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                <title>hiatus</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 11 Jun 2008 23:39:42 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ will be on a hiatus for a bit.<br />family issues along with a personal choice.<br />when i come back, it'll be a change<br /><br /> ]]></description>
                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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                <title>upcoming projects...</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 02 Mar 2008 17:52:44 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ a few of my upcoming projects for anyone who cares...<br /><br />Really exciting project is a 12 to 14 ring corset on my back...<br /><br />music video...<br /><br />promotional flyer for cybergeist (for the fetish show in the 26th.. i'll be doing some stage performing with him)<br /><br />human puppet (flesh hooks & girlfriend)<br /><br />more pin up work (omg it's gonna be tame?!)<br /><br />death by... series...<br /><br />Alice in wonderland... a very fun spin on an old story <br />scratch that... a whole series of fairy tales to ensue...<br /><br />and above all else... another fetish show in may where i will be doing more flesh hook work...<br /><br />oh yes...<br />on another note... i've got mor piercings... oh fuck!<br />just got my sternum pierced... it's badass.and a couple weeks prior to that i pierced my nipples again...<br />so there ya go <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/wink.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=";)" title=";) (Wink)" /><br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>photoshoots</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 15 Jun 2007 01:39:29 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ more goodness. check it outtt<br />
<br />
and if you think i'm done,  i think you're wrong.<br />
<br />
<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/s/smile.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":)" title=":) (Smile)" /><br />
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more coming<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>new photos? wtf?!</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 25 Apr 2007 23:28:25 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ okay...so I've been a busy bee lately.<br />
lots and lots of photoshoots are gonna be hitting this page as the weeks pass.<br />
There's 3 new ones up:<br />
Todd Thayer<br />
Melissa (schrammphotography)<br />
Rob Hunter<br />
<br />
<br />
comment them. lemme know what you think. critique me. give me pointers. HAVE FUN PEOPLE. I think you've all died on me!<br />
<br />
Well then again, I've done it to you.<br />
Sorry =[<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>aaaaah!</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 05 Oct 2006 00:39:36 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i'll have some new images up really soon.<br />
some photos i took at the concert the other day and some new pictures of me...wtf?!<br />
<br />
wooooha!<br />
yep i'm going to bed. see you all in the morning.<br /><br /> ]]></description>
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                <title>check out</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 16 Aug 2006 12:36:48 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ check my scraps. there's some previews of what will be on my main gallery soon....<br />
<br />
please. comment maybe? ]]></description>
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                <title>hmm</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 25 Jul 2006 15:54:13 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I really need to update my gallery.<br />
Thankfully I have pictures being done on Saturday! until then...I might jack around and make some cool pictures...<br />
<br />
Other than that...I've got a lot of stuff going on lately...woo.<br />
<br />
let's see....<br />
1)I've lost a lotta weight. so that's awesome<br />
2)I quit my job and started a new one.<br />
3)I've been going to concerts gallore.<br />
4)got lots of new clothes and getting more stuff...so I'll have to post pictures asap.<br />
<br />
<br />
I had a lot to write but forgot most of it.<br />
<br />
Anyways...I'm redoing my hair this week...so that's happy times. ]]></description>
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                <title>05.24.06</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 24 May 2006 20:57:50 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Hey all!<br />
<br />
I haven't posted in awhile, <br />
a) because..I never have time.<br />
b) I haven't had a shoot//any art<br />
c) I didn't think you guys wanted to see my prom pictures.<br />
<br />
BUT<br />
<br />
To hold you over until the next two weeks...<br />
Have a prom picture or two.<br />
<br />
I've got two photoshoots in the next two weeks (well one if I decide not to take the other one but I'd be an idiot not to) so I'll have new images.<br />
<br />
Who's looking forward to it?<br />
That's right, no one, no one ever comments the shtuff!<br />
<br />
Yours truely,<br />
Jezzie ]]></description>
                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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                <title>04.01.06</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 01 Apr 2006 16:20:24 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Yah...sorry about the mass upload.<br />
Just got my pictures back from my first professional shoot without me paying for it...<br />
I worked with J Tate and Chyanna on 03.30.06 and thus you got the images you see in my gallery!<br />
It was a lotta fun and I've got a lot of work to do this summer with modelling.<br />
Chyanna is an experienced model whereas I am not. So hopefully I did alright.<br />
CHECK ALL OF THEM OUT! there's 10 uploaded...I have more but I just uploaded the 10. <br />
I hope you guys like them!!<br />
Give me happy comments...and criticism or whatnot. Give me all you got guys pleeeasse!<br />
<br />
xoxxo Jezzie ]]></description>
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                <title>Erin</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 03 Oct 2005 13:52:04 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ A dear friend of mine, Erin Mace, was murdered on Friday, September 30th.  A friend and I received a phone call that she was dead, but we didn't believe it.....it wasn't until this morning, when I saw her picture on the news and the camera crews set up at my school that I even knew it was <br />
<br />
Erin was 16....her murderer, an aquaintance, is 18.  <br />
<br />
Erin was the most beautiful, spectacular, amazing, happy person I knew....and she was adorable.  Her smile was contagious and her laugh, even more so.  I love her with my entire heart and I can't take her not being here anymore....<br />
<br />
Alex Sterling was sentenced today at noon (October 3) and I've yet to hear what is going to happen to him...I hope he rots....for he took away an angel.<br />
<br />
<br />
Erin I love you baby....and now you can have diet pepsi, markers, and candy all you want, sweetheart.<br />
<br />
R.I.P.<br />
7/18/89 - 9/30/05<br />
I'll miss you forevermore, and I'll see you again sometime...<br />
<br />
With all my heart, love,<br />
Ashley. ]]></description>
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                <title>First photoshoot.</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 17 Aug 2005 21:59:34 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ As you can see, I posted a bunch of new pictures!<br />
<br />
Alas, please also look in my scraps....most of them are in there due to size issues.<br />
<br />
<br />
That is all I have to say, PLEASE look in my scraps....<br />
<br />
<br />
--Jezebel-- ]]></description>
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                <title>New stuff</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 26 Jun 2005 22:22:32 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I should be having new things in the next few weeks or so, I've actually gone ahead and put new stuff up, but there will be more. I've gotten a photography offer and then one from my boyfriend as well, I'll take one or both up and see what I can get. I've this new found obsession with wanting to become a model and I'm thinking I want it to come true sooooo tell me what you think! <br />
<br />
Also - check out Fallen-slave on here, they have some amazing work! ]]></description>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 28 Oct 2004 13:12:42 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I'm hoping to have more stuff up soon.  don't worry, i haven't left. i may even  have some drawings and writings up  soon. i'm excited. you may not be. <br />
<br />
DA i'm coming back! ]]></description>
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                <title>LOOK IN SCRAPS</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 29 Jul 2004 11:15:01 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ no i am not neglecting my page, i just  hate this new catergory...i have some  really good pictures and i don't know  where else to put them but in scraps.  so please please please look there. my  page is so lonely lately... ]]></description>
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                <title>loss of words maybe?</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 09 Jul 2004 01:15:01 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ok i'm i don't know...good i guess??<br />
<br />
let's see what has gone down.....i got  my tongue pierced on monday. yay.<br />
<br />
i'm going to 7 concerts:<br />
july:<br />
17-Alice Cooper<br />
30-Static-x<br />
august:<br />
12-Ozzfest<br />
13-Slip 'N' Slide<br />
21-Lynyrd Skynyrd<br />
25-Projekt Revolution<br />
28-Soulfly/Ill Nino<br />
<br />
yay. i don't really no what else to  put...i need to get some more pictures  up soon, i've neglected this thing.  i'll get back with yall soon, k?? ]]></description>
                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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                <title>hah...</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 26 Mar 2004 16:06:55 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Status: Member <br />
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                <title>whee german</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 26 Mar 2004 16:00:20 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ read the newest poem: boys.<br />
here. German for you. <br />
<br />
Fickenjungen: sie sind alle gleich,  sorgen Nicht um sie: sie nur  Spielschraube sie über sich wollen,  machen ihren Schrei Der Rest von<br />
ihrem Leben warum fragend. Sie erzählen  ihres, daß Sie sich sorgen, erzählt  ihres, daß sie recht, Noch Sie nie  sogar hat,, sie in der<br />
Nacht Sie zu rufen, nur wegen dieses  Durcheinanders Ihr Vertrauen, das  verwelkt: weniger und weniger Sie  deshalb viel, noch Sie ihres<br />
so Sie nur Ihre kleine Schlampe, eine  Trophäe belästigen will sterben wird  bedeutet heruntersetzen Ist, zu zeigen.  In der Nacht<br />
schluchzt sie kann gehört werden für  Meilen, Ihr Blut ist geschmiert auf den  Badezimmernfliesen das mehr das sie  weint, das nähere,<br />
das sie wegen Sie erhält, sie zahlt  diese Schulden, Nachdem Sie ihres  ficken, das Sie erzählen ihres, daß Sie  sorgen sich Sie Sie zu<br />
sagen bettelt, Sie fordern keinen Ruf  morgens Sie versprechen heraus, daß  ihres süßlich ihre Stirn dann Küßt,  schleicht aus diskret.<br />
