http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:darkblackdragon&section=today deviantART RSS for by:darkblackdragon en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 17 Dec 2009 23:14:36 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/26648164/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/26648164/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 11:10:01 PDT [link] go lookie!. ive had a hectic two years. relationships with boys have gone nowhere til now. i met a guy named Eric, its been 3 weeks but i feel something with him. truley a big step up to the other guys ive dated.

going to mesa college for school, its alright, cool friends easy classes.

jobless, cuz my store closed and the store they sent me to fired me for eating samples and they considered it stealing. bullshit they just didnt want me there. 20 out of 40 people at my store got jobs, they tried making one of the managers go to poway even tho he didnt have a car, made one of the cashiers go to carlsbad and he doesnt have a car takes the bus everywhere. found out that one of the managers isnt a manager anymore shes a cashier.... how the fuck can a company you have worked for so long do that to you? its hard to find a job, been looking everywhere.

i work for a website SeenSD.com i take photos for them and hand out fliers so everyone can check them out.

i have been traveling alot. went to Europe in june for a whole month with my brother and his girlfriend. Going to India in october with my dad for two weeks, gonna be pretty exciting.

ill be on here a bit but not much but thats really about it. life is pretty tight.

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]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/7336187/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/7336187/ Sat, 17 Dec 2005 11:32:20 PST i have been driving to the max which is fun and just relaxing in my mind

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]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/6360913/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/6360913/ Mon, 29 Aug 2005 14:58:36 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/6311062/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/6311062/ Tue, 23 Aug 2005 22:18:07 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/6215836/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/6215836/ Sat, 13 Aug 2005 11:31:27 PDT on the other hand erich and i are just dandy. we went to the circus a few days ago and it was fun. im seeing march of the penguins with my mom my bro nad my sis. sasha just came back from san fransisco. shes here for two weeks and then shes going to italy for 4 or 6 months. and then she'll come back and supposedly go to paris but she doesnt know.
next june i am probably going to lebanon, if some of you dont know thats in the middle east to see my aunt and some friends and family that i havent seen in forever.so that will be interesting since i dont speak arabic but i'll survive with my dad by my side.
im so not prepared for school and college and everything else on the way im pretty stressed but im trying to calm down. i havent worked on my portfolio yet which i should, and im still looking at colleges, its not much, im still thinking about santa barbra, california of the art, mesa college and possibly the one in seattle but i dont think i want to go there anymore. im really stumped now and not really at the same time. i always say im not ready to go back to school, but NOW I AM NOT READY TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL. im done venting and im going to hillcrest t see march of the penguins ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/5749000/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/5749000/ Fri, 24 Jun 2005 22:16:17 PDT YAY!! im on a road trip to santa barbra, san fransisco, seattle, and canada.santa barbra was canceled when i came back home from seeing erich due to traffic and schedule so we went to san fransisco and im here still, im seeing my sister tomorrow and my dad and brother and i went to an amusement park we went on some rides but they bailed on me with the rides and i didnt want to go on them alone so i didnt go one them and went back to our friends house.
for my brithday i went to sea world with erich, it was nice being with him the whole day and we ate dinner with shamu but noit with shamu another killer whale but i forgot his name. then we got our fafes drawn in those caricatures and we saw fireworks..... it was a wonderful 18th birthday with my baby.
so now im bored out of my mind, im 18 but i dont feel any different but with more responsiibilities and me saying im 18.
that tsunami warning on the 14th creeped me out but at least we didnt get it.
wednesday morning my mom and dad met with their lawyers again for the divorce and of course my mother is still making it lag, she want to sell the HOUSE, I DONT WANT TO SELL MY HOUSE THAT IVE LIVED IN FOREVER so that isnt fair and i do want to yell at her but im like 300 miles away so i cant. she wants more money twice as much as she asked before. my dad is suffering but im glad he isnt showing it to her face. she is trying so hard for him to yell at her or either just bash her face into the ground which i know he wont do. last night when my brother and i were sleeping he was talking to our friends and he is just a frustrated 61 year-old high bloodpresured man. and i swear he is probably going to cry someday. its hard for me to see him this way and erich has been helping me throught this. my mom is still trying to bribe me and my little brother but now she is probably going bolistic becasue were on a road trip with my dad and hopefully shes feeding my cats....i put so much cat food in their plate in fear of them not eating. i think my dad took some of the food back but i dunno. my dad on the road is quite scary cuz he puts the brakes ibn the last second and trucks are scary too even when their going down huge hills. i saw many pretty things while on the road which i forgot to get my camera out even tho i forgot i put it in my bag since today. so i will leave and prolly eat dinner which i had 2 hours ago but i still feel hungry. bu bye





erich thank you for being an understanding ,beautiful, handsome, loveable boyfriend who listens and does get angry with me but does forgive me. you are my bestfriends and i am grateful to have you, never leave me! i trust you and I LOVE YOU ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/5650599/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/5650599/ Tue, 14 Jun 2005 21:08:37 PDT

