deviantART: by:delira http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:delira&section=today deviantART RSS for by:delira en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 22 Dec 2009 03:59:19 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png obsession http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/28464033/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/28464033/ Fri, 20 Nov 2009 07:18:12 PST Commissions | Prints | Personal Projects | F.A.Q.



Sometimes things you like or dislike turns into obsession.
Probably everybody knows that to get rid of an obsession you have to get another one, though what you do if it doesn't work removing the old obsession?

]]> ~delira new skin http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/28287455/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/28287455/ Wed, 11 Nov 2009 08:21:01 PST Commissions | Prints | Personal Projects | F.A.Q.



I finally took up some time to set up some canvases, I just hope I'll get the time and will to start up something with oil colors soon, or at least some water colors since I've neglected working traditionally for a long time now.
The sad thing is that I don't think I will be able to start up anything until my birthday in December and I just fear the year will pass without me doing a traditional painting.
Other things around go really slowly.

I wasted some hours to make my new journal skin and I'm very happy with it.
I'm getting back to work ;)

]]> ~delira books http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/27993473/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/27993473/ Tue, 27 Oct 2009 11:30:40 PDT
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Good things still happen and I've been lucky enough to get my hands on couple of old art albums and art books. Over 20 albums and 30 books and I'm amazed I've been able to stuff them into my library, I wasn't sure they were to fit in. It took 2-3 days to dry all, yes, they were out in the rain before I came and save them ^^
These are really great books, would have been a shame to get lost.

]]> ~delira Not bad http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/27882781/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/27882781/ Wed, 21 Oct 2009 03:04:09 PDT
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I've been drawing some speed paintings lately, for exercise and I am thinking to upload some of them soon (not sure yet about that). I want to develop a dynamism that I lack in my works and I think working on speedies will help

Other things...
I'm freezing again :snowing:, though I like winter, it has it's own good things.

I'm watching and re-watching some of Patrick Swayze movies, when I found out last month that he died I was quite sad. I decided to start with the old movies first.

I also had good news recently, my best friend returned from Italy

]]> ~delira Secrets... http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/27551531/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/27551531/ Sat, 03 Oct 2009 04:17:56 PDT Commissions :bulletblack: F.A.Q. :bulletblack: Prints :bulletblack: Personal Projects :bulletblack: Myspace :bulletblack:
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Secrets are a mystery that attracts people.
Everyone has secrets and everyone was at least once hurt, more or less, for revealing one secret.
Secrets can give you power or make you powerless and for sure secrets are a big part of our existence.
All the hidden things about ourselves that we keep away from others become our secrets.
There are these things that we wouldn't want others to know, mostly because of fear that they will use them against us or sometimes for fear that they might laugh at us. Of course these are personal secrets, but sometimes when someone entrusts us with their secrets it means they really trust us.
Can you keep their secret? or once you found out something you need to spill it out to the first person you encounter?
Most of the people I know can hardly keep a secret.
I am trying to understand this need of sharing a secret.
Does releasing the secret make them feel relieved, do they take this secret as a burden? or they hope to gain some credit because they were the one who brought it up?
I am curious about your opinion about secrets so let me know.

]]> ~delira Moving forward http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/27403751/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/27403751/ Fri, 25 Sep 2009 04:10:37 PDT Website :bulletblack: Commissions :bulletblack: F.A.Q. :bulletblack: Prints :bulletblack: Personal Projects :bulletblack: Myspace :bulletblack:
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Every time I see some good tv series, take for example 'la femme nikita''s series, I experience a whole weird mood, sometimes it's sadness mixed up with excitement.
I was really into it, feeling it.
I didn't talk with anyone those days. It got in my system somehow and I couldn't sleep at night. It felt a bit like falling in love and the feeling was good, explored it could help me create some nice works.
I finished Nikita's series and I wasn't too happy about the end, though it was a logical nice end. It was the way things should be.

Now I'm trying to get back with another series, I guess I'm such a nerd.
It happened that I saw on tv some episode from "Blood Ties".
It's not incredibly well done, but it's OK. I mean I've seen worse, lol
It's one of those series with vampires and I think I'll play it when I work.
I liked Kyle Schmid, he does a nice vampire. I prefer vamps a bit more bad and darker, but I can tolerate nicer ones too, lol
The only great thing about 'blood ties' it's that the vampires only walk at night. yay!
I dislike those series when vamps walk on broad light. What happened with "the children/creatures of the night"?
Of course this series has some flaws, it's rushed somehow, the dialogues don't give you any moment to enter inside the atmosphere, but it's a way of moving forward.
- - -
My health has improved recently, though not working for a whole month wasn't too great.
So commissions are open, if you have anything you'd like me to draw, drop me a line.

]]> ~delira tv series "La Femme Nikita" http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/27353846/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/27353846/ Tue, 22 Sep 2009 09:30:01 PDT Website :bulletblack: Commissions :bulletblack: F.A.Q. :bulletblack: Prints :bulletblack: Personal Projects :bulletblack: Myspace :bulletblack:
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I'm lately watching "La Femme Nikita" tv series.
It's a bit old (1997-2001) but I never expected to like it so much.

I love the plot, the show atmosphere and the characters complexity, not to mention that the suppressed attraction between the main characters, Nikita and Michael it's breathtaking and intense.
I think Peta Wilson was wonderful for Nikita's role, she's very beautiful, but her beauty isn't fragile. She's perfect.
Not to mention Roy Dupuis who plays Michael, he's acting is amazing. The character is cool incarnate, strong and icy cold he hides incredibly well his humanity. He doesn't talk too much but his look says all. He's perfect too!

I'm not yet sure which is my favorite episode, I guess there are more.

