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dont ignore it

report it.


DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!

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]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/26825074/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/26825074/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 20:22:53 PDT Beyond words they say so many things to me.
A stranger here reborn it seems
awaking wonders deep in me.
If nothing's ventured nothing's gained
so I must seize the day.

And fighting time so hard I pray
that this moment lasts forever.
And will the world stay standing still at least for me.
Through my eyes stare into me.
I bear my heart for all to see.
With my face turned to the sun there ever standing still.

It wasn't you it wasn't me it wasn't anyone.
It was a day so long awaited and a chance to be as me.
I let the wind run through my hands
as I turned to walk away.
In distant days I long to sense it all so clear.

And fighting time so hard I pray
that this moment lasts forever.
And will the world stay standing still at least for me.
Through my eyes stare into me.
I bear my heart for all to see.
With my face turned to the sun there ever standing still.
And fighting time so much I ask.
I will this morning last forever.
Though seasons change and things come to pass
remain inside of me.
And fighting time so hard I pray
that this moment lasts forever.
and will the world stay standing still at least for me.

I had no faith before that day in any vow or deed.
Days followed days and years were meaningless.
Despite the wisdom of defeat
I bore my heart for all to see the wonders I'd seen.


VnV Nation - Standing

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]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/25507503/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/25507503/ Wed, 24 Jun 2009 00:19:35 PDT
i have been an emotional wreck.

i am failing at life right now

trying to get back on track.

..............
this is not a poeM!!

ugh

my paintings have been on hold.....

writers block or some shit also.

im out of white fucking acyrlic paint.

]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/24843041/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/24843041/ Tue, 19 May 2009 16:36:48 PDT
This is digusting, whats wrong with you fucking people? what the fuck?

anyway,

im stil painting, Fuck my perfectness on detail and blending. I critic myself quite hard.

and Im thinking about doing some nature photography, once i get a nice editing software >.>

hmmm.. ok my fellow watchers, that is all

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]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/21977444/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/21977444/ Sun, 14 Dec 2008 09:32:48 PST I have been feeling alot worse lately, I made a mistake forgetting to check up with the doctor for more oral contraceptives. the pills make me feel so much better. I feel different without them. depressed. now I have to wake almost 2 weeks cause there always stacked with appointments. Especially on Tuesdays, only day that I am able to make appointments, thats the time there open the latest. I can really tell the difference i havent been without contraceptives for over a year, but ive been on it for 5 years now. Thinking about trying something different... A pill everyday for 5 years....

I'll tell you all the truth, I am falling apart. I feel like, "Why try?" .... arguing over stupid shit..

ill write more later

]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/20582896/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/20582896/ Sat, 20 Sep 2008 10:11:05 PDT
I'd thought of something for those who appreicate classical.

Beethoven or Mozart. Choose. and pick song.

Write to it, but first, reply to mine. Moonlight sonata Op. 27

I think this will be "fun".

Reply and tell me if you are going to do it.

Thanks alot.

"Yours Sincerely,"

Darknessupon, herself.

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I hate you deviantart

]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/16472988/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/16472988/ Sat, 19 Jan 2008 10:19:27 PST
I am going to go see the bucket lsit and tomorrow the kite runner and after that im going to go see cloverfeild...

Going to go shopping for soem art supplies so maybe you will see some art up on here soon That ill take some shots off... I hope you guys cant wait cause i cant wait.

Well I am off to go partai.

]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/16352514/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/16352514/ Fri, 11 Jan 2008 03:10:46 PST
*Michigan is well, did not snow much, was very nice...I love the summer here I cant wait for it to come again
*I am still taking my GED, I passed my first 2 tests with flying colors.
*I am sick, congested, flaky dry itchy skin, pulled a leg muscle recently, sinus problems, insomnia, stressed, cold, headache-y, bitchy, SICK,
*I have been busy playing of world of warcraft, i have not been creative as i am supposed to, what can i say, i am addicted. and my gamecard ran out today
*glasses suck, they give me a headache too
*atleast i can still type
* I am working on practice essays for my GED atm, its not that bad but i have to write nice, now thats hard work lol
* my hand writing sucks...

why the hell am i writing a journal anway

who reads this crap

......

