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BYE! ]]> ~dastardlyhalcyon http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/9598220/ http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/9598220/ Fri, 04 Aug 2006 13:01:42 PDT
Knowing people care about you...

When the dogs aren't constantly barking at nothing...

Being treated like you are the competent 19 year old college student you know you are...

Being respected in general...

To hear "I love you" from people you love...

Yes.

A lot of things are nice.

"To fall in love is easy, even to remain in it is not difficult; our human loneliness is cause enough. But it is a hard quest worth making to find a comrade through whose steady presence one becomes steadily the person one desires to be."
- Anna Louise Strong

[link] ]]> ~dastardlyhalcyon http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/9070415/ http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/9070415/ Wed, 14 Jun 2006 19:42:04 PDT
2) Good anime.
3) Playing awesomely fun video games with friends
4) Catssss
5) Rain/thunderstorms
6) VERY LOUD JAPANESE MUSIC IN THE CAR!!
7) Inside jokes :3
8) Talking to people like Crevan, Meg, Ryan, my sister, my cousin
9) Pretty arts that people put a lot of effort into and are nice enough to share with the rest of us
10) Swimming ]]> ~dastardlyhalcyon http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/9057070/ http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/9057070/ Tue, 13 Jun 2006 13:10:41 PDT
1)What's your character's name?
Kali Krisalyn

2)How old is he/she?
20 something-ish, I suppose

3)Is your OC a boy or girl?
Girl!

4)What's his/her race?
Well...I guess based on the commission pic from *zetallis she is half cat half human...I mean, I really had a hard time deciding if she was full on cat or what, and I just kinda let *zetallis do what she wanted...lol... and it turned out really well, i love how she has pink hair, pink ears with white fluffs, and a pink tail. <3

Appearance

1)If this character were to suddenly become part of the 3D world, and ended up in a heavily-populated area, how many stares would he/she get?
Well, probably a few...

2)Is your character considered normal in his/her own world?
Yeah I think so

3)What would be his/her most recognizable feature(s)?
Pink hair, purple eyes, umm she's short? also ears and a tail, of course

4)Would you consider your OC as attractive?
Yeah

Personality

1)Temper?
A few things can set her off real fast, but mostly she's pretty calm and laid back...or just hyper/happy

2)Does your character ever get depressed?
Hmm...I guess she might, sometimes. But she doesn't let it show.

3)Leader or Follower?
Follower, I guess. But she can be really bossy and is kind of a control freak about some things...it's the curse of being the eldest sibling...

4)What is the main aspect of his/her personality?
she's really cheerful, sometimes incredibly hyper, and she cares a lot about other people.

History

1)Did your OC have a family of any sort? If so, are they still alive?
Not really, right now....I hadn't really thought of any family for her...

2)Is your character out on his/her own? If so, why?
I suppose so, she is old enough to be, but she does have Crevan :3

3)Has he/she encountered any traumatizing events?
Hmm...

4)What was probably the best time in his/her life so far?
Right now. :3

Romance

1)Single?
No

2)Has your OC developed any romantic relationships?
I would hope so...umm one that I know of...

3)Virgin?


4)Does your character like flirting?
does she? hmm...I think she might do it without realising, but she gets mad when other people flirt with her boyfriend lol

Symbolism

1) What animal would you associate your OC with? (Sorry, no creatures of myth and legend allowed!)
white cat

2)Musical Instrument?
umm...piano?

3)Element?
lightning, apparently which is awesome!!

4)Planet?
Pluto hahaha I don't know!

Showing the Love

1)Do you draw your character?
no

2)Do you write about him/her?
yes

3)Do you use him/her in any rpgs?
no

4)What other ways have you appreciated your OC?
uhh...people call me kali...haha.....

RANDOMIZE!

1)Is your character wanted for anything?
no

2)What are three weaknesses in him/her?
a. she gets kind of jealous...but then she will just go play video games or distract herself until it passes
b. she thinks about other people far more than she thinks about herself
c. she's very ticklish

3)Strengths?
she's fast, and agile, very flexible, coz she is a cat, also she's small, i think that can be a strength. she has a good sense of humour too and i guess she's a good dancer, yeah. she should be.