I had only 1 disappointment when season 3 started and most of the characters got a haircut. They looked terrible, lol, like some evil hairdresser caught them all, Nikita was the only one who avoided having her hair cut, by some evasive maneuver, I'm sure :p

I am as well amazed by the technology they use, considering the series is filmed in the late 90's
The soundtrack is great too, Massive Attack, Depeche Mode, Enigma, Morcheeba and many more. I found a list with all of it [link] so now I'm trying to find every song.

In one word this series has become one of my favorite. So if you like the "Secret Agent" theme, suspense, romance and espionage go for it.
If you seen it already, let me know what was your favorite episode, or character, I'd like to talk about it.

I think that old tv series are better developed that the new ones, with some exception of course. These days most of the series seem shallow.

About anything else, I'm going to submit new works around the end by the week, after I'll be done watching the series :D
So see you soon

P.S.
Made a stamp for it, yay!


]]> ~delira Around http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/26311693/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/26311693/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 04:50:31 PDT Website :bulletblack: Commissions :bulletblack: F.A.Q. :bulletblack: Prints :bulletblack: Personal Projects :bulletblack: Myspace :bulletblack:
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I'm not dead yet in case you wonder why I haven't been so active lately :)
My live is currently quite weird. There's too much to say and I wouldn't know where to start.
Things took an unexpected turn and something I never imagine to happen, happened.
The conclusion is that in a month or 2 I will be another person.
I decided, after a lot of thinking, to do this change because I didn't like anymore how things were.
I don't feel yet comfortable to talk details about this major change, but this decision was on my mind for like 1 year and half and I hope will come out good, without regrets.

I also have some health problems annoying as hell, as for submitting new work I am not sure yet when that will be.
I only did commercial works and felt unmotivated, this ending up in a pile of unfinished personal paintings and sketches.

]]> ~delira Almost done http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/25100050/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/25100050/ Wed, 03 Jun 2009 02:04:06 PDT Website :bulletblack: Commissions :bulletblack: F.A.Q. :bulletblack: Prints :bulletblack: Personal Projects :bulletblack: Myspace :bulletblack:
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2 more illustrations to finish my actual project. yay
I really hope I will have them done this week.

I am thinking to start a blog, but I never get enough time for it.

]]> ~delira Good news are always welcome http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/25027386/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/25027386/ Sat, 30 May 2009 05:31:26 PDT Website :bulletblack: Commissions :bulletblack: F.A.Q. :bulletblack: Prints :bulletblack: Personal Projects :bulletblack: Myspace :bulletblack:
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I've been amazed to find out that my good vs evil work made it in the 50 semifinalists for the Wacom’s Bring Your Vision To Life Contest

Thanks everyone for support and for all your fav's
It means a lot and I really appreciate it.
The fact that I could have a chance really brighten up my day.

]]> ~delira Coffee and Dexter http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/24786222/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/24786222/ Sat, 16 May 2009 11:52:58 PDT Website :bulletblack: Commissions :bulletblack: F.A.Q. :bulletblack: Prints :bulletblack: Personal Projects :bulletblack: Myspace :bulletblack:
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Alright, so I figured it was time to update something, since I've been away from most of my sites.
I finally used my oil colors again this week, it was after a small discussion with my friend. It's more an impulsive use of colors to relax from my illustration project.
The oil painting will be my second entry for the "good vs evil" contest, as you might have noticed I already got my first entry, even thought I doubt I have any chance.
I'll try to submit some more works soon, even thought I don't see any point in doing so.

A good news is that I'm not freezing anymore, Summer it's on the way, not my favorite, but at least it's warm.
Lately I gave up on caffeine and well.. I miss it! but tea is not bad either.
I have been watching Dexter, really interesting tv series. I love it.


]]> ~delira Time http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/23997715/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/23997715/ Wed, 01 Apr 2009 03:22:46 PDT Website :bulletblack: Commissions :bulletblack: F.A.Q. :bulletblack: Prints :bulletblack: Personal Projects :bulletblack: Myspace :bulletblack:
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Does anyone else have this feeling that time goes away faster then usual?

]]> ~delira Changes... http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/23622507/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/23622507/ Tue, 10 Mar 2009 07:48:44 PDT Website :bulletblack: Commissions :bulletblack: F.A.Q. :bulletblack: Prints :bulletblack: Personal Projects :bulletblack: Myspace :bulletblack:
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Changes can be good or can be bad, but what is sure is that some things has to stop so that others may begin.

There are some things I put an end too, yep, trash them away.
and I do not feel as bad as I thought I would.
Once things stop working the way you want you need to find the strength to move forward.
Put things in a box and bury it somewhere or throw them away.
I usually keep things but this week I threw them away, yay for me !

After the accident in December I promised myself that with this year starting I will be better, that meaning also cleaning up through feelings and other... stuff and organize myself more.
I ignored a lot of things but now I finally cleaned.
A good friend of mine helped me a lot through this. He's like a hidden weapon.

Anyway, a new thing is about to happen this week, I never was much into changes, but this might be a bright one.

Wip's:
The work after Angel OR Demon poll results is done, only some flaws left to adjust and I'll be able to submit it, thought it might take a while since currently I'm consumed by a composition.
I have some more ideas I'd like to work, but unfortunately I cannot these days.

Drakensang:
I started recently play this game. Reminds me a lot of Neverwinter Nights 1. and I'm stuck on some quest.
If anyone play it let me know please, maybe you can help me with it :p

Stamps are great :heart::
I Fav'ed a large amount of great stamps, check them [link] ^^

]]> ~delira Around.. http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/23465328/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/23465328/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 08:09:47 PST Website :bulletblack: Commissions :bulletblack: F.A.Q. :bulletblack: Prints :bulletblack: Personal Projects :bulletblack: Myspace :bulletblack:
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I'm currently working on more then 1 personal paintings, that when I get the time for it.
I've been a bit overloaded these days.
I also have a "slippy" mood these days, quite annoying because I cannot focus much. Soon will be 1 year since my grandfather died and it gets me very sad. I might start a work on this matter, depends of how bad the next days will be.