]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/13476801/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/13476801/ Sun, 24 Jun 2007 20:05:16 PDT
but im ok..im on antibiotics..

im listening to some classic rock, my sleepy time music....

mhmm....

T-rex - ballroom of mars

You gonna look fine
Be primed for dancing
You're gonna trip and glide
All on the trembling plane
Your diamond hands
Will be stacked with roses
And wind and cars
And people of the past

I'll call you thing
Just when the moon sings
And place your face in stone
Upon the hill of stars
And gripped in the arms
Of the changeless madman
We'll dance our lives away
In the Ballrooms of Mars

You talk about day
I'm talking 'bout night time
When the monsters call out
The names of men
Bob Dylan knows
And I bet Alan Freed did
There are things in night
That are better not to behold

You dance
With your lizard leather boots on
And pull the strings
That change the faces of men
You diamond browed hag
You're a glitter-gaunt gangster
John Lennon knows your name
And I've seen his

---------- ill be ok

]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/13249255/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/13249255/ Thu, 07 Jun 2007 07:41:59 PDT

I Have moved out and moved on with my life, I am living with someone new. Someone who loves me. Someone who will always care and support me. Someone who will make me happy. Someone very dear to me. Someone who will die with me. My lover. My man.

Its quite beautiful here, in Michigan. I love it, being around trees again-- There isnt much trees in the City, haven't lived back around trees--atleast 3 years now.. But michigan has different trees, there just so beautiful, comming down on the innerstate from chicago atleast 2 hours of road and just trees, I was breathless I couldnt fall back asleep. over 20 hours of road and I slept maybe an hour.

When I got here, the air was more clean I could just breathe and exhale amazing life. It was safe here, I felt safe, and when I met him, I couldn't let him go.

Im happy...Im writing again in my journal....and soon will be posted..romantic things...

I wish to paint again-- I have no supplies here, I want to support myself and start a job. I did not graduate where I lived before, I know it was a mistake but a purpose mistake -- I had to get out -- I felt like a caged animal. and like a rat and the people I lived with were the Cats.... hmm... ANyway...

my fellow deviate watchers ....

I thank you for who read and stand my insanity, I hope god has a place for you somwhere amongst the crowd-- or he will throw you down upon the skies and land you in damnation

who gives a fuck, but still.. TYVM

bye

]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/12007377/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/12007377/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 22:37:42 PST
I'm still the same...Trying to graduate..but theres alot of negative energy in my household my Mother and my granmother, they push emotional abuse on me, telling me I wont graduate and ending up like my dad and go living with him instead.....I mean..how would you feel if your mother said that to you?....I have really nothing to say but the things i feel when I am in school....I dont like it...

I want to get away..and thats what exactly i'm going to do..and end up asskissing next year or so...i dont really know my future head..i only know just whats comming ahead, you know?....

well.. i might write a short story about me and my freind on a roadtrip on her B-day last year...really...it is quite interesting how im thinking about writing it....it might be INTersetING to read!! so..look...foward to it

dammit....

your devious whoree

~Darkness Upon

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///im in such a mess..and dont wanna be here ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/9671122/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/9671122/ Wed, 09 Aug 2006 22:43:34 PDT
You Suck

WHOA
Give us all that you are
I HATE ME!
Give me all that you are!
WHOA YEAHHH!
HELL YEAH!!
WHOA Give us back the temptation
WE HATE YOU
This is not the temptation
WHOA YEAH!!
HELL YEAH!
Tell us how much they fucking suck!
HELL YEAH THEY FUCKING SUCK!
You and your band you fucking suck!
HELL YEAH YOU FUCKING SUCK!
I don't give a fuck you fucking fuck!
HELL YEAH YOU FUCKING SUCK!
Come on tell me how much we fucking suck
HELL YEAH YOU FUCKING SUCK!
Hell yeah we fucking suck!
Hell yeah we fucking suck!
Oh fuck us all!

