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I've signed up at Digital Photographer Philippines. While bumping into different forums, I've recently joined three different photography groups. One is for young photographers under the age of 25 called Young Photographers or YoPho, another for ladies only, Digital Pinay Photographers, and for Makati people called Makati Camera Club.

Well, I haven been that much active with each group but I'm trying to be, given the chances I get.

I'm still trying to fulfill my dreams, well, one-by-one. I can't seem to find the strength and courage to at least try to fulfill them. I got my courage to pursue photography with the help of my mom.

I wonder how I'm going to manage to fulfill these dreams...

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~dementedpencil http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/24253713/ http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/24253713/ Wed, 15 Apr 2009 09:24:07 PDT
I've already been accepted to one office-type job where I get minimum wage and blah blah blah. I just don't think I'll grow more as an animator with that job. I... know it's for experience and stuff but... gack.

If only some production house would've offered a better job (and compensation).

I hate 8-5's. Actually, I hate morning jobs. I don't wake up in the morning. Am I being too demanding?

Sigh.

I'm confused. Do I wait, or do I take it? If I take it, will I be successful in it? If not, where would I go?

Sigh. Sigh.

Oh well, a job's a job. It's for starters. At least I have another thing to add to my work experience, right? Right?

I guess all entry jobs get low salaries (unless you're a SUPER MEGA ULTRA ALPHA OMEGA genius and talent, which I'm not).

I still plan to take up photography both as a career and a hobby. I love to take pictures. Problem is, will I get the Nikon D60 or the Canon 450D? It'll be my first DSLR. Hmm... Decisions, decisions.

I'll get through this. I'll earn enough cash to save up for a training session at an Animation Company and where there for a while. After that, I'll move on... I wish.

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http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/23875772/ Tue, 24 Mar 2009 23:18:16 PDT
Sigh. With the skills I have now, who would or can give me a job? I'm not quite confident with my skills but I'm still willing to see where I can go.

I'm not happy, but I'm trying to forget about it. It's just pretty annoying, that's all.

I'm not feeling well. I can't breathe easily. Sigh.

I seriously need to get a job soon or I'll go nuts with boredom. I need a job. Please, help me? Anything along Graphic Design or Animation or Production would do.

I'm a fresh graduate. This is hard.

I got to... sigh.

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http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/23421507/ Thu, 26 Feb 2009 18:22:38 PST
It's been a while since I've done something worthwhile - something I've done for myself and not for school so I need to tweak on some skills.

Finals are going to be over today! Last one - Women's Studies. Our prof said it's going to be an easy test so I'm pretty sure it's true. Finished the "final exam" on Professional Ethics slash Philosophy class yesterday and that's quite a load to accomplish.

Portfolio classes are finally done and I'm pretty sure I passed. Wee! Well, prof said everyone passed with a few exceptions (not me included).

We're just waiting for the presentation of our thesis due next week. I'm tired of tweaking my thesis since I've already done my part for the revisions. God, I had to change target audiences in one week so sue me if I can't do 6 months work in that time.

Relaxing mode are coming! I can't wait! Just a few (3 to be exact) weeks and we'll finally be able to escape from hell... err... school! Yahoo!

Eh, chapter "Work" will have to wait until then. Jobs, anyone?

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~dementedpencil http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/22929108/ http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/22929108/ Sat, 31 Jan 2009 18:48:54 PST
So as you all can guess, I'm in a bit of depression right now. So if you're looking for inspiration, you can't find it here.

I can't work, but I can't stop working either. It's a cycle.

How did I ever get myself into this mundane ritual of working and sleeping and working? Where did all my hopes and dreams go?

I miss MY life where I choose MY OWN paths and MY OWN decisions.

Sigh... Thank you for the 30k+ views. It lessens my sadness a bit.

When I get over this, I'll definitely spend my time watching films... ALL DAY.

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~dementedpencil http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/22628462/ http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/22628462/ Sat, 17 Jan 2009 07:34:01 PST
My thesis is supposedly due on the 30th but I'm aiming to finalize it on the 23rd. The first day for defense is on the 24th but I don't belong to that group. I don't find myself lucky 'cause I know I just won't cut out for the expectations that they'll be giving.