Sie rufen ihr Heim, niemand beantwortet  den Ruf, Treibt zu ihrem Haus, schlägt  beinahe die Wand hinunter, Sie ihres,  das dort in ihr<br />
Blut Sie bick auf ihren Körper,  karmesinroten Rißsturz, Nie legt, es  fertig, die Pfähle zu schlagen, damit  groß finden hat gebracht.<br />
Aufschreien Sie ihr Name und sollte nur  Haß, Warum das Leben ihrer Liebe nehmen  fühlen? Gut werde ich Ihnen, Arschloch,  es jetzt ist<br />
nicht so nett Von auf nimmt das  verdammt Ratfreude ihres, wie Ihre  Prinzessin und schätzt ihres so ihres  Liebt, erzählen und braucht<br />
sie, paßt nur zum Ablauf mit Ihrem  Penis Nicht denkt, erhält ihm Sie nein  wo Außer zu einem toten Mädchen, mit  einem kalten<br />
Starrblick. ]]></description>
                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 06 Mar 2004 17:21:47 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ broke up with the boyfriend<br />
don't care<br />
bored<br />
don't care<br />
lost something<br />
don't care<br />
not happy<br />
don't care<br />
rather be dead...yes. ]]></description>
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                <title>Devious Journal Entry</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 16 Feb 2004 20:20:11 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I have a boyfriend, I like him a whole  lot, his name is Steve. We started  going out on "saturday" (aka friday the  13th, but he wanted it for 14th) also,  i spent ALL weekend in his arms and  that was amazing, it made me almost  happy, I mean, I'm happy with him, but  not happy on my own, as a whole, I'm  really NOT happy about myself, I don't  like myself at ALL. but I don't know. I  don't care anymore, I did something  really bad today but I'm not going inot  that, I can't say it. Oh well. <br />
<br />
I also have my really good friend andi,  she helps me through EVERYTHING. I  don't know what I'd do without her,  Seriously, I don't. I also spent all  weekend with her.<br />
<br />
I also have a new friend Kevin, Spent  all weekend also with him and he's  awesome.<br />
<br />
Smitty is cool too! w00t, Ok. I'm done.  I can't exactly see right now...I have  pink eye that WONT GO AWAY in both  eyes.<br />
<br />
peace<br />
<br />
<img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/h/heart.gif" width="15" height="13" alt=":heart:" title="Heart" /> to: andi and steve ]]></description>
                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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                <title>Crutches bite</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 28 Jan 2004 15:23:50 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Ooook Ash is on crutches.<br />
Yep that's right. I'm on  crutches...Here's the lowdown:<br />
-Friday night..leaving SAFT and giving  people hugs and then Colleen pulls on  me and then kinda throws me in front of  her, just as Josh's back tire was about  to go right there...It went over my  foot.<br />
-Get home..Tep tells mom I fell off the  DDR pad, to keep us all out of shit  about fucking around near cars.<br />
-Go to the hospital, there till 3 AM<br />
-Diagnosis: Sprained ankle and knee.  All ligaments either torn or pulled to  the extreme<br />
-Result: Ash cannot move her foot  without crying or using crutches<br />
<br />
<br />
Other than that...my weekend was swell  I guess. Friday night was fun as all  fuck. Saturday, slept all day due to  fatigue of being at the hospital all  night...woke up and got ready for  Danielle to come over, mom answers the  door expecting Danielle and  Josh...whaddaya know, it's Jeff, Tyson,  Steve and Dave. Danielle and Josh get  there a bit later than them and when  they get there, we ask if we can go to  Jeff's house, she says yes but she has  to drive me. We get there, go outside,  come back inside, I get carried  downstairs, we have the STRIP BAR!!  haha boys...gotta love them. Get  carried upstairs...got told my butt is  huge. WHICH I KNOW! Then we watched  Underworld and talked about sex. Josh  and Dave left...we had more fun, me and  Danielle gave the boys massages. All in  all, a fun night. sunday...dunno what I  did. Monday SNOW DAY...doctor. WHOOPIE.  Tuesday SNOW DAY slept until 230, 3,  Jeff and Tyson and Tom came over, hung  out with them for  awhile...whee..today..school was bad,  tiring...but fun. I get an elevator key  and slav-i mean helper. Anywyas...it  sucked. but yah, won't go into that.<br />
<br />
Sweetheart dance is on the 7th, I'm  bringing Jordan. YAY.<br />
Before hand I'm doing stuff with  Jordan, Andi, Alex, Sally, and Jarett.<br />
Afterwards going to Jeff's house!  HOTTUB, liqour...FUN FUN. Maybe Jeff  will allow me to bring Jordan with  me..hmm dunno but whee it's going to be  grand<br />
<br />
Lindbergh is amazing. I have a bunch of  friends there and I love it.<br />
<br />
Ehh I like 3 guys. Amanda knows who  they are. Don't think I'll get any of  them <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/f/frown.gif" width="15" height="15" alt=":(" title=":( (Sad)" /> oooh well I get used to that fact  of life.<br />
<br />
I'm out. Talking to Patt right now,  seeee ya ]]></description>
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                <title>right on</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 19 Dec 2003 21:46:51 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i got glasses. they are cute. <br />
i gave up on travis, i don't think i  like him like that anymore, he's more  like a brother.<br />
his best friend, chris, is becoming a  close friend of mine quite quickly, i  love the kid to death and whenever i  see him he has something new and i want  to cry because i feel really bad for  him.<br />
i'm alone in the world right now, kinda  boring, a few guys like me though so  it's kinda weird....i like one of them  back but blah, it's sticky.<br />
speaking of sticky, ali kept putting  whip cream on her straw and i shoved it  up her nose, oops...she was in a bit of  pain.<br />
i went to the mall tonight, it was fun.<br />
i'm finished with ursuline for good! on  to lindbergh now....eh. i guess <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/b/boogie.gif" width="25" height="25" alt=":boogie:" title="Boogie!" /> ?<br />
<br />
i don't know why i put stuff up  here....it's not worth it, i don't get  comments or anything..oh well?<br />
<br />
i'm out, i'm tired and pissed. ]]></description>
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                <title>ahhh</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 28 Nov 2003 22:11:01 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ so this week has been  interesting....lets see sucked until  thursday...i went to the turkey day  game, kirkwood won! (yay travis you are  so goddamned sexy and i luff ya to  death!) it was 14, 0. awesome game i  must say. then went to gmas  house...that sucked. called travis and  talked to him and felt a little better  till he had to go, which sucked. went  home...stayed here for 7 hours by  myself, went to sleep.<br />
woke up this mornin, took a shower,  went to crestwood...hung out with  danielle and honora. honora got me  handcuff earrings for my birthday and a  really cute...(really REALLY short)  skirt for xmas. danielle bought me a  purse. it matches my skirt i'm wearing  rihgt now...mah pink one. after  shopping, i hung out with ed...whom i  haven't seen forever and helped him  shop for his managers night on the town  tonight...we had fun and bought her  lotsa vinyl and shit and it's great.  she was so happy and i felt so good  about it. ed and i walked around with  our arms linked cuz kristin and rachel  kept walking by giving me dirty looks.  so he's like hey we're both sexy, show  them up! so we did and i felt like a  midget (i come up to like his bicep!)  he's so cute though. but then i played  some more ddr (played WAY too much  today, got sick from it actually) then  came home. am now sitting here. w00t.  i'm outtie ]]></description>
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                <title>ruined</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 06 Nov 2003 20:02:09 PST</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i feel so empty it's not even funny  anymore. i officially feel like i'm  loosing everything..including my own  sanity.  i'm afraid to loose the most  dear thing in my life: my best friend.  she means more than anything...i would  kill myself if it meant her feeling  better. i would jump infront of a  bullet aimed at her so she could go on.  i care about her more than ANYTHING. if  i lost her...man...i'm gonna loose  everything. somthing is nagging at me  so bad...i miss a certain  feeling...maybe it's love. i don't know  i miss feeling cared about/happy. i  miss my happiness. the only time i'm  happy is when i'm drugged up...and  that's giddy happy...annoying  happy...fake happy.  a happy that means  nothing but SHIT to me. right now all i  want is to hold my best friend and tell  her how much i love her. b/c really, no  words could describe it. i love the  girl more than life itself and i would  do anything in the world to make her  happy. (sweetie if you are reading this  i love you so much) and i know i sound  like a lesbo but you can fuck off. i  really have nothing more in my life  that i have to live for but if she's  gone...i guess it means something?  i  feel empty again to the point of pure  and simple depression. i just want to  haul off and die.  nothing left to  worry about...nothing. just...void.  i  have nothing to look forward to, AT  ALL. there's no friends to hang out  with, no boyfriend to talk about and  hang all over. no football games to  brag about going to, no good test  scores to shove in my friends faces, no  talent to show off...nothing. I AM  NOTHING! NOTHING AT ALL! I HOPE I  FUCKING DIE! ]]></description>
                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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                <title>fuck it....</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 23 Sep 2003 14:22:53 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ok so i haven't written in awhile...big  deal...anyways...i'm a bit  pissed/depressed/i'm going to kill this  bitch at homecoming. i had a  boyfriend...he was a good  boyfriend...he did more than i wanted  him too but yah it's fine...he cheated  on me while i was there...what a  fucking prick...he called me fat...what  a fucking prick...i hate him. i've been  crying for the past two days  straight...i cried myself to sleep last  night and it was horrible. i have high  blood pressure also...supposted to be  120/70...it's 139/98 and that's not  good so i had to go pee in a cup and  get 5 fucking vials of blood taken from  me. i'm so pissed off. and i also am on  meds that keep my lung from collapsing.  whoop whoop....i wish they would let me  fall apart. it's not worth it.  anyways...i feel so fucking used from  stupid asshole ts and omg...it just  hurts. i also have no homecoming date  now b/c he's a fucking moron. so i  don't know what i'll do about that. i  hate myself sooo fucking much and i  wish i could kill something. oh well. i  give up. you people win. steal my  breath and kill me off.<br />
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i'm out of here..... ]]></description>