Other wip's:
I started the next work after Angel OR Demon poll results, eventually. I might have it ready soon.
Also my illustrations book goes on quite well and with a bit of luck and perseverance I will have it done by the end of April, as planned.

I got a new monitor, wide that is and I'm very happy with it, it's wonderful for work.
I also got a recurve bow and I love it .Though 2 arrows are ruined already. I didn't took yet any picture of it, but I want to take some, soon.

]]> ~delira And the winner is... http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/22934337/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/22934337/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 01:57:45 PST Website :bulletblack: Commissions :bulletblack: F.A.Q. :bulletblack: Prints :bulletblack: myspace :bulletblack:
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As you may know I recently had this poll going on for whole January.
I start it because first I was unable to decide about choosing one from the 2 characters on this painting Angel OR Demon

The one who won her heart is the Demon with 51 votes and he will be the one in the next couple painting.
The Angel lost her heart with 42 votes.

Thank you all of you who voted on the Angel OR Demon poll, I appreciate it a lot.

]]> ~delira Vote for either Angel or Demon http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/22857751/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/22857751/ Wed, 28 Jan 2009 05:58:17 PST Website :bulletblack: Commissions :bulletblack: F.A.Q. :bulletblack: Prints :bulletblack: myspace :bulletblack:
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Three more days and I will close the Angel OR Demon poll
Who do you want to win her heart ?
If you haven't voted yet do it now and help me with this dilemma. ;)
Vote for your favorite one, the one that will be in my next drawing.



With a bit of luck I could have it ready until Valentines day :)

]]> ~delira How to get motivated http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/22691052/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/22691052/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 10:29:34 PST Website :bulletblack: Commissions :bulletblack: F.A.Q. :bulletblack: Prints :bulletblack: myspace :bulletblack:
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I've been working a lot these days on some commissions and I'm exhausted.
I feel sleepy and tired all the time and after I'm done with work I cannot focus to do my personal drawings. I still have some 4 -5 free time hours but I have no motivation to work on my projects. I have a lot of things to do and I am unable to do it.

]]> ~delira ... the new year http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/22444359/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/22444359/ Tue, 06 Jan 2009 23:57:53 PST



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Hi everyone ^^


I hope you had a great holiday :) and especially I hope more good things will come with this new year for everyone.

My holidays have been great, as for the new year coming I already met new interesting people. I like meeting new people, even though I'm missing some of the old ones :invisible:. I'm working on an idea for a painting about this feeling... and I'm going to dedicate that work to everyone that I miss so much :lonely:


I got over the car accident in December, the bruises healed, though I still have bad & violent pictures haunting my imagination. One of the wishes for 2009 is definitely no more accidents.

As for my work, I have some plans, I'm trying to organize a schedule this week, even though I have never been able to keep up with strict ones.

I'm listening more of Rome these days, (again :D ) after a year that I found this band I still cannot get enough. My favorite songs are "Hope dies painless" and "Der brandtaucher", but today I'm more into "Querkraft" I'm getting a lot of inspiration of it and their shooting music helps me gain focus, now more then ever, since I slept only 2 hours. Changing the holiday schedule back to normal it's such a pain and I'm sure some will agree with me here.


Through the daily illustration I finish up a new painting I had in mind for more then 4-5 years, maybe more.
"Angel and Demon" or "Demon and Angel" (now isn't this a dilemma :rofl:).

It was a common idea, so I never give it too much attention. The idea got enhanced by some events that didn't made it so common and I eventually ended up starting it before my birthday in December. I wanted to add it, but looking at it I realized some flaw that I need to correct before submitting it. ;)

Anyway, I'm getting more coffee and start to draw. I'm way too sleepy, lol, but I'm trying to stay on with that schedule...



Commissions


:bulletred:Commissions are open so if you want me to draw anything for you send me a note here or an e-mail









]]> ~delira Personal Projects List http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/21212527/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/21212527/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 05:42:28 PDT Commissions | F.A.Q. | Prints | Personal Projects | Myspace



Here are my personal characters/projects. I hope you enjoy them as much as I do.

-"Madness and it's ways" Traditional Paintings-

-Fay Sinis-

-Ana Keat-

]]> ~delira Fay Sinis http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/21212519/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/21212519/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 05:41:05 PDT Fay Sinis - Character Description

Fay is a beautiful elf who becomes seriously disturbed after some tragic events.


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The beggining

Initially Fay Sinis came to life around 2003 - 2004, under some unusual circumstances.
I even used her in some RPG games for role-play, but the idea to write an illustration book only came at the beginning of 2007.

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Fast review on Fay's story:

She is a young elf female whose name Fay, was given by a human, Sharg Sinis, but her elven name is Mal’Elee (Golden Eye)
Her story begins when she reads in the elder’s book about a treasure so magical that will do a lot of good or damage if it’s essence will be used.
She decides to find this treasure, even if the specifications from the book are ambiguous and the path to it impossible to find.

The adventure starts with this and a series of events will follow to change her peaceful life.

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Fay Book 1 (This is the first book from three.)

Writing Progress:
- Romanian - 100%
- English – 80% %

Illustrations Progress:
- there will be around 2 - 5 illustration / chapter
- there are some paintings in my gallery, but I am not sure if I will use any of those, yet.

