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but here i am, a religious studies major, not a photographic imaging major. what do i know.

life is good, i feel like i am coasting through... biding my time until graduation and i become a real adult. haha sure.

im looking already to separate myself from the college part of my life so soon, looking into internships, jobs, i try to be one step ahead even though i often am not.

i met someone who told me they would propose to me if i was graduated already. i wonder how i am suppose to respond to that.. thankfully i dont remember how i responded to it. it is comforting to be in a solid relationship. even though the whole marriage thing scares me a little.

still, im happy.

love.

]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/8430842/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/8430842/ Mon, 10 Apr 2006 18:12:22 PDT but i feel unhappy when i consider my singleness.

my life is a whirwind, im so busy.
i dont have time for a special person in my life, but i still want one.

i havent hand any hmm hmm hmm in a long time. someone told me to just go out and get some, forget being in a relationship.

i thought about it. but then realized im just not "that" type of girl. i dont think i ever want to solicit that if im not in a relationship. casual sex is cool for some people, just not for me. even if i was poo faced drunk i still dont think it would be a wise decision.

anyway.

i guess i just want someone to hug me all the time.

;T ]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/8076603/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/8076603/ Sun, 05 Mar 2006 17:01:41 PST
im doing well. very well. much better than how i was. first off, im still single. which still sucks. but i am not allowing peter or our past relationship take hold of my life. i am relatively happy living this way, im learning how to get on with my life with no significant other by my side. it has taken me over five months to come out of the dark hole, but now im out, and there is no going back.

this is my first semester at a state university, and i have a current gpa of 3.7. isnt that wonderful? well i simply think so. that is the highest gpa i have ever had. im doing really well in my classes. scholarship time.

i have taken up another dance class. its not ballet, no malheursement i cannot afford it anymore. but ive been taking ballroom dancing. something i had been interested in even before it hit the media. so far we've learned east cost swing, and we are now learning the waltz. im in heaven.

i have joined a... gasp sorority. i guess i really am the token blonde girl now huh. in all seriousness, its wonderful. i have made some amazing friends. friendships i would have normally never had, people i would have normally never met, people who've kept me busy, happy. ive been meeting a lot of people, and for a girl starting out with not a lot of friends, thats a good thing.

i also just received a note today, which probably just made my year:
it was from the-torture-twitch :

".from.one.dan.to.another.
.youre.beynd.simple.words.of.beauty.
.speechless.and.undescriable.
.even.to.an.adept.poet.
.words.become.lost.for.you."

i love you. you made me very happy.

may is coming. means schools gonna be over, and the first round of my closest friends starts turning 20. i feel old.

well yeah im gonna go gape at the oscars. i just want to hear their speeches yo.

peace and love to all!



dan ]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/7442353/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/7442353/ Wed, 28 Dec 2005 18:06:23 PST
xx ]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/6733563/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/6733563/ Mon, 10 Oct 2005 19:05:49 PDT
my parents are in a hard time. my father has been unemployed for 11 months. they have always been able to pull through, but its failing now.

i am in love with someone who doesnt love me anymore. and i think what is worse is that i cant make them love me anymore. i have lost my support system; my rock. my heart is forever his and i am worried it will always be that way.

i have an auto immune deficiency, and i went to a health conference this past weekend. yeah yeah it was informative, but depressing as hell. i have a 70-80% higher risk for ovarian and breast cancer than people without this disease. i have just been crying the past few days, thinking i am too young to think like this. i am too young to change my diet, too young to change my ways! too young to think about these things! lord help me.

i am losing too much weight. ive been depressed before, but im not now. even though i dont think that people who have been diagnosed clinical depression actually have the right to say that.. but everyone is depressed nowadays. but seriously i havent thought about suicide, cutting, drugging, anything. so yay i get a high five from god. but i havent been eating. ive just seemed to have.. lost my appetite literally. im 5"7, 118. dude im going to have to start drinking ensure. you know, the shit for senior citizens. maybe im purposely falling apart.

