http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:deadlypoison695&section=today deviantART RSS for by:deadlypoison695 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 25 Nov 2009 05:34:49 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/28301250/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/28301250/ Wed, 11 Nov 2009 19:07:40 PST
There is truely nothing that I can do without a small army to prevent people from stealing and taking credit for my work. I've had people publish my work, post it to their blogs as their own to impress their friends, and even post to other artist websites to get reviews and praise. I suppose most people don't understand why that hurts, but every single thing that I wrote and posted to this site had a personal story behind it and usually a lot of pain. These poems are my bleeding heart on paper, and to have people minimize my pain for their own glory is hurtful.

On the other hand, I have several people a year who drop me notes, comments, or emails to let me know how much they love my poems, request to use them in a class, or to post them on their websites with credit given. To those of you from this crowd: Every one of you touches my heart. I want to thank you for both your support and your respect. You're all awesome.

So - long story short - I've finally realized that I am fighting a losing battle here. Depressing, but true. And I just wanted to thank YOU all for being awesome and supportive and just part of a great overall community. DevArt rocks because of you.

-Fin-

]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/18615568/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/18615568/ Sun, 01 Jun 2008 18:32:23 PDT
I wanted to share this little quote with all of you because it moved me and really made me think. It was part of a letter written by one of my advisers here at college.

"Poetry is what stirs your fundamental being. It is you at your most imaginative. It is the passion to prevail and excel. It is the motive force behind you. Poetry is the creation of a life and mind: a life lived purposefully and purposely created by you, though you don’t always understand the creation as it unfolds. It is the form you make for the content and that which impels you to imagine the form. So at times like this, I hope you will believe that you are the creator of your destiny, the molder of your own mind. We, your mentors, merely offer and help explain the content; internalizing it, making it your own, that's the hard work but identifies you as the poet of your own creation."

As a statement, it's kind of poetic. As a poet, it moved me a lot to take a different look at things and open my eyes a little bit. I hope it somehow moves you all too.

~*~Poison~*~

]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/18192755/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/18192755/ Tue, 06 May 2008 07:57:37 PDT
Aside from things going well with school (turning in some final projects, getting ready for the summer), I recieved word today that my poem "Death's Lullaby" has been fully restored! DeviantArt and I were able to work together to resolve the mistake! The deviation has been fully restored with the original copyright, comments, and faves! Thank god for small miracles, right?

Thanks to all of you who offered your comforting words when this was all going down. They meant a lot to me.

On another note... been starting to write a little bit again! Nothing solid on paper or anything... but random poetic lines are running through my mind and that's always how it starts. So we'll see where it goes!

~*~Poison~*~

]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/18119289/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/18119289/ Thu, 01 May 2008 15:01:34 PDT
The deviation has been reported and removed for copyright violation. T_T

I don't understand how this could have happened. As far as I'm aware, the only copyright I could have POSSIBLY violated was my own, because I know down to the core of my soul that that poem was my work and it's been posted here for 4 years. Somehow, there's been a horrible mistake and I'm afraid that I may never get that poem back since I do know where the original hard copy is.

I've sent an inquiry to DevArt (god knows how long that could take) and I've sent a note and email to the person I believe reported me (who's name I will not disclose) asking them to please re-review the case and help right this wrong. I can only hope that somehow this HAS been a horrible mistake and that Deviant Art can help me right it.

Until then... I really just feel like a piece of my soul has been violated. I don't even know what to do...

~*~Poison~*~

]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/18050996/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/18050996/ Sun, 27 Apr 2008 08:42:45 PDT
As you might finally realize, I'm only very sporatically active on DeviantArt, though I wish I had time to come on more often. That being said, over the past few months for a year or so now I've been recieving Deviant Notes from people asking to use my poetry for class assignments and what-not. I have to say, I'm flattered, I think it's wonderful that you'd like to use my work in something like that. However, I unfortunatly do not usually get these notes in time to grant my permission. So, if you need to contact me for something like this, please do not hesitate to use my email to contact me.

waters_edge695@yahoo.com

If you send anything to that address, I'll get it in a day or two and be much more prompt in replying. I hope this helps you guys out.

Thanks guys! Hope this helps out.

