent down, stood up, harried, looked around and found their shop sign. He looked up and to the door, then once more at the front sign before entering.

Violet hopped to attention. “McKeen Seamstresses how may we help you?”

The man took off his hat; that was when she saw him. “Can you sew a button back on lickety-split, if you know what I mean?” The harsh voice was unmistakable: Buddy Pine, from a week ago at church.

She stuttered to answer as he approached the counter. “W-why yes.” She turned around and began rummaging through the spool boxes.

“Don’t you need to see the color first?”

Vi shuddered, just slightly, and turned back around. “Oh right.” He had slipped off his jacket and was now leaning over the counter straightening the brim of his pin-striped fedora. With one hand he extended the jacket, “Top button, and make it snappy. I ain’t got all day.”

“Yes sir.” She took a close look at the jacket. It was sepia with deep brown pin-stripes. She was sure she had just put away a beige spool that would do just fine. However, finding it didn’t prove to be that simple. She muttered to herself, inaudibly, as she rummaged, loudly for the thread.

“Hey, toots, this is kind of an emergency. Can we pick up the pace?”

With that Violet tried to turn to apologize, but instead knocked over the bin of medium sized needles. Her eyes went wide, as she immediately knelt and began picking them up.

He leaned over the counter. “Do I need to come back there?”

TBC

~

There that's all you get!

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16213882/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16213882/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 20:19:19 PST
Also, AU chapter 3 is going really well!! Maybe an all-night-er tonight? Possibly.

I'm updating the Piner Place link as well, adding a study... after going through my notes and noticing that a lot of the Synlet-y awesome-ness occurs (You know what I mean, wink-wink) happens in his study down the hall...? Right, nice crzy. *Pats self on back*

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16146234/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16146234/ Fri, 28 Dec 2007 23:29:05 PST
[link]


Still working, so the links may change on your from time to time, but I hope you like it. It's a bit rough, but you still get the idea of what Bud Pine's HQ looks like!! And now maybe I will actually write something?

*Edit*

A couple points to note on Piner HQ:

- It's clean because they have a live in maid/cook
- It's nice because Bud's rich... duh, lol.
- These are the bedroom owners, from left to right: Clopin, spare room, Tommy and Harry, Heater, and Buddy.
- Why some links are clickable in random places? Because it's easier on my sanity.

Other notes, got my passport today, making the fact that I fibbed to the 'rents about the deadline for it a moot point. (Sierra: 1, Mail Services:0), and tomorrow I HAVE (HAVE HAVE HAVE HAVE) got to go to Hobby Lobby (To make that really unfortunate scrapbook page for my cheer coach--why didn't we just get her a gift card? why a scrapbook, I'm sure she doesn't even like us that much!), send in my study abroad paperwork, and clean my room and the basement, because they both need it desperately!!!! Oh and write my short story for submission to the college lit mag.

Onto writing!!

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16132553/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16132553/ Fri, 28 Dec 2007 01:56:03 PST
A virtual tour of the Piner's HQ. My goal is to photoshop somepics and then use my geocities acount to make the photos into links so that you can take a "tour" through the house.

Ambitious?

Yes

Time consuming?

Oh yes



*Edit* The lakehouse is freakin' adorable, but I would have understood it from the the beginning had someone told me it revolved around a magic mailbox...

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16101967/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16101967/ Tue, 25 Dec 2007 22:24:22 PST
In other news, I finished the Synlet LJ challenge! YEAH! It was grand to watch my two favorite old time movies Christmas Story and Forest Gump. Also, saw the international movie with Kelly Reilly (Who I id-ed in less than 2 minutes, lol) the title was something like the Spanish Hostel, or something like that. Very good!! Me and mom share a love for international movies.

Also, last note, I did not break down and smoke a cig! YEAH me!!!

Christmas to all and to all a goodnight.