and my birthday is coming up. to tell you the truth i wish it wasnt. the only person giving me a birthday party is the one my heart belongs to. im going to see him the day after my birthday, and we are going to spend the day together. i am looking forward to it, but it seems wrong somehow. wrong because i know whats going to happen, wrong because im going to cry buckets on that day, and wrong because his heart doesnt belong to me.

hopefully next time when i update things will be better for me.
i dont feel like reading anyones comments.. so uh. i just really felt like writing all this, for my sake not to see what anyone else had to say about it. thanks.

peace to all. ]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/5792967/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/5792967/ Wed, 29 Jun 2005 16:10:01 PDT
Been through a lot lately.. these past 6 mo. I got to experience what it is like to be an impatient in a psyhciatric institution, for almost two weeks of my time. I needed it. But boy was that interesting.

I have always been interested in Buddhism. My aunt has always practiced, but her sect, is one that never particularly attracted me. I am currently studying the Vajrayana sect of Mahayana Buddhism. It interests me very much so. (By studying I should say, trying to practice.)

Just call me a Catholic Buddhist.

I am such a multi-faceted person.

PHOTOS COMING SOON. and by coming soon i mean within the next few hours. I have to attend my twice a week tai chi class, yes that too! then when i return... im thinking about calling this series:
"LIFES BETTER NAKED."
oh you know me and my exibitionist tendencies.

*edit* i will save that series for another time xP

PEACE TO ALL!
danielle ]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/4465426/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/4465426/ Mon, 31 Jan 2005 19:05:41 PST Last Alcoholic Drink:: my anniversary
Last Car Ride:: yesterday
Last Kiss:: the love of my life two weeks ago
Last Good Cry:: two days ago
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:: meet the fockers
Last Book Read:: ballad of the white horse
Last Movie Rented:: cellular, godsend
Last Cuss Word Uttered:: fuck
Last Beverage Drank:: diet something
Last Food Consumed:: pasta
Last Crush:: peter is my crush
Last Phone Call:: peter
Last TV Show Watched:: csi
Last Time Showered:: yesterday
Last Shoes Worn:: stiletto boots
Last CD Played:: enya
Last Annoyance:: doug
Last Disappointment:: no disappointments
Last Soda Drank:: diet something
Last Thing Written:: last thing written
Last Key Used:: n
Last Word Spoken:: you.
Last Sleep:: this morning
Last IM:: the internet sucks
Last Sexual Fantasy:: i have no sexual fantasies. regular sex is good.
Last Ice Cream Eaten:: raspberry sherbert
Last Time Amused:: a hour ago
Last Time Wanting To Die:: december 28th; last time feeling really horrible.
Last Time In Love:: right now
Last Time Hugged:: peter two weeks ago
Last Time Scolded:: haha scolded?
Last Time Resentful:: long time ago
Last Chair Sat In:: sofa right now.
Last Lipstick Used:: dont often use lipstick..
Last Bra Worn:: the one im wearing now
Last Webpage Visited:: this one.

________________________________________ _____________


hi. life is great. im no longer a blonde. i am a redhead. being a redhead is liberating. ill have to take pictures soon; im going through photography withdrawl.
hope everyone had a great holiday season; i did. i had my anniversary, spent the night somewhere nice. it can be kinda scary sometimes knowing your future, otherwise sometimes kinda nice. even though sometimes things dont go as planned...
well, i feel like having some tea cozying up by the fireplace.
i hope all everyone is well.

love
]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/4012775/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/4012775/ Tue, 07 Dec 2004 16:39:47 PST 1.) roaches
2.) getting lost while driving: i truly try not to get upset, but it happens anyway.
3.) dying alone, with no one by my side. being forgotten after death.

THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
1.) peter
2.) grace
3.) mom

THREE THINGS I LOVE:
1.) sleep
2.) those e-bay commercials
3.) going on vacation.. lying in the sand; just me, the sun, and my pen/paper.

