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]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/7406568/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/7406568/ Sat, 24 Dec 2005 19:03:43 PST ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/5274440/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/5274440/ Thu, 05 May 2005 12:36:33 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/5026903/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/5026903/ Thu, 07 Apr 2005 16:00:18 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4992898/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4992898/ Sun, 03 Apr 2005 22:20:28 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4792975/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4792975/ Sat, 12 Mar 2005 10:12:11 PST ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4702957/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4702957/ Tue, 01 Mar 2005 14:10:02 PST ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4697698/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4697698/ Mon, 28 Feb 2005 22:14:28 PST ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4670282/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4670282/ Fri, 25 Feb 2005 13:18:49 PST ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4660936/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4660936/ Thu, 24 Feb 2005 09:25:16 PST ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4039015/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4039015/ Fri, 10 Dec 2004 22:56:42 PST ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4031319/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/4031319/ Thu, 09 Dec 2004 22:26:05 PST ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3959925/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3959925/ Tue, 30 Nov 2004 20:53:25 PST ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3852210/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3852210/ Tue, 16 Nov 2004 18:24:58 PST ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3845632/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3845632/ Mon, 15 Nov 2004 22:03:09 PST i know he will be ok. we all get through our bad times but still sometimes we all need support when we are going through them. I love him so much and I hope that no matter what he will be safe and his troubles solved. God please help him and his family, who need your kindness and grace, to find them within eachother to better their relationship. There should never be so much anger within a family, we build upon what our closest ones give to us, and if hate is all, I pray for Bryan and how he is affected.

If you believe that God is there for us please pray for him and even if you dont please hope that he will be better. He and his family need support even from those he doesnt know. ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3824193/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3824193/ Sat, 13 Nov 2004 09:42:26 PST ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3789973/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3789973/ Mon, 08 Nov 2004 23:06:01 PST ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3761984/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3761984/ Fri, 05 Nov 2004 16:17:12 PST hauling me down this whole youve dug
hating my sins theyre bleeding within

i hurt for you a thousand times more
than ever you will, thats what this is for
my self under you two times the pain
i swear I will do it again and again
digging deeper killing the vein
weapons unleashed again and again
ill go before you with the guilt to bare
leaving you safe and hopeless in endless despair
the pain the want the need to bleed
when will it stop the guilty freed
this is the last chance the one you will get
breaking the habit
this is my last resort
not falling
toxicity burning
the gulity consuming
safe and sound you will always be
crashing at the bottom on top of me
crying for what youll never see
i hope you dont feel like me, so guilty. ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3473748/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3473748/ Wed, 29 Sep 2004 14:40:03 PDT
Leaving my class early o see her. They won’t miss me. Prancing towards where she waits, I can still hear the class saying their fake goodbyes. They wont miss me they only try to delay the instructor's lesson. She would wait in only one place, a small, dark corner where the lights rays barely reach out to, only feet away from flooding the gloom. As her corner slides into view I walk briskly along the hall's wall. I see her lying on the hard tile, facing in my direction, they way in which I've always come. I'm not concerned about the fact that she does not stir, she often seems tired. A small distance away I see her eyes open, unblinking. She is staring at me, around me, through me, I wonder if she is feeling empty today. Her eyes answer my question, for there is no glinting blue. As I step closer her expression is unchanging. What is that look? Serenity? Despair? I chose her emotion. Anyone would think she is dead, I only see it as the beginning of another depression. But as I draw closer, I feel a chill clawing up my spine. As my eyes get used to the contrast in light, I see there are two types of dark in that corner. The sort of dark which consumes her and that which covers her, spreading ever so slowly along the folds in her grey sweater. Is this a trick...No...The life is gone, I can feel death flowing slowly into my pores, the stench is unbelievable, not a stink, but a feeling of loss for time and in the back of my mind a hollow space, as if the room had never seen a human face in years, a feeling not easily forgotten. Collapsing next to her limp body I pull her head away from the dark and gently lift her fragile shoulders and motionless chest, easing her body into my arms. I see the darkness for what it is, but not what caused it, not a mark, not a wound, nothing. Hidden under the layers of clothing; they take the form of loneliness and despair. The flowing has stopped by now, all that is left is the seeping and spreading. I stare at her face; her emotion appears in my horror stricken eyes. Pity. Pity for those who must face the rest of their lives in this painful world. I suddenly realize she is crying...no that can’t be right, they are my own. My tears for a girl who's name I do not know; who's habit I never tried to stop, let alone confront; the girl who watched me everyday with solemn eyes, hoping I would take a minute out of my day to say something to her, even a "hello", as no one else ever did. Today was different, she didn’t stop waiting for me; she stopped living. Lonely as ever she'll never know, she was held in the arms of her fixation. We were never introduced, what a cruel world this is, what monstrous deeds we commit.