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:new: Update 29 September 2009
Currently working on the last graphics and I think I'll have it released in 2010.
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]]> ~delira Ana Keat http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/21212517/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/21212517/ Wed, 29 Oct 2008 05:40:47 PDT * IN PROGRESS *

Ana came to life in 2007 and I still have her story under development.
Check the drawings until then:

Ana Keat


Melt into me – Creation Scene


Ana comic page test


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]]> ~delira Commissions: Let me draw your imagination http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/20629534/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/20629534/ Tue, 23 Sep 2008 02:58:38 PDT Commissions are currently open



PRICES:
- One Character - Portrait - without background-
Digital Sketch: $7
Line drawing, cleaned up: $15
Lineart and digitally painted (includes color print): $25-$80


- One Character - Bust - without background-
Digital Sketch: $14
Line drawing, cleaned up: $20
Lineart and digitally painted (includes color print): $30-$90


- One Character - Full Pose - without background-
Digital Sketch: $20
Line drawing, cleaned up: $30
Lineart and digitally painted (includes color print): $50-$110

-Backgrounds-
:pointr: Simple background added to your character: $2-40
(If it’s a sketch the background price can come around $2-6 if it’s a digitally painted work the simple background may vary around 15-40)
:pointr: Complicated background added to your character $50-200
(Depending of its complexity, for example adding a room/ environment to the background of your character could be around $100-200

:pointr: Any additional characters will increase the price. Prices are negotiable, and may vary depending on subject, setting, and characters.

-The last phase-
If I accept the commission, you will receive the original pencil/color drawing by mail.
A scan of the drawing will be e-mailed to you for your approval before it is finished. If you commissioned a digitally painted work, you will receive the original line art plus web-decent and large print files through e-mail.

-PAYMENT-
All drawings must be prepaid.
I accept PayPal.
You can contact me through e-mail (delia.mihai@gmail.com if I accept the commission, all things can go from there.
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-Discounts.-
Discounts are given to 3 or more pieces ordered at the same time.
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-Please Note-
1) I retain the rights to all drawings unless prior arrangement is made for otherwise. Once payment is received it is final. I have the right to refuse any commission based on subject, lack of time, or other reasons.
2) I do not print and mail paper copies of the image.
3) I will not post the image online unless you ask or agreed to let me do so.


-Notes-
I) Color commissions:

1) Contact me via Deviantart notes or email.
2) Confirmation.
3) Sketch is shown to you for approval (watermark preview).
4) Full color finished (watermarked preview).
5) Payment in full.
6) Full quality Jpeg file emailed to you.

II) Pencil or pen sketch commissions:

1) Contact me via Deviantart notes or email.
2) Confirmation.
3) Watermarked small preview for your approval
4) Payment in full.
5) Full quality Jpeg file emailed to you.


:pointr: For other questions please comment below.

Thanks! ^^

]]> ~delira Înger si Demon (Angel and Demon) http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/19032439/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/19032439/ Sat, 10 Jan 2009 10:09:46 PST the Romanian original version and the translated English version
Enjoy :)
This poem was an inspiration for my work Angel OR Demon


ÎNGER şi DEMON
de Mihai Eminescu

Noaptea 'n Doma întristatã, prin lumini îngãlbenite
A fãcliilor de cearã, care ard lângã altare -
Pe când bolta 'n fundul Domei stã întunecoasã, mare
Nepãtrunsã de-ochii roşii de pe mucuri ostenite,

În biserica pustie, lânga arcul în pãrete
Genunchiatã stã pe trepte o copilã, ca un înger,
Pe-a altarului icoanã în de raze roşii frângeri
Palidã şi mohorâtã maica Domnului se vede.

O fãclie e înfiptã într-un stâlp de piatrã surã,
Lucii picãturi de smoalã la pamânt cad sfârâind
Şi cununi de flori uscate fâşâiesc amirosind,
Ş-a copilei rugãciune tainic un şoptit murmurã.

Cufundat în întuneric, lâng-o cruce mãrmuritã,
Într-o umbrã neagrã, deasã, ca un demon El vegheazã,
Coatele pe braţul crucii le destinde şi le-asazã,
Ochii cufundaţi în capu-i, fruntea tristã şi-ncreţitã.

Şi bãrbia lui s-apasã pe al pietrei umãr rece,
Pãrul sãu negru ca noaptea peste-al marmurei brat alb;
Abia candela cea tristã cu reflectul ei roş-alb
Blând o razã mai aruncã ce peste-a lui faţã trece.

Ea un înger, ce se roagã - El un demon, ce viseazã;
Ea o inimã de aur - El un suflet aposat;
El în umbra lui fatalã stã-ndãrãtnic rãzimat -
La picioarele Madonei tristã, sfântã Ea vegheazã.

Pe un mur înalt si rece de o marmurã curatã
Albã ca zapada iernei, lucie ca apa linã,
Se rasfrânge ca-n oglindã a copilei umbra plinã -
Umbra ei, ce ca si dânsa stã în rugã-ngenunchiatã.

Ce-ti lipseste oare tie, blond copil cu-a ta mãrire,
Cu de marmur-albã fata si cu mâinile de cearã,
Val - o negurã diafantã mestecatã-n stele, clarã
E privirea-ti inocentã sub a genelor umbrire -

Ce-ti lipseste sã fii înger? aripi lungi si constelate?
Dar ce vãd? Pe-a umbrei tale umeri vii ce se întinde?
Douã umbre de aripe ce se miscã tremurânde,
Douã aripe de umbrã catre ceruri ridicate.

O nu-i umbra ei aceea - este îngeru-i de pazã,
Lânga marmura cea alba vãd fiinta-i aeriana,
Peste viata-i inocenta viata lui cea sfânta plana,
Lânga dânsa el se roaga, lânga ea îngenuchiaza.

Dar de-i umbra ei aceea - atunci Ea un înger este,
Însa aripele-i albe lume-a le vedea nu poate;
Muri sfinti de-a omenirii rugaciuni îndelungate
Vad aripele-i diafane si de dânsele dau veste.

Te iubesc! Era sa strige demonul în a lui noapte,
Dara umbra-naripata a lui buze le înmoaie;
Nu spre-amor - spre-nchinaciune el genunchi-si încovoaie
Si asculta, dus din lume, a ei dulci si timizi soapte.

