http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:cyberwulfe&section=today deviantART RSS for by:cyberwulfe en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Fri, 04 Dec 2009 15:19:31 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/26416879/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/26416879/ Thu, 06 Aug 2009 05:47:00 PDT
I am probably going to take down my FA gallery, or leave it up so I can still watch all of the artists on there. I'm going to try to put more effort into the type of art that I enjoy, like landscapes and still life. I really enjoy working in graphite and watercolours. So I think I might try to get more into that again.

I've been so stressed out over doing furry art for the last 5 years that I haven't even used my watercolours.

So I guess this is my "two week notice". All of my new artwork and photos of my model ships and such will still be posted on my DeviantArt website, or on here if I decide to keep this site active.

*sneaks out the back door*

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/26040459/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/26040459/ Sun, 19 Jul 2009 08:25:04 PDT
Hypo-Tangerine Leopard Gecko.

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]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/21939337/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/21939337/ Thu, 11 Dec 2008 21:40:14 PST
Here is the link to my auction page.
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]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/21677674/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/21677674/ Wed, 26 Nov 2008 09:25:28 PST
So, expect to find me occasionally lurking on your pages from now on.

~Khaki

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/21418147/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/21418147/ Mon, 10 Nov 2008 09:29:55 PST [link]

And a picture too!
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]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/21371249/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/21371249/ Fri, 07 Nov 2008 11:14:27 PST
I guess they wanted to hire a fucking robot Superman or something. I was honestly working as fast as I could. I pulled the same muscle in both legs and I have trouble walking around the house (damn stairs), my arms AND my hands (my hands?) are just throbbing sore, and they expect me to work faster than this? I am BROKEN.

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/21128049/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/21128049/ Thu, 23 Oct 2008 15:46:04 PDT Without a beat in my heart.
Without a love of my own.

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/20388375/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/20388375/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 09:23:33 PDT
So... Feral! 2008 Photos.
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And my video of me performing at the rave.
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Enjoy!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/20079267/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/20079267/ Thu, 21 Aug 2008 14:02:46 PDT [link]) starts. I've been running around like crazy trying to get things done. The two friends who are crashing with me arrive tomorrow, and I have to work during the day. So here are all of the things that I have to accomplish by around 10-11pm tonight. It is now... 4:56pm.

- go to the gym
- come home and shower
- make dinner
- pre-mix the tracks for my set at the Feral! Rave to make sure the tracks work together, and also fit into my 90-minute timeslot
- arrange the tracks for the Sponsor's Event and pre-mix them to make sure everything sounds good.
- finish a conbadge for someone
- do my laundry; clothes, bedding, etc
- sew up the hole in my AMAZING favorite pants!
- take time to breathe
- make a list of things to bring to camp, and things I need to pick up

Hookay... it's 4:58pm.... 1....2....3... GO!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/19960648/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/19960648/ Thu, 14 Aug 2008 21:37:52 PDT
ENJOY!

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]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/19812870/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/19812870/ Wed, 06 Aug 2008 16:54:28 PDT
In reference to this post...
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Mr. Harp still has not refunded my money. I moved into a new house in April and even supplied him with my new address. I have been unable to reach him, as he's recently changed his e-mail address. But I know he watches my FA page (since the original post was made... hmmm) so maybe he'll read this.

I honestly believed some of the excuses he gave me. Mind you, some of them were pretty far fetched. The original commission was for me and one of his lizard characters, Tozi, in some sort of fuckery pose. As the years went on, Mr. Harp became more and more reluctant to draw Tozi, as he was one of HIS characters and he didn't want to draw him doing that.

Other excuses included:
- Tozi lives in a fantasy world that is not linked in any way to the real world. Having your character meet Tozi would be impossible
- Tozi is special. He comes to me when he wants to. I can't just DRAW Tozi any day of the week. It's difficult.

Finally I gave up on Tozi and decided, instead, to have another lizard of similar appearance, but even that spawned another rush of excuses.

So last night I'm on e621.net and what do I find in the "scalie" thread? OMG... it's... Tozi... drawn in 2007 as a commission/conbook sketch for... :Moonstalker. I guess it pays to be a popular artist. You get whatever you want. I tried to e-mail Mr. Harp regarding this blatent attempt to LIE to me, and, as stated earlier, all of his e-mails bounced.

I know I've been paranoid in the past. I've imagined that there was some sort of FURRY ARTIST CONSPIRACY where all of the really good, popular artists get together and plot against the little nobody artists. But Jesus Christ... this is just proving my point!

I waited three years on a $100 full colour, paid-in-full commission, and I bet Moonstaker walked up to Mr. Harp's table at FC 2007, dropped a $20, and said," Can you draw a picture of Tozi fucking me?" and it was done in less than an hour. And please don't think I'm bashing Mr. Foley either. I could save that rant for another day. But I see a pattern here.