                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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                <title>SANITARIUM!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 27 Jul 2003 22:24:04 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ OMG SANITARIUM WAS SO AWESOME! Lets see..right when we get there, they  tell me i can't wear my chains and spikes in...i have to throw them  away or bring them to the car...the car was at least 5 blocks from the  Edward Jone's Dome so we were like fuck that...i went outside with my  sister and was like wow i don't want to throw it away but i don't have  a choice...she's like i got an idea...so we went behind a pole..she  throw 1 chain in each of her shoes and put them on...we each shoved a  spiked collar/bracelet in our bra...went inside. they check us, we  clear...w00t. we get in...buy shirts...30 bux on an awesome sanitarium  shirt. i love it. went in to our seats...wow they were amazing. first  band on: Mudvayne...AAAAAAAAAAHHHH!! they were amazing!! got some  pictures (hope they turn out). Second band on: Deftones...tep was  basically having a fit over chino...lol it was great...they  rocked...but not as good as mudvayne! Next on: Linkin Park...can we say  Chester Bennington is gorgeous?! as is Mike...wow wow wow! THEY WERE  ABSOLUTELY AMAZING IN CONCERT! I WANT TO SEE THEM AGAIN! i got so many  pictures of chester...even one without a shirt! <img src="http://e.deviantart.com/emoticons/w/wink.gif" align="middle" alt=";) (Wink)" title=";) (Wink)" border="0" /> . Next up was Limp  Bizkit. I was amazed at how good they are live. they suck on CD but  they were amazing. Metallica was last...that was the most amazing thing  i have ever seen...i loved every bit of the concert...the best 75 bux  i've ever spent. i would love to see another show of these bands....<br>
Our section was quite the wild one...it was...girls that loved to  flash...AND THERE WAS A LITTLE BOY IN THE SECTION TAHT WAS ON OXYGEN!!!  and then Headbanger Barbie (a.k.a pure poser) was in our section, along  with Drunkard Skipper and Pothead Theresa (Triche came up with  names...) they were digusting. I was asked to flash people..i didn't. I  got to pet a guys head and he pet me back....he was cute...<br>
well anywaysssss.....it was amazing...all in all, purely amazing. <br>
Next year.....ozzfest...130 bux for orchestra pit and i'm doin it! ow  ow! well....i'm sick of typing...no jet to talk to...and i'm  beat...work from 4-1130....oy vey..i'm out<br>
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Bite me bitch<br>
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                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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                <title>Blue hair? WTF?!</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 24 Jul 2003 01:27:58 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ yah the title says it..i have blue in my hair..and a lot of it..it'll  be joined by purple and more blue tomorrow and be sekz. lmao...i did  tep's hair and she did mine...her's is cute..mine is...uh..different?  oh well....i'm fixing it tomorrow so i'll be happy! uh....jet thinks  the color is sekz..whee. i'll put good version up tomorrow..none of the  330 in the mornin crap..it's baaaaad. hah. oh well..talked to storrie  and jet all night..twas fun. heh oh well..this is enuff typing for  me.....i'm  outtie...bye------------------------------------------------------------ -------<br>
Bite me bitch<br>
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Jet is ubersekz bitch whom you must obey <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_wink.gif" align="middle" alt=";) (Wink)" title=";) (Wink)" border="0" /> ]]></description>
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                <title>bleh night</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 20 Jul 2003 01:53:11 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ so tonight kinda sucked. went to work, got made to do everything, was  bitchy all night. i didn't like it. i wanted to die, or just curl up  and cry myself to sleep or something. eh not a good thing. <br>
i came home...talked to jet, ames, joe and other people that were in a  chat. some people pissed me off. so i was even more bitchy and yada  yada yada. sooo therefore.i had to be cheered up. dun dun na na! jet  comes to the rescue. he made me cheer up a little.<br>
right now..i am...talking to jet through the IM with voice.he doesn't  talk much at all lol but his voice is sekz..and when he talks in latin  he's that much sekzier hah. <br>
i'm talking to ames too..hes talkin bout camping...it sounds soooo  fun!. meh ish jealous<br>
well i'm tired and i'm talking to jet soooo fuck all yall i'm outta  herre <br>
(yah that's ash's extent of ghettoness)<br>
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Bite me bitch<br>
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Jet is ubersekz bitch whom you must obey <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_wink.gif" align="middle" alt=";) (Wink)" title=";) (Wink)" border="0" /> ]]></description>
                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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                <title>yay a little bit of confidence</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 18 Jul 2003 01:53:57 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ so i've been told, just since like 12 (4 hours ago) how  gorgeous/hott/sekz i was by about 4 or 5 people..i don't know about  anyone else but that's a little bit of a confidence booster.<br>
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jet is meh best friend i swear! i wub you jet! you are the best. <br>
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i talked to him through IMs like with voices, it was great...he's got  such a cute voice! and mine sounds like shit! so anyyyyways..it's been  habit lately to go into a chat with John, Jet, and Joe and any of my  random friends and just have fun talking. John has a bit of an anger  problem when he doesn't get his way but it's all good. Joe thinks i'm  pretty and Jet says i'm Sekz Goddess. heh...i'm really happy right now<br>
<br>
in the course of 5 minutes Ames, Kurt and someone else, and  TragikVampyre2 off here IMed me. Ames thinks i'm hot, kurt and his  friend IMed me b/c they thought the same and then vampyre IMed me b/c  of my art. wow aren't i popular?<br>
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it's 4 and i'm tired so im going to bed. night night don't let those  rabid sock monkies bite!<br>
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Bite me bitch<br>
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                <title>eh fuck it</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 15 Jul 2003 10:19:19 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ right now..i dont' know what's wrong with me. for one, i know i gotta  be getting sick. i've been so cold even outside where it is fkn 90 or  so degrees. i don't care though, if i'm sick maybe it means i'll die  sooner. lol, fat chance there. eh i need to lighten up but iunno how.  Jet keeps me happy most of the time, he's one of my best friends and  it's sad cuz i only getta talk to him on here. He cares about  everything i tell him. he actually listens....and on top of all  that..he's fucking awesome. Jet, iunno what i'd do wiffout yah. well  other than that, jay and amanda have gotten me into something i don't  exactly want to be in, it's kinda painful, not pysically but  mentally...uh....oh the gang war on sunday went horrible LotA lost to  ICBM b/c it was 3 to 8...yah we did bad but we had an unfair  disadvantage. the gangbang on friday should be fun though cuz we're  against Illucia for sure, Kyofu (hopefully), Darkwind (hopefully), ICBM  (hopefully) and iunno what other teams will be there. oh well...our  team sucks and we know it, but we do it for fun and b/c we are the  sexiest team <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_wink.gif" align="middle" alt=";) (Wink)" title=";) (Wink)" border="0" />  <br>
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I'm talking to Mackenzie right nwo...man i miss that girl. oh well we  gonna hang out again soon<br>
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i think i'm bipolar =\ no good. <br>
i'm gonna go take a shower....this isn't any help to my mood <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_frown.gif" align="middle" alt="=( (Sad)" title="=( (Sad)" border="0" />  <br>
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Bite me bitch ]]></description>
                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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                <title>fun game fun game</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 09 Jul 2003 22:10:05 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ k so i let people claim parts of my body:<br>
Sarah has my ankles b/c "they're sexay"<br>
Jet has my neck..so he can lick it<br>
Beccie has my eyes...b/c they are pretty<br>
Tep has my left eyebrow...b/c she can.<br>
Kowz has my right lung...b/c he wants to replace his shitty one<br>
Joel has my belly button..so he can poke it<br>
Fender has my ass...b/c "it's nice"<br>
Kimmel has my boobs...b/c they are my boobs<br>
Mark has my small intestine...we don't know why<br>
Steven has my hips...b/c he has none<br>
Greta has my hands..."so i can draw like you"<br>
Alex has my feet...b/c hers are jacked up<br>
Daniel has my mouth....b/c it was left<br>
Megan has my appendix...b/c "it's a cool word"<br>
Mike has my brain...b/c he wants to see how my mind works<br>
Curtis has my personality b/c he loves it "TheLegendOfCurt: you have  the best personality of anyone I've ever met"<br>
Gabe has my legs b/c .... well i don't know.....<br>
k more to come ]]></description>
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                <title>boredom took over!</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 08 Jul 2003 16:42:18 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ name = Ash, Ashie Baby, Shlee, Ashley, Blue Eyes...whatever you wanna  call meh is fine<br>
 piercings = 6 in ears....<br>
 tattoos = none at the moment<br>
 height = 5'4<br>
 shoe size = 7<br>
 hair color = brownish/redish/blondish<br>
 length = almost to my shoulders and then layered up alot<br>
 siblings = 1<br>
LAST...<br>
 movie you rented = i dunt know<br>
 movie you bought = i think...i have no idear<br>
 song you listened to = Switchblade Symphony-Gutter Glitter<br>
 song that was stuck in your head = Switchblade Symphony-Bad Trash<br>
 cd you bought = er...i think it was...uhm...i can't remember....i burn  mah cds!<br>
 cd you listened to = my Switchblade Symphony mix<br>
 person you've called = staci<br>
 person that's called you = staci<br>
 tv show you've watched = Ed, Edd, n Eddy<br>
 person you were thinking of = sooooomeone:walks in an opposite  direction to avoid question:<br>
DO...<br>
 you have a bf or gf = noo<br>
 you have a crush on someone = si senorita<br>
 you wish you could live somewhere else = yep! NY or TX...me and jet  decided that's where i'm moving<br>
 you think about suicide = nope...people talk me away from that now  :thank you jet!:<br>
 you believe in online dating = not exactly...<br>
 others find you attractive = uh...supposedly they do?<br>
 you want more piercings = yes yes yes yes! more in ears, tounge, belly  button and tep thinks i'd be cute with my nose pierced<br>
 you drink = i have before..not on a regular basis or ne thing<br>
 you do drugs = no..<br>
 you smoke = not on a regular basis<br>
 you like cleaning = psh hahahha that's a good one<br>
 you like roller coasters = yes<br>
 you write in cursive or print = whichever i want<br>
 you carry a donor card = nope.<br>
FOR OR AGAINST...<br>
 long distance relationships = depends on who it is<br>
 using someone = that's not nice<br>
 suicide = against...it's selfish...<br>
 killing people = depends on who!<br>
 teenage smoking = do what you want as long as it doesn't hurt you<br>