4)Does your OC drink or smoke (etc.)?
eww nuuu

5)What's one quirk about him/her?
she hates to leave the house without wearing a choker and a ribbon around her tail :3

6)Does your character have any phobias?
losing people wh... ]]> ~dastardlyhalcyon http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/8510451/ http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/8510451/ Tue, 18 Apr 2006 22:05:46 PDT
Stress has been building up on me for at least a month or two now, and I keep feeling I'm almost to the breaking point, but then I manage to make it through...granted it hasn't been the best time of my life, too many things are going on that would be getting me down if I didn't have some kind of optimistic approach to life. yes, amazingly enough, i, the emo queen, have optimism. it may not always show, but you know...things have a funny way of turning out for the best...even if at times life throws you some shitty curves...everything happens for a reason, and i just hope that reason is good and leads to happiness.

yay that made no real sense. i just finally feel able to actually write a bit about what's been going on in my head and my life.

i guess this is partly because of crevan's big huge long blog today and partly because when i cried about it, i suddenly discovered that i didn't want to cry about it anymore. i wanted to be happy for him and look forward to hearing about how things go with his dad and also see how much of a man he turns into (crevan, not his dad...lol) i know it may sound weird, but i dunno. i look forward to seeing him be able to embrace a necessary aspect of his life. and i know we'll still see each other, and talk all the time.

i can only hope that i turn out well. i know i will, actually. i need to take my chances and opportunities instead of running away from them because i'm too scared of what my family will think of me. or what other people will. or because i don't want responsibility. i do want it, but i also want support. i just don't want to feel down because of whatever...like not getting along well with my grandmother...ok this is turning into random thoughts get put down into a dA blog night. hokay whateverrrr.

if you've read this far, i salute you. this is the first time i've felt able and ready to cope with writing down my thoughts and not wanting to delete them or run from them. it's been a really...thought provoking past couple of months and i feel ready to tackle the things that i've just been sitting around thinking about. ok maybe sometimes i still feel really scared and unsure...but i'm tired of worrying about things so much. i really want to live my life for myself, and not for my family. i want to make my own decisions and also i want to be able to support myself financially...sadly i think that is one of the only reasons i rely on them so much still, is because they give me money. but i'm tired of that. they keep yelling at me to get a job.

if i were staying here for the summer i totally would have put in an application at quizno's since they are now hiring but no i have to go home for the entire summer. ah well. hopefully i can spend time playing video games, taking pictures, hanging out with friends...life can't be all work and no play...but i think this semester i've been trying to make it mostly work and a little bit of play because i feel so pressured...i do want to succeed but i also need balance.

crap this is really long. but i don't feel like stopping or deleting it. you don't even have to read it. i know most people won't. it's more for me. and kind of for crevan.

i hope getting all this out will help me feel less like a broken record every time i go to write because i keep writing about the same old things. but they are what i'm dealing with. there are a few more things in there, but i don't think i should say them on here. i probably shouldn't even have started writing all this on here, it's such a public forum...too late now. i -finally- got it out, i'm not moving it! ]]> ~dastardlyhalcyon http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/7893719/ http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/7893719/ Tue, 14 Feb 2006 14:26:29 PST

now, shoo.

i'mma go back to sleep.

go 'way weird dA logo hearts. ya freak me out.

i am just not a fan of this day. blah.

even though for the first time in my life i actually have a valentine for this day, i wasn't able to even do anything for or with him. boo. maybe next year will be better. less disappointing on my end. sorry hun. ]]> ~dastardlyhalcyon http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/7866075/ http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/7866075/ Sat, 11 Feb 2006 21:28:34 PST [X] I think I'm ugly sometimes. (rarely though...)
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[X] I wish my hair was a different color. (like purple or somethin' cool like that)
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance (not all the time though, but sometimes...bleh)
[] I have/I've had braces.
[X] I wear glasses. (Have since second grade)
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[X ] I have freckles. (yeah.....they're probably cute....)