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Ea? -- O fiica e de rege blonda-n diadem de stele,
Trece-n lume fericita, înger, rege si femeie, --
El - rascoala în popoare a distrugerii scânteie
Si în inimi pustiite seamana gândiri rebele.

Desparititi de-a vietii valuri, între el si între dânsa -
Veacuri sunt de cugetare, o istorie, un popor;
Uneori - desi arate - se-ntâlnesc si ochii lor
Se privesc, par a se soarbe în dorinta lor aprinsa.

Ochii ei cei mari, albastri, de blândete dulci si moi,
Cu adânc patrund în ochii lui cei negri furtunosi,
Si pe fata lui cea slaba trece-usor un nour ros -
Se iubesc - si ce departe sunt deodata amândoi!

A venit un rege palid, si coroana sa antica,
Grea de glorii si putere, l-a ei poale-ar fi depus,
Pe-ale tronului covoare ea piciorul de-ar fi pus
Si în mâna-i însceptrata, mâna ei îngusta mica.

Dar nu - mute ramas-au buzele-i abia deschise,
Muta inima-i în pieptu-i, mâna ei trase-ndarat.
În a sufletului taina ea iubea. Clar si încet
Se ivea fata de demon feciorestilor ei vise.

Ea-l vedea miscând poporul cu idei reci, îndraznete.
Ce puternic e! gândi ea cu-amoroasa dulce spaima,
El prezentul ei rascoala cu-a gândirilor lui faima
Contra tot ce gramadira veacuri lungi si frunti marete.

El ades suit pe-o piatra cu turbare se 'nfasoara
În stindardul ros si fruntea-i aspra-adânca, încretita,
Parea ca o noapte neagra de furtune-acoperita,
Ochii fulgerau si vorba-i trezea furia vulgara.

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 ~delira "Madness and it's ways" Paintings http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/17210373/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/17210373/ Tue, 25 Nov 2008 08:03:26 PST
"Madness and it's ways" paintings are mostly oil on canvas and I did them for an exhibition I had in mind, but lately it's delayed, because I have other projects that demand more attention.

The idea of all these paintings is based on emotions and how the mind can distort the feelings and the daily events.

I thought it's good to dedicate a journal to this, since lately I've done more sketches and some more paintings will follow.


:: Dazed in madness ::
"When love is not madness, it is not love."



:: None of this is real ::



:: Reality ends up in a dream ::
"If you want to know someone's heart ask first for their dreams."



:: Selfcontrol ::



:: Fear of unknown ::
"Your silence gives consent."



:: Consumed by dreams ::
If nightmares could come reality.




:: The mad one will be free again ::




:: I dream of you ::



:bulletblack: Back to "Personal Projects List" Journal :bulletblack:
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I'll copy all the entries on 2008 in one. There ain't too many on 2008, I've been deleted some journal entried before getting to this archiving solution

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:bulletblack: Don't like January on Jan 26, 2008 :bulletblack:

I'm starting to feel more optimistic now that January it's almost done. It's a gray and difficult month and it makes me feel trapped.
I'm still having lots of work and lately I've been extremely lazy updating everything. I'm not sure when I will be able to add some of this work, but I'll try to add some of the paintings I'm doing when not working.
I haven't been able to do any progress on any of my personal projects, but I hope when spring comes I'll have more time.
I also added some new prints, hope you enjoy them ^_^

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:bulletblack: About things on Sep 23, 2008 :bulletblack:


Hello! Sorry it's been a while since I did an update!
I had some problems and matters to solve meanwhile and I wasn't able to be on line so much.
Things have been wild lately, too wild for my taste.
I think everything is alright for now, except for the cold.
As for other things I'm working on some personal illustrations and some traditional portraits, enjoying my tablet, learning new things and freezing to death...

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:bulletblack: Finally on Oct 29, 2008 :bulletblack:

Finally got my subscription and I’m way too happy about this.
I’ve also been happy about my work The end of yesterday that become some weeks ago DD. It’s the second daily deviation I got since here along with an older piece sketch disappointment

I’ve tried to answer to everyone who’ve been kind enough to support me in a way or other, every person who did that meant a lot to me and I’m sorry if by some chance I missed anyone.

Lately I am working on the Fay’s illustrations which go on slower then I had in mind.
I also have lots of other drawings in progress and I also intend of redrawing some of my oldest paintings, but obviously I cannot get through with any.

I went again this weekend at Bran castle and finally got into Rasnov keep and got lots of pictures, unfortunately I cannot find my cable to get the pics into PC. I guess I need to look harder, but you know how it’s with this things, when you need it you don’t find it and when you don’t need it, just pop’s out from nowhere, so I’ll wait a while to see if this “ poping ” out theory works :p

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:bulletblack: December on the way & accidents on Dec 15, 2008 :bulletblack:

It had to be a peaceful Sunday and yet the unexpected happened. My husband was driving while a blue big car bumped into us, yesterday, so violent that is a miracle we're still up and walking.
I got out amazed to see that I was in one piece and nothing was broken. I've been quite scared last night, but now I think I'm getting better.
This was the third car accident I was involved in the last 5 months.
I'm thinking to take out my oil colors and paint, since I'll stay inside, definitely.
It's a bit hard to get to draw some of my ideas since I have lots to work and with December on the way, the thought of not being able to draw as much as... ]]> ~delira F.A.Q http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/15878144/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/15878144/ Mon, 10 Dec 2007 14:20:17 PST Commissions | Prints | Personal Projects | F.A.Q.



If you have any other question then the ones that are already answered, please state it here. I would be happy to answer it

Q. How can I contact you?
A: Through my e-mail delia.mihai@gmail.com

Q: Can I use your work on my website?
A: Not all the artwork that I produce remain my copyright. Commissioned or copyrighted pieces cannot be used without the permission of the customer. For the paintings I own I would appreciate if you would send me an email to ask for permission. If it is for non-profit making, non-commercial purposes and is part of a gallery this will be ok, although I would ask you to credit me as the artist and add a link to my site. For the other images that are now copyright of the companies that commissioned them you will have to direct your inquiries to the company that owns the rights.

