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<~tea-and-oranges>

Not much there yet. But it's me, so if you see some of my old stuff from here appearing there, worry not.

And watch it! I'mma be updating it and stuff. 'Cause I miss my e-homies.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/7711545/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/7711545/ Thu, 26 Jan 2006 08:26:41 PST
Then I couldn't sleep because I was afraid someone would brutally murder me and serve me as pizza toppings.

Ladies and gentlemen: my thought process. ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/7674195/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/7674195/ Sun, 22 Jan 2006 09:09:44 PST
Still busy as hell, still working at Little Sister's. Not much else to say, really, except that I am in love with a girl who slings coffee and she has no idea. I am a sad, sad person.

So, um. I keep feeling the need to apologize for my absence. I keep thinking, "hey, I should get back to DeviantArt", but then... I don't. I don't even have an excuse not to. It just doesn't happen. And it's one of those things that's really optional so I can't FORCE myself into doing it, because I'm busy forcing myself into other things.

Anyway, that's the news.

Laura out. ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/6992259/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/6992259/ Tue, 08 Nov 2005 16:14:53 PST
News, news.... well, I'm out of school. For all that animation training - which I loved at first but came to despise with every fibre of my being, kiddies, if you love to draw, for the love of god DO NOT study animation - I know have a job in a bookstore. Some of you may know it. It's called Little Sister's.

Yes, that Little Sister's. The nice, clean, respectable downtown Vancouver bookstore that also happens to sell a fine assortment of gay porn and sex toys. You might have heard some of the hoopla about books of ours getting stopped at the US border a while back? I am fully looking forward to hassling the border guards again. I intend to call them weekly and yell into the phone, "GIMME MAH GAY PORN, BITCHES!"

I am still working on comic stuff, but am mostly breaking from that at the moment because money is good, especially after wasting tons of it on an education that sucked ass.

I moved! I live in Richmond now. The commute to work is hell, but Dianne is close by at least. I really need a car.

Um.

That's all the major stuff, really.

I do miss DA and fully intend on coming back. When I actually have the time to keep up with it. There's no drama here, I just honestly have not had the energy to check in and comment and upload stuff on a regular basis.

I still love you all. Thanks for being patient.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/5978823/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/5978823/ Tue, 19 Jul 2005 15:29:31 PDT
I'm so sorry to cut out on everyone for so long. School has eaten my life and I've had like no time for anything, and it's only going to get worse. I've got some stuff I'd like to upload but it's not finished, because I haven't been able to finish anything lately. It's not that I'm not inspired, it's just that if I don't get marked on it it doesn't take priority.

D-house, I have the picture you ordered, but forget about payment. I'm just sorry I took so damn long to do it, so it's yours free. I couldn't possibly ask you to pay me after I took so long.

On the bright side, my 2-D class is almost over - I'm finishing up my final project for it this week - so that's a load off. (Granted, another class has sprung right up to take it's place but still.)

Anyway. Um. uploading stuff... I'll probably be doing that sometime this week or next week. Give me time to go through my stuff and actually find the artwork that's worth posting. And if you comment and I don't comment back, it's nothing personal, I've just fallen off the face of the earth.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/5555499/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/5555499/ Sat, 04 Jun 2005 21:44:12 PDT
-unwrap character in Maya. Only 4000 triangles to place... sigh.

-commision for d-house (almost done the inks!)

-inks for pages six to ten of Breaking News. Script and do layout for the next fourteen pages.

-storyboards for "Ministry of Silly Walks" sketch (for 2D animation class)

-kick in the face of every artist who draws turned-up noses and calls it "Gorillaz style". YOU MAKE JAMIE HEWLETT CRY.

-finish animating walk cycle.

In other news - ZOMG THEY ARE MAKING A MOVIE OF RENT!

Rent is officially the greatest musical ever.

And they're making a movie!

I have been listening to the soundtrack since Friday morning in celebration.


To days of inspiration
Playing hookie, making something out of nothing
The need to express
To communicate,
To going against the grain,
Going insane
Going mad

To loving tension, no pension
To more than one dimension,
To starving for attention,
Hating convention, hating pretension
Not to mention of course,
Hating dear old mom and dad

To riding your bike,
Midday past the three-piece suits
To fruits, to no absolutes
To Absolute - to choice
To the Village Voice
To any passing fad
To being an us-for once - instead of a them -

La Vie Boheme!


Um, I'm so excited. I am going to see this the night it opens and every day that it's in theatres. Yes, I love musicals. SHUT UP. Deep down, you love them too.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/5401034/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/5401034/ Thu, 19 May 2005 10:29:40 PDT
I love animating things. I love the way they move when you're done. There's something godlike about creating something that looks alive like that. It's a total rush.

You work fifty hours for thirty seconds of pure, undiluted joy.

And it's addictive as crack.

I can't do enough of it fast enough. I pumped out fifty frames yesterday in the span of four hours. Granted, they were pretty simple, but I was so fucking proud. And when I captured them and played them back I just sat there and watched and I was the happiest I'd ever been.

Seriously, if for the rest of my life I can just create things and make them move, I will die happy. It's magic.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/5215669/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/5215669/ Thu, 28 Apr 2005 18:45:42 PDT
OK, that's not true. It's just easier. At least for me. Much more text-based.

In other news, I'm back to not having a life. Sigh.

I realized today that - HEY! - the scraps gallery is there for a reason! So I'll be uploading stuff to scraps a lot now. Basically anything that I don't think is good but that I think some of you might want to see anyway. So if you're interested, watch my scraps too.

I wore a skirt today because it's been so warm lately, and OF COURSE by the time I got out of class it had clouded over and I shivered all the way home. Sigh again. Mine is such a tragic life. Nobody feels my pain. Except maybe the girl in the sundress that I saw on campus this morning. You know how you see some people and the image just sort of stays with you? She was kinda like that. Her dress was white with yellow flowers on it, and little straps. She had a nice sort of walk... jaunty, I guess you could call it.

*shrug* I don't know why I remembered that. I just did.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/5079589/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/5079589/ Wed, 13 Apr 2005 15:31:27 PDT


Both icons by ~aluminiumdonut. She is the shiznit. Or something to that effect.

Not much else to say... I'm uploading here, see? Really. Check it out. And comment, dammit, I'm an attention whore.

If I'm neglecting to comment on your stuff, it's not anything person, it's probably just absent-mindedness on my part. I may stuble across a piece of yours, like, MONTHS after you submit it and comment and be like, "Wow, this is great!!!!!111one I can't believe I didn't notice this!" When this happens, you are free to roll your eyes and think, "God, that Laura is such an airhead." I really don't mind. Truth is truth.

Oh! Guess what I have, right here? No, not the Batmobile. BETTER.

I have FIMO.

Do you remember Fimo? It's this modelling stuff that you bake in the oven. Comes in bright colours. I used to play with it all the time when I was a kid, and I have some now and it's very exciting. I know that's the silliest thing to get worked up over but still.

FIMO!

So the question is: What do I make with said Fimo?

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4894665/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4894665/ Wed, 23 Mar 2005 20:07:52 PST
I want to make comics and cartoons. That's the kind of art I want to do.

The people I saw last night want to change the world.

I was intimidated and somewhat put off at the same time. I mean, there was some GOOD art there. But there was also some stuff that I didn't really get, and that just seemed pointless. I was in awe of a huge painting of stars and bombers, in dazzling circles and constellations, but moments later I was scratching my head over a tray full of exactly nth number of red threads.

But even the red threads made me shrivel up inside, because it obviously meant something to the person who created it.

What do my comics mean to me? I mean, I put a lot into this sort of thing, and I love it, don't get me wrong. It's just...

I don't want to change the world, or dazzle people with my unique vision. I want to tell stories, and hopefully make a living doing it. That's all I've EVER wanted to do, be it with music or writing or theatre or anything I've ever done. My greatest aspiration is to shake Mike Mignola's hand, and maybe have something of mine featured in Wizard magazine. Sure, I fantasize about fame - who doesn't? - but in all honesty I don't expect to change anyone's life. Who even wants that responsibility?

But it's hard to hold to that when you're surrounded by people who expect you to break down and cry from the sheer beauty of their paintings. Who try to say something significant with one image. I have so much respect for them and what they're trying to do - really - that it makes me feel small and insignificant.