I have noticed a decline in the amount of art I've been able to create over the last few years. The decline starts around the same time I started hanging in that elitist fanclub known as #vcl on FurNet. I spent over a year hanging out with "popular" art whores like Preyfar, Frisket17, Thornwolf, and others, who did nothing but parade around their talent and wagging their cocks in everyone's faces.

I had it DRILLED into me, subconsciously, that the only way you get ahead in the art fandom is to be the best, to draw really good furry art, and porn, almost daily, because heaven forbid you should skip a week and become yesterday's news. And the quality of your work is directly proportional to the amount of comments you get (in groups of 100).

And I know this isn't true. I KNOW it's not true. But it's like... I grew up Christian and I gave it up back when I was 22-23 years old, and even though I don't believe any of that shit anymore, I STILL think about it sometimes. It's something that's not going to get OUT of my head anytime soon.

I just look at the shit I draw and think EPIC FAIL. And it makes me not want to draw anymore. I just spent $90 on a brand new WACOM Bamboo and I feel like I could have spent the money on something else. I am just sick thinking about doing any artwork at all.

*deep sigh*

I'd like to ask Mr Harp to please take me off his watch list. I don't want him anywhere near me. I don't want his name on my page and I don't want to even be associated with him.

I'm done. I am closing my gallery until I can learn what it means to be an artist. Because half of you whores don't know shit about art.

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/18829309/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/18829309/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 22:08:35 PDT
Though sometimes the reasons behind my grudges range from mild to severe, they are still there, and they still hurt. You know who you are.

One of my flaws is noticing that good friends of mine are watching other people's galleries or journals whom I have had past experiences with and know to be COMPLETE ASSHOLES, and then telling my friend about them as if it could actually make them stop watching that person.

Seriously. I've done this several times to people. I'm not going to name names, or names of people who have galleries on here, but I guess the main thing is frustration. How these people could act like total cunts, yet they had enough niceness (new words are fun) inside their souls to attract certain people. Nice people. Friends of mine, whom they act nice and awesome to.

People make me sick. When I'm rich I think I'll just buy a nice little farm somewhere, get some horses, and live in seclusion.

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/18625487/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/18625487/ Mon, 02 Jun 2008 11:02:11 PDT
Uhm... well it was my birthday last Wednesday. I know I never posted or told anyone. I was busy with job training and came home that day with a million things to do before guests came over. Sorry about that, guys. My roommate got me a "Weight Training For Dummies" book, and a Men's Health magazine with a guy with a ripped sixpack on the front. I'm going to start reading the book and trying to eat healthy, using some of the meal tips and recipes in the book and magazine. I also got those "One A Day" supplements "For Men". I'm going to start taking those now too.

My friends also got me into World of Warcraft, after watching them play for a long time. Though they are Level 70 and do all sorts of crazy raids and instances and go in Parties as large as 12 people (crazy shit). But I know I'll get there eventually. So I'm just going to sit and wait and see what happens. BTW, if you play, I am Gneisenau, Level 22 Tauren Hunter on Bloodhoof.

I've also been drawing a bit more. Doodled some really BAD tiger face a week or so ago, but did manage to sketch out a lizard for a friend of mine. Still working on that, btw! You'll get to see an updated sketch soon (you know who you are). I've mainly been focusing on my AH-64 helicopter model. Fresh pictures of the model can be found on my FurAffinity gallery (As well as here on DA), along with some other recently uploaded models.

Despite being unemployed, single, lonely, alone, and stressed out... yesterday after my workout at the gym I felt REALLY good. Like... really satisfied and happy. Probably for the first time in weeks. Dunno why.

That is all. See you again soon!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/18446194/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/18446194/ Thu, 22 May 2008 11:49:19 PDT
The connection software that I downloaded FOR the V3 didn't work, which kinda pissed me off because it said right on the website that Phone Tools 4.0 works with the V3. So my only way of getting the MP3 onto the V3 is to Bluetooth it over. Which means I need to find someone who CAN connect their phone to their PC, put the MP3 on their phone, and Bluetooth it to me.

Because I have THE BEST RINGTONE EVAR and I'm going to be SADFACE if I can't get it to work on my phone.

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/18225441/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/18225441/ Thu, 08 May 2008 11:18:42 PDT

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/18115640/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/18115640/ Thu, 01 May 2008 10:41:55 PDT
So anyway, I used to hand-paint my car bodies, but when I got my 1941 Willys back in May 2005 I decided to do it up right and buy a can of spray enamel. Who did I buy? Testors, of course. I had never used spray enamel before, so it was new to me. But I was very happy with the quality of paint. Painting an entire car body can take as long as 30-45 mins. I sprayed the entire body of the car in about 10 seconds. PSSSSST PSSSSSSSSSST PSST PSST PSSSSSSSST and I was done. Beautiful!