 premarital sex = whatever floats ur boat <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_smile.gif" align="middle" alt="=) (Smile)" title="=) (Smile)" border="0" /> <br>
 driving drunk = against...people i know do that<br>
 gay/lesbian relationships = for...i can't be against it for  reasons...(no i'm not a lesbo)<br>
 soap operas = against! omg AGAINST!!!<br>
FAVORITE...<br>
 food = mexican<br>
 song = Switchblade Symphony - Gutter Glitter, Bad Trash; Marilyn  Manson - Golden Age of Grotesque<br>
 thing to do = bite people <br>
 thing to talk about = depends on with who<br>
 sports = i hate sports..i'm a dancer<br>
 drinks = BAWLS!!!!!!! ahhhhh that stuff is good!<br>
 clothes = :looks at self: how i usually dress<br>
 movies = Resident Evil and Nightmare Before Christmas <br>
 band/singer = Switchblade Symphony, Marilyn Manson, Evanescence,  Mudvayne<br>
 holiday = Halloween :hugs darkness and fun outfits:<br>
 new saying = uh...don't got one...i've used the same one for awhile  bite meh<br>
HAVE YOU...<br>
 ever cried over a boy = yea<br>
 ever lied to someone = yes<br>
 ever been in a fist fight = of course not :angel: only biting fights<br>
 ever been arrested = no<br>
NUMBER...<br>
 of times I have been in love? = once<br>
 of times I have had my heart broken? = zero...i'm the bitch that  always breaks hearts..=\<br>
 of hearts I have broken? = 1 for certain<br>
 of girls I have kissed? = 1 <br>
 of boys I have kissed? = uh....about 8 i think.....=\ not sure..that's  all i could think of<br>
 of girls I've slept with? = NONE<br>
 of boys I've slept with? = none<br>
 of drugs taken illegally? = 1<br>
 of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type  friends? = 3<br>
 of people I consider my enemies? = too many!<br>
 of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = 3 times<br>
 of scars on my body? = over 200<br>
 of things in my past that I regret? = too many<br>
FAVORITE...<br>
 disney movie = uh....iunno<br>
 scent = dragon's blood<br>
 word = pyrr<br>
 nickname = Ashie Baby<br>
 guy name = Jet, Cody, Corey, Keith<br>
 girl name = Zoe, Raven<br>
 eye color = mine...i just like it...but also bright bright green<br>
 flower = rose<br>
 piercing = tongue, belly button and...nipple on some guys...it's sekz<br>
 actress = iunno<br>
<br>
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...<br>
 pretty = i can be<br>
 funny = i can be<br>
 hot = not exactly<br>
 friendly = i can be<br>
 amusing = i can be<br>
 ugly = yes<br>
 loveable = oh yah <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_lick.gif" align="middle" alt=":p (Lick)" title=":p (Lick)" border="0" /> yrr:<br>
 pessimistic = yes<br>
 optimistic = nope<br>
 caring = i can be<br>
 sweet = oh yes...i'm extremely sweet! lol lol<br>
 dorky = yes!<br>
x Spell your first name back wards x: yelhsa<br>
x The story behind your user name x: uh...not much...just that i was  called someone's mistress and they called me devious n sneaky and i  like the letter x?<br>
x Are you straigh... ]]></description>
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                <title>WHEE!!!!!!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 07 Jul 2003 23:15:42 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ so i've been talking to jet more and more lately...he keeps me sane ^.^  <br>
I finally got to hang out with my friends tonight again after a  frucking seeming month! it was torture.....;.; so i went to  ronnie's....ah....eek....too many people there...!!!<br>
i came home and talked to jet, beccie, kowz, andeh, staci, fender,  jesse and laura...ah i luff yall!!! <br>
jesse is a sweetheart n he's a cutie! that i luff<br>
jet is mah best buddy that i talk to and he tells me fun stuff and is  nice to meh and he keeps meh happy<br>
beccie is mah woman! lol lol lol<br>
kowz...is just too adorable not to love!<br>
andeh...has been not so happy with meh but always there and a sweetie<br>
staci is mah babe and i love her to death she's a sweeite<br>
fender is always there for meh..wheeee<br>
laura..is there when you need to talk toher! heh<br>
that's about all i wanna talk about....<br>
oh...and i got rid of terrifying boy<br>
bye now!<br> ]]></description>
                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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                <title>:feels pretty!:</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 01 Jul 2003 22:19:00 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ so i've gotten a good response from friends on my new deviations. i  actually feel great about them. they are...pretty in my oppinion...now  yours might be different but i feel great about them ^.^ <br>
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i have a boyfriend now...i'm terrifyed of him actually....<br>
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i'm not going to type anymore...bye ]]></description>
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                <title>sticks tongue out at you</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 25 Jun 2003 12:17:35 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ k i'm back for a bit...i'm working on some new stuff. i'm gonna get it  up as soon as i'm done but i dunno when that'll be. bai ]]></description>
                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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                <title>bye</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 18 Jun 2003 13:18:32 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ k. i'mma stop writing about my days in here. i don't have time anymore  and actually some of it bothers people (sorry) so i'm going to not type  in here that much at all. only my art will be posted mostly. bye<br>
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                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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                <title>good day good day</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 17 Jun 2003 12:08:10 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ok so i'm in a MUCH better mood than i was last night (i'll write about  it here) <br>
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SAFT was great. me and Matt had so much fun. who all was there...hmm  me, Matt, Tep, Colleen, Ryan, Danielle, Fender, Andy, Heather (Juu),  Steven, Luke and some kid i've never actually really met. I got there  55 minutes late thanks to dad making me make tea, tep not being able to  find her keys, getting gas in her car, and then picking up colleen. We  sat around talking for a bit and then me and matt went outside to do  gokarts. he won b/c his lane was let out first. he was going to throw  me in the bumper boats pool! well then we went inside and talked to tep  and all them for a bit...then we got them to come out and tep and ryan  took on a challenge to do gokarts with us. we raced and matt's  line..let out first again. damn they must like him! well anyways, in  line, that's when we saw andy and heather. we talked to them in line  and andy put on mah fag glasses that i looooove so much. heheh he  looked like a hippy! so anywaaays after we got off the gokarts, matt  had to leave so we went inside and he was holding me for awhile and  then he kissed me. heh well then i just kinda sat in the floor with  ryan and tep then got up to go talk to colleen. fender was out there  with her, yeah he's awesome!! hehehe well we were sitting  there..yeah..then tep came outt and i asked if anyone wanted to do  gokarts again so me and fender did them. twas fun. i beat him <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_xd.gif" align="middle" alt="XD" title="XD" border="0" />  hehe.  so we talked for awhile and then left. came home and i got on here and  talked to some people......then got up and colleen had me cry to  her....i bawled my eyes out to her about stuff that was hurting me so  badly. i fell asleep on her. lol i had to wake up at 830 to go to work  at 9..i got off at 1130....i go in tonight AGAIN at 7 till probably  midnight. it shall sux0r<br>
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i'm oout.....<br>
BYE<br>
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i wuv: Megan, Beccie, Imza, Staci, Laura, Teppie, Joshy, Steven, Kowz,  Alex, Greta, Nichole, Danielle, and others<br>
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                <title>RAAAAAAAWR</title>
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                <pubDate>Mon, 16 Jun 2003 15:19:52 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i'm happy now! i'm getting something. JET thanks for picking it it's  sooo pretty. Jet is my buddy he's sooo awesome. hehe i talk to him all  the time. We're gonna be twins. <br>
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Matt is bringing me out tonight to SAFT and we're going to hang out.  God he is seeeexy. hehe<br>
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I went with tep to get her tat filled in and yeah i decided something  and I GOT TO PLAY WITH A RAT THE WHOLE TIME! it's sooo cute. I'm gonna  play with it everytime i'm there. <br>
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I'm out..doing chores then leaving. BYE<br>
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i wuv: Beccie, Staci, Laura, Teppie, Joshy, Steven, Kowz, Alex, Greta,  Nichole, Danielle, and others<br>
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                <title>i am numb to your words</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 15 Jun 2003 13:22:29 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ soo i'm basically dead inside. Yeah..that sounds about right. I talk to  Jet, Keith and Beccie now on here and that's about it. I miss talking  to Megan, I miss her so much. (if you are reading this, I love you so  much babe) I miss a few other things but they really aren't important.  Well no one reads this thing really so why do i always update? eh who  knows....i'm going to go pick up my dress now....bye<br>
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i wuv: Beccie, Staci, Laura, Teppie, Joshy, Steven, Kowz, Alex, Greta,  Nichole, Danielle, and others<br>
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                <title>i hate people</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 12 Jun 2003 23:41:16 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ I am slowly, yet surely, going insane. I'm becoming more and more prone  to pain and I love it more and more every time it comes to me. uhm I,  yeah, I'm bored. Torture is becoming more and more appealing and I'm  really looking forward to something. Heh. So I missed the mark of 4,300  PVs but hey...let's go for 4,500 people, please, I wanna draw something  for someone! I gotta charge my digital camera batteries b/c they are  dead and Jet wantsa picture and I wanna get a pretty one for him heh.  Well, and for myself that way I have a pretty one. Well let's see,  reasons I hardly ever write in here anymore is because, well my job  keeps me tied up or I don't have anything to say. I want to die always.  Only a few people keep me here, I hate that feeling. <br>
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I finally got Stepmania, I have over 731 songs....w00t. I've been  talking to MrKowz again finally. I'm glad his surgeries went well. I  don't want to type anymroe so that's your update for now who all that  hate when I don't update. Stepmania is calling my name. Bye.i wuv:  Beccie, Staci, Laura, Kyle, Teppie, Ryan, Joshy, Josh, Steven, Kowz,  Alex, Greta, Nichole, Danielle, and others<br>