...ORANGE COUNTY COASTAL AREAS- SAN DIEGO COUNTY COASTAL AREAS- 900 PM PDT TUE JUN 14 2005

..A TSUNAMI WARNING IS IN EFFECT FOR THE COASTAL AREAS FROM THE CALIFORNIA-MEXICO BORDER TO THE NORTH TIP OF VANCOUVER I.-BC. INCLUSIVE...

EARTHQUAKE DATA PRELIMINARY MAGNITUDE - 7.4 LOCATION - 41.3N 125.7W - 90 MILES NW OF EUREKA-CA. 300 MILES NW OF SAN FRANCISCO-CA. TIME - 1951 PDT 06/14/2005 0251 UTC 06/15/2005

EVALUATION IT IS NOT KNOWN - REPEAT NOT KNOWN - IF A TSUNAMI EXISTS BUT A TSUNAMI MAY HAVE BEEN GENERATED. THEREFORE PERSONS IN LOW LYING COASTAL AREAS SHOULD BE ALERT TO INSTRUCTIONS FROM THEIR LOCAL EMERGENCY OFFICIALS. PERSONS ON THE BEACH SHOULD MOVE TO HIGHER GROUND IF IN A WARNED AREA. TSUNAMIS MAY BE A SERIES OF WAVES WHICH COULD BE DANGEROUS FOR SEVERAL HOURS AFTER THE INITIAL WAVE ARRIVAL.

ESTIMATED TIMES OF INITIAL WAVE ARRIVAL SAN PEDRO-CA 2200 PDT JUN 14 LA JOLLA-CA 2214 PDT JUN 14 ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/5650520/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/5650520/ Tue, 14 Jun 2005 20:58:08 PDT
Severe Weather Alert from the National Weather Service


...COASTAL AREAS FROM THE CALIFORNIA-MEXICO BORDER TO THE NORTH TIP OF VANCOUVER I.-BC. INCLUSIVE.

... A TSUNAMI WARNING IS IN EFFECT FOR THE COASTAL AREAS FROM THE CALIFORNIA-MEXICO BORDER TO THE NORTH TIP OF VANCOUVER I.-BC. INCLUSIVE...

ESTIMATED TIMES OF INITIAL WAVE ARRIVAL CRESCENT CITY-CA 2029 PDT JUN 14 ASTORIA-OR 2154 PDT JUN 14 CHARLESTON-OR 2044 PDT JUN 14 TOFINO-BC 2157 PDT JUN 14 SAN FRANCISCO-CA 2123 PDT JUN 14 SAN PEDRO-CA 2200 PDT JUN 14 SEASIDE-OR 2126 PDT JUN 14 LA JOLLA-CA 2214 PDT JUN 14 NEAH BAY-WA 2148 PDT JUN 14... ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/5216148/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/5216148/ Thu, 28 Apr 2005 21:10:07 PDT


I LOVE YOU!



oh yeah and i yelled t my mom when i got off the phone with you.....i'll tell you later about it





