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Peace and Love

§ - Patrick - §

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/25991543/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/25991543/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 18:11:32 PDT
I finally confronted my father honestly about my desires and intentions about BDSM, and he really did not take it well. It seemed to me like he was only listening to half of what I was saying and ignoring the explanation of why I said those things.

I, now, am really scared. I am afraid that he may refuse to let me see Mistress again. That would kill me because she is really the only one that I have to hold on to. She protects me and comforts me. I am also not doing anything wrong (at least I do not think so). I may be different from his "normal", but odd is not the same thing as wrong.

I do not know (or really even care for that point) if anyone reads this; I just needed to rant.



Peace and Love

§ - Patrick - §

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/25951264/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/25951264/ Tue, 14 Jul 2009 20:23:41 PDT

Peace and Love

§ - Patrick Ryan - §

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/25292388/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/25292388/ Sat, 13 Jun 2009 14:12:11 PDT
What I have been doing instead recently is taking some of my older poems and turning them into songs.


If I can get some people to consistently view my journal here on DA once per week, then I will start up my weekly blog again. (remember the one that I did for about 5 weeks...it was quite a while ago) If I restart that, then I will actually put some interesting things in it.



Peace and Love

Patrick

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Peace and Love

Patrick

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/22680568/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/22680568/ Mon, 19 Jan 2009 18:45:58 PST
Hopefully I will start posting within the next two weeks.

I give a thanks to all of you whom actually look at what I do here on DA.

Peace and Love
Patrick

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I have now given up...

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I am just sick of hiding who I really am, so I am starting to come out about myself.

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I will most likely keep my photos up here for another few weeks, but that will be all.

Goodbye.

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]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/20186868/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/20186868/ Wed, 27 Aug 2008 15:25:01 PDT
I went to a barbershop corn roast last night. It was all you can eat corn, hot dogs, and drinks. Everyone there sang barbershop somewhere. I had so much fun there. I even put a quartet together and sang a song and left it on my girlfriends cell phone. I also hit a high E (Two octaves above middle C)


I know that I have not been writing much recently, but I a thinking about starting again. I just want some input on weather I should be writing mostly poetry, short stories, or full stores. Please answer in a comment on this journal with your ideas. I would be greatly thankful for the input.





PROS AND CONS:

CON - I have been really tired lately, but every time I try to sleep, something wakes me up. (no liz, not you)

CON - I promised a secret gift for my girlfriend, and I have not been able to find the time to make it.

PRO - School is starting soon.





MY ANSWER THE THE PREVIOUS QUESTION:

If you were to go to a different planet that had life on it and you were allowed to bring three books and only three books; what would those three books be? (note: This planet has no books, and no-one on this planet has ever read a book. However they do know how to read.)

I would bring a book of science, religion, and a book of history.

The science book is needed because without science, there will not be any advances in technology.

The book on religion is needed because without a belief, it can be very hard to find a reason to live.

The history book is also needed because without knowing history, history will just repeat itself.

I got this question from the 1960's movie "The Time Machine". At the end of the movie, the main character travels forward in time again, but this time, three books from his bookshelf are missing.





MISC. QUESTION OF THE JOURNAL:
(Answer in a comment on this journal)

What is a feature of yourself that you truly like. This feature can be mental or physical. You can also only pick one thing. Explain why you picked that item.





QUOTE OF THE JOURNAL:

"What is today but yesterdays tomorrow?"

(From the character "Mr. Krabs" from the show Spongebob Squarepants)





Peace And Love

<3 - Patrick - <3

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/20086462/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/20086462/ Thu, 21 Aug 2008 21:37:32 PDT
Yay, I got 1000 page views!






PROS AND CONS

PRO - I got 1000 page views. (Just in case you have short term memory loss.)

PRO - My dad did not take my chainmaille supplies. I simply misplaced them. I have now found them.

CON - I think that I made a new enemy.

CON - I really want to talk to my love, but it is too late to call her.

CON - My nocturnal depression is acting up again.

PRO - I am really close to finishing my chainmaille bracer.

PRO - Liz and I have going strong for three months, and we are only getting stronger.

(I have another PRO that I will only tell in private conversation.)





MY ANSWER THE THE PREVIOUS QUESTION:

Would you rather be in the worst pain that a human can endure for one week, or would you rather have a sore throat for one year?