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                <title>wow....</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 05 Jun 2003 11:01:05 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ So interesting week....Saturday me, Beccie and Mario went to Six flags  and had a blast...minus the thugs and stuff but I don't want to type  about that. After that, I went to Beccie's house and throughout the  course of being there, I became upset and started thinking the ENTIRE  TIME. Bad for me. But then me and Beccie were talking and she got me  happy again. Sunday we went to Crestwood and Joel, Ahner and Charlie  were there. I sat there and wanted to die, my mommy and Triche and  Dalton came down and saved me from my misery and brought me home. I  talked to people online forever....Monday, had a blah day until my mom  came home and brought me to SAFT. Beccie, Ryan, Danielle, Kyle, Mike,  Chris, Gaige, Sunshine and Heather were all up there. We had lots and  lots of fun! PAD WARS!!!!! Tuesday, I did nothing but clean....then  went to work and Staci came home from work with us and spent the night,  we talked A Lot. Wednesday, we woke up and sat around for awhile. We  then called my mommy and asked her if Ryan could pick us up and bring  us to Ronnies. She said yes after going through safety measures..the  works. We called Ryan and he was just getting off work so we walked  down and met him at Big Bend and he drove us all to Ronnies..I was  happy go lucky until Staci and Ryan started talking and I got quiet on  myself. The song that was playing, Hello by Evanescence, hurt me for  some reason. Thankfully I had my sunglasses on that you can't see  through, I had tears in my eyes and I was ready to die. We got to  Ronnie's and I basically leapt out of the car...I walked ahead of Staci  and Ryan, we got inside and Laura ran over and gave me a hug. I raced  her up the steps. Her stupidass boyfriend told me I was fat..another  chip into the selfesteem. I was really upset and just sat there  starring at the floor...fun fun. Steven kept holding me and it kinda  made me upset b/c it reminded me of something and yeah...but in the  same sence..it made me feel so good b/c he holds me so tight. Ryan kept  talking to me and stuff..made me a little better. Nichole talked to me  and made me lots better b/c she's hillarious...we had fun yesterday.  then before I left...I won't go into that. Well I left and came  home...Scanned pictures for people and had some talks with  people...around 1230 got sooo upset and started bawling my eyes out and  it wasn't good......talked to people till about 3...until the tears  were too much to take anymore..and I went to sleep...today I work and  hopefully can go to Beccie's after work....tomorrow's the  tournament....Oh well...I'm outie....bye<br>
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i wuv: Beccie, Staci, Laura, Kyle, Teppie, Ryan, Joshy, Josh, Steven,  Kowz, Alex, Greta, Alex, iMZA, Danielle, and others<br>
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                <title>oops</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 31 May 2003 06:43:11 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i missed the 4000 mark so whoever gets 4300 (yah i pick a weird #) i'll  make you a prize! whee..<br>
i wuv: alex, staci, lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie, ryan, joshy,  josh, steven, kowz, and others<br>
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                <title>oops</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 31 May 2003 06:41:32 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i missed the 4000 mark so whoever gets 4300 (yah i pick a weird #) i'll  make you a prize! whee..<br>
i wuv: alex, staci, lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie, ryan, joshy,  josh, steven, kowz, and others<br>
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                <title>hahahahah</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 30 May 2003 22:15:29 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i haven't updated forever...tehe oops. well not much has  happened...well actually it has but i dun wanna type about it. i'll  just type about last friday to now<br>
last friday i went on a field trip to a cemetary, grants farm (VIP  tour), soCo mall for lunch, Tee Time. that was fun. then i went to  Ronnies for a bit then to work. fun fun<br>
i can't remember last saturday...oops<br>
last sunday....i think Ronnies...not sure.<br>
monday....ronnie's then work<br>
tuesday...school, awards ceremony and grad. practice then out at  1030....home....yeah home<br>
wednesday...Field day...i won: best cheer, 3rd best captain, 2nd best  flag, 3rd best insignia, 3rd best name, and 4th overall  points......ronnies<br>
thursday..school till 930, walked around wtih alex, greta and mike till  1230....came home...got ready for graduation at 5...went to graduation  at 6. graduated<br>
today....slept till 1130, went to taco bell with tep and caroline, went  to orthodontist...came home went to c-boogie with greta and alex...got  them some clothes hehe, played ddr...left....went to work...we started  closing at 11 now...grrrrr and i was supposta go to beccie's house  tonight but i'm going tomorrow mornin and then we goin to 6 flags and  then i getta stay the night then ^.^ so whee.....i'm going now....this  is my update for the month..loli wuv: alex, staci, lauren, kyle,  meymey, teppie, beccie, ryan, joshy, josh, steven, honora, kowz, and  others<br>
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                <title>the feeling nags me</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 17 May 2003 22:26:52 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ i'm seriously not getting out of this anytime soon. yes, i am in  depression again. i hate myself with a nagging passion and i know the  reasons why. for one...i want to get back to the rEAL me so bad and  it's so hard and it's becoming impossible and i want to do it b4 it's  too late! i can't stand myself...i hate myself so much...yeah im  nagging and complaining and being annoying but i can't help it anymore.  i need to get it out some how and if i don't...it'll hurt me in the  long run so anyone who reads this...yah you get to hear about it. ok  now with that out of the way..my weekend wasn't that bad actually. <br>
friday:<br>
went to ronnie's...got really upset a few times and my chest messed up  really bad and it hurt like no other. i ran downstairs with laura and  we talked for a bit..decided i wasn't ready to go out with alex...so i  had her tell him that b/c i was feeling like crap so i sat down and  steven gave me a backrub. <br>
it was heaven....beccie's training me on PA...so it'll be good in a  little bit...it's getting better, sorta. hung out with steven, ryan,  mario, joe t, joel, kowzy, neekole....everyone. i felt better once  steven was there bc he always makes me feel better b/c he says the  stupidest things...it's great. beccie wasn't there and i was sad....but  yeah..then i came home...got online for about 20 minutes...was supposta  talk to andy but he wasn't responding so i had to go to bed anyways so  i went to bed...<br>
saturday:<br>
woke up went to LAST DANCE CLASS OF THE YEAR it was fun. came  home..cleaned...the house looks so good. lol got finished and took a  shower and got ready...went to pick up billy and beccie to go to  ronnies. went, expecting all lindbergh people to be at the festival  thing but so many of them were up there. i was like...crap. it was eh,  ok? yeah ryan was there, alex, neekole, and other people...lots of  them...so we went and we played and then after a few hours danielle got  there so me, beccie, billy and curtis decided we wanted food so we went  to subway. we had soo much fun there. it was great. came back, staci  and steven were there....they weren't there for long though...then we  had the tech guy come up and do the unlock codes....everything is  unlocked so i'm now Sakura bitch and i play Sakura all the time b/c  people like playing it with me. lol it's a fun song...on challenge i  looove it. i was one good away from full comboing Sexy Planet Momo Mix.  i was sooo mad....o well. i had fun tonight..other than getting tickled  the whole time. the way home...me and billy were both like falling  asleep. now i'm here....and upset...and bored.<br>
tomorrow:<br>
mebbe go shopping with staci...then i got dance recital...alex is going  with me...this shall be fun fun :rolls eyes:  i don't want to dance!  and him see me dance!? :dies: oh god. <br>
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me and beccie made a pact..ya that's right and you don't get to know  about it <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_razz.gif" align="middle" alt="=P (Razz)" title="=P (Razz)" border="0" />  ha.....i'm leaving...i feel like dying....byei wuv: alex,  staci, lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie, ryan, joshy, josh, steven,  honora, kowz, and others<br>
~if you had the power to kill me, why didn't you?~<br>
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                <title>kill me please...it's all iask</title>
                <link>http://deviousmistressx.deviantart.com/journal/711746/</link>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 11 May 2003 16:33:54 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ok so screw the whole thought of being happy and having jay again.  nope. he told me to leave him alone again. yeah i'm crying my eyes out  but who cares? hai, i hate myself again. not to mention the fact that  my self esteem took a nose dive. the only good thing that happened  saturday/sunday....i went up to saft to get beccie and ended up getting  to stay for an hour. i played while being bondagestrapped to ryan and i  was happy that way. yes i like ryan...and alex...he's really sweet and  ya...i can't say much more b/c i'm too thinky. davin is being such a  sweetheart to me. ok well back to sat/sun...me and beccie left saft and  went to mr. wizards. waited for billy. walked halfway back and tep came  and picked us up...drove billy home...we went to teps dance recital. we  had one ticket left so we went and picked up billy again. they cuddled  the whole time. i felt alone. but whatelse is new. when it was over  beccie came home with me and spent the night. we talked about ALOT and  then went to sleep. i woke up this morning and had to puke so i went  upstairs and layed down for 2 hours then went to wake beccie and tep  up. talked to beccie for upwards to 4 hours straight. she said if i got  good at PA...my stamina is good so i could possibly become something  that i won't write in here b/c it could quite possibly make someone  mad. =\ but that's what is exciting to me. so i must get good at PA.  :must must must: well i'm uber sad and me and beccie gotta do soemthing  soemtime again soon like very soon. our new friday plans are good. so  i'll be happy then. maybe. blah o well. i'm going. bye<br>
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i wuv: davin, staci, lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie, ryan, joshy,  josh, steven, alex,  honora, kowz, and others<br>
~if you had the power to kill me, why didn't you?~<br>
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                <title>friday night</title>