Family/Home Life

[] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[X ] I want to have kids someday. (yeah, i really do)
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.


School/Work

[ X] I'm in school. (woo.....)
[] I have a job.
[] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[] I've stolen something from my job.
[] I've been fired.


Embarrassment

[ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[X ] Disney movies still make me cry. (shush)
[] I've peed from laughing.
[X] I've snorted while laughing. (haha yeah, good times)
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried. (also, good times)
[X] I've glued my hand to something. (don't remember what though)
[] I've had my pants rip in public...

Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[]I've gotten stitches/staples.
[] I've broken a bone.
[X ] I've had my tonsils removed. (when i was five)
[] I've sat in a doctors office/emergency room with a friend.
[X ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed. (when i was 16)
[] I had a serious surgery.
[X] I've had chicken pox. (aww I remember that, I was in third grade, I missed the big schoolwide spelling bee...saddest week of elementary school)


Traveling

[] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[X] I've been on a plane. (going to France)
[] I've been to Canada.
[] I've been to Mexico.
[] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan. (No but I wish so bad)
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[X ] I've been to Europe. (France)
[ ] I've been to Africa.


Experiences

[ X] I've gotten lost in my city. (well, in Richland, once or twice)
[X] I've seen a shooting star. (I love them!)
[X]I've wished on a shooting star. (course!)
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ X] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. (lol homeless coat! inside joke)
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[X ] I've been to a casino. (my mom takes me to breakfast at one like once every two months)
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[X ] I've been skiing. (i hated it)
[X] I've been in a play. (in third grade)
[XXXXX] I've met someone in person from myspace. (ok ok ok sorry! love you!!)
[X] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue. (yayyy)
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights. (I WISH)
[] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[] I've played chicken.
[X] I've played a prank on someone. (course!)
[ X] I've ridden in a taxi. (once, in France)
[X] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. (once, when I was ten. First last and only time I've seen it)
[X] I've eaten sushi. (OMG I LOVE IT)
[ X] I've been snowboarding. (it's sooooo fun)


Relationships

[ ] I'm single.
[X] I'm in a relationship. ()
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[X] I miss someone right now. (yeah a lotta people)
[X] I have a fear of abandonment. (....)
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[X] I've had feelings for someone who didn'... ]]> ~dastardlyhalcyon http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/7789384/ http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/7789384/ Fri, 03 Feb 2006 11:06:38 PST
Never give up. Things will always get better, it's just the wheel of fortune that makes some days go up and some down. Certain events happening all at once can make things seem like they'll never get better, but they will always. And in dark times, never ever forget how much there is to be thankful for. Focusing on the negative only perpetuates problems. Dealing with them, or waiting for some to pass, works better than holding onto thinking they'll never get better.

I do have A TON to be thankful for. And life can't always be perfectly happy. I wouldn't grow and change if it were. I just need to remember that what goes up must come down, and that it will go up again!!

I'm sorry for causing pain, and being narrow minded and selfish...especially when thinking about killing myself. I will NEVER do that. It would hurt people, and wouldn't do me any good. It's a long term "solution" to temporary problems. If I do have times of depression in the future, I'll seek help, even if I resist the idea of counselling or seeing a doctor, or channel it into something healthy, like playing video games or writing or drawing. I won't just keep holding it in until it becomes too much, and then taking it out on people who just want to help.