I need some sort of inspirational boom. Seriously. I can't do much if I'm not inspired or if I don't really enjoy what I'm doing. It's pretty sh*tty not to be able to do something important at a short span of time. I haven't even started on my paper yet and I've got a long way to go.

I hate this. I really really hate this. Why am I like this at a time like this?!

Ack... Someone help me. Or rather, could you do my thesis for me? I'll give you lots and lots of hugs and kisses!

Inspire me. Seriously. Please.

St. Jude, Hope for the Hopeless, Pray for me.

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~dementedpencil http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/22276080/ http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/22276080/ Tue, 30 Dec 2008 09:08:52 PST

1. Have A Job - I actually don't need this as a resolution but a devoted promise to myself.


2. Stop b*tch*ing with people of Authority - I really need to stop this habit of mine. It leads me to too much trouble!


3. Earn not less than Php 100,000 - I have no idea how I'll get the money. I need it by the end of the year.


4. Create a MASTERPIECE - I don't care what form it'll be in - Tradition or Digital. Animation or Static. Just a "thing" for myself.


5. Minimize the "PETIX" thing (Relaxing) - I might be getting to relaxed so I might need to push myself to work harder.


6. Practice Drawing more - I need to keep on practicing. I want to be a GREAT animator someday and work for Disney or Pixar, so I need to practice a LOT!

I might add more things to this list but maybe some other time.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE! STAY SAFE!

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http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/22027032/ Wed, 17 Dec 2008 05:25:55 PST
It's party time!

I still haven't done my thesis and I have a portfolio to do. I'm still not in the mood to do either and I'll be dead by next year, I'm sure of it.

And well, another hell education system flop has entered my territory! Oh dear, did I just hear my heartbeat get faster?!

I hope everyone's going to get a GREAT Christmas season this year. Don't fret about the supposedly happy dinner that won't come since we all can't cook to save our lives, but let's just think that this time, we'll just eat out instead!

Happy Holidays, everyone!

PS: I'm suspecting a New Year Resolution post after this one...

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]]> ~dementedpencil http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/20388551/ http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/20388551/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 09:41:31 PDT
Stress (n.) - The embodiment of all complicated and unsolved issues a person may have at life, work, etc. related to that person. May be deadly.

Well, these are my personal definitions of these things. And honestly, I am pretty stressed. I'm been lacking sleep lately and I haven't done anything good in a while. My projects are all pathetic and I haven't been inspired ever since. My thesis is due in December and I haven't gotten any improvement lately.

I need a real break but I guess we won't be having one. We'll be having a synthesis class in our semester break.

I am very tired, very sleep and very much in need of a descent and long sleep.

I'll probably be on indefinite hiatus for a while. Pray for me.

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http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/19909620/ Tue, 12 Aug 2008 04:28:09 PDT
Salamat po!

Imagine, some people do visit my deviant account? I really though all my artworks are pathetic. Well, thanks to those who visit my account. I really appreciate it. I just didn't imagine that more than 2,000 do visit this account.

Thank you!

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]]> ~dementedpencil http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/18519820/ http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/18519820/ Mon, 26 May 2008 23:38:43 PDT
There is nothingness still, in this void in which we exist in. There is but an absolution of the vague mysteries that one still cannot comprehend. What are but humans to exist in a monstrous world full of hate and of injustice?

I dare not to speak for my words are swords that strike itself upon myself. I cannot see for my sight is blurred with lies and vagueness that the almighty ones cannot see for they themselves are but humans to exist in such a pathetic state of mind.

I long for another day to come. I pray the holy ones to come and gather the pieces I have left on the floor back home. May they be able to return each bit to me to make my being a little closer to completion.

There is nothing more to say but to say nothing. Confusion strikes my heart when words escape my inner thoughts. There is nothingness in the being I have chosen to become. What more is there but to exist as one of the monsters I have sworn to kill?

I believe they call this state, "Fate". But I do not believe in such... or should I?