Who do I think I am? Really. What does my work say that's so fucking important? NOTHING.

I don't know if it's good or bad for me to be feeling this way. I don't feel inspired, exactly. It's hard to explain.

None of this is making any sense, is it?

Heh. Sorry. I'll stop.

What's wrong with me tonight? Jeez...

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4755347/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4755347/ Mon, 07 Mar 2005 20:21:10 PST
Comics from the eighties, though? TOTALLY make it all better. Especially the ones with th god-awful art that I pretend to only like in a mocking way, but really I actually do love them. I think there's something wrong with me but there it is.

So Sfe, Dianne and I have decided that when we're all sharing an apartment (I can hear all the teenage guys out there sitting up a little straighter to read more closely), we're gonna write a wacky sitcom about it and pitch it to a TV studio.

I'd watch it. Wouldn't you?

I feel like rambling tonight, so that's what I'm doing, in case you couldn't tell. That being said...

At Emily Carr, people write stuff in the bathroom stalls but no one erases it, because it's all funny. "OMG LOVES LOL FOREVER" was my favorite. There was a running debate on the merits of coffee in one - people would just add comments whenever they felt like it. "Caffiene stunts your groooooooowth!" one person wrote, adding a little picture of a... flying... goblin...thing (OK I have no idea what it was but you know what shut up). The person after that drew alittle picture of someone up late at night (as indicated by the little stars and moon in the background), with a thought bubble full of swirly things that I'm assuming were creative thoughts. "Caffiene helps my growth," they wrote.

How great is that?

Pretty damn great, I say.

*thealliance still rocks me hardcore-style. Gilmore Girl fans unite! Unite to hit Sfe, who insists that Lorelei and Luke will never get married and have adorable children. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I am a shipper. Shut up. You do it too. I know you do. Late at night, when no one's around, you just lie in bed shipping your little heart out...

...don't bother denying it.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4634189/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4634189/ Mon, 21 Feb 2005 00:45:32 PST
Mostly because I feel slightly ill.

I hate drama. And I hate being 18. And most of all I hate feeling this way because it's so STUPID.

Drama, though. Needs to die.

Not that I'm never a drama queen, Lord knows I am. But... uh...

Well, I can't think of anything to redeem myself there.

Note to self: BOUNDARIES ARE GOOD. Set them, you jerk.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4600759/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4600759/ Wed, 16 Feb 2005 18:01:39 PST
Love for ~Wyld-Child99 is still standing. GIVE HER YOUR LOVE! DO IT NOW!

I have a little plastic hedgehog perched on top of my computer. It's cute.

I want a pet hedgehog. So bad. They're so cute and small and round and... yeah. It's this thing with me. Laura wants a hedgehog.

Um...

Classes at Emily Carr are fun. We did life drawing the other day, and I swear one woman nearly fainted when she realized that the model was going to pose nude.

Just felt like sharing that, because it was amusing.

Hope everyone had a nice, non-bitter V-day.

PS: Dianne, STOP TRYING TO FORM YOUR OWN CULT ALL THE TIME. I know you want one. But it's just not cool.



]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4487680/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4487680/ Thu, 03 Feb 2005 11:19:27 PST

Hope that works. Oh well.

First off, some people you all need to love. ~Wyld-Child99 is going through a rough time right now; her mom is sick and possibly has cancer. Think good thoughts about them, or pray, or whatever it is you choose to do, depending on your faith. Just keep them in your mind.

Also, *christopher333 and his girlfriend Melissa just had a baby, who is wonderful and beautiful and is going to do her father proud, because Christopher is going to make the best dad. What, I'm not gushing. No, really. *shift eyes*

NOW. That being said...

Valentines Day approaches. It creeps towards us like some creeping Valentines Day thing. And you know what that means; it means that every single person is going to get drunk and/or eat a lot of chocolate and whine about how lonely/depressed/bitter they are.

Well, I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT. Not this time around, OK? You have all the rest of the year to do that. For one day a year, let's all try to focus on the wonderful people in our lives, and how great WE are as individuals, and let's not spend what's supposed to be the most romantic day of the year bitching about how it sucks to be single.

If you're single, you can still celebrate Valentines Day. I for one will be drawing gift art for all my friends, and I encourage you to do the same. You love your friends, right? Well, what better time to lavish attention upon them than V-Day.

And that concludes my ramblings for the day. Thank you for reading, if you did. And if you didn't, you suck. And you don't even know that I said that you suck because you aren't reading this, so ha!

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4455270/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4455270/ Sun, 30 Jan 2005 16:39:15 PST
*ahem*

OK, hypothetical question here. Say - just say - that ~aluminiumdonut and I wanted to publish our own comics, hardcore indy style (as in, out of my basement). Say that we talked about it and realized that we actually had the resources to do it, and do it fairy well. Say that we had a bunch of really talented artist-and/or-writer friends, and we thought bringing them into the publishing thing would be fun and... glee-making, but as I haven't had a chance to talk to them about it yet, as I wasn't even sure if all this had a chance of happening until a day or so ago, I'm not sure if they'd be into it.

But I'm hoping that they will. (I'm looking at you, Sfe.)

NOW. Pretend that this is the context and all, and then answer me this question:

What do you think of the name 'Mystery Meat Productions'?

Your input is greatly appreciated.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4432516/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4432516/ Thu, 27 Jan 2005 20:48:02 PST and . I'm amazed I got such a quick response to my last journal - makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. Or maybe that's because I'm sitting by the fire, listening to some radio program that's playing music from 14th century France. Either way, you two are still awesome, and I'm still really grateful.

And I promise to upload more art. I've been neglecting this account and it's really not cool. So I'll have some stuff up this weekend for you all, because you deserve more love than I've been giving you.

Once again, thank you so much to my subscription fairies. You guys rock hardcore.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4428482/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4428482/ Thu, 27 Jan 2005 12:38:03 PST
I want a subscription. You people - well, most of you, at least - like my art and (hopefully) want to see more.

THEREFORE, I am whoring my art out for a subscription. Think of it as a commission. I'll do pencils for a one-month subscription, lineart for a three-month subscription, and a completed piece - colours and all - for a year's subscription. Whatever you want, a character of yours, a favorite actor... I'll draw it and upload it here, and send you a print of it.

And if no one wants to trade a subscription for some Lemur-art, I'll only feel a little rejected. I may cry, though. You don't want to make me cry, do you? ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4371445/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4371445/ Thu, 20 Jan 2005 18:08:01 PST
Just a small one.

OK, maybe with some flailing.

That's understandable, right?

Not much to say, really... I just felt like I should make a new journal entry. Um.

People blowing up at Dianne on-line makes me so incredibly mad. Stabby stab stab stab stab. I mean, that has got to be the most cowardly thing... on-line drama. It's not like you actually have to face the consequences of your little hissy fit, 'cause you usually you don't have to see the person you're freaking out at face-to-face, so it's OK to just ream them out for stepping on your ego. Well, excuse me, but it's kind of hard NOT to tread on said ego when it's so freakin' huge it gets everywhere like some... oozing... doomy... thing.

Jerk.

And that's all I've got right now. ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4304537/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4304537/ Wed, 12 Jan 2005 17:22:29 PST
I got a package today from ~zombidrool (if you want to see more recent stuff of hers, though, head over to this [link] - that's her Sheezy page. Like me, she's been posting more stuff there than here.

ANYWAY. This package. It was full of art. FULL of art. Pages and pages of sketches she'd drawn for me and Dianne. Pictures of herself and her character and Dianne and myself and a couple of Abe Sapien, because I have a bit of a crush on him despite the fact that he's completely fictional. So now I'm all giddy and happy. Like the Littlest Elf.

Oh, that reminds me. Has anyone else here read those books? They are so good. SO. GOOD. The movie, gorgeous though it is, has NOTHING on those books. I don't care that they're written for twelve-year-olds, I love them. I miss Jaques Snicket, though.

As much fun as they are to read, half the joy of reading them is thinking about them and figuring things out. They're like one big conspiracy theory and you have to piece them all together by corroborating (is that the word? And if so, is it spelled right?) evidence and such.

In closing, I saw Dodgeball recently. Oh man. The guy who plays Steve the Pirate also played Wash in Joss Whedon's Firefly! This is amusing because every time I saw him in Dodgeball I couldn't shake the feeling that he was actually Wash, only a pirate. Pirate Wash! Hehehehe...