For me, I would rather have the one week of extreme pain. The reason why is because time hurts much more that amount. After the one week, you would be so thankful that you chose that option. Also, the worse that something is in you life, the better it makes the good things feel.






MISC. QUESTION OF THE JOURNAL:
(Answer in a comment on this journal)

If you were to go to a different planet that had life on it and you were allowed to bring three books and only three books; what would those three books be? (note: This planet has no books, and no-one on this planet has ever read a book. However they do know how to read.)

(Also, if you can tell me where I got this idea from, then I will... I will... be very surprised.)




QUOTE OF THE JOURNAL:

"Ouch! That's going to bleed when my heart beats."

Hubert J. Farnsworth (Professor Farnsworth) (From the TV show "Futurama")




Peace And Love

<3 - Patrick - <3

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PROS AND CONS

PRO - At the rate that I have been going, my chainmaille bracer will be finished by Saturday.

CON - I cannot do chainmaille for a while because my father took my pliers and rings from me. I do not know why at the moment, and he also did not warn me that he was going to do that.

CON - Chainmaille is my zen activity. (the activity that relaxes me) My father can stress me out easily, so I do chainmaille to relax myself, but now I cannot relax because he took my materials.

PRO - I posted a few more deviations.

PRO - I no longer owe my father money.

CON - I was making a gift (out of chainmaille) for Liz, and I am about 75 to 80 percent done with it, but now I cannot finish it because my father took my supplies.

CON - My relaxation / yoga / meditation books are not helping me at all.

PRO - I am starting to get some fans of my work on DA.







MY ANSWER THE THE PREVIOUS QUESTION:

If you were given one do-over, would you:

A - Use it for yourself
B - Give it to a friend or loved one
C - Give it to someone that you do not know
D - Sell it on eBay, or
E - Choose not to use it?

Explain why.


For me I would give it to someone who was either homeless or had quite a bad life. I do not care if I know them or not. If they know that they screwed up something and they had learned from it, then I think that they deserve the do-over. I have no real need for it, I would like it, but that would just be too selfish of me.







MISC. QUESTION OF THE JOURNAL:
(Answer in a comment on this journal)

Would you rather be in the worst pain that a human can endure for one week, or would you rather have a sore throat for one year?





Peace And Love

<3 - Patrick - <3

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/20011473/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/20011473/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 20:13:40 PDT
I am offloading things from my xanga site from 2 years ago, and I am going to gradually put the posts into my journals.



PROS/CONS

Pro - I made up with an old friend that I was afraid hated me.
Con - My laptop and my desktop are currently under repair by me.

(I have one more con, but I will not post it publicly because my father occationally looks at my DA. If you want to know what it is, then call me at (616) 350-0097, email me at sameasyours@sbcglobal.net , or just find a way to privately talk to me.)





RINGTONES THAT PEOPLE IN THE BIBLE HAD.
(Xanga Offload)

I wrote this when I was really board on a four hour plane flight alone.
I was 12 when I wrote this.


Moses: Boulavard of Broken Dreams - Green Day
This would be his ringtone because he walked for 40 years in the wilderness.

Lazerus: You Raise Me Up - Josh Groban
This would be his ringtone because Jesus raised him up from the grave.

Simeon: Not Ready to Die - Demon Hunter
This would be his ringtone because he could not die until he saw Jesus.

Builders of the Tower of Babal: Gibberish - Relient K
This would be their ringtone because God changed everyone's languages, so no one knew what anyone else was saying.

Jesus: Reach for the Sky - Social Distortion and Alive - Pearl Jam
Reach for the Sky would be his ringtone beacuse he knew that tomorrow may never come, and Alive would be his ringtone because after he died, he came back to life and he is still alive.

Shadrack, Meshack, and Abednego: Fireproof - Pillar
This would be their ringtone because when they were thrown in the fire, they were not burned.

Job: Breakdown - Relient K
This would be his ringtone because he had many problems, but he would not give up on God anyway.

David: The Lion Sleeps Tonight - The Tokens
This would be his ringtone because when he was thrown in the lions den God put the lions to sleep so he would not get eaten.

Soloman: The Widow - The Mars Volta
This would be his ringtone because he had 900 wives, and the song says "i will never sleep alone".





MISC. QUESTION OF THE JOURNAL
(Answer the question in a comment on this journal)

If you were given one do-over, would you:

A - Use it for yourself
B - Give it to a friend or loved one
C - Give it to someone that you do not know
D - Sell it on eBay, or
E - Choose not to use it?