I LOVE YOUS

]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/5078617/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/5078617/ Wed, 13 Apr 2005 13:28:16 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/5011262/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/5011262/ Tue, 05 Apr 2005 20:46:04 PDT was crying in the bathroom cuz vinnay and that made me upset but hopefully i cheered her up.... so i went to group hoping it would be akward and quiet and too the point where we can go back to class, cuz i didnt want to deal with the humpback whale and the llama. so group starts i sit down, cathy and crystal sit on the couch and im in the corner. they all laugh and they all seem all perky and happy, we talk about parents getting operations etc... and then its like a gun shot i am the center of attention, the one that is getting beated literally (almost) but it felt that way and i was in my little corner trying as hard as i can to defend myself against their almighty power..... imagine goku is defenseless and he keeps getting hit by many kamehamehas and trys to fight back but falls on his knees and breaks...litereally. so my heart begins to race cuz cathy of course talks direspectfully about brit and saying i didnt belong in their little fight but i did belong cuz i knew the truth and she didnt but of course i got hit and i litterally curled up in a ball trying to hid from it..... it was really fucking intense that group and shes just a fucking backstabber.... so i try my hardest not to cry cuz i am sooooo soooooooooo FUCKING suck and tired of having people think i start rumors whn I dont and people are blamingthem on me cuz of course im the easy target. so i try my hardest not to cry, i roll my eyes at cathy each time she says something that is VERY inacurate and she yells at me for that and i ignore her. but then it came to the point where i literally went itno a ball and silently cried listening to hilary (my group councelor) defend me/also kinda tell me off but not really.so then i yell out to cathy around the time group is about to finish and lunch started.... FUCKING A CATHY WHY DONT YOU FUCKING BACK OFF AND FUCKING REALISE THAT YOUR WRONG etc.. etc.... well along those lines i said that and then out of the blue i siad completely out of my lungs FUCK YOU CATHY!!!!! so cathy i think felt like i am being the evil on and was saying she didnt need this and crystal laughs and leaves too whie im breaking down sobbing, shaking, crying, the hardest cry you can imagine, but this was before the yelling too and i wantedto get up and leave so many times but i kept my ground. they ruined my lunch cuz it was half done but hilary talks to me and calms me down and tells me i am the real one in that group, that i know the truth, that i know whats going on and they think what they want to think, and she made me calm down. i left my bag there and took my soda. kiah and lindsey are looking for me and i know that already so when i get out my face is flushed, im trying not to cry but when i see them i brake down.... lindsey gets pissed kiah is hugging and shes sad.... and im crying like crazy again. but i felt better after walking around and lindsey and kiah helping me diss the walrus. i was fine but a little sensitive i talk to scott and amy and megz etc. on the bus im hoping preston can shutup which he did halfway aaaand he calls me an idiot but he says it in a way that is soooo fucking anoying and so rude that i just yelled at him to not fuckng say that. he did again and i just put my hands up to my face and breathed.... after a few min i was fucking fine... but then he says it again for some reason i forgot why and i grabbed(almost) the seatbet that was hanging on his seat and i wanted to hit him with it but i was trying s hard to get it that i hit the chair many times trying to get hit fucking head or hair and hurt him and sank back into my face and breathed. thanck god that sean is on my bus cuz he isnt a bad guy once you get to know him, he backs me up most of the time on the bus... so we were talking about stuff that happened over the week but he saw two teardrops fall after i had my tantrum with preston but i just let them go, im sure sean and my bus driver both saw it cuz i saw my bus driver look at what i was doing and sean was behind me so yeah..... so i feel better writing this and im really tired and i should do my hw....... ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4981683/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4981683/ Sat, 02 Apr 2005 17:37:21 PST
1.(this is the main one i want to go to and i already got an aplication and etc) Santa Barbra, brooks institute of phtography
2.(i dunno if i wanna go here anymore) Ai Seattle
3.Otis ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4781113/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4781113/ Thu, 10 Mar 2005 20:29:17 PST *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4516449/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4516449/ Sun, 06 Feb 2005 22:22:29 PST



