http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:cupcake-of-chaos&section=today deviantART RSS for by:cupcake-of-chaos en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 28 Dec 2009 05:21:25 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://cupcake-of-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/28601878/ http://cupcake-of-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/28601878/ Fri, 27 Nov 2009 00:35:36 PST
Also: am I the only one who is super excited to watch a movie called Ninja Assassin? In the words of Damalur ([link]);
"Why am I excited? Because this is a movie that promises to COMPLETELY FULFILL THE MOVIEGOER'S EXPECTATIONS, provided those expectations are:

1. Seeing film about (a) ninjas who are also (b) assassins.

WHICH IS EXACTLY WHAT MY EXPECTATIONS HAPPEN TO BE. SATISFACTION, HERE I COME."

Also: SUMMER IS AWESOME. Beachtiems and sunshine and lots of sunburn.

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I usually hate movies filmed in the style of documentaries and with handheld camera footage, but I found myself really enjoying this movie not only in spite of but also because of that. The overall style was very realistic, much more so than the usual Hollywood approach, and I felt that the documentary style only added to it.

Also there was a mecha. I go weak at the knees for mechas and the fact that the little kid alien used it to help Wikus just totally made my day. (Also, just - Wikus van der Merwe. Classic Afrikaans name. And the accent was hilarious too. Afrikaans people are funny. I love them so much.)

Another factor that was awesome was all the inside references that an outsider wouldn't get - there was, for example, a bulding tagged with Name, which is a gang that you see tagged everywhere here. Also, calling them Prawns was even an inside joke of sorts. In Joburg there are these MASSIVE HUMONGOUS roaches called Parktown Prawns. I'm so glad we don't get them in Cape Town.

And the scary thing is that muti really is a huge issue here. There are loads of murders for body parts and such - not often arms though, usually internal organs like hearts, livers, kidneys, spleens, etc. Ick. (Please note: South Africa is not a barbaric and savage country for the most part. There are just some people who haven't got that memo yet. Come on, try tell me your country's perfect.)

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a) i am no longer sick (you were sick?! you all ask in horror and concern, yes i was and it maybe screwed up my physics exam a bit but i am okay now so there is no need for internet sympathy, pretend or otherwise).

b) i've gotten one of the three worst exams out of the way, next one being Advanced Maths next Sat but that's okay. and then Chem but that's always been easier than Physics anyway.

c) i am in an arbitrarily good mood. probably because of the chocolate icecream. yay anyway?

d) my computer is sadly terminally ill, as an unprofessional doctor i give him about a month before he completely kicks the bucket. he may have already pushed up the odd daisy or two, and it is something of a patience game to get him to turn on at all, with constant reboots. but i love him anyway. we might be taking him to the Computer Hospital at some point, perhaps, but unfortunately the odds are not good for him. especially as university next year and i maybe want a laptop.

e) anyway, he decided to eventually make the effort for life today. (at least he's still fighting. sometimes.) so i am able to assuage my internet addiction.

f) my english exam today was easy as they ever are. which is fairly easy but some arbitrary questions that i'm not sure i answered correctly. physics was bearable, despite the aforementioned sickness and my insane lack of preparation in favour of Ad Maths.

g) this is the longest journal entry i have ever written, i think. online, anyway. i usually have no patience for them, and certainly no consistency.

THERE YOU HAVE IT. G things you never needed to know about me.

(i cheated and stuck more in this thing at the bottom here)

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(also apologies for retardedness; my computer went braindead and I made the mistake of trying to access dA from my phone. needless to say epic fail. )

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I LOVE YOU ALL.

Yes, even you. Um, no, not you. But everyone else!

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So, we're doing light in Physics and I wouldn't be stressing except there are two weeks until my preliminary finals and I have to send these marks to varsity. So. If anyone can help me understand how light is a particle and a wave and a ray and what the hell is up with that, I would love you forever and promise you cookies and my firstborn child but never deliver. I am lame in that I really can't do things by just applying formulae if I don't really understand the underlying theory, which isn't useful for passing exams.

I know there are some superintelligent people on here and if anyone happens to feel like wasting time explaining stuff to me, that'd be cool.

If not, I love you anyway because I'm arbitrary like that.

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Anyways, I am temporarily back, and with no particular promise to be faithful: prelims start in two weeks, and then it's finals, and then maybe I'll have time for dA.