~*~Poison~*~

]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/13552719/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/13552719/ Sat, 30 Jun 2007 14:20:24 PDT
I emailed DeviantArt FIRST because I felt that they would help me. The only thing they gave me (after 3 weeks mind you) is this crappy reply - "In cases such as yours, your only recourse is to consult with a copyright attorney for actual legal counsel."

Thanks for the help DevArt. Remind me never to go to them for help again.

So I then started looking into the policies of the site she published through, Lulu.com. They're plagiarism policy is strict, if you're caught, they close your account and all this other fun shit. But I still would've needed to obtain legal counsel, which I was trying very hard not to do.

I finally directly emailed Lynn King. I told her that I was no longer agreeing to let this slide and be "co-authors" and that she either needed to take the book out of circulation or take my poem out of it. She then emailed me back with a sob story about how having it re-edited would be like $180 and she didn't have the money. She then told me about how she only ever made $240 off of selling the books anyway and they cost her $189 to have published. So she didn't have any money to share with me and she hadn't sold a book in over a year. She then emailed me a number of links to poems that either only shared my theme or were published after mine with the claim "I bet no one can really know who wrote this poem."

That set me off.

I promptly emailed her back and told her that I wrote the poem and if she did not do something NOW I would contact her publisher and they would destroy her account.

She took the book down and emailed me another sob story about how I was only doing this because I knew she was on probation and any trouble with the law could send her back to jail. Personally, I don't care. She took the book out of circulation and I have my poem back. That's all I wanted.

So that's how it went down. Still working on that writing thing. I really swear I am. I just sit down sometimes and I get like 5 or 6 lines and then I run out of inspiration. I need to get a good one going so that I can finally FINISH one.

Thanks again to everyone who supported me.

<3 Poison

]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/12807817/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/12807817/ Tue, 01 May 2007 19:15:32 PDT
The woman harassing me has an email under the name of Lynn King, but has self published her books under the name Linda Ottanio.

She went from threatening me, to being civil, and then I do believe to flattery in order to try to get me not to pursue the copyright issue.

To summerize the situation so far after my last entry:

- She emailed me the link to her book Just Outside the Box and allowed me to view the poem through a full preview of her book. The first six lines (not the entire poem) of "Porcelain Doll" are published exactly in her book.

- I realized her book was copyrighted in 2006 and my poem is copyrighted in 2004. I asked her for a previous copyright and she was unable to provide me with one, internet or otherwise.

- She suggested that we "agree to disagree" about the poem and simply co-author it in any future publications. I agreed simply because I did not want the hassle of a legal case.

- She then tried to distract me with other people who have plagiarized my poetry and what we should do about them and actually tried to flatter me (and herself) saying that "you should just appriciate the fact that people want to plagiarise you, it means you're just that good." Or something to that nature, that's not a direct quote.

- After mulling it over for a few weeks and consulting with my parents, my friends, and above all my sister in law, I realized that this poem is important to me. I have decided that I want to fight for the right to my poem. I also realized that there is no way in hell that I could have even accidentally plagiarized that poem seeing as she NEVER published it or posted it online until 2006 in her first book of poetry.

I have sent an email to DeviantArt telling them about my situation. I know that DeviantArt is very strict about copyrights and I hope that since my copyright is through them that they will help me to reclaim what is mine, or at least give me a direction that I should head in. My father has also agreed to hire me a lawyer (if it comes to that) and simply take the cost of the lawyer out of a settlement. I'm not nessecarily seeking a settlement or any money, but if it comes to a point where I have to hire a lawyer, I'll need the compensation from somewhere now don't I?

Anyway, I will try to keep you all updated on this situation.

Also, on a lighter note, upon the begging of some other deviants, I have decided (for about he fifth or sixth time) to try to start writing again. I make no promises, except that I will try. I reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally will I swear.

Love to all my peeps,

Thanks to those of you who commented on my earlier entry. Your support is part of the reason I've decided to pursue this.
Also thanks to my sister-in-law, who encouraged me to contact DeviantArt and take action. And to my father, who immediately threw his support behind me unconditionally.