THREE THINGS I DISLIKE:
1.) that noise when your shaving outside the shower, scccrrappee
2.) people who are afraid to ask for help
3.) having to repeat myself

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1.) my brother
2.) very angry people
3.) life

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
1.) pictures
2.) pens
3.) my notebook

THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
1.) typing
2.) sitting
3.) thinking

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1.) make a difference in a students life; make an impact on them.
2.) travel around the world. Find my family; heritage.
3.) appologize to everyone i hurt, tell those who i love how much i love them, die happy.

THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
1.) play the entertainer by scott joplin
2.) cut hair
3.) dream

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
1.) weird
2.) sarcastic
3.) strong

THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
1.) ice skate
2.) rollerblade
3.) do a cartwheel

THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
1.) reg. baked ziti from fazolis
2.) a yummy sub from quizno's
3.) grandma rosies cheesecake

THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
1.) tai chi
2.) how to love with out reservation
3.) better self dicipline with schoolwork

THREE OF YOUR LEAST FAVORITE WORDS/PHRASES EVER:
1.) i know how you feel
2.) im sorry
3.) none of your businuess..

]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3787037/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3787037/ Mon, 08 Nov 2004 16:47:47 PST

1.) My name is: danielle
2.) I have: 11 piercings
3.) I am: italian
4.) I am: feeling alone yet im surrounded by people
5.) I live in: a small town
6.) I live: in a box called fayetteville
7.) I am a: fairly nice person
8.) I am a huge fan of: heath bars
9.) I love anything: that makes me feel good
10.) I spend a lot of time: doing my schoolwork
11.) I love to eat: pasta
12.) I love to cook: almost anything.. im a fantastic cook
13.) I drive a: used subaru
14.) It has: memories of the backseat love
15.) I love books on: philosophy
16.) I am fascinated by: mean people
17.) I believe most people: will help you if you ask
18.) I believe the world today: will end up in the shit hole
19.) I am not one of those people who: tells the truth all the time
20.) I am incredibly: tired and bored
21.) I love learning about: abnormal psychology
22.) I believe in: love
23.) I am pro: choice
24.) I cover my eyes in any movie: i have to be very very scared.. or. when the guy stabbed the pregnant girls belly in taking lives
25.) I am: in love with peter
26.) I loved: my past dog
27.) I want to go to college and study: english/photography
28.) I cry at: everything.
29.) I cry anytime a show/movie shows: something overly emotional
30.) I am a Goddess: of nothing
31.) I have more REAL friends: no where
32.) I am very choosey about: my food my clothes my money
33.) Drama whores make me: throw up
34.) I love the color: black/white
35.) I have: an expensive camera
36.) I share: almost nothing
37.) I view: things from a realist point of view
38.) I love going: to visit people
39.) I am deathly afraid of: dying alone
40.) I am also afraid of: roaches
41.) I am very: at ease
42.) I am a great: friend if you earn my trust
43.) I am very: giving and selfless
44.) I love being in: love
45.) I will be: starting a new life next year
46.) I am: waiting for the holidays
47.) I believe marriage: will happen to me soon.. too soon
48.) I love the movie: ..
49.) I am fascinated with: the stupid things that come out of my mouth sometimes
50.) I like reading: all the time.. but havent had time for it lately
51.) I make: goofy noises during sex
52.) I rarely: get hugged anymore
53.) I love: great italian food and rain
54.) I tend to be: a bitch
55.) I hate: the word bitch
56.) I love to: to listen to the rain
57.) I am addicted to: kaluah in white/black russians
58.) I have: some confessions to make
59.) I keep: dreaming about starting anew
60.) I watch: hardly any television
61.) I like: ice and rain
62.) I wish I could: go on vacation
63.) I dream of: peter
64.) I hate: people who are cold hearted