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16023452/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16023452/ Fri, 21 Dec 2007 03:39:49 PST [link]

To-do

- Christmas challenge.
- Real fiction literary magazine entry
- Deadly Obessions update (Do it, you have it thought/written out, just type and proff)
- AU chapter 3... come on, its fun, write it.
- Blackmail Blackhearts, because its angst, who doesn't love angst.
- No Capes... eh... probably not...

Random: I heart Mona Lisa Smile.

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16009048/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/16009048/ Thu, 20 Dec 2007 02:17:37 PST
Pt. 1: [link]
Pt. 2: [link]

All of which are not very well proofed and need to be edited before I post them to ffnet. Thansk though for anyfeed back!! This is rated T+, as are all of them. Reasons being cursing and adult themes. Read at own risk.

~

Flyaway

Part 3: Rough Landing

“You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And every time tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
Someday you will be loved

You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved”
Someday You Will Be Loved – Death Cab for Cutie

Hemadri Bahgwat was a man that most people hoped would get hit by a car, and of course, living in a big city and being a frequent jay-walker, this was highly likely. It wasn’t so much that Hemadri enjoyed being disliked; it was the fact that he didn’t give a shit what people thought about him. He had very little reason to do so.

As the old Indian man walked down the winding, creaking, in need of repair, steps of the apartment complex he rented out, he muttered old curses to his gods – what had they ever done for him back in the home country – and to his newest – and soon to be former – tenants. He shook his head as he came to the door. The Pines had been trouble from day one.

It had been snowing the day their beat up car pulled in front of the cheap apartment complex. Really, if Hemadri noticed what bad condition their car was in, it was bad. They were in one of the worst neighborhoods of the cold, northern city and poverty was to be expected, but the Pines were literally scraping by, he could tell that much.

He gave them a break, knowing that rent would always be late and the transaction would probably end in them getting kicked out, but his old heart was getting soft from all the American cholesterol and age. So he let them in, but now he regretted it.

The complaints were constant, music being played late at night, as well as other noises. He tried to ignore the implications of what he heard from the rest of his tenants, but the old Indian wasn’t stupid either. If anyone knew domestic disputes, it was Hemadri.

He had thought that tonight would be the first night, in a long time that he would get no calls at midnight. Being old also meant he didn’t sleep as well as he used to. After waking twice on his own, he decided that no calls would come, the family probably drunk and passed out or out of the room entirely. Both options were fine with him, as long as he didn’t have to get out of his warm bed to bang on their door, yelling to shut the hell up.

Then he had heard the gun shot.

He knew it was from their room. He didn’t know how this revelation came, perhaps he regained more spiritualism from age than he had thought, but he just knew it was the Pines. The last thing he needed was the police, so he first got out of bed, slipping on some house shoes, the floor cold from lack of proper heating and insulation, and disconnected the outside lines, no one would be calling the police just yet, and then proceeded to take his own phone off the hook. He headed for the door, but on second thought grabbed a bottle of rubbing alcohol and a wash cloth. If he had learned anything from the past, it was to be prepared.

He walked down two flights of stairs to the bottom level of the complex. He went to the door and raised a hand to knocked, but halted. He listened intently; he heard muffled, feminine sounds. Thank God.

“Hello,” his accent asked. He heard a gasp and slowly opened the door. “It’s just Hemadri. Don’t shoot.” He didn’t bother to look at the woman. He knew that she wouldn’t shoot, once again his Indian intuition telling him so. He shut the door behind him and took a moment. At this age he needed time to prepare himself for what he would see, though he already had quite an idea.

He thought back to when he had first met Mrs. Pine and the way she had tugged on his hard heart. His first thought upon seeing the mother was that she could use a couple of Shiva’s extra arms, in dealing with her husband and son. The boy was loud and excited, the father sullen and prone to angry, possessive actions. It was a deadly combination – literally, apparently.

Hemadri turned, “I had thought tonight I would get a full night’s rest.”