Explain why.




Peace And Love

<3 - Patrick - <3

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/19962332/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/19962332/ Fri, 15 Aug 2008 00:22:09 PDT
So, I am going to try something new on DA. I am going to post Pro's and Con's of my current life at the bottom of each of my journals. Here it goes.


Pro's

1 - I am making a bracer out of chainmaille. I am currently 1800 rings into it, only 1600 more to go. I will post pictures when I am done.

2 - My girlfriend and I are doing great. I love her with all of my heart, and always will.

3 - My performance at the Whitecap's game went quite well.


Con's

1 - I am having a hard time trying to make my deadline for my chainmaille bracer. My deadline is September 1st.

2 - I am officially resigning from composing music. The reason why is because I put many hours into each of my songs, and all I ever got from it was about 10 to 15 fans. I may still post things on my main music site, but only some of my old unreleased songs, no new ones.

3 - I am still putting work into my DA even though I only have 5 to 10 fans.


Peace And Love

§ - Patrick - §

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/19629471/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/19629471/ Sun, 27 Jul 2008 19:35:51 PDT
Peace and Love

§ - Patrick - §

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/19271369/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/19271369/ Tue, 08 Jul 2008 10:32:40 PDT
Here is what I have been doing all summer:

I have been practicing for the Indiana Harmony Brigade. Here is how the brigade works. They send you 10 of the hardest pieces of barbershop (4 guys singing a cappella) music that they can find. After you get the music, you learn it by yourself. You get 4 months to learn them. Then you go down to the brigade rally. At the rally, they pick 3 other guys for you to sing with, and give you only 30 minutes to practice with your quartet before you preform.

It is fun.

Well, I might start posting again. It just depends on if people actually read what I post.

§ - Patrick - §

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18990795/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18990795/ Sun, 22 Jun 2008 21:05:34 PDT
`001. I like laser pointers
002. I don't drink water
003. I believe in world peace
`004. I sleep with a plushie (I will talk in private about this one)
005. I'm ambidextrous
006. People accept me how I am
007. I'm addicted to anime/manga
008. I speak 1337 better than english
009. I'm diatonic
010. I don't like mirrors
011. I play card games
`012. Puppy eyes melt my heart
`013. I have a job
014. I love chocolate
015. I can type faster than I speak
`016. My heart is easier to break than my bones
`017. I collect things
`018. I don't trust people
019. I have a lucky number
`020. I'm afraid of knives (unless I am holding them)
021. I start too many projects and never finish them
`022. I have more than one pet
023. I can't see anything without my glasses on
024. I play chess
`025. I have lied to protect other people
026. I am vegetarian
`027. I know the future (I will talk in private about this one)
`028. I prefer books to movies
029. I love to draw
030. I don't have brothers
031. My handwriting is unreadable
032. I believe in extraterrestrial life
`033. I don't use Google
034. I can't live without my cellphone
035. I always wear a cap
036. I have more diskettes than books
037. I've never seen a snow day
038. I'm not religious
`039. I can understand graffiti tags
040. I'm not afraid of death
041. I go to the bathroom more than 7 times a day
042. I believe the government is into a conspiracy
043. I love video games
044. I'm an activist for the defense of nature
`045. I'm a moody person
`046. I always carry a weapon with myself (I will talk in private about this one)
047. I prefer cold than hot
048. I look for known shapes in the clouds
049. My internet connection sucks
050. I rarely go to the cinema
051. I'm old
053. I have tattoos
054I don't know what people expect from me
055. I'm unbeatable in domino
056. I don't like IMs
057. Horror movies scare me
058. I used to eat non-toxic glue
`059. I feel rather than think
`060. I use Firefox and always tell everyone else to use
`061. I have hope
`062. I have a car
`063. I remember what I dream (I will talk in private about this one)
`064. I don't need to use Liquid Paper / Corrector Pen
065. I'm patriotic
066. I worship the devil
`067. I hate Windows
068. I like solving crossword puzzles
069. I have a social life
070. I always read the newspaper
`071. I checked the box to avoid seeing mature content in dA (I am not quite sure what this question is asking, but mature content is disabled from my account)
`072. My I.Q. is above 160
073. I like mexican food
074. I don't give a good impression
075. I get bored easily
`076. I'm passing through a period of changes (I will talk in private about this one)
077. I hate taking a bath
078. I can't go out without makeup
079. I don't know what RAM is
`080. I like to talk about politics
`081. I have a third eye (I will talk in private about this one)
`082. I'm uninteresting
`083. I have a blog (If this is considered a blog)
`084. I have to take pills
`085. I have lots of CDs
`086. I always have a dictionary at hand
087. I'm tired of this quiz
`088. I care about copyright protection
089. My computer is older than me
`090. I have a boyfriend/girlfriend
091. I see dead people
092. I drink tea
`093. I have a good memory
094. I've never been to a concert
095. I enter to my house through the window
096. When I was a child, I wanted to be an astronaut
`097. I don't watch TV
`098. I'm irresistible (Only to one person)
`099. I have invisible friends (I will talk in private about this one)
`100. I love deviantART