[link] ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4203157/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4203157/ Fri, 31 Dec 2004 14:23:01 PST *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4194334/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4194334/ Thu, 30 Dec 2004 15:01:38 PST *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4115958/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4115958/ Tue, 21 Dec 2004 00:21:43 PST 1 - The Godfather (1972)
2 - The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King (2003)
3 - The Shawshank Redemption (1994)
4 - The Godfather: Part II (1974)
5 - Shichinin no samurai (1954)
6 - Schindler's List (1993)
7 - Casablanca (1942)
8 - The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (2001)
9 - The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (2002)
10 - Star Wars (1977)
11 - Citizen Kane (1941)
12 - One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest (1975)
13 - Pulp Fiction (1994)
14 - Rear Window (1954)
15 - Star Wars: Episode V - The Empire Strikes Back (1980)
16 - Dr. Strangelove or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb (1964)
17 - Raiders of the Lost Ark (1981)
18 - The Usual Suspects (1995)
19 - Memento (2000)
20 - Il Buono, il brutto, il cattivo (1966)
21 - 12 Angry Men (1957)
22 - North by Northwest (1959)
23 - Cidade de Deus (2002)
24 - Psycho (1960)
25 - Lawrence of Arabia (1962)
26 - It's a Wonderful Life (1946)
27 - Le Fabuleux destin d'Amélie Poulain (2001) (Amelie)
28 - The Silence of the Lambs (1991)
29 - Goodfellas (1990)
30 - C'era una volta il West (1968)
31 - Sunset Blvd. (1950)
32 - American Beauty (1999)
33 - Vertigo (1958)
34 - Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004)
35 - The Matrix (1999)
36 - Apocalypse Now (1979)
37 - To Kill a Mockingbird (1962)
38 - The Pianist (2002)
39 - The Third Man (1949)
40 - Paths of Glory (1957)
41 - Fight Club (1999)
42 - Sen to Chihiro no kamikakushi (2001)
43 - Taxi Driver (1976)
44 - Singin' in the Rain (1952)
45 - Das Boot (1981)
46 - Double Indemnity (1944)
47 - Some Like It Hot (1959)
48 - Chinatown (1974)
49 - M (1931)
50 - L.A. Confidential (1997)
51 - Se7en (1995)
52 - All About Eve (1950)
53 - Rashômon (1950)
54 - The Maltese Falcon (1941)
55 - The Bridge on the River Kwai (1957)
56 - Requiem for a Dream (2000)
57 - Monty Python and the Holy Grail (1975)
58 - Kill Bill: Vol. 1 (2003)
59 - Saving Private Ryan (1998)
60 - Raging Bull (1980)
61 - Alien (1979)
62 - American History X (1998)
63 - Léon (1994)
64 - The Manchurian Candidate (1962)
65 - Mr. Smith Goes to Washington (1939)
66 - The Wizard of Oz (1939)
67 - The Treasure of the Sierra Madre (1948)
68 - Modern Times (1936)
69 - The Sting (1973)
70 - Touch of Evil (1958)
71 - On the Waterfront (1954)
72 - La Vita è bella (1997)
73 - A Clockwork Orange (1971)
74 - Ran (1985)
75 - 2001: A Space Odyssey (1968)
76 - Reservoir Dogs (1992)
77 - Amadeus (1984)
78 - The Great Escape (1963)
79 - The Apartment (1960)
80 - Finding Nemo (2003)
81 - Annie Hall (1977)
82 - Jaws (1975)
83 - City Lights (1931)
84 - Metropolis (1927)
85 - High Noon (1952)
86 - Aliens (1986)
87 - The Shining (1980)
88 - Braveheart (1995)
89 - Wo hu cang long (2000)
90 - Fargo (1996)
91 - Det Sjunde inseglet (1957)
92 - Strangers on a Train (1951)
93 - Donnie Darko (2001)
94 - The General (1927)
95 - The Great Dictator (1940)
96 - Nuovo cinema Paradiso (1989)
97 - Blade Runner (1982)
98 - Mononoke-hime (1997)
99 - The Sixth Sense (1999)
100 - The Best Years of Our Lives (1946)
101 - Yojimbo (1961)
102 - Ladri di biciclette (1948)
103 - The Incredibles (2004)
104 - Duck Soup (1933)
105 - Kill Bill: Vol. 2 (2004)
106 - Full Metal Jacket (1987)
107 - Rebecca (1940)
108 - The Princess Bride (1987)
109 - The Big Sleep (1946)
110 - Notorious (1946)
111 - Forrest Gump (1994)
112 - Terminator 2: Judgment Day (1991)
113 - Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid (1969)
114 - Patton (1970)
115 - It Happened One Night (1934)
116 - The Graduate (1967)
117 - Toy Story 2 (1999)
118 - Lola rennt (1998) (Run Lola Run)
119 - The Deer Hunter (1978)
120 - Once Upon a Time in America (1984)
121 - Oldboy (2003)
122 - Cool Hand Luke (1967)
123 - Unforgiven (1992)
124 - Ying xiong (2002)
125 - Glory (1989)
126 - Manhattan (1979)
127 - The Elephant Man (1980)
128 - Ben-Hur (1959)
129 - The Philadelphia Story (1940)
130 - The African Queen (1951)
131 - Mystic River (2003)
132 - The Searchers (1956)
133 - The Green Mile (1999)
<... ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4081182/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4081182/ Thu, 16 Dec 2004 14:06:32 PST
when i get your kisses
thats the only thing that misses
your soft kiss
whichmakes me miss
that makes everything go away
instead of letting it stay

everything that stays
always goes away
when it seems like forever
it will be never
when something seems like eternity
it will feel like serenity



i had other ones but they died in my mybrain which made me so angry cuz they were good ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4058400/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/4058400/ Mon, 13 Dec 2004 14:09:37 PST *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3974746/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3974746/ Thu, 02 Dec 2004 18:13:51 PST *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3897012/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3897012/ Mon, 22 Nov 2004 21:04:44 PST *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3866886/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3866886/ Thu, 18 Nov 2004 20:11:11 PST *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3820303/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3820303/ Fri, 12 Nov 2004 18:59:47 PST *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3755021/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3755021/ Thu, 04 Nov 2004 18:26:45 PST has on her live journal, read this


An Open Letter to Republicans,
The election of George W. Bush as president and Richard Cheney as vice president is not a cause for celebration. Rather, it is a sweeping indictment of the Republican Ideology and the Politics of Fear.