65.) I think guys: are overrated yet necessary
66.) I am extremely: complacent
67.) I just bought: my mom a chirstmas gift
68.) I like: my parents
69.) I hate this: weather
70.) I like many: things about this coming january
71.) I am afraid of: hurting those i love
72.) I get my feelings: angered a lot
73.) I am very: romantic
74.) I think: i would be a great boyfriend if i were a man
75.) I hate most: people who have no personality
76.) My best friend is: grace
77.) I love to watch: peter undress
78.) I constantly worry about: nothing
79.) I am a very jealous person when it comes to: my love
80.) I was on: bad things in the past
81.) I have: no regrets
82.) I don’t normally: talk to many people
83.) I love to: buy things for my closest friends
84.) I like: having a peaceful restful sleep
85.) I have never tried: any hard drugs
86.) I like when: i get my paycheck
87.) I only drink: diet dr. thunder
89.) I think Diamonds: are.. nice to look at.
90.) I love: my dog
91.) I love: my camera
92.) I have: a lot to do tomorrow
93.) I believe in: taking each day; day by day
94.) I can be very: fun to be around
95.) I trust: that i will lead a happy life
96.) Hell hath no furry, like: peters mother
97.) Other people make me laugh: all the... ]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3740187/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3740187/ Wed, 03 Nov 2004 06:46:03 PST
1.) My name is:
2.) I have:
3.) I am:
4.) I am:
5.) I live in:
6.) I live:
7.) I am a:
8.) I am a huge fan of:
9.) I love anything:
10.) I spend a lot of time:
11.) I love to eat:
12.) I love to cook:
13.) I drive a:
14.) It has:
15.) I love books on:
16.) I am fascinated by:
17.) I believe most people:
18.) I believe the world today:
19.) I am not one of those people who:
20.) I am incredibly:
21.) I love learning about:
22.) I believe in:
23.) I am pro:
24.) I cover my eyes in any movie:
25.) I am:
26.) I loved:
27.) I want to go to college and study:
28.) I cry at:
29.) I cry anytime a show/movie shows:
30.) I am a Goddess:
31.) I have more REAL friends:
32.) I am very choosey about:
33.) Drama whores make me:
34.) I love the color:
35.) I have:
36.) I share:
37.) I view:
38.) I love going:
39.) I am deathly afraid of:
40.) I am also afraid of:
41.) I am very: easily
42.) I am a great:
43.) I am very:
44.) I love being in:
45.) I will be:
46.) I am:
47.) I believe marriage:
48.) I love the movie:
49.) I am fascinated with:
50.) I like reading:
51.) I make:
52.) I rarely:
53.) I love:
54.) I tend to be:
55.) I hate:
56.) I love to:
57.) I am addicted to:
58.) I have:
59.) I keep:
60.) I watch:
61.) I like:
62.) I wish I could:
63.) I dream of:
64.) I hate:
65.) I think guys:
66.) I am extremely:
67.) I just bought:
68.) I like:
69.) I hate this:
70.) I like many:
71.) I am afraid of:
72.) I get my feelings:
73.) I am very:
74.) I think:
75.) I hate most:
76.) My best friend is:
77.) I love to watch:
78.) I constantly worry about:
79.) I am a very jealous person when it comes to:
80.) I was on:
81.) I have:
82.) I don’t normally:
83.) I love to:
84.) I like:
85.) I have never tried:
86.) I like when:
87.) I only drink:
89.) I think Diamonds:
90.) I love:
91.) I love:
92.) I have:
93.) I believe in:
94.) I can be very:
95.) I trust:
96.) Hell hath no furry, like:
97.) Other people make me laugh:
98.) I will never be:
99.) It took me:
100.) After reading all of this: ]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3733431/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3733431/ Tue, 02 Nov 2004 12:13:15 PST
________________________________________ _____________

when we're good we're good:

me: pie
him: yah?
him: yes baby?
me: aww
me: oh god i love you so much
him: what
him: lol
him: why u say it like that
me: like what
me: oh.. because you actually responded to pie..
me: and
me: i just love you so much baby
me: so so much
him: yeah
me: its too much love for my little heart
him: lol!
me: ;;
him: i found my true love
me: ha
me: one true love..
me: do you think that exists?
him: nah
him: i think there are many true loves
him: but i know no one like you
him: and no relationship like this one
him: i love you danielle