If any of the awesome people I met at the beginning of the year still remember who the hell I am, drop me a line! I wanna know how you guys are.

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I've been waiting all day: heat is only ever this oppressive when there's going to be a thunderstorm. I love the lazy fat droplets that you get from warm, humid rain; very different from the slanting, harsh, cold winter rains. And the rain is so refreshing after the sticky day's wait for it.

This is Cape Town, not Joburg, dammit.

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This is all I have to say.

(I remember nostalgically the times when I could procrastinate and let my life bleed into the internet and I could breathe in webcomics and manga scans and YouTube videos and school was for socialising. Now, school is for cramming syllabi into my head and home time is for homework and projects and, on occasion, sleep.)

]]> ~cupcake-of-chaos http://cupcake-of-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/22563261/ http://cupcake-of-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/22563261/ Tue, 13 Jan 2009 15:59:05 PST
VAGUELY ARTISTIC.

AND IT DOESN'T LOOK HIDEOUSLY HIDEOUS.

OMFG.

Yeah. Slightly hyper. Also somewhat tired. But proud of myself and my dAmn shoes.

All started by my favourite emoticon, the little shrugging guy. [link]

]]> ~cupcake-of-chaos http://cupcake-of-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/22467115/ http://cupcake-of-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/22467115/ Thu, 08 Jan 2009 09:38:28 PST Concrit would be nice, as well.

Take my hand, let's run away;
there's really nothing left to say.
Forget the games we used to play
and we could go so far.

Pull me close, don't let me go.
Here and now, you're all I know.
Once the rhythm starts to flow,
we could go so far.

Come lie here with me on the ground
with simple pleasures all around.
Let me drown inside this sound
and we could go so far.

Let yourself drink in the beat,
feel it flow up through your feet.
We're swimming gently in concrete
but we could go so far.

Fall away from all your fears,
forget the lies your body hears,
breathe in music 'til it sears
and we could go so far
(but I like you where you are).

Okay, I'm not ENTIRELY happy with it - it's somewhat generic and it doesn't have choruses (chori?) or bridges or anything. Loads of room for improvement. But there it lies.

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There, that's better. I dedicate this entry to anyone who's having a crap day or week or month or year or whatever. Not. Cool. !. It is the first week of a New Year. This is the first week of 2009.

AND.

This year will not be anything short of kickass awesome, and you are the only one who can make that happen. Roll with the punches, wear bright colours and don't forget to smile.

BREATHE OUT THE BAD AND BREATH IN THE GOOD.

And now. Empty your mind. Bask in the glow of a million stars in a universe you can't begin to imagine. And.

smile

]]> ~cupcake-of-chaos http://cupcake-of-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/21895671/ http://cupcake-of-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/21895671/ Tue, 09 Dec 2008 09:46:48 PST
Camp was intense, in a really laid back kind of way. I made some awesome friends (Team 7 ftw!) and it was pretty cool. There were major out-of-control fires happening really close though, which was quite scary, so the fire department and/or whatever burnt a wide firebreak around the campsite and the farms and such, but it was SOOOO hot already, liek 35*C, which is insane, and there was smoke and ash everywhere and gyah.

Anyways, I am back and thoroughly wiped out for my efforts. And I'm going to Ratanga tomorrow, which is like a - theme park? What do you call them? I dunno. There are rollercoasters and stuff. It's for my friend's birthday and stuff but my legs are all stiff and sore and my throat hurts and my voice is gone and I'm TIRED. So. We shall see.

I'm happy. I'm good. I'm in a good space at the moment and I want it to last as long as possible. I am so over being that wannabe chick who fangirls over her best friend (although Kris is damn awesome) and occasionally says something witty. So. In advance, I'm working on my New Year's resolutions. So far they look like this:

1) Be happy. Don't do things that make me unhappy.
2) Be independent and confident. I don't need other people to make me feel whole.
3) Learn Japanese/guitar/martial arts. Not in that order, but all at once. (Yes, I'm crazy, yes, I'm mainstream, no, I'm not going to stop.)

My Christmas list, on the other hand, looks a bit like this for now:

1) iTrip.
2) Gaming console of ANY kind, I just want one.
3) Supernatural season 3 (which I have watched but do not own)
4) Some love. Seriously, Santa, I am so over this lonely thing. Really. Totally over it. Camp made me feels good about being what Laura calls "pure" and I don't want to be a slut or anything, but a nice meaningful connection would be nice.