...I'm far too easily amused, aren't I? It's just BEGGING for trouble. ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4293332/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4293332/ Tue, 11 Jan 2005 10:15:44 PST
I want to get a tattoo this year. Really. I know I've said that every year for the past three years but this time I'm 18 and can actually do it. So there. Muahaha.

I want one around my ankle (pac man chasing ghosts) and one at the base of my spine (the plant from Little Shop of Horrors). I thought I was going to go for a brightly coloured sheep, but I changed my mind - Audrey and Pac Man all the way. When I was designing them, those two looked really freaking cool and the brightly coloured sheep looked... very deformed. Cool, but not really original - like a Roman Dirge creation. And while my respect for Roman Dirge is so deep you couldn't measure it with the CN tower, if I get a tattoo I want it to look like something I drew, not something he created. Otherwise if I ever actually meet him I'd look like the world's biggest poser.

Which I probably am, but... yeah.

I think that "The Posers" is the best name for a band, ever. No matter what genre of music they play. Ska, emo, metal, whatever. The Posers. Let's just put it right out there, hmm? Lay all our cards on the table. I would like to form a band and call it The Posers, but I don't know anyone who would be in it with me. Except maybe one girl who I haven't talked to in a very long time. I think my enemies may have burned down her house.

Anyone out there want to move to Vancouver and start a band with me? Anyone?

I am greatful that my friend Grahame is such an awesome guy. That's my thanks for the day. Thank you, world, for Grahame. He's great, really. I'm also thankful that two people with as convoluted a history as Grahame and I have can be really, really good friends - not just people who say, "Oh, yeah, we used to go out but we broke up and we're still friends." I think we're actually CLOSER now that there's no romance involved. It makes things less intimidating. When it comes to love, I'm a runner - I'm the biggest flake. I want it, but when it actually comes I get nervous. My cousin Alex says that this is genetic. "We're a family of runners," according to her. When I thought I might be in love with Grahame, I actually stepped BACK from how close we'd been as friends. And then he got involved with someone else, but that's another thing entirely.

*ahem*

I'm sure my personal life is FASCINATING, but I should go now. Stuff to do and all that. Actually, all I have to do is return some library books and print out some resumes, but hey. It's something.

GAWD I need a real job. ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4197981/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4197981/ Thu, 30 Dec 2004 23:33:00 PST
Laura says:
he comes back, all buffy-like

Tawnie says:
with boobs?

Laura says:
no

Tawnie says:
but you said buffy like!

Laura says:
with DRAMA


Tawnie says:
Boobs would be Dramatic!

Laura says:
no boobs!

Tawnie says:
you're no fun.


she's so much fun. d'aww, I miss her.

OH GOD I LOVE JAN SVANKMAJER OK. Holy crap that man is genius. Just... wow. ok. yeah. It humbles me that I'm going to be studying a form of his art.

I'm actually really nervous about going into digital animation. I mean, yes, I want to do it, yes it sounds awesome, yes it's a hot career right now, especially in vancouver, but there's that same thing as there is with any sort of arts career; do I have the talent?

Do I have the talent. I wonder how many people have asked themselves that.

sigh.

Coolest idea I've had in a while - illustrate some piano music. I'm gonna go through my books and pick some pieces and see if I can do something visual with them. Sorry about the crappy description, it really is a great idea in my head. Words just don't work too well for me late at night.

I drew so much today... maybe a sign that I need a life?

You decide.

My new years resolution is to not get roped into discussing Yoko Ono, under any circumstances (this means you, Tawnie!)(AND you, Lars). And also to wear cooler hats. Annd to kick start my writing again, I hate how I've been neglecting it.

Anyway...

some song lyrics, Squirrel Nut Zippers this time.

All the time
I'm finding ways to make things fall in line.
I know how tricky things can be.
But I really do believe that you are mine
and all the stars are there before us.
Listen here some things are meant to be.
Tried to take it slow tried to lose control
But I'll tell you what the trick is:
What you get is what you had to give away.
When I learned
I found my eyes were opened.
Long ago I had a dream that quickly faded.
Goes to show how tricky dreams can be.
But wouldn't you agree that,
those who know
Will whisper when they see us walking, "There's a love that's always meant to be."

... I want to be in love again. ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4172487/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4172487/ Mon, 27 Dec 2004 19:59:57 PST
Roxy: Ian, didn't you work on a fishing boat when you were a teenager?
Dad: Yes, I did.
Bob: Oh really. How did you get that job?
Dad: My mom was schtupping the captain.
*collective silence*
Aunt Roxy: Sorry, what was that?
Dad: I said, uh, the captain was a friend of the family.
Aunt Roxy: That's what I thought.

Oh, how I missed family meals and they're humorous moments.

Other amusing anecdotes:

Alexandra: So, Laura, can you legally drink in BC yet?
Me: No, I'm 18. I can buy porn and fireworks though.
Aunt Liz: Ex-CUSE me?!
Me: ... I can vote?
Alex: *howls with laughter*


Dad: *laughs*
Me: What?
Dad: nothing...
Me *getting irritated*: WHAT?
Dad: I was just imagining a Lord of the Rings spoof in which those two mountains *points at the picturesque view of the twin peaks rising in the distance* were called Ass-en-guard and Bumblefuck.

(sometimes he's related to me, sometimes not.)

(Oh, shit! I just splotched a picture I was working on *cries* stupid quill pen...)

So. The whole reunion thing went pretty well. Grandpa's new girlfriend, Ruthie, is wonderful, and the cousins were great - SO good to see them again, they peppered me with questions all night.

"So, Laura, do you have a boyfriend?"
"What do you like to do for fun?"
"Did you like high school?"
"What religion do you practice?"
"Do you have any tattoos?"

(That last one was Alex. She says she's going to take me to get the tattoo that I've been meaning to have done for the last three years finally done - I want a green sheep, or maybe a treble clef.)

That's all, really. I leave you with some They Might Be Giants lyrics:

...Blue canary near the outlet by the lightwswitch
Who watches over you
Make a little birhouse in your soul
Not to put too fine a point on it,
Say I'm the only bee in your bonnet
Make a little birdhouse in your soul... ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4158341/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4158341/ Sat, 25 Dec 2004 22:36:13 PST
Now, the cursory gushing about this year's gifts: mmm new sketchbooks. And a portfolio, a really big one, WITH - get this - professional prints that my dad made of some of my artwork.

And a book - yes, I actually like getting books for Christmas - about the Beatles. Yes, another. You can NEVER have too many books about the Beatles. Never.

*cuddles new Beatles book*

Incidentally, Ringo is my favorite.

There's more, but I think I risk being annoying if I gush further, so I'll restrain myself.



Candlelight services are so beautiful, don't you agree? Even with the squirmy kids and the out-of-tune singing. Something about a bunch of people standing together holding candles is just moving.

Notice how I'm NOT being snarky. Aren't you proud? I CAN restrain myself from complaining about something for one day a year!

Now, if I keep writing any longer, I'll start whining about some insignificant little thing and ruin it all, so I'll just leave you to your various winter celebrations. Have fun.

PS: Earthquakes? Someone's been a drunken dumbass! Cthulu must be coming up from his ocean lair.

I'm looking at you, *Josh-Kard ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4130663/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4130663/ Wed, 22 Dec 2004 19:34:58 PST
What did he ever do to you?







Chapters always has these huge sales around Christmas time, slashing prices for books that were ridiculously expensive, so away went I to Chapters today and did some last-minute Christmas shopping. Tis the season to be a consumer whore.

I really need to submit more here, but I haven't written anything submission-worthy in ages. Mostly what I write is for Dianne, when she goes, "Hey, write me something about _________". It's like a writer's block that's lasted... wow, since about September.

I haven't thought about it much, though. I haven't really TRIED to write anything, you know? I've been busy with other things.

Does anyone else get really really really stressed at Christmas time or am I just insane? All these tidings of peace and joy - I should be loving this, right?

Wrong. No time of year stresses me out more than Christmas. It's because every year I inevitably wind up performing - even this year, when I thought I was just going to practice and not preform at all - and I inevitably wind up doing frantic last-minut shopping and, most of all, I inevitably wind up dreading some sort of family get together and worrying that somehow I'll ruin everything and feeling guilty that I can't be in several places at once.