when we're bad we're bad:


me: no we were out of drinks
me: unfortunately
me: but have plenty of tequila!
me: jk
me: im sober
me: i swear
me: kinda
me:
him: i dont want to talk to you tonight
me: i swear im sober
me: not a drop
him: whatever danielle
me: fine i dont give a fuck if you dont believe me
me: im telling the truth
him: whatever
him: why did you say kinda then
him: kinda sober
him: fuck you
me: i didnt even drink what the fuck
me: and even if i did why am i defending myself??
me: god
me: whatever
me: fuck this
him: yeah
him: fuck this


just felt like sharing some internet conversations. which we rarely have any more. i never talk to anyone online anymore.. i did all this shit mostly when i was in middle school. now when i get on the computer its to do work or to check e-mail; but not to converse. thats what phones are for.. ;D but anyway. we dont fight about much anymore; not that we ever did. but when we do fight, we fight about the same things. usually: my moods, his moods, his energy, me talking to other people, me going out, me drinking.

but anyway i guess relationships are like all parts of life. good and bad all mixed together. im just glad that being so young, i have found someone to get along with/be with, who i can tolerate and vice versa. its a good feeling; to have constanly someone there to support you. our one year is coming and im happy. hey that is long for dan okay? ;D

im relatively happy.

i hope you voted. otherwise your gonna die you know? ppssh YEAH okay.

hug hug hug

]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3723768/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3723768/ Mon, 01 Nov 2004 10:54:49 PST
I look at the women of today, and often wonder where our senses have drifted away to. Who have we become? Who are we now that we no longer recognize who we really truly are? No longer do we recognize our true beauty, born within. Every soul has beauty, beauty which we no longer seem to realize. Beauty that has been torn apart by lovers, family, images we study and carefully try to imitate off of the television, radio. Literature. Magazines. Women who no longer represent the majority, only represent what we all some day hope to become, represent what we all strive to be, and strive to become, only to flounder each time. No one has ever told us to be ourselves, be happy for who and what you are. Never shame it. Never shame yourself, for you are beautiful. We are all beautiful. God's children.

Beauty is no longer to be measured. No longer to be restricted by age, or race, or creed, or sex. One possesses so much inside, as to never be measured. Beauty starts with you, with me. Remember my words, for when I die, you shall pass this meaning to someone else, someone new and untouched. Remember how powerful you always are, and how powerful your words are. Forever hope. You are beautiful."

"To me, fair friend, you never can be old
For as you were when first your eyes I eyed,
Such seems your beauty still."

---William Shakespeare

________________________________________ ___________

did i write this? perhaps ill leave you to wonder. i think i appreciate the wording the most. hmm..

did you hug someone today?
and no i dont mean a DA hug. everyone needs hugs. anyway.

]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3707791/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3707791/ Sat, 30 Oct 2004 10:36:33 PDT ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3678649/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3678649/ Tue, 26 Oct 2004 11:54:15 PDT
I have memories, pain, and tears.
why cant we be together without exception?
why must someone always interfere?
does love ever REALLY last?
im scared im in too serious of a relationship for my own good...
why does he love me?!
i am nothing without him
just a soul existing.

being suicidal for a long time ultimately changes your perspective on life
i am a different person now because of my past.

you had a foursome?!
that makes ME feel disgusting.
why couldn't we both had been virgins when we met?
is our sex really more than just sex?
or am i still just an imaginary girl wishing for that fairytale.. that will never come true.
your family thinks that im a whore:
because i didnt wait till marriage.
that makes me want to cry.
why must i still feel like i need to please people?
am i not good enough to have it the other way around?

i am feeling cold again...
i need him yet he is not here...

the distance is taking a toll on my heart.