Oh yeah!
HELL YEAH!
WHOA YEAHHHH!!!!
HELL FUCKING YEAH!!!
WHOA
Give us back the temptation
WE HATE YOU!!!
This is not the temptation
Sing it now!
OHHH YEAH!
HELL YEAHHHH!!!
Tell us how much they fucking suck!
HELL YEAH THEY FUCKING SUCK!
Even your girlfriend fucking sucks!
HELL YEAH SHE FUCKING SUCKS!
Oh fuck you you fucking fuck!
HELL YEAH YOU FUCKING SUCK!
Tell me how much you fucking suck!
HELL YEAH WE FUCKING SUCK!
Hell yeah you fucking suck!
Hell yeah you fucking suck!
We are the losers of all that we know!
Fuck us all! ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/9485160/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/9485160/ Tue, 25 Jul 2006 00:28:50 PDT

's n stuff


~ Tarah

Lady Tarasque ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/9384203/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/9384203/ Sat, 15 Jul 2006 10:27:18 PDT
having your heart broken..giving part of your soul to that someone...then the love dies....it hurts...

i cant beleive he doesnt even care that i'm crying. he doesnt even want to hug me anymore... ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/7577913/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/7577913/ Wed, 11 Jan 2006 20:13:54 PST

I'm posting some poetry soon, I can feel it so hold on....

It'll be okay...I wish I can do fancy stuff with my journal but I'm not

A PRESCRIBED DEVIANT!!!..... yess...




mmm..gum ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/7540750/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/7540750/ Sun, 08 Jan 2006 00:48:00 PST

SO, whats everyone DOINNN??? ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/6621362/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/6621362/ Tue, 08 Nov 2005 00:02:37 PST
Right now I'm burning a cd for my dad, of Stevie Ray Vaughn...Wow..what a great guitarist I say..

I can never get sick of him.

I haven't really been writing..no inspiration lately..quite sucks!

I've been being fat and going to school and come home and go to freinds houses and chill mostly all night then come home and sleep or just on the computer! w0000oo00o...I might get drunk again soon! WOW its so fun getting wasted and not remembering how you got back home 8)

Anyone else have Limewire? IT quite sucks sometimes..

But anyways...my fellow poets......have you been being emo lately? hm ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/6137043/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/6137043/ Thu, 04 Aug 2005 22:39:12 PDT "Tomorrow morning you will transplant your brain to one of the cadavres you saw in the other room, you will die. only to live again in a younger body..then you can tell me if the opperation was a success what its like to pass through life to death and death to life..."

-grendel


(put the gun to his face)........bang....
so much blood for such a tiny little hole......


.......alot of things are going on..It all sucks...

when will it get better?...who knows....

Only when my brain is melting..and I am spinning.. ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/6034951/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/6034951/ Mon, 25 Jul 2005 22:57:21 PDT
I'm soon to give up and I may burn into ashes which will be part of the soil and reborn into another life and hopely I don't come falling from the sky once I did before...

Look up, do you see me now? ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5902776/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5902776/ Mon, 11 Jul 2005 09:32:15 PDT
I got sunburnedddddddddd. Its no fun! but i went swimming yesterday with bryce yay and a few other of his freinds! it was fun..I wore jeans with no panties yay and came home late and got grounded!

I dunno what to do today! maybe try to write tonight? I haven't been really feeling that creative spurge of glee...


]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5852139/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5852139/ Tue, 05 Jul 2005 22:47:45 PDT
Chicago! woo! I'm going, looks like fun..yah...not in particular..

I was going with my dad, I got in trouble..he put me into it..I'm guessing..I dont know what to think about it..we had no where to sleep or stay in Chicago, couldn't really find a place, we didnt have enough money. me and my dad slept in the car on saturday, and the police arrived at that morning..they searched me..found and It wasnt that much and wasn't "mine"..the FUCKING authorities sent me to a juvenile house for girls for 4 days, and on the 4th day they called and said my case was closed? I couldve just left..but where would I go? ...I cant stop thinking about my dad..i wonder who is going to bail him out.. ..wow..

what a fucking trip..i love my mom, she came and got me!!

no more chicago for me...people don't use their blinkers there, and they squeez through traffic like a trapped mouse. and everyone goes over the speed limit I seen it for myself..Its crazy.


the scariest thing so far in my life.. ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5804330/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5804330/ Thu, 30 Jun 2005 17:47:16 PDT ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5787023/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5787023/ Wed, 29 Jun 2005 00:39:50 PDT
...
what do you think?