When the Japanese attacked Pearl Harbor on December 7th, 1941 President Franklin D. Roosevelt rallied the country with the words "The only thing we have to fear is fear itself." During the course of World War II, the United States defeated the Germans, Italians, and Japanese, made the world safe for freedom and democracy, rebuilt Europe and Japan, and established our country as a political, economic, cultural, and military leader. After terrorists attacked the United States on September 11th, 2001 President George W. Bush, by most accounts, bungled every opportunity to do the right thing, whether in terms of economic policy by giving tax cuts to the wealthiest Americans or losing jobs for the first time since the Great Depression, by mismanaging the wars in Afghanistan and Iraq, and by destroying the good will that other nations felt toward us. Fear is the terrorist's ally, but the President has promoted that fear in order to preserve his job. In fact, the Bush Administration has fomented and enlarged America's fears. That is not leadership. It is a disgrace.

When over 50 million of you voted to give George W. Bush and Richard Cheney another four years you justified the past four years as being just fine with you. You are willing accomplices. Your vote is your voice. This is what your voice says to me:

You prefer lies over the truth. The Bush administration lied about weapons of mass destruction in Iraq. He launched a war of choice that has led to the deaths of over 1,000 Americans (with more than 7,000 injured) and as many as 100,000 Iraqis. By giving the President another four years you are indicating that you prefer to be lied to, that, when confronted with lies from the most powerful office in the world, you look the other way.

You are anti-abortion but not pro-life. In fact, you selectively value life. You get outraged at abortion and stem cell research but the fact that
global environmental change threatens the future of your children does not even register with you. You don't bat an eyelash at the deaths of Iraqis, at genocide in Sudan. You take money away from family planning and sex education.

You prefer corruption to transparency. When Vice President Cheney met with oil and other energy interests in closed door meetings to chart our National Energy Policy, you said "Fine by me." The oil industry has poured a lot of filthy money into the Bush administration, stalling the development of renewable energy while they get richer and the planet gets warmer. Halliburton's no-bid contracts in Iraq. Hey, no big deal.

You prefer fear to courage. When the Bush campaign aired a commercial showing a pack of wolves moving in for the kill it played to your fears. It didn't play to your courage. In fact, like Colin Powell, you have shown no courage.

You prefer ignorance to intelligence. Although President Bush went to Yale and Harvard, he has regularly revealed himself to be an intellectual dimwit. Actually, as much as you talk about providing quality educations for your children, you seem to feel threatened by intelligence. Is this a good message for your children? We deserve more from a leader and you should want more for your children.

You prefer slogans to substance. Flip-flopper, wrong war, wrong place, wrong time. These empty phrases captured your attention. You voted for a man who can hardly articulate a sentence. You put yellow ribbon magnets on your cars that say Support our Troops, but you don't support our troops. If you did, you would require the President of this country to only use force when necessary and to have a plan for victory.

You prefer the illusion of security to the actual thing. The border with Mexico is wide open. Our ports, chemical plants, nuclear plants, and
critical infrastructure are not secure. North Korea and Iran will both have nuclear weapons. Nuclear material in Russia has not been secured. Eliminating Saddam Hussein did not make you safer. You heard somebody say the President is tough on terrorism and you believed it, but you didn't bother to examine whether or not that was true.

You prefer pretend cowboys to real patriots. When the President criticizes our government he denigrates the contributions of the real pat... ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3747897/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3747897/ Wed, 03 Nov 2004 21:11:14 PST my dad sleeps downstairs cuz my parents are divoced so he sleeps in my sisters room, whom is in new york. my mother is watching her mexican soap operas with the vloume very loud. the control is on the table. my dad goes to the living room and takes the remote and turns the volume down, he puts it back down and my mom takes it and puts the volume much higher than before. so he goes back to the room(which is right next to the living room) and he hears her talking to the cops on the phone, but they didnt come.