This isnt about someone dying...well it is,. but its a metaphor about the loneliness and how long lasting it can be, that after a while it consumes you and ....kills your soul, your heart, what you strive for doesnt seem to have any meaning. Without fulfillling your needs and your passions or recognizing another's strive for such, the invisibility can consume us/them and...tkae us. I dont know how to explain it toher wise hopefully you understand. ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3259052/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3259052/ Tue, 31 Aug 2004 22:03:31 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3251461/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3251461/ Mon, 30 Aug 2004 23:02:11 PDT yeah so i betterget back. just taking a break. i cant wait for school. i miss seeing everyone everyday! ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3195919/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/3195919/ Mon, 23 Aug 2004 14:04:50 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2787549/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2787549/ Fri, 02 Jul 2004 12:21:55 PDT what do you think viewers?! ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2780799/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2780799/ Thu, 01 Jul 2004 14:39:06 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2774980/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2774980/ Wed, 30 Jun 2004 20:34:41 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2732823/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2732823/ Fri, 25 Jun 2004 09:57:33 PDT as do i but that doesnt really matter. anyway...yay ive been working on some pics for dougie...AND HE DOESNT EVEN WANT THEM! i drew a commission for him for a dragonmount.com character that he has and he wanted the character to be in a different stance. i spent hours on that pic and he doesnt even want it! grrr
yeah so anyway....i have also been thinking about putting more art up and not so many photos...it gets kind of sad after awhile. im not even a photographer or anything i just liked messing with the color contrasts and stuff. so thats my piece...bye ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2717818/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2717818/ Tue, 22 Jun 2004 08:35:35 PDT 3rd grade?) to see all my friends. YEP she and i go FAR back*hugs ashley plushtoy* hahaha anyway. i will write later about...stuffies. ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2706700/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2706700/ Sun, 20 Jun 2004 19:38:55 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2677371/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2677371/ Thu, 17 Jun 2004 17:54:11 PDT LAYER ONE:
-- Name: Nikki
-- Birthplace: Van Nuys, CA
-- Gender: Female
-- Eye Color: Dark Brown
-- Hair Color: Dark brown
-- Height: 5'7...or 6"
-- Righty or Lefty: Righty
-- Zodiac Sign: Aries

LAYER TWO:
-- Your heritage: Swedish, Dutch, Polish, English and German
-- The shoes you wore today: dont know...my brothers...somethin streetcars
-- Your fears: losing my friends, failing a grade, beoming my aunt
-- Your perfect meal: THAI!
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: something in politics or to help people in some way

LAYER THREE:
-- Your thoughts first waking up: Wake Doug up
-- Your best physical feature: Eyes..and hair...but i hide my eyes with GREY contacts
-- Your bedtime: late?
-- Your most missed memory: i love now

LAYER FOUR:
-- Pepsi or Coke: .....pepsi...mountain dew...but i like COKE better
-- McDonald's or Burger King: BK
-- Single or group dates: single
-- Adidas or Nike: Neither..they have slaves >_>...sort of...sweatshops rather
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee: ew ew ew

LAYER FIVE:
-- Smoke: No
-- Cuss: FUCK NO!...shit....crap...damn AHHHHH i cant stop
-- Sing: of course what do you think i am?
-- Take a shower: no..i am very dirty*sarcastic* i feel gross if i dont take one every day
-- Have a crush: Yes
-- Do you think you've been in love: Yes
-- Want to go to college: Yes
-- Liked high school: of course
-- Want to get married: ....>_> maybe <_<
-- Get motion sickness: YES
-- Think you're attractive: not really, some say im alright but honestly i hate pity
-- Think you're a health freak: no*watches hands**reads book about viruses*
-- Get along with your parent(s): mom is good aunt NO
-- Like thunderstorms: Who hates them?!*takes out a knife*
-- Play(ed) an instrument: violin, piano, now bass

LAYER SIX:
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: No.
-- Smoked: No
-- Done a drug: No.
-- Had Sex: No.
-- Made Out: Yes.
-- Gone on a date: Yes.
-- Gone to the mall?: Yes.
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No, diet.
-- Eaten sushi: No...i wish!
-- Been on stage: Nope
-- Been dumped?: Yes
-- Made homemade cookies: Yes
-- Gone skinny dipping: No
-- Dyed your hair: No
-- Stolen anything: No

LAYER NINE:
In a boy...
-- Best eye color?: lets see..dont care
-- Best hair color?: dont care
-- Short or long hair?: dont care
-- Height: taller than me
-- Best weight: dont care
-- Best articles of clothing: dont care