Goodnight DevArt!
~Poison

]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/12565895/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/12565895/ Thu, 12 Apr 2007 11:16:53 PDT
This morning I received an email from a girl named Lynn King. She very rudely accused me of plagiarism for my favorite poem, "Porcelain Doll". According to her, she has published the poem.

This is the email I received:
"you stole this poem from me... then this angela chick from absolutepunk stole it from you... now i wrote it, i published in a book - not with your exact words... everybody seems to have changed it to fit their needs... but this is AGAINST THE LAW... what YOU DID FIRST>>>.


Broken Doll#
03-27-07 at 01:24 PM by angela328
Porcelain doll with tangled hair.
People pass or stop and stare.
Her cotton clothes are ripped and torn.
Her parents regret the day she was born.
Her plastic heart has melted down.
Her stunning smile a perfect frown.
Her shining future a blackened road.
Her flowing words a messed up code.

Once glowing eyes now dark and dead.
And voices scream inside her head.
A falling rain of acid tears.
Mirrors reflecting all her fears.
A fire raging through her veins.
Drugs to reduce all her pains.
Her porcelain skin now scarred and bruised.
Her staggering beauty now gone and used.

A foreing beauty now buried alone.
A cryptic place where light once shown.
Once gracful flight with song and dance.
A life of hope and true romance.
Now blundering falls and morbid display.
Where crystal tears fall everyday.
A heartless place of death and disease.
Where evil comes and goes with ease.

Porcelain doll with tangled hair.
Shattered dreams and timeless dispair.
A radiant star now void black hole.
Trying to replace what innocence stole.
Now in her hand a bloody knife.
Now in her mind an ended life.
A porcelain doll a murdered youth.
Her hopeless fight a deadly truth.


It was horrible. Terrible. It sucked majorLY...
But I worked on it for a long time so please leave "nice" comments...
Mood: Listening to Music
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this is fucking outrageous... and i will prove this is my poem,,, and you all will get fried for it...."

This is the second email I received:
"first deviant asshole stole it - now you stole it from him...

it is my poem... i published it in a book... and it's copy-written under my name... stole stealing poetry it;s plagiarism and it's against the FUCKING LAW...."

I don't know what to do with this. I know this poem is mine, but if she continues this, anybody have any suggestions?

She has yet to provide me with the title of this supposed book or her copyright or a site with an original copy of her poem.

Thanks
~Poison

]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/9763386/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/9763386/ Thu, 17 Aug 2006 18:07:55 PDT
I'm thinking about doing a follow up on porcelain doll. I'm not exactly sure how I'd structure it yet. It would be closely related to my original "Porcelain Doll", but sort of a continuence I guess. Anyway, I'm toying with different ideas. I think the one I like best so far is sort of a combination of "Death's Lullaby" and "Porcelain Doll" in which the child from "Porcelain Doll" becomes a little more, eh, dangerous isn't the word. I dunno. It's an idea.

So, here's where you guys come in. I want you guys to tell me if you think it's a good idea. I'd also love any suggestions of where I should take the second poem if I do write it, because I could use some more direction. Or hell... if anyone has a story or something that might give me a different inspiration or direction, note me. I wanna get back into my writing grove and I'm trying to figure out how to do it. I could use all the help I can get.

~*~ Poison ~*~ ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/9650581/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/9650581/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 15:22:23 PDT
~*~ Poison ~*~ ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/7697067/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/7697067/ Tue, 24 Jan 2006 16:41:09 PST < ) are to rewrite/finish two poems. I want to rewrite Disposable from where I originally started with the first 3 paragraphs. I then want to try to finish Track 13. Here's hoping I can carry through with these two without extreme delay.

I also notice that I've hit and soared over 6,000 pageviews. I don't know when or how that happened but I'd like to thank everyone that hit up my page. It's awesome to come back and realize that my poems really do still get noticed even a year after I write them.

So, I'll be trying to write again. Until then, if you need something awesome to look at go view the accounts of and . They're awesome. One is my sister and the other one is my love.

Until next time,

~Poison ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/5954169/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/5954169/ Sat, 16 Jul 2005 20:27:42 PDT You love me, you really love me!! lol

New poem posted in celebration, even though it was posted before I hit 5,000 >.>

So, now I'm tired... GOODNIGHT!

