http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:cynicalpicksie&section=today deviantART RSS for by:cynicalpicksie en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 28 Dec 2009 09:13:03 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://cynicalpicksie.deviantart.com/journal/14543058/ http://cynicalpicksie.deviantart.com/journal/14543058/ Sat, 08 Sep 2007 09:27:10 PDT

i just healed a lot from my cold. now all my sinuses are draining and i feel like my head is about to cave in. but that's okay cuz i have the power of sprite and popsicles. mmmmm.

alaska just attacked my leg. right where she attacked it last weekend and there was a huge, hurting bruise there with a scratch. so now it's like double pain. but i'll be okay later. i'm gonna take her outside and run around with her. she'll leave me be after that. she's so cute! ♥

izk's mom is crazy lately. who even knows.

tata you guys. i have to go roll my dreads.

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he left me the sweetest comment today and i can't get over it. he made me cry because it was so sweet.

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on a happier note, i may be a tattoo apprentice starting next year. i'm very excited.

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and i still haven't gotten the guts up to ask him if he meant all those things about marriage and kids that he used to say to caitlin. cuz i know him well and know that he wants neither of those things.


i still love him though.
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he's MINE. and i am very grateful.

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that would make me so sad. i really hate being this insecure about things.

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why does it have to be so hard? why can't he just understand? <3

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eh..i dunno what else to say. i love izk more than anything and i guess i just have to tell someone since i'm scared to tell him. i'm afraid he'll tell me that it's not love you're insane or something like that. i've been let down before. who's to say it won't happen again? cuz i really like him and don't want to let him go.

oh and ryan is the bestestest friend ever and i'll be fairly upsetted when he moves to hot springs.

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i feel like jenny is just pounding me to get away from isaac. ]]> !cynicalpicksie http://cynicalpicksie.deviantart.com/journal/13390472/ http://cynicalpicksie.deviantart.com/journal/13390472/ Mon, 18 Jun 2007 07:11:04 PDT



i know i haven't done anything on here in awhile but give me some time and i'll have some new stuff up soon i hope.




i feel lost today for some reason.

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i love these pictures. i would like to do some like them someday.




i got called a lazy retarded loser yesterday. all in one day.
i think people just don't like to be seen with me. at all.


my boyfriend made me lay out. in the sun. that causes skin to turn a golden color. MY PALENESS IS NO MORE. what have become?

GET A JOB HIPPIE! yeah. voices.

maybe i can convince isaac that we need to watch a scary movie tonight.

damnit i need a hug.

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dance dance revolution is so much fun. i love it. my legs and back and arms hurt so much from it. but i still do it. isaac and i played yesterday with our hands, and it's pretty easy that way.

i quit my job too so i'm going to go fill out some applications today since isaac so kindly reminded me. ugh. i think maybe he just wanted to get rid of me. JOKE JOKE. i was kidding. HOLY UNDERWEAR! i need to go draw him something. i'm at his house right now with alaska clawing at my leg.

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hahahaha this guy is too funny.


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both videos. both nicely done. MY FAVORITE SONG.



friday the 13th. i had a great day. i can't wait until tomorrow. i have a surprise in order. ^_^.

"We should live by cake light." Claire Fisher.



urgh. i'm feeling bad right now though.

Love Letter Art by ~cynicalpicksie on deviantART

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and i've just now experienced the horror that was the last episode of six feet under. i bawled my eyes out! sad news.

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i hate being treated like a fucking 2 year old. it's like i don't put my clothes up quick enough and i don't wear them enough and i don't fucking wash them with my mind fast enough. i don't do it right and i don't complete the task in 10 seconds or less. i am an inconvenience lately around my house it seems. i don't clean anything good enough. i don't do anything to the capability that i am "supposed" to be able to. i bet someones parents are very proud. i wish i didn't get bitched at from the very second i arrive home.

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i've been hurt in the past and this time it would hurt a lot more.

i'm not going to say what i want to because the last time i spoke my mind i got told it was the wrong thing to do. i just want a hug

this journal has been edited so much. urgh.


i had a crazy flavored spaz at work the other day. i freaked out because i felt like everyone was pissed at me.


i got out on the floor at school. i did a pedicure and got a 3 dollar tip. and now i've gota new job at a hair salon so i'm away from target FINALLY. and my weekends have great hours!



