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deviantART: by:darkspork69 http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:darkspork69&section=today deviantART RSS for by:darkspork69 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 20 Dec 2009 06:04:58 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Thanks for Listening http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/28394835/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/28394835/ Mon, 16 Nov 2009 13:22:06 PST

It seems like I don't write anything of major importance, in fact nothing seems really important anymore. I, like most people, suffer the mental lapses of a mind going on it's way to being senile. I'm going to be 25 this month...five years from 30. Scary. I can still pass for an 18 year old or maybe an immature 21 year old. It does not change the fact that I am constantly looking over my shoulder, waiting for time to sneak up on me, realizing all the things I could have done but chose not to. I feel like I'm at a critical junture, and that i'll just have to "wing" it.
I have no plans, why? because nothing ever turns out like I think it should, and if it does...whats the catch? When does fate pop up from some corner to kick me in the proverbial scrotum, as the audience laughs at my misfortune? I've been "punked" too many times, but yet I can laugh about it. Somehow, if I just tell myself that it'll be okay, and not to worry, everything will turn out just fine. That is what I call my excuse from taking responsibility for my failures.
I look back on all the nonsence I've collected over the years. I try to figure out what the hell I was ever talking about. I still don't know, but I continue for that ever aspiring urge to pass on some common knowlege; that maybe one unfortunate can use it for their own journey. God knows, my journey is a long and lonely trek, but at least the scenery is nice

There is a ticking clock, all of us hear it, most of us ignore it. It is the disdainful "tok" of life winding down to the final outcome. I look over everything and ask my self, what the fu** was I thinking??Maybe I thought I was right, but then I realize I was full of sh** the whole damn time. As a refugee of ignorance, I sometimes find myself becoming the thing I never wanted to be.
It was never as bad as I made it out to be.
Some people think that the world will end in 2012. If it does, well what can you do about it? I personally, will continue doing what I do, but with a new purpose. I can't say for sure what it is, it's still in the embryo stage of thought. The thought was conceived long ago, but has now been able to grow. Soon, I must reveal it, I have a deadline. I hope that when the end comes, everyone has made peace with the things in their life. I will forgive my enemies and hope that they forgive me. I will see the love of my life and share it with others. I will tell my family, husband and friends that I love them. I will cherish and keep in mind the small miracles of nature's beauty. I will care for the friends that I will never meet, and be an invisible support. I will acknowledge that there is no control and to accept the flow of change.
If the world ends, I hope that everyone will accomplish what they need to do before getting "punked."

]]> *darkspork69 I'm Speshul http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/27596838/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/27596838/ Mon, 05 Oct 2009 13:04:26 PDT

Well, I finally went and did it, I bought a subscription to Deviant Art. I think it's been long enough.
I've got a lot of work to catch up on, as always. I have unfinished projects building up, and a dummy waiting to be painted. I can see the evolution in my work as well as my friends, and feel inspired to keep doing what I'm doing.
I'm back in school again, for the duration of fall, winter and spring. This time it's not as fun as the last quarter, but I'm learning alot.
My cats are sick, and I hate seeing them so depressed. Hopefully they get better, or I'll have to take them to the vet.

Some days are better than others, most just suck.

]]> *darkspork69 Devious Journal Entry http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/27267947/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/27267947/ Thu, 17 Sep 2009 17:41:32 PDT I sit and do nothing...my little art studio has been invaded by fleas and therefore stall my latest painting project.
I've done some sketches cause i dont wanna get too lazy...but damn...i need energy and coke is too expensive...

i am so fucking bored...nothing to do...whats the point of even waking up?
another year come and almost gone, and still i'm stuck in a cycle of neverending repetition days.
Nothing interesting, just waiting for time to finally run out.

bought more shoes, even though i have about 50 pairs...just as much as i have in the amount of pants.
Good thing i dont have kids...i would not be able to be so selfish.

God forbid i have something to take my attention off of myself...there's nothing wrong with being self absorbed so long as it's just you yourself and no one else suffers for it.

I really need something to do...and i need to see some new sights.....

]]> *darkspork69 thought i'd say hi... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/26638408/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/26638408/ Sun, 16 Aug 2009 21:32:43 PDT
I work at the Humane Society...cleaning kennels and playing with all the little critters.
It's hard work..but very rewarding.
My art has slowed down quite a bit...i've been working on a small painting for this whole time..but the good news...it's gonna be a really hot naked cat girl with stars on her butt.

It's my second painting..so please be kind..but honest

I get a month off before i start school....so i'll have a little time to focus on my personal art.
however...it will still be a month till i can post anything new.
I will say..my naked chicks have improved alot...and hopefully it only gets better.

I also got a pet orange cremecicle cornsnake, his name is Squee

I also have another cat, he is a 3 year old scottish fold mixed with flame point siamese, his name is Gumby(one ear folds down, the other is up)

i have been so busy...but i can't wait...i'm going to a Slipknot concert this week...yay.

well...other than..it's the usual crap..so until then...bye bye...

