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]]> ~czn http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/13344500/ http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/13344500/ Thu, 14 Jun 2007 15:20:31 PDT
So many things have changed here..

Also I like to say sorry to those frens who had commented or message me and were expecting the same ... Sorry i couldn't write back.

]]> ~czn http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1823096/ http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1823096/ Tue, 10 Feb 2004 12:08:36 PST true love would find me.
But I’m still lost and alone
within my own darkness.

Perhaps true love can be found in the mirror.
But I look and I see empty eyes.
Eyes that no longer dream of falling
into the eyes of another.
Shall I put aside the foolish
concept of a soul mate?
But I know they do exist,
for I see others with theirs,
and I long for what they have.

So the empty darkness
continues to expand
and engulf my heart.

I just dropped the mirror
and it shattered
into tiny, jagged pieces
that cut if I try to pick them up.
I don’t want another mirror.
I’ve seen enough! ]]> ~czn http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1642873/ http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1642873/ Wed, 07 Jan 2004 11:35:57 PST And the skies turn blue
I will always ask
Why I had to love you

As I look at our pictures
And think of your smile
I'll wonder why
I thought you worthwhile

When I cry on my pillow
And sob to the sky
I'll continue to ask the question-
Why?

Why did you change?
Where did it go wrong?
Why didn't you try to
Make it last long?

Why was it hard?
What did I ever lack?
The hardest question now...
Why can't you love me back? ]]> ~czn http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1613608/ http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1613608/ Thu, 01 Jan 2004 11:25:00 PST I want to tell you 'don't go'
lace your fingers in mine
lets just forget the world
go with the flow
I want to tell you so many things
I want to tell you 'I love you'
but the words stop before reaching my lips
words unsaid
but feelings felt
it is easier
not to lay it all out
I want to tell you so many things
I want to tell you 'don't go'
just look into my soul
and watch the sun rise and set on my heart
with our words unsaid
but feelings felt
I want to tell you so many things
I want to tell you 'don't go'
just come away with me
so we can be free
but I see you fading away
with our words unsaid
but feelings felt... ]]> ~czn http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1386112/ http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1386112/ Tue, 11 Nov 2003 10:24:43 PST Why my love, denies my hand.
What pain, what suffering have you endured?
With my help, can you be cured?

My thoughts, my dreams, you re always there,
When will you see how much I care?
Such little time I've spent with you,
Enough to know my love is true.

The further you drift away from me,
The more I feel I ll never be free.
Perhaps I should just let you go,
May be my love, you should not never know?

My love and friendship is always here,
And if you should ever shed a tear,
My arms are here to hold you tight,
For I will always be your light. ]]> ~czn http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1360655/ http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1360655/ Wed, 05 Nov 2003 09:19:37 PST
Feel the fire in my heart, then it die when we’re apart. The sensuality as I watch you speak. Lights go low, fire burns weak.

Fading into darkness, pure and silent. My blood rages, heart beats violent.

The beats heard through the silent night. Touch me baby, hold me tight.

I admire and touch your face. Soft, gentle, and with grace.

I place my hands on your chest.

Experience every breath and heart beat. I lean in for a kiss, you retreat.

I play and tease childishly, finally giving in to your craving. Releasing the passion I’ve been enslaving.

I lay you on the ground. There is nothing but stars, sky, and ocean around.

I say you are my baby, you are my girl. The passion snaps, and begins to unfurl.

I grow warm as you kiss me gentle and tender. Enveloped in your beauty and splendor.

I tremble with excitement and joy. My heart thumps like a rocket’s deploy.

I reach up, placing my hand on your neck. Pull you down, Kissing your lips, then a little peck.

Gently stroking your face with the back of my hand. We lay together under the starlit sky in the sand.

I prop myself up slowly on my elbows. Keeping you there, nice and close.

I want you for now and forever. Because you are gorgeous, witty, and clever.