~*~ Poison ~*~ ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/5823844/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/5823844/ Sat, 02 Jul 2005 19:55:15 PDT .

This is where I ask you all to help me out >.>.

HIT MY PAGE UP! Or better yet... get all your FRIENDS to hit my page up >.> Do it because you love me? lol

And while you're hitting up my page, you should check out and if you haven't already because they kick ass too!

Peace
~*~Poison~*~ ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/5458635/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/5458635/ Wed, 25 May 2005 15:14:58 PDT .>!

~Poison ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/5278718/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/5278718/ Thu, 05 May 2005 19:40:53 PDT
PREVIEW! :

Disposable

A book with Grandpa's favorite quote,
A poem that your boyfriend wrote,
You're little cousin's old toy boat,
They're all disposable.

Hopefully I won't disappoint you all I've never had so many people waiting for my next piece.

~*~ Poison ~*~

]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/4011964/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/4011964/ Tue, 07 Dec 2004 14:56:09 PST
~Lauren ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/3894299/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/3894299/ Mon, 22 Nov 2004 15:33:11 PST
One of my younger friends is going through an AIDS scare... I keep trying to console her, but it's almost useless. I really don't know what to tell her. She's not handling it to well...

~*~ Poison ~*~ ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/3732662/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/3732662/ Tue, 02 Nov 2004 10:23:10 PST I love my sister!!! She's such a lovely artist and she's made me sooooo many new pictures to go with my poetry, and MY NEW ID! : pets her new ID on the computer screen : So pretty!

CHECK OUT HER WORK! Partial bits of it have been posted with my poems, but you shall all go... now! I COMMAND YOU! lol Seriously though, she's a great artist and a kickass sister.

Also another great artist... you should all go there... because you love me...

That's all for now, I must go and post these pretty pictures as previews for my poems.

~Lauren~ ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/3642181/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/3642181/ Thu, 21 Oct 2004 12:37:10 PDT
Also, I'm kindof running an account for my boyfriend, Sean. Those of you who looked at it saw the 8 or so peices that I posted on this account, but now, he has his own. I'll probably still be helping him with uploading and such though.

Sean's new account - EDarkCloud

If you love me, you'll go check it out. I'm reposting most of the pieces from this account onto his and and removing a few from my account, though DarkCloud and a few others will stay on mine so that ALL of my friends can get a look at them if they've missed them in the past few days.

So yea, once I get all of this squared away, I'll be back to writing again Can't wait, I miss it a lot.

~Lauren ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/3130377/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/3130377/ Sun, 15 Aug 2004 08:55:29 PDT Holy Hades.

Your choice of rhyming pattern sucks much of the life from an art that is supposed to be beautiful. If you must rhyme, make sure it is well thought out. There's nothing worse than a bunch of choppy lines with mismatched words and broken rhythm all because they're trying to fit the rhyme. And this is a good example of it. I suggest you practice. As it is right now (I'm going to be extremely blunt), it sucks.

I'm not a fan of such redundance either.

Yeah, this has a lot of work to be done on it.

Comment by *Dispositioned on Porcelain Doll

Ok, I know that I have a tendecy to be touchy, but this kinda just offended me. Someone wanna tell me if I'm being touchy again of if I'm right in thinking this is just absolute bull?

~*~ Lauren ~*~ ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2952918/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2952918/ Fri, 23 Jul 2004 20:53:51 PDT
in the mean time, i shall post one or two of my older ones for you all... they're no where near as good... but they are new material!

~Lauren ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2952915/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2952915/ Fri, 23 Jul 2004 20:53:42 PDT
in the mean time, i shall post one or two of my older ones for you all... they're no where near as good... but they are new material! ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2676755/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2676755/ Wed, 16 Jun 2004 17:51:32 PDT ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2674606/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2674606/ Wed, 16 Jun 2004 12:41:23 PDT
~*~ Lauren ~*~ ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2620204/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2620204/ Wed, 09 Jun 2004 10:46:42 PDT I"M SO HAPPY!!! ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2591527/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2591527/ Sat, 05 Jun 2004 18:22:10 PDT
so anyway... i got a note the other day asking for permission to use my poems on a website, which of course i said yes to. i it when my poems are spread to other people.

the website is [link] if anyone wants to check it out.
it is hosted and edited by ~Animechan
the featured poems are Porcelain Doll and Broken Spirit.

so yea... still getting used to this 100+ messages thing. i know that i have missed commenting on a couple (ok a lot) of deviations, but i HAVE viewed them all. rest assured. my computer however has been being a *bleep*in *bleep*ady *bleep* *bleep* and hardly allowing me to surf the internet or even type without troubles. but i HAVE seen all of your deviations, and i them all.