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18972870/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18972870/ Sat, 21 Jun 2008 20:08:44 PDT
P.S. I only feel like Llama because my computer is mad at me and will not let me change it.

P.P.S. I actually feel like Goat right now, not Llama. Just to let you know.

P.P.P.S. *giggle* It says P.P.

P.P.P.P.S. I am on caffeine right now. I don't know if you could tell.

P.P.P.P.P.S. Woah... That's a lot of P's

P.P.P.P.P.P.S. I need to get off so I can get some sleep.

P.P.P.P.P.P.P.S. I love you Liz! Good Night.

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18908643/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18908643/ Wed, 18 Jun 2008 09:50:19 PDT
Ill post more things soon.

§ - Patrick Ryan - §

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18901431/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18901431/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 21:25:45 PDT
§ - Patrick - §

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18737918/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18737918/ Sun, 08 Jun 2008 20:28:43 PDT
10 - Obsession
9 - Love
8 - Crush
7 - Close Friend
6 - Casual Friend
5 - Acquaintance
4 - Neutral
3 - Unfriendly
2 - Dislike
1 - Hatred

Read my new deviation. Hopefully, I will start posting more soon.

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18476489/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18476489/ Sat, 24 May 2008 09:22:26 PDT
I will try to post some poems soon, but I have been having such a hard time writing them. I keep getting half way through writing them, then I start day-dreaming. I love you, Liz!

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]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18371666/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18371666/ Sat, 17 May 2008 18:39:51 PDT Patrick -The only people that I will let know my last name already know it-

2) Male/Female?
#1 kinda gave it away, but I am male.

3) Were you named after anyone?
my grandma, Patricia

4) Does your name mean anything?
noble

5) Nickname(s)?
Lez, Lesbian in a guys body, patty

6) What do you think you look like?
I do not look at myself much, you deside.

7) Date of birth?
April 22nd

8) Place of birth and current location?
Born in Long Beach, CA
Currently in Rockford, MI

9) Nationality?
German and Irish

10) Astrology sign?
Don't know or care

11) Chinese astrology sign?
Don't know or care

12) Religion?
Prefer not to say

13) What's your favorite smell?
Not sure.

14) Political position?
Mostly conservative

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Coffee

16) Hair + Eye color?
Blond / Brown

17) Do you look like anyone famous?
I don't think so

18) What do you look like?
You decide

19) Any unusual talents?
Music Composition, Poetry...and a few more...I think

20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?
Right

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?
Straight, allthough I do act very feminine

22) What do you do for a living?
Nothing yet

23) What do you do for fun?
Write Music and poetry

24) Materials to work with?
Fruity Loops, Sony Vegas, and a pen and paper

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?
72 Channel soundboard

26) Have you met your grandparents?
Yes

27) Boyfriend/Girlfriend?
I dream of a girl.

28) Crush?
#27 kind of gave that away.

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?
None

30) Current worries?
Life in general

31) Favorite online guy/girl(s)?
Not telling you

34) Do you burn or tan?
Tan

35) Ever break a bone?
Yes, A lot of them

36) what is your favourite cereal?
Not sure

37) Person you cry with?
Liz

38) Any sisters?
Yes, 2

39) Any brothers?
no

40) Any pets?
4 cats, 2 dogs

41) An illness?
Too personal to post

42) A pager?
no

43) A personal phone line?
Yes

44) A cell phone?
Yes

45) A visible birthmark?
Yes

46) A pool or hot tub?
No

47) a car?
Yes

48) personality?
Caring and compassionate. My most important goal in life is to make my one friend as happy as possible. (you know who you are) However, I can kill someone if I had to (i.e. Someone hurting my friend).