]]> *darkspork69 Whats left behind... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/25861044/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/25861044/ Fri, 10 Jul 2009 13:28:32 PDT This summer has been hard, but for my fiancee, it is even harder. Just about 2 weeks ago, his father commited suicide. I will not go into further details.
The mental illness took over and he ended it. We don't really think about the way our actions will affect those left behind...it's like a domino effect, one small push and everything topples over.
Every where I turn there is death, and this tragedy was so close to home. Everyone here blames themselves in some way, the truth is that the blame can go on but it wont change the fact that the person is gone.
The hardest hit was my fiancee, the changes in his mood and demeanor are noticeable. I see him in pain, but all I can do is be there and hope in time he will get better. What can you say?
I cry with him because I did get to know his father and when he was feeling ok...he was a cool dude. He was a christian who did accept anyone, despite whatever you were. He treated me like a daughter and he understood my weird sense of humor.
To hear the news is a blow, and no words can describe the hurt and confusion.
Suicide is a selfish act, because even though you think no one will care...you will always leave someone behind who will blame themselves and hurt. To leave the pieces that no one can put back together.
There is little comfort in knowing that now he no longer suffers the pain of living with demons of the mind.
The one who now suffers those demons, is my future husband. He has nightmares about his father's death and he has been drinking more than usual. .
I don't want to see him destroy himself over events he had no control of.
Suicide is a blame game that no can apologise for, it changes everything and touches all those who saw or knew about it.
There is alot of guilt and it's undrstandable. There are also scarred people who witnessed his death and tried to save his father.
I have thought about suicide a few times and so have a lot of others. Now I get to see the pain thats left behind, and those that love you will carry that for the rest of their lives.
It's cruel to pass your pain and emptiness to those who did not know.
No matter how bad it gets there is always a way to find help, even if it's just a prayer.
If you have something wrong with your head...get help. Unless you want others to suffer, find a way to fight it.
If you know someone who is suffering mentally, don't push them away. They can use the help, even if it's just a sympathetic ear or stopping to say hello. We don't know what we could have done, but at least try. Compassion and love can save a life hanging by a thread.
The sickness of the mind can be worse than any cancer and the only escape they can ususally find is the release of death.
My work has stalled and hopefully i can start up soon...but right now there is so much undone that it seems like nothing will ever be finished.
I ask that you please pray for those lost to suicide and especially for those left behind.
It does not matter what you believe in or what religion.
Please take a moment to remember those who took their own lives.

]]> *darkspork69 So Long.... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/25239003/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/25239003/ Wed, 10 Jun 2009 15:46:54 PDT

]]> *darkspork69 Vacation from DA http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/24995019/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/24995019/ Thu, 28 May 2009 10:28:10 PDT I'm having some wierd things going on, and I have not done much except for the school work that i've done.
I have been on here and yet i have not put up any new art...so sad indeed.

Well...this is the last day i will be on here...at least until i can do some new stuff...
This is getting pretty stale...but i assure you...i have gotten better...and there will be more NUDE PINUP CURVY BABES!!!!

I may not be back on until fall...maybe later than that(when i start school again)

Until then....

So Long....

Much Love and best of luck to all my friends/watchers(both mean the same to me)

Jamie

]]> *darkspork69 my rant http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/24889273/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/24889273/ Fri, 22 May 2009 11:38:27 PDT I still have a lot to improve on, but...one of my peices did get chosen to be in the gallery.
I should be happy..right?
Not so much.
The work that got chosen was a digital piece of bright colors, flowers and stupid little brush strokes with paint spatter.
I got the last choice of colors to work with, so its got a lot of pink.

I was goofing around on the computer at school.
Go figure.
I entered 3 works...a painting and a color pencil and marker piece.
then the digital, which by the way I would not have entered until my digital art teacher pushed me to enter it at the last minute.
The 2 i rally put forth effort...did not make it.
but the goof off did.
WTF....
Oh well.
This is a town that paid $40,000 for a tractor dumped in cement, which resulted in the loss of jobs at the state prison.

If there is ever a prison riot, I wonder if they will think that the "art" they spent tax payer's money on, would be worth the people they laid off.
There is even a replica statue of David with a hideous orange chain link behind it attached to the side of a building on a college here.
What the hell is that supposed to be?
To bad the artist who made the statue can't sue for plagerisim...
Another example of crap art...huge rocks on big metal rods...all in different hights....WOW...so thought provoking, i can do the same thing, but for free....how about a few cat turds on tooth picks...maybe i would win something for that.
Maybe i'll make a sculpture of a toilet, with paitings thrown in and title it "what happens to real talent"
Well...thats it for my rant...

]]> *darkspork69 Bummed Out http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/24875264/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/24875264/ Thu, 21 May 2009 14:44:27 PDT *sigh*
I never have the luck...i see the ones that won and feel like crap, because most of the ones that entered, don't even really draw. To them it's just something to try.
Me...i spend years and years, trying to improve, and all i get...nice job....
and they get the prize.
I fucking hate it...it's so depressing, it's almost enough to make me quit,...maybe thats why i havent been putting anything up....whats the point?
Maybe if i did what everyone wants and do stupid little paintings of flowers and stuff that don't make any sense...maybe i'll win, but then...that would be just as depressing for the simple fact, it's not my style.
*sigh....*
I mean...i should not let it get to me...but it's still a blow to my pride, and i really don't have much of that anyways.
I guess i'm a natural born loser, and i always will be...
it is so frustrating, why do i draw, if it's not going to get me anywhere?
I guess it's the only thing people like about me...because other than that ....i'm a lousy person.
i don't know what to make of this latest defeat...i mean, it's just one after another, maybe it wouldnt be so bad if for once i actully did get a few hits..but it's been all misses...I fucking hate contests, it's just another opportunity to show how much i really suck.

]]> *darkspork69 ACK!!!! http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/24512330/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/24512330/ Thu, 30 Apr 2009 11:32:11 PDT For some reason numbers elude me and i cant help but feel like a total moron.

i do great in art class, but thats it. I think I'm only going to school for the art.
I found out that a really cool artist lives down the street from me. She's an older lady who does modern abstract paintings.
She travled through Europe, was taught by a famous artist and met Picasso.

I really need to get out of the house more often!

The greatest thing is that she really did not like me, until she saw a painting i was doing for art class.

She invited me to go with her and her grandaughter to an art gallery opening.
I never felt so happy until i got a compliment from her.

I like old people, there is so much to learn from them.