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                <pubDate>Sat, 10 May 2003 05:48:44 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ok cuz i know all of you care..you get to hear about my friday night!  whee! i got there last night and a lotta people were up there. i of  course gave my beccie a hug, and amanda and will and andy and omg i  finally got to hug jay for the first time in like four months (ok maybe  only like 1 but it seemed like forever!)...i was so happy. then my  night went downhill. i sat in the corner by myself and thougth and drew  a really...er....lovely picture. well then me, beccie and billy went on  a walk to shunks and sat in the parking lot for awhile. when we came  back we just sat in the floor away from everyone and talked. mario came  over and talked with us and so did steven and lauren. well then alex  came up to ronnies and was a sweetie. he talked to me soooooo much.(not  to mention had chicken on me....) and ryan...wow he's a cute one....i  sat with ryan and alex talking and yeah. me and ryan played a bunch and  we had fun. paul came over and asked me a very odd question..i was  completely weirded out. then i gave jay another hug and the rest of my  credits and me, ryan, alex and billy left. ryan went to find his car  but not before he gave me a big hug. alex and billy came home in my car  and we had to drop off matt b/c his car broke <br>
him: "first god gives me a small penis and now my car broke down!"<br>
haha it was great! then we came back and dropped alex off. then came  near our house and dropped billy off then came home. i went STRAIGHT to  sleep. <br>
ok i gotta go to dance now....bai bai! i'm hopefully going to saft  today...:hope hope hope: but not until after or before tep's dance  recital. bleh. ok well i'm going now!<br>
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i wuv: staci, lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie, ryan, joshy, josh,  steven, imza, jay, alex, davin, honora, kowz, and others<br>
~if you had the power to kill me, why didn't you?~<br>
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                <title>yup hell! w00t</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 06 May 2003 15:52:14 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <b>The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to <i>the Fifth Level of Hell!</i></b><br>
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:<br>
<b>Level</b><b>Score</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#0">Purgatory</a></b> (Repenting Believers)<br>
<b>Very Low</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#1">Level 1 - Limbo</a></b> (Virtuous Non-Believers)<br>
<b>Very Low</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#2">Level 2</a></b> (Lustful)<br>
<b>High</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#3">Level 3</a></b> (Gluttonous)<br>
<b>Low</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#4">Level 4</a></b> (Prodigal and Avaricious)<br>
<b>Low</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#5">Level 5</a></b> (Wrathful and Gloomy)<br>
<b>Extreme</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#6">Level 6 - The City of Dis</a></b> (Heretics)<br>
<b>Very High</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#7">Level 7</a></b> (Violent)<br>
<b>Very High</b><br>
<b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#8">Level 8- the Malebolge</a></b> (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)<b>Moderate</b><br>
<b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#9">Level 9 - Cocytus</a></b> (Treacherous)<br>
<b>Moderate</b><br>
<b>Take the <a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-test.mv">Dante Inferno Hell Test</a></b><br>
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i wuv: staci, lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie,  joshy, josh,  steven, imza, jay, alex, davin, honora, kowz, and others<br>
~if you had the power to kill me, why didn't you?~<br>
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                <title>yup hell! w00t</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 06 May 2003 15:39:15 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ <b>The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to <i>the Fifth Level of Hell!</i></b> Here is how you matched up against all the levels:<b>Level</b><b>Score</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#0">Purgatory</a></b>  (Repenting Believers)<b>Very Low</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#1">Level 1 - Limbo</a></b> (Virtuous Non-Believers)<b> Very Low</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#2">Level 2</a></b> (Lustful)<b>High</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#3">Level 3</a></b> (Gluttonous)<b>Low</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#4">Level 4</a></b> (Prodigal  and Avaricious)<b>Low</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#5">Level 5</a></b> (Wrathful and Gloomy)<b>Extreme</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#6">Level 6 - The  City of Dis</a></b> (Heretics)<b>Very High</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#7">Level 7</a></b> (Violent)<b>Very High</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#8">Level 8- the  Malebolge</a></b> (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)<b>Moderate</b><b><a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html#9">Level 9 - Cocytus</a></b>  (Treacherous)<b>Moderate</b><b>Take the <a href="http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-test.mv">Dante Inferno Hell Test</a></b>i wuv: staci,  lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie,  joshy, josh, steven, imza, jay,  alex, davin, honora, kowz, and others<br>
~if you had the power to kill me, why didn't you?~<br>
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                <title>blah</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 06 May 2003 11:27:51 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ hi! i'm zick! izn't that juzt lovely? ok well anywayz..i have found out  who i really like and bleh!!!!! i mean...i'm not gonna be able to get  him! yez it kinda zuckz but he zaid i never know. thiz could be good?  hehe zo i'm proud of mario for what he did...it'z good for him...and  now...zome good might come out of it! i'll be zo happy if mario iz  truely happy and getz what he wantz!!! it doezn't matter if i don't get  what i want..i don't matter to myzelf anymore really. there iz one  thing in my life that i really truely need and i'll never again have  it...yez...it makez me cry worze than anything and i hate it but o  well, who carez right? if only wizhez came true...but ha no they won't.  my life zuckz now...i hate me. doyle iz talking to me and trying to  make me feel better tiz working. i love you doyle!!!! i'm really in  need of thiz and all i need iz zomeone to talk to...alex i need you  home! i need to talk to zomeone! gah!!!!!! zo...a lot of people are  going to my zhow that i didnt' know of uh ohz...well...now that i'm  totally pizzed off..i'm gonna go...i've ztarted deciding who'z comin to  my party type thing (it'z ddr people...if you don't like ddr, zuckz for  you! MWA HA HA) well...i'm goin.....:wavez a zarcaztic goodbye:  t(;.;t)i wuv: mario, staci, lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie,   joshy, josh, steven, alex, davin, honora, kowz, and others<br>
~if you had the power to kill me, why didn't you?~<br>
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                <title>ztill hate...</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 04 May 2003 18:52:55 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ok so friday...disaster.....i was kinda eh-y all day long at school and  it was all fine and then i went to ronnies and sat with people talking  to them for awhile...it was nice. i was really happy with beccie,  alex...all of the people up there and then staci and laura got there  and staci gave me a hug and kinda held on to me for awhile and made me  happy...jay walked in and i dropped my head in her lap and bawled my  eyes out for what seemed forever. bleh. this is seeming to be a new  tradition that i don't like. well...other than that...i had fun with  kyle, alex, josh, beccie, josh, staci...everyone....and then i talked  to andy....that wasn't so good of an idea. i feel more horrible than  ever now. i also feel horrible that i just realized who i like.  b/c....i can't have them....:le sigh: o well i'll get over it....sooner  or later. ok so overall....friday sucked b/c i realized who i  liked....and i felt used also..but i won't go inot that. <br>
saturday....went to dance...got my outfit for the  recital....HOOCHIE!??!?! i don't like it! it's cute but...i feel so  exposed in it! :whines: then i went to crestwood and played waaay too  much ddr and then walked around with joshy talking and we had fun. then  i went to work...bleh<br>
today...went shopping with mom...whee got some hippie shirts....figured  out what i'm going to buy from HT and then also i'm starting to figure  out what i'm doing for graduation party <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_smile.gif" align="middle" alt="=) (Smile)" title="=) (Smile)" border="0" />  i get 100 bux and i also  getta have a fun party....whee....i'm talking to megan again....she  said i drifted and she still loves me and i still love her so we are  going to become close again <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_smile.gif" align="middle" alt="=) (Smile)" title="=) (Smile)" border="0" />  love you momma! so i'll get back to this  later <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_biggrin.gif" align="middle" alt="=D (Big Grin)" title="=D (Big Grin)" border="0" />  bai bai ...... :feels a little better now that talking to  steven, alex, davin, mario: i love you guys!i wuv: mario, staci,  lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie,  joshy, josh, steven, alex,  davin, honora, kowz, and others<br>
~if you had the power to kill me, why didn't you?~<br>
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                <title>i.hate.me.so.much</title>
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                <pubDate>Fri, 02 May 2003 04:54:41 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ since tuesday....all i've done is work....my grades are dropping and so  is my self-respect. i hate waking up in the morning to see a new day. i  just wish i could go away and never see the light of another day..b/c  frankly i don't deserve it. i only (as of right now) know of 3 people  outside of my family, yeah family includes Staci, that would care if i  died and they are who keeps me alive, Honora, Mario, Beccie...i love  you guys so much. i don't know what i'd do without you....well i do but  yeah, i won't go into that...<br>
<br>
yesterday, thursday, was my first day off since monday. i did exactly  what i did on monday just with different person. i went to crestwood to  play EX (expensive as hell at crestwood $2 for 3 stages...that's why  you should play nonstop!) with Staci. i was in such a good mood just to  be with her b/c she's my love, my sister, my best friend, the one i  cherish to have. she cares about me the most out of everyone i know. we  played and at about 8:15ish jay walks in the door....i'm still playing  but i see him out of the corner of my eye....i begin to do horribly..my  heart begins to race and i begin to hold back tears. i can't do  it....me and staci fail the last song and i jump off the pad and run  out of tilt..i ran straight into the door and nearly fell down the  steps and then slammed into the other door. once outside i did nothing  but bawl my eyes out. i miss him so much you people have no idea...and  i'm stuck with the fact that i'll die unhappy without that best guy  friend that i had for a long while...i know he doesn't care but..i  truely do love him so much and i wish i wouldn't have been so dumb and  seen that he was hurting. i didn't b/c i'm naive. due to my stupidity  he hates me and i've been depressed ever since...i've been hiding it  well but i can't any longer. (one reason i break up with people is b/c  even they can't make me happy) he brings certain lyrics into my head:<br>