49) driving?
I have done all of the work, I just need to take the test.

50) your clothing style?
Don't really have one

51) room?
Yes...lol.

52) what's missing?
A person in mine life, whom I may love with all of my heart, and give my soul to.

53) school?
What about it?

54) bed?
I got one.

55) relationship with your parents?
Don't even remind me...They want me dead.

56) do you believe in yourself?
not really

57) do you believe in love at first sight?
still debating that one

58) consider yourself a good listener?
Yes

59) have a future dream that you would like to share?
not on DA

60) get along with your parents?
Look at #55

61) save your e-mail conversations?
Yes, Every single one.

62) pray?
Not telling you

63) believe in reincarnation?
Not telling you

64) brush your teeth twice a day?
Usually only once per day

65) like to talk on the phone?
Yes

66) like to eat?
Not really

67) like to exercise?
No

68) like to watch sports?
No

69) sing in the car?
Yes

70) what is a dream that you have all the time?
Not telling on DA, If you want to know, call me.

71) dream in color?
Yes

72) do you have nightmares?
Yes, once again, If you want to know in detail, call me.

73) sleep with a stuffed animal?
Yes

74) what's right next to you?
Guitar Amp

75) what's on your favorite mug?
Don't have one

76) what's on your mouse pad?
MY MOUSE...DUH

77) your favorite flavor of gum?
Don't Know

78) your brand of deodorant?
Not sure

79) your dream honeymoon spot?
I'll let her decide

80) your dream husband/wife?
Not telling you

81)... ]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18277478/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18277478/ Sun, 11 May 2008 17:11:47 PDT
]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18184067/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/18184067/ Mon, 05 May 2008 16:25:40 PDT
I AM VERY SORRY FOR THIS.

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§ - Patrick - §

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/17787581/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/17787581/ Thu, 10 Apr 2008 21:43:00 PDT

For those of you who do not know me, I moved from California to Michigan a little over a year and a half ago. I had a girlfriend out there, she was shot and killed in front of me right before I moved. I go into detail about this subject in my deviation "Life Of The Loved". I was also very close with her best friend.

I just got a hold of Her best friend today. I have not talked to her since the killing. I have tried hard to talk to her, but she is hard to find. I was never able to tell her that I was moving, she never knew. I was so happy today when I finally was able to talk to her. The problem is that she has changed completely. We met at church, and we were both very strong Christians back then, when I talked to her, I found out that she has changed from a great Christian friend, to a Gothic suicidal nymphomaniac. I am fine with the Gothic and the suicidal part, because I have done both also. What really bothers me is that she is sex addicted. She used to dream about romance and love. Now, all she thinks about is finding guys that like bondage. When I saw her last she was the most innocent person that I had ever seen.

Because of what happened with her, I can only think about one thing, and that is this question. Is love without sex possible? This is what I dream about. I want to love someone, but I do not want sex. No-one believes me though because I am a guy, and the stereotype of a guy is being a horn-dog. I wonder if my dream is possible. I do not fantasize about sex, I fantasize about a girl that I love falling asleep in my arms. I have always been happy that I am innocent and no-one else my age is. Now I just think that it is a sign of immaturity. I have always been more mature than everyone that I know, but maybe I am the most immature of them all.

I just really need to know if true love without sex is possible.

§ - Patrick - §

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/17771193/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/17771193/ Wed, 09 Apr 2008 20:44:25 PDT
For those of you who just recently started to look at my stuff, You caught me at a strange time in my life. My life has ALWAYS been depressing, until I got a girlfriend. I later realized that she was only using me for my money. Currently I have only two friends, but they are the greatest, and they have helped me out with this situation significantly. So, in the past two weeks I have gone from depressed, to in love, to suicidal, to angry, back to suicidal, and now I am starting to feel better because of my friends. My emotions have been going crazy recently, so I am sorry if that affected my DA in any way. I will be back to posting real deviations now. So, sorry about the lack of stuff recently.

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/17739066/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/17739066/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 20:32:37 PDT


Standing cold and scared on top of the hill,
There came one moment, when I lost my will.
I prayed for mercy, please lord take me away.
Oh give me sunshine where I only see grey.
My past has a hold on me, it can't be denied,
And the changes don't come easily.

I've been lonely, I've been cheated,
I've been misunderstood
I've been washed up, I've been put down,
And told I'm no good
But with you I belong,
Cause you help me be strong,
There's a change in my life,
Since you came along.