~*~ Lauren ~*~ ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2566453/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2566453/ Wed, 02 Jun 2004 13:09:29 PDT
~deekay156

check her out for me... she's a really great artist... i'm sure that a lot of you will like her work ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2541947/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2541947/ Sun, 30 May 2004 10:37:59 PDT


i'm dead serious... go check this out... ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2531111/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2531111/ Fri, 28 May 2004 18:39:11 PDT FINALLY! EMPTIED MY MESSAGE BOX!!! over 400 messages have passed through in the past 48 hours...

but... news for those of u who don't know... yesterday, my new poem, Porcelain Doll, was posted as a Daily Favorite! I ish SOOOO happy... and i made quite a few new... and really great... friends through it. I all of my new stalkers and stalkies and buddies! and of course... I all of my older ones too!

so yea... kinda pissed off at evilness... the 2 IDs that i had posted have been removed by way of Deviant Staff for "copyright violations"... if u dont want it used... dont put it on a site that is attached to a google image search darnit!
however... now i am happy... a new friend... ... is going to draw up an ID for me... THANK U!!! check out her gallery damnit... she's got talent!

ok... still have messages to answer... more came in while i was writing ...

~Lauren ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2530767/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2530767/ Fri, 28 May 2004 17:36:43 PDT ZanarkandAbe for my new avatar... I LOVE YOU!!!! ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2515662/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2515662/ Wed, 26 May 2004 17:58:41 PDT all of you... i have gotten so many great comments and s on my new poem, Porcelain Doll... i just... don't know what to say... it has made me so happy... seriously... i'm just glad that i came to devart and found some of the great people here... i u all ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2457336/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2457336/ Tue, 18 May 2004 17:05:59 PDT

and thx to those of you who have already voted ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2434333/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2434333/ Sat, 15 May 2004 12:18:35 PDT
THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW
1) meh favorite big black baggy comfy pants
2) black and blue fairie shirt
3) necklace - star and moon (nvr take it off... heh)

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK
1) cheezits...
2) mountain dew live wire...
3) Ill Nino cd...

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO IN THE NEXT FOUR YEARS
1) go to college at drexell
2) find a worth while guy that i can stick with for more than 6 months...
3) move out

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1) travel
2) graduate from college
3) move to virginia (w/pete, lynn, angie, and justin of course)

THREE GOOD WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
1) trustworthy
2) crazy
3) ditzy (i'm a blonde... i'm aloud)

THREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY
1) depressing/always depressed
2) secretive
3) i worry way to much about the stupidest shit...

THREE SONGS I COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT
1) Goo Goo Dolls - Slide
2) American Hi-Fi - Flavor of the Week
3) Ill Nino - All the Lies

THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1) my eyes...
2) my legs...
3) my voice.. (i kno that doesnt really count as body... but it's something i like about mehself...)

THREE FOODS I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT
1) pizza
2) Wawa wraps
3) Pringles

THREE DRINKS I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT
1) Chocolate Milk
2) Snapple (to many flavors to list)
3) Orange Soda

THREE OF MY FAVORITE FLOWERS
1) Iris
2) Daisy
3) Rose (preferably black or red)

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1) bite me... not an offer!... OW BERKEY THAT HURT! (the name 'Berkey' can commonly be substituded with others)
2) screw you...
3) EEP!!!