]]> *darkspork69 A story..... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/24255276/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/24255276/ Wed, 15 Apr 2009 11:31:16 PDT
It's creeping closer to the end of summer, followed by the sighs of autumn closing in. A tiny rural town settles in as the backdrop of dusk gives way to nightfall. This is no special town, of course, just a tiny point on a map that gets overlooked. A simple sign, Hill Grove stands shrouded in a curtain of kudzu. So insignificant, you would miss it if you were going past on the highway.
Two schools, a few stores, and the typical small town buildings all were decorated for the upcoming harvest festival. Not much goes on, so this was a big event to almost everyone who dwelled here.
Everyone goes home before dark, doing whatever they normally do. Except..for three figures loitering in the park.
A chilly mist wafts in with the faint trace of an exotic scent.
One of the three notices the smell, he is sitting on a bench as he lifts his face in the direction of the breeze.
"what is it benny?" asked a female's voice. Benny seemed startled, and simply shrugged.
The girl who's about 17, looks to the other in the little group. A tall lanky teenage boy of 18, who seems to notice what caught Benny's attention.
As if she too caught the anserw in the breeze, all 3 stood transfixed, feeling as if something new was arriving.
"It's getting late, my sister will be mad..." Benny looks nervously towards the direction of home.
"It smells like a jinx." The reply is so random, both the girl and Benny look to their companion."Erin, you are so full of crap...don't say wierd things in front of Benny!"
"what's a jinx Leighann?" asks Benny.
"it's a curse..I think." she looks to Erin."No...it's more like a bad omen or bad luck..and you're right Ben, we need to get you home before your sister freaks out on us again."
Benny doesn't hear Erin's comment, he can hear a faint humming, a tune that seemed to stir his very soul. No one but him can hear it.
"it smells like magic.."he muses as he closes his eyes to be carried away.
"see what you started Erin!" Leighann shoots a dirty look in his direction.
"Aww, come on...are you that afraid of his sister?"
"no...i just don't like her...let's just go home." She grabs Benny's hand and starts leaving.
All three are going their seperate ways, and seperate lives. None noticed the sillohette of an approaching figure....

to be continued....(let me know what you think)

]]> *darkspork69 Devious Journal Entry http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/23985375/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/23985375/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 12:52:24 PDT
]]> *darkspork69 mixed nuts http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/23849221/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/23849221/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 13:31:51 PDT no more pot smoking for a while....and our home is no longer the chill spot.
Everything that we could get accused of...our nieghbor made sure that we would pay for his assholness.
I've even had to call the cops because of him...imagine that..me calling the cops...it's gonna fucking snow in july....!
The good news is that he has been evicted(kinda happens when you yell at the landlord and call him an idiot)he also threatned to call the cops to have our home searched...he said we were dealing and using drugs....we told the cops they were welcome to come in at anytime

So we don't have a nice sports car like we had(2003 dodge stratus)
we now have a 500 dollar little junker..but at least it gets us around...*sigh* i really do miss our old car.
I also went back to school. This time I'm going to a community college for an associate's degree and then transfer to a 4 year art school.
I even got a 800 dollar laptop for free(almost) my fiance traded one of his RC helicopters($250 value)for it. It needs a new hard drive since the one inside is only working at half capacity.
Now I can sit at coffee shops, sipping an americano and check my email...oh god...i think im turning into a yuppie....
lol...you know i dont even know what that means..
I have also done a first page for a comic...some of you may remember my "Spork" comics...well...it's kinda like that ...except that "Spork" died and went to hell...
it's called Darkspork...it's got cute little demons, a mute girl, and homicidal succubus lesbians with dead girlfriends...i dont really have a set story line...but i have ideas written down, and plenty of character sketches.
So...i will eventually finish inking the outlines and color it in....
The first page is called "Rabid Squirrel" and you will get to meet my two new little characters...Lucy and Punt.I would really apreciate some feed back...i'm just doing little short comic pages so you can get a feel for the characters and maybe...just maybe...have an actual story line.
So be on the look out for the first page of "Darkspork"...I hope it will be more enjoyable than my last comic...
And remember...i would really apppreciate some feedback...and even ideas.
until then...
Ci

]]> *darkspork69 thats it http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/22435489/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/22435489/ Tue, 06 Jan 2009 14:39:34 PST
]]> *darkspork69 Devious Journal Entry http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/22344820/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/22344820/ Thu, 01 Jan 2009 23:53:21 PST So I get a fucking diploma to hang on my wall...It seemed like everyone knew that I was doomed to failure...HA they never knew me.
What few years they knew was of a sullen drifter who suddenly hit a brick wall and left to rot in a suburban ghetto nightmare.
I lived for stories and a new adventure, my mom always there...I knew that no matter what, she was always there.
I got accepted to college...recieved loans and a few grants...
I did not do it.

I'm smiling right now becuase I don't know what tommorow will bring...I feel whatever and somehow come out a little wiser.
I have no ambition but to feel that road again, the silence of sleeping town just after dozing to comfort.
Sit in meditation and stare at sunshine mannequins.
I'm foolish...lazy but fast.

I'm not fearless....just too damn curious, I smoke too much but not enough.

As I type i'm fucking high...chicken pecking my way in the dark...not looking up until i've done a little...then I go back and try to fix the fuck ups.....

Myspace is too much of a pain in the ass...what happend to talking or writing?

mmm...just more random crap....but I'm still feeling good, just soooo scattered....and I hate winter...

]]> *darkspork69 it's gonna be awhile.... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/22250627/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/22250627/ Sun, 28 Dec 2008 21:07:32 PST
Right now I'm learning to use my photoshop program....it finally got fixed!!!!

Next summer will be my 5th year on Deviant Art........yay....

Hope everyone will have a good year......

]]> *darkspork69 merry friggin xmas..... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/22178616/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/22178616/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 23:38:11 PST
So...I hope everyone has a merry Christmas and a decent new year....

Thats it....

]]> *darkspork69 another year http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/21809725/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/21809725/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 02:20:58 PST
just the same old...but at least I can always draw...thats the only thing that gets better looking with time...
I have quite a few unfinished projects in the making...hoping to put up some more...