Here's to optimism and the future. ]]> ~dastardlyhalcyon http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/7781797/ http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/7781797/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 14:32:04 PST Have you talked to a doctor? I hope you do get some medicine for depression! I can't believe you've thought about suicide, well I mean I can believe it, but I'm just very sorry about it and I'm glad you've been able to overcome them! My mom got depression her freshman year of college, too. Some people are like, "Well I don't want to be artificially happy cause of the medication, I'd rather be myself", but I think that the medication helps you to be yourself, by removing the artificial sadness, if you know what I mean.... (Ann said this, btw)

I think too much. Just...things keep happening and I keep overanalyzing. I am paranoid. All this thinking is interfering with school. I have a problem, I guess. Something's messed up with my mind. I might have chemical depression or something. I don't know. I always thought "depression" was just an excuse to feel bad for yourself. But I can't shake it. Every night I fall asleep worrying, often crying and paralyzed by intense sadness and despair. But I know things will get better... I feel like this is bad and people won't want to hear about it. But I'm writing this for me, not for them. I write to cope with things.

Stress is just a part of life, I shouldn't let it get to me as much as it does. I am absolutely terrified of messing up, but there's too much going on to make clear decisions. I don't even know if I need to be in college right now. I don't care about my future enough. I do, just right now it's stressful that I'm already trying to figure out a career. I need to take things slower=\ I'm lost and I feel like I don't deserve this at all. If I don't work hard, then I don't deserve it. My family is paying money for me to be here and I'm being a mopey sad idiot. I sleep too little or too much, don't really care about my classes, have to force myself to care that this will affect my future. And I need to STOP that

I know without this degree or whatever I end up getting, I don't have much of a future. But school is such bullshit. History especially. I already learned that in high school. I do not CARE. Why do we have so many stupid assignments? To prepare us? There is a reason for it all, I need to calm down and accept that I do all this for a greater purpose I'm too idealistic, I just want to discuss and learn and grow. But I am here to prepare, I have to accept that. I don't want to prepare myself to be a mindless drone someday.I'll still be me, so I won't be a mindless drone. I might have to work in a less than satisfying job, but I will still be ME That isn't to say I just want to sit around in my future, I'll have to earn money and stuff. God, what is the point of living if we're not really living? We're just working to earn money. That's it. Buying stuff is the point of living, anymore.

Forget about having a spiritual life. Alright, don't! God, I'm sorry, I couldn't forget about you. Forget about wanting true love. That's what I've wanted almost more than anything my entire life.... The only reason I'm in college is so I can earn more money someday. And learn to live on my own, and stop being a tweaky emo brat. That's exactly what my grandfather told me all those years, preparing to come here. I admire and love my grandpa, and I think he's right. Life is not stupid, just preparing to get to the next stage of preparation. Yay life for moving forward!! Even though I'm scared to death of being old, I can't wait to get there. No more preparing for useless shit. I'll just be waiting to die. I'll be able to sit and observe nature and stuff all day. I'll be wrinkly and ugly and old and decrepit, but I won't have to prepare. And I'll be bored out of my mind...being young, I need to take my chances now, I need to live now! Who cares if I'm preparing, that IS what life is about for me. I'm on a freakin' JOURNEY!

I'm sure there are positive things in all this. FUCK YES THERE ARE I am learning things, mostly about myself in relation to the world. But I still feel "higher education" is such a joke, and such crap. We pay so much money, and for what? To neglect our selves in pursuit of more money. And to learn how to GROW THE HELL UP. I'm tired of this. I'm not living. I'm a drone already. Go to class to get the grade to advance to get the degree to get the better job to get more money to get more stuff to be happy But that won't be my FOCUS...I'll live with the love of my life, in our home, raising our children, watching them grow up and learn these things too...I won't just be dulling my brain to earn moneymoneymoney. I'll be out there, living my life to the fullest every day. Maybe I'm just the one who has made money a priority, subconciously......yeah right. Happy. I can't say I'd be happier being homeless or without food, but...there needs to be more balance. I'm not... ]]> ~dastardlyhalcyon http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/7553423/ http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/7553423/ Mon, 09 Jan 2006 22:56:34 PST
Someday I'm going to have two cats named Yuffie and Reno. & I'm listening to my random playlist, it goes from techno to big band to Advent Children to Jrock to whatever else I've got...it's just that kind of day where nothing is happening and I have not much to look forward to, so I sit here and listen to the music. & of course it is raining again, woo hoo...