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i love six feet under.

tonight i watched UFC. and tomorrow at work i will watch UFC. and friday i'm renting some scary movies. and some funny movies. i'm getting my tattoo retouched saturday. fun fun fun fun. i can't wait. i can't decide what color to get it the letters though. i'm thinking green and turquoise or something. urgh i don't know. and once i get my dreads i am dying my hair rainbow colors with some candy cane stripe dreads in there. like two different colors? yeah. pretty exciting.

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i was in a very great mood yesterday.

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i'm feeling very fececious right now. very.

i want some hugs and kisses. chocolate or human kisses would work just fine. and i want to make woo-woos with lois right now. mmmmm.


i want to escape from work tomorrow and play darth vader. or excel.

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it's all good right now and it's like i have to fuck it up. i'm headed down a very destructive path and i'm scared. i'm scared i'm going to permanently put myself in the corner, in the dark.

let's tell a joke. let's have a laugh. let's not choke.


LET'S LIVE. for us. for someone else. for somthing good. for something GREAT.

i love my life. let's keep it that way. *hugs*

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so yesh. i am very excited about this business. and they put my picture in their portfolio. i have to get color added but that will be a couple more weeks. pictures soon soon soon.

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i will be getting my head examined tomorrow at one. wish me luck. and i'm searching for a new job because nobody tells me to take down my mohawk.


and i have to work tomorrow from 4 to 11 and the same on friday and i was supposed to go to work on saturday but i'm not going to. i don't fucking feel like it.

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i have a tattoo appointment on the 17th at one. i'm excited. ^_^

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did you know that guitar hero is a fantastical game? IT:S ADDICTIVE AS HELL!!!!! i played with isaac for TEN HOURS yesterday. we just kept passing the guitar back and forth. how in the name of bob do you pass this game? the hard songs are so fucking hard!?!?!

i am so very sleepy.

maybe i can sleep this afternoon. but probably not. i love the internet too much. i need pictures to paint and draw. i'm so glad i don't have to work today. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz zzz

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btw.......SAW III IS FANTASMAGORICAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm holding it hostage.

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let's stop whining.
and.
move on.
and.
LIVE.

see also: start over.
see also: a new beginning.

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i love all my real friends. not jessica. not josh. you know who you are.

new stuff soon ^_^

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most call me wierd.

I NEVER REGRET KISSING HIM. NEVER.




Okay...now the monster is awake
It won't rest until there's nothing left
Maybe ever and anon
I forget about the pain
Someone bending light comes along
And flowers lean towards the sun
Some people fall in love and touch the sky
Some people fall in love and find quicksand
I hover somewhere in between.. i swear..
I can't make up my mind.


We all have something that digs at us
At least we dig each other.



I was but still water
You were the breeze
The tide to pull me under
Wonderful, i agree

]]> !cynicalpicksie http://cynicalpicksie.deviantart.com/journal/10549293/ http://cynicalpicksie.deviantart.com/journal/10549293/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 13:56:03 PST There's a city by the sea
I watch the ships pass and wonder if she might be
Out there and sober, as a well for loneliness
Please do persist girl, It's time we met and made, a mess

I picture your face at the back of my eyes
A fire in the addict, proof of the prize
Anna Molly Anna Molly Anna Molly

A cloud hangs over
And mutes my happiness
A thousand ships couldn't send me back from distress
Wish you were here
I'm a wounded satellite
I need you now put me back together make me right

I picture your face at the back of my eyes
A fire in the addict, proof of the prize
Anna Molly Anna Molly Anna Molly
I'll crawl to your name, i'll bend to the earth
Not one of the others could ever compare
Anna Molly Anna Molly

Wait
There is a light
There is a fire, illuminated addict
Fate, or something better
I couldn't care less
Just stay with me a while
Wait, there is a light, there is a fire
Defragment dreams the addict
Fate or somthing better i couldn't care less
Just stay with me awhile


i love this song with a passion

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otherwise, i'm all good. SAW IS MY NEW FAVORITE MOVIE. damn you isaac. now i can't get the fucking thing out of my head. the guy who made that shit up is crazy! wow.

i should be back on sometime this week. hopefully by wednesday or thursday. but don't hold my word to be truth.

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avenged sevenfold sucks. ASS.
and i lurve brandon boyd...


i passed my GED. average 636. i get to walk next may with honors. if i invited you of my friends would you come??? IZK i'm talking to you. and my headaches won't quit. FUCK FUCK FUCK. it hurts.

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and i just came up with the greatest thing. SLUTMONKEY. so if anyone called me that i wouldn't be offended. i would just laugh at you and call you a buttnugget. ^_^

again, i love you all.

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