A few fish have died...and I have a new cat...her name is Gaz.

I'm hoping for a better year this time...

]]> *darkspork69 fried http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/20644522/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/20644522/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 22:58:26 PDT im so fucking tired right now....too much going on!!!
my time of getting getting shitfaced in a play ground is over.
my head still aches two days later.
i still didn't draw anything yet or written anything.
i have some drawings that are new...but they are not finished and my scanner isn't hooked up...

pause for the cause....

soooooooo fried...

im just stuck in a rut....
going 2 years without a seizure...yay!!!!

times are hard...but....oh fuckin well...

]]> *darkspork69 titled untitled... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/19469240/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/19469240/ Fri, 18 Jul 2008 17:22:31 PDT I'm pooped...and a little cranky....but that's normal for me.
still doing works ...so i might just take a long holiday, and come back when I have some new and better (finished) art.
thankfully, i can concentrate in peace and uninterrupted tranquility,,,
so, thats it for now...

bye

]]> *darkspork69 I'm back http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/19187498/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/19187498/ Thu, 03 Jul 2008 16:09:39 PDT
been stuck for 2 months in a hot stuffy room, after i decided to leave the tattoo shop.
i have my machines, i know how to work them, and i know how to make needles too.
i have only tattooed pig skins, but i feel confident enough to do my own skin, because if i make a mistake, it'll be on my own skin...there are no room for mistakes in skin art.
i found something that i want to do for the rest of my life, it's like finding that one person in your life, it's something you know that was ment for you.
i loved the sound of my machine, we both worked well together, in unison...
but now i know, that for me to do this as a real career, that there was somthings i needed to let go of,
i have to work twice as hard to get my equipment, and to practice...
i only have one machine, but it's a reminder of a better goal...
i got off the plane 2 days ago, but it was better than riding 3 and a half days on the bus...

]]> *darkspork69 Blind Writing http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17994382/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17994382/ Wed, 23 Apr 2008 16:12:37 PDT I am drunken at the abyss of my own memories,
through opaque misty eyes,
smeared black with unholy drops of weakness,
My soul reeks of damnation,
just to glory in this magnificent madness,
oh such a gentle and wicked little child,
so tenderly wild,
Do you know what lurks in your soul?
I do.
It will sometimes take over,
you will never understand from the eaves of
heaven,
this mortal phantom relives the hellish palpitations
of repetition,
there is no real freedom from the diseased mind,
We poison the body to enhance perception and false
awareness,
run in your little hamster wheel you pointless bitch.
Don't ignore the drippings of temptation,
lick the images off the muses spoon,
get sick off the bitter aftertaste.
GOD is nothing but broken shards of
a fragmented mirror like entity.
Where the fuck am I?
Shall we find peace, just to forsake it on the basis of
boredom?
without so much to learn i can't help but beg for understanding,
please forgive me the indescretions of a polluted mind,
Are we all not products of an ill conceived society?

]]> *darkspork69 Hot Rod... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17957318/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17957318/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 10:32:44 PDT
it's a Huck Spaulding liner machine, but we modified a few parts, added the traditional coin on the back, except instead of a quarter or nickel, i put a mexican coin on it.
I'm waiting for more pig skins, but I'm gonna start using myself as the guinea pig....im gonna tattoo my legs and post some pics of it.
im also gonna post some pics of my machine too.
it runs really good, although the frame needs to be straight, it's slightly crooked.
i'm not nervous at all, i've tattooed a few skins, and did a good job on the lines and not bad on the coloring, ....
the hard part is trying to graduate the colors from light to dark and graywash....
I even did cursive script and did really good for a first try at it...
there is no room for mistakes when it comes to skin...
I even make my own needles, liners and shaders...
I did mess up a few skins, but it's a long and slow learning process that never ends....
but...i'm getting there....

]]> *darkspork69 Thank You to All http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17798598/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17798598/ Fri, 11 Apr 2008 16:21:48 PDT I can see my work and how it has progressed, i can see my friends work, and see their progression...I also get to keep in touch, through the greatest love in my life...art.
It's good to know that we are doing ok...through it all, we came out still drawing, creating and learning. this is to all the friends i found through here, thank you for your support...it really does mean alot for me...
this site has done good for me, it's a slide show of my life, my thoughts
and future progression.
to know none of us will be left out, or our talents wasted and hidden away from the world, is in itself a great joy.
we may never get famous, but at least we are not ignored and forgotten....
I especially thank the woman who made me put my work up on this site,
The friends who still support me, and the site that allows me to show my work, instead of letting them hide forever in plastic covers.

Thanks to All and good luck

]]> *darkspork69 lucky bitch:) http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17762194/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17762194/ Wed, 09 Apr 2008 11:05:47 PDT i gave one to my mom, because i figured i found enough luck, i can share it also..
it is really weird though, i used to search all the time for one and i could never find any, and trust me i've searched for years.
no one else has found any but me, and it's always when i'm not really looking. I have them all sealed to preserve them..
my mom was searching with me today, and could not find any, but like i said, i found 2, so it just meant that there was one for her and one for me. she needs the luck more than me...but i'll take all the luck i can get

Hopefully things will turn for the better...and i think they will, but before things improve, it must get bad sometimes, and sometimes we have to fight for it, but it just makes it all worth it at the end...

the tunnel is long and dark, but a pin prick of light is all that is needed to find your way out.....

]]> *darkspork69 a rant http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17730050/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17730050/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 11:13:39 PDT AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!
im going fucking insane....im smoking almost a pack a day and feel like im going to explode.....im almost ready to say fuck all of you im fucking outta here! until then....stay tuned!

]]> *darkspork69 hey guess what? http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17546705/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17546705/ Thu, 27 Mar 2008 18:27:42 PDT i'll be coming home really soon...things are really draining me out here...i'm so tired right now...but it has been worth it, so it's actually been an eye opening experience...maybe i'm just kinda culture shocked...not used to this place.
I would love to have some silence right now....gotta miss the quietness of a small town...
i just hate hearing sirens...and just the sheer chaos of everything...
....i will be home soon!!!!