She chuckled sardonically. “Sorry to disapp... ]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/15967039/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/15967039/ Sun, 16 Dec 2007 23:55:05 PST
*Spoilers*

Thankfully to the crazy UK schedule I was able to see the newest epi. It was amazing. It included great comic relief added a lot of needed continuity to the show, as well as reviving my never-distant, though sometimes pessimistic, inner Zutara shipper. Also, Katara was a bamf, only words for it. So watch, or wait for the US showing, but any way you spin it, its great, also the fact that Iroh's voice actor change is hardly noticeable is a big plus.

Best: Katara is ALWAY on the right and Zuko ALWAYS on the left... way to go animators, it makes good set up for comparative fanart!! (And fangirl squeeling, can we say UST?)

*End Spoilers*

After the busy day of dentist appointment and passport getting, I will then fill my day with possible trip to go ice skating, and/or writing my Holiday Synlet entry, the end of Flyaway pt. 3 and hopefully my real fiction about the boy who's dream sequence is in a kind of museum and shows him through different ages and pivotal choices he made... gracious where are my notes for that?!

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/15904382/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/15904382/ Wed, 12 Dec 2007 14:13:40 PST
ANYWAYS!!

Enough of that rant. Here is my new to-do list... this is going to be so random it will blow your mind.

- Take piano lessons
- Try out to be a Disneyland Princess next summer
- Write my entry to the Campus Lit Mag.

...

Well, gosh darn I had like 10 other things to do and I already forgot them from... that's does not bode well.

]]> ~crzysheelf http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/15884633/ http://crzysheelf.deviantart.com/journal/15884633/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 22:43:46 PST
So, today (because I want to put off actually studying in the library a little longer) I had a very interesting conversation over lunch.

Because I don't want to go into all the details (As I did today... oh just wait) I have an interesting family background, one which I usually don't share. However, I was asked bluntly by someone I'm not very close to. And though, the question was posed in a very kinda manner it was still so personal. This being the same person who seems to always be invading my personal space more than I would like. You see the thing about me, I like my boundaries and yet feign being openly and entirely honest. So, par my life motto I spilled my personal history and story, one which, i believe I have only shared with 3 other people, one being my best friend, the others my past boyfriends... and now this person.

And yeah, it was a passing brief moment, after the story was out there, awkwardly, I chuckle and start to realize that he wasn't meant to know that much. I start to stumble over the mental consideration to say, why the eff did you ask that...? But I didn't. I smiled and segway-ed my way into a totally random tangent and soon enough the conversation was miles behind us.

But thinking back on it, I have to wonder, can being on the verge of too-bluntly honest (what I try to acheive and not intentionally acheived today) be just as bad as silence? You're still just trying to avoid your feelings and scars attched to those issues and stories you share too quickly or those that you keep hidden? No need to answer, just ponderings.

Lol, now the only question remaining is how to harness all that pondering, save it and use it for writing awesome-ness?


**EDIT**

It's 2 (4 back home), my drunk guy friend just sent me a random message, and I just gotta say, I effing LOVE freudian slips. "cant wait to hang out over make." What does that make you think of?? Lolz, I heart life.

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So, done with the final, but was then greeted with the fact that my entire class botched our last paper assignment in our Great Books Class. Now I have to get a stellar grade on my final paper to get an A in the class. But I can do that. I can! I know it!! Lol, also then found out that I have to get an A (Literally HAVE to at least get an A) on my PoliSci final to get an A in the class. Lol, wow, this is nice. Luckily, Humanities is pretty much in the bag. I mean you cna't really botch a 95... I mean I could, but I know my stuff and will study hardcore the rest of today... after lunch that is.

However good news is, I know what my Synlet winter challenge is going to be...

^Good gracious, I can't just believe I said that (well typed). Oh and another point on the up and up, I just got a pretty good idea for an orgional fiction piece that I had discarded about a year ago.

"I believe in life after finals..." (*scratches head* I don't think those were the exact lyrics)

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