Now I don't mind working so hard every day.
And I don't pay no mind to what people say.
'Cause after all the pain I've been through
Lord knows I'd give up everything
Just to love only you
All my life I'd held my head bent in shame,
But now I've found you, and with you
I'll remain.

A man gets crazy when his life is all wrong,
And a heart gets weary when it doesn't belong.
When the road gets rocky
You've got to keep on.
Let the new light come shining on through.

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/17705919/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/17705919/ Sat, 05 Apr 2008 20:58:43 PDT
I understand that it is almost completely useless to post on DA anymore. The reason is that I have been a member on DA for 8 months not, and only 3 people have ever seen any of the things that I have posted, and only 1 of them actually cared about them.

I will continue to post for at least a little while longer

Here is the song.

§ - Patrick - §





Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll have woke up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"isn't something missing? "

You won't cry for my absence, I know
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...







Please, please forgive me, - this is what I have been saying ever since I broke-up. I have been saying sorry, because I just know that I did something wrong for her to break up with me.

But I won't be home again. - Home means me as a person. Ever since the brake-up, My life has been hell, and I can not promise that I well ever be fine or "home" again.

Maybe someday you'll have woke up, And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one: "isn't something missing?" - This is what I hope happens to Her so much. I hope that she feels like something is missing from her life since she broke up with me, because She meant everything to me, I hope that I meant at least something to her.


You won't cry for my absence, I know. You forgot me long ago. - I know that she does not cry about me not being with her anymore, I already did an entire journal entry on that alone. I know that it meant nothing to her because she did not have to get over the break-up, she was over it before it even ended. She just tells me that it was an everyday relationship. It was not an everyday relationship! She meant EVERYTHING to me. I spent every cent on money I had on her, and also every second of time I had on her.

Am I that unimportant...? Am I so insignificant...? - Did I really mean that little to her that she did not even feel bad for breaking up with me. She was not depressed for a second. She told me that this is just life, and it happens all of the time. That may be true for her, but not for me. I thought that I meant at least something to her.

Isn't something missing? - I already explained this line.

Isn't someone missing me? - I have been asking this question quite a lot recently. I wonder if anyone cares for me. Ever since the break-up, my closest of friends just ignored me. They were never my friends.

Even though I'd be sacrificed, - This is telling my ex that she broke up with me without caring even though she knew that I would be sacrificed. The word sacrificed here means my health satus. This relationship has sacrificed me. That means that because of her, I am now suicidal. I have tried to kill myself because of her.

You won't try for me, not now. - Even though she knew that breaking up with me would kill me, she did not even try for me. She did not even try the relationship out. She did not even give me a chance to fix whatever it was that I was doing wrong, if I was doing something wrong.

Though I'd die to know you love me, - I am almost completely sure that she only went out with me for money. She used me. I would do anything, even die, just to know that there was at least some time in the relationship that she cared for me for me, not the money.

I'm all alone. - No matter how hard I tried to do everything that I could for her, I am just alone.

Isn't someone missing me? - I already explained this line.

And if I bleed, I'll bleed, - This is explaining that because of the break-up, I have been cutting my wrists, making them bleed.

Knowing you don't care. - I know that after all that I did for her, she does not care for me.

And if I sleep just to dream of you, And wake without you there, - Even though we broke-up,... ]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/17694773/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/17694773/ Sat, 05 Apr 2008 07:13:03 PDT The lights are on in all the houses. But there's nobody on the streets.
Are there people inside? I peek in a window to find out.
There are people. But they are with them.
I look in other houses. These people are with them, too.
This city is just like all the rest.
Being with them is fun. More fun than being with people.
Nobody comes outside anymore. There are no people in this city.
I will leave this city and go to another one.
I hope that I will meet someone. Someone just for me.
But if that special someone falls in love with me...
I will have to leave that someone.
Even so, I want to meet that special someone.
This is what I think as I leave the city with no people.