And the whole peace-and-joy thing, while admirable sentiments, rarely gets taken seriously. Everyone else is stressed out, too, and it shows - people loose their tempers and snap at each other, people get drunk and act like jackasses and make Cthulu cry... And it's supposed to be this magical time of year.

Christmas hasn't felt magical for me in a long, long time.

There isn't even any snow this year, not where I am.




Now I'm casting about for something cheery to write about. Ummmm. Lesse.

Oh! A while ago I got wind that an aquaintance of mine from high school is going to the same school that I'm going to be going to in April. That's neat. I always really admired her - she's the sort of person who was born cool. You know the type. They never seem dorky or awkward, they're totally unflappable, and best of all they always try to make you feel the same way, even if you're the biggest square that ever... was... square...

I haven't used the term "square" in like a year.

Well, I'm gonna stop writing now. I really only wanted to say that drunken dumbasses make Cthulu cry, and I said it, so now I'm going to go do something else before I get sidetracked into writing another pointless paragraph. ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4111084/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/4111084/ Mon, 20 Dec 2004 12:59:30 PST
OHMYGODCHRISTOPHER. I met him. Best... thing... ever. Better than Disneyland, which was awesome.

It's hard to express how much it means when someone you admire so much not only acknowledges your existance, but is encouraging. It makes you feel like anything is possible, anything.

Disneyland was rad freakin' core. Went on the Indiana Jones ride far too many times to be entirely healthy, but I'm sorry, Indiana Jones is just a severe hottie.

Yes, I am an Indiana Jones fan. Come on, he's the perfect man! He's a professor with all that knowledge of ancient artifacts and lost civilizations, and he kicks butt too.

Made Dianne do the Tower of Terror with me, as well as splash mountain. OH! Met ~crackhobbit. She rocks hardcore. Go visit her and give her much love, her style is so freakin' awesome. SO FREAKIN' AWESOME.

(zombie OT3 XD)

And she helped me drag Dianne to Splash Mountain.

Dave and Zenia were great for the whole trip. They even gave us food for the train trip back. Much love to them.

Pretty soon I'll put up some pictures from the trip so you can see... the pictures... from the trip. They're actually not all that exciting. I took SOME artsy photos, but there's only so much one can do with a flash-less disposable camera, even if it IS waterproof.

Saw A Series of Unfortunate Events. Can only hope that this will not lead to ASOUE-Sues. God, I love those books. I remember reading the first three in grade nine, when they first came out, and my English teacher, who had very high expectations of me, going, "Laura, why are you reading children's books?" What can I say. They're severely hot.

If I see anyone fangirling Count Olaf...*twitch twitch* ESME WOULD KILL THEM OK. With her stilletto heels. Or she would throw them to a pack of starving lions (see book the ninth, The Carnivorous Carnival).

AGH the song from that comercial for the new Kingdom Hearts game is stuck in my head
(When you walk away
You don't hear me say
Please, oh baby
Don't go
Simple and clean is the way
That you're making me feel tonight
It's hard to let it go)
because Dianne and I watched to Cartoon Network every night of our trip. Venture Brothers = awesome. I must see if it's out on DVD anywhere. Also, Monk is my new hero. Yes, I watched that show for the first time, and I adore it already. Heeeee.

I drew some stuff on the trip, and write some stuff (mostly about train travel. There's something about trains that's just conducive to introspection.) so that'll be up soon, with the photos I mentioned earlier. Right now, I'm gonna go pack.

Love you all! ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3990731/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3990731/ Sat, 04 Dec 2004 21:17:34 PST We got more bounce in California, we like to party all the time



California Countdown: 32 hours (you care about this, trust me).

Happy early birthday to * Twizted-Katharsis - a wonderful person who deserves a lifetime full of love. I'm sure she'll get it, too, because... well... she deserves it. (Yeah, I know, that was really redundant. So sue me.)

My mom sent me a care package that I just got today - it's full of things to eat on the train, and other things I won't disclose (those are SURPRISES! Oooooooh. You are intrigued.), and a postcard that had a typical Serena greeting: "So, you're off to California, the land of Disney, Hollywood and Universal Studios. The land where everyone is happy and there's no war, hunger, or third world countries in crisis."

Well, now you guys know where I get it from.

*sigh*

I love my family. Really.

*shifty eyes*

*cough* ANYway.

We bought our tickets to Disneyland today, too. Five days for the price of three - they were having a sale. Do you think that after five days I'll be tired of the Indiana Jones ride?

I don't think so either.

We've got other stuff planned, too - Universal Studios, Universal City, some Japanese mall Dianne visited last time she was in California... a trip to Hot Topic (Dianne) and to some well-known wax museum (me)...

...and we'll be back in two weeks with photographs, stories and a bunch of dumbass drawn-at-three-in-the-morning-under-the- influence-of-way-too-much-coca-cola-and- pocky type comics. You'll love them. I know you will.

And if you don't... um...

I'll send my army of rabid chinchillas after you.

I still want a pet hedgehog. That had no relevance to anything whatsoever, but dammit. HEDGEHOG.

I will leave you with the lyrics to a song by the musical genius that is Three Dead Trolls in a Baggie. Juuuust for ~itsmejesse, 'cause we both love Three Dead Trolls in a Baggie.

Note: the views expressed in this song do not necessarily reflect the views of this writer, except maybe the ones about Saskatchewan...


TORONTO SUCKS

I hate the skydome and the CN tower too
I hate Nathan Phillips Square and the Ontario Zoo
The rent's too high, the air's unclean
The beaches are dirty, and the people are mean
And the women are big, and the men are dumb
And the children are loopy cause they live in a slum
The water is polluted and the mayor's a dork
They dress real bad and they think they're New York
In Toronto, Ontario

(spoken)
You know, I think I hate all of Ontario
Oh ya me too

I hate Thunderbay and Ottawa
Kitchener, Windsor, and Oshawa
London sucks, and the Great Lakes sucks
And Sarnia sucks, and Turkey Point sucks
I took a trip to Ontario, to see Brian in Sarnia
He beat me up and he stole my pants and he put me on a tree
I went to see the Maple Leafs, and got hit in the head with a puck
I don't know even how they did it, i mean i was playing the organ at the time

Ontario, sucks
Yup, actually you know now I really think about it, i think i pretty much hate every gosh darn province and territory in our country
Well except Albeta
Ya, ya I love Alberta
It's very nice, lots of cows and trees and rocks and dirt

but,
I hate Newfoundland cause they talk so weird
And Prince Edward Island is, too small
Nova Scotia's dumb cause its a name of a bank
New Brunswick doesn't have a good mall
Quebec is revolting and it makes me mad
Ontario sucks, Ontario sucks

Manitoba's population density is 1.9 people per square kilometer, isnt that dumb?
Saskatchewan is boring and the people are old
And as for the territories they are too cold
And the only really good thing about the province of British Columbia is that it's right next to us
Cause Alberta, doesn't suck
but Calgary does



Ahh, Three Dead Trolls in a Baggie. Delightful guys.

Actually, I don't even LIKE Alberta. I live in - and adore - BC. But the rest of this song is too funny to pass up. We Canadians do love to hate Toronto (unless we live there, of course). ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3957854/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3957854/ Tue, 30 Nov 2004 16:45:01 PST
1. "Oh, by the way Laura, 50lbs limit on luggage, so no packing small children."
"DAMMIT."
"Or bricks."
"Well, cancel the trip then! What's the point of going if I can't take small children and bricks?"

2. "Laura, let's buy granola bars before we go. For the trip."
"OK."
"...I really want granola bars."
"Dianne, I'm not buying granola bars if you're just going to eat them all before we go."
"Awwww..."
"Promise me you won't just eat them all before we go."
"I promise."
"Good."
"...to try. Sort of."
"HEY!"

3. "Hey Laura."
"What?"
"...Saaaaaaaand."

4. "OHMYGODLAURA!"
"What?"
"You know what you can do now?"
"...why am I afraid to ask?"
"E-mail Christopher! We can take him and Melissa out for dinner and to see A Series of Unfortunate Events, they've gotta like free food and movies!"
(I still haven't done this, by the way...)