I was a little bit confused at the odd bumpy "eggshell texture" that was left once the paint had dried. I figured maybe I was too close, or too far away, when spraying. But every car I have sprayed, except for the Shelby Cobra, had this pattern. (it's actually only less noticable on the cobra because of the metallic paint and texture)

Once again, due to colour restrictions I was forced to buy from another brand for my AH-64 model. I went with Tamiya for their Army Olive 2, which is a shade lighter than their Army Olive 1. I didn't want a DARK looking helicopter, since the original model I did several years ago (which broke last year) was Olive Drab by Testors, hand painted, and the same colour as the A-10 Thunderbolt II that I posted on FA this weekend. (if you're reading this on FA, please disregard this comment XD)

This is the most amazing paint ever! Even though I had a few spatterings of paint, and was afraid of resulting in the same "eggshell texture" as with the Testors paints, after checking the parts an hour later the paint had settled into a perfectly flat, smooth finish! None of the pieces I have sprayed so far have had any bumps or lumps or anything.

Here is a comparison between the Testors paint and the Tamiya paint; the Testors is my 1941 Willys, and the Tamiya shows the belly plate of the Apache, where the machine gun mounts, and one half of one of the engines.

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Although the Tamiya is $3-4 more than the Testors, they have 100ml vs 85g (1g = 1ml, yes? I do remember that from science class.), and as you can see from the picture, the quality of the finish is MUCH nicer! The next time I do another LARGE SCALE model (paint that bitch by hand? Hell no!), or another car, I am going with Tamiya!

So, you modelers out there... any thoughts?

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/18107233/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/18107233/ Wed, 30 Apr 2008 18:43:47 PDT
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]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/18076420/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/18076420/ Mon, 28 Apr 2008 18:53:16 PDT
It used to be... like... you'd pay money for something, and if it didn't work properly you had the right to call, or write, or e-mail to complain, or ask questions. What happened to that kind of service? I remember back in the late 90's when I was playing the original X-WING game on PC I was actually able to e-mail technical support and chat with the guys for help with missions. Nowadays they have "Yoda's Help Desk", which is nothing but an assortment of FAQ's and "answers to known issues".

Anyway, I haven't used my Labtec webcam in over a year and I am trying to get it working so a friend of mine can do some DJ tutorials with me. But the damn thing doesn't work. The software doesn't detect the cam when it's plugged in, and *GASP* the "Contact Tech Support" page on their website is just a list of troubleshooting topics that don't even have anything to do with my webcam.

So I ask again... what happened to CUSTOMER SERVICE? Is it too much trouble to pay a dozen people to answer questions from customers?

I'm going down to Staples or Future Shop tomorrow to buy the most inexpensive webcam I can find. Something brand new, XP compatible, and with the fucking driver disk. And with luck it won't be a fucking Labtec cam.

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/17999817/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/17999817/ Wed, 23 Apr 2008 22:18:51 PDT
My bedroom is about the size of a football field now. Which is good for me. I have two computer desks, my drawing table (no longer a computer desk!), DJ booth/table, two new bookshelves, dresser, bedside table, and double-size bed. Yet I have enough room in the middle of my room that I could host a small party in here! I am really in love with this room. It's intended to be sort of a rec room. The previous tenants had it set up with a few couches and a TV. So there is no door. No privacy. I bought a door and some stuff for mounting the door and some wood trim and it's going to look really nice when it's done.

I am still unpacking, but I made a huge dent in the boxes today. I need to get a bar for the crawlspace under the basement stairs, which is going to be my closet. The bar is for my clothes hangers. Things are going well, though.

I'm still unemployed. Things are kinda stressful for me right now. I'm also still dealing with a lot of emotional issues and I really wish I had someone in my life that I could lean on and help me through all of this crap. It's been almost five years since I was in a relationship and I kinda miss having the kind of close friend who would listen to all of my problems and hold me and talk to me softly. Then again I've never really been good at relationships. I think I'll just stay single forever. I don't think there's anyone out there for me.

On a good note, since my drawing table is no longer being occupied by my Pentium 4 machine, I can actually sit down and use it for... OMG... ARTWORK! I seriously need to kick my ass into drawing more often! PLEASE! I wish I had a muse with a BIG STICK to beat my ass when I don't draw. All I see are there artists who used to be decent a year or two ago just completely blowing my mind with how good they are! I wish I had the patience and dedication to get better!

I have a lot of things that need to change in my life. But I am starting to relax a bit more and just... enjoy life. I think I'll take my bike out on the park trails tomorrow and tell the world to fuck off for an hour.

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/17823021/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/17823021/ Sat, 12 Apr 2008 22:54:15 PDT
Now, the M3 REAL card is suppose to be able to play movies. Specifically GBA formatted video files. Does anyone know if there is a converter that will convert AVI videos and movies to GBA format? Also, does anyone know where to download GBA video files?

Any help would be very much appreciated!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/17621121/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/17621121/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 05:03:26 PDT
No reason was given. Though my manager made some comment about "looking for the right kind of person for Lavalife" but I apparently "don't fit."