Just as I feared...there's no one here either.
Everyone is inside with them.
Being with them is like living a beautiful dream.
A beautiful dream that no one wants to wake up from.
They will grant your deepest wishes.
They will do whatever you ask. They will be whatever you want.
They can do things that you cannot.
But...there is one thing...they cannot do.
They can never become people.
They might look like people, but they are only substitutes.
I know this very well because I am one of them.
Today I look for someone just for me.
Someone who will love me even if I can't fulfill their wishes.
Someone who has love for me alone.
But...
There is another me.
The other me asks..."Does such a person exist?"
I need...someone whose love for me is true.
I want...someone who loves me without asking anything in exchange.
I hope...unless that someone loves me for being me...
...they're not someone just for me.
Is this so?
"It is."
This someone exists?
"She does."
If so...then where?
My someone is nearby, I think. Perhaps I already know her.
But..."
...what if that person does not love you back?
What if that person likes someone...other than you?
People aren't like them. You can't erase their feelings.
People aren't easy to change.
I know.
But people do change. Their feelings are dynamic.
Feelings of love are more resistant than others.
"What if she never loves you?"
The I'll have to decide.
Decide...and then do what must be done.
Me and the other me.

They...can do anything.
They are super-people made by people.
They can be prettier than the real thing.
They can be smarter than the real thing.
They can be whatever people want them to be.
Whatever people can dream of.
When the people saw their creation, they thought that their dreams had come true.
But then...people forgot their dreams.
And in time, they invited people to share a new dream...
...a dream they can't wake up from.
But...
Is that the dream that people want? Is that what happiness is?
They...were created to make people happy.
But...are people truly happy being with them?
Is this city with no people truly happy?
I don't know. Because...
Happiness depends on the individual.
All people are different. No two are the same.
What makes one person happy...might make another sad.
People's souls come in all shapes and sizes.
And as time goes on and a person grows, their soul can change.
Their hopes and dreams can change.
That's why...there isn't just one type of happiness.
Then...
...there must be a way that I can be happy, too?
That is what we all want, isn't it?
To find the person just for you, to find your own happiness...
...that would be wonderful, wouldn't it?

One day I went to a new city.
They are in this city, too.
There is no place without them anymore.
The people are with them.
There are as many of them as there are people.
But...
There is only one person just for me...
...and I still have not found her.
You are a person, aren't you?
What was that? I should do what with my hand?
Hold it out?
Where are you taking me?
Is this your house? Why did you bring me here?
Are you...
Are you...
...the person just for me?
You might be...but...
Perhaps this person only brought me here...
...because I am one of them.
Maybe she's just like everyone else. Maybe she just wants me to grant her wishes.
I'm not like the rest of them. There is one wish I cannot grant.
For if I were to grant that wish, I would...
...have to say goodbye forever to the someone just for me.

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/17639770/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/17639770/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 18:18:14 PDT You really understand.
You've felt the way I feel.
Well sugar, let me say I don't think
You even have a clue of how
You've blown my life apart.
Honey, you got no idea.
Don't tell me you do.

Don't tell me that you cry in you sleep each night.
Don't say you spend each hour wondering what wasn't right.
Do you stare into the mirror thinking what
is it you should change?
Do you wake up every morning, reaching over to find
You ain't there, and you ain't coming back?
You cannot know how this feels.
Don't tell me you do

And you thought this phone call could
fix things - could wipe away the
guilt you feel. You ask too much.
When you said forever, I guess the
forever that you meant must be much
shorter than I planned.

Don't tell me that you cry in you sleep each night.
Don't say you spend each hour wondering what wasn't right.
Do you stare into the mirror thinking what
is it you should change?
Do you lose yourself in conversation
looking ahead,
then look up, and there ain't nobody there?

You can ask me to say I love you.
I do, and that won't change.
But please don't ask me to say every-
thing's okay, cause it ain't. It just ain't.

Don't tell me that you cry in you sleep each night.
Don't say you spend each hour wonderin what wasn't right.
Do oyou find yourself alone in all the places we used to share?
Do you wake up every mornin, reachin over to find
You ain't there, and you ain't comin back?

You cannot know how this feels.
Don't tell me you do

]]> ~degrassirocz http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/17605596/ http://degrassirocz.deviantart.com/journal/17605596/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 12:33:22 PDT inhaling thrills through $20 bills and the
tumblers are drained and then flooded again and again"

I cannot help but give up, every female that I have ever been close to has disappeared. I was stupid enough to go for a final try - Yet all I did was fall harder. I wish that karma was real, for I have worked to my near death for just one simple thing. All I want is to have someone who can put her arm around me to keep the tears from falling. I need no sex, no kissing - All I want is to be in someone's arms. It is no use, the harder I try the further I get. Goodnight my love - although it is only one sided - It will never take away from what it means to me.

§ - Patrick Ryan - §

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