5. "Dianne, go get some fruit, OK? We need more fruit."
"What kind of fruit?"
"Um... see if they have peaches."
(5 mintes later)
"Laaaaauraaa, the peaches are hard. Let's get coconuts instead!"


...California, here we come!

We leave Monday morning, at 5 AM, and return on the 18th. I'm so freakin' excited.

SO excited.

We're going to Disneyland.

Have I mentioned that I've never been to Disneyland?

I'm going to buy some of those dorky Mickey Mouse ears and wear them everywhere for a whole day.

AND I'm going to enjoy the sun. IN THE WINTER. Craaaaazy, no?

In conclusion: CALIFORNIA. *squeeee* ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3919554/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3919554/ Thu, 25 Nov 2004 19:16:45 PST
Thank you.

Yes, as you may have noticed, I haven't been on DA a lot lately. That is because I have been spending more time at SheezyArt. [link] <-- woah! Go there! There's more art!

LOTS more, actually. Tablet sketches and stuff that I just drew 'cause I was bored and scanned in using Dianne's scanner... pretty random, really, but there's more Lemur-art there than there is here. I think I'm going to make Sheezyart my art-page and this page my writing-page, since that's what it was to begin with.

What do you all think? TELL ME!

My dad is standing behind me, checking his e-mail or something on his palm pilot. He keeps moving around to get a better signal so he can get a faster connection or something and poking at the screen with the little stylus thingie. He's wearing slippers or something and when he walks he makes a shuffling noise that's rather comical. The only reason I'm describing this in such detail is that I know he's going to read this journal entry at some point. Muahaha.

The girl who plays Justine in season three of Angel looks kind of like Joy from Dead Like Me. Does anyone else see this?

Season two of Dead Like Me is so freakin' sad. Oh my God. So. Sad.

Excuse me while I go get a kleenex. Just thinking about it makes me tear up.

Christina knows what I'm talking about *nudges Christina* Right?

I want to take The Beatles Anthology out of the library, but it's such a huge book that I have no idea how I'd get it home. I can just picture myself walking down Kingsway carrying this huge book that says "THE BEATLES" across the front in size 28493268 font under my arm. In my red plaid jacket. Wearing my washed-out lavender cords with all the writing on them.

Someday I'm going to be arrested by the fashion police. But hopefully not before those teenage girls in their "New York Soul" sweater-jackets, short flippy skirts and pink suede boots. I am of the opinion that you shouldn't be allowed to wear those sweater-jackets unless you a) have been to New York and b) have a soul.

Other things that should be considered crimes of fashion:

-wearing a photographer's vest when you're not a photographer
-wearing camoflauge fatigues in a nation at peace
-those girls' t-shirts that say things like "angel" and "princess" on them
-Those damn pink suede boots (that also seem to come in baby blue... you know the ones, right? The have faux fur or wool on the inside.)
-tilly hats, unless the climate demands them
-my dad's glasses (they're really, really really, really, really, really, really, really, really... wait for it... really, really ugly.)
-extremely low-cut jeans - these don't flatter ANYONE, no matter what kind of a figure you've got- as well as
-pants for guys that are so loose they're literally falling off the guy's ass, showing his baggy boxer shorts. This is not sexy. This just looks really dumb. Especially when you weigh 100 lbs and have blond hair.

See? when you think about all those things, my washed-out lavender cords with all the scribbles on them and scruffy sweaters and t-shirts with the iron-on transfers for stuff like the original Planet of the Apes movie don't seem quite so bad.

Actually, I have some really nice clothes. I just only wear them for church and job interviews. The rest of the time I hang out in my worn, comfy clothes. Mostly because I don't have enough nice clothes that I can wear them all the time.

This is getting to be a long journal entry. I'm just rambling on, though. I don't really have anything important to say.

Um...

I think I'll go now.

Sorry that I haven't been commenting much. I took a short break from DA. I'm back now. I think I might actually take down the art I have up here and put it up on SA instead.

Yeah. Tell me what you think of that idea.

In closing, I would just like to say... Wesley from Angel?

HOT.

Angel isn't hot though. If you ask me, he kind of looks like a caveman. Give me Wesley's emo glasses and bookish charm over Angel's heavy eyebrows and heavily producted (is that even a word? producted...) hair any day.

Mmmmwesley. ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3842468/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3842468/ Mon, 15 Nov 2004 15:21:53 PST
The Program will begin on April 18, 2005."

That was part of the e-mail I got from BCIT today.

At least I got SOMETHING right so far this month...

This calls for some sort of celebration, I think. I'm just not sure what to do. Or how to push all the other stuff out of my mind so I can be completely excited about this.

Um... yay me?

?!?! ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3828730/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3828730/ Sat, 13 Nov 2004 21:06:49 PST
It's not my fault. It's not like I haven't been trying. It's not like this has been easy.

It's not like I don't know what I want to do.

I just want you to trust me. But I can't make you do that.

Ugh.

I'm sorry. Really I am.

This sucks. ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3824688/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3824688/ Sat, 13 Nov 2004 11:04:14 PST
-Logan from Dark Angel
-Scott from X-Men
-Nightcrawler, also from X-Men
-John Lennon
(Me: So... I remind you of a corpse?
My friend: See?! That's exactly what John Lennon would say!
Me: Uhm... riiiiiight.)
-Beverly Crusher from Star Trek (LOL)
-Arwen from Lord of the Rings

...funny. I rather remind myself of ME.

So... who do I remind YOU of? ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3797378/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3797378/ Tue, 09 Nov 2004 20:58:18 PST
I had no internet for a week. It was scary. Won't happen again.

Um... newsy news news.

This is old news, but GOD DAMMIT. Bush got in. *tears her studio-thingie apart* It's enough to make a girl lose her faith in democracy.

;;

But Dianne gets annoyed with me when I ramble on about politics, so I'll just quote ~Window-in-the-Sky and say, peace peace peace!

While biting my nails compulsively.

So. Moving right along. Got an interview at BCIT tomorrow, for the animation program. Have been sketching compulsively all week for fear that I won't have anything to show them at said interview.

Saw Ghost in the Shell 2 - liked it better than the original Ghost in the Shell (come on, the Major was annoying. She was always whipping out her boobs for no reason) - and The Incredibles.

Christopher is on DeviantArt! You know, the guy who I named my camera after? He's ~christopher333, so go check him out. NOW.

...

What are you doing? GO! GO, DAMMIT! NO MORE JOURNAL HERE! GO SEE CHRISTOPHER! ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3735052/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3735052/ Tue, 02 Nov 2004 15:23:31 PST

"Do you remember the fun we had when you poisioned me?"

"Hmm hmm hmm hmm... that's right... go ahead... smile it's funny... eh ha ha..."

"To you, they're wax... but to me their creator, they live and breathe."

"I Sometimes feel like I'm the dark subconscious of the whole human race."

"Vincent is nice when his Aunt comes to see him...but imagines dipping her in wax for his Wax Museum."

"Your mouth madam... SHUT IT!!!"

"You fools... I'm a man... the last man..."


I WILL SMOTHER LOVIN' UPON WHOSOEVER CAN NAME ALL THE MOVIES THAT THESE QUOTES COME FROM. ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3715160/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3715160/ Sun, 31 Oct 2004 09:30:42 PST

...Happy Halloween, everybody. Scare someone tonight - or get scared yourself - and think of me. ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3693801/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3693801/ Thu, 28 Oct 2004 11:38:31 PDT
GIVE ME YOUR SHEEZYART LOVE!

*cough*

I mean, yes. SheezyArt. Go now. [link]

I don't have much up there yet - been kinda busy lately - but I'll get some stuff up soon. Really.

Oh, yes. And I have a question for all of you.

If you could commission me over the internet (for art or prose, whichever), would you? And what do you think a reasonable price would be? ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3672785/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3672785/ Mon, 25 Oct 2004 16:50:14 PDT
Isn't it strange when you die in a dream, and then you keep dreaming? Like watching a movie.

Anyway, it's kind of freaking me out, just a little. I like the world, I don't want everyone to die. And the dream got pretty graphic last time. Creepy stuff.

Sleep is for the weak. I'm just going to stay up all night tonight.

