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Anyways, I hope to have the new account up and running soon. More details to be posted... ]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1367841/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1367841/ Fri, 07 Nov 2003 05:16:50 PST ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1293364/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1293364/ Sat, 18 Oct 2003 14:53:25 PDT plastic mind...
...fake ]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1262499/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1262499/ Sat, 11 Oct 2003 08:10:07 PDT but you wouldn't know
exchange your plastic eyes and see what I am
truly, you're blind
who's to tell you what you fell on?
my sky coloured corpse. ]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1234009/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1234009/ Sat, 04 Oct 2003 00:19:35 PDT
"Je veux une person, non naturel. Peut etre pour une conversation intense, ou meme seulement un ami. Je veut quelqu'un non naturel pour que j'ai une personne qui a des traits en commun avec moi. Oui, parceque...je suis non naturel...je suis la tragedie humaine. Il y a seulement les esprits and les corps qui couche six pieds sous sol pour moi maintenant. Au moins j'ai mon amour"

I later left the area of my born thoughts and escaped to my usual environment. Nothing... ]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1164460/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1164460/ Mon, 15 Sep 2003 10:37:27 PDT ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1136471/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1136471/ Sun, 07 Sep 2003 06:03:47 PDT My summer is gone, the one I've lived for.
I was with my lover...it was such an event because of the distance between us...1100 miles.
I'd have to say internet relationships are hard to up keep...but are very worth it.
I've found my second half.

Now I can barely ever see her because of my work, but luckily I have a second phone line now.
School is starting and I hear complaints...but what do I have to worry about homework now?...I have to go to some crappy job where I'll be for the next year...till...*sigh*...
...we're together...again...

my love...~deadeyedraven ]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1088197/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1088197/ Fri, 22 Aug 2003 05:43:21 PDT
-"Yes, I believe, truly"

-"Then I want you to remove it at once! and never to wear it within this castle again!
Do you know how a falcon is trained my dear? Her eyes are sown shut. Blinded temporarily she suffers the whims of
her God patiently, until her will is submerged and she learns to serve as your God taught and blinded you with crosses. "

-"You had me take off my cross because it
offended.... "

-"It offended no one. No it simply appears to me to be discourteous to... to wear the symbol of a deity long dead. My ancestors tried to find it. And to open
the door that seperates us from our Creator. "

-" But you need no doors to find God.
If you believe...."

-"Believe?! If you believe you are gullible.
Can you look around this world and believe
in the goodness of a god who rules it?
Famine, Pestilence, War, Disease and Death!
They rule this world. "

-"There is also love and life and hope. "

-"Very little hope I assure you.
No. If a god of love and life ever did
exist... he is long since dead.
Someone... something rules in his place " ]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1075685/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1075685/ Sun, 17 Aug 2003 20:28:44 PDT strange how I feel like I'm lost in them
odd to see that I feel them because I've lost myself
ill minds in worst creations
what can I expect to be the result?
wanting to live as I did, so I grasp for life and my past
but they will never come,
so I sit here in my tomb of blue watching dead roses fall
as much as I want to, I won't let go
because of the memories that I once lived
and hope to live again ]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1052587/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/1052587/ Sat, 09 Aug 2003 11:39:16 PDT
Sometimes it's so bad that all that comes to mind is those events with my love.

Sometimes it makes me want to cry, but I never do....I never do.

Sometimes I hate everything because I can't have what I want...when all I want is my love back.

Sometimes I lay in bed composed, waiting for life to pass me by, waiting for her return...but I always know that I won't have her for a very long time.

Sometimes I will puncture holes into my jar of emotions because opening it is not an answer. My madness springs out and all emotions would return. I put myself in a jar only to escape when the light shows me the way.

Sometimes I sit here wondering what ever happened to my love...has she abandoned me...or is she just away.

Visit my love:...
~icondeadeyedraven ]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/954721/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/954721/ Thu, 17 Jul 2003 05:13:57 PDT
This is going to be the hardest thing I ever had to do... ]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/909864/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/909864/ Fri, 04 Jul 2003 19:37:37 PDT
2 weeks have passed and my time with her has been nothing more than a dream that I seem to be living in. There is truly bliss in being here even though people will probably stare at me as I walk down the streets with my black trench coat...used to it though....

I've never been happier...I found my place by her side...my little piece of heaven.