....

I have a sever rash condidtion..underarm thing going on..and I have a lump on my boob..and when I was scratching my underarm..I tore my mole..i have a mole in the worst spot on my body..fuck this sucks...

i dont know what im alelrgic to...but fuck it sucks! ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5756654/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5756654/ Sat, 25 Jun 2005 20:04:20 PDT
THOSE WHO ALL KNOW ME OFF DEVIANTART AND WANT TO TALK ON MSN OR AIM OR YAHOO FOR THE FIRST TIME PLEASE NOTE ME FIRST


...I'm cool ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5733924/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5733924/ Thu, 23 Jun 2005 12:30:48 PDT
]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5733915/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5733915/ Thu, 23 Jun 2005 12:29:45 PDT ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5657850/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5657850/ Wed, 15 Jun 2005 16:25:15 PDT :

I got a NIN shirt I'm rockin it up now b-)

I dont know what im doing today.. woke up at 2pm x_x ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5627956/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5627956/ Sun, 12 Jun 2005 14:12:43 PDT CARE!

so leave her alone before she eats your face.

yes I'm bragging about her split personality haha..isnt that stupid??? angst kids have that didnt you know? I'm funny. and you are a nopthing exacept a pathetic earth baby

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[link] ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5607227/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5607227/ Fri, 10 Jun 2005 07:58:03 PDT

[link] ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5575017/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5575017/ Mon, 06 Jun 2005 22:16:21 PDT
Angst kids. hello. are you reading this? do you hate me? do you want to kill me? ban me? am I saying your name no? do you know who you are? yes! send me hate mail? show your parents? do you know you have contact with deviantart? well my parents don't approve, well fuck them, and what they think.

that doesnt have anything to do with the subject...

well im FUCKING freindly.. and I'm gonna go look at my FREINDS LIST..If you don't like this..simply ..delete it in your message box..YOUSHOULDNT HAVE READ IT IN THE FIRRRRRRSTT PLACE!!!!!

"Life is short, but talent is immortal"

some qoute I remembered...of something O_o

if you do love me, write me a comment on my page...


Here are some poets or "arty" people I adore, and comment and favorite daily. or veiw and checkout...

nerf-herder7
a-to-z
RoseBleedingBlack
SpiderSong
dinkiwoo
tarynheart
StepOutandBeYourself
vllllllllll
ArmorFelix2001
altitude-zero
Bourne-Supremacy
darklies
bloodandpain
Aubrey88
APerfektScream
xZarielx
Wavecutter
Tumble-Weed
soulofthedead
silverauraangel
sharkoftheday
rubberpiggy
DrJBobius
Pedram
nitespirit
neuroticlipstick
MrSandman
Kriegerin
Ingested-Truth
hezekiah
him-of-nowhere
straight-edged
irionik

andthose who I forgot, who I loved--sorrry send me a note or write me a poem on how I forgot you, the best poet gets a poem from me

okay?

have a fucking nice day! ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5470681/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5470681/ Thu, 26 May 2005 18:04:57 PDT
Garbage were formed in 1993 by legendary producer and drummer Butch Vig (yeah just that fella who twiddled the knobs on Nirvana’s ‘Nevermind’ album!). In fact all of the three founding band members – Vig, Duke Erickson (bass) and Steve Marker (guitar) - were record producers, who had previously played together in the bands Spooner and Firetown in the 1980s.

The name for the new band came when a friend was visiting them while recording at Smart Studios. He listened to the innumerable loops and noise and said 'This sounds like garbage!'. Replied Vig, 'Exactly, and we're going to turn this garbage into a song.' In 1994 Garbage hired singer Shirley Manson after seeing her band Angelfish on MTV and a year later Garbage’s self-titled debut was released and met with enormous critical and commercial success based on the strength of singles like ‘Vow’, ‘Queer’, ‘Only Happy When it Rains’ and ‘Stupid Girl’. It has sold 4 million copies to date. Hot on the heels of the album's success, Garbage appeared on the Romeo And Juliet soundtrack in 1996 with a B-side, ‘Number One Crush’. The song topped the alternative charts, and the band earned three Grammy nominations.