*shivers*

Oh, and I named my camera Christopher. After the creator of Ghoulie Boys, who is a total sweetheart. I think I may have a tiny fangirl crush on him. Just a small one. ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3659077/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3659077/ Sat, 23 Oct 2004 21:29:14 PDT
That's right, folks. I have a new camera, and I love it good.

...OK, so it's not 'new' in the sense that it's the latest model or anything - it's better than that. It's a Polaroid SX-70 Land Camera. Those of you who aren't Polaroid fanatics should go to this [link] - lots of fun info there.

I'm so happy.

It needs a name, though. Any suggestions?

The only problem with this camera is that the film is expensive - it comes out to about a dollar per picture >__<

Someone wanna give me free money? ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3623500/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3623500/ Mon, 18 Oct 2004 23:20:25 PDT
It's selfish, is what it is.

Just kidding, everyone. I love people. Really. And I love making new friends and all that.

Recently I had the pleasure of meeting (in person) ~Trayas and ~Wyld-Child99 at a local Chapters. They are very cool people. You should go check them out.

That was a few days ago. Today, I was playing DDR and this guy started watching me play. After which we hung out some more and chatted. I had a smoothie. It was yummy. He gave me his phone number and told me to call him.

As I was leaving, he did a hand spring over a bench, just to show off.

In conclusion, I like strawberry smoothies.

I also like Dead Like Me. Awesome show. Mason is hot. That's right, I said Mason is hot. 'Cause... he is. Hot.

Mmmm. Mason.

My to-do list includes not only art for this comic project, but also

-a commision piece for ~aluminiumdonut
-an art trade piece for ~xdradicaledward , and
-a picture for *zumbum, for winning my little contest.

Hmm, mustn't forget to actually change the title of that piece...

You guys might have to be patient, as I'm doing these in the order that they're listed and the art for the comic comes first. I will have something for all of you soon, though.

AND, new prose. At some point in the near future. Possibly a poem, if I can make it not suck.

In the meantime, go out and say hi to someone. You never know, maybe you'll make a friend. ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3561265/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3561265/ Sun, 10 Oct 2004 22:38:27 PDT aluminiumdonut's, which was still great, just in a way that wasn't right for this piece. Don't get me wrong. I like Sweet Cuppin Cakes as much as the next girl, but... yeah. On to the choosing.

*ahem* AND THE WINNER IS...

*zumbum, with his suggestion of Upsetting Perfection. I'll note the good Deviant and ask him what he wants me to draw.

Thank you all for your suggestions. I have to write new pieces for all of them now... heh. ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3538257/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3538257/ Thu, 07 Oct 2004 23:45:19 PDT [link] <-- the labour regulations for BC. If you happen to live in BC, learn them. Learn them well. Do NOT get scammed by unethical employers.

And just for the record, it is NOT ACCEPTABLE to expect someone to work for you for a month for free before you even start to pay them. Not. Acceptable. Not in Canada.

And not to me.

I want a job, but I don't want one enough to break the law, or have my work exploited.

PS:

ICON TWINS! ~aluminiumdonut is the Grand Marshall! ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3518988/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3518988/ Tue, 05 Oct 2004 13:18:06 PDT xonlyindreamsx came up with for one of HER short stories. Read the piece and, when you comment, suggest a new title. I'll use the one that I like best, giving credit to the person who suggested it, AND I will draw said person one piece of gift art. Anything they want. Character, still life, whatever. If they want, I'll even send them the original (er... if you don't want to give me your address because I'm just some crazy internet girl, that's OK too. I do have the addresses of some people from DA, though, and I haven't attempted to kill them with an axe or anything yet).

In other news, I love my grandmother, and I really want the job that I just had an interview for. Not only is the pay AMAZING, it's working for a good cause - helping to raise money for charity organizations. *crosses fingers* Everybody send me good getting-the-job vibes. Hey, it couldn't hurt! ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3488532/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3488532/ Fri, 01 Oct 2004 15:41:48 PDT
Let me start with the good news.

I was approached by a comic book writer by the name of Octavio Islas the other day, and he wanted to know if I would be interested in a collaboration. The book will be about the problems at the US-Mexico border (ie drug trafficking), and will be published for distribution to colleges and selected bookstores. It'll be a small run - only 3000 copies - but I'll get 200 copies of my own to show off and a foot in the door of the comic book industry. I'm thrilled, nervous, and hopeful.

And I'm also rather sad.

There are some people who you think will be around forever. People who, at some point or other, changed your life completely. People without whom you would not be the same person that you are.

Jim Rickson was that kind of person. He was the first director I ever worked with, and he was brilliant. He loved theatre, he loved his actors no matter what age or skill level they were at, and he gave me my first, most addictive taste of theatre.

He died on Sunday. I'm assuming it was a heart attack; I just found out fifteen minutes ago, and they said that he died very suddenly. His most recent production, The Diary of Anne Frank, was still in the works. I don't know if they're going to go on with it. I hope that they are. It would be a nice tribute.

So - goodbye, Man With The Funny Hat. I used to feel proud and happy when I knew that you were in the audience, watching me perform - now I know that whenever I do, you'll be there. I'll try to keep doing you proud.

Oh, and yes, I did get the title for this journal from Christopher's Blog on LJ. It just seemed to fit, and it was all I could think of.

Edit: erm, I put down there that Jim was doing a production of Annie. That was wrong. It was Anne Frank. I don't know why I put Annie there instead. My brain must be broken. Ugh. ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3465350/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3465350/ Tue, 28 Sep 2004 12:55:25 PDT
When it's time to plant trees, you plant.

When it's time to eat, you eat.

When it's time to sleep, you sleep.

As for tomorrow, or yesterday, they don't even factor into it, so you might as well enjoy where you are.

"I wish I could live like that," I said, rather foolishly, to Dianne.

"So live like that," Dianne said.

I didn't get it, but Dianne, typically, did.

I think too much, but I'm working on that. I'm also working on being as good a friend to Dianne as she is to me. Which sets a pretty high standard.

Edit: This is very off-topic, but I just joined a group called the inklings, and was asked to display their icon in my journal. So I am. Check them out, spread the word, etc, etc.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3443356/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3443356/ Sat, 25 Sep 2004 12:17:46 PDT
Aheh.

Prose is just not working. I think my writing muse is broken or something. I'm really sorry that I haven't submitted any writing lately. I DO have that short story that I was going to submit this week, but it hasn't been completely edited yet, so if I put it up now I KNOW that in a couple days I'll re-read and want to hurt myself with the badness of it. So you'll just have to wait a couple more days. I will get it up as soon as possible, I promise. I swear on my dead cat's grave.

In other news... I'm going to see Shaun of the dead with ~aluminiumdonut tonight. heeeee.

That is all.

Oh, and I think I'm gonna put the DDr picture in my portfolio (I love saying "my portfolio". It sounds so arty and professional), along with the Max pic. What do you guys think? SO GOOD or NO GOOD?

I've been watching too much Homestar Runner.

And THAT is all.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3430799/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3430799/ Thu, 23 Sep 2004 20:33:05 PDT
Anyway, I ran out of credits and didn't want to spend anymore money, so it looked like my time was up, but THEN these cute asian guys kept sponsoring me to dance with them. Does that make me a DDR whore? Maybe it does. But it was fun. Especially 'cause they were roughly one schmillion times better than me (that's right, I said schmillion)... see above paragraph for what seem to be the DDR Rules of Playdium.

Um, oh yeah. The job hunt. Well, I've got my fingers crossed for the starbucks job - my interviews there went really well, I think I may get the job. Here's hoping.

Art is coming, as is prose - my muse seems to be on vacation this week, though. Grrr. Lazy muse. Playing with my tablet is fun. Not as much fun as Heaven is a '57, but still pretty damn fun. I just changed subjects there really fast. I like craisins.

Heheheheh.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3421157/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3421157/ Wed, 22 Sep 2004 12:28:42 PDT
I've been drawing for a few months - by which I mean, in the last few months I've decided to get off my ass and put some effort into improving my visual art (as you can see, I've still got a long ways to go) and I mentioned to my dad that Dianne uses a tablet for some of her art, and he went out and bought me a Wacom for my birthday. I am such the spoiled brat.

Also - If you haven't seen Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow yet, HOLY CRAP. GO SEE IT NOW. IT'S SO FREAKIN' GOOD.