THREE THINGS I'VE DONE THIS WEEK THAT I'M PROUD OF
1) told my mom to f*** off b/c she was pissing me off... i finally stood up to her...
2) got matt's s/n and phone number
3) said no to cigarettes (really... i did... and i ish proud of myself )

THREE THINGS I'VE DONE THIS WEEK THAT I'M NOT PROUD OF
1) took 5 more minutes and said yes to cigarettes (so much for quitting )
2) cried
3) snapped on about 20 of my closest friends

THREE THINGS I'VE DONE THIS WEEK THAT WERE STUPID
1) let berkey hit on me *twitch*... i'll never hear the end of it from sam...
2) Fell off my roof while trying to sneak out of my second story window (don't ask)
3) Told my mom to fuck off and got grounded (but yes... i am still proud that i stood up to her)

THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO
1) Paris
2) California (I'm comin to see you Gem..)
3) Matt's house... *thinks of matt*

THREE OF MY FAVORITE LEISURE ACTIVITIES
1) listening to music
2) hanging out with friends
3) writing poetry

THREE NAMES THAT I GO BY
1) LA
2) Riiku
3) Kitty

LAST THREE SONGS IVE LISTENED TO
1) Five For Fighting - 100 years
2) Fuel - Shimmer
3) Goo Goo Dolls - Slide

wow... alphabetical order... ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2428530/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2428530/ Fri, 14 May 2004 15:06:08 PDT i stole this from my friend diane... it kinda has it's own point... here's hoping u take the time to fill it out for me...


Who are you?

Are we friends?

When and how did we meet?

How have I affected you?

What do you think of me?

What's the fondest memory you have of me?

How long do you think we will be friends?

Do you love me?

Do you have a crush on me?

Would you kiss me?

Would you hug me?

Physically, what stands out?

Emotionally, what stands out?

Do you wish I was cooler?

On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?

Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

Am I lovable?

How long have you known me?

Describe me in one word.

What was your first impression?

Do you still think that way about me now?

What do you think my weakness is?

Do you think I'll get married?

What makes me happy?

What makes me sad?

What reminds you of me?

If you could give me anything what would it be?

How well do you know me?

When's the last time you saw me?

Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

Do you think I could kill someone?

Are you going to put this on your deviant journal
and see what I say about you? ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2393951/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2393951/ Sun, 09 May 2004 17:29:42 PDT
"all the lies in me
all that dies in me
how can I live without you?"
~Ill Nino ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2381784/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2381784/ Fri, 07 May 2004 20:34:58 PDT
"more like you are into what you like to do"

leave it to gemini to come up with a way to say it nicely hehe... i love u tho

so... my lack-of-lifeness is due to the fact that today... again... i worked with the pics for my poems most of the day... tho i hafta say they do look better... i have yet to find a pic to go with 'Step'... if anyone finds one... or maybe even gets bored and wants to draw one for me... i'd be very appreciative if u would email it to me

so yea... really emotional night tonight... kinda got really bored and started thinking and just wow... i have a LOT of shit unresolved in my life... my poem 'Again' might tell you a lil about it... i dunno... ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2374597/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2374597/ Thu, 06 May 2004 19:43:11 PDT
alright... now for some creepiness... a good friend of mine... just asked me out... a very good GIRL friend... um... help? ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2373422/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2373422/ Thu, 06 May 2004 16:57:07 PDT

so yea... sittin at home... drinking diet rasberry snapple... watching a REALLY old friends episode... hasta be like one of the first ones... hehe... monica just shoved joey off the couch... alright... gonna go back to my meaningless life... ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2371113/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2371113/ Thu, 06 May 2004 11:07:20 PDT
so yea... at least today i get out of here early... i hafta go to the dentist... NO!!! the phone rings... they want to steal me... ... i shall be back... ]]> ~deadlypoison695 http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2364776/ http://deadlypoison695.deviantart.com/journal/2364776/ Wed, 05 May 2004 10:56:18 PDT
[link]

that would be the link to my deadjournal if anyone feels like reading it...

arg... the people in this class scare me... it's like... beyond scare... i sit in my corner in the back of the room and can hardly keep from freaking out... and great... brand new cd player is being ghetto... curse the world... what does this world have against the concept of a working cd player?... AH... WAIT!... IT LIVES!!! so yea... now the cd player is working... i'm gonna go... and try to find meh friend angie and roam the halls aimlessly again...

~lauren ]]> ~deadlypoison695