Q: Can I use your work on our album cover for free?
A: No, please do not use the art work on this site. My work is my life; I can't afford to give it away. If you want to use my art for anything, you have to pay for it.

Q: Can I have one of your pictures tattooed on?
A: Please do, if you would like one of my artworks permanently displayed on your body then be my guest! It would be cool if you can email me a photo of the result.

Q: Can you do some work for me for no money?
A: Afraid not, my time doesn't allow me to work for free.

Q: Can I link your website ?
A: Please do.

Q: Do you sell prints?
A: Yes I do. Please check here if you are interested.

Q: Did you always wanted to be an artist?
A: Yes. My parents weren't too happy as even when I was a small child I was continuously pursuing art.

Q. How did you learn to draw?
A: First I started to draw cartoons characters around 1993-1995. After all this I talked with a friend that was in her first year at Visual Art High school. She told me that 3 days on week they had 8 - 10 hrs drawing classes. I was fascinated thinking that I could spend so much time drawing and I decided that I wanted to do that.

Q: How do you start your digital drawings?
A: I have more methods for drawing the line art. The first one is by a sketch with a pen on A4 paper, or sketchbook paper. Then the finished line art is scanned into Photoshop. After this I save the file as a jpg and work all over with Painter. Sometimes I make the sketch directly in Painter or Photoshop. Is not any rule, it depends on my mood.

Q: How do you color your digital paintings?
A: I usually list my media in the description of my artwork, so you will be able to find that answer there first. All of my digital work is colored in Painter and Adobe Photoshop with a Wacom tablet.

Q: What is a tablet?
A: A tablet is a digital drawing board that is connected to the computer. You can check the Wacom's Web page for more information.

Q: How long it takes you to make a digital painting?
A: Depends on its complexity, the size and the resolution. Usually it takes me to like a few days to two weeks to complete a high resolution colored piece.

Q: Do you use Oils or Acrylics for your traditional paintings?
A: Oils works for me.

Q: Will you do a collaboration or art trade with me?
A: Depends of my time and the request.

Q: How much do you charge for your services?
A: If you have a serious request, then get in touch with me. The price depends on the work complexity.

Q: Do you have any tutorials?
A: Not yet.

Q: How can I become a freelance artist?
A: The first and most important thing is to actually try. There are a lot of people who would like to do this and many other things in life but don’t ever do them. The only way to fail for sure is not to try. Practice as much as you can and get some commissions, however small, as a way to learn. Do what the client asks you to and do it on time.

Q Can you teach me to improve my drawing skills?
A: I doubt that my advices could help you to much. In any case I can give you some tips; to improve your drawing skills you must practice every day, drawing the objects around or studying after artistic anatomy books or the best could be to try art classes; with a lot of work and focusing you will be able to draw up nice things.
Please don’t send me your art work through e-mail as I am not in position to critique your work. ~delira [2007] - [all journal entries in one] http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/11551368/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/11551368/ Wed, 24 Jan 2007 09:42:26 PST I wanted to clean up a bit and delete some of the old journals. But some are amusing and I totally forgot about them so
I'll copy all the entries on 2007 in one.


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:bulletblack: No Snow... on Jan 24, 2007 :bulletblack:

:bulletblue: This is the best January ever! It fells like spring.
I don't have any breaking news so... this is it :)

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:bulletblack: In love with the pic ! :p on Feb 10, 2007 :bulletblack:

10 Feb
I need a new ID, fast, soon…
Working on something, I hope will come out nice in the next few days.
Wish me luck. :)

I’m in love with this pic [link]

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:bulletblack: Busy on Mar 14, 2007 :bulletblack:

I have some works in progress, I feel better this days or at least I hope. I try to stay focused.
Spring is on it's way, this should cheer up things, isn't it?

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:bulletblack: : : Updates : : on Apr 10, 2007 :bulletblack:

I have lots of work these days, so if I’m not able to answer you may find these links helpful.

Website
Thanks everybody for the support, it means very much to me.
Personal projects ::
Fay’s adventures – illustration book. (not sure yet about the title)This is a personal project that I get to work on it when I have time.

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:bulletblack: August nonsense on Aug 23, 2007 :bulletblack:

Well was time to update the journal from April. Is not that I was lazy or didn't had time for an update is that I didn't knew what to say.
Anyway, thanks everybody for all the comments and fav's and watch, its really helpful.

So, let's see what can I say, I got a kitten and name it Tara after some book character that I've done the illustration for. I really liked this character, since she always got into trouble. Maybe I should post a pic or 2 with the kitten in my scarps gallery?

Also I had a nice vacancy and I visited Bran Castle and Peles Castle. I'll post pic's from there in my scarps gallery one of these days. Those places are incredible and I'm sure you'll love them too ;)

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:bulletblack: Pics from July trips :) on Aug 31, 2007 :bulletblack:

Hello everyone.
I finally added couple pictures I took on my trip last... ]]> ~delira [2006] - [all journal entries in one] http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/7730583/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/7730583/ Sat, 28 Jan 2006 10:07:17 PST I wanted to clean up a bit and delete some of the old journals. But some are amusing and I totally forgot about them. I cannot delete them so I'll copy all the entries on 2006 in one.


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:bulletblack: Still winter... on Jan 28, 2006 :bulletblack:

[thumb links]

Listening to: Mary Mclaughlin
Reading: (4 books started)
Watching: Farscape series

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:bulletblack: Is there spring, or what? on Apr 19, 2006 :bulletblack:

Hm, I should update this journal often… I even forgot about it… I’ve been very busy lately, not much else to say.

Watching: X-files series

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:bulletblack: June on Jun 3, 2006 :bulletblack:

Hello everyone.