]]> *darkspork69 got tagged http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17381305/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17381305/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 14:57:45 PDT
1) i was born in New Orleans Louisiana in 1984.
2)i was a drug user for a while...but now i just smoke weed(i actually do have a medical reason for smoking it)
3)I'm a drifter..don't really have anywhere i belong..
4)i wear glasses still and i have 17 piercings...
5)i don't know what i wanna do...but in the meanwhile i'll just enjoy the ride....
6)i live with my love, micheal...
7)i'm a saggitarius
8)i like to wear army fatigues alot

1. Post these rules.

2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about theirself on their journal.

3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people.

4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.

ok...thats about it,,,,

]]> *darkspork69 what's wrong..... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17380436/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17380436/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 14:10:05 PDT somehow i found myself face to face with some issues...and it's time to go back home....
i am not done, but something else is nagging at me...it seems like the calm before the storm...or maybe the end....
what do you do when faced with two hard decisions...
i saw myself in the empty words my mom said....it will hurt for a while..but you learn to move on...
somehow those words caused my heart to shatter and to face a darkness reflected in my mirror.
a very dark truth...but she could only tell me to be prepared...a long life of lonely emptiness with every thing that i ever loved, gone ,while i watch my inner light fade into a harsh cynicism ....something we all will face...those great moments of joy, just tiny fragments in a long tragedy.
this my seem very depressing...and it is...but it's something that must come to pass....before it gets better....

]]> *darkspork69 orgasmic yodel http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17134119/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/17134119/ Sat, 01 Mar 2008 14:19:51 PST still drawin(duh)...still laying around...practice practice....

i just wanna go to sleep....
sing and dance so i can watch ur tower fall...i will laugh at the internal mockery...and let people sneer at me....

so what...if god kills us all, it will still be worth it so thank u 4 putting up with me....i get to see everyting but i don't say enough...

well thats it...
bye

]]> *darkspork69 extra holes http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/16789737/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/16789737/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 18:22:01 PST
i also got 4 more piercings, 2 conchs(inner ear area, deep cartilage piercing) ,1 nipple, and a navel piercing.
yay!!!

i just can't wait to get home...even though it's pretty fun out here,
watching people squirm in pain is priceless, just because they pay for it

still going to get a divit(upper lip piercing) and a few others

well...not much is going on other than that, still just drawing, just no finished pieces yet.....just been really busy....

well...thats it for now...

later

]]> *darkspork69 tattooed piggies http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/16539424/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/16539424/ Wed, 23 Jan 2008 15:54:57 PST
my first outline was of a devil lady...kinda messed up on the face,

the gray wash piece was actually my best, it was of a bleeding heart with thorns...still got a ways to go, but at least i finally got to do the one thing i've always wanted to do for years

still doing doodles and sketches...no masterpieces though....lol...
any who.....i have been pretty busy...i only take one day off...i usually work from afternoon till 10 pm, or 12 pm....

i am also a guinea pig for our piercing apprentice, she just did my navel and did a really good job...so i'm going to get two more done on my navel...and a few other ones

sorry nothing has been updated yet...but i promise that there will be much more more to see when i learn to tattoo and pierce

i really miss washington though...especially that good ol' smoke....
nothing like it out here....

well...
i guess thats it for now....
ttyl

]]> *darkspork69 hello again http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/16321924/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/16321924/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 20:23:50 PST
]]> *darkspork69 WOOHOO!!!! http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/15904775/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/15904775/ Wed, 12 Dec 2007 14:41:25 PST ugh...i don't like this place but it's only temporary.

I got to get to a tattoo shop...although i'm not apprenticing right now, i'm just cleaning up things and hanging out.

hopefully it works out...if it does...it's a dream come true...

however...i'm not at my brother's shop...so there may be problems in that, since most tattoo shops a usually rivals with other ones...

this is gonna be interesting, bother and sister each working for rival shops...oh can i say...drama?

other than that...im hanging out with my family, hopefully still able to hang out with my brother...he did a tattoo for me, it's a cover up, on my forearm.

he is still learning..but it does look good...i just hope he can still add to it.

well thats it for now..later...

]]> *darkspork69 im still alive.... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/15177802/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/15177802/ Mon, 22 Oct 2007 18:00:21 PDT i've done a few more pics and once i can get a hold of a scanner ...i'll be posting them up soon....much improvement in the coloring and detail department.

I'm going back to North Carolina for a year. My brother is working at a tattoo shop and said he could get me an apprenticeship.

I hope so.

I also wrote a 34 page short story and actually finished it...yay!!!!

i also have quite a few more poems...just gotta sort the good from the crap.

just thought i would put something...just so everyone won't think im dead...

well...hopefully, there will be some changes coming soon...

Stay Tuned.

]]> *darkspork69 squid poo http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/13774693/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/13774693/ Tue, 17 Jul 2007 20:16:03 PDT

will i have more art work...i dont know...just stuck again...

but sooon....

there will be more for all the dirt children of this filthy planet to enjoy...

YAY!!!!!!

]]> *darkspork69 now u know what i look like.... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/13438253/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/13438253/ Thu, 21 Jun 2007 20:22:05 PDT
I lost alot of wieght, but never got a tan...oh well.

the girl with me is a friend who has hard times happening now.
hopefully, things will get better with her.

]]> *darkspork69 im sooo excited :) http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/13334487/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/13334487/ Wed, 13 Jun 2007 19:56:54 PDT
Right now, I'm filling out finacial aid forms and stuff...but I will be starting in October.

oooo...im so excited, but I'm gonna miss my fiancee, and it is gonna suck not having him laying next to me.

Everyone has been really supportive and tell me that going to school will the best thing for me.