Oh, and Jesse - What's your best song? I'm not sure yet, but I think mine might be Butterfly.

And... hopefully by the end of the week I'll be working in Metrotown. *crosses fingers* there's like four jobs I've applied for there. I hope I get one. Wish me luck!

Expect some prose by the end of the week (the Alma thing, FINALLY), and a picture some time this weekend. I've got some fanart I drew for ~ aluminiumdonut and another piece of fanart that started from an inexplicable desire to draw Mike Mignola's charachter Kate Corrigan in an "I Brake For Unicorns" baseball cap. Oh, and a picture of Beck (charachter 2 from Breaking News).

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3401966/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3401966/ Mon, 20 Sep 2004 08:27:27 PDT aluminiumdonut - Dianne - and ~ silversilence0 and ~ElfieDrow and ~ ZombieEater01) are so into it and so freakin' talented. Watching them create their art and listening to them talk about it, I've always just sort of nodded and smiled, and then gone off to play my piano or write in my notebook. When they pester me to put art up on DA (and they have, trust me), my response was always along the lines of, "but... I suck! People would gouge their eyes out with grapefruit spoons!"

So your compliments have done my ego good. It has grown a great deal in size. In fact, it had to move out of the shoebox I usually keep it in and into my closet.

The second thing... well, if you'll look down at where it has the date of my birthday, you'll see what it is.

18 years old - here in BC, that means that I can vote, drink and rent porn all at the same time.

Actually, I think the legal drinking age might be 19. I seem to remember Tawnie being disappointed that I didn't know that. But I can buy fireworks!

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3394663/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3394663/ Sat, 18 Sep 2004 21:25:08 PDT
And it's giftart for ~aluminiumdonut and ~spartacomplex, cause those gals are wooonderful.

I love them good.

Um. Anyway. Have a look. It it SO GOOD or NO GOOD?

*is nervous*

I saw halloween decorations today. It was amusing. Dianne hugged one of them. A decoration, I mean.

... and that's all my news.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3364185/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3364185/ Tue, 14 Sep 2004 17:17:49 PDT
Yes, I have decided to stay. I've made some good friends here and all, plus I don't want to waste *Twizted-Katharsis 's money, so here I shall remain. Thanks to everyone who gave me virtual hugs and moral support. I love you guys *sniffle*

SO, I was thinking about what to do for my thousandth pageview. I don't usually make a big deal about my number of pageviews, but 1000 seems important. Ergo, I have decided that when I get my 1000th hit, I shall put up my first art piece here on DA.

Be forewarned: I'm not very good. I'm mostly doing this to get ~aluminiumdonut to stop calling me a "poojface". I don't know what it means, either, but I don't think it's good. Plus, my friends ~silversilence0 and ~ElfieDrow have been telling me to submit some of my art for a while. So I, Lemur, hereby swear that when I reach 1000 hits I will start submitting actual art.

Not that I'm going to stop submitting writing. Heaven forbid. I've actually got two things in the works now - that short story about Alma (yes, that's his name) and a script for a comic I'm working on with ~aluminiumdonut. I've never really done an actual script before. I'm a little scared. No description? What am I supposed to write about? But I'll do my best and hope it doesn't suck.

That's all for now. Again, thanks to everyone who still watches me after all that ... stuff. I'll try to live up to your faith in me.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3342843/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3342843/ Sat, 11 Sep 2004 21:23:01 PDT
Here I am again.

When I checked my e-mail today, I found a couple e-mails from DA people - very nice ones, surprisingly. So I was prompted to check my messages on DA, even though I said I was leaving. And there's not a firey one among them.

I am filled with love, respect and appreciation for people I've never even seen. I don't mean to sound smarmy or anything, but.... wow. I love you all, I really do. That you've shown such understanding and warmth while I was quite content to beat myself up speaks so well of you all.

So now I'm up in the air as to whether or not I should stay here. I feel all... I don't know. I moved to Vancouver today, so I'm kinda tired. I just thought that, before I make any decisions, I should tell you guys how much your support means to me.

I'll keep you posted.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3336169/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3336169/ Fri, 10 Sep 2004 23:00:43 PDT
OK. So here I go. Watch me go. I’m going… now.

Right.

Blah, I’m just going to come out and say it – this will probably be my last journal entry on DA.

I’m sure you all know what plagiarism is. It’s when you take someone else’s work – even a piece of someone else’s work (the legal definition is three words together) – and pass it off as your own. And that’s what I’ve done with some of my work here.

So I’m writing this now so that you’ll understand why I’m not going to be publishing here anymore, even stuff that’s 100% mine. After beating myself up for a while, I decided that the only thing to do was come clean and go from there. And if an admin reads this, I’ll most likely by banned, so…

Credit needs to be given to Lorraine Pfeiffer for The Merger and Smudges, June Yeatman for Bum Deal, Starlyn Fuerst for Patterns and Distance, Serena Patterson for River Song and Covergirl, Suzi Chitwood for The Golden Ball, J.C. for Gatherin Storms, and Cecile Welsh for A Quick Thought. There are others but I couldn’t track down the names, etc. The work comes from a small literary magazine from the late 70’s called Riverrun, published by the Literary Club at Yankton College in Yankton South Dakota. And everything that is not pure, unadulterated Lemur has now been removed from DA.

It sounds lame to say that I’m sorry, but I am. This means that I lied to you, and I couldn’t feel worse – especially after all the support that you guys have given me, and all the kindness you’ve shown me. This is a great place… unfortunately, I abused this site, and people who abuse the site shouldn’t get to use it.

If you want to get ahold of me, e-mail me. I’m at disgruntled_lemur_02@hotmail.com. If you want to fill my inbox with rivers of flame, please try to restrain yourself. I know that I don’t exactly deserve your love and respect; let’s leave it at that.

So. Yeah. That’s really all I have to say, except --

“See you Space Cowboy…”

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3278781/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3278781/ Fri, 03 Sep 2004 15:36:22 PDT
Lemur has been Kidnapped by ~ aluminiumdonut and the two of them are running away to join the circus.

I know I'm working on a new piece and everything, but it won't be up for a while, because the circus has no internet. When we get to Vancouver, there will be much internet, but for now, we don't even have a phone. Like our brave forefathers, back in the days when they used to huddle around campfires and dream about the day when they could afford central heating.

ANYWAY. Upon my return, there will be much stuff happening. Including the taking down of some poems and an explanation as to why. Also, a further explanation of the kidnapped thing. I'm actually not kidnapped. For that to happen, it would have to be against my will, I think. What's the legal definition of kidnapping, anyway?

Please excuse any typos, I'm holding the keyboard at a very awkward angle because Dianne has the good seat in front of the computer. YES DIANNE. I know you're reading this as I type it.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3262833/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3262833/ Wed, 01 Sep 2004 12:50:35 PDT
Dianne arrives today. At 6:50. I'll be meeting her at the airport.

So that's why I'm so excited.

It's raining, I'm wearing a VERY hippie-style shirt and I'm in a good mood. Life is pretty grand except for this headache. I'll take some asprin or something and then I'll be fine. I wonder why I've been getting headaches lately? Maybe it's an allergy thing?

I'm working on a short story (yes, one with actual plot! Wowie!) about the charachter I created in "Alma, Spanish for Soul". I keep getting hung up on little things, though. I don't know when it will be up. Be patient.

I've been neglecting my poetry, too. Sorry about that. I'll try to write something... most of the poetry I've been writing lately is just random little rhymes, though. Disembodied quatrains. I've just been in a prose-y mood this last month or so.

Also, I've been trying to work on plot. Specifically, on carrying out a plot. I like writing prose, but most of the stuff I put up here on DA (and there is more that I write... I write a LOT. I carry a notebook around in my backpack. Much like Harriet the Spy. Except I don't spy on people. OR DO I?) is pretty heavy on description and light on plot. With *ahem* a novel format, you have almost unlimited time and space to create your own little psychological world in which to tell your story (a great example of this would be Fugitive Pieces. YOU SHOULD ALL GO READ THAT BOOK RIGHT NOW!). But with a short story, I find myself constantly editing for content.

Well, that's wnough rambling for today. I find myself feeling slightly guilty that I have more journal entries here than actual Deviations... aheh.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3250559/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3250559/ Mon, 30 Aug 2004 20:34:53 PDT
In other news, allergies plus crying equally VERY sore eyes. And for God's sake, would my parents stop making me deal with their issues about each other?