I made a new year's resolution, finally! To stop being too quiet and just saying I dunno! I don't know what I'm so afraid of, geez. Life is just teeming with unexplored possibilities...yeah....oooohhhh i found some coloured pencils...

PS. yoinked this from

I confess that in 2005 I...
(i think so) found my 1 n' only
(ha, hardly ) stayed single the whole year.
( ) got your first kiss
(mhmm) kissed someone new
( ) made-out for the first time
() made-out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
(like, make out, or just kiss? i can't menember... ) kissed in the rain
() fell in love
(fool as in VERY immature and clingy...sigh...ah well I hope he's happy now ) fell in love with a fool
( but it has mended) had your heart broken
() broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker
(well only since august had i really begun to appreciate my family more, but at least i do now...as for friends...meh. meg & i have a good relationship bwahaha!) have a good relationship with someone
( ) questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
(iiiinteresting...NO i didn't!! ) gotten someone else pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
( ) had a gay marriage
(haha darn austyn at steph and shannon's eighteenth birthday bash... ) kissed someone of the same sex
(i still am ) dated someone you'll never forget
(well yeah, but not a HUGE regret) done something you've regretted
( ) lost your love
(ugh, in may but it has since definitely returned) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under miseltoe

WORK/SCHOOL

( ) got a promotion
() got a pay raise
() changed jobs
( ) lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a co-worker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
( ) got straight A's
(X ) met one teacher you really like
( i doubt ANYONE will ever come close to the hatred I have for my 10th grade Algebra II teacher Mr. Mills, UGH) met one teacher you really hated
( ) found the subject you love
( silly comp sci... ) failed a class
(X ) cut class
(X ) skipped school
( ) got into a fight with a classmate
(i started liking myself more) did something you were proud of
( X) discovered a new talent
( ) gave the teachers a reason to teach
(what comes after g? ) proved yourself an idiot
( ) embarassed yourself in front of the class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
( ) got a lead in the school play
( ) made a varsity team
( ) made junior varsity team
( uhh i do not know) were involved in something you'll never forget
( ) got sent to the office

OTHER

( )... ]]> ~dastardlyhalcyon http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/7237222/ http://dastardlyhalcyon.deviantart.com/journal/7237222/ Tue, 06 Dec 2005 10:42:10 PST 1. i love cute tank tops...it's like a fetish only nonsexually...
2. i love pokemon!!! {i'm a nerd!}
3. my favorite scent in the world is axe. {seriously.....omfg.}
4. i am very random {yeahhh...specially after caffeine!!}
5. i hate catgirls................well not hate.....but i don't like them. too cute and loveable

5 things I did today
1. wished i was cooler.
2. brushed my teeth <--my favorite one
3. talked about everyman
4. Got hit on by a drunk guy
5. unfortunately i woke up...

5 favorite bands (vocalists)
1. Mew
2. Mirah
3. Asian Kung Fu Generation
4. L'arc en Ciel
5. Sufjan Stevens

5 favorite movies
1. The Sixth Sense
2. The Nightmare Before Christmas
3. The Matrix Trilogy...lol I know that's three
4. Old Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy
5. Donnie Darko

5 things that make me smile
1. MEG AND I BEING SO MUCH ALIKE
2. CUTENESS EXCEPT WHEN I AM CALLED CUTE!!!
3. Crevan
4. People who are pokemon dorks like I am
5. That warm buzzed feeling that makes me sleep so happily...

5 things that impress me
1. courtesy, especially on the internet, gosh people don't be so rude just because they can't see you
2. willingness to help others even if you have to sacrifice a lot, you probably still have a lot more than the ones you are helping
3. believing in yourself
4. intelligence
5. genuineness

5 things that don't impress me
1. atheism
2. ignorance
3. lack of cleanliness
4. drunkeness
5. rudeness

5 things I can't live without
1. writing
2. family
3. Crevan
4. laughter
5. faith ]]> ~dastardlyhalcyon