Seattle is scary, but fascinating at the same time..Im a little scared because i'll be alone, so i hope to make good friends fast.

im soo happy

]]> *darkspork69 pink guitar.... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/13307476/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/13307476/ Mon, 11 Jun 2007 18:43:22 PDT
well...i don't know how to play...but I found myself attached to this funny pink acoustic guitar.

I told myself if no one bought then it was ment to belong to me...
well....even though it got a lot of intrest...I wound up with it, for $60.

im selling my hooka and a pipe to get the money.

I have been practicing...and won't even notice the hours going by....and even though I don't know any tunes, it is oddly soothing.

I named it Rose...it's bright color just stands out against my darkness lately. i could sit and listen to it's twang all day.

in a world of darkness...there's always a little brightness to get my mind off it.

]]> *darkspork69 so what? http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/13268466/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/13268466/ Fri, 08 Jun 2007 17:31:09 PDT i went to seattle...it is crazy over there...i got to talk to a crazy lady about pet pigs..lol

i took my test and we almost caused a wreak on the interstate highway.

well..i did good on the english part..but bombed in the math part...oh well.

if i get accepted ...great...if not not...i'll just drink myself to death...either way...it'll work...ha ha hah!

life is funny....but it does not need me....so i guess i can do whatever i want...cause no one will care what happens......im just a grain of sand on an entire beach....maybe my next life i will be more useful instead of a human waste...ha ha ha ha......

]]> *darkspork69 the beggening http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/13177297/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/13177297/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 13:42:32 PDT i have sent in my application...wrote an essay and done all the stuff for getting back in school.

everyone tells me that going back to school will be good for me....i hope so.
I even cut my hair, after growing it for 3 years...i look like a modern flapper girl

my husband and our roomate are finding a new place(5 bedrooms) and hopefully a new member of our family, our roomate's girlfriend, will move in

if i get accepted, i will be gone for 2 years...im trying for an associate's degree in animation art and design.

for the first time...i am really excited, this coming wendsday i'll be going to seattle to take my ACCUPLACER test.

wish me luck

]]> *darkspork69 drunk ramblings http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/13056754/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/13056754/ Tue, 22 May 2007 21:29:44 PDT
well...i sent my college application in...even if i don't get accepted..im still going to seattle...just to try my luck.

i can't get a job in walla walla...nobody likes freaks here.
i want to become a tattoo artist...and damn it...I WILL BECOME ONE!!!!!!

other than that..thanx for all the support

]]> *darkspork69 alas another adventure... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12921604/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12921604/ Fri, 11 May 2007 21:21:53 PDT i still have not drawn anything, except airbrushing a flying penis.
my husband is teaching me to airbrush...it's not as easy as i thought it would be.
I am also going back to school...hopefully, in seattle...
well..i hope it works out...because we are moving back to north carolina in a few years.
wish me luck

]]> *darkspork69 its me again... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12560099/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12560099/ Wed, 11 Apr 2007 21:30:28 PDT and yet i turned down a job simply because they said i had to take all my jewlery out...
hmmmm...maybe that wasnt the smart thing...but i dont feel bad about it for some reason...i actually could not belive i did that.
but i think there is something out there for me...what..i dont know but i know that i can afford all the hopes i can think of, cause at least they're free.
maybe, im just tired of trying to put on a face that pleases the masses.
everyone likes me and smiles at me when i look like the average, plain girl next door.
they treat me nicely and let me cross the street...but when i want to look like me, they suddenly become rude or they cast me strange looks...as if i were to suddenly become rabid and call upon satan to sacrifice thier first born. they forget who i am and ask me why i would do such a thing to ruin my looks.
yet, im still the same person that they liked before,
and that my piercings and tattoos have given me a confidence that i never had in my entire life..
these decorations have become a part of me and now im proud to show them off..instead of covering my self to hide the scars. now people can look at my body art and not my cuts,
i dont cut anymore,
but i rather have any other look than pity.
i have had enough pity in my...now,
i like the looks i get, even the bad ones..as long as they don't feel sorry for me.

]]> *darkspork69 twinkle, twinkle... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12539378/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12539378/ Tue, 10 Apr 2007 12:50:49 PDT
i had 4 days off...so im feeling quite refreshed, broke but good

its good when u can be happy and poor....

Mike and i are thinking about moving back to north carolina...
in a few years, our car has to be paid off (in like 5 years).
i have a few prints available...
donate to the poor lol

pleeeeeze....
damn pimples......
got one on my chin...i look like a witch now..

anywho....

not much is going on.....

]]> *darkspork69 waltz to nothing.... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12453897/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12453897/ Wed, 04 Apr 2007 07:51:02 PDT need a better job.
freak for hire...
just not a lot of offers for that, i think i need to move to a place thats not so uptight.
livin in a 7th day adventist town...is bad enough.
i wish i could move away from here and start all over again in some strange new place.
the only friends i have are the internet chat rooms and of course Deviant art,
so a really big thax for all of u who still watch me..

thanx alot.
im not mean...just a little lonely

]]> *darkspork69 growling... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12398901/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12398901/ Sat, 31 Mar 2007 07:47:59 PDT i saw part of Turista last night.
i dont think i want to travel over seas now, they keep coming out with these movies of tourists dissapearing and being tortured.

feel stuck, like something is supposed to happen..just not sure what.

not sure on what im supposed to do...
but for now i'll dance the happy dance and scratch my ass.

]]> *darkspork69 Devious Journal Entry http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12379260/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12379260/ Thu, 29 Mar 2007 17:39:05 PDT luckily i have not flashed anyone yet.
im so happy, spring is here.

brain fart........excuse me.

anywho, i just finished my dirty angel pic, and i'll put up some of my other old drawings that i found.
i hope to get a better job, and maybe not get fired for saying something stupid,
although, this job aint bad, except for the kids.

im glad i didn't join the baby making club

thats what a former friend of mine called it, she said i should join the club, because everyone i used to know is having a kid.
i am not ready for that, there is too much i have not done yet...
there are many reasons that people have kids, but i have more reasons not to, mainly my health.

i could die having a kid..im a high risk because of my epilepsy...so, to have a child would mean careful planning, and a VERY good doctor.

okay, im rambling on,
enough said...