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~dementedpencil http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/17326262/ http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/17326262/ Fri, 14 Mar 2008 05:30:09 PDT
RULES
1. Post these rules.
2. Write 8 random facts about yourself.
3. Post these things in a Journal/Blog.
4. In the end, tag and name 8 more people.
5. Go to their DA pages and comment saying that they are tagged

Random facts about me:

1. I haven't started studying for my finals yet

2. I'm going to eat a LARGE crab soon

3. I can't seem to open my email (corporate)

4. I saw a few "important" emails in that account... T_T

5. I still don't have any OJT places yet...

6. I'm in love with someone with D-L-M (research on it)

7. I just got home

8. I want to effin' stop studying... ASAP

I tag

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I was screaming my head off a while ago, celebrating. It was my first time to sing in a crowd I didn't know much about.

It was also the first time I went drinking in front of my parents. That was hellah fun.

This is it! It's my time to change things and puff up a bit. Let's go girly!

I love you, all! Let's change for the better, shall we?
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]]> ~dementedpencil http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/15368216/ http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/15368216/ Sun, 04 Nov 2007 19:58:54 PST
Had lots of photos to update my deviantart with. I hope you enjoy looking at them as I enjoy taking them.

School will start soon and I don't know if I'm supposed to be happy about it or not.

I guess I just had to maximize the time I had for vacation.

Had two highlights:
1) My cat just scratched the hell out of me and there's a tendency that he'll go away soon...
2) We went to Pangasinan to enjoy the sceneries and visit the beach there. Had loads of fun.

Hehehe! I'll probably update my deviantart some time later on... I just hope I find the time.
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http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/14881016/ Tue, 02 Oct 2007 06:12:48 PDT
Where have all my creative juices gone to?




I wanna buy a new camera soon too...

With a new tablet...

But both can wait though.




I just need them for added creative juices.





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]]> ~dementedpencil http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/14669693/ http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/14669693/ Mon, 17 Sep 2007 06:39:32 PDT
I need some time to stop thinking and just be.



I'm really... quite tired.



Oh, by the way, my DA's quite reddish right now, isn't it?

Too much rose?

^_^


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]]> ~dementedpencil http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/14551990/ http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/14551990/ Sat, 08 Sep 2007 21:03:06 PDT
I'm getting kinda lazy just thinking about it.


*yawn*


I think I'm going to sleep later...

... or do some homework or something...



*yawn*


I'll update my DA later...




GROUPS:


]]> ~dementedpencil http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/14449834/ http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/14449834/ Sun, 02 Sep 2007 02:00:44 PDT said one time...

"Bakit hindi ako binabastos sa DA?"

Translation (in my perspective):

"Why doesn't anyone get rude with me in DA?"

Well I guess it's all in the perspective of the person looking at another's gallery, isn't it?

And as I look into my gallery...

I can't help but realize that it's rather chaotic.

I have no sense of... style.

None of my one - to be exact.




I can't help but criticize my own gallery.

Where's the "thing" that bonds them all together?





Sigh...

But I guess that's what I get for being a newbie in these things...





Art hasn't been my strong point ever since I can remember...





But who's asking?





KUDOS TO THESE PEOPLE:


]]> ~dementedpencil http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/13402175/ http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/13402175/ Tue, 19 Jun 2007 03:51:36 PDT I knew it. I just knew it.

Fellow deviants, please inspire me...

To learn how you do your amazing photomanipulations...

I need to learn before 3 months end.









Please? Thanks.











I promise to post my works in class too.












Much love to these groups:



Rotteneggs on Toast
Rainy days won't always bring you down

]]> ~dementedpencil http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/13374055/ http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/13374055/ Sat, 16 Jun 2007 21:30:42 PDT
Another hell year has started. Good thing deviantart keeps me inspired.

Sigh.

Inspire me, give me something worth of my time.

I'm sure you would.











Much love to these groups:



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Rainy days won't always bring you down

]]> ~dementedpencil http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/13312558/ http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/13312558/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 06:05:55 PDT
Another year(?) of going on hiatus. Well, an indefinite time of being on hiatus - that is. I just hope we'll have another photography class where I could finally convince any one of my parents to buy me another camera.

Much love to these groups:



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I want a new camera! Should I get the Casio Exilim EX-Z70 or Sony Cybershot?



]]> ~dementedpencil http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/13058944/ http://dementedpencil.deviantart.com/journal/13058944/ Wed, 23 May 2007 04:36:17 PDT .<

There's no word to describe it.

Basically... this is it.

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