LAYER TEN:
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 0
-- Number of piercings: 4
-- Number of tattoos: 0... So far
-- Number of times name was in newspaper: 7
-- Number of scars on my body: counts scars on arm, 33 on my arm, and ....27 on my legs many from skateboardin on the legs, arms...different story
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: My first Kiss went out with a girl, the next day.
-- Number of things I hate myself for: looks, and some personality stuff ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2657068/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2657068/ Mon, 14 Jun 2004 08:58:32 PDT *sniff* ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2657067/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2657067/ Mon, 14 Jun 2004 08:58:17 PDT *sniff* ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2634461/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2634461/ Fri, 11 Jun 2004 07:20:47 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2631166/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2631166/ Thu, 10 Jun 2004 19:08:12 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2615510/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2615510/ Tue, 08 Jun 2004 18:56:42 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2601342/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2601342/ Mon, 07 Jun 2004 00:47:55 PDT and everytime i do
i get farther away from me
and the ones i care about, then you
i miss the blank now scarred and torn
i want to go back, before a habit born
its too late to stop no will my own
scared of the havoc i have sewn
hidden underneath the black
no one will ever see
except maybe you there is
watching over me
please dont look, i beg you not,
only whisper, youre not to tell
dont move the cloth
its there you to see
to hide a secret made by me. ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2596303/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2596303/ Sun, 06 Jun 2004 11:35:13 PDT and the last thing.....i have a project due in my interior design class for a client we have , we are remodeling her house. what an idiot! who the fuck lets teenagers remodel their house? ESPECIALLY if they are as boring as hell!...ok im done. ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2585125/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2585125/ Fri, 04 Jun 2004 20:26:17 PDT ?! he ruined the one day that meant most to me, during the week i needed him most of all. But i still love him as much as all his close friends do and i would gladly do anything for him. He will never know will he? ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2575863/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2575863/ Thu, 03 Jun 2004 17:00:48 PDT so yeah. thats another. erm...also WHEN WILL YOU PEOPLE ANSWER MY ERGH JOURNAL? they are important issues to me! ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2570165/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2570165/ Wed, 02 Jun 2004 21:40:30 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2559722/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2559722/ Tue, 01 Jun 2004 16:26:52 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2535128/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2535128/ Sat, 29 May 2004 10:45:10 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2528011/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2528011/ Fri, 28 May 2004 10:28:31 PDT
is that your face or is it mine
i get confused all the time
its all about me and never you
thats not how it works when there is two
dont put it all on me
my strength is fake
if the pain goes on
i know i will break
i can feel it coming back
the need for release
in every moment i pray
these feelings increase
its coming back to me
it knows what i need
if only for a moment
i can feel harsh pain
then total relief
i need you now
dont break on me
i need help plow
friend or more you're what i need
without you id break, physically
the sins of my past
what i have done come back
to much at once
you can help me
let me help you

this doesnt seem like what i make it. it has more than one in it but with the ideas from one person, he helped me put into words what i need from my friends. and what i want to give them too, they mean my life...no pressure added.
...i dont understand why he brought religion into this. since when does religion decide your life? God means so much to me and i do have strong faith, but. that doesnt mean that it interferes with whom i do or do not like. the only way my Lord can get involved is if he brings God into this. and if thats his decision then i pray for him.

Our father who art in heaven
hollowed be thy name
thy kingdom come
thine will be done
on earth as it is in heaven
and give us this day
our daily bread
and FORGIVE US OUR TRESSPASSES
AS WE FORGIVE THOSE WHO TRESSPASSED AGAINST US
BUT LEAD US NOT INTO TEMPTATION
BUT DELIVER US FROM EVIL
AMEN

read the bold deary
bring it into your life understand the concept, i know you dont pray but think about the message not who its is for, understand that it talks about our decisions, and our sins, our mistakes and forgiveness. to start a new.
i pray that you look at this like i do. it represents so much more then religion but an understanding that we help eachother, and need eachother to stay strong.
you and i need to work this out TOGETHER ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2522678/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2522678/ Thu, 27 May 2004 16:23:19 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2522637/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2522637/ Thu, 27 May 2004 16:17:07 PDT so much more than nothing
but not to me, you arent there
leave me in the dust
watch my world go by
follow me around
apologize
make sure that i dont die
it makes no difference to me
whatever you do is nothing
everything in the world
a prick and a sting
leave it be
you make no difference to me
we hate the way you are
a careless soul, hurt me
try to give me pain
im a wall you cannot hurt me
as you try you get bruised and i only become harder to your fist with every punch
stronger than you...and weaker

..this is a poem for someone i knew hes gone away for a bit ....a while actually and ....grr he makes me so mad...he could have talked to me about it but he didnt.. its not to great but it makes me feel better ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2507240/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2507240/ Tue, 25 May 2004 16:29:59 PDT where you feel like your gonna cry,
then scream for joy
going to curl up and die.

and then along came the spider and sat down beside her and scared all my depression away. guess who the spider is. ]]> ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2301095/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/2301095/ Mon, 26 Apr 2004 08:21:31 PDT ~demonfoxfire http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/1880121/ http://demonfoxfire.deviantart.com/journal/1880121/ Fri, 20 Feb 2004 20:32:37 PST ~demonfoxfire