In 2001 the band returned to the silver screen, writing and performing the theme to the James Bond movie ‘The World Is Not Enough’. It reached number 11 in the UK and later that year Beautiful Garbage was another hit album, reached the UK Top 10 and US Top 20. Garbage have played almost every major festival during their 11 years as a full band and are now looking forward to their first Download.

Interesting fact:
Manson lived up to her ‘fiery Scot’ reputation when she auditioned for the job as lead singer. According to the band, the first meeting was awful. 'She was nervous and we were nervous,' said Marker, 'and it was a disaster.' But they still knew she was the one. 'She had the balls to come back,' said Vig. 'The last thing we wanted was somebody we could manipulate. To some of the lyrics she'd just go, 'I can't sing this bloody crap!'

Garbage are:
Shirley Manson - vocals, guitar
Duke Erikson - bass, guitar, keyboards
Steve Marker - guitar, keyboards
Butch Vig – drums ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5325734/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5325734/ Wed, 11 May 2005 00:19:14 PDT
Mood: Dead but alive
Listening to: Marylin Manson - Rock Is Dead..atm
Reading: I am Legend by Richard Matheson

I'm so messed up, I wish I can type more poetry up but I can't..Its 2:20..School is in 5 hours..I don't feel like sleeping..feels like things are moving around my eyes....Its so trippy oh god..I'm going to die. ...

My subscribtion ends soon.. someone should buy it for me..and I'll pay you back..With sex..

w00t.

....

foot ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5306626/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5306626/ Sun, 08 May 2005 22:11:49 PDT

Mood: Uh...drugs
Listening to: nothingg..
Watching: In The Womb

I'm....insanely bored....I just got home today from my dads now im at my moms ...I'm grounded from going out

]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5271909/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5271909/ Thu, 05 May 2005 06:36:52 PDT

Mood: back to bed
Listening to: Grendel - Social Distortion
Reading: ..
Watching: ..

10k Pageveiws!!! Wow!

I love you guyzzzzz *gir voice*

]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5188643/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5188643/ Mon, 25 Apr 2005 18:39:02 PDT ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5167272/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5167272/ Sat, 23 Apr 2005 12:27:04 PDT
i'm not sorry?

.....

I might take a load off too..

I wrote so many poems in my book but i dont have the courage to put them up

shit sucks ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5092518/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5092518/ Fri, 15 Apr 2005 04:22:05 PDT ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5022363/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/5022363/ Thu, 07 Apr 2005 04:42:23 PDT

hehe, I'm gonna go powder my nose....

I also think school sucks.. ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4993564/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4993564/ Mon, 04 Apr 2005 00:32:49 PDT and then put the orginal cd back!! ehhe it would be so cool.

"if flesh could crawl my skin would crawl off my bones and run away from here..."

lalala...I've been so tired lately...I hate taking medication

I want fun!! more!!

I also want adderal..



I love...music..dildos...what?

..shit ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4977749/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4977749/ Sat, 02 Apr 2005 08:48:09 PST
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"Why Do You Love Me?" Garbage

I'm no barbie doll
I'm not your baby girl
I've done ugly things and I have made mistakes
And I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines
I am rotten to my core if they're to be believed
So what if I'm no baby bird hanging upon your every word?
Nothing ever smells of roses that rises out of mud

Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me

You're not some baby boy
Why you acting so surprised
You're sick of all the rules
Well I'm sick of all your lies
Now I've held back a wealth of shit, I think I'm gonna choke
I'm standing in the shadows with the words stuck in my throat
Does it really come as a surprise when I tell you I don't feel good?
Nothing ever came from nothing man
Oh man, ain't that the truth

Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it, I do it again

I think you're sleeping with a friend of mine
I have no proof but I think that I'm right
And you've still got the most beautiful face
It just makes me sad most of the time

I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it, I do it again
Do it again
Do it again
Do it again

Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me, it's driving me crazy
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me
Why do you love me ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4977707/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4977707/ Sat, 02 Apr 2005 08:42:05 PST "bleed like me" I can't wait!! ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4977687/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4977687/ Sat, 02 Apr 2005 08:39:33 PST