So... they aren't looking for people who:
- have gotten really good on their calls
- have increased their sales dramatically over the last week or two and have had top sales 3 of the last 6 days at work
- have improved their call flow
- is well liked by the other employees
- is well liked by their supervisors

No reason was given for my termination. So I'm going to take them up on their offer to call Human Resources and try to squeeze some kind of answer out of them that isn't complete and utter bullshit.

On that note, I WILL NOT be attending AnthroCON this year, and I will still try to attend Camp Feral! depending on what kind of money I start making at my next job, and whether I can get the time off work.

Seriously... after all of the BULLSHIT that life has thrown at me over the last two weeks... SERIOUSLY... PLEASE... can you fuck off just ONCE and let me be happy for more than a week or two?

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/17477416/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/17477416/ Sun, 23 Mar 2008 15:26:56 PDT
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Let the good times SPIN!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/17350036/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/17350036/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 16:07:53 PDT
There are maybe less than a handful of people that I would truly choose to be with right now, and of course fate or some other circumstance won't let an attempt even be made.

I'm really kinda tired of pining after people. Maybe once in my life someone will hunt ME down, and try to romance ME, instead of me being the one chasing people around.

To you couples out there... I envy you. With a tiny bit of hate. <3

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/16908145/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/16908145/ Sat, 16 Feb 2008 02:20:21 PST
To be perfectly honest, I spent two years in a chatroom on IRC that was for artists, and there were a lot of popular names in there, mostly elitists. I suppose I became so overshadowed by the POPULARITY and TALENT and SKILL of "furry art" that was being broadcasted into this chatroom day after day that I developed this terrible sense of competition. It's really affected my ability to draw, as I look at my art and think," Wow this is shit. It's much worse than *insert random artist name here."

It's gotten to the point where I have lost my motivation to do art anymore. I fear that I have lost my love of art and it's become a chore to even pick up a pencil, fearing that my next picture will turn out to be another steaming pile of crap on the page. I feel that I am currently psychologically unable to produce art.

I used to be able to draw a lot. There was a time when I would draw a picture on Sunday, colour it during the week, put it online by Friday, and then start over. I did that for a whole month at least. Now I can't even doodle. I haven't finished any new art since around... August I think.

I really have lost my love of art and just feel really angry and bitter towards other artists who are much better and more successful than myself. And it's not fair to them at all. I know most of them worked hard to get where they are now, and some even attended school for art. But I've become so messed up over whether or not I'm going to get a hundred pageviews every time I post a picture. It's affecting my ability to draw.

I don't know how to break through this and stop caring what other people think about my art and just draw for me. Draw for fun. And screw anyone who doesn't like my art. But I don't know what to do, or how to get over this stupid elitist furry art bullshit.

I miss drawing and wish I could get back into it.

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/16371705/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/16371705/ Sat, 12 Jan 2008 11:52:52 PST
DJ Khaki - Saturday Night En-Trancement
Saturday, January 12, 2008 at 7:00pm EST
On Radio Furtopia, click the link below and click on LISTEN. The playlist file (.pls) will download and/or load in WinAMP or iTunes. It is compatible with both apps.
- BROADBAND [link]
- DIALUP [link]

I am also doing my show live on SecondLife (4:00pm SLT). Feel free to come along! Use your Search feature to find Critter Valley. Once you teleport to the Mall, you should see a big chalet style house on a nearby hill. That's me! Come on in! I have a dancing stage set up with a stripper pole, and my good friend Matt Readon the croc will be entertaining guests during the show.

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/16221930/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/16221930/ Wed, 02 Jan 2008 10:24:42 PST

I don't really make resolutions, since it's stupid to make extra promises to yourself to make things better. It's like using Christmas as an excuse to be nice to everyone. We should be doing that 24/7 anyway. Instead, I just try to concentrate on a few things.

So here are my "resolutions" for 2008:
- get a job asap
- get back on my diet and exercise every day, gonna get my ass under 160 (aiming for 150) and TONE THOSE ABS
- spend more time practicing my art and less time online
- discipline myself to finish AT LEAST one finished piece of art per month

I get so depressed over being unemployed, and feeling like shit because sitting around all day is making me fat (see first point), and I am ALWAYS down about my art. Just taking care of these main points will make me feel SO MUCH BETTER and would be a good start at making 2008 a better year for me.

And here's wishing a good 2008 to all of you too. ^_^

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/16149972/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/16149972/ Sat, 29 Dec 2007 09:14:16 PST
DJ Khaki - Saturday Night En-Trancement
Saturday, December 29, 2007 at 7:00pm EST
On Radio Furtopia, click the link below and click on LISTEN. The playlist file (.pls) will download and/or load in WinAMP or iTunes. It is compatible with both apps.
BROADBAND [link] - DIALUP [link]

I am also doing my show live on SecondLife. Feel free to come along! Use your Search feature to find Critter Valley. Once you teleport to the Mall, you should see a big chalet style house on a nearby hill. That's me! Come on in! I have a dancing stage set up with a stripper pole, and my good friend Matt Readon the croc will be entertaining guests during the show.