my mom is sooooooo dumb ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3719120/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3719120/ Sun, 31 Oct 2004 18:36:40 PST i just saw eminems new video"mosh" its really good, i really suggest you go see it [link] even if you dont like eminem or rap it sends out a good message of bush and voting ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3705295/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3705295/ Fri, 29 Oct 2004 22:54:21 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3622100/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3622100/ Mon, 18 Oct 2004 19:41:00 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3609903/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3609903/ Sun, 17 Oct 2004 10:24:53 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3520904/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3520904/ Tue, 05 Oct 2004 17:13:23 PDT i was driving my roadrageish father, and the crazy lunatic of the road and my little brother to places. i drove well but my dad drives in a different way so he expects me to drive the same way he does.i think im a good driver but when im trying to cross a street with passing cars and going into a lane my dad almost killed me. so this guy lets me go with a whole other 5 cars behind him. my foot is on the break and my dad screams at me to go so my hesitation level is high so my foot is on the break still but then i slam the breaks and go to a red light. if my dad drives he is a scary scary man ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3513739/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3513739/ Mon, 04 Oct 2004 18:49:52 PDT


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DIVORCE ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3502750/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3502750/ Sun, 03 Oct 2004 12:17:57 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3502745/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3502745/ Sun, 03 Oct 2004 12:17:05 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3480833/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3480833/ Thu, 30 Sep 2004 14:05:11 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3473545/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3473545/ Wed, 29 Sep 2004 14:11:10 PDT erich and I broke up, so now were friends, but i guess friends with benefits or 'bootycall' i know alot of you have been asking why, its very complicated if you read it, its the kind of thing that you have to be there to understand. but i will tell anyway. erich broke up with me cuz 1. my parents make him craaaazy, and i would understand that. 2. he feels that im floating away. 3.im not independent as much as he is he runs everywhere and i just stay home do my hw and do nothing. 4. he feels like he cared for me too much and he couldnt handle the stress and the frustration that he overcomes, and he feels that way too much. i think theres ore but i cant thing of it that mcuh. this happened one wednesday, a week from now. i told erich in our relationship that he could do stuff with girls but if he tells me, cuz boys are horny and we dont know what they do, so i told him that and he was fine with it. Friday, two days later, he came over and we had sex 5 times in a row, then the talking happened. we talked for 3 hours straight and there was a lot of crying, just so many emotions you can think of. He told me he did suff with 5 different girls. and he didnt think i would handle it well if he told me in our relationship, but if he did tell me i would understand but he didnt so tat made me sad on Friday. but he told me he regreted them.i had many outbrkes of crying i mean the ones you cant stop and your shaking and stuff. that went on and then there was hate then more crying. so theres this girl, loraine, and he is still doing stuff with her so i dont know if he regreted doing stuff with her when we were going out. so he is still doing thigs with her but im still doing things with him. and i hate it hen boys brake up with you and they are able to let go more and you cant. i broken up with a few guys and i know its easier for you but not easier for them. i really hate that. so some days i feel atatched to erich and some days i feel like i love him as a best friend. and we are, but with priviledges. so it does bug me from time to time when he does stuff with girls but i always have to remind myself that were not going out anymore, but he still has feelings for me as do i.
this really makes me feel alot better saying it on my journal. i have a man councelor at school and i dont like him i want the lady councelor, hilary, she is so awesome and tells me what i wat to hear, jeff just constanty talks and says stupid things. but they wont let me change him as a councelor.
my parents are divorcing still, my dad has a lawyer now and my parets are gonna talk with my dads lawyer. my mom is a teenge girl inside a 49 year old womans body. she spent $2,867 in 1 MONTH! she took 300 dollors out of my bank account cuz my dad canceled her credit card bill. i really dont know what she buys in a whole month with her money, shes pretty much using her whole salary. she is trying to bribe me and my little brother so we can go wither her and my brother and i notice that very much and so does my dad. but i know once when the divorce is done its not gonna be the same. so i want to stay with my dad or whoever stays with the house.so thats pretty much it for now. i would write more but class is almost over ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3473536/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3473536/ Wed, 29 Sep 2004 14:09:37 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3429287/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3429287/ Thu, 23 Sep 2004 14:14:29 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3378852/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3378852/ Thu, 16 Sep 2004 16:54:26 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3319824/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3319824/ Wed, 08 Sep 2004 18:00:35 PDT chemistry
11 english
music apreciation/tutorial
us history
computer graphics
algebra II
i didnt get duel enrolled to clairmont well hopefully everything will be setled.
eeeeeeeeeew yesterday at work there was a black man hitting on me. k so ihave to grreet costomers at my job so i was cleaning the fan and i had the dressing rooms at the same time, i was helping a lady and then i pass by this guy i said "hi how are you?" while passing by then he says "good." im next to the fan finishing cleaning it and the guy comes over
25 yearoldish black guy:i like your voice
me: uuuuummm thanks?
black guy:soooooo whats your name?
me: dina (lie)
blakc guy: how old are you?
me: 17
black guy: are you in college?
me: no
black guy: soooo what school do you go to?
me: torrey pines (lie)
black guy: really i used to live there
me:..... oookay
black guy: so you have a boyfriend
me: yes
black guy: are you in love
me: yes
black guy: can i have your phone number?
me: no
black guy: common
me: no (in my head, u just asked if i have a boyfriend)
black guy: oooh common.
me:suuuure.
the convo ended and i was taking the hangers to the front and he comes along with a pen and paper
black guy: so whats your number?
me: (858) 259-3419 (lie)
black guy: so when do you gt off?
me: 9 (lie)
black guy: can i call you today?
me: sure.
he left and i felt soooo gross. hopefully he wont come back, thats one of the bad things working at any place, having wird guys hit on you.... ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3303195/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3303195/ Mon, 06 Sep 2004 19:13:09 PDT off topic. summer was good im leanring how to drive, which i couldve done a long time ago but im lazy... so pretty much i have done about 5 hours of driving this summer. i need to do 50 hours aaand 10 hours at night. im a pro at driving in city streets but in the freeways im a maaaniac. well not really but if im with my dad i am cuz he gets me paranoid and he is paranoid already but its better with him on city streets. lol my sister when she started driving she only drove with my dad once cuz he made her cry. so she always had my mom. i hink my mom is more afraid of me on the freeway than my dad.
this summer was great better than anything other summer, mostly going to work and seeing erich. all the new things i got was an ipod, a skirt, pants and shoes. and im pissed cuz i went to get pumas and i wanted them in black with a red stripe buuut they didnt have them anymore so i got black ones and i bought them buuuut when i got home i noticed they were 71/2 grrr so then sunday i went to get them to 8's buuuuuut again they didnt have the size soooo i got red shoes with white stripes buut i rather have the black ones but whatever.
sooooo there is 12 hours left untill i have to go to school so my freedome of the summer will be gone ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3284579/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3284579/ Sat, 04 Sep 2004 10:41:04 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3229992/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3229992/ Sat, 28 Aug 2004 05:49:52 PDT
other news i drove with a wiccan instructor yesterday even tho he didnt look like one. it was very interesting. he told me about how hes going to oregon and be in a forest and do ther wichcraft. he talked about phet (it sounds like feet) and he was explaining it and saying a birf is phet, you are phet, everything is phet. i was listening and driving at the same time so it was confusing but i got it and he was talking about they believe in the goddess instead of god and we had a good conversation about god, and i enjoyed listening to that man. we were in downtown san diego and there was a man in a tie yelling about god (a preacher) but we were a few feet away and as we got little bit closer you can hear him yelling of god and his greatness. so my wiccan driver took his hand out the window with i forget what his ring was called and when we passed he said "goddess loves you". ive been enlightened by a wiccan. and he was talking about hw everyone looks good and he was being a weird man and made me laugh. this is what he gave me. it isnt his but i think it is great but dont steal it please... even tho i know some of you will.