On a thousand islands in the sea
I see a thousand people just like me
A hundred unions in the snow
I watch them walking, falling in a row
We live always underground
It's going to be so quiet in here tonight
A thousand islands in the sea
It's a shame

And a hundred years ago
A sailor trod this ground I stood upon
Take me away everyone
When it hurts thou


From my head to my toes
From the words in the book
I see a vision that would bring me luck
From my head to my toes
To my teeth, through my nose
You get these words wrong
You get these words wrong
Everytime
You get these words wrong
I just smile

But from my head to my toes
From my knees to my eyes
Everytime I watch the sky
For these last few days leave me alone
But for these last few days leave me alone
Leave me alone
Leave me alone ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4920395/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4920395/ Sat, 26 Mar 2005 23:46:31 PST ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4850976/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4850976/ Sat, 19 Mar 2005 02:21:06 PST
I did a stupid survey it took about 10-13 minutes off my time to do my project for History class. It was about the first admendment. How interesting. Iono..Censorship sucks.. I don't really like it..I'm glad for deviantart you can hate. Yay for hate!.. Deny love..

I also did a hot guy..Just kidding.. I did though buy alot of cheese sticks people looked at me like I was inlove with carbs.. I dunno whats in it maybe chlorestiral or something..But I'm obessed with Cheese..I love it..So much..SO much!!! I wish I had Guda right now..

Chheeessee..I had macaroni and cheese for dinner it was spongebob figure shapes and stuff then I went and watched the Ring 2..IT was really ANNOYING. People were screaming at stupid ass parts, like when the water spills under the door in the beginning at the movie, and I don't know. Alot of preppy annoying bitches were talking me and bryce totally picked a wrong spot. Cell phones were all around me I got so fucking pissed off was about just to kick their seat and I don't care if they look at me constantly I would make fun of them about there hairlines being crooked. And screaming at stupidshit. and saying "oh god did you see that?" Noo i didnt I was watching the movie even! "oh god" AHH!! I hated it.Was so close to leaving. then me and bryce had sex in the movie theatre. HAHA JUST KIDDING. We were laughing a few times but not like the whores around us, a few people got kicked out around 8! haha They so deserve it.

I'm flowing with rageful energy? Good or bad?

I'm going to type bunches of poems up so have a good one and drink ovaltine.

Eat broccoli and asparagus. Not McDonalds you fatasses. It's bad for you heart. IF you eat it non stop everyday you could gain 20ish some pounds a month. EACH month.

Very bad.

Have the right choices. Its your choice. Be healthy. ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4756848/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4756848/ Tue, 08 Mar 2005 01:33:38 PST
Man..Alot of shit has been going on..I've been everywhere but mostly in my room fucking with stuff and it doesn't really work out the way I want it..IT's deprressing most of the time..So here I am typing excessively..Its 3:25 haven't slept yet..yeah...I've been writing poetry tonight as you can see and just notice how much I accomplished on my account..NNNOOTT!!

Relationship problems with people basically are going haywire..I've been loosing contact with freinds and were like slowly drifting about from my friends aand I bet there freinds too..uh ITs been so shitty lately..Ive been sad..and angry..and confused.conpuzzled..Not that creative lately but I'm up there..been getting my work done in school im really fucking tryiing but tis hard!!

yeah..I joined track at my school too..I wanted to do something...One of my ex boyfreinds is gonna be in track..and I hope south shore doesnt ahve a trackthis year omg it would be so funny if they didnt..my odl school was so shrimppy haha..like 10 people on track! aHAHHAHA its so funny compared to my school now thers about 2, 3 thousand kids in my school and like only 30-40 joined track and feild! AHHAHAHA Its a big comparance aint it?