]]> *darkspork69 dead awakening http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12346672/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12346672/ Tue, 27 Mar 2007 07:27:02 PDT it was a beautiful day, and all i could do was hide underneath the covers and dream screwed up dreams.
i used to be afraid to go to sleep.
i watched too many horror movies when i was little, they would become my dreams.
A monster may not look scary on the screen but when ur mind takes over, it can scare the living crap out of u.
im still scared of the dark, under the bed and open closets.
not too fond of mirrors in the dark either.
im easy to scare, kinda funny really.
i wont do shrooms soon either, my mind is too screwed up and twisted, shrooms bring out ur internal subconcious thoughts to the visual surface.
i saw an innocent and cute little fairy warp into a black eyed demon with a mouth full of teeth longer than a foot.
i almost went through a wall on that one...my mind likes to screw with me.
so when i dream, i tend to dream about highways and strangers ive never seen or met.
i watch alot of cartoons, hoping the nightmares dont come back but im not so lucky, fear is like a diseased drug, u may not like it but its addictive. i really dont know whats holding me together maybe its my husband, but if i lost him...would i unravel?
i dont think i would wake up again.
when im left alone, im self destructive...i would take any pill u handed me, drink until i blacked and wake up next to strangers who i'll never see again.
i dont care enough for myself to live, i have to be with someone who is not afraid of me or my demons. i wont hurt another person, only myself.
but for all the love of the world, it is still hard to get up, it's easier to cry for tragedies that havent happened yet and curl up in a womb of darkness that i wished i never left.

]]> *darkspork69 numb ice pinch cream http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12308360/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12308360/ Sat, 24 Mar 2007 10:38:50 PDT im also listening to blink 182...mmm if all nurses looked like the one on animaniacs...i would not mind being stabbed by her...HELLOOOO NURSE....bring on the needles!!!!!!
shake it shake it little skanky

mmmmm...what the hell is wrong with me...sometimes you just know your crazy i guess...and i just have to live with it...
am i the only one who thought that thier mom looked hot...
i think my sexuality had been screwed with..lol...
my mom took a barbie away from because i would take her shirt off to "perform" CPR...i loved boobies....
lol...im a confused, stoned ,bi sexual and crazy person.
you know whats cool though, even if my mom was strict and a little mean,
she is still proud of me...it's is sometimes hard to find cool parents,
can u even realize ur sexually confused at 5?
hhmmm....
i had a shrink tell me i was a perpetual fuck up...and im like, cool diagnosis...
im not kidding either, and then he said that i did my make up good and rating my looks "not beautiful..but cute."
i thought they were supposed to help u...professionals are just as fucked up as me, but they hide it better ...im dancing in my squeaky puff shoes.. why do i have a man that is more sensitive, caring and sweet...qualities i lack, some more or less?
im going to go hump the trash cans in the girl's restrooms

im also a bad influence, i got a sweet, straight girl to like girls and give head like a champ

her boyfriend loved that piece of advice

i would kiss my friend in the middle of school bus parking lot, nothing draws guys faster than that, i just wish i could see guys kissing each other..mmm...they gotta be cute though.
if i was more flexible i would kiss my own ass......

]]> *darkspork69 no rush. http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12243679/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12243679/ Mon, 19 Mar 2007 10:25:37 PDT marriage scares me...i love him but marriage is just so final.
some people ask when the wedding is...and i just tell them..
no rush.
some think that as long as we have been together that we should have, and some bring thier religion into it.
i already feel like im married to him...but i dont call him my husband..
only, my partner in life.
to make our bond legal and on paper seems wierd to me.
people get married all the time..yet it means nothing.
i dont want a legal binding paper, or a pointless ceremony to display overblown affections to people who dont really know us that well.
in fact...i dont think we ever will get married,
we are so comfortable as we are that it should'nt even matter...
maybe it's wrong...maybe it's a sin...
we just fit so well, like soulmates...
i'm just worried that making it legal just makes it seemed forced,
like some institutionalized farce.
it shouldnt matter if ur union is sanctioned by law...if the only things that bind us are the promises we make to each other,..than why should it matter if theres a silly ceremony and some document binding us.
the only thing i want to bind us is our hearts and thoughts..and nothing else.
if it does not work out...then we can walk away without humiliating ourselves in court.

]]> *darkspork69 mmmmm..mm..mmm... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12182578/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12182578/ Wed, 14 Mar 2007 15:02:03 PDT so long as im confused..all that makes no sense just ....
mmmm...dont know.....
dont know dont know dont know dont know dont know dont know dont know dont know dont know dont know dont know dont know dont know dont know dont know dont know dont know....

hug me please....

im talking to my self again.....

]]> *darkspork69 Devious Journal Entry http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12140502/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12140502/ Sun, 11 Mar 2007 07:43:04 PDT i never really liked kids...even when i was a child myself..i would never play with baby dolls, maybe take them apart...but other than that i just did not care for kids.
Maybe it's just the fact that noisy, spoiled, loud, self-centered and smelly rug rats with stupid, indiffernt parents just does not appeal to me.
Where's the disipline?
The parents are just as stupid as the kids,..just go to the store and watch. I can't tell you how many times i've gone and seen kids acting like wild little brats as thier parents go about buisiness as ususal.i have seen it all..and now i had to take care of 2 evil little crotch spawn.
All i know is that i dont need to be around them...they piss me off worse than anything, and thats hard to do.
they bring out my worst side...and i can't hit the little bastards or i'm in big fucking trouble...
they deserve a more than good ass whoopin..with thier damn parents getting the worst of it. The parents are just as guilty ...along with they condesending, nosey ass social workers who get involved.
theres a differnence between abuse and disipline,
but all i see is parents looking the other way while thier kids scream and tear up things...they are too "tired" to straighten thier kids, so they give into each little whim and thus the cycle never ends...the kids learn nothing, the parents become listless and ignorant and people like me get aggrivated to the point of despair..
if they are the future....
we are all doomed....
So much for maternal instinct.