]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3644254/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3644254/ Thu, 21 Oct 2004 17:47:38 PDT
sorry i havent been able to reply to any comments lately, or do any commenting myself-- i havent had much time for DA.

and i had a great birthday; thank you. spend friday with family, then saturday with peter. i took some pictures of our time together.. but well they arent that artistic ;T

one thing that makes me sad which i didnt get to do was take REAL pictures of him. i desperately want to take pictures of someone. hrmm i should really get my but into a photography class..

havent been feeling like doing much of anything lately.. dont feel like typing, dont feel like talking to anyone. i just want to sleep my life away. i know that these thoughts are not positive at all, but a nap does sound awfuly good right about now.

bah okay goodbye. ]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3598261/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3598261/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 17:56:21 PDT
happy birthday, dear danielle,
happy birthday to you.

today was a fabulous day. i spent the whole day out with my family, had a great meal, great fun.
and tomorrow i get to celebrate with the love of my life.
then hopefully on sunday i will either get to see zoo atlanta (yes call me a dork,) or some art museum's in the downtown. i am going to look like such a tourist/photographer lugging around my two big cameras. but i dont care.

i hope everyone has a lovely weekend.

arf.

]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3572371/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3572371/ Tue, 12 Oct 2004 10:50:14 PDT
i have found a hobby that makes me so happy. I am now feeling quite confused.. thinking that perhaps I should change my major. Right now i am so set earning my BA in secondary education, with a minor in english.. now im considering changing to a BA in photographic imaging.

i am a lost soul.

yay 3 more days.

should i celebrate by getting a tatoo? dont even tell me no because i already have my little heart set on it.

until later

]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3558811/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3558811/ Sun, 10 Oct 2004 16:32:41 PDT i want to look at pictures of you."

then he got off to my photo's.

i dont think any one has ever 'gotten off' while looking at photos of dan before.

made me feel sexy and filthy at the same time.

anyway.

im writing a book. well that has always been in the making since i have ever known what a book even is; but this time im gonna do it. yay for me.

im going to have a busy week this coming week. busy busy. dr appt's, schooling, etc. ill be back celebrating with photos either on the 15th or 16th.

be nice.

]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3527928/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3527928/ Wed, 06 Oct 2004 15:45:30 PDT
dont fuck with me.

arf.

deviant art is like alcohol.

i know i am capable of doing so much better photography than i have in the past. but i am still such an amateur. i wanna learn learn learn and be the best that i can be.

i think i bought a much more advanced camera for my present skills.

ah i cant wait until the 15th. my birthday. then i cant wait until the 16th when i get to finally take pictures of someone else for a change.

i actually tried taking a picture of my mom, but she got pissed off. then i tried still life, but got bored. see my scraps.

+dan ]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3503809/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3503809/ Sun, 03 Oct 2004 14:50:01 PDT
huh?

ha yeah right. why my gallery consists solely of pictures of myself at the moment, (excluding the picture of my doggie); holds two reasons. number one, i do like the idea that i am in complete control when i take a photograph, and can turn it into, (myself into) something completly different than it was before. i love taking and creating photos of myself, then stepping back and saying; hey thats not me. but it is. fun.

also lets take into consideration the fact that i have only literally had my camera for a little over 2 weeks. i am so used to working with a film SLR; that i think i may be experiencing some seperation anxiety. i do quite miss my 70-300mm and 135-400mm lenses, but hey i can learn to love digital just as much.

on another note: one thing im quite excited about is that i will be photographing a friend of mine in about 2 weeks or so. hopefully his shots will come out great and ill post them.


+dan ]]> ~dddan http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3487303/ http://dddan.deviantart.com/journal/3487303/ Fri, 01 Oct 2004 11:29:13 PDT
he loves me so much. that was so present from last night. crying so unabashedly; the both of us. crying about our future.

is it okay that i am scared that i already know the man that i will marry? i suppose i should be happy. which i often am; but yet i dont know why i feel like this sometimes.

perhaps i am scared of being dependent on someone. which i am.

im cold. and jaded. and i am too young to feel like this. ]]> ~dddan