Shit..IM so easly amused..Im hearing voices through my headphones..or something maybe its in my head I dunno..Im really trippiinzz yeah thats it Its hard for me to blink, If I do blink every 2-3 minutes its weird cause I just have to do it eventually and heres a huge shadow behind me and its like on my screeen and its scaring me looks like a huge bug is hovering over me..........eeeeeeeep

I hada boring day at school sorta--first day of track practice went okay..was kinda lost with all the kids going different directions I ddint know where to go so I stayed where I was with a group about dashing and sprinting yeah I was in the wrong group on the other side of the gym they were talking about feild, thats where I was supposed to be cause im a THROWER in shotput thats right babyeh!! HOO HAA!

Annyway..Its 3:31 now..Im real bored so I'm gonna go chill in my room and sit there maybe correct a poem or two stillso I can type them up on here so you can read and like them very much right? right? Thats RIGHT. Spehgetti and meatballs!! AHAH Crickets and tennnis! HAHAHAH theres a poker table right by me and old men are shining a light on me and questioniung me where did the chips go HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA .. I lost ! HAHAHAHAHAH I win!! AHHAhAHA Ialways Win! AHAHAHhAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I WIN!!

THE PEN IS BLUUEEE!!!
THE PEENNN!! IISS BLLUEEE!!

BLLUUEE!!! ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4659476/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4659476/ Thu, 24 Feb 2005 04:55:50 PST ....
.................I wrote a couple poems tonight.....
....I felt like it... For once..

,.. Burr..ITs really cold..I have nothing to do..

..........I wish I had tube socks ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4620503/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4620503/ Sat, 19 Feb 2005 08:42:08 PST
[link]

The music video..I wonder if DA can hold html, I'll post the vid...but then Im scared to get banned

Anyways

Uh..I watched Consitine last night who played Keanu Reeves in it, With my friend Bryce! hehe He kept trying to put his arm around me..(were not going out) but uh so I sit towards and not lean back..but OMG That movie is FUCKING JUMPY! I like jumped 20 times or more.. hehe..A ssspider..was in it..i screamed when it went up..ee..bryce laughed at me cause im scared of them..he didnt know!
It was a good friday ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4611499/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4611499/ Fri, 18 Feb 2005 02:22:35 PST
OR sleep

One of the other.. *sigh*

Journals..
I have nothing to do..
Too fucked up to play WoW
Too dysfunctional to open any messenger
Ill guess I have no choice to lay downa and die

-o-

Shchool is tomorrow...Its 4:22 ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4603464/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4603464/ Thu, 17 Feb 2005 02:07:34 PST ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4603333/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4603333/ Thu, 17 Feb 2005 01:25:36 PST
umm..I had a blackout though, one of my friends caught me I was atleast out for few minutes..when I had air, too many people were around me at the auditorium..all the 10th graders were ther and thats over 300+
very scary..with my anxiety

tired..tired..tired..uh..nothing to do only but tweek and not sleep so here I am

and goodbye -o ]]> ~darknessupon http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4543357/ http://darknessupon.deviantart.com/journal/4543357/ Thu, 10 Feb 2005 03:34:25 PST [link] !! @_@

Leaning on my reality...everything isn't normal what I look at..everything is different..I look at everything my own way I dont really care what people say else where, though I listen I dont know what to say everything fades out then someone gets hurt then the emotion I felt just dies, it melts, goes down in the drain..no more pain....just rain..in my head...

I feel really centered on something right now I cant really describe it cause it makes me hurt inside my heart starts to race and its hard to breathe...Passionate, I feel that right now.. I really wanna hug someone and be hugged back but I'm alone right now, hey..I'm always alone..

Can't take it anymore.. I need to write more poetry it feels like...I'm better off alone...Right? Life love is like a circle crossed out in my head..and sometimes its a heart being shared by two people, or just times of same feeling, feeling the same feeling...you understand dont you?

My nerves are twitching
My head is pounding
My hand is shaking
My legs couldnt stay still
Nervous to see you
It hurts
so much..but its true

Everything turns blue
Cutting off circulation
Its like self mutilation
Your eyes to see
Wrist slashing passion
Cant get over the obession
Releasing the tention
My feelings
Not to mention
The fact...I ..
Nevermind
Live..Just live

.....Im numb..Im not complete
Forged these steps...I need to close my eyes
Sleep, dream blank pages of flower lilies and daisies, purple hazes, pill drop rain, river of abuses...that have no flavor

...................... ]]> ~darknessupon