Please tell me you love me true. Tell me “I love you” ]]> ~czn http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1349648/ http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1349648/ Sun, 02 Nov 2003 11:08:27 PST A feeling of comfort,feeling secure
Feeling special,a feeling of goodness
A feeling of care,a feeling of trueness
So close so near so much love we share
A feeling of emptiness if you weren't here
Do not ever want to let this feeling i feel go
Let this be something i'll forever know
What would i feel without you
Like i'm in a dark place all lonely
In a cold cold room, with no one to hold me
But while i'm with you
I feel like i'm in paradise
Your everything i want
I never want to leave this place
I'm not goin even front
You make me feel good with all that you do
I feel LOVED when i'm with you. ]]> ~czn http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1201738/ http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1201738/ Thu, 25 Sep 2003 09:35:07 PDT The more I learn the more I want to know.
She's on my mind constantly -
Does she feel the same?
I look at my watch and say her name.
This feels so right
She knows I'm true
When will we be together?
Es**** I just want to be with you. ]]> ~czn http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1172199/ http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1172199/ Wed, 17 Sep 2003 12:03:37 PDT she holds my hand so innocently- cannot realize
It is for her
I sit here now and cry.
When my face looks saddened she replaces my smile-
Without a clue
it is for her I am upset-
For I cannot speak what’s true.
Being with her means the world to me
Yet it hurts me beyond words too
For I silently longs to say the words-
"I am in love with you." ]]> ~czn http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1164879/ http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1164879/ Mon, 15 Sep 2003 13:00:54 PDT Everything i'll be.
Everything i dream about
And everything i see.
All the times i feel so much
And times i let them go.
Times i thought i wanted love
And times i'll never know.
Parts of me, i cannot hide
Parts you'll never see.
Parts that want to be alone
And parts i share with you.
All these things that make me whole
I love like no one could.
And this is why I dream of you
In ways a lover would.
For friends is not enough for me
I know that it's been years.
But love has grown to more than this
Despite my greatest fears.
Take a look behind these eyes
And see the death of me.
The love I feel for my best friend
Though she will never see. ]]> ~czn http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1160646/ http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1160646/ Sun, 14 Sep 2003 09:34:42 PDT Now I think I know, how you would feel
Saw your face so clear, Your eyes bright too
It was just a dream, I could swear it was you

Thought I felt your skin, as you lay by my side
My hair whisked from my face, as you did in one stride
Felt my body get warm, and I melted closer to you
It was just a dream, I could swear it was you

Your voice was the same, as I've heard you talk to me
The words were soft and sincere, you made me believe
Heard a crack in your voice, as you spoke of me and you
It was just a dream, I could swear it was you

Smelled the scent of your cologne, as your cheek touched mine
Brought my heart to skip a beat, the feeling was divine
I fell in love in this dream, I must tell you its true
It was just a dream, But I could swear it was YOU. ]]> ~czn http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1124323/ http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1124323/ Wed, 03 Sep 2003 10:41:15 PDT say four words and let my true tears fall,
when you answer me maybe this wont work at all,
friends we can still remain,
but since then no longer have i heard you speak my name,
felt your hand touch my palm,
heard your thoughts,
your deepest secrets that you hide,
I close my eyes as a tear rolls down my cheek,
and I imagine the words you speak,
the words you say,
the games you played,
the options I've tried,
to attempt to keep our friendship alive,
as I've failed in all of the above,
I admit by chance maybe i just fell in love,
my heartbrakes and it aches,
I've never felt so depressed,
and yet all the time I wish for only the best,
I wish for love,
I wish for everything to go my way,
I wish that all this hurt and all this pain would all just fade away,
I feel alone,
So unloved,
And yet i wonder is this how its meant to be?
I wish i meant to you what you so fondly mean to me,
I close my eyes as a tear rolls down my cheek,
And i imagine the voice you speak,
The words you say,
The games you play,
the options that i tried,
to attempt for our friendship to stay alive,
As i know that i have failed in all of the above,
I must admit i just fell in love. ]]> ~czn http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1086087/ http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1086087/ Thu, 21 Aug 2003 12:42:10 PDT Pretending I don't love you when I look into your eyes.
You told me not to fall for you; you wouldn't be there to catch me,
But my heart just wouldn't listen and now this feeling scares me.
I'm running around in circles, not knowing what road to take
Scared to take the roads unknown the decision is so hard to make.
I wish you felt the same for me that I so strongly have for you.
I pray at night that God will hear and make this one wish come true.
You confuse me with your actions, sometimes I feel like you more than care.
Other times you’re cold and bitter like when ever she is there.
I'm tired of hiding how I feel so please be honest with me,
If you love me then just tell me, if you don't then let me be. ]]> ~czn http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1063804/ http://czn.deviantart.com/journal/1063804/ Wed, 13 Aug 2003 12:01:36 PDT That I spend hours thinking about her...
Hours talking about her.
I wonder if she realizes that all my friends know all about her,
But she doesn't even know them.
Does it even cross her mind that someone right under her nose cares so much for her?
That everything makes me think of her....
Many song lyrics remind me of her.
Does it occur to her that the person who loves her is right in front of her?
I guess it's not that obvious.
One day I'll tell her everything...
How I've day-dreamed about us being together...
That I've dreamt of kissing her or being in her arms...
Maybe one day I'll tell her,
But today is not that day.

----Dedicated to Her ]]> ~czn