Huh. Dunno if anyone will actually read this far but that's okay, I wrote it for myself.

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That's stuck in my head, but I don't know the words. I love singing so much but my voice is dead. I don't care! :sings:

Screw being unhappy, I am in such a good mood! I hate being miserable so I won't be. Life's easier that way. The sun is shining, the sky is blue, the tank is clean - *gasp* the tank is clean! - and I am going on camp tomorrow, for which I should pack but haven't yet. It is going to be so amazingly awesome.

GOOD MOOD = contagious, maybe? Here, lemme infect you.

]]> ~cupcake-of-chaos http://cupcake-of-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/21781581/ http://cupcake-of-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/21781581/ Tue, 02 Dec 2008 10:56:41 PST a major choir concert yesterday
and a full day of rehearsing today
and another concert tomorrow evening
and my best friend's emotional breakdown

are not very conducive to a
happy
atmosphere

and now i feel dizzy and faint and hot
but it is summer
and maybe i'm just dehydrated

either way i'm tired

and i can't wait for friday when the school term finally ends

(oh god oh god i'm a matric next year my final year of school but hey no pressure)

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I fall in love so easily and so hard that it hurts and I never stop loving. I fall in love with images and ideas and imaginary characters. I fall in love with colours and sensations and tastes. I fall in love with people.

I want people to like me, to love me. Not because I desire popularity or influence or people to rely on, but because I want to be someone who is worthy of being liked and loved.

I am very tactile. When I'm not physically touching someone I am lonely and lost. I like hugging and cuddling and being close to people.

This is possibly the stupidest and most melodramatic journal entry I have ever written, ever, and it's up against some fairly strong contenders.

I am inspired. I want to do something, make something - something pretty and awesome and something that I can love, that other people can love. Something that will make people smile.

]]> ~cupcake-of-chaos http://cupcake-of-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/21659377/ http://cupcake-of-chaos.deviantart.com/journal/21659377/ Tue, 25 Nov 2008 06:48:57 PST
Anyway, I am going to post a poemtree here that I wrote, um, in my head after my Afrikaans exam. I was in a good mood because the exam was so easy and I was bored because I finished an hour early. So I sat and writed poemtree in my brainz. Yay. I'm not going to submit it as a Deviation because it sucks, but I thought I'd stick it here anyway.

Tweetalig

I am
Master of All Languages
Okay, so miskien net die twee
en ek kan glad nie sê ek is
“Master of Afrikaans” nie
but I can speak it
and I’m going to learn
Japanese
some day
one day
eerlank
en dan miskien Spaans
and then
totdat all the languages in my head
bleed together and I can’t
tell them van mekaar
and no one kan verstaan wat ek say
en al die woorde floei
uit my eyes and mouth
and all poetry verdwaal
en dan

stilte



And then, for those of you who can't speak Afrikaans or a language close enough as to understand anyway, here is a translation, yay!

Bilingual
I am
Master of all Languages
Okay, so maybe just the two,
and I can hardly say that I’m
“Master of Afrikaans”
but I can speak it
and I’m going to learn
Japanese
some say
one day
soon
and then maybe Spanish
and then
until all the languages in my head
bleed together and I can’t
tell them apart
and no one can understand what I say
and all the words flow
from my eyes and mouth
and all poetry is lost
and then

silence




YAY IT SUCKS. I know, right? But it's true. I sometimes struggle to separate just the two languages in my head, lord only knows what'll happen when I become mildly fluent in more.

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So, why now? Why today? I will tell you why. (Duh.)

I drew a picture and I don't hate it. This is a monumental occasion for me. It's sitting here on a piece of paper right next to me and I am actually going to post it. Whenever I can actually get access to a scanner. For anyone who's interested, it's a fanart of a fanfic. Weird, I know. It's a Krad/Satoshi fanfic (DNAngel = <3) called Galatea, by Sage_of_Muse, which can be found on fanfiction.net, and I want to first show the author before actually posting it. And I don't really draw, so I suck, but I'm really proud of it. And I was all inspired because this is the first time in, like, a month that I have cried so hard. (And I cry a lot, emotional teenage female over here people.)

Is tragedy not the most beautiful thing in the universe?

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