I should work now, but I am in a real good mood and I had to browse a little around here. Damn, I love DA !
I like that here isn’t any discrimination and I found it great that all people can share something. I looked around for some other similar communities these days and I must say that there is no place like DA…it fells like home, hehe and you know how they say it, there is no place like home.

Anyway, if you noticed that I haven’t been more active lately is because I had a lot to work and I still have some, but I hope that at the end of the month I will be able to update my gallery.
I am also working at a personal site, but of course this is nothing new since I have it on my plans for 1-2 years already; but now is for good. I have the perfect idea; I only need time to complete it.

And there you shall see more, I have more, plans to make time and paint something for myself, because I have a lot on my mind.

I also made a bit of cleaning in my gallery, the summer cleaning… but I am not yet satisfied and I think I will put some other works in the Scraps section, but not today :)

Listening to: Movie Sountracks
Reading: Eoin Colfer - Artemis Fowl

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:bulletblack: July, travelling... on Jul 11, 2006 :bulletblack:

I’ve been traveled a lot the last week and I know is more to come.
Made some pictures, here and there, have a look yourself
These are made in 1 day trip at Herculane, a very nice place:

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And these are made around Coşoveni:

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Well, I’ll be on roads most of this month and next too, I’ll post some others pics soon ;)
Enjoy the summer!

Listening to: Raison D'etre
Reading: Pride and Prejudice

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:bulletblack: Autumn on the way on Sep 14, 2006 :bulletblack:

Hello all

Long time no see, I know, I’ve been away for some time and when I got back I had some work to do, but now I have some time.... ]]> ~delira FAQ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/6384662/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/6384662/ Thu, 01 Sep 2005 04:50:25 PDT Frequently Asked Questions

:bulletred: Please visit the F.A.Q. on my website. Thank you!

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:bulletblack: January :bulletblack:

I'll be very busy for the whole week and I am not very happy of how fast the vacancy passed, also I didn't do anything from what I propose myself to do in this free time I had. I am disapointed.
I'll leave city this week and I barely wait to come back. I'll try to think at all the things I want to do this year, because the first 6 months will be very hard; I'll had to study a lot.

So tell me what are you thinking or want to acomplish this year, just for curiosity.

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:bulletblack: February [monday] on Feb 7, 2005 :bulletblack:

February 03

Eh, January passed fast... to fast I may say...
Anyway I am very tired... and not in the mood for nothing... still i fell like drawing, but i barely keep my eyes open. Today had another preview at my painting diploma... the teacher rejected again my idea and he told me what I shall try more... I am not sad about this, because what he said to try is more easy. So after doing this, i will have time to work on some other projects and maybe some free time to play nwn :D
The work he reject it i will submit it soon... when I will take a picture to it.

So now better to go and fall down in bed.

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New Mission....................................................................|
Title of the mission: ';Preparing for hibernation'...................|
The mission goal: Acquired at least 12 hours of sleep.........|
Tools required for the mission: A warm bed, a soft blanket, a funny green pajama, Papi (the bear), silence, a glass with water and a shinny star on the ceiling.
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';Preparing for hibernation' starts in:
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Activate the hibernation stat.............................................|
Status: ZZzzZ
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February 04

later:
Mission completed successfully. Acquired almost 14 hrs of sleep.
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February 05

Today I remember that is my friend's birthday... I should call her, I haven't saw her for more then a year... but i don't know, yet...
I think I'm going to play all the weekend, because from Monday I will start a new painting.

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February 07(Monday)

Not in the mood for starting the new painting...

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:bulletblack: work in progress (february) on Feb 8, 2005 :bulletblack:

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:bulletblack: march on Mar 3, 2005 :bulletblack:

rearranging my deviant watch list (sorting ppl in groups... et... ]]> ~delira 100 things about me http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/1744115/ http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/1744115/ Sat, 31 Jan 2004 14:05:00 PST INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don't bold are false


01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms
04. I love sleeping
05. I have loads of books
06. I once slept in a toilet
07. I love playing video games
08. I adore marijuana
09. I watch porn movies
10. I watch them with my father
11. I like sharks
12. I love spiders, I think they're adorable, especially the ones with bright colours on their backs
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair
14. I like J. Bush
15. People are cool
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche
18. I have a lot to learn
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself.
20. I'm really really smart just with an insanely low attention span
21. I've never broken someone's bones to my knowledge
22. I have a secret
23. I hate snow
24. I drink only milk (not only... but i love it)
25. Punk rock rules
26. I hate Bill Gates! (who doesn't?)
27. I love Chinese food Eh. I'm asian.
28. I would hate to be famous
29. I am not a morning person
30. I wear glasses rarely. I'm a contacts man.
31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses
32. I have potential in what??
33. I'm pure Japanese
34. My legs are two different sizes i refuse to believe my legs are identical..
35. I have a twin
36. I wear a padded bra well i guess it's padded. something has to hold them up.
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing
38. I'm left-handed
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them
40. I don't like horror movies
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway
42. People hate me usually
43. I love pop music
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight
45. I hate parking fines
46. I know national anthem of my country by heart it still sucks though.
47. I know more than two languages
48. I spend too much time on the computer
49. I often want to throw out the computer in a window
50. I live on a ground floor
51. I don't like chocolate
52. I'd like to be more original
53. I've lied
54. Cocks are my favorite birds
55. I want to conquer the world
56. I wonder what happens when you die
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter
58. Eat your dog!
59. I love to exercise
60. I hate chemistry with a passion
61. I love to write
62. I like changes
63. I hate going to class
64. I am afraid to die
65. I hate dish washing
66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly
67. My nails are nine inch long
68. My favorite color is black
69. I like to sleep on the floor
70. I am hopeless at cooking
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little.
72. I should be doing somehting else rather than writing this
73. I am online a lot, but not in MSN
74. I hate government (not the german, but the american, the italian & the russian)
75. I don't have a girlfriend/boyfriend
76. I'm too nice for my own good.
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can
78. I don't trust newspapers (but i read them nevertheless)
79. I like debating
80. I live in a vagon what the hell is a vagon?
81. I clean my room once a month
82. I'm scared of american fast food
83. I have a third eye Most blokes do
84. I love Mozambique
85. I don't trust any religion
86. I used to play with barbies because all the other girls were doing it
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little.
88. I like listening to wind chimes
89. I'm very disorganized
90. My hair is long and straight
91. I earn a lot
92. I don't like spicy food
93. I keep a diary
94. I can't do cartwheels
95. I am very lazy
96. I'm sarcastic
97. I think my hair is annoying
98. I'm very sensitive
99. I love being "ab-normal"
100. My left eye is violet and my right eye is a light blue.