The Invitation
by Oriah Mountain Dreamer

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain! I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see beauty even when it's not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!"

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.


by
Oriah Mountain Dreamer
copyright © 1999 by Oriah Mountain Dreamer ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3216726/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3216726/ Thu, 26 Aug 2004 11:48:19 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3214219/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3214219/ Wed, 25 Aug 2004 23:40:43 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3194690/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3194690/ Mon, 23 Aug 2004 11:09:46 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3184032/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3184032/ Sat, 21 Aug 2004 22:49:44 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3155201/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3155201/ Wed, 18 Aug 2004 11:28:50 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3145768/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3145768/ Tue, 17 Aug 2004 08:41:32 PDT
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yaaay ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3134306/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3134306/ Sun, 15 Aug 2004 19:04:52 PDT erich i enjoy every single moment with you cuz u make me happy, but sometimes you don't but i still respect you when you try to help me and you make me realize a bunch of stuff, and i love you for it. i really dont know what i would do if i havent met you...... there are so many things that i wouldnt have done. you have pretty much changed me in many many ways. i would prolly be screamed at by now, being 17 but acting like a little kid...... not being on my own, not talking about things and being told so many things i could do and you helping me through so many things, and i love you for everything you have done, and i have never felt this way with anyone before,thats what i tried to tell you yesterday but i couldnt, but i know you get frustrated almost all the time with me, and im sorry for doing that, but thats life and i really dont know what i would do without you.