"i love you, i hate you, i can't live without you...." the hate is not  true. i hate myself not him. i did this, not him. i'm at fault, not  him...i take all blame and i hope i deserve to be unhappy b/c he was  for so long and he had no help. i just wish i could take it all back,  included some events, and get him back and show him how much he really  means to me...but i can't. and that kills meh. i love you jay, no  matter what...i know you hate me and don't want to hear that..but i'll  never stop loving you. you meant the world to me and i let you fall and  i'm sorry. i'm sorry you hate me, i'm sorry i'm a bitch, i'm sorry i  changed, i'm sorry i didn't listen, i'm sorry i told you that what i  did that last night we ever talked, i'm sorry i bitched at you that i  didn't change, and lastly, i'm sorry i lost you. i'd give up everything  except for 2 things just to have you back....i'm sorry i'm a fuck up  jay......<br>
andy, i'm also sorry for being a bitch to you...i'm sorry for being  sarcastic with you, sorry for treating you the way i did, and sorry for  everything. you deserved so much better than me and when we lost each  other, i grew bitter to everyone....i'm so sorry......<br>
mrkowz, i'm sorry for being a bitch to you also, i'm sorry it didn't  last long...and i'm sorry if i hurt you. <br>
staci, sorry for making you put up with me, i love you dearly and i  don't ever want to loose the best person in the world, mah sexshee  mama..:laughs softly:<br>
everyone else, you will get your apologies in time but i really needed  to get those ones out.<br>
<br>
my sister told me a secret last night and i felt that she actually  loved me...that was a good feeling. i love you, teppie.<br>
<br>
tonight i'm going to ronnies.....w00t...prolly gonna be weird....i  won't be myself i know that..='(<br>
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i have to go to school now.....i love you guys that i appologized  to...i really do, please always know that.....<br>
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i wuv: mario, staci, lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie, sammie,  alex, joshy, josh, steven, honora, kowz, imza and others<br>
~if you had the power to kill me, why didn't you?~<br>
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                <title>weird day</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 29 Apr 2003 13:55:40 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ this morning i get up and feel sick as hell....i feel like throwing up  and i'm in a pissy mood...that's always fun! :sarcasm: so i come  downstairs, talk to kowz and kyle...do homework...start thinking..never  a good thing. i talk to kowz for a bit and then break up with him. this  time i can absolutely 100% garuntee you all it was because of age. i  had a sick feeling in my stomach when my mom would tlak to me about how  i should get a guy that's 14 or 15 and go out with him and be happy.  and she's like maybe even freshly 16...but no older..:bang: yea that  was a blow...so yea...here i am....i'm going into blahness for awhile  to get my head straight...there's 3 things that are confusing me right  now but i won't go into them....so..yea that's my morning....<br>
at school....fell asleep in all morning classes....drew in all  afternoon classes...and i heard EVERYTHING the teacher said so i didn't  get in trouble for it <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_smile.gif" align="middle" alt="=) (Smile)" title="=) (Smile)" border="0" />  my teachers were all looking at my drawings and  were amazed. it was a really good feeling. i came home...mario's gonna  call meh...that'll be good...i'm going to go....bai bai (lauren we have  to do something soon!!!! same goes for meymey!!!)i wuv: mario, staci,  lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie, sammie, alex, joshy, josh,  steven, honora, kowz, imza and others<br>
~mwah and owwiebiteofdoom!~<br>
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                <title>bad ash n staci....</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 27 Apr 2003 09:19:03 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ok i feel horrible. yesterday me and staci had so many people we love  worried really bad. we took caffine pills. (yes i know they are bad and  i've gotten yelled at already about it) and they took their effect on  us. we both started shaking horribly and both were ready to puke on  each other. neither one of us could really stand up and after i  competed in the tournament and lost to the chick that gave me the pills  i basically collapsed onto kowzy. then i started shaking really bad and  he made me sit down. i felt really bad and couldn't stand myself for  this all. last night work was hell and after friday's account of being  knocked out...this weekend was painful. o yea friday i had a wrestling  move pulled on me which resulted in me blacking out 2 or 3 times. i'm  sorry i worried so many people this weekend...and anyone who didn't  care. im sorry you had to watch us being worried about. staci i love  you and you better look at your comments. :hugz: and kowzy....im so fkn  sorry. you have no idea...:hugznkizzez: andy...sorry i was "faking"  sorry it "didn't really affect me" sorry i was "exaggerating". i still  luv ya just b/c you stopped smoking. but...i really wish you weren't so  cruel. <br>
i'm outie<br>
~bai<br>
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i wuv: kowzy, staci, lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie, sammie,  alex, joshy, josh, steven, honora and others<br>
~mwah and owwiebiteofdoom!~<br>
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                <title>good song...</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 24 Apr 2003 08:08:26 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ We used to drive all night<br>
We'd get hi all the time<br>
She used to call me all the time<br>
Now she don't<br>
She used to call me all the time<br>
We'd go out all the time<br>
You little angel, you look so fine<br>
<br>
Why the fuck you fucking with me<br>
Why the fuck you playing with me<br>
Why the fuck you wasting my time<br>
Why the fuck you hiding my sunshine<br>
<br>
With friends like you who really needs it<br>
Your smiling face is misplaced, you're so deceiving<br>
I can feel my spirit leaving<br>
I cut my wrists you see them bleeding<br>
Just like a parasite you creeping<br>
See me psychotic, see me jumping of the deep end<br>
<br>
We used to drive all night<br>
W'e'd get hi all the time<br>
She used to call me all the time<br>
Now she don't<br>
She used to call me all the time<br>
We'd  go out all the time<br>
But that's  over and its done, and its all right, oh yeah<br>
<br>
Why won't you just leave me alone<br>
Why won't you take your funky ass on home<br>
You got nothing to say that I want to hear<br>
I see through you, you perfectly clear<br>
<br>
With friends like you who really needs it<br>
Your smiling face is misplaced, you're so deceiving<br>
I can feel my spirit leaving<br>
I cut my wrists you feel them bleeding<br>
Just like a parasite you creeping<br>
Suffer like the fucking crucifixion<br>
Cover me with dirt, there won't be no resurrection<br>
See me psychotic, see me jumping off the deep end<br>
<br>
We used to drive all night<br>
We'd get hi all the time<br>
She used to call me all the time<br>
Now she don't<br>
She used to call me all the time<br>
We'd  go out all the time<br>
You little angel, you  look so fine<br>
<br>
If I told you  how I felt, you would throw it back at me<br>
Your wicked mouth would laugh at me<br>
I hear you laughing at me<br>
Your eyes could never lie to me<br>
Words are all lies to me, it's all lies to me<br>
<br>
With friends like you who really needs it<br>
Your smiling face is misplaced, your so deceiving<br>
I can feel my spirit leaving<br>
You cut my wrists, you feel them bleeding<br>
Just like a parasite you creeping<br>
Baby got me psychotic, got me jumping of the deep end<br>
Pac Bell - Hed (PE)<br>
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On another note now....I was supposted to wake up this morning at 5  with Kowzy, I ended up getting sick and throwing up last night so...I  slept in. Yesterday we went to Ronnie's...that was interesting..OMG  MARIO IS MY NEW FAVORITE BUDDY!!! ok now that that's out of my system <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_smile.gif" align="middle" alt="=) (Smile)" title="=) (Smile)" border="0" />   Staci and I are going to Ronnie's today it shall beh fun. ok i'm not  typing anymore...d/L my song! it's soooo good!<br>
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i wuv: kowzy, staci, lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie, sammie,  alex, joshy, josh, steven, honora and others<br>
~mwah and owwiebiteofdoom!~ ]]></description>
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                <title>total sleep deprivation!!!</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 23 Apr 2003 03:48:32 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ eek it's 530 am ..... i woke up at 5 after going to sleep at 1 and  waking up from 3-4 from brain overthinking :mutters provanities at  brain: ok so the only reason i'm awake...i promised kowz that i would  actually get up this mornin. lol....yea how fun is that...spring  break..brain says dumbass your supposta be asleep....body says get up i  don't want to lay here anymore.....damn the body won! so i'm now awake  and wrapped up in mah blanket and talking to mah kowz...bai everyone  :curls up and rolls away:<br>
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i wuv: kowzy, staci, lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie, sammie,  alex, joshy, josh, steven, honora and others<br>
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                <title>blah</title>
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                <pubDate>Tue, 22 Apr 2003 12:52:02 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ me=drop out of pom tryouts. i didn't want to be a pommer. they're too  rah rah-y. monday...sucked except for talking to mah mrkowz. i had  tryouts..the routine is so cute but i don't wnat to be a pommer so blah  i'm nto gonna be one. anyways i would have been cut b/c i suck. after  that i had to work...i got off an hour and 15 minutes earli due to non  busy-ness. so i came home....took a shower and got on to talk to kowz.  then i went upstairs and tried to go to sleep..didn't end up going to  sleep until after 2 hours of laying there thinking...that sucked. <br>
this morning also sucked..i woke up at 1 and came downstairs and  decided to call mom and tell her i didn't want to be a pommer. she  flipped out but i didn't care. i'm gonna be more happy now b/c i don't  have to see my name as cut. ha. o well...tonight i'm either going to  ronnie's or crestwood..most likely have to go to crestwood b/c my  parents are weird and no one except for meh and kowz would be at  ronnies and god forbid that. :grumble: my sister is going to crestwood  to ddr and i'd like to see that anyways so <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_shrug.gif" align="middle" alt="Shrug" title="Shrug" border="0" />  o well i'm gonna go get  ready to leave....cuz i wanna leave with mah sister. bai!i wuv: kowzy,  staci, lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie, sammie, alex, joshy, josh,  steven, honora and others<br>
~mwah and owwiebiteofdoom!~ ]]></description>