(I'm going to give everyone fair warning: I am about to rant. I know it's not very mature. I know that you may not be interested. I just need to get this off my chest, because after Dinner With My Mom it's really buggung me. So if you resent - on principle - people who (ab)use their journals for ranting purposes, you'll want to stop reading right about here. You may start reading again at the place where it says END RANT in capital letters *points*. The following contains an unedited rant of pure Lemur frustration.)

As you probably know, I'm moving to Vancouver in two weeks. And I'll be living with my dad for a while. This has sparked much tension, controversy and general angst amongst my various parents. Here is what I would love to say to my biological parents:

Mom: I know that you and dad basically hate each other. I know that you've done your best. I know that you beat the single-mother poverty laws. I love you and I respect you, but please, please, PLEASE learn some humility. You are not infalliable. It's possible that you made some mistakes as well. Forcing me to read every nasty letter you and dad exchanged last summer would be one of them.

Dad: I know that you know that you messed up. I know that you're sorry. I know that you're a stable person now, with a good life, and you want me to be part of that life, and I'm glad that you do. I love you and respect you, too. But would it be too much for you to apologize for not telling me when you got married? Would it be too much for you to swallow your pride and act like an adult when it comes to my mother? That would sure make my life a whole lot easier. I'm sure Charlotte could give you some pointers.

And to the step-parents:

Monika: Hindsight is twenty-twenty, it's true, but when it comes to maturity, you don't have the best track record with respect to my dad. I know that you love my mom, and that it's not easy being a step-parent. I've tried to make it easier for you. But maybe when it comes to my dad, you should just not get involved.

Charlotte: God bless you. You've been wonderful: a real voice of reason. I know that mom appreciates it, and I hope that dad does too. I hope he realizes how lucky he is to have found you. You're calm and soft-spoken, you never let your temper get the better of you, and you're always mature and respectful. Now if only my other parents would take a page out of your book.

Whew! That feels good to at least get off my chest.

I feel like ever since I was ten, I've been trying to make things easier for other people, trying to understand my parents, trying to make things work. I feel like... well, you know how a dome can support all kinds of weight, because it distrubutes the wieght evenly? I feel like that's what I've been for years, except now that it really matters, my selfishness is eroding the foundation and the whole thing is going to fall. I'm selfish in that I don't WANT to hold it up. I want them to hold ME up.

It's selfish and stupid. You can't turn back time, and there's no use wishing for a life that you never had and never will. It's just pointless. It's something I try to avoid, like I try to avoid getting the flu. Tonight, however, I'm tired. I'm full of allergies and tears and I just had to read something very not-pleasant that made me so MAD at my parents for hurting each other. And I just had to get it out.

END RANT. If you'd tuned out in order to skip my melodramatics, you may now tune back in.

In other news, Dianne gets back on Wednesday! Yes, I know you all knew that. I don't care. I'm telling you again. WEDNESDAY WEDNESDAY WEDNESDAY! I'm so excited.

And, yes. I recommend Glitter Glu to anyone needing to give their inner child some love.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3240416/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3240416/ Sun, 29 Aug 2004 15:28:09 PDT
So I have a suggestion for what they could do. How about for one day they pretend that they don't think I'm evil incarnate? Or that I should be having three hours of therapy a day. I'm not any more messed up than anyone else on this crazy planet.

I'm not a bad person. I make a very concerted effort to be a good person. Why then do they act like I spend my spare time killing kittens?

Argh.

In other news, I hate allergies. *points to 'mood' at the top of her journal* They make my eyes all sore. Grrr. Days like this I wish I lived in a plastic bubble. Like in that Simpsons episode, where Bart gets the Panda Flu or whatever it was.

Good things, good things... I'm sounding like very large wet blanket here. Um.

Oh, I had nachos for lunch. That's a good thing. I like nachos. n___n

AND ~aluminiumdonut gets here on the first of September. THERE'S a happy thought. It's been about two months since I last saw her. I'm going to meet her plane at the airport and make a big scene. I may even cry. I'm thinking about making a big sign that says "WELCOME BACK DIANNE!" just to embaress Annie (~silversilence0), who's going to be there, too.

Oh! and the apples on our apple tree are finally ripe. They're really good.

I think I'm going to have one right now.

There! Now I'm good and cheered up. There's more things right with my life than there are things wrong with it, which is a pretty darn good ratio, if you ask me.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3231582/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3231582/ Sat, 28 Aug 2004 12:00:09 PDT Twizted-Katharsis, and she and * xonlyindreamsx have come up with a nifty little system, and a challenge to go with it.

Here's the challenge: help three people. Show your best side and put some good into the world. The system is, those three people then have to go and help three more people, and so on and so on until kindness takes over the world.

You CAN make a difference. So come on, join the kindness revolution! Hop on the good deed bandwagon, and all that jazz.

Wow. And to think that when I got up this morning I though it wasn't going to be a good day. Nothing like my pals on DA to turn my mood around completely...

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3219163/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3219163/ Thu, 26 Aug 2004 17:14:55 PDT
To my new hero: if you want to remain anonymous, that's OK. Just know that you have my deepest thanks. What you did was a truly sweet gesture, and a perfect demonstration of how great people can be.

]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3214036/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3214036/ Wed, 25 Aug 2004 22:56:14 PDT
Some suggestions to get you started:

-send a friend an e-card, just because

-jump-start someone's car

-if a friend or neighbor is going out of town, offer to pet-sit for them, or to water their plants

-help someone get rid of their hiccups

-take a picture for a stranger, if they ask you to

-become an organ donor (it's really easy in Canada now, you fill out these cards and send them in)

-vote. at every election

-report downed trees or potholes to the proper authorities so they can be fixed quickly

-check in on elderly neighbors regularly

-buy me a subscription to DA...oh, wait. I'm being selfless here.

-hold a door open for someone

AND, if someone does a good deed like one of the ones mentioned above for you, pass it on. Like tag.

Go on, I dare you. Do a good deed for someone.

All the cool kids are doing it... ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3203347/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3203347/ Tue, 24 Aug 2004 13:16:13 PDT
So lately I haven't been getting as much exercise as I'd like. I like to go for a run every day, but I haven't been out in like a week, and I can feel myself starting to get out of shape. I hate that feeling. I think I'll just make myself go for a long run today.

When I'm exercising regularly, I eat normally, too - breakfast, lunch and dinner. When I'm not exercising, I'm not as hungry, so I tend to skip meals and/or not east as much as I usually do, so people worry. I'll be back to normals as soon as I get back into the habit of keeping in shape.

That's gripe number one today, but it doesn't really count because It's perfectly within my control.

Gripe number two isn't within my control, but it's no more legitimate: we have too many fresh peaches at my house.

Not only do we have our own peach tree, but Monika (step mother number one) has taken to buying huge flats of fresh peaches from a local orchard. More peaches than three people can reasonably eat before they start to go bad, and more peaches than any of us has time to can (assuming, of course, that I even knew how to can peaches).

So those are my major complaints of the day. Not bad, eh? Not bad at all... ]]> ~disgruntledlemur http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3183785/ http://disgruntledlemur.deviantart.com/journal/3183785/ Sat, 21 Aug 2004 22:08:59 PDT it still rains a different kind of day
and meanwhile,
she drifts off

It rained hard all day today. I stayed inside, reading and trying to write and packing and relplying to comments here on DA. I love it when I sign on and I have a whack of new comments. It makes me feel loved.

The people across the street are having a party of some kind. Their windows are open so you can hear their drunken singing. It's really quite amusing.

I didn't get much packing done but there's tomorrow for that.

I love it when it rains like this, expecially after such a heat wave. It feels like the sky took mercy on all out souls and opened up. When it doesn't rain for a while, I start to miss it.

You know what I haven't listened to in a while? Cello music. I have some of Dvorak's cello concertos on a Naxos CD, I think I'll put that in now. And maybe make some hot chocolate. I've felt restive all day, and it makes me feel kinda guilty - like I should be jumping up to do something. But there's really nothing to do that can't wait until tomorow, so I'll just curl up in a quilt and settle in with my notebook of random scribblings (the fruits of which you can see here on DA). ]]> ~disgruntledlemur