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All except the " 100 things about me on Feb 1, 2004 " That's just too... :rofl: It has to stand alone

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:bulletblack: Finaly I'm back :bulletblack:

It's been a while since I didn't checked my account on D.A.
Seems that were some problems with the cable company... and also I have a lot of works to hand over at the Academy, but with all this I didn't forget none of you, my friends.

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:bulletblack: A suggestion for me on Feb 1, 2004 :bulletblack:

I'm very irritated these days, I'm very nervous and indifferent.
I almost hate everyone, I don't have no mood for nothing.
I have no ideea what I want... and that is make me more angry in view of the other days that I was perfectly conscious about what I have to do in the close future... but now...
I want the winter to be over, I'm so seek of heavy clothes!!
My imagination is now to limit... I feel so empty, I am not borred...I don't have time for to be bored... Maybe I need somethig new...do you have any suggestion for me?

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:bulletblack: oil colours on Feb 9, 2004 :bulletblack:

It smells at oil colours in my room, the smell is deep and familiar...

These days I've draw almost without breathing...it's just weird...because my inspiration has no respect for me and it left me. It's not like I don't have ideeas...but as the way that an ideea come...that way it goes...! They are too many...too fast to expand them! I want to find a theme...an obsessive one...one that will not leave me untill it squeeze me out for all my energy...one that will eat my soul slowly...and painfull, but in the end will throw me on the flames of satisfaction...and I will finaly smile.
I'm very tired...and I have no time to rest though I sleep a lot I don't fell reposed.
Is coming to be a very hard week... I hope that it will pass fast!

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:bulletblack: Some time on Feb 16, 2004 :bulletblack:

Listening to: Raison D'etre
Reading: The Sacred and Profane Love Machine
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Now...the last week was very hard and exhausting, but this one... I think will be a litlle bit quiet, which is better considering how sad I feel...Finaly I will have some time for me...


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:bulletblack: Not so good...(after two days) on Feb 23, 2004 :bulletblack:

I feel every single muscle of my body...last night I was at a friend and for couple hours we play darts...the window was open so the cold just bash me down and now I'm good for nothing, laying in bed with fever...with a "big" iron head and with leaden eyes...I barely can move!...Today I've sleep for 14 hours...and I still fell tired and dizzy...
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After two days:

Well.. after hundredth of pills I fell much better, now I can stay on my legs...still I'm not yet healed...one or two more days and I'll be in perfect shape...
I want to thank you all for the time that you take to give me your kind words...that means a lot to me...many http://delira.deviantart.com/journal/713626/ Mon, 12 May 2003 06:58:11 PDT I wanted to clean up a bit and delete some of the old journals. But some are amusing and I totally forgot about them so
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:bulletblack: my first entry on May 12, 2003 :bulletblack:

An update at my goal...recently I found out that all my efforts to do something with my art is useless... I hate this place, this room, is too hot here.no more hope.whatever.

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:bulletblack: just nothing important on May 15, 2003 :bulletblack:

I must take a deep relax to review the new numbers of time because it's nothing strange here, everything is color or I have catch it in with my awkward senses...anyway passing through, I do not ask my self why I must be part of humanity...all I ever wanted is my color...so I turn back to my delusive reality, I turn back with no smile on my face.

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:bulletblack: time is passing faster than usual on Sep 20, 2003 :bulletblack:

time is passing faster than usual...

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:bulletblack: Why should I care?...part 1 & 2 on Sep 24, 2003 :bulletblack:

21-09-03

I just realize, again, that I don't care...
I already knew that, from the day that I receive that little notification..."we care"...I have nothing to say...and if there was something to say, who will listen...not even me!
I just realize...that I'm waiting to go in the grave and everything that I do is useless. So you see...here...it's nothing important to see, nothing important to do...maybe...to prepare your funeral in a way that people could not say nothing bad about them...so, they say..."The food was delicious...mrs. I don't know how was dressed in a improper way and when they take a look at you, at your ugly and smelling body they will leave as fast as they can...
All the hope that is remaining for me is that none of my friends will come to my funeral, still I hope that they will visit the grave(this sound quite funny)...but for what purpose? All the emotion and the satisfaction or the sadness, is useless?!whatever

23-09-03

I WANT FIRST OF ALL TO SEND A LOTS OF THANKS...to all that visit my gallery...I say that, here, because in this moment I'm in a big hurry and with all my regrets maybe I'll not be able to response to all now...I'll hope this will be soon... and I await to have my free time so see you all
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I've had today an exhibition with some other artists and it was a very good think...but I'm not yet in heaven
I should probably prepare my self for the new year at the academy of art...but I don't have the mood...I'm down, down with my mind
After I see so many photos, some of them just too good.. I felt a weird attraction of that...so I have try to do something with a picture.


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:bulletblack: an ordinary entry on Oct 16, 2003 :bulletblack:

well...
the time has become a bigger obsession...and so annoying these days that is getting me out of my mind!
I'm so sick of this ...blah
( I'll go floating in the void )

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:bulletblack: ....try to take over the world on Nov 22, 2003... ]]> ~delira