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                <title>boring weekend</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 20 Apr 2003 20:34:35 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ok so let's  see....wednesday...sucked...thursday...rocked...friday....got a  physical (2 shots included yowies), packed...left for the farm. w00t?  no not really...i drew all friday night...got 2 pictures out of that.  saturday..woke up....got ready and went to Columbia to shop...that only  took 2 hours to get there...i got some cool arm warmer thingys, a ring,  anklet and ear cuff. w00t....my aunt bitched the whole time that we  were looking for HER specifically so we left and drove the way back..i  drew 3 more pictures.....sunday..woke up and got ready for church.yee  haw..my papa's a preacher and he makes it funny so whee....uh..i got  hit on by my 2 friends down there that are the biggest hoosiers haha  they're great though..i told them i was taken and their jaws dropped  "WHAT?!" hahhahaha i got a kick out of it. "so we were talking about  you last week and were like god ashley better be coming on easter and  here you are! :hugz: you better be coming at least one more time b4  windermere and you better be going to windermere!" haha yea  whatever...went home...drew a few more pictures...fell asleep for like  10 minutes....then packed up and headed home...whee. fell asleep in the  car...came home....was bored...called mah kowz and he told me to pay  her to drive me to ronnies or saft....i told her that and she's all ok!  so she drove meh to ronnie's to see kowzy...i was happy. got there at  8, played a lot...played mah edit like 2 or 3 times...whee i love  it...kowz powns it :shakes fist at you: damn you! <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_razz.gif" align="middle" alt="=P (Razz)" title="=P (Razz)" border="0" />  lol well....we had  to be home bah 930 so we left at 915....got home at 929 and 59  seconds..it was awesome whee. so i came home...didn't have to pay tep  b/c she's a moron and was like "i go on till 10 you don't have to pay  me" deal! it was already 945 when she said that <img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_biggrin.gif" align="middle" alt="=D (Big Grin)" title="=D (Big Grin)" border="0" />  hehe....well i'm  talking to mrkowz now so i r to beh going....bai bai!<br>
.:mwah:.<br>
i wuv: kowzy, staci, lauren, kyle, meymey, teppie, beccie, sammie,  alex, joshy, josh, steven, honora and others<br>
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                <title>kill lauren! lol</title>
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                <pubDate>Thu, 17 Apr 2003 21:53:34 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ ok so my day=great<br>
i woke up at 12...cleaned till 4 took a shower and got cute (just to  get gross again while ddring lol) and went to pick up lauren to go to  saft. got to saft....kowzy and jared were sitting at the tables and i  went over and kicked kowzy's foot cuz he looked dead hehe. jared left  and we went down to play some ddr...well...a LOT of ddr...lol. sat down  and messed around for awhile..whee and we had fun...other events made  my night happy too ^.^ night night...i leave you with teh quizzie of  doom! mwa ha ha!<br>
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01. Name: Ashley<br>
02. Nicknames: Ash, Shlee, Shwee, Shnee, Ashshashwee, Noogie, NJ,  Smiley, Babydoll, Gabe...etc.<br>
03. Screen name[s]: Stealthinfinity7, iroppoidemon<br>
04. Age: 14<br>
05. Year: 8th<br>
06. GPA: ?<br>
07. Sex: female<br>
08. Birthday: December 15<br>
09. Zodiac sign: Sagittarius<br>
10. Hospital where you were born: Missouri Baptist<br>
11. Location: San Luis<br>
12. Height: 5'4 or 5'5<br>
13. Hair Color: light brown/blonde/reddish<br>
14. Big Hands or Small Hands: I have wittle hands<br>
15. Eye color: baby blue<br>
16. Siblings:1 sister<br>
17. Parents names: Diana and Tom<br>
18. Hobbies: DDR, dancing, sleeping, having fun, biting people, talking  to the people I love? lol<br>
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The "CRUSH" Side: <br>
19. Crush: ?<br>
20. Girlfriend/Boyfriend: yes<br>
21. If you could go out with anyone in the world, who would it be? :  Iunno<br>
22. Who was your first crush ? jack ryan...preschool ha<br>
23. What do you first notice about the opposite sex?: ummm face i guess<br>
24. Your idea of a perfect date: I dunno nor do i care<br>
25. Are you romantic: I dunno never tried to be?<br>
26. Biggest turn-on: LMAO do I have to list them?! Ill name 1...the  one that I have most fun with..biting necks and ears..<img src="http://images.deviantart.com/emoticons/icon_lick.gif" align="middle" alt=":p (Lick)" title=":p (Lick)" border="0" /> yrr:<br>
27. Ideal girl/guy: I dunno<br>
28. Most sweetest thing that happened to you today: I cant  say...hehehe<br>
29. Memory [thing] you miss most: I dunno<br>
30. If you could go back in time, where would you go? I dunno<br>
31. Thing that you regretted doing after you had done it: I dunno<br>
32. Memory you would like to forget: I dunno<br>
33. What'd you do yesterday?: School the tilt<br>
34. Last person you talked to on the phone: momma<br>
35. Last thing you said to him/her: bye<br>
36. Last song you listened to: Let the bodies hit the floor by drowning  pool<br>
37. TV show you wish they would re-air again: hmm....rainbow brite?<br>
38. Occupation: Student and employee of Mr. Wizards frozen custard..o  yea..thats fun<br>
39. Dream Car: ooo fast and the furious car! I already know how Im  gonna pimp that thing up! Whee<br>
40. Marriage: Who would marry me is the question?<br>
41. Kids: ???<br>
42. Future son's name: Cody, Cory, Blaize, or Dakota<br>
43. Future daughter's name: Zoe, Lauren, Alexia, or  Kori<br>
44. Honeymoon: somewhere fun<br>
45. Where will you live? Japan!<br>
46. What are you doing tomorrow?: packing/doctor/out of town<br>
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The FAVORITES Side <br>
47. Food: cantalope<br>
48. Breakfast, Lunch, or Dinner: eh49. TV show: iunno<br>
50. Movie: Resident Evil, Lilo & Stitch...<br>
51. CD: a lot of mine are fun!<br>
52. Band/Group: too many<br>
54. Color/s: black red purple and silver<br>
55. Actor: no idea<br>
56. Actress: No idea<br>
57. Weekend Activity: DDR<br>
58. favorite day of the week: Friday<br>
59. Month: July (warm!)<br>
60. Book: Precious Victims<br>
61. Holiday: 4th of July whee<br>
62. Number:64<br>
63. Cookie: iunno<br>
64. Phrase you overuse: Bite Meh<br>
65. Toothpaste: stuff that makes your breath smell good ^.^<br>
66. Ice Cream: none I work at an ice cream place...I dont like ice  cream anymore<br>
67. Candy Bar/Candy: eh none<br>
68. Teacher: none<br>
70. Restaurant: Pasta House<br>
71. Channel: Cartoon Network<br>
72. Radio Station: The Point<br>
73. Type of music: Metal, Techno, Dance<br>
74. Shampoo/Conditioner: If it smells good and not tested on animals.<br>
75. Song: There are many, but three that I absolutely adore are my  immortal, my tourniquet and haunted by evanescence<br>
76. Music Video: Phantom of the Opera (anime music video)<br>
77. Sport: DDR, if you consider it a sport.<br>
78. Website: deviantart<br>
79. Relative: my sister<br>
<br>
The "PEOPLE YOU KNOW" Side: <br>
82. Best Friends: Staci, Beccie, Megan, Lauren....other people<br>
83. most admired person: Megan<br>
84. Most loved person: My friends<br>
<br>
The "ONE OR THE OTHER" Side: <br>
85. *N Sync OR BSB: neither.....yuck<br>
86. Peanut butter OR Jelly: Peanut Butter<br>
87. coke or pepsi: yuck neither! Mountain dew products all the way!<br>
88. Boxers OR Briefs: I dunno<br>
89. Matt OR Ben: Bob<br>
90. MTV OR VH1: neither<br>
100. Apples OR Oranges: Oranges<br>
101. Vanilla OR Chocolate: neither<br>
102. Flowers OR Candy: Candy<br>... ]]></description>
                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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                <title>grrr</title>
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                <pubDate>Wed, 16 Apr 2003 21:29:29 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ Five Songs you know the words to, even without the music: <br>
1. Only You<br>
2. Tourniquet<br>
3. Haunted<br>
4. My Immortal<br>
5. Nothing Else Matters<br>
<br>
Five Games you like:<br>
1. DDR Max2<br>
2. DDR Extreme<br>
3. DDR 5th Mix<br>
4. Stepmania<br>
5. ?<br>
<br>
Five Albums that have changed your life: <br>
1. Evanescence<br>
2. Cradle of Filth<br>
3. Slipknot<br>
4. Mudvayne<br>
5. Disturbed<br>
<br>
Five Things you can't live without: <br>
1. My friends<br>
2. DDR<br>
3. Family<br>
4. Caffine<br>
5. Pentagram<br>
<br>
Five things you would buy with $1000: <br>
1. Anime<br>
2. PS2<br>
3. DDR metal pad<br>
4. DDR for ps2<br>
5. Clothes<br>
<br>
Top Five Locations I want to run away to: <br>
1. Japan<br>
2. California<br>
3. Alaska (seals! polar bears! penguins!)<br>
4. Someones house ^.~<br>
5. Death <br>
<br>
Name four bad habits you have: <br>
1. Knocking myself down<br>
2. Sadness over things that should have gotten through my head by now<br>
3. Oddness<br>
4. Giddiness at times<br>
<br>
Name 4 drinks you drink regularly: <br>
1. Code Red<br>
2. Mountain Dew<br>
3. Juice<br>
4. Water<br>
Name 4 Websites you recommend: <br>
1. <a href="http://www.ddrstl.com">[link]</a><br>
2. <a href="http://www.addictinggames.com">[link]</a><br>
3. n/a<br>
4. n/a<br>
<br>
Five Things you love about yourself: <br>
1. N<br>
2. O<br>
3. N<br>
4. E<br>
<br>
Five qualities of your perfect mate: (what the hell?)<br>
1. Funny<br>
2. Nice<br>
3. Honest<br>
4. Friend<br>
5. Cute wouldnt hurt ^.~ (what the hell am I talking about? cute isnt  a factor when you look like meh...take what you can find..you just get  lucky sometimes ^.^<br>
<br>
goddamn these quizzie things! <br>
<br>
ok this is how i feel: FUCK YOU<br>
current music: Sakura ~DDR Extreme<br>
current obsession: blood, pain, sharp objects and some other things<br>
<br>
ok...monday=boring, tuesday=boring, today=last day of prison until  probation (last day of school till break). so today started break...and  what a hell of a day it has been  yea....my day has sucked. started out  peachy. i was in a GREAT mood b/c i was going to crestwood....read  andy's away message...great he's going too...well that means beccie  will be there yay! uhm....read jays...GREAT he's going  too.....wow....that's a double-sucking blow. so...i got jay a birthday  present...i get the picture that he REALLY hates me when he leaves it.  i cry for awhile when i get home...i get over it when he IMs me..then  it's pure rage. i go off on him....and it was well deserved. so....i  put many people in bad moods..and i'm talking to kowzy right  now...whee! so i'm gonna go do that....bai bai.i wuv: staci, kowzy,  kyle, meymey, teppie, lauren, beccie, sammie, alex, joshy, josh,  steven, honora and others<br>
~mwah~ ]]></description>
                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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                <title>blah</title>
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                <pubDate>Sun, 13 Apr 2003 20:06:12 PDT</pubDate>
                
                <description><![CDATA[ so here i am...i'm confused. i'm kinda bleh right now. regretting  certain things and other things, rejoicing over. <br>
<br>
yesterday sucked...i woke up at 8...went to dance..babysat...got called  into work 3 1/2 hours earli cuz tep was swamped....ended up getting off  work 1 1/2 hours late. so my day sucked, came home...realized jay hates  me with a passion, got chewed out then blocked by him and got chewed  out by andy then blocked him....danielle and lauren and kowzy were the  ones being nice ^.^<br>
today..shopping and ddr....nuff said...<br>
going to bed now....bai baii wuv: staci, kowzy, kyle, jay, meymey,  teppie, lauren, beccie, sammie, alex, joshy, josh, steven, honora and  others<br>
~mwah~ ]]></description>
                <author>~deviousmistressx</author>
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