]]> *darkspork69 dropping the excess.... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12040775/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/12040775/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 13:42:01 PST from 200lbs...it took me 3 years to get rid of it

just wish i could get a good paying job without the pain in the ass of working for corporations..or the government.

im a sexy beast(HAHA!!!!!)what a joke.
anywho...i said i wouldnt be on for a few days...but ooooh the pull of the internet...
i am just at a block right now and my fear of food....(not my hips!!!please..spare them!!!!)
well..i got problems..but so what? im not the only one whose got issues.
im just at an artist block and its hard to find inspiration lately.
hopefully it comes back to me...hopefully

]]> *darkspork69 a break.... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/11998923/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/11998923/ Wed, 28 Feb 2007 10:40:15 PST my art is getting old and i want to create something better and new.
so..i will be going to the stores to get better art products and maybe produce some new and beautiful stuff.
i always tend to see alot of stringy looking goth girls in pictures...
i prefer sensual soft curves, even though ive become a bony pale looking cadavar myself.
im also getting my eyebrows tattooed on...lol
after that my husband and i are going to get pictures made,
i hope i dont break the camera. lol
next month, i will get my tattoo done.
i wont be gone as long as i was the first time(2 years)
spring time is the begenning of new things,
hopefully they will be as beautiful as the blossoms that bloom before turning to the greenery of summer.
till then..
adieu.

]]> *darkspork69 spring is coming... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/11985079/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/11985079/ Tue, 27 Feb 2007 09:05:14 PST although i must say, im glad spring is almost here..im not used to cold climates, i do better in sweltering heat.
this southern girl just hasta cope.

hmmm....i like this time, my winter blues are starting to melt little by little and the thought that now,..is going to be a great time for change.
its gonna be crazy too..lol
i just need another adventure...
i need to drive normal people crazy and inspire my future comic.
i just wish time could slow down and i wouldnt have to worry about getting older,..but so what thats just a number.
"aint got no money, aint got no style...
ladies vomit when i smile,
but do zoidberg worry.
nope,
beee happy!"
wise words to live by..lol.
i by futurama dvd sets so i can sit and watch the episodes over and over again.
dont have cabal anymore.

]]> *darkspork69 independence day is 3 months away.. http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/11918661/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/11918661/ Thu, 22 Feb 2007 08:33:40 PST i mean independence day for me!
i left home May 19, 2004,and never looked back.
i am free and have been for 3 years...i survived the streets, heavy boozing, and pills.
yay!
my home life before i had left, really sucked and unfortunatly my mother still lives under those same inhummane conditions.
i tried to have her get away, but she went back to my step father, who doesnt really care for her, she is only free labor to him, with out her, he would starve and suffocate under his own filth.
the house is a dump..very few repairs were made and from what i hear at least the roach infestation is gone.
so i have a lot to be happy for, i have an easy job, i can relax and be lazy so i can keep drawing and getting better, without my step father saying that i was useless and his favorite name for me, shit for brains.
i have a husband who would do anything for me and even cleans house! and my own home,..somehow, after praying for years for a glimmer of hope,
i am free!
i will celebrate may 19 as my independence day,
my life thes few years have been the best i could ever hope for..i still get down, but now there is something to look forward too,
i will say it again,
I AM FREE!!!!!

]]> *darkspork69 a dark spell... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/11904960/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/11904960/ Wed, 21 Feb 2007 06:58:28 PST a temporary moment of gloom..but im used to it , it happens alot, but i just have to wait out the storm and hope people will understand.
i'm a little broken hearted, but what can i expect when i was the first to quit and lose contact with a friend.
maybe if i had not done that, things would be different, but the world changes even if we ourselves dont.
i stand on this ledge and realize, that in the end i will have to face evrything ive done alone.
its ok,..those that went before me have also faced demons alone, it's just about not showing fear in the eyes of those who judge.
there will times of darkness and drowning in pits of nothing and regret,
but there is also another side, a doorway to something else...
not everyone will like me so i must consider my friends carefully.
at least i wont be ignorant to the truth that we find discarded by others in the path of life.

]]> *darkspork69 im sinking...... http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/11879270/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/11879270/ Mon, 19 Feb 2007 09:20:33 PST i will die forgotten...
all i can do is write poetry and draw, but as i stay inside, i see the world transforming into this monster.
what good am i ?
i have no purpose....i want to drink until i cant fu***ng see anymore and i wont care about anything.
i cant escape my mind,
i could only see the dark..there is no light at the end and its not a tunnel but a neverending space of nothing and i can only hear my voice and it sounds more distorted than ever.
deep seated hatered that haunts me...
why should i fu**ing care about anything when in the end..im just a piece of forgotten garbage that no one understands....
how nice it would be if i could close my eyes and sleep foever...
one could only wish....

]]> *darkspork69 metal mouth http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/11745732/ http://darkspork69.deviantart.com/journal/11745732/ Fri, 09 Feb 2007 10:15:18 PST They are so addicting...i had this done before, but the guy that did it messed it up..they were really crooked. So now i have 2 huge rings sticking out of my lip and they throb like hell...but i think they are gonna stay this time

cant wait to change the rings to studs..they will be a little more comfortable and look better.
My next appointment is going to be a tat of a smoking frog with a jester hat, sitting on mushrooms with two fans of pot leaves on either side of it.
It will be across my abdomen,..it will be coverd completley....i cant wait...

I will get some pics posted of my new additions...
im soooo happy!!!!

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