Enjoy the show!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15943393/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15943393/ Sat, 15 Dec 2007 10:54:28 PST
DJ Khaki - Saturday Night En-Trancement
Saturday, December 15, 2007 at 7:00pm EST
On Radio Furtopia, click the link below and click on LISTEN. The playlist file (.pls) will download and/or load in WinAMP or iTunes. It is compatible with both apps.
BROADBAND [link] - DIALUP [link]

I am also doing my show live on SecondLife. Feel free to come along! Use your Search feature to find Critter Valley. Once you teleport to the Mall, you should see a big chalet style house on a nearby hill. That's me! Come on in!

Enjoy the show!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15900264/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15900264/ Wed, 12 Dec 2007 08:05:10 PST
People keep asking me if I have any music for them to check out, and I usually send them my radio performance from April 29th 2006. I'd have to say it's one of the nicest mixes I have ever done and I am quite proud of it. So, this track will be available for the next 2-3 days, so feel free to download it yourself!

[link]

On a side note, the opening track of the mix is Venus by Darren Tate. The entire track is about 8:04 minutes long. Now, I accidentally deleted all of my MP3's the last time I installed Windows and I have been searching all over for a full and complete copy of this track. All I ever seem to find are copies that have been ripped from live mixes, with music fading in/out at the end/start of the song.

So here is my challenge! If anyone can locate, download, and send me a full, unraped unripped 8:04 version of Darren Tate - Venus, 160-192kbps, I will give you a full colour commission for your trouble! I really need to get this song back, because it's absolutely gorgeous, and I just cannot find it anywhere.

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15752582/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15752582/ Sat, 01 Dec 2007 16:28:07 PST
So what else works? KazaaLite used to be reliable, but it didn't work the last time I used it. There's WinMX and E-Mule... what else is out there? What do you guys use, and what works?

Not including BitTorrent... which I haven't had much luck with, and doesn't help when you need individual tracks buried in a folder with 300 other trance tracks. XD

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15731833/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15731833/ Fri, 30 Nov 2007 08:10:54 PST
Sure, str8 guys look nice in briefs too. But they can't move like we can. ^_^

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15706351/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15706351/ Wed, 28 Nov 2007 11:39:45 PST
Then there are the half-assed posts that sound like," OMG SUPER AWESOME CALL CENTRE NEEDS MOTIVATED INDIVIDUALS TO JOIN OUR SUPER TEAM! MAKE GOOD MONEY WORKING WITH A HIGHLY RATED COMPANY! OUT OF WORK? NO PROBLEM! WE CAN GET YOU TRAINED AND WORKING RIGHT AWAY! OMG YOU HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR AN OPPORTUNITY LIKE THIS!!"

No one in their right mind would post a job for a professional company using crap like that. I swear, I looked at one and there was an entire paragraph talking about how unemployment is up and there's a high demend for highly skilled people blah blah blah. Like fucking shit, who cares? Tell me about the position you are offering!

I was going to work on some art today, but I am so pissed and frustrated about being unemployed AND having to deal with retards writing job offers that it's completely ruined my mood and I don't feel like artsing right now. FurAffinity is finally back online and after three hours of my AWESOME SEXY ASS being online I only have 32 pageviews, 1 favorite and a comment to match. I admit people probably haven't realized that FA is working now, but still. HOT ASS! PORN ON FA is going unnoticed. I'll give it another day or two before I start up with the angsty emo ranting about how even when I draw GOOD ART and PORN people still don't like my work. XD

So yeah... I hate being unemployed. My bad mood has ruined everything that I used to enjoy doing. And the worse thing is that once I actually START working and gradually bring my mood back to somewhere between depressed and happy I'll be SO BUSY working I won't be able to do my art anyway.

Catch 22.

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15472369/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15472369/ Mon, 12 Nov 2007 00:31:27 PST
How do I turn them off?

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15431178/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15431178/ Fri, 09 Nov 2007 08:07:33 PST
I've had a handful of people accuse me of copying people, even though my art style is completely my own. Some douche even said he could "see several people's styles" that I had copied and put into my art. It's BS.

And yet whenever you accuse a "popular" artist of copying someone else's style, all of their fanboys try their best to kick your ass. Even when it's obvious that they sudden;y started drawing in a different style that's similar to someone else.

I know one artist who used to draw fairly well, then within a week of them hanging out with another artist he started drawing a lot better, but in that person's style. An ex friend of mine went from cartoon-realism to realism within a week after she started hanging out with Khyot.

I've learned from other artists. I study art to help with my hands and feet, and anatomy, and facial expression. But in the end I have developed my own style that I'm able to recreate on a regular basis. I just hate seeing all of these "popular" artists becoming more popular and making more money because they decided to start copying someone else's style.

It's never fun being the little guy. It really isn't.

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15360343/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15360343/ Sun, 04 Nov 2007 10:54:33 PST
Geez, that must have been a few months ago. The thread was still up today, and I noticed the pic had been deleted. That was kind of weird, but I also noticed a comment that had been left directly under mine.

Now when you are registered on fchan as an artist, you get a little "artist" tag next to your name. So you can post using your name and if you are on the DNP list you can post your OWN artwork. That's mainly what the "artist" tag is for.

So this person must have thought that because I had an "artist" tag, I could post DNP pictures. He left some rude comment like," Just because you're an artist, doesn't mean you're the artist for this picture. It's DNP."

Now I can understand it was DNP I guess. Turns out the pic was by Herbie Bearclaw. Whee. But I just hate how someone had to jump up my ass over it, like it was a big deal or something. It's the fucking Internet, seriously. I fucking hate when I do something wrong and everyone gets their shorts in a knot like it's armageddon or something, yet whenever I catch someone doing stupid shit everyone tells me to chill out and leave it alone.

Seriously. Fuck artists. Maybe the reason why I haven't drawn anything in the last 3 months is because I realize what a bunch of arrogant pricks most artists are. Seriously. I don't even like to draw anymore because I know some bullshit retard furry artist is going to come along and stomp on it because it doesn't make his dick twitch. It's turned into a huge popularity contest and if you're not the best artist in the world you keep getting shit on.

I'm about ready to give up on this shit. I swear to god. I used to really like drawing because... it was fun, and I enjoyed doing it. But now... it's not worth the effort or the aggrvation of having to deal with these assholes. Seriously.

Fuck the hell off.

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15342452/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15342452/ Sat, 03 Nov 2007 07:55:40 PDT
It's that time again! I've got my music ready and I dunno if I am going to get some booze for tonight, but you never know! YAY drunk DJ!

So, tonight at 7pm EST, or on SecondLife at 4pm SLT. I'll be playing my usual assortment of trance music and witty commentary. Here is the link to the radio server: [link]

That playlist file (click on Listen) will load in WinAMP and iTunes. I hope everyone can log in all right.

I hope you enjoy the show!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15198910/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15198910/ Wed, 24 Oct 2007 08:13:05 PDT
Once again I am selling the poster from the Camp Feral! 2007 RAVE. The poster features my raver coon with the Feral! camp logo, and has been signed by the guests of honour: max blackrabbit, gideon, and ferris. The poster has also been signed by each of the four DJ's.

The money is going to the Algonquin Park ECO Watch, an organization that looks after the ecosystem of Algonquin Park, where Camp Feral! is held every summer.

Bidding starts at $5.00, but the last time I posted the poster it went over $20.00 within an hour, so get it while you can!

Oh yeah, you might need the link too: [link]

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15031693/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/15031693/ Fri, 12 Oct 2007 15:55:56 PDT
I got all my stuff put together and made sure the radio server was still online. It looks like things are good to go.

The new version of Traktor DJ Studio (3.0) is CONFUSING as hell. I couldn't even find the buttons to speed up and slow down the BPM/tempo. And it's the day before the show.

I uninstalled Traktor and I am going to put my older version, 2.6, on here. I know it in and out and won't have to spend DAYS fiddling with it.

So, tomorrow at 7pm EST, or on SecondLife at 4pm SLT. That's Saturday October 13th. Here is the link to the radio server: [link]

That playlist file (click on Listen) will load in WinAMP and iTunes. I hope everyone can log in all right.

I hope you enjoy the show!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/14980398/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/14980398/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 04:09:35 PDT
I am PLANNING on doing a show this weekend. I need to work on the music and Traktor DJ is still in its "freshly installed" phase. But I should be able to do a show on Saturday.

More information to come. I'll probably post all of the details on Friday!

DJ Khaki is back, and I'm ready to rock the house!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/13522238/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/13522238/ Thu, 28 Jun 2007 07:42:06 PDT
I called up my old boss at my cottage to get a job working at their marina and store again. So not only will I be working full time and make enough money to go to Camp Feral! at the end of August, but I get my summer vacation again too!

The main downsides is that I don't have a laptop, and unless my friend lends me his lappy for the summer, I will not get any digital art finished while I am gone. However, this will not prevent me from using my markers, and I am also going to try to do some work with watercolours as well. So we'll see.

And to give you an idea of how remote my cottage is, here is a Google satellite map of the island. The white pawprint indicates where the cottage is located.

[link]

So, I expect to have about 10,000 messages, submissions, and journals when I get back on August 23rd, but I am really going to enjoy myself!

See you all in eight weeks!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/13465913/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/13465913/ Sat, 23 Jun 2007 23:01:02 PDT
Sometimes I have to click on REMOVE ALL MESSAGES like 4 times to get them to delete completely. ANNOYING! *death*

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/13319652/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/13319652/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 17:20:49 PDT [link]

I'll be posting some of my pics and sketches online soon, especially the sketch by Heather Bruton. MMMMM looks so good! Also, I have leftover stuff for sale, so if anyone is interested in purchasing some stuff from me, stay posted!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/13243716/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/13243716/ Wed, 06 Jun 2007 19:10:31 PDT
So after work I rode the subway down to where the Kinko's print shop is downtown. I must say I am never going to a Kinko's ever again. First of all, the guy barely paid any attention to me. He seemed very rushed and RUDE. He got me on one of the "do it yourself" computers and asked what files I had. I told him JPEG, and he told me to use PhotoShop. I mentioned that PS sometimes prints off-centre, so he told me to convert to PDF and then print using Acrobat. I mentioned that PDF conversion sometimes screws up the colours, and he told me," Yeah, well we don't do colour matching."

????? WTF? This is fucking KINKO'S I'm dealing with, and he tells me they don't do colour matching. So Joe Random comes in to have his big presentation done for the boss, and Kinko's will tell him it looks like shit because "we don't do colour matching"??

So, big surprise, all of the prints are DARK and the soft shading on Lil Blue Wolf's face looks like an almost SOLID smudge. So I tell him they're no good and he takes them and says," Ok, I'll just have them recycled then. Sorry about that." I reminded him that Staples Business Depot uses Corel Draw to print, since they are full colour JPEG images, and they just import them onto a page and print them out without any conversion, and he says, again," We don't do colour matching, sorry." I also had my B&W price list printed out, and when I asked where it was he said," It's right there!" pointing at the B&W laser printer... like... "DUH idiot it's right there in the printer!'

Holy shit, I am NEVER going to a Kinko's ever again. I picked up a pair of sexy GOLD gel pens at Grand & Toy, since I always sign my prints and con badges with a gold pen, and went to the Staples near my apartment. I had them test print one of the images and GOD ALMIGHTY, little Staples print centre came through for me again! Beautiful quality! I am picking up the new prints tomorrow.

My Art CD is done and I need to burn 11 copies tomorrow night. I currently have 3 ready to go. Gonna have both of my computers burning away tomorrow. Wheee!

I am sooo fucking burned out. I've been getting abour 4-5 hours of sleep for the last three nights, trying to get all of this shit done. If I don't sell anything at C-ACE, like I didn't in 2003, I am going to fucking EXPLODE. Like, serious nervous breakdown. I can't deal with all this shit. MWAH!

Well, I just have one more day of work and then... C-ACE on Friday!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/13127345/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/13127345/ Mon, 28 May 2007 15:41:02 PDT
Check out the freakin' cake!!
[link]

European Chocolate Truffle Mousse, NOM NOM NOM!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/12084318/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/12084318/ Tue, 06 Mar 2007 17:27:58 PST
I am going to update some things tonight. Stay posted!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/12072443/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/12072443/ Mon, 05 Mar 2007 18:38:09 PST
The "Tiger in River" picture does not display on my "Recent Deviations" or in my Gallery, unless you select "Category, Anthro, All Anthro". I don't know why it is doing that. I might delete the picture and try to re-upload it.

Just in case it's something that can be fixed, I won't upload any new pics until this is settled. I want to keep my pictures in order.

Any idea on how to make the picture show up in my gallery?

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/11961804/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/11961804/ Sun, 25 Feb 2007 13:32:19 PST
You will be happy to hear that starting on March 1, 2007, I am making a comeback. I am going to re-upload all of my artwork to DeviantArt, open a FurAffinity account, and start concentrating on my artwork once again.

I am going to make the attempt to draw at least one picture a week, or more. I am also going to make a goal to finish at least one coloured picture per month.

I certainly hope things go well. See you all again soon!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/10986063/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/10986063/ Thu, 07 Dec 2006 16:33:48 PST
It's been a while since I was on here. How are all of you doing.

Been thinking about you guys lately. I honestly thought all of you would have taken me off your Watch list, since I don't do anything on here anymore. It's very nice to see you've hung on. Thank you!

I got to chat with Smevog a few weeks ago. That was random, and cool. Thanks for the IM!

Things I am working on...
- art trade with Lil' Blue Wolf (aka Bloo)
- colouring for a friend; art by SoulDreamX
- commission for Ebon Pony
- commission for my roommate
- Camp Feral! 2006 conbook art (published, but I wanna colour it now)

As you can see, I do have lots of artistic projects on the go. I just haven't been working on them. I really need to unplug my network cable and dedicate a day or two just to art. It's too much temptation to close Photoshop and load my chat programs, or play games.

Someone needs to come down and give me a beating, and force me to work on my art. Haha!

See you all again soon!

]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/9089687/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/9089687/ Fri, 16 Jun 2006 17:52:09 PDT
I'm still here. Floating around randomly. Been trying to draw recently but it's not looking good.

I had an Art Jam at my place a few months ago, and even started a LiveJournal Art Draw, where I pull names out of a hat and draw pictures for that person. For practice. I haven't drawn a THING, and I've got 3 names out of the hat already.

Really questioning whether I still have the talent to draw anymore. Some of the work I did in 2003-2005 was my best ever. But I just can't do it anymore. It's not that I've reached a plateau. I can't even draw anything anymore.

I am REALLY trying to avoid quitting furry art altogether. But I just cannot even muster up the motivation to draw anything anymore. I can't even attempt to practice to get better, or study the new art book a friend gave me.

What ahould I do?

PS: I have recently changed my e-mail address. Feel free to contact me anytime at khaki-wolf @ rogers . com ]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/8160196/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/8160196/ Tue, 14 Mar 2006 14:48:30 PST
My main site will still be online for those of you who want to stay in touch.

[link]

Goodbye.

~Khaki ]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/8047142/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/8047142/ Thu, 02 Mar 2006 13:32:17 PST
Luckily I bet I can get it done this weekend, get it out of the way, and maybe try to doodle some ideas. I NEED to get some art done before you guys delete me.

Here we go. ]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/7641496/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/7641496/ Wed, 18 Jan 2006 16:57:22 PST
Here's the URL. Take a look if you are cusrious.

[link] ]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/7344003/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/7344003/ Sun, 18 Dec 2005 09:40:13 PST
I was supposed to make a trip to Ottawa, via Montreal and then back to Toronto. I was going to see some relatives, and visit some very dear friends, some of which I haven't seen in almost 3 years. I suppose my subconscious started the depression, knowing that I was getting closer to Dec 16th when my train was supposed to take me to Montreal.

When I get depressed, everything else bottles up as well. I started thinking about dating, and how lonely I am, and how all of the people I am interested in either live far away, or they just wouldn't want to date me, for whatever reason.

Last night my radio show fucked up, so I canceled the show and got drunk on beer while eating junk food and watching TV for several hours. C'est la vie.

But I played Counter-Strike last night until like 4:30am and did pretty well. Then again it's kinda hard to do REALLY REALLY bad on fy_iceworld. Got around 7 hours of sleep, and right now I am feeling alright, but hardly jovial.

I'll try to be around more often. Be well, my friends. ]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/6542571/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/6542571/ Mon, 19 Sep 2005 03:28:04 PDT
I've called in sick today because I just DO NOT want to go to work, and I don't even want to leave the house. The urge to step in front of a bus is just too tempting right now.

I'm really angry, and sad, and... just really really scared.

And I need to draw more often. ]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/5693462/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/5693462/ Sun, 19 Jun 2005 10:15:38 PDT
HDD crash. Haven't taken the time to get to my DA account until now. Am back.

Hello! ]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/5693457/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/5693457/ Sun, 19 Jun 2005 10:15:06 PDT
HDD crash. Haven't taken the time to get to my DA account until now. Am back.

Hello! ]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/5529866/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/5529866/ Thu, 02 Jun 2005 08:54:53 PDT
So, either she doesn't care, or no one found my journal.

Result: NONE ]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/5327624/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/5327624/ Wed, 11 May 2005 08:03:00 PDT
What are they going to do over the Internet?

And considering DA's policy on not giving two fucks if someone copies your artwork and posts it in their DA gallery, it's easy to get away with.

My target is Kyoht. She's a real stuck-up bitch. One of those," Oh, I'm God's gift to the fandom so that makes me a higher form of life than you, and I'll let you know when you have permission to speak to me."

I e-mailed her once and she was a total snob. She just totally brushed me off like I was less important than the people sucking her cock. And I was e-mailing her to compliment her on her art. I don't tolerate people like that.

On one of her art pieces, she says," ****** is my character. If you copy him I get to skin you alive." So, I'm going to put this to the test. I'm going to copy said character and post it on ALL of my online archives and see if I get skinned alive. It'll be a fun experiment.

Anyone else want to take a bid at this?

There is another experiment here, but I'll keep it secret until later. *wink* This is gonna be good. ]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/5257046/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/5257046/ Tue, 03 May 2005 14:37:40 PDT
After logging in, both were visible. Whew! I guess you can only see the NAUGHTY pics if you are signed in under a DA account.

Weird.

Freaking out averted. ]]> ~cyberwulfe http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/5183615/ http://cyberwulfe.deviantart.com/journal/5183615/ Mon, 25 Apr 2005 08:05:08 PDT
Also, I am moving to Toronto in THREE WEEKS and all I have on me is $300 left over after I got fired from my last job (vinyl signmaker for 2 weeks).

Everything in my life has been put on hold. I am so upset and depressed all the time that I just don't feel like doing ANYTHING. My artwork has stalled. I haven't even been able to DOODLE anything in over a month. Sometimes I seriously consider quitting furry art. Because I suck at it, and I can never draw anything that people actually like. And it makes me frustrated seeing people wo update their online galleries five times a week or more, and I haven't even finished ONE piece of art this year.

Ugh... someone throw a rock at me. I'm sick of all this shit getting dumped on me at once. It's like a caravan of dumptrucks filled with shit lined up and keep dumping their loads on me one at a time. I'm sick of it! I need a fucking break! ]]> ~cyberwulfe