i love you ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3134300/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3134300/ Sun, 15 Aug 2004 19:04:19 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3112606/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3112606/ Fri, 13 Aug 2004 00:11:10 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3111455/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3111455/ Thu, 12 Aug 2004 21:04:57 PDT 01. I miss somebody right now
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love olives
04. I love sleeping(who doesnt)
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses
07. I love to play video games
08. I've tried marijuana
09. I've watched porn movies
10. I have been in a threesome (almost)
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy
13. I have acne free skin
14. I like and respect Al Sharpton
15. I curse frequently
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a hobby
18. I've been told I: (women) have an applebottom, (men) am packing.
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
20. I'm really, really smart
21. I've never broken someone’s bone
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal
23. I hate the rain
24. I'm paranoid at times
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
26. I need money right now!
27. I love Sushi
28. I talk really, really fast (sometimes)
29. I have fresh breath in the morning
30. I have semi-long hair
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs (females) or face (males) on a regular basis
35. I have a twin
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
37. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look sometimes
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
40. I know how to cornrow
41. I am usually pessimistic
42. I have a lot of mood swings
43. I think prostitution should be legalized
44. I think Britney Spears is hot
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past
46. I have a hidden talent
47. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have
48. I think that I'm popular
49. I am currently single
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex
51. I enjoy talking on the phone
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
53. I love to shop
54. I would rather shop than eat
55. I would classify myself as ghetto
56. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders
57. I'm obsessed with my Xanga, Livejournal, deadjournal, diaryland
58. I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
59. I'm a pretty good dancer
60. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington
61. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
62. I have a cell phone
63. I believe in God
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis(only when theres nothing else to watch or for just jackass, wildboyz, and viva la bam)
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a real relationship before
68. I've rejected someone before
69. I currently have a crush on someone
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
71. I want to have/adopt children in the future
72. I have changed a diaper before
73. I've called the cops on a friend before
74. I bite my nails
75. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club
76. I'm not allergic to anything
77. I have a lot to learn
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger
79. I plan on seeing AVP
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes
81. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before
84. I have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past
85. I own the "South Park" movie
86. I have avoided assignments at work or school to be on Xanga or Livejournal
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum
88. I enjoy some country music
89. I would die for my best friend (actually i would die for erich cuz i dont really have a best friend
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. i was kind of brought up on it, so i think pizza hut is amazingly good. still not tired of it
91. I watch soap operas(i watch the mexican soap operas, their fun to watch)
92. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick’s "Children’s Sto... ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3103631/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3103631/ Wed, 11 Aug 2004 22:14:06 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3084055/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3084055/ Mon, 09 Aug 2004 15:56:46 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3081888/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3081888/ Mon, 09 Aug 2004 10:57:27 PDT *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3070082/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3070082/ Sat, 07 Aug 2004 22:18:14 PDT on other news i just saw fear and loathing in las vegas my dad says "its a horrible movie." his idea of a horrible movie is that there is one ONE gruesome part and he doesnt like the movie, like in transpotting the first 15 min of the movie is gruesome. i dont find it gruesome even tho i didnt see the starting but i prolly saw 15 min into the movie. the sad part was the baby but he turned it off before he even saw the whole movie. thats how my dad is so theres a part in fear and loathing in las vegas that is "gruesome" but it isnt. i swear my dad when he sees these things hes like a girl. when i see it im just watching it.
thats the thing also with me i like to see movies where they show everything, well not everything, but detail..... and im just very curious.... my parents hate that about me..... but i think its funny when they see me watching movis like that.
buuuut going away from the subject fear and loathing in las vegas was a good movie..... alot of famous actors there....... and i just love johnny depp, i just love him to peices, hes so cute and funny and yeah. im being all girly now so bare with me...the movie just wants me to read the book "fear and loathing in las vegas" if any of you didnt know, the guy who wrote it was high and the movie and the book i guess is a true story, hard to believe some of it is true. ]]> *darkblackdragon http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3045674/ http://darkblackdragon.deviantart.com/journal/3045674/ Thu, 05 Aug 2004 21:27:59 PDT so yeah then we saw the village which i already said was good. after that we went to bryce's hosue and played DDR. tuesday i went to see harold and kumar go to white castle. it was a rediculosly funny movie and it was rater R for boobies and they were high half the time. wednesday i was supposed to drive for the first time but they canceled on me cuz the dmv had to check the car. so im gonna do it on monday, kinda scared tho...... its sumemr so i dont really remember what i have done this summer and i got back from work so my feet are killing me and im tired, later ]]> *darkblackdragon