Visit my lover:
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Visit her at:
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Other news
...tuesday...my god, after 9 months of being together, this will be the first time I actually meet her. I'm in utter disbelief, I guess it helps keep the excitement down...not down enough though...still very excited. Nothing works...I'll have to wait in a week...god I love her.

if you want to go look at her work, go here ~deadeyedraven
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Making me talk about only makes me miss her more...*sigh*...8 days

if you want to go look at her work go here ~deadeyedraven
]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/768295/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/768295/ Wed, 28 May 2003 03:42:54 PDT Anyways, it looks like back to plain old nothing till 21 days...excitement...*very excited*
Ah, Piper...*sigh*
if you want to look / read her work you'll find her under ~deadeyedraven she really is talented. ]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/768282/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/768282/ Wed, 28 May 2003 03:36:45 PDT
(oh and btw, if you didn't get it..I'm mocking patriotic americans) ]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/768153/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/768153/ Wed, 28 May 2003 02:08:08 PDT ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/757328/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/757328/ Sun, 25 May 2003 06:21:40 PDT well, another birthday...yay...*sarcasm*. Why do I hate my birthdays? because I don't care for my family and of course...so many people in my family, so...everyone comes...and I hate it. Not only am I overloaded with homework, but I'd actually rather do that. *sigh*, you don't know how lucky you are Piper. Oh well, they give money..and I need it...don't mean to sound greedy, but when Piper comes, I'm really going to need money...sometimes I guess it's good to have so many family members...for times like these anyways.

Well I decided to post up pictures of my trip to Quebec and my new work, though I don't find it very good...anyways, I hope you enjoy it none the less.

Summer is coming soon and I can't wait...I'm so desperate for Piper...so very desperate...sad really.

Btw, if you want to go see her deviations (poems) you'll find her under ~deadeyedraven ]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/722104/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/722104/ Wed, 14 May 2003 14:34:56 PDT ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/708674/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/708674/ Sat, 10 May 2003 17:53:56 PDT Enjoy...

Fathomable Love

My love is indelible
My exertion becoming irksome
Ecstasy flowing like gales
An elixir made me placid
And I capitulate my thoughts
To apathetic strangers

To ascertain my love
To obliterate me
These paroxysms of remorse
Will become a specter
Whom will traverse over seas
And away from me

This zeal of love
Becoming immutable
And protracts in up coming days
But will extinguish
On the 18th of June ]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/705516/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/705516/ Fri, 09 May 2003 18:20:29 PDT
I can only paint abstract, it's what I'm good and and it's what I love to do. So much would I just love to be able to paint her face and write a poem about how I feel for her. Problem with my poetry, it's just as abstract as my art and the inspiration isn't always there...though she inspires me in all different ways and never the same.

She's lying on her sick bed coughing up her troubles and I feel so useless. Been 5 minutes since she left and I already miss her. ]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/696713/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/696713/ Wed, 07 May 2003 01:18:04 PDT ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/675372/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/675372/ Wed, 30 Apr 2003 14:51:17 PDT ]]> ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/496276/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/496276/ Sat, 15 Feb 2003 21:09:19 PST ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/414844/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/414844/ Sun, 29 Dec 2002 17:29:23 PST ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/404765/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/404765/ Mon, 23 Dec 2002 05:22:47 PST ~cynical-parasite http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/402959/ http://cynical-parasite.deviantart.com/journal/402959/ Sat, 21 Dec 2002 23:55:29 PST As a maiden being swept off her feet
As leaves falling off trees
It blows to my face like an enchanted storm
One that any man can fly
This wind is the one who sets me free
Unlike other winds, this one let’s me dance on air
All my doubts and regrets turn to be
Forgotten in a gentle breeze and
All my worries and hate turn to
All the good things with
The might of the gazing wind

The wind blows to me from the north
Like an uncouth insect that won’t leave you alone
Even if you ask, it stays until it becomes a bother
It will sting you with its cold and frosty air
Infect you with a disease that
Making every moment miserable
This cunning breeze makes everything trivial

The wind blows to me in the winter
As a cold and dark shadow
Where it may block all sunlight and
Sets me down into the frozen fields
Where doubts and regrets are born
When this wind strikes upon my face
It tears away anything pure that I was born with
It robs me of my courage and well-being
With enough time given, it will begin to
Torment me with its blows and screaming,
While I hide on the other side of